Theunexpectedyoungvisitor,whomSapphohadbroughtwithher,andwhomshehadforgotten,was,however,apersonageofsuchconsequencethat,inspiteofhisyouth,boththeladiesroseonhisentrance。
HewasanewadmirerofSappho’s。LikeVaska,henowdoggedherfootsteps。
SoonafterPrinceKaluzhskyarrived,andLizaMerkalovawithStremov。
LizaMerkalovawasathinbrunette,withanOriental,languidtypeofface,andcharming-aseveryoneusedtosay-ineffableeyes。ThetoneofherdarkdressAnnaimmediatelyobservedandappreciatedthefactwasinperfectharmonywithherstyleofbeauty。LizawasassoftandlooseasSapphowastightandshackled。
ButtoAnna’stasteLizawasfarmoreattractive。BetsyhadsaidtoAnnathatshehadadoptedtheposeofanunsophisticatedchild,butwhenAnnasawhershefeltthiswasnotthetruth。Shereallywasunsophisticated,spoiled,yetasweetandirresponsiblewoman。ItistruethathertonewasthesameasSappho’s;that,likeSappho,shehadtwomen,oneyoungandoneold,tackedontoher,anddevouringherwiththeireyes。Buttherewassomethinginherhigherthanhersurroundings。Therewasinhertheglowoftherealdiamondamongpaste。Thisglowshoneoutinhercharming,trulyineffableeyes。Theweary,andatthesametimepassionate,glanceofthoseeyes,encircledbydarkrings,impressedonebyitsperfectsincerity。
Everyonelookingintothoseeyesfanciedheknewherwholly,and,knowingher,couldnotbutloveher。AtthesightofAnna,herwholefacelightedupatoncewithasmileofdelight。
`Ah,howgladIamtoseeyou!’shesaid,goinguptoher。`Yesterday,attheraces,Iwantedjusttogettoyou,butyou’dgoneaway。Ididsowanttoseeyou,especiallyyesterday。Wasn’titawful?’shesaid,lookingatAnnawitheyesthatseemedtolaybareallhersoul。
`Yes;Ihadnoideaitwouldbesothrilling,’saidAnna,blushing。
Thecompanygotupatthismomenttogointothegarden。
`I’mnotgoing,’saidLiza,smilingandsettlingherselfclosetoAnna。`Youwon’tgoeither,willyou?Whowantstoplaycroquet?’
`Oh,Ilikeit,’saidAnna。
`There,howdoyoumanagenevertobeboredbythings?Onehasbuttolookatyou,tobejoyful。You’realive,butI’mbored。’
`Howcanyoubebored?Why,youliveamongthemerriestpeopleinPeterburg,’saidAnna。
`Possiblythepeoplewhoarenotofoursetareevenmorebored;
butwearenotamusedourselves-Icertainlyamnot,butawfully,awfullybored。’
Sappho,smokingacigarette,wentoffintothegardenwiththetwoyoungmen。BetsyandStremovremainedattheteatable。
`Youbored?’saidBetsy。`Sapphosaystheyenjoyedthemselvestremendouslyatyourhouselastnight。’
`Ah,howdrearyitallwas!’saidLizaMerkalova。`Wealldrovebacktomyplaceaftertheraces。Andalwaysthesamepeople,alwaysthesame。Alwaysthesamething。Weloungedaboutonsofasalltheevening。
What’senjoyableaboutthat?No;dotellmehowyoumanagenevertobebored?’shesaid,addressingAnnaagain。`Onehasbuttolookatyouandoneseesawomanwhomaybehappyorunhappy,butwhoisn’tbored。Tellme-howdoyoudoit?’
`Idonothing,’answeredAnna,blushingatthesesearchingquestions。
`That’sthebestway,’Stremovputin。
Stremovwasamanoffifty,partlygray,butstillvigorousinappearance,veryugly,butwithacharacteristicandintelligentface。
LizaMerkalovawashiswife’sniece,andhespentallhisleisurehourswithher。OnmeetingAnnaKarenina,sincehewasAlexeiAlexandrovich’senemyinthegovernment,hetried,likeashrewdmanandamanoftheworld,tobeparticularlycordialwithher,thewifeofhisenemy。
`Nothing,’heputinwithasubtlesmile,`that’stheverybestway。Itoldyoulongago,’hesaid,turningtoLizaMerkalova,`that,inordernottobebored,youmustn’tthinkyou’regoingtobebored。Justasyoumustn’tbeafraidofnotbeingabletofallasleep,ifyou’reafraidofsleeplessness。That’spreciselywhatAnnaArkadyevnahasjustsaid。’
`IshouldbeverygladifIhadsaidit,forit’snotonlycleverbuttrue,’saidAnna,smiling。
`No,dotellmewhyitisonecan’tgotosleep,andonecan’thelpbeingbored?’
`Tosleepwelloneshouldwork,andtoenjoyoneselfoneshouldalsowork。’
`WhatamItoworkforwhenmyworkisofnousetoanybody?AndIcan’t,andwon’t,knowinglymakeapretenseatit。’
`You’reincorrigible,’saidStremov,withoutlookingather,andhespokeagaintoAnna。
AsherarelymetAnna,hecouldsaynothingbutbanalitiestoher,buthesaidthosebanalities,whenwasshereturningtoPeterburg,andhowfondCountessLidiaIvanovnawasofher-withanexpressionwhichsuggestedthathelongedwithhiswholesoultopleaseher,andshowhisregardforher-andevenmorethanthat。
Tushkevichcamein,announcingthatthepartywereawaitingtheotherplayerstobegincroquet。
`No,don’tgoaway,pleasedon’t,’pleadedLizaMerkalova,hearingthatAnnawasgoing。Stremovjoinedinherentreaties。
`It’stooviolentatransition,’hesaid,`togofromsuchcompanytooldMadameVrede。And,besides,youwillonlygiveherachancefortalkingscandal,whilehereyouwillarouseotherfeelings,ofthefinestanddirectlyopposedtoscandal,’hesaidtoher。
Annaponderedforaninstantinuncertainty。Thisshrewdman’sflatteringwords,thenaive,childlikeaffectionshownherbyLizaMerkalova,andalltheworldlyatmosphereshewasusedto-itwasallsoeasy,whilethatwhichwasinstoreforherwassodifficult,thatshewasforaminuteinuncertainty:shouldsheremain,shouldsheputoffalittlelongerthepainfulmomentofexplanation?But,rememberingwhatwasinstoreforherwhenshewouldbealoneathome,ifshedidnotcometosomedecision;
rememberingthatgesture-terribleeveninmemory-whenshehadclutchedherhairinbothhands,shesaidgood-byandwentaway。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter19[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter19InspiteofVronsky’sapparentlyfrivolouslifeinsociety,hewasamanwhohateddisorder。Inearlyyouth,intheCorpsofPages,hehadexperiencedthehumiliationofarefusal,whenhehadtried,beingindifficulties,toborrowmoney,andsincethenhehadneveronceputhimselfinthesamepositionagain。
Inordertokeephisaffairsinsomesortoforder,hewaswont,aboutfivetimesayearmoreorlessfrequently,accordingtocircumstances,toshuthimselfupaloneandputallhisaffairsintodefiniteshape。Thishewouldcallhisdayofwashinguporfairelalessive。
Onwakinguplateinthemorningaftertheraces,Vronskyputonawhitelinencoat,and,withoutshavingortakinghisbath,hedistributedaboutthetablemoney,bills,andletters,andsettowork。Petritsky,whoknewhewasill-temperedonsuchoccasions,onwakingupandseeinghiscomradeatthewritingtable,quietlydressedandwentoutwithoutgettinginhisway。
Everymanwhoknowstotheminutestdetailsallthecomplexityoftheconditionssurroundinghim,cannothelpimaginingthatthecomplexityoftheseconditions,andthedifficultyofmakingthemclear,issomethingexceptionalandpersonal,peculiartohimself,andneversupposesthatothersaresurroundedbyjustascomplicatedanarrayofpersonalaffairsasheis。SoindeeditseemedtoVronsky。Andnotwithoutinwardpride,andnotwithoutreason,hethoughtthatanyothermanwouldlongagohavebeenindifficulties,andwouldhavebeenforcedtosomedishonorablecourse,ifhehadfoundhimselfinsuchadifficultposition。ButVronskyfeltthatnowespeciallyitwasessentialforhimtoclearupanddefinehispositionifheweretoavoidgettingintodifficulties。
