THISisthestoryofwhataWoman’spatiencecanendure,andwhataMan’sresolutioncanachieve。
IfthemachineryoftheLawcouldbedependedontofathomeverycaseofsuspicion,andtoconducteveryprocessofinquiry,withmoderateassistanceonlyfromthelubricatinginfluencesofoilofgold,theeventswhichfillthesepagesmighthaveclaimedtheirshareofthepublicattentioninaCourtofJustice。
ButtheLawisstill,incertaininevitablecases,thepre-engagedservantofthelongpurse;andthestoryislefttobetold,forthefirsttime,inthisplace。AstheJudgemightoncehaveheardit,sotheReadershallhearitnow。Nocircumstanceofimportance,fromthebeginningtotheendofthedisclosure,shallberelatedonhearsayevidence。WhenthewriteroftheseintroductorylinesWalterHartrightbynamehappenstobemorecloselyconnectedthanotherswiththeincidentstoberecorded,hewillbethenarrator。Whennot,hewillretirefromthepositionofnarrator;andhistaskwillbecontinued,fromthepointatwhichhehasleftitoff,byotherpersonswhocanspeaktothecircumstancesundernoticefromtheirownknowledge,justasclearlyandpositivelyashehasspokenbeforethem。
Thus,thestoryherepresentedwillbetoldbymorethanonepen,asthestoryofanoffenceagainstthelawsistoldinCourtbymorethanonewitness——withthesameobjectinbothcases,topresentthetruthalwaysinitsmostdirectandmostintelligibleaspect;andtotracethecourseofonecompleteseriesofevents,bymakingthepersonswhohavebeenmostcloselyconnectedwiththem,ateachsuccessivestage,relatetheirownexperience,wordforword。
LetWalterHartright,teacherofdrawing,agedtwenty-eightyears,beheardfirst。
THESTORYBEGUNBYWALTERHARTRIGHTofClement’sinn,TeacherofDrawing
ItwasthelastdayofJuly。Thelonghotsummerwasdrawingtoaclose;andwe,thewearypilgrimsoftheLondonpavement,werebeginningtothinkofthecloud-shadowsonthecorn-fields,andtheautumnbreezesonthesea-shore。
Formyownpoorpart,thefadingsummerleftmeoutofhealth,outofspirits,and,ifthetruthmustbetold,outofmoneyaswell。DuringthepastyearIhadnotmanagedmyprofessionalresourcesascarefullyasusual;andmyextravagancenowlimitedmetotheprospectofspendingtheautumneconomicallybetweenmymother’scottageatHampsteadandmyownchambersintown。
Theevening,Iremember,wasstillandcloudy;theLondonairwasatitsheaviest;thedistanthumofthestreet-trafficwasatitsfaintest;thesmallpulseofthelifewithinme,andthegreatheartofthecityaroundme,seemedtobesinkinginunison,languidlyandmorelanguidly,withthesinkingsun。IrousedmyselffromthebookwhichIwasdreamingoverratherthanreading,andleftmychamberstomeetthecoolnightairinthesuburbs。ItwasoneofthetwoeveningsineveryweekWhichIwasaccustomedtospendwithmymotherandmysister。SoIturnedmystepsnorthwardinthedirectionofHampstead。
EventswhichIhaveyettorelatemakeitnecessarytomentioninthisplacethatmyfatherhadbeendeadsomeyearsattheperiodofwhichIamnowwriting;andthatmysisterSarahandIwerethesolesurvivorsofafamilyoffivechildren。Myfatherwasadrawing-masterbeforeme。Hisexertionshadmadehimhighlysuccessfulinhisprofession;andhisaffectionateanxietytoprovideforthefutureofthosewhoweredependentonhislabourshadimpelledhim,fromthetimeofhismarriage,todevotetotheinsuringofhislifeamuchlargerportionofhisincomethanmostmenconsideritnecessarytosetasideforthatpurpose。Thankstohisadmirableprudenceandself-denialmymotherandsisterwereleft,afterhisdeath,asindependentoftheworldastheyhadbeenduringhislifetime。Isucceededtohisconnection,andhadeveryreasontofeelgratefulfortheprospectthatawaitedmeatmystartinginlife。
Thequiettwilightwasstilltremblingonthetopmostridgesoftheheath;andtheviewofLondonbelowmehadsunkintoablackgulfintheshadowofthecloudynight,whenIstoodbeforethegateofmymother’scottage。Ihadhardlyrungthebellbeforethehousedoorwasopenedviolently;myworthyItalianfriend,ProfessorPesca,appearedintheservant’splace;anddartedoutjoyouslytoreceiveme,withashrillforeignparodyonanEnglishcheer。
Onhisownaccount,and,Imustbeallowedtoadd,onminealso,theProfessormeritsthehonourofaformalintroduction。Accidenthasmadehimthestarting-pointofthestrangefamilystorywhichitisthepurposeofthesepagestounfold。
IhadfirstbecomeacquaintedwithmyItalianfriendbymeetinghimatcertaingreathouseswherehetaughthisownlanguageandItaughtdrawing。AllIthenknewofthehistoryofhislifewas,thathehadonceheldasituationintheUniversityofPadua;thathehadleftItalyforpoliticalreasonsthenatureofwhichheuniformlydeclinedtomentiontoanyone;andthathehadbeenformanyyearsrespectablyestablishedinLondonasateacheroflanguages。
Withoutbeingactuallyadwarf——forhewasperfectlywellproportionedfromheadtofoot——Pescawas,Ithink,thesmallesthumanbeingIeversawoutofashow-room。Remarkableanywhere,byhispersonalappearance,hewasstillfurtherdistinguishedamongtherankandfileofmankindbytheharmlesseccentricityofhischaracter。Therulingideaofhislifeappearedtobe,thathewasboundtoshowhisgratitudetothecountrywhichhadaffordedhimanasylumandameansofsubsistencebydoinghisutmosttoturnhimselfintoanEnglishman。Notcontentwithpayingthenationingeneralthecomplimentofinvariablycarryinganumbrella,andinvariablywearinggaitersandawhitehat,theProfessorfurtheraspiredtobecomeanEnglishmaninhishabitsandamusements,aswellasinhispersonalappearance。Findingusdistinguished,asanation,byourloveofathleticexercises,thelittleman,intheinnocenceofhisheart,devotedhimselfimpromptutoallourEnglishsportsandpastimeswheneverhehadtheopportunityofjoiningthem;firmlypersuadedthathecouldadoptournationalamusementsofthefieldbyaneffortofwillpreciselyashehadadoptedournationalgaitersandournationalwhitehat。
Ihadseenhimriskhislimbsblindlyatafox-huntandinacricket-field;andsoonafterwardsIsawhimriskhislife,justasblindly,intheseaatBrighton。
Wehadmetthereaccidentally,andwerebathingtogether。Ifwehadbeenengagedinanyexercisepeculiartomyownnationlshould,ofcourse,havelookedafterPescacarefully;butasforeignersaregenerallyquiteaswellabletotakecareofthemselvesinthewaterasEnglishmen,itneveroccurredtomethattheartofswimmingmightmerelyaddonemoretothelistofmanlyexerciseswhichtheprofessorbelievedthathecouldlearnimpromptu。Soonafterwehadbothstruckoutfromshore,Istopped,findingmyfrienddidnotgainonme,andturnedroundtolookforhim。Tomyhorrorandamazement,Isawnothingbetweenmeandthebeachbuttwolittlewhitearmswhichstruggledforaninstantabovethesurfaceofthewater,andthendisappearedfromview。WhenIdivedforhim,thepoorlittlemanwaslyingquietlycoiledupatthebottom,inahollowofshingle,lookingbymanydegreessmallerthanIhadeverseenhimlookbefore。DuringthefewminutesthatelapsedwhileIwastakinghimin,theairrevivedhim,andheascendedthestepsofthemachinewithmyassistance。Withthepartialrecoveryofhisanimationcamethereturnofhiswonderfuldelusiononthesubjectofswimming。Assoonashischatteringteethwouldlethimspeak,hesmiledvacantly,andsaidhethoughtitmusthavebeentheCramp。
Whenhehadthoroughlyrecoveredhimself,andhadjoinedmeonthebeach,hiswarmSouthernnaturebrokethroughallartificialEnglishrestraintsinamoment。Heoverwhelmedmewiththewildestexpressionsofaffection——exclaimedpassionately,inhisexaggeratedItalianway,thathewouldholdhislifehenceforthatmydisposal——anddeclaredthatheshouldneverbehappyagainuntilhehadfoundanopportunityofprovinghisgratitudebyrenderingmesomeservicewhichImightremember,onmyside,totheendofmydays。
Ididmybesttostopthetorrentofhistearsandprotestationsbypersistingintreatingthewholeadventureasagoodsubjectforajoke;andsucceededatlast,asIimagined,inlesseningPesca’soverwhelmingsenseofobligationtome。LittledidIthinkthen——littledidIthinkafterwardswhenourpleasantholidayhaddrawntoanend——thattheopportunityofservingmeforwhichmygratefulcompanionsoardentlylongedwassoontocome;thathewaseagerlytoseizeitontheinstant;andthatbysodoinghewastoturnthewholecurrentofmyexistenceintoanewchannel,andtoaltermetomyselfalmostpastrecognition。
Yetsoitwas。IfIhadnotdivedforProfessorPescawhenhelayunderwateronhisshinglebed,Ishouldinallhumanprobabilityneverhavebeenconnectedwiththestorywhichthesepageswillrelate——Ishouldnever,perhaps,haveheardeventhenameofthewomanwhohaslivedinallmythoughts,whohaspossessedherselfofallmyenergies,whohasbecometheoneguidinginfluencethatnowdirectsthepurposeofmylife。
Pesca’sfaceandmanner,ontheeveningwhenweconfrontedeachotheratmymother’sgate,weremorethansufficienttoinformmethatsomethingextraordinaryhadhappened。Itwasquiteuseless,however,toaskhimforanimmediateexplanation。Icouldonlyconjecture,whilehewasdraggingmeinbybothhands,thatknowingmyhabitshehadcometothecottagetomakesureofmeetingmethatnight,andthathehadsomenewstotellofanunusuallyagreeablekind。
Webothbouncedintotheparlourinahighlyabruptandundignifiedmanner。Mymothersatbytheopenwindowlaughingandfanningherself。Pescawasoneofherespecialfavourites,andhiswildesteccentricitieswerealwayspardonableinhereyes。Poordearsoul!fromthefirstmomentwhenshefoundoutthatthelittleProfessorwasdeeplyandgratefullyattachedtoherson,sheopenedherhearttohimunreservedly,andtookallhispuzzlingforeignpeculiaritiesforgranted,withoutsomuchasattemptingtounderstandanyoneofthem。
MysisterSarah,withalltheadvantagesofyouth,was,strangelyenough,lesspliable。ShedidfulljusticetoPesca’sexcellentqualitiesofheart;butshecouldnotaccepthimimplicitly,asmymotheracceptedhimformysake。HerinsularnotionsofproprietyroseinperpetualrevoltagainstPesca’sconstitutionalcontemptforappearances;andshewasalwaysmoreorlessundisguisedlyastonishedathermother’sfamiliaritywiththeeccentriclittleforeigner。Ihaveobserved,notonlyinmysister’scase,butintheinstancesofothers,thatweoftheyounggenerationarenothinglikesoheartyandsoimpulsiveassomeofourelders。lconstantlyseeoldpeopleflushedandexcitedbytheprospectofsomeanticipatedpleasurewhichaltogetherfailstorufflethetranquillityoftheirserenegrandchildren。Arewe,Iwonder,quitesuchgenuineboysandgirlsnowasourseniorswereintheirtime?Hasthegreatadvanceineducationtakenrathertoolongastride;andarewe,inthesemoderndays,justtheleasttrifleintheworldtoowellbroughtup?
