Pleasure,afterall,isasaferguidethaneitherrightorduty。
Forhardasitistoknowwhatgivesuspleasure,rightanddutyareoftenstillhardertodistinguishand,ifwegowrongwiththem,willleadusintojustassorryaplightasamistakenopinionconcerningpleasure。Whenmenburntheirfingersthroughfollowingafterpleasuretheyfindouttheirmistakeandgettoseewheretheyhavegonewrongmoreeasilythanwhentheyhaveburntthemthroughfollowingafterafanciedduty,orafanciedideaconcerningrightvirtue。Thedevil,infact,whenhedresseshimselfinangel’sclothes,canonlybedetectedbyexpertsofexceptionalskill,andsooftendoesheadoptthisdisguisethatitishardlysafetobeseentalkingtoanangelatall,andprudentpeoplewillfollowafterpleasureasamorehomelybutmorerespectableandonthewholemuchmoretrustworthyguide。
ReturningtoMrPontifex,overandabovehishavinglivedlongandprosperously,heleftnumerousoffspring,toallofwhomhecommunicatednotonlyhisphysicalandmentalcharacteristics,withnomorethantheusualamountofmodification,butalsonosmallshareofcharacteristicswhicharelesseasilytransmitted——Imeanhispecuniarycharacteristics。Itmaybesaidthatheacquiredthesebysittingstillandlettingmoneyrun,asitwere,rightupagainsthim,butagainsthowmanydoesnotmoneyrunwhodonottakeitwhenitdoes,orwho,eveniftheyholditforalittlewhile,cannotsoincorporateitwiththemselvesthatitshalldescendthroughthemtotheiroffspring?MrPontifexdidthis。Hekeptwhathemaybesaidtohavemade,andmoneyislikeareputationforability——moreeasilymadethankept。
Takehim,then,forallinall,Iamnotinclinedtobesosevereuponhimasmyfatherwas。Judgehimaccordingtoanyveryloftystandard,andheisnowhere。Judgehimaccordingtoafairaveragestandard,andthereisnotmuchfaulttobefoundwithhim。IhavesaidwhatIhavesaidintheforegoingchapteronceforall,andshallnotbreakmythreadtorepeatit。Itshouldgowithoutsayinginmodificationoftheverdictwhichthereadermaybeinclinedtopasstoohastily,notonlyuponMrGeorgePontifex,butalsouponTheobaldandChristina。AndnowIwillcontinuemystory。
ThebirthofhissonopenedTheobald’seyestoagooddealwhichhehadbutfaintlyrealisedhitherto。Hehadhadnoideahowgreatanuisanceababywas。Babiescomeintotheworldsosuddenlyattheend,andupseteverythingsoterriblywhentheydocome:whycannottheystealinuponuswithlessofashocktothedomesticsystem?
Hiswife,too,didnotrecoverrapidlyfromherconfinement;sheremainedaninvalidformonths;herewasanothernuisanceandanexpensiveone,whichinterferedwiththeamountwhichTheobaldlikedtoputbyoutofhisincomeagainst,ashesaid,arainyday,ortomakeprovisionforhisfamilyifheshouldhaveone。Nowhewasgettingafamily,sothatitbecameallthemorenecessarytoputmoneyby,andherewasthebabyhinderinghim。Theoristsmaysaywhattheylikeaboutaman’schildrenbeingacontinuationofhisownidentity,butitwillgenerallybefoundthatthosewhotalkinthiswayhavenochildrenoftheirown。Practicalfamilymenknowbetter。
AbouttwelvemonthsafterthebirthofErnesttherecameasecond,alsoaboy,whowaschristenedJoseph,andinlessthantwelvemonthsafterwards,agirl,towhomwasgiventhenameofCharlotte。
AfewmonthsbeforethisgirlwasbornChristinapaidavisittotheJohnPontifexesinLondon,and,knowinghercondition,passedagooddealoftimeattheRoyalAcademyexhibitionlookingatthetypesoffemalebeautyportrayedbytheAcademicians,forshehadmadeuphermindthatthechildthistimewastobeagirl。Aletheawarnedhernottodothis,butshepersisted,andcertainlythechildturnedoutplain,butwhetherthepicturescausedthisornoIcannotsay。