WhatVronskyattackedfirst,asbeingtheeasiest,washispecuniaryposition。Writingoutonnotepaperinhisminutehandwritingallthatheowed,headdeduptheamountandfoundthathisdebtsamountedtoseventeenthousandandsomeoddhundreds,whichheleftoutforthesakeofclearness。
Reckoninguphiscashandthebalanceinhisbankbook,hefoundthathehadleftonethousandeighthundredroubles,andnothingcominginbeforetheNewYear。Reckoningoveragainhislistofdebts,Vronskycopiedit,dividingitintothreeclasses。Inthefirstclassheputthedebtswhichhewouldhavetopayatonce,orforwhichhemustinanycasehavethemoneyreadysothatondemandforpaymenttherewouldnotbeamoment’sdelayinpaying。Suchdebtsamountedtoaboutfourthousand:onethousandfivehundredforahorse,andtwothousandfivehundredassuretyforayoungcomrade,Venevsky,whohadlostthatsumtoacardsharperinVronsky’spresence。Vronskyhadwantedtopaythemoneyatthetimehehadthatamountthen,butVenevskyandIashvinhadinsistedthattheywouldpayandnotVronsky,whohadnotplayed。Sofar,sogood;butVronskyknewthatinthisdirtybusiness,thoughhisonlyshareinitwasundertakingbywordofmouthtobesuretyforVenevsky,itwasabsolutelynecessaryforhimtohavethetwothousandfivehundredroubles,soastobeabletoflingitatthecheat,andhavenomorewordswithhim。Andso,forthisfirstandmostimportantdivision,hemusthavefourthousandroubles。
Thesecondclass-eightthousandroubles-consistedoflessimportantdebts。Thesewereprincipallyaccountsowinginconnectionwithhisracehorses,tothepurveyorofoatsandhay,theEnglishman,thesaddler,andsoon。Hewouldhavetopaysometwothousandroublesonthesedebtstoo,inordertobequitefreefromanxiety。Thelastclassofdebts-toshops,tohotels,tohistailor-weresuchasneednotbeconsidered。Sothatheneededatleastsixthousandroubles,andheonlyhadonethousandeighthundredforcurrentexpenses。Foramanwithonehundredthousandroublesofrevenue,whichwaswhateveryonefixedasVronsky’sincome,suchdebts,onewouldsuppose,couldhardlybeembarrassing;butthefactwasthathewasfarfromhavingonehundredthousand。Hisfather’simmenseproperty,whichaloneyieldedayearlyincomeoftwohundredthousand,wasleftundividedbetweenthebrothers。Atthetimewhentheelderbrother,withamassofdebts,hadmarriedPrincessVariaChirkova,thedaughterofaDekabristwithoutanyfortunewhatever,Alexeihadgivenuptohiselderbrotheralmostthewholeincomefromhisfather’sestate,reservingforhimselfonlytwenty-fivethousandayearfromit。Alexeihadsaidatthetimetohisbrotherthatthesumwouldbesufficientforhimuntilhemarried,whichhewouldprobablyneverdo。Andhisbrother,whowasincommandofoneofthemostexpensiveregiments,andwasonlyjustmarried,couldnotdeclinethegift。Hismother,whohadherownseparateproperty,hadallowedAlexeieveryyeartwentythousandinadditiontothetwenty-fivethousandhehadreserved,andAlexeihadspentitall。Oflatehismother,incensedwithhimonaccountofhisloveaffairandhisleavingMoscow,hadgivenupsendinghimthemoney。And,inconsequenceofthis,Vronsky,whohadbeeninthehabitoflivingonthescaleofforty-fivethousandayear,havingonlyreceivedtwentythousandthatyear,nowfoundhimselfindifficulties。
Togetoutofthesedifficulties,hecouldnotapplytohismotherformoney。Herlastletter,whichhehadreceivedthedaybefore,hadparticularlyexasperatedhimbythehintsitcontainedthatshewasquitereadytohelphimtosucceedintheworldandinthearmy,butnottoleadalifewhichscandalizedallgoodsociety。Hismother’sattempttobuyhimstunghimtothequickandmadehimfeelcolderthanevertowardher。Buthecouldnotdrawbackfromthegenerouswordwhenitwasonceuttered,eventhoughhefeltnow,vaguelyforeseeingcertaineventualitiesinhisliaisonwithMadameKarenina,thathisgenerouswordhadbeenspokenthoughtlessly,andthat,eventhoughhewerenotmarried,hemightneedallthehundredthousandofincome。Butitwasimpossibletodrawback。Hehadonlytorecallhisbrother’swife,torememberhowthatsweet,delightfulVariasought,ateveryconvenientopportunity,toremindhimthatsherememberedhisgenerosityandappreciatedit,tograsptheimpossibilityoftakingbackhisgift。Itwasasimpossibleasbeatingawoman,orstealing,orlying。Onethingonlycouldandoughttobedone,andVronskydetermineduponitwithoutaninstant’shesitation:toborrowmoneyfromamoneylender,tenthousandroubles,aproceedingwhichpresentednodifficulty;tocutdownhisexpensesgenerally,andtosellhisracehorses。Resolvingonthis,hepromptlywroteanotetoRolandaky,whohadmorethanoncesenttohimwithofferstobuyhorsesfromhim。ThenhesentfortheEnglishmanandthemoneylender,anddividedwhatmoneyhehadaccordingtotheaccountsheintendedtopay。Havingfinishedthisbusiness,hewroteacoldandcuttinganswertohismother。ThenhetookoutofhisnotebookthreenotesofAnna’s,readthemagain,burnedthem,and,rememberingtheirconversationonthepreviousday,hesankintodeepthought。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter20[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter20Vronsky’slifewasparticularlyhappyinthathehadacodeofprinciples,whichdefinedwithunfailingcertitudewhatheoughtandwhatheoughtnottodo。Thiscodeofprinciplescoveredonlyaverysmallcircleofcontingencies,butthentheprincipleswereneverdoubtful,andVronsky,asheneverwentoutsidethatcircle,hadneverhadamoment’shesitationaboutdoingwhatheoughttodo。Theseprincipleslaiddownasinvariablerules:thatonemustpayacardsharper,butneednotpayatailor;thatonemustnevertellalietoaman,butonemaytoawoman;thatonemustnevercheatanyone,butonemayahusband;thatonemustneverpardonaninsult,butonemaygiveoneandsoon。Theseprincipleswerepossiblynotreasonableandnotgood,buttheywereofunfailingcertainty,and,solongasheadheredtothem,Vronskyfeltthathisheartwasatpeaceandhecouldholdhisheadup。Butoflate,inregardtohisrelationswithAnna,Vronskyhadbeguntofeelthathiscodeofprinciplesdidnotfullycoverallpossiblecontingencies,andtoforeseeinthefuturedifficultiesandperplexitiesforwhichhecouldfindnoguidingclue。
HispresentrelationtoAnnaandtoherhusbandwastohismindclearandsimple。Itwasclearlyandpreciselydefinedinthecodeofprinciplesbywhichhewasguided。
Shewasanhonorablewomanwhohadbestowedherloveuponhim,andhelovedher,andthereforeshewasinhiseyesawomanwhohadarighttothesamerespect,orevenmore,thanalawfulwife。Hewouldhavehadhishandchoppedoffbeforehewouldhaveallowedhimselfbyaword,byahint,tohumiliateher,oreventofallshortofthefullestrespectawomancouldlookfor。
