首页 >出版文学> The Woman in White(白衣女人)>第10章
  Iremainedleaningonthewindow-sillfornearlyaquarterofanhour,lookingoutabsentlyintotheblackdarkness,andhearingnothing,exceptnowandthenthevoicesoftheservants,orthedistantsoundofaclosingdoor,inthelowerpartofthehouse。
  JustasIwasturningawaywearilyfromthewindowtogobacktothebedroomandmakeasecondattempttocompletetheunfinishedentryinmyjournal,Ismelttheodouroftobacco-smokestealingtowardsmeontheheavynightair。ThenextmomentIsawatinyredsparkadvancingfromthefartherendofthehouseinthepitchdarkness。Iheardnofootsteps,andIcouldseenothingbutthespark。Ittravelledalonginthenight,passedthewindowatwhichIwasstanding,andstoppedoppositemybedroomwindow,insidewhichIhadleftthelightburningonthedressing-table。
  Thesparkremainedstationaryforamoment,thenmovedbackagaininthedirectionfromwhichithadadvanced。AsIfolloweditsprogressIsawasecondredspark,largerthanthefirst,approachingfromthedistance。Thetwomettogetherinthedarkness。Rememberingwhosmokedcigarettesandwhosmokedcigars,IinferredimmediatelythattheCounthadcomeoutfirsttolookandlistenundermywindow,andthatSirPercivalhadafterwardsjoinedhim。Theymustbothhavebeenwalkingonthelawn——orIshouldcertainlyhaveheardSirPercival’sheavyfootfall,thoughtheCount’ssoftstepmighthaveescapedme,evenonthegravelwalk。
  Iwaitedquietlyatthewindow,certainthattheycouldneitherofthemseemeinthedarknessoftheroom。
  `What’sthematter?’IheardSirPercivalsayinalowvoice。`Whydon’tyoucomeinandsitdown?’
  `Iwanttoseethelightoutofthatwindow,’repliedtheCountsoftly。
  `Whatharmdoesthelightdo?’
  `Itshowssheisnotinbedyet。Sheissharpenoughtosuspectsomething,andboldenoughtocomedownstairsandlisten,ifshecangetthechance。Patience,Percival——patience。’
  `Humbug!You’realwaystalkingofpatience。’
  `Ishalltalkofsomethingelsepresently。Mygoodfriend,youareontheedgeofyourdomesticprecipice,andifIletyougivethewomenoneotherchance,onmysacredwordofhonourtheywillpushyouoverit!’
  `Whatthedevildoyoumean?’
  `Wewillcometoourexplanations,Percival,whenthelightisoutofthatwindow,andwhenIhavehadonelittlelookattheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,andapeepatthestaircaseaswell。’
  Theyslowlymovedaway,andtherestoftheconversationbetweenthemwhichhadbeenconductedthroughoutinthesamelowtonesceasedtobeaudible。Itwasnomatter。IhadheardenoughtodeterminemeonjustifyingtheCount’sopinionofmysharpnessandmycourage。BeforetheredsparkswereoutofsightinthedarknessIhadmadeupmymindthatthereshouldbealistenerwhenthosetwomensatdowntotheirtalk——andthatthelistener,inspiteofalltheCount’sprecautionstothecontrary,shouldbemyself。Iwantedbutonemotivetosanctiontheacttomyownconscience,andtogivemecourageenoughforperformingit——andthatmotiveIhad。Laura’shonour,Laura’shappiness——Laura’slifeitself——mightdependonmyquickearsandmyfaithfulmemorytonight。
  IhadheardtheCountsaythathemeanttoexaminetheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,andthestaircaseaswell,beforeheenteredonanyexplanationwithSirPercival。Thisexpressionofhisintentionswasnecessarilysufficienttoinformmethatthelibrarywastheroominwhichheproposedthattheconversationshouldtakeplace。TheonemomentoftimewhichwaslongenoughtobringmetothatconclusionwasalsothemomentwhichshowedmeameansofbafflinghisPrecautions——or,inotherwords,ofhearingwhatheandSirPercivalsaidtoeachother,withouttheriskofdescendingatallintothelowerregionsofthehouse。
  InspeakingoftheroomsonthegroundfloorIhavementionedincidentallytheverandahoutsidethem,onwhichtheyallopenedbymeansofFrenchwindows,extendingfromthecornicetothefloor。Thetopofthisverandahwasflat,therain-waterbeingcarriedofffromitbypipesintotankswhichhelpedtosupplythehouse。Onthenarrowleadenroof,whichranalongpastthebedrooms,andwhichwasratherless,Ishouldthink,thanthreefeetbelowthesillsofthewindow,arowofflowerpotswasranged,withwideintervalsbetweeneachpot——thewholebeingprotectedfromfallinginhighwindsbyanornamentalironrailingalongtheedgeoftheroof。
  Theplanwhichhadnowoccurredtomewastogetoutatmysitting-roomwindowontothisroof,tocreepalongnoiselesslytillIreachedthatpartofitwhichwasimmediatelyoverthelibrarywindow,andtocrouchdownbetweentheflower-pots,withmyearagainsttheouterrailing。IfSirPercivalandtheCountsatandsmokedtonight,asIhadseenthemsittingandsmokingmanynightsbefore,withtheirchairscloseattheopenwindow,andtheirfeetstretchedonthezincgardenseatswhichwereplacedundertheverandah,everywordtheysaidtoeachotheraboveawhisperandnolongconversation,asweallknowbyexperience,canbecarriedoninawhispermustinevitablyreachmyears。If,ontheotherhand,theychosetonighttositfarbackinsidetheroom,thenthechanceswerethatIshouldhearlittleornothing——andinthatcase,Imustrunthefarmoreseriousriskoftryingtooutwitthemdownstairs。
  StronglyasIwasfortifiedinmyresolutionbythedesperatenatureofoursituation,IhopedmostferventlythatImightescapethislastemergency。Mycouragewasonlyawoman’scourageafterall,anditwasveryneartofailingmewhenIthoughtoftrustingmyselfonthegroundfloor,atthedeadofnight,withinreachofSirPercivalandtheCount。
  Iwentsoftlybacktomybedroomtotrythesaferexperimentoftheverandahrooffirst。
  Acompletechangeinmydresswasimperativelynecessaryformanyreasons。Itookoffmysilkgowntobeginwith,becausetheslightestnoisefromitonthatstillnightmighthavebetrayedme。Inextremovedthewhiteandcumbersomepartsofmyunderclothing,andreplacedthembyapetticoatofdarkflannel。OverthisIputmyblacktravellingcloak,andpulledthehoodontomyhead。InmyordinaryeveningcostumeItookuptheroomofthreemenatleast。Inmypresentdress,whenitwasheldcloseaboutme,nomancouldhavepassedthroughthenarrowestspacesmoreeasilythanI。Thelittlebreadthleftontheroofoftheverandah,betweentheflower-potsononesideandthewallandthewindowsofthehouseontheother,madethisaseriousconsideration。IfIknockedanythingdown,ifImadetheleastnoise,whocouldsaywhattheconsequencesmightbe?
  IonlywaitedtoputthematchesnearthecandlebeforeIextinguishedit,andgropedmywaybackintothesitting-room。Ilockedthedoor,asIhadlockedmybedroomdoor——thenquietlygotoutofthewindow,andcautiouslysetmyfeetontheleadenroofoftheverandah。
  Mytworoomswereattheinnerextremityofthenewwingofthehouseinwhichwealllived,andIhadfivewindowstopassbeforeIcouldreachthepositionitwasnecessarytotakeupimmediatelyoverthelibrary。Thefirstwindowbelongedtoaspareroomwhichwasempty。ThesecondandthirdwindowsbelongedtoLaura’sroom。ThefourthwindowbelongedtoSirPercival’sroom。ThefifthbelongedtotheCountess’sroom。Theothers,bywhichitwasnotnecessaryformetopass,werethewindowsoftheCount’sdressing-room,ofthebathroom,andofthesecondemptyspareroom。
  Nosoundreachedmyears——theblackblindingdarknessofthenightwasallroundmewhenIfirststoodontheverandah,exceptatthatpartofitwhichMadameFosco’swindowoverlooked。There,attheveryplaceabovethelibrarytowhichmycoursewasdirected——thereIsawagleamoflightITheCountesswasnotyetinbed。
  Itwastoolatetodrawback——itwasnotimetowait。Ideterminedtogoonatallhazards,andtrustforsecuritytomyowncautionandtothedarknessofthenight。`ForLaura’ssake!’Ithoughttomyself,asItookthefirststepforwardontheroof,withonehandholdingmycloakcloseroundme,andtheothergropingagainstthewallofthehouse。Itwasbettertobrushclosebythewallthantoriskstrikingmyfeetagainsttheflowerpotswithinafewinchesofme,ontheotherside。
  Ipassedthedarkwindowofthespareroom,tryingtheleadenroofateachstepwithmyfootbeforeIriskedrestingmyweightonit。IpassedthedarkwindowsofLaura’sroom`Godblessherandkeephertonight!’。IpassedthedarkwindowofSirPercival’sroom。ThenIwaitedamoment,kneltdownwithmyhandstosupportme,andsocrepttomyposition,undertheprotectionofthelowwallbetweenthebottomofthelightedwindowandtheverandahroof。
  WhenIventuredtolookupatthewindowitselfIfoundthatthetopofitonlywasopen,andthattheblindinsidewasdrawndown。WhileIwaslookingIsawtheshadowofMadameFoscopassacrossthewhitefieldoftheblind——thenpassslowlybackagain。Thusfarshecouldnothaveheardme,ortheshadowwouldsurelyhavestoppedattheblind,evenifshehadwantedcourageenoughtoopentheWindowandlookout?
