首页 >出版文学> THE WOMAN IN WHITE>第109章

第109章

  Inthesepages,however,andafterthetimethathasnowelapsed,nosuchcautionsandrestraintsasareheredescribedneedfetterthefreeexpressionofmyopinion。Iwillstatebriefly,beforemypenoccupiesitselfwithotherevents,howmyownconvictionsleadmetoaccountfortheabstractionofthekeys,fortheoutbreakofthefire,andforthedeathoftheman。
  ThenewsofmybeingfreeonbaildroveSirPercival,asIbelieve。
  tohislastresources。Theattemptedattackontheroadwasoneofthoseresources,andthesuppressionofallpracticalproofofhiscrime,bydestroyingthepageoftheregisteronwhichtheforgeryhadbeencommitted,wastheother,andthesurestofthetwo。IfIcouldproducenoextractfromtheoriginalbooktocomparewiththecertifiedcopyatKnowlesbury,Icouldproducenopositiveevidence,andcouldthreatenhimwithnofatalexposure。Allthatwasnecessarytotheattainmentofhisendwas,thatheshouldgetintothevestryunperceived,thatheshouldtearoutthepageintheregister,andthatheshouldleavethevestryagainasprivatelyashehadenteredit。
  Onthissupposition,itiseasytounderstandwhyhewaiteduntilnightfallbeforehemadetheattempt,andwhyhetookadvantageoftheclerk’sabsencetopossesshimselfofthekeys。Necessitywouldobligehimtostrikealighttofindhiswaytotherightregister,andcommoncautionwouldsuggesthislockingthedoorontheinsideincaseofintrusiononthepartofanyinquisitivestranger,oronmypart,ifIhappenedtobeintheneighbourhoodatthetime。
  Icannotbelievethatitwasanypartofhisintentiontomakethedestructionoftheregisterappeartobetheresultofaccident,bypurposelysettingthevestryonfire。Thebarechancethatpromptassistancemightarrive,andthatthebooksmight,bytheremotestpossibility,besaved,wouldhavebeenenough,onamoment’sconsideration,todismissanyideaofthissortfromhismind。Rememberingthequantityofcombustibleobjectsinthevestry——thestraw,thepapers,thepacking-cases,thedrywood,theoldworm-eatenpresses——alltheprobabilities,inmyestimation,pointtothefireastheresultofanaccidentwithhismatchesorhislight。
  Hisfirstimpulse,underthesecircumstances,wasdoubtlesstotrytoextinguishtheflames,andfailinginthat,hissecondimpulseignorantashewasofthestateofthelockhadbeentoattempttoescapebythedoorwhichhadgivenhimentrance。WhenIhadcalledtohim,theflamesmusthavereachedacrossthedoorleadingintothechurch,oneithersideofwhichthepressesextended,andclosetowhichtheothercombustibleobjectswereplaced。Inallprobability,thesmokeandflameconfinedastheyweretotheroomhadbeentoomuchforhimwhenhetriedtoescapebytheinnerdoor。Hemusthavedroppedinhisdeath-swoon,hemusthavesunkintheplacewherehewasfound,justasIgotontherooftobreaktheskylightwindow。Evenifwehadbeenable,afterwards,togetintothechurch,andtoburstopenthedoorfromthatside,thedelaymusthavebeenfatal。Hewouldhavebeenpastsaving,longpastsaving,bythattime。
  Weshouldonlyhavegiventheflamesfreeingressintothechurch——thechurch,whichwasnowpreserved,butwhich,inthatevent,wouldhavesharedthefateofthevestry。Thereisnodoubtinmymind,therecanbenodoubtinthemindofanyone,thathewasadeadmanbeforeeverwegottotheemptycottage,andworkedwithmightandmaintoteardownthebeam。
  Thisisthenearestapproachthatanytheoryofminecanmaketowardsaccountingforaresultwhichwasvisiblematteroffact。AsIhavedescribedthem,soeventspassedtousoutside。AsIhaverelatedit,sohisbodywasfound。
  Theinquestwasadjournedoveroneday——noexplanationthattheeyeofthelawcouldrecognisehavingbeendiscoveredthusfartoaccountforthemysteriouscircumstancesofthecase。
  Itwasarrangedthatmorewitnessesshouldbesummoned,andthattheLondonsolicitorofthedeceasedshouldbeinvitedtoattend。Amedicalmanwasalsochargedwiththedutyofreportingonthementalconditionoftheservant,whichappearedatpresenttodebarhimfromgivinganyevidenceoftheleastimportance。Hecouldonlydeclare,inadazedway,thathehadbeenordered,onthenightofthefire,towaitinthelane,andthatheknewnothingelse,exceptthatthedeceasedwascertainlyhismaster。
