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  RosesredandroseswhitePluckedIformylove’sdelight。
  Shewouldnoneofallmyposies,——
  Bademegatherherblueroses。
  HalftheworldIwanderedthrough,Seekingwheresuchflowersgrew;
  HalftheworlduntomyquestAnsweredbutwithlaughandjest。
  ItmaybebeyondthegraveSheshallfindwhatshewouldhave。
  Minewasbutanidlequest,——
  Roseswhiteandredarebest!——
  BlueRoses-
  THESEAhadnotchangedItswaterswerelowonthemud-banks,andtheMarazionBell-buoyclankedandswunginthetide-wayOnthewhitebeach-sanddriedstumpsofsea-poppyshiveredandchattered。
  ’Idon’tseetheoldbreakwater,’saidMaisie,underherbreath。
  ’Let’sbethankfulthatwehaveasmuchaswehaveIdon’tbelievethey’vemountedasinglenewgunonthefortsincewewerehere。
  Comeandlook。’
  TheycametotheglacisofFortKeeling,andsatdowninanookshelteredfromthewindunderthetarredthroatofaforty-poundercannon。
  ’Now,ifAmmomawereonlyhere!’saidMaisie。
  ForalongtimebothweresilentThenDicktookMaisie’shandandcalledherbyhername。
  Sheshookherheadandlookedouttosea。
  ’Maisie,darling,doesn’titmakeanydifference?’
  ’No!’betweenclenchedteeth’I’d——I’dtellyouifitdid;butitdoesn’t,Oh,Dick,pleasebesensible。’
  ’Don’tyouthinkthatiteverwill?’
  ’No,I’msureitwon’t。’
  ’Why?’
  Maisierestedherchinonherhand,and,stillregardingthesea,spokehurriedly——
  ’Iknowwhatyouwantperfectlywell,butIcan’tgiveittoyou,DickItisn’tmyfault;indeed,itisn’tIfIfeltthatIcouldcareforanyone——
  ButIdon’tfeelthatIcareIsimplydon’tunderstandwhatthefeelingmeans。’
  ’Isthattrue,dear?’
  ’You’vebeenverygoodtome,Dickie;andtheonlywayIcanpayyoubackisbyspeakingthetruthIdaren’ttellafibIdespisemyselfquitenoughasitis。’
  ’Whatintheworldfor?’
  ’Because——becauseItakeeverythingthatyougivemeandIgiveyounothinginreturnIt’smeanandselfishofme,andwheneverIthinkofititworriesme。’
  ’Understandonceforall,then,thatIcanmanagemyownaffairs,andifI
  choosetodoanythingyouaren’ttoblameYouhaven’tasinglethingtoreproachyourselfwith,darling。’
  ’Yes,Ihave,andtalkingonlymakesitworse。’
  ’Thendon’ttalkaboutit。’
  ’HowcanIhelpmyself?Ifyoufindmealoneforaminuteyouarealwaystalkingaboutit;andwhenyouaren’tyoulookitYoudon’tknowhowI
  despisemyselfsometimes。’
  ’Greatgoodness!’saidDick,nearlyjumpingtohisfeet’Speakthetruthnow,Maisie,ifyouneverspeakitagain!DoI——doesthisworryingboreyou?’
  ’NoItdoesnot。’
  ’You’dtellmeifitdid?’
  ’Ishouldletyouknow,Ithink。’
  ’ThankyouTheotherthingisfatalButyoumustlearntoforgiveamanwhenhe’sinloveHe’salwaysanuisanceYoumusthaveknownthat?’
  Maisiedidnotconsiderthelastquestionworthanswering,andDickwasforcedtorepeatit。
  ’Therewereothermen,ofcourseTheyalwaysworriedjustwhenI
  wasinthemiddleofmywork,andwantedmetolistentothem。’
  ’Didyoulisten?’
  ’Atfirst;andtheycouldn’tunderstandwhyIdidn’tcareAndtheyusedtopraisemypictures;andIthoughttheymeantitIusedtobeproudofthepraise,andtellKami,and——Ishallneverforget——onceKamilaughedatme。’
  ’Youdon’tlikebeinglaughedat,Maisie,doyou?’
  ’IhateitIneverlaughatotherpeopleunless——unlesstheydobadwork。
  Dick,tellmehonestlywhatyouthinkofmypicturesgenerally,——ofeverythingofminethatyou’veseen。’
  ’“Honest,honest,andhonestover!”’quotedDickfromacatchwordoflongago’TellmewhatKamialwayssays。’
  Maisiehesitated’He——hesaysthatthereisfeelinginthem。’
  ’Howdareyoutellmeafiblikethat?Remember,IwasunderKamifortwoyearsIknowexactlywhathesays。’
  ’Itisn’tafib。’
  ’It’sworse;it’sahalf-truthKamisays,whenheputshisheadononeside,——so,——“Ilyadusentiment,maisiln’yapasdepartipris。”’Herolledtherthreateningly,asKamiusedtodo。
  ’Yes,thatiswhathesays;andI’mbeginningtothinkthatheisright。’
  ’Certainlyheis。’DickadmittedthattwopeopleintheworldcoulddoandsaynowrongKamiwastheman。
  ’AndnowyousaythesamethingIt’ssodisheartening。’
  ’I’msorry,butyouaskedmetospeakthetruthBesides,IloveyoutoomuchtopretendaboutyourworkIt’sstrong,it’spatientsometimes,——notalways,——andsometimesthere’spowerinit,butthere’snospecialreasonwhyitshouldbedoneatallAtleast,that’showitstrikesme。’
  ’There’snospecialreasonwhyanythingintheworldshouldeverbedoneYouknowthataswellasIdoIonlywantsuccess。’
  ’You’regoingthewrongwaytogetit,thenHasn’tKamievertoldyouso?’
