LESLIECOMESOVER
LesliecameovertothehouseofdreamsonefrostyOctobernight,whenmoonlitmistswerehangingovertheharborandcurlinglikesilverribbonsalongtheseawardglens。ShelookedasifsherepentedcomingwhenGilbertansweredherknock;butAnneflewpasthim,pouncedonher,anddrewherin。
"I’msogladyoupickedtonightforacall,"shesaidgaily。"Imadeupalotofextragoodfudgethisafternoonandwewantsomeonetohelpuseatit——beforethefire——whilewetellstories。PerhapsCaptainJimwilldropin,too。Thisishisnight。"
"No。CaptainJimisoverhome,"saidLeslie。"He——hemademecomehere,"sheadded,halfdefiantly。
"I’llsayathank-youtohimforthatwhenIseehim,"
saidAnne,pullingeasychairsbeforethefire。
"Oh,Idon’tmeanthatIdidn’twanttocome,"
protestedLeslie,flushingalittle。"I——I’vebeenthinkingofcoming——butitisn’talwayseasyformetogetaway。"
"OfcourseitmustbehardforyoutoleaveMr。
Moore,"saidAnne,inamatter-of-facttone。ShehaddecidedthatitwouldbebesttomentionDickMooreoccasionallyasanacceptedfact,andnotgiveunduemorbidnesstothesubjectbyavoidingit。Shewasright,forLeslie’sairofconstraintsuddenlyvanished。EvidentlyshehadbeenwonderinghowmuchAnneknewoftheconditionsofherlifeandwasrelievedthatnoexplanationswereneeded。Sheallowedhercapandjackettobetaken,andsatdownwithagirlishsnuggleinthebigarmchairbyMagog。Shewasdressedprettilyandcarefully,withthecustomarytouchofcolorinthescarletgeraniumatherwhitethroat。Herbeautifulhairgleamedlikemoltengoldinthewarmfirelight。Hersea-blueeyeswerefullofsoftlaughterandallurement。Forthemoment,undertheinfluenceofthelittlehouseofdreams,shewasagirlagain——agirlforgetfulofthepastanditsbitterness。Theatmosphereofthemanylovesthathadsanctifiedthelittlehousewasallabouther;thecompanionshipoftwohealthy,happy,youngfolksofherowngenerationencircledher;shefeltandyieldedtothemagicofhersurroundings——MissCorneliaandCaptainJimwouldscarcelyhaverecognizedher;Annefoundithardtobelievethatthiswasthecold,unresponsivewomanshehadmetontheshore——thisanimatedgirlwhotalkedandlistenedwiththeeagernessofastarvedsoul。AndhowhungrilyLeslie’seyeslookedatthebookcasesbetweenthewindows!
"Ourlibraryisn’tveryextensive,"saidAnne,"buteverybookinitisaFRIEND。We’vepickedourbooksupthroughtheyears,hereandthere,neverbuyingoneuntilwehadfirstreaditandknewthatitbelongedtotheraceofJoseph。"
Leslielaughed——beautifullaughterthatseemedakintoallthemirththathadechoedthroughthelittlehouseinthevanishedyears。
"Ihaveafewbooksoffather’s——notmany,"shesaid。
"I’vereadthemuntilIknowthemalmostbyheart。I
don’tgetmanybooks。There’sacirculatinglibraryattheGlenstore——butIdon’tthinkthecommitteewhopickthebooksforMr。ParkerknowwhatbooksareofJoseph’srace——orperhapstheydon’tcare。ItwassoseldomIgotoneIreallylikedthatIgaveupgettingany。"
"Ihopeyou’lllookonourbookshelvesasyourown,"
saidAnne。
"Youareentirelyandwholeheartedlywelcometotheloanofanybookonthem。"
"Youaresettingafeastoffatthingsbeforeme,"
saidLeslie,joyously。Then,astheclockstruckten,sherose,halfunwillingly。
"Imustgo。Ididn’trealiseitwassolate。CaptainJimisalwayssayingitdoesn’ttakelongtostayanhour。ButI’vestayedtwo——andoh,butI’veenjoyedthem,"sheaddedfrankly。
"Comeoften,"saidAnneandGilbert。Theyhadrisenandstoodtogetherinthefirelight’sglow。Leslielookedatthem——youthful,hopeful,happy,typifyingallshehadmissedandmustforevermiss。Thelightwentoutofherfaceandeyes;thegirlvanished;itwasthesorrowful,cheatedwomanwhoansweredtheinvitationalmostcoldlyandgotherselfawaywithapitifulhaste。
Annewatchedheruntilshewaslostintheshadowsofthechillandmistynight。Thensheturnedslowlybacktotheglowofherownradianthearthstone。
"Isn’tshelovely,Gilbert?Herhairfascinatesme。
MissCorneliasaysitreachestoherfeet。RubyGillishadbeautifulhair——butLeslie’sisALIVE——everythreadofitislivinggold。"
"Sheisverybeautiful,"agreedGilbert,soheartilythatAnnealmostwishedhewereaLITTLElessenthusiastic。
"Gilbert,wouldyoulikemyhairbetterifitwerelikeLeslie’s?"sheaskedwistfully。
"Iwouldn’thaveyourhairanycolorbutjustwhatitisfortheworld,"saidGilbert,withoneortwoconvincingaccompaniments。
Youwouldn’tbeANNEifyouhadgoldenhair——orhairofanycolorbut"——
"Red,"saidAnne,withgloomysatisfaction。
"Yes,red——togivewarmthtothatmilk-whiteskinandthoseshininggray-greeneyesofyours。Goldenhairwouldn’tsuityouatallQueenAnne——MYQueenAnne——queenofmyheartandlifeandhome。"
"ThenyoumayadmireLeslie’sallyoulike,"saidAnnemagnanimously。
CHAPTER13
AGHOSTLYEVENING
Oneevening,aweeklater,Annedecidedtorunoverthefieldstothehouseupthebrookforaninformalcall。
Itwasaneveningofgrayfogthathadcreptinfromthegulf,swathedtheharbor,filledtheglensandvalleys,andclungheavilytotheautumnalmeadows。
Throughittheseasobbedandshuddered。AnnesawFourWindsinanewaspect,andfounditweirdandmysteriousandfascinating;butitalsogaveheralittlefeelingofloneliness。Gilbertwasawayandwouldbeawayuntilthemorrow,attendingamedicalpow-wowinCharlottetown。Annelongedforanhouroffellowshipwithsomegirlfriend。CaptainJimandMissCorneliawere"goodfellows"each,intheirownway;
butyouthyearnedtoyouth。
"IfonlyDianaorPhilorPrisorStellacoulddropinforachat,"shesaidtoherself,"howdelightfulitwouldbe!ThisissuchaGHOSTLYnight。I’msurealltheshipsthateversailedoutofFourWindstotheirdoomcouldbeseentonightsailinguptheharborwiththeirdrownedcrewsontheirdecks,ifthatshroudingfogcouldsuddenlybedrawnaside。Ifeelasifitconcealedinnumerablemysteries——asifIweresurroundedbythewraithsofoldgenerationsofFourWindspeoplepeeringatmethroughthatgrayveil。Ifeverthedeardeadladiesofthislittlehousecamebacktorevisitittheywouldcomeonjustsuchanightasthis。IfIsithereanylongerI’llseeoneofthemthereoppositemeinGilbert’schair。Thisplaceisn’texactlycannytonight。EvenGogandMagoghaveanairofprickinguptheirearstohearthefootstepsofunseenguests。I’llrunovertoseeLesliebeforeI