Withoutattemptingtoanswerthosequestionsdecisively,ImayatleastrecordthatIneversawmymotherandmysistertogetherinPesca’ssociety,withoutfindingmymothermuchtheyoungerwomanofthetwo。Onthisoccasion,forexample,whiletheoldladywaslaughingheartilyovertheboyishmannerinwhichwetumbledintotheparlour,Sarahwasperturbedlypickingupthebrokenpiecesofateacup,whichtheProfessorhadknockedoffthetableinhisprecipitateadvancetomeetmeatthedoor。
`Idon’tknowwhatwouldhavehappened,Walter,’saidmymother,`ifyouhaddelayedmuchlonger。Pescahasbeenhalfmadwithimpatience,andIhavebeenhalfmadwithcuriosity。TheProfessorhasbroughtsomewonderfulnewswithhim,inwhichhesaysyouareconcerned;andhehascruellyrefusedtogiveusthesmallesthintofittillhisfriendWalterappeared。’
’Veryprovoking:itspoilstheSet,’murmuredSarahtoherself,mournfullyabsorbedovertheruinsofthebrokencup。
Whilethesewordswerebeingspoken,Pesca,happilyandfussilyunconsciousoftheirreparablewrongwhichthecrockeryhadsufferedathishands,wasdraggingalargearmchairtotheoppositeendoftheroom,soastocommandusallthree,inthecharacterofapublicspeakeraddressinganaudience。Havingturnedthechairwithitsbacktowardsus,hejumpedintoitonhisknees,andexcitedlyaddressedhissmallcongregationofthreefromanimpromptupulpit。
`Now,mygooddears,’beganPescawhoalwayssaid`gooddears’whenhemeant`worthyfriends’,`listentome。Thetimehascome——Irecitemygoodnews——Ispeakatlast。’
`Hear,hear!’saidmymother,humouringthejoke。
`Thenextthinghewillbreak,mamma,’whisperedSarah,`willbethebackofthebestarmchair。’
`Igobackintomylife,andIaddressmyselftothenoblestofcreatedbeings,’continuedPesca,vehementlyapostrophisingmyunworthyselfoverthetoprailofthechair。`WhofoundmedeadatthebottomoftheseathroughCramp;andwhopulledmeuptothetop;andwhatdidIsaywhenIgotintomyownlifeandmyownclothesagain?’
`Muchmorethanwasatallnecessary,’Iansweredasdoggedlyaspossible;fortheleastencouragementinconnectionwiththissubjectinvariablyletloosetheProfessor’semotionsinafloodoftears。
`lsaid,’persistedPesca,`thatmylifebelongedtomydearfriend,Walter,fortherestofmydays——andsoitdoes。IsaidthatIshouldneverbehappyagaintillIhadfoundtheopportunityofdoingagoodSomethingforWalter——andIhaveneverbeencontentedwithmyselftillthismostblessedday。Now,’criedtheenthusiasticlittlemanatthetopofhisvoice,`theoverflowinghappinessburstsoutofmeateveryporeofmyskin,likeaperspiration;foronmyfaith,andsoul,andhonour,thesomethingisdoneatlast,andtheonlywordtosaynowis——Right-all-right!’
ItmaybenecessarytoexplainherethatPescapridedhimselfonbeingaperfectEnglishmaninhislanguage,aswellasinhisdress,manners,andamusements。Havingpickedupafewofourmostfamiliarcolloquialexpressions,hescatteredthemaboutoverhisconversationwhenevertheyhappenedtooccurtohim,turningthem,inhishighrelishfortheirsoundandhisgeneralignoranceoftheirsense,intocompoundwordsandrepetitionsofhisown,andalwaysrunningthemintoeachother,asiftheyconsistedofonelongsyllable。
`AmongthefineLondonHouseswhereIteachthelanguageofmynativecountry,’saidtheProfessor,rushingintohislong-deferredexplanationwithoutanotherwordofpreface,`thereisone,mightyfine,inthebigplacecalledPortland。Youallknowwherethatis?Yes,yes——course-of-course。Thefinehouse,mygooddears,hasgotinsideitafinefamily。AMamma,fairandfat;threeyoungMisses,fairandfat;twoyoungMisters,fairandfat;andaPapa,thefairestandthefattestofall,whoisamightymerchant,uptohiseyesingold——afinemanonce,butseeingthathehasgotanakedheadandtwochins,finenolongeratthepresenttime。Nowmind!IteachthesublimeDantetotheyoungMisses,andah!——my-soul-bless-my-soul!——itisnotinhumanlanguagetosayhowthesublimeDantepuzzledtheprettyheadsofallthree!Nomatter——allingoodtime——andthemorelessonsthebetterforme。Nowmind!ImaginetoyourselvesthatIamteachingtheyoungMissestoday,asusual。WeareallfourofusdowntogetherintheHellofDante。AttheSeventhCircle——butnomatterforthat:alltheCirclesarealiketothethreeyoungMisses,fairandfat,——attheSeventhCircle,nevertheless,mypupilsarestickingfast;andI,tosetthemgoingagain,recite,explain,andblowmyselfupred-hotwithuselessenthusiasm,when——acreakofbootsinthepassageoutside,andincomesthegoldenPapa,themightymerchantwiththenakedheadandthetwochins——Ha!mygooddears,Iamcloserthanyouthinkfortothebusiness,now。Haveyoubeenpatientsofar?orhaveyousaidtoyourselves,``Deuce-what-the-deuce!Pescaislong-windedtonight?’’’
