Sometimeshewouldthrownhimselfonthegrassandreadaloud;thenDaviewouldthrowhimselfbesidehim,andletthewordshecouldnotunderstandflowoverhiminaspiritualcataract。Ontheriverwasaboat,andthoughatfirsthewasawkwardenoughintheuseoftheoars,hewassoonabletoenjoythoroughlyarowupordownthestream,especiallyinthetwilight。
Hewasalonewithhisbookunderabeech-treeonasteepslopetotheriver,thedayafterhisaffairwithlordForgue:readingaloud,hedidnotheartheapproachofhislordship。
“Mr。Grant,“hesaid,“ifyouwillsayyouaresorryyouthrewmefrommyhorse,IwillsayIamsorryIstruckyou。“
“Iamverysorry,“saidDonal,rising,“thatitwasnecessarytothrowyoufromyourhorse;andperhapsyourlordshipmayrememberthatyoustruckmebeforeIdidso。“
“Thathasnothingtodowithit。Iproposeanaccommodation,orcompromise,orwhatyouchoosetocallit:ifyouwilldotheone,I
willdotheother。“
“WhatIthinkIoughttodo,mylord,Idowithoutbargaining。IamnotsorryIthrewyoufromyourhorse,andtosaysowouldbetolie。“
“Ofcourseeverybodythinkshimselfintheright!”saidhislordshipwithasmallsneer。
“Itdoesnotfollowthatnooneiseverintheright!”returnedDonal。“Doesyourlordshipthinkyouwereintheright——eithertowardsmeorthepooranimalwhocouldnotobeyyoubecausehewasintorture?”
“Idon'tsayIdo。“
“Theneverybodydoesnotthinkhimselfintheright!Itakeyourlordship'sadmissionasanapology。“
“Bynomeans:whenImakeanapology,Iwilldoit;Iwillnotsneakoutofit。“
Hewasevidentlyatstrifewithhimself:heknewhewaswrong,butcouldnotyetbringhimselftosayso。Itisoneofthepoorestofhumanweaknessesthatamanshouldbeashamedofsayinghehasdonewrong,insteadofsoashamedofhavingdonewrongthathecannotresttillhehassaidso;fortheshamecleavesfastuntiltheconfessionremovesit。
Forguewalkedawayasteportwo,andstoodwithhisbacktoDonal,pokingthepointofhisstickintothegrass。Allatonceheturnedandsaid:
“Iwillapologizeifyouwilltellmeonething。“
“Iwilltellyouwhetheryouapologizeornot,“saidDonal。“Ihaveneveraskedyoutoapologize。“
“Tellmethenwhyyoudidnotreturneitherofmyblowsyesterday。“
“Ishouldliketoknowwhyyouask——butIwillansweryou:simplybecausetodosowouldhavebeentodisobeymymaster。“
“That'sasortofthingIdon'tunderstand。ButIonlywantedtoknowitwasnotcowardice;Icouldnotmakeanapologytoacoward。“
“IfIwereacoward,youwouldowemeanapologyallthesame,andheisapoorcreaturewhowillnotpayhisdebts。ButIhopeitisnotnecessaryIshouldeitherthrashorinsultyourlordshiptoconvinceyouIfearyounomorethanthatblackbirdthere!”
Forguegavealittlelaugh。Amoment'spausefollowed。Thenheheldouthishand,butinahalf-hesitating,almostsheepishway:
“Well,well!shakehands,“hesaid。
“No,mylord,“returnedDonal。“Ibearyourlordshipnottheslightestill-will,butIwillshakehandswithnooneinahalf-heartedway,andnootherwayispossiblewhileyouareuncertainwhetherIamacowardornot。“
Sosaying,hethrewhimselfagainuponthegrass,andlordForguewalkedaway,offendedafresh。
Thenextmorninghecameintotheschool-roomwhereDonalsatatlessonswithDavie。Hehadabookinhishand。
“Mr。Grant,“hesaid,“willyouhelpmewiththispassageinXenophon?”
“Withallmyheart,“answeredDonal,andinafewmomentshadhimoutofhisdifficulty。
Butinsteadofgoing,hislordshipsatdownalittlewayoff,andwentonwithhisreading——satuntilmasterandpupilwentout,andlefthimsittingthere。Thenextmorninghecamewithafreshrequest,andDonalfoundoccasiontoapprovewarmlyofatranslationheproposed。Fromthattimehecamealmosteverymorning。Hewasnogreatscholar,butwiththeprospectofanEnglishuniversitybeforehim,thoughtitbettertoreadalittle。
Thehousekeeperatthecastlewasagoodwoman,andverykindtoDonal,feelingperhapsthathefelltohercarethemorethathewasbybirthofherownclass;foritwassaidinthecastle,“thetutormakesnopretencetobeingagentleman。“Whetherhewasthemoreorthelessofoneonthataccount,Ileavemyreadertojudgeaccordingtohiscapability。Sometimeswhenhisdinnerwasserved,mistressBrookeswouldherselfappear,toensureproperattentiontohim,andwouldsitdownandtalktohimwhileheate,readytoriseandservehimifnecessary。Theirearlydayshadhadsomethingincommon,thoughshecamefromthesouthernhighlandsofgreenhillsandmoresheep。Shegavehimsomeratherneedfulinformationaboutthefamily;andhesoonperceivedthattherewouldhavebeenlesspeaceinthehousebutforhergoodtemperandgoodsense。
LadyArcturawasthedaughterofthelastlordMorven,andleftsoleheirtotheproperty;ForgueandhisbrotherDaviewerethesonsofthepresentearl。Thepresentlordwasthebrotherofthelast,andhadlivedwithhimforsomeyearsbeforehesucceeded。Hewasamanofpeculiarandstudioushabits;nobodyeverseemedtotaketohim;
andsincehiswife'sdeath,hishealthhadbeenprecarious。Thoughastrangeman,hewasajustifnotgenerousmaster。HisbrotherhadlefthimguardiantoladyArctura,andhehadlivedinthecastleasbefore。Hiswifewasaverylovely,butdelicatewoman,andlatterlyallbutconfinedtoherroom。Sinceherdeathagreatchangehadpasseduponherhusband。Certainlyhisbehaviourwassometimeshardtounderstand。
“Henevergangstothekirk——noanceinatwalmonth!”saidMrs。
Brookes。“Fowksudbedacent,an'whaeverh'ardo'dacentfowk'atdidnagangtothekirkanceo'theSabbath!Idinnahaudwi'gaein'
twisemysel':yehaenatimetoreadyerainchaptersgienyedothat。Buttheman'saweelbehavetman,saefarasyesee,naithersayin'nordoin'thethingheshouldna:whathemaythink,wha'stosay!themairten'erconsciencecoontsitsel'thewaursinner;an'
I'mnogaein'tothinkwhatIcannaken!There'ssome'atsaysheledageylowsekin'o'alifeaforehecamtobidewi'theauldyerl;hewaswi'theairmyi'furreignpairts,theysay;butabootthatIkennaething。Theauldyerlwassomethingo'asancthimsel',ristthebaneso''im!We'renothejeedgeso'theleevin'
onymairnoro'thedeid!ButImaunawa'toluikefterthings;aminute'sanhoorlostwi'thaefulelasses。Ye'reafreen'o'
An'rewComin's,theytellme,sir:Idinnakenwhattodowi''slass,she'sthatupsettin'!Yewadthinkshewasaneo'thefaimilywhiles;an'itherwhilesshe'sthatsilly!”
