’I——Iain’talittlepieceofdirt,andifyousaythatI’llnevercometoyouagain。’
’Youdon’tknowwhatyou’vedonetomeI’mnotangry——indeed,I’mnot。
Bequietforaminute。’
BessieremainedinhisarmsshrinkingDick’sfirstthoughtwasconnectedwithMaisie,andithurthimaswhite-hotironhurtsanopensore。
Notfornothingisamanpermittedtoallyhimselftothewrongwoman。
Thefirstpang——thefirstsenseofthingslostisbutthepreludetotheplay,fortheveryjustProvidencewhodelightsincausingpainhasdecreedthattheagonyshallreturn,andthatinthemidstofkeenestpleasure。
Theyknowthispainequallywhohaveforsakenorbeenforsakenbytheloveoftheirlife,andintheirnewwives’armsarecompelledtorealiseit。
Itisbettertoremainaloneandsufferonlythemiseryofbeingalone,solongasitispossibletofinddistractionindailyworkWhenthatresourcegoesthemanistobepitiedandleftalone。
ThesethingsandsomeothersDickconsideredwhilehewasholdingBessietohisheart。
’Thoughyoumayn’tknowit,’hesaid,raisinghishead,’theLordisajustandaterribleGod,Bess;withaverystrongsenseofhumourItservesmeright——howitservesmeright!Torpcouldunderstanditifhewerehere;hemusthavesufferedsomethingatyourhands,child,butonlyforaminuteorsoIsavedhimSetthattomycredit,someone。’
’Letmego,’saidBess,herfacedarkening’Letmego。’
’AllingoodtimeDidyoueverattendSundayschool?’
’NeverLetmego,Itellyou;you’remakingfunofme。’
’Indeed,I’mnotI’mmakingfunofmyselfThus“Hesavedothers,himselfhecannotsave。”Itisn’texactlyaschool-boardtext。’Hereleasedherwrist,butsincehewasbetweenherandthedoor,shecouldnotescape’Whatanenormousamountofmischiefonelittlewomancando!’
’I’msorry;I’mawfulsorryaboutthepicture。’
’I’mnotI’mgratefultoyouforspoilingitWhatwerewetalkingaboutbeforeyoumentionedthething?’
’Aboutgettingaway——andmoneyMeandyougoingaway。’
’OfcourseWewillgetaway——thatistosay,Iwill。’
’Andme?’
’Youshallhavefiftywholepoundsforspoilingapicture。’
’Thenyouwon’t——?’
’I’mafraidnot,dearThinkoffiftypoundsforprettythingsalltoyourself。’
’Yousaidyoucouldn’tdoanythingwithoutme。’
’ThatwastruealittlewhileagoI’mbetternow,thankyouGetmemyhat。’
’S’poseIdon’t?’
’Beetonwill,andyou’lllosefiftypoundsThat’sallGetit。’
BessiecursedunderherbreathShehadpitiedthemansincerely,hadkissedhimwithalmostequalsincerity,forhewasnotunhandsome;itpleasedhertobeinawayandforatimehisprotector,andabovealltherewerefourthousandpoundstobehandledbysomeoneNowthroughaslipofthetongueandalittlefemininedesiretogivealittle,nottoomuch,painshehadlostthemoney,theblessedidlenessandtheprettythings,thecompanionship,andthechanceoflookingoutwardlyasrespectableasareallady。
’NowfillmeapipeTobaccodoesn’ttaste,butitdoesn’tmatter,andI’llthinkthingsoutWhat’sthedayoftheweek,Bess?’
’Tuesday。’
’ThenThursday’smail-dayWhatafool——whatablindfoolIhavebeen!
Twenty-twopoundscoversmypassagehomeagainAllowtenforadditionalexpensesWemustputupatMadamBinat’sforoldtime’ssakeThirty-twopoundsaltogetherAddahundredforthecostofthelasttrip——Gad,won’tTorpstaretoseeme!——ahundredandthirty-twoleavesseventy-eightforbaksheesh——Ishallneedit——andtoplaywith。
Whatareyoucryingfor,Bess?Itwasn’tyourfault,child;itwasminealtogetherOh,youfunnylittleopossum,mopyoureyesandtakemeout!