Hisattitudetowardsociety,too,wasclear。Everyonemightknow,mightsuspectit,butnoonemightdaretospeakofit。Ifanydidspeak,hewasreadytoforceallwhomightdosotobesilentandtorespectthenonexistenthonorofthewomanheloved。
Hisattitudetothehusbandwastheclearestofall。FromthemomentthatAnnalovedVronsky,hehadregardedhisownrightoverherastheonethingunassailable。Herhusbandwassimplyasuperfluousandtiresomeperson。Nodoubthewasinapitiableposition,buthowcouldthatbehelped?Theonethingthehusbandhadarighttowastodemandsatisfactionwithaweaponinhishand,andVronskywaspreparedforthisatanyminute。
Butoflatenewinnerrelationshadarisenbetweenherandhim,whichfrightenedVronskybytheirindefiniteness。Onlythedaybeforeshehadtoldhimthatshewaswithchild。Andhefeltthatthisfact,andwhatsheexpectedofhim,calledforsomethingnotfullydefinedinthatcodeofprinciplesbywhichhehadhithertosteeredhiscourseinlife。Andhehadbeenindeedcaughtunawares,and,atthefirstmomentwhenshespoketohimofherposition,hishearthadpromptedhimtobeghertoleaveherhusband。Hehadsaidthat,butnow,thinkingthingsoverhesawclearlythatitwouldbebettertomanageavoidingthat;andatthesametime,ashetoldhimselfthis,hewasafraidwhethersuchanavoidancewerenotwrong。
`IfItoldhertoleaveherhusband,itwouldmeanunitingherlifewithmine;amIpreparedforthat?HowcanItakeherawaynow,whenIhavenomoney?SupposingIcouldarrange……ButhowcanItakeherawaywhileI’mintheservice?IfIsayit,Ioughttobepreparedtodoit;
thatis,Ioughttohavethemoneyandtoretirefromthearmy。’
Andhegrewthoughtful。Thequestionwhethertoretirefromtheserviceornotbroughthimtotheother,andperhapsthechiefthoughhidden,interestofhislife,ofwhichnoneknewbuthe。
Ambitionwastheolddreamofhisyouthandchildhood,adreamwhichhedidnotconfesseventohimself,thoughitwassostrongthatnowthispassionwasevendoingbattlewithhislove。Hisfirststepsintheworldandintheservicehadbeensuccessful,buttwoyearsbeforehehadmadeagreatmistake。Anxioustoshowhisindependence,andforthesakeofadvancement,hehadrefusedapostthathadbeenofferedhim,hopingthatthisrefusalwouldheightenhisvalue;butitturnedoutthathehadbeentoobold,andhewaspassedover。Andhaving,whetherhelikedornot,takenupforhimselfthepositionofanindependentman,hecarrieditoffwithgreattactandgoodsense,behavingasthoughheborenogrudgeagainstanyone,norregardinghimselfasinjuredinanyway,andcaringfornothingbuttobeleftalonesincehewasenjoyinghimself。Inrealityhehadceasedtoenjoyhimselfaslongagoastheyearbefore,whenhehadgonetoMoscow。Hefeltthatthisindependentattitudeofamanwhomighthavedoneanything,butcaredtodonothing,wasalreadybeginningtopall,thatmanypeoplewerebeginningtofancythathewasnotreallycapableofanythingbutbeingastraightforward,good-naturedfellow。HisconnectionwithMadameKarenina,bycreatingsomuchsensationandattractinggeneralattention,hadgivenhimafreshdistinction,whichhadsoothedhisgnawingwormofambitionforawhile;butaweekagothatwormhadbeenrousedupagainwithfreshforce。Thefriendofhischildhood,amanofthesameset,ofthesamecoterie,hiscomradeintheCorpsofPages,Serpukhovskoy,whohadleftschoolwithhim,andhadbeenhisrivalinclass,ingymnastics,intheirscrapesandtheirdreamsofglory,hadcomebackafewdaysbeforefromCentralAsia,wherehehadgainedtwostepsupinrank,andanorderrarelybestowedupongeneralssoyoung。
AssoonashearrivedinPeterburg,peoplebegantotalkabouthimasanewlyrisenstarofthefirstmagnitude。AschoolfellowofVronsky’sandofthesameage,hewasageneralandwasexpectingacommandwhichmighthaveinfluenceonthecourseofpoliticalevents;whileVronsky,thoughhewasindependentandbrilliant,andbelovedbyacharmingwoman,wassimplyacavalrycaptainwhowasreadilyallowedtobeasindependentaseverheliked。`Ofcourse,Idon’tenvySerpukhovskoyandnevercouldenvyhim;buthisadvancementshowsmethatonehasonlytowatchone’sopportunity,andthecareerofamanlikememaybeveryrapidlymade。
ThreeyearsagohewasinjustthesamepositionasIam。IfIretire,Iburnmyships。IfIremaininthearmy,Ilosenothing。Shesaidherselfshedidnotwishtochangeherposition。AndwithherloveIcannotfeelenviousofSerpukhovskoy。’And,slowlytwirlinghismustaches,hegotupfromthetableandwalkedabouttheroom。Hiseyesshoneparticularlybrightly,andhefeltinthatfirm,calm,andhappyframeofmindwhichalwayscameafterhehadthoroughlyfacedhisposition。Everythingwasstraightandclear,justasafterformerdaysofstrikingbalances。Heshaved,tookacoldbath,dressed,andwentout。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter21[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter21`I’vecometofetchyou。Yourlessivelastedagoodtimetoday,’saidPetritsky。
`Well,isitover?’
`It’sover,’answeredVronsky,smilingwithhiseyesonly,andtwirlingthetipsofhismustachesascircumspectlyasthoughaftertheperfectorderintowhichhisaffairshadbeenbroughtanyoverboldorrapidmovementmightdisturbit。
`You’realwaysjustasifyou’dcomeoutofabathafterit,’
saidPetritsky。`I’vecomefromGritzka’thatwaswhattheycalledthecolonel;-`you’reexpectedthere。’
Vronsky,withoutanswering,lookedathiscomrade,thinkingofsomethingelse。
`Yes;isthatmusicathisplace?’hesaid,listeningtothefamiliarbasssoundsoftrumpets,ofpolkasandwaltzes,floatingacrosstohim。
`What’sthefete?’
`Serpukhovskoy’scome。’
`Aha!’saidVronsky。`Why,Ididn’tknow。’
Thesmileinhiseyesgleamedmorebrightlythanever。
Havingoncemadeuphismindthathewashappyinhislove,thathesacrificedhisambitiontoit-atanyrate,havingtakenupthisrole-VronskywasincapableoffeelingeitherenviousofSerpukhovskoy,orvexedathimfornothavingcometohimfirstuponcomingtotheregiment。
Serpukhovskoywasagoodfriend,andhewasdelightedhehadcome。
`Ah,I’mveryglad!’
Thecolonel,Demin,hadtakenalargecountryhouse。Thewholepartywasonthewidelowerbalcony。InthecourtyardthefirstobjectsthatmetVronsky’seyeswereabandofsingersinshortwhitelinenjackets,standingnearabarrelofvodka,andtherobust,good-humoredfigureofthecolonelsurroundedbyofficers。HehadgoneoutasfarasthefirststepofthebalconyandwasloudlyshoutingtodrownoutthebandplayinganOffenbachquadrille,wavinghisarmsandgivingsomeorderstoafewsoldiersstandingononeside。Agroupofsoldiers,aquartermaster,andseveralsubalternscameuptothebalconywithVronsky。Thecolonelreturnedtothetable,wentoutagainonthestepswithatumblerinhishand,andproposedthetoast,`Tothehealthofourformercomrade,thegallantgeneral,PrinceSerpukhovskoy。Hurrah!’