“I'msorrytohearit!”saidDonal。“Hergrandfatherandgrandmotherarethebestofgoodpeople。“
“Idaursay!Butthere'sjistwhatIhaeseen:them'at'sbrouchtuptheirainweeleneuch,theirson'sbairnthey'lljistlatgang。
Aitherthey'retiredo'thething,ortheythinkthey'resafe。
TheyhaelippenttilyoongEppyaheapowermuckle。ButI'mnaitheraprophetnorthesono'aprophet,astheministersaidlastSunday——an'saidwell,honestman!forit'stheplaintrowth:
he'snoaneo'themajornoryettheminoranes!Buthaudhimooto'thepu'pitan'hedisnothatill。Hisdochter'snoanilllassaither,an'agreatfreen'o'myleddy's。ButI'mcleanashamedo'
mysel'togangonthisgait。Haeyedunewi'yerdenner,Mr。
Grant?——Weel,I'lljistsen'toclearawa',an'latyetilyerlessons。“
CHAPTERXVII。
LADYARCTURA。
ItwasnowalmostthreeweekssinceDonalhadbecomeaninmateofthecastle,andhehadscarcelysethiseyesontheladyofthehouse。Oncehehadseenherback,andmorethanoncehadcaughtaglimpseofherprofile,buthehadneverreallyseenherface,andtheyhadneverspokentoeachother。
Oneafternoonhewassaunteringalongundertheoverhangingboughsofanavenueofbeeches,formerlytheapproachtoahouseinwhichthefamilyhadoncelived,butwhichhadnowanotherentrance。HehadinhishandacopyoftheApocrypha,whichhehadneverseentillhefoundthisinthelibrary。Inhisusualfashionhehadbeguntoreaditthrough,andwasnowinthebookcalledtheWisdomofSolomon,atthe17thchapter,narratingthediscomfitureofcertainmagicians。Takenwiththebeautyofthepassage,hesatdownonanoldstone-roller,andreadaloud。Partsofthepassagewerethese——theywillenrichmypage:——
“Forthey,thatpromisedtodriveawayterrorsandtroublesfromasicksoul,weresickthemselvesoffear,worthytobelaughedat。
“……Forwickedness,condemnedbyherownwitness,isverytimorous,andbeingpressedwithconscience,alwaysforecastethgrievousthings。
“……Buttheysleepingthesamesleepthatnight,whichwasindeedintolerable,andwhichcameuponthemoutofthebottomsofinevitablehell,“Werepartlyvexedwithmonstrousapparitions,andpartlyfainted,theirheartfailingthem:forasuddenfear,andnotlookedfor,cameuponthem。
“Sothenwhosoevertherefelldownwasstraitlykept,shutupinaprisonwithoutironbars。
“Forwhetherhewerehusbandman,orshepherd,oralabourerinthefield,hewasovertaken,andenduredthatnecessity,whichcouldnotbeavoided:fortheywereallboundwithonechainofdarkness。
“Whetheritwereawhistlingwind,oramelodiousnoiseofbirdsamongthespreadingbranches,orapleasingfallofwaterrunningviolently,“Oraterriblesoundofstonescastdown,orarunningthatcouldnotbeseenofskippingbeasts,oraroaringvoiceofmostsavagewildbeasts,orareboundingechofromthehollowmountains;thesethingsmadethemtoswoonforfear。
“Forthewholeworldshinedwithclearlight,andnonewerehinderedintheirlabour:
“Overthemonlywasspreadanheavynight,animageofthatdarknesswhichshouldafterwardreceivethem:butyetweretheyuntothemselvesmoregrievousthanthedarkness。“
Hehadreadsomuch,andstoppedtothinkalittle;forthroughtheincongruityofit,whichhedidnotdoubtarosefrompovertyofimaginationinthetranslator,renderinghimunabletoseewhatthepoetmeant,ranyetanindubitableveinofawfultruth,whetherfullyintendedbythewriterornotmatteredlittletosuchareaderasDonal——when,liftinghiseyes,hesawladyArcturastandingbeforehimwithastrangelisteninglook。Aspellseemeduponher;
herfacewaswhite,herlipswhiteandalittleparted。
Attracted,asshewasabouttopasshim,bythesoundofwhatwasnonethelessliketheBiblefromthesolemncrooningwayinwhichDonalreadittothecongregationofhislisteningthoughts,yetwascertainlynottheBible,shewaspresentlyfascinatedbythevagueterrorofwhatsheheard,andstoodabsorbed:withoutmuchoriginativepower,shehadanimaginationpromptanddelicateandstronginresponse。
Donalhadbutaglanceofher;hiseyesreturnedagainatoncetohisbook,andhesatsilentandmotionless,thoughnotseeingaword。Foroneinstantshestoodstill;thenheheardthesoftsoundofherdressas,withnoiselessfoot,shestoleback,andtookanotherway。
Imustgivemyreaderashadowofher。Shewasrathertall,slender,andfair。Butherhairwasdark,andsocrinklythat,whenmerelyparted,itdidalltherestitself。Herforeheadwasratherlow。Hereyesweresoftlydark,andherfeaturesveryregular——hernoseperhapshardlylargeenough,orherchin。Hermouthwasratherthin-lipped,butwouldhavebeensweetexceptforaseeminglyhabitualexpressionofpain。Apairofdarkbrowsoverhunghersweeteyes,andgavealookofdoubtfultemper,yetrestoredsomethingofthestrengthlackingalittleinnoseandchin。Itwasaninteresting——notaquiteharmoniousface,andinhappinessmight,Donalthought,bebeautifuleven。Herfigurewaseminentlygraceful——asDonalsawwhenheraisedhiseyesatthesoundofherretreat。Hethoughtsheneedednothaverunawayasfromsomethingdangerous:whydidshenotpasshimlikeanyotherservantofthehouse?Butwhatseemedtohimlikecontemptdidnothurthim。Hewastoofullofrealitiestobemuchaffectedbyopinionhowevershown。Besides,hehadhadhissorrowandhadlearnedhislesson。
Hewasapoet——butoneofthefewwithoutanyweaklongingafterlisteningears。Thepoetwhosepoetryneedsanaudience,canbebutlittleofapoet;neithercanthepoetrythatisofnogoodtothemanhimself,beofmuchgoodtoanybodyelse。Therearethesong-poetsandthelife-poets,orrathertheGod-poems。Sympathyislovelyanddear——chieflywhenitcomesunsought;butthefameafterwhichsomanywould-be,yea,somanyrealpoetssigh,ispoorestfroth。Donalcouldsinghissongslikethebirds,contentwiththeblueheavenorthesheepforanaudience——oranypassingangelthatcaredtolisten。Onthehill-sideshewouldsingthemaloud,butitwasofthemerestnaturalnecessity。Alookofestrangementonthefaceofafriend,alookofsufferingonthatofanyanimal,wouldatonceandsorelyaffecthim,butnotadisparagingexpressiononthefaceofacomparativestranger,wereshetheloveliestwomanhehadeverseen。Hewaslittletroubledabouttheworld,becauselittletroubledabouthimself。
LadyArcturaandlordForguelivedtogetherlikebrotherandsister,apparentlywithoutmuchincommon,andstilllessofmisunderstanding。Therewouldhavebeenmorechanceoftheirtakingafancytoeachotheriftheyhadnotbeenbroughtuptogether;theywerenowlittletogether,andneveralonetogether。
Veryfewvisitorscametothecastle,andthenonlytocall。LordMorvenseldomsawanyone,hisexcusebeinghishealth。
ButladyArcturawasontermsofintimacywithSophiaCarmichael,theminister'sdaughter——towhomherfatherhadcommunicatedhisdissatisfactionwiththecharacterofDonal,andpouredouthisindignationathisconduct。Heoughttohavelefttheparishatonce!whereashehadinsteadsecuredforhimselfthebest,theonlysituationinit,withoutgivinghimachanceofwarninghislordship!Themoreinjusticeherfatherspokeagainsthim,themoreMissCarmichaelcondemnedhim;forshewasagooddaughter,andlookeduptoherfatherasthewisestandbestmanintheparish。
VerynaturallythereforesherepeatedhiswordstoladyArctura。
Sheinherturnconveyedthemtoheruncle。Hewouldnot,however,paymuchattentiontothem。Thethingwasdone,hesaid。HehadhimselfseenandtalkedwithDonal,andlikedhim!Theyoungmanhadhimselftoldhimoftheclergyman'sdisapprobation!Hewouldrequesthimtoavoidallreferencetoreligioussubjects!Therewithhedismissedthematter,andforgotallaboutit。Anythingrequiringaneffortofthewill,anarrangementofideas,orthoughtastomode,hislordshipwouldnotencounter。Norwasanythingtohimofsuchmomentthathemustdoitatonce。LadyArcturadidnotagainrefertothematter:herunclewasnotonetotakelibertieswith——leastofalltopresstoaction。Butshecontinuedpainfullydoubtfulwhethershewasnotneglectingherduty,tryingtopersuadeherselfthatshewaswaitingonlytillsheshouldhavesomethingdefinitetosayofherownknowledgeagainsthim。
AndnowwhatwasshetoconcludefromhisreadingtheApocrypha?
