Notawordmorewassaid,oneitherside,aswewalkedbacktothehouse。MissHalcombehastenedimmediatelytohersister’sroom,andIwithdrewtomystudiotosetinorderallofMrFairlie’sdrawingsthatIhadnotyetmountedandrestoredbeforeIresignedthemtothecareofotherhands。ThoughtsthatIhadhithertorestrained,thoughtsthatmademypositionharderthanevertoendure,crowdedonmenowthatIwasalone。
Shewasengagedtobemarried,andherfuturehusbandwasSirPercivalGlyde。AmanoftherankofBaronet,andtheownerofpropertyinHampshire。
TherewerehundredsofbaronetsinEngland,anddozensoflandownersinHampshire。Judgingbytheordinaryrulesofevidence,Ihadnottheshadowofareason,thusfar,forconnectingSirPercivalGlydewiththesuspiciouswordsofinquirythathadbeenspokentomebythewomaninwhite。Andyet,Ididconnecthimwiththem。WasitbecausehehadnowbecomeassociatedinmymindwithMissFairlie,MissFairliebeing,inherturn,associatedwithAnneCatherick,sincethenightwhenIhaddiscoveredtheominouslikenessbetweenthem?HadtheeventsofthemorningsounnervedmealreadythatIwasatthemercyofanydelusionwhichcommonchancesandcommoncoincidencesmightsuggesttomyimagination?Impossibletosay。IcouldonlyfeelthatwhathadpassedbetweenMissHalcombeandmyself,onourwayfromthesummer-house,hadaffectedmeverystrangely。Theforebodingofsomeundiscoverabledangerlyinghidfromusallinthedarknessofthefuturewasstrongonme。ThedoubtwhetherIwasnotlinkedalreadytoachainofeventswhichevenmyapproachingdeparturefromCumberlandwouldbePowerlesstosnapasunder——thedoubtwhetherweanyofussawtheendastheendwouldreallybe——gatheredmoreandmoredarklyovermymind。Poignantasitwas,thesenseofsufferingcausedbythemiserableendofmybrief,presumptuousloveseemedtobebluntedanddeadenedbythestillstrongersenseofsomethingobscurelyimpending,somethinginvisiblythreatening,thatTimewasholdingoverourheads。
Ihadbeenengagedwiththedrawingslittlemorethanhalfanhour,whentherewasaknockatthedoor。Itopened,onmyanswering;and,tomysurprise,MissHalcombeenteredtheroom。
Hermannerwasangryandagitated。ShecaughtupachairforherselfbeforeIcouldgiveherone,andsatdowninit,closeatmyside。
`MrHartright,’shesaid,`Ihadhopedthatallpainfulsubjectsofconversationwereexhaustedbetweenus,fortodayatleast。Butitisnottobeso。Thereissomeunderhandvillainyatworktofrightenmysisteraboutherapproachingmarriage。Yousawmesendthegardenerontothehouse,withaletteraddressed,inastrangehandwriting,toMissFairlie?’
`Certainly。’
`Theletterisananonymousletter——avileattempttoinjureSirPercivalGlydeinmysister’sestimation。IthassoagitatedandalarmedherthatIhavehadthegreatestpossibledifficultyincomposingherspiritssufficientlytoallowmetoleaveherroomandcomehere。IknowthisisafamilymatteronwhichIoughtnottoconsultyou,andinwhichyoucanfeelnoconcernorinterest——’
`Ibegyourpardon,MissHalcombe。IfeelthestrongestpossibleconcernandinterestinanythingthataffectsMissFairlie’shappinessoryours。’
`Iamgladtohearyousayso。Youaretheonlypersoninthehouse,oroutofit,whocanadviseme。MrFairlie,inhisstateofhealthandwithhishorrorofdifficultiesandmysteriesofallkinds,isnottobethoughtof。Theclergymanisagood,weakman,whoknowsnothingoutoftheroutineofhisduties;andourneighboursarejustthesortofcomfortable,jog-trotacquaintanceswhomonecannotdisturbintimesoftroubleanddanger。WhatIwanttoknowisthis:oughtIatoncetotakesuchstepsasIcantodiscoverthewriteroftheletter?oroughtItowait,andapplytoMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow?Itisaquestion——perhapsaveryimportantone——ofgainingorlosingaday。Tellmewhatyouthink,MrHartright。Ifnecessityhadnotalreadyobligedmetotakeyouintomyconfidenceunderverydelicatecircumstances,evenmyhelplesssituationwould,perhaps,benoexcuseforme。ButasthingsareIcannotsurelybewrong,afterallthathaspassedbetweenus,inforgettingthatyouareafriendofonlythreemonths’standing。’
Shegavemetheletter。Itbeganabruptly,withoutanypreliminaryformofaddress,asfollows——
`Doyoubelieveindreams?Ihope,foryourownsake,thatyoudo。SeewhatScripturesaysaboutdreamsandtheirfulfilmentGenesisxl。8,xli。25;Danieliv。18-25,andtakethewarningIsendyoubeforeitistoolate。
`nightIdreamedaboutyou,MissFairlie。IdreamedthatIwasstandinginsidethecommunionrailsofachurch——Iononesideofthealtar-table,andtheclergyman,withhissurpliceandhisprayer-book,ontheother。
`Afteratimetherewalkedtowardsus,downtheaisleofthechurch,amanandawoman,comingtobemarried。Youwerethewoman。Youlookedsoprettyandinnocentinyourbeautifulwhitesilkdress,andyourlongwhitelaceveil,thatmyheartfeltforyou,andthetearscameintomyeyes。
`Theyweretearsofpity,younglady,thatheavenblesses;andinsteadoffallingfrommyeyesliketheeverydaytearsthatweallofusshed,theyturnedintotworaysoflightwhichslantednearerandnearertothemanstandingatthealtarwithyou,tilltheytouchedhisbreast。Thetworaysspranginarchesliketworainbowsbetweenmeandhim。Ilookedalongthem,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。
`Theoutsideofthemanyouweremarryingwasfairenoughtosee。Hewasneithertallnorshort——hewasalittlebelowthemiddlesize。Alight,active,high-spiritedman——aboutfive-and-fortyyearsold,tolookat。Hehadapaleface,andwasbaldovertheforehead,buthaddarkhairontherestofhishead。Hisbeardwasshavenonhischin,butwaslettogrow,ofafinerichbrown,onhischeeksandhisupperlip。Hiseyeswerebrowntoo,andverybright;hisnosestraightandhandsome,anddelicateenoughtohavedoneforawoman’s。Hishandsthesame。Hewastroubledfromtimetotimewithadryhackingcough,andwhenheputuphiswhiterighthandtohismouth,heshowedtheredscarofanoldwoundacrossthebackofit。HaveIdreamtoftherightman?Youknowbest,MissFairlie,andyoucansayifIwasdeceivedornot。Readnext,whatIsawbeneaththeoutside——Ientreatyou,read,andprofit。
`Ilookedalongthetworaysoflight,andIsawdownintohisinmostheart。Itwasblackasnight,andonitwerewritten,intheredflamingletterswhicharethehandwritingofthefallenangel,``Withoutpityandwithoutremorse。Hehasstrewnwithmiserythepathsofothers,andhewilllivetostrewwithmiserythepathofthiswomanbyhisside。’’Ireadthat,andthentheraysoflightshiftedandpointedoverhisshoulder;andthere,behindhim,stoodafiendlaughing。Andtheraysoflightshiftedoncemore,andpointedoveryourshoulder;andthere,behindyou,stoodanangelweeping。Andtheraysoflightshiftedforthethirdtime,andpointedstraightbetweenyouandthatman。Theywidenedandwidened,thrustingyoubothasunder,onefromtheother。Andtheclergymanlookedforthemarriage-serviceinvain;itwasgoneoutofthebook,andheshutuptheleaves,andputitfromhimindespair。AndIwokewithmyeyesfulloftearsandmyheartbeating——forIbelieveindreams。
`Believetoo,MissFairlie——Ibegofyou,foryourownsake,believeasIdo。JosephandDaniel,andothersintheScripture,believedindreams。Inquireintothepastlifeofthatmanwiththescaronhishand,beforeyousaythewordsthatmakeyouhismiserablewife。Idon’tgiveyouthiswarningonmyaccount,butonyours。Ihaveaninterestinyourwell-beingthatwillliveaslongasIdrawbreath。Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’
Theretheextraordinaryletterended,withoutasignatureofanysort。
Thehandwritingaffordednoprospectofaclue。Itwastracedonruledlines,inthecramped,conventionalcopy-bookcharactertechnicallytermed`mallhand。’Itwasfeebleandfaint,anddefacedbyblots,buthadotherwisenothingtodistinguishit。
`Thatisnotanilliterateletter,’saidMissHalcombe,`andatthesametime,itissurelytooincoherenttobetheletterofaneducatedpersoninthehigherranksoflife。Thereferencetothebridaldressandveil,andotherlittleexpressions,seemtopointtoitastheproductionofsomewoman。Whatdoyouthink,MrHartright?’
