’It’stoogoodofyou,——muchtoogoodBecauseyouareconsolingyourselfwithwhatwillneverhappen,andIknowthat,andyetIwanttokeepyouDon’tblamemelater,please。’
’I’mgoingintothematterwithmyeyesopenMoreovertheQueencandonowrongItisn’tyourselfishnessthatimpressesmeIt’syouraudacityinproposingtomakeuseofme。’
’Pooh!You’reonlyDick,——andaprint-shop。’
’Verygood:that’sallIamBut,Maisie,youbelieve,don’tyou,thatIloveyou?Idon’twantyoutohaveanyfalsenotionsaboutbrothersandsisters。’
Maisielookedupforamomentanddroppedhereyes。
’It’sabsurd,but——IbelieveIwishIcouldsendyouawaybeforeyougetangrywithmeBut——butthegirlthatliveswithmeisred-haired,andanimpressionist,andallournotionsclash。’
’Sodoours,IthinkNevermindThreemonthsfromto-dayweshallbelaughingatthistogether。’
Maisieshookherheadmournfully’Iknewyouwouldn’tunderstand,anditwillonlyhurtyoumorewhenyoufindoutLookatmyface,Dick,andtellmewhatyousee。’
TheystoodupandfacedeachotherforamomentThefogwasgathering,anditstifledtheroarofthetrafficofLondonbeyondtherailingsDickbroughtallhispainfullyacquiredknowledgeoffacestobearontheeyes,mouth,andchinunderneaththeblackvelvettoque。
’It’sthesameMaisie,andit’sthesameme,’hesaid’We’vebothnicelittlewillsofourown,andoneorotherofushastobebroken。
NowaboutthefutureImustcomeandseeyourpicturessomeday,——Isupposewhenthered-hairedgirlisonthepremises。’
’SundaysaremybesttimesYoumustcomeonSundaysTherearesuchheapsofthingsIwanttotalkaboutandaskyouradviceabout。
NowI
mustgetbacktowork。’
’TrytofindoutbeforenextSundaywhatIam,’saidDick’Don’ttakemywordforanythingI’vetoldyouGood-bye,darling,andblessyou。’
MaisiestoleawaylikealittlegraymouseDickwatchedhertillshewasoutofsight,buthedidnothearhersaytoherself,verysoberly,’I’mawretch,——ahorrid,selfishwretchButit’sDick,andDickwillunderstand。’
Noonehasyetexplainedwhatactuallyhappenswhenanirresistibleforcemeetstheimmovablepost,thoughmanyhavethoughtdeeply,evenasDickthoughtHetriedtoassurehimselfthatMaisiewouldbeledinafewweeksbyhismerepresenceanddiscoursetoabetterwayofthinkingThenherememberedmuchtoodistinctlyherfaceandallthatwaswrittenonit。
’IfIknowanythingofheads,’hesaid,’there’severythinginthatfacebutloveIshallhavetoputthatinmyself;andthatchinandmouthwon’tbewonfornothingButshe’srightSheknowswhatshewants,andshe’sgoingtogetitWhatinsolence!Me!Ofallthepeopleinthewideworld,touseme!Butthenshe’sMaisieThere’snogettingoverthatfact;
andit’sgoodtoseeheragainThisbusinessmusthavebeensimmeringatthebackofmyheadforyearsShe’llusemeasIusedBinatatPortSaid。
She’squiterightItwillhurtalittleIshallhavetoseehereverySunday,——likeayoungmancourtingahousemaidShe’ssuretocomearound;andyet——thatmouthisn’tayieldingmouthIshallbewantingtokissherallthetime,andIshallhavetolookatherpictures,——I
don’tevenknowwhatsortofworkshedoesyet,——andIshallhavetotalkaboutArt,——Woman’sArt!Therefore,particularlyandperpetually,damnallvarietiesofArtItdidmeagoodturnonce,andnowit’sinmywayI’llgohomeanddosomeArt。’
Half-waytothestudio,Dickwassmittenwithaterriblethought。
Thefigureofasolitarywomaninthefogsuggestedit。
’She’sallaloneinLondon,withared-hairedimpressionistgirl,whoprobablyhasthedigestionofanostrichMostred-hairedpeoplehave。
Maisie’sabiliouslittlebodyThey’lleatlikelonewomen,——mealsatallhours,andteawithallmealsIrememberhowthestudentsinParisusedtopigalongShemayfallillatanyminute,andIshan’tbeabletohelp。
Whew!thisistentimesworsethanowningawife。’
Torpenhowenteredthestudioatdusk,andlookedatDickwitheyesfulloftheausterelovethatspringsupbetweenmenwhohavetuggedatthesameoartogetherandareyokedbycustomanduseandtheintimaciesoftoilThisisagoodlove,and,sinceitallows,andevenencourages,strife,recrimination,andbrutalsincerity,doesnotdie,butgrows,andisproofagainstanyabsenceandevilconduct。
DickwassilentafterhehandedTorpenhowthefilledpipeofcouncilHethoughtofMaisieandherpossibleneedsItwasanewthingtothinkofanybodybutTorpenhow,whocouldthinkforhimselfHereatlastwasanoutletforthatcashbalanceHecouldadornMaisiebarbaricallywithjewelry,——athickgoldnecklaceroundthatlittleneck,braceletsupontheroundedarms,andringsofpriceuponherhands,——thiecool,temperate,ringlesshandsthathehadtakenbetweenhisownItwasanabsurdthought,forMaisiewouldnotevenallowhimtoputoneringononefinger,andshewouldlaughatgoldentrappingsItwouldbebettertositwithherquietlyinthedusk,hisarmaroundherneckandherfaceonhisshoulder,asbefittedhusbandandwifeTorpenhow’sbootscreakedthatnight,andhisstrongvoicejarredDick’sbrowscontractedandhemurmuredanevilwordbecausehehadtakenallhissuccessasarightandpartpaymentforpastdiscomfort,andnowhewascheckedinhisstridebyawomanwhoadmittedallthesuccessanddidnotinstantlycareforhim。
’Isay,oldman,’saidTorpenhow,whohadmadeoneortwovainattemptsatconversation,’Ihaven’tputyourbackupbyanythingI’vesaidlately,haveI?’