Thefactwasnottobeinterpretedtohisadvantage:washenotreadingwhatwasnottheBibleasifitweretheBible,andwhenhemighthavebeenreadingtheBibleitself?Besides,theApocryphacamesoneartheBiblewhenitwasnottheBible!itmustbeatleastratherwicked!Atthesametimeshecouldnotdrivefromhermindtheimpressivenessbothofthemattershehadheard,andhismannerofreadingit:thestrongsoundofjudgmentandcondemnationinitcamehometoher——shecouldnothavetoldhoworwhy,exceptgenerallybecauseofhersins。Shewasoneofthose——notveryfewI
think——whofromconjunctionofalovelyconsciencewithanill-instructedmind,aredoomedforaseasontomuchsuffering。Shewaslargelydifferentfromherfriend:thereligiousopinionsofthelatter——theywereinrealityrathermetaphysicalthanreligious,andbadeitherway——thoughsheclungtothemwithallthetenacityofacreaturewithclaws,occasionedhernotanatomofmentaldiscomposure:perhapsthatwasinpartwhysheclungtothem!theywereasshewouldhavethem!ShedidnottroubleherselfaboutwhatGodrequiredofher,beyondholdingthedoctrinetheholdingofwhichguaranteed,asshethought,herfuturewelfare。ConsciencetowardGodhadverylittletodowithheropinions,andherheartstillless。Herheadonthecontrary,perhapsratherhermemory,wasconsiderablyoccupiedwiththematter;nothingsheheldhadeverbeenbyherregardedonitsownmerits——thatis,onitsindividualclaimtotruth;ifithadbeenhandeddownbyherchurch,thatwasenough;tosupportitshewouldsearchouttextaftertext,andpressitintotheservice。Anymeaningbutthatwhichthechurchofherfathersgavetoapassagemustbeofthedevil,andeverymanopposedtothetruthwhosawinthatmeaninganythingbuttruth!ItwasindeedimpossibleMissCarmichaelshouldseeanymeaningbutthat,evenifshehadlookedforit;shewasnowisequalifiedfordiscoveringtruth,notbeingherselftrue。Whatshesawandlovedinthedoctrinesofherchurchwasnotthetruth,buttheassertion;
andwhoeverquestioned,nottosaythedoctrine,buteventheprovingofitbyanyparticularpassage,wasadangerousperson,andunsound。Allthetimeheracceptanceanddefenceofanydoctrinemadenottheslightestdifferencetoherlife——asindeedhowshouldit?
SuchwastheonlyfriendladyArcturahad。Buttheconscienceandheartoftheyoungerwomanwerealivetoadegreethatbodedilleitherforthedoctrinethatstintedtheirgrowth,orthenatureunabletocastitoff。MissCarmichaelwasawomanaboutsix-and-twenty——andhadbeenawoman,liketoomanyScotchgirls,longbeforeshewasoutofherteens——ahumanflowercutanddried——anunpleasantspecimen,andbynomeansvaluablefromitsscarcity。Self-sufficient,assured,withscarceshynessenoughformodesty,handsomeandhard,shewasessentiallyaself-gloriousPhilistine;norwouldshebeanythingbettertillsomethingwassenttohumbleher,thoughwhatspiritualenginemightbeequaltothetaskwasnotformantoimagine。Shewasclever,butherclevernessmadenobodyhappier;shehadgreatconfidence,butherconfidencegavecouragetonoone,andtookitfrommany;shehadlittlefancy,andlessimaginationthananyotherIeverknew。Thedivinewonderwas,thatshehadnotyetdriventhedelicate,truth-lovingArcturamad。Fromherchildhoodshehadhadtheorderingofallheropinions:whateverSophyCarmichaelsaid,ladyArcturaneverthoughtofquestioning。Alieisindeedathinginitsnatureunbelievable,butthereisafalsebeliefalwaysreadytoreceivethefalsetruth,andthereisnoendtothemischiefthetwocanwork。Theawfulpunishmentofuntruthintheinwardpartsisthatthemanisgivenovertobelievealie。
LadyArcturawasinherselfagentlecreaturewhoshrankfromeithergivingorreceivingaroughtouch;butshehadaninheritedpride,byherselfunrecognizedassuch,whichmadehercapableofhurtingaswellasbeinghurt。NexttothedoctrinesoftheScottishchurch,sherespectedherownfamily:ithadintruthnootherclaimtorespectthanthatitslittlegoodandmuchevilhadbeendonebeforetheeyesofalargepartofmanygenerations——whenceshewasborntothinkherselfdistinguished,andtoimagineaclaimfortheacknowledgmentofdistinctionuponallexceptthoseofgreatlyhigherrankthanherown。Thisinbornarrogancewasinsomedegreemodifiedbyrespectforthewritersofcertainbooks——notoneofwhomwasofanyregardintheeyesofthethinkersoftheage。Ofanywritersofpower,beyondthoseoftheBible,eitherinthiscountryoranother,sheknewnothing。Yetshehadarealinstinctforwhatwasgoodinliterature;andofthewriterstowhomIhavereferredshenotonlylikedtheworthiestbest,butlikedbesttheirbestthings。Ineedhardlysaytheywereallreligiouswriters;forthekeenconscienceandobedientheartofthegirlhadmadeherveryearlyturnherselftowardsthequarterwherethesunoughttorise,thequarterwhereallnightlonggleamstheauroralhope;butunhappilyshehadnotgonedirecttotheheavenlywellinearthlyground——thewordsoftheMasterhimself。Howcouldshe?Fromverychildhoodhermindhadbeenfilledwithtraditionaryutterancesconcerningthedivinecharacterandthedivineplans——themerestinventionsofmenfarmoredesirousofunderstandingwhattheywerenotrequiredtounderstand,thanofdoingwhattheywererequiredtodo——whencetheircrudeandfalseutterancesconcerningaGodoftheirownfancy——inwhomitwasagoodman'sduty,inthenameofanypossibleGod,todisbelieve;andjustbecauseshewastrue,authorityhadimmensepoweroverher。Theverysweetnessoftheirnatureforbidssuchtodoubtthefitnessofothers。
Shehadbesideshadagovernessoftheorthodoxtype,alargeproportionofwhoseteachingwasoftheworstheresy,foritwasliesagainsthimwhoislight,andinwhomisnodarknessatall;
herdoctrinesweresomanysmokedglassesheldupbetweenthemindofherpupilandthegloryofthelivingGod;norhadsheoncedirectedhergazetotheverylikenessofGod,thefaceofJesusChrist。HadArcturasetherselftounderstandhimtheknowledgeofwhomiseternallife,shewouldhavebelievednoneofthesefalsereportsofhim,butshehadnotyetmetwithanyonetohelphertocastasidethedoctrinesofmen,andgofacetofacewiththeSonofMan,thevisibleGod。Firstlieofall,shehadbeentaughtthatshemustbelievesoandsobeforeGodwouldlethercomenearhimorlistentoher。Theoldcobblercouldhavetaughtherdifferently;