frightenmyselfwithmyownfancies,asIdidlongagointhematteroftheHauntedWood。I’llleavemyhouseofdreamstowelcomebackitsoldinhabitants。Myfirewillgivethemmygood-willandgreeting——theywillbegonebeforeIcomeback,andmyhousewillbemineoncemore。TonightIamsureitiskeepingatrystwiththepast。"
Laughingalittleoverherfancy,yetwithsomethingofacreepysensationintheregionofherspine,AnnekissedherhandtoGogandMagogandslippedoutintothefog,withsomeofthenewmagazinesunderherarmforLeslie。
"Leslie’swildforbooksandmagazines,"MissCorneliahadtoldher,"andshehardlyeverseesone。Shecan’taffordtobuythemorsubscribeforthem。She’sreallypitifullypoor,Anne。Idon’tseehowshemakesouttoliveatallonthelittlerentthefarmbringsin。
Sheneverevenhintsacomplaintonthescoreofpoverty,butIknowwhatitmustbe。She’sbeenhandicappedbyitallherlife。Shedidn’tminditwhenshewasfreeandambitious,butitmustgallnow,believeME。I’mgladsheseemedsobrightandmerrytheeveningshespentwithyou。CaptainJimtoldmehehadfairlytoputhercapandcoatonandpushheroutofthedoor。Don’tbetoolonggoingtoseehereither。Ifyouareshe’llthinkit’sbecauseyoudon’tlikethesightofDick,andshe’llcrawlintohershellagain。Dick’sagreat,big,harmlessbaby,butthatsillygrinandchuckleofhisdogetonsomepeople’snerves。Thankgoodness,I’venonervesmyself。IlikeDickMoorebetternowthanIeverdidwhenhewasinhisrightsenses——thoughtheLordknowsthatisn’tsayingmuch。IwasdownthereonedayinhousecleaningtimehelpingLeslieabit,andIwasfryingdoughnuts。
Dickwashangingroundtogetone,asusual,andallatoncehepickedupascaldinghotoneI’djustfishedoutanddroppeditonthebackofmyneckwhenIwasbendingover。Thenhelaughedandlaughed。BelieveME,Anne,ittookallthegraceofGodinmyhearttokeepmefromjustwhiskingupthatstew-panofboilingfatandpouringitoverhishead。"
AnnelaughedoverMissCornelia’swrathasshespedthroughthedarkness。Butlaughteraccordedillwiththatnight。Shewassoberenoughwhenshereachedthehouseamongthewillows。Everythingwasverysilent。
Thefrontpartofthehouseseemeddarkanddeserted,soAnneslippedroundtothesidedoor,whichopenedfromtheverandaintoalittlesittingroom。Thereshehaltednoiselessly。
Thedoorwasopen。Beyond,inthedimlylightedroom,satLeslieMoore,withherarmsflungoutonthetableandherheadbentuponthem。Shewasweepinghorribly——withlow,fierce,chokingsobs,asifsomeagonyinhersoulweretryingtotearitselfout。Anoldblackdogwassittingbyher,hisnoserestingonhislap,hisbigdoggisheyesfullofmute,imploringsympathyanddevotion。Annedrewbackindismay。Shefeltthatshecouldnotintermeddlewiththisbitterness。Herheartachedwithasympathyshemightnotutter。Togoinnowwouldbetoshutthedoorforeveronanypossiblehelporfriendship。SomeinstinctwarnedAnnethattheproud,bittergirlwouldneverforgivetheonewhothussurprisedherinherabandonmentofdespair。
Anneslippednoiselesslyfromtheverandaandfoundherwayacrosstheyard。Beyond,sheheardvoicesinthegloomandsawthedimglowofalight。Atthegateshemettwomen——CaptainJimwithalantern,andanotherwhosheknewmustbeDickMoore——abigman,badlygonetofat,withabroad,round,redface,andvacanteyes。
EveninthedulllightAnnegottheimpressionthattherewassomethingunusualabouthiseyes。
"Isthisyou,MistressBlythe?"saidCaptainJim。
"Now,now,youhadn’toughterberoamingaboutaloneonanightlikethis。Youcouldgetlostinthisfogeasierthannot。JestyouwaittillIseeDicksafeinsidethedoorandI’llcomebackandlightyouoverthefields。Iain’tgoingtohaveDr。BlythecominghomeandfindingthatyouwalkedcleanoverCapeLeforceinthefog。Awomandidthatonce,fortyyearsago。
"Soyou’vebeenovertoseeLeslie,"hesaid,whenherejoinedher。
"Ididn’tgoin,"saidAnne,andtoldwhatshehadseen。CaptainJimsighed。
"Poor,poor,littlegirl!Shedon’tcryoften,MistressBlythe——she’stoobraveforthat。Shemustfeelterriblewhenshedoescry。Anightlikethisishardonpoorwomenwhohavesorrows。There’ssomethingaboutitthatkinderbringsupallwe’vesuffered——orfeared。"
"It’sfullofghosts,"saidAnne,withashiver。
"ThatwaswhyIcameover——Iwantedtoclaspahumanhandandhearahumanvoice。
ThereseemtobesomanyINHUMANpresencesabouttonight。Evenmyowndearhousewasfullofthem。
Theyfairlyelbowedmeout。SoIfledoverhereforcompanionshipofmykind。"
"Youwererightnottogoin,though,MistressBlythe。
Lesliewouldn’thavelikedit。Shewouldn’thavelikedmegoinginwithDick,asI’dhavedoneifIhadn’tmetyou。IhadDickdownwithmeallday。IkeephimwithmeasmuchasIcantohelpLeslieabit。"
"Isn’ttheresomethingoddabouthiseyes?"askedAnne。
"Younoticedthat?Yes,oneisblueandt’otherishazel——hisfatherhadthesame。It’saMoorepeculiarity。ThatwaswhattoldmehewasDickMoorewhenIsawhimfirstdowninCuby。Ifithadn’ta-binforhiseyesImightn’ta-knownhim,withhisbeardandfat。Youknow,Ireckon,thatitwasmefoundhimandbroughthimhome。MissCorneliaalwayssaysI
shouldn’thavedoneit,butIcan’tagreewithher。ItwastheRIGHTthingtodo——andso’twastheonlything。
Thereain’tnoquestioninmymindaboutTHAT。ButmyoldheartachesforLeslie。She’sonlytwenty-eightandshe’seatenmorebreadwithsorrowthanmostwomendoineightyyears。"
Theywalkedoninsilenceforalittlewhile。
PresentlyAnnesaid,"Doyouknow,CaptainJim,Ineverlikewalkingwithalantern。Ihavealwaysthestrangestfeelingthatjustoutsidethecircleoflight,justoveritsedgeinthedarkness,Iamsurroundedbyaringoffurtive,sinisterthings,watchingmefromtheshadowswithhostileeyes。I’vehadthatfeelingfromchildhood。Whatisthereason?