Wedeclaredthatweweredeeplyinterested。TheProfessorwenton:
`Inhishand,thegoldenPapahasaletter;andafterhehasmadehisexcusefordisturbingusinourInfernalRegionwiththecommonmortalBusinessofthehouse,headdresseshimselftothethreeyoungMisses,andbegins,asyouEnglishbegineverythinginthisblessedworldthatyouhavetosay,withagreatO。``O,mydears,’’saysthemightymerchant,``Ihavegotherealetterfrommyfriend,Mr——’’thenamehasslippedoutofmymind;butnomatter;weshallcomebacktothat;yes,yes——right-all-right。SothePapasays,``Ihavegotaletterfrommyfriend,theMister;andhewantsarecommendfromme,ofadrawing-master,togodowntohishouseinthecountry。’’My-soul-bless-my-soul!whenIheardthegoldenPapasaythosewords,ifIhadbeenbigenoughtoreachuptohim,Ishouldhaveputmyarmsroundhisneck,andpressedhimtomybosominalongandgratefulhug!Asitwas,Ionlybounceduponmychair。Myseatwasonthorns,andmysoulwasonfiretospeak;butIheldmytongue,andletPapagoon。``Perhapsyouknow,’’saysthisgoodmanofmoney,twiddlinghisfriend’sletterthiswayandthat,inhisgoldenfingersandthumbs,``perhapsyouknow,mydears,ofadrawing-masterthatIcanrecommend?’’ThethreeyoungMissesalllookateachother,andthensaywiththeindispensablegreatOtobegin``O,dearno,Papa!ButhereisMrPesca——’’AtthementionofmyselfIcanholdnolonger——thethoughtofyou,mygooddears,mountslikebloodtomyhead——Istartfrommyseat,asifaspikehadgrownupfromthegroundthroughthebottomofmychair——Iaddressmyselftothemightymerchant,andIsayEnglishphrase,``Dearsir,Ihavetheman!Thefirstandforemostdrawing-masteroftheworld!Recommendhimbytheposttonight,andsendhimoff,bagandbaggageEnglishphraseagain——ha!,sendhimoff,bagandbaggage,bythetraintomorrow!’’``Stop,stop,’’saysPapa;``isheaforeigner,oranEnglishman?’’``Englishtotheboneofhishack,’’Ianswer。``Respectable?’’saysPapa。``Sir,’’Isayforthislastquestionofhisoutragesme,andIhavedonebeingfamiliarwithhim——``Sir!theimmortalfireofgeniusburnsinthisEnglishman’sbosom,and,whatismore,hisfatherhaditbeforehim!’’``Nevermind,’’saysthegoldenbarbarianofaPapa,``nevermindabouthisgenius,Mr。Pesca。Wedon’twantgeniusinthiscountry,unlessitisaccompaniedbyrespectability——andthenweareverygladtohaveit,verygladindeed。Canyourfriendproducetestimonials——lettersthatspeaktohischaracter?’’Iwavemyhandnegligently。``Letters?’’Isay。``Ha!my-soul-bless-my-soul!Ishouldthinkso,indeed!Volumesoflettersandportfoliosoftestimonials,ifyoulike!’’``Oneortwowilldo,’’saysthismanofphlegmandmoney。``Lethimsendthemtome,withhisnameandaddress。And——stop,stop,MrPesca——beforeyougotoyourfriend,youhadbettertakeanote。’’``Bank-note!’’Isay,indignantly。``Nobank-note,ifyouplease,tillmybraveEnglishmanhasearneditfirst。’’``Bank-note!’’saysPapa,inagreatsurprise,``whotalkedofbank-note?Imeananoteoftheterms——amemorandumofwhatheisexpectedtodo。Goonwithyourlesson,MrPesca,andIwillgiveyouthenecessaryextractfrommyfriend’sletter。’’Downsitsthemanofmerchandiseandmoneytohispen,ink,andpaper;anddownIgoonceagainintotheHellofDante,withmythreeyoungMissesafterme。Intenminutes’timethenoteiswritten,andthebootsofPapaarecreakingthemselvesawayinthepassageoutside。Fromthatmoment,onmyfaith,andsoul,andhonour,Iknownothingmore!ThegloriousthoughtthatIhavecaughtmyopportunityatlast,andthatmygratefulserviceformydearestfriendintheworldisasgoodasdonealready,fliesupintomyheadandmakesmedrunk。HowIpullmyyoungMissesandmyselfoutofourInfernalRegionagain,howmyotherbusinessisdoneafterwards,howmylittlebitofdinnerslidesitselfdownmythroat,Iknownomorethanamaninthemoon。Enoughforme,thathereIam,withthemightymerchant’snoteinmyhand,aslargeaslife,ashotasfire,andashappyasaking!Ha!ha!ha!right-right-right-all-right!’HeretheProfessorwavedthememorandumoftermsoverhishead,andendedhislongandvolublenarrativewithhisshrillItalianparodyonanEnglishcheer。
Mymotherrosethemomenthehaddone,withflushedcheeksandbrightenedeyes。Shecaughtthelittlemanwarmlybybothhands。
`Mydear,goodPesca,’shesaid,`IneverdoubtedyourtrueaffectionforWalter——butIammorethaneverpersuadedofitnow!’
`IamsureweareverymuchobligedtoProfessorPesca,forWalter’ssake,’addedSarah。Shehalfrose,whileshespoke,asiftoapproachthearmchair,inherturn;but,observingthatPescawasrapturouslykissingmymother’shands,lookedserious,andresumedherseat。`Ifthefamiliarlittlemantreatsmymotherinthatway,howwillhetreatme?’Facessometimestelltruth;andthatwasunquestionablythethoughtinSarah’smind,asshesatdownagain。
AlthoughImyselfwasgratefullysensibleofthekindnessofPesca’smotives,myspiritswerehardlysomuchelevatedastheyoughttohavebeenbytheprospectoffutureemploymentnowplacedbeforeme。WhentheProfessorhadquitedonewithmymother’shand,andwhenIhadwarmlythankedhimforhisinterferenceonmybehalf,Iaskedtobeallowedtolookatthenoteoftermswhichhisrespectablepatronhaddrawnupformyinspection。
Pescahandedmethepaper,withatriumphantflourishofthehand。
`Read!’saidthelittlemanmajestically。`Ipromiseyou,myfriend,thewritingofthegoldenPapaspeakswithatongueoftrumpetsforitself。’
Thenoteoftermswasplain,straightforward,andcomprehensive,atanyrate。Itinformedme,
First,ThatFrederickFairlie,Esquire,ofLimmeridgeHouse,Cumberland,wantedtoengagetheservicesofathoroughlycompetentdrawing-master,foraperiodoffourmonthscertain。
Secondly,Thatthedutieswhichthemasterwasexpectedtoperformwouldbeofatwofoldkind。Hewastosuperintendtheinstructionoftwoyoungladiesintheartofpaintinginwatercolours;andhewastodevotehisleisuretime,afterwards,tothebusinessofrepairingandmountingavaluablecollectionofdrawings,whichhadbeensufferedtofallintoaconditionoftotalneglect。
Thirdly,Thatthetermsofferedtothepersonwhoshouldundertakeandproperlyperformthesedutieswerefourguineasaweek;thathewastoresideatLimmeridgeHouse;andthathewastobetreatedthereonthefootingofagentleman。
Fourthly,andlastly,Thatnopersonneedthinkofapplyingforthissituationunlesshecouldfurnishthemostunexceptionablereferencestocharacterandabilities。ThereferencesweretobesenttoMrFairlie’sfriendinLondon,whowasempoweredtoconcludeallnecessaryarrangements。TheseinstructionswerefollowedbythenameandaddressofPesca’semployerinPortlandPlace——andtherethenote,ormemorandum,ended。
Theprospectwhichthisofferofanengagementheldoutwascertainlyanattractiveone。Theemploymentwaslikelytobebotheasyandagreeable;itwasproposedtomeattheautumntimeoftheyearwhenIwasleastoccupied;andtheterms,judgingbymypersonalexperienceinmyprofession,weresurprisinglyliberal。Iknewthis;IknewthatIoughttoconsidermyselfveryfortunateifIsucceededinsecuringtheofferedemployment——andyet,nosoonerhadIreadthememorandumthanIfeltaninexplicableunwillingnesswithinmetostirinthematter。IhadneverinthewholeofmypreviousexperiencefoundmydutyandmyinclinationsopainfullyandsounaccountablyatvarianceasIfoundthemnow。
`Oh,Walter,yourfatherneverhadsuchachanceasthis!’saidmymother,whenshehadreadthenoteoftermsandhadhandeditbacktome。
`Suchdistinguishedpeopletoknow,’remarkedSarah,straighteningherselfinthechair;`andonsuchgratifyingtermsofequalitytoo!’
`Yes,yes;theterms,ineverysense,aretemptingenough,’Irepliedimpatiently。`ButbeforeIsendinmytestimonials,Ishouldlikealittletimetoconsider——’
`Consider!’exclaimedmymother。`Why,Walter,whatisthematterwithyou?’
`Consider!’echoedmysister。`Whataveryextraordinarythingtosay,underthecircumstances!’
`Consider!’chimedintheProfessor。`Whatistheretoconsiderabout?Answermethis!Haveyounotbeencomplainingofyourhealth,andhaveyounotbeenlongingforwhatyoucallasmackofthecountrybreeze?Well!thereinyourhandisthepaperthatoffersyouperpetualchokingmouthfulsofcountrybreezeforfourmonths’time。Isitnotso?Ha!Again——youwantmoney。Well!Isfourgoldenguineasaweeknothing?My-soul-bless-my-soul!onlygiveittome——andmybootsshallcreaklikethegoldenPapa’s,withasenseoftheoverpoweringrichnessofthemanwhowalksinthem!Fourguineasaweek,and,morethanthat,thecharmingsocietyoftwoyoungmisses!and,morethanthat,yourbed,yourbreakfast,yourdinner,yourgorgingEnglishteasandlunchesanddrinksoffoamingbeer,allfornothing——why,Walter,mydeargoodfriend——deuce-what-the-deuce!——forthefirsttimeinmylifeIhavenoteyesenoughinmyheadtolook,andwonderatyou!’
