’Oh!itisgoodtohearyoumovingabout,’saidDick,rubbinghishands。
’Tellusallaboutyourbarsuccesses,Bessie,andthewayyoulivenow。’
’NevermindthatI’mquiterespectable,asyou’dseebylookingatme。
Youdon’tseemtolivetoowellWhatmadeyougoblindthatsudden?
Whyisn’tthereanyonetolookafteryou?’
Dickwastoothankfulforthesoundofhervoicetoresentthetoneofit。
’Iwascutacrosstheheadalongtimeago,andthatruinedmyeyes。
I
don’tsupposeanybodythinksitworthwhiletolookaftermeanymore。
Whyshouldthey?——andMrBeetonreallydoeseverythingIwant。’
’Don’tyouknowanygentlemenandladies,then,whileyouwas——well?’
’Afew,butIdon’tcaretohavethemlookingatme。’
’Isupposethat’swhyyou’vegrowedabeardTakeitoff,itdon’tbecomeyou。’
’Goodgracious,child,doyouimaginethatIthinkofwhatbecomesofmethesedays?’
’YououghtGetthattakenoffbeforeIcomehereagainIsupposeIcancome,can’tI?’
’I’dbeonlytoogratefulifyoudidIdon’tthinkItreatedyouverywellintheolddaysIusedtomakeyouangry。’
’Veryangry,youdid。’
’I’msorryforit,thenComeandseemewhenyoucanandasoftenasyoucanGodknows,thereisn’tasoulintheworldtotakethattroubleexceptyouandMrBeeton。’
’Alotoftroublehe’stakingandshetoo。’Thiswithatossofthehead。
’They’veletyoudoanyhowandtheyhaven’tdoneanythingforyou。
I’veonlytolookandseethatmuchI’llcome,andI’llbegladtocome,butyoumustgoandbeshaved,andyoumustgetsomeotherclothes——thoseonesaren’tfittobeseen。’
’Ihaveheapssomewhere,’hesaidhelplessly。
’IknowyouhaveTellMrBeetontogiveyouanewsuitandI’llbrushitandkeepitcleanYoumaybeasblindasabarn-door,MrHeldar,butitdoesn’texcuseyoulookinglikeasweep。’
’DoIlooklikeasweep,then?’
’Oh,I’msorryforyouI’mthatsorryforyou!’shecriedimpulsively,andtookDick’shandsMechanically,heloweredhisheadasiftokiss——shewastheonlywomanwhohadtakenpityonhim,andhewasnottooproudforalittlepitynowShestooduptogo。
’Nothingo’thatkindtillyoulookmorelikeagentlemanIt’squiteeasywhenyougetshaved,andsomeclothes。’
Hecouldhearherdrawingonherglovesandrosetosaygood-bye。
Shepassedbehindhim,kissedhimaudaciouslyonthebackoftheneck,andranawayasswiftlyasonthedaywhenshehaddestroyedtheMelancolia。
’TothinkofmekissingMrHeldar,’shesaidtoherself,’afterallhe’sdonetomeandall!Well,I’msorryforhim,andifhewasshavedhewouldn’tbesobadtolookat,butOhthemBeetons,howshamefulthey’vetreatedhim!IknowBeeton’swearinghisshirtonhisbackto-dayjustaswellasifI’daireditTo-morrow,I’llseeIwonderifhehasmuchofhisownItmightbeworthmorethanthebar——Iwouldn’thavetodoanywork——andjustasrespectableasifnooneknew。’
DickwasnotgratefultoBessieforherpartinggiftHewasacutelyconsciousofitinthenapeofhisneckthroughoutthenight,butitseemed,amongverymanyotherthings,toenforcethewisdomofgettingshaved。
Hewasshavedaccordinglyinthemorning,andfeltthebetterforitA
freshsuitofclothes,whitelinen,andtheknowledgethatsomeoneintheworldsaidthatshetookaninterestinhispersonalappearancemadehimcarryhimselfalmostupright;forthebrainwasrelievedforawhilefromthinkingofMaisie,who,underothercircumstances,mighthavegiventhatkissandamillionothers。
’Letusconsider,’saidhe,afterlunch’Thegirlcan’tcare,andit’satoss-upwhethershecomesagainornot,butifmoneycanbuyhertolookaftermesheshallbeboughtNobodyelseintheworldwouldtakethetrouble,andIcanmakeitworthherwhileShe’sachildofthegutterholdingbrevetrankasabarmaid;sosheshallhaveeverythingshewantsifshe’llonlycomeandtalkandlookafterme。’Herubbedhisnewlyshornchinandbegantoperplexhimselfwiththethoughtofhernotcoming’IsupposeIdidlookratherasweep,’hewenton’IhadnoreasontolookotherwiseIknewthingsdroppedonmyclothes,butitdidn’tmatterItwouldbecruelifshedidn’tcomeShemust。
Maisiecameonce,andthatwasenoughforherShewasquiterightShehadsomethingtoworkforThiscreaturehasonlybeer-handlestopull,unlessshehasdeludedsomeyoungmanintokeepingcompanywithher。