IneverfeellikethatwhenI’mreallyinthedarkness——whenitiscloseallaroundme——I’mnottheleastfrightened。"
"I’vesomethingofthatfeelingmyself,"admittedCaptainJim。"Ireckonwhenthedarknessisclosetousitisafriend。Butwhenwesorterpushitawayfromus——divorceourselvesfromit,sotospeak,withlanternlight——itbecomesanenemy。Butthefogislifting。
There’sasmartwestwindrising,ifyounotice。Thestarswillbeoutwhenyougethome。"
Theywereout;andwhenAnnere-enteredherhouseofdreamstheredemberswerestillglowingonthehearth,andallthehauntingpresencesweregone。
CHAPTER14
NOVEMBERDAYS
ThesplendorofcolorwhichhadglowedforweeksalongtheshoresofFourWindsHarborhadfadedoutintothesoftgray-blueoflateautumnalhills。Therecamemanydayswhenfieldsandshoresweredimwithmistyrain,orshiveringbeforethebreathofamelancholysea-wind——nights,too,ofstormandtempest,whenAnnesometimeswakenedtopraythatnoshipmightbebeatingupthegrimnorthshore,forifitweresonoteventhegreat,faithfullightwhirlingthroughthedarknessunafraid,couldavailtoguideitintosafehaven。
"InNovemberIsometimesfeelasifspringcouldnevercomeagain,"shesighed,grievingoverthehopelessunsightlinessofherfrostedandbedraggledflower-plots。Thegaylittlegardenoftheschoolmaster’sbridewasratheraforlornplacenow,andtheLombardiesandbircheswereunderbarepoles,asCaptainJimsaid。Butthefir-woodbehindthelittlehousewasforevergreenandstaunch;andeveninNovemberandDecembertherecamegraciousdaysofsunshineandpurplehazes,whentheharbordancedandsparkledasblithelyasinmidsummer,andthegulfwassosoftlyblueandtenderthatthestormandthewildwindseemedonlythingsofalong-pastdream。
AnneandGilbertspentmanyanautumneveningatthelighthouse。Itwasalwaysacheeryplace。Evenwhentheeastwindsanginminorandtheseawasdeadandgray,hintsofsunshineseemedtobelurkingallaboutit。PerhapsthiswasbecausetheFirstMatealwaysparadeditinpanoplyofgold。Hewassolargeandeffulgentthatonehardlymissedthesun,andhisresoundingpurrsformedapleasantaccompanimenttothelaughterandconversationwhichwentonaroundCaptainJim’sfireplace。CaptainJimandGilberthadmanylongdiscussionsandhighconverseonmattersbeyondthekenofcatorking。
"Iliketoponderonallkindsofproblems,thoughI
can’tsolve’em,"saidCaptainJim。"Myfatherheldthatweshouldnevertalkofthingswecouldn’tunderstand,butifwedidn’t,doctor,thesubjectsforconversationwouldbemightyfew。Ireckonthegodslaughmanyatimetohearus,butwhatmatterssolongaswerememberthatwe’reonlymenanddon’ttaketofancyingthatwe’regodsourselves,really,knowinggoodandevil。Ireckonourpow-wowswon’tdousoranyonemuchharm,solet’shaveanotherwhackatthewhence,whyandwhitherthisevening,doctor。"
Whilethey"whacked,"Annelistenedordreamed。
SometimesLesliewenttothelighthousewiththem,andsheandAnnewanderedalongtheshoreintheeerietwilight,orsatontherocksbelowthelighthouseuntilthedarknessdrovethembacktothecheerofthedriftwoodfire。ThenCaptainJimwouldbrewthemteaandtellthem"talesoflandandseaAndwhatsoevermightbetideThegreatforgottenworldoutside。"
Leslieseemedalwaystoenjoythoselighthousecarousalsverymuch,andbloomedoutforthetimebeingintoreadywitandbeautifullaughter,orglowing-eyedsilence。TherewasacertaintangandsavorintheconversationwhenLesliewaspresentwhichtheymissedwhenshewasabsent。Evenwhenshedidnottalksheseemedtoinspireotherstobrilliancy。CaptainJimtoldhisstoriesbetter,Gilbertwasquickerinargumentandrepartee,AnnefeltlittlegushesandtricklesoffancyandimaginationbubblingtoherlipsundertheinfluenceofLeslie’spersonality。
"Thatgirlwasborntobealeaderinsocialandintellectualcircles,farawayfromFourWinds,"shesaidtoGilbertastheywalkedhomeonenight。"She’sjustwastedhere——wasted。"
"Weren’tyoulisteningtoCaptainJimandyourstrulytheothernightwhenwediscussedthatsubjectgenerally?WecametothecomfortingconclusionthattheCreatorprobablyknewhowtorunHisuniversequiteaswellaswedo,andthat,afterall,therearenosuchthingsas`wasted’lives,savingandexceptwhenanindividualwilfullysquandersandwasteshisownlife——whichLeslieMoorecertainlyhasn’tdone。AndsomepeoplemightthinkthataRedmondB。A。,whomeditorswerebeginningtohonor,was`wasted’asthewifeofastrugglingcountrydoctorintheruralcommunityofFourWinds。"
"Gilbert!"
"IfyouhadmarriedRoyGardner,now,"continuedGilbertmercilessly,"YOUcouldhavebeen`aleaderinsocialandintellectualcirclesfarawayfromFourWinds。’"
"GilbertBLYTHE!"
"YouKNOWyouwereinlovewithhimatonetime,Anne。"
"Gilbert,that’smean——`pisenmean,justlikeallthemen,’asMissCorneliasays。INEVERwasinlovewithhim。IonlyimaginedIwas。YOUknowthat。YouKNOW
I’dratherbeyourwifeinourhouseofdreamsandfulfillmentthanaqueeninapalace。"
Gilbert’sanswerwasnotinwords;butIamafraidthatbothofthemforgotpoorLesliespeedingherlonelywayacrossthefieldstoahousethatwasneitherapalacenorthefulfillmentofadream。
Themoonwasrisingoverthesad,darkseabehindthemandtransfiguringit。Herlighthadnotyetreachedtheharbor,thefurthersideofwhichwasshadowyandsuggestive,withdimcovesandrichgloomsandjewellinglights。
"Howthehomelightsshineouttonightthroughthedark!"saidAnne。"Thatstringofthemovertheharborlookslikeanecklace。AndwhatacoruscationthereisupattheGlen!Oh,look,Gilbert;thereisours。I’msogladweleftitburning。Ihatetocomehometoadarkhouse。OURhomelight,Gilbert!Isn’titlovelytosee?"
"Justoneofearth’smanymillionsofhomes,Anne——girl——butours——OURS——ourbeaconin`anaughtyworld。’Whenafellowhasahomeandadear,little,red-hairedwifeinitwhatmoreneedheaskoflife?"
