June19th——Theeventsofyesterdaywarnedmetobeready,soonerorlater,tomeettheworst。Todayisnotyetatanend,andtheworsthascome。
JudgingbytheclosestcalculationoftimethatLauraandIcouldmake,wearrivedattheconclusionthatAnneCatherickmusthaveappearedattheboat-houseathalf-pasttwoo’clockontheafternoonofyesterday。IaccordinglyarrangedthatLaurashouldjustshowherselfattheluncheon-cabletoday,andshouldthenslipoutatthefirstopportunity,leavingmebehindtopreserveappearances,andtofollowherassoonasIcouldsafelydoso。Thismodeofproceeding,ifnoobstaclesoccurredtothwartus,wouldenablehertobeattheboat-housebeforehalf-pasttwo,andwhenIleftthetable,inmyturnwouldtakemetoasafepositionintheplantationbeforethree。
Thechangeintheweather,whichlastnight’swindwarnedustoexpect,camewiththemorning。ItwasrainingheavilywhenIgotup,anditcontinuedtorainuntiltwelveo’clock——whenthecloudsdispersed,theblueskyappeared,andthesunshoneagainwiththebrightpromiseofafineafternoon。
MyanxietytoknowhowSirPercivalandtheCountwouldoccupytheearlypartofthedaywasbynomeanssetatrest,sofarasSirPercivalwasconcerned,byhisleavingusimmediatelyafterbreakfast,andgoingoutbyhimself,inspiteoftherain。Heneithertolduswherehewasgoingnorwhenwemightexpecthimback。Wesawhimpassthebreakfast-roomwindowhastily,withhishighbootsandhiswaterproofcoaton——andthatwasall。
TheCountpassedthemorningquietlyindoors,somepartofitinthelibrary,somepartinthedrawing-room,playingoddsandendsofmusiconthepiano,andhummingtohimself。Judgingbyappearances,thesentimentalsideofhischaracterwaspersistentlyinclinedtobetrayitselfstill。Hewassilentandsensitive,andreadytosighandlanguishponderouslyasonlyfatmenFansighandlanguishonthesmallestprovocation。
Luncheon-timecameandSirPercivaldidnotreturn。TheCounttookhisfriend’splaceatthetable,plaintivelydevouredthegreaterpartofafruittart,submergedunderawholejugfulofcream,andexplainedthefullmeritoftheachievementtousassoonashehaddone。`Atasteforsweets,’hesaidinhissoftesttonesandhistenderestmanner,`istheinnocenttasteofwomenandchildren。Ilovetoshareitwiththem——itisanotherbond,dearladies,betweenyouandme。’
Lauraleftthetableintenminutes’time。Iwassorelytemptedtoaccompanyher。Butifwehadbothgoneouttogetherwemusthaveexcitedsuspicion,andworsestill,ifweallowedAnneCathericktoseeLaura,accompaniedbyasecondpersonwhowasastrangertoher,weshouldinallprobabilityforfeitherconfidencefromthatmoment,nevertoregainitagain。
Iwaited,therefore,aspatientlyasIcould,untiltheservantcameintoclearthetable。WhenIquittedtheroom,therewerenosigns,inthehouseoroutofit,ofSirPercival’sreturn。IlefttheCountwithapieceofsugarbetweenhislips,andtheviciouscockatooscramblinguphiswaistcoattogetatit,whileMadameFosco,sittingoppositetoherhusband,watchedtheproceedingsofhisbirdandhimselfasattentivelyasifshehadneverseenanythingofthesortbeforeinherlife。OnmywaytotheplantationIkeptcarefullybeyondtherangeofviewfromtheluncheon-roomwindow。Nobodysawmeandnobodyfollowedme。Itwasthenaquartertothreeo’clockbymywatch。
OnceamongthetreesIwalkedrapidly,untilIhadadvancedmorethanhalf-waythroughtheplantation。AtthatpointIslackenedmypaceandproceededcautiously,butIsawnoone,andheardnovoices。BylittleandlittleIcamewithinviewofthebackoftheboat-house——stoppedandlistened——thenwenton,tillIwasclosebehindit,andmusthaveheardanypersonswhoweretalkinginside。Stillthesilencewasunbroken——stillfarandnearnosignofalivingcreatureappearedanywhere。
Afterskirtingroundbythebackofthebuilding,firstononesideandthenontheother,andmakingnodiscoveries,Iventuredinfrontofit,andfairlylookedin。Theplacewasempty。
Icalled,`Laura!’——atfirstsoftly,thenlouderandlouder。Nooneansweredandnooneappeared。ForallthatIcouldseeandhear,theonlyhumancreatureintheneighbourhoodofthelakeandtheplantationwasmyself。
Myheartbegantobeatviolently,butIkeptmyresolution,andsearched,firsttheboat-houseandthenthegroundinfrontofit,foranysignswhichmightshowmewhetherLaurahadreallyreachedtheplaceornot。Nomarkofherpresenceappearedinsidethebuilding,butIfoundtracesofheroutsideit,infootstepsonthesand。
Idetectedthefootstepsoftwopersons——largefootstepslikeaman’s,andsmallfootsteps,which,byputtingmyownfeetintothemandtestingtheirsizeinthatmanner,IfeltcertainwereLaura’s。Thegroundwasconfusedlymarkedinthiswayjustbeforetheboat-house。Closeagainstonesideofit,undershelteroftheprojectingroof,Idiscoveredalittleholeinthesand——aholeartificiallymade,beyondadoubt。Ijustnoticedit,andthenturnedawayimmediatelytotracethefootstepsasfarasIcould,andtofollowthedirectioninwhichtheymightleadme。
Theyledme,startingfromtheleft-handsideoftheboat-house,alongtheedgeofthetrees,adistance,Ishouldthink,ofbetweentwoandthreehundredyards,andthenthesandygroundshowednofurthertraceofthem。FeelingthatthepersonswhosecourseIwastrackingmustnecessarilyhaveenteredthePlantationatthispoint,Ienteredittoo。AtfirstIcouldfindnopath,butIdiscoveredoneafterwards,justfaintlytracedamongthetrees,andfollowedit。Ittookme,forsomedistance,inthedirectionofthevillage,untilIstoppedatapointwhereanotherfoot-trackcrossedit。Thebramblesgrewthicklyoneithersideofthissecondpath。Istoodlookingdownit,uncertainwhichwaytotakenext,andwhileIlookedIsawononethornybranchsomefragmentsoffringefromawoman’sshawl。AcloserexaminationofthefringesatisfiedmethatithadbeentornfromashawlofLaura’s,andIinstantlyfollowedthesecondpath。Itbroughtmeoutatlast,tomygreatrelief,atthebackofthehouse。Isaytomygreatrelief,becauseIinferredthatLauramust,forsomeunknownreason,havereturnedbeforemebythisroundaboutway。Iwentinbythecourt-yardandtheoffices。ThefirstpersonwhomImetincrossingtheservants’hallwasMrsMichelson,thehousekeeper。
`Doyouknow,’Iasked,`whetherLadyGlydehascomeinfromherwalkornot?’