Fancybeingcheatedforthesakeofacounter-jumper!We’refallingprettylow。’
Somethingcriedaloudwithinhim:——ThiswillhurtmorethananythingthathasgonebeforeItwillrecallandremindandsuggestandtantalise,andintheenddriveyoumad。
’Iknowit,Iknowit!’Dickcried,clenchinghishandsdespairingly;
’but,goodheavens!isapoorblindbeggarnevertogetanythingoutofhislifeexceptthreemealsadayandagreasywaistcoat?Iwishshe’dcome。’
Earlyintheafternoontimeshecame,becausetherewasnoyoungmaninherlifejustthen,andshethoughtofmaterialadvantageswhichwouldallowhertobeidlefortherestofherdays。
’Ishouldn’thaveknownyou,’shesaidapprovingly’Youlookasyouusedtolook——agentlemanthatwasproudofhimself。’
’Don’tyouthinkIdeserveanotherkiss,then?’saidDick,flushingalittle。
’Maybe——butyouwon’tgetityetSitdownandlet’sseewhatIcandoforyouI’mcertainsureMrBeetoncheatsyou,nowthatyoucan’tgothroughthehousekeepingbookseverymonthIsn’tthattrue?’
’You’dbettercomeandhousekeepformethen,Bessie。’
’Couldn’tdoitinthesechambers——youknowthataswellasIdo。’
’Iknow,butwemightgosomewhereelse,ifyouthoughtitworthyourwhile。’
’I’dtrytolookafteryou,anyhow;butIshouldn’tcaretohavetoworkforbothofus。’Thiswastentative。
Dicklaughed。
’DoyourememberwhereIusedtokeepmybank-book?’saidhe。
’TorptookittobebalancedjustbeforehewentawayLookandsee。’
’Itwasgenerallyunderthetobacco-jarAh!’
’Well?’
’Oh!Fourthousandtwohundredandtenpoundsnineshillingsandapenny!Ohmy!’
’YoucanhavethepennyThat’snotbadforoneyear’sworkIsthatandahundredandtwentypoundsayeargoodenough?’
Theidlenessandtheprettyclotheswerealmostwithinherreachnow,butshemust,bybeinghousewifely,showthatshedeservedthem。
’Yes;butyou’dhavetomove,andifwetookaninventory,Ithinkwe’dfindthatMrBeetonhasbeenprigginglittlethingsoutoftheroomshereandthereTheydon’tlookasfullastheyused。’
’Nevermind,we’lllethimhavethemTheonlythingI’mparticularlyanxioustotakeawayisthatpictureIusedyoufor——whenyouusedtoswearatmeWe’llpulloutofthisplace,Bess,andgetawayasfaraseverwecan。’
’Ohyes,’shesaiduneasily。
’Idon’tknowwhereIcangotogetawayfrommyself,butI’lltry,andyoushallhavealltheprettyfrocksthatyoucareforYou’lllikethat。
Givemethatkissnow,BessYegods!it’sgoodtoputone’sarmroundawoman’swaistagain。’
ThencamethefulfilmentoftheprophecywithinthebrainIfhisarmwerethusroundMaisie’swaistandakisshadjustbeengivenandtakenbetweenthem,——whythenHepressedthegirlmorecloselytohimselfbecausethepainwhippedhimShewaswonderinghowtoexplainalittleaccidenttotheMelancoliaAtanyrate,ifthismanreallydesiredthesolaceofhercompany——andcertainlyhewouldrelapseintohisoriginalsloughifshewithdrewit——hewouldnotbemorethanjustalittlevexed。
Itwouldbedelightfulatleasttoseewhatwouldhappen,andbyherteachingsitwasgoodforamantostandincertainaweofhiscompanion。
Shelaughednervously,andslippedoutofhisreach。
’Ishouldn’tworritaboutthatpictureifIwasyou,’shebegan,inthehopeofturninghisattention。
’It’satthebackofallmycanvasessomewhereFindit,Bess;youknowitaswellasIdo。’
’Iknow——but——’
’Butwhat?You’vewitenoughtomanagethesaleofittoadealer。
WomenhagglemuchbetterthanmenItmightbeamatterofeightorninehundredpoundsto——tousIsimplydidn’tliketothinkaboutitforalongtimeItwasmixedupwithmylifeso——Butwe’llcoverupourtracksandgetridofeverything,eh?Makeafreshstartfromthebeginning,Bess。’
Thenshebegantorepentverymuchindeed,becausesheknewthevalueofmoneyStill,itwasprobablethattheblindmanwasoverestimatingthevalueofhisworkGentlemen,sheknew,wereabsurdlyparticularabouttheirthingsShegiggledasanervoushousemaidgiggleswhenshetriestoexplainthebreakageofapipe。
’I’mverysorry,butyourememberIwas——IwasangrywithyoubeforeMrTorpenhowwentaway?’