ThecolonelwasfollowedbySerpukhovskoy,whocameoutonthestepssmiling,withaglassinhishand。
`Youalwaysgetyounger,Bondarenko,’hesaidtotherosy-cheeked,smart-lookingsergeantstandingjustbeforehim,stillyoungish-lookingthoughdoinghissecondtermofservice。
ItwasthreeyearssinceVronskyhadseenSerpukhovskoy。Helookedmorerobust,hadlethiswhiskersgrow,butwasstillthesamegracefulcreature,whosefaceandfigurewereevenmorestrikingfromtheirfinenessandnobilitythantheirbeauty。TheonlychangeVronskydetectedinhimwasthatsubdued,continualbeamingwhichsettlesonthefacesofmenwhoaresuccessfulandaresureoftherecognitionoftheirsuccessbyeveryone。
Vronskyknewthatradiantair,andimmediatelyobserveditinSerpukhovskoy。
AsSerpukhovskoycamedownthestepshesawVronsky。Asmileofpleasurelighteduphisface。Hetossedhisheadupwardandwavedtheglassinhishand,greetingVronsky,andshowinghimbythegesturethathecouldnotcometohimbeforekissingthesergeantwhostoodcraningforwardhislipsreadytobekissed。
`Hereheis!’shoutedthecolonel。`Iashvintoldmeyouwereinoneofyourgloomytempers。’
Serpukhovskoykissedthemoist,freshlipsofthebravesergeant,and,wipinghismouthwithhishandkerchief,walkeduptoVronsky。
`HowgladIam!’hesaid,squeezinghishandanddrawinghimtooneside。
`Youlookafterhim,’thecolonelshoutedtoIashvin,pointingtoVronsky;andhewentdownbelowtothesoldiers。
`Whyweren’tyouattheracesyesterday?Iexpectedtoseeyouthere,’saidVronsky,scrutinizingSerpukhovskoy。
`Ididgo,butlate。Ibegyourpardon,’headded,andturnedtotheadjutant:`Pleasehavethisdistributedfromme,eachmanasmuchasitcomesto。’
Andhehurriedlytookthreenotesforahundredroubleseachfromhispocketbook,andblushed。
`Vronsky!Haveabiteoradrink?’askedIashvin。`Hi,somethingfortheCounttoeat!There-drinkthat。’
Thespreeatthecolonel’slastedalongwhile。
Therewasagreatdealofdrinking。TheyswungSerpukhovskoyandtossedhimintheair。Thentheydidthesametothecolonel。Then,totheaccompanimentoftheband,thecolonelhimselfdancedwithPetritsky。
Thenthecolonel,whobegantoshowsignsofweakening,satdownonabenchinthecourtyardandbegandemonstratingtoIashvinthesuperiorityofRussiaoverPrussia,especiallyincavalryattack,andtherewasalullintherevelryforamoment。SerpukhovskoywentintothehousetothebathroomtowashhishandsandfoundVronskythere-Vronskywassousinghisheadwithwater。Hehadtakenoffhiscoatandputhisredhairyneckunderthetap,andwasrubbingitandhisheadwithhishands。Whenhehadfinished,VronskysatdownbySerpukhovskoy。Theybothsatdowninthebathroomonalounge,andaconversationbeganwhichwasveryinterestingtobothofthem。
`I’vealwaysbeenhearingaboutyouthroughmywife,’saidSerpukhovskoy。
`I’mgladyou’vebeenseeingherprettyoften。’
`She’sfriendlywithVaria,andthey’retheonlywomeninPeterburgIcareaboutseeing,’answeredVronsky,smiling。Hesmiledbecauseheforesawthetopictheconversationwouldturnto,andhewasgladofit。
`Theonlyones?’Serpukhovskoyqueried,smiling。
`Yes;andIheardnewsofyou,butnotonlythroughyourwife,’
saidVronsky,checkingSerpukhovskoy’shintbyassumingasternexpression。
`Iwasgreatlydelightedtohearofyoursuccess,butnotabitsurprised。
Iexpectedevenmore。’
Serpukhovskoysmiled。Suchanopinionofhimwasobviouslyagreeabletohim,andhedidnotthinkitnecessarytoconcealit。
`Well,I,onthecontrary,expectedless-I’llownupfrankly。
ButI’mglad,veryglad。I’mambitious-that’smyweakness,andIconfesstoit。’
`Perhapsyouwouldn’tconfesstoitifyouhadn’tbeensuccessful,’
saidVronsky。
`Idon’tsupposeso,’saidSerpukhovskoy,smilingagain。`Iwon’tsaylifewouldn’tbeworthlivingwithoutit,butitwouldbedull。OfcourseImaybemistaken,butIfancyIhaveacertaincapacityforthelineI’vechosen,andthatifthereistobepowerofanysortinmyhands,itwillbebetterthaninthehandsofagoodmanypeopleIknow,’saidSerpukhovskoy,withbeamingconsciousnessofsuccess;`andsothenearerIgettoit,thebetterpleasedIam。’
`Perhapsthatistrueforyou,butnotforeveryone。Iusedtothinksotoo,butnowIseeandthinklifeworthlivingnotonlyforthat。’
`Thereitcomes!thereitcomes!’saidSerpukhovskoylaughing。
`EversinceIheardaboutyou,aboutyourrefusal,Ibegan……Ofcourse,Iapprovedofwhatyoudid。Buttherearewaysofdoingeverything。AndIthinkyouractionwasgoodinitself,butyoudidn’tdoitinquitethewayyoushouldhavedone。’
`What’sdonecan’tbeundone,andyouknowInevergobackonwhatI’vedone。And,besides,I’mverywelloff。’
`Verywelloff-forthetime。Butyou’renotsatisfiedwiththat。
Iwouldn’tsaythistoyourbrother。He’sacharmingchild,likeourhosthere。Therehegoes!’headded,listeningtotheroarofa`hurrah!’-
`andhe’shappy;thatdoesnotsatisfyyou。’
`Ididn’tsayitdid。’
`Yes,butthat’snottheonlything。Suchmenasyouarewanted。’
`Bywhom?’
`Bywhom?Bysociety,byRussia。Russianeedsmen,sheneedsaparty,orelseeverythinggoesandwillgotothedogs。’
`Howdoyoumean?Bertenev’spartyagainsttheRussiancommunists?’
`No,’saidSerpukhovskoy,frowningwithvexationatbeingsuspectedofsuchanabsurdity。`Toutç;aestuneblague。Thathasalwaysbeen,andalwayswillbe。Therearenocommunists。Butintriguingpeoplehavetoinventanoxious,dangerousparty。It’sanoldtrick。No,what’swantedisapowerfulpartyofindependentmen,likeyouandme。’
`Butwhyso?’Vronskymentionedafewmenwhowereinpower。`Whyaren’ttheyindependentmen?’