`MyladycameinalittlewhileagowithSirPercival,’answeredthehousekeeper。`Iamafraid,MissHalcombe,somethingverydistressinghashappened。’
Myheartsankwithinme。`Youdon’tmeananaccident?’Isaidfaintly。
`No,no——thankGod,noaccident。Butmyladyranupstairstoherownroomintears,andSirPercivalhasorderedmetogiveFannywarningtoleaveinanhour’stime。’
FannywasLaura’smaid——agoodaffectionategirlwhohadbeenwithherforyears——theonlypersoninthehousewhosefidelityanddevotionwecouldbothdependupon。
`WhereisFanny?’Iinquired。
`Inmyroom,MissHalcombe。Theyoungwomanisquiteovercome,andItoldhertositdownandtrytorecoverherself。’
IwenttoMrsMichelson’sroom,andfoundFannyinacorner,withherboxbyherside,cryingbitterly。
Shecouldgivemenoexplanationwhateverofhersuddendismissal。SirPercivalhadorderedthatsheshouldhaveamonth’swages,inplaceofamonth’swarning,andgo。Noreasonhadbeenassigned——noobjectionhadbeenmadetoherconduct。Shehadbeenforbiddentoappealtohermistress,forbiddeneventoseeherforamomenttosaygood-bye。Shewastogowithoutexplanationsorfarewells,andtogoatonce。
Aftersoothingthepoorgirlbyafewfriendlywords,Iaskedwheresheproposedtosleepthatnight。Sherepliedthatshethoughtofgoingtothelittleinninthevillage,thelandladyofwhichwasarespectablewoman,knowntotheservantsatBlackwaterPark。Thenextmorning,byleavingearly,shemightgetbacktoherfriendsinCumberlandwithoutstoppinginLondon,whereshewasatotalstranger。
IfeltdirectlythatFanny’sdepartureofferedusasafemeansofcommunicationwithLondonandwithLimmeridgeHouse,ofwhichitmightbeveryimportanttoavailourselves。Accordingly,Itoldherthatshemightexpecttohearfromhermistressorfrommeinthecourseoftheevening,andthatshemightdependonourbothdoingallthatlayinourpowertohelpher,underthetrialofleavingusforthepresent。Thosewordssaid,Ishookhandswithherandwentupstairs。
ThedoorwhichledtoLaura’sroomwasthedoorofanantechamberopeningontothepassage。WhenItriedit,itwasboltedontheinside。
Iknocked,andthedoorwasopenedbythesameheavy,overgrownhousemaidwhoselumpishinsensibilityhadtriedmypatiencesoseverelyonthedaywhenIfoundthewoundeddog。Ihad,sincethattime,discoveredthathernamewasMargaretPorcher,andthatshewasthemostawkward,slatternly,andobstinateservantinthehouse。
Onopeningthedoorsheinstantlysteppedouttothethreshold,andstoodgrinningatmeinstolidsilence。
`Whydoyoustandthere?’Isaid`Don’tyouseethatIwanttocomein?’
`Ah,butyoumustn’tcomein,’wastheanswer,withanotherandabroadergrinstill。
`Howdareyoutalktomeinthatway?Standbackinstantly!’
Shestretchedoutagreatredhandandarmoneachsideofher,soastobarthedoorway,andslowlynoddedheraddleheadatme。
`Master’sorders,’shesaid,andnoddedagain。
Ihadneedofallmyself-controltowarnmeagainstcontestingthematterwithher,andtoremindmethatthenextwordsIhadtosaymustbeaddressedtohermaster。Iturnedmybackonher,andinstantlywentdownstairstofindhim。MyresolutiontokeepmytemperunderalltheirritationsthatSirPercivalcouldofferwas,bythistime,ascompletelyforgotten——Isaysotomyshame——asifIhadnevermadeit。Itdidmegood,afterallIhadsufferedandsuppressedinthathouse——itactuallydidmegoodtofeelhowangryIwas。
Thedrawing-roomandthebreakfast-roomwerebothempty。Iwentontothelibrary,andthereIfoundSirPercival,theCount,andMadameFosco。Theywereallthreestandingup,closetogether,andSirPercivalhadalittleslipofpaperinhishand。AsIopenedthedoorIheardtheCountsaytohim,`No——athousandtimesover,no。’
Iwalkedstraightuptohim,andlookedhimfullintheface。
`AmItounderstand,SirPercival,thatyourwife’sroomisaprison,andthatyourhousemaidisthegaolerwhokeepsit?’Iasked。
`Yes,thatiswhatyouaretounderstand,’heanswered。`Takecaremygaolerhasn’tgotdoubledutytodo——takecareyourroomisnotaprisontoo。’
`Takeyoucarehowyoutreatyourwife,andhowyouthreatenme,’Ibrokeoutintheheatofmyanger。`TherearelawsinEnglandtoprotectwomenfromcrueltyandoutrage。IfyouhurtahairofLaura’shead,ifyoudaretointerferewithmyfreedom,comewhatmay,tothoselawsIwillappeal。’
InsteadofansweringmeheturnedroundtotheCount。
`WhatdidItellyou?’heasked。`Whatdoyousaynow?’
`WhatIsaidbefore,’repliedtheCount——`No。’
EveninthevehemenceofmyangerIfelthiscalm,cold,greyeyesonmyface。Theyturnedawayfrommeassoonashehadspoken,andlookedsignificantlyathiswife。MadameFoscoimmediatelymovedclosetomyside,andinthatpositionaddressedSirPercivalbeforeeitherofuscouldspeakagain。
`Favourmewithyourattentionforonemoment,’shesaid,inherclearicily-suppressedtones。`Ihavetothankyou,SirPercival,foryourhospitality,andtodeclinetakingadvantageofitanylonger。IremaininnohouseinwhichladiesaretreatedasyourwifeandMissHalcombehavebeentreatedheretoday!’
SirPercivaldrewbackastep。andstaredatherindeadsilence。Thedeclarationhehadjustheard——adeclarationwhichhewellknew,asIwellknew,MadameFoscowouldnothaveventuredtomakewithoutherhusband’spermission——seemedtopetrifyhimwithsurprise。TheCountstoodby,andlookedathiswifewiththemostenthusiasticadmiration。
`Sheissublime!’hesaidtohimself。Heapproachedherwhilehespoke,anddrewherhandthroughhisarm。`Iamatyourservice,Eleanor,’hewenton,withaquietdignitythatIhadnevernoticedinhimbefore。`AndatMissHalcombe’sservice,ifshewillhonourmebyacceptingalltheassistanceIcanofferher。’
`Damnit!whatdoyoumean?’criedSirPercival,astheCountquietlymovedawaywithhiswifetothedoor。
`AtothertimesImeanwhatIsay,butatthistimeImeanwhatmywifesays,’repliedtheimpenetrableItalian。`Wehavechangedplaces,Percival,foronce,andMadameFosco’sopinionis——mine。’
SirPercivalcrumpledupthepaperinhishand,andpushingpasttheCount,withanotheroath,stoodbetweenhimandthedoor。
`Haveyourownway,’hesaid,withbaffledrageinhislow,half-whisperingtones。`Haveyourownway——andseewhatcomesofit。’Withthosewordshelefttheroom。
MadameFoscoglancedinquiringlyatherhusband。`Hehas
goneawayverysuddenly,’shesaid。`Whatdoesitmean?’
`ItmeansthatyouandItogetherhavebroughttheworst-temperedmaninallEnglandtohissenses,’answeredtheCount。`Itmeans,MissHalcombe,thatLadyGlydeisrelievedfromagrossindignity,andyoufromtherepetitionofanunpardonableinsult。Suffermetoexpressmyadmirationofyourconductandyourcourageataverytryingmoment。’
`Sincereadmiration,’suggestedMadameFosco。
`Sincereadmiration,’echoedtheCount。
Ihadnolongerthestrengthofmyfirstangryresistancetooutrageandinjurytosupportme。Myheart-sickanxietytoseeLaura,mysenseofmyownhelplessignoranceofwhathadhappenedattheboat-house,pressedonmewithanintolerableweight。ItriedtokeepupappearancesbyspeakingtotheCountandhiswifeinthetonewhichtheyhadchosentoadoptinspeakingtome,butthewordsfailedonmylips——mybreathcameshortandthick——myeyeslookedlongingly,insilence,atthedoor。TheCount,understandingmyanxiety,openedit,wentout,andpulledittoafterhim。AtthesametimeSirPercival’sheavystepdescendedthestairs。Iheardthemwhisperingtogetheroutside,whileMadameFoscowasassuringme,inhercalmestandmostconventionalmanner,thatsherejoiced,foralloursakes,thatSirPercival’sconducthadnotobligedherhusbandandherselftoleaveBlackwaterPark。Beforeshehaddonespeakingthewhisperingceased,thedooropened,andtheCountlookedin。
`MissHalcombe,’hesaid,`IamhappytoinformyouthatLadyGlydeismistressagaininherownhouse。IthoughtitmightbemoreagreeabletoyoutohearofthischangeforthebetterfrommethanfromSirPercival,andIhavethereforeexpresslyreturnedtomentionit。’
`Admirabledelicacy!’saidMadameFosco,payingbackherhusband’stributeofadmirationwiththeCount’sowncoin,intheCount’sownmanner。Hesmiledandbowedasifhehadreceivedaformalcomplimentfromapolitestranger,anddrewbacktoletmepassoutfirst。
SirPercivalwasstandinginthehall。AsIhurriedtothestairsIheardhimcallimpatientlytotheCounttocomeoutofthelibrary。
`Whatareyouwaitingtherefor?’hesaid。`Iwanttospeaktoyou。’
`AndIwanttothinkalittlebymyself,’repliedtheother。`Waittilllater,Percival,waittilllater。’
Neitherhenorhisfriendsaidanymore。Igainedthetopofthestairsandranalongthepassage。InmyhasteandmyagitationIleftthedooroftheante-chamberopen,butIclosedthedoorofthebedroomthemomentIwasinsideit。
Laurawassittingaloneatthefarendoftheroom,herarmsrestingwearilyonatable,andherfacehiddeninherhands。Shestartedupwithacryofdelightwhenshesawme。
`Howdidyougethere?’sheasked。`Whogaveyouleave?NotSirPercival?’
