Hauksbee,butshewasnofoolShekeptherowncounsel,anddidnotspeaktoBremmilofwhatshehadheardThisisworthrememberingSpeakingto,orcryingover,ahusbandneverdidanygoodyet。
WhenBremmilwasathome,whichwasnotoften,hewasmoreaffectionatethanusual;andthatshowedhishandTheaffectionwasforcedpartlytosoothehisownconscienceandpartlytosootheMrsBremmilItfailedinbothregards。
Then“theA-D-CinWaitingwascommandedbyTheirExcellencies,LordandLadyLytton,toinviteMrandMrsCusack-BremmiltoPeterhoffonJuly26that9。30PM。”——“Dancing“inthebottom-
left-handcorner。
“Ican’tgo。”saidMrsBremmil,“itistoosoonafterpoorlittleFlorriebutitneednotstopyou,Tom。”
Shemeantwhatshesaidthen,andBremmilsaidthathewouldgojusttoputinanappearanceHerehespokethethingwhichwasnot;andMrsBremmilknewitSheguessed——awoman’sguessismuchmoreaccuratethanaman’scertainty——thathehadmeanttogofromthefirst,andwithMrsHauksbeeShesatdowntothink,andtheoutcomeofherthoughtswasthatthememoryofadeadchildwasworthconsiderablylessthantheaffectionsofalivinghusband。
ShemadeherplanandstakedheralluponitInthathourshediscoveredthatsheknewTomBremmilthoroughly,andthisknowledgesheactedon。
“Tom。”saidshe,“IshallbediningoutattheLongmores’ontheeveningofthe26thYou’dbetterdineattheclub。”
ThissavedBremmilfrommakinganexcusetogetawayanddinewithMrsHauksbee,sohewasgrateful,andfeltsmallandmeanatthesametime——whichwaswholesomeBremmilleftthehouseatfiveforarideAbouthalf-pastfiveintheeveningalargeleather-
coveredbasketcameinfromPhelps’forMrsBremmilShewasawomanwhoknewhowtodress;andshehadnotspentaweekondesigningthatdressandhavingitgored,andhemmed,andherring-
boned,andtuckedandruckedorwhateverthetermsarefornothingItwasagorgeousdress——slightmourningIcan’tdescribeit,butitwaswhatTheQueencalls“acreation“——athingthathityoustraightbetweentheeyesandmadeyougaspShehadnotmuchheartforwhatshewasgoingtodo;butassheglancedatthelongmirrorshehadthesatisfactionofknowingthatshehadneverlookedsowellinherlifeShewasalargeblondeand,whenshechose,carriedherselfsuperbly。
AfterthedinnerattheLongmores,shewentontothedance——alittlelate——andencounteredBremmilwithMrsHauksbeeonhisarm。
Thatmadeherflush,andasthemencrowdedroundherfordancesshelookedmagnificentShefilledupallherdancesexceptthree,andthosesheleftblankMrsHauksbeecaughthereyeonce;andsheknewitwaswar——realwar——betweenthemShestartedhandicappedinthestruggle,forshehadorderedBremmilaboutjusttheleastlittlebitintheworldtoomuch;andhewasbeginningtoresentitMoreover,hehadneverseenhiswifelooksolovely。
Hestaredatherfromdoorways,andglaredatherfrompassagesasshewentaboutwithherpartners;andthemorehestared,themoretakenwasheHecouldscarcelybelievethatthiswasthewomanwiththeredeyesandtheblackstuffgownwhousedtoweepovertheeggsatbreakfast。
MrsHauksbeedidherbesttoholdhiminplay,but,aftertwodances,hecrossedovertohiswifeandaskedforadance。
“I’mafraidyou’vecometoolate,MISTERBremmil。”shesaid,withhereyestwinkling。
Thenhebeggedhertogivehimadance,and,asagreatfavor,sheallowedhimthefifthwaltzLuckilysstoodvacantonhisprogrammeTheydancedittogether,andtherewasalittleflutterroundtheroomBremmilhadasortofnotionthathiswifecoulddance,butheneverknewshedancedsodivinelyAttheendofthatwaltzheaskedforanother——asafavor,notasaright;andMrsBremmilsaid:“Showmeyourprogramme,dear!”Heshoweditasanaughtylittleschoolboyhandsupcontrabandsweetstoamaster。
Therewasafairsprinklingof“H“onitbesides“H“atsupper。
MrsBremmilsaidnothing,butshesmiledcontemptuously,ranherpencilthrough7and9——two“H’s“——andreturnedthecardwithherownnamewrittenabove——apetnamethatonlysheandherhusbandusedThensheshookherfingerathim,andsaid,laughing:“Oh,yousilly,SILLYboy!”