`Ithinksotoo。Itseemstometobenotonlytheletterofawoman,butofawomanwhosemindmustbe——’
`Deranged?’suggestedMissHalcombe。`Itstruckmeinthatlighttoo。’
Ididnotanswer。WhileIwasspeaking,myeyesrestedonthelastsentenceoftheletter:`Yourmother’sdaughterhasatenderplaceinmyheart——foryourmotherwasmyfirst,mybest,myonlyfriend。’Thosewordsandthedoubtwhichhadjustescapedmeastothesanityofthewriteroftheletter,actingtogetheronmymind,suggestedanidea,whichIwasliterallyafraidtoexpressopenly,oreventoencouragesecretly。Ibegantodoubtwhethermyownfacultieswerenotindangeroflosingtheirbalance。Itseemedalmostlikeamonomaniatobetracingbackeverythingstrangethathappened,everythingunexpectedthatwassaid,alwaystothesamehiddensourceandthesamesinisterinfluence。Iresolved,thistime,indefenceofmyowncourageandmyownsense,tocometonodecisionthatplainfactdidnotwarrant,andtoturnmybackresolutelyoneverythingthattemptedmeintheshapeofsurmise。
`Ifwehaveanychanceoftracingthepersonwhohaswrittenthis,’Isaid,returningthelettertoMissHalcombe,`therecanbenoharminseizingouropportunitythemomentitoffers。Ithinkweoughttospeaktothegardeneragainabouttheelderlywomanwhogavehimtheletter,andthentocontinueourinquiriesinthevillage。Butfirstletmeaskaquestion。YoumentionedjustnowthealternativeofconsultingMrFairlie’slegaladvisertomorrow。Istherenopossibilityofcommunicatingwithhimearlier?Whynottoday?’
`Icanonlyexplain,’repliedMissHalcombe,`byenteringintocertainparticulars,connectedwithmysister’smarriage-engagement,whichIdidnotthinkitnecessaryordesirabletomentiontoyouthismorning。OneofSirPercivalGlyde’sobjectsincominghereonMonday,istofixtheperiodofhismarriage,whichhashithertobeenleftquiteunsettled。Heisanxiousthattheeventshouldtakeplacebeforetheendoftheyear。’
`DoesMissFairlieknowofthatwish?’Iaskedeagerly。
`Shehasnosuspicionofit,andafterwhathashappened,Ishallnottaketheresponsibilityuponmyselfofenlighteningher。SirPercivalhasonlymentionedhisviewstoMrFairlie,whohastoldmehimselfthatheisreadyandanxious,asLaura’sguardian,toforwardthem。HehaswrittentoLondon,tothefamilysolicitor,MrGilmore。MrGilmorehappenstobeawayinGlasgowonbusiness,andhehasrepliedbyproposingtostopatLimmeridgeHouseonhiswaybacktotown。Hewillarrivetomorrow,andwillstaywithusafewdays,soastoallowSirPercivaltimetopleadhisowncause。Ifhesucceeds,MrGilmorewillthenreturntoLondon,takingwithhimhisinstructionsformysister’smarriage-settlement。Youunderstandnow,MrHartright,whyIspeakofwaitingtotakelegaladviceuntiltomorrow?MrGilmoreistheoldandtriedfriendoftwogenerationsofFairlies,andwecantrusthim,aswecouldtrustnooneelse。’
Themarriage-settlement!Themerehearingofthosetwowordsstungmewithajealousdespairthatwaspoisontomyhigherandbetterinstincts。Ibegantothink——itishardtoconfessthis,butImustsuppressnothingfrombeginningtoendoftheterriblestorythatInowstandcommittedtoreveal——Ibegantothink,withahatefuleagernessofhope,ofthevaguechargesagainstSirPercivalGlydewhichtheanonymouslettercontained。Whatifthosewildaccusationsrestedonafoundationoftruth?Whatiftheirtruthcouldbeprovedbeforethefatalwordsofconsentwerespoken,andthemarriage-settlementwasdrawn?Ihavetriedtothinksince,thatthefeelingwhichthenanimatedmebeganandendedinpuredevotiontoMissFairlie’sinterests,butIhaveneversucceededindeceivingmyselfintobelievingit,andImustnotnowattempttodeceiveothers。Thefeelingbeganandendedinreckless,vindictive,hopelesshatredofthemanwhowastomarryher。
`Ifwearetofindoutanything,’Isaid,speakingunderthenewinfluencewhichwasnowdirectingme,`wehadbetternotletanotherminuteslipbyusunemployed。Icanonlysuggest,oncemore,theproprietyofquestioningthegardenerasecondtime,andofinquiringinthevillageimmediatelyafterwards。’
`IthinkImaybeofhelptoyouinbothcases,’saidMissHalcombe,rising。`Letusgo,MrHartright,atonce,anddothebestwecantogether。’
Ihadthedoorinmyhandtoopenitforher——butIstopped,onasudden,toaskanimportantquestionbeforewesetforth。
`Oneoftheparagraphsoftheanonymousletter,’Isaid。`containssomesentencesofminutepersonaldescription。SirPercivalGlyde’snameisnotmentioned,Iknow——butdoesthatdescriptionatallresemblehim?’
`Accurately——eveninstatinghisagetobeforty-five——’
Forty-five;andshewasnotyettwenty-one!Menofhisagemarriedwivesofherageeveryday——andexperiencehadshownthosemarriagestobeoftenthehappiestones。Iknewthat——andyeteventhementionofhisage,whenIcontrasteditwithhers,addedtomyblindhatredanddistrustofhim。
`Accurately,’MissHalcombecontinued,`eventothescaronhisrighthand,whichisthescarofawoundthathereceivedyearssincewhenhewastravellinginItaly。Therecanbenodoubtthateverypeculiarityofhispersonalappearanceisthoroughlywellknowntothewriteroftheletter。’
`Evenacoughthatheistroubledwithismentioned,ifIrememberright?’
`Yes,andmentionedcorrectly。Hetreatsitlightlyhimself,thoughitsometimesmakeshisfriendsanxiousabouthim。’
`Isupposenowhispershaveeverbeenheardagainsthischaracter?’
`MrHartright!Ihopeyouarenotunjustenoughtoletthatinfamousletterinfluenceyou?’
