Thisadvice,besidesbeingobviouslysensible,wouldendinsavingErnestbothtimeandsuspenseofmind,sowehadnohesitationinadoptingit。Thecasewascalledonabouteleveno’clock,butwegotitadjournedtillthree,soastogivetimeforErnesttosethisaffairsasstraightashecould,andtoexecuteapowerofattorneyenablingmetoactforhimasIshouldthinkfitwhilehewasinprison。
ThenallcameoutaboutPryerandtheCollegeofSpiritualPathology。ErnesthadevengreaterdifficultyinmakingacleanbreastofthisthanhehadhadintellingusaboutMissMaitland,buthetoldusall,andtheupshotwasthathehadactuallyhandedovertoPryereveryhalfpennythathethenpossessedwithnoothersecuritythanPryer’sI。O。U。’sfortheamount。Ernest,thoughstilldecliningtobelievethatPryercouldbeguiltyofdishonourableconduct,wasbecomingalivetothefollyofwhathehadbeendoing;
hestillmadesure,however,ofrecovering,atanyrate,thegreaterpartofhispropertyassoonasPryershouldhavehadtimetosell。
TowneleyandIwereofadifferentopinion,butwedidnotsaywhatwethought。
Itwasdrearyworkwaitingallthemorningamidsuchunfamiliaranddepressingsurroundings。IthoughthowthePsalmisthadexclaimedwithquietirony,“Onedayinthycourtsisbetterthanathousand。”
andIthoughtthatIcouldutteraverysimilarsentimentinrespectoftheCourtsinwhichTowneleyandIwerecompelledtoloiter。Atlast,aboutthreeo’clockthecasewascalledon,andwewentroundtothepartofthecourtwhichisreservedforthegeneralpublic,whileErnestwastakenintotheprisoner’sdock。Assoonashehadcollectedhimselfsufficientlyherecognisedthemagistrateastheoldgentlemanwhohadspokentohiminthetrainonthedayhewasleavingschool,andsaw,orthoughthesaw,tohisgreatgrief,thathetoowasrecognised。
MrOttery,forthiswasourattorney’sname,tookthelinehehadproposed。Hecallednootherwitnessesthantherector,Towneleyandmyself,andthrewhimselfonthemercyofthemagistrate。Whenhehadconcluded,themagistratespokeasfollows:“ErnestPontifex,yoursisoneofthemostpainfulcasesthatIhaveeverhadtodealwith。Youhavebeensingularlyfavouredinyourparentageandeducation。Youhavehadbeforeyoutheexampleofblamelessparents,whodoubtlessinstilledintoyoufromchildhoodtheenormityoftheoffencewhichbyyourownconfessionyouhavecommitted。YouweresenttooneofthebestpublicschoolsinEngland。ItisnotlikelythatinthehealthyatmosphereofsuchaschoolasRoughboroughyoucanhavecomeacrosscontaminatinginfluences;youwereprobably,Imaysaycertainly,impressedatschoolwiththeheinousnessofanyattempttodepartfromthestrictestchastityuntilsuchtimeasyouhadenteredintoastateofmatrimony。AtCambridgeyouwereshieldedfromimpuritybyeveryobstaclewhichvirtuousandvigilantauthoritiescoulddevise,andevenhadtheobstaclesbeenfewer,yourparentsprobablytookcarethatyourmeansshouldnotadmitofyourthrowingmoneyawayuponabandonedcharacters。Atnightproctorspatrolledthestreetanddoggedyourstepsifyoutriedtogointoanyhauntwherethepresenceofvicewassuspected。Bydaythefemaleswhowereadmittedwithinthecollegewallswereselectedmainlyonthescoreofageandugliness。Itishardtoseewhatmorecanbedoneforanyyoungmanthanthis。Forthelastfourorfivemonthsyouhavebeenaclergyman,andifasingleimpurethoughthadstillremainedwithinyourmind,ordinationshouldhaveremovedit:nevertheless,notonlydoesitappearthatyourmindisasimpureasthoughnoneoftheinfluencestowhichIhavereferredhadbeenbroughttobearuponit,butitseemsasthoughtheironlyresulthadbeenthis——
thatyouhavenoteventhecommonsensetobeabletodistinguishbetweenarespectablegirlandaprostitute。
“IfIweretotakeastrictviewofmydutyIshouldcommityoufortrial,butinconsiderationofthisbeingyourfirstoffence,I
shalldeallenientlywithyouandsentenceyoutoimprisonmentwithhardlabourforsixcalendarmonths。”
TowneleyandIboththoughttherewasatouchofironyinthemagistrate’sspeech,andthathecouldhavegivenalightersentenceifhewould,butthatwasneitherherenorthere。WeobtainedleavetoseeErnestforafewminutesbeforehewasremovedtoColdbathFields,wherehewastoservehisterm,andfoundhimsothankfultohavebeensummarilydealtwiththathehardlyseemedtocareaboutthemiserableplightinwhichhewastopassthenextsixmonths。
Whenhecameout,hesaid,hewouldtakewhatremainedofhismoney,goofftoAmericaorAustraliaandneverbeheardofmore。
