RosesredandroseswhitePluckedIformylove’sdelight。
Shewouldnoneofallmyposies,——
Bademegatherherblueroses。
HalftheworldIwanderedthrough,Seekingwheresuchflowersgrew;
HalftheworlduntomyquestAnsweredbutwithlaughandjest。
ItmaybebeyondthegraveSheshallfindwhatshewouldhave。
Minewasbutanidlequest,——
Roseswhiteandredarebest!——
BlueRoses-
THESEAhadnotchangedItswaterswerelowonthemud-banks,andtheMarazionBell-buoyclankedandswunginthetide-wayOnthewhitebeach-sanddriedstumpsofsea-poppyshiveredandchattered。
’Idon’tseetheoldbreakwater,’saidMaisie,underherbreath。
’Let’sbethankfulthatwehaveasmuchaswehaveIdon’tbelievethey’vemountedasinglenewgunonthefortsincewewerehere。
Comeandlook。’
TheycametotheglacisofFortKeeling,andsatdowninanookshelteredfromthewindunderthetarredthroatofaforty-poundercannon。
’Now,ifAmmomawereonlyhere!’saidMaisie。
ForalongtimebothweresilentThenDicktookMaisie’shandandcalledherbyhername。
Sheshookherheadandlookedouttosea。
’Maisie,darling,doesn’titmakeanydifference?’
’No!’betweenclenchedteeth’I’d——I’dtellyouifitdid;butitdoesn’t,Oh,Dick,pleasebesensible。’
’Don’tyouthinkthatiteverwill?’
’No,I’msureitwon’t。’
’Why?’
Maisierestedherchinonherhand,and,stillregardingthesea,spokehurriedly——
’Iknowwhatyouwantperfectlywell,butIcan’tgiveittoyou,DickItisn’tmyfault;indeed,itisn’tIfIfeltthatIcouldcareforanyone——
ButIdon’tfeelthatIcareIsimplydon’tunderstandwhatthefeelingmeans。’
’Isthattrue,dear?’
’You’vebeenverygoodtome,Dickie;andtheonlywayIcanpayyoubackisbyspeakingthetruthIdaren’ttellafibIdespisemyselfquitenoughasitis。’
’Whatintheworldfor?’
’Because——becauseItakeeverythingthatyougivemeandIgiveyounothinginreturnIt’smeanandselfishofme,andwheneverIthinkofititworriesme。’
’Understandonceforall,then,thatIcanmanagemyownaffairs,andifI
choosetodoanythingyouaren’ttoblameYouhaven’tasinglethingtoreproachyourselfwith,darling。’
’Yes,Ihave,andtalkingonlymakesitworse。’
’Thendon’ttalkaboutit。’
’HowcanIhelpmyself?Ifyoufindmealoneforaminuteyouarealwaystalkingaboutit;andwhenyouaren’tyoulookitYoudon’tknowhowI
despisemyselfsometimes。’
’Greatgoodness!’saidDick,nearlyjumpingtohisfeet’Speakthetruthnow,Maisie,ifyouneverspeakitagain!DoI——doesthisworryingboreyou?’
’NoItdoesnot。’
’You’dtellmeifitdid?’
’Ishouldletyouknow,Ithink。’
’ThankyouTheotherthingisfatalButyoumustlearntoforgiveamanwhenhe’sinloveHe’salwaysanuisanceYoumusthaveknownthat?’
Maisiedidnotconsiderthelastquestionworthanswering,andDickwasforcedtorepeatit。
’Therewereothermen,ofcourseTheyalwaysworriedjustwhenI
wasinthemiddleofmywork,andwantedmetolistentothem。’
’Didyoulisten?’
’Atfirst;andtheycouldn’tunderstandwhyIdidn’tcareAndtheyusedtopraisemypictures;andIthoughttheymeantitIusedtobeproudofthepraise,andtellKami,and——Ishallneverforget——onceKamilaughedatme。’
’Youdon’tlikebeinglaughedat,Maisie,doyou?’
’IhateitIneverlaughatotherpeopleunless——unlesstheydobadwork。
Dick,tellmehonestlywhatyouthinkofmypicturesgenerally,——ofeverythingofminethatyou’veseen。’
’“Honest,honest,andhonestover!”’quotedDickfromacatchwordoflongago’TellmewhatKamialwayssays。’
Maisiehesitated’He——hesaysthatthereisfeelinginthem。’
’Howdareyoutellmeafiblikethat?Remember,IwasunderKamifortwoyearsIknowexactlywhathesays。’
’Itisn’tafib。’
’It’sworse;it’sahalf-truthKamisays,whenheputshisheadononeside,——so,——“Ilyadusentiment,maisiln’yapasdepartipris。”’Herolledtherthreateningly,asKamiusedtodo。
’Yes,thatiswhathesays;andI’mbeginningtothinkthatheisright。’
’Certainlyheis。’DickadmittedthattwopeopleintheworldcoulddoandsaynowrongKamiwastheman。
’AndnowyousaythesamethingIt’ssodisheartening。’
’I’msorry,butyouaskedmetospeakthetruthBesides,IloveyoutoomuchtopretendaboutyourworkIt’sstrong,it’spatientsometimes,——notalways,——andsometimesthere’spowerinit,butthere’snospecialreasonwhyitshouldbedoneatallAtleast,that’showitstrikesme。’
’There’snospecialreasonwhyanythingintheworldshouldeverbedoneYouknowthataswellasIdoIonlywantsuccess。’
’You’regoingthewrongwaytogetit,thenHasn’tKamievertoldyouso?’
