首页 >出版文学> The Works of Rudyard Kipling One>第117章
  ’Oh!itisgoodtohearyoumovingabout,’saidDick,rubbinghishands。
  ’Tellusallaboutyourbarsuccesses,Bessie,andthewayyoulivenow。’
  ’NevermindthatI’mquiterespectable,asyou’dseebylookingatme。
  Youdon’tseemtolivetoowellWhatmadeyougoblindthatsudden?
  Whyisn’tthereanyonetolookafteryou?’
  Dickwastoothankfulforthesoundofhervoicetoresentthetoneofit。
  ’Iwascutacrosstheheadalongtimeago,andthatruinedmyeyes。
  I
  don’tsupposeanybodythinksitworthwhiletolookaftermeanymore。
  Whyshouldthey?——andMrBeetonreallydoeseverythingIwant。’
  ’Don’tyouknowanygentlemenandladies,then,whileyouwas——well?’
  ’Afew,butIdon’tcaretohavethemlookingatme。’
  ’Isupposethat’swhyyou’vegrowedabeardTakeitoff,itdon’tbecomeyou。’
  ’Goodgracious,child,doyouimaginethatIthinkofwhatbecomesofmethesedays?’
  ’YououghtGetthattakenoffbeforeIcomehereagainIsupposeIcancome,can’tI?’
  ’I’dbeonlytoogratefulifyoudidIdon’tthinkItreatedyouverywellintheolddaysIusedtomakeyouangry。’
  ’Veryangry,youdid。’
  ’I’msorryforit,thenComeandseemewhenyoucanandasoftenasyoucanGodknows,thereisn’tasoulintheworldtotakethattroubleexceptyouandMrBeeton。’
  ’Alotoftroublehe’stakingandshetoo。’Thiswithatossofthehead。
  ’They’veletyoudoanyhowandtheyhaven’tdoneanythingforyou。
  I’veonlytolookandseethatmuchI’llcome,andI’llbegladtocome,butyoumustgoandbeshaved,andyoumustgetsomeotherclothes——thoseonesaren’tfittobeseen。’
  ’Ihaveheapssomewhere,’hesaidhelplessly。
  ’IknowyouhaveTellMrBeetontogiveyouanewsuitandI’llbrushitandkeepitcleanYoumaybeasblindasabarn-door,MrHeldar,butitdoesn’texcuseyoulookinglikeasweep。’
  ’DoIlooklikeasweep,then?’
  ’Oh,I’msorryforyouI’mthatsorryforyou!’shecriedimpulsively,andtookDick’shandsMechanically,heloweredhisheadasiftokiss——shewastheonlywomanwhohadtakenpityonhim,andhewasnottooproudforalittlepitynowShestooduptogo。
  ’Nothingo’thatkindtillyoulookmorelikeagentlemanIt’squiteeasywhenyougetshaved,andsomeclothes。’
  Hecouldhearherdrawingonherglovesandrosetosaygood-bye。
  Shepassedbehindhim,kissedhimaudaciouslyonthebackoftheneck,andranawayasswiftlyasonthedaywhenshehaddestroyedtheMelancolia。
  ’TothinkofmekissingMrHeldar,’shesaidtoherself,’afterallhe’sdonetomeandall!Well,I’msorryforhim,andifhewasshavedhewouldn’tbesobadtolookat,butOhthemBeetons,howshamefulthey’vetreatedhim!IknowBeeton’swearinghisshirtonhisbackto-dayjustaswellasifI’daireditTo-morrow,I’llseeIwonderifhehasmuchofhisownItmightbeworthmorethanthebar——Iwouldn’thavetodoanywork——andjustasrespectableasifnooneknew。’
  DickwasnotgratefultoBessieforherpartinggiftHewasacutelyconsciousofitinthenapeofhisneckthroughoutthenight,butitseemed,amongverymanyotherthings,toenforcethewisdomofgettingshaved。
  Hewasshavedaccordinglyinthemorning,andfeltthebetterforitA
  freshsuitofclothes,whitelinen,andtheknowledgethatsomeoneintheworldsaidthatshetookaninterestinhispersonalappearancemadehimcarryhimselfalmostupright;forthebrainwasrelievedforawhilefromthinkingofMaisie,who,underothercircumstances,mighthavegiventhatkissandamillionothers。
  ’Letusconsider,’saidhe,afterlunch’Thegirlcan’tcare,andit’satoss-upwhethershecomesagainornot,butifmoneycanbuyhertolookaftermesheshallbeboughtNobodyelseintheworldwouldtakethetrouble,andIcanmakeitworthherwhileShe’sachildofthegutterholdingbrevetrankasabarmaid;sosheshallhaveeverythingshewantsifshe’llonlycomeandtalkandlookafterme。’Herubbedhisnewlyshornchinandbegantoperplexhimselfwiththethoughtofhernotcoming’IsupposeIdidlookratherasweep,’hewenton’IhadnoreasontolookotherwiseIknewthingsdroppedonmyclothes,butitdidn’tmatterItwouldbecruelifshedidn’tcomeShemust。
  Maisiecameonce,andthatwasenoughforherShewasquiterightShehadsomethingtoworkforThiscreaturehasonlybeer-handlestopull,unlessshehasdeludedsomeyoungmanintokeepingcompanywithher。
