`Noonecanblameyouforsuchanavowal,’repliedhegravely;
`noteventhegentlementhemselves,Iimagine。I’lljusttellyou,’hecontinued,asifactuatedbyasuddenresolution,`whatwassaidlastnightinthedining-room,afteryouleftus——perhapsyouwillnotminditasyou’resoveryphilosophicaloncertainpoints,’headdedwithaslightsneer。`TheyweretalkingaboutLordLowboroughandhisdelectablelady,thecauseofwhosesuddendepartureisnosecretamongstthem;andhercharacterissowellknowntothemall,that,nearlyrelatedtomeassheis,Icouldnotattempttodefendit——Godcurseme,’hemuttered,parparenthè;se,`ifIdon’thavevengeanceforthis!Ifthevillainmustdisgracethefamily,mustheblazonitabroadtoeverylow-bredknaveofhisacquaintance?——Ibegyourpardon,Mrs。Huntingdon。
Well,theyweretalkingofthesethings,andsomeofthemremarkedthat,asshewasseparatedfromherhusband,hemightseeheragainwhenhepleased。’
`“Thankyou。”saidhe;“I’vehadenoughofherforthepresent:
I’llnottroubletoseeher,unlessshecomestome。”
`“Thenwhatdoyoumeantodo,Huntingdon,whenwe’regone?”saidRalphHattersley。“Doyoumeantoturnfromtheerrorofyourways,andbeagoodhusband,agoodfather,andsoforth——asIdo,whenIgetshutofyouandalltheserollickingdevilsyoucallyourfriends?Ithinkit’stime;andyourwifeisfiftytimestoogoodforyou,youknow——“
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`Andheaddedsomepraiseofyou,whichyouwouldnotthankmeforrepeating——orhimforuttering;proclaimingitaloud,ashedid,withoutdelicacyordiscrimination,inanaudiencewhereitseemedprofanationtoutteryourname——himselfutterlyincapableofunderstandingorappreciatingyourrealexcellencies。Huntingdonmeanwhile,satquietlydrinkinghiswine,orlookingsmilinglyintohisglassandofferingnointerruptionorreply,tillHattersleyshoutedout,——
`“Doyouhearme,man?”
`“Yes,goon。”saidhe。
`“Nay,I’vedone。”repliedtheother:“Ionlywanttoknowifyouintendtotakemyadvice。”
`“Whatadvice?”
`“Toturnoveranewleaf,youdouble-dyedscoundrel。”shoutedRalph,“andbegyourwife’spardon,andbeagoodboyforthefuture。”
`“Mywife!whatwife?Ihavenowife。”repliedHuntingdon,lookinginnocentlyupfromhisglass——“orifIhave,lookyougentlemen,Ivaluehersohighlythatanyoneamongyou,thatcanfancyher,mayhaveherandwelcome——youmay,byJoveandmyblessingintothebargain!”
`I——hem——someoneaskedifhereallymeantwhathesaid,uponwhich,hesolemnlysworehedid,andnomistake——Whatdoyouthinkofthat,Mrs。Huntingdon?’askedMr。Hargrave,afterashortpause,duringwhichIhadfelthewaskeenlyexaminingmyhalf-avertedface。
`Isay,’repliedI,calmly,`thatwhatheprizessolightly,willnotbelonginhispossession。’
`Youcannotmeanthatyouwillbreakyourheartanddieforthedetestableconductofaninfamousvillainlikethat!’
`Bynomeans:myheartistoothoroughlydriedtobebrokeninahurry,andImeantoliveaslongasIcan。’
`Willyouleavehimthen?’
`Yes。’
`When——andhow?’askedhe,eagerly。
`WhenIamready,andhowIcanmanageitmosteffectually。’
`Butyourchild?’
`Mychildgoeswithme。’
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`Hewillnotallowit。’
`Ishallnotaskhim。’
`Ah,then,itisasecretflightyoumeditate!——butwithwhom,Mrs。Huntingdon?’
`Withmyson——and,possibly,hisnurse。’
`Alone——andunprotected!Butwherecanyougo?Whatcanyoudo?
