`You’dbettertryoncemore,’saidGrimsby,leaningacrossthetable。Andthenhewinkedatme。
`I’venothingtotrywith。”saidthepoordevil,withaghastlysmile。
`Oh,Huntingdonwilllendyouwhatyouwant,’saidtheother。
`No;youheardmyoath,’answeredLowborough,turningawayinquietdespair。AndItookhimbythearmandledhimout。
`Isittobethelast,Lowborough?’Iasked,whenIgothimintothestreet。
`Thelast,’heanswered,somewhatagainstmyexpectation。AndItookhimhome——thatis,toourclub——forhewasassubmissiveasachild,andpliedhimwithbrandyandwatertillhetolookratherbrighter——rathermorealive,atleast。
`Huntingdon,I’mruined!’saidhe,takingthethirdglassfrommyhand——hehaddrunktheothersindeadsilence。
`Notyou!’saidI。`You’llfindamancanlivewithouthismoneyasmerrilyasatortoisewithoutitshead,orawaspwithoutitsbody。’
`ButI’mindebt,’saidhe——`deepindebt!AndIcannever,nevergetoutofit!’
`Well,whatofthat?manyabettermanthanyouhaslivedanddiedindebt,andtheycan’tputyouinprison,youknow,becauseyou’reapeer。’AndIhandedhimhisfourthtumbler。
`ButIhatetobeindebt!’heshouted。`Iwasn’tbornforit,andIcannotbearit!’
`Whatcan’tbecuredmustbeendured,’saidI,beginningtomixthefifth。
`Andthen,I’velostmyCaroline,’Andhebegantosnivelthen,forthebrandyhadsoftenedhisheart。
`Nomatter,’Ianswered,`therearemoreCarolinesintheworldthanone。’
`There’sonlyoneforme,’hereplied,withadoloroussigh。`Andiftherewerefiftymore,who’stogetthem,Iwonder,withoutmoney?’
`Oh,somebodywilltakeyouforyourtitle;andthenyou’veyourfamilyestateyet;that’sentailed,youknow,’
`IwishtoGodIcouldsellittopaymydebts,’hemuttered。
`Andthen,’saidGrimsby,whohadjustcomein,`youcantryagain,youknow。IwouldhaveonemorechanceifIwereyou。
I’dneverstophere。’
`Iwon’t,Itellyou!’shoutedhe。Andhestartedupandlefttheroom——walkingratherunsteadily,fortheliquorhadgotintohishead。
Hewasnotsomuchusedtoitthen,butafterthat,hetooktoitkindlytosolacehiscares。
`Hekepthisoathaboutgamblingnotalittletothesurpriseofusall,thoughGrimsbydidhisutmosttotempthimtobreakit:buthowhehadgotholdofanotherhabitthatbotheredhimnearlyasmuch,forhesoondiscoveredthatthedemonofdrinkwasasblackasthedemonofplay,andnearlyashardtogetridof——especiallyashiskindfriendsdidalltheycouldtosecondthepromptingsofhisowninsatiablecravings。’
`Then,theyweredemonsthemselves,’criedI,unabletocontainmyindignation。`Andyou,MrHuntingdon,itseems,werethefirsttotempthim。’
`Well,whatcouldwedo?’repliedhe,deprecatingly——`Wemeantitinkindness——wecouldn’tbeartoseethepoorfellowsomiserable:——andbesides,hewassuchadamperuponus,sittingthere,silentandglum,whenhewasunderthethreefoldinfluenceofthelossofhissweetheart,thelossofhisfortune,andthereactionofthelastnight’sdebauch;
whereas,whenhehadsomethinginhim,ifhewasnotmerryhimself,hewasanunfailingsourceofmerrimenttous。EvenGrimsbycouldchuckleoverhisoddSayings:theydelightedhimfarmorethanmymerryjestsorHattersleysriotousmirth。Butoneevening,whenweweresittingoverourwine,afteroneofourclubdinners,andhadallbeenheartytogether,——Lowboroughgivingusmadtoasts,andheatingourwildsongsandbearingahandintheapplause,ifhedidnothelpustosingthemhimself,——hesuddenlyrelapsedintosilence,sinkinghisheadonhishand,andneverliftinghisglasstohislips;——butthiswasnothingnew;sowelethimalone,andwentonwithourjollification,till,suddenlyraisinghishead,heinterruptedusinthemiddleofaroaroflaughterbyexclaiming,——
`Gentlemen,whereisallthistoend?——Willyoujusttellmethatnow?——Whereisitalltoend?’