Neithermymother’sevidentastonishmentatmybehaviour,norPesca’sfervidenumerationoftheadvantagesofferedtomebythenewemployment,hadanyeffectinshakingmyunreasonabledisinclinationtogotoLimmeridgeHouse。AfterstartingallthepettyobjectionsthatIcouldthinkoftogoingtoCumberland,andafterhearingthemanswered,oneafteranother,tomyowncompletediscomfiture,ItriedtosetupalastobstaclebyaskingwhatwastobecomeofmypupilsinLondonwhileIwasteachingMrFairlie’syoungladiestosketchfromnature。Theobviousanswertothiswas,thatthegreaterpartofthemwouldbeawayontheirautumntravels,andthatthefewwhoremainedathomemightbeconfidedtothecareofoneofmybrotherdrawing-masters,whosepupilsIhadoncetakenoffhishandsundersimilarcircumstances。Mysisterremindedmethatthisgentlemanhadexpresslyplacedhisservicesatmydisposal,duringthepresentseason,incaseIwishedtoleavetom;mymotherseriouslyappealedtomenottoletanidlecapricestandinthewayofmyowninterestsandmyownhealth;andPescapiteouslyentreatedthatIwouldnotwoundhimtotheheartbyrejectingthefirstgratefulofferofservicethathehadbeenabletomaketothefriendwhohadsavedhislife。
Theevidentsincerityandaffectionwhichinspiredtheseremonstranceswouldhaveinfluencedanymanwithanatomofgoodfeelinginhiscomposition。ThoughIcouldnotconquermyownunaccountableperversity,Ihadatleastvirtueenoughtobeheartilyashamedofit,andtoendthediscussionpleasantlybygivingway,andpromisingtodoallthatwaswantedofme。
TherestoftheeveningpassedmerrilyenoughinhumorousanticipationsofmycominglifewiththetwoyoungladiesinCumberland。Pesca,inspiredbyournationalgrog,whichappearedtogetintohishead,inthemostmarvellousmanner,fiveminutesafterithadgonedownhisthroat,assertedhisclaimstobeconsideredacompleteEnglishmanbymakingaseriesofspeechesinrapidsuccession,proposingmymother’shealth,mysister’shealth,myhealth,andthehealths,inmass,ofMrFairlieandthetwoyoungMisses,patheticallyreturningthankshimself,immediatelyafterwards,forthewholeparty。`Asecret,Walter,’saidmylittlefriendconfidentially,aswewalkedhometogether。`Iamflushedbytherecollectionofmyowneloquence。Mysoulburstsitselfwithambition。OneofthesedaysIgointoyournobleParliament。ItisthedreamofmywholelifetobeHonourablePesca,M。P。!’
ThenextmorningIsentmytestimonialstotheprofessor’semployerinPortlandPlace。Threedayspassed,andIconcluded,withsecretsatisfaction,thatmypapershadnotbeenfoundsufficientlyexplicit。Onthefourthday,however,ananswercame。ItannouncedthatMrFairlieacceptedmyservices,andrequestedmetostartforCumberlandimmediately。Allthenecessaryinstructionsformyjourneywerecarefullyandclearlyaddedinapostscript。
Imademyarrangements,unwillinglyenough,forleavingLondonearlythenextday。TowardseveningPescalookedin,onhiswaytoadinner-party,tobidmegood-bye。
`Ishalldrymytearsinyourabsence,’saidtheProfessorgaily,`withthisgloriousthought。Itismyauspicioushandthathasgiventhefirstpushtoyourfortuneintheworld。Go,myfriend!WhenyoursunshinesinCumberlandEnglishproverb,inthenameofheavenmakeyourhay。MarryoneofthetwoyoungMisses;becomeHonourableHartright,M。P。;andwhenyouareonthetopoftheladderrememberthatPesca,atthebottom,hasdoneitall!’
Itriedtolaughwithmylittlefriendoverhispartingjest,butmyspiritswerenottobecommanded。Somethingjarredinmealmostpainfullywhilehewasspeakinghislightfarewellwords。
WhenIwasleftaloneagainnothingremainedtobedonebuttowalktotheHampsteadcottageandbidmymotherandSarahgood-bye。
Theheathadbeenpainfullyoppressiveallday,anditwasnowacloseandsultrynight。
Mymotherandsisterhadspokensomanylastwords,andhadbeggedmetowaitanotherfiveminutessomanytimes,thatitwasnearlymidnightwhentheservantlockedthegarden-gatebehindme。IwalkedforwardafewpacesontheshortestwaybacktoLondon,thenstoppedandhesitated。
Themoonwasfullandbroadinthedarkbluestarlesssky,andthebrokengroundoftheheathlookedwildenoughinthemysteriouslighttobehundredsofmilesawayfromthegreatcitythatlaybeneathit。TheideaofdescendinganysoonerthanIcouldhelpintotheheatandgloomofLondonrepelledme。Theprospectofgoingtobedinmyairlesschambers,andtheprospectofgradualsuffocation,seemed,inmypresentrestlessframeofmindandbody,tobeoneandthesamething。IdeterminedtostrollhomeinthepurerairbythemostroundaboutwayIcouldtake;tofollowthewhitewindingpathsacrossthelonelyheath;andtoapproachLondonthroughitsmostopensuburbbystrikingintotheFinchleyRoad,andsogettingback,inthecoolofthenewmorning,bythewesternsideoftheRegent’sPark。
Iwoundmywaydownslowlyovertheheath,enjoyingthedivinestillnessofthescene,andadmiringthesoftalternationsoflightandshadeastheyfollowedeachotheroverthebrokengroundoneverysideofme。SolongasIwasproceedingthroughthisfistandprettiestpartofmynightwalkmymindremainedpassivelyopentotheimpressionsproducedbytheview;andIthoughtbutlittleonanysubject——indeed,sofarasmyownsensationswereconcerned,IcanhardlysaythatIthoughtatall。
ButwhenIhadlefttheheathandhadturnedintotheby-road,wheretherewaslesstosee,theideasnaturallyengenderedbytheapproachingchangeinmyhabitsandoccupationsgraduallydrewmoreandmoreofmyattentionexclusivelytothemselves。BythetimeIhadarrivedattheendoftheroadIhadbecomecompletelyabsorbedinmyownfancifulvisionsofLimmeridgeHouse,ofMrFairlie,andofthetwoladieswhosepracticeintheartofwater-colourpaintingIwassosoontosuperintend。
Ihadnowarrivedatthatparticularpointofmywalkwherefourroadsmet——theroadtoHampstead,alongwhichIhadreturned,theroadtoFinchley,theroadtoWestEnd,andtheroadbacktoLondon。Ihadmechanicallyturnedinthislatterdirection,andwasstrollingalongthelonelyhigh-road——idlywondering,Iremember,whattheCumberlandyoungladieswouldlooklike——when,inonemoment,everydropofbloodinmybodywasbroughttoastopbythetouchofahandlaidlightlyandsuddenlyonmyshoulderfrombehindme。
Iturnedontheinstant,withmyfingerstighteningroundthehandleofmystick。
There,inthemiddleofthebroad,brighthigh-road——there,asIfithadthatmomentsprungoutoftheearthordroppedfromtheheaven——stoodthefigureofasolitaryWoman,dressedfromheadtofootinwhitegarments,herfacebentingraveinquiryonmine,herhandpointingtothedarkcloudoverLondon,asIfacedher。
Iwasfartooseriouslystartledbythesuddennesswithwhichthisextraordinaryapparitionstoodbeforeme,inthedeadofnightandinthatlonelyplace,toaskwhatshewanted。Thestrangewomanspokefirst。
`IsthattheroadtoLondon?’shesaid。
Ilookedattentivelyather,assheputthatsingularquestiontome。Itwasthennearlyoneo’clock。AllIcoulddiscerndistinctlybythemoonlightwasacolourless,youthfulface,meagreandsharptolookataboutthecheeksandchin;large,grave,wistfullyattentiveeyes;nervous,uncertainlips;andlighthairofapale,brownish-yellowhue。Therewasnothingwild,nothingimmodestinhermanner:itwasquietandself-controlled,alittlemelancholyandalittletouchedbysuspicion;notexactlythemannerofalady,and,atthesametime,notthemannerofawomaninthehumblestrankoflife。Thevoice,littleasIhadyetheardofit,hadsomethingcuriouslystillandmechanicalinitstones,andtheutterancewasremarkablyrapid。Sheheldasmallbaginherhand:andherdress——bonnet,shawl,andgownallofwhite——was,sofarasIcouldguess,certainlynotcomposedofverydelicateorveryexpensivematerials。Herfigurewasslight,andratherabovetheaverageheight——hergaitandactionsfreefromtheslightestapproachtoextravagance。ThiswasallthatIcouldobserveofherinthedimlightandundertheperplexinglystrangecircumstancesofourmeeting。Whatsortofawomanshewas,andhowshecametobeoutaloneinthehigh-road,anhouraftermidnight,Ialtogetherfailedtoguess。TheonethingofwhichIfeltcertainwas,thatthegrossestofmankindcouldnothavemisconstruedhermotiveinspeaking,evenatthatsuspiciouslylatehourandinthatsuspiciouslylonelyplace。
`Didyouhearme?’shesaid,stillquietlyandrapidly,andwithouttheleastfretfulnessorimpatience。`IaskedifthatwasthewaytoLondon。’
`Yes,’Ireplied,`thatistheway:itleadstoStJohn’sWoodandtheRegent’sPark。Youmustexcusemynotansweringyoubefore。Iwasratherstartledbyyoursuddenappearanceintheroad;andIam,evennow,quiteunabletoaccountforit。’
`Youdon’tsuspectmeofdoinganythingwrong,doyou?Ihavedonenothingwrong。Ihavemetwithanaccident——Iamveryunfortunateinbeingherealonesolate。Whydoyoususpectmeofdoingwrong?’