"Well,hemightaskONEthingmore,"whisperedAnnehappily。"Oh,Gilbert,itseemsasifIjustCOULDN’T
waitforthespring。"
CHAPTER15
CHRISTMASATFOURWINDS
AtfirstAnneandGilberttalkedofgoinghometoAvonleaforChristmas;buteventuallytheydecidedtostayinFourWinds。"IwanttospendthefirstChristmasofourlifetogetherinourownhome,"
decreedAnne。
SoitfelloutthatMarillaandMrs。RachelLyndeandthetwinscametoFourWindsforChristmas。Marillahadthefaceofawomanwhohadcircumnavigatedtheglobe。Shehadneverbeensixtymilesawayfromhomebefore;andshehadnevereatenaChristmasdinneranywheresaveatGreenGables。
Mrs。Rachelhadmadeandbroughtwithheranenormousplumpudding。NothingcouldhaveconvincedMrs。RachelthatacollegegraduateoftheyoungergenerationcouldmakeaChristmasplumpuddingproperly;butshebestowedapprovalonAnne’shouse。
"Anne’sagoodhousekeeper,"shesaidtoMarillainthespareroomthenightoftheirarrival。"I’velookedintoherbreadboxandherscrappail。Ialwaysjudgeahousekeeperbythose,that’swhat。There’snothinginthepailthatshouldn’thavebeenthrownaway,andnostalepiecesinthebreadbox。Ofcourse,shewastrainedupwithyou——but,then,shewenttocollegeafterwards。Inoticeshe’sgotmytobaccostripequiltonthebedhere,andthatbigroundbraidedmatofyoursbeforeherliving-roomfire。Itmakesmefeelrightathome。"
Anne’sfirstChristmasinherownhousewasasdelightfulasshecouldhavewished。Thedaywasfineandbright;thefirstskimofsnowhadfallenonChristmasEveandmadetheworldbeautiful;theharborwasstillopenandglittering。
CaptainJimandMissCorneliacametodinner。LeslieandDickhadbeeninvited,butLesliemadeexcuse;theyalwayswenttoherUncleIsaacWest’sforChristmas,shesaid。
"She’dratherhaveitso,"MissCorneliatoldAnne。
"Shecan’tbeartakingDickwheretherearestrangers。
ChristmasisalwaysahardtimeforLeslie。Sheandherfatherusedtomakealotofit。"
MissCorneliaandMrs。Racheldidnottakeaveryviolentfancytoeachother。"Twosunsholdnottheircoursesinonesphere。"Buttheydidnotclashatall,forMrs。RachelwasinthekitchenhelpingAnneandMarillawiththedinner,anditfelltoGilberttoentertainCaptainJimandMissCornelia,——orrathertobeentertainedbythem,foradialoguebetweenthosetwooldfriendsandantagonistswasassuredlyneverdull。
"It’smanyayearsincetherewasaChristmasdinnerhere,MistressBlythe,"saidCaptainJim。"MissRussellalwayswenttoherfriendsintownforChristmas。ButIwasheretothefirstChristmasdinnerthatwasevereateninthishouse——andtheschoolmaster’sbridecookedit。Thatwassixtyyearsagotoday,MistressBlythe——andadayverylikethis——justenoughsnowtomakethehillswhite,andtheharborasblueasJune。Iwasonlyalad,andI’dneverbeeninvitedouttodinnerbefore,andIwastooshytoeatenough。I’vegotalloverTHAT。"
"Mostmendo,"saidMissCornelia,sewingfuriously。
MissCorneliawasnotgoingtositwithidlehands,evenonChristmas。
Babiescomewithoutanyconsiderationforholidays,andtherewasoneexpectedinapoverty-strickenhouseholdatGlenSt。Mary。MissCorneliahadsentthathouseholdasubstantialdinnerforitslittleswarm,andsomeanttoeatherownwithacomfortableconscience。
"Well,youknow,thewaytoaman’sheartisthroughhisstomach,Cornelia,"explainedCaptainJim。
"Ibelieveyou——whenheHASaheart,"retortedMissCornelia。"Isupposethat’swhysomanywomenkillthemselvescooking——justaspoorAmeliaBaxterdid。
ShediedlastChristmasmorning,andshesaiditwasthefirstChristmassinceshewasmarriedthatshedidn’thavetocookabig,twenty-platedinner。Itmusthavebeenarealpleasantchangeforher。Well,she’sbeendeadayear,soyou’llsoonhearofHoraceBaxtertakingnotice。"
"Iheardhewastakingnoticealready,"saidCaptainJim,winkingatGilbert。"Wasn’theuptoyourplaceoneSundaylately,withhisfuneralblackson,andaboiledcollar?"
"No,hewasn’t。Andheneedn’tcomeneither。Icouldhavehadhimlongagowhenhewasfresh。Idon’twantanysecond-handgoods,believeME。AsforHoraceBaxter,hewasinfinancialdifficultiesayearagolastsummer,andheprayedtotheLordforhelp;andwhenhiswifediedandhegotherlifeinsurancehesaidhebelieveditwastheanswertohisprayer。
Wasn’tthatlikeaman?"
"Haveyoureallyproofthathesaidthat,Cornelia?"
"IhavetheMethodistminister’swordforit——ifyoucallTHATproof。RobertBaxtertoldmethesamethingtoo,butIadmitTHATisn’tevidence。RobertBaxterisn’toftenknowntotellthetruth。"
"Come,come,Cornelia,Ithinkhegenerallytellsthetruth,buthechangeshisopinionsooftenitsometimessoundsasifhedidn’t。"
"Itsoundslikeitmightyoften,believeME。Buttrustonemantoexcuseanother。IhavenouseforRobertBaxter。HeturnedMethodistjustbecausethePresbyterianchoirhappenedtobesinging`Beholdthebridegroomcometh’foracollectionpiecewhenhimandMargaretwalkeduptheaisletheSundayaftertheyweremarried。Servedhimrightforbeinglate!Healwaysinsistedthechoirdiditonpurposetoinsulthim,asifhewasofthatmuchimportance。Butthatfamilyalwaysthoughttheyweremuchbiggerpotatoesthantheyreallywere。HisbrotherEliphaletimaginedthedevilwasalwaysathiselbow——but_I_neverbelievedthedevilwastedthatmuchtimeonhim。"
"I——don’t——know,"saidCaptainJimthoughtfully。
"EliphaletBaxterlivedtoomuchalone——hadn’tevenacatordogtokeephimhuman。Whenamanisalonehe’smightyapttobewiththedevil——ifheain’twithGod。
Hehastochoosewhichcompanyhe’llkeep,Ireckon。
IfthedevilalwayswasatLifeBaxter’selbowitmusthavebeenbecauseLifelikedtohavehimthere。"
"Man-like,"saidMissCornelia,andsubsidedintosilenceoveracomplicatedarrangementoftucksuntilCaptainJimdeliberatelystirredherupagainbyremarkinginacasualway:
"IwasuptotheMethodistchurchlastSundaymorning。"
"You’dbetterhavebeenhomereadingyourBible,"wasMissCornelia’sretort。
"Come,now,Cornelia,_I_can’tseeanyharmingoingtotheMethodistchurchwhenthere’snopreachinginyourown。I’vebeenaPresbyterianforseventy-sixyears,anditisn’tlikelymytheologywillhoistanchoratthislateday。"
"It’ssettingabadexample,"saidMissCorneliagrimly。
"Besides,"continuedwickedCaptainJim,"Iwantedtohearsomegoodsinging。TheMethodistshaveagoodchoir;andyoucan’tdeny,Cornelia,thatthesinginginourchurchisawfulsincethesplitinthechoir。"
"Whatifthesingingisn’tgood?They’redoingtheirbest,andGodseesnodifferencebetweenthevoiceofacrowandthevoiceofanightingale。"
"Come,come,Cornelia,"saidCaptainJimmildly,"I’veabetteropinionoftheAlmighty’searformusicthanTHAT。"
"Whatcausedthetroubleinourchoir?"askedGilbert,whowassufferingfromsuppressedlaughter。
"Itdatesbacktothenewchurch,threeyearsago,"
answeredCaptainJim。"Wehadafearfultimeoverthebuildingofthatchurch——felloutoverthequestionofanewsite。Thetwositeswasn’tmore’ntwohundredyardsapart,butyou’dhavethoughttheywasathousandbythebitternessofthatfight。Wewassplitupintothreefactions——onewantedtheeastsiteandonethesouth,andoneheldtotheold。Itwasfoughtoutinbedandatboard,andinchurchandatmarket。Alltheoldscandalsofthreegenerationsweredraggedoutoftheirgravesandaired。Threematcheswasbrokenupbyit。Andthemeetingswehadtotrytosettlethequestion!Cornelia,willyoueverforgettheonewhenoldLutherBurnsgotupandmadeaspeech?HEstatedhisopinionsforcibly。"
"Callaspadeaspade,Captain。Youmeanhegotred-madandrakedthemall,foreandaft。Theydeservedittoo——apackofincapables。Butwhatwouldyouexpectofacommitteeofmen?Thatbuildingcommitteeheldtwenty-sevenmeetings,andattheendofthetwenty-seventhweren’tnonearerhavingachurchthanwhentheybegun——notsonear,forafact,forinonefitofhurryingthingsalongthey’dgonetoworkandtoretheoldchurchdown,sotherewewere,withoutachurch,andnoplacebutthehalltoworshipin。"
"TheMethodistsofferedustheirchurch,Cornelia。"
"TheGlenSt。Marychurchwouldn’thavebeenbuilttothisday,"wentonMissCornelia,ignoringCaptainJim,"ifwewomenhadn’tjuststartedinandtookcharge。WesaidWEmeanttohaveachurch,ifthemenmeanttoquarreltilldoomsday,andweweretiredofbeingalaughing-stockfortheMethodists。WeheldONE
meetingandelectedacommitteeandcanvassedforsubscriptions。Wegotthem,too。Whenanyofthementriedtosassuswetoldthemthey’dtriedfortwoyearstobuildachurchanditwasourturnnow。Weshutthemupclose,believeME,andinsixmonthswehadourchurch。Ofcourse,whenthemensawweweredeterminedtheystoppedfightingandwenttowork,man-like,assoonastheysawtheyhadto,orquitbossing。Oh,womencan’tpreachorbeelders;buttheycanbuildchurchesandscareupthemoneyforthem。"
"TheMethodistsallowwomentopreach,"saidCaptainJim。
MissCorneliaglaredathim。
"IneversaidtheMethodistshadn’tcommonsense,Captain。WhatIsayis,Idoubtiftheyhavemuchreligion。"
"Isupposeyouareinfavorofvotesforwomen,MissCornelia,"saidGilbert。
"I’mnothankeringafterthevote,believeME,"saidMissCorneliascornfully。"_I_knowwhatitistocleanupafterthemen。Butsomeofthesedays,whenthemenrealizethey’vegottheworldintoamesstheycan’tgetitoutof,they’llbegladtogiveusthevote,andshouldertheirtroublesoveronus。That’sTHEIRscheme。Oh,it’swellthatwomenarepatient,believeME!"