  Iplacedmyselfsidewaysagainsttherailingoftheverandah——firstascertaining,bytouchingthem,thepositionoftheflowerpotsoneithersideofme。Therewasroomenoughformetositbetweenthemandnomore。Thesweet-scentedleavesofthefloweronmylefthandjustbrushedmycheekasIlightlyrestedmyheadagainsttherailing。
  Thefirstsoundsthatreachedmefrombelowwerecausedbytheopeningorclosingmostprobablythelatterofthreedoorsinsuccession——thedoors,nodoubt,leadingintothehallandintotheroomsoneachsideofthelibrary,whichtheCounthadpledgedhimselftoexamine。ThefirstobjectthatIsawwastheredsparkagaintravellingoutintothenightfromundertheverandah,movingawaytowardsmywindow,waitingamoment,andthenreturningtotheplacefromwhichithadsetout。
  `Thedeviltakeyourrestlessness!Whendoyoumeantositdown?’growledSirPercival’svoicebeneathme。
  `Ouf!howhotitis!’saidtheCount,sighingandpuffingwearily。
  Hisexclamationwasfollowedbythescrapingofthegardenchairsonthetiledpavementundertheverandah——thewelcomesoundwhichtoldmetheyweregoingtositcloseatthewindowasusual。Sofarthechancewasmine。Theclockintheturretstruckthequartertotwelveastheysettledthemselvesintheirchairs。IheardMadameFoscothroughtheopenwindowyawning,andsawhershadowpassoncemoreacrossthewhitefieldoftheblind。
  Meanwhile,SirPercivalandtheCountbegantalkingtogetherbelow,nowandthendroppingtheirvoicesalittlelowerthanusual,butneversinkingthemtoawhisper。Thestrangenessandperilofmysituation,thedread,whichIcouldnotmaster,ofMadameFosco’slightedwindow,madeitdifficult,almostimpossible,forme,atfirst,tokeepmypresenceofmind,andtofixmyattentionsolelyontheconversationbeneath。ForsomeminutesIcouldonlysucceedingatheringthegeneralsubstanceofit。IunderstoodtheCounttosaythattheonewindowalightwashiswife’s,thatthegroundfloorofthehousewasquiteclear,andthattheymightnowspeaktoeachotherwithoutfearofaccidents。Sirpercivalmerelyansweredbyupbraidinghisfriendwithhavingunjustifiably-slightedhiswishesandneglectedhisinterestsallthroughtheday。TheCountthereupondefendedhimselfbydeclaringthathehadbeenbesetbycertaintroublesandanxietieswhichhadabsorbedallhisattention,andthattheonlysafetimetocometoanexplanationwasatimewhentheycouldfeelcertainofbeingneitherinterruptednoroverheard。`Weareataseriouscrisisinouraffairs,Percival,’hesaid,`andifwearetodecideonthefutureatall,wemustdecidesecretlytonight’
  ThatsentenceoftheCount’swasthefirstwhichmyattentionwasreadyenoughtomasterexactlyasitwasspoken。Fromthispoint,withcertainbreaksandinterruptions,mywholeinterestfixedbreathlesslyontheconversation,andIfolloweditwordforword。
  `Crisis?’repeatedSirPercival。`It’saworsecrisisthanyouthinkfor,Icantellyou。’
  `SoIshouldsuppose,fromyourbehaviourforthelastdayortwo,’returnedtheothercoolly。`Butwaitalittle。BeforeweadvancetowhatIdonotknow,letusbequitecertainofwhatIdoknow。LetusfirstseeifIamrightaboutthetimethatispast,beforeImakeanyproposaltoyouforthetimethatistocome。’
  `StoptillIgetthebrandyandwater。Havesomeyourself。’
  `Thankyou,Percival。Thecoldwaterwithpleasure,aspoon,andthebasinofsugar。Eausucrée,myfriend——nothingmore。’
  `Sugar-and-waterforamanofyourage!——There!mixyoursicklymess。Youforeignersareallalike。’
  `Nowlisten,Percival。Iwillputourpositionplainlybeforeyou,asIunderstandit,andyoushallsayifIamrightorwrong。YouandIbothcamebacktothishousefromtheContinentwithouraffairsveryseriouslyembarrassed——’
  `Cutitshort!Iwantedsomethousandsandyousomehundreds,andwithoutthemoneywewerebothinafairwaytogotothedogstogether。There’sthesituation。Makewhatyoucanofit。Goon。’
  `Well,Percival,inyourownsolidEnglishwords,youwantedsomethousandsandIwantedsomehundreds,andtheonlywayofgettingthemwasforyoutoraisethemoneyforyourownnecessitywithasmallmarginbeyondformypoorlittlehundredsbythehelpofyourwife。WhatdidItellyouaboutyourwifeonourwaytoEngland?——andwhatdidItellyouagainwhenwehadcomehere,andwhenIhadseenformyselfthesortofwomanMissHalcombewas?’
  `HowshouldIknow?Youtalkednineteentothedozen,Isuppose,justasusual。’
  `Isaidthis:Humaningenuity,myfriend,hashithertoonlydiscoveredtwowaysinwhichamancanmanageawoman。Onewayistoknockherdown——amethodlargelyadoptedbythebrutallowerordersofthepeople,bututterlyabhorrenttotherefinedandeducatedclassesabovethem。Theotherwaymuchlonger,muchmoredifficult,butintheendnotlesscertainisnevertoacceptaprovocationatawoman’shands。Itholdswith
  animals,itholdswithchildren,anditholdswithwomen,who
  arenothingbutchildrengrownup。Quietresolutionistheone
  qualitytheanimals,thechildren,andthewomenallfailin。Iftheycanonceshakethissuperiorqualityintheirmaster,theygetthebetterofhim。Iftheycanneversucceedindisturbingit,hegetsthebetterofthem。Isaidtoyou,Rememberthatplaintruthwhenyouwantyourwifetohelpyoutothemoney。Isaid,Rememberitdoublyandtreblyinthepresenceofyourwife’ssister,MissHalcombe。Haveyourememberedit?Notonceinallthecomplicationsthathavetwistedthemselvesaboutusinthishouse。Everyprovocationthatyourwifeandhersistercouldoffertoyou,youinstantlyacceptedfromthem。Yourmadtemperlostthesignaturetothedeed,lostthereadymoney,setMissHalcombewritingtothelawyerforthefirsttime——’
  `Firsttime!Hasshewrittenagain?’
  `Yes,shehaswrittenagaintoday。’
  Achairfellonthepavementoftheverandah——fellwithacrash,asifithadbeenkickeddown。
  ItwaswellformethattheCount’srevelationrousedSirPercival’sangerasitdid。OnhearingthatIhadbeenoncemorediscoveredIstartedsothattherailingagainstwhichIleanedcrackedagain。Hadhefollowedmetotheinn?DidheinferthatImusthavegivenmyletterstoFannywhenItoldhimIhadnoneforthepost-bag。Evenifitwasso,howcouldhehaveexaminedtheletterswhentheyhadgonestraightfrommyhandtothebosomofthegirl’sdress?