Inmyoverpoweringanxietytohearwhatshehadtotellme,Icouldnotanswerher——Icouldonlyputquestionsonmyside。Laura’seagernesstoknowwhathadpasseddownstairsproved,however,toostrongtoberesisted。Shepersistentlyrepeatedherinquiries。
`TheCount,ofcourse,’Iansweredimpatiently。`Whoseinfluenceinthehouse——’
Shestoppedmewithagestureofdisgust。
`Don’tspeakofhim,’shecried。`TheCountisthevilestcreaturebreathing!TheCountisamiserableSpy!’
Beforewecouldeitherofussayanotherwordwewerealarmedbyasoftknockingatthedoorofthebedroom。
Ihadnotyetsatdown,andIwentfirsttoseewhoitwas。WhenIopenedthedoorMadameFoscoconfrontedmewithmyhandkerchiefinherhand。
`Youdroppedthisdownstairs,MissHalcombe,’shesaid,`andIthoughtIcouldbringittoyou,asIwaspassingbytomyownroom。
Herface,naturallypale,hadturnedtosuchaghastlywhitenessthatIstartedatthesightofit。Herhands,sosureandsteadyatallothertimes,trembledviolently,andhereyeslookedwolfishlypastmethroughtheopendoor,andfixedonLaura。
Shehadbeenlisteningbeforesheknocked!Isawitinherwhiteface,Isawitinhertremblinghands,IsawitinherlookatLaura。
Afterwaitinganinstantsheturnedfrommeinsilence,andslowlywalkedaway。
Iclosedthedooragain。`Oh,LauraILaura!WeshallbothruethedaywhenyoucalledtheCountaSpy!’
`Youwouldhavecalledhimsoyourself,Marian,ifyouhadknownwhatIknow。AnneCatherickwasright。Therewasathirdpersonwatchingusintheplantationyesterday,andthatthirdperson——
`AreyousureitwastheCount?’
`Iamabsolutelycertain。HewasSirPercival’sspy——hewasSirPercival’sinformer——hesetSirPercivalwatchingandwaiting,allthemorningthrough,forAnneCatherickandforme。’
`IsAnnefound?Didyouseeheratthelake?’
`No。Shehassavedherselfbykeepingawayfromtheplace。WhenIgottotheboat-housenoonewasthere。’
`Yes?Yes?’
`Iwentinandsatwaitingforafewminutes。Butmyrestlessnessmademegetupagain,towalkaboutalittle。AsIpassedoutIsawsomemarksonthesand,closeunderthefrontoftheboat-house。Istoopeddowntoexaminethem,anddiscoveredawordwritteninlargelettersonthesand。Thewordwas——LOOK。’
`Andyouscrapedawaythesand,anddugahollowplaceinit?’
`Howdoyouknowthat,Marian?’
`IsawthehollowplacemyselfwhenIfollowedyoutotheboat-house。Goon——goon!’
`Yes,Iscrapedawaythesandonthesurface,andinalittlewhileIcametoastripofpaperhiddenbeneath,whichhadwritingonit。ThewritingwassignedwithAnneCatherick’sinitials。’
`Whereisit?’
`SirPercivalhastakenitfromme。’
`Canyourememberwhatthewritingwas?Doyouthinkyoucanrepeatittome?’
`InsubstanceIcan,Marian。Itwasveryshort。Youwouldhaverememberedit。wordforword。’
`Trytotellmewhatthesubstancewasbeforewegoanyfurther。’
Shecomplied。Iwritethelinesdownhereexactlyassherepeatedthemtome。Theyranthus——andhadtoruntosavemyself。Hewasnotquickenoughonhisfeettofollowme,andhelostmeamongthetrees。Idarenotriskcomingbackheretodayatthesametime。Iwritethis,andhideitinthesand,atsixinthemorning,totellyouso。Whenwespeaknextofyourwickedhusband’sSecretwemustspeaksafely,ornotatall。Trytohavepatience。Ipromiseyoushallseemeagainandthatsoon——A。C。’
Thereferencetothe`tall,stoutoldman’thetermsofwhichLaurawascertainthatshehadrepeatedtomecorrectlyleftnodoubtastowhotheintruderhadbeen。IcalledtomindthatIhadtoldSirPercival,intheCount’spresencethedaybefore,thatLaurahadgonetotheboat-housetolookforherbrooch。Inallprobabilityhehadfollowedherthere,inhisofficiousway,torelievehermindaboutthematterofthesignature,immediatelyafterhehadmentionedthechangeinSirPercival’splanstomeinthedrawing-room。Inthiscasehecouldonlyhavegottotheneighbourhoodoftheboat-houseattheverymomentwhenAnneCatherickdiscoveredhim。ThesuspiciouslyhurriedmannerinwhichshepartedfromLaurahadnodoubtpromptedhisuselessattempttofollowher。Oftheconversationwhichhadpreviouslytakenplacebetweenthemhecouldhaveheardnothing。Thedistancebetweenthehouseandthelake,andthetimeatwhichheleftmeinthedrawing-room,ascomparedwiththetimeatwhichLauraandAnneCatherickhadbeenspeakingtogether,provedthatfacttousatanyrate,beyondadoubt。
Havingarrivedatsomethinglikeaconclusionsofar,mynextgreatinterestwastoknowwhatdiscoveriesSirPercivalhadmadeafterCountFoscohadgivenhimhisinformation。
`Howcameyoutolosepossessionoftheletter?’Iasked。`Whatdidyoudowithitwhenyoufounditinthesand?’
`Afterreadingitoncethrough,’shereplied,`Itookitintotheboat-housewithmetositdownandlookoveritasecondtime。WhileIwasreadingashadowfellacrossthepaper。Ilookedup,andsawSirPercivalstandinginthedoorwaywatchingme。’
`Didyoutrytohidetheletter?’
`Itried,buthestoppedme。``Youneedn’ttroubletohidethat,’’hesaid。``Ihappentohavereadit。’’Icouldonlylookathimhelplessly——Icouldsaynothing。``Youunderstand?’’hewenton;``Ihavereadit。Idugitupoutofthesandtwohourssince,andburieditagain,andwrotethewordaboveitagain,andleftitreadytoyourhands。Youcan’tlieyourselfoutofthescrapenow。YousawAnneCatherickinsecretyesterday,andyouhavegotherletterinyourhandatthismoment。Ihavenotcaughtheryet,butIhavecaughtyou。Givemetheletter。’’Hesteppedcloseuptome——Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——whatcouldIdo?——Igavehimtheletter。’
`Whatdidhesaywhenyougaveittohim?’
`Atfirsthesaidnothing。Hetookmebythearm,andledmeoutoftheboat-house,andlookedabouthimonallsides,asifhewasafraidofourbeingseenorheard。Thenheclaspedhishandfastroundmyarm,andwhisperedtome,``WhatdidAnneCathericksaytoyouyesterday?Iinsistonhearingeveryword,fromfirsttolast。’’’
`Didyoutellhim?’
`Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——hiscruelhandwasbruisingmyarm——whatcouldIdo?’
`Isthemarkonyourarmstill?Letmeseeit。’
`Whydoyouwanttoseeit?’
`Iwanttoseeit,Laura,becauseourendurancemustend,andourresistancemustbegintoday。Thatmarkisaweapontostrikehimwith。Letmeseeitnow——Imayhavetosweartoitatsomefuturetime。’
`Oh,Marian,don’tlookso——don’ttalksoIItdoesn’thurtmenow!’