’Don’tquoteKamitomeIwanttoknowwhatyouthinkMywork’sbad,tobeginwith。’
’Ididn’tsaythat,andIdon’tthinkit。’
’It’samateurish,then。’
’ThatitmostcertainlyisnotYou’reawork-woman,darling,toyourboot-heels,andIrespectyouforthat。’
’Youdon’tlaughatmebehindmyback?’
’No,dearYousee,youaremoretomethananyoneelsePutthiscloakthingroundyou,oryou’llgetchilled。’
Maisiewrappedherselfinthesoftmartenskins,turningthegraykangaroofurtotheoutside。
’Thisisdelicious,’shesaid,rubbingherchinthoughtfullyalongthefur。
’Well?WhyamIwrongintryingtogetalittlesuccess?’
’JustbecauseyoutryDon’tyouunderstand,darling?Goodworkhasnothingtodowith——doesn’tbelongto——thepersonwhodoesitIt’sputintohimorherfromoutside。’
’Buthowdoesthataffect——’
’WaitaminuteAllwecandoistolearnhowtodoourwork,tobemastersofourmaterialsinsteadofservants,andnevertobeafraidofanything。’
’Iunderstandthat。’
’EverythingelsecomesfromoutsideourselvesVerygoodIfwesitdownquietlytoworkoutnotionsthataresenttous,wemayorwemaynotdosomethingthatisn’tbadAgreatdealdependsonbeingmasterofthebricksandmortarofthetradeButtheinstantwebegintothinkaboutsuccessandtheeffectofourwork——toplaywithoneeyeonthegallery——welosepowerandtouchandeverythingelseAtleastthat’showIhavefounditInsteadofbeingquietandgivingeverypoweryoupossesstoyourwork,you’refrettingoversomethingwhichyoucanneitherhelpnohinderbyaminuteSee?’
’It’ssoeasyforyoutotalkinthatwayPeoplelikewhatyoudo。
Don’tyoueverthinkaboutthegallery?’
’Muchtoooften;butI’malwayspunishedforitbylossofpower。
It’sassimpleastheRuleofThreeIfwemakelightofourworkbyusingitforourownends,ourworkwillmakelightofus,and,aswe’retheweaker,weshallsuffer。’
’Idon’ttreatmyworklightlyYouknowthatit’severythingtome。’
’Ofcourse;but,whetheryourealiseitornot,yougivetwostrokesforyourselftooneforyourworkItisn’tyourfault,darlingIdoexactlythesamething,andknowthatI’mdoingitMostoftheFrenchschools,andalltheschoolshere,drivethestudentstoworkfortheirowncredit,andforthesakeoftheirprideIwastoldthatalltheworldwasinterestedinmywork,andeverybodyatKami’stalkedturpentine,andI
honestlybelievedthattheworldneededelevatingandinfluencing,andallmannerofimpertinences,bymybrushesByJove,Iactuallybelievedthat!
WhenmylittleheadwasburstingwithanotionthatIcouldn’thandlebecauseI
hadn’tsufficientknowledgeofmycraft,Iusedtorunaboutwonderingatmyownmagnificenceandgettingreadytoastonishtheworld。’
’Butsurelyonecandothatsometimes?’
’Veryseldomwithmaliceaforethought,darlingAndwhenit’sdoneit’ssuchatinything,andtheworld’ssobig,andallbutamillionthpartofitdoesn’tcareMaisie,comewithmeandI’llshowyousomethingofthesizeoftheworldOnecannomoreavoidworkingthaneating,——thatgoesonbyitself,——buttrytoseewhatyouareworkingforIknowsuchlittleheavensthatIcouldtakeyouto,——islandstuckedawayundertheLine。
Yousightthemafterweeksofcrashingthroughwaterasblackasblackmarblebecauseit’ssodeep,andyousitinthefore-chainsdayafterdayandseethesunrisealmostafraidbecausethesea’ssolonely。’
’Whoisafraid?——you,orthesun?’
