首页 >出版文学> The Woman in White(白衣女人)>第9章
  June19th——Theeventsofyesterdaywarnedmetobeready,soonerorlater,tomeettheworst。Todayisnotyetatanend,andtheworsthascome。
  JudgingbytheclosestcalculationoftimethatLauraandIcouldmake,wearrivedattheconclusionthatAnneCatherickmusthaveappearedattheboat-houseathalf-pasttwoo’clockontheafternoonofyesterday。IaccordinglyarrangedthatLaurashouldjustshowherselfattheluncheon-cabletoday,andshouldthenslipoutatthefirstopportunity,leavingmebehindtopreserveappearances,andtofollowherassoonasIcouldsafelydoso。Thismodeofproceeding,ifnoobstaclesoccurredtothwartus,wouldenablehertobeattheboat-housebeforehalf-pasttwo,andwhenIleftthetable,inmyturnwouldtakemetoasafepositionintheplantationbeforethree。
  Thechangeintheweather,whichlastnight’swindwarnedustoexpect,camewiththemorning。ItwasrainingheavilywhenIgotup,anditcontinuedtorainuntiltwelveo’clock——whenthecloudsdispersed,theblueskyappeared,andthesunshoneagainwiththebrightpromiseofafineafternoon。
  MyanxietytoknowhowSirPercivalandtheCountwouldoccupytheearlypartofthedaywasbynomeanssetatrest,sofarasSirPercivalwasconcerned,byhisleavingusimmediatelyafterbreakfast,andgoingoutbyhimself,inspiteoftherain。Heneithertolduswherehewasgoingnorwhenwemightexpecthimback。Wesawhimpassthebreakfast-roomwindowhastily,withhishighbootsandhiswaterproofcoaton——andthatwasall。
  TheCountpassedthemorningquietlyindoors,somepartofitinthelibrary,somepartinthedrawing-room,playingoddsandendsofmusiconthepiano,andhummingtohimself。Judgingbyappearances,thesentimentalsideofhischaracterwaspersistentlyinclinedtobetrayitselfstill。Hewassilentandsensitive,andreadytosighandlanguishponderouslyasonlyfatmenFansighandlanguishonthesmallestprovocation。
  Luncheon-timecameandSirPercivaldidnotreturn。TheCounttookhisfriend’splaceatthetable,plaintivelydevouredthegreaterpartofafruittart,submergedunderawholejugfulofcream,andexplainedthefullmeritoftheachievementtousassoonashehaddone。`Atasteforsweets,’hesaidinhissoftesttonesandhistenderestmanner,`istheinnocenttasteofwomenandchildren。Ilovetoshareitwiththem——itisanotherbond,dearladies,betweenyouandme。’
  Lauraleftthetableintenminutes’time。Iwassorelytemptedtoaccompanyher。Butifwehadbothgoneouttogetherwemusthaveexcitedsuspicion,andworsestill,ifweallowedAnneCathericktoseeLaura,accompaniedbyasecondpersonwhowasastrangertoher,weshouldinallprobabilityforfeitherconfidencefromthatmoment,nevertoregainitagain。
  Iwaited,therefore,aspatientlyasIcould,untiltheservantcameintoclearthetable。WhenIquittedtheroom,therewerenosigns,inthehouseoroutofit,ofSirPercival’sreturn。IlefttheCountwithapieceofsugarbetweenhislips,andtheviciouscockatooscramblinguphiswaistcoattogetatit,whileMadameFosco,sittingoppositetoherhusband,watchedtheproceedingsofhisbirdandhimselfasattentivelyasifshehadneverseenanythingofthesortbeforeinherlife。OnmywaytotheplantationIkeptcarefullybeyondtherangeofviewfromtheluncheon-roomwindow。Nobodysawmeandnobodyfollowedme。Itwasthenaquartertothreeo’clockbymywatch。
  OnceamongthetreesIwalkedrapidly,untilIhadadvancedmorethanhalf-waythroughtheplantation。AtthatpointIslackenedmypaceandproceededcautiously,butIsawnoone,andheardnovoices。BylittleandlittleIcamewithinviewofthebackoftheboat-house——stoppedandlistened——thenwenton,tillIwasclosebehindit,andmusthaveheardanypersonswhoweretalkinginside。Stillthesilencewasunbroken——stillfarandnearnosignofalivingcreatureappearedanywhere。
  Afterskirtingroundbythebackofthebuilding,firstononesideandthenontheother,andmakingnodiscoveries,Iventuredinfrontofit,andfairlylookedin。Theplacewasempty。
  Icalled,`Laura!’——atfirstsoftly,thenlouderandlouder。Nooneansweredandnooneappeared。ForallthatIcouldseeandhear,theonlyhumancreatureintheneighbourhoodofthelakeandtheplantationwasmyself。
  Myheartbegantobeatviolently,butIkeptmyresolution,andsearched,firsttheboat-houseandthenthegroundinfrontofit,foranysignswhichmightshowmewhetherLaurahadreallyreachedtheplaceornot。Nomarkofherpresenceappearedinsidethebuilding,butIfoundtracesofheroutsideit,infootstepsonthesand。
  Idetectedthefootstepsoftwopersons——largefootstepslikeaman’s,andsmallfootsteps,which,byputtingmyownfeetintothemandtestingtheirsizeinthatmanner,IfeltcertainwereLaura’s。Thegroundwasconfusedlymarkedinthiswayjustbeforetheboat-house。Closeagainstonesideofit,undershelteroftheprojectingroof,Idiscoveredalittleholeinthesand——aholeartificiallymade,beyondadoubt。Ijustnoticedit,andthenturnedawayimmediatelytotracethefootstepsasfarasIcould,andtofollowthedirectioninwhichtheymightleadme。
  Theyledme,startingfromtheleft-handsideoftheboat-house,alongtheedgeofthetrees,adistance,Ishouldthink,ofbetweentwoandthreehundredyards,andthenthesandygroundshowednofurthertraceofthem。FeelingthatthepersonswhosecourseIwastrackingmustnecessarilyhaveenteredthePlantationatthispoint,Ienteredittoo。AtfirstIcouldfindnopath,butIdiscoveredoneafterwards,justfaintlytracedamongthetrees,andfollowedit。Ittookme,forsomedistance,inthedirectionofthevillage,untilIstoppedatapointwhereanotherfoot-trackcrossedit。Thebramblesgrewthicklyoneithersideofthissecondpath。Istoodlookingdownit,uncertainwhichwaytotakenext,andwhileIlookedIsawononethornybranchsomefragmentsoffringefromawoman’sshawl。AcloserexaminationofthefringesatisfiedmethatithadbeentornfromashawlofLaura’s,andIinstantlyfollowedthesecondpath。Itbroughtmeoutatlast,tomygreatrelief,atthebackofthehouse。Isaytomygreatrelief,becauseIinferredthatLauramust,forsomeunknownreason,havereturnedbeforemebythisroundaboutway。Iwentinbythecourt-yardandtheoffices。ThefirstpersonwhomImetincrossingtheservants’hallwasMrsMichelson,thehousekeeper。
  `Doyouknow,’Iasked,`whetherLadyGlydehascomeinfromherwalkornot?’