`Letmeseeit!’
Sheshowedmethemarks。Iwaspastgrievingoverthem,pastcryingoverthem,pastshudderingoverthem。Theysayweareeitherbetterthanmen,orworse。Ifthetemptationthathasfalleninsomewomen’sway,andmadethemworse,hadfalleninmineatthatmoment——ThankGod!myfacebetrayednothingthathiswifecouldread。Thegentle,innocent,affectionatecreaturethoughtIwasfrightenedforherandsorryforher,andthoughtnomore。
`Don’tthinktooseriouslyofit,Marian,’shesaidsimply,asshepulledhersleevedownagain。`Itdoesn’thurtmenow。’
`Iwilltrytothinkquietlyofit,mylove,foryoursake——Well!well!AndyoutoldhimallthatAnneCatherickhadsaidtoyou——allthatyoutoldme?
`Yes,all。Heinsistedonit——Iwasalonewithhim——Icouldconcealnothing。’
`Didhesayanythingwhenyouhaddone?’
`Helookedatme,andlaughedtohimselfinmocking,bitterway。``Imeantohavetherestoutofyou,’’hesaid,``doyouhear?——therest。’’IdeclaredtohimsolemnlythatIhadtoldhimeverythingIknew。``Notyou,`heanswered,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。Won’tyoutellit?Youshall!I’llwringitoutofyouathomeifIcan’twringitoutofyouhere——Heledmeawaybyastrangepaththroughtheplantation——apathwheretherewasnohopeofourmeetingyou——andhespokenomoretillwecamewithinsightofthehouse。Thenhestoppedagain,andsaid,``Willyoutakeasecondchance,ifIgiveittoyou?Willyouthinkbetterofit。andtellmetherest?’’IcouldonlyrepeatthesamewordsIhadspokenbefore。Hecursedmyobstinacy,andwenton,andtookmewithhimtothehouse。``Youcan’tdeceiveme,’’hesaid,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。I’llhaveyoursecretoutofyou,andI’llhaveitoutofthatsisterofyoursaswell。Thereshallbenomoreplottingandwhisperingbetweenyou。Neitheryounorsheshallseeeachotheragaintillyouhaveconfessedthetruth。I’llhaveyouwatchedmorning,noon,andnight,tillyouconfessthetruth。’’HewasdeaftoeverythingIcouldsay。Hetookmestraightupstairsintomyownroom。Fannywassittingthere,doingsomeworkforme,andheinstantlyorderedherout。``I’lltakegoodcareyou’renotmixedupintheconspiracy,`hesaid。``Youshallleavethishousetoday。Ifyourmistresswantsamaid。sheshallhaveoneofmychoosing。’’Hepushedmeintotheroom,andlockedthedooronme。Hesetthatsenselesswomantowatchmeoutside,Marian!Helookedandspokelikeamadman。Youmayhardlyunderstandit——hedidindeed。’
`Idounderstandit,Laura。Heismad——madwiththeterrorsofaguiltyconscience。EverywordyouhavesaidmakesmepositivelycertainthatwhenAnneCatherickleftyouyesterdayyouwereontheeveofdiscoveringasecretwhichmighthavebeenyourvilehusband’sruin,andhethinksyouhavediscoveredit。Nothingyoucansayordowillquietthatguiltydistrust,andconvincehisfalsenatureofyourtruth。Idon’tsaythis,mylove,toalarmyou。Isayittoopenyoureyestoyourposition,andtoconvinceyouoftheurgentnecessityoflettingmeact,asIbestcan,foryourprotectionwhilethechanceisourown。CountFosco’sinterferencehassecuredmeaccesstoyoutoday,buthemaywithdrawthatinterferencetomorrow。SirPercivalhasalreadydismissedFannybecausesheisaquick-wittedgirl,anddevotedlyattachedtoyou,andhaschosenawomantotakeherplacewhocaresnothingforyourinterests,andwhosedullintelligencelowershertothelevelofthewatch-dogintheyard。Itisimpossibletosaywhatviolentmeasureshemaytakenext,unlesswemakethemostofouropportunitieswhilewehavethem。’
`Whatcanwedo,Marian?Oh,ifwecouldonlyleavethishouse,nevertoseeitagain!’
`Listentome,mylove,andtrytothinkthatyouarenotquitehelplesssolongasIamherewithyou。’
`Iwillthinkso——Idothinkso。Don’taltogetherforgetpoorFannyinthinkingofme。Shewantshelpandcomforttoo。’
`Iwillnotforgether。IsawherbeforeIcameuphere,andIhavearrangedtocommunicatewithhertonight。Lettersarenotsafeinthepost-bagatBlackwaterPark,andIshallhavetwotowritetoday,inyourinterests,whichmustpassthroughnohandsbutFanny’s。’
`Whatletters?’
`Imeantowritefirst,Laura,toMrGilmore’spartner,whohasofferedtohelpusinanyfreshemergency。LittleasIknowofthelaw,Iamcertainthatitcanprotectawomanfromsuchtreatmentasthatruffianhasinflictedonyoutoday。IwillgointonodetailsaboutAnneCatherick,becauseIhavenocertaininformationtogive。Butthelawyershallknowofthosebruisesonyourarm,andoftheviolenceofferedtoyouinthisroom——heshall,beforeIresttonight!’
`Butthinkoftheexposure,Marian!’
`Iamcalculatingontheexposure。SirPercivalhasmoretodreadfromitthanyouhave。Theprospectofanexposuremaybringhimtotermswhennothingelsewill。’
IroseasIspoke,butLauraentreatedmenottoleaveher。`Youwilldrivehimtodesperation,`shesaid,`andincreaseourdangerstenfold。’
Ifeltthetruth——thedishearteningtruth——ofthosewords。ButIcouldnotbringmyselfplainlytoacknowledgeittoher。Inourdreadfulpositiontherewasnohelpandnohopeforusbutinriskingtheworst。Isaidsoinguardedterms。Shesighedbitterly,butdidnotcontestthematter。SheonlyaskedaboutthesecondletterthatIhadproposedwriting。Towhomwasittobeaddressed?
`ToMrFairlie,’Isaid。`Youruncleisyournearestmalerelative,andtheheadofthefamily。Hemustandshallinterfere。’
Laurashookherheadsorrowfully。
`Yes,yes,’Iwenton,`youruncleisaweak,selfish,worldlyman,Iknow,butheisnotSirPercivalGlyde,andhehasnosuchfriendabouthimasCountFosco。Iexpectnothingfromhiskindnessorhistendernessoffeelingtowardsyouortowardsme,buthewilldoanythingtopamperhisownindolence,andtosecurehisownquiet。Letmeonlypersuadehimthathisinterferenceatthismomentwillsavehiminevitabletroubleandwretchednessandresponsibilityhereafter,andhewillbestirhimselfforhisownsake。Iknowhowtodealwithhim,Laura——Ihavehadsomepractice。’
`IfyoucouldonlyprevailonhimtoletmegobacktoLimmeridgeforalittlewhileandstaytherequietlywithyou,Marian,IcouldbealmostashappyagainasIwasbeforeIwasmarried!’
Thosewordssetmethinkinginanewdirection。WoulditbepossibletoplaceSirPercivalbetweenthetwoalternativesofeitherexposinghimselftothescandaloflegalinterferenceonhiswife’sbehalf,orofallowinghertobequietlyseparatedfromhimforatimeunderpretextofavisittoheruncle’shouse?Andcouldhe,inthatcase,bereckonedonaslikelytoacceptthelastresource?Itwasdoubtful——morethandoubtful。Andyet,hopelessastheexperimentseemed,surelyitwasworthtrying。Iresolvedtotryitinsheerdespairofknowingwhatbettertodo。
`Youruncleshallknowthewishyouhavejustexpressed,’Isaid,`andIwillaskthelawyer’sadviceonthesubjectaswell。Goodmaycomeofit——andwillcomeofit,Ihope。’
SayingthatIroseagain,andagainLauratriedtomakemeresumemyseat。
`Don’tleaveme,’shesaiduneasily。`Mydeskisonthattable。Youcanwritehere。’
Ittriedmetothequicktorefuseher,eveninherowninterests。Butwehadbeentoolongshutupalonetogetheralready。Ourchanceofseeingeachotheragainmightentirelydependonournotexcitinganyfreshsuspicions。Itwasfulltimetoshowmyself,quietlyandunconcernedly,amongthewretcheswhowereatthatverymoment,perhaps,thinkingofusandtalkingofusdownstairs。IexplainedthemiserablenecessitytoLaura,andprevailedonhertorecogniseitasIdid。
`lwillcomebackagain,love,inanhourorless,’Isaid。`Theworstisoverfortoday。Keepyourselfquietandfearnothing。’
`Isthekeyinthedoor,Marian?CanIlockitontheinside?’
