首页 >出版文学> The Works of Rudyard Kipling One>第61章
  Hauksbee,butshewasnofoolShekeptherowncounsel,anddidnotspeaktoBremmilofwhatshehadheardThisisworthrememberingSpeakingto,orcryingover,ahusbandneverdidanygoodyet。
  WhenBremmilwasathome,whichwasnotoften,hewasmoreaffectionatethanusual;andthatshowedhishandTheaffectionwasforcedpartlytosoothehisownconscienceandpartlytosootheMrsBremmilItfailedinbothregards。
  Then“theA-D-CinWaitingwascommandedbyTheirExcellencies,LordandLadyLytton,toinviteMrandMrsCusack-BremmiltoPeterhoffonJuly26that9。30PM。”——“Dancing“inthebottom-
  left-handcorner。
  “Ican’tgo。”saidMrsBremmil,“itistoosoonafterpoorlittleFlorriebutitneednotstopyou,Tom。”
  Shemeantwhatshesaidthen,andBremmilsaidthathewouldgojusttoputinanappearanceHerehespokethethingwhichwasnot;andMrsBremmilknewitSheguessed——awoman’sguessismuchmoreaccuratethanaman’scertainty——thathehadmeanttogofromthefirst,andwithMrsHauksbeeShesatdowntothink,andtheoutcomeofherthoughtswasthatthememoryofadeadchildwasworthconsiderablylessthantheaffectionsofalivinghusband。
  ShemadeherplanandstakedheralluponitInthathourshediscoveredthatsheknewTomBremmilthoroughly,andthisknowledgesheactedon。
  “Tom。”saidshe,“IshallbediningoutattheLongmores’ontheeveningofthe26thYou’dbetterdineattheclub。”
  ThissavedBremmilfrommakinganexcusetogetawayanddinewithMrsHauksbee,sohewasgrateful,andfeltsmallandmeanatthesametime——whichwaswholesomeBremmilleftthehouseatfiveforarideAbouthalf-pastfiveintheeveningalargeleather-
  coveredbasketcameinfromPhelps’forMrsBremmilShewasawomanwhoknewhowtodress;andshehadnotspentaweekondesigningthatdressandhavingitgored,andhemmed,andherring-
  boned,andtuckedandruckedorwhateverthetermsarefornothingItwasagorgeousdress——slightmourningIcan’tdescribeit,butitwaswhatTheQueencalls“acreation“——athingthathityoustraightbetweentheeyesandmadeyougaspShehadnotmuchheartforwhatshewasgoingtodo;butassheglancedatthelongmirrorshehadthesatisfactionofknowingthatshehadneverlookedsowellinherlifeShewasalargeblondeand,whenshechose,carriedherselfsuperbly。
  AfterthedinnerattheLongmores,shewentontothedance——alittlelate——andencounteredBremmilwithMrsHauksbeeonhisarm。
  Thatmadeherflush,andasthemencrowdedroundherfordancesshelookedmagnificentShefilledupallherdancesexceptthree,andthosesheleftblankMrsHauksbeecaughthereyeonce;andsheknewitwaswar——realwar——betweenthemShestartedhandicappedinthestruggle,forshehadorderedBremmilaboutjusttheleastlittlebitintheworldtoomuch;andhewasbeginningtoresentitMoreover,hehadneverseenhiswifelooksolovely。
  Hestaredatherfromdoorways,andglaredatherfrompassagesasshewentaboutwithherpartners;andthemorehestared,themoretakenwasheHecouldscarcelybelievethatthiswasthewomanwiththeredeyesandtheblackstuffgownwhousedtoweepovertheeggsatbreakfast。
  MrsHauksbeedidherbesttoholdhiminplay,but,aftertwodances,hecrossedovertohiswifeandaskedforadance。
  “I’mafraidyou’vecometoolate,MISTERBremmil。”shesaid,withhereyestwinkling。
  Thenhebeggedhertogivehimadance,and,asagreatfavor,sheallowedhimthefifthwaltzLuckilysstoodvacantonhisprogrammeTheydancedittogether,andtherewasalittleflutterroundtheroomBremmilhadasortofnotionthathiswifecoulddance,butheneverknewshedancedsodivinelyAttheendofthatwaltzheaskedforanother——asafavor,notasaright;andMrsBremmilsaid:“Showmeyourprogramme,dear!”Heshoweditasanaughtylittleschoolboyhandsupcontrabandsweetstoamaster。
  Therewasafairsprinklingof“H“onitbesides“H“atsupper。
  MrsBremmilsaidnothing,butshesmiledcontemptuously,ranherpencilthrough7and9——two“H’s“——andreturnedthecardwithherownnamewrittenabove——apetnamethatonlysheandherhusbandusedThensheshookherfingerathim,andsaid,laughing:“Oh,yousilly,SILLYboy!”