Welefthimfullofthisresolve,I,towritetoTheobald,andalsotoinstructmysolicitortogetErnest’smoneyoutofPryer’shands,andTowneleytoseethereportersandkeepthecaseoutofthenewspapers。Hewassuccessfulasregardsallthehigher-classpapers。Therewasonlyonejournal,andthatofthelowestclass,whichwasincorruptible。
Isawmysolicitoratonce,butwhenItriedtowritetoTheobald,I
founditbettertosayIwouldrundownandseehim。Ithereforeproposedthis,askinghimtomeetmeatthestation,andhintingthatImustbringbadnewsabouthisson。IknewhewouldnotgetmylettermorethanacoupleofhoursbeforeIshouldseehim,andthoughttheshortintervalofsuspensemightbreaktheshockofwhatIhadtosay。
NeverdoIremembertohavehaltedmorebetweentwoopinionsthanonmyjourneytoBattersbyuponthisunhappyerrand。WhenIthoughtofthelittlesallow-facedladwhomIhadrememberedyearsbefore,ofthelongandsavagecrueltywithwhichhehadbeentreatedinchildhood——crueltynonethelessrealforhavingbeenduetoignoranceandstupidityratherthantodeliberatemalice;oftheatmosphereoflyingandself-laudatoryhallucinationinwhichhehadbeenbroughtup;ofthereadinesstheboyhadshowntoloveanythingthatwouldbegoodenoughtolethim,andofhowaffectionforhisparents,unlessIammuchmistaken,hadonlydiedinhimbecauseithadbeenkilledanew,againandagainandagain,eachtimethatithadtriedtospring。WhenIthoughtofallthisIfeltasthough,ifthematterhadrestedwithme,IwouldhavesentencedTheobaldandChristinatomentalsufferingevenmoreseverethanthatwhichwasabouttofalluponthem。Butontheotherhand,whenIthoughtofTheobald’sownchildhood,ofthatdreadfuloldGeorgePontifexhisfather,ofJohnandMrsJohn,andofhistwosisters,whenagainIthoughtofChristina’slongyearsofhopedeferredthatmakeththeheartsick,beforeshewasmarried,ofthelifeshemusthaveledatCrampsford,andofthesurroundingsinthemidstofwhichsheandherhusbandbothlivedatBattersby,Ifeltasthoughthewonderwasthatmisfortunessopersistenthadnotbeenfollowedbyevengraverretribution。
Poorpeople!Theyhadtriedtokeeptheirignoranceoftheworldfromthemselvesbycallingitthepursuitofheavenlythings,andthenshuttingtheireyestoanythingthatmightgivethemtrouble。
Asonhavingbeenborntothemtheyhadshuthiseyesalsoasfaraswaspracticable。Whocouldblamethem?Theyhadchapterandverseforeverythingtheyhadeitherdoneorleftundone;thereisnobetterthumbedprecedentthanthatforbeingaclergymanandaclergyman’swife。Inwhatrespecthadtheydifferedfromtheirneighbours?HowdidtheirhouseholddifferfromthatofanyotherclergymanofthebettersortfromoneendofEnglandtotheother?
Whythenshouldithavebeenuponthem,ofallpeopleintheworld,thatthistowerofSiloamhadfallen?
SurelyitwasthetowerofSiloamthatwasnaughtratherthanthosewhostoodunderit;itwasthesystemratherthanthepeoplethatwasatfault。IfTheobaldandhiswifehadbutknownmoreoftheworldandofthethingsthataretherein,theywouldhavedonelittleharmtoanyone。Selfishtheywouldhavealwaysbeen,butnotmoresothanmayverywellbepardoned,andnotmorethanotherpeoplewouldbe。Asitwas,thecasewashopeless;itwouldbenousetheirevenenteringintotheirmothers’wombsandbeingbornagain。Theymustnotonlybebornagainbuttheymustbebornagaineachoneofthemofanewfatherandofanewmotherandofadifferentlineofancestryformanygenerationsbeforetheirmindscouldbecomesuppleenoughtolearnanew。Theonlythingtodowiththemwastohumourthemandmakethebestofthemtilltheydied——
andbethankfulwhentheydidso。
TheobaldgotmyletterasIhadexpected,andmetmeatthestationnearesttoBattersby。AsIwalkedbackwithhimtowardshisownhouseIbrokethenewstohimasgentlyasIcould。Ipretendedthatthewholethingwasingreatmeasureamistake,andthatthoughErnestnodoubthadhadintentionswhichheoughttohaveresisted,hehadnotmeantgoinganythinglikethelengthwhichMissMaitlandsupposed。Isaidwehadfelthowmuchappearanceswereagainsthim,andhadnotdaredtosetupthisdefencebeforethemagistrate,thoughwehadnodoubtaboutitsbeingthetrueone。
TheobaldactedwithareadierandacutermoralsensethanIhadgivenhimcreditfor。
“Iwillhavenothingmoretodowithhim。”heexclaimedpromptly,“I
willneverseehisfaceagain;donotlethimwriteeithertomeortohismother;weknowofnosuchperson。Tellhimyouhaveseenme,andthatfromthisdayforwardIshallputhimoutofmymindasthoughhehadneverbeenborn。Ihavebeenagoodfathertohim,andhismotheridolisedhim;selfishnessandingratitudehavebeentheonlyreturnwehaveeverhadfromhim;myhopehenceforthmustbeinmyremainingchildren。”
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