Theobaldhadneverlikedchildren。Hehadalwaysgotawayfromthemassoonashecould,andsohadtheyfromhim;oh,why,hewasinclinedtoaskhimself,couldnotchildrenbebornintotheworldgrownup?IfChristinacouldhavegivenbirthtoafewfull-grownclergymeninpriest’sorders——ofmoderateviews,butincliningrathertoEvangelicalism,withcomfortablelivingsandinallrespectsfacsimilesofTheobaldhimself——why,theremighthavebeenmoresenseinit;orifpeoplecouldbuyready-madechildrenatashopofwhateverageandsextheyliked,insteadofalwayshavingtomakethemathomeandtobeginatthebeginningwiththem——thatmightdobetter,butasitwashedidnotlikeit。HefeltashehadfeltwhenhehadbeenrequiredtocomeandbemarriedtoChristina——thathehadbeengoingonforalongtimequitenicely,andwouldmuchrathercontinuethingsontheirpresentfooting。Inthematterofgettingmarriedhehadbeenobligedtopretendhelikedit;buttimeswerechanged,andifhedidnotlikeathingnow,hecouldfindahundredunexceptionablewaysofmakinghisdislikeapparent。
ItmighthavebeenbetterifTheobaldinhisyoungerdayshadkickedmoreagainsthisfather:thefactthathehadnotdonesoencouragedhimtoexpectthemostimplicitobediencefromhisownchildren。Hecouldtrusthimself,hesaidandsodidChristina,tobemorelenientthanperhapshisfatherhadbeentohimself;hisdanger,hesaidandsoagaindidChristina,wouldberatherinthedirectionofbeingtooindulgent;hemustbeonhisguardagainstthis,fornodutycouldbemoreimportantthanthatofteachingachildtoobeyitsparentsinallthings。
HehadreadnotlongsinceofanEasterntraveller,who,whileexploringsomewhereinthemoreremotepartsofArabiaandAsiaMinor,hadcomeuponaremarkablyhardy,sober,industriouslittleChristiancommunity——alloftheminthebestofhealth——whohadturnedouttobetheactuallivingdescendantsofJonadab,thesonofRechab;andtwomeninEuropeancostume,indeed,butspeakingEnglishwithabrokenaccent,andbytheircolourevidentlyOriental,hadcomebeggingtoBattersbysoonafterwards,andrepresentedthemselvesasbelongingtothispeople;theyhadsaidtheywerecollectingfundstopromotetheconversionoftheirfellowtribesmentotheEnglishbranchoftheChristianreligion。True,theyturnedouttobeimpostors,forwhenhegavethemapoundandChristinafiveshillingsfromherprivatepurse,theywentandgotdrunkwithitinthenextvillagebutonetoBattersby;still,thisdidnotinvalidatethestoryoftheEasterntraveller。ThenthereweretheRomans——whosegreatnesswasprobablyduetothewholesomeauthorityexercisedbytheheadofafamilyoverallitsmembers。
SomeRomanshadevenkilledtheirchildren;thiswasgoingtoofar,butthentheRomanswerenotChristians,andknewnobetter。
ThepracticaloutcomeoftheforegoingwasaconvictioninTheobald’smind,andifinhis,theninChristina’s,thatitwastheirdutytobegintraininguptheirchildreninthewaytheyshouldgo,evenfromtheirearliestinfancy。Thefirstsignsofself-willmustbecarefullylookedfor,andpluckedupbytherootsatoncebeforetheyhadtimetogrow。Theobaldpickedupthisnumbserpentofametaphorandcherisheditinhisbosom。
BeforeErnestcouldwellcrawlhewastaughttokneel;beforehecouldwellspeakhewastaughttolisptheLord’sprayer,andthegeneralconfession。Howwasitpossiblethatthesethingscouldbetaughttooearly?Ifhisattentionflaggedorhismemoryfailedhim,herewasanillweedwhichwouldgrowapace,unlessitwerepluckedoutimmediately,andtheonlywaytopluckitoutwastowhiphim,orshuthimupinacupboard,ordockhimofsomeofthesmallpleasuresofchildhood。Beforehewasthreeyearsoldhecouldreadand,afterafashion,write。BeforehewasfourhewaslearningLatin,andcoulddoruleofthreesums。
Asforthechildhimself,hewasnaturallyofaneventemper,hedoteduponhisnurse,onkittensandpuppies,andonallthingsthatwoulddohimthekindnessofallowinghimtobefondofthem。Hewasfondofhismother,too,butasregardshisfather,hehastoldmeinlaterlifehecouldremembernofeelingbutfearandshrinking。ChristinadidnotremonstratewithTheobaldconcerningtheseverityofthetasksimposedupontheirboy,noryetastothecontinualwhippingsthatwerefoundnecessaryatlessontimes。
Indeed,whenduringanyabsenceofTheobald’sthelessonswereentrustedtoher,shefoundtohersorrowthatitwastheonlythingtodo,andshediditnolesseffectuallythanTheobaldhimself,neverthelessshewasfondofherboy,whichTheobaldneverwas,anditwaslongbeforeshecoulddestroyallaffectionforherselfinthemindofherfirst-born。Butshepersevered。
