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第4章

  Sometimeshewouldthrownhimselfonthegrassandreadaloud;thenDaviewouldthrowhimselfbesidehim,andletthewordshecouldnotunderstandflowoverhiminaspiritualcataract。Ontheriverwasaboat,andthoughatfirsthewasawkwardenoughintheuseoftheoars,hewassoonabletoenjoythoroughlyarowupordownthestream,especiallyinthetwilight。
  Hewasalonewithhisbookunderabeech-treeonasteepslopetotheriver,thedayafterhisaffairwithlordForgue:readingaloud,hedidnotheartheapproachofhislordship。
  “Mr。Grant,“hesaid,“ifyouwillsayyouaresorryyouthrewmefrommyhorse,IwillsayIamsorryIstruckyou。“
  “Iamverysorry,“saidDonal,rising,“thatitwasnecessarytothrowyoufromyourhorse;andperhapsyourlordshipmayrememberthatyoustruckmebeforeIdidso。“
  “Thathasnothingtodowithit。Iproposeanaccommodation,orcompromise,orwhatyouchoosetocallit:ifyouwilldotheone,I
  willdotheother。“
  “WhatIthinkIoughttodo,mylord,Idowithoutbargaining。IamnotsorryIthrewyoufromyourhorse,andtosaysowouldbetolie。“
  “Ofcourseeverybodythinkshimselfintheright!”saidhislordshipwithasmallsneer。
  “Itdoesnotfollowthatnooneiseverintheright!”returnedDonal。“Doesyourlordshipthinkyouwereintheright——eithertowardsmeorthepooranimalwhocouldnotobeyyoubecausehewasintorture?”
  “Idon'tsayIdo。“
  “Theneverybodydoesnotthinkhimselfintheright!Itakeyourlordship'sadmissionasanapology。“
  “Bynomeans:whenImakeanapology,Iwilldoit;Iwillnotsneakoutofit。“
  Hewasevidentlyatstrifewithhimself:heknewhewaswrong,butcouldnotyetbringhimselftosayso。Itisoneofthepoorestofhumanweaknessesthatamanshouldbeashamedofsayinghehasdonewrong,insteadofsoashamedofhavingdonewrongthathecannotresttillhehassaidso;fortheshamecleavesfastuntiltheconfessionremovesit。
  Forguewalkedawayasteportwo,andstoodwithhisbacktoDonal,pokingthepointofhisstickintothegrass。Allatonceheturnedandsaid:
  “Iwillapologizeifyouwilltellmeonething。“
  “Iwilltellyouwhetheryouapologizeornot,“saidDonal。“Ihaveneveraskedyoutoapologize。“
  “Tellmethenwhyyoudidnotreturneitherofmyblowsyesterday。“
  “Ishouldliketoknowwhyyouask——butIwillansweryou:simplybecausetodosowouldhavebeentodisobeymymaster。“
  “That'sasortofthingIdon'tunderstand。ButIonlywantedtoknowitwasnotcowardice;Icouldnotmakeanapologytoacoward。“
  “IfIwereacoward,youwouldowemeanapologyallthesame,andheisapoorcreaturewhowillnotpayhisdebts。ButIhopeitisnotnecessaryIshouldeitherthrashorinsultyourlordshiptoconvinceyouIfearyounomorethanthatblackbirdthere!”
  Forguegavealittlelaugh。Amoment'spausefollowed。Thenheheldouthishand,butinahalf-hesitating,almostsheepishway:
  “Well,well!shakehands,“hesaid。
  “No,mylord,“returnedDonal。“Ibearyourlordshipnottheslightestill-will,butIwillshakehandswithnooneinahalf-heartedway,andnootherwayispossiblewhileyouareuncertainwhetherIamacowardornot。“
  Sosaying,hethrewhimselfagainuponthegrass,andlordForguewalkedaway,offendedafresh。
  Thenextmorninghecameintotheschool-roomwhereDonalsatatlessonswithDavie。Hehadabookinhishand。
  “Mr。Grant,“hesaid,“willyouhelpmewiththispassageinXenophon?”
