TheillnessofthatoldladyhadbeentheoccupationandperhapsthesafeguardofAmelia。Whatdomenknowaboutwomen’smartyrdoms?Weshouldgomadhadwetoendurethehundredthpartofthosedailypainswhicharemeeklybornebymanywomen。Ceaselessslaverymeetingwithnoreward;constantgentlenessandkindnessmetbycrueltyasconstant;love,labour,patience,watchfulness,withoutevensomuchastheacknowledgementofagoodword;allthis,howmanyofthemhavetobearinquiet,andappearabroadwithcheerfulfacesasiftheyfeltnothing。Tenderslavesthattheyare,theymustneedsbehypocritesandweak。
FromherchairAmelia’smotherhadtakentoherbed,whichshehadneverleft,andfromwhichMrs。OsborneherselfwasneverabsentexceptwhensherantoseeGeorge。Theoldladygrudgedhereventhoserarevisits;
she,whohadbeenakind,smiling,good-naturedmotheronce,inthedaysofherprosperity,butwhompovertyandinfirmitieshadbrokendown。HerillnessorestrangementdidnotaffectAmelia。Theyratherenabledhertosupporttheothercalamityunderwhichshewassuffering,andfromthethoughtsofwhichshewaskeptbytheceaselesscallsoftheinvalid。Ameliaboreherharshnessquitegently;smoothedtheuneasypillow;wasalwaysreadywithasoftanswertothewatchful,querulousvoice;soothedthesuffererwithwordsofhope,suchasherpioussimpleheartcouldbestfeelandutter,andclosedtheeyesthathadoncelookedsotenderlyuponher。
Thenallhertimeandtendernessweredevotedtotheconsolationandcomfortofthebereavedoldfather,whowasstunnedbytheblowwhichhadbefallenhim,andstoodutterlyaloneintheworld。Hiswife,hishonour,hisfortune,everythinghelovedbesthadfallenawayfromhim。TherewasonlyAmeliatostandbyandsupportwithhergentlearmsthetottering,heart-brokenoldman。
Wearenotgoingtowritethehistory:itwouldbetoodrearyandstupid。IcanseeVanityFairyawningoveritd’avance。
OnedayastheyounggentlemenwereassembledinthestudyattheRev。Mr。Veal’s,andthedomesticchaplaintotheRightHonourabletheEarlofBareacreswasspoutingawayasusual,asmartcarriagedroveuptothedoordecoratedwiththestatueofAthene,andtwogentlemensteppedout。TheyoungMastersBanglesrushedtothewindowwithavaguenotionthattheirfathermighthavearrivedfromBombay。Thegreathulkingscholarofthree-and-twenty,whowascryingsecretlyoverapassageofEutropius,flattenedhisneglectednoseagainstthepanesandlookedatthedrag,asthelaquaisdeplacesprangfromtheboxandletoutthepersonsinthecarriage。
“It’safatoneandathinone。”Mr。Blucksaidasathunderingknockcametothedoor。
Everybodywasinterested,fromthedomesticchaplainhimself,whohopedhesawthefathersofsomefuturepupils,downtoMasterGeorgy,gladofanypretextforlayinghisbookdown。
Theboyintheshabbyliverywiththefadedcopperbuttons,whoalwaysthrusthimselfintothetightcoattoopenthedoor,cameintothestudyandsaid,“TwogentlemenwanttoseeMasterOsborne。”Theprofessorhadhadatriflingaltercationinthemorningwiththatyounggentleman,owingtoadifferenceabouttheintroductionofcrackersinschool-time;buthisfaceresumeditshabitualexpressionofblandcourtesyashesaid,“MasterOsborne,Igiveyoufullpermissiontogoandseeyourcarriagefriends——towhomIbegyoutoconveytherespectfulcomplimentsofmyselfandMrs。
Veal。”
Georgywentintothereception-roomandsawtwostrangers,whomhelookedatwithhisheadup,inhisusualhaughtymanner。Onewasfat,withmustachios,andtheotherwasleanandlong,inabluefrock-coat,withabrownfaceandagrizzledhead。
“MyGod,howlikeheis!”saidthelonggentlemanwithastart。”Canyouguesswhoweare,George?”