"WhataboutJob?"suggestedCaptainJim。
"Job!Itwassuchararethingtofindapatientmanthatwhenonewasreallydiscoveredtheyweredeterminedheshouldn’tbeforgotten,"retortedMissCorneliatriumphantly。"Anyhow,thevirtuedoesn’tgowiththename。ThereneverwassuchanimpatientmanbornasoldJobTayloroverharbor。"
"Well,youknow,hehadagooddealtotryhim,Cornelia。Evenyoucan’tdefendhiswife。IalwaysrememberwhatoldWilliamMacAllistersaidofheratherfuneral,`There’snaedootshewasaChreestianwumman,butshehadthede’il’sowntemper。’"
"IsupposesheWAStrying,"admittedMissCorneliareluctantly,"butthatdidn’tjustifywhatJobsaidwhenshedied。Herodehomefromthegraveyardthedayofthefuneralwithmyfather。Heneversaidawordtilltheygotnearhome。Thenheheavedabigsighandsaid,`Youmaynotbelieveit,Stephen,butthisisthehappiestdayofmylife!’Wasn’tthatlikeaman?"
"Is’posepooroldMrs。Jobdidmakelifekinderuneasyforhim,"reflectedCaptainJim。
"Well,there’ssuchathingasdecency,isn’tthere?
Evenifamanisrejoicinginhisheartoverhiswifebeingdead,heneedn’tproclaimittothefourwindsofheaven。Andhappydayornot,JobTaylorwasn’tlonginmarryingagain,youmightnotice。Hissecondwifecouldmanagehim。ShemadehimwalkSpanish,believeme!ThefirstthingshedidwastomakehimhustleroundandputupatombstonetothefirstMrs。
Job——andshehadaplaceleftonitforherownname。
Shesaidthere’dbenobodytomakeJobputupamonumenttoHER。"
"SpeakingofTaylors,howisMrs。LewisTaylorupattheGlen,doctor?"askedCaptainJim。
"She’sgettingbetterslowly——butshehastoworktoohard,"repliedGilbert。
"Herhusbandworkshardtoo——raisingprizepigs,"saidMissCornelia。"He’snotedforhisbeautifulpigs。
He’saheapprouderofhispigsthanofhischildren。
Butthen,tobesure,hispigsarethebestpigspossible,whilehischildrendon’tamounttomuch。Hepickedapoormotherforthem,andstarvedherwhileshewasbearingandrearingthem。Hispigsgotthecreamandhischildrengottheskimmilk。
"Therearetimes,Cornelia,whenIhavetoagreewithyou,thoughithurtsme,"saidCaptainJim。"That’sjustexactlythetruthaboutLewisTaylor。WhenIseethosepoor,miserablechildrenofhis,robbedofallchildrenoughttohave,itp’isensmyownbiteandsupfordaysafterwards。"
GilbertwentouttothekitcheninresponsetoAnne’sbeckoning。Anneshutthedoorandgavehimaconnubiallecture。
"Gilbert,youandCaptainJimmuststopbaitingMissCornelia。Oh,I’vebeenlisteningtoyou——andIjustwon’tallowit。"
`Anne,MissCorneliaisenjoyingherselfhugely。Youknowsheis。’
"Well,nevermind。Youtwoneedn’teggheronlikethat。Dinnerisreadynow,and,Gilbert,DON’TletMrs。Rachelcarvethegeese。Iknowshemeanstooffertodoitbecauseshedoesn’tthinkyoucandoitproperly。Showheryoucan。"
"Ioughttobeableto。I’vebeenstudyingA-B-C-D
diagramsofcarvingforthepastmonth,"saidGilbert。
"Onlydon’ttalktomewhileI’mdoingit,Anne,forifyoudrivethelettersoutofmyheadI’llbeinaworsepredicamentthanyouwereinoldgeometrydayswhentheteacherchangedthem。"
Gilbertcarvedthegeesebeautifully。EvenMrs。Rachelhadtoadmitthat。Andeverybodyateofthemandenjoyedthem。Anne’sfirstChristmasdinnerwasagreatsuccessandshebeamedwithhousewifelypride。
Merrywasthefeastandlong;andwhenitwasovertheygatheredaroundthecheeroftheredhearthflameandCaptainJimtoldthemstoriesuntiltheredsunswunglowoverFourWindsHarbor,andthelongblueshadowsoftheLombardiesfellacrossthesnowinthelane。
"Imustbegettingbacktothelight,"hesaidfinally。"I’lljesthavetimetowalkhomebeforesundown。ThankyouforabeautifulChristmas,MistressBlythe。BringMasterDavydowntothelightsomenightbeforehegoeshome。
"Iwanttoseethosestonegods,"saidDavywitharelish。
CHAPTER16
NEWYEAR’SEVEATTHELIGHT
TheGreenGablesfolkwenthomeafterChristmas,Marillaundersolemncovenanttoreturnforamonthinthespring。MoresnowcamebeforeNewYear’s,andtheharborfrozeover,butthegulfstillwasfree,beyondthewhite,imprisonedfields。Thelastdayoftheoldyearwasoneofthosebright,cold,dazzlingwinterdays,whichbombarduswiththeirbrilliancy,andcommandouradmirationbutneverourlove。Theskywassharpandblue;thesnowdiamondssparkledinsistently;
thestarktreeswerebareandshameless,withakindofbrazenbeauty;thehillsshotassaultinglancesofcrystal。Eventheshadowsweresharpandstiffandclear-cut,asnopropershadowsshouldbe。Everythingthatwashandsomeseemedtentimeshandsomerandlessattractiveintheglaringsplendor;andeverythingthatwasuglyseemedtentimesuglier,andeverythingwaseitherhandsomeorugly。Therewasnosoftblending,orkindobscurity,orelusivemistinessinthatsearchingglitter。Theonlythingsthatheldtheirownindividualitywerethefirs——forthefiristhetreeofmysteryandshadow,andyieldsnevertotheencroachmentsofcruderadiance。
Butfinallythedaybegantorealisethatshewasgrowingold。Thenacertainpensivenessfelloverherbeautywhichdimmedyetintensifiedit;sharpangles,glitteringpoints,meltedawayintocurvesandenticinggleams。Thewhiteharborputonsoftgraysandpinks;thefar-awayhillsturnedamethyst。
"Theoldyearisgoingawaybeautifully,"saidAnne。
SheandLeslieandGilbertwereontheirwaytotheFourWindsPoint,havingplottedwithCaptainJimtowatchtheNewYearinatthelight。ThesunhadsetandinthesouthwesternskyhungVenus,gloriousandgolden,havingdrawnasneartoherearth-sisterasispossibleforher。ForthefirsttimeAnneandGilbertsawtheshadowcastbythatbrilliantstarofevening,thatfaint,mysteriousshadow,neverseensavewhenthereiswhitesnowtorevealit,andthenonlywithavertedvision,vanishingwhenyougazeatitdirectly。
"It’slikethespiritofashadow,isn’tit?"