Iwantthepass-bookandthecheck-bookStopaminuteFourthousandpoundsatfourpercent——that’ssafeinterest——meansahundredandsixtypoundsayear;onehundredandtwentypoundsahear——alsosafe——istwoeighty,andtwohundredandeightypoundsaddedtothreehundredayearmeansgildedluxuryforasinglewomanBess,we’llgotothebank。’
Richerbytwohundredandtenpoundsstoredinhismoney-belt,DickcausedBessie,nowthoroughlybewildered,tohurryfromthebanktothePandOoffices,whereheexplainedthingstersely。
’PortSaid,singlefirst;cabinasclosetothebaggage-hatchaspossible。
Whatship’sgoing?’
’TheColgong,’saidtheclerk。
’She’sawetlittlehookerIsitTilburyandatender,orGalleonsandthedocks?’
’GalleonsTwelve-forty,Thursday。’
’ThanksChange,pleaseIcan’tseeverywell——willyoucountitintomyhand?’
’Iftheyalltooktheirpassageslikethatinsteadoftalkingabouttheirtrunks,lifewouldbeworthsomething,’saidtheclerktohisneighbour,whowastryingtoexplaintoaharassedmotherofmanythatcondensedmilkisjustasgoodforbabesatseaasdailydairyBeingnineteenandunmarried,hespokewithconviction。
’Wearenow,’quothDick,astheyreturnedtothestudio,pattingtheplacewherehismoney-beltcoveredticketandmoney,’beyondthereachofman,ordevil,orwoman——whichismuchmoreimportantI’vehadthreelittleaffairstocarrythroughbeforeThursday,butIneedn’taskyoutohelp,BessComehereonThursdaymorningatnineWe’llbreakfast,andyoushalltakemedowntoGalleonsStation。’
’Whatareyougoingtodo?’
’Goingaway,ofcourseWhatshouldIstayfor?’
’Butyoucan’tlookafteryourself?’
’IcandoanythingIdidn’trealiseitbefore,butIcanI’vedoneagreatdealalreadyResolutionshallbetreatedtoonekissifBessiedoesn’tobject。’Strangelyenough,BessieobjectedandDicklaughed’I
supposeyou’rerightWell,comeatninethedayafterto-morrowandyou’llgetyourmoney。’
’ShallIsure?’
’Idon’tbilk,andyouwon’tknowwhetherIdoornotunlessyoucome。
Oh,butit’slongandlongtowait!Good-bye,Bessie,——sendBeetonhereasyougoout。’
Thehousekeepercame。
’Whatareallthefittingsofmyroomsworth?’saidDick,imperiously。
’’Tisn’tformetosay,sirSomethingsisveryprettyandsomeisworeoutdreadful。’
’I’minsuredfortwohundredandseventy。’
’Insurancepoliciesisnocriterion,thoughIdon’tsay——’
’Oh,damnyourlongwindedness!You’vemadeyourpickingsoutofmeandtheothertenantsWhy,youtalkedofretiringandbuyingapublic-housetheotherdayGiveastraightanswertoastraightquestion。’
’Fifty,’saidMrBeeton,withoutamoment’shesitation。
’Doubleit;orI’llbreakuphalfmysticksandburntherest。’
Hefelthiswaytoabookstandthatsupportedapileofsketch-books,andwrenchedoutoneofthemahoganypillars。
’That’ssinful,sir,’saidthehousekeeper,alarmed。
’It’smyownOnehundredor——’
’OnehundreditisIt’llcostmethreeandsixtogetthattherepilastermended。’
’IthoughtsoWhatanoutandoutswindleryoumusthavebeentospringthatpriceatonce!’
’IhopeI’vedonenothingtodissatisfyanyofthetenants,leastofallyou,sir。’
’NevermindthatGetmethemoneyto-morrow,andseethatallmyclothesarepackedinthelittlebrownbullock-trunkI’mgoing。’
’Butthequarter’snotice?’
’I’llpayforfeitLookafterthepackingandleavemealone。’
MrBeetondiscussedthisnewdeparturewithhiswife,whodecidedthatBessiewasatthebottomofitallHerhusbandtookamorecharitableview。
’It’sverysudden——butthenhewasalwayssuddeninhisways。
Listentohimnow!’
TherewasasoundofchantingfromDick’sroom。
’We’llnevercomebackanymore,boys,We’llnevercomebacknomore;
We’llgotothedeuceonanyexcuse,Andnevercomebacknomore!
Ohsaywe’reafloatorashore,boys,Ohsaywe’reafloatorashore;
Butwe’llnevercomebackanymore,boys,We’llnevercomebacknomore!’
’MrBeeton!MrBeeton!Wherethedeuceismypistol?’