Ifeltthebloodrushintomycheeks;forIknewthatithadinfluencedme。
`Ihopenot,’Iansweredconfusedly。`PerhapsIhadnorighttoaskthequestion。’
`Iamnotsorryyouaskedit,’shesaid,`foritenablesmetodojusticetoSirPercival’sreputation。Notawhisper,MrHartright,haseverreachedme,ormyfamily,againsthim。Hehasfoughtsuccessfullytwocontestedelections,andhascomeoutoftheordealunscathed。Amanwhocandothat,inEngland,isamanwhosecharacterisestablished。’
Iopenedthedoorforherinsilence,andfollowedherout。Shehadnotconvincedme。Iftherecordingangelhadcomedownfromheaventoconfirmher,andhadopenedhisbooktomymortaleyes,therecordingangelwouldnothaveconvincedme。
Wefoundthegardeneratworkasusual。Noamountofquestioningcouldextractasingleanswerofanyimportancefromthelad’simpenetrablestupidity。Thewomanwhohadgivenhimtheletterwasanelderlywoman;shehadnotspokenawordtohim,andshehadgoneawaytowardsthesouthinagreathurry。Thatwasallthegardenercouldtellus。
Thevillagelaysouthwardofthehouse。Sotothevillagewewentnext。
OurinquiriesatLimmeridgewerepatientlypursuedinalldirections,andamongallsortsandconditionsofpeople。Butnothingcameofthem。Threeofthevillagersdidcertainlyassureusthattheyhadseenthewoman,butastheywerequiteunabletodescribeher,andquiteincapableofagreeingabouttheexactdirectioninwhichshewasproceedingwhentheylastsawher,thesethreebrightexceptionstothegeneralrudeoftotalignoranceaffordednomorerealassistancetousthanthemassoftheirunhelpfulandunobservantneighbours。
Thecourseofouruselessinvestigationsbroughtus,intime,totheendofthevillageatwhichtheschoolsestablishedbyMrsFairlieweresituated。Aswepassedthesideofthebuildingappropriatedtotheuseoftheboys,Isuggestedtheproprietyofmakingalastinquiryoftheschoolmaster,whomwemightpresumetobe,invirtueofhisoffice,themostintelligentmanintheplace。
`Iamafraidtheschoolmastermusthavebeenoccupiedwithhisscholars,’saidMissHalcombe,`justatthetimewhenthewomanpassedthroughthevillageandreturnedagain。However,wecanbuttry。’
Weenteredtheplaygroundenclosure,andwalkedbytheschoolroomwindowtogetroundtothedoor,whichwassituatedatthebackofthebuilding。Istoppedforamomentatthewindowandlookedin。
Theschoolmasterwassittingathishighdesk,withhisbacktome,apparentlyharanguingthepupils,whowereallgatheredtogetherinfrontofhim,withoneexception。Theoneexceptionwasasturdywhite-headedboy,standingapartfromalltherestonastoolinacomer——aforlornlittleCrusoe,isolatedinhisowndesertislandofsolitarypenaldisgrace。
Thedoor,whenwegotroundtoit,wasajar,andtheschoolmaster’svoicereachedusplainly,aswebothstoppedforaminuteundertheporch。
`Now,boys,’saidthevoice,`mindwhatItellyou。IfIhearanotherwordspokenaboutghostsinthisschool,itwillbetheworseforallofyou。Therearenosuchthingsasghosts,andthereforeanyboywhobelievesinghostsbelievesinwhatcan’tpossiblybe;andaboywhobelongstoLimmeridgeSchool,andbelievesinwhatcan’tpossiblybe,setsuphisbackagainstreasonanddiscipline,andmustbepunishedaccordingly。YouallseeJacobPostlethwaitestandinguponthestoolthereindisgrace。Hehasbeenpunished,notbecausehesaidhesawaghostlastnight,butbecauseheistooimpudentandtooobstinatetolistentoreason,andbecausehepersistsinsayinghesawtheghostafterIhavetoldhimthatnosuchthingcanpossiblybe。Ifnothingelsewilldo,ImeantocanetheghostoutofJacobPostlethwaite,andifthethingspreadsamonganyoftherestofyou,Imeantogoastepfarther,andcanetheghostoutofthewholeschool。’
`Weseemtohavechosenanawkwardmomentforourvisit,’saidMissHalcombe,pushingopenthedoorattheendoftheschoolmaster’saddress,andleadingthewayin。
Ourappearanceproducedastrongsensationamongtheboys。TheyappearedtothinkthatwehadarrivedfortheexpresspurposeofseeingJacobPostlethwaitecaned。
`Gohomeallofyoutodinner,’saidtheschoolmaster,`exceptJacob。Jacobmuststopwhereheis;andtheghostmaybringhimhisdinner,iftheghostpleases。’
Jacob’sfortitudedesertedhimatthedoubledisappearanceofhisschoolfellowsandhisprospectofdinner。Hetookhishandsoutofhispockets,lookedhardathisknuckles,raisedthemwithgreatdeliberationtohiseyes,andwhentheygotthere,groundthemroundandroundslowly,accompanyingtheactionbyshortspasmsofsniffing,whichfollowedeachotheratregularintervals——thenasalminutegunsofjuveniledistress。
`Wecameheretoaskyouaquestion,MrDempster。’saidMissHalcombe,addressingtheschoolmaster;`andwelittleexpectedtofindyouoccupiedinexorcisingaghost。Whatdoesitallmean?Whathasreallyhappened?’
`Thatwickedboyhasbeenfrighteningthewholeschool,MissHalcombe,bydeclaringthathesawaghostyesterdayevening,’answeredthemaster;`andhestillpersistsinhisabsurdstory,inspiteofallthatIcansaytohim。’
`Mostextraordinary,’saidMissHalcombe。`Ishouldnothavethoughtitpossiblethatanyoftheboyshadimaginationenoughtoseeaghost。ThisisanewaccessionindeedtothehardlabourofformingtheyouthfulmindatLimmeridge,andIheartilywishyouwellthroughit,MrDempster。Inthemeantime,letmeexplainwhyyouseemehere,andwhatitisIwant。’
Shethenputthesamequestiontotheschoolmasterwhichwehadaskedalreadyofalmosteveryoneelseinthevillage。Itwasmetbythesamediscouraginganswer。MrDempsterhadnotseteyesonthestrangerofwhomwewereinsearch。
`Wemayaswellreturntothehouse,MrHartright,’saidMissHalcombe;`theinformationwewantisevidentlynottobefound。’
ShehadbowedtoMrDempster,andwasabouttoleavetheschoolroom,whentheforlornpositionofJacobPostlethwaite,piteouslysniffingonthestoolofpenitence,attractedherattentionasshepassedhim,andmadeherstopgood-humouredlytospeakawordtothelittleprisonerbeforesheopenedthedoor。
`Youfoolishboy,’shesaid,`whydon’tyoubegMrDempster’spardon,andholdyourtongueabouttheghost?’
`Eh!——butIsawt’ghaist,’persistedJacobPostlethwaite,withastareofterrorandaburstoftears。
`Stuffandnonsense!Yousawnothingofthekind。Ghostindeed!Whatghost——’
`Ibegyourpardon,MissHalcombe,’interposedtheschoolmasteralittleuneasily——`butIthinkyouhadbetternotquestiontheboy。Theobstinatefollyofhisstoryisbeyondallbelief;andyoumightleadhimintoignorantly。’
`Ignorantlywhat?’inquiredMissHalcombesharply。
`Ignorantlyshockingyourfeelings,’saidMrDempster,lookingverymuchdiscomposed。
`Uponmyword,MrDempster,youpaymyfeelingsagreatcomplimentinthinkingthemweakenoughtobeshockedbysuchanurchinasthat!’SheturnedwithanairofsatiricaldefiancetolittleJacob,andbegantoquestionhimdirectly。`Come!’shesaid,`Imeantoknowallaboutthis。Younaughtyboy,whendidyouseetheghost?’
`Yestere’en,atthegloaming,’repliedJacob。
`Oh!yousawityesterdayevening,inthetwilight?Andwhatwasitlike?’
`Arlinwhite——asaghaistshouldbe,’answeredtheghostseer,withaconfidencebeyondhisyears。
`Andwherewasit?’
`Awayyander,int’kirkyard——whereaghaistoughttobe。’
`Asa``ghaist’’shouldbe——wherea``ghaist’’oughttobe——why,youlittlefool,youtalkasifthemannersandcustomsofghostshadbeenfamiliartoyoufromyourinfancy!Youhavegotyourstoryatyourfingers’ends,atanyrate。IsupposeIshallhearnextthatyoucanactuallytellmewhoseghostitwas?’
`Eh!butIjustcan,’repliedJacob,noddinghisheadwithanairofgloomytriumph。
MrDempsterhadalreadytriedseveraltimestospeakwhileMissHalcombewasexamininghispupil,andhenowinterposedresolutelyenoughtomakehimselfheard。
`Excuseme,MissHalcombe,’hesaid,`ifIventuretosaythatyouareonlyencouragingtheboybyaskinghimthesequestions。’
`Iwillmerelyaskonemore,MrDempster,andthenIshallbequitesatisfied。Well,’shecontinued,turningtotheboy,`andwhoseghostwasit?’
`T’ghaistofMistressFairlie,’answeredJacobinawhisper。
TheeffectwhichthisextraordinaryreplyproducedonMissHalcombefullyjustifiedtheanxietywhichtheschoolmasterhadshowntopreventherfromhearingit。Herfacecrimsonedwithindignation——sheturneduponlittleJacobwithanangrysuddennesswhichterrifiedhimintoafreshburstoftears——openedherlipstospeaktohim——thencontrolledherself,andaddressedthemasterinsteadoftheboy。
`Itisuseless,’shesaid,`toholdsuchachildasthatresponsibleforwhathesays。Ihavelittledoubtthattheideahasbeenputintohisheadbyothers。Iftherearepeopleinthisvillage,MrDempster,whohaveforgottentherespectandgratitudeduefromeverysoulinittomymother’smemory,Iwillfindthemout,andifIhaveanyinfluencewithMrFairlie,theyshallsufferforit。’
`Ihope——indeed。Iamsure,MissHalcombe——thatyouaremistaken。’saidtheschoolmaster。`Thematterbeginsandendswiththeboy’sownperversityandfolly。Hesaw,orthoughthesaw,awomaninwhite,yesterdayevening,ashewaspassingthechurchyard;andthefigure。realorfancied,wasstandingbythemarblecross,whichheandeveryoneelseinLimmeridgeknowstohethemonumentoverMrsFairlie’sgrave。Thesetwocircumstancesaresurelysufficienttohavesuggestedtotheboyhimselftheanswerwhichhassonaturallyshockedyou?’