Theboy’sfaceflushedup,asitdidusuallywhenhewasmoved,andhiseyesbrightened。”Idon’tknowtheother。”hesaid,“butIshouldthinkyoumustbeMajorDobbin。”
Indeeditwasouroldfriend。Hisvoicetrembledwithpleasureashegreetedtheboy,andtakingboththeother’shandsinhisown,drewtheladtohim。
“Yourmotherhastalkedtoyouaboutme——hasshe?”hesaid。
“Thatshehas。”Georgyanswered,“hundredsandhundredsoftimes。”
CHAPTERLVII
EothenItwasoneofthemanycausesforpersonalpridewithwhicholdOsbornechosetorecreatehimselfthatSedley,hisancientrival,enemy,andbenefactor,wasinhislastdayssoutterlydefeatedandhumiliatedastobeforcedtoacceptpecuniaryobligationsatthehandsofthemanwhohadmostinjuredandinsultedhim。Thesuccessfulmanoftheworldcursedtheoldpauperandrelievedhimfromtimetotime。AshefurnishedGeorgewithmoneyforhismother,hegavetheboytounderstandbyhints,deliveredinhisbrutal,coarseway,thatGeorge’smaternalgrandfatherwasbutawretchedoldbankruptanddependant,andthatJohnSedleymightthankthemantowhomhealreadyowedeversomuchmoneyfortheaidwhichhisgenerositynowchosetoadminister。Georgecarriedthepompoussuppliestohismotherandtheshatteredoldwidowerwhomitwasnowthemainbusinessofherlifetotendandcomfort。Thelittlefellowpatronizedthefeebleanddisappointedoldman。
Itmayhaveshownawantof“properpride“inAmeliathatshechosetoacceptthesemoneybenefitsatthehandsofherfather’senemy。Butproperprideandthispoorladyhadneverhadmuchacquaintancetogether。
Adispositionnaturallysimpleanddemandingprotection;
alongcourseofpovertyandhumility,ofdailyprivations,andhardwords,ofkindofficesandnoreturns,hadbeenherloteversincewomanhoodalmost,orsinceherlucklessmarriagewithGeorgeOsborne。Youwhoseeyourbettersbearingupunderthisshameeveryday,meeklysufferingundertheslightsoffortune,gentleandunpitied,poor,andratherdespisedfortheirpoverty,doyoueverstepdownfromyourprosperityandwashthefeetofthesepoorweariedbeggars?Theverythoughtofthemisodiousandlow。”Theremustbeclasses——theremustberichandpoor。”Divessays,smackinghisclaretitiswellifheevensendsthebrokenmeatouttoLazarussittingunderthewindow。Verytrue;butthinkhowmysteriousandoftenunaccountableitis——thatlotteryoflifewhichgivestothismanthepurpleandfinelinenandsendstotheotherragsforgarmentsanddogsforcomforters。
SoImustownthat,withoutmuchrepining,onthecontrarywithsomethingakintogratitude,Ameliatookthecrumbsthatherfather-in-lawletdropnowandthen,andwiththemfedherownparent。Directlysheunderstoodittobeherduty,itwasthisyoungwoman’snatureladies,sheisbutthirtystill,andwechoosetocallherayoungwomanevenatthatageitwas,Isay,hernaturetosacrificeherselfandtoflingallthatshehadatthefeetofthebelovedobject。DuringwhatlongthanklessnightshadsheworkedoutherfingersforlittleGeorgywhilstathomewithher;whatbuffets,scorns,privations,povertieshadsheenduredforfatherandmother!Andinthemidstofallthesesolitaryresignationsandunseensacrifices,shedidnotrespectherselfanymorethantheworldrespectedher,butIbelievethoughtinherheartthatshewasapoor-spirited,despicablelittlecreature,whoseluckinlifewasonlytoogoodforhermerits。O
youpoorwomen!Oyoupoorsecretmartyrsandvictims,whoselifeisatorture,whoarestretchedonracksinyourbedrooms,andwholayyourheadsdownontheblockdailyatthedrawing-roomtable;everymanwhowatchesyourpains,orpeersintothosedarkplaceswherethetortureisadministeredtoyou,mustpityyou——and——andthankGodthathehasabeard。Irecollectseeing,yearsago,attheprisonsforidiotsandmadmenatBicetre,nearParis,apoorwretchbentdownunderthebondageofhisimprisonmentandhispersonalinfirmity,towhomoneofourpartygaveahalfpennyworthofsnuffinacornetor“screw“ofpaper。Thekindnesswastoomuchforthepoorepilepticcreature。Hecriedinananguishofdelightandgratitude:ifanybodygaveyouandmeathousandayear,orsavedourlives,wecouldnotbesoaffected。Andso,ifyouproperlytyrannizeoverawoman,youwillfindah’p’orthofkindnessactuponherandbringtearsintohereyes,asthoughyouwereanangelbenefitingher。