`Yes,hereisthekey。Lockthedoor,andopenittonobodyuntilIcomeupstairsagain。’
Ikissedherandlefther。ItwasarelieftomeasIwalkedawaytohearthekeyturnedinthelock,andtoknowthatthedoorwasatherowncommand。
June19th——IhadonlygotasfarasthetopofthestairswhenthelockingofLaura’sdoorsuggestedtometheprecautionofalsolockingmyowndoor,andkeepingthekeysafelyaboutmewhileIwasoutoftheroom。Myjournalwasalreadysecuredwithotherpapersinthetabledrawer,butmywritingmaterialswereleftout。Theseincludedaseal,bearingthecommondeviceoftwodovesdrinkingoutofthesamecup,andsomesheetsofblotting-paper,whichhadtheimpressiononthemoftheclosinglinesofmywritinginthesepagestracedduringthepastnight。Distortedbythesuspicionwhichhadnowbecomeapartofmyself,evensuchtriflesastheselookedtoodangeroustobetrustedwithoutaguard——eventhelockedtabledrawerseemedtobenotsufficientlyprotectedinmyabsenceuntilthemeansofaccesstoithadbeencarefullysecuredaswell。
IfoundnoappearanceofanyonehavingenteredtheroomwhileIhadbeentalkingwithLaura。MywritingmaterialswhichIhadgiventheservantinstructionsnevertomeddlewithwerescatteredoverthetablemuchasusual。TheonlycircumstanceinconnectionwiththemthatatallstruckmewasthattheseallaytidilyinthetraywiththePencilsandthewax。Itwasnotinmycarelesshabitslamsorrytosaytoputitthere,neitherdidIrememberputtingitthere。ButasIcouldnotcalltomind,ontheotherhand,whereelseIhadthrownitdown,andasIwasalsodoubtfulwhetherImightnotforoncehavelaiditmechanicallyintherightplace,Iabstainedfromaddingtotheperplexitywithwhichtheday’seventshadfilledmymindbytroublingitafreshaboutatrifle。Ilockedthedoor,putthekeyinmyPocket,andwentdownstairs。
MadameFoscowasaloneinthehalllookingattheweatherglass。
`Stillfalling,’shesaid。`Iamafraidwemustexpectmorerain。’
Herfacewascomposedagaintoitscustomaryexpressionanditscustomarycolour。Butthehandwithwhichshepointedtothedialoftheweather-glassstilltrembled。
CouldshehavetoldherhusbandalreadythatshehadoverheardLaurarevilinghim,inmycompany,asa`spy?’Mystrongsuspicionthatshemusthavetoldhim,myirresistibledreadallthemoreoverpoweringfromitsveryvaguenessoftheconsequenceswhichmightfollow,myfixedconviction,derivedfromvariouslittleself-betrayalswhichwomennoticeineachother,thatMadameFosco,inspiteofherwell-assumedexternalcivility,hadnotforgivenhernieceforinnocentlystandingbetweenherandthelegacyoftenthousandpounds——allrusheduponmymindtogether,allimpelledmetospeakinthevainhopeofusingmyowninfluenceandmyownpowersofpersuasionfortheatonementofLaura’soffence。
`MayItrusttoyourkindnesstoexcuseme,MadameFosco,ifIventuretospeaktoyouonanexceedinglypainfulsubject?’
Shecrossedherhandsinfrontofherandbowedherheadsolemnly,withoututteringaword,andwithouttakinghereyesoffmineforamoment。
`Whenyouweresogoodastobringmebackmyhandkerchief,’Iwenton,`lamvery,verymuchafraidyoumusthaveaccidentallyheardLaurasaysomethingwhichIamunwillingtorepeat,andwhichIwillnotattempttodefend。IwillonlyventuretohopethatyouhavenotthoughtitofsufficientimportancetobementionedtotheCount?’
`Ithinkitofnoimportancewhatever,’saidMadameFoscosharplyandsuddenly。`But,’sheadded,resuminghericymannerinamoment,`Ihavenosecretsfrommyhusbandevenintrifles。WhenhenoticedjustnowthatIlookeddistressed,itwasmypainfuldutytotellhimwhyIwasdistressed,andIfranklyacknowledgetoyou,MissHalcombe,thatIhavetoldhim。’
Iwaspreparedtohearit,andyetsheturnedmecoldalloverwhenshesaidthosewords。
`Letmeearnestlyentreatyou,MadameFosco——letmeearnestlyentreattheCount——tomakesomeallowancesforthesadpositioninwhichmysisterisplaced。Shespokewhileshewassmartingundertheinsultandinjusticeinflictedonherbyherhusband,andshewasnotherselfwhenshesaidthoserashwords。MayIhopethattheywillbeconsideratelyandgenerouslyforgiven?’
`Mostassuredly,’saidtheCount’squietvoicebehindme。Hehadstolenonuswithhisnoiselesstreadandhisbookinhishandfromthelibrary。
`WhenLadyGlydesaidthosehastywords,’hewenton,`shedidmeaninjusticewhichIlament——andforgive。Letusneverreturntothesubject,MissHalcombe;letusallcomfortablycombinetoforgetitfromthismoment’
`Youareverykind,’Isaid,`yourelievemeinexpressibly。~’’
Itriedtocontinue,buthiseyeswereonme;hisdeadlysmilethathideseverythingwasset,hard,andunwaveringonhisbroad,smoothface。Mydistrustofhisunfathomablefalseness,mysenseofmyowndegradationinstoopingtoconciliatehiswifeandhimself,sodisturbedandconfusedme,thatthenextwordsfailedonmylips,andIstoodthereinsilence。
`Ibegyouonmykneestosaynomore,MissHalcombe——Iamtrulyshockedthatyoushouldhavethoughtitnecessarytosaysomuch。’Withthatpolitespeechhetookmyhand——oh,howIdespisemyself!oh,howlittlecomfortthereiseveninknowingthatIsubmittedtoitforLaura’ssake!——hetookmyhandandputittohispoisonouslips。NeverdidIknowallmyhorrorofhimtillthen。Thatinnocentfamiliarityturnedmybloodasifithadbeenthevilestinsultthatamancouldofferme。YetIhidmydisgustfromhim——Itriedtosmile——I,whooncemercilesslydespiseddeceitinotherwomen,wasasfalseastheworstofthem,asfalseastheJudaswhoselipshadtouchedmyhand。
Icouldnothavemaintainedmydegradingself-control——itisallthatredeemsmeinmyownestimationtoknowthatIcouldnot——ifhehadstillcontinuedtokeephiseyesonmyface。Hiswife’stigerishjealousycametomyrescueandforcedhisattentionawayfrommethemomenthepossessedhimselfofmyhand。Hercoldblueeyescaughtlight,herdullwhitecheeksflushedintobrightcolour,shelookedyearsyoungerthanherageinaninstant。
`Count!’shesaid。`YourforeignformsofpolitenessarenotunderstoodbyEnglishwomen。’
`Pardonme,myangel!ThebestanddearestEnglishwomanintheworldunderstandsthem。’Withthosewordshedroppedmyhandandquietlyraisedhiswife’shandtohislipsinplaceofit。