butshewouldhavethoughtitimpropertoholdconversationwithsuchaman,evenifshehadknownhimforthebestmaninAuchars。
Shewasinsoreandsadearnesttobelieveasshewastoldshemustbelieve;thereforeinsteadofbeginningtodowhatJesusChristsaid,shetriedhardtoimagineherselfoneofthechosen,triedhardtobelieveherselfthechiefofsinners。TherewasnoonetotellherthatitisonlythemanwhoseessomethingofthegloryofGod,theheightanddepthandbreadthandlengthofhisloveandunselfishness,notachilddabblinginstupiddoctrines,thatcanfeellikeSt。Paul。Shetriedtofeelthatshedeservedtobeburnedinhellforeverandever,andthatitwasboundlesslygoodofGod——whomadehersothatshecouldnothelpbeingasinner——togivehertheleastchanceofescapingit。Shetriedtofeelthat,thoughshecouldnotbesavedwithoutsomethingwhichtheGodofperfectlovecouldgiveherifhepleased,butmightnotpleasetogiveher,yetifshewasnotsaveditwouldbeallherownfault:andsoevertheroundofagreatmiserabletreadmillofcontradictions!Foramomentshewouldbeabletosaythisorthatshethoughtsheoughttosay;thenextthefeelingwouldbegone,andsheasmiserableasbefore。Herfriendmadenoattempttoimbueherwithherowncalmindifference,norcouldshehavesucceededhadsheattemptedit。
Butthoughshehadneverbeentroubledherself,andthatbecauseshehadneverbeeninearnest,shedidnotfinditthelesseasytotakeuponherther鬺eofaspiritualadviser,andgavenoendofcounselfortheattainmentofassurance。Shetoldhertrulyenoughthatallhertroublecameofwantoffaith;butsheshowedhernoonefittobelievein。
CHAPTERXVIII。
ACLASH。
Allthistime,Donalhadneveragainseentheearl,neitherhadthelattershownanyinterestinDavie'sprogress。ButladyArcturawasfullofseriousanxietyconcerninghim。Heavilyprejudicedagainstthetutor,shedreadedhisinfluenceonthemindofherlittlecousin。
Therewasasmallrecessintheschoolroom——ithadbeenabaywindow,butfromanarchitecturalnecessityarisingfromdecay,ithad,allexceptanarroweasternlight,beenbuiltup——andinthisrecessDonalwasonedaysittingwithabook,whileDaviewasbusywritingatthetableinthemiddleoftheroom:itwaspastschool-hours,buttheweatherdidnotinvitethemoutofdoors,andDonalhadgivenDavieapoemtocopy。LadyArcturacameintotheroom——shehadneverentereditbeforesinceDonalcame——andthinkinghewasalone,begantotalktotheboy。ShespokeinsogentleatonethatDonal,busywithhisbook,didnotforsometimedistinguishawordshesaid。Heneversuspectedshewasunawareofhispresence。Bydegreeshervoicegrewalittlelouder,andbyandbythesewordsreachedhim:
“Youknow,Daviedear,everysin,whateveritis,deservesGod'swrathandcurse,bothinthislifeandthatwhichistocome;andifithadnotbeenthatJesusChristgavehimselftoturnawayhisangerandsatisfyhisjusticebybearingthepunishmentforus,Godwouldsendusalltotheplaceofmiseryforeverandever。Itisforhissake,notforours,thathepardonsus。“
ShehadnotyetceasedwhenDonalroseinthewrathoflove,andcameoutintotheroom。
“LadyArctura,“hesaid,“IdarenotsitstillandhearsuchfalsethingsutteredagainsttheblessedGod!”
LadyArcturastartedindiredismay,butinvirtueofherbreedandherpriderecoveredherselfimmediately,drewherselfup,andsaid——
“Mr。Grant,youforgetyourself!”
“I'mverywillingtodothat,mylady,“answeredDonal,“butImustnotforgetthehonourofmyGod。IfyouwereaheathenwomanImightthinkwhetherthehourwascomeforenlighteningyoufurther,buttohearonewhohashadtheBibleinherhandsfromherchildhoodsaysuchthingsabouttheGodwhomadeherandsenthisSontosaveher,withoutansweringawordforhim,wouldbecowardly!”
“Whatdoyouknowaboutsuchthings?Whatgivesyouarighttospeak?”saidladyArctura。
Herpride-strengthwasalreadybeginningtodeserther。
“IhadaChristianmother,“answeredDonal,“——haveheryet,thankGod!——whotaughtmetolovenothingbutthetruth;IhavestudiedtheBiblefrommychildhood,oftenwholedaystogether,whenIwasoutwiththecattleorthesheep;andIhavetriedtodowhattheLordstellsme,fromnearlytheearliesttimeIcanremember。
ThereforeIamabletosettomysealthatGodistrue——thatheislight,andthereisnodarknessofunfairnessorselfishnessinhim。
IloveGodwithmywholeheartandsoul,mylady。“
Arcturatriedtosayshetoolovedhimso,butherconscienceinterfered,andshecouldnot。
“Idon'tsayyoudon'tlovehim,“Donalwenton;“buthowyoucanlovehimandbelievesuchthingsofhim,Idon'tunderstand。
WhoevertaughtthemfirstwasaterribleliaragainstGod,whoislovelierthanalltheimaginationsofallhiscreaturescanthink。“
LadyArcturasweptfromtheroom——thoughshewastremblingfromheadtofoot。AtthedoorsheturnedandcalledDavie。Theboylookedupinhistutor'sface,mutelyaskingifheshouldobeyher。
“Go,“saidDonal。
Inlessthanaminutehecameback,hiseyesfulloftears。
“Arkiesayssheisgoingtotellpapa。Isittrue,Mr。Grant,thatyouareadangerousman?Idonotbelieveit——thoughyoudocarrysuchabigknife。“
Donallaughed。
“Itismygrandfather'sskeandhu,“hesaid:“Imendmypenswithit,youknow!Butitisstrange,Davie,that,whenabodyknowssomethingotherpeopledon't,theyshouldbeangrywithhim!Theywilleventhinkhewantstomakethembadwhenhewantstohelpthemtobegood!”
“ButArkieisgood,Mr。Grant!”
“Iamsuresheis。ButshedoesnotknowsomuchaboutGodasIdo,orshewouldneversaysuchthingsofhim:wemusttalkabouthimmoreafterthis!”
“No,no,please,Mr。Grant!Wewon'tsayawordabouthim,forArkiesaysexceptyoupromisenevertospeakofGod,shewilltellpapa,andhewillsendyouaway。“
“Davie,“saidDonalwithsolemnity,“Iwouldnotgivesuchapromiseforthecastleandallitcontains——no,nottosaveyourlifeandthelifeofeverybodyinit!ForJesussays,'Whosoeverdeniethmebeforemen,himwillIdenybeforemyfatherinheaven;'andratherthanthat,Iwouldjumpfromthetopofthecastle。Why,Davie!
wouldamandenyhisownfatherormother?”