Hewillfollowyouandbringyouback。’
`Ihavelaidmyplanstoowellforthat。LetmeoncegetclearofGrassdale,andIshallconsidermyselfsafe。’
Mr。Hargraveadvancedonesteptowardsme,lookedmeintheface,anddrewinhisbreathtospeak;butthatlook,thatheightenedcolour,thatsuddensparkleoftheeyemademybloodriseinwrath:Iabruptlyturnedaway,and,snatchingupmybrush,begantodashawayatmycanvasswithrathertoomuchenergyforthegoodofthepicture。
`Mrs。Huntingdon,’saidhewithbittersolemnity,`youarecruel——crueltome——crueltoyourself。’
`Mr。Hargrave,rememberyourpromise。’
`Imustspeak——myheartwillburstifIdon’t!Ihavebeensilentlongenough——andyoumusthearme!’criedheboldlyinterceptingmyretreattothedoor。`Youtellmeyouowenoallegiancetoyourhusband;
heopenlydeclareshimselfwearyofyou,andcalmlygivesyouuptoanybodythatwilltakeyou;youareabouttoleavehim;noonewillbelievethatyougoalone——alltheworldwillsay,“Shehaslefthimatlast,andwhocanwonderatit?Fewcanblameher,fewerstillcanpityhim;butwhoisthecompanionofherflight?”Thusyouwillhavenocreditforyourvirtueifyoucallitsuch:evenyourbestfriendswillnotbelieveinit;because,itismonstrous,andnottobecredited——butbythosewhosufferfromtheeffectsofit,suchcrueltormentsthattheyknowittobeindeedreality——Butwhatcanyoudointhecold,roughworldalone?
you,ayoungandinexperiencedwoman,delicatelynurtured,andutterly——’
`Inaword,youwouldadvisemetostaywhereIam,’interruptedI。`Well,I’llseeaboutit。’
`Byallmeans,leavehim!’criedheearnestly,`butNOT
alone!Helen!letmeprotectyou!’
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`Never!——whileHeavensparesmyreason,’repliedI,snatchingawaythehandhehadpresumedtoseizeandpressbetweenhisown。Buthewasinforitnow;hehadfairlybrokenthebarrier:hewascompletelyroused,anddeterminedtohazardallforvictory。
`Imustnotbedenied!’exclaimedhevehemently;andseizingbothmyhands,heheldthemverytight,butdroppeduponhisknee,andlookedupinmyfacewithahalf-imploring,half-imperiousgaze。`Youhavenoreasonnow:youareflyinginthefaceofHeaven’sdecrees。GodhasdesignedmetobeyourcomfortandProtector——Ifeelit——IknowitascertainlyasifavoicefromHeavendeclared“Yetwainshallbeoneflesh“——andyouspurnmefromyou——
`Letmego,Mr。Hargrave!’saidIsternly。Butheonlytightenedhisgrasp。
`Letmego!’Irepeated,quiveringwithindignation。
Hisfacewasalmostoppositethewindowasheknelt。Withaslightstart,Isawhimglancetowardsit;andthenagleamofmalicioustriumphlituphiscountenance。Lookingovermyshoulder,Ibeheldashadowjustretiringroundthecorner。
`ThatisGrimsby,’saidhedeliberately。`HewillreportwhathehasseentoHuntingdonandalltherest,withsuchembellishmentsashethinksproper。Hehasnoloveforyou,Mrs。Huntingdon——noreverenceforyoursex——nobeliefinvirtue——noadmirationforitsimage。Hewillgivesuchaversionofthisstoryaswillleavenodoubtatall,aboutyourcharacter,inthemindsofthosewhohearit。Yourfairfameisgone;
andnothingthatIoryoucansaycaneverretrieveit。Butgivemethepowertoprotectyou,andshowmethevillainthatdarestoinsult!’
`Noonehaseverdaredtoinsultmeasyouaredoingnow!’saidI,atlengthreleasingmyhands,andrecoilingfromhim。
`Idonotinsultyou,’criedhe:`Iworshipyou。Youaremyangel——mydivinity!Ilaymypowersatyourfeet——andyoumustandshallacceptthem!’
heexclaimedimpetuously,startingtohisfeet——Imillbeyourconsoleranddefender!andifyourconscienceupbraidyouforit,sayIovercameyouandyoucouldnotchoosebutyield!’