’You!NoHowcouldyou?’
’Liveroutoforder?’
’Thetrulyhealthymandoesn’tknowhehasaliverI’monlyabitworriedaboutthingsingeneralIsupposeit’smysoul。’
’Thetrulyhealthymandoesn’tknowhehasasoulWhatbusinesshaveyouwithluxuriesofthatkind?’
’ItcameofitselfWho’sthemanthatsaysthatwe’reallislandsshoutingliestoeachotheracrossseasofmisunderstanding?’
’He’sright,whoeverheis,——exceptaboutthemisunderstandingI
don’tthinkwecouldmisunderstandeachother。’
ThebluesmokecurledbackfromtheceilingincloudsThenTorpenhow,insinuatingly——
’Dick,isitawoman?’
’Behangedifit’sanythingremotelyresemblingawoman;andifyoubegintotalklikethat,I’llhireared-brickstudiowithwhitepainttrimmings,andbegoniasandpetuniasandblueHungariastoplayamongthree-and-sixpennypot-palms,andI’llmountallmypicsinaniline-dyeplushplasters,andI’llinviteeverywomanwhomaundersoverwhatherguide-bookstellherisArt,andyoushallreceive’em,Torp,——inasnuff-brownvelvetcoatwithyellowtrousersandanorangetie。
You’lllikethat?’
’Toothin,DickAbettermanthanyouoncedeniedwithcursingandswearingYou’veoverdoneit,justashedidIt’snobusinessofmine,ofcourse,butit’scomfortingtothinkthatsomewhereunderthestarsthere’ssavingupforyouatremendousthrashingWhetherit’llcomefromheavenorearth,Idon’tknow,butit’sboundtocomeandbreakyouupalittleYouwanthammering。’
Dickshivered’Allright,’saidhe’Whenthisislandisdisintegrated,itwillcallforyou。’
’Ishallcomeroundthecornerandhelptodisintegrateitsomemore。
We’retalkingnonsenseComealongtoatheatre。’
’Andyoumayleadathousandmen,Noreverdrawtherein,ButereyeleadtheFaeryQueen’Twillburstyourheartintwain。’
Hehasslippedhisfootfromthestirrup-bar,Thebridlefromhishand,AndheisboundbyhandandfootTotheQueeno’Faery-land。
SirHoggieandtheFairies。
SOMEweekslater,onaveryfoggySunday,DickwasreturningacrosstheParktohisstudio’This,’hesaid,’isevidentlythethrashingthatTorpmeantIthurtsmorethanIexpected;buttheQueencandonowrong;andshecertainlyhassomenotionofdrawing。’
HehadjustfinishedaSundayvisittoMaisie,——alwaysunderthegreeneyesofthered-hairedimpressionistgirl,whomhelearnedtohateatsight,——andwastinglingwithakeensenseofshameSundayafterSunday,puttingonhisbestclothes,hehadwalkedovertotheuntidyhousenorthofthePark,firsttoseeMaisie’spictures,andthentocriticiseandadviseuponthemasherealisedthattheywereproductionsonwhichadvicewouldnotbewastedSundayafterSunday,andhislovegrewwitheachvisit,hehadbeencompelledtocramhisheartbackfrombetweenhislipswhenitpromptedhimtokissMaisieseveraltimesandverymuchindeedSundayafterSunday,theheadabovethehearthadwarnedhimthatMaisiewasnotyetattainable,andthatitwouldbebettertotalkasconnectedlyaspossibleuponthemysteriesofthecraftthatwasallinalltoherThereforeitwashisfatetoendureweeklytortureinthestudiobuiltoutovertheclammybackgardenofafrailstuffylittlevillawherenothingwaseverinitsrightplaceandnobodyeverycalled,——toendureandtowatchMaisiemovingtoandfrowiththeteacupsHeabhorredtea,but,sinceitgavehimalittlelongertimeinherpresence,hedrankitdevoutly,andthered-hairedgirlsatinanuntidyheapandeyedhimwithoutspeakingShewasalwayswatchinghim。
Once,andonlyonce,whenshehadleftthestudio,Maisieshowedhimanalbumthatheldafewpoorcuttingsfromprovincialpapers,——thebriefestofhurriednotesonsomeofherpicturessenttooutlyingexhibitionsDickstoopedandkissedthepaint-smudgedthumbontheopenpage。
’Oh,mylove,mylove,’hemuttered,’doyouvaluethesethings?Chuck’emintothewaste-paperbasket!’
’NottillIgetsomethingbetter,’saidMaisie,shuttingthebook。
ThenDick,movedbynorespectforhispublicandaverydeepregardforthemaiden,diddeliberatelypropose,inordertosecuremoreofthesecovetedcuttings,thatheshouldpaintapicturewhichMaisieshouldsign。
’That’schildish,’saidMaisie,’andIdidn’tthinkitofyouItmustbemyworkMine,——mine,——mine!’