  `Thankyourluckystar,’IheardtheCountsaynext,`thatyouhavemeinthehousetoundotheharmasfastasyoudoit。ThankyourluckystarthatIsaidNowhenyouweremadenoughtotalkofturningthekeytodayonMissHalcombe,asyouturneditinyourmischievousfollyonyourwife。Whereareyoureyes?CanyoulookatMissHalcombeandnotseethatshehastheforesightandtheresolutionofaman?WiththatwomanformyfriendIwouldsnapthesefingersofmineattheworld。Withthatwomanformyenemy,I,withallmybrainsandexperience——I,Fosco,cunningasthedevilhimself,asyouhavetoldmeahundredtimes——Iwalk,inyourEnglishphrase,uponegg-shells!Andthisgrandcreature——Idrinkherhealthinmysugar-and-water——thisgrandcreature,whostandsinthestrengthofherloveandhercourage,firmasarock,betweenustwoandthatpoor,flimsy,prettyblondewifeofyours——thismagnificentwoman,whomIadmirewithallmysoul,thoughIopposeherinyourinterestsandinmine,youdrivetoextremitiesasifshewasnosharperandnobolderthantherestofhersex。Percival!Percival!youdeservetofail,andyouhavefailed。’
  Therewasapause。Iwritethevillain’swordsaboutmyselfbecauseIMeantorememberthem——becauseIhopeyetforthedaywhenImayspeakoutonceforallinhispresence,andcastthembackonebyoneinhisteeth。
  SirPercivalwasthefirsttobreakthesilenceagain。
  `Yes,yes,bullyandblusterasmuchasyoulike,’hesaidsulkily;`thedifficultyaboutthemoneyisnottheonlydifficulty。Youwouldbefortakingstrongmeasureswiththewomenyourself——ifyouknewasmuchasIdo。’
  `Wewillcometothatseconddifficultyallingoodtime,’rejoinedtheCount。`Youmayconfuseyourself,Percival,asmuchasyouplease,butyoushallnotconfuseme。Letthequestionofthemoneybesettledfirst。HaveIconvincedyourobstinacy?haveIshownyouthatyourtemperwillnotletyouhelpyourself?——OrmustIgoback,andasyouputitinyourdearstraightforwardEnglishbullyandblusteralittlemore?’
  `Pooh!It’seasyEnoughtogrumbleatme。Saywhatistobedone——that’salittleharder。’
  `Isit?Bah!Thisiswhatistobedone:Yougiveupalldirectioninthebusinessfromtonight——youleaveitforthefutureinmyhandsonly。IamtalkingtoaPracticalBritishman——ha?Well,Practical,willthatdoforyou?’
  `WhatdoyouproposeifIleaveitalltoyou?’
  `Answermefirst。Isittoainmyhandsornot?’
  `Sayitisinyourhands——whatthen?’
  `Afewquestions,Percival,tobeginwith。Imustwaitalittleyet,toletcircumstancesguideme,andImustknow,ineverypossibleway,whatthosecircumstancesarelikelytobe。Thereisnotimetolose。IhavetoldyoualreadythatMissHalcombehaswrittentothelawyertodayforthesecondtime。’
  `Howdidyoufinditout?Whatdidshesay?’
  `IfItoldyou,Percival,weshouldonlycomebackattheendtowherewearenow。EnoughthatIhavefounditout——andthefindinghascausedthattroubleandanxietywhichmademesoinaccessibletoyouallthroughtoday。Now,torefreshmymemoryaboutyouraffairs——itissometimesinceItalkedthemoverwithyou。Themoneyhasbeenraised,intheabsenceofyourwife’ssignature,bymeansofbillsatthreemonths——raisedatacostthatmakesmypoverty-strickenforeignhairstandonendtothinkofit!Whenthebillsaredue,istherereallyandtrulynoearthlywayofpayingthembutbythehelpofyourwife?’
  `None。’
  `What!Youhavenomoneyatthebankers?’
  `Afewhundreds,whenIwantasmanythousands。’
  `Haveyounoothersecuritytoborrowupon?’
  `Notashred。’
  `Whathaveyouactuallygotwithyourwifeatthepresentmoment?’
  `Nothingbuttheinterestofhertwentythousandpounds——barelyenoughtopayourdailyexpenses。’
  `Whatdoyouexpectfromyourwife?’
  `Threethousandayearwhenheruncledies。’
  `Afinefortune,Percival。Whatsortofamanisthisuncle?Old?’
  `No——neitheroldnoryoung。’
  `Agood-tempered,freely-livingman?Married?No——Ithinkmywifetoldme,notmarried。’
  `Ofcoursenot。Ifhewasmarried,andhadason,LadyGlydewouldnotbenextheirtotheproperty。I’lltellyouwhatheis。He’samaudlin,twaddling,selfishfool,andboreseverybodywhocomesnearhimaboutthestateofhishealth。’
  `Menofthatsort,Percival,livelong,andmarrymalevolentlywhenyouleastexpectit。Idon’tgiveyoumuch,myfriend,foryourchanceofthethreethousandayear。Istherenothingmorethatcomestoyoufromyourwife?’
  `Nothing。’
  `Absolutelynothing?’
  `Absolutelynothing——exceptincaseofherdeath。’
  `Aha!inthecaseofherdeath。’
  Therewasanotherpause。TheCountmovedfromtheverandahtothegravelwalkoutside。Iknewthathehadmovedbyhisvoice。`Therainhascomeatlast,’Iheardhimsay。Ithadcome。Thestateofmycloakshowedthatithadbeenfallingthicklyforsomelittletime。
  TheCountwentbackundertheverandah——Iheardthechaircreakbeneathhisweightashesatdowninitagain,
  `Well,Percival,’hesaid,`andinthecaseofLadyGlyde’sdeath,whatdoyougetthen?’
  `Ifsheleavesnochildren——’
  `Whichsheislikelytodo?’
  `Whichsheisnotintheleastlikelytodo——’
  `Yes?’
  `Why,thenIgethertwentythousandpounds。’
  `Paiddown?’
  `Paiddown。’
  Theyweresilentoncemore。AstheirvoicesceasedMadameFosco’sshadowdarkenedtheblindagain。Insteadofpassingthistime,itremained,foramoment,quitestill。Isawherfingersstealroundthecorneroftheblind,anddrawitononeside。Thedimwhiteoutlineofherface,lookingoutstraightoverme,appearedbehindthewindow。Ikeptstill,shroudedfromheadtofootinmyblackcloak。Therain,whichwasfastwettingme,drippedovertheglass,blurredit,andpreventedherfromseeinganything。`Morerain!’Iheardhersaytoherself。Shedroppedtheblind,andIbreathedagainfreely。
  Thetalkwentonbelowme,theCountresumingitthistime。
  `Percival!doyoucareaboutyourwife?’
  `Fosco!that’sratheradownrightquestion。’
  `IamadownrightmanandIrepeatit。’
  `Whythedevildoyoulookatmeinthatway?’
  `Youwon’tanswerme?Well,then,letussayyourwifediesbeforethesummerisout——’
  `Dropit,Fosco!’
  `Letussayyourwifedies——’
  `Dropit,Itellyou!’
  `Inthatcase,youwouldgaintwentythousandpounds,andyouwouldlose——’
  `Ishouldlosethechanceofthreethousandayear。’
  `Theremotechance,Percival——theremotechanceonly。Andyouwantmoney,atonce。Inyourpositionthegainiscertain——thelossdoubtful。’
  `Speakforyourselfaswellasforme。SomeofthemoneyIwanthasbeenborrowedforyou。Andifyoucometogain,mywife’sdeathwouldbetenthousandpoundsinyourwife’spocket。Sharpasyouare,youseemtohaveconvenientlyforgottenMadameFosco’slegacy。Don’tlookatmeinthatway!Iwon’thaveit!Whatwithyourlooksandyourquestions,uponmysoul,youmakemyfleshcreep!’
  `Yourflesh?DoesfleshmeanconscienceinEnglish?Ispeakofyourwife’sdeathasIspeakofapossibility。Whynot?Therespectablelawyerswhoscribble-scrabbleyourdeedsandyourwillslookthedeathsoflivingpeopleintheface。Dolawyersmakeyourfleshcreep?Whyshouldl?Itismybusinesstonighttoclearupyourpositionbeyondthepossibilityofamistake,andIhavenowdoneit。Hereisyourposition。Ifyourwifelives,youpaythosebillswithhersignaturetotheparchment。Ifyourwifedies,youpaythemwithherdeath。’
  AshespokethelightinMadameFosco’sroomwasextinguished,andthewholesecondfloorofthehousewasnowsunkindarkness。
  `Talk!talk!’grumbledSirPercival。`Onewouldthink,tohearyou,thatmywife’ssignaturetothedeedwasgotalready。’
  `Youhaveleftthematterinmyhands,’retortedtheCount,`andIhavemorethantwomonthsbeforemetoturnroundin。Saynomoreaboutit,ifyouplease,forthepresent。Whenthebillsaredue,youwillseeforyourselfifmy``talk!talk!’’isworthsomething,orifitisnot。Andnow,Percival,havingdonewiththemoneymattersfortonight,Icanplacemyattentionatyourdisposal,ifyouwishtoconsultmeonthatseconddifficultywhichhasmixeditselfupwithourlittleembarrassments,andwhichhassoalteredyoufortheworse,thatIhardlyknowyouagain。Speak,myfriend——andpardonmeifIshockyourfierynationaltastesbymixingmyselfasecondglassofsugar-and-water。’
  `It’sverywelltosayspeak,’repliedSirPercival,inafarmorequietandmorepolitetonethanhehadyetadopted,`butit’snotsoeasytoknowhowtobegin。’
  `ShallIhelpyou?’suggestedtheCount。`ShallIgivethisprivatedifficultyofyoursaname?WhatifIcallit——AnneCatherick?’