  `MyladycameinalittlewhileagowithSirPercival,’answeredthehousekeeper。`Iamafraid,MissHalcombe,somethingverydistressinghashappened。’
  Myheartsankwithinme。`Youdon’tmeananaccident?’Isaidfaintly。
  `No,no——thankGod,noaccident。Butmyladyranupstairstoherownroomintears,andSirPercivalhasorderedmetogiveFannywarningtoleaveinanhour’stime。’
  FannywasLaura’smaid——agoodaffectionategirlwhohadbeenwithherforyears——theonlypersoninthehousewhosefidelityanddevotionwecouldbothdependupon。
  `WhereisFanny?’Iinquired。
  `Inmyroom,MissHalcombe。Theyoungwomanisquiteovercome,andItoldhertositdownandtrytorecoverherself。’
  IwenttoMrsMichelson’sroom,andfoundFannyinacorner,withherboxbyherside,cryingbitterly。
  Shecouldgivemenoexplanationwhateverofhersuddendismissal。SirPercivalhadorderedthatsheshouldhaveamonth’swages,inplaceofamonth’swarning,andgo。Noreasonhadbeenassigned——noobjectionhadbeenmadetoherconduct。Shehadbeenforbiddentoappealtohermistress,forbiddeneventoseeherforamomenttosaygood-bye。Shewastogowithoutexplanationsorfarewells,andtogoatonce。
  Aftersoothingthepoorgirlbyafewfriendlywords,Iaskedwheresheproposedtosleepthatnight。Sherepliedthatshethoughtofgoingtothelittleinninthevillage,thelandladyofwhichwasarespectablewoman,knowntotheservantsatBlackwaterPark。Thenextmorning,byleavingearly,shemightgetbacktoherfriendsinCumberlandwithoutstoppinginLondon,whereshewasatotalstranger。
  IfeltdirectlythatFanny’sdepartureofferedusasafemeansofcommunicationwithLondonandwithLimmeridgeHouse,ofwhichitmightbeveryimportanttoavailourselves。Accordingly,Itoldherthatshemightexpecttohearfromhermistressorfrommeinthecourseoftheevening,andthatshemightdependonourbothdoingallthatlayinourpowertohelpher,underthetrialofleavingusforthepresent。Thosewordssaid,Ishookhandswithherandwentupstairs。
  ThedoorwhichledtoLaura’sroomwasthedoorofanantechamberopeningontothepassage。WhenItriedit,itwasboltedontheinside。
  Iknocked,andthedoorwasopenedbythesameheavy,overgrownhousemaidwhoselumpishinsensibilityhadtriedmypatiencesoseverelyonthedaywhenIfoundthewoundeddog。Ihad,sincethattime,discoveredthathernamewasMargaretPorcher,andthatshewasthemostawkward,slatternly,andobstinateservantinthehouse。
  Onopeningthedoorsheinstantlysteppedouttothethreshold,andstoodgrinningatmeinstolidsilence。
  `Whydoyoustandthere?’Isaid`Don’tyouseethatIwanttocomein?’
  `Ah,butyoumustn’tcomein,’wastheanswer,withanotherandabroadergrinstill。
  `Howdareyoutalktomeinthatway?Standbackinstantly!’
  Shestretchedoutagreatredhandandarmoneachsideofher,soastobarthedoorway,andslowlynoddedheraddleheadatme。
  `Master’sorders,’shesaid,andnoddedagain。
  Ihadneedofallmyself-controltowarnmeagainstcontestingthematterwithher,andtoremindmethatthenextwordsIhadtosaymustbeaddressedtohermaster。Iturnedmybackonher,andinstantlywentdownstairstofindhim。MyresolutiontokeepmytemperunderalltheirritationsthatSirPercivalcouldofferwas,bythistime,ascompletelyforgotten——Isaysotomyshame——asifIhadnevermadeit。Itdidmegood,afterallIhadsufferedandsuppressedinthathouse——itactuallydidmegoodtofeelhowangryIwas。
  Thedrawing-roomandthebreakfast-roomwerebothempty。Iwentontothelibrary,andthereIfoundSirPercival,theCount,andMadameFosco。Theywereallthreestandingup,closetogether,andSirPercivalhadalittleslipofpaperinhishand。AsIopenedthedoorIheardtheCountsaytohim,`No——athousandtimesover,no。’
  Iwalkedstraightuptohim,andlookedhimfullintheface。
  `AmItounderstand,SirPercival,thatyourwife’sroomisaprison,andthatyourhousemaidisthegaolerwhokeepsit?’Iasked。
  `Yes,thatiswhatyouaretounderstand,’heanswered。`Takecaremygaolerhasn’tgotdoubledutytodo——takecareyourroomisnotaprisontoo。’
  `Takeyoucarehowyoutreatyourwife,andhowyouthreatenme,’Ibrokeoutintheheatofmyanger。`TherearelawsinEnglandtoprotectwomenfromcrueltyandoutrage。IfyouhurtahairofLaura’shead,ifyoudaretointerferewithmyfreedom,comewhatmay,tothoselawsIwillappeal。’
  InsteadofansweringmeheturnedroundtotheCount。
  `WhatdidItellyou?’heasked。`Whatdoyousaynow?’
  `WhatIsaidbefore,’repliedtheCount——`No。’
  EveninthevehemenceofmyangerIfelthiscalm,cold,greyeyesonmyface。Theyturnedawayfrommeassoonashehadspoken,andlookedsignificantlyathiswife。MadameFoscoimmediatelymovedclosetomyside,andinthatpositionaddressedSirPercivalbeforeeitherofuscouldspeakagain。
  `Favourmewithyourattentionforonemoment,’shesaid,inherclearicily-suppressedtones。`Ihavetothankyou,SirPercival,foryourhospitality,andtodeclinetakingadvantageofitanylonger。IremaininnohouseinwhichladiesaretreatedasyourwifeandMissHalcombehavebeentreatedheretoday!’
  SirPercivaldrewbackastep。andstaredatherindeadsilence。Thedeclarationhehadjustheard——adeclarationwhichhewellknew,asIwellknew,MadameFoscowouldnothaveventuredtomakewithoutherhusband’spermission——seemedtopetrifyhimwithsurprise。TheCountstoodby,andlookedathiswifewiththemostenthusiasticadmiration。
  `Sheissublime!’hesaidtohimself。Heapproachedherwhilehespoke,anddrewherhandthroughhisarm。`Iamatyourservice,Eleanor,’hewenton,withaquietdignitythatIhadnevernoticedinhimbefore。`AndatMissHalcombe’sservice,ifshewillhonourmebyacceptingalltheassistanceIcanofferher。’
  `Damnit!whatdoyoumean?’criedSirPercival,astheCountquietlymovedawaywithhiswifetothedoor。
  `AtothertimesImeanwhatIsay,butatthistimeImeanwhatmywifesays,’repliedtheimpenetrableItalian。`Wehavechangedplaces,Percival,foronce,andMadameFosco’sopinionis——mine。’
  SirPercivalcrumpledupthepaperinhishand,andpushingpasttheCount,withanotheroath,stoodbetweenhimandthedoor。
  `Haveyourownway,’hesaid,withbaffledrageinhislow,half-whisperingtones。`Haveyourownway——andseewhatcomesofit。’Withthosewordshelefttheroom。
  MadameFoscoglancedinquiringlyatherhusband。`Hehas
  goneawayverysuddenly,’shesaid。`Whatdoesitmean?’
  `ItmeansthatyouandItogetherhavebroughttheworst-temperedmaninallEnglandtohissenses,’answeredtheCount。`Itmeans,MissHalcombe,thatLadyGlydeisrelievedfromagrossindignity,andyoufromtherepetitionofanunpardonableinsult。Suffermetoexpressmyadmirationofyourconductandyourcourageataverytryingmoment。’
  `Sincereadmiration,’suggestedMadameFosco。
  `Sincereadmiration,’echoedtheCount。
  Ihadnolongerthestrengthofmyfirstangryresistancetooutrageandinjurytosupportme。Myheart-sickanxietytoseeLaura,mysenseofmyownhelplessignoranceofwhathadhappenedattheboat-house,pressedonmewithanintolerableweight。ItriedtokeepupappearancesbyspeakingtotheCountandhiswifeinthetonewhichtheyhadchosentoadoptinspeakingtome,butthewordsfailedonmylips——mybreathcameshortandthick——myeyeslookedlongingly,insilence,atthedoor。TheCount,understandingmyanxiety,openedit,wentout,andpulledittoafterhim。AtthesametimeSirPercival’sheavystepdescendedthestairs。Iheardthemwhisperingtogetheroutside,whileMadameFoscowasassuringme,inhercalmestandmostconventionalmanner,thatsherejoiced,foralloursakes,thatSirPercival’sconducthadnotobligedherhusbandandherselftoleaveBlackwaterPark。Beforeshehaddonespeakingthewhisperingceased,thedooropened,andtheCountlookedin。
  `MissHalcombe,’hesaid,`IamhappytoinformyouthatLadyGlydeismistressagaininherownhouse。IthoughtitmightbemoreagreeabletoyoutohearofthischangeforthebetterfrommethanfromSirPercival,andIhavethereforeexpresslyreturnedtomentionit。’
  `Admirabledelicacy!’saidMadameFosco,payingbackherhusband’stributeofadmirationwiththeCount’sowncoin,intheCount’sownmanner。Hesmiledandbowedasifhehadreceivedaformalcomplimentfromapolitestranger,anddrewbacktoletmepassoutfirst。
  SirPercivalwasstandinginthehall。AsIhurriedtothestairsIheardhimcallimpatientlytotheCounttocomeoutofthelibrary。
  `Whatareyouwaitingtherefor?’hesaid。`Iwanttospeaktoyou。’
  `AndIwanttothinkalittlebymyself,’repliedtheother。`Waittilllater,Percival,waittilllater。’
  Neitherhenorhisfriendsaidanymore。Igainedthetopofthestairsandranalongthepassage。InmyhasteandmyagitationIleftthedooroftheante-chamberopen,butIclosedthedoorofthebedroomthemomentIwasinsideit。
  Laurawassittingaloneatthefarendoftheroom,herarmsrestingwearilyonatable,andherfacehiddeninherhands。Shestartedupwithacryofdelightwhenshesawme。
  `Howdidyougethere?’sheasked。`Whogaveyouleave?NotSirPercival?’