SomesuchboonsasthesewerethebestwhichFortuneallottedtopoorlittleAmelia。Herlife,begunnotunprosperously,hadcomedowntothis——toameanprisonandalong,ignoblebondage。LittleGeorgevisitedhercaptivitysometimesandconsoleditwithfeeblegleamsofencouragement。RussellSquarewastheboundaryofherprison:shemightwalkthitheroccasionally,butwasalwaysbacktosleepinhercellatnight;toperformcheerlessduties;towatchbythanklesssick-beds;tosuffertheharassmentandtyrannyofquerulousdisappointedoldage。Howmanythousandsofpeoplearethere,womenforthemostpart,whoaredoomedtoendurethislongslavery?——whoarehospitalnurseswithoutwages——sistersofCharity,ifyoulike,withouttheromanceandthesentimentofsacrifice——whostrive,fast,watch,andsuffer,unpitied,andfadeawayignoblyandunknown。
ThehiddenandawfulWisdomwhichapportionsthedestiniesofmankindispleasedsotohumiliateandcastdownthetender,good,andwise,andtosetuptheselfish,thefoolish,orthewicked。Oh,behumble,mybrother,inyourprosperity!Begentlewiththosewhoarelesslucky,ifnotmoredeserving。Think,whatrighthaveyoutobescornful,whosevirtueisadeficiencyoftemptation,whosesuccessmaybeachance,whoserankmaybeanancestor’saccident,whoseprosperityisverylikelyasatire。
TheyburiedAmelia’smotherinthechurchyardatBrompton,uponjustsucharainy,darkdayasAmeliarecollectedwhenfirstshehadbeentheretomarryGeorge。
Herlittleboysatbyhersideinpompousnewsables。
Sherememberedtheoldpew-womanandclerk。Herthoughtswereawayinothertimesastheparsonread。
ButthatsheheldGeorge’shandinherown,perhapsshewouldhavelikedtochangeplaceswith……Then,asusual,shefeltashamedofherselfishthoughtsandprayedinwardlytobestrengthenedtodoherduty。
Soshedeterminedwithallhermightandstrengthtotryandmakeheroldfatherhappy。Sheslaved,toiled,patched,andmended,sangandplayedbackgammon,readoutthenewspaper,cookeddishes,foroldSedley,walkedhimoutsedulouslyintoKensingtonGardensortheBromptonLanes,listenedtohisstorieswithuntiringsmilesandaffectionatehypocrisy,orsatmusingbyhissideandcommuningwithherownthoughtsandreminiscences,astheoldman,feebleandquerulous,sunnedhimselfonthegardenbenchesandprattledabouthiswrongsorhissorrows。Whatsad,unsatisfactorythoughtsthoseofthewidowwere!ThechildrenrunningupanddowntheslopesandbroadpathsinthegardensremindedherofGeorge,whowastakenfromher;thefirstGeorgewastakenfromher;herselfish,guiltylove,inbothinstances,hadbeenrebukedandbitterlychastised。Shestrovetothinkitwasrightthatsheshouldbesopunished。Shewassuchamiserablewickedsinner。Shewasquitealoneintheworld。
Iknowthattheaccountofthiskindofsolitaryimprisonmentisinsufferablytedious,unlessthereissomecheerfulorhumorousincidenttoenlivenit——atendergaoler,forinstance,orawaggishcommandantofthefortress,oramousetocomeoutandplayaboutLatude’sbeardandwhiskers,orasubterraneanpassageunderthecastle,dugbyTrenckwithhisnailsandatoothpick:thehistorianhasnosuchenliveningincidenttorelateinthenarrativeofAmelia’scaptivity。Fancyher,ifyouplease,duringthisperiod,verysad,butalwaysreadytosmilewhenspokento;inaverymean,poor,nottosayvulgarpositionoflife;singingsongs,makingpuddings,playingcards,mendingstockings,forheroldfather’sbenefit。So,nevermind,whethershebeaheroineorno;oryouandI,howeverold,scolding,andbankrupt——maywehaveinourlastdaysakindsoftshoulderonwhichtoleanandagentlehandtosootheourgoutyoldpillows。
OldSedleygrewveryfondofhisdaughterafterhiswife’sdeath,andAmeliahadherconsolationindoingherdutybytheoldman。
Butwearenotgoingtoleavethesetwopeoplelonginsuchalowandungenteelstationoflife。Betterdays,asfarasworldlyprosperitywent,wereinstoreforboth。
PerhapstheingeniousreaderhasguessedwhowasthestoutgentlemanwhocalleduponGeorgyathisschoolincompanywithouroldfriendMajorDobbin。ItwasanotheroldacquaintancereturnedtoEngland,andatatimewhenhispresencewaslikelytobeofgreatcomforttohisrelativesthere。
MajorDobbinhavingeasilysucceededingettingleavefromhisgood-naturedcommandanttoproceedtoMadras,andthenceprobablytoEurope,onurgentprivateaffairs,neverceasedtravellingnightanddayuntilhereachedhisjourney’send,andhaddirectedhismarchwithsuchceleritythathearrivedatMadrasinahighfever。HisservantswhoaccompaniedhimbroughthimtothehouseofthefriendwithwhomhehadresolvedtostayuntilhisdepartureforEuropeinastateofdelirium;
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