Inlessthanafortnightfromthetimeofhisleavingprisonallthesearrangementshadbeencompleted,andErnestfeltthathehadagainlinkedhimselfontothelifewhichhehadledbeforehisimprisonment——withafewimportantdifferences,however,whichweregreatlytohisadvantage。Hewasnolongeraclergyman;hewasabouttomarryawomantowhomhewasmuchattached,andhehadpartedcompanyforeverwithhisfatherandmother。
True,hehadlostallhismoney,hisreputation,andhispositionasagentleman;hehad,infact,hadtoburnhishousedowninordertogethisroastsuckingpig;butifaskedwhetherhewouldratherbeashewasnoworashewasonthedaybeforehisarrest,hewouldnothavehadamoment’shesitationinpreferringhispresenttohispast。Ifhispresentcouldonlyhavebeenpurchasedattheexpenseofallthathehadgonethrough,itwasstillworthpurchasingattheprice,andhewouldgothroughitallagainifnecessary。Thelossofthemoneywastheworst,butEllensaidshewassuretheywouldgeton,andsheknewallaboutit。Asforthelossofreputation——consideringthathehadEllenandmeleft,itdidnotcometomuch。
Isawthehouseontheafternoonofthedayonwhichallwasfinished,andthereremainednothingbuttobuysomestockandbeginselling。WhenIwasgone,afterhehadhadhistea,hestoleuptohiscastle——thefirstfloorfront。Helithispipeandsatdowntothepiano。HeplayedHandelforanhourorso,andthensethimselftothetabletoreadandwrite。Hetookallhissermonsandallthetheologicalworkshehadbeguntocomposeduringthetimehehadbeenaclergymanandputtheminthefire;ashesawthemconsumehefeltasthoughhehadgotridofanotherincubus。ThenhetookupsomeofthelittlepieceshehadbeguntowriteduringthelatterpartofhisundergraduatelifeatCambridge,andbegantocutthemaboutandre-writethem。Asheworkedquietlyatthesetillheheardtheclockstriketenanditwastimetogotobed,hefeltthathewasnownotonlyhappybutsupremelyhappy。
NextdayEllentookhimtoDebenham’sauctionrooms,andtheysurveyedthelotsofclotheswhichwerehungupallroundtheauctionroomtobeviewed。Ellenhadhadsufficientexperiencetoknowabouthowmucheachlotoughttofetch;sheoverhauledlotafterlot,andvaluedit;inaveryshorttimeErnesthimselfbegantohaveaprettyfairideawhateachlotshouldgofor,andbeforethemorningwasovervaluedadozenlotsrunningatpricesaboutwhichEllensaidhewouldnothurtifhecouldgetthemforthat。
Sofarfromdislikingthisworkorfindingittedious,helikeditverymuch,indeedhewouldhavelikedanythingwhichdidnotovertaxhisphysicalstrength,andwhichheldoutaprospectofbringinghiminmoney。Ellenwouldnotlethimbuyanythingontheoccasionofthissale;shesaidhehadbetterseeonesalefirstandwatchhowpricesactuallywent。Soattwelveo’clockwhenthesalebegan,hesawthelotssoldwhichheandEllenhadmarked,andbythetimethesalewasoverheknewenoughtobeabletobidwithsafetywheneverheshouldactuallywanttobuy。Knowledgeofthissortisveryeasilyacquiredbyanyonewhoisinbonafidewantofit。
ButEllendidnotwanthimtobuyatauctions——notmuchatleastatpresent。Privatedealing,shesaid,wasbest。IfI,forexample,hadanycast-offclothes,hewastobuythemfrommylaundress,andgetaconnectionwithotherlaundresses,towhomhemightgiveatriflemorethantheygotatpresentforwhateverclothestheirmastersmightgivethem,andyetmakeagoodprofit。Ifgentlemensoldtheirthings,hewastotryandgetthemtoselltohim。Heflinchedatnothing;perhapshewouldhaveflinchedifhehadhadanyideahowoutrehisproceedingswere,buttheveryignoranceoftheworldwhichhadruinedhimuptillnow,byahappyironybegantoworkitsowncure。