Strange!forshebelievedshedoteduponhim,andcertainlyshelovedhimbetterthaneitherofherotherchildren。Herversionofthematterwasthattherehadneveryetbeentwoparentssoself-
denyinganddevotedtothehighestwelfareoftheirchildrenasTheobaldandherself。ForErnest,averygreatfuture——shewascertainofit——wasinstore。Thismadeseverityallthemorenecessary,sothatfromthefirsthemighthavebeenkeptpurefromeverytaintofevil。Shecouldnotallowherselfthescopeforcastlebuildingwhich,weread,wasindulgedinbyeveryJewishmatronbeforetheappearanceoftheMessiah,fortheMessiahhadnowcome,buttherewastobeamillenniumshortly,certainlynotlaterthan1866,whenErnestwouldbejustabouttherightageforit,andamodernEliaswouldbewantedtoheralditsapproach。HeavenwouldbearherwitnessthatshehadnevershrunkfromtheideaofmartyrdomforherselfandTheobald,norwouldsheavoiditforherboy,ifhislifewasrequiredofherinherRedeemer’sservice。Oh,no!IfGodtoldhertoofferupherfirst-born,asHehadtoldAbraham,shewouldtakehimuptoPigburyBeaconandplungethe——no,thatshecouldnotdo,butitwouldbeunnecessary——someoneelsemightdothat。ItwasnotfornothingthatErnesthadbeenbaptisedinwaterfromtheJordan。Ithadnotbeenherdoing,noryetTheobald’s。Theyhadnotsoughtit。Whenwaterfromthesacredstreamwaswantedforasacredinfant,thechannelhadbeenfoundthroughwhichitwastoflowfromfarPalestineoverlandandseatothedoorofthehousewherethechildwaslying。Why,itwasamiracle!Itwas!Itwas!Shesawitallnow。TheJordanhadleftitsbedandflowedintoherownhouse。Itwasidletosaythatthiswasnotamiracle。Nomiraclewaseffectedwithoutmeansofsomekind;thedifferencebetweenthefaithfulandtheunbelieverconsistedintheveryfactthattheformercouldseeamiraclewherethelattercouldnot。TheJewscouldseenomiracleevenintheraisingofLazarusandthefeedingofthefivethousand。TheJohnPontifexeswouldseenomiracleinthismatterofthewaterfromtheJordan。Theessenceofamiraclelaynotinthefactthatmeanshadbeendispensedwith,butintheadoptionofmeanstoagreatendthathadnotbeenavailablewithoutinterference;andnoonewouldsupposethatDrJoneswouldhavebroughtthewaterunlesshehadbeendirected。ShewouldtellthistoTheobald,andgethimtoseeitinthe……andyetperhapsitwouldbebetternot。Theinsightofwomenuponmattersofthissortwasdeeperandmoreunerringthanthatofmen。ItwasawomanandnotamanwhohadbeenfilledmostcompletelywiththewholefulnessoftheDeity。Butwhyhadtheynottreasuredupthewaterafteritwasused?Itoughtnever,nevertohavebeenthrownaway,butithadbeen。Perhaps,however,thiswasforthebesttoo——theymighthavebeentemptedtosettoomuchstorebyit,anditmighthavebecomeasourceofspiritualdangertothem——perhapsevenofspiritualpride,theverysinofallotherswhichshemostabhorred。AsforthechannelthroughwhichtheJordanhadflowedtoBattersby,thatmatterednotmorethantheearththroughwhichtheriverraninPalestineitself。DrJoneswascertainlyworldly——veryworldly;so,sheregrettedtofeel,hadbeenherfather-in-law,thoughinalessdegree;spiritual,atheart,doubtless,andbecomingmoreandmorespiritualcontinuallyashegrewolder,stillhewastaintedwiththeworld,tillaveryfewhours,probably,beforehisdeath,whereassheandTheobaldhadgivenupallforChrist’ssake。THEYwerenotworldly。AtleastTheobaldwasnot。Shehadbeen,butshewassureshehadgrowningracesinceshehadleftoffeatingthingsstrangledandblood——thiswasasthewashinginJordanasagainstAbanaandPharpar,riversofDamascus。Herboyshouldnevertouchastrangledfowlnorablackpudding——that,atanyrate,shecouldseeto。HeshouldhaveacoralfromtheneighbourhoodofJoppa——therewerecoralinsectsonthosecoasts,sothatthethingcouldeasilybedonewithalittleenergy;shewouldwritetoDrJonesaboutit,etc。Andsoonforhourstogetherdayafterdayforyears。Truly,MrsTheobaldlovedherchildaccordingtoherlightswithanexceedinggreatfondness,butthedreamsshehaddreamedinsleepweresoberrealitiesincomparisonwiththosesheindulgedinwhileawake。
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