Ineversawamansoterriblyexcited。Heprecipitatedhimselftowardsme。Isnatchedupmypalette-knifeandheldit343againsthim。
Thisstartledhim:hestoodandgazedatmeinastonishment;IdaresayIlookedasfierceandresoluteashe。Imovedtothebellandputmyhanduponthecord。Thistamedhimstillmore。Withahalf-authoritative,half-deprecatingwaveofthehand,hesoughttodetermefromringing。
`Standoff,then!’saidI。Hesteppedback——`Andlistentome——I
don’tlikeyou,’Icontinued,asdeliberatelyandemphaticallyasIcould,togivethegreaterefficacytomywords;`andifIweredivorcedfrommyhusband——orifheweredead,Iwouldnotmarryyou。Therenow!Ihopeyou’resatisfied。’
Hisfacegrewblanchedwithanger。
`Iamsatisfied,’herepliedwithbitteremphasis,`thatyouarethemostcold-hearted,unnatural,ungratefulwomanIeveryetbeheld!’
`Ungratefulsir?’
`Ungrateful。’
`No,Mr。Hargrave;Iamnot。Forallthegoodyoueverdidme,oreverwishedtodo,Imostsincerelythankyou:foralltheevilyouhavedoneme,andallyouwouldhavedone,IprayGodtopardonyou,andmakeyouofabettermind。’
Herethedoorwasthrownopen,andMessrs。HuntingdonandHattersleyappearedwithout。Thelatterremainedinthehall,busywithhisram-rodandhisgun;theformerwalkedin,andstoodwithhisbacktothefire,surveyingMr。Hargraveandme,particularlytheformer,withasmileofinsupportablemeaning,accompaniedasitwas,bytheimpudenceofhisbrazenbrowandthesly,malicioustwinkleofhiseye。
`Well,sir?’saidHargraveinterrogatively,andwiththeairofonepreparedtostandonthedefensive。
`Well,sir,’returnedhishost。
`Wewanttoknowifyou’reatlibertytojoinusinagoatthepheasants,Walter,’interposedHattersleyfromwithout。`Come!thereshallbenothingshotbesides,exceptapuss’ortwo;I’llvouchforthat。’
Walterdidnotanswer,butwalkedtothewindowtocollecthisfaculties,Arthurutteredalowwhistle,andfollowedhimwithhiseyes。
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`IcameheretobidfarewelltoMrs。Huntingdon,andtellherImustgoto-morrow。
`Humph!You’remightysuddeninyourresolution。Whattakesyouoffsosoon,mayIask?’
`Business,’returnedhe,repellingtheother’sincreduloussneerwithaglanceofscornfuldefiance。
`Verygood,’wasthereply;andHargravewalkedaway。Thereupon,Mr。Huntingdon,gatheringhiscoatlapsunderhisarms,andsettinghisshoulderagainstthemantle-piece,turnedtome,and,addressingmeinalowvoice,scarcelyabovehisbreath,pouredforthavolleyofthevilestandgrossestabuseitwaspossiblefortheimaginationtoconceiveorthetonguetoutter。Ididnotattempttointerrupthim;butmyspiritkindledwithinme,andwhenhehaddone,Ireplied——
`Ifyouraccusationweretrue,Mr。Huntingdon,howdareyoublameme?’
`She’shitit,byJove!’criedHattersley,rearinghisgunagainstthewall;and,steppingintotheroom,hetookhispreciousfriendbythearm,andattemptedtodraghimaway。`Come,mylad,’hemuttered;`trueorfalse,you’venorighttoblameher,youknow——norhimeither;afterwhatyousaidlastnight。Socomealong。’
TherewassomethingimpliedherethatIcouldnotendure。
`Dareyoususpectme,Mr。Hattersley?’saidI,almostbesidemyselfwithfury。
`Nay,nay,Isuspectnobody。It’sallright——it’sallright。SocomealongHuntingdon,youblackguard。’
`Shecan’tdenyit!’criedthegentlemanthusaddressed,grinninginmingledrageandtriumph。`Shecan’tdenyitifherlifedependedonit!’andmutteringsomemoreabusivelanguage,hewalkedintothehall,andtookuphishatandgunfromthetable。
`Iscorntojustifymyselftoyou!’saidI。`Butyou,’turningtoHattersley,`ifyoupresumetohaveanydoubtsonthesubject,askMr。
Hargrave。’
Atthis,theysimultaneouslyburstintoarudelaughthatmademywholeframetingletothefinger’sends。
`Whereishe?I’llaskhimmyself!’saidI,advancingtowardsthem。