MrsHauksbeeheardthat,and——sheownedasmuch——feltthatshehadtheworstofitBremmilaccepted7and9gratefullyTheydanced7,andsatout9inoneofthelittletentsWhatBremmilsaidandwhatMrsBremmilsaidisnoconcernofanyone’s。
Whenthebandstruckup“TheRoastBeefofOldEngland。”thetwowentoutintotheverandah,andBremmilbeganlookingforhiswife’sdandythiswasbefore’rickshawdayswhileshewentintothecloak-roomMrsHauksbeecameupandsaid:“Youtakemeintosupper,Ithink,MrBremmil。”Bremmilturnedredandlookedfoolish“Ah——h’m!I’mgoinghomewithmywife,MrsHauksbee。
I
thinktherehasbeenalittlemistake。”Beingaman,hespokeasthoughMrsHauksbeewereentirelyresponsible。
MrsBremmilcameoutofthecloak-roominaswansdowncloakwithawhite“cloud“roundherheadShelookedradiant;andshehadarightto。
Thecouplewentoffinthedarknesstogether,Bremmilridingveryclosetothedandy。
ThensaysMrsHauksbeetome——shelookedatriflefadedandjadedinthelamplight:“Takemywordforit,thesilliestwomancanmanageacleverman;butitneedsaverycleverwomantomanageafool。”
Thenwewentintosupper。
THROWNAWAY。
“Andsomearesulky,whilesomewillplunge[Soho!Steady!Standstill,you!]
Someyoumustgentle,andsomeyoumustlunge。
[There!There!Whowantstokillyou?]
Some——therearelossesineverytrade——
Willbreaktheirheartserebittedandmade,Willfightlikefiendsastheropecutshard,Anddiedumb-madinthebreaking-yard。”
ToolungalaStockyardChorus。
Torearaboyunderwhatparentscallthe“shelteredlifesystem“
is,iftheboymustgointotheworldandfendforhimself,notwiseUnlesshebeoneinathousandhehascertainlytopassthroughmanyunnecessarytroubles;andmay,possibly,cometoextremegriefsimplyfromignoranceoftheproperproportionsofthings。
Letapuppyeatthesoapinthebath-roomorchewanewly-blackedbootHechewsandchucklesuntil,byandby,hefindsoutthatblackingandOldBrownWindsormakehimverysick;sohearguesthatsoapandbootsarenotwholesomeAnyolddogaboutthehousewillsoonshowhimtheunwisdomofbitingbigdogs’earsBeingyoung,heremembersandgoesabroad,atsixmonths,awell-manneredlittlebeastwithachastenedappetiteIfhehadbeenkeptawayfromboots,andsoap,andbigdogstillhecametothetrinityfull-grownandwithdevelopedteeth,justconsiderhowfearfullysickandthrashedhewouldbe!Applythatmotiontothe“shelteredlife。”andseehowitworksItdoesnotsoundpretty,butitisthebetteroftwoevils。
TherewasaBoyoncewhohadbeenbroughtupunderthe“shelteredlife“theory;andthetheorykilledhimdeadHestayedwithhispeopleallhisdays,fromthehourhewasborntillthehourhewentintoSandhurstnearlyatthetopofthelistHewasbeautifullytaughtinallthatwinsmarksbyaprivatetutor,andcarriedtheextraweightof“neverhavinggivenhisparentsanhour’sanxietyinhislife。”WhathelearntatSandhurstbeyondtheregularroutineisofnogreatconsequenceHelookedabouthim,andhefoundsoapandblacking,sotospeak,verygoodHeatealittle,andcameoutofSandhurstnotsohighashewentin。
Themtherewasanintervalandascenewithhispeople,whoexpectedmuchfromhimNextayearofliving“unspottedfromtheworld“inathird-ratedepotbattalionwhereallthejuniorswerechildren,andalltheseniorsoldwomen;andlastlyhecameouttoIndia,wherehewascutofffromthesupportofhisparents,andhadnoonetofallbackonintimeoftroubleexcepthimself。
NowIndiaisaplacebeyondallotherswhereonemustnottakethingstooseriously——themiddaysunalwaysexceptedToomuchworkandtoomuchenergykillamanjustaseffectivelyastoomuchassortedviceortoomuchdrinkFlirtationdoesnotmatterbecauseeveryoneisbeingtransferredandeitheryouorsheleavetheStation,andneverreturnGoodworkdoesnotmatter,becauseamanisjudgedbyhisworstoutputandanothermantakesallthecreditofhisbestasaruleBadworkdoesnotmatter,becauseothermendoworse,andincompetentshangonlongerinIndiathananywhereelseAmusementsdonotmatter,becauseyoumustrepeatthemassoonasyouhaveaccomplishedthemonce,andmostamusementsonlymeantryingtowinanotherperson’smoney。
