首页 >出版文学> The Way of All Flesh>第50章
  Thisadvice,besidesbeingobviouslysensible,wouldendinsavingErnestbothtimeandsuspenseofmind,sowehadnohesitationinadoptingit。Thecasewascalledonabouteleveno’clock,butwegotitadjournedtillthree,soastogivetimeforErnesttosethisaffairsasstraightashecould,andtoexecuteapowerofattorneyenablingmetoactforhimasIshouldthinkfitwhilehewasinprison。
  ThenallcameoutaboutPryerandtheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。ErnesthadevengreaterdifficultyinmakingacleanbreastofthisthanhehadhadintellingusaboutMissMaitland,buthetoldusall,andtheupshotwasthathehadactuallyhandedovertoPryereveryhalfpennythathethenpossessedwithnoothersecuritythanPryer’sI。O。U。’sfortheamount。Ernest,thoughstilldecliningtobelievethatPryercouldbeguiltyofdishonourableconduct,wasbecomingalivetothefollyofwhathehadbeendoing;
  hestillmadesure,however,ofrecovering,atanyrate,thegreaterpartofhispropertyassoonasPryershouldhavehadtimetosell。
  TowneleyandIwereofadifferentopinion,butwedidnotsaywhatwethought。
  Itwasdrearyworkwaitingallthemorningamidsuchunfamiliaranddepressingsurroundings。IthoughthowthePsalmisthadexclaimedwithquietirony,“Onedayinthycourtsisbetterthanathousand。”
  andIthoughtthatIcouldutteraverysimilarsentimentinrespectoftheCourtsinwhichTowneleyandIwerecompelledtoloiter。Atlast,aboutthreeo’clockthecasewascalledon,andwewentroundtothepartofthecourtwhichisreservedforthegeneralpublic,whileErnestwastakenintotheprisoner’sdock。Assoonashehadcollectedhimselfsufficientlyherecognisedthemagistrateastheoldgentlemanwhohadspokentohiminthetrainonthedayhewasleavingschool,andsaw,orthoughthesaw,tohisgreatgrief,thathetoowasrecognised。
  MrOttery,forthiswasourattorney’sname,tookthelinehehadproposed。Hecallednootherwitnessesthantherector,Towneleyandmyself,andthrewhimselfonthemercyofthemagistrate。Whenhehadconcluded,themagistratespokeasfollows:“ErnestPontifex,yoursisoneofthemostpainfulcasesthatIhaveeverhadtodealwith。Youhavebeensingularlyfavouredinyourparentageandeducation。Youhavehadbeforeyoutheexampleofblamelessparents,whodoubtlessinstilledintoyoufromchildhoodtheenormityoftheoffencewhichbyyourownconfessionyouhavecommitted。YouweresenttooneofthebestpublicschoolsinEngland。ItisnotlikelythatinthehealthyatmosphereofsuchaschoolasRoughboroughyoucanhavecomeacrosscontaminatinginfluences;youwereprobably,Imaysaycertainly,impressedatschoolwiththeheinousnessofanyattempttodepartfromthestrictestchastityuntilsuchtimeasyouhadenteredintoastateofmatrimony。AtCambridgeyouwereshieldedfromimpuritybyeveryobstaclewhichvirtuousandvigilantauthoritiescoulddevise,andevenhadtheobstaclesbeenfewer,yourparentsprobablytookcarethatyourmeansshouldnotadmitofyourthrowingmoneyawayuponabandonedcharacters。Atnightproctorspatrolledthestreetanddoggedyourstepsifyoutriedtogointoanyhauntwherethepresenceofvicewassuspected。Bydaythefemaleswhowereadmittedwithinthecollegewallswereselectedmainlyonthescoreofageandugliness。Itishardtoseewhatmorecanbedoneforanyyoungmanthanthis。Forthelastfourorfivemonthsyouhavebeenaclergyman,andifasingleimpurethoughthadstillremainedwithinyourmind,ordinationshouldhaveremovedit:nevertheless,notonlydoesitappearthatyourmindisasimpureasthoughnoneoftheinfluencestowhichIhavereferredhadbeenbroughttobearuponit,butitseemsasthoughtheironlyresulthadbeenthis——
  thatyouhavenoteventhecommonsensetobeabletodistinguishbetweenarespectablegirlandaprostitute。
  “IfIweretotakeastrictviewofmydutyIshouldcommityoufortrial,butinconsiderationofthisbeingyourfirstoffence,I
  shalldeallenientlywithyouandsentenceyoutoimprisonmentwithhardlabourforsixcalendarmonths。”
  TowneleyandIboththoughttherewasatouchofironyinthemagistrate’sspeech,andthathecouldhavegivenalightersentenceifhewould,butthatwasneitherherenorthere。WeobtainedleavetoseeErnestforafewminutesbeforehewasremovedtoColdbathFields,wherehewastoservehisterm,andfoundhimsothankfultohavebeensummarilydealtwiththathehardlyseemedtocareaboutthemiserableplightinwhichhewastopassthenextsixmonths。
  Whenhecameout,hesaid,hewouldtakewhatremainedofhismoney,goofftoAmericaorAustraliaandneverbeheardofmore。