  MrsHauksbeeheardthat,and——sheownedasmuch——feltthatshehadtheworstofitBremmilaccepted7and9gratefullyTheydanced7,andsatout9inoneofthelittletentsWhatBremmilsaidandwhatMrsBremmilsaidisnoconcernofanyone’s。
  Whenthebandstruckup“TheRoastBeefofOldEngland。”thetwowentoutintotheverandah,andBremmilbeganlookingforhiswife’sdandythiswasbefore’rickshawdayswhileshewentintothecloak-roomMrsHauksbeecameupandsaid:“Youtakemeintosupper,Ithink,MrBremmil。”Bremmilturnedredandlookedfoolish“Ah——h’m!I’mgoinghomewithmywife,MrsHauksbee。
  I
  thinktherehasbeenalittlemistake。”Beingaman,hespokeasthoughMrsHauksbeewereentirelyresponsible。
  MrsBremmilcameoutofthecloak-roominaswansdowncloakwithawhite“cloud“roundherheadShelookedradiant;andshehadarightto。
  Thecouplewentoffinthedarknesstogether,Bremmilridingveryclosetothedandy。
  ThensaysMrsHauksbeetome——shelookedatriflefadedandjadedinthelamplight:“Takemywordforit,thesilliestwomancanmanageacleverman;butitneedsaverycleverwomantomanageafool。”
  Thenwewentintosupper。
  THROWNAWAY。
  “Andsomearesulky,whilesomewillplunge[Soho!Steady!Standstill,you!]
  Someyoumustgentle,andsomeyoumustlunge。
  [There!There!Whowantstokillyou?]
  Some——therearelossesineverytrade——
  Willbreaktheirheartserebittedandmade,Willfightlikefiendsastheropecutshard,Anddiedumb-madinthebreaking-yard。”
  ToolungalaStockyardChorus。
  Torearaboyunderwhatparentscallthe“shelteredlifesystem“
  is,iftheboymustgointotheworldandfendforhimself,notwiseUnlesshebeoneinathousandhehascertainlytopassthroughmanyunnecessarytroubles;andmay,possibly,cometoextremegriefsimplyfromignoranceoftheproperproportionsofthings。
  Letapuppyeatthesoapinthebath-roomorchewanewly-blackedbootHechewsandchucklesuntil,byandby,hefindsoutthatblackingandOldBrownWindsormakehimverysick;sohearguesthatsoapandbootsarenotwholesomeAnyolddogaboutthehousewillsoonshowhimtheunwisdomofbitingbigdogs’earsBeingyoung,heremembersandgoesabroad,atsixmonths,awell-manneredlittlebeastwithachastenedappetiteIfhehadbeenkeptawayfromboots,andsoap,andbigdogstillhecametothetrinityfull-grownandwithdevelopedteeth,justconsiderhowfearfullysickandthrashedhewouldbe!Applythatmotiontothe“shelteredlife。”andseehowitworksItdoesnotsoundpretty,butitisthebetteroftwoevils。
  TherewasaBoyoncewhohadbeenbroughtupunderthe“shelteredlife“theory;andthetheorykilledhimdeadHestayedwithhispeopleallhisdays,fromthehourhewasborntillthehourhewentintoSandhurstnearlyatthetopofthelistHewasbeautifullytaughtinallthatwinsmarksbyaprivatetutor,andcarriedtheextraweightof“neverhavinggivenhisparentsanhour’sanxietyinhislife。”WhathelearntatSandhurstbeyondtheregularroutineisofnogreatconsequenceHelookedabouthim,andhefoundsoapandblacking,sotospeak,verygoodHeatealittle,andcameoutofSandhurstnotsohighashewentin。
  Themtherewasanintervalandascenewithhispeople,whoexpectedmuchfromhimNextayearofliving“unspottedfromtheworld“inathird-ratedepotbattalionwhereallthejuniorswerechildren,andalltheseniorsoldwomen;andlastlyhecameouttoIndia,wherehewascutofffromthesupportofhisparents,andhadnoonetofallbackonintimeoftroubleexcepthimself。
  NowIndiaisaplacebeyondallotherswhereonemustnottakethingstooseriously——themiddaysunalwaysexceptedToomuchworkandtoomuchenergykillamanjustaseffectivelyastoomuchassortedviceortoomuchdrinkFlirtationdoesnotmatterbecauseeveryoneisbeingtransferredandeitheryouorsheleavetheStation,andneverreturnGoodworkdoesnotmatter,becauseamanisjudgedbyhisworstoutputandanothermantakesallthecreditofhisbestasaruleBadworkdoesnotmatter,becauseothermendoworse,andincompetentshangonlongerinIndiathananywhereelseAmusementsdonotmatter,becauseyoumustrepeatthemassoonasyouhaveaccomplishedthemonce,andmostamusementsonlymeantryingtowinanotherperson’smoney。