`Simplybecausetheyhavenot,orhavenothadfrombirth,anindependentfortune,they’venothadaname,theyweren’tbornclosetothesunaswewere。Theycanbeboughteitherbymoneyorbyfavor。Andtheyhavetofindasupportforthemselvesininventingatrend。Andtheybringforwardsomenotion,sometrendthattheydon’tbelievein,thatdoesharm;andthewholepolicyisreallyonlyameanstoahouseattheexpenseofthecrownandsomuchincome。Celan’estpasplusfinqueç;a,whenyougetapeepattheircards。Imaybeinferiortothem,morestupidperhaps,thoughIdon’tseewhyIshouldbeinferiortothem。ButyouandIhaveoneimportant,certainadvantageoverthem,inbeingmoredifficulttobuy。Andsuchmenaremoreneededthanever。’
Vronskylistenedattentively,buthewasnotsomuchinterestedbythemeaningofthewordsasbytheattitudeofSerpukhovskoy,whowasalreadycontemplatingastrugglewiththeexistingpowers,andalreadyhadhislikesanddislikesinthatworld,whilehisowninterestinhisservicedidnotgobeyondtheinterestsofhissquadron。Vronskyfelt,too,howpowerfulSerpukhovskoymightbecomethroughhisunmistakablefacultyforthinkingthingsoutandfortakingthingsin,throughhisintelligenceandgiftofeloquence,sorarelymetwithintheworldinwhichhemoved。
And,ashamedashewasofthefeeling,hefeltenvious。
`StillIhaven’ttheonethingofparamountimportanceforthat,’
heanswered;`Ihaven’tthedesireforpower。Ihaditonce,butit’sgone。’
`Excuseme,that’snottrue,’saidSerpukhovskoysmiling。
`Yes,it’strue,it’strue-nowtobetruthful!’Vronskyadded。
`Yes,it’struenow,that’sanotherthing;butthatnowwon’tlastforever。’
`Perhaps,’answeredVronsky。
`Yousayperhaps,’Serpukhovskoywenton,asthoughguessinghisthoughts,`butIsayforcertain。Andthat’swhatIwantedtoseeyoufor。
Youractionwasjustwhatitshouldhavebeen。Iseethat,butyououghtnottopersevereinit。Ionlyaskyoutogivemecarteblanche。I’mnotgoingtoofferyoumyprotection……Though,indeed,whyshouldn’tIprotectyou?-you’veprotectedmeoftenenough!Ishouldhopeourfriendshiprisesaboveallthatsortofthing。Yes,’hesaid,smilingtohimastenderlyasawoman,`givemecarteblanche,retirefromtheregiment,andI’llgetyouinimperceptibly。’
`ButyoumustunderstandthatIwantnothing,’saidVronsky,`excepttoleavethingsjustastheywere。’
Serpukhovskoygotupandstoodfacinghim。
`Yousaid,leavethingsjustastheywere。Iunderstandwhatthatmeans。Butlisten:we’rethesameage,you’veknownagreaternumberofwomenperhapsthanIhave。’Serpukhovskoy’ssmileandgesturestoldVronskythathemustn’tbeafraid,thathewouldbetenderandcarefulintouchingthesoreplace。`ButI’mmarried,andbelieveme,ingettingtoknowone’swifethoroughly,ifonelovesher,assomeonehassaid,onegetstoknowallwomenbetterthanifoneknewthousandsofthem。’
`We’recomingdirectly!’Vronskyshoutedtoanofficer,wholookedintotheroomandcalledthemtothecolonel。
VronskywaslongingnowtohearSerpukhovskoytotheend,andknowwhathewouldsaytohim。
`Andhere’smyopinionforyou。Womenarethechiefstumblingblockinaman’scareer。It’shardtoloveawomananddoanything。There’sonlyonewayofhavingloveconvenientlywithoutitsbeingahindrance-that’smarriage。Now,howamItotellyouwhatImean?’saidSerpukhovskoy,wholikedsimiles。`Wait,waitaminute!Yes,justasyoucanonlycarryafardeauyetdosomethingwithyourhandswhenthefardeauistiedonyourback-andthat’smarriage。Andthat’swhatIfeltwhenIwasmarried。
Myhandsweresuddenlysetfree。Butifyoudragthatfardeauaboutwithyouwithoutmarriage,yourhandswillalwaysbesofullthatyoucandonothing。LookatMazankov,atKrupov。They’veruinedtheircareersforthesakeofwomen。’
`Whatwomen!’saidVronsky,recallingtheFrenchwomanandtheactresswithwhomthetwomenhehadmentionedwereconnected。
`Thefirmerthewoman’sfootinginsociety,theworseitis。That’smuchthesameasnotmerelycarryingthefardeauinyourarms,buttearingitawayfromsomeoneelse。’
`Youhaveneverloved,’Vronskysaidsoftly,lookingstraightbeforehimandthinkingofAnna。
`Perhaps。ButyourememberwhatI’vesaidtoyou。Andanotherthing-womenareallmorematerialisticthanmen。Wemakesomethingimmenseoutoflove,buttheyarealwaysterre-è;a-terre。’
`Directly,directly!’hecriedtoafootmanwhocamein。Butthefootmanhadnotcometocallthemagain,ashesupposed。ThefootmanbroughtVronskyanote。
`AmanbroughtitfromPrincessTverskaia。’
Vronskyopenedtheletter,andflushedcrimson。
`Myhead’sbeguntoache;I’mgoinghome,’hesaidtoSerpukhovskoy。
`Oh,good-bythen。Yougivemecarteblanche!’
`We’lltalkaboutitlateron;I’lllookyouupinPeterburg。’
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter22[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter22Itwassixo’clockalready,andso,inordertobetherequickly,andatthesametimenottodrivewithhisownhorses,knowntoeveryone,VronskygotintoIashvin’shackneycoachandtoldthecoachmantodriveasquicklyaspossible。Itwasaroomy,old-fashionedcoach,withseatsforfour。
Hesatinonecorner,stretchedhislegsoutonthefrontseat,andsankintodeepthought。
Avaguesenseoftheclearnesstowhichhisaffairshadbeenbrought,avaguerecollectionofthefriendlinessandflatteryofSerpukhovskoy,whohadconsideredhimamanwhowasneeded,and,mostofall,theanticipationofthemeetingbeforehim-allblendedintoageneral,joyoussenseoflife。Thisfeelingwassostrongthathecouldnothelpsmiling。Hedroppedhislegs,crossedonelegovertheotherknee,and,takingitinhishand,feltthespringymuscleofthecalf,whereithadbeengrazedthedaybeforebyhisfall,and,leaningbackhedrewseveraldeepbreaths。
`I’mhappy,veryhappy!’hesaidtohimself。Hehadoftenbeforehadthissenseofphysicaljoyinhisownbody,buthehadneverfeltsofondofhimself,ofhisownbody,asatthatmoment。Heenjoyedtheslightacheinhisstrongleg,heenjoyedthemuscularsensationofmovementinhischestashebreathed。Thebright,coldAugustday,whichhadmadeAnnafeelsohopeless,seemedtohimkeenlystimulating,andrefreshedhisfaceandneckthatstilltingledfromthecoldwater。Thescentofbrilliantineonhismustachesstruckhimasparticularlypleasantinthefreshair。
Everythinghesawfromthecarriagewindow,everythinginthatcoldpureair,inthepalelightofthesunset,wasasfresh,andgay,andstrongashewashimself:theroofsofthehousesshiningintheraysofthesettingsun,thesharpoutlinesoffencesandanglesofbuildings,thefiguresofpassers-byandcarriagesthatmethimnowandthen,themotionlessgreenofthetreesandgrass,thefieldswithevenlydrawnfurrowsofpotatoes,andtheslantingshadowsthatfellfromthehouses,andtrees,andbushes,andevenfromtherowsofpotatoes-everythingwasbrightlikeaprettylandscapefreshlypaintedandvarnished。
`Geton,geton!’hesaidtothedriver,puttinghisheadoutofthewindow,andpullingathree-roublenoteoutofhispockethehandedittothemanashelookedround。Thedriver’shandfumbledwithsomethingatthelamp,thewhipcracked,andthecoachrolledrapidlyalongthesmoothhighroad。
`Iwantnothing,nothingbutthishappiness,’hethought,staringatthebonebuttonofthebellinthespacebetweenthewindows,andpicturingtohimselfAnnajustashehadseenherlasttime。`AndasIgoon,Ilovehermoreandmore。Here’sthegardenoftheVrede’scrownvilla。Whereaboutswillshebe?Where?How?Whydidshefixonthisplacetomeetme,andwhydoesshewriteinBetsy’sletter?’hethought,nowforthefirsttimewonderingatit。Buttherewasnownotimeforwonder。Hecalledtothedrivertostopbeforereachingtheavenue,andopeningthedoor,jumpedoutofthecarriageasitwasmoving,andwentuptheavenuethatledtothehouse。Therewasnooneintheavenue;but,lookingroundtotheright,hecaughtsightofher。Herfacewashiddenbyaveil,buthedrankinwithgladeyesthespecialmovementinwalking,peculiartoheralone,theslopeofhershoulders,andthesettingofherhead,andatonceasortofelectricshockranalloverhim。Withfreshforcehefeltconsciousofhimself,fromthespringymovementsofhislegstothemovementsofhislungsashebreathed,andsomethingsethislipstwitching。
Joininghim,shepressedhishandtightly。
`You’renotangrybecauseIsentforyou?Iabsolutelyhadtoseeyou,’shesaid;andtheseriousandsetlineofherlips,whichhesawundertheveil,transformedhismoodatonce。
`Iangry?Buthowhaveyoucome-where?’