whisperedAnne。"Youcanseeitsoplainlyhauntingyoursidewhenyoulookahead;butwhenyouturnandlookatit——it’sgone。"
"IhaveheardthatyoucanseetheshadowofVenusonlyonceinalifetime,andthatwithinayearofseeingityourlife’smostwonderfulgiftwillcometoyou,"
saidLeslie。Butshespokeratherhardly;perhapsshethoughtthateventheshadowofVenuscouldbringhernogiftoflife。Annesmiledinthesofttwilight;shefeltquitesurewhatthemysticshadowpromisedher。
TheyfoundMarshallElliottatthelighthouse。AtfirstAnnefeltinclinedtoresenttheintrusionofthislong-haired,long-beardedeccentricintothefamiliarlittlecircle。ButMarshallElliottsoonprovedhislegitimateclaimtomembershipinthehouseholdofJoseph。Hewasawitty,intelligent,well-readman,rivallingCaptainJimhimselfintheknackoftellingagoodstory。Theywereallgladwhenheagreedtowatchtheoldyearoutwiththem。
CaptainJim’ssmallnephewJoehadcomedowntospendNewYear’swithhisgreat-uncle,andhadfallenasleeponthesofawiththeFirstMatecurledupinahugegoldenballathisfeet。
"Ain’theadearlittleman?"saidCaptainJimgloatingly。"Idolovetowatchalittlechildasleep,MistressBlythe。It’sthemostbeautifulsightintheworld,Ireckon。Joedoeslovetogetdownhereforanight,becauseIhavehimsleepwithme。Athomehehastosleepwiththeothertwoboys,andhedoesn’tlikeit。"Whycan’tIsleepwithfather,UncleJim?"
sayshe。`EverybodyintheBiblesleptwiththeirfathers。’Asforthequestionsheasks,theministerhimselfcouldn’tanswerthem。Theyfairswampme。
`UncleJim,ifIwasn’tMEwho’dIbe?’and,`UncleJim,whatwouldhappenifGoddied?’Hefiredthemtwooffatmetonight,aforehewenttosleep。Asforhisimagination,itsailsawayfromeverything。Hemakesupthemostremarkableyarns——andthenhismothershutshimupintheclosetfortellingstories。Andhesitsdownandmakesupanotherone,andhasitreadytorelatetoherwhensheletshimout。Hehadoneformewhenhecomedowntonight。`UncleJim,’sayshe,solemnasatombstone,`Ihada’ventureintheGlentoday。’`Yes,whatwasit?’saysI,expectingsomethingquitestartling,butnowisepreparedforwhatIreallygot。`Imetawolfinthestreet,’sayshe,`a’normouswolfwithabig,redmoufandAWFUL
longteeth,UncleJim。’`Ididn’tknowtherewasanywolvesupattheGlen,’saysI。`Oh,hecomedtherefromfar,faraway,’saysJoe,`andIfoughthewasgoingtoeatmeup,UncleJim。’`Wereyouscared?’
saysI。`No,’causeIhadabiggun,’saysJoe,`andI
shotthewolfdead,UncleJim,——soliddead——andthenhewentuptoheavenandbitGod,’sayshe。Well,I
wasfairstaggered,MistressBlythe。"
Thehoursbloomedintomirtharoundthedriftwoodfire。
CaptainJimtoldtales,andMarshallElliottsangoldScotchballadsinafinetenorvoice;finallyCaptainJimtookdownhisoldbrownfiddlefromthewallandbegantoplay。Hehadatolerableknackoffiddling,whichallappreciatedsavetheFirstMate,whosprangfromthesofaasifhehadbeenshot,emittedashriekofprotest,andfledwildlyupthestairs。
"Can’tcultivateanearformusicinthatcatnohow,"
saidCaptainJim。"Hewon’tstaylongenoughtolearntolikeit。WhenwegottheorganupattheGlenchurcholdElderRichardsbouncedupfromhisseattheminutetheorganistbegantoplayandscuttleddowntheaisleandoutofthechurchattherateofno-man’s-business。ItremindedmesostrongoftheFirstMatetearinglooseassoonasIbegintofiddlethatIcomenearertolaughingoutloudinchurchthanIeverdidbeforeorsince。"
TherewassomethingsoinfectiousintherollickingtuneswhichCaptainJimplayedthatverysoonMarshallElliott’sfeetbegantotwitch。Hehadbeenanoteddancerinhisyouth。PresentlyhestartedupandheldouthishandstoLeslie。Instantlysheresponded。
Roundandroundthefirelitroomtheycircledwitharhythmicgracethatwaswonderful。Lesliedancedlikeoneinspired;thewild,sweetabandonofthemusicseemedtohaveenteredintoandpossessedher。Annewatchedherinfascinatedadmiration。Shehadneverseenherlikethis。Alltheinnaterichnessandcolorandcharmofhernatureseemedtohavebrokenlooseandoverflowedincrimsoncheekandglowingeyeandgraceofmotion。EventheaspectofMarshallElliott,withhislongbeardandhair,couldnotspoilthepicture。
Onthecontrary,itseemedtoenhanceit。MarshallElliottlookedlikeaVikingofelderdays,dancingwithoneoftheblue-eyed,golden-haireddaughtersoftheNorthland。
"ThepurtiestdancingIeversaw,andI’veseensomeinmytime,"declaredCaptainJim,whenatlastthebowfellfromhistiredhand。Lesliedroppedintoherchair,laughing,breathless。
"Ilovedancing,"shesaidaparttoAnne。"Ihaven’tdancedsinceIwassixteen——butIloveit。ThemusicseemstorunthroughmyveinslikequicksilverandI
forgeteverything——everything——exceptthedelightofkeepingtimetoit。Thereisn’tanyfloorbeneathme,orwallsaboutme,orroofoverme——I’mfloatingamidthestars。"
CaptainJimhunghisfiddleupinitsplace,besidealargeframeenclosingseveralbanknotes。
"Isthereanybodyelseofyouracquaintancewhocanaffordtohanghiswallswithbanknotesforpictures?"