Iranbackupthestairstotakerefugeinmyownroom。Iftherehadbeentimetothink,mythoughts,whenIwasaloneagain,wouldhavecausedmebittersuffering。Buttherewasnotimetothink。Happilyforthepreservationofmycalmnessandmycouragetherewastimefornothingbutaction。
TheletterstothelawyerandtoMrFairliewerestilltobewritten,andIsatdownatoncewithoutamoment’shesitationtodevotemyselftothem。
Therewasnomultitudeofresourcestoperplexme——therewasabsolutelynoonetodependon,inthefirstinstance,butmyself。SirPercivalhadneitherfriendsnorrelativesintheneighbourhoodwhoseintercessionIcouldattempttoemploy。Hewasonthecoldestterms——insomecasesontheworsttermswiththefamiliesofhisownrankandstationwholivednearhim。Wetwowomenhadneitherfathernorbrothertocometothehouseandtakeourparts。Therewasnochoicebuttowritethosetwodoubtfulletters,ortoputLaurainthewrongandmyselfinthewrong,andtomakeallpeaceablenegotiationinthefutureimpossiblebysecretlyescapingfromBlackwaterPark。Nothingbutthemostimminentpersonalperilcouldjustifyourtakingthatsecondcourse。Thelettersmustbetriedfirst,andIwrotethem。
IsaidnothingtothelawyeraboutAnneCatherick,becauseasIhadalreadyhintedtoLaurathattopicwasconnectedwithamysterywhichwecouldnotyetexplain,andwhichitwouldthereforebeuselesstowriteabouttoaprofessionalman。IleftmycorrespondenttoattributeSirPercival’sdisgracefulconduct,ifhepleased,tofreshdisputesaboutmoneymatters,andsunplyconsultedhimonthepossibilityoftakinglegalproceedingsforLaura’sprotectionintheeventofherhusband’srefusaltoallowhertoleaveBlackwaterParkforatimeandreturnwithmetoLimmeridge。IreferredhimtoMrFairlieforthedetailsofthislastarrangement——IassuredhimthatIwrotewithLaura’sauthority——andIendedbyentreatinghimtoactinhernametotheutmostextentofhispowerandwiththeleastpossiblelossoftime。
ThelettertoMrFairlieoccupiedmenext。IappealedtohimonthetermswhichIhadmentionedtoLauraasthemostlikelytomakehimbestirhimself;Ienclosedacopyofmylettertothelawyertoshowhimhowseriousthecasewas,andIrepresentedourremovaltoLimmeridgeastheonlycompromisewhichwouldpreventthedangeranddistressofLaura’spresentpositionfrominevitablyaffectingheruncleaswellasherselfatnoverydistanttime。
WhenIhaddone,andhadsealedanddirectedthetwoenvelopes,IwentbackwiththeletterstoLaura’sroom,toshowherthattheywerewritten。
`Hasanybodydisturbedyou?’Iasked,whensheopenedthedoortome。
`Nobodyhasknocked,’shereplied。`ButIheardsomeoneintheouterroom。’
`Wasitamanorawoman?’
`Awoman。Iheardtherustlingofhergown。’
`Arustlinglikesilk?’
`Yes,likesilk。’
MadameFoscohadevidentlybeenwatchingoutside。Themischiefshemightdobyherselfwaslittletobefeared。Butthemischiefshemightdo,asawillinginstrumentinherhusband’shands,wastooformidabletobeoverlooked。
`Whatbecameoftherustlingofthegownwhenyounolongerhearditintheante-room?’Iinquired。`Didyouhearitgopastyourwall,alongthepassage?’
`Yes。Ikeptstillandlistened,andjustheardit。’
`Whichwaydiditgo?’
`Towardsyourroom。’
Iconsideredagain。Thesoundhadnotcaughtmyears。ButIwasthendeeplyabsorbedinmyletters,andIwritewithaheavyhandandaquillpen,scrapingandscratchingnoisilyoverthepaper。ItwasmorelikelythatMadameFoscowouldhearthescrapingofmypenthanthatIshouldheartherustlingofherdress。AnotherreasonifIhadwantedonefornottrustingmyletterstothepost-baginthehall。
Laurasawmethinking。`Moredifficulties!’shesaidwearily;`moredifficultiesandmoredangers!’
`Nodangers,’Ireplied。`Somelittledifficulty,perhaps。IamthinkingofthesafestwayofputtingmytwolettersintoFanny’shands。’
`Youhavereallywrittenthem,then?Oh,Marian,runnorisks——pray,pray,runnorisks!’
`No,no——nofear。Letmesee——whato’clockisitnow?’
Itwasaquartertosix。Therewouldbetimeformetogettothevillageinn,andtocomebackagainbeforedinner。IfIwaitedtilltheeveningImightfindnosecondopportunityofsafelyleavingthehouse。
`Keepthekeyturnedinthelock,Laura,’Isaid,`anddon’tbeafraidaboutme。Ifyouhearanyinquiriesmade,callthroughthedoor,andsaythatIamgoneoutforawalk。’
`Whenshallyoubeback?’
`Beforedinner,withoutfail。Courage,mylove。Bythistimetomorrowyouwillhaveaclear-headed,trustworthymanactingforyourgood。MrGilmore’spartnerisournextbestfriendtoMrGilmorehimself。’
Amoment’sreflection,assoonasIwasalone,convincedmethatIhadbetternotappearinmywalking-dressuntilIhadfirstdiscoveredwhatwasgoingoninthelowerpartofthehouse。IhadnotascertainedyetwhetherSirPercivalwasindoorsorout。
Thesingingofthecanariesinthelibrary,andthesmelloftobacco-smokethatcamethroughthedoor,whichwasnotclosed,toldmeatoncewheretheCountwas。IlookedovermyshoulderasIpassedthedoorway,andsawtomysurprisethathewasexhibitingthedocilityofthebirdsinhismostengaginglypolitemannertothehousekeeper。Hemusthavespeciallyinvitedhertoseethem——forshewouldneverhavethoughtofgoingintothelibraryofherownaccord。Theman’sslightestactionshadapurposeofsomekindatthebottomofeveryoneofthem。Whatcouldbehispurposehere?
Itwasnotimethentoinquireintohismotives。IlookedaboutforMadameFosconext,andfoundherfollowingherfavouritecircleroundandroundthefish-pond。
Iwasalittledoubtfulhowshewouldmeetme,aftertheoutbreakofjealousyofwhichIhadbeenthecausesoshortatimesince。Butherhusbandhadtamedherintheinterval,andshenowspoketomewiththesamecivilityasusual。MyonlyobjectinaddressingmyselftoherwastoascertainifsheknewwhathadbecomeofSirPercival。Icontrivedtorefertohimindirectly,andafteralittlefencingoneithersidesheatlastmentionedthathehadgoneout。
`Whichofthehorseshashetaken?’Iaskedcarelessly。
`Noneofthem,’shereplied。`Hewentawaytwohourssinceonfoot。AsIunderstoodit,hisobjectwastomakefreshinquiriesaboutthewomannamedAnneCatherick。Heappearstobeunreasonablyanxiousabouttracingher。Doyouhappentoknowifsheisdangerouslymad,MissHalcombe?’
`Idonot,Countess。’
`Areyougoingin?’