AlthoughMissHalcombedidnotseemtobeconvinced,sheevidentlyfeltthattheschoolmaster’sstatementofthecasewastoosensibletobeopenlycombated。Shemerelyrepliedbythankinghimforhisattention,andbypromisingtoseehimagainwhenherdoubtsweresatisfied。Thissaid,shebowed,andledthewayoutoftheschoolroom。
ThroughoutthewholeofthisstrangesceneIhadstoodapart,listeningattentively,anddrawingmyownconclusions。Assoonaswewerealoneagain,MissHalcombeaskedmeifIhadformedanyopiniononwhatIhadheard。
`Averystrongopinion,’Ianswered;`theboy’sstory,asIbelieve,hasafoundationinfact。IconfessIamanxioustoseethemonumentoverMrsFairlie’sgrave,andtoexaminethegroundaboutit。’
`Youshallseethegrave。’
Shepausedaftermakingthatreply,andreflectedalittleaswewalkedon。`Whathashappenedintheschoolroom,’sheresumed,`hassocompletelydistractedmyattentionfromthesubjectoftheletter,thatIfeelalittlebewilderedwhenItrytoreturntoit。Mustwegiveupallideaofmakinganyfurtherinquiries,andwaittoplacethethinginMrGilmore’shandstomorrow?’
`Bynomeans,MissHalcombe。Whathashappenedintheschoolroomencouragesmetopersevereintheinvestigation。’
`Whydoesitencourageyou?’
`BecauseitstrengthensasuspicionIfeltwhenyougavemethelettertoread。’
`Isupposeyouhadyourreasons,MrHartright,forconcealingthatsuspicionfrommetillthismoment?’
`Iwasafraidtoencourageitinmyself。Ithoughtitwasutterlypreposterous——Idistrusteditastheresultofsomeperversityinmyownimagination。ButIcandosonolonger。Notonlytheboy’sownanswerstoyourquestions,butevenachanceexpressionthatdroppedfromtheschoolmaster’slipsinexplaininghisstory,haveforcedtheideahackintomymind。Eventsmayyetprovethatideatobeadelusion,MissHalcombe;butthebeliefisstronginme,atthismoment,thatthefanciedghostinthechurchyard,andthewriteroftheanonymousletter,areoneandthesameperson。’
Shestopped,turnedpale,andlookedmeeagerlyintheface,
`Whatperson?’
`Theschoolmasterunconsciouslytoldyou。Whenhespokeofthefigurethattheboysawinthechurchyardhecalledit``awomaninwhite。’’’
`NotAnneCatherick?’
`Yes,AnneCatherick。’
Sheputherhandthroughmyarmandleanedonitheavily。
`Idon’tknowwhy,’shesaidinlowtones,`butthereissomethinginthissuspicionofyoursthatseemstostartleandunnerveme。Ifeel——’Shestopped,andtriedtolaughitoff。`MrHartright,’shewenton,`Iwillshowyouthegrave,andthengobackatoncetothehouse。IhadbetternotleaveLauratoolongalone。Ihadbettergobackandsitwithher。’
Wewereclosetothechurchyardwhenshespoke。Thechurch,adrearybuildingofgreystone,wassituatedinalittlevalley,soastobeshelteredfromthebleakwindsblowingoverthemoorlandallroundit。Theburial-groundadvanced,fromthesideofthechurch,alittlewayuptheslopeofthehill。Itwassurroundedbyarough,lowstonewall。andwasbareandopentothesky,exceptatoneextremity,whereabrooktrickleddownthestonyhillside,andaclumpofdwarftreesthrewtheirnarrowshadowsovertheshort,meagregrass。Justbeyondthebrookandthetrees,andnotfarfromoneofthethreestonestileswhichaffordedentrance,atvariouspoints,tothechurchyard,rosethewhitemarblecrossthatdistinguishedMrsFairlie’sgravefromthehumblermonumentsscatteredaboutit。
`Ineedgonofartherwithyou,’saidMissHalcombe,pointingtothegrave。`Youwillletmeknowifyoufindanythingtoconfirmtheideayouhavejustmentionedtome。Letusmeetagainatthehouse。’
Sheleftme。Idescendedatoncetothechurchyard,andcrossedthestilewhichleddirectlytoMrsFairlie’sgrave。
Thegrassaboutitwastooshort,andthegroundtoohard,toshowanymarksoffootsteps。Disappointedthusfar,Inextlookedattentivelyatthecross,andatthesquareblockofmarblebelowit,onwhichtheinscriptionwascut。
Thenaturalwhitenessofthecrosswasalittleclouded,hereandthere,byweatherstains,andrathermorethanonehalfofthesquareblockbeneathit。onthesidewhichboretheinscription,wasinthesamecondition。Theotherhalf,however,attractedmyattentionatoncebyitssingularfreedomfromstainorimpurityofanykind。Ilookedcloser,andsawthatithadbeencleaned——recentlycleaned,inadownwarddirectionfromtoptobottom。Theboundarylinebetweenthepartthathadbeencleanedandthepartthathadnotwastraceablewherevertheinscriptionleftablankspaceofmarble——sharplytraceableasalinethathadbeenproducedbyartificialmeans。Whohadbegunthecleansingofthemarble,andwhohadleftitunfinished?
Ilookedaboutme,wonderinghowthequestionwastobesolved。NosignofahabitationcouldbediscernedfromthepointatwhichIwasstanding——theburial-groundwasleftinthelonelypossessionofthedead。Ireturnedtothechurch,andwalkedroundittillIcametothebackofthebuilding;thencrossedtheboundarywallbeyond,byanotherofthestonestiles,andfoundmyselfattheheadofapathleadingdownintoadesertedstonequarry。Againstonesideofthequarryalittletwo-roomcottagewasbuilt,andjustoutsidethedooranoldwomanwasengagedinwashing。
Iwalkeduptoher,andenteredintoconversationaboutthechurchandburial-ground。Shewasreadyenoughtotalk,andalmostthefirstwordsshesaidinformedmethatherhusbandfilledthetwoofficesofclerkandsexton。IsaidafewwordsnextinpraiseofMrsFairlie’smonument。Theoldwomanshookherhead,andtoldmeIhadnotseenitatitsbest。Itwasherhusband’sbusinesstolookafterit,buthehadbeensoailingandweakformonthsandmonthspast,thathehadhardlybeenabletocrawlintochurchonSundaystodohisduty,andthemonumenthadbeenneglectedinconsequence。Hewasgettingalittlebetternow,andinaweekortendays’timehehopedtobestrongenoughtosettoworkandcleanit。
Thisinformation——extractedfromalongramblinganswerinthebroadestCumberlanddialect——toldmeallthatImostwantedtoknow。Igavethepoorwomanatrifle,andreturnedatoncetoLimmeridgeHouse。
Thepartialcleansingofthemonumenthadevidentlybeenaccomplishedbyastrangehand。ConnectingwhatIhaddiscovered,thusfar,withwhatIhadsuspectedafterhearingthestoryoftheghostseenattwilight,IwantednothingmoretoconfirmmyresolutiontowatchMrsFairlie’sgrave,insecret,thatevening,returningtoitatsunset,andwaitingwithinsightofittillthenightfell。Theworkofcleansingthemonumenthadbeenleftunfinished,andthepersonbywhomithadbeenbegunmightreturntocompleteit。
OngettingbacktothehouseIinformedMissHalcombeofwhatIintendedtodo。ShelookedsurPrisedanduneasywhileIwasexplainingmypurpose,butshemadenopositiveobjectiontotheexecutionofit。Sheonlysaid,`Ihopeitmayendwell。’Justasshewasleavingmeagain,Istoppedhertoinquire,ascalmlyasIcould,afterMissFairlie’shealth。Shewasinbetterspirits,andMissHalcombehopedshemightbeinducedtotakealittlewalkingexercisewhiletheafternoonsunlasted。
Ireturnedtomyownroomtoresumesettingthedrawingsinorder。Itwasnecessarytodothis,anddoublynecessarytokeepmymindemployedonanythingthatwouldhelptodistractmyattentionfrommyself,andfromthehopelessfuturethatlaybeforeme。FromtimetotimeIpausedinmyworktolookoutofwindowandwatchtheskyasthesunsanknearerandnearertothehorizon。OnoneofthoseoccasionsIsawafigureonthebroadgravelwalkundermywindow。ItwasMissFairlie。