  Inmyoverpoweringanxietytohearwhatshehadtotellme,Icouldnotanswerher——Icouldonlyputquestionsonmyside。Laura’seagernesstoknowwhathadpasseddownstairsproved,however,toostrongtoberesisted。Shepersistentlyrepeatedherinquiries。
  `TheCount,ofcourse,’Iansweredimpatiently。`Whoseinfluenceinthehouse——’
  Shestoppedmewithagestureofdisgust。
  `Don’tspeakofhim,’shecried。`TheCountisthevilestcreaturebreathing!TheCountisamiserableSpy!’
  Beforewecouldeitherofussayanotherwordwewerealarmedbyasoftknockingatthedoorofthebedroom。
  Ihadnotyetsatdown,andIwentfirsttoseewhoitwas。WhenIopenedthedoorMadameFoscoconfrontedmewithmyhandkerchiefinherhand。
  `Youdroppedthisdownstairs,MissHalcombe,’shesaid,`andIthoughtIcouldbringittoyou,asIwaspassingbytomyownroom。
  Herface,naturallypale,hadturnedtosuchaghastlywhitenessthatIstartedatthesightofit。Herhands,sosureandsteadyatallothertimes,trembledviolently,andhereyeslookedwolfishlypastmethroughtheopendoor,andfixedonLaura。
  Shehadbeenlisteningbeforesheknocked!Isawitinherwhiteface,Isawitinhertremblinghands,IsawitinherlookatLaura。
  Afterwaitinganinstantsheturnedfrommeinsilence,andslowlywalkedaway。
  Iclosedthedooragain。`Oh,LauraILaura!WeshallbothruethedaywhenyoucalledtheCountaSpy!’
  `Youwouldhavecalledhimsoyourself,Marian,ifyouhadknownwhatIknow。AnneCatherickwasright。Therewasathirdpersonwatchingusintheplantationyesterday,andthatthirdperson——
  `AreyousureitwastheCount?’
  `Iamabsolutelycertain。HewasSirPercival’sspy——hewasSirPercival’sinformer——hesetSirPercivalwatchingandwaiting,allthemorningthrough,forAnneCatherickandforme。’
  `IsAnnefound?Didyouseeheratthelake?’
  `No。Shehassavedherselfbykeepingawayfromtheplace。WhenIgottotheboat-housenoonewasthere。’
  `Yes?Yes?’
  `Iwentinandsatwaitingforafewminutes。Butmyrestlessnessmademegetupagain,towalkaboutalittle。AsIpassedoutIsawsomemarksonthesand,closeunderthefrontoftheboat-house。Istoopeddowntoexaminethem,anddiscoveredawordwritteninlargelettersonthesand。Thewordwas——LOOK。’
  `Andyouscrapedawaythesand,anddugahollowplaceinit?’
  `Howdoyouknowthat,Marian?’
  `IsawthehollowplacemyselfwhenIfollowedyoutotheboat-house。Goon——goon!’
  `Yes,Iscrapedawaythesandonthesurface,andinalittlewhileIcametoastripofpaperhiddenbeneath,whichhadwritingonit。ThewritingwassignedwithAnneCatherick’sinitials。’
  `Whereisit?’
  `SirPercivalhastakenitfromme。’
  `Canyourememberwhatthewritingwas?Doyouthinkyoucanrepeatittome?’
  `InsubstanceIcan,Marian。Itwasveryshort。Youwouldhaverememberedit。wordforword。’
  `Trytotellmewhatthesubstancewasbeforewegoanyfurther。’
  Shecomplied。Iwritethelinesdownhereexactlyassherepeatedthemtome。Theyranthus——andhadtoruntosavemyself。Hewasnotquickenoughonhisfeettofollowme,andhelostmeamongthetrees。Idarenotriskcomingbackheretodayatthesametime。Iwritethis,andhideitinthesand,atsixinthemorning,totellyouso。Whenwespeaknextofyourwickedhusband’sSecretwemustspeaksafely,ornotatall。Trytohavepatience。Ipromiseyoushallseemeagainandthatsoon——A。C。’
  Thereferencetothe`tall,stoutoldman’thetermsofwhichLaurawascertainthatshehadrepeatedtomecorrectlyleftnodoubtastowhotheintruderhadbeen。IcalledtomindthatIhadtoldSirPercival,intheCount’spresencethedaybefore,thatLaurahadgonetotheboat-housetolookforherbrooch。Inallprobabilityhehadfollowedherthere,inhisofficiousway,torelievehermindaboutthematterofthesignature,immediatelyafterhehadmentionedthechangeinSirPercival’splanstomeinthedrawing-room。Inthiscasehecouldonlyhavegottotheneighbourhoodoftheboat-houseattheverymomentwhenAnneCatherickdiscoveredhim。ThesuspiciouslyhurriedmannerinwhichshepartedfromLaurahadnodoubtpromptedhisuselessattempttofollowher。Oftheconversationwhichhadpreviouslytakenplacebetweenthemhecouldhaveheardnothing。Thedistancebetweenthehouseandthelake,andthetimeatwhichheleftmeinthedrawing-room,ascomparedwiththetimeatwhichLauraandAnneCatherickhadbeenspeakingtogether,provedthatfacttousatanyrate,beyondadoubt。
  Havingarrivedatsomethinglikeaconclusionsofar,mynextgreatinterestwastoknowwhatdiscoveriesSirPercivalhadmadeafterCountFoscohadgivenhimhisinformation。
  `Howcameyoutolosepossessionoftheletter?’Iasked。`Whatdidyoudowithitwhenyoufounditinthesand?’
  `Afterreadingitoncethrough,’shereplied,`Itookitintotheboat-housewithmetositdownandlookoveritasecondtime。WhileIwasreadingashadowfellacrossthepaper。Ilookedup,andsawSirPercivalstandinginthedoorwaywatchingme。’
  `Didyoutrytohidetheletter?’
  `Itried,buthestoppedme。``Youneedn’ttroubletohidethat,’’hesaid。``Ihappentohavereadit。’’Icouldonlylookathimhelplessly——Icouldsaynothing。``Youunderstand?’’hewenton;``Ihavereadit。Idugitupoutofthesandtwohourssince,andburieditagain,andwrotethewordaboveitagain,andleftitreadytoyourhands。Youcan’tlieyourselfoutofthescrapenow。YousawAnneCatherickinsecretyesterday,andyouhavegotherletterinyourhandatthismoment。Ihavenotcaughtheryet,butIhavecaughtyou。Givemetheletter。’’Hesteppedcloseuptome——Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——whatcouldIdo?——Igavehimtheletter。’
  `Whatdidhesaywhenyougaveittohim?’
  `Atfirsthesaidnothing。Hetookmebythearm,andledmeoutoftheboat-house,andlookedabouthimonallsides,asifhewasafraidofourbeingseenorheard。Thenheclaspedhishandfastroundmyarm,andwhisperedtome,``WhatdidAnneCathericksaytoyouyesterday?Iinsistonhearingeveryword,fromfirsttolast。’’’
  `Didyoutellhim?’
  `Iwasalonewithhim,Marian——hiscruelhandwasbruisingmyarm——whatcouldIdo?’
  `Isthemarkonyourarmstill?Letmeseeit。’
  `Whydoyouwanttoseeit?’
  `Iwanttoseeit,Laura,becauseourendurancemustend,andourresistancemustbegintoday。Thatmarkisaweapontostrikehimwith。Letmeseeitnow——Imayhavetosweartoitatsomefuturetime。’
  `Oh,Marian,don’tlookso——don’ttalksoIItdoesn’thurtmenow!’