Sicknessdoesnotmatter,becauseit’sallintheday’swork,andifyoudieanothermantakesoveryourplaceandyourofficeintheeighthoursbetweendeathandburialNothingmattersexceptHomefurloughandactingallowances,andtheseonlybecausetheyarescarceThisisaslack,kutchacountrywhereallmenworkwithimperfectinstruments;andthewisestthingistotakenooneandnothinginearnest,buttoescapeassoonaseveryoucantosomeplacewhereamusementisamusementandareputationworththehaving。
ButthisBoy——thetaleisasoldastheHills——cameout,andtookallthingsseriouslyHewasprettyandwaspettedHetookthepettingsseriously,andfrettedoverwomennotworthsaddlingaponytocalluponHefoundhisnewfreelifeinIndiaverygood。
ItDOESlookattractiveinthebeginning,fromaSubaltern’spointofview——allponies,partners,dancing,andsoonHetasteditasthepuppytastesthesoapOnlyhecamelatetotheeating,withagrowingsetofteethHehadnosenseofbalance——justlikethepuppy——andcouldnotunderstandwhyhewasnottreatedwiththeconsiderationhereceivedunderhisfather’sroofThishurthisfeelings。
Hequarrelledwithotherboys,and,beingsensitivetothemarrow,rememberedthesequarrels,andtheyexcitedhimHefoundwhist,andgymkhanas,andthingsofthatkindmeanttoamuseoneafterofficegood;buthetookthemseriouslytoo,justashetookthe“head“thatfollowedafterdrinkHelosthismoneyoverwhistandgymkhanasbecausetheywerenewtohim。
Hetookhislossesseriously,andwastedasmuchenergyandinterestoveratwo-goldmohurraceformaidenekka-ponieswiththeirmaneshogged,asifithadbeentheDerbyOne-halfofthiscamefrominexperience——muchasthepuppysquabbleswiththecornerofthehearth-rug——andtheotherhalffromthedizzinessbredbystumblingoutofhisquietlifeintotheglareandexcitementofalivelieroneNoonetoldhimaboutthesoapandtheblackingbecauseanaveragemantakesitforgrantedthatanaveragemanisordinarilycarefulinregardtothemItwaspitifultowatchTheBoyknockinghimselftopieces,asanover-handledcoltfallsdownandcutshimselfwhenhegetsawayfromthegroom。
Thisunbridledlicenseinamusementsnotworththetroubleofbreakinglinefor,muchlessriotingover,enduredforsixmonths——
allthroughonecoldweather——andthenwethoughtthattheheatandtheknowledgeofhavinglosthismoneyandhealthandlamedhishorseswouldsoberTheBoydown,andhewouldstandsteadyInninety-ninecasesoutofahundredthiswouldhavehappenedYoucanseetheprincipleworkinginanyIndianStationButthisparticularcasefellthroughbecauseTheBoywassensitiveandtookthingsseriously——asImayhavesaidsomeseventimesbeforeOfcourse,wecouldn’ttellhowhisexcessesstruckhimpersonally。
Theywerenothingveryheart-breakingorabovetheaverageHemightbecrippledforlifefinancially,andwantalittlenursing。
Stillthememoryofhisperformanceswouldwitherawayinonehotweather,andtheshroffwouldhelphimtotideoverthemoneytroublesButhemusthavetakenanotherviewaltogetherandhavebelievedhimselfruinedbeyondredemptionHisColoneltalkedtohimseverelywhenthecoldweatherendedThatmadehimmorewretchedthanever;anditwasonlyanordinary“Colonel’swigging!”
WhatfollowsisacuriousinstanceofthefashioninwhichwearealllinkedtogetherandmaderesponsibleforoneanotherTHE
thingthatkickedthebeaminTheBoy’smindwasaremarkthatawomanmadewhenhewastalkingtoherThereisnouseinrepeatingit,foritwasonlyacruellittlesentence,rappedoutbeforethinking,thatmadehimflushtotherootsofhishairHekepthimselftohimselfforthreedays,andthenputinfortwodays’leavetogoshootingnearaCanalEngineer’sRestHouseaboutthirtymilesoutHegothisleave,andthatnightatMesswasnoisierandmoreoffensivethaneverHesaidthathewas“goingtoshootbiggame,andleftathalf-pastteno’clockinanekka。
Partridge——whichwastheonlythingamancouldgetneartheRestHouse——isnotbiggame;soeveryonelaughed。
NextmorningoneoftheMajorscameinfromshortleave,andheardthatTheBoyhadgoneouttoshoot“biggame。”TheMajorhadtakenaninterestinTheBoy,andhad,morethanonce,triedtocheckhiminthecoldweatherTheMajorputuphiseyebrowswhenheheardoftheexpeditionandwenttoTheBoy’sroom,whereherummaged。