“Idon'tknow,“answeredDavie;“Idon'tremembermymother。“
“I'lltellyouwhat,“saidDonal,withsuddeninspiration:“IwillpromisenottospeakaboutGodatanyothertime,ifshewillpromisetositbywhenIdospeakofhim——sayonceaweek——Perhapsweshalldowhathetellsusallthebetterthatwedon'ttalksomuchabouthim!”
“Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!——Iwilltellher,“criedDavie,jumpinguprelieved。“Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!”herepeated;“Icouldnotbearyoutogoaway。Ishouldneverstopcryingifyoudid。Andyouwon'tsayanywickedthings,willyou?forArkiereadsherBibleeveryday。“
“SodoI,Davie。“
“Doyou?”returnedDavie,“I'lltellherthattoo,andthenshewillseeshemusthavebeenmistaken。“
HehurriedtohiscousinwithDonal'ssuggestion。
Itthrewherintonosmallperplexity——firstfromdoubtastotheproprietyofthethingproposed,nextbecauseoftheawkwardnessofit,thenfromasuddenfearlesthisspecioustongueshouldleadherselfintothebypathsofdoubt,andtothecastleofGiantDespair——atwhich,indeed,itwasagraciouswondershehadnotarrivederenow。Whatifsheshouldbepersuadedofthingswhichitwasimpossibletobelieveandbesaved!Shedidnotseethatsuchbeliefasshedesiredtohavewasinitselfessentialdamnation。
ForwhatcantherebeinheavenorearthforasoulthatbelievesinanunjustGod?Torejoiceinsuchabeliefwouldbetobeadevil,andtobelievewhatcannotberejoicedin,ismisery。Nodoubtamanmaynotseethetruenatureofthethingshethinksshebelieves,butthatcannotsavehimfromthelossofnotknowingGod,whomtoknowisaloneeternallife;forwhocanknowhimthatbelievesevilthingsofhim?Thatmanyagoodmandoesbelievesuchthings,onlyargueshisheartnotyetonetowardshim。TomakehisbeliefpossiblehemustdwellonthegoodthingshehaslearnedaboutGod,andnotthinkaboutthebadthings。
AndwhatwouldSophiasay?LadyArcturawouldhavespedtoherfriendforcounselbeforegivinganyanswertotheaudaciousproposal,butshewasjustthenfromhomeforafortnight,andshemustresolvewithouther!Shereflectedalsothatshehadnotyetanythingsufficientlydefinitetosaytoheruncleabouttheyoungman'sfalsedoctrine;and,forherself,concludedthat,asshewaswellgroundedforargument,knowingthoroughlytheShorterCatechismwiththeproofsfromscriptureofeverydoctrineitcontained,itwasfoolishtofearanythingfromonewhowentinthestrengthofhisownignorantandpresumptuouswill,regardlessoftheopinionsofthefathersofthechurch,andacceptingonlysuchthingsaswerepleasingtohisunregeneratenature。
Butshehesitated;andafterwaitingforaweekwithoutreceivinganyanswertohisproposal,DonalsaidtoDavie,“WeshallhavealessonintheNewTestamentto-morrow:youhadbettermentionittoyourcousin。“
Thenextmorningheaskedhimifhehadmentionedit。Theboysaidhehad。
“Whatdidshesay,Davie?”
“Nothing——onlylookedstrange,“answeredDavie。
Whenthehourofnoonwaspast,andladyArcturadidnotappear,Donalsaid,“Davie,we'llhaveourNewTestamentlessonoutofdoors:thatisthebestplaceforit!”
“Itisthebestplace!”respondedDavie,jumpingup。“Butyou'renottakingyourbook,Mr。Grant!”
“Nevermind;Iwillgiveyoualessonortwowithoutbookfirst。“
Justastheywereleavingtheroom,appearedladyArcturawithMissCarmichael。
“Iunderstood,“saidtheformer,withnotalittlehaughtiness,“thatyou——“
Shehesitated,andMissCarmichaeltookuptheword。
“Wewishtoformourownjudgment,“shesaid,“onthenatureofthereligiousinstructionyougiveyourpupil。“
“IinvitedladyArcturatobepresentwhenItaughthimaboutGod,“
saidDonal。
“Thenareyounotnowgoingtodoso?”saidArctura。
“Asyourladyshipmadenoanswertomyproposal,andschoolhourswereover,Iconcludedyouwerenotcoming。“
“Andyouwouldnotgivethelessonwithoutherladyship!”saidMissCarmichael。“Veryright!”
“Excuseme,“returnedDonal;“weweregoingtohaveitoutofdoors。“
“Butyouhadagreednottogivehimanyso-calledreligiousinstructionbutinthepresenceofladyArctura!”
“Bynomeans。Ionlyofferedtogiveitinherpresenceifshechose。Therewasnoquestionofthelessonsbeinggiven。“
MissCarmichaellookedatladyArcturaasmuchastosay——“Ishespeakingthetruth?”andifshereplied,itwasinthesamefashion。
DonallookedatMissCarmichael。Hedidnotatallrelishherinterference。Hehadneversaidhewouldgivehislessonbeforeanywhochosetobepresent!Buthedidnotseehowtomeettheintrusion。Neithercouldheturnbackintotheschoolroom,sitdown,andbegin。HeputhishandonDavie'sshoulder,andwalkedslowlytowardsthelawn。Theladiesfollowedinsilence。Hesoughttoforgettheirpresence,andbeconsciousonlyofhispupil'sandhismaster's。Onthelawnhestoppedsuddenly。
“Davie,“hesaid,“wheredoyoufancythefirstlessonintheNewTestamentoughttobegin?”
“Atthebeginning,“repliedDavie。
“Whenathingisperfect,Davie,itisdifficulttosaywhatisthebeginningofit:showmeoneofyourmarbles。“
Theboyproducedfromhispocketapurewhiteone——arealmarble。
“Thatisagoodoneforthepurpose,“remarkedDonal,“——verysmoothandwhite,withjustoneredstreakinit!Nowwhereisthebeginningofthismarble?”
“Nowhere,“answeredDavie。
“IfIshouldsayeverywhere?”suggestedDonal。
“Ah,yes!”saidtheboy。
“ButIagreewithyouthatitbeginsnowhere。“
“Itcan'tdoboth!”
“Oh,yes,itcan!itbeginsnowhereforitself,buteverywhereforus。Onlyallitsbeginningsareendings,andallitsendingsarebeginnings。Lookhere:supposewebeginatthisredstreak,itisjustthereweshouldendagain。Thatisbecauseitisaperfectthing——Well,therewasonewhosaid,'IamAlphaandOmega,'——thefirstGreekletterandthelast,youknow——'thebeginningandtheend,thefirstandthelast。'AlltheNewTestamentisabouthim。
Heisperfect,andImaybeginabouthimwhereIbestcan。Listenthenasifyouhadneverheardanythingabouthimbefore——Manyyearsago——aboutfiftyorsixtygrandfathersoff——thereappearedintheworldafewmenwhosaidthatacertainmanhadbeentheircompanionforsometimeandhadjustleftthem;thathewaskilledbycruelmen,andburiedbyhisfriends;butthat,ashehadtoldthemhewould,helayinthegraveonlythreedays,andleftitonthethirdaliveandwell;andthat,afterfortydays,duringwhichtheysawhimseveraltimes,hewentupintothesky,anddisappeared——Itwasn'taverylikelystory,wasit?”