Shespokewithunnecessaryearnestnessandagitation,andshrankbackfrommeseveralplaces。Ididmybesttoreassureher。
`Praydon’tsupposethatIhaveanyideaofsuspectingyou,’Isaid,`oranyotherwishthantobeofassistancetoyou,ifIcan。Ionlywonderedatyourappearanceintheroad,becauseitseemedtometobeemptytheinstantbeforeIsawyou。’
Sheturned,andpointedbacktoaplaceatthejunctionoftheroadtoLondonandtheroadtoHampstead,wheretherewasagapinthehedge。
`Iheardyoucoming,’shesaid,`andhidtheretoseewhatsortofmanyouwere,beforeIriskedspeaking。Idoubtedandfearedaboutittillyoupassed;andthenIwasobligedtostealafteryou,andtouchyou。’
Stealaftermeandtouchme?Whynotcalltome?Strange,tosaytheleastofit
`MayItrustyou?’sheasked。`Youdon’tthinktheworseofmebecauseIhavemetwithanaccident?’Shestoppedinconfusion;shiftedherbagfromonehandtotheother;andsighedbitterly。
Thelonelinessandhelplessnessofthewomantouchedme。Thenaturalimpulsetoassistherandtosparehergotthebetterofthejudgment,thecaution,theworldlytact,whichanolder,wiser,andcoldermanmighthavesummonedtohelphiminthisstrangeemergency。
`Youmaytrustmeforanyharmlesspurposes,’Isaid。`Ifittroublesyoutoexplainyourstrangesituationtome,don’tthinkofreturningtothesubjectagain。Ihavenorighttoaskyouforanyexplanations。TellmehowIcanhelpyou;andifIcan,Iwill。’
`Youareverykind,andIamvery,verythankfulltohavemetyou。’ThefirsttouchofwomanlytendernessthatIhadheardfromhertrembledinhervoiceasshesaidthewords:butnotearsglistenedinthoselarge,wistfullyattentiveeyesofhers,whichwerestillfixedonme,`IhaveonlybeeninLondononcebefore,’shewenton,moreandmorerapidly,`andIknownothingaboutthatsideofit,yonder。CanISetafly,oracarriageofanykind?Isittoolate?Idon’tknow。Ifyoucouldshowmewheretogetafly——andifyouwillonlypromisenottointerferewithme,andtoletmeleaveyou,whenandhowIplease——IhaveafriendinLondonwhowillbegladtoreceiveme——Iwantnothingelse——willyoupromise?’
Shelookedanxiouslyupanddowntheroad;shiftedherbagagainfromonehandtotheother;repeatedthewords,`Willyoupromise?’andlookedhardinmyface,withapleadingfearandconfusionthatittroubledmetosee。
WhatcouldIdo?Herewasastrangerutterlyandhelplesslyatmymercy——andthatstrangeraforlornwoman。Nohousewasnear;noonewaspassingwhomIcouldconsult;andnoearthlyrightexistedonmyparttogivemeapowerofcontroloverher,evenifIhadknownhowtoexerciseit。Itracetheselines,self-distrustfully,withtheshadowsofaftereventsdarkeningtheverypaperIwriteon;andstillIsay,whatcouldIdo?
WhatIdiddo,wastotryandgaintimebyquestioningher。
`AreyousurethatyourfriendinLondonwillreceiveyouatsuchalatehourasthis?’Isaid。
`Quitesure。OnlysayyouwillletmeleaveyouwhenandhowIplease——onlysayyouwon’tinterferewithme。Willyoupromise?’
Assherepeatedthewordsforthethirdtime,shecarneclosetomeandlaidherhand,withasuddengentlestealthiness,onmybosom——athinhand;acoldhandwhenIremoveditwithmineevenonthatsultrynight。RememberthatIwasyoung;rememberthatthehandwhichtouchedmewasawoman’s。
`Willyoupromise?’
`Yes。’
Oneword!Thelittlefamiliarwordthatisoneverybody’slips,everyhourintheday。Ohme!andItremble,now,whenIwriteit。
WesetourfacestowardsLondon,andwalkedontogetherinthefirststillhourofthenewday——I,andthiswoman,whosename,whosecharacter,whosestory,whoseobjectsinlife,whoseverypresencebymyside,atthatmoment,werefathomlessmysteriestome。Itwaslikeadream。WasIWalterHartright?Wasthisthewell-known,uneventfulroad,whereholidaypeoplestrolledonSundays?HadIreallyleft,littlemorethananhoursince,thequiet,decent,conventionallydomesticatmosphereofmymother’scottage?Iwastoobewildered——tooconsciousalsoofavaguesenseofsomethinglikeself-reproach——tospeaktomystrangecompanionforsomeminutes。Itwashervoiceagainthatfirstbrokethesilencebetweenus。
`Iwanttoaskyousomething,’shesaidsuddenly。`DoyouknowmanypeopleinLondon?’
`Yes,agreatmany。’
`Manymenofrankandtitle?’Therewasanunmistakabletoneofsuspicioninthestrangequestion。Ihesitatedaboutansweringit。
`Some,’Isaid,afteramoment’ssilence。
`Many’——shecametoafullstop,andlookedmesearchinglyintheface——`manymenoftherankofBaronet?’
Toomuchastonishedtoreply,Iquestionedherinmyturn。
`Whydoyouask?’
`BecauseIhope,formyownsake,thereisoneBaronetthatyoudon’tknow。’
`Willyoutellmehisname?’
`Ican’t——Idaren’t——IforgetmyselfwhenImentionit。’Shespokeloudlyandalmostfiercely,raisedherclenchedhandintheair,andshookitpassionately;then,onasudden,controlledherselfagain,andadded,intonesloweredtoawhisper,`Tellmewhichofthemyouknow。’
Icouldhardlyrefusetohumourherinsuchatrifle,andImentionedthreenames。Two,thenamesoffathersoffamilieswhosedaughtersItaught;one,thenameofabachelorwhohadoncetakenmeacruiseinhisyacht,tomakesketchesforhim。
`Ah!youdon’tknowhim,’shesaid,withasighofrelief。`Areyouamanofrankandtitleyourself?’
`Farfromit。Iamonlyadrawing-master。’
Asthereplypassedmylips——alittlebitterly,perhaps——shetookmyarmwiththeabruptnesswhichcharacterisedallheractions。
`Notamanofrankandtitle,’sherepeatedtoherself。`ThankGod!Imaytrusthim。’
Ihadhithertocontrivedtomastermycuriosityoutofconsiderationformycompanion;butitgotthebetterofmenow。
`Iamafraidyouhaveseriousreasontocomplainofsomemanofrankandtitle?’Isaid。`Iamafraidthebaronet,whosenameyouareunwillingtomentiontome,hasdoneyousomegrievouswrong?Ishethecauseofyourbeingouthereatthisstrangetimeofnight?’
`Don’taskme:don’tmakemetalkofit,’sheanswered。`I’mnotfitnow。Ihavebeencruellyusedandcruellywronged。Youwillbekinderthanever,ifyouwillwalkonfast,andnotspeaktome。Isadlywanttoquietmyself,ifIcan。’
Wemovedforwardagainataquickpace;andforhalfanhour,atleast,notawordpassedoneitherside。Fromtimetotime,beingforbiddentomakeanymoreinquiries,Istolealookatherface。Itwasalwaysthesame;thelipscloseshut,thebrowfrowning,theeyeslookingstraightforward,eagerlyandyetabsently。Wehadreachedthefirsthouses,andwerecloseonthenewWesleyancollege,beforehersetfeaturesrelaxed,andshespokeoncemore。
`DoyouliveinLondon?’shesaid。
`Yes。’AsIanswered,itstruckmethatshemighthaveformedsomeintentionofappealingtomeforassistanceoradvice,andthatIoughttospareherapossibledisappointmentbywarmingherofmyapproachingabsencefromhome。SoIadded,`ButtomorrowIshallbeawayfromLondonforsometime。Iamgoingintothecountry。’
`Where?’sheasked。`Northorsouth?’