Ifsomemalignantfairyhadmeanttocursehiminthisrespect,shehadoverdonehermalice。Hedidnotknowhewasdoinganythingstrange。Heonlyknewthathehadnomoney,andmustprovideforhimself,awife,andapossiblefamily。Morethanthis,hewantedtohavesomeleisureinanevening,sothathemightreadandwriteandkeepuphismusic。Ifanyonewouldshowhimhowhecoulddobetterthanhewasdoing,heshouldbemuchobligedtothem,buttohimselfitseemedthathewasdoingsufficientlywell;forattheendofthefirstweekthepairfoundtheyhadmadeaclearprofitof3pounds。Inafewweeksthishadincreasedto4pounds,andbytheNewYeartheyhadmadeaprofitof5poundsinoneweek。
Ernesthadbythistimebeenmarriedsometwomonths,forhehadstucktohisoriginalplanofmarryingEllenonthefirstdayhecouldlegallydoso。ThisdatewasalittledelayedbythechangeofabodefromLaystallStreettoBlackfriars,butonthefirstdaythatitcouldbedoneitwasdone。Hehadneverhadmorethan250
poundsayear,eveninthetimesofhisaffluence,sothataprofitof5poundsaweek,ifitcouldbemaintainedsteadily,wouldplacehimwherehehadbeenasfarasincomewent,and,thoughheshouldhavetofeedtwomouthsinsteadofone,yethisexpensesinotherwaysweresomuchcurtailedbyhischangedsocialposition,that,takeitallround,hisincomewaspracticallywhatithadbeenatwelvemonthbefore。Thenextthingtodowastoincreaseit,andputbymoney。
Prosperitydepends,asweallknow,ingreatmeasureuponenergyandgoodsense,butitalsodependsnotalittleuponpureluck——thatistosay,uponconnectionswhichareinsuchatanglethatitismoreeasytosaythattheydonotexist,thantotrytotracethem。A
neighbourhoodmayhaveanexcellentreputationasbeinglikelytobearisingone,andyetmaybecomesuddenlyeclipsedbyanother,whichnoonewouldhavethoughtsopromising。Afeverhospitalmaydivertthestreamofbusiness,oranewstationattractit;solittle,indeed,canbecertainlyknown,thatitisbetternottotrytoknowmorethanisineverybody’smouth,andtoleavetheresttochance。
Luck,whichcertainlyhadnotbeentookindtomyherohitherto,nowseemedtohavetakenhimunderherprotection。Theneighbourhoodprospered,andhewithit。Itseemedasthoughhenosoonerboughtathingandputitintohisshop,thanitsoldwithaprofitoffromthirtytofiftypercent。Helearnedbook-keeping,andwatchedhisaccountscarefully,followingupanysuccessimmediately;hebegantobuyotherthingsbesidesclothes——suchasbooks,music,oddsandendsoffurniture,etc。Whetheritwasluckorbusinessaptitude,orenergy,orthepolitenesswithwhichhetreatedallhiscustomers,Icannotsay——buttothesurpriseofnoonemorethanhimself,hewentaheadfasterthanhehadanticipated,eveninhiswildestdreams,andbyEasterwasestablishedinastrongpositionastheownerofabusinesswhichwasbringinghiminbetweenfourandfivehundredayear,andwhichheunderstoodhowtoextend。
Ellenandhegotoncapitally,allthebetter,perhaps,becausethedisparitybetweenthemwassogreat,thatneitherdidEllenwanttobeelevated,nordidErnestwanttoelevateher。Hewasveryfondofher,andverykindtoher;theyhadinterestswhichtheycouldserveincommon;theyhadantecedentswithagoodpartofwhicheachwasfamiliar;theyhadeachofthemexcellenttempers,andthiswasenough。EllendidnotseemjealousatErnest’spreferringtositthegreaterpartofhistimeaftertheday’sworkwasdoneinthefirstfloorfrontwhereIoccasionallyvisitedhim。Shemighthavecomeandsatwithhimifshehadliked,but,somehoworother,shegenerallyfoundenoughtooccupyherdownbelow。Shehadthetactalsotoencouragehimtogooutofaneveningwheneverhehadamind,withoutintheleastcaringthatheshouldtakehertoo——andthissuitedErnestverywell。Hewas,Ishouldsay,muchhappierinhismarriedlifethanpeoplegenerallyare。