Ihadnotseenhersincethemorning,andIhadhardlyspokentoherthen。AnotherdayatLimmeridgewasallthatremainedtome,andafterthatdaymyeyesmightneverlookonheragain。Thisthoughtwasenoughtoholdmeatthewindow。Ihadsufficientconsiderationforhertoarrangetheblindsothatshemightnotseemeifshelookedup,butIhadnostrengthtoresistthetemptationoflettingmyeyes,atleast,followherasfarastheycouldonherwalk。
Shewasdressedinabrowncloak,withaPlainblacksilkgownunderit。Onherheadwasthesamesimplestrawhatwhichshehadwornonthemorningwhenwefirstmet。Aveilwasattachedtoitnowwhichhidherfacefromme。ByhersidetrottedalittleItaliangreyhound,thepetcompanionofallherwalks,smartlydressedinascarletclothwrapper,tokeepthesharpairfromhisdelicateskin。Shedidnotseemtonoticethedog。Shewalkedstraightforward,withherheaddroopingalittle,andherarmsfoldedinhercloak。Thedeadleaves,whichhadwhirledinthewindbeforemewhenIhadheardofhermarriageengagementinthemorning,whirledinthewindbeforeher,androseandfellandscatteredthemselvesatherfeetasshewalkedoninthepalewaningsunlight-Thedogshiveredandtrembled,andpressedagainstherdressimpatientlyfornoticeandencouragement。Butsheneverheededhim。Shewalkedon,fartherandfartherawayfromme,withthedeadleaveswhirlingaboutheronthepath——walkedon,tillmyachingeyescouldseehernomore,andIwasleftaloneagainwithmyownheavyheart。
Inanotherhour’stimeIhaddonemywork,andthesunsetwasathand。Igotmyhatandcoatinthehall,andslippedoutofthehousewithoutmeetinganyone。
Thecloudswerewildinthewesternheaven,andthewindblewchillfromthesea。farastheshorewas,thesoundofthesurfsweptovertheinterveningmoorland,andbeatdrearilyinmyearswhenIenteredthechurchyard。Notalivingcreaturewasinsight。TheplacelookedlonelierthaneverasIchosemyposition,andwaitedandwatched,withmyeyesonthewhitecrossthatroseoverMrsFairlie’sgrave。
TheexposedsituationofthechurchyardhadobligedmetobecautiousinchoosingthepositionthatIwastooccupy。
Themainentrancetothechurchwasonthesidenexttotheburial-ground,andthedoorwasscreenedbyaporchwalledinoneitherside。Aftersomelittlehesitation,causedbynaturalreluctancetoconcealmyself,indispensableasthatconcealmentwastotheobjectinview,Ihadresolvedonenteringtheporch。Aloopholewindowwaspiercedineachofitssidewalls。ThroughoneofthesewindowsIcouldseeMrsFairlie’sgrave。Theotherlookedtowardsthestonequarryinwhichthesexton’scottagewasbuilt。Beforeme,frontingtheporchentrance,wasapatchofbareburial-ground,alineoflowstonewall,andastripoflonelybrownhill,withthesunsetcloudssailingheavilyoveritbeforethestrong,steadywind。Nolivingcreaturewasvisibleoraudible——nobirdflewbyme,nodogbarkedfromthesexton’scottage。Thepausesinthedullheatingofthesurfwerefilledupbythedrearyrustlingofthedwarftreesnearthegrave,andthecoldfaintbubbleofthebrookoveritsstonybed。Adrearysceneandadrearyhour。MyspiritssankfastasIcountedouttheminutesoftheeveninginmyhiding-placeunderthechurchporch。
Itwasnottwilightyet——thelightofthesettingsunstilllingeredintheheavens,andlittlemorethanthefirsthalf-hourofmysolitarywatchhadelapsed——whenIheardfootstepsandavoice。Thefootstepswereapproachingfromtheothersideofthechurch,andthevoicewasawoman’s。
`Don’tyoufret,mydear,abouttheletter,’saidthevoice。`Igaveittotheladquitesafe,andtheladhetookitfrommewithoutaword。HewenthiswayandIwentmine,andnotalivingsoulfollowedmeafterwards——thatI’llwarrant。’
Thesewordsstrungupmyattentiontoapitchofexpectationthatwasalmostpainful。Therewasapauseofsilence,butthefootstepsstilladvanced。Inanothermomenttwopersons,bothwomen,passedwithinmyrangeofviewfromtheporchwindow。Theywerewalkingstraighttowardsthegrave;andthereforetheyhadtheirbacksturnedtowardsme。
Oneofthewomenwasdressedinabonnetandshawl。Theotherworealongtravelling-cloakofadark-bluecolour,withthehooddrawnoverherhead。Afewinchesofhergownwerevisiblebelowthecloak。MyheartbeatfastasInotedthecolour——itwaswhite。
Afteradvancingabouthalf-waybetweenthechurchandthegravetheystopped,andthewomaninthecloakturnedherheadtowardshercompanion。Buthersideface,whichabonnetmightnowhaveallowedmetosee,washiddenbytheheavy,projectingedgeofthehood。
`Mindyoukeepthatcomfortablewarmcloakon,’saidthesamevoicewhichIhadalreadyheard——thevoiceofthewomanintheshawl。`MrsToddisrightaboutyourlookingtooparticular,yesterday,allinwhite。I’llwalkaboutalittlewhileyou’rehere,churchyardsbeingnotatallinmyway,whatevertheymaybeinyours。FinishwhatyouwanttodobeforeIcomeback,andletusbesureandgethomeagainbeforenight。’
Withthosewordssheturnedabout,andretracinghersteps,advancedwithherfacetowardsme。Itwasthefaceofanelderlywoman,brown,rugged,andhealthy,withnothingdishonestorsuspiciousinthelookofit。Closetothechurchshestoppedtopullhershawlcloserroundher。
`Queer,’shesaidtoherself,`alwaysqueer,withherwhimsandherways,eversinceIcanrememberher。Harmless,though——asharmless,poorsoul,asalittlechild。’
Shesighed——lookedabouttheburial-groundnervously——shookherhead,asifthedrearyprospectbynomeanspleasedher,anddisappearedroundthecornerofthechurch。
IdoubtedforamomentwhetherIoughttofollowandspeaktoherornot。Myintenseanxietytofindmyselffacetofacewithhercompanionhelpedmetodecideinthenegative。Icouldensureseeingthewomanintheshawlbywaitingnearthechurchyarduntilshecameback——althoughitseemedmorethandoubtfulwhethershecouldgivemetheinformationofwhichIwasinsearch。Thepersonwhohaddeliveredtheletterwasoflittleconsequence。Thepersonwhohadwrittenitwastheonecentreofinterest,andtheonesourceofinformation,andthatpersonInowfeltconvincedwasbeforemeinthechurchyard。
WhiletheseideaswerepassingthroughmymindIsawthewomaninthecloakapproachclosetothegrave,andstandlookingatitforalittlewhile。Shethenglancedallroundher,andtakingawhitelinenclothorhandkerchieffromunderhercloak,turnedasidetowardsthebrook。Thelittlestreamranintothechurchyardunderatinyarchwayinthebottomofthewall,andranoutagain,afterawindingcourseofafewdozenyards,underasimilaropening。Shedippedtheclothinthewater,andreturnedtothegrave。Isawherkissthewhitecross,thenkneeldownbeforetheinscription,andapplyherwetclothtothecleansingofit。
AfterconsideringhowIcouldshowmyselfwiththeleastpossiblechanceoffrighteningher,Iresolvedtocrossthewallbeforeme,toskirtrounditoutside,andtoenterthechurchyardagainbythestilenearthegrave,inorderthatshemightseemeasIapproached。ShewassoabsorbedoverheremploymentthatshedidnothearmecominguntilIhadsteppedoverthestile。Thenshelookedup,startedtoherfeetwithafaintcry,andstoodfacingmeinspeechlessandmotionlessterror。
`Don’tbefrightened,’Isaid。`Surelyyourememberme?’
IstoppedwhileIspoke——thenadvancedafewstepsgently——thenstoppedagain——andsoapproachedbylittleandlittletillIwasclosetoher。Iftherehadbeenanydoubtstillleftinmymind,itmusthavebeennowsetatrest。There,speakingaffrightedlyforitself——therewasthesamefaceconfrontingmeoverMrsFairlie’sgravewhichhadfirstlookedintomineonthehigh-roadbynight。
`Yourememberme?’Isaid。`Wemetverylate,andIhelpedyoutofindthewaytoLondon。Surelyyouhavenotforgottenthat?’