  `Lookhere,Fosco,youandIhaveknowneachotherforalongtime,andifyouhavehelpedmeoutofoneortwoscrapesbeforethis,IhavedonethebestIcouldtohelpyouinreturn,asfarasmoneywouldgo。Wehavemadeasmanyfriendlysacrifices,onbothsides,asmencould,butwehavehadoursecretsfromeachother,ofcourse——haven’twe?’
  `Youhavehadasecretfromme,Percival。ThereisaskeletoninyourcupboardhereatBlackwaterParkthathaspeepedoutintheselastfewdaysatotherpeoplebesidesyourself。’
  `Well,supposeithas。Ifitdoesn’tconcernyou,youneedn’tbecuriousaboutit,needyou?’
  `DoIlookcuriousaboutit?’
  Yes,youdo。’
  `So!so!myfacespeaksthetruth,then?Whatanimmensefoundationofgoodtheremustbeinthenatureofamanwhoarrivesatmyage,andwhosefacehasnotyetlostthehabitofspeakingthetruth!——Come,Glyde!letusbecandidonewiththeother。Thissecretofyourshassoughtme:Ihavenotsoughtit。LetussayIamcurious——doyouaskme,asyouroldfriend,torespectyoursecret,andtoleaveit,onceforall,inyourownkeeping?’
  `Yes——that’sjustwhatIdoask。’
  `Thenmycuriosityisatanend。Itdiesinmefromthismoment。’
  `Doyoureallymeanthat?’
  `Whatmakesyoudoubtme?’
  `Ihavehadsomeexperience,Fosco,ofyourroundaboutways,andIamnotsosurethatyouwon’twormitoutofmeafterall。’
  Thechairbelowsuddenlycreakedagain——Ifeltthetrellisworkpillarundermeshakefromtoptobottom。TheCounthadstartedtohisfeet,andhadstruckitwithhishandinindignation。
  `Percival!Percival!’hecriedpassionately,`doyouknowmenobetterthanthat?Hasallyourexperienceshownyounothingofmycharacteryet?Iamamanoftheantiquetype!Iamcapableofthemostexaltedactsofvirtue——whenIhavethechanceofperformingthem。IthasbeenthemisfortuneofmylifethatIhavehadfewchances。MyconceptionoffriendshipissublimeIIsitmyfaultthatyourskeletonhaspeepedoutatme?WhydoIconfessmycuriosity?YoupoorsuperficialEnglishman,itistomagnifymyownself-control。Icoulddrawyoursecretoutofyou,ifIliked,asIdrawthisfingeroutofthepalmofmyhand——youknowIcould!Butyouhaveappealedtomyfriendship,andthedutiesoffriendshiparesacredtome。See!Itramplemybasecuriosityundermyfeet。Myexaltedsentimentsliftmeaboveit。Recognisethem,Percival!imitatethem,Percival!Shakehands——Iforgiveyou。’
  Hisvoicefalteredoverthelastwords——faltered,asifhewereactuallysheddingtears!
  SirPercivalconfusedlyattemptedtoexcusehimself,buttheCountwastoomagnanimoustolistentohim。
  `No!’hesaid。`Whenmyfriendhaswoundedme,Icanpardonhimwithoutapologies。Tellme,inplainwords,doyouwantmyhelp?’
  `Yes,badlyenough。’
  `Andyoucanaskforitwithoutcompromisingyourself?’
  `Icantry,atanyrate。’
  `Try,then。’
  `Well,thisishowitstands:——ItoldyoutodaythatIhaddonemybesttofindAnneCatherick,andfailed。’
  `Yes,youdid。’
  `Fosco!I’malostmanifIdon’tfindher。’
  `Ha!Isitsoseriousasthat?’
  Alittlestreamoflighttravelledoutundertheverandah,andfelloverthegravel-walk。TheCounthadtakenthelampfromtheinnerpartoftheroomtoseehisfriendclearlybythelightofit。
  `Yes!’hesaid。`Yourfacespeaksthetruththistime。Serious,indeed——asseriousasthemoneymattersthemselves。’
  `Moreserious。AstrueasIsithere,moreserious!’
  Thelightdisappearedagainandthetalkwenton。
  `IshowedyouthelettertomywifethatAnneCatherickhidinthesand,’SirPercivalcontinued。`There’snoboastinginthatletter,Fosco——shedoesknowtheSecret。’
  `Sayaslittleaspossible,Percival,inmypresence,oftheSecret。Doessheknowitfromyou?’
  `No,fromhermother。’
  `Twowomeninpossessionofyourprivatemind——bad,bad,bad,myfriendIOnequestionhere,beforewegoanyfarther。Themotiveofyourshuttingupthedaughterintheasylumisnowplainenoughtome,butthemannerofherescapeisnotquitesoclear。Doyoususpectthepeopleinchargeofherofclosingtheireyespurposely,attheinstanceofsomeenemywhocouldaffordtomakeitworththeirwhile?’
  `No,shewasthebest-behavedpatienttheyhad——and,likefools,theytrustedher。She’sjustmadenoughtobeshutup,andjustsaneenoughtoruinmewhenshe’satlarge——ifyouunderstandthat?’
  `Idounderstandit。Now,Percival,comeatoncetothepoint,andthenIshallknowwhattodo。Whereisthedangerofyourpositionatthepresentmoment?’
  `AnneCatherickisinthisneighbourhood,andincommunicationwithLadyGlyde——there’sthedanger,plainenough。Whocanreadthelettershehidinthesand,andnotseethatmywifeisinpossessionoftheSecret,denyitasshemay?’
  `Onemoment,Percival。IfLadyGlydedoesknowtheSecret,shemustknowalsothatitisacompromisingsecretforyou。Asyourwife,surelyitisinherinteresttokeepit?’
  `Isit?I’mcomingtothat。Itmightbeherinterestifshecaredtwostrawsaboutme。ButIhappentobeanencumbranceinthewayofanotherman。Shewasinlovewithhimbeforeshemarriedme——she’sinlovewithhimnow——aninfernalvagabondofadrawing-master,namedHartright。’
  `Mydearfriend!whatisthereextraordinaryinthat?Theyareallinlovewithsomeotherman。Whogetsthefirstofawoman’sheart?InallmyexperienceIhaveneveryetmetwiththemanwhowasNumberOne。NumberTwo,sometimes。NumberThree,Four,Five,often。NumberOne,never!Heexists,ofcourse——butIhavenotmetwithhun。’
  `Wait!Ihaven’tdoneyet。WhodoyouthinkhelpedAnneCathericktogetthestart,whenthepeoplefromthemad-housewereafterher?Hartright。WhodoyouthinksawheragaininCumberland?HartrightBothtimeshespoketoheralone。Stop!don’tinterruptme。Thescoundrel’sassweetonmywifeassheisonhim。HeknowstheSecret,andsheknowstheSecret。Onceletthembothgettogetheragain,andit’sherinterestandhisinteresttoturntheirinformationagainstme。’
  `Gently,Percival——gentlyIAreyouinsensibletothevirtueofLadyGlyde?’
  `ThatforthevirtueofLadyGlyde!Ibelieveinnothingaboutherbuthermoney。Don’tyouseehowthecasestands?Shemightbeharmlessenoughbyherself;butifshehadthatvagabondHartright——’
  `Yes,yes,Isee。WhereisMrHartright?’
  `Outofthecountry。Ifhemeanstokeepawholeskinonhisbones,Irecommendhimnottocomebackinahurry。’
  `Areyousureheisoutofthecountry?’