`Nevermind,’shesaid,layingherhandonhisarm,`comealong,Imusttalktoyou。’
Hesawthatsomethinghadhappened,andthattheinterviewwouldnotbeajoyousone。Inherpresencehehadnowillofhisown:withoutknowingthegroundsofherdistress,healreadyfeltthesamedistressunconsciouslypassingoverhim。
`Whatisit?What?’heaskedher,squeezingherhandwithhiselbow,andtryingtoreadherthoughtsinherface。
Shewalkedonafewstepsinsilence,gatheringuphercourage;
thensuddenlyshestopped。
`Ididnottellyouyesterday,’shebegan,breathingquicklyandpainfully,`thatcominghomewithAlexeiAlexandrovichItoldhimeverything……
toldhimIcouldnotbehiswife,that……andtoldhimeverything。’
Heheardher,unconsciouslybendinghiswholefiguredowntoherasthoughhopinginthiswaytosoftenthehardnessofherpositionforher。Butdirectlyshehadsaidthishesuddenlydrewhimselfup,andaproudandhardexpressioncameoverhisface。
`Yes,yes,that’sbetter,athousandtimesbetter!Iknowhowpainfulitwas,’hesaid。Butshewasnotlisteningtohiswords-shewasreadinghisthoughtsfromtheexpressionofhisface。ShecouldnotguessthatthatarosefromthefirstideathatpresenteditselftoVronsky-thataduelwasnowinevitable。Theideaofaduelhadnevercrossedhermind,andsosheputadifferentinterpretationonthispassingexpressionofhardness。
Whenshegotherhusband’sletter,sheknewthenatthebottomofherheartthateverythingwouldgoonintheoldway,thatshewouldnothavethestrengthofwilltoforegoherposition,toabandonherson,andtojoinherlover。ThemorningspentatPrincessTverskaia’shadconfirmedherstillmoreinthis。Butthisinterviewwasstilloftheutmostgravityforher。Shehopedthatthisinterviewwouldtransformherposition,andsaveher。Ifonhearingthisnewsheweretosaytoherresolutely,passionately,withoutaninstant’swavering:`Throwupeverythingandcomewithme!shewouldgiveuphersonandgoawaywithhim。Butthisnewshadnotproducedonhimtheeffectshehadexpected;hesimplyseemedresentfulofsomeaffront。
`Itwasnotintheleastpainfulforme。Ithappenedofitself,’
shesaidirritably,`andsee……’Shepulledherhusband’sletteroutofherglove。
`Iunderstand,Iunderstand,’heinterruptedher,takingtheletter,butnotreadingit,andtryingtosootheher。`TheonethingIlongedfor,theonethingIprayedfor,wastocutshortthisposition,soastodevotemylifetoyourhappiness。’
`Whydoyoutellmethat?’shesaid。`DoyousupposeIcandoubtit?IfIdoubted……’
`Who’sthatcoming?’saidVronskysuddenly,pointingtotwoladieswalkingtowardthem。`Perhapstheyknowus!’andhehurriedlyturnedoff,drawingherafterhimintoasidepath。
`Oh,Idon’tcare!’shesaid。Herlipswerequivering。Andhefanciedthathereyeslookedwithstrangefuryathimfromunderherveil。
`Itellyouthat’snotthepoint-Ican’tdoubtthat;butseewhathewritesme。Readit。’Shestoodstillagain。
Again,justasatthefirstmomentofhearingofherrupturewithherhusband,Vronsky,onreadingtheletter,wasunconsciouslycarriedawaybythenaturalsensationarousedinhimbyhisownrelationtotheinjuredhusband。Now,whileheheldhisletterinhishands,hecouldnothelppicturingthechallenge,whichhewouldmostlikelyfindathometodayortomorrow,andtheduelitself,inwhich,withthesamecoldandhaughtyexpressionthathisfacewasassumingatthismoment,hewouldawaittheinjuredhusband’sshot,afterhavinghimselffiredintotheair。AndatthatinstantthereflashedacrosshismindthethoughtofwhatSerpukhovskoyhadjustsaidtohim,andwhathehadhimselfbeenthinkinginthemorning-thatitwasbetternottobindhimself;andheknewthathecouldnottellherthisthought。
Havingreadtheletter,heraisedhiseyestoher,andtherewasnofirmnessinthem。Shesawatoncethathehadbeenthinkingaboutitbeforebyhimself。Sheknewthatwhateverhemightsaytoher,hewouldnotsayallhethought。Andsheknewthatherlasthopehadfailedher。
Thiswasnotwhatshehadbeenlookingfor。
`Youseethesortofmanheis,’shesaid,withashakingvoice;
`he……’
`Forgiveme,butIrejoiceatit,’Vronskyinterrupted。`ForGod’ssake,letmefinish!’headded,hiseyesimploringhertogivehimtimetoexplainhiswords。`Irejoice,becausethingscannot,cannotpossiblyremainashesupposes。’
`Whycan’tthey?’Annasaid,restraininghertears,andobviouslyattachingnosortofconsequencetowhathesaid。Shefeltthatherfatewassealed。
Vronskymeantthataftertheduel-inevitable,hethought-thingscouldnotgoonasbefore,buthesaidsomethingdifferent。
`Itcan’tgoon。Ihopethatnowyouwillleavehim。Ihope’-
hewasconfused,andreddened-`thatyouwillletmearrangeandplanourlife。Tomorrow……’hewasbeginning。
Shedidnotlethimgoon。
`Butmychild!’sheshrieked。`Youseewhathewrites!Ishouldhavetoleavehim,andIcan’tandwon’tdothat。’
`But,forGod’ssake,whichisbetter?Toleaveyourchild,orkeepupthisdegradingsituation?’
`Towhomisitdegrading?’
`Toall,andmostofalltoyou。’
`Yousaydegrading……Don’tsaythat。Thesewordshavenomeaningforme,’shesaidinashakingvoice。Shedidnotwanthimnowtosaywhatwasuntrue。Shehadnothingleftherbuthislove,andshewantedtolovehim。`Don’tyouunderstandthatfromthedayIlovedyoueverythinghaschangedforme?Formethereisonething,andonethingonly-yourlove。
Ifthat’smine,Ifeelsoexalted,sostrong,thatnothingcanbedegradingtome。Iamproudofmyposition,because……proudofbeing……proud……’
Shecouldnotsaywhatshewasproudof。Tearsofshameanddespairchokedherutterance。Shestoodstillandsobbed。
Hefelt,too,somethingswellinginhisthroatandtwitchinginhisnose,andforthefirsttimeinhislifehefeltonthepointofweeping。
Hecouldnothavesaidexactlywhatitwastouchedhimso;hefeltsorryforher,andhefelthecouldnothelpher,andwiththatheknewthathewastoblameforherwretchedness,andthathehaddonesomethingwrong。
`Isn’tadivorcepossible?’hesaidfeebly。Sheshookherhead,withoutanswering。`Couldn’tyoutakeyourson,andstillleavehim?