“No,“repliedDavie。
Theladiesexchangedlooksofhorror。Neitherspoke,buteachleanedeagerlyforward,infascinatedexpectationofworsetofollow。
“But,Davie,“Donalwenton,“howeverunlikelyitmusthaveseemedtothosewhoheardit,Ibelieveeverywordofit。“
ArippleofcontemptpassedoverMissCarmichael'sface。
“For,“continuedDonal,“themansaidhewasthesonofGod,comedownfromhisfathertoseehisbrothers,hisfather'schildren,andtakehomewithhimtohisfatherthosewhowouldgo。“
“Excuseme,“interruptedMissCarmichael,withapungentsmile:
“whathesaidwas,thatifanymanbelievedinhim,heshouldbesaved。“
“Runalong,Davie,“saidDonal。“Iwilltellyoumoreofwhathesaidnextlesson。Don'tforgetwhatI'vetoldyounow。“
“No,sir,“answeredDavie,andranoff。
Donalliftedhishat,andwouldhavegonetowardstheriver。ButMissCarmichael,steppingforward,said,“Mr。Grant,Icannotletyougotillyouanswermeonequestion:doyoubelieveintheatonement?”
“Ido,“answeredDonal。
“Favourmethenwithyourviewsuponit,“shesaid。
“Areyoutroubledinyourmindonthesubject?”askedDonal。
“Notintheleast,“shereplied,withaslightcurlofherlip。
“ThenIseenooccasionforgivingyoumyviews。“
“ButIinsist。“
Donaldsmiled。
“Ofwhatconsequencecanmyopinionsbetoyou,ma'am?Whyshouldyoucompelaconfessionofmyfaith?”
“Asthefriendofthisfamily,andthedaughteroftheclergymanofthisparish,Ihavearighttoaskwhatyouropinionsare:youhaveamostimportantchargecommittedtoyou——achildforwhosesoulyouhavetoaccount!”
“ForthatIamaccountable,but,pardonme,nottoyou。“
“YouareaccountabletolordMorvenforwhatyouteachhischild。“
“Iamnot。“
“What!Hewillturnyouawayatamoment'snoticeifyousaysotohim。“
“Ishouldbequitereadytogo。IfIwereaccountabletohimforwhatItaught,Ishouldofcourseteachonlywhathepleased。ButdoyousupposeIwouldtakeanysituationonsuchacondition?”
“Itisnothingtome,orhislordshipeither,Ipresume,whatyouwouldorwouldnotdo。“
“ThenIseenoreasonwhyyoushoulddetainme——LadyArctura,Ididnotoffertogivemylessoninthepresenceofanyotherthanyourself:Iwillnotdosoagain。Youwillbewelcome,foryouhavearighttoknowwhatIamteachinghim。Ifyoubringanother,exceptitbemylordMorven,IwilltakeDavidtomyownroom。“
Withthesewordsheleftthem。
LadyArcturawassorelybewildered。Shecouldnotbutfeelthatherfriendhadnotshowntothebetteradvantage,andthatthebehaviourofDonalhadbeendignified。Butsurelyhewasverywrong!whathesaidtoDaviesoundedsoverydifferentfromwhatwassaidatchurch,andbyherhelper,MissCarmichael!Itwasapitytheyhadheardsolittle!HewouldhavegoneonifonlySophyhadhadpatienceandheldherpeace!Perhapshemighthavespokenbetterthingsifshehadnotinterfered!Itwouldhardlybefairtocondemnhimuponsolittle!HehadsaidthathebelievedeverywordoftheNewTestament——orsomethingverylikeit!
“Ihaveheardenough!”saidMissCarmichael:“Iwillspeaktomyfatheratonce。“
ThenextdayDonalreceivedanotetothefollowingeffect:——
“Sir,inconsequenceofwhatIfeltboundtoreporttomyfatheroftheconversationwehadyesterday,hedesiresthatyouwillcalluponhimatyourearliestconvenienceHeisgenerallyathomefromthreetofive。Yourstruly,SophiaAgnesCarmichael。“
TothisDonalimmediatelyreplied:——
“Madam,notwithstandingtheintroductionIbroughthimfromanotherclergyman,yourfatherdeclinedmyacquaintance,passingmeafterwardsasoneunknowntohim。Fromthisfact,andfromthenatureofthereportwhichyourbehaviourtomeyesterdayjustifiesmeinsupposingyoumusthavecarriedtohim,Icanhardlymistakehisobjectinwishingtoseeme。Iwillattendthecallofnomantodefendmyopinions;yourfather'sIhaveheardalmosteverySundaysinceIcametothecastle,andhavebeenfromchildhoodfamiliarwiththem。Yourstruly,DonalGrant。“
Notawordmorecametohimfromeitherofthem。Whentheyhappenedtomeet,MissCarmichaeltooknomorenoticeofhimthanherfather。
Butsheimpressedituponthemindofherfriendthat,ifunabletoprocurehisdismission,sheoughtatleasttodowhatshecouldtoprotecthercousinfromtheawfulconsequencesofsuchfalseteaching:ifshewaspresent,hewouldnotsaysuchthingsashewouldinherabsence,foritwasplainhewasunderrestraintwithher!Shemightevenhavesomeinfluencewithhimifshewouldbuttakecouragetoshowhimwherehewaswrong!Orshemightfindthingssuchthatherunclemustseethenecessityofturninghimaway;astheplacebelongedtoher,hewouldnevergodeadagainsther!Shedidnotseethatthatwasjustthethingtofettertheactionofadelicate-mindedgirl。
Continuallyhaunted,however,withthefeelingthatsheoughttodosomething,ladyArcturafeltasifshedarednotabsentherselffromthelesson,howeverdisagreeableitmightprove:thatmuchshecoulddo!Uponthenextoccasion,therefore,sheappearedintheschoolroomatthehourappointed,andwithacoldbowtookthechairDonalplacedforher。
“Now,Davie,“saidDonal,“whathaveyoudonesinceourlastlesson?”
Daviestared。
“Youdidn'ttellmetodoanything,Mr。Grant!”
“No;butwhatthendidIgiveyouthelessonfor?Whereisthegoodofsuchalessonifitmakesnodifferencetoyou!WhatwasitI
toldyou?”
Davie,whohadneverthoughtaboutitsince,thelessonhavingbeenbrokenoffbeforeDonalcouldbringittoitsnaturalfruit,considered,andsaid,“ThatJesusChristrosefromthedead。“
“Well——whereisthegoodofknowingthat?”
Daviewassilent;heknewnogoodofknowingit,neithercouldimagineany。TheCatechism,ofwhichhehadlearnedabouthalf,suggestednothing。
“Come,Davie,Iwillhelpyou:isJesusdead,orishealive?”
Davieconsidered。
“Alive,“heanswered。
“Whatdoeshedo?”
Daviedidnotknow。
“Whatdidhediefor?”
HereDaviehadananswer——acutanddriedone:
“Totakeawayoursins,“hesaid。
“Thenwhatdoeshelivefor?”
Daviewasoncemoresilent。
“Doyouthinkifamandiedforathing,hewouldbelikelytoforgetittheminuteheroseagain?”
“No,sir。“
“Doyounotthinkhewouldjustgoondoingthesamethingasbefore?”
“Ido,sir。“
“Then,ashediedtotakeawayoursins,helivestotakethemaway!”
“Yes,sir。“
“Whataresins,Davie?”
“Badthings,sir。“
“Yes;thebadthingswethink,andthebadthingswefeel,andthebadthingswedo。Haveyouanysins,Davie?”
“Yes;Iamverywicked。“
“Oh!areyou?Howdoyouknowit?”
“Arkietoldme。“
“Whatisbeingwicked?”
“Doingbadthings。“
“Whatbadthingsdoyoudo?”
“Idon'tknow,sir。“
“Thenyoudon'tknowthatyouarewicked;youonlyknowthatArkietoldyouso!”