’Quick,he’sgoingtoshoothimself——’avin’gonemad!’saidMrs。
Beeton。
MrBeetonaddressedDicksoothingly,butitwassometimebeforethelatter,threshingupanddownhisbedroom,couldrealisetheintentionofthepromisesto’findeverythingto-morrow,sir。’
’Oh,youcopper-nosedoldfool——youimpotentAcademician!’heshoutedatlast’DoyousupposeIwanttoshootmyself?TakethepistolinyoursillyshakinghandthenIfyoutouchit,itwillgooff,becauseit’sloaded。
It’samongmycampaign-kitsomewhere——intheparcelatthebottomofthetrunk。’
LongagoDickhadcarefullypossessedhimselfofaforty-poundweightfield-equipmentconstructedbytheknowledgeofhisownexperienceItwasthisput-awaytreasurethathewastryingtofindandrehandle。
Mr。
Beetonwhippedtherevolveroutofitsplaceonthetopofthepackage,andDickdrovehishandamongthekhakicoatandbreeches,theblueclothleg-bands,andtheheavyflannelshirtsdoubledoverapairofswan-neckspursUndertheseandthewater-bottlelayasketch-bookandapigskincaseofstationery。
’Thesewedon’twant;youcanhavethem,MrBeetonEverythingelseI’llkeepPack’emonthetopright-handsideofmytrunkWhenyou’vedonethatcomeintothestudiowithyourwifeIwantyouboth。
Waitaminute;getmeapenandasheetofnotepaper。’
Itisnotaneasythingtowritewhenyoucannotsee,andDickhadparticularreasonsforwishingthathisworkshouldbeclearSohebegan,followinghisrighthandwithhisleft:’“ThebadnessofthiswritingisbecauseIamblindandcannotseemypen。”
H’mph!——evenalawyercan’tmistakethatItmustbesigned,Isuppose,butitneedn’tbewitnessedNowaninchlower——whydidIneverlearntouseatype-writer?——“Thisisthelastwillandtestamentofme,RichardHeldar。
Iaminsoundbodilyandmentalhealth,andthereisnopreviouswilltorevoke。”——That’sallrightDamnthepen!WhereaboutsonthepaperwasI?——“IleaveeverythingthatIpossessintheworld,includingfourthousandpounds,andtwothousandsevenhundredandtwentyeightpoundsheldforme“——oh,Ican’tgetthisstraight。’Hetoreoffhalfthesheetandbeganagainwiththecautionaboutthehandwriting。
Then:’I
leaveallthemoneyIpossessintheworldto’——herefollowedMaisie’sname,andthenamesofthetwobanksthatheldthemoney。
’Itmayn’tbequiteregular,butnoonehasashadowofarighttodisputeit,andI’vegivenMaisie’saddressComein,MrBeetonThisismysignature;IwantyouandyourwifetowitnessitThanks。
To-morrowyoumusttakemetothelandlordandI’llpayforfeitforleavingwithoutnotice,andI’lllodgethispaperwithhimincaseanythinghappenswhileI’mawayNowwe’regoingtolightupthestudiostoveStaywithme,andgivememypapersasIwant’em。’
Nooneknowsuntilhehastriedhowfineablazeayear’saccumulationofbills,letters,anddocketscanmakeDickstuffedintothestoveeverydocumentinthestudio——savingonlythreeunopenedletters;
destroyedsketch-books,roughnote-books,newandhalf-finishedcanvasesalike。
’Whatalotofrubbishatenantgetsabouthimifhestayslongenoughinoneplace,tobesure,’saidMrBeeton,atlast。
’HedoesIsthereanythingmoreleft?’Dickfeltroundthewalls。
’Notathing,andthestove’snighred-hot。’
’Excellent,andyou’velostaboutathousandpounds’worthofsketches。
Ho!ho!Quiteathousandpounds’worth,ifIcanrememberwhatI
usedtobe。’
’Yes,sir,’politelyMrBeetonwasquitesurethatDickhadgonemad,otherwisehewouldhaveneverpartedwithhisexcellentfurnitureforasongThecanvasthingstookupstorageroomandweremuchbetteroutoftheway。
Thereremainedonlytoleavethelittlewillinsafehands:thatcouldnotbeaccomplishedtoto-morrowDickgropedaboutthefloorpickingupthelastpiecesofpaper,assuredhimselfagainandagainthatthereremainednowrittenwordorsignofhispastlifeindrawerordesk,andsatdownbeforethestovetillthefirediedoutandthecontractingironcrackedinthesilenceofthenight。