  ’Don’tquoteKamitomeIwanttoknowwhatyouthinkMywork’sbad,tobeginwith。’
  ’Ididn’tsaythat,andIdon’tthinkit。’
  ’It’samateurish,then。’
  ’ThatitmostcertainlyisnotYou’reawork-woman,darling,toyourboot-heels,andIrespectyouforthat。’
  ’Youdon’tlaughatmebehindmyback?’
  ’No,dearYousee,youaremoretomethananyoneelsePutthiscloakthingroundyou,oryou’llgetchilled。’
  Maisiewrappedherselfinthesoftmartenskins,turningthegraykangaroofurtotheoutside。
  ’Thisisdelicious,’shesaid,rubbingherchinthoughtfullyalongthefur。
  ’Well?WhyamIwrongintryingtogetalittlesuccess?’
  ’JustbecauseyoutryDon’tyouunderstand,darling?Goodworkhasnothingtodowith——doesn’tbelongto——thepersonwhodoesitIt’sputintohimorherfromoutside。’
  ’Buthowdoesthataffect——’
  ’WaitaminuteAllwecandoistolearnhowtodoourwork,tobemastersofourmaterialsinsteadofservants,andnevertobeafraidofanything。’
  ’Iunderstandthat。’
  ’EverythingelsecomesfromoutsideourselvesVerygoodIfwesitdownquietlytoworkoutnotionsthataresenttous,wemayorwemaynotdosomethingthatisn’tbadAgreatdealdependsonbeingmasterofthebricksandmortarofthetradeButtheinstantwebegintothinkaboutsuccessandtheeffectofourwork——toplaywithoneeyeonthegallery——welosepowerandtouchandeverythingelseAtleastthat’showIhavefounditInsteadofbeingquietandgivingeverypoweryoupossesstoyourwork,you’refrettingoversomethingwhichyoucanneitherhelpnohinderbyaminuteSee?’
  ’It’ssoeasyforyoutotalkinthatwayPeoplelikewhatyoudo。
  Don’tyoueverthinkaboutthegallery?’
  ’Muchtoooften;butI’malwayspunishedforitbylossofpower。
  It’sassimpleastheRuleofThreeIfwemakelightofourworkbyusingitforourownends,ourworkwillmakelightofus,and,aswe’retheweaker,weshallsuffer。’
  ’Idon’ttreatmyworklightlyYouknowthatit’severythingtome。’
  ’Ofcourse;but,whetheryourealiseitornot,yougivetwostrokesforyourselftooneforyourworkItisn’tyourfault,darlingIdoexactlythesamething,andknowthatI’mdoingitMostoftheFrenchschools,andalltheschoolshere,drivethestudentstoworkfortheirowncredit,andforthesakeoftheirprideIwastoldthatalltheworldwasinterestedinmywork,andeverybodyatKami’stalkedturpentine,andI
  honestlybelievedthattheworldneededelevatingandinfluencing,andallmannerofimpertinences,bymybrushesByJove,Iactuallybelievedthat!
  WhenmylittleheadwasburstingwithanotionthatIcouldn’thandlebecauseI
  hadn’tsufficientknowledgeofmycraft,Iusedtorunaboutwonderingatmyownmagnificenceandgettingreadytoastonishtheworld。’
  ’Butsurelyonecandothatsometimes?’
  ’Veryseldomwithmaliceaforethought,darlingAndwhenit’sdoneit’ssuchatinything,andtheworld’ssobig,andallbutamillionthpartofitdoesn’tcareMaisie,comewithmeandI’llshowyousomethingofthesizeoftheworldOnecannomoreavoidworkingthaneating,——thatgoesonbyitself,——buttrytoseewhatyouareworkingforIknowsuchlittleheavensthatIcouldtakeyouto,——islandstuckedawayundertheLine。
  Yousightthemafterweeksofcrashingthroughwaterasblackasblackmarblebecauseit’ssodeep,andyousitinthefore-chainsdayafterdayandseethesunrisealmostafraidbecausethesea’ssolonely。’
  ’Whoisafraid?——you,orthesun?’