’Youwereveryangry,child;andonmywordIthinkyouhadsomerighttobe。’
’ThenI——butaren’tyousureMrTorpenhowdidn’ttellyou?’
’Tellmewhat?Goodgracious,whatareyoumakingsuchafussaboutwhenyoumightjustaswellbegivingmeanotherkiss?’
Hewasbeginningtolearn,notforthefirsttimeinhisexperience,thatkissingisacumulativepoisonThemoreyougetofit,themoreyouwant。
Bessiegavethekisspromptly,whispering,asshedidso,’IwassoangryI
rubbedoutthatpicturewiththeturpentineYouaren’tangry,areyou?’
’What?Saythatagain。’Theman’shandhadclosedonherwrist。
’Irubbeditoutwithturpsandtheknife,’falteredBessie’Ithoughtyou’donlyhavetodoitoveragainYoudiddoitoveragain,didn’tyou?
Oh,letgoofmywrist;you’rehurtingme。’
’Isn’tthereanythingleftofthething?’
’N’nothingthatlookslikeanythingI’msorry——Ididn’tknowyou’dtakeonaboutit;IonlymeanttodoitinfunYouaren’tgoingtohitme?’
’Hityou!No!Let’sthink。’
Hedidnotrelaxhisholduponherwristbutstoodstaringatthecarpet。
Thenheshookhisheadasayoungsteershakesitwhenthelashofthestock-whipcrosshisnosewarnshimbacktothepathontotheshamblesthathewouldescapeForweekshehadforcedhimselfnottothinkoftheMelancolia,becauseshewasapartofhisdeadlifeWithBessie’sreturnandcertainnewprospectsthathaddevelopedthemselves,theMelancolia——lovelierinhisimaginationthanshehadeverbeenoncanvas——reappearedByheraidhemighthaveprocuredmormoneywherewithtoamuseBessandtoforgetMaisie,aswellasanothertasteofanalmostforgottensuccessNow,thankstoaviciouslittlehousemaid’sfolly,therewasnothingtolookfor——noteventhehopethathemightsomedaytakeanabidinginterestinthehousemaidWorstofall,hehadbeenmadetoappearridiculousinMaisie’seyesAwomanwillforgivethemanwhohasruinedherlife’sworksolongashegivesherlove;amanmayforgivethosewhoruintheloveofhislife,buthewillneverforgivethedestructionofhiswork。
’Tck——tck——tck,’saidDickbetweenhisteeth,andthenlaughedsoftly’It’sanomen,Bessie,and——agoodmanythingsconsidered,itservesmerightfordoingwhatIhavedoneByJove!thataccountsforMaisie’srunningawayShemusthavethoughtmeperfectlymad——smallblametoher!Thewholepictureruined,isn’titso?Whatmadeyoudoit?’
’BecauseIwasthatangryI’mnotangrynow——I’mawfulsorry。’
’Iwonder——Itdoesn’tmatter,anyhowI’mtoblameformakingthemistake。’
’Whatmistake?’
’Somethingyouwouldn’tunderstand,dearGreatheavens!tothinkthatalittlepieceofdirtlikeyoucouldthrowmeoutofstride!’DickwastalkingtohimselfasBessietriedtoshakeoffhisgriponherwrist。
’Iain’tapieceofdirt,andyoushouldn’tcallmeso!Ididit’causeI
hatedyou,andI’monlysorrynow’causeyou’re——’causeyou’re——’
’Exactly——becauseI’mblindThere’snotingliketactinlittlethings。’
BessiebegantosobShedidnotlikebeingshackledagainstherwill;shewasafraidoftheblindfaceandthelookuponit,andwassorrytoothathergreatrevengehadonlymadeDicklaugh。
’Don’tcry,’hesaid,andtookherintohisarms’Youonlydidwhatyouthoughtright。’