heasked。"There’stwentyten-dollarnotesthere,notworththeglassoverthem。They’reoldBankofP。E。
Islandnotes。Hadthembymewhenthebankfailed,andIhad’emframedandhungup,partlyasaremindernottoputyourtrustinbanks,andpartlytogivemearealluxurious,millionairyfeeling。Hullo,Matey,don’tbescared。Youcancomebacknow。Themusicandrevelryisoverfortonight。Theoldyearhasjustanotherhourtostaywithus。I’veseenseventy-sixNewYearscomeinoverthatgulfyonder,MistressBlythe。"
"You’llseeahundred,"saidMarshallElliott。
CaptainJimshookhishead。
"No;andIdon’twantto——atleast,IthinkIdon’t。
Deathgrowsfriendlieraswegrowolder。Notthatoneofusreallywantstodiethough,Marshall。Tennysonspoketruthwhenhesaidthat。There’soldMrs。
WallaceupattheGlen。She’shadheapsoftroubleallherlife,poorsoul,andshe’slostalmosteveryoneshecaredabout。She’salwayssayingthatshe’llbegladwhenhertimecomes,andshedoesn’twanttosojournanylongerinthisvaleoftears。Butwhenshetakesasickspellthere’safuss!Doctorsfromtown,andatrainednurse,andenoughmedicinetokilladog。Lifemaybeavaleoftears,allright,buttherearesomefolkswhoenjoyweeping,Ireckon。"
Theyspenttheoldyear’slasthourquietlyaroundthefire。AfewminutesbeforetwelveCaptainJimroseandopenedthedoor。
"WemustlettheNewYearin,"hesaid。
Outsidewasafinebluenight。Asparklingribbonofmoonlightgarlandedthegulf。Insidethebartheharborshonelikeapavementofpearl。Theystoodbeforethedoorandwaited——CaptainJimwithhisripe,fullexperience,MarshallElliottinhisvigorousbutemptymiddlelife,GilbertandAnnewiththeirpreciousmemoriesandexquisitehopes,Lesliewithherrecordofstarvedyearsandherhopelessfuture。Theclockonthelittleshelfabovethefireplacestrucktwelve。
"Welcome,NewYear,"saidCaptainJim,bowinglowasthelaststrokediedaway。"Iwishyouallthebestyearofyourlives,mates。IreckonthatwhatevertheNewYearbringsuswillbethebesttheGreatCaptainhasforus——andsomehoworotherwe’llallmakeportinagoodharbor。"
CHAPTER17
AFOURWINDSWINTER
WintersetinvigorouslyafterNewYear’s。Big,whitedriftsheapedthemselvesaboutthelittlehouse,andpalmsoffrostcovereditswindows。Theharboricegrewharderandthicker,untiltheFourWindspeoplebegantheirusualwintertravellingoverit。Thesafewayswere"bushed"byabenevolentGovernment,andnightanddaythegaytinkleofthesleigh-bellssoundedonit。OnmoonlitnightsAnneheardtheminherhouseofdreamslikefairychimes。Thegulffrozeover,andtheFourWindslightflashednomore。DuringthemonthswhennavigationwasclosedCaptainJim’sofficewasasinecure。
"TheFirstMateandIwillhavenothingtodotillspringexceptkeepwarmandamuseourselves。ThelastlighthousekeeperusedalwaystomoveuptotheGleninwinter;butI’dratherstayatthePoint。TheFirstMatemightgetpoisonedorchewedupbydogsattheGlen。It’samitelonely,tobesure,withneitherthelightnorthewaterforcompany,butifourfriendscometoseeusoftenwe’llweatheritthrough。"
CaptainJimhadaniceboat,andmanyawild,gloriousspinGilbertandAnneandLesliehadovertheglibharboricewithhim。AnneandLeslietooklongsnowshoetrampstogether,too,overthefields,oracrosstheharborafterstorms,orthroughthewoodsbeyondtheGlen。Theywereverygoodcomradesintheirramblesandtheirfiresidecommunings。Eachhadsomethingtogivetheother——eachfeltlifethericherforfriendlyexchangeofthoughtandfriendlysilence;
eachlookedacrossthewhitefieldsbetweentheirhomeswithapleasantconsciousnessofafriendbeyond。But,inspiteofallthis,AnnefeltthattherewasalwaysabarrierbetweenLeslieandherself——aconstraintthatneverwhollyvanished。
"Idon’tknowwhyIcan’tgetclosertoher,"AnnesaidoneeveningtoCaptainJim。"Ilikehersomuch——Iadmirehersomuch——IWANTtotakeherrightintomyheartandcreeprightintohers。ButIcannevercrossthebarrier。"
"You’vebeentoohappyallyourlife,MistressBlythe,"saidCaptainJimthoughtfully。"Ireckonthat’swhyyouandLesliecan’tgetrealclosetogetherinyoursouls。Thebarrierbetweenyouisherexperienceofsorrowandtrouble。Sheain’tresponsibleforitandyouain’t;butit’sthereandneitherofyoucancrossit。"
"Mychildhoodwasn’tveryhappybeforeIcametoGreenGables,"saidAnne,gazingsoberlyoutofthewindowatthestill,sad,deadbeautyoftheleaflesstree-shadowsonthemoonlitsnow。
"Mebbenot——butitwasjusttheusualunhappinessofachildwhohasn’tanyonetolookafteritproperly。
Therehasn’tbeenanyTRAGEDYinyourlife,MistressBlythe。AndpoorLeslie’shasbeenalmostALL
tragedy。Shefeels,Ireckon,thoughmebbeshehardlyknowsshefeelsit,thatthere’savastdealinherlifeyoucan’tenternorunderstand——andsoshehastokeepyoubackfromit——holdyouoff,sotospeak,fromhurtingher。Youknowifwe’vegotanythingaboutusthathurtsweshrinkfromanyone’stouchonornearit。
Itholdsgoodwithoursoulsaswellasourbodies,I
reckon。Leslie’ssoulmustbenearraw——it’snowondershehidesitaway。"
"Ifthatwerereallyall,Iwouldn’tmind,CaptainJim。
Iwouldunderstand。Buttherearetimes——notalways,butnowandagain——whenIalmosthavetobelievethatLesliedoesn’t——doesn’tlikeme。SometimesIsurprisealookinhereyesthatseemstoshowresentmentanddislike——itgoessoquickly——butI’veseenit,I’msureofthat。Andithurtsme,CaptainJim。I’mnotusedtobeingdisliked——andI’vetriedsohardtowinLeslie’sfriendship。"
"Youhavewonit,MistressBlythe。Don’tyougocherishinganyfoolishnotionthatLesliedon’tlikeyou。Ifshedidn’tshewouldn’thaveanythingtodowithyou,muchlesschummingwithyouasshedoes。I
knowLeslieMooretoowellnottobesureofthat。"
"ThefirsttimeIeversawher,drivinghergeesedownthehillonthedayIcametoFourWinds,shelookedatmewiththesameexpression,"persistedAnne。"Ifeltit,eveninthemidstofmyadmirationofherbeauty。
Shelookedatmeresentfully——shedid,indeed,CaptainJim。"
"Theresentmentmusthavebeenaboutsomethingelse,MistressBlythe,andyoujestcomeinforashareofitbecauseyouhappenedpast。LeslieDOEStakesullenspellsnowandagain,poorgirl。Ican’tblameher,whenIknowwhatshehastoputupwith。Idon’tknowwhyit’spermitted。ThedoctorandIhavetalkedalotabuttheoriginofevil,butwehaven’tquitefoundoutallaboutityet。There’savastofonunderstandablethingsinlife,ain’tthere,MistressBlythe?