  `Certain。IhadhimwatchedfromthetimeheleftCumberlandtothetimehesailed。Oh,I’vebeencareful,Icantellyou!AnneCathericklivedwithsomepeopleatafarm-housenearLimmeridge。Iwenttheremyself,aftershehadgivenmetheslip,andmadesurethattheyknewnothing。IgavehermotheraformoflettertowritetoMissHalcombe,exoneratingmefromanybadmotiveinputtingherunderrestraint。I’vespent,I’mafraidtosayhowmuch,intryingtotraceher,andinspiteofitall,sheturnsuphereandescapesmeonmyownproperty!HowdoIknowwhoelsemayseeher,whoelsemayspeaktoher?Thatpryingscoundrel,Hartright,maycomebackwithoutmyknowingit,andmaymakeuseofhertomorrow——’
  `Nothe,Percival!WhileIamonthespot,andwhilethatwomanisintheneighbourhood,IwillanswerforourlayinghandsonherbeforeMrHartright——evenifhedoescomeback。Isee!yes,yes,Isee!ThefindingofAnneCatherickisthefirstnecessity——makeyourmindeasyabouttherest。Yourwifeishere,underyourthumb——MissHalcombeisinseparablefromher,andis,therefore,underyourthumbalso——andMrHartrightisoutofthecountry。ThisinvisibleAnneofyoursisallwehavetothinkofforthepresent。Youhavemadeyourinquiries?’
  `Yes。Ihavebeentohermother,Ihaveransackedthevillage——andalltonopurpose。’
  `Ishermothertobedependedon?’
  `Yes,’
  `Shehastoldyoursecretonce。’
  `Shewon’ttellitagain。’
  `Whynot?Areherowninterestsconcernedinkeepingit,aswellasyours?’
  `Yes——deeplyconcerned。’
  `Iamgladtohearit,Percival,foryoursake。Don’tbediscouraged,myfriend。Ourmoneymatters,asItoldyou,leavemeplentyoftimetoturnroundin,andImaysearchforAnneCathericktomorrowtobetterpurposethanyou。Onelastquestionbeforewegotobed。’
  `Whatisit?’
  `Itisthis。WhenIwenttotheboat-housetotellLadyGlydethatthelittledifficultyofhersignaturewasputoff,accidenttookmethereintimetoseeastrangewomanpartinginaverysuspiciousmannerfromyourwife。Butaccidentdidnotbringmenearenoughtoseethissamewoman’sfaceplainly。ImustknowhowtorecogniseourinvisibleAnne。Whatisshelike?’
  `Like?Come!I’lltellyouintwowords。She’sasicklylikenessofmywife。’
  Thechaircreaked,andthepillarshookoncemore。TheCountwasonhisfeetagain——thistimeinastonishment。
  `What!!!’heexclaimedeagerly。
  `Fancymywife,afterabadillness,withatouchofsomethingwronginherhead——andthereisAnneCatherickforyou,’answeredSirPercival。
  `Aretheyrelatedtoeachother?’
  `Notabitofit。’
  `Andyetsolike?’
  `Yes,solike。Whatareyoulaughingabout?’
  Therewasnoanswerandnosoundofanykind。TheCountwaslaughinginhissmoothsilentinternalway。
  `Whatareyoulaughingabout?’reiteratedSirPercival。
  `Perhapsatmyownfancies,mygoodfriend。AllowmemyItalianhumour——doInotcomeoftheillustriousnationwhichinventedtheexhibitionofPunch?Well,well,well,IshallknowAnneCatherickwhenIseeher——andsoenoughfortonight。Makeyourmindeasy,Percival。Sleep,myson,thesleepofthejust,andseewhatIwilldoforyouwhendaylightcomestohelpusboth。Ihavemyprojectsandmyplanshereinmybighead。YoushallpaythosebillsandfindAnneCatherick——mysacredwordofhonouronit,butyoushall!AmIafriendtobetreasuredinthebestcornerofyourheart,oramInot?AmIworththoseloansofmoneywhichyousodelicatelyremindedmeofalittlewhilesince?Whateveryoudo,neverwoundmeinmysentimentsanymore。Recognisethem,Percival!imitatethem,Percival!Iforgiveyouagain——Ishakehandsagain。Goodnight!’
  Notanotherwordwasspoken。IheardtheCountclosethelibrarydoor。IheardSirPercivalbarringupthewindow-shutters。Ithadbeenraining,rainingallthetime。Iwascrampedbymypositionandchilledtothebones。WhenIfirsttriedtomove,theeffortwassopainfultomethatIwasobligedtodesist。Itriedasecondtime,andsucceededinrisingtomykneesonthewetroof。
  AsIcrepttothewall,andraisedmyselfagainstit,Ilookedback,andsawthewindowoftheCount’sdressing-roomgleamintolight。Mysinkingcourageflickeredupinmeagain,andkeptmyeyesfixedonhiswindow,asIstolemywayback,stepbystep,pastthewallofthehouse。
  Theclockstruckthequarterafterone,whenIlaidmyhandsonthewindow-sillofmyownroom。Ihadseennothingandheardnothingwhichcouldleadmetosupposethatmyretreathadbeendiscovered。
  June20th——Eighto’clock。Thesunisshininginaclearsky。Ihavenotbeennearmybed——Ihavenotonceclosedmywearywakefuleyes。FromthesamewindowatwhichIlookedoutintothedarknessoflastnight,Ilookoutnowatthebrightstillnessofthemorning。
  IcountthehoursthathavepassedsinceIescapedtotheshelterofthisroombymyownsensations——andthosehoursseemlikeweeks。
  Howshortatime,andyethowlongtome——sinceIsankdowninthedarkness,here,onthefloor——drenchedtotheskin,crampedineverylimb,coldtothebones,auseless,helpless,panic-strickencreature。
  IhardlyknowwhenIrousedmyself。IhardlyknowwhenIgropedmywaybacktothebedroom,andlightedthecandle,andsearchedwithastrangeignorance,atfirst,ofwheretolookforthemfordryclothestowarmme。Thedoingofthesethingsisinmymind,butnotthetimewhentheyweredone。
  CanIevenrememberwhenthechilled,crampedfeelingleftme,andthethrobbingheatcameinitsplace?
  Surelyitwasbeforethesunrose?Yes,Iheardtheclockstrikethree。Irememberthetimebythesuddenbrightnessandclearness,thefeverishstrainandexcitementofallmyfacultieswhichcamewithit。Iremembermyresolutiontocontrolmyself,towaitpatientlyhourafterhour,tillthechanceofferedofremovingLaurafromthishorribleplace,withoutthedangerofimmediatediscoveryandpursuit。Irememberthepersuasionsettlingitselfinmymindthatthewordsthosetwomenhadsaidtoeachotherwouldfurnishus,notonlywithourjustificationforleavingthehouse,butwithourweaponsofdefenceagainstthemaswell。Irecalltheimpulsethatawakenedinmetopreservethosewordsinwriting,exactlyastheywerespoken,whilethetimewasmyown,andwhilemymemoryvividlyretainedthem。AllthisIrememberplainly:thereisnoconfusioninmyheadyet。Thecominginherefromthebedroom,withmypenandinkandpaper,beforesunrise——thesittingdownatthewidely-openedwindowtogetalltheairIcouldtocoolme——theceaselesswriting,fasterandfaster,hotterandhotter,drivingonmoreandmorewakefully,allthroughthedreadfulintervalbeforethehousewasastiragain——howclearlyIrecallit,fromthebeginningbycandle-light,totheendonthepagebeforethis,inthesunshineofthenewday!
  WhydoIsitherestill?WhydoIwearymyhoteyesandmyburningheadbywritingmore?Whynotliedownandrestmyself,andtrytoquenchthefeverthatconsumesme,insleep?
  Idarenotattemptit。Afearbeyondallotherfearshasgotpossessionofme。Iamafraidofthisheatthatparchesmyskin。IamafraidofthecreepingandthrobbingthatIfeelinmyhead。IfIliedownnow,howdoIknowthatImayhavethesenseandthestrengthtoriseagain?
  Oh,therain,therain——thecruelrainthatchilledmelastnight!
  Nineo’clock。Wasitninestruck,oreight?Nine,surely?Iamshiveringagain——shivering,fromheadtofoot,inthesummerair。HaveIbeensittinghereasleep?Idon’tknowwhatIhavebeendoing。
  Oh,myGod!amIgoingtobeill?
  Ill,atsuchatimeasthis!
  Myhead——Iamsadlyafraidofmyhead。Icanwrite,butthelinesallruntogether。Iseethewords。Laura——IcanwriteLaura,andseeIwriteit。Eightornine——whichwasit?
  Socold,socold——oh,thatrainlastnight!——andthestrokesoftheclock,thestrokesIcan’tcount,keepstrikinginmyhead——
  NOTE
  AtthisplacetheentryintheDiaryceasestobelegible。Thetwoorthreelineswhichfollowcontainfragmentsofwordsonly,mingledwithblotsandscratchesofthepen。ThelastmarksonthepaperbearsomeresemblancetothefirsttwolettersLandAofthenameofLadyGlyde。
  OnthenextpageoftheDiary,anotherentryappears。Itisinaman’shandwriting,large,bold,andfirmlyregular,andthedateis`Junethe21st。’Itcontainstheselines]
  POSTSCRIPTBYASINCEREFRIEND
  TheillnessofourexcellentMissHalcombehasaffordedmetheopportunityofenjoyinganunexpectedintellectualpleasure。
  IrefertotheperusalwhichIhavejustcompletedofthisinterestingDiary。
  Therearemanyhundredpageshere。Icanlaymyhandonmyheart,anddeclarethateverypagehascharmed,refreshed,delightedme。
  Toamanofmysentimentsitisunspeakablygratifyingtobeabletosaythis。
  Admirablewoman!
