TheforegoinglettershowshowmuchgreaterwasChristina’sanxietyfortheeternalthanforthetemporalwelfareofhersons。Onewouldhavethoughtshehadsowedenoughofsuchreligiouswildoatsbythistime,butshehadplentystilltosow。Tomeitseemsthatthosewhoarehappyinthisworldarebetterandmorelovablepeoplethanthosewhoarenot,andthatthusintheeventofaResurrectionandDayofJudgement,theywillbethemostlikelytobedeemedworthyofaheavenlymansion。PerhapsadimunconsciousperceptionofthiswasthereasonwhyChristinawassoanxiousforTheobald’searthlyhappiness,orwasitmerelyduetoaconvictionthathiseternalwelfarewassomuchamatterofcourse,thatitonlyremainedtosecurehisearthlyhappiness?Hewasto“findhissonsobedient,affectionate,attentivetohiswishes,self-denyinganddiligent。”agoodlystringforsoothofallthevirtuesmostconvenienttoparents;hewasnevertohavetoblushforthefolliesofthose“whoowedhimsuchadebtofgratitude。”and“whosefirstdutyitwastostudyhishappiness。”Howlikematernalsolicitudeisthis!Solicitudeforthemostpartlesttheoffspringshouldcometohavewishesandfeelingsofitsown,whichmayoccasionmanydifficulties,fanciedorreal。Itisthisthatisatthebottomofthewholemischief;butwhetherthislastpropositionisgrantedorno,atanyrateweobservethatChristinahadasufficientlykeenappreciationofthedutiesofchildrentowardstheirparents,andfeltthetaskoffulfillingthemadequatelytobesodifficultthatshewasverydoubtfulhowfarErnestandJoeywouldsucceedinmasteringit。Itisplaininfactthathersupposedpartingglanceuponthemwasoneofsuspicion。ButtherewasnosuspicionofTheobald;thatheshouldhavedevotedhislifetohischildren——whythiswassuchamereplatitude,asalmosttogowithoutsaying。
How,letmeask,wasitpossiblethatachildonlyalittlepastfiveyearsold,trainedinsuchanatmosphereofprayersandhymnsandsumsandhappySundayevenings——tosaynothingofdailyrepeatedbeatingsoverthesaidprayersandhymns,etc。,aboutwhichourauthoressissilent——howwasitpossiblethataladsotrainedshouldgrowupinanyhealthyorvigorousdevelopment,eventhoughinherownwayhismotherwasundoubtedlyveryfondofhim,andsometimestoldhimstories?CantheeyeofanyreaderfailtodetectthecomingwrathofGodasabouttodescendupontheheadofhimwhoshouldbenurturedundertheshadowofsuchaletterastheforegoing?
IhaveoftenthoughtthattheChurchofRomedoeswiselyinnotallowingherprieststomarry。CertainlyitisamatterofcommonobservationinEnglandthatthesonsofclergymenarefrequentlyunsatisfactory。Theexplanationisverysimple,butissooftenlostsightofthatImayperhapsbepardonedforgivingithere。
TheclergymanisexpectedtobeakindofhumanSunday。Thingsmustnotbedoneinhimwhicharevenialintheweek-dayclasses。Heispaidforthisbusinessofleadingastricterlifethanotherpeople。
Itishisraisond’etre。Ifhisparishionersfeelthathedoesthis,theyapproveofhim,fortheylookuponhimastheirowncontributiontowardswhattheydeemaholylife。Thisiswhytheclergymanissooftencalledavicar——hebeingthepersonwhosevicariousgoodnessistostandforthatofthoseentrustedtohischarge。ButhishomeishiscastleasmuchasthatofanyotherEnglishman,andwithhim,aswithothers,unnaturaltensioninpublicisfollowedbyexhaustionwhentensionisnolongernecessary。Hischildrenarethemostdefencelessthingshecanreach,anditisontheminninecasesoutoftenthathewillrelievehismind。
Aclergyman,again,canhardlyeverallowhimselftolookfactsfairlyintheface。Itishisprofessiontosupportoneside;itisimpossible,therefore,forhimtomakeanunbiassedexaminationoftheother。