`North——toCumberland。’
`Cumberland!’sherepeatedthewordtenderly。`Ah!IwishIwasgoingtheretoo。IwasoncehappyinCumberland。’
Itriedagaintolifttheveilthathungbetweenthiswomanandme。
`Perhapsyouwereborn,’Isaid,`inthebeautifulLakecountry。’
`No,’sheanswered。`IwasborninHampshire;butIoncewenttoschoolforalittlewhileinCumberland。Lakes?Idon’trememberanylakes。It’sLimmeridgevillage,andLimmeridgeHouse,Ishouldliketoseeagain。’
Itwasmyturnnowtostopsuddenly。Intheexcitedstateofmycuriosity,atthatmoment,thechancereferencetoMrFairlie’splaceofresidence,onthelipsofmystrangecompanion,staggeredmewithastonishment。
`Didyouhearanybodycallingafterus?’sheasked,lookingupanddowntheroadaffrightedly,theinstantIstopped。
`No,no。IwasonlystruckbythenameofLimmeridgeHouse。IhearditmentionedbysomeCumberlandpeopleafewdayssince。’
`Ah!notmypeople。MrsFairlieisdead;andherhusbandisdead;andtheirlittlegirlmaybemarriedandgoneawaybythistime。Ican’tsaywholivesatLimmeridgenow。Ifanymoreareleftthereofthatname,IonlyknowIlovethemforMrsFairlie’ssake。’
Sheseemedabouttosaymore;butwhileshewasspeaking,wecamewithinviewoftheturnpike,atthetopoftheAvenueRoad。Herhandtightenedroundmyarm,andshelookedanxiouslyatthegatebeforeus。
`Istheturnpikemanlookingout?’sheasked。
Hewasnotlookingout;nooneelsewasneartheplacewhenwepassedthroughthegate。Thesightofthegas-lampsandhousesseemedtoagitateher,andtomakeherimpatient。
`ThisisLondon,’shesaid。`DoyouseeanycarriageIcanget?Iamtiredandfrightened。Iwanttoshutmyselfinandbedrivenaway。’
Iexplainedtoherthatwemustwalkalittlefurthertogettoacab-stand,unlesswewerefortunateenoughtomeetwithanemptyvehicle;andthentriedtoresumethesubjectofCumberland。Itwasuseless。Thatideaofshuttingherselfin,andbeingdrivenaway,hadnowgotfullpossessionofhermind。Shecouldthinkandtalkofnothingelse。
WehadhardlyproceededathirdofthewaydowntheAvenueRoadwhenIsawacabdrawupatahouseafewdoorsbelowus,ontheoppositesideoftheway。Agentlemangotoutandlethimselfinatthegardendoor。Ihailedthecab,asthedrivermountedtheboxagain。Whenwecrossedtheroad,mycompanion’simpatienceincreasedtosuchanextentthatshealmostforcedmetorun。
`It’ssolate,’shesaid。`Iamonlyinahurrybecauseit’ssolate。’
`Ican’ttakeyou,sir,ifyou’renotgoingtowardsTottenhamCourtRoad,’saidthedrivercivilly,whenIopenedthecabdoor。`Myhorseisdeadbeat,andIcan’tgethimnofurtherthanthestable。’
`Yes,yes。Thatwilldoforme。I’mgoingthatway——I’mgoingthatway。’Shespokewithbreathlesseagerness,andpressedbymeintothecab。
IhadassuredmyselfthatthemanwassoberaswellascivilbeforeIletherenterthevehicle。Andnow,whenshewasseatedinside,Ientreatedhertoletmeseehersetdownsafelyatherdestination。
`No,no,no,’shesaidvehemently。`I’mquitesafe,andquitehappynow。Ifyouareagentleman,rememberyourpromise。LethimdriveontillIstophim。Thankyou——oh!thankyou,thankyou!’
Myhandwasonthecabdoor。Shecaughtitinhers,kissedit,andpusheditaway。Thecabdroveoffatthesamemoment——Istartedintotheroad,withsomevagueideaofstoppingitagain,Ihardlyknewwhy——hesitatedfromdreadoffrighteninganddistressingher——called,atlast,butnotloudlyenoughtoattractthedriver’sattention。Thesoundofthewheelsgrewfainterinthedistance——thecabmeltedintotheblackshadowsontheroad——thewomaninwhitewasgone。
Tenminutesormorehadpassed。Iwasstillonthesamesideoftheway;nowmechanicallywalkingforwardafewpaces;nowstoppingagainabsently。AtonemomentIfoundmyselfdoubtingtherealityofmyownadventure;atanotherIwasperplexedanddistressedbyanuneasysenseofhavingdonewrong,whichyetleftmeconfusedlyignorantofhowIcouldhavedoneright。IhardlyknewwhereIwasgoing,orwhatImeanttodonext;Iwasconsciousofnothingbuttheconfusionofmyownthoughts,whenIwasabruptlyrecalledtomyself——awakened,Imightalmostsay——bythesoundofrapidlyapproachingwheelsclosebehindme。
Iwasonthedarksideoftheroad,inthethickshadowofsomegardentrees,whenIstoppedtolookround。Ontheoppositeandlightersideoftheway,ashortdistancebelowme,apolicemanwasstrollingalonginthedirectionoftheRegent’sPark。
Thecarriagepassedme——anopenchaisedrivenbytwomen。
`Stop!’criedone。`There’sapoliceman。Let’saskhim-’
Thehorsewasinstantlypulledup,afewyardsbeyondthedarkplacewhereIstood。
`Policeman!’criedthefirstspeaker。`Haveyouseenawomanpassthisway?’
`Whatsortofwoman,sir?’
`Awomaninalavender-colouredgown——’
`No,no,’interposedthesecondman。`Theclotheswegaveherwerefoundonherbed。Shemusthavegoneawayintheclothessheworewhenshecametous。Inwhite,policeman。Awomaninwhite。’
`Ihaven’tseenher,sir。’
`Ifyouoranyofyourmenmeetwiththewoman,stopher,andsendherincarefulkeepingtothataddress。I’llpayallexpenses,andafairrewardintothebargain。’
Thepolicemanlookedatthecardthatwashandeddowntohim。
`Whyarewetostopher,sir?Whathasshedone?’
`Done!ShehasescapedfrommyAsylum。Don’tforget;awomaninwhite。Driveon。’
`ShehasescapedfrommyAsylum!’
Icannotsaywithtruththattheterribleinferencewhichthesewordssuggestedflasheduponmelikeanewrevelation。Someofthestrangequestionsputtomebythewomaninwhite,aftermyill-consideredpromisetoleaveherfreetoactasshepleased,hadsuggestedtheconclusioneitherthatshewasnaturallyflightyandunsettled,orthatsomerecentshockofterrorhaddisturbedthebalanceofherfaculties。ButtheideaofabsoluteinsanitywhichweallassociatewiththeverynameofanAsylum,had,Icanhonestlydeclare,neveroccurredtome,inconnectionwithher。Ihadseennothing,inherlanguageorheractions,tojustifyitatthetime;andevenwiththenewlightthrownonherbythewordswhichthestrangerhadaddressedtothepoliceman,Icouldseenothingtojustifyitnow。
WhathadIdone?Assistedthevictimofthemosthorribleofallfalseimprisonmentstoescape;orcastlooseonthewideworldofLondonanunfortunatecreature,whoseactionsitwasmyduty,andeveryman’sduty,mercifullytocontrol?Iturnedsickatheartwhenthequestionoccurredtome,andwhenIfeltself-reproachfullythatitwasaskedtoolate。
Inthedisturbedstateofmymind,itwasuselesstothinkofgoingtobed,whenIatlastgotbacktomychambersinClement’sInn。BeforemanyhourselapseditwouldbenecessarytostartonmyjourneytoCumberland。Isatdownandtried,firsttosketch,thentoread——butthewomaninwhitegotbetweenmeandmypencil,betweenmeandmybook。Hadtheforlorncreaturecometoanyharm?Thatwasmyfirstthought,thoughIshrankselfishlyfromconfrontingit。Otherthoughtsfollowed,onwhichitwaslessharrowingtodwell。Wherehadshestoppedthecab?Whathadbecomeofhernow?Hadshebeentracedandcapturedbythemeninthechaise?Orwasshestillcapableofcontrollingherownactions;andwerewetwofollowingourwidelypartedroadstowardsonepointinthemysteriousfuture,atwhichweweretomeetoncemore?