  `Letmeseeit!’
  Sheshowedmethemarks。Iwaspastgrievingoverthem,pastcryingoverthem,pastshudderingoverthem。Theysayweareeitherbetterthanmen,orworse。Ifthetemptationthathasfalleninsomewomen’sway,andmadethemworse,hadfalleninmineatthatmoment——ThankGod!myfacebetrayednothingthathiswifecouldread。Thegentle,innocent,affectionatecreaturethoughtIwasfrightenedforherandsorryforher,andthoughtnomore。
  `Don’tthinktooseriouslyofit,Marian,’shesaidsimply,asshepulledhersleevedownagain。`Itdoesn’thurtmenow。’
  `Iwilltrytothinkquietlyofit,mylove,foryoursake——Well!well!AndyoutoldhimallthatAnneCatherickhadsaidtoyou——allthatyoutoldme?
  `Yes,all。Heinsistedonit——Iwasalonewithhim——Icouldconcealnothing。’
  `Didhesayanythingwhenyouhaddone?’
  `Helookedatme,andlaughedtohimselfinmocking,bitterway。``Imeantohavetherestoutofyou,’’hesaid,``doyouhear?——therest。’’IdeclaredtohimsolemnlythatIhadtoldhimeverythingIknew。``Notyou,`heanswered,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。Won’tyoutellit?Youshall!I’llwringitoutofyouathomeifIcan’twringitoutofyouhere——Heledmeawaybyastrangepaththroughtheplantation——apathwheretherewasnohopeofourmeetingyou——andhespokenomoretillwecamewithinsightofthehouse。Thenhestoppedagain,andsaid,``Willyoutakeasecondchance,ifIgiveittoyou?Willyouthinkbetterofit。andtellmetherest?’’IcouldonlyrepeatthesamewordsIhadspokenbefore。Hecursedmyobstinacy,andwenton,andtookmewithhimtothehouse。``Youcan’tdeceiveme,’’hesaid,``youknowmorethanyouchoosetotell。I’llhaveyoursecretoutofyou,andI’llhaveitoutofthatsisterofyoursaswell。Thereshallbenomoreplottingandwhisperingbetweenyou。Neitheryounorsheshallseeeachotheragaintillyouhaveconfessedthetruth。I’llhaveyouwatchedmorning,noon,andnight,tillyouconfessthetruth。’’HewasdeaftoeverythingIcouldsay。Hetookmestraightupstairsintomyownroom。Fannywassittingthere,doingsomeworkforme,andheinstantlyorderedherout。``I’lltakegoodcareyou’renotmixedupintheconspiracy,`hesaid。``Youshallleavethishousetoday。Ifyourmistresswantsamaid。sheshallhaveoneofmychoosing。’’Hepushedmeintotheroom,andlockedthedooronme。Hesetthatsenselesswomantowatchmeoutside,Marian!Helookedandspokelikeamadman。Youmayhardlyunderstandit——hedidindeed。’
  `Idounderstandit,Laura。Heismad——madwiththeterrorsofaguiltyconscience。EverywordyouhavesaidmakesmepositivelycertainthatwhenAnneCatherickleftyouyesterdayyouwereontheeveofdiscoveringasecretwhichmighthavebeenyourvilehusband’sruin,andhethinksyouhavediscoveredit。Nothingyoucansayordowillquietthatguiltydistrust,andconvincehisfalsenatureofyourtruth。Idon’tsaythis,mylove,toalarmyou。Isayittoopenyoureyestoyourposition,andtoconvinceyouoftheurgentnecessityoflettingmeact,asIbestcan,foryourprotectionwhilethechanceisourown。CountFosco’sinterferencehassecuredmeaccesstoyoutoday,buthemaywithdrawthatinterferencetomorrow。SirPercivalhasalreadydismissedFannybecausesheisaquick-wittedgirl,anddevotedlyattachedtoyou,andhaschosenawomantotakeherplacewhocaresnothingforyourinterests,andwhosedullintelligencelowershertothelevelofthewatch-dogintheyard。Itisimpossibletosaywhatviolentmeasureshemaytakenext,unlesswemakethemostofouropportunitieswhilewehavethem。’
  `Whatcanwedo,Marian?Oh,ifwecouldonlyleavethishouse,nevertoseeitagain!’
  `Listentome,mylove,andtrytothinkthatyouarenotquitehelplesssolongasIamherewithyou。’
  `Iwillthinkso——Idothinkso。Don’taltogetherforgetpoorFannyinthinkingofme。Shewantshelpandcomforttoo。’
  `Iwillnotforgether。IsawherbeforeIcameuphere,andIhavearrangedtocommunicatewithhertonight。Lettersarenotsafeinthepost-bagatBlackwaterPark,andIshallhavetwotowritetoday,inyourinterests,whichmustpassthroughnohandsbutFanny’s。’
  `Whatletters?’
  `Imeantowritefirst,Laura,toMrGilmore’spartner,whohasofferedtohelpusinanyfreshemergency。LittleasIknowofthelaw,Iamcertainthatitcanprotectawomanfromsuchtreatmentasthatruffianhasinflictedonyoutoday。IwillgointonodetailsaboutAnneCatherick,becauseIhavenocertaininformationtogive。Butthelawyershallknowofthosebruisesonyourarm,andoftheviolenceofferedtoyouinthisroom——heshall,beforeIresttonight!’
  `Butthinkoftheexposure,Marian!’
  `Iamcalculatingontheexposure。SirPercivalhasmoretodreadfromitthanyouhave。Theprospectofanexposuremaybringhimtotermswhennothingelsewill。’
  IroseasIspoke,butLauraentreatedmenottoleaveher。`Youwilldrivehimtodesperation,`shesaid,`andincreaseourdangerstenfold。’
  Ifeltthetruth——thedishearteningtruth——ofthosewords。ButIcouldnotbringmyselfplainlytoacknowledgeittoher。Inourdreadfulpositiontherewasnohelpandnohopeforusbutinriskingtheworst。Isaidsoinguardedterms。Shesighedbitterly,butdidnotcontestthematter。SheonlyaskedaboutthesecondletterthatIhadproposedwriting。Towhomwasittobeaddressed?
  `ToMrFairlie,’Isaid。`Youruncleisyournearestmalerelative,andtheheadofthefamily。Hemustandshallinterfere。’
  Laurashookherheadsorrowfully。
  `Yes,yes,’Iwenton,`youruncleisaweak,selfish,worldlyman,Iknow,butheisnotSirPercivalGlyde,andhehasnosuchfriendabouthimasCountFosco。Iexpectnothingfromhiskindnessorhistendernessoffeelingtowardsyouortowardsme,buthewilldoanythingtopamperhisownindolence,andtosecurehisownquiet。Letmeonlypersuadehimthathisinterferenceatthismomentwillsavehiminevitabletroubleandwretchednessandresponsibilityhereafter,andhewillbestirhimselfforhisownsake。Iknowhowtodealwithhim,Laura——Ihavehadsomepractice。’
  `IfyoucouldonlyprevailonhimtoletmegobacktoLimmeridgeforalittlewhileandstaytherequietlywithyou,Marian,IcouldbealmostashappyagainasIwasbeforeIwasmarried!’
  Thosewordssetmethinkinginanewdirection。WoulditbepossibletoplaceSirPercivalbetweenthetwoalternativesofeitherexposinghimselftothescandaloflegalinterferenceonhiswife’sbehalf,orofallowinghertobequietlyseparatedfromhimforatimeunderpretextofavisittoheruncle’shouse?Andcouldhe,inthatcase,bereckonedonaslikelytoacceptthelastresource?Itwasdoubtful——morethandoubtful。Andyet,hopelessastheexperimentseemed,surelyitwasworthtrying。Iresolvedtotryitinsheerdespairofknowingwhatbettertodo。
  `Youruncleshallknowthewishyouhavejustexpressed,’Isaid,`andIwillaskthelawyer’sadviceonthesubjectaswell。Goodmaycomeofit——andwillcomeofit,Ihope。’
  SayingthatIroseagain,andagainLauratriedtomakemeresumemyseat。
  `Don’tleaveme,’shesaiduneasily。`Mydeskisonthattable。Youcanwritehere。’
  Ittriedmetothequicktorefuseher,eveninherowninterests。Butwehadbeentoolongshutupalonetogetheralready。Ourchanceofseeingeachotheragainmightentirelydependonournotexcitinganyfreshsuspicions。Itwasfulltimetoshowmyself,quietlyandunconcernedly,amongthewretcheswhowereatthatverymoment,perhaps,thinkingofusandtalkingofusdownstairs。IexplainedthemiserablenecessitytoLaura,andprevailedonhertorecogniseitasIdid。
  `lwillcomebackagain,love,inanhourorless,’Isaid。`Theworstisoverfortoday。Keepyourselfquietandfearnothing。’
  `Isthekeyinthedoor,Marian?CanIlockitontheinside?’