  Myownimpressionwas,thathehadbeenfirstusedwithoutanyguiltyknowledgeonhisownparttoascertainthefactoftheclerk’sabsencefromhomeonthepreviousday,andthathehadbeenafterwardsorderedtowaitnearthechurchbutoutofsightofthevestrytoassisthismaster,intheeventofmyescapingtheattackontheroad,andofacollisionoccurringbetweenSirPercivalandmyself。Itisnecessarytoadd,thattheman’sowntestimonywasneverobtainedtoconfirmthisview。Themedicalreportofhimdeclaredthatwhatlittlementalfacultyhepossessedwasseriouslyshaken;nothingsatisfactorywasextractedfromhimattheadjournedinquest,andforaughtIknowtothecontrary,hemayneverhaverecoveredtothisday。
  IreturnedtothehotelatWelminghamsojadedinbodyandmind,soweakenedanddepressedbyallthatIhadgonethrough,astobequiteunfittoendurethelocalgossipabouttheinquest,andtoanswerthetrivialquestionsthatthetalkersaddressedtomeinthecoffee-room。Iwithdrewfrommyscantydinnertomycheapgarret-chambertosecuremyselfalittlequiet,andtothinkundisturbedofLauraandMarian。
  IfIhadbeenarichermanIwouldhavegonebacktoLondon,andwouldhavecomfortedmyselfwithasightofthetwodearfacesagainthatnight。
  ButIwasboundtoappear,ifcalledon,attheadjournedinquest,anddoublyboundtoanswermybailbeforethemagistrateatKnowlesbury。Ourslenderresourceshadsufferedalready,andthedoubtfulfuture——moredoubtfulthanevernow——mademedreaddecreasingourmeansunnecessarilybyallowingmyselfanindulgenceevenatthesmallcostofadoublerailwayjourneyinthecarriagesofthesecondclass。
  Thenextday——thedayimmediatelyfollowingtheinquest——wasleftatmyowndisposal。Ibeganthemorningbyagainapplyingatthepost-officeformyregularreportfromMarian。Itwaswaitingformeasbefore,anditwaswrittenthroughoutingoodspirits。Ireadtheletterthankfully,andthensetforthwithmymindateaseforthedaytogotoOldWelmingham,andtoviewthesceneofthefirebythemorninglight。
  WhatchangesmetmewhenIgotthere!
  Throughallthewaysofourunintelligibleworldthetrivialandterriblewalkhandinhandtogether。Theironyofcircumstancesholdsnomortalcatastropheinrespect。WhenIreachedthechurch,thetrampledconditionoftheburial-groundwastheonlyserioustracelefttotellofthefireandthedeath。Aroughhoardingofboardshadbeenknockedupbeforethevestrydoorway。Rudecaricatureswerescrawledonitalready,andthevillagechildrenwerefightingandshoutingforthepossessionofthebestpeep-holetoseethrough。OnthespotwhereIhadheardthecryforhelpfromtheburningroom,onthespotwherethepanic-strickenservanthaddroppedonhisknees,afussyflockofpoultrywasnowscramblingforthefirstchoiceofwormsaftertherain;andonthegroundatmyfeet,wherethedooranditsdreadfulburdenhadbeenlaid,aworkman’sdinnerwaswaitingforhim,tiedupinayellowbasin,andhisfaithfulcurinchargewasyelpingatmeforcomingnearthefood。Theoldclerk,lookingidlyattheslowcommencementoftherepairs,hadonlyoneinterestthathecouldtalkaboutnow——theinterestofescapingallblameforhisownpartonaccountoftheaccidentthathadhappened。Oneofthevillagewomen,whosewhitewildfaceIrememberedthepictureofterrorwhenwepulleddownthebeam,wasgigglingwithanotherwoman,thepictureofinanity,overanoldwashing-tub。ThereisnothingseriousinmortalityISolomoninallhisglorywasSolomonwiththeelementsofthecontemptiblelurkingineveryfoldofhisrobesandineverycornerofhispalace。
  AsIlefttheplace,mythoughtsturned,notforthefirsttime,tothecompleteoverthrowthatallpresenthopeofestablishingLaura’sidentityhadnowsufferedthroughSirPercival’sdeath。Hewasgone——andwithhimthechancewasgonewhichhadbeentheoneobjectofallmylaboursandallmyhopes。
  CouldIlookatmyfailurefromnotruerpointofviewthanthis?