  IalludetoMissHalcombe。
  Stupendouseffort!
  IrefertotheDiary。
  Yes!thesepagesareamazing。ThetactwhichIfindhere,thediscretion,therarecourage,thewonderfulpowerofmemory,theaccurateobservationofcharacter,theeasygraceofstyle,thecharmingoutburstsofwomanlyfeeling,haveallinexpressiblyincreasedmyadmirationofthissublimecreature,ofthismagnificentMarian。Thepresentationofmyowncharacterismasterlyintheextreme。Icertify,withmywholeheart,tothefidelityoftheportrait。IfeelhowvividanimpressionImusthaveproducedtohavebeenpaintedinsuchstrong,suchrich,suchmassivecoloursasthese。Ilamentafreshthecruelnecessitywhichsetsourinterestsatvariance,andopposesustoeachother。UnderhappiercircumstanceshowworthyIshouldhavebeenofMissHalcombe——howworthyMissHalcombewouldhavebeenofME。
  ThesentimentswhichanimatemyheartassuremethatthelinesIhavejustwrittenexpressaProfoundTruth。
  Thosesentimentsexaltmeaboveallmerelypersonalconsiderations。Ibearwitness,inthemostdisinterestedmanner,totheexcellenceofthestratagembywhichthisunparalleledwomansurprisedtheprivateinterviewbetweenPercivalandmyself——alsotothemarvellousaccuracyofherreportofthewholeconversationfromitsbeginningtoitsend。
  Thosesentimentshaveinducedmetooffertotheunimpressionabledoctorwhoattendsonhermyvastknowledgeofchemistry,andmyluminousexperienceofthemoresubtleresourceswhichmedicalandmagneticsciencehaveplacedatthedisposalofmankind。Hehashithertodeclinedtoavailhimselfofmyassistance。Miserableman!
  Finally,thosesentimentsdictatethelines——grateful,sympathetic,paternallines——whichappearinthisplace。Iclosethehook。Mystrictsenseofproprietyrestoresitbythehandsofmywifetoitsplaceonthewriter’stable。Eventsarehurryingmeaway。Circumstancesareguidingmetoseriousissues。Vastperspectivesofsuccessunrollthemselvesbeforemyeyes。Iaccomplishmydestinywithacalmnesswhichisterribletomyself。Nothingbutthehomageofmyadmirationismyown。IdeposititwithrespectfultendernessatthefeetofMissHalcombe。
  Ibreathemywishesforherrecovery。
  Icondolewithherontheinevitablefailureofeveryplanthatshehasformedforhersister’sbenefit。Atthesametime,IentreathertobelievethattheinformationwhichIhavederivedfromherDiarywillinnorespecthelpmetocontributetothatfailure。ItsimplyconfirmstheplanofconductwhichIhadpreviouslyarranged。Ihavetothankthesepagesforawakeningthefinestsensibilitiesinmynature——nothingmore。
  Toapersonofsimilarsensibilitythissimpleassertionwillexplainandexcuseeverything。
  MissHalcombeisapersonofsimilarsensibility。
  InthatpersuasionIsignmyself,FOSCO。
  THESTORYCONTINUEDBYFREDERICKFAIRLIE,ESQ。,OFLIMMERIDGEHOUSE*
  *note1。ThemannerinwhichMrFairlie’sNarrative,andotherNarrativesthatareshortlytofollowit,wereoriginallyobtained,formsthesubjectofanexplanationwhichwillappearatalaterperiod。
  ITisthegrandmisfortuneofmylifethatnobodywillletmealone。
  Why——Iaskeverybody——whyworryme?Nobodyanswersthatquestion,andnobodyletsmealone。Relatives,friends,andstrangersallcombinetoannoyme。WhathaveIdone?Iaskmyself,Iaskmyservant,Louis,fiftytimesaday——whathaveIdone?Neitherofuscantell。Mostextraordinary!
  ThelastannoyancethathasassailedmeistheannoyanceofbeingcalledupontowritethisNarrative。Isamaninmystateofnervouswretchednesscapableofwritingnarratives?WhenIputthisextremelyreasonableobjection,Iamtoldthatcertainveryseriouseventsrelatingtomyniecehavehappenedwithinmyexperience,andthatIamthefitpersontodescribethemonthataccount。IamthreatenedifIfailtoexertmyselfinthemannerrequired,withconsequenceswhichIcannotsomuchasthinkofwithoutperfectprostration。Thereisreallynoneedtothreatenme。Shatteredbymymiserablehealthandmyfamilytroubles,Iamincapableofresistance。Ifyouinsist,youtakeyourunjustadvantageofme,andIgivewayimmediately。IwillendeavourtorememberwhatIcanunderprotest,andtowritewhatIcanalsounderprotest,andwhatIcan’trememberandcan’twrite,Louismustrememberandwriteforme。Heisanass,andIamaninvalid,andwearelikelytomakeallsortsofmistakesbetweenus。Howhumiliating!
  Iamtoldtorememberdates。Goodheavens!Ineverdidsuchathinginmylife——howamItobeginnow?
  IhaveaskedLouis。HeisnotquitesuchanassasIhavehithertosupposed。Heremembersthedateoftheevent。withinaweekortwo——andIrememberthenameoftheperson。ThedatewastowardstheendofJune,orthebeginningofJuly,andthenameinmyopinionaremarkablyvulgaronewasFanny。
  AttheendofJune,orthebeginningofJuly,then,Iwasreclininginmycustomarystate,surroundedbythevariousobjectsofArtwhichIhavecollectedaboutmetoimprovethetasteofthebarbarouspeopleinmyneighbourhood。Thatistosay,Ihadthephotographsofmypictures,andprints,andcoins,andsoforth,allaboutme,whichIintend,oneofthesedays,topresentthephotographs,Imean,iftheclumsyEnglishlanguagewillletmemeananything——topresenttotheinstitutionatCarlislehorridplace!,withaviewtoimprovingthetastesofthemembersGothsandVandalstoaman。Itmightbesupposedthatagentlemanwhowasincourseofconferringagreatnationalbenefitonhiscountrymenwasthelastgentlemanintheworldtobeunfeelinglyworriedaboutprivatedifficultiesandfamilyaffairs。Quiteamistake,Iassureyou,inmycase。
  However,thereIwas,reclining,withmyart-treasuresaboutme,andwantingaquietmorning。BecauseIwantedaquietmorning,ofcourseLouiscamein。ItwasperfectlynaturalthatIshouldinquirewhatthedeucehemeantbymakinghisappearancewhenIhadnotrungmybell。Iseldomswear——itissuchanungentlemanlikehabit——butwhenLouisansweredbyagrin,IthinkitwasalsoperfectlynaturalthatIshoulddamnhimforgrinning。Atanyrate,Idid。
  Thisrigorousmodeoftreatment,Ihaveobserved,invariablybringspersonsinthelowerclassoflifetotheirsenses。ItbroughtLouistohissenses。Hewassoobligingastoleaveoffgrinning,andinformmethataYoungPersonwasoutsidewantingtoseeme。Headdedwiththeodioustalkativenessofservants,thathernamewasFanny。
  `WhoisFanny?’
  `LadyGlyde’smaid,sir?’
  `WhatdoesLadyGlyde’smaidwantwithme?’
  `Aletter,sir-’
  `Takeit。’
  `Sherefusestogiveittoanybodybutyou,sir。’
  `Whosendstheletter?’
  `MissHalcombe,sir。’
  ThemomentIheardMissHalcombe’snameIgaveup。ItisahabitofminealwaystogiveuptoMissHalcombe。Ifind,byexperience,thatitsavesnoise。Igaveuponthisoccasion。DearMarian!
  `LetLadyGlyde’smaidcomein。Louis。Stop!Dohershoescreak?’
  Iwasobligedtoaskthequestion。Creakingshoesinvariablyupsetmefortheday。IwasresignedtoseetheYoungPerson,butIwasnotresignedtolettheYoungPerson’sshoesupsetme。Thereisalimiteventomyendurance。
  Louisaffirmeddistinctlythathershoesweretobedependedupon。Iwavedmyhand。Heintroducedher。Isitnecessarytosaythatsheexpressedhersenseofembarrassmentbyshuttinguphermouthandbreathingthroughhernose?Tothestudentoffemalehumannatureinthelowerorders,surelynot。
  Letmedothegirljustice。Hershoesdidnotcreak。ButwhydoYoungPersonsinserviceallperspireatthehands?Whyhavetheyallgotfatnosesandhardcheeks?Andwhyaretheirfacessosadlyunfinished,especiallyaboutthecornersoftheeyelids?Iamnotstrongenoughtothinkdeeplymyselfonanysubject,butIappealtoprofessionalmen,whoare。WhyhavewenovarietyinourbreedofYoungPersons?