  `Yes,hereisthekey。Lockthedoor,andopenittonobodyuntilIcomeupstairsagain。’
  Ikissedherandlefther。ItwasarelieftomeasIwalkedawaytohearthekeyturnedinthelock,andtoknowthatthedoorwasatherowncommand。
  June19th——IhadonlygotasfarasthetopofthestairswhenthelockingofLaura’sdoorsuggestedtometheprecautionofalsolockingmyowndoor,andkeepingthekeysafelyaboutmewhileIwasoutoftheroom。Myjournalwasalreadysecuredwithotherpapersinthetabledrawer,butmywritingmaterialswereleftout。Theseincludedaseal,bearingthecommondeviceoftwodovesdrinkingoutofthesamecup,andsomesheetsofblotting-paper,whichhadtheimpressiononthemoftheclosinglinesofmywritinginthesepagestracedduringthepastnight。Distortedbythesuspicionwhichhadnowbecomeapartofmyself,evensuchtriflesastheselookedtoodangeroustobetrustedwithoutaguard——eventhelockedtabledrawerseemedtobenotsufficientlyprotectedinmyabsenceuntilthemeansofaccesstoithadbeencarefullysecuredaswell。
  IfoundnoappearanceofanyonehavingenteredtheroomwhileIhadbeentalkingwithLaura。MywritingmaterialswhichIhadgiventheservantinstructionsnevertomeddlewithwerescatteredoverthetablemuchasusual。TheonlycircumstanceinconnectionwiththemthatatallstruckmewasthattheseallaytidilyinthetraywiththePencilsandthewax。Itwasnotinmycarelesshabitslamsorrytosaytoputitthere,neitherdidIrememberputtingitthere。ButasIcouldnotcalltomind,ontheotherhand,whereelseIhadthrownitdown,andasIwasalsodoubtfulwhetherImightnotforoncehavelaiditmechanicallyintherightplace,Iabstainedfromaddingtotheperplexitywithwhichtheday’seventshadfilledmymindbytroublingitafreshaboutatrifle。Ilockedthedoor,putthekeyinmyPocket,andwentdownstairs。
  MadameFoscowasaloneinthehalllookingattheweatherglass。
  `Stillfalling,’shesaid。`Iamafraidwemustexpectmorerain。’
  Herfacewascomposedagaintoitscustomaryexpressionanditscustomarycolour。Butthehandwithwhichshepointedtothedialoftheweather-glassstilltrembled。
  CouldshehavetoldherhusbandalreadythatshehadoverheardLaurarevilinghim,inmycompany,asa`spy?’Mystrongsuspicionthatshemusthavetoldhim,myirresistibledreadallthemoreoverpoweringfromitsveryvaguenessoftheconsequenceswhichmightfollow,myfixedconviction,derivedfromvariouslittleself-betrayalswhichwomennoticeineachother,thatMadameFosco,inspiteofherwell-assumedexternalcivility,hadnotforgivenhernieceforinnocentlystandingbetweenherandthelegacyoftenthousandpounds——allrusheduponmymindtogether,allimpelledmetospeakinthevainhopeofusingmyowninfluenceandmyownpowersofpersuasionfortheatonementofLaura’soffence。
  `MayItrusttoyourkindnesstoexcuseme,MadameFosco,ifIventuretospeaktoyouonanexceedinglypainfulsubject?’
  Shecrossedherhandsinfrontofherandbowedherheadsolemnly,withoututteringaword,andwithouttakinghereyesoffmineforamoment。
  `Whenyouweresogoodastobringmebackmyhandkerchief,’Iwenton,`lamvery,verymuchafraidyoumusthaveaccidentallyheardLaurasaysomethingwhichIamunwillingtorepeat,andwhichIwillnotattempttodefend。IwillonlyventuretohopethatyouhavenotthoughtitofsufficientimportancetobementionedtotheCount?’
  `Ithinkitofnoimportancewhatever,’saidMadameFoscosharplyandsuddenly。`But,’sheadded,resuminghericymannerinamoment,`Ihavenosecretsfrommyhusbandevenintrifles。WhenhenoticedjustnowthatIlookeddistressed,itwasmypainfuldutytotellhimwhyIwasdistressed,andIfranklyacknowledgetoyou,MissHalcombe,thatIhavetoldhim。’
  Iwaspreparedtohearit,andyetsheturnedmecoldalloverwhenshesaidthosewords。
  `Letmeearnestlyentreatyou,MadameFosco——letmeearnestlyentreattheCount——tomakesomeallowancesforthesadpositioninwhichmysisterisplaced。Shespokewhileshewassmartingundertheinsultandinjusticeinflictedonherbyherhusband,andshewasnotherselfwhenshesaidthoserashwords。MayIhopethattheywillbeconsideratelyandgenerouslyforgiven?’
  `Mostassuredly,’saidtheCount’squietvoicebehindme。Hehadstolenonuswithhisnoiselesstreadandhisbookinhishandfromthelibrary。
  `WhenLadyGlydesaidthosehastywords,’hewenton,`shedidmeaninjusticewhichIlament——andforgive。Letusneverreturntothesubject,MissHalcombe;letusallcomfortablycombinetoforgetitfromthismoment’
  `Youareverykind,’Isaid,`yourelievemeinexpressibly。~’’
  Itriedtocontinue,buthiseyeswereonme;hisdeadlysmilethathideseverythingwasset,hard,andunwaveringonhisbroad,smoothface。Mydistrustofhisunfathomablefalseness,mysenseofmyowndegradationinstoopingtoconciliatehiswifeandhimself,sodisturbedandconfusedme,thatthenextwordsfailedonmylips,andIstoodthereinsilence。
  `Ibegyouonmykneestosaynomore,MissHalcombe——Iamtrulyshockedthatyoushouldhavethoughtitnecessarytosaysomuch。’Withthatpolitespeechhetookmyhand——oh,howIdespisemyself!oh,howlittlecomfortthereiseveninknowingthatIsubmittedtoitforLaura’ssake!——hetookmyhandandputittohispoisonouslips。NeverdidIknowallmyhorrorofhimtillthen。Thatinnocentfamiliarityturnedmybloodasifithadbeenthevilestinsultthatamancouldofferme。YetIhidmydisgustfromhim——Itriedtosmile——I,whooncemercilesslydespiseddeceitinotherwomen,wasasfalseastheworstofthem,asfalseastheJudaswhoselipshadtouchedmyhand。
  Icouldnothavemaintainedmydegradingself-control——itisallthatredeemsmeinmyownestimationtoknowthatIcouldnot——ifhehadstillcontinuedtokeephiseyesonmyface。Hiswife’stigerishjealousycametomyrescueandforcedhisattentionawayfrommethemomenthepossessedhimselfofmyhand。Hercoldblueeyescaughtlight,herdullwhitecheeksflushedintobrightcolour,shelookedyearsyoungerthanherageinaninstant。
  `Count!’shesaid。`YourforeignformsofpolitenessarenotunderstoodbyEnglishwomen。’
  `Pardonme,myangel!ThebestanddearestEnglishwomanintheworldunderstandsthem。’Withthosewordshedroppedmyhandandquietlyraisedhiswife’shandtohislipsinplaceofit。