  Welefthimfullofthisresolve,I,towritetoTheobald,andalsotoinstructmysolicitortogetErnest’smoneyoutofPryer’shands,andTowneleytoseethereportersandkeepthecaseoutofthenewspapers。Hewassuccessfulasregardsallthehigher-classpapers。Therewasonlyonejournal,andthatofthelowestclass,whichwasincorruptible。
  Isawmysolicitoratonce,butwhenItriedtowritetoTheobald,I
  founditbettertosayIwouldrundownandseehim。Ithereforeproposedthis,askinghimtomeetmeatthestation,andhintingthatImustbringbadnewsabouthisson。IknewhewouldnotgetmylettermorethanacoupleofhoursbeforeIshouldseehim,andthoughttheshortintervalofsuspensemightbreaktheshockofwhatIhadtosay。
  NeverdoIremembertohavehaltedmorebetweentwoopinionsthanonmyjourneytoBattersbyuponthisunhappyerrand。WhenIthoughtofthelittlesallow-facedladwhomIhadrememberedyearsbefore,ofthelongandsavagecrueltywithwhichhehadbeentreatedinchildhood——crueltynonethelessrealforhavingbeenduetoignoranceandstupidityratherthantodeliberatemalice;oftheatmosphereoflyingandself-laudatoryhallucinationinwhichhehadbeenbroughtup;ofthereadinesstheboyhadshowntoloveanythingthatwouldbegoodenoughtolethim,andofhowaffectionforhisparents,unlessIammuchmistaken,hadonlydiedinhimbecauseithadbeenkilledanew,againandagainandagain,eachtimethatithadtriedtospring。WhenIthoughtofallthisIfeltasthough,ifthematterhadrestedwithme,IwouldhavesentencedTheobaldandChristinatomentalsufferingevenmoreseverethanthatwhichwasabouttofalluponthem。Butontheotherhand,whenIthoughtofTheobald’sownchildhood,ofthatdreadfuloldGeorgePontifexhisfather,ofJohnandMrsJohn,andofhistwosisters,whenagainIthoughtofChristina’slongyearsofhopedeferredthatmakeththeheartsick,beforeshewasmarried,ofthelifeshemusthaveledatCrampsford,andofthesurroundingsinthemidstofwhichsheandherhusbandbothlivedatBattersby,Ifeltasthoughthewonderwasthatmisfortunessopersistenthadnotbeenfollowedbyevengraverretribution。
  Poorpeople!Theyhadtriedtokeeptheirignoranceoftheworldfromthemselvesbycallingitthepursuitofheavenlythings,andthenshuttingtheireyestoanythingthatmightgivethemtrouble。
  Asonhavingbeenborntothemtheyhadshuthiseyesalsoasfaraswaspracticable。Whocouldblamethem?Theyhadchapterandverseforeverythingtheyhadeitherdoneorleftundone;thereisnobetterthumbedprecedentthanthatforbeingaclergymanandaclergyman’swife。Inwhatrespecthadtheydifferedfromtheirneighbours?HowdidtheirhouseholddifferfromthatofanyotherclergymanofthebettersortfromoneendofEnglandtotheother?
  Whythenshouldithavebeenuponthem,ofallpeopleintheworld,thatthistowerofSiloamhadfallen?
  SurelyitwasthetowerofSiloamthatwasnaughtratherthanthosewhostoodunderit;itwasthesystemratherthanthepeoplethatwasatfault。IfTheobaldandhiswifehadbutknownmoreoftheworldandofthethingsthataretherein,theywouldhavedonelittleharmtoanyone。Selfishtheywouldhavealwaysbeen,butnotmoresothanmayverywellbepardoned,andnotmorethanotherpeoplewouldbe。Asitwas,thecasewashopeless;itwouldbenousetheirevenenteringintotheirmothers’wombsandbeingbornagain。Theymustnotonlybebornagainbuttheymustbebornagaineachoneofthemofanewfatherandofanewmotherandofadifferentlineofancestryformanygenerationsbeforetheirmindscouldbecomesuppleenoughtolearnanew。Theonlythingtodowiththemwastohumourthemandmakethebestofthemtilltheydied——
  andbethankfulwhentheydidso。
  TheobaldgotmyletterasIhadexpected,andmetmeatthestationnearesttoBattersby。AsIwalkedbackwithhimtowardshisownhouseIbrokethenewstohimasgentlyasIcould。Ipretendedthatthewholethingwasingreatmeasureamistake,andthatthoughErnestnodoubthadhadintentionswhichheoughttohaveresisted,hehadnotmeantgoinganythinglikethelengthwhichMissMaitlandsupposed。Isaidwehadfelthowmuchappearanceswereagainsthim,andhadnotdaredtosetupthisdefencebeforethemagistrate,thoughwehadnodoubtaboutitsbeingthetrueone。
  TheobaldactedwithareadierandacutermoralsensethanIhadgivenhimcreditfor。
  “Iwillhavenothingmoretodowithhim。”heexclaimedpromptly,“I
  willneverseehisfaceagain;donotlethimwriteeithertomeortohismother;weknowofnosuchperson。Tellhimyouhaveseenme,andthatfromthisdayforwardIshallputhimoutofmymindasthoughhehadneverbeenborn。Ihavebeenagoodfathertohim,andhismotheridolisedhim;selfishnessandingratitudehavebeentheonlyreturnwehaveeverhadfromhim;myhopehenceforthmustbeinmyremainingchildren。”