  “Withallmyheart,“answeredDonal,andinafewmomentshadhimoutofhisdifficulty。
  Butinsteadofgoing,hislordshipsatdownalittlewayoff,andwentonwithhisreading——satuntilmasterandpupilwentout,andlefthimsittingthere。Thenextmorninghecamewithafreshrequest,andDonalfoundoccasiontoapprovewarmlyofatranslationheproposed。Fromthattimehecamealmosteverymorning。Hewasnogreatscholar,butwiththeprospectofanEnglishuniversitybeforehim,thoughtitbettertoreadalittle。
  Thehousekeeperatthecastlewasagoodwoman,andverykindtoDonal,feelingperhapsthathefelltohercarethemorethathewasbybirthofherownclass;foritwassaidinthecastle,“thetutormakesnopretencetobeingagentleman。“Whetherhewasthemoreorthelessofoneonthataccount,Ileavemyreadertojudgeaccordingtohiscapability。Sometimeswhenhisdinnerwasserved,mistressBrookeswouldherselfappear,toensureproperattentiontohim,andwouldsitdownandtalktohimwhileheate,readytoriseandservehimifnecessary。Theirearlydayshadhadsomethingincommon,thoughshecamefromthesouthernhighlandsofgreenhillsandmoresheep。Shegavehimsomeratherneedfulinformationaboutthefamily;andhesoonperceivedthattherewouldhavebeenlesspeaceinthehousebutforhergoodtemperandgoodsense。
  LadyArcturawasthedaughterofthelastlordMorven,andleftsoleheirtotheproperty;ForgueandhisbrotherDaviewerethesonsofthepresentearl。Thepresentlordwasthebrotherofthelast,andhadlivedwithhimforsomeyearsbeforehesucceeded。Hewasamanofpeculiarandstudioushabits;nobodyeverseemedtotaketohim;
  andsincehiswife'sdeath,hishealthhadbeenprecarious。Thoughastrangeman,hewasajustifnotgenerousmaster。HisbrotherhadlefthimguardiantoladyArctura,andhehadlivedinthecastleasbefore。Hiswifewasaverylovely,butdelicatewoman,andlatterlyallbutconfinedtoherroom。Sinceherdeathagreatchangehadpasseduponherhusband。Certainlyhisbehaviourwassometimeshardtounderstand。
  “Henevergangstothekirk——noanceinatwalmonth!”saidMrs。
  Brookes。“Fowksudbedacent,an'whaeverh'ardo'dacentfowk'atdidnagangtothekirkanceo'theSabbath!Idinnahaudwi'gaein'
  twisemysel':yehaenatimetoreadyerainchaptersgienyedothat。Buttheman'saweelbehavetman,saefarasyesee,naithersayin'nordoin'thethingheshouldna:whathemaythink,wha'stosay!themairten'erconsciencecoontsitsel'thewaursinner;an'
  I'mnogaein'tothinkwhatIcannaken!There'ssome'atsaysheledageylowsekin'o'alifeaforehecamtobidewi'theauldyerl;hewaswi'theairmyi'furreignpairts,theysay;butabootthatIkennaething。Theauldyerlwassomethingo'asancthimsel',ristthebaneso''im!We'renothejeedgeso'theleevin'
  onymairnoro'thedeid!ButImaunawa'toluikefterthings;aminute'sanhoorlostwi'thaefulelasses。Ye'reafreen'o'
  An'rewComin's,theytellme,sir:Idinnakenwhattodowi''slass,she'sthatupsettin'!Yewadthinkshewasaneo'thefaimilywhiles;an'itherwhilesshe'sthatsilly!”
  “I'msorrytohearit!”saidDonal。“Hergrandfatherandgrandmotherarethebestofgoodpeople。“
  “Idaursay!Butthere'sjistwhatIhaeseen:them'at'sbrouchtuptheirainweeleneuch,theirson'sbairnthey'lljistlatgang。
  Aitherthey'retiredo'thething,ortheythinkthey'resafe。
  TheyhaelippenttilyoongEppyaheapowermuckle。ButI'mnaitheraprophetnorthesono'aprophet,astheministersaidlastSunday——an'saidwell,honestman!forit'stheplaintrowth:
  he'snoaneo'themajornoryettheminoranes!Buthaudhimooto'thepu'pitan'hedisnothatill。Hisdochter'snoanilllassaither,an'agreatfreen'o'myleddy's。ButI'mcleanashamedo'
  mysel'togangonthisgait。Haeyedunewi'yerdenner,Mr。
  Grant?——Weel,I'lljistsen'toclearawa',an'latyetilyerlessons。“
  CHAPTERXVII。
  LADYARCTURA。
  ItwasnowalmostthreeweekssinceDonalhadbecomeaninmateofthecastle,andhehadscarcelysethiseyesontheladyofthehouse。Oncehehadseenherback,andmorethanoncehadcaughtaglimpseofherprofile,buthehadneverreallyseenherface,andtheyhadneverspokentoeachother。
  Oneafternoonhewassaunteringalongundertheoverhangingboughsofanavenueofbeeches,formerlytheapproachtoahouseinwhichthefamilyhadoncelived,butwhichhadnowanotherentrance。HehadinhishandacopyoftheApocrypha,whichhehadneverseentillhefoundthisinthelibrary。Inhisusualfashionhehadbeguntoreaditthrough,andwasnowinthebookcalledtheWisdomofSolomon,atthe17thchapter,narratingthediscomfitureofcertainmagicians。Takenwiththebeautyofthepassage,hesatdownonanoldstone-roller,andreadaloud。Partsofthepassagewerethese——theywillenrichmypage:——
  “Forthey,thatpromisedtodriveawayterrorsandtroublesfromasicksoul,weresickthemselvesoffear,worthytobelaughedat。
  “……Forwickedness,condemnedbyherownwitness,isverytimorous,andbeingpressedwithconscience,alwaysforecastethgrievousthings。
  “……Buttheysleepingthesamesleepthatnight,whichwasindeedintolerable,andwhichcameuponthemoutofthebottomsofinevitablehell,“Werepartlyvexedwithmonstrousapparitions,andpartlyfainted,theirheartfailingthem:forasuddenfear,andnotlookedfor,cameuponthem。
  “Sothenwhosoevertherefelldownwasstraitlykept,shutupinaprisonwithoutironbars。
  “Forwhetherhewerehusbandman,orshepherd,oralabourerinthefield,hewasovertaken,andenduredthatnecessity,whichcouldnotbeavoided:fortheywereallboundwithonechainofdarkness。
  “Whetheritwereawhistlingwind,oramelodiousnoiseofbirdsamongthespreadingbranches,orapleasingfallofwaterrunningviolently,“Oraterriblesoundofstonescastdown,orarunningthatcouldnotbeseenofskippingbeasts,oraroaringvoiceofmostsavagewildbeasts,orareboundingechofromthehollowmountains;thesethingsmadethemtoswoonforfear。