  Fancybeingcheatedforthesakeofacounter-jumper!We’refallingprettylow。’
  Somethingcriedaloudwithinhim:——ThiswillhurtmorethananythingthathasgonebeforeItwillrecallandremindandsuggestandtantalise,andintheenddriveyoumad。
  ’Iknowit,Iknowit!’Dickcried,clenchinghishandsdespairingly;
  ’but,goodheavens!isapoorblindbeggarnevertogetanythingoutofhislifeexceptthreemealsadayandagreasywaistcoat?Iwishshe’dcome。’
  Earlyintheafternoontimeshecame,becausetherewasnoyoungmaninherlifejustthen,andshethoughtofmaterialadvantageswhichwouldallowhertobeidlefortherestofherdays。
  ’Ishouldn’thaveknownyou,’shesaidapprovingly’Youlookasyouusedtolook——agentlemanthatwasproudofhimself。’
  ’Don’tyouthinkIdeserveanotherkiss,then?’saidDick,flushingalittle。
  ’Maybe——butyouwon’tgetityetSitdownandlet’sseewhatIcandoforyouI’mcertainsureMrBeetoncheatsyou,nowthatyoucan’tgothroughthehousekeepingbookseverymonthIsn’tthattrue?’
  ’You’dbettercomeandhousekeepformethen,Bessie。’
  ’Couldn’tdoitinthesechambers——youknowthataswellasIdo。’
  ’Iknow,butwemightgosomewhereelse,ifyouthoughtitworthyourwhile。’
  ’I’dtrytolookafteryou,anyhow;butIshouldn’tcaretohavetoworkforbothofus。’Thiswastentative。
  Dicklaughed。
  ’DoyourememberwhereIusedtokeepmybank-book?’saidhe。
  ’TorptookittobebalancedjustbeforehewentawayLookandsee。’
  ’Itwasgenerallyunderthetobacco-jarAh!’
  ’Well?’
  ’Oh!Fourthousandtwohundredandtenpoundsnineshillingsandapenny!Ohmy!’
  ’YoucanhavethepennyThat’snotbadforoneyear’sworkIsthatandahundredandtwentypoundsayeargoodenough?’
  Theidlenessandtheprettyclotheswerealmostwithinherreachnow,butshemust,bybeinghousewifely,showthatshedeservedthem。
  ’Yes;butyou’dhavetomove,andifwetookaninventory,Ithinkwe’dfindthatMrBeetonhasbeenprigginglittlethingsoutoftheroomshereandthereTheydon’tlookasfullastheyused。’
  ’Nevermind,we’lllethimhavethemTheonlythingI’mparticularlyanxioustotakeawayisthatpictureIusedyoufor——whenyouusedtoswearatmeWe’llpulloutofthisplace,Bess,andgetawayasfaraseverwecan。’
  ’Ohyes,’shesaiduneasily。
  ’Idon’tknowwhereIcangotogetawayfrommyself,butI’lltry,andyoushallhavealltheprettyfrocksthatyoucareforYou’lllikethat。
  Givemethatkissnow,BessYegods!it’sgoodtoputone’sarmroundawoman’swaistagain。’
  ThencamethefulfilmentoftheprophecywithinthebrainIfhisarmwerethusroundMaisie’swaistandakisshadjustbeengivenandtakenbetweenthem,——whythenHepressedthegirlmorecloselytohimselfbecausethepainwhippedhimShewaswonderinghowtoexplainalittleaccidenttotheMelancoliaAtanyrate,ifthismanreallydesiredthesolaceofhercompany——andcertainlyhewouldrelapseintohisoriginalsloughifshewithdrewit——hewouldnotbemorethanjustalittlevexed。
  Itwouldbedelightfulatleasttoseewhatwouldhappen,andbyherteachingsitwasgoodforamantostandincertainaweofhiscompanion。
  Shelaughednervously,andslippedoutofhisreach。
  ’Ishouldn’tworritaboutthatpictureifIwasyou,’shebegan,inthehopeofturninghisattention。
  ’It’satthebackofallmycanvasessomewhereFindit,Bess;youknowitaswellasIdo。’
  ’Iknow——but——’
  ’Butwhat?You’vewitenoughtomanagethesaleofittoadealer。
  WomenhagglemuchbetterthanmenItmightbeamatterofeightorninehundredpoundsto——tousIsimplydidn’tliketothinkaboutitforalongtimeItwasmixedupwithmylifeso——Butwe’llcoverupourtracksandgetridofeverything,eh?Makeafreshstartfromthebeginning,Bess。’
  Thenshebegantorepentverymuchindeed,becausesheknewthevalueofmoneyStill,itwasprobablethattheblindmanwasoverestimatingthevalueofhisworkGentlemen,sheknew,wereabsurdlyparticularabouttheirthingsShegiggledasanervoushousemaidgiggleswhenshetriestoexplainthebreakageofapipe。
  ’I’mverysorry,butyourememberIwas——IwasangrywithyoubeforeMrTorpenhowwentaway?’