  Supposehehadlived,wouldthatchangeofcircumstanceshavealteredtheresult?CouldIhavemademydiscoveryamarketablecommodity,evenforLaura’ssake,afterIhadfoundoutthatrobberyoftherightsofotherswastheessenceofSirPercival’scrime?CouldIhaveofferedthepriceofmysilenceforhisconfessionoftheconspiracy,whentheeffectofthatsilencemusthavebeentokeeptherightheirfromtheestates,andtherightownerfromthename?Impossible!IfSirPercivalhadlived,thediscovery,fromwhichinrayignoranceofthetruenatureoftheSecret
  Ihadhopedsomuch,couldnothavebeenminetosuppressortomakepublic,asIthoughtbest,forthevindicationofLaura’srights。IncommonhonestyandcommonhonourImusthavegoneatoncetothestrangerwhosebirthrighthadbeenusurped——Imusthaverenouncedthevictoryatthemomentwhenitwasminebyplacingmydiscoveryunreservedlyinthatstranger’shands——andImusthavefacedafreshallthedifficultieswhichstoodbetweenmeandtheoneobjectofmylife,exactlyasIwasresolvedinmyheartofheartstofacethemnow!
  IreturnedtoWelminghamwithmymindcomposed,feelingmoresureofmyselfandmyresolutionthanIhadfeltyet。
  OnmywaytothehotelIpassedtheendofthesquareinwhichMrsCathericklived。ShouldIgobacktothehouse,andmakeanotherattempttoseeher。
  No。ThatnewsofSirPercival’sdeath,whichwasthelastnewssheeverexpectedtohear,musthavereachedherhourssince。Alltheproceedingsattheinquesthadbeenreportedinthelocalpaperthatmorning——therewasnothingIcouldtellherwhichshedidnotknowalready。Myinterestinmakingherspeakhadslackened。Irememberedthefurtivehatredinherfacewhenshesaid,`ThereisnonewsofSirpercivalthatIdon’texpect——exceptthenewsofhisdeath。’Irememberedthestealthyinterestinhereyeswhentheysettledonmeatparting,aftershehadspokenthosewords。Someinstinct,deepinmyheart,whichIfelttobeatrueone,madetheprospectofagainenteringherpresencerepulsivetome——Iturnedawayfromthesquare,andwentstraightbacktothehotel。
  Somehourslater,whileIwasrestinginthecoffee-room,aletterwasplacedinmyhandsbythewaiter。Itwasaddressedtomebyname,andI
  foundoninquirythatithadbeenleftatthebarbyawomanjustasitwasneardusk,andjustbeforethegaswaslighted。Shehadsaidnothing,andshehadgoneawayagainbeforetherewastimetospeaktoher,oreventonoticewhomshewas。
  Iopenedtheletter。Itwasneitherdatednorsigned,andthehandwritingwaspalpablydisguised。BeforeIhadreadthefirstsentence,however,Iknewwhomycorrespondentwas——MrsCatherick。
  Theletterranasfollows——Icopyitexactly,wordforword:THESTORYCONTINUEDBYMRSCATHERICKSIR,——Youhavenotcomeback,asyousaidyouwould。Nomatter——Iknowthenews,andIwritetotellyouso。Didyouseeanythingparticularinmyfacewhenyouleftme?Iwaswondering,inmyownmind,whetherthedayofhisdownfallhadcomeatlast,andwhetheryouwerethechoseninstrumentforworkingit。Youwere,andyouhaveworkedit。
  Youwereweakenough,asIhaveheard,totryandsavehislife。Ifyouhadsucceeded,Ishouldhavelookeduponyouasmyenemy。Nowyouhavefailed,Iholdyouasmyfriend。Yourinquiriesfrightenedhimintothevestrybynight——yourinquiries,withoutyourprivityandagainstyourwill,haveservedthehatredandwreakedthevengeanceofthree-and-twentyyears。Thankyou,sir,inspiteofyourself。
  Iowesomethingtothemanwhohasdonethis。HowcanIpaymydebt?
  IfIwasayoungwomanstillImightsay,`Come,putyourarmroundmywaist,andkissme,ifyoulike。’Ishouldhavebeenfondenoughofyoueventogothatlength,andyouwouldhaveacceptedmyinvitation——youwould,sir,twentyyearsago!ButIamanoldwomannow。Well!Icansatisfyyourcuriosity,andpaymydebtinthatway。Youhadagreatcuriositytoknowcertainprivateaffairsofminewhenyoucametoseeme——privateaffairswhichallyoursharpnesscouldnotlookintowithoutmyhelp——
  privateaffairswhichyouhavenotdiscovered’evennow。Youshalldiscoverthem——yourcuriosityshallbesatisfied。Iwilltakeanytroubletopleaseyou,myestimableyoungfriend!