  Sicknessdoesnotmatter,becauseit’sallintheday’swork,andifyoudieanothermantakesoveryourplaceandyourofficeintheeighthoursbetweendeathandburialNothingmattersexceptHomefurloughandactingallowances,andtheseonlybecausetheyarescarceThisisaslack,kutchacountrywhereallmenworkwithimperfectinstruments;andthewisestthingistotakenooneandnothinginearnest,buttoescapeassoonaseveryoucantosomeplacewhereamusementisamusementandareputationworththehaving。
  ButthisBoy——thetaleisasoldastheHills——cameout,andtookallthingsseriouslyHewasprettyandwaspettedHetookthepettingsseriously,andfrettedoverwomennotworthsaddlingaponytocalluponHefoundhisnewfreelifeinIndiaverygood。
  ItDOESlookattractiveinthebeginning,fromaSubaltern’spointofview——allponies,partners,dancing,andsoonHetasteditasthepuppytastesthesoapOnlyhecamelatetotheeating,withagrowingsetofteethHehadnosenseofbalance——justlikethepuppy——andcouldnotunderstandwhyhewasnottreatedwiththeconsiderationhereceivedunderhisfather’sroofThishurthisfeelings。
  Hequarrelledwithotherboys,and,beingsensitivetothemarrow,rememberedthesequarrels,andtheyexcitedhimHefoundwhist,andgymkhanas,andthingsofthatkindmeanttoamuseoneafterofficegood;buthetookthemseriouslytoo,justashetookthe“head“thatfollowedafterdrinkHelosthismoneyoverwhistandgymkhanasbecausetheywerenewtohim。
  Hetookhislossesseriously,andwastedasmuchenergyandinterestoveratwo-goldmohurraceformaidenekka-ponieswiththeirmaneshogged,asifithadbeentheDerbyOne-halfofthiscamefrominexperience——muchasthepuppysquabbleswiththecornerofthehearth-rug——andtheotherhalffromthedizzinessbredbystumblingoutofhisquietlifeintotheglareandexcitementofalivelieroneNoonetoldhimaboutthesoapandtheblackingbecauseanaveragemantakesitforgrantedthatanaveragemanisordinarilycarefulinregardtothemItwaspitifultowatchTheBoyknockinghimselftopieces,asanover-handledcoltfallsdownandcutshimselfwhenhegetsawayfromthegroom。
  Thisunbridledlicenseinamusementsnotworththetroubleofbreakinglinefor,muchlessriotingover,enduredforsixmonths——
  allthroughonecoldweather——andthenwethoughtthattheheatandtheknowledgeofhavinglosthismoneyandhealthandlamedhishorseswouldsoberTheBoydown,andhewouldstandsteadyInninety-ninecasesoutofahundredthiswouldhavehappenedYoucanseetheprincipleworkinginanyIndianStationButthisparticularcasefellthroughbecauseTheBoywassensitiveandtookthingsseriously——asImayhavesaidsomeseventimesbeforeOfcourse,wecouldn’ttellhowhisexcessesstruckhimpersonally。
  Theywerenothingveryheart-breakingorabovetheaverageHemightbecrippledforlifefinancially,andwantalittlenursing。
  Stillthememoryofhisperformanceswouldwitherawayinonehotweather,andtheshroffwouldhelphimtotideoverthemoneytroublesButhemusthavetakenanotherviewaltogetherandhavebelievedhimselfruinedbeyondredemptionHisColoneltalkedtohimseverelywhenthecoldweatherendedThatmadehimmorewretchedthanever;anditwasonlyanordinary“Colonel’swigging!”
  WhatfollowsisacuriousinstanceofthefashioninwhichwearealllinkedtogetherandmaderesponsibleforoneanotherTHE
  thingthatkickedthebeaminTheBoy’smindwasaremarkthatawomanmadewhenhewastalkingtoherThereisnouseinrepeatingit,foritwasonlyacruellittlesentence,rappedoutbeforethinking,thatmadehimflushtotherootsofhishairHekepthimselftohimselfforthreedays,andthenputinfortwodays’leavetogoshootingnearaCanalEngineer’sRestHouseaboutthirtymilesoutHegothisleave,andthatnightatMesswasnoisierandmoreoffensivethaneverHesaidthathewas“goingtoshootbiggame,andleftathalf-pastteno’clockinanekka。
  Partridge——whichwastheonlythingamancouldgetneartheRestHouse——isnotbiggame;soeveryonelaughed。
  NextmorningoneoftheMajorscameinfromshortleave,andheardthatTheBoyhadgoneouttoshoot“biggame。”TheMajorhadtakenaninterestinTheBoy,andhad,morethanonce,triedtocheckhiminthecoldweatherTheMajorputuphiseyebrowswhenheheardoftheexpeditionandwenttoTheBoy’sroom,whereherummaged。