’Thesun,ofcourseAndtherearenoisesunderthesea,andsoundsoverheadinaclearskyThenyoufindyourislandalivewithhotmoistorchidsthatmakemouthsatyouandcandoeverythingexcepttalk。
There’sawaterfallinitthreehundredfeethigh,justlikeasliverofgreenjadelacedwithsilver;andmillionsofwildbeesliveupintherocks;andyoucanhearthefatcocoanutsfallingfromthepalms;
andyouorderanivory-whiteservanttoslingyoualongyellowhammockwithtasselsonitlikeripemaize,andyouputupyourfeetandhearthebeeshumandthewaterfalltillyougotosleep。’
’Canoneworkthere?’
’CertainlyOnemustdosomethingalwaysYouhangyourcanvasupinapalmtreeandlettheparrotscriticiseWhenthescuffleyouheavearipecustard-appleatthem,anditburstsinalatherofcreamTherearehundredsofplacesComeandseethem。’
’Idon’tquitelikethatplaceItsoundslazyTellmeanother。’
’Whatdoyouthinkofabig,red,deadcitybuiltofredsandstone,withrawgreenaloesgrowingbetweenthestones,lyingoutneglectedonhoney-colouredsands?Therearefortydeadkingsthere,Maisie,eachinagorgeoustombfinerthanalltheothersYoulookatthepalacesandstreetsandshopsandtanks,andthinkthatmenmustlivethere,tillyoufindaweegraysquirrelrubbingitsnoseallaloneinthemarket-place,andajewelledpeacockstrutsoutofacarveddoorwayandspreadsitstailagainstamarblescreenasfinepiercedaspoint-laceThenamonkey——alittleblackmonkey——walksthroughthemainsquaretogetadrinkfromatankfortyfeetdeepHeslidesdownthecreeperstothewater’sedge,andafriendholdshimbythetail,incaseheshouldfallin。’
’Isthatalltrue?’
’IhavebeenthereandseenTheneveningcomes,andthelightschangetillit’sjustasthoughyoustoodintheheartofaking-opalAlittlebeforesundown,aspunctuallyasclockwork,abigbristlywildboar,withallhisfamilyfollowing,trotsthroughthecitygate,churningthefoamonhistusksYouclimbontheshoulderofablindblackstonegodandwatchthatpigchoosehimselfapalaceforthenightandstumpinwagginghistailThenthenight-windgetsup,andthesandsmove,andyouhearthedesertoutsidethecitysinging,“NowIlaymedowntosleep。”andeverythingisdarktillthemoonrisesMaisie,darling,comewithmeandseewhattheworldisreallylikeIt’sverylovely,andit’sveryhorrible,——butIwon’tletyouseeanythinghorrid,——anditdoesn’tcareyourlifeormineforpicturesoranythingelseexceptdoingitsownworkandmakingloveCome,andI’llshowyouhowtobrewsangaree,andslingahammock,and——oh,thousandsofthings,andyou’llseeforyourselfwhatcolourmeans,andwe’llfindouttogetherwhatlovemeans,andthen,maybe,weshallbeallowedtodosomegoodworkComeaway!’
’Why?’saidMaisie。
’Howcanyoudoanythinguntilyouhaveseeneverything,orasmuchasyoucan?Andbesides,darling,IloveyouComealongwithme。
Youhavenobusinesshere;youdon’tbelongtothisplace;you’rehalfagipsy,——yourfacetellsthat;andI——eventhesmellofopenwatermakesmerestlessComeacrosstheseaandbehappy!’
Hehadrisentohisfeet,andstoodintheshadowofthegun,lookingdownatthegirlTheveryshortwinterafternoonhadwornaway,and,beforetheyknew,thewintermoonwaswalkingtheuntroubledseaLongruledlinesofsilvershowedwherearippleoftherisingtidewasturningoverthemud-banksThewindhaddropped,andintheintensestillnesstheycouldhearadonkeycroppingthefrostygrassmanyyardsawayA
faintbeating,likethatofamuffleddrum,cameoutofthemoon-haze。
’What’sthat?’saidMaisie,quickly’Itsoundslikeaheartbeating。
Whereisit?’
Dickwassoangryatthissuddenwrenchtohispleadingsthathecouldnottrusthimselftospeak,andinthissilencecaughtthesound。
Maisiefromherseatunderthegunwatchedhimwithacertainamountoffear。
Shewishedsomuchthathewouldbesensibleandceasetoworryherwithover-seaemotionthatshebothcouldandcouldnotunderstandShewasnotprepared,however,forthechangeinhisfaceashelistened。
’It’sasteamer,’hesaid,——’atwin-screwsteamer,bythebeatIcan’tmakeherout,butshemustbestandingveryclosein-shoreAh!’astheredofarocketstreakedthehaze,’she’sstandingintosignalbeforesheclearstheChannel。’
’Isitawreck?’saidMaisie,towhomthesewordswereasGreek。
Dick’seyeswereturnedtothesea’Wreck!Whatnonsense!She’sonlyreportingherselfRedrocketforward——there’sagreenlightaftnow,andtworedrocketsfromthebridge。’
’Whatdoesthatmean?’