LadyArcturadrewherselfup;butDonalwastoointenttoperceivetheoffencehehadgiven。
“Iwilltellyou,“Donalwenton,“somethingyoudidwickedto-day。“
Daviegrewrosyred。“Whenwefindoutonewickedthingwedo,itisabeginningtofindingoutallthewickedthingswedo。Somepeoplewouldrathernotfindthemout,buthavethemhiddenfromthemselvesandfromGodtoo。Butletusfindthemout,everyoneofthem,thatwemayaskJesustotakethemaway,andhelpJesustotakethemaway,byfightingthemwithallourstrength——Thismorningyoupulledthelittlepup'searstillhescreamed。“Daviehunghishead。“Youstoppedawhile,andthendiditagain!SoI
knewitwasn'tthatyoudidn'tknow。IsthatathingJesuswouldhavedonewhenhewasalittleboy?”
“No,sir。“
“Why?”
“Becauseitwouldhavebeenwrong。“
“Isuspect,rather,itisbecausehewouldhavelovedthelittlepup。Hedidn'thavetothinkaboutitsbeingwrong。Heloveseverykindoflivingthing。Hewantstotakeawayyoursinbecausehelovesyou。Hedoesn'tmerelywanttomakeyounotcrueltothelittlepup,buttotakeawaythewrongthinkthatdoesn'tlovehim。
Hewantstomakeyouloveeverylivingcreature。Davie,Jesuscameoutofthegravetomakeusgood。“
TearswereflowingdownDavie'schecks。
“Thelesson'sdone,Davie,“saidDonal,androseandwent,leavinghimwithladyArctura。
Buterehereachedthedoor,heturnedwithsuddenimpulse,andsaid:——
“Davie,IloveJesusChristandhisFathermorethanIcantellyou——morethanIcanputinwords——morethanIcanthink;andifyoulovemeyouwillmindwhatJesustellsyou。“
“Whatagoodmanyoumustbe,Mr。Grant!——Mustn'the,Arkie?”sobbedDavie。
Donallaughed。
“What,Davie!”heexclaimed。“Youthinkmeverygoodforlovingtheonlygoodpersoninthewholeworld!Thatisveryodd!Why,Davie,Ishouldbethemostcontemptiblecreature,knowinghimasIdo,nottolovehimwithallmyheart——yes,withallthebigheartIshallhaveonedaywhenhehasdonemakingme。“
“Ishemakingyoustill,Mr。Grant?Ithoughtyouweregrownup!”
“Well,Idon'tthinkhewillmakemeanytaller,“answeredDonal。
“Butthelivepartofme——thethingIloveyouwith,thethingI
thinkaboutGodwith,thethingIlovepoetrywith,thethingIreadtheBiblewith——thatthingGodkeepsonmakingbiggerandbigger。I
donotknowwhereitwillstop,Ionlyknowwhereitwillnotstop。
Thatthingisme,andGodwillkeeponmakingitbiggertoalleternity,thoughhehasnotevengotitintotherightshapeyet。“
“Whyishesolongaboutit?”
“Idon'tthinkheislongaboutit;buthecoulddoitquickerifI
wereasgoodasbythistimeIoughttobe,withthefatherandmotherIhave,andallmylonghoursonthehillsideswithmyNewTestamentandthesheep。IprayedtoGodonthehillandinthefields,andheheardme,Davie,andmademeseethefoolishnessofmanythings,andthegrandeurandbeautyofotherthings。Davie,Godwantstogiveyouthewholeworld,andeverythinginit。WhenyouhavebeguntodothethingsJesustellsyou,thenyouwillbemybrother,andweshallbothbehislittlebrothers,andthesonsofhisFatherGod,andsotheheirsofallthings。“
Withthatheturnedagainandwent。
ThetearswererollingdownArctura'sfacewithoutherbeingawareofit。
“Heisawell-meaningman,“shesaidtoherself,“butdreadfullymistaken:theBiblesaysbelieve,notdo!”
Thepoorgirl,thoughshereadherbibleregularly,wassoblindedbythedustandashesofherteaching,thatsheknewverylittleofwhatwasactuallyinit。Themostsignificantthingsslippedfromherasiftheyweremerestwordswithoutshadowofmeaningorintent:theydidnotsupportthedoctrinesshehadbeentaught,andthereforesaidnothingtoher。ThestoryofChristandtheappealsofthosewhohadhandledtheWordofLifehadanotherendinviewthanmakingpeopleunderstandhowGodarrangedmatterstosavethem。
Godwouldhaveuslive:ifwelivewecannotbutknow;alltheknowledgeintheuniversecouldnotmakeuslive。Obedienceistheroadtoallthings——theonlywayinwhichtogrowabletotrusthim。
Loveandfaithandobediencearesidesofthesameprism。
Regularlyafterthat,ladyArcturacametothelesson——alwaysintendingtoobjectassoonasitwasover。Butalwaysbeforetheendcame,Donalhadsaidsomethingthatwentsototheheartofthehonestgirlthatshecouldsaynothing。Asifshetoohadbeenapupil,asindeedshewas,farmorethaneitherknew,shewouldrisewhenDavierose,andgoawaywithhim。Butitwastogoaloneintothegarden,ortoherroom,notseldomfindingherselfwishingthingstruewhichyetshecountedterriblydangerous:listeningtothemmightnotsheaswellasDaviefailmiserablyofescapefromthewrathtocome?