Herfeaturesrelaxed,andshedrewaheavybreathofrelief。Isawthenewlifeofrecognitionstirringslowlyunderthedeathlikestillnesswhichfearhadsetonherface。
`Don’tattempttospeaktomejustyet,’Iwenton。`Taketimetorecoveryourself——taketimetofeelquitecertainthatIamafriend。’
`Youareverykindtome,’shemurmured。`Askindnowasyouwerethen。’
Shestopped,andIkeptsilenceonmyside。Iwasnotgrantingtimeforcomposuretoheronly,Iwasgainingtimealsoformyself。Underthewanwildeveninglight,thatwomanandIweremettogetheragain,agravebetweenus,thedeadaboutus,thelonesomehillsclosingusroundoneveryside。Thetime,theplace,thecircumstancesunderwhichwenowstoodfacetofaceintheeveningstillnessofthatdrearyvalley——thelifelonginterestswhichmighthangsuspendedonthenextchancewordsthatpassedbetweenus——thesensethat,foraughtIknewtothecontrary,thewholefutureofLauraFairlie’slifemightbedetermined,forgoodorforevil,bymywinningorlosingtheconfidenceoftheforlorncreaturewhostoodtremblingbyhermother’sgrave——allthreatenedtoshakethesteadinessandtheself-controlonwhicheveryinchoftheprogressImightyetmakenowdepended。Itriedhard,asIfeltthis,topossessmyselfofallmyresources;Ididmyutmosttoturnthefewmomentsforreflectiontothebestaccount。
`Areyoucalmernow?’Isaid,assoonasIthoughtittimetospeakagain。`Canyoutalktomewithoutfeelingfrightened,andwithoutforgettingthatIamafriend?’
`Howdidyoucomehere?’sheasked,withoutnoticingwhatIhadjustsaidtoher。
`Don’tyouremembermytellingyou,whenwelastmet,thatIwasgoingtoCumberland?IhavebeeninCumberlandeversince——IhavebeenstayingallthetimeatLimmeridgeHouse。’
`AtLimmeridgeHouse!’Herpalefacebrightenedassherepeatedthewords,herwanderingeyesfixedonmewithasuddeninterest。`Ah,howhappyyoumusthavebeen!’shesaid,lookingatmeeagerly,withoutashadowofitsformerdistrustleftinherexpression。
Itookadvantageofhernewly-arousedconfidenceinmetoobserveherface,withanattentionandacuriositywhichIhadhithertorestrainedmyselffromshowing,forcaution’ssake。Ilookedather,withmymindfullofthatotherlovelyfacewhichhadsoominouslyrecalledhertomymemoryontheterracebymoonlight。IhadseenAnneCatherick’slikenessinMissFairlie。InowsawMissFairlie’slikenessinAnneCatherick——sawitallthemoreclearlybecausethepointsofdissimilaritybetweenthetwowerepresentedtomeaswellasthepointsofresemblance。Inthegeneraloutlineofthecountenanceandgeneralproportionofthefeatures——inthecolourofthehairandinthelittlenervousuncertaintyaboutthelips——intheheightandsizeofthefigure,andthecarriageoftheheadandbody,thelikenessappearedevenmorestartlingthanIhadeverfeltittobeyet。Buttheretheresemblanceended,andthedissimilarity,indetails,began。ThedelicatebeautyofMissFairlie’scomplexion,thetransparentclearnessofhereyes,thesmoothpurityofherskin,thetenderbloomofcolouronherlips,wereallmissingfromthewornwearyfacethatwasnowturnedtowardsmine。AlthoughIhatedmyselfevenforthinkingsuchathing,still,whileIlookedatthewomanbeforeme,theideawouldforceitselfintomymindthatonesadchange,inthefuture,wasallthatwaswantingtomakethelikenesscomplete,whichInowsawtobesoimperfectindetail。IfeversorrowandsufferingsettheirprofaningmarksontheyouthandbeautyofMissFairlie’sface,then,andthenonly,AnneCatherickandshewouldbethetwin-sistersofchanceresemblance,thelivingreflectionsofoneanother。
Ishudderedatthethought。Merewassomethinghorribleintheblindunreasoningdistrustofthefuturewhichthemerepassageofitthroughmymindseemedtoimply。ItwasawelcomeinterruptiontoberousedbyfeelingAnneCatherick’shandlaidonmyshoulder。Thetouchwasasstealthyandassuddenasthatothertouchwhichhadpetrifiedmefromheadtofootonthenightwhenwefirstmet。
`Youarelookingatme,andyouarethinkingofsomething,’shesaid,withherstrangebreathlessrapidityofutterance。`Whatisit?’
`Nothingextraordinary,’Ianswered。`Iwasonlywonderinghowyoucamehere。’
`Icamewithafriendwhoisverygoodtome。Ihaveonlybeenheretwodays。’
`Andyoufoundyourwaytothisplaceyesterday?’
`Howdoyouknowthat?’
`Ionlyguessedit。’
Sheturnedfromme,andkneltdownbeforetheinscriptiononcemore。
`WhereshouldIgoifnothere?’shesaid。`ThefriendwhowasbetterthanamothertomeistheonlyfriendIhavetovisitatLimmeridge。Oh,itmakesmyheartachetoseeastainonhertomb!Itoughttobekeptwhiteassnow,forhersake。Iwastemptedtobegincleaningityesterday,andIcan’thelpcomingbacktogoonwithittoday。Isthereanythingwronginthat?Ihopenot。SurelynothingcanbewrongthatIdoforMrsFairlie’ssake?’
Theoldgratefulsenseofherbenefactress’skindnesswasevidentlytherulingideastillinthePoorcreature’smind——thenarrowmindwhichhadbuttooplainlyopenedtonootherlastingimpressionsincethatfirstimpressionofheryoungerandhappierdays。Isawthatmybestchanceofwinningherconfidencelayinencouraginghertoproceedwiththeartlessemploymentwhichshehadcomeintotheburial-groundtopursue。Sheresumeditatonce,onmytellinghershemightdoso,touchingthehardmarbleastenderlyasifithadbeenasentientthing,andwhisperingthewordsoftheinscriptiontoherself,overandoveragain,asifthelostdaysofhergirlhoodhadreturnedandshewaspatientlylearningherlessononcemoreatMrsFairlie’sknees。
`Shouldyouwonderverymuch,’Isaid,preparingthewayascautiouslyasIcouldforthequestionsthatweretocome,`ifIownedthatitisasatisfactiontome,aswellasasurprise,toseeyouhere?Ifeltveryuneasyaboutyouafteryouleftmeinthecab。’
Shelookedupquicklyandsuspiciously。
`Uneasy,’sherepeated。`Why?’
`Astrangethinghappenedafterwepartedthatnight。Twomenovertookmeinachaise。TheydidnotseewhereIwasstanding,buttheystoppednearme,andspoketoapolicemanontheothersideoftheway。’
Sheinstantlysuspendedheremployment。Thehandholdingthedampclothwithwhichshehadbeencleaningtheinscriptiondroppedtoherside。Theotherhandgraspedthemarblecrossattheheadofthegrave。Herfaceturnedtowardsmeslowly,withtheblanklookofterrorsetrigidlyonitoncemore。Iwentonatallhazards——itwastoolatenowtodrawback。
`Thetwomenspoketothepoliceman,’Isaid,`andaskedhimifhehadseenyou。Hehadnotseenyou;andthenoneofthemenspokeagain,andsaidyouhadescapedfromhisAsylum。’
Shesprangtoherfeetasifmylastwordshadsetthepursuersonhertrack。
`Stop!andheartheend,’Icried。`Stop!andyoushallknowhowIbefriendedyou。Awordfrommewouldhavetoldthemenwhichwayyouhadgone——andIneverspokethatword。Ihelpedyourescape——Imadeitsafeandcertain。Think,trytothink。TrytounderstandwhatItellyou。’
Mymannerseemedtoinfluencehermorethanmywords。Shemadeanefforttograspthenewidea。Herhandsshiftedthedampclothhesitatinglyfromonetotheother,exactlyastheyhadshiftedthelittletravelling-bagonthenightwhenIfirstsawher。Slowlythepurposeofmywordsseemedtoforceitswaythroughtheconfusionandagitationofhermind。Slowlyherfeaturesrelaxed,andhereyeslookedatmewiththeirexpressiongainingincuriositywhatitwasfastlosinginfear。
`Youdon’tthinkIoughttobebackintheAsylum,doyou?’shesaid。
`Certainlynot。Iamgladyouescapedfromit——IamgladIhelpedyou。’
`Yes,yes,youdidhelpmeindeed;youhelpedmeatthehardpart,’shewentonalittlevacantly。`Itwaseasytoescape,orlshouldnothavegotaway。Theyneversuspectedmeastheysuspectedtheothers。Iwassoquiet,andsoobedient,andsoeasilyfrightened。ThefindingLondonwasthehardpart,andthereyouhelpedme。DidIthankyouatthetime?Ithankyounowverykindly。’
`WastheAsylumfarfromwhereyoumetme?Come!showthatyoubelievemetobeyourfriend,andtellmewhereitwas。’
Shementionedtheplace——aprivateAsylum,asitssituationinformedme;aprivateAsylumnotveryfarfromthespotwhereIhadseenher——andthen,withevidentsuspicionoftheusetowhichImightputheranswer,anxiouslyrepeatedherformerinquiry,`Youdon’tthinkIoughttobetakenback,doyou?’