Weforgetthateveryclergymanwithalivingorcuracy,isasmuchapaidadvocateasthebarristerwhoistryingtopersuadeajurytoacquitaprisoner。Weshouldlistentohimwiththesamesuspenseofjudgment,thesamefullconsiderationoftheargumentsoftheopposingcounsel,asajudgedoeswhenheistryingacase。Unlessweknowthese,andcanstatetheminawaythatouropponentswouldadmittobeafairrepresentationoftheirviews,wehavenorighttoclaimthatwehaveformedanopinionatall。Themisfortuneisthatbythelawofthelandonesideonlycanbeheard。
TheobaldandChristinawerenoexceptionstothegeneralrule。WhentheycametoBattersbytheyhadeverydesiretofulfilthedutiesoftheirposition,andtodevotethemselvestothehonourandgloryofGod。ButitwasTheobald’sdutytoseethehonourandgloryofGodthroughtheeyesofaChurchwhichhadlivedthreehundredyearswithoutfindingreasontochangeasingleoneofitsopinions。
IshoulddoubtwhetherheevergotasfarasdoubtingthewisdomofhisChurchuponanysinglematter。Hisscentforpossiblemischiefwastolerablykeen;sowasChristina’s,anditislikelythatifeitherofthemdetectedinhimorherselfthefirstfaintsymptomsofawantoffaiththeywerenippednolessperemptorilyinthebud,thansignsofself-willinErnestwere——andIshouldimaginemoresuccessfully。YetTheobaldconsideredhimself,andwasgenerallyconsideredtobe,andindeedperhapswas,anexceptionallytruthfulperson;indeedhewasgenerallylookeduponasanembodimentofallthosevirtueswhichmakethepoorrespectableandtherichrespected。Inthecourseoftimeheandhiswifebecamepersuadedeventounconsciousness,thatnoonecouldevendwellundertheirroofwithoutdeepcauseforthankfulness。Theirchildren,theirservants,theirparishionersmustbefortunateipsofactothattheyweretheirs。Therewasnoroadtohappinesshereorhereafter,buttheroadthattheyhadthemselvestravelled,nogoodpeoplewhodidnotthinkastheydiduponeverysubject,andnoreasonablepersonwhohadwantsthegratificationofwhichwouldbeinconvenienttothem——TheobaldandChristina。
Thiswashowitcametopassthattheirchildrenwerewhiteandpuny;theyweresufferingfromHOME-SICKNESS。Theywerestarving,throughbeingover-crammedwiththewrongthings。Naturecamedownuponthem,butshedidnotcomedownonTheobaldandChristina。Whyshouldshe?Theywerenotleadingastarvedexistence。Therearetwoclassesofpeopleinthisworld,thosewhosin,andthosewhoaresinnedagainst;ifamanmustbelongtoeither,hehadbetterbelongtothefirstthantothesecond。
Iwillgivenomoreofthedetailsofmyhero’searlieryears。
Enoughthathestruggledthroughthem,andattwelveyearsoldkneweverypageofhisLatinandGreekGrammarsbyheart。HehadreadthegreaterpartofVirgil,HoraceandLivy,andIdonotknowhowmanyGreekplays:hewasproficientinarithmetic,knewthefirstfourbooksofEuclidthoroughly,andhadafairknowledgeofFrench。
Itwasnowtimehewenttoschool,andtoschoolhewasaccordinglytogo,underthefamousDrSkinnerofRoughborough。
TheobaldhadknownDrSkinnerslightlyatCambridge。Hehadbeenaburningandashininglightineverypositionhehadfilledfromhisboyhoodupwards。Hewasaverygreatgenius。Everyoneknewthis;
theysaid,indeed,thathewasoneofthefewpeopletowhomthewordgeniuscouldbeappliedwithoutexaggeration。HadhenottakenIdon’tknowhowmanyUniversityScholarshipsinhisfreshman’syear?HadhenotbeenafterwardsSeniorWrangler,FirstChancellor’sMedallistandIdonotknowhowmanymorethingsbesides?Andthen,hewassuchawonderfulspeaker;attheUnionDebatingClubhehadbeenwithoutarival,andhad,ofcourse,beenpresident;hismoralcharacter,——apointonwhichsomanygeniuseswereweak——wasabsolutelyirreproachable;foremostofall,however,amonghismanygreatqualities,andperhapsmoreremarkableeventhanhisgeniuswaswhatbiographershavecalled“thesimple-mindedandchild-likeearnestnessofhischaracter。”anearnestnesswhichmightbeperceivedbythesolemnitywithwhichhespokeevenabouttrifles。ItishardlynecessarytosayhewasontheLiberalsideinpolitics。