  `Youhavealetterforme,fromMissHalcombe?Putitdownonthetable,please,anddon’tupsetanything。HowisMissHalcombe?’
  `Verywell,thankyou,sir。’
  `AndLadyGlyde?’
  Ireceivednoanswer。TheYoungPerson’sfacebecamemoreunfinishedthanever,andIthinkshebegantocry。Icertainlysawsomethingmoistabouthereyes。Tearsorperspiration?LouiswhomIhavejustconsultedisinclinedtothink,tears。Heisinherclassoflife,andheoughttoknowbest。Letussay,tears。
  ExceptwhentherefiningprocessofArtjudiciouslyremovesfromthemallresemblancetoNature,Idistinctlyobjecttotears。TearsarescientificallydescribedasaSecretion。Icanunderstandthatasecretionmaybehealthyorunhealthy,butIcannotseetheinterestofasecretionfromasentimentalpointofview。Perhapsmyownsecretionsbeingallwrongtogether,Iamalittleprejudicedonthesubject。Nomatter。Ibehaved,onthisoccasion,withallpossibleproprietyandfeeling。IclosedmyeyesandsaidtoLouis——
  `Endeavourtoascertainwhatshemeans。’
  Louisendeavoured,andtheYoungPersonendeavoured。TheysucceededinconfusingeachothertosuchanextentthatIamboundincommongratitudetosaytheyreallyamusedme。IthinkIshallsendforthemagainwhenIaminlowspirits。IhavejustmentionedthisideatoLouis。Strangetosay,itseemstomakehimuncomfortable。Poordevil!
  SurelyIamnotexpectedtorepeatmyniece’smaid’sexplanationofhertears,interpretedintheEnglishofmySwissvalet?Thethingismanifestlyimpossible。Icangivemyownimpressionsandfeelingsperhaps。Willthatdoaswell?Pleasesay,Yes。
  MyideaisthatshebeganbytellingmethroughLouisthathermasterhaddismissedherfromhermistress’sservice。Observe,throughout,thestrangeirrelevancyoftheYoungPerson。Wasitmyfaultthatshehadlostherplace?Onherdismissal,shehadgonetotheinntosleep。Idon’tkeeptheinn——whymentionittome?Betweensiro’clockandsevenMissHalcombehadcometosaygood-bye,andhadgivenhertwoletters,oneforme,andoneforagentlemaninLondon。IamnotagentlemaninLondon——hangthegentlemaninLondon!ShehadcarefullyputthetwolettersintoherbosomwhathaveItodowithherbosom?;shehadbeenveryunhappy,whenMissHalcombehadgoneawayagain;shehadnothadthehearttoputbitordropbetweenherlipstillitwasnearbedtime,andthen,whenitwascloseonnineo’clock,shehadthoughtsheshouldlikeacupoftea。AmIresponsibleforanyofthesevulgarfluctuations,whichbeginwithunhappinessandendwithtea?rustasshewaswarmingthepotIgivethewordsontheauthorityofLouis,whosaysheknowswhattheymean,andwishestoexplain,butIsnubhimonprinciple——justasshewaswarmingthepotthedooropened,andshewasstruckofaheapherownwordsagain,andperfectlyunintelligiblethistimetoLouis,aswellastomyselfbytheappearanceintheinnparlourofherladyshiptheCountess。Igivemyniece’smaid’sdescriptionofmysister’stitlewithasenseofthehighestrelish。Mypoordearsisterisatiresomewomanwhomarriedaforeigner。Toresume:thedooropened,herladyshiptheCountessappearedintheparlour,andtheYoungPersonwasstruckofaheap。Mostremarkable!
  ImustreallyrestalittlebeforeIcangetonanyfarther。WhenIhavereclinedforafewminutes,withmyeyesclosed,andwhenLouishasrefreshedmypoorachingtempleswithalittleeau-de-Cologne,Imaybeabletoproceed。
  HerladyshiptheCountess——
  No。Iamabletoproceed,butnottositup。Iwillreclineanddictate。Louishasahorridaccent,butheknowsthelanguage,andcanwrite。Howveryconvenient!
  Herladyship,theCountess,explainedherunexpectedappearanceattheinnbytellingFannythatshehadcometobringoneortwolittlemessageswhichMissHalcombeinherhurryhadforgotten。TheYoungPersonthereuponwaitedanxiouslytohearwhatthemessageswere,buttheCountessseemeddisinclinedtomentionthemsolikemysister’stiresomeway!untilFannyhadhadhertea。Herladyshipwassurprisinglykindandthoughtfulaboutitextremelyunlikemysister,andsaid,`Iamsure,mypoorgirl,youmustwantyourtea。Wecanletthemessageswaittillafterwards。Come,come,ifnothingelsewillputyouatyourease,I’llmaketheteaandhaveacupwithyou。’Ithinkthosewerethewords,asreportedexcitably,inmypresence,bytheYoungPerson。Atanyrate,theCountessinsistedonmakingthetea,andcarriedherridiculousostentationofhumilitysofarastotakeonecupherself,andtoinsistonthegirl’stakingtheother。Thegirldrankthetea,andaccordingtoherownaccount,solemnisedtheextraordinaryoccasionfiveminutesafterwardsbyfaintingdeadawayforthefirsttimeinherlife。HereagainIuseherownwords。Louisthinkstheywereaccompaniedbyanincreasedsecretionoftears。Ican’tsaymyself。TheeffortoflisteningbeingquiteasmuchasIcouldmanage,myeyeswereclosed。
  WheredidIleaveoff?Ah,yes——shefaintedafterdrinkingacupofteawiththeCountess——aproceedingwhichmighthaveinterestedmeifIhadbeenhermedicalman,butbeingnothingofthesortIfeltboredbyhearingofit,nothingmore。Whenshecametoherselfinhalfanhourstimeshewasonthesofa,andnobodywaswithherbutthelandlady。TheCountess,findingittoolatetoremainanylongerattheinn,hadgoneawayassoonasthegirlshowedsignsofrecovering,andthelandladyhadbeengoodenoughtohelpherupstairstobed。
  Leftbyherself,shehadfeltinherbosomIregretthenecessityofreferringtothispartofthesubjectasecondtime,andhadfoundthetwoletterstherequitesafe,butstrangelycrumpled。Shehadbeengiddyinthenight,buthadgotupwellenoughtotravelinthemorning。Shehadputtheletteraddressedtothatobtrusivestranger,thegentlemaninLondon,intothepost,andhadnowdeliveredtheotherletterintomyhandsasshewastold。Thiswastheplaintruth,andthoughshecouldnotblameherselfforanyintentionalneglect,shewassadlytroubledinhermind,andsadlyinwantofawordofadvice。AtthispointLouisthinksthesecretionsappearedagain。Perhapstheydid,butitisofinfinitelygreaterimportancetomentionthatatthispointalsoIlostmypatience,openedmyeyes,andinterfered。
  `Whatisthepurportofallthis?’Iinquired。
  Myniece’sirrelevantmaidstared,andstoodspeechless。
  `Endeavourtoexplain,’Isaidtomyservant。`Translateme,Louis。’
  Louisendeavouredandtranslated。Inotherwords,hedescendedimmediatelyintoabottomlesspitofconfusion,andtheYoungPersonfollowedhimdown。Ireallydon’tknowwhenIhavebeensoamused。Ileftthematthebottomofthepitaslongastheydivertedme。Whentheyceasedtodivertme,Iexertedmyintelligence,andpulledthemupagain。
  Itisunnecessarytosaythatmyinterferenceenabledme,induecourseoftime,toascertainthepurportoftheYoungPerson’sremarks。
  Idiscoveredthatshewasuneasyinhermind,becausethetrainofeventsthatshehadjustdescribedtomehadpreventedherfromreceivingthosesupplementarymessageswhichMissHalcombehadintrustedtotheCountesstodeliver。Shewasafraidthemessagesmighthavebeenofgreatimportancetohermistress’sinterests。HerdreadofSirPercivalhaddeterredherfromgoingtoBlackwaterParklateatnighttoinquireaboutthem,andMissHalcombe’sowndirectionstoher,onnoaccounttomissthetraininthemorning,hadpreventedherfromwaitingattheinnthenextday。Shewasmostanxiousthatthemisfortuneofherfainting-fitshouldnotleadtothesecondmisfortuneofmakinghermistressthinkherneglectful,andshewouldhumblybegtoaskmewhetherIwouldadvisehertowriteherexplanationsandexcusestoMissHalcombe,requestingtoreceivethemessagesbyletter,ifitwasnottoolate。Imakenoapologiesforthisextremelyprosyparagraph。Ihavebeenorderedtowriteit。Therearepeople,unaccountableasitmayappear,whoactuallytakemoreinterestinwhatmyniece’smaidsaidtomeonthisoccasionthaninwhatIsaidtomyniece’smaid。Amusingperversity!