Itwasareliefwhenthehourcametolockmydoor,tohidfarewelltoLondonpursuits,Londonpupils,andLondonfriends,andtobeinmovementagaintowardsnewinterestsandanewlife。Eventhehustleandconfusionattherailwayterminus,sowearisomeandbewilderingatothertimes,rousedmeanddidmegood。
MytravellinginstructionsdirectedmetogotoCarlisle,andthentodivergebyabranchrailwaywhichraninthedirectionofthecoast。Asamisfortunetobeginwith,ourenginebrokedownbetweenLancasterandCarlisle。Thedelayoccasionedbythisaccidentcausedmetobetoolateforthebranchtrain,bywhichIwastohavegoneonimmediately。Ihadtowaitsomehours;andwhenalatertrainfinallydepositedmeattheneareststationtoLimmeridgeHouse,itwaspastten,andthenightwassodarkthatIcouldhardlyseemywaytothepony-chaisewhichMrFairliehadorderedtobeinwaitingforme。
Thedriverwasevidentlydiscomposedbythelatenessofmyarrival。HewasinthatstateofhighlyrespectfulsulkinesswhichispeculiartoEnglishservants。Wedroveawayslowlythroughthedarknessinperfectsilence-Theroadswerehad,andthedenseobscurityofthenightincreasedthedifficultyofgettingoverthegroundquickly。Itwas,bymywatch,nearlyanhourandahalffromthetimeofourleavingthestationbeforeIheardthesoundoftheseainthedistance,andthecrunchofourwheelsonasmoothgraveldrive。Wehadpassedonegatebeforeenteringthedrive,andwepassedanotherbeforewedrewupatthehouse。Iwasreceivedbyasolemnman-servantoutoflivery,wasinformedthatthefamilyhadretiredforthenight,andwasthenledintoalargeandloftyroomwheremysupperwasawaitingme,inaforlornmanner,atoneextremityofalonesomemahoganywildernessofdining-table。
Iwastootiredandoutofspiritstoeatordrinkmuch,especiallywiththesolemnservantwaitingonmeaselaboratelyasifasmalldinnerpartyhadarrivedatthehouseinsteadofasolitaryman。InaquarterofanhourIwasreadytobetakenuptomybedchamber。Thesolemnservantconductedmeintoaprettilyfurnishedroom——said,`Breakfastatnineo’clock,sir’——lookedallroundhimtoseethateverythingwasinitsproperplace,andnoiselesslywithdrew。
`WhatshallIseeinmydreamstonight?’Ithoughttomyself,asIputoutthecandle;`thewomaninwhite?ortheunknowninhabitantsofthisCumberlandmansion?’Itwasastrangesensationtobesleepinginthehouse,likeafriendofthefamily,andyetnottoknowoneoftheinmates,evenbysight!
WhenIrosethenextmorninganddrewupmyblind,theseaopenedbeforemejoyouslyunderthebroadAugustsunlight,andthedistantcoastofScotlandfringedthehorizonwithitslinesofmeltingblue。
Theviewwassuchasurprise,andsuchachangetome,aftermywearyLondonexperienceofbrickandmortarlandscape,thatIseemedtoburstintoanewlifeandanewsetofthoughtsthemomentIlookedatit。Aconfusedsensationofhavingsuddenlylostmyfamiliaritywiththepast,withoutacquiringanyadditionalclearnessofideainreferencetothepresentorthefuture,tookpossessionofmymind。Circumstancesthatwerebutafewdaysoldfadedbackinmymemory,asiftheyhadhappenedmonthsandmonthssince。Pesca’squaintannouncementofthemeansbywhichhehadprocuredmemypresentemployment;thefarewelleveningIhadpassedwithmymotherandsister;evenmymysteriousadventureonthewayhomefromHampstead——hadallbecomelikeeventswhichmighthaveoccurredatsomeformerepochofmyexistence。Althoughthewomaninwhitewasstillinmymind,theimageofherseemedtohavegrowndullandfaintalready。
Alittlebeforenineo’clock,Idescendedtotheground-floorofthehouse。Thesolemnman-servantofthenightbeforemetmewanderingamongthepassages,andcompassionatelyshowedmethewaytothebreakfast-room。
Myfirstglanceroundme,asthemanopenedthedoor,disclosedawell-furnishedbreakfast-table,standinginthemiddleofalongroom,withmanywindowsinit。Ilookedfromthetabletothewindowfarthestfromme,andsawaladystandingatit,withherbackturnedtowardsme。Theinstantmyeyesrestedonher,Iwasstruckbytherarebeautyofherform,andbytheunaffectedgraceofherattitude。Herfigurewastall,yetnottootall;comelyandwell-developed,yetnotfat;herheadsetonhershoulderswithaneasy,pliantfirmness;herwaist,perfectionintheeyesofaman,foritoccupieditsnaturalplace,itfilledoutitsnaturalcircle,itwasvisiblyanddelightfullyundeformedbystays。Shehadnotheardmyentranceintotheroom;andIallowedmyselftheluxuryofadmiringherforafewmoments,beforeImovedoneofthechairsnearme,astheleastembarrassingmeansofattractingherattention。Sheturnedtowardsmeimmediately。Theeasyeleganceofeverymovementofherlimbsandbodyassoonasshebegantoadvancefromthefarendoftheroom,setmeinaflutterofexpectationtoseeherfaceclearly。Sheleftthewindow——andIsaidtomyself,Theladyisdark。Shemovedforwardafewsteps——andIsaidtomyself,Theladyisyoung。Sheapproachednearer——andIsaidtomyselfwithasenseofsurprisewhichwordsfailmetoexpress,Theladyisugly!
Neverwastheoldconventionalmaxim,thatNaturecannoterr,moreflatlycontradicted——neverwasthefairpromiseofalovelyfiguremorestrangelyandstartlinglybeliedbythefaceandheadthatcrownedit。Thelady’scomplexionwasalmostswarthy,andthedarkdownonherupperlipwasalmostamoustache。Shehadalarge,firm,masculinemouthandjaw;prominent,piercing,resolutebrowneyes;andthick,coal-blackhair,growingunusuallylowdownonherforehead。Herexpression——brightfrank,andintelligent——appeared,whileshewassilent,tobealtogetherwantinginthosefeminineattractionsofgentlenessandpliability,withoutwhichthebeautyofthehandsomestwomanaliveisbeautyincomplete。Toseesuchafaceasthissetonshouldersthatasculptorwouldhavelongedtomodel——tobecharmedbythemodestgracesofactionthroughwhichthesymmetricallimbsbetrayedtheirbeautywhentheymoved,andthentobealmostrepelledbythemasculineformandmasculinelookofthefeaturesinwhichtheperfectlyshapedfigureended——wastofeelasensationoddlyakintothehelplessdiscomfortfamiliartousallinsleep,whenwerecogniseyetcannotreconciletheanomaliesandcontradictionsofadream。
`MrHartright?’saidtheladyinterrogatively,herdarkfacelightingupwithasmile,andsofteningandgrowingwomanlythemomentshebegantospeak。`Weresignedallhopeofyoulastnight,andwenttobedasusual。Acceptmyapologiesforourapparentwantofattention;andallowmetointroducemyselfasoneofyourpupils。Shallweshakehands?Isupposewemustcometoitsoonerorlater——andwhynotsooner?’
Theseoddwordsofwelcomewerespokeninaclear,ringing,pleasantvoice。Theofferedhand——ratherlarge,butbeautifullyformed——wasgiventomewiththeeasy,unaffectedself-relianceofahighly-bredwoman。Wesatdowntogetheratthebreakfast-tableinascordialandcustomaryamannerasifwehadknowneachotherforyears,andhadmetatLimmeridgeHousetotalkoveroldtimesbypreviousappointment。
`Ihopeyoucomeheregood-humouredlydeterminedtomakethehistofyourposition,’continuedthelady。`Youwillhavetobeginthismorningbyputtingupwithnoothercompanyatbreakfastthanmine。Mysisterisinherownroom,nursingthatessentiallyfemininemalady,aslightheadache;andheroldgoverness,MrsVesey,ischaritablyattendingonherwithrestorativetea。Myuncle,MrFairlie,neverjoinsusatanyofourmeals:heisaninvalid,andkeepsbachelorstateinhisownapartments。Thereisnobodyelseinthehousebutme。Twoyoungladieshavebeenstayinghere,buttheywentawayyesterday,indespair;andnowonder。AllthroughtheirvisitinconsequenceofMrfairlie’sinvalidconditionweproducednosuchconvenienceinthehouseasaflirtable,danceable,small-talkablecreatureofthemalesex;andtheconsequencewas,wedidnothingbutquarrel,especiallyatdinner-time。Howcanyouexpectfourwomentodinetogetheraloneeveryday,andnotquarrel?Wearesuchfools,wecan’tentertaineachotherattable。YouseeIdon’tthinkmuchofmyownsex,MrHartright——whichwillyouhave,teaorcoffee?——nowomandoesthinkmuchofherownsex,althoughfewofthemconfessitasfreelyasIdo。Dearme,youlookpuzzled。Why?Areyouwonderingwhatyouwillhaveforbreakfast?orareyousurprisedatmycarelesswayoftalking?lnthefirstcase,Iadviseyou,asafriend,tohavenothingtodowiththatcoldhamatyourelbow,andtowaittilltheomelettecomesin。Inthesecondcase,Iwillgiveyousometeatocomposeyourspirits,anddoallawomancanwhichisverylittle,by-the-byetoholdmytongue。’