Hispersonalappearancewasnotparticularlyprepossessing。Hewasaboutthemiddleheight,portly,andhadacoupleoffiercegreyeyes,thatflashedfirefrombeneathapairofgreatbushybeetlingeyebrowsandoverawedallwhocamenearhim。Itwasinrespectofhispersonalappearance,however,that,ifhewasvulnerableatall,hisweakplacewastobefound。Hishairwhenhewasayoungmanwasred,butafterhehadtakenhisdegreehehadabrainfeverwhichcausedhimtohavehisheadshaved;whenhereappeared,hedidsowearingawig,andonewhichwasagooddealfurtheroffredthanhisownhairhadbeen。Henotonlyhadneverdiscardedhiswig,butyearbyyearithadedgeditselfalittlemoreandalittlemoreoffred,tillbythetimehewasforty,therewasnotatraceofredremaining,andhiswigwasbrown。
WhenDrSkinnerwasaveryyoungman,hardlymorethanfive-and-
twenty,thehead-mastershipofRoughboroughGrammarSchoolhadfallenvacant,andhehadbeenunhesitatinglyappointed。Theresultjustifiedtheselection。DrSkinner’spupilsdistinguishedthemselvesatwhicheverUniversitytheywentto。Hemouldedtheirmindsafterthemodelofhisown,andstampedanimpressionuponthemwhichwasindelibleinafter-life;whateverelseaRoughboroughmanmightbe,hewassuretomakeeveryonefeelthathewasaGod-
fearingearnestChristianandaLiberal,ifnotaRadical,inpolitics。Someboys,ofcourse,wereincapableofappreciatingthebeautyandloftinessofDrSkinner’snature。Somesuchboys,alas!
therewillbeineveryschool;uponthemDrSkinner’shandwasveryproperlyaheavyone。Hishandwasagainstthem,andtheirsagainsthimduringthewholetimeoftheconnectionbetweenthem。Theynotonlydislikedhim,buttheyhatedallthathemoreespeciallyembodied,andthroughouttheirlivesdislikedallthatremindedthemofhim。Suchboys,however,wereinaminority,thespiritoftheplacebeingdecidedlySkinnerian。
Ioncehadthehonourofplayingagameofchesswiththisgreatman。ItwasduringtheChristmasholidays,andIhadcomedowntoRoughboroughforafewdaystoseeAletheaPontifexwhowasthenlivingthereonbusiness。Itwasverygraciousofhimtotakenoticeofme,forifIwasalightofliteratureatallitwasoftheverylightestkind。
ItistruethatintheintervalsofbusinessIhadwrittenagooddeal,butmyworkshadbeenalmostexclusivelyforthestage,andforthosetheatresthatdevotedthemselvestoextravaganzaandburlesque。Ihadwrittenmanypiecesofthisdescription,fullofpunsandcomicsongs,andtheyhadhadafairsuccess,butmybestpiecehadbeenatreatmentofEnglishhistoryduringtheReformationperiod,inthecourseofwhichIhadintroducedCranmer,SirThomasMore,HenrytheEighth,CatherineofArragon,andThomasCromwellinhisyouthbetterknownastheMalleusMonachorum,andhadmadethemdanceabreak-down。Ihadalsodramatised“ThePilgrim’sProgress“foraChristmasPantomime,andmadeanimportantsceneofVanityFair,withMrGreatheart,Apollyon,Christiana,Mercy,andHopefulastheprincipalcharacters。TheorchestraplayedmusictakenfromHandel’sbestknownworks,butthetimewasagooddealaltered,andaltogetherthetuneswerenotexactlyasHandelleftthem。MrGreatheartwasverystoutandhehadarednose;heworeacapaciouswaistcoat,andashirtwithahugefrilldownthemiddleofthefront。HopefulwasuptoasmuchmischiefasIcouldgivehim;heworethecostumeofayoungswelloftheperiod,andhadacigarinhismouthwhichwascontinuallygoingout。
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