  Iranbackupthestairstotakerefugeinmyownroom。Iftherehadbeentimetothink,mythoughts,whenIwasaloneagain,wouldhavecausedmebittersuffering。Buttherewasnotimetothink。Happilyforthepreservationofmycalmnessandmycouragetherewastimefornothingbutaction。
  TheletterstothelawyerandtoMrFairliewerestilltobewritten,andIsatdownatoncewithoutamoment’shesitationtodevotemyselftothem。
  Therewasnomultitudeofresourcestoperplexme——therewasabsolutelynoonetodependon,inthefirstinstance,butmyself。SirPercivalhadneitherfriendsnorrelativesintheneighbourhoodwhoseintercessionIcouldattempttoemploy。Hewasonthecoldestterms——insomecasesontheworsttermswiththefamiliesofhisownrankandstationwholivednearhim。Wetwowomenhadneitherfathernorbrothertocometothehouseandtakeourparts。Therewasnochoicebuttowritethosetwodoubtfulletters,ortoputLaurainthewrongandmyselfinthewrong,andtomakeallpeaceablenegotiationinthefutureimpossiblebysecretlyescapingfromBlackwaterPark。Nothingbutthemostimminentpersonalperilcouldjustifyourtakingthatsecondcourse。Thelettersmustbetriedfirst,andIwrotethem。
  IsaidnothingtothelawyeraboutAnneCatherick,becauseasIhadalreadyhintedtoLaurathattopicwasconnectedwithamysterywhichwecouldnotyetexplain,andwhichitwouldthereforebeuselesstowriteabouttoaprofessionalman。IleftmycorrespondenttoattributeSirPercival’sdisgracefulconduct,ifhepleased,tofreshdisputesaboutmoneymatters,andsunplyconsultedhimonthepossibilityoftakinglegalproceedingsforLaura’sprotectionintheeventofherhusband’srefusaltoallowhertoleaveBlackwaterParkforatimeandreturnwithmetoLimmeridge。IreferredhimtoMrFairlieforthedetailsofthislastarrangement——IassuredhimthatIwrotewithLaura’sauthority——andIendedbyentreatinghimtoactinhernametotheutmostextentofhispowerandwiththeleastpossiblelossoftime。
  ThelettertoMrFairlieoccupiedmenext。IappealedtohimonthetermswhichIhadmentionedtoLauraasthemostlikelytomakehimbestirhimself;Ienclosedacopyofmylettertothelawyertoshowhimhowseriousthecasewas,andIrepresentedourremovaltoLimmeridgeastheonlycompromisewhichwouldpreventthedangeranddistressofLaura’spresentpositionfrominevitablyaffectingheruncleaswellasherselfatnoverydistanttime。
  WhenIhaddone,andhadsealedanddirectedthetwoenvelopes,IwentbackwiththeletterstoLaura’sroom,toshowherthattheywerewritten。
  `Hasanybodydisturbedyou?’Iasked,whensheopenedthedoortome。
  `Nobodyhasknocked,’shereplied。`ButIheardsomeoneintheouterroom。’
  `Wasitamanorawoman?’
  `Awoman。Iheardtherustlingofhergown。’
  `Arustlinglikesilk?’
  `Yes,likesilk。’
  MadameFoscohadevidentlybeenwatchingoutside。Themischiefshemightdobyherselfwaslittletobefeared。Butthemischiefshemightdo,asawillinginstrumentinherhusband’shands,wastooformidabletobeoverlooked。
  `Whatbecameoftherustlingofthegownwhenyounolongerhearditintheante-room?’Iinquired。`Didyouhearitgopastyourwall,alongthepassage?’
  `Yes。Ikeptstillandlistened,andjustheardit。’
  `Whichwaydiditgo?’
  `Towardsyourroom。’
  Iconsideredagain。Thesoundhadnotcaughtmyears。ButIwasthendeeplyabsorbedinmyletters,andIwritewithaheavyhandandaquillpen,scrapingandscratchingnoisilyoverthepaper。ItwasmorelikelythatMadameFoscowouldhearthescrapingofmypenthanthatIshouldheartherustlingofherdress。AnotherreasonifIhadwantedonefornottrustingmyletterstothepost-baginthehall。
  Laurasawmethinking。`Moredifficulties!’shesaidwearily;`moredifficultiesandmoredangers!’
  `Nodangers,’Ireplied。`Somelittledifficulty,perhaps。IamthinkingofthesafestwayofputtingmytwolettersintoFanny’shands。’
  `Youhavereallywrittenthem,then?Oh,Marian,runnorisks——pray,pray,runnorisks!’
  `No,no——nofear。Letmesee——whato’clockisitnow?’
  Itwasaquartertosix。Therewouldbetimeformetogettothevillageinn,andtocomebackagainbeforedinner。IfIwaitedtilltheeveningImightfindnosecondopportunityofsafelyleavingthehouse。
  `Keepthekeyturnedinthelock,Laura,’Isaid,`anddon’tbeafraidaboutme。Ifyouhearanyinquiriesmade,callthroughthedoor,andsaythatIamgoneoutforawalk。’
  `Whenshallyoubeback?’
  `Beforedinner,withoutfail。Courage,mylove。Bythistimetomorrowyouwillhaveaclear-headed,trustworthymanactingforyourgood。MrGilmore’spartnerisournextbestfriendtoMrGilmorehimself。’
  Amoment’sreflection,assoonasIwasalone,convincedmethatIhadbetternotappearinmywalking-dressuntilIhadfirstdiscoveredwhatwasgoingoninthelowerpartofthehouse。IhadnotascertainedyetwhetherSirPercivalwasindoorsorout。
  Thesingingofthecanariesinthelibrary,andthesmelloftobacco-smokethatcamethroughthedoor,whichwasnotclosed,toldmeatoncewheretheCountwas。IlookedovermyshoulderasIpassedthedoorway,andsawtomysurprisethathewasexhibitingthedocilityofthebirdsinhismostengaginglypolitemannertothehousekeeper。Hemusthavespeciallyinvitedhertoseethem——forshewouldneverhavethoughtofgoingintothelibraryofherownaccord。Theman’sslightestactionshadapurposeofsomekindatthebottomofeveryoneofthem。Whatcouldbehispurposehere?
  Itwasnotimethentoinquireintohismotives。IlookedaboutforMadameFosconext,andfoundherfollowingherfavouritecircleroundandroundthefish-pond。
  Iwasalittledoubtfulhowshewouldmeetme,aftertheoutbreakofjealousyofwhichIhadbeenthecausesoshortatimesince。Butherhusbandhadtamedherintheinterval,andshenowspoketomewiththesamecivilityasusual。MyonlyobjectinaddressingmyselftoherwastoascertainifsheknewwhathadbecomeofSirPercival。Icontrivedtorefertohimindirectly,andafteralittlefencingoneithersidesheatlastmentionedthathehadgoneout。
  `Whichofthehorseshashetaken?’Iaskedcarelessly。
  `Noneofthem,’shereplied。`Hewentawaytwohourssinceonfoot。AsIunderstoodit,hisobjectwastomakefreshinquiriesaboutthewomannamedAnneCatherick。Heappearstobeunreasonablyanxiousabouttracingher。Doyouhappentoknowifsheisdangerouslymad,MissHalcombe?’
  `Idonot,Countess。’
  `Areyougoingin?’
