Letushopeshewaswronginherjudgement。PoorEmmy’sdaysofhappinesshadbeenveryfewinthathumblecot。AgloomyFatehadoppressedherthere。Sheneverlikedtocomebacktothehouseaftershehadleftit,ortofacethelandladywhohadtyrannizedoverherwhenill-humouredandunpaid,orwhenpleasedhadtreatedherwithacoarsefamiliarityscarcelylessodious。
HerservilityandfulsomecomplimentswhenEmmywasinprosperitywerenotmoretothatlady’sliking。Shecastaboutnotesofadmirationalloverthenewhouse,extollingeveryarticleoffurnitureorornament;shefingeredMrs。Osborne’sdressesandcalculatedtheirprice。
Nothingcouldbetoogoodforthatsweetlady,shevowedandprotested。Butinthevulgarsycophantwhonowpaidcourttoher,Emmyalwaysrememberedthecoarsetyrantwhohadmadehermiserablemanyatime,towhomshehadbeenforcedtoputuppetitionsfortime,whentherentwasoverdue;whocriedoutatherextravaganceifsheboughtdelicaciesforherailingmotherorfather;whohadseenherhumbleandtrampleduponher。
Nobodyeverheardofthesegriefs,whichhadbeenpartofourpoorlittlewoman’slotinlife。Shekeptthemsecretfromherfather,whoseimprovidencewasthecauseofmuchofhermisery。Shehadtobearalltheblameofhismisdoings,andindeedwassoutterlygentleandhumbleastobemadebynatureforavictim。
Ihopesheisnottosuffermuchmoreofthathardusage。And,asinallgriefsthereissaidtobesomeconsolation,ImaymentionthatpoorMary,whenleftatherfriend’sdepartureinahystericalcondition,wasplacedunderthemedicaltreatmentoftheyoungfellowfromthesurgery,underwhosecaresheralliedafterashortperiod。Emmy,whenshewentawayfromBrompton,endowedMarywitheveryarticleoffurniturethatthehousecontained,onlytakingawayherpicturesthetwopicturesoverthebedandherpiano——thatlittleoldpianowhichhadnowpassedintoaplaintivejinglingoldage,butwhichshelovedforreasonsofherown。Shewasachildwhenfirstsheplayedonit,andherparentsgaveither。Ithadbeengiventoheragainsince,asthereadermayremember,whenherfather’shousewasgonetoruinandtheinstrumentwasrecoveredoutofthewreck。
MajorDobbinwasexceedinglypleasedwhen,ashewassuperintendingthearrangementsofJos’snewhouse——whichtheMajorinsistedshouldbeveryhandsomeandcomfortable——thecartarrivedfromBrompton,bringingthetrunksandbandboxesoftheemigrantsfromthatvillage,andwiththemtheoldpiano。Ameliawouldhaveitupinhersitting-room,aneatlittleapartmentonthesecondfloor,adjoiningherfather’schamber,andwheretheoldgentlemansatcommonlyofevenings。
Whenthemenappearedthenbearingthisoldmusic-
box,andAmeliagaveordersthatitshouldbeplacedinthechamberaforesaid,Dobbinwasquiteelated。”I’mgladyou’vekeptit。”hesaidinaverysentimentalmanner。”Iwasafraidyoudidn’tcareaboutit。”
“IvalueitmorethananythingIhaveintheworld。”
saidAmelia。
“Doyou,Amelia?”criedtheMajor。Thefactwas,ashehadboughtithimself,thoughheneversaidanythingaboutit,itneverenteredintohisheadtosupposethatEmmyshouldthinkanybodyelsewasthepurchaser,andasamatterofcoursehefanciedthatsheknewthegiftcamefromhim。”Doyou,Amelia?”hesaid;andthequestion,thegreatquestionofall,wastremblingonhislips,whenEmmyreplied——
“CanIdootherwise?——didnothegiveitme?”