`Inhellfire,’growledGrimsby。
`You’vehitit——Ithoughtso!’criedhe。`Wellthen,I’lltellyouwhat’——herose,`Aspeech,aspeech!’shoutedwe。`Hear,hear!Lowborough’sgoingtogiveusaspeech!’
`Hewaitedcalmlytillthethundersofapplauseandjinglingofglasseshadceased,andthenproceeded,——
`It`sonlythis,gentlemen,——thatIthinkwe’dlettergonofarther。
We’dbetterstopwhilewecan,’
`Justso!’criedHattersley——
`Stoppoorsinner,stopandthinkBeforeyoufarthergo,NolongersportuponthebrinkOfeverlastingwoe。’
`Exactly!’repliedhislordship,withtheutmostgravity。`Andifyouchoosetovisitthebottomlesspit,Iwon’tgowithyou——wemustpartcompany,forIswearI’llnotmoveanothersteptowardsit!——What’sthis?’hesaid,takinguphisglassofwine。
`Tasteit,’suggestedI。
`Thisishellbroth!’heexclaimed。`Irenounceitforever!’
Andhethrewitoutintothemiddleofthetable,`Fillagain!’saidI,handinghimthebottle——`andletusdrinktoyourrenunciation。’
`Itsrankpoison,’saidhe,graspingthebottlebytheneck,`andIforswearit!I’vegivenupgambling,andI’llgiveupthistoo。’Hewasonthepointofdeliberatelypouringthewholecontentsofthebottleontothetable,butHargravewresteditfromhim,`Onyoubethecurse,then!’
saidhe。Andbackingfromtheroom,heshouted,`Farewell,yetempters!’
andvanishedamidshoutsoflaughterandapplause。
`Weexpectedhimbackamongusthenextday;buttooursurprise,theplaceremainedvacant:wesawnothingofhimforawholeweek;andwereallybegantothinkhewasgoingtokeephisword。Atlast,oneevening,whenweweremostofusassembledtogetheragain,heentered,silentandgrimasaghost,andwouldhavequietlyslippedintohisusualseatatmyelbow,butweallrosetowelcomehim,andseveralvoiceswereraisedtoaskwhathewouldhave,andseveralhandswerebusywithbottleandglasstoservehim;butIknewasmokingtumblerofbrandyandwaterwouldcomforthimbest,andhadnearlypreparedit,whenhepeevishlypusheditaway,saying,`DoletmealoneHuntingdon!Dobequiet,allofyou!I’mnotcometojoinyou:I’monlycometobewithyouawhile,becauseIcan’tbearmyownthoughts。’Andhefoldedhisarmsandleantbackinhischair;
sowelethimbe。ButIlefttheglassbyhim;andafterawhile,GrimsbyBedmyattentiontowardsit,byasignificantwink;and,onturningmyhead,Isawitwasdrainedtothebottom。Hemadeasigntoreplenish,andquietlypushedupthebottle。Iwillinglycomplied;butLowboroughdetectedthepantomime,and,nettledattheintelligentgrinsthatwerepassingbetweenus,snatchedtheglassfrommyhand,dashedthecontentsofitinGrimsby’sface,threwtheemptytumbleratme,andthenboltedfromtheroom。’
`Ihopehebrokeyourhead,’saidI。
`No,love,’repliedhe,laughingimmoderatelyattherecollectionofthewholeaffair,`hewouldhavedoneso,——andperhapsspoiltmyface,too,butprovidentially,thisforestofcurls’takingoffhishatandshowinghisluxuriantchestnutlocks`savedmyskull,andpreventedtheglassfrombreakingtillitreachedthetable。’
`Afterthat,’hecontinued,`Lowboroughkeptalooffromusaweekortwolonger。Iusedtomeethimoccasionallyinthetown;andthen,asIwastoogood-naturedtoresenthisunmannerlyconduct,andheborenomaliceagainstme,——hewasneverunwillingtotalktome;onthecontrary,hewouldclingtomeandfollowmeanywhere,——buttotheclub,andthegaminghouses,andsuchlikedangerousplacesofresort——hewassowearyofhisownmoping,melancholymind。Atlast,Igothimtocomeinwithmetotheclub,onconditionthatIwouldnottempthimtodrink;andforsometime,hecontinuedtolookinuponusprettyregularlyofanevening,——stillabstaining,withwonderfulperseverance,fromthe`rankpoison’hehadsobravelyforsworn。Butsomeofourmembersprotestedagainstthisconduct。
Theydidnotliketohavehimsittingtherelikeaskeletonatafeast,6