  `Yes,Ithinkso。Isupposeitwillsoonbetimetodressfordinner。’
  Weenteredthehousetogether。MadameFoscostrolledintothelibrary,anddosedthedoor。Iwentatoncetofetchmyhatandshawl。Everymomentwasofimportance,ifIwastogettoFannyattheinnandhebackbeforedinner。
  WhenIcrossedthehallagainnoonewasthere,andthesingingofthebirdsinthelibraryhadceased。Icouldnotstoptomakeanyfreshinvestigations。Icouldonlyassuremyselfthatthewaywasclear,andthenleavethehousewiththetwoletterssafeinmypocket。
  OnmywaytothevillageIpreparedmyselfforthepossibilityofmeetingSirPercival。AslongasIhadhimtodealwithaloneIfeltcertainofnotlosingmypresenceofmind。Anywomanwhoissureofherownwitsisamatchatanytimeforamanwhoisnotsureofhisowntemper。IhadnosuchfearofSirPercivalasIhadoftheCount。Insteadoffluttering,ithadcomposedme,tohearoftheerrandonwhichhehadgoneout。WhilethetracingofAnneCatherickwasthegreatanxietythatoccupiedhim,LauraandImighthopeforsomecessationofanyactivepersecutionathishands。Foroursakesnow,aswellasforAnne’s,Ihopedandprayedferventlythatshemightstillescapehim。
  IwalkedonasbrisklyastheheatwouldletmetillIreachedthecross-roadwhichledtothevillage,lookingbackfromtimetotimetomakesurethatIwasnotfollowedbyanyone。
  Nothingwasbehindmeallthewaybutanemptycountrywaggon。Thenoisemadebythelumberingwheelsannoyedme,andwhenIfoundthatthewaggontooktheroadtothevillage,aswellasmyself,Istoppedtoletitgobyandpassoutofhearing。AsIlookedtowardit,moreattentivelythanbefore,Ithoughtldetectedatintervalsthefeetofamanwalkingclosebehindit,thecarterbeinginfront,bythesideofhishorses。Thepartofthecross-roadwhichIhadjustpassedoverwassonarrowthatthewaggoncomingaftermebrushedthetreesandthicketsoneitherside,andIhadtowaituntilitwentbybeforeIcouldtestthecorrectnessofmyimpression。Apparentlythatimpressionwaswrong,forwhenthewaggonhadpassedmetheroadbehinditwasquiteclear。
  IreachedtheinnwithoutmeetingSirPercival,andwithoutnoticinganythingmore,andwasgladtofindthatthelandladyhadreceivedFannywithallpossiblekindness。Thegirlhadalittleparlourtositin,awayfromthenoiseofthetaproom,andacleanbedchamberatthetopofthehouse。Shebegancryingagainatthesightofme,andsaid,poorsoul,trulyenough,thatitwasdreadfultofeelherselfturnedoutintotheworldasifshehadcommittedsomeunpardonablefault,whennoblamecouldbelaidatherdoorbyanybody——notevenbyhermaster,whohadsentheraway。
  `Trytomakethebestofit,Fanny,’Isaid。`YourmistressandIwillstandyourfriends,andwilltakecarethatyourcharactershallnotsuffer。Now,listentome。Ihaveverylittletimetospare,andIamgoingtoputagreattrustinyourhands。Iwishyoutotakecareofthesetwoletters。TheonewiththestamponityouaretoputintothepostwhenyoureachLondontomorrow。Theother,directedtoMrFairlie,youaretodelivertohimyourselfassoonasyougethome。Keepboththelettersaboutyouandgivethemuptonoone。Theyareofthelastimportancetoyourmistress’sinterests。’
  Fannyputthelettersintothebosomofherdress。`Theretheyshallstop,miss,’shesaid,`tillIhavedonewhatyoutellme。’
  `Mindyouareatthestationingoodtimetomorrowmorning,’Icontinued。`AndwhenyouseethehousekeeperatLimmeridgegivehermycompliments,andsaythatyouareinmyserviceuntilLadyGlydeisabletotakeyouback。Wemaymeetagainsoonerthanyouthink。Sokeepagoodheart,anddon’tmisstheseveno’clocktrain。’
  `Thankyou,miss——thankyoukindly。Itgivesonecouragetohearyourvoiceagain。Pleasetooffermydutytomylady,andsayIleftallthethingsastidyasIcouldinthetime。Oh,dear!dear!whowilldressherfordinnertoday?Itreallybreaksmyheart,miss,tothinkofit。’
  WhenIgotbacktothehouseIhadonlyaquarterofanhourtosparetoputmyselfinorderfordinner,andtosaytwowordstoLaurabeforeIwentdownstairs。
  `ThelettersareinFanny’shands,’Iwhisperedtoheratthedoor。`Doyoumeantojoinusatdinner?’
  `Oh,no,no——notfortheworld。’
  `Hasanythinghappened?Hasanyonedisturbedyou?’
  `Yes——justnow——SirPercival——’
  `Didhecomein?’
  `No,hefrightenedmebyathumponthedooroutside。Isaid,``Who’sthere?’’``Youknow,’’heanswered。``Willyoualteryourmind,andtellmetherest?Youshall!SoonerorlaterI’llwringitoutofyou。YouknowwhereAnneCatherickisatthismoment。’’``Indeed,indeed,’’Isaid,``Idon’t。’’``Youdo!’’hecalledback。``I’llcrushyourobstinacy——mindthat!——I’llwringitoutofyou!’’Hewentawaywiththosewords——wentaway,Marian,hardlyfiveminutesago。’hadnotfoundheryet。
  `Youaregoingdownstairs,Marian?Comeupagainintheevening。’
  `Yes,yes。Don’tbeuneasyifIamalittlelate——Imustbecarefulnottogiveoffencebyleavingthemtoosoon。’
  Thedinner-bellrangandIhastenedaway。
  SirPercivaltookMadameFoscointothedining-room,andtheCountgavemehisann。Hewashotandflushed,andwasnotdressedwithhiscustomarycareandcompleteness。Hadhe,too,beenoutbeforedinner,andbeenlateingettingback?orwasheonlysufferingfromtheheatalittlemoreseverelythanusual?
  Howeverthismightbe,hewasunquestionablytroubledbysomesecretannoyanceoranxiety,which,withallhispowersofdeception,hewasnotableentirelytoconceal。ThroughthewholeofdinnerhewasalmostassilentasSirPercivalhimself,andhe,everynowandthen,lookedathiswifewithanexpressionoffurtiveuneasinesswhichwasquitenewinmyexperienceofhim。Theonesocialobligationwhichheseemedtobeself-possessedenoughtoperformascarefullyaseverwastheobligationofbeingpersistentlycivilandattentivetome。WhatvileobjecthehasinviewIcannotstilldiscover,butbethedesignwhatitmay,invariablepolitenesstowardsmyself,invariablehumilitytowardsLaura,andinvariablesuppressionatanycostofSirPercival’sclumsyviolence,havebeenthemeanshehasresolutelyandimpenetrablyusedtogettohisendeversincehesetfootinthishouse。Isuspecteditwhenhefirstinterferedinourfavour,onthedaywhenthedeedwasproducedinthelibrary,andIfeelcertainofitnow。
  WhenMadameFoscoandIrosetoleavethetable,theCountrosealsotoaccompanyusbacktothedrawing-room。
  `Whatareyougoingawayfor?’askedSirPercival——`Imeanyou,Fosco。’
  `IamgoingawaybecauseIhavehaddinnerenough,andwineenough,’answeredtheCount。`Besokind,Percival,astomakeallowancesformyforeignhabitofgoingoutwiththeladies,aswellascominginwiththem。’
  `Nonsense!Anotherglassofclaretwon’thurtyou。SitdownagainlikeanEnglishman。Iwanthalfanhour’squiettalkwithyouoverourwine。’
  `Aquiettalk,Percival,withallmyheart,butnotnow,andnotoverthewine。Laterintheevening,ifyouplease——laterintheevening。’
  `Civil!’saidSirPercivalsavagely。`Civilbehaviour,uponmysoul,toamaninhisownhouse!’