Atfirstithadbeenverypainfultohimtomeetanyofhisoldfriends,ashesometimesaccidentallydid,butthissoonpassed;
eithertheycuthim,orhecutthem;itwasnotnicebeingcutforthefirsttimeortwo,butafterthat,itbecameratherpleasantthannot,andwhenhebegantoseethathewasgoingahead,hecaredverylittlewhatpeoplemightsayabouthisantecedents。Theordealisapainfulone,butifaman’smoralandintellectualconstitutionarenaturallysound,thereisnothingwhichwillgivehimsomuchstrengthofcharacterashavingbeenwellcut。
Itwaseasyforhimtokeephisexpendituredown,forhistasteswerenotluxurious。Helikedtheatres,outingsintothecountryonaSunday,andtobacco,buthedidnotcareformuchelse,exceptwritingandmusic。Asfortheusualrunofconcerts,hehatedthem。
HeworshippedHandel;helikedOffenbach,andtheairsthatwentaboutthestreets,buthecaredfornothingbetweenthesetwoextremes。Music,therefore,costhimlittle。Asfortheatres,I
gothimandEllenasmanyordersastheyliked,sothesecostthemnothing。TheSundayoutingswereasmallitem;forashillingortwohecouldgetareturntickettosomeplacefarenoughoutoftowntogivehimagoodwalkandathoroughchangefortheday。
Ellenwentwithhimthefirstfewtimes,butshesaidshefoundittoomuchforher,therewereafewofheroldfriendswhomsheshouldsometimesliketosee,andtheyandhe,shesaid,wouldnothititoffperhapstoowell,soitwouldbebetterforhimtogoalone。Thisseemedsosensible,andsuitedErnestsoexactlythathereadilyfellintoit,nordidhesuspectdangerswhichwereapparentenoughtomewhenIheardhowshehadtreatedthematter。
Ikeptsilence,however,andforatimeallcontinuedtogowell。
AsIhavesaid,oneofhischiefpleasureswasinwriting。Ifamancarrieswithhimalittlesketchbookandiscontinuallyjottingdownsketches,hehastheartisticinstinct;ahundredthingsmayhinderhisduedevelopment,buttheinstinctisthere。Theliteraryinstinctmaybeknownbyaman’skeepingasmallnote-bookinhiswaistcoatpocket,intowhichhejotsdownanythingthatstrikeshim,oranygoodthingthathehearssaid,orareferencetoanypassagewhichhethinkswillcomeinusefultohim。Ernesthadsuchanote-
bookalwayswithhim。EvenwhenhewasatCambridgehehadbegunthepracticewithoutanyone’shavingsuggestedittohim。Thesenoteshecopiedoutfromtimetotimeintoabook,whichastheyaccumulated,hewasdrivenintoindexingapproximately,ashewentalong。WhenIfoundoutthis,Iknewthathehadtheliteraryinstinct,andwhenIsawhisnotesIbegantohopegreatthingsofhim。
ForalongtimeIwasdisappointed。Hewaskeptbackbythenatureofthesubjectshechose——whichweregenerallymetaphysical。InvainItriedtogethimawayfromthesetomatterswhichhadagreaterinterestforthegeneralpublic。WhenIbeggedhimtotryhishandatsomepretty,graceful,littlestorywhichshouldbefullofwhateverpeopleknewandlikedbest,hewouldimmediatelysettoworkuponatreatisetoshowthegroundsonwhichallbeliefrested。
“Youarestirringmud。”saidI,“orpokingatasleepingdog。Youaretryingtomakepeopleresumeconsciousnessaboutthings,which,withsensiblemen,havealreadypassedintotheunconsciousstage。
Themenwhomyouwoulddisturbareinfrontofyou,andnot,asyoufancy,behindyou;itisyouwhoarethelagger,notthey。”
Hecouldnotseeit。Hesaidhewasengagedonanessayuponthefamousquodsemper,quodubique,quodabomnibusofStVincentdeLerins。Thiswasthemoreprovokingbecauseheshowedhimselfabletodobetterthingsifhehadliked。
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