“Ididnotknow。”saidpooroldDob,andhiscountenancefell。
Emmydidnotnotethecircumstanceatthetime,nortakeimmediateheedoftheverydismalexpressionwhichhonestDobbin’scountenanceassumed,butshethoughtofitafterwards。Andthenitstruckher,withinexpressiblepainandmortificationtoo,thatitwasWilliamwhowasthegiverofthepiano,andnotGeorge,asshehadfancied。ItwasnotGeorge’sgift;theonlyonewhichshehadreceivedfromherlover,asshethought——thethingshehadcherishedbeyondallothers——herdearestrelicandprize。ShehadspokentoitaboutGeorge;playedhisfavouriteairsuponit;satforlongeveninghours,touching,tothebestofhersimpleart,melancholyharmoniesonthekeys,andweepingovertheminsilence。
ItwasnotGeorge’srelic。Itwasvaluelessnow。ThenexttimethatoldSedleyaskedhertoplay,shesaiditwasshockinglyoutoftune,thatshehadaheadache,thatshecouldn’tplay。
Then,accordingtohercustom,sherebukedherselfforherpettishnessandingratitudeanddeterminedtomakeareparationtohonestWilliamfortheslightshehadnotexpressedtohim,buthadfeltforhispiano。
Afewdaysafterwards,astheywereseatedinthedrawing-room,whereJoshadfallenasleepwithgreatcomfortafterdinner,AmeliasaidwithratherafalteringvoicetoMajorDobbin——
“Ihavetobegyourpardonforsomething。”
“Aboutwhat?”saidhe。
“About——aboutthatlittlesquarepiano。Ineverthankedyouforitwhenyougaveitme,many,manyyearsago,beforeIwasmarried。Ithoughtsomebodyelsehadgivenit。Thankyou,William。”Sheheldoutherhand,butthepoorlittlewoman’sheartwasbleeding;andasforhereyes,ofcoursetheywereattheirwork。
ButWilliamcouldholdnomore。”Amelia,Amelia。”
hesaid,“Ididbuyitforyou。IlovedyouthenasI
donow。Imusttellyou。IthinkIlovedyoufromthefirstminutethatIsawyou,whenGeorgebroughtmetoyourhouse,toshowmetheAmeliawhomhewasengagedto。Youwerebutagirl,inwhite,withlargeringlets;youcamedownsinging——doyouremember?——
andwewenttoVauxhall。SincethenIhavethoughtofbutonewomanintheworld,andthatwasyou。I
thinkthereisnohourinthedayhaspassedfortwelveyearsthatIhaven’tthoughtofyou。IcametotellyouthisbeforeIwenttoIndia,butyoudidnotcare,andIhadn’tthehearttospeak。YoudidnotcarewhetherIstayedorwent。”
“Iwasveryungrateful。”Ameliasaid。
“No,onlyindifferent。”Dobbincontinueddesperately。
“Ihavenothingtomakeawomantobeotherwise。I
knowwhatyouarefeelingnow。Youarehurtinyourheartatthediscoveryaboutthepiano,andthatitcamefrommeandnotfromGeorge。Iforgot,orIshouldneverhavespokenofitso。Itisformetoaskyourpardonforbeingafoolforamoment,andthinkingthatyearsofconstancyanddevotionmighthavepleadedwithyou。”
“Itisyouwhoarecruelnow。”Ameliasaidwithsomespirit。”Georgeismyhusband,hereandinheaven。HowcouldIloveanyotherbuthim?Iamhisnowaswhenyoufirstsawme,dearWilliam。Itwashewhotoldmehowgoodandgenerousyouwere,andwhotaughtmetoloveyouasabrother。Haveyounotbeeneverythingtomeandmyboy?Ourdearest,truest,kindestfriendandprotector?Hadyoucomeafewmonthssoonerperhapsyoumighthavesparedmethat——thatdreadfulparting。Oh,itnearlykilledme,William——butyoudidn’tcome,thoughIwishedandprayedforyoutocome,andtheytookhimtooawayfromme。Isn’theanobleboy,William?Behisfriendstillandmine“——andherehervoicebroke,andshehidherfaceonhisshoulder。
TheMajorfoldedhisarmsroundher,holdinghertohimasifshewasachild,andkissedherhead。”Iwillnotchange,dearAmelia。”hesaid。”Iaskfornomorethanyourlove。IthinkIwouldnothaveitotherwise。
Onlyletmestaynearyouandseeyouoften。”
“Yes,often。”Ameliasaid。AndsoWilliamwasatlibertytolookandlong——asthepoorboyatschoolwhohasnomoneymaysighafterthecontentsofthetart-woman’stray。
CHAPTERLX
ReturnstotheGenteelWorldGoodfortunenowbeginstosmileuponAmelia。Wearegladtogetheroutofthatlowsphereinwhichshehasbeencreepinghithertoandintroduceherintoapolitecircle——notsograndandrefinedasthatinwhichourotherfemalefriend,Mrs。Becky,hasappeared,butstillhavingnosmallpretensionstogentilityandfashion。Jos’sfriendswereallfromthethreepresidencies,andhisnewhousewasinthecomfortableAnglo-IndiandistrictofwhichMoiraPlaceisthecentre。MintoSquare,GreatCliveStreet,WarrenStreet,HastingsStreet,OchterlonyPlace,PlassySquare,AssayeTerrace“gardens“wasafelicitouswordnotappliedtostuccohouseswithasphaltterracesinfront,soearlyas1827——whodoesnotknowtheserespectableabodesoftheretiredIndianaristocracy,andthequarterwhichMr。WenhamcallstheBlackHole,inaword?Jos’spositioninlifewasnotgrandenoughtoentitlehimtoahouseinMoiraPlace,wherenonecanlivebutretiredMembersofCouncil,andpartnersofIndianfirmswhobreak,afterhavingsettledahundredthousandpoundsontheirwives,andretireintocomparativepenurytoacountryplaceandfourthousandayear;heengagedacomfortablehouseofasecond-orthird-rateorderinGillespieStreet,purchasingthecarpets,costlymirrors,andhandsomeandappropriateplannedfurniturebySeddonsfromtheassigneesofMr。