insteadofcontributinghisquotatothegeneralamusement,castingacloudoverall,andwatching,withgreedyeyes,everydroptheycarriedtotheirlips,theyvoweditwasnotfair:andsomeofthemmaintainedthatheshouldeitherbecompelledtodoasothersdidorexpelledfromthesociety,andsworethat,nexttimeheshowedhimself,theywouldtellhimasmuch,and,ifhedidnottakethewarning,proceedtoactivemeasures。However,I
befriendedhimonthisoccasion,andrecommendedthemtolethimbeforawhile,intimatingthat,withalittlepatienceonourparts,hewouldsooncomeroundagain——But,tobesure,itwasratherprovoking;forthoughherefusedtodrinklikeanhonestChristian,itwaswellknowntome,thathekeptaprivatebottleoflaudanumabouthim,whichhewascontinuallysoakingat——orrather,holdingoffandonwith,abstainingonedayandexceedingthenext,justlikethespirits。
`Onenight,however,duringoneofourorgies——oneofourhighfestivals,Imeanbeglidedin,liketheghostinMacbeth,andseatedhimself,asusual,alittlebackfromthetable,inthechairwealwaysplacedfor`thespectre,’whetheritchosetofillitornot。Isawbyhisfacethathewassufferingfromtheeffectsofanoverdoseofhisinsidiouscomforter;
butnobodyspoketohim,andhespoketonobody。Afewsidelongglances,andawhisperedobservationthat`theghostwascome,’wasallthenoticehedrewbyhisappearance,andwewentonwithourmerrycarousalsasbefore,tillhestartledusallbysuddenlydrawinginhischairandleaningforwardwithhiselbowsonthetable,andexclaimingwithportentoussolemnity,——
`Well!itpuzzlesmewhatyoucanfindtobesomerryabout。WhatyouseeinlifeIdon’tknow——Iseeonlytheblacknessofdarknessandafearfullookingforofjudgmentandfieryindignation!’
`Allthecompanysimultaneouslypusheduptheirglassestohim,andIsetthembeforehiminasemicircle,and,tenderlypattinghimontheback,bidhimdrinkandhewouldsoonseeasbrightaprospectasanyofus;buthepushedthemback,muttering,——
`Takethemaway!Iwon’ttasteit,Itellyou——Iwon’t——Iwon’t!’
SoIhandedthemdownagaintotheowners;butIsawthathefollowedthemwithaglareofhungryregretastheydeparted。Then,heclaspedhishandsbeforehiseyestoshutoutthesight,andtwominutesafter,liftedhisheadagain,andsaid,inahoarsebutvehementwhisper,——
`AndyetImust!Huntingdon,getmeaglass。!’
`Takethebottle,man!saidI,thrustingthebrandy-bottleintohishand——butstop,I’mtellingtoomuch,’mutteredthenarrator,startledatthelookIturneduponhim。`Butnomatter,’herecklesslyadded,andthuscontinuedhisrelation——`Inhisdesperateeagerness,heseizedthebottleandsuckedaway,tillhesuddenlydroppedfromhischair,disappearingunderthetableamidatempestofapplause。Theconsequenceofthisimprudencewassomethinglikeanapoplecticfit,followedbyaratherseverebrainfever——’
`Andwhatdidyouthinkofyourself,sir?’saidI,quickly。
`Ofcourse,Iwasverypenitent,’hereplied。`Iwenttoseehimonceortwice——nay,twiceorthrice——or,by’rLady,somefourtimes,——andwhenhegotbetter,Itenderlybroughthimbacktothefold。’
`Whatdoyoumean?’
`Imean,Irestoredhimtothebosomoftheclub,andcompassionatingthefeeblenessofhishealthandextremelownessofhisspirits,Irecommendedhimto`takealittlewineforhisstomachssake,’and,whenhewassufficientlyre-established,toembracethemedia-via,ni-jamais-ni-toujoursplan——nottokillhimselflikeafool,andnottoabstainlikeaninny——inaword,toenjoyhimselflikearationalcreature,anddoasIdid;——fordon’tthink,Helen,thatI’matippler;I’mnothingatallofthekind,andneverwas,andnevershallbe。Ivaluemycomfortfartoomuch。IseethatamanCannotgivehimselfuptodrinkingwithoutbeingmiserableonehalfhisdaysandmadtheother;——besides,Iliketoenjoymylifeatallsidesandends,whichcannotbedonebyonethatsuffershimselftobetheslaveofasinglepropensity——andmoreover,drinkingspoilsone’sgoodlooks,’heconcluded,withamostconceitedsmilethatoughttohaveprovokedmemorethanitdid。
`AnddidLordLowboroughprofitbyyouradvice?’Iasked。