`Yes;butitalldependsonhim。NowImustgotohim,’shesaidshortly。Herpresentimentthatallwouldagaingoonintheoldwayhadnotdeceivedher。
`OnTuesdayIshallbeinPeterburg,andeverythingcanbesettled。’
`Yes,’shesaid。`Butdon’tletustalkanymoreofit。’
Anna’scarriage,whichshehadsentaway,andorderedtocomebacktothelittlegateoftheVredegarden,droveup。Annasaidgood-bytoVronsky,anddrovehome。
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AlexeiAlexandrovichwalkedintothehallwherethesessionwasheld,greetedthemembersandthepresident,asusual,andsatdowninhisplace,puttinghishandonthepaperslaidreadybeforehim。Amongthosepaperslaythenecessaryevidenceandaroughoutlineofthespeechheintendedtomake。
Buthedidnotreallyneedthesedocuments。Herememberedeverypoint,anddidnotthinkitnecessarytogooverinhismemorywhathewouldsay。
Heknewthatwhenthetimecame,andwhenhesawhisenemyfacinghim,andstudiouslyendeavoringtoassumeanexpressionofindifference,hisspeechwouldflowofitselfbetterthanhecouldprepareitnow。Hefeltthattheimportofhisspeechwasofsuchmagnitudethateverywordofitwouldhaveweight。Meantime,ashelistenedtotheusualreport,hehadthemostinnocentandinoffensiveair。Noone,lookingathiswhitehands,withtheirswollenveinsandlongfingers,sosoftlystrokingtheedgesofthewhitepaperthatlaybeforehim,andattheairofwearinesswithwhichhisheaddroopedononeside,wouldhavesuspectedthatinafewminutesatorrentofwordswouldflowfromhislipsthatwouldarouseafearfulstorm,setthemembersshoutingandattackingoneanother,andforcethepresidenttocallfororder。Whenthereportwasover,AlexeiAlexandrovichannouncedinhissubdued,delicatevoicethathehadseveralpointstobringbeforethemeetinginregardtotheorganizationofthenativetribes。Allattentionwasturneduponhim。AlexeiAlexandrovichclearedhisthroat,and,withoutlookingathisopponent,butselecting,ashealwaysdidwhilehewasdeliveringhisspeeches,thefirstpersonsittingoppositehim,aninoffensivelittleoldman,whoneverhadanopinionofanysortintheCommission,begantoexpoundhisviews。Whenhereachedthepointaboutthebasicandorganiclaw,hisopponentjumpedupandbegantoprotest。Stremov,whowasalsoamemberoftheCommission,andwasalsostungtothequick,begandefendinghimself,andanaltogetherstormysessionfollowed;butAlexeiAlexandrovichtriumphed,andhismotionwascarried,threenewcommissionswereappointed,andthenextday,inacertainPeterburgcircle,nothingelsewastalkedofbutthissession。AlexeiAlexandrovich’ssuccesshadbeenevengreaterthanhehadanticipated。
Nextmorning,Tuesday,AlexeiAlexandrovich,onawaking,recollectedwithpleasurehistriumphofthepreviousday,andhecouldnothelpsmiling,thoughhetriedtoappearindifferent,whentheheadclerk,anxioustoflatterhim,informedhimoftherumorsthathadreachedhimconcerningwhathadhappenedintheCommission。
Absorbedinbusinesswiththeheadclerk,AlexeiAlexandrovichhadcompletelyforgottenthatitwasTuesday,thedayfixedbyhimforthereturnofAnnaArkadyevna,andhewassurprisedandreceivedashockofannoyancewhenaservantcameintoinformhimofherarrival。
AnnahadarrivedinPeterburgearlyinthemorning;thecarriagehadbeensenttomeetherinaccordancewithhertelegram,andsoAlexeiAlexandrovichmighthaveknownofherarrival。But,whenshearrived,hedidnotmeether。Shewastoldthathehadnotyetgoneout,butwasbusywiththeheadclerk。Shesentwordtoherhusbandthatshehadcome,wenttoherownroom,andoccupiedherselfinsortingoutherthings,expectinghewouldcometoher。Butanhourpassed;hedidnotcome。Shewentintothediningroomonthepretextofgivingsomedirections,andspokeloudlyonpurpose,expectinghimtocomeoutthere;buthedidnotcome,thoughsheheardhimgotothedoorofhisstudyashepartedfromtheheadclerk。
Sheknewthatheshouldbeforelonggoouttohisofficeasusual,andshewantedtoseehimbeforethat,sothattheirattitudetooneanothermightbedefined。
Shewalkedacrossthedrawingroomandwentresolutelytohim。
Whenshewentintohisstudyhewasinofficialuniform,obviouslyreadytogoout,sittingatalittletableonwhichherestedhiselbows,lookingdejectedlybeforehim。Shesawhimbeforehesawher,andsheknewthathewasthinkingofher。
Onseeingher,hewouldhaverisen,butchangedhismind,thenhisfaceflushedhotly-athingAnnahadneverseenbefore,andhegotupquicklyandwenttomeether,lookingnotathereyes,butabovethem,atherforeheadandhair。Hewentuptoher,tookherbythehand,andaskedhertositdown。
`Iamverygladyouhavecome,’hesaid,sittingdownbesideher,and,obviouslywishingtosaysomething,hestuttered。Severaltimesheattemptedtospeak,butstopped。Inspiteofthefact,thatinpreparingherselfformeetinghim,shehadschooledherselftodespiseandaccusehim,shedidnotknowwhattosaytohim,andshefeltpityforhim。Andsothesilencelastedratherlong:`IsSeriozhaquitewell?’hesaid,and,withoutwaitingforananswer,headded:`Ishan’tbediningathometoday,andImustgooutdirectly。’
`IhadthoughtofgoingtoMoscow,’shesaid。
`No,youdidquite,quiterighttocome,’hesaid,andwassilentagain。
Seeingthathewaspowerlesstobegintheconversation,shebeganherself。
`AlexeiAlexandrovich,’shesaid,lookingathimandwithoutdroppinghereyesunderhispersistentgazeatherhair,`I’maguiltywoman,I’mabadwoman,yetIamthesameasIwas,asItoldyouthen,andIhavecometotellyouthatIcanchangenothing。’
`Ihaven’taskedyouaboutthat,’hesaid,allatonce,resolutelyandwithhatredlookingherstraightintheface;`thatwasasIhadsupposed。’
Undertheinfluenceofangerheapparentlyregainedcompletepossessionofallhisfaculties。`ButasItoldyouthen,andhavewrittentoyou,’
hesaidinathin,shrillvoice,`Irepeatnow,thatIamnotboundtoknowthis。Iignoreit。Notallwivesaresokindasyou,tobeinsuchahurrytocommunicatesuchagreeablenewstotheirhusbands。’Helaidspecialemphasisontheword`agreeable。’`Ishallignoreitsolongastheworldknowsnothingofit,solongasmynameisnotdisgraced。AndsoIsimplyinformyouthatourrelationsmustbejustastheyhavealwaysbeen,andthatonlyintheeventofyourcompromisingyourselfIshallbeobligedtotakestepstosecuremyhonor。’
`Butourrelationscannotbethesameasalways,’Annabeganinatimidvoice,lookingathimwithdismay。
Whenshesawoncemorethosecomposedgestures,heardthatshrill,childlikeandsarcasticvoice,heraversionforhimextinguishedherpityforhim,andshefeltonlyafraid;butatallcostsshewantedtomakeclearherposition。
`IcannotbeyourwifewhileI……’shebegan。
Helaughedacoldandmalignantlaugh。
`Themanneroflifeyouhavechosenisreflected,Isuppose,inyourideas。Ihavesomuchofbothrespectandcontempt-Irespectyourpastanddespiseyourpresent-thatIwasfarfromtheinterpretationyouputonmywords。’
Annasighedandbowedherhead。
`ThoughindeedIfailtocomprehendhow,withtheindependenceyoushow,’hewenton,gettinghot,`announcingyourinfidelitytoyourhusbandandseeingnothingreprehensibleinit,apparently,youcanseeanythingreprehensibleinperformingawife’sdutiesinrelationtoyourhusband。’
`AlexeiAlexandrovich!Whatisityouwantofme?’