`Onceagain,Iamgladyouescaped——Iamgladyouprosperedwellafteryouleftme,’Ianswered。`YousaidyouhadafriendinLondontogoto。ridyoufindthefriend?’
`Yes。Itwasverylate,buttherewasagirlupatneedleworkinthehouse,andshehelpedmetorouseMrsClements。MrsClementsismyfriend。Agood,kindwoman,butnotlikeMrsFairlie。Ahno,nobodyislikeMrsFairlie!’
`IsMrsClementsanoldfriendofyours?Haveyouknownheralongtime?’
`Yes,shewasaneighbourofoursonce,athome,inHampshire,andlikedme,andtookcareofmewhenIwasalittlegirl。Yearsago。whenshewentawayfromus,shewrotedowninmyPrayer-hookformewhereshewasgoingtoliveinLondon,andshesaid,``Ifyouareeverintrouble,Anne,cometome。Ihavenohusbandalivetosaymenay,andnochildrentolookafter,andIwilltakecareofyou。’’Kindwords,weretheynot?IsupposeIrememberthembecausetheywerekind。It’slittleenoughIrememberbesides——littleenough,littleenough!’
`Hadyounofatherormothertotakecareofyou?’
`Father?——Ineversawhim——Ineverheardmotherspeakofhim。father?Ah,dear!heisdead,Isuppose。’
`Andyourmother?’
`Idon’tgetonwellwithher。Weareatroubleandafeartoeachother。’
Atroubleandafeartoeachother!Atthosewordsthesuspicioncrossedmymind,forthefirsttime,thathermothermightbethepersonwhohadplacedherunderrestraint。
`Don’taskmeaboutmother,’shewenton。`I’drathertalkofMrsClements。MrsClementsislikeyou,shedoesn’tthinkthatIoughttobebackintheAsylum,andsheisasgladasyouarethatIescapedfromit。Shecriedovermymisfortune,andsaiditmustbekeptsecretfromeverybody。’
Her`misfortune。’Inwhatsensewassheusingthatword?Inasensewhichmightexplainhermotiveinwritingtheanonymousletter?Inasensewhichmightshowittobethetoocommonandtoocustomarymotivethathasledmanyawomantointerposeanonymoushindrancestothemarriageofthemanwhohasruinedher?Iresolvedtoattempttheclearingupofthisdoubtbeforemorewordspassedbetweenusoneitherside。
`Whatmisfortune?’Iasked。
`Themisfortuneofmybeingshutup,’sheanswered,witheveryappearanceoffeelingsurprisedatmyquestion。`Whatothermisfortunecouldtherebe?’
Ideterminedtopersist,asdelicatelyandforbearinglyaspossible。ItwasofverygreatimportancethatIshouldbeabsolutelysureofeverystepintheinvestigationwhichInowgainedinadvance。
`Thereisanothermisfortune,’Isaid,`towhichawomanmaybeliable,andbywhichshemaysufferlifelongsorrowandshame。’
`Whatisit?’sheaskedeagerly。
`Themisfortuneofbelievingtooinnocentlyinherownvirtue,andinthefaithandhonourofthemansheloves,’Ianswered。
Shelookedupatmewiththeartlessbewildermentofachild。Nottheslightestconfusionorchangeofcolour——notthefaintesttraceofanysecretconsciousnessofshamestrugglingtothesurfaceappearedinherface——thatfacewhichbetrayedeveryotheremotionwithsuchtransparentclearness。Nowordsthateverwerespokencouldhaveassuredme,asherlookandmannernowassuredme,thatthemotivewhichIhadassignedforherwritingtheletterandsendingittoMissFairliewasplainlyanddistinctlythewrongone。Thatdoubt,atanyrate,wasnowsetatrest;buttheveryremovalofitopenedanewprospectofuncertainty。Theletter,asIknewfrompositivetestimony,pointedatSirPercivalGlyde,thoughitdidnotnamehim。Shemusthavehadsomestrongmotive,originatinginsomedeepsenseofinjury,forsecretlydenouncinghimtoMissFairlieinsuchtermsasshehademployed,andthatmotivewasunquestionablynottobetracedtothelossofherinnocenceandhercharacter。Whateverwronghemighthaveinflictedonherwasnotofthatnature。Ofwhatnaturecoulditbe?
`Idon’tunderstandyou,’shesaid,afterevidentlytryinghard,andtryinginvain,todiscoverthemeaningofthewordsIhadlastsaidtoher。
`Nevermind,’Ianswered。`Letusgoonwithwhatweweretalkingabout。TellmehowlongyoustayedwithMrsClementsinLondon,andhowyoucamehere。’
`Howlong?’sherepeated。`IstayedwithMrsClementstillwebothcametothisplace,twodaysago。’
`Youarelivinginthevillage,then?’Isaid。`ItisstrangeIshouldnothaveheardofyou,thoughyouhaveonlybeenheretwodays。’
`No,no,notinthevillage。Threemilesawayatafarm。Doyouknowthefarm?TheycallitTodd’sCorner。’
Irememberedtheplaceperfectly——wehadoftenpassedbyitinourdrives。Itwasoneoftheoldestfarmsintheneighbourhood,situatedinasolitary,shelteredspot,inlandatthejunctionoftwohills。
`TheyarerelationsofMrsClementsatTodd’sCorner,’shewenton,`andtheyhadoftenaskedhertogoandseethem。Shesaidshewouldgo,andtakemewithher,forthequietandthefreshair。Itwasverykind,wasitnot?Iwouldhavegoneanywheretobequiet,andsafe,andoutoftheway。ButwhenIheardthatTodd’sComerwasnearLimmeridge——ohIIwassohappyIwouldhavewalkedallthewaybarefoottogetthere,andseetheschoolsandthevillageandLimmeridgeHouseagain。TheyareverygoodpeopleatTodd’sCorner。IhopeIshallstaytherealongtime。ThereisonlyonethingIdon’tlikeaboutthem,anddon’tlikeaboutMrsClements——’
`Whatisit?’
`Theywillteasemeaboutdressingallinwhite——theysayitlookssoparticular。Howdotheyknow?MrsFairlieknewbest。MrsFairliewouldneverhavemademewearthisuglybluecloakIAhIshewasfondofwhiteinherlifetime,andhereiswhitestoneabouthergrave——andIammakingitwhiterforhersake。Sheoftenworewhiteherself,andshealwaysdressedherlittledaughterinwhite。IsMissFairliewellandhappy?Doesshewearwhitenow,assheusedwhenshewasagirl?’
HervoicesankwhenshePutthequestionsaboutMissFairlie,andsheturnedherheadfartherandfartherawayfromme。IthoughtIdetected,inthealterationofhermanner,anuneasyconsciousnessoftheriskshehadruninsendingtheanonymousletter,andIinstantlydeterminedsotoframemyanswerastosurpriseherintoowningit。
`MissFairliewasnotverywellorveryhappythismorning,’Isaid。
Shemurmuredafewwords,buttheywerespokensoconfusedly,andinsuchalowtone,thatIcouldnotevenguessatwhattheymeant。
`DidyouaskmewhyMissFairliewasneitherwellnorhappythismorning?’Icontinued。
`No,’shesaidquicklyandeagerly——`ohno,Ineveraskedthat。’
`Iwilltellyouwithoutyourasking,’Iwenton。`MissFairliehasreceivedyourletter。’
Shehadbeendownonherkneesforsomelittletimepast,carefullyremovingthelastweather-stainsleftabouttheinscriptionwhilewewerespeakingtogether。ThefistsentenceofthewordsIhadjustaddressedtohermadeherpauseinheroccupation,andturnslowlywithoutrisingfromherknees,soastofaceme。Thesecondsentenceliterallypetrifiedher。Theclothshehadbeenholdingdroppedfromherhands——herlipsfellapart——allthelittlecolourthattherewasnaturallyinherfaceleftitinaninstant。
`Howdoyouknow?shesaidfaintly。`Whoshowedittoyou?’Thebloodrushedbackintoherface——rushedoverwhelmingly,asthesenserusheduponhermindthatherownwordshadbetrayedher。Shestruckherhandstogetherindespair。`Ineverwroteit,’shegaspedaffrightedly;`Iknownothingaboutit!’
`Yes,’Isaid,`youwroteit,andyouknowaboutit。Itwaswrongtosendsuchaletter,itwaswrongtofrightenMissFairlie。Ifyouhadanythingtosaythatitwasrightandnecessaryforhertohear,youshouldhavegoneyourselftoLimmeridgeHouse——youshouldhavespokentotheyoungladywithyourownlips。’
Shecroucheddownovertheflatstoneofthegave,tillherfacewashiddenonit,andmadenoreply。
`MissFairliewillbeasgoodandkindtoyouashermotherwas,ifyoumeanwell,’Iwenton。`MissFairliewillkeepyoursecret,andnotletyoucometoanyharm。Willyouseehertomorrowatthefarm?WillyoumeetherinthegardenatLimmeridgeHouse?’