  ’Thesun,ofcourseAndtherearenoisesunderthesea,andsoundsoverheadinaclearskyThenyoufindyourislandalivewithhotmoistorchidsthatmakemouthsatyouandcandoeverythingexcepttalk。
  There’sawaterfallinitthreehundredfeethigh,justlikeasliverofgreenjadelacedwithsilver;andmillionsofwildbeesliveupintherocks;andyoucanhearthefatcocoanutsfallingfromthepalms;
  andyouorderanivory-whiteservanttoslingyoualongyellowhammockwithtasselsonitlikeripemaize,andyouputupyourfeetandhearthebeeshumandthewaterfalltillyougotosleep。’
  ’Canoneworkthere?’
  ’CertainlyOnemustdosomethingalwaysYouhangyourcanvasupinapalmtreeandlettheparrotscriticiseWhenthescuffleyouheavearipecustard-appleatthem,anditburstsinalatherofcreamTherearehundredsofplacesComeandseethem。’
  ’Idon’tquitelikethatplaceItsoundslazyTellmeanother。’
  ’Whatdoyouthinkofabig,red,deadcitybuiltofredsandstone,withrawgreenaloesgrowingbetweenthestones,lyingoutneglectedonhoney-colouredsands?Therearefortydeadkingsthere,Maisie,eachinagorgeoustombfinerthanalltheothersYoulookatthepalacesandstreetsandshopsandtanks,andthinkthatmenmustlivethere,tillyoufindaweegraysquirrelrubbingitsnoseallaloneinthemarket-place,andajewelledpeacockstrutsoutofacarveddoorwayandspreadsitstailagainstamarblescreenasfinepiercedaspoint-laceThenamonkey——alittleblackmonkey——walksthroughthemainsquaretogetadrinkfromatankfortyfeetdeepHeslidesdownthecreeperstothewater’sedge,andafriendholdshimbythetail,incaseheshouldfallin。’
  ’Isthatalltrue?’
  ’IhavebeenthereandseenTheneveningcomes,andthelightschangetillit’sjustasthoughyoustoodintheheartofaking-opalAlittlebeforesundown,aspunctuallyasclockwork,abigbristlywildboar,withallhisfamilyfollowing,trotsthroughthecitygate,churningthefoamonhistusksYouclimbontheshoulderofablindblackstonegodandwatchthatpigchoosehimselfapalaceforthenightandstumpinwagginghistailThenthenight-windgetsup,andthesandsmove,andyouhearthedesertoutsidethecitysinging,“NowIlaymedowntosleep。”andeverythingisdarktillthemoonrisesMaisie,darling,comewithmeandseewhattheworldisreallylikeIt’sverylovely,andit’sveryhorrible,——butIwon’tletyouseeanythinghorrid,——anditdoesn’tcareyourlifeormineforpicturesoranythingelseexceptdoingitsownworkandmakingloveCome,andI’llshowyouhowtobrewsangaree,andslingahammock,and——oh,thousandsofthings,andyou’llseeforyourselfwhatcolourmeans,andwe’llfindouttogetherwhatlovemeans,andthen,maybe,weshallbeallowedtodosomegoodworkComeaway!’
  ’Why?’saidMaisie。
  ’Howcanyoudoanythinguntilyouhaveseeneverything,orasmuchasyoucan?Andbesides,darling,IloveyouComealongwithme。
  Youhavenobusinesshere;youdon’tbelongtothisplace;you’rehalfagipsy,——yourfacetellsthat;andI——eventhesmellofopenwatermakesmerestlessComeacrosstheseaandbehappy!’
  Hehadrisentohisfeet,andstoodintheshadowofthegun,lookingdownatthegirlTheveryshortwinterafternoonhadwornaway,and,beforetheyknew,thewintermoonwaswalkingtheuntroubledseaLongruledlinesofsilvershowedwherearippleoftherisingtidewasturningoverthemud-banksThewindhaddropped,andintheintensestillnesstheycouldhearadonkeycroppingthefrostygrassmanyyardsawayA
  faintbeating,likethatofamuffleddrum,cameoutofthemoon-haze。
  ’What’sthat?’saidMaisie,quickly’Itsoundslikeaheartbeating。
  Whereisit?’
  Dickwassoangryatthissuddenwrenchtohispleadingsthathecouldnottrusthimselftospeak,andinthissilencecaughtthesound。
  Maisiefromherseatunderthegunwatchedhimwithacertainamountoffear。
  Shewishedsomuchthathewouldbesensibleandceasetoworryherwithover-seaemotionthatshebothcouldandcouldnotunderstandShewasnotprepared,however,forthechangeinhisfaceashelistened。
  ’It’sasteamer,’hesaid,——’atwin-screwsteamer,bythebeatIcan’tmakeherout,butshemustbestandingveryclosein-shoreAh!’astheredofarocketstreakedthehaze,’she’sstandingintosignalbeforesheclearstheChannel。’
  ’Isitawreck?’saidMaisie,towhomthesewordswereasGreek。
  Dick’seyeswereturnedtothesea’Wreck!Whatnonsense!She’sonlyreportingherselfRedrocketforward——there’sagreenlightaftnow,andtworedrocketsfromthebridge。’
  ’Whatdoesthatmean?’