`Iwantnevertomeetthatmanhere,andIwantyoutoconductyourselfsothatneithersociety,northeservants,couldpossiblyreproachyou……Iwantyounottoseehim。That’snotmuch,Ithink。Andinreturnyouwillenjoyalltheprivilegesofafaithfulwifewithoutfulfillingherduties。That’sallIhavetosaytoyou。Nowit’stimeformetogo。
I’mnotdiningathome。’Hegotupandmovedtowardthedoor。
Annagotuptoo。Bowinginsilence,heletherpassbeforehim。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter24[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter24ThenightspentbyLevinonthehaycockdidnotpasswithoutaneffectuponhim。Thewayinwhichhehadbeenmanaginghislandrevoltedhimandlostallattractionforhim。Inspiteofthemagnificentharvest,neverhadtherebeenor,atleast,ithadneverseemedsotohimsomanyhindrancesandsomanyquarrelsbetweenhimandthepeasantsasthatyear,andtheoriginofthesefailuresandthishostilitywasnowperfectlycomprehensibletohim。Thedelighthehadexperiencedintheworkitself,andtheconsequentgreaterintimacywiththepeasants,theenvyhefeltofthem,oftheirlife,thedesiretoadoptthatlife,whichhadbeentohimthatnightnotadreambutanintention,theexecutionofwhichhehadthoughtoutindetail-allthishadsotransformedhisviewofthefarmingofthelandashehadmanagedit,thathecouldnottakehisformerinterestinit,andcouldnothelpseeingthatunpleasantrelationbetweenhimandtheworkpeoplewhichwasthefoundationofitall。TheherdofimprovedcowssuchasPava,thewholelandplowedoverandenriched,theninelevelfieldssurroundedwithwillowfences,theninetydessiatinasheavilymanured,drillplows,andalltherestofit-itwasallsplendid,ifonlytheworkhadbeendonebyhimself,orbyhimselfandhiscomrades,bypeopleinsympathywithhim。Buthesawclearlynowhisworkonabookofagriculture,inwhichthechiefelementinhusbandrywastohavebeenthelaborer,greatlyassistedhiminthisthatthesortoffarminghewascarryingonwasnothingbutacruelandstubbornstrugglebetweenhimandthelaborers,inwhichtherewasononeside-hisside-acontinualintenseefforttochangeeverythingtoapatternheconsideredbetter;ontheotherside,thenaturalorderofthings。Andinthisstrugglehesawthat,withimmenseexpenditureofforceonhisside,andwithnoeffortorevenintentionontheotherside,thesoleattainmentwasthattheworkdidnotgotothelikingofeitherside,andthatsplendidtools,splendidcattleandlandwerespoiledwithnogoodtoanyone。Worstofall,theenergyexpendedonthisworkwasnotmerelywasted。Hecouldnothelpfeelingnow,sincethemeaningofhissystemhadbecomecleartohim,thattheaimofhisenergywasamostunworthyone。Inreality,whatwasthestruggleabout?Hewasstrugglingforeverygroatandhecouldnothelpit,forhehadonlytorelaxhisefforts,andhewouldnothavehadthemoneytopayhislaborers’wages,whiletheywereonlystrugglingtobeabletodotheirworkeasilyandagreeably-thatistosay,astheywereusedtodoingit。Itwasforhisintereststhateverylaborershouldworkashardaspossible,andthatwhiledoingsoheshouldkeephiswitsabouthim,soastotrynottobreakthewinnowingmachines,thehorserakes,thethreshingmachines,thatheshouldattendtowhathewasdoing。Whatthelaborerwantedwastoworkaspleasantlyaspossible,withrests,and,aboveall,carelesslyandheedlessly,withoutthinking。ThatsummerLevinsawthisateverystep。Hesentthementomowsomecloverforhay,pickingouttheworstpatcheswherethecloverwasovergrownwithgrassandweedsandofnouseforseed;againandagaintheymowedhisbestdessiatinasofseedclover,justifyingthemselvesbythepretextthatthebailiffhadtoldthemto,andtryingtopacifyhimwiththeassurancethatitwouldmakesplendidhay;butheknewthatitwasbecausethosedessiatinasweresomucheasiertomow。Hesentoutahaymachineforpitchingthehay-itwasbrokenatthefirstrowbecauseitwasdullworkforapeasanttositontheseatinfrontwiththegreatwingswavingabovehim。Andhewastold:`Don’ttrouble-sure,thewomenfolkswillpitchitquickenough。’Theplowswerepracticallyuseless,becauseitneveroccurredtothelaborertoraisethecolterwhenheturnedtheplow,andinforcingitround,hetorturedthehorseandspoiledtheground-andthenbeggedLevinnottomindit。Thehorseswereallowedtostrayintothewheatbecausenotasinglelaborerwantedtobenightwatchman,and,inspiteoforderstothecontrary,thelaborersinsistedontakingturnsfornightdutyaboutthehorses;andwhenVanka,afterworkingalldaylong,fellasleep,hewouldsay,verypenitentforhisfault:`Dowhatyouwilltome。’
Threeofthebestheiferswereallowedtoovereatthemselvestodeath,bylettingthemintothecloveraftermathwithoutcareastodrenchingthem,andnothingwouldmakethemenbelievethattheyhadbeenblownoutbytheclover,buttheytoldLevin,bywayofconsolation,thatoneofhisneighborshadlostahundredandtwelveheadofcattleinthreedays。
Allthishappened,notbecauseanyonefeltillwilltoLevinortohisfarming;onthecontrary,heknewthattheylikedhim,thinkinghimasimplegentlemantheirhighestpraise;butithappenedsimplybecausealltheywantedwastoworkmerrilyandcarelessly,andhisinterestswerenotonlyremoteandincomprehensibletothem,butfatallyopposedtotheirmostjustclaims。Longbefore,Levinhadfeltdissatisfactionwithhisownpositioninregardtotheland。Hesawthathisboatleaked,buthedidnotlookfortheleak,perhapspurposelydeceivinghimself。Butnowhecoulddeceivehimselfnolonger。Thefarmingoftheland,ashewasmanagingit,hadbecomenotmerelyunattractivebutrevoltingtohim,andhecouldtakenofurtherinterestinit。
Tothisnowwasjoinedthepresence,onlythirtyverstasoff,ofKittyShcherbatskaia,whomhelongedtoseeandcouldnot。DaryaAlexandrovnaOblonskaiahadinvitedhim,whenhewasoverthere,tocome;tocomewiththeobjectofrenewinghisproposaltohersister,whowould,soshegavehimtounderstand,acceptitnow。LevinhimselfhadfeltonseeingKittyShcherbatskaiathathehadneverceasedtoloveher;buthecouldnotgoovertotheOblonskys’,knowingshewasthere。Thefactthathehadproposedtoher,andthatshehadrefusedhim,hadplacedaninsuperablebarrierbetweenherandhim。`Ican’taskhertobemywifemerelybecauseshecan’tbethewifeofthemanshewantedtomarry,’hesaidtohimself。
Thethoughtofthismadehimcoldandhostiletoher。`Ishouldnotbeabletospeaktoherwithoutafeelingofreproach;Icouldnotlookatherwithoutresentment;andshewillonlyhatemeallthemore,asshe’sboundto。Andbesides,howcanInow,afterwhatDaryaAlexandrovnatoldme,gotoseethem?CanIhelpshowingthatIknowwhatshetoldme?AndIshallcometoforgivehermagnanimously,andtakepityonher!Andgothroughaperformancebeforeherofforgiving,anddeigningtobestowmyloveonher!……WhydidDaryaAlexandrovnatellmethat?Imighthaveseenherbychance-theneverythingwouldhavehappenedofitself;but,asitis,it’soutofthequestion-outofthequestion!’
DaryaAlexandrovnasenthimaletter,askinghimforasidesaddleforKitty’suse。`I’mtoldyouhaveasidesaddle,’shewrotetohim;`I
hopeyouwillbringitoveryourself。’
Thiswasmorethanhecouldstand。Howcouldawomanofanyintelligence,ofanydelicacy,puthersisterinsuchahumiliatingposition!Hewrotetennotes,andtorethemallup,andthensentthesaddlewithoutanyreply。
Towritethathewouldcomewasimpossible,becausehecouldnotcome;
towritethathecouldnotcomebecausesomethingpreventedhim,orthathewouldbeaway,wouldbestillworse。Hesentthesaddlewithoutanyanswer;andwithasenseofhavingdonesomethingshameful,hehandedoverallthenowrevoltingbusinessoftheestatetohisbailiff,andsetoffnextdaytoaremotedistricttoseehisfriendSviiazhsky,whohadsplendidmarshesfordoublesnipesinhisneighborhood,andhadlatelywritten,askinghimtokeepalong-standingpromisetovisithim。Thesnipemarsh,intheSurovskydistrict,hadlongtemptedLevin,buthehadcontinuallyputoffthisvisitonaccountofhisworkontheestate。NowhewasgladtogetawayfromtheneighborhoodoftheShcherbatskys,andstillmorefromhisfarmwork,especiallyonashootingexpedition,whichalwaysservedasthebestconsolationintrouble。
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TOLSTOY:AnnaKareninaPart3,Chapter25[PreviousChapter][TableofContents]Chapter25IntheSurovskydistricttherewasneitherrailwaynormailcoach,andLevindrovetherewithhisownhorsesinhistarantass。
Hestoppedhalfwayatawell-to-dopeasant’stofeedhishorses。
Abald,well-preservedoldman,withabroad,redbeard,grizzledonhischeeks,openedthegate,squeezingagainstthegateposttoletthetroikapass。Directingthecoachmantoaplaceundertheshedinthebig,clean,tidynewyard,withcharred,woodenplowsinit,theoldmanaskedLevintocomeintotheroom。Acleanlydressedyounghousewife,withclogsonherbarefeet,wasscrubbingthefloorinthenewouterroom。ShewasfrightenedbythedogthatraninafterLevin,andutteredashriek,butbeganlaughingatherownfrightatoncewhenshewastoldthedogwouldnothurther。
PointingouttoLevinwithherbarearmthedoorintotheroom,shebentdownagain,hidingherhandsomeface,andwentonscrubbing。
`Wouldyoulikeasamovar?’sheasked。
`Yes,please。’
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