`Yes,Ithinkso。Isupposeitwillsoonbetimetodressfordinner。’
Weenteredthehousetogether。MadameFoscostrolledintothelibrary,anddosedthedoor。Iwentatoncetofetchmyhatandshawl。Everymomentwasofimportance,ifIwastogettoFannyattheinnandhebackbeforedinner。
WhenIcrossedthehallagainnoonewasthere,andthesingingofthebirdsinthelibraryhadceased。Icouldnotstoptomakeanyfreshinvestigations。Icouldonlyassuremyselfthatthewaywasclear,andthenleavethehousewiththetwoletterssafeinmypocket。
OnmywaytothevillageIpreparedmyselfforthepossibilityofmeetingSirPercival。AslongasIhadhimtodealwithaloneIfeltcertainofnotlosingmypresenceofmind。Anywomanwhoissureofherownwitsisamatchatanytimeforamanwhoisnotsureofhisowntemper。IhadnosuchfearofSirPercivalasIhadoftheCount。Insteadoffluttering,ithadcomposedme,tohearoftheerrandonwhichhehadgoneout。WhilethetracingofAnneCatherickwasthegreatanxietythatoccupiedhim,LauraandImighthopeforsomecessationofanyactivepersecutionathishands。Foroursakesnow,aswellasforAnne’s,Ihopedandprayedferventlythatshemightstillescapehim。
IwalkedonasbrisklyastheheatwouldletmetillIreachedthecross-roadwhichledtothevillage,lookingbackfromtimetotimetomakesurethatIwasnotfollowedbyanyone。
Nothingwasbehindmeallthewaybutanemptycountrywaggon。Thenoisemadebythelumberingwheelsannoyedme,andwhenIfoundthatthewaggontooktheroadtothevillage,aswellasmyself,Istoppedtoletitgobyandpassoutofhearing。AsIlookedtowardit,moreattentivelythanbefore,Ithoughtldetectedatintervalsthefeetofamanwalkingclosebehindit,thecarterbeinginfront,bythesideofhishorses。Thepartofthecross-roadwhichIhadjustpassedoverwassonarrowthatthewaggoncomingaftermebrushedthetreesandthicketsoneitherside,andIhadtowaituntilitwentbybeforeIcouldtestthecorrectnessofmyimpression。Apparentlythatimpressionwaswrong,forwhenthewaggonhadpassedmetheroadbehinditwasquiteclear。
IreachedtheinnwithoutmeetingSirPercival,andwithoutnoticinganythingmore,andwasgladtofindthatthelandladyhadreceivedFannywithallpossiblekindness。Thegirlhadalittleparlourtositin,awayfromthenoiseofthetaproom,andacleanbedchamberatthetopofthehouse。Shebegancryingagainatthesightofme,andsaid,poorsoul,trulyenough,thatitwasdreadfultofeelherselfturnedoutintotheworldasifshehadcommittedsomeunpardonablefault,whennoblamecouldbelaidatherdoorbyanybody——notevenbyhermaster,whohadsentheraway。
`Trytomakethebestofit,Fanny,’Isaid。`YourmistressandIwillstandyourfriends,andwilltakecarethatyourcharactershallnotsuffer。Now,listentome。Ihaveverylittletimetospare,andIamgoingtoputagreattrustinyourhands。Iwishyoutotakecareofthesetwoletters。TheonewiththestamponityouaretoputintothepostwhenyoureachLondontomorrow。Theother,directedtoMrFairlie,youaretodelivertohimyourselfassoonasyougethome。Keepboththelettersaboutyouandgivethemuptonoone。Theyareofthelastimportancetoyourmistress’sinterests。’
Fannyputthelettersintothebosomofherdress。`Theretheyshallstop,miss,’shesaid,`tillIhavedonewhatyoutellme。’
`Mindyouareatthestationingoodtimetomorrowmorning,’Icontinued。`AndwhenyouseethehousekeeperatLimmeridgegivehermycompliments,andsaythatyouareinmyserviceuntilLadyGlydeisabletotakeyouback。Wemaymeetagainsoonerthanyouthink。Sokeepagoodheart,anddon’tmisstheseveno’clocktrain。’
`Thankyou,miss——thankyoukindly。Itgivesonecouragetohearyourvoiceagain。Pleasetooffermydutytomylady,andsayIleftallthethingsastidyasIcouldinthetime。Oh,dear!dear!whowilldressherfordinnertoday?Itreallybreaksmyheart,miss,tothinkofit。’
WhenIgotbacktothehouseIhadonlyaquarterofanhourtosparetoputmyselfinorderfordinner,andtosaytwowordstoLaurabeforeIwentdownstairs。
`ThelettersareinFanny’shands,’Iwhisperedtoheratthedoor。`Doyoumeantojoinusatdinner?’
`Oh,no,no——notfortheworld。’
`Hasanythinghappened?Hasanyonedisturbedyou?’
`Yes——justnow——SirPercival——’
`Didhecomein?’
`No,hefrightenedmebyathumponthedooroutside。Isaid,``Who’sthere?’’``Youknow,’’heanswered。``Willyoualteryourmind,andtellmetherest?Youshall!SoonerorlaterI’llwringitoutofyou。YouknowwhereAnneCatherickisatthismoment。’’``Indeed,indeed,’’Isaid,``Idon’t。’’``Youdo!’’hecalledback。``I’llcrushyourobstinacy——mindthat!——I’llwringitoutofyou!’’Hewentawaywiththosewords——wentaway,Marian,hardlyfiveminutesago。’hadnotfoundheryet。
`Youaregoingdownstairs,Marian?Comeupagainintheevening。’
`Yes,yes。Don’tbeuneasyifIamalittlelate——Imustbecarefulnottogiveoffencebyleavingthemtoosoon。’
Thedinner-bellrangandIhastenedaway。
SirPercivaltookMadameFoscointothedining-room,andtheCountgavemehisann。Hewashotandflushed,andwasnotdressedwithhiscustomarycareandcompleteness。Hadhe,too,beenoutbeforedinner,andbeenlateingettingback?orwasheonlysufferingfromtheheatalittlemoreseverelythanusual?
Howeverthismightbe,hewasunquestionablytroubledbysomesecretannoyanceoranxiety,which,withallhispowersofdeception,hewasnotableentirelytoconceal。ThroughthewholeofdinnerhewasalmostassilentasSirPercivalhimself,andhe,everynowandthen,lookedathiswifewithanexpressionoffurtiveuneasinesswhichwasquitenewinmyexperienceofhim。Theonesocialobligationwhichheseemedtobeself-possessedenoughtoperformascarefullyaseverwastheobligationofbeingpersistentlycivilandattentivetome。WhatvileobjecthehasinviewIcannotstilldiscover,butbethedesignwhatitmay,invariablepolitenesstowardsmyself,invariablehumilitytowardsLaura,andinvariablesuppressionatanycostofSirPercival’sclumsyviolence,havebeenthemeanshehasresolutelyandimpenetrablyusedtogettohisendeversincehesetfootinthishouse。Isuspecteditwhenhefirstinterferedinourfavour,onthedaywhenthedeedwasproducedinthelibrary,andIfeelcertainofitnow。
WhenMadameFoscoandIrosetoleavethetable,theCountrosealsotoaccompanyusbacktothedrawing-room。
`Whatareyougoingawayfor?’askedSirPercival——`Imeanyou,Fosco。’
`IamgoingawaybecauseIhavehaddinnerenough,andwineenough,’answeredtheCount。`Besokind,Percival,astomakeallowancesformyforeignhabitofgoingoutwiththeladies,aswellascominginwiththem。’
`Nonsense!Anotherglassofclaretwon’thurtyou。SitdownagainlikeanEnglishman。Iwanthalfanhour’squiettalkwithyouoverourwine。’
`Aquiettalk,Percival,withallmyheart,butnotnow,andnotoverthewine。Laterintheevening,ifyouplease——laterintheevening。’
`Civil!’saidSirPercivalsavagely。`Civilbehaviour,uponmysoul,toamaninhisownhouse!’