Shehandedmemycupoftea,laughinggaily。Herlightflowoftalk,andherlivelyfamiliarityofmannerwithatotalstranger,wereaccompaniedbyanunaffectednaturalnessandaneasyinbornconfidenceinherselfandherposition,whichwouldhavesecuredhertherespectofthemostaudaciousmanbreathing。Whileitwasimpossibletobeformalandreservedinhercompany,itwasmorethanimpossibletotakethefaintestvestigeofalibertywithher,eveninthought。Ifeltthisinstinctively,evenwhileIcaughttheinfectionofherownbrightgaietyofspirits——evenwhileIdidmybesttoanswerherinherownfrank,livelyway。
`Yes,yes,’shesaid,whenIhadsuggestedtheonlyexplanationIcouldoffer,toaccountformyperplexedlooks,`Iunderstand。Youaresuchaperfectstrangerinthehouse,thatyouarepuzzledbymyfamiliarreferencestotheworthyinhabitants。Naturalenough:Ioughttohavethoughtofitbefore。Atanyrate,Icansetitrightnow。SupposeIbeginwithmyself,soastogetdonewiththatpartofthesubjectassoonaspossible?MynameisMarianHalcombe;andIamasinaccurateaswomenusuallyare,incallingMrfairliemyuncle,andMissFairliemysister。Mymotherwastwicemarried:thefirsttimetoMrHalcombe,myfather;thesecondtimetoMrFairlie,myhalf-sister’sfather。Exceptthatwearebothorphans,weareineveryrespectasunlikeeachotheraspossible。Myfatherwasapoorman,andMissFairlie’sfatherwasarichman。Ihavegotnothing,andshehasafortune。Iamdarkandugly,andsheisfairandpretty。Everybodythinksmecrabbedandoddwithperfectjustice;andeverybodythinkshersweet-temperedandcharmingwithmorejusticestill。Inshort,sheisanangel;andIam——Trysomeofthatmarmalade,MrHartright,andfinishthesentence,inthenameoffemalepropriety,foryourself。WhatamItotellyouaboutMrFairlie?Uponmyhonour,Ihardlyknow。Heissuretosendforyouafterbreakfast,andyoucanstudyhimforyourself。Inthemeantime,Imayinformyou,first,thatheisthelateMrFairlie’syoungerbrother;secondly,thatheisasingleman;andthirdly,thatheisMissFairlie’sguardian。Iwon’tlivewithouther,andshecan’tlivewithoutme;andthatishowIcometobeatLimmeridgeHouse。MysisterandIarehonestlyfondofeachother;which,youwillsay,isperfectlyunaccountable,underthecircumstances,andIquiteagreewithyou——butsoitis。Youmustpleasebothofus,MrHartright,orpleaseneitherofus:and,whatisstillmoretrying,youwillbethrownentirelyuponoursociety。MrsVeseyisanexcellentperson,whopossessesallthecardinalvirtues,andcountsfornothing;andMrFairlieistoogreataninvalidtobeacompanionforanybody。Idon’tknowwhatisthematterwithhim,andthedoctorsdon’tknowwhatisthematterwithhim,andhedoesn’tknowhimselfwhatisthematterwithhim。Weallsayit’sonthenerves,andwenoneofusknowwhatwemeanwhenwesayit。However,Iadviseyoutohumourhislittlepeculiarities,whenyouseehimtoday。Admirehiscollectionofcoins,prints,andwater-colourdrawings,andyouwillwinhisheart。Uponmyword,ifyoucanbecontentedwithaquietcountrylife,Idon’tseewhyyoushouldnotgetonverywellhere。frombreakfasttolunch,Mrfairlie’sdrawingswilloccupyyou。Afterlunch,MissFairlieandIshoulderoursketch-books,andgoouttomisrepresentNature,underyourdirections。Drawingisherfavouritewhim,mind,notmine。Womencan’tdraw——theirmindsaretooflighty,andtheireyesaretooinattentive。Nomatter——mysisterlikesit;soIwastepaintandspoilTaper,forhersake,ascomposedlyasanywomaninEngland。Asfortheevenings,Ithinkwecanhelpyouthroughthem。MissFairlieplaysdelightfully。Formyownpoorpart,Idon’tknowonenoteofmusicfromtheother;butIcanmatchyouatchess,backgammon,écarté,andwiththeinevitablefemaledrawbacksevenatbilliardsaswell。Whatdoyouthinkoftheprogramme?Canyoureconcileyourselftoourquiet,regularlife?ordoyoumeantoberestless,andsecretlythirstforchangeandadventure,inthehumdrumatmosphereofLimmeridgeHouse?’
Shehadrunonthusfar,inhergracefullybanteringway,withnootherinterruptionsonmypartthantheunimportantreplieswhichpolitenessrequiredofme。Theturnoftheexpression,however,inherlastquestion,orrathertheonechanceword,`adventure,’lightlyasitfellfromherlips,recalledmythoughtstomymeetingwiththewomaninwhite,andurgedmetodiscovertheconnectionwhichthestranger’sownreferencetoMrsFairlieinformedmemustoncehaveexistedbetweenthenamelessfugitivefromtheAsylum,andtheformermistressofLunmeridgeHouse。
`EvenifIwerethemostrestlessofmankind,’Isaid,`Ishouldbeinnodangerofthirstingafteradventuresforsometimetocome。TheverynightbeforeIarrivedatthishouse,Imetwithanadventure;andthewonderandexcitementofit,Icanassureyou,MissHalcombe,willlastmeforthewholetermofmystayinCumberland,ifnotforamuchlongerperiod。’
`Youdon’tsayso,MrHartright!MayIhearit?’
`Youhaveaclaimtohearit。Thechiefpersonintheadventurewasatotalstrangertome,andmayperhapsbeatotalstrangertoyou;butshecertainlymentionedthenameofthelateMrsFairlieintermsofthesincerestgratitudeandregard。’
`Mentionedmymother’sname!Youinterestmeindescribably。Praygoon。’
IatoncerelatedthecircumstancesunderwhichIhadmetthewomaninwhite,exactlyastheyhadoccurred;andIrepeatedwhatshehadsaidtomeaboutMrsFairlieandLimmeridgeHouse,wordforword。
MissHalcombe’sbrightresoluteeyeslookedeagerlyintomine,fromthebeginningofthenarrativetotheend。Herfaceexpressedvividinterestandastonishment,butnothingmore。ShewasevidentlyasfarfromknowingofanycluetothemysteryasIwasmyself。
`Areyouquitesureofthosewordsreferringtomymother?’sheasked。
`Quitesure,’Ireplied。`Whoevershemaybe,thewomanwasonceatschoolinthevillageofLimmeridge,wastreatedwithespecialkindnessbyMrsFairlie,and,ingratefulremembranceofthatkindness,feelsanaffectionateinterestinallsurvivingmembersofthefamily。SheknewthatMrsFairlieandherhusbandwerebothdead;andshespokeofMissFairlieasiftheyhadknowneachotherwhentheywerechildren。’
`Yousaid,Ithink,thatshedeniedbelongingtothisplace?’
`Yes,shetoldmeshecamefromHampshire。’
`Andyouentirelyfailedtofindouthername?’
`Entirely。’
`Verystrange。Ithinkyouwerequitejustified,MrHartright,ingivingthepoorcreatureherliberty,forsheseemstohavedonenothinginyourpresencetoshowherselfunfittoenjoyit。ButIwishyouhadbeenalittlemoreresoluteaboutfindingouthername。Wemustreallyclearupthismystery,insomeway。YouhadbetternotspeakofityettoMrFairlie,ortomysister。Theyarebothofthem,Iamcertain,quiteasignorantofwhothewomanis,andofwhatherpasthistoryinconnectionwithuscanbe,asIammyself。Buttheyarealso,inwidelydifferentways,rathernervousandsensitive;andyouwouldonlyfidgetoneandalarmtheothertonopurpose。Asformyself,Iamallaflamewithcuriosity,andIdevotemywholeenergiestothebusinessofdiscoveryfromthismoment。Whenmymothercamehere,afterhersecondmarriage,shecertainlyestablishedthevillageschooljustasitexistsatthepresenttime。Buttheoldteachersarealldead,orgoneelsewhere:andnoenlightenmentistobehopedforfromthatquarter。TheonlyotheralternativeIcanthinkof——’
Atthispointwewereinterruptedbytheentranceoftheservant,withamessagefromMrFairlie,intimatingthathewouldbegladtoseeme,assoonasIhaddonebreakfast。
`Waitinthehall,’saidMissHalcombe,answeringtheservantforme,inherquick,readyway。`MrHartrightwillcomeoutdirectly。Iwasabouttosay,’shewenton,addressingmeagain,`thatmysisterandIhavealargecollectionofmymother’sletters,addressedtomyfatherandtohers。Intheabsenceofanyothermeansofgettinginformation,Iwillpassthemorninginlookingovermymother’scorrespondencewithMrFairlie。HewasfondofLondon,andwasconstantlyawayfromhiscountryhome;andshewasaccustomed,atsuchtimes,towriteandreporttohimhowthingswentonatLimmeridge。Herlettersarefullofreferencestotheschoolinwhichshetooksostronganinterest;andIthinkitmorethanlikelythatImayhavediscoveredsomethingwhenwemeetagain。Theluncheonhouristwo,MrHartright。Ishallhavethepleasureofintroducingyoutomysisterbythattime,andwewilloccupytheafternoonindrivingroundtheneighbourhoodandshowingyouallourpetpointsofview。Tilltwoo’clock,then,farewell。’
Shenoddedtomewiththelivelygrace,thedelightfulrefinementoffamiliarity,whichcharacterisedallthatShedidandallthatshesaid;anddisappearedbyadooratthelowerendoftheroom。Assoonasshehadleftme,Iturnedmystepstowardsthehall,andfollowedtheservant,onmyway,forthefirsttime,tothepresenceofMrFairlie。