  `Ishouldfeelverymuchobligedtoyou,sir,ifyouwouldkindlytellmewhatIhadbetterdo,remarkedtheYoungPerson。
  `Letthingsstopastheyare,’Isaid,adaptingmylanguagetomylistener。`Iinvariablyletthingsstopastheyare。Yes。Isthatall?’
  `Ifyouthinkitwouldbealibertyinme,sir,towrite,ofcourseIwouldn’tventuretodoso。ButIamsoveryanxioustodoallIcantoservemymistressfaithfully——’
  Peopleinthelowerclassoflifeneverknowwhenorhowtogooutofaroom。Theyinvariablyrequiretobehelpedoutbytheirbetters。IthoughtithightimetohelptheYoungPersonout。Ididitwithtwojudiciouswords——
  `Goodmorning。’
  Somethingoutsideorinsidethissingulargirlsuddenlycreaked。Louis,whowaslookingatherwhichIwasnot,saysshecreakedwhenshecurtseyed。Curious。Wasithershoes,herstays,orherbones?Louisthinksitwasherstays。Mostextraordinary!
  AssoonasIwasleftbymyselfIhadalittlenap——Ireallywantedit。WhenIawokeagainInoticeddearMarian’sletter。IfIhadhadthelastideaofwhatitcontainedIshouldcertainlynothaveattemptedtoopenit。Being,unfortunatelyformyself,quiteinnocentofallsuspicion,Ireadtheletter。Itimmediatelyupsetmefortheday。
  Iam,bynature,oneofthemosteasy-temperedcreaturesthateverlived——Imakeallowancesforeverybody,andItakeoffenceatnothing。ButasIhavebeforeremarked,therearelimitstomyendurance。IlaiddownMarian’sletter,andfeltmyself——justlyfeltmyself——aninjuredman。
  Iamabouttomakearemark。Itis,ofcourse,applicabletotheveryseriousmatternowundernotice,orIshouldnotallowittoappearinthisplace。
  Nothing,inmyopinion,setstheodiousselfishnessofmankindinsucharepulsivelyvividlightasthetreatment,inallclassesofsociety,whichtheSinglepeoplereceiveatthehandsoftheMarriedpeople。Whenyouhaveonceshownyourselftooconsiderateandself-denyingtoaddafamilyofyourowntoanalreadyovercrowdedpopulation,youarevindictivelymarkedoutbyyourmarriedfriends,whohavenosimilarconsiderationandnosimilarself-denial,astherecipientofhalftheirconjugaltroubles,andthebornfriendofalltheirchildren。Husbandsandwivestalkofthecaresofmatrimony,andbachelorsandspinstersbearthem。Takemyowncase。Iconsideratelyremainsingle,andmypoordearbrotherPhilipinconsideratelymarries。Whatdoeshedowhenhedies?Heleaveshisdaughtertome。Sheisasweetgirl——sheisalsoadreadfulresponsibility。Whylayheronmyshoulders?BecauseIambound,intheharmlesscharacterofasingleman,torelievemymarriedconnectionsofalltheirowntroubles。Idomybestwithmybrother’sresponsibility——Imarrymyniece,withinfinitefussanddifficulty,tothemanherfatherwantedhertomarry-Sheandherhusbanddisagree,andunpleasantconsequencesfollow。Whatdoesshedowiththoseconsequences?Shetransfersthemtome。Whytransferthemtome?BecauseIambound,intheharmlesscharacterofasingleman,torelievemymarriedconnectionsofalltheirowntroubles。Poorsinglepeople!Poorhumannature!
  ItisquiteunnecessarytosaythatMarian’sletterthreatenedme。Everybodythreatensme。AllsortsofhorrorsweretofallonmydevotedheadifIhesitatedtoturnLimmeridgeHouseintoan
  asylumformynieceandhermisfortunes。Ididhesitate,nevertheless。
  Ihavementionedthatmyusualcourse,hitherto,hadbeentosubmittodearMarian,andsavenoise。Butonthisoccasion,theconsequencesinvolvedinherextremelyinconsiderateproposalwereofanaturetomakemepause。IfIopenedLimmeridgeHouseasanasylumtoLadyGlyde,whatsecurityhadIagainstSirPercivalGlyde’sfollowingherhereinastateofviolentresentmentagainstmeforharbouringhiswife?IsawsuchaperfectlabyrinthoftroublesinvolvedinthisproceedingthatIdeterminedtofeelmyground,asitwere。Iwrote,therefore,todearMariantobegasshehadnohusbandtolayclaimtoherthatshewouldcomeherebyherself,first,andtalkthematteroverwithme。Ifshecouldanswermyobjectionstomyownperfectsatisfaction,thenIassuredherthatIwouldreceiveoursweetLaurawiththegreatestpleasure,butnototherwise。
  Ifelt,ofcourse,atthetime,thatthistemporisingonmypartwouldprobablyendinbringingMarianhereinastateofvirtuousindignation,bangingdoors。Butthen,theothercourseofproceedingmightendinbringingSirPercivalhereinastateofvirtuousindignation,bangingdoorsalso,andofthetwoindignationsandbangingsIpreferredMarian’s,becauseIwasusedtoher。AccordinglyIdespatchedtheletterbyreturnofpost。Itgainedmetime,atallevents——and,ohdearme!whatapointthatwastobeginwith。
  WhenIamtotallyprostrateddidImentionthatIwastotallyprostratedbyMarian’sletter?italwaystakesmethreedaystogetupagain。Iwasveryunreasonable——Iexpectedthreedaysofquiet。OfcourseIdidn’tgetthem。
  Thethirdday’spostbroughtmeamostimpertinentletterfromapersonwithwhomIwastotallyunacquainted。Hedescribedhimselfastheactingpartnerofourmanofbusiness——our
  dear,pig-headedoldGilmore——andheinformedmethathehadlatelyreceived,bythepost,aletteraddressedtohiminMissHalcombe’shandwriting。Onopeningtheenvelope,hehaddiscovered,tohisastonishment,thatitcontainednothingbutablanksheetofnotepaper。ThiscircumstanceappearedtohimsosuspiciousassuggestingtohisrestlesslegalmindthattheletterhadbeentamperedwiththathehadatoncewrittentoMissHalcombe,andhadreceivednoanswerbyreturnofpost。Inthis
  difficulty,insteadofactinglikeasensiblemanandlettingthingstaketheirpropercourse,hisnextabsurdproceeding,onhisownshowing,wastopestermebywritingtoinquireifIknewanythingaboutit。WhatthedeuceshouldIknowaboutit?Whyalarmmraswellashimself?Iwrotebacktothateffect。Itwasoneofmykeenestletters。IhaveproducednothingwithasharperepistolaryedgetoitsinceItenderedhisdismissalinwritingtothatextremelytroublesomeperson,MrWalterHartright。
  Myletterproduceditseffect。Iheardnothingmorefromthelawyer。
  Thisperhapswasnotaltogethersurprising。ButitwascertainlyaremarkablecircumstancethatnosecondletterreachedmefromMarian,andthatnowarningsignsappearedofherarrival。Herunexpectedabsencedidmeamazinggood。ItwassoverysoothingandpleasanttoinferasIdidofcoursethatmymarriedconnectionshadmadeitupagain。Fivedaysofundisturbedtranquillity,ofdelicioussingleblessedness,quiterestoredme。OnthesixthdayIfeltstrongenoughtosendformyphotographer,andtosethimatworkagainonthepresentationcopiesofmyart-treasures,withaview,asIhavealreadymentioned,totheimprovementoftasteinthisbarbarousneighbourhood。Ihadjustdismissedhimtohisworkshop,andhadjustbeguncoquettingwithmycoins,whenLouissuddenlymadehisappearancewithacardinhishand。
  `AnotherYoungPerson?’Isaid。`Iwon’tseeher。InmystateofhealthYoungpersonsdisagreewithme。Notathome。’
  `Itisagentlemanthistime,sir。’
  Agentlemanofcoursemadeadifference。Ilookedatthecard。
  GraciousHeaven!mytiresomesister’sforeignhusband,CountFosco。