CHAPTERXIX。
THEFACTOR。
Theoldavenueofbeeches,leadingimmediatelynowhitheranymore,butclosedatoneendbyabuilt-upgate,andattheotherbyahighwall,betweenwhichtwopointsitstretchedquiteamile,wasafavouriteresortofDonal's,partlyforitsbeauty,partlyforitssolitude。Thearmsofthegreattreescrossingmadeofitalongaisle——itsroofabrokenvaultofleaves,upheldbyirregularpointedarches——whichaffectedone'simaginationlikeanevershiftingdreamofarchitecturalsuggestion。Havingceasedtobeaway,itwasnowallbutentirelydeserted,andtherewaseerinessinthevanishingvistathatshowednothingbeyond。Whenthewindofthetwilightsighedinguststhroughitsmoanfulcrowdofflutteredleaves;orwhenthewindofthewinterwastormentingtheancienthaggardboughs,andthetreeslookedasiftheywerewearyoftheworld,andlongingafterthegardenofGod;yetmorewhenthesnowlayheavyupontheirbranches,sorelytryingtheiragedstrengthtosupportitsoppression,andgivingtheonlookeravaguesenseofwhattheworldwouldbeifGodweregonefromit——thentheoldavenuewasaplacefromwhichonewithmoreimaginationthancouragewouldbereadytohasteaway,andseekinsteadtheabodesofmen。
ButDonal,thoughhedearlylovedhisneighbour,andthatinthefullestconcretesense,wascapableoflovingtheloneliestspots,forinsuchhewasneveralone。
Itwasaltogetheraneglectedplace。Longgrassgrewoveritsfloorfromendtoend——cutnowandthenforhay,ortofeedsuchanimalsashadgrassintheirstalls。Alongoneborder,outsidethetrees,wentafootpath——solittleusedthat,thoughnotquiteconqueredbytheturf,thelonggrassoftenmetoverthetopofit。Findingitsolonely,Donalgrewmoreandmorefondofit。Itwashisoutdoorstudy,hisproseuche{Compilersnote:pi,rho,omicron,sigma,epsilonupsilon,chi,etawithstress——[outdoor]placeofprayer}——alittleaisleofthegreattemple!Seldomindeedwashisreadingormeditationthereinterruptedbysightofhumanbeing。
Aboutamonthafterhehadtakenuphisabodeatthecastle,hewaslyingonedayinthegrasswithabook-companion,undertheshadeofoneofthelargestofitsbeeches,whenhefeltthroughthegroundereheheardthroughtheairthefeetofanapproachinghorse。Astheycamenear,heraisedhisheadtosee。Hisunexpectedappearancestartledthehorse,hisridernearlylosthisseat,anddidlosehistemper。Recoveringtheformer,andholdingtheexcitedanimal,whichwouldhavebeenoffatfullspeed,heurgedhimtowardsDonal,whomhetookforatramp。Hewasrising——deliberately,thathemightnotdomoremischief,andwasyethardlyonhisfeet,whenthehorse,yieldingtothespur,camestraightathim,itsriderwithhiswhiplifted。Donaltookoffhisbonnet,steppedalittleaside,andstood。Hisbearingandcountenancecalmedthehorseman'srage;therewassomethinginthemtowhichnogentlemancouldfailofresponse。
Theriderwasplainlyonewhohadmoretodowithaffairsbucolicthanwiththoseofcitiesorcourts,butwithalamanofconsciousdignity,sociallyafloat,andabletoholdhisown。
“Whatthedevil——,“hecried——fornothingissoirritatingtoahorsemanastocomenearlosinghisseat,exceptperhapstoloseitaltogether,andindignationagainstthecauseofanuntowardaccidentisgenerallyamortal'sfirstconsciousnessthereupon:
howeverfoolishly,hefeelshimselfinjured。Butthere,havingbettertakeninDonal'slook,hecheckedhimself。
“Ibegyourpardon,sir,“saidDonal。“Itwasfoolishofmetoshowmyselfsosuddenly;Imighthavethoughtitwouldstartlemosthorses。Iwastooabsorbedtohavemywitsaboutme。“
Thegentlemanliftedhishat。
“Ibegyourpardoninreturn,“hesaidwithasmilewhichclearedeverycloudfromhisface。“Itookyouforsomeonewhohadnobusinesshere;butIimagineyouarethetutoratthecastle,withasgoodarightasIhavemyself。“
“Youguesswell,sir。“
“PardonmethatIforgetyourname。“
“MynameisDonalGrant,“returnedDonal,withanaccentonthemyintendingawishtoknowinreturnthatofthespeaker。
“IamaGraeme,“answeredtheother,“oneoftheclan,andfactortotheearl。ComeandseewhereIlive。Mysisterwillbegladtomakeyouracquaintance。Weleadratheralonelylifehere,anddon'tseetoomanyagreeablepeople。“
“Youcallthislonely,doyou!”saidDonalthoughtfully。“——Itisagrandplace,anyhow!”
“Youareright——asyouseeitnow。Butwaittillwinter!Thenperhapsyouwillchangeyourimpressionalittle。“
“PardonmeifIdoubtwhetheryouknowwhatwintercanbesowellasIdo。Thiseastcoastisbyallaccountsabitterplace,butI
fancyitisonlyuponagreathill-sideyoucanknowtheheartandsoulofasnow-blast。“
“Iyieldthat,“returnedMr。Graeme。“——Itisbitterenoughherethough,andamercywecankeepwarmin-doors。“
“Whichisoftenmorethanweshepherd-folkcando,“saidDonal。
Mr。Graemeusedtosayafterwardshewasneversoimmediatelytakenwithaman。ItwasoneofthecharmsofDonal'shabitofbeing,thatheneverspokeasifhebelongedtoanyotherthantheclassinwhichhehadbeenbornandbroughtup。Thiscamepartlyofprideinhisfatherandmother,partlyofinborndignity,andpartlyofreligion。TohimthestoryofourLordwastherealityitis,andherejoicedtoknowhimselfsonearlyonthesamesociallevelofbirthastheMasterofhislifeandaspiration。ItwasDonal'soneambition——togivethehighpassionalowname——tobefreewiththefreedomwhichwashisnaturalinheritance,andwhichistobegainedonlybyobediencetothewordsoftheMaster。Fromthefaceofthisaspirationfledeverykindofpretenceasfromthelightfliesthedarkness。Hencehewasentirelyandthoroughlyagentleman。Whatifhisclotheswerenotevenofthenexttothenewestcut!Whatifhehadnotbeenusedtowhatiscalledsociety!Hewasfarabovesuchthings。Ifhemightbutattaintothemannersofthe“highcountries,“mannerswhichappearbecausetheyexist——becausetheyareallthroughtheman!Hedidnotthinkwhathemightseemintheeyesofmen。Courteous,helpful,considerate,alwaysseekingfirsthowfarhecouldhonestlyagreewithanyspeaker,opposingneversavesweetlyandapologetically——exceptindeedsomeutteranceflagrantlyunjustwereinhisears——therewasnomanoftruebreeding,inoroutofsociety,whowouldnothavegrantedthatDonalwasfitcompanyforanymanorwoman。Mr。Graeme'seyeglanceddownoverthetallsquare-shoulderedform,alittlestoopingfromlackofdrillandmuchmeditation,butinstantlystraighteningitselfuponanyinwardstir,andhesaidtohimself,“Thisisnocommonman!”
Theyweremovingslowlyalongtheavenue,Donalbytherider'snearknee,talkingawaylikemennotunlikelysoontoknoweachotherbetter。
“Youdon'tmakemuchuseofthisavenue!”saidDonal。
“No;itsuseisanoldstory。Thecastlewasforatimedeserted,andthefamily,thenpassingthroughaphaseofcomparativepoverty,livedinthehouseweareinnow——tomymindmuchthemorecomfortable。“
“Whatafineoldplaceitmustbe,ifsuchtreesareafitapproachtoit!”
“Theywereneverplantedforthat;theyareolderfar。Eithertherewasawoodhere,andtherestwerecutdownandtheseleft,ortherewasonceahousemucholderthanthepresent。Thelookofthegarden,andsomeoftheoffices,favourthelatteridea。“
“Ihaveneverseenthehouse,“saidDonal。
“Youhavenotthenbeenmuchaboutyet?”saidMr。Graeme。
“Ihavebeensooccupiedwithmypupil,andsodelightedwithallthatlayimmediatelyaroundme,thatIhavegonenowhere——except,indeed,toseeAndrewComin,thecobbler。“
“Ah,youknowhim!Ihaveheardofhimasaremarkableman。TherewasaclergymanherefromGlasgow——Iforgethisname——sostruckwithhimheseemedactuallytotakehimforaprophet。Hesaidhewasasurvivaloftheoldmystics。FormypartIhavenoturnforextravagance。“
“But,“saidDonal,inthetoneofonemerelysuggestingapossibility,“athingthatfromtheoutsidemayseemanextravagance,maylookquitedifferentwhenyougetinsideit。“
“Themorereasonforkeepingoutofit!Ifacquaintancemustmakeyouinlovewithit,themoreairbetweenyouanditthebetter!”
“Wouldnotsuchprecautionasthatkeepyoufromgainingatrueknowledgeofmanythings?Nothingalmostcanbeknownfromwhatpeoplesay。“
“True;buttherearethingssoplainlynonsense!”
“Yes;buttherearethingsthatseemtobenonsense,becausethemanthinksheknowswhattheyarewhenhedoesnot。Whowouldknowtheshapeofachairwhotookhisideaofitfromitsshadowonthefloor?Whatideacanamanhaveofreligionwhoknowsnothingofitexceptfromwhathehearsatchurch?”
Mr。Graemewasnotfondofgoingtochurchyetwent:hewasthelessdispleasedwiththeremark。Buthemadenoreply,andthesubjectdropped。
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