  IhadmorethanonceseenhimlookattheCountuneasilyduringdinner-time,andhadobservedthattheCountcarefullyabstainedfromlookingathiminreturn。Thiscircumstance,coupledwiththehost’sanxietyforalittlequiettalkoverthewine,andtheguest’sobstinateresolutionnottositdownagainatthetable,revivedinmymemorytherequestwhichSirPercivalhadvainlyaddressedtohisfriendearlierintheday,tocomeoutofthelibraryandspeaktohim。TheCounthaddeferredgrantingthatprivateinterview,whenitwasfirstaskedforintheafternoon,andhadagaindeferredgrantingit,whenitwasasecondtimeaskedforatthedinner-table。Whateverthecomingsubjectofdiscussionbetweenthemmightbe,itwasclearlyanimportantsubjectinSirPercival’sestimation——andperhapsjudgingfromhisevidentreluctancetoapproachitadangeroussubjectaswell,intheestimationoftheCount。
  Theseconsiderationsoccurredtomewhilewewerepassingfromthedining-roomtothedrawing-room。SirPercival’sangrycommentaryonhisfriend’sdesertionofhimhadnotproducedtheslightesteffect。TheCountobstinatelyaccompaniedustothetea-table——waitedaminuteortwointheroom——wentoutintothehall——andreturnedwiththepost-baginhishands。Itwastheneighto’clock——thehouratwhichtheletterswerealwaysdespatchedfromBlackwaterPark。
  `Haveyouanyletterforthepost,MissHalcombe?’heasked,approachingmewiththebag。
  IsawMadameFosco,whowasmakingthetea,pause,withthesugar-tongsinherhand,tolistenformyanswer。
  `No,Count,thankyou。Noletterstoday。’
  Hegavethebagtotheservant,whowasthenintheroom;satdownatthepiano,andplayedtheairofthelivelyNeapolitanstreet-song,`LamiaCarolina,’twiceover。Hiswife,whowasusuallythemostdeliberateofwomeninallhermovements,madeteaasquicklyasIcouldhavemadeitmyself——finishedherowncupintwominutes,andquietlyglidedoutoftheroom。
  Irosetofollowherexample——partlybecauseIsuspectedherofattemptingsometreacheryupstairswithLaura,partlybecauseIwasresolvednottoremainaloneinthesameroomwithherhusband。
  BeforeIcouldgettothedoortheCountstoppedme,byarequestforacupoftea。Igavehimthecupoftea,andtriedasecondtimetogetaway。Hestoppedmeagain——thistimebygoingbacktothepiano,andsuddenlyappealingtomeonamusicalquestioninwhichhedeclaredthatthehonourofhiscountrywasconcerned。
  Ivainlypleadedmyowntotalignoranceofmusic,andtotalwantoftasteinthatdirection。Heonlyappealedtomeagainwithavehemencewhichsetallfurtherprotestonmypartatdefiance。`TheEnglishandtheGermansheindignantlydeclaredwerealwaysrevilingtheItaliansfortheirinabilitytocultivatethehigherkindsofmusic。WewereperpetuallytalkingofourOratorios,andtheywereperpetuallytalkingoftheirSymphonies。Didweforgetanddidtheyforgethisimmortalfriendandcountryman,Rossini?WhatwasMosesinEgyptbutasublimeoratorio,whichwasactedonthestageinsteadofbeingcoldlysunginaconcert-room?WhatwastheoverturetoGuillaumeTellbutasymphonyunderanothername?HadIheardMosesinEgypt?WouldIlistentothis,andthis,andthis,andsayifanythingmoresublimelysacredandgrandhadeverbeencomposedbymortalman?’——Andwithoutwaitingforawordofassentordissentonmypart,lookingmehardinthefaceallthetime,hebeganthunderingonthepiano,andsingingtoitwithloudandloftyenthusiasm——onlyinterruptinghimself,atintervals,toannouncetomefiercelythetitlesofthedifferentpiecesofmusic:`ChorusofEgyptiansinthePlagueofDarkness,MissHalcombe!’——`RecitativoofMoseswiththetablesoftheLaw。’——`PrayerofIsraelites,atthepassageoftheRedSea。Aha!Aha!Isthatsacred?isthatsublime?’Thepianotrembledunderhispowerfulhands,andtheteacupsonthetablerattled,ashisbigbassvoicethunderedoutthenotes,andhisheavyfootbeattimeonthefloor。
  Therewassomethinghorrible——somethingfierceanddevilish——intheoutburstofhisdelightathisownsingingandplaying,andinthetriumphwithwhichhewatcheditseffectuponmeasIshranknearerandnearertothedoor。Iwasreleasedatlast,notbymyownefforts,butbySirPercival’sinterposition。Heopenedthedining-roomdoor,andcalledoutangrilytoknowwhat`thatinfernalnoise’meant。TheCountinstantlygotupfromthepiano。`AhIifPercivaliscoming,’hesaid,`harmonyandmelodyarebothatanend。TheMuseofMusic,MissHalcombe,desertsusindismay,andI,thefatoldminstrel,exhaletherestofmyenthusiasmintheopenair!’Hestalkedoutintotheverandah,puthishandsinhispockets,andresumedtheRecitativoofMoses,sottovoce,inthegarden。
  IheardSirPercivalcallafterhimfromthedining-roomwindow。Buthetooknonotice——heseemeddeterminednottohear。Thatlong-deferredquiettalkbetweenthemwasstilltobeputoff,wasstilltowaitfortheCount’sabsolutewillandpleasure。
  Hehaddetainedmeinthedrawing-roomnearlyhalfanhourfromthetimewhenhiswifeleftus。Wherehadshebeen,andwhathadshebeendoinginthatinterval?
  Iwentupstairstoascertain,butImadenodiscoveries,andwhenIquestionedLaura,Ifoundthatshehadnotheardanything。Nobodyhaddisturbedher,nofaintrustlingofthesilkdresshadbeenaudible,eitherintheante-roomorinthepassage。
  Itwasthentwentyminutestonine。Aftergoingtomyroomtogetmyjournal,Ireturned,andsatwithLaura,sometimeswriting,sometimesstoppingtotalkwithher。Nobodycamenearus,andnothinghappened。Weremainedtogethertillteno’clock。Ithenrose,saidmylastcheeringwords,andwishedhergoodnight。ShelockedherdooragainafterwehadarrangedthatIshouldcomeinandseeherthefirstthinginthemorning。
  Ihadafewsentencesmoretoaddtomydiarybeforegoingtobedmyself,andasIwentdownagaintothedrawing-roomafterleavingLauraforthelasttimethatwearyday,Iresolvedmerelytoshowmyselfthere,tomakemyexcuses,andthentoretireanhourearlierthanusualforthenight。
  SirPercival,andtheCountandhiswife,weresittingtogether。SirPercivalwasyawninginaneasy-chair,theCountwasreading,MadameFoscowasfanningherself。Strangetosay,herfacewasflushednow。She。whohadneversufferedfromtheheat,wasmostundoubtedlysufferingfromittonight。
  `Iamafraid,Countess,youarenotquitesowellasusual?’Isaid。
  `TheveryremarkIwasabouttomaketoyou,’shereplied。`Youarelookingpale,mydear。’
  Mydear!Itwasthefirsttimeshehadeveraddressedmewiththatfamiliarity!Therewasaninsolentsmiletooonherfacewhenshesaidthewords。
  `Iamsufferingfromoneofmybadheadaches,’Iansweredcoldly。
  `Ah,indeed?Wantofexercise,Isuppose?Awalkbeforedinnerwouldhavebeenjustthethingforyou。’Shereferredtothe`walk’withastrangeemphasis。Hadsheseenmegoout?Nomatterifshehad。ThelettersweresafenowinFanny’shands。
  `Comeandhaveasmoke,Fosco,’saidSirPercival,rising,withanotheruneasylookathisfriend。
  `Withpleasure,Percival,whentheladieshavegonetobed,’repliedtheCount。
  `Excuseme,Countess,ifIsetyoutheexampleofretiring,’Isaid。`Theonlyremedyforsuchaheadacheasmineisgoingtobed。’
  Itookmyleave。Therewasthesameinsolentsmileonthewoman’sfacewhenIshookhandswithher。SirPercivalpaidnoattentiontome。HewaslookingimpatientlyatMadameFosco,whoshowednosignsofleavingtheroomwithme。TheCountsmiledtohimselfbehindhisbook。TherewasyetanotherdelaytothatquiettalkwithSirPercival——andtheCountesswastheimpedimentthistime。
  June19th——Oncesafelyshutintomyownroom,Iopenedthesepages,andpreparedtogoonwiththatpartoftheday’srecordwhichwasstilllefttowrite。
  FortenminutesormoreIsatidle,withthepeninmyhand,thinkingovertheeventsofthelasttwelvehours。WhenIatlastaddressedmyselftomytask,IfoundadifficultyinproceedingwithitwhichIhadneverexperiencedbefore。Inspiteofmyeffortstofixmythoughtsonthematterinhand,theywanderedawaywiththestrangestpersistencyintheonedirectionofSirPercivalandtheCount,andalltheinterestwhichItriedtoconcentrateonmyjournalcentredinsteadinthatprivateinterviewbetweenthemwhichhadbeenputoffallthroughtheday,andwhichwasnowtotakeplaceinthesilenceandsolitudeofthenight。
  Inthisperversestateofmymind,therecollectionofwhathadpassedsincethemorningwouldnotcomebacktome,andtherewasnoresourcebuttoclosemyjournalandtogetawayfromitforalittlewhile。
  Iopenedthedoorwhichledfrommybedroomintomysitting-room,andhavingpassedthrough,pulledittoagain,topreventanyaccidentincaseofdraughtwiththecandleleftonthedressing-table。Mysitting-roomwindowwaswideopen,andIleanedoutlistlesslytolookatthenight。
  Itwasdarkandquiet。Neithermoonnorstarswerevisible。Therewasasmelllikeraininthestill,heavyair,andIputmyhandoutofthewindow。No。Therainwasonlythreatening,ithadnotcomeyet。