Scape,latelyadmittedpartnerintothegreatCalcuttaHouseofFogle,Fake,andCracksman,inwhichpoorScapehadembarkedseventythousandpounds,theearningsofalongandhonourablelife,takingFake’splace,whoretiredtoaprincelyparkinSussextheFogleshavebeenlongoutofthefirm,andSirHoraceFogleisabouttoberaisedtothepeerageasBaronBandanna——admitted,Isay,partnerintothegreatagencyhouseofFogleandFaketwoyearsbeforeitfailedforamillionandplungedhalftheIndianpublicintomiseryandruin。
Scape,ruined,honest,andbroken-heartedatsixty-fiveyearsofage,wentouttoCalcuttatowinduptheaffairsofthehouse。WalterScapewaswithdrawnfromEtonandputintoamerchant’shouse。FlorenceScape,FannyScape,andtheirmotherfadedawaytoBoulogne,andwillbeheardofnomore。Tobebrief,Jossteppedinandboughttheircarpetsandsideboardsandadmiredhimselfinthemirrorswhichhadreflectedtheirkindhandsomefaces。TheScapetradesmen,allhonourablypaid,lefttheircards,andwereeagertosupplythenewhousehold。ThelargemeninwhitewaistcoatswhowaitedatScape’sdinners,greengrocers,bank-porters,andmilkmenintheirprivatecapacity,lefttheiraddressesandingratiatedthemselveswiththebutler。Mr。Chummy,thechimney-purifier,whohadsweptthelastthreefamilies,triedtocoaxthebutlerandtheboyunderhim,whosedutyitwastogooutcoveredwithbuttonsandwithstripesdownhistrousers,fortheprotectionofMrs。
Ameliawhenevershechosetowalkabroad。
Itwasamodestestablishment。ThebutlerwasJos’svaletalso,andneverwasmoredrunkthanabutlerinasmallfamilyshouldbewhohasaproperregardforhismaster’swine。Emmywassuppliedwithamaid,grownonSirWilliamDobbin’ssuburbanestate;agoodgirl,whosekindnessandhumilitydisarmedMrs。Osborne,whowasatfirstterrifiedattheideaofhavingaservanttowaituponherself,whodidnotintheleastknowhowtouseone,andwhoalwaysspoketodomesticswiththemostreverentialpoliteness。Butthismaidwasveryusefulinthefamily,indexterouslytendingoldMr。Sedley,whokeptalmostentirelytohisownquarterofthehouseandnevermixedinanyofthegaydoingswhichtookplacethere。
NumbersofpeoplecametoseeMrs。Osborne。LadyDobbinanddaughtersweredelightedatherchangeoffortune,andwaiteduponher。MissOsbornefromRussellSquarecameinhergrandchariotwiththeflaminghammer-clothemblazonedwiththeLeedsarms。Joswasreportedtobeimmenselyrich。OldOsbornehadnoobjectionthatGeorgyshouldinherithisuncle’spropertyaswellashisown。”Damnit,wewillmakeamanofthefeller。”hesaid;“andI’llseehiminParliamentbeforeI
die。Youmaygoandseehismother,MissO。,thoughI’llneverseteyesonher“:andMissOsbornecame。Emmy,youmaybesure,wasverygladtoseeher,andsobebroughtnearertoGeorge。Thatyoungfellowwasallowedtocomemuchmorefrequentlythanbeforetovisithismother。HedinedonceortwiceaweekinGillespieStreetandbulliedtheservantsandhisrelationsthere,justashedidinRussellSquare。
HewasalwaysrespectfultoMajorDobbin,however,andmoremodestinhisdemeanourwhenthatgentlemanwaspresent。HewasacleverladandafraidoftheMajor。Georgecouldnothelpadmiringhisfriend’ssimplicity,hisgoodhumour,hisvariouslearningquietlyimparted,hisgeneralloveoftruthandjustice。Hehadmetnosuchmanasyetinthecourseofhisexperience,andhehadaninstinctivelikingforagentleman。Hehungfondlybyhisgodfather’sside,anditwashisdelighttowalkintheparksandhearDobbintalk。WilliamtoldGeorgeabouthisfather,aboutIndiaandWaterloo,abouteverythingbuthimself。WhenGeorgewasmorethanusuallypertandconceited,theMajormadejokesathim,whichMrs。Osbornethoughtverycruel。Oneday,takinghimtotheplay,andtheboydecliningtogointothepitbecauseitwasvulgar,theMajortookhimtotheboxes,lefthimthere,andwentdownhimselftothepit。Hehadnotbeenseatedthereverylongbeforehefeltanarmthrustunderhisandadandylittlehandinakidglovesqueezinghisarm。Georgehadseentheabsurdityofhiswaysandcomedownfromtheupperregion。AtenderlaughofbenevolencelightedupoldDobbin’sfaceandeyesashelookedattherepentantlittleprodigal。Helovedtheboy,ashedideverythingthatbelongedtoAmelia。HowcharmedshewaswhensheheardofthisinstanceofGeorge’sgoodness!HereyeslookedmorekindlyonDobbinthantheyeverhaddone。Sheblushed,hethought,afterlookingathimso。
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