  ’Youwereveryangry,child;andonmywordIthinkyouhadsomerighttobe。’
  ’ThenI——butaren’tyousureMrTorpenhowdidn’ttellyou?’
  ’Tellmewhat?Goodgracious,whatareyoumakingsuchafussaboutwhenyoumightjustaswellbegivingmeanotherkiss?’
  Hewasbeginningtolearn,notforthefirsttimeinhisexperience,thatkissingisacumulativepoisonThemoreyougetofit,themoreyouwant。
  Bessiegavethekisspromptly,whispering,asshedidso,’IwassoangryI
  rubbedoutthatpicturewiththeturpentineYouaren’tangry,areyou?’
  ’What?Saythatagain。’Theman’shandhadclosedonherwrist。
  ’Irubbeditoutwithturpsandtheknife,’falteredBessie’Ithoughtyou’donlyhavetodoitoveragainYoudiddoitoveragain,didn’tyou?
  Oh,letgoofmywrist;you’rehurtingme。’
  ’Isn’tthereanythingleftofthething?’
  ’N’nothingthatlookslikeanythingI’msorry——Ididn’tknowyou’dtakeonaboutit;IonlymeanttodoitinfunYouaren’tgoingtohitme?’
  ’Hityou!No!Let’sthink。’
  Hedidnotrelaxhisholduponherwristbutstoodstaringatthecarpet。
  Thenheshookhisheadasayoungsteershakesitwhenthelashofthestock-whipcrosshisnosewarnshimbacktothepathontotheshamblesthathewouldescapeForweekshehadforcedhimselfnottothinkoftheMelancolia,becauseshewasapartofhisdeadlifeWithBessie’sreturnandcertainnewprospectsthathaddevelopedthemselves,theMelancolia——lovelierinhisimaginationthanshehadeverbeenoncanvas——reappearedByheraidhemighthaveprocuredmormoneywherewithtoamuseBessandtoforgetMaisie,aswellasanothertasteofanalmostforgottensuccessNow,thankstoaviciouslittlehousemaid’sfolly,therewasnothingtolookfor——noteventhehopethathemightsomedaytakeanabidinginterestinthehousemaidWorstofall,hehadbeenmadetoappearridiculousinMaisie’seyesAwomanwillforgivethemanwhohasruinedherlife’sworksolongashegivesherlove;amanmayforgivethosewhoruintheloveofhislife,buthewillneverforgivethedestructionofhiswork。
  ’Tck——tck——tck,’saidDickbetweenhisteeth,andthenlaughedsoftly’It’sanomen,Bessie,and——agoodmanythingsconsidered,itservesmerightfordoingwhatIhavedoneByJove!thataccountsforMaisie’srunningawayShemusthavethoughtmeperfectlymad——smallblametoher!Thewholepictureruined,isn’titso?Whatmadeyoudoit?’
  ’BecauseIwasthatangryI’mnotangrynow——I’mawfulsorry。’
  ’Iwonder——Itdoesn’tmatter,anyhowI’mtoblameformakingthemistake。’
  ’Whatmistake?’
  ’Somethingyouwouldn’tunderstand,dearGreatheavens!tothinkthatalittlepieceofdirtlikeyoucouldthrowmeoutofstride!’DickwastalkingtohimselfasBessietriedtoshakeoffhisgriponherwrist。
  ’Iain’tapieceofdirt,andyoushouldn’tcallmeso!Ididit’causeI
  hatedyou,andI’monlysorrynow’causeyou’re——’causeyou’re——’
  ’Exactly——becauseI’mblindThere’snotingliketactinlittlethings。’
  BessiebegantosobShedidnotlikebeingshackledagainstherwill;shewasafraidoftheblindfaceandthelookuponit,andwassorrytoothathergreatrevengehadonlymadeDicklaugh。
  ’Don’tcry,’hesaid,andtookherintohisarms’Youonlydidwhatyouthoughtright。’