IhadmorethanonceseenhimlookattheCountuneasilyduringdinner-time,andhadobservedthattheCountcarefullyabstainedfromlookingathiminreturn。Thiscircumstance,coupledwiththehost’sanxietyforalittlequiettalkoverthewine,andtheguest’sobstinateresolutionnottositdownagainatthetable,revivedinmymemorytherequestwhichSirPercivalhadvainlyaddressedtohisfriendearlierintheday,tocomeoutofthelibraryandspeaktohim。TheCounthaddeferredgrantingthatprivateinterview,whenitwasfirstaskedforintheafternoon,andhadagaindeferredgrantingit,whenitwasasecondtimeaskedforatthedinner-table。Whateverthecomingsubjectofdiscussionbetweenthemmightbe,itwasclearlyanimportantsubjectinSirPercival’sestimation——andperhapsjudgingfromhisevidentreluctancetoapproachitadangeroussubjectaswell,intheestimationoftheCount。
Theseconsiderationsoccurredtomewhilewewerepassingfromthedining-roomtothedrawing-room。SirPercival’sangrycommentaryonhisfriend’sdesertionofhimhadnotproducedtheslightesteffect。TheCountobstinatelyaccompaniedustothetea-table——waitedaminuteortwointheroom——wentoutintothehall——andreturnedwiththepost-baginhishands。Itwastheneighto’clock——thehouratwhichtheletterswerealwaysdespatchedfromBlackwaterPark。
`Haveyouanyletterforthepost,MissHalcombe?’heasked,approachingmewiththebag。
IsawMadameFosco,whowasmakingthetea,pause,withthesugar-tongsinherhand,tolistenformyanswer。
`No,Count,thankyou。Noletterstoday。’
Hegavethebagtotheservant,whowasthenintheroom;satdownatthepiano,andplayedtheairofthelivelyNeapolitanstreet-song,`LamiaCarolina,’twiceover。Hiswife,whowasusuallythemostdeliberateofwomeninallhermovements,madeteaasquicklyasIcouldhavemadeitmyself——finishedherowncupintwominutes,andquietlyglidedoutoftheroom。
Irosetofollowherexample——partlybecauseIsuspectedherofattemptingsometreacheryupstairswithLaura,partlybecauseIwasresolvednottoremainaloneinthesameroomwithherhusband。
BeforeIcouldgettothedoortheCountstoppedme,byarequestforacupoftea。Igavehimthecupoftea,andtriedasecondtimetogetaway。Hestoppedmeagain——thistimebygoingbacktothepiano,andsuddenlyappealingtomeonamusicalquestioninwhichhedeclaredthatthehonourofhiscountrywasconcerned。
Ivainlypleadedmyowntotalignoranceofmusic,andtotalwantoftasteinthatdirection。Heonlyappealedtomeagainwithavehemencewhichsetallfurtherprotestonmypartatdefiance。`TheEnglishandtheGermansheindignantlydeclaredwerealwaysrevilingtheItaliansfortheirinabilitytocultivatethehigherkindsofmusic。WewereperpetuallytalkingofourOratorios,andtheywereperpetuallytalkingoftheirSymphonies。Didweforgetanddidtheyforgethisimmortalfriendandcountryman,Rossini?WhatwasMosesinEgyptbutasublimeoratorio,whichwasactedonthestageinsteadofbeingcoldlysunginaconcert-room?WhatwastheoverturetoGuillaumeTellbutasymphonyunderanothername?HadIheardMosesinEgypt?WouldIlistentothis,andthis,andthis,andsayifanythingmoresublimelysacredandgrandhadeverbeencomposedbymortalman?’——Andwithoutwaitingforawordofassentordissentonmypart,lookingmehardinthefaceallthetime,hebeganthunderingonthepiano,andsingingtoitwithloudandloftyenthusiasm——onlyinterruptinghimself,atintervals,toannouncetomefiercelythetitlesofthedifferentpiecesofmusic:`ChorusofEgyptiansinthePlagueofDarkness,MissHalcombe!’——`RecitativoofMoseswiththetablesoftheLaw。’——`PrayerofIsraelites,atthepassageoftheRedSea。Aha!Aha!Isthatsacred?isthatsublime?’Thepianotrembledunderhispowerfulhands,andtheteacupsonthetablerattled,ashisbigbassvoicethunderedoutthenotes,andhisheavyfootbeattimeonthefloor。
Therewassomethinghorrible——somethingfierceanddevilish——intheoutburstofhisdelightathisownsingingandplaying,andinthetriumphwithwhichhewatcheditseffectuponmeasIshranknearerandnearertothedoor。Iwasreleasedatlast,notbymyownefforts,butbySirPercival’sinterposition。Heopenedthedining-roomdoor,andcalledoutangrilytoknowwhat`thatinfernalnoise’meant。TheCountinstantlygotupfromthepiano。`AhIifPercivaliscoming,’hesaid,`harmonyandmelodyarebothatanend。TheMuseofMusic,MissHalcombe,desertsusindismay,andI,thefatoldminstrel,exhaletherestofmyenthusiasmintheopenair!’Hestalkedoutintotheverandah,puthishandsinhispockets,andresumedtheRecitativoofMoses,sottovoce,inthegarden。
IheardSirPercivalcallafterhimfromthedining-roomwindow。Buthetooknonotice——heseemeddeterminednottohear。Thatlong-deferredquiettalkbetweenthemwasstilltobeputoff,wasstilltowaitfortheCount’sabsolutewillandpleasure。
Hehaddetainedmeinthedrawing-roomnearlyhalfanhourfromthetimewhenhiswifeleftus。Wherehadshebeen,andwhathadshebeendoinginthatinterval?
Iwentupstairstoascertain,butImadenodiscoveries,andwhenIquestionedLaura,Ifoundthatshehadnotheardanything。Nobodyhaddisturbedher,nofaintrustlingofthesilkdresshadbeenaudible,eitherintheante-roomorinthepassage。
Itwasthentwentyminutestonine。Aftergoingtomyroomtogetmyjournal,Ireturned,andsatwithLaura,sometimeswriting,sometimesstoppingtotalkwithher。Nobodycamenearus,andnothinghappened。Weremainedtogethertillteno’clock。Ithenrose,saidmylastcheeringwords,andwishedhergoodnight。ShelockedherdooragainafterwehadarrangedthatIshouldcomeinandseeherthefirstthinginthemorning。
Ihadafewsentencesmoretoaddtomydiarybeforegoingtobedmyself,andasIwentdownagaintothedrawing-roomafterleavingLauraforthelasttimethatwearyday,Iresolvedmerelytoshowmyselfthere,tomakemyexcuses,andthentoretireanhourearlierthanusualforthenight。
SirPercival,andtheCountandhiswife,weresittingtogether。SirPercivalwasyawninginaneasy-chair,theCountwasreading,MadameFoscowasfanningherself。Strangetosay,herfacewasflushednow。She。whohadneversufferedfromtheheat,wasmostundoubtedlysufferingfromittonight。
`Iamafraid,Countess,youarenotquitesowellasusual?’Isaid。
`TheveryremarkIwasabouttomaketoyou,’shereplied。`Youarelookingpale,mydear。’
Mydear!Itwasthefirsttimeshehadeveraddressedmewiththatfamiliarity!Therewasaninsolentsmiletooonherfacewhenshesaidthewords。
`Iamsufferingfromoneofmybadheadaches,’Iansweredcoldly。
`Ah,indeed?Wantofexercise,Isuppose?Awalkbeforedinnerwouldhavebeenjustthethingforyou。’Shereferredtothe`walk’withastrangeemphasis。Hadsheseenmegoout?Nomatterifshehad。ThelettersweresafenowinFanny’shands。
`Comeandhaveasmoke,Fosco,’saidSirPercival,rising,withanotheruneasylookathisfriend。
`Withpleasure,Percival,whentheladieshavegonetobed,’repliedtheCount。
`Excuseme,Countess,ifIsetyoutheexampleofretiring,’Isaid。`Theonlyremedyforsuchaheadacheasmineisgoingtobed。’
Itookmyleave。Therewasthesameinsolentsmileonthewoman’sfacewhenIshookhandswithher。SirPercivalpaidnoattentiontome。HewaslookingimpatientlyatMadameFosco,whoshowednosignsofleavingtheroomwithme。TheCountsmiledtohimselfbehindhisbook。TherewasyetanotherdelaytothatquiettalkwithSirPercival——andtheCountesswastheimpedimentthistime。
June19th——Oncesafelyshutintomyownroom,Iopenedthesepages,andpreparedtogoonwiththatpartoftheday’srecordwhichwasstilllefttowrite。
FortenminutesormoreIsatidle,withthepeninmyhand,thinkingovertheeventsofthelasttwelvehours。WhenIatlastaddressedmyselftomytask,IfoundadifficultyinproceedingwithitwhichIhadneverexperiencedbefore。Inspiteofmyeffortstofixmythoughtsonthematterinhand,theywanderedawaywiththestrangestpersistencyintheonedirectionofSirPercivalandtheCount,andalltheinterestwhichItriedtoconcentrateonmyjournalcentredinsteadinthatprivateinterviewbetweenthemwhichhadbeenputoffallthroughtheday,andwhichwasnowtotakeplaceinthesilenceandsolitudeofthenight。
Inthisperversestateofmymind,therecollectionofwhathadpassedsincethemorningwouldnotcomebacktome,andtherewasnoresourcebuttoclosemyjournalandtogetawayfromitforalittlewhile。
Iopenedthedoorwhichledfrommybedroomintomysitting-room,andhavingpassedthrough,pulledittoagain,topreventanyaccidentincaseofdraughtwiththecandleleftonthedressing-table。Mysitting-roomwindowwaswideopen,andIleanedoutlistlesslytolookatthenight。
Itwasdarkandquiet。Neithermoonnorstarswerevisible。Therewasasmelllikeraininthestill,heavyair,andIputmyhandoutofthewindow。No。Therainwasonlythreatening,ithadnotcomeyet。