`Oh,ifIcoulddie,andbehiddenandatrestwithyou!’Herlipsmurmuredthewordscloseonthegrave-stone,murmuredthemintonesofpassionateendearment,tothedeadremainsbeneath。`YouknowhowIloveyourchild,foryoursake!Oh,MrsFairlie!MrsFairlie!tellmehowtosaveher。Bemydarlingandmymotheroncemore,andtellmewhattodoforthebest。’
Iheardherlipskissingthestone——Isawherhandsbeatingonitpassionately。Thesoundandthesightdeeplyaffectedme。Istoopeddown,andtookthepoorhelplesshandstenderlyinmine,andtriedtosootheher。
Itwasuseless。Shesnatchedherhandsfromme,andnevermovedherfacefromthestone。Seeingtheurgentnecessityofquietingheratanyhazardandbyanymeans,Iappealedtotheonlyanxietythatsheappearedtofeel,inconnectionwithmeandwithmyopinionofher——theanxietytoconvincemeofherfitnesstobemistressofherownactions。
`Come,come,’Isaidgently。`Trytocomposeyourself,oryouwillmakemealtermyopinionofyou。Don’tletmethinkthatthepersonwhoputyouintheAsylummighthavehadsomeexcuse——’
Thenextwordsdiedawayonmylips。TheinstantIriskedthatchancereferencetothepersonwhohadputherintheAsylumshespranguponherknees。Amostextraordinaryandstartlingchangepassedoverher。Herface,atallordinarytimessotouchingtolookat,initsnervoussensitiveness,weakness,anduncertainty,becamesuddenlydarkenedbyanexpressionofmaniacallyintensehatredandfear,whichcommunicatedawild,unnaturalforcetoeveryfeature。Hereyesdilatedinthedimeveninglight,liketheeyesofawildanimal。Shecaughtupthecloththathadfallenatherside,asifithadbeenalivingcreaturethatshecouldkill,andcrusheditinbothherhandswithsuchconvulsivestrength,thatthefewdropsofmoistureleftinittrickleddownonthestonebeneathher。
`Talkofsomethingelse,’shesaid,whisperingthroughherteeth。`Ishalllosemyselfifyoutalkofthat。’
EveryvestigeofthegentlerthoughtswhichhadWedhermindhardlyaminutesinceseemedtobesweptfromitnow。ItwasevidentthattheimpressionleftbyMrsFairlie’skindnesswasnot,asIhadsupposed,theonlystrongimpressiononhermemory。Withthegratefulremembranceofherschool-daysatLimmeridge,thereexistedthevindictiveremembranceofthewronginflictedonherbyherconfinementintheAsylum。Whohaddonethatwrong?Coulditreallybehermother?
Itwashardtogiveuppursuingtheinquirytothatfinalpoint,butIforcedmyselftoabandonallideaofcontinuingit。SeeingherasIsawhernow,itwouldhavebeencrueltothinkofanythingbutthenecessityandthehumanityofrestoringhercomposure。
`Iwilltalkofnothingtodistressyou,’Isaidsoothingly。
`Youwantsomething,’sheansweredsharplyandsuspiciously。`Don’tlookatmelikethat。Speaktome——tellmewhatyouwant。’
`Ionlywantyoutoquietyourself,adwhenyouarecalmer,tothinkoverwhatIhavesaid。’
`Said?’Shepaused——twistedtheclothinherhands,backwardsandforwards,andwhisperedtoherself,`Whatisithesaid?’Sheturnedagaintowardsme,andshookherheadimpatiently,`Whydon’tyouhelpme?’sheasked,withangrysuddenness。
`Yes,yes,’Isaid,`Iwillhelpyou,andyouwillsoonremember。IaskedyoutoseeMissFairlietomorrow,andtotellherthetruthabouttheletter。’
`Ah!MissFairlie——Fairlie——Fairlie——’
Themereutteranceofthelovedfamiliarnameseemedtoquiether。Herfacesoftenedandgrewlikeitselfagain。
`YouneedhavenofearofMissFairlie,’Icontinued,`andnofearofgettingintotroublethroughtheletter。Sheknowssomuchaboutitalready,thatyouwillhavenodifficultintellingherall。Therecanbelittlenecessityforconcealmentwherethereishardlyanythinglefttoconceal。Youmentionnonamesintheletter;butMissFairlieknowsthatthepersonyouwriteofisSirPercivalGlyde——’
TheinstantIpronouncedthatnameshestartedtoherfeet,andascreamburstfromherthatrangthroughthechurchyard,andmademyheartleapinmewiththeterrorofit。Thedarkdeformityoftheexpressionwhichhadjustleftherfaceloweredonitoncemore,withdoubledandtrebledintensity。Theshriekatthename,thereiteratedlookofhatredandfearthatinstantlyfollowed,toldall。Notevenalastdoubtnowremained。HermotherwasguiltlessofimprisoningherintheAsylum。Amanhadshutherup——andthatmanwasSirPercivalGlyde。
Thescreamhadreachedotherearsthanmine。OnonesideIheardthedoorofthesexton’scottageopen;ontheotherIheardthevoiceofhercompanion,thewomanintheshawl,thewomanwhomshehadspokenofasMrsClements。
`I’mcoming!I’mcoming!’criedthevoicefrombehindtheclumpofdwarftrees。
InamomentmoreMrsClementshurriedintoview。
`Whoareyou?’shecried,facingmeresolutelyasshesetherfootonthestile。`Howdareyoufrightenapoorhelplesswomanlikethat?’
ShewasatAnneCatherick’sside,andhadputonearmaroundher,beforeIcouldanswer。`Whatisit,mydear?’shesaid。`Whathashedonetoyou?’
`Nothing,’thepoorcreatureanswered。`Nothing。I’monlyfrightened。’
MrsClementsturnedonmewithafearlessindignation,forwhichIrespectedher。
`IshouldbeheartilyashamedofmyselfifIdeservedthatangrylook,’Isaid。`ButIdonotdeserveit。Ihaveunfortunatelystartledherwithoutintendingit。Thisisnotthefirsttimeshehasseenme。Askheryourself,andshewilltellyouthatIamincapableofwillinglyharmingheroranywoman。’
Ispokedistinctly,sothatAnneCatherickmighthearandunderstandme,andIsawthatthewordsandtheirmeaninghadreachedher。
`Yes,yes,’shesaid——`hewasgoodtomeonce——hehelpedme——’Shewhisperedtherestintoherfriend’sear。
`Strange,indeed!’saidMrsClements,withalookofperplexity。`Itmakesallthedifference,though。I’msorryIspokesoroughtoyou,sir;butyoumustownthatappearanceslookedsuspicioustoastranger。It’smoremyfaultthanyours,forhumouringherwhims,andlettingherbealoneinsuchaplaceasthis。Come,mydear——comehomenow。’
Ithoughtthegoodwomanlookedalittleuneasyattheprospectofthewalkback,andIofferedtogowiththemuntiltheywerebothwithinsightofhome。MrsClementsthankedmecivilly,anddeclined。Shesaidtheyweresuretomeetsomeofthefarm-labourersassoonastheygottothemoor。
`Trytoforgiveme,’Isaid,whenAnneCathericktookherfriend’sarmtogoaway。InnocentasIhadbeenofanyintentiontoterrifyandagitateher,myheartsmotemeasIlookedatthepoor,pale,frightenedface。
`Iwilltry,’sheanswered。`Butyouknowtoomuch——I’mafraidyou’llalwaysfrightenmenow。’
MrsClementsglancedatme,andshookherheadpityingly。
`Good-night,sir,’shesaid。`Youcouldn’thelpit,Iknow;butIwishitwasmeyouhadfrightened,andnother。’
Theymovedawayafewsteps。Ithoughttheyhadleftme,butAnnesuddenlystopped,andseparatedherselffromherfriend。
`Waitalittle,’shesaid。`Imustsaygood-bye。’
Shereturnedtothegrave,restedbothhandstenderlyonthemarblecross,andkissedit。
`I’mbetternow,’shesighed,lookingupatmequietly。`Iforgiveyou。’
Shejoinedhercompanionagain,andtheylefttheburial-ground。Isawthemstopnearthechurchandspeaktothesexton’swife,whohadcomefromthecottage,andhadwaited,watchingusfromadistance。Thentheywentonagainupthepaththatledtothemoor。IlookedafterAnneCatherickasshedisappeared,tillalltraceofherhadfadedinthetwilight——lookedasanxiouslyandsorrowfullyasifthatwasthelastIwastoseeinthiswearyworldofthewomaninwhite。