Sometimesthingsseemtoworkoutrealproper-like,sameaswithyouandthedoctor。Andthenagaintheyallseemtogocatawampus。There’sLeslie,socleverandbeautifulyou’dthinkshewasmeantforaqueen,andinsteadshe’scoopedupoverthere,robbedofalmosteverythingawoman’dvalue,withnoprospectexceptwaitingonDickMooreallherlife。Though,mindyou,MistressBlythe,Idaresayshe’dchooseherlifenow,suchasitis,ratherthanthelifeshelivedwithDickbeforehewentaway。THAT’Ssomethingaclumsyoldsailor’stonguemustn’tmeddlewith。Butyou’vehelpedLesliealot——she’sadifferentcreaturesinceyoucometoFourWinds。Usoldfriendsseethedifferenceinher,asyoucan’t。MissCorneliaandmewastalkingitovertheotherday,andit’soneofthemightyfewp’intsthatweseeeyetoeyeon。Sojestyouthrowoverboardanyideaofhernotlikingyou。"
Annecouldhardlydiscarditcompletely,fortherewereundoubtedlytimeswhenshefelt,withaninstinctthatwasnottobecombatedbyreason,thatLeslieharboredaqueer,indefinableresentmenttowardsher。Attimes,thissecretconsciousnessmarredthedelightoftheircomradeship;atothersitwasalmostforgotten;butAnnealwaysfeltthehiddenthornwasthere,andmightprickheratanymoment。ShefeltacruelstingfromitonthedaywhenshetoldLeslieofwhatshehopedthespringwouldbringtothelittlehouseofdreams。
Leslielookedatherwithhard,bitter,unfriendlyeyes。
"SoyouaretohaveTHAT,too,"shesaidinachokedvoice。Andwithoutanotherwordshehadturnedandgoneacrossthefieldshomeward。Annewasdeeplyhurt;
forthemomentshefeltasifshecouldneverlikeLeslieagain。ButwhenLesliecameoverafeweveningslatershewassopleasant,sofriendly,sofrank,andwitty,andwinsome,thatAnnewascharmedintoforgivenessandforgetfulness。Only,shenevermentionedherdarlinghopetoLeslieagain;nordidLeslieeverrefertoit。Butoneevening,whenlatewinterwaslisteningforthewordofspring,shecameovertothelittlehouseforatwilightchat;andwhenshewentawaysheleftasmall,whiteboxonthetable。
Annefounditaftershewasgoneandopeneditwonderingly。Initwasatinywhitedressofexquisiteworkmanship——delicateembroidery,wonderfultucking,sheerloveliness。Everystitchinitwashandwork;andthelittlefrillsoflaceatneckandsleeveswereofrealValenciennes。Lyingonitwasacard——"withLeslie’slove。"
"Whathoursofworkshemusthaveputonit,"saidAnne。"Andthematerialmusthavecostmorethanshecouldreallyafford。Itisverysweetofher。"
ButLesliewasbrusqueandcurtwhenAnnethankedher,andagainthelatterfeltthrownbackuponherself。
Leslie’sgiftwasnotaloneinthelittlehouse。MissCorneliahad,forthetimebeing,givenupsewingforunwanted,unwelcomeeighthbabies,andfallentosewingforaverymuchwantedfirstone,whosewelcomewouldleavenothingtobedesired。PhilippaBlakeandDianaWrighteachsentamarvellousgarment;andMrs。RachelLyndesentseveral,inwhichgoodmaterialandhoneststitchestooktheplaceofembroideryandfrills。Anneherselfmademany,desecratedbynotouchofmachinery,spendingoverthemthehappiesthoursofthehappywinter。
CaptainJimwasthemostfrequentguestofthelittlehouse,andnonewasmorewelcome。EverydayAnnelovedthesimple-souled,true-heartedoldsailormoreandmore。Hewasasrefreshingasaseabreeze,asinterestingassomeancientchronicle。Shewasnevertiredoflisteningtohisstories,andhisquaintremarksandcommentswereacontinualdelighttoher。
CaptainJimwasoneofthoserareandinterestingpeoplewho"neverspeakbuttheysaysomething。"Themilkofhumankindnessandthewisdomoftheserpentweremingledinhiscompositionindelightfulproportions。
NothingeverseemedtoputCaptainJimoutordepresshiminanyway。
"I’vekindofcontractedahabitofenj’yingthings,"
heremarkedonce,whenAnnehadcommentedonhisinvariablecheerfulness。"It’sgotsochronicthatI
believeIevenenj’ythedisagreeablethings。It’sgreatfunthinkingtheycan’tlast。`Oldrheumatiz,’
saysI,whenitgripsmehard,`you’veGOTtostopachingsometime。Theworseyouarethesooneryou’llstop,mebbe。I’mboundtogetthebetterofyouinthelongrun,whetherinthebodyoroutofthebody。’"
Onenight,bythefiresideatthelightAnnesawCaptainJim’s"life-book。"Heneedednocoaxingtoshowitandproudlygaveittohertoread。
"IwritittoleavetolittleJoe,"hesaid。"Idon’tliketheideaofeverythingI’vedoneandseenbeingcleanforgotafterI’veshippedformylastv’yage。
Joe,he’llrememberit,andtelltheyarnstohischildren。"
Itwasanoldleather-boundbookfilledwiththerecordofhisvoyagesandadventures。Annethoughtwhatatreasuretroveitwouldbetoawriter。Everysentencewasanugget。Initselfthebookhadnoliterarymerit;CaptainJim’scharmofstorytellingfailedhimwhenhecametopenandink;hecouldonlyjotroughlydowntheoutlineofhisfamoustales,andbothspellingandgrammarweresadlyaskew。ButAnnefeltthatifanyonepossessedofthegiftcouldtakethatsimplerecordofabrave,adventurouslife,readingbetweenthebaldlinesthetalesofdangersstaunchlyfacedanddutymanfullydone,awonderfulstorymightbemadefromit。RichcomedyandthrillingtragedywerebothlyinghiddeninCaptainJim’s"life-book,"waitingforthetouchofthemasterhandtowakenthelaughterandgriefandhorrorofthousands。
AnnesaidsomethingofthistoGilbertastheywalkedhome。
"Whydon’tyoutryyourhandatityourself,Anne?"
Anneshookherhead。
"No。IonlywishIcould。Butit’snotinthepowerofmygift。Youknowwhatmyforteis,Gilbert——thefanciful,thefairylike,thepretty。TowriteCaptainJim’slife-bookasitshouldbewrittenoneshouldbeamasterofvigorousyetsubtlestyle,akeenpsychologist,abornhumoristandaborntragedian。A
rarecombinationofgiftsisneeded。Paulmightdoitifhewereolder。Anyhow,I’mgoingtoaskhimtocomedownnextsummerandmeetCaptainJim。"
"Cometothisshore,"wroteAnnetoPaul。"IamafraidyoucannotfindhereNoraortheGoldenLadyortheTwinSailors;butyouwillfindoneoldsailorwhocantellyouwonderfulstories。"
Paul,howeverwroteback,sayingregretfullythathecouldnotcomethatyear。Hewasgoingabroadfortwoyear’sstudy。
"WhenIreturnI’llcometoFourWinds,dearTeacher,"
hewrote。
"Butmeanwhile,CaptainJimisgrowingold,"saidAnne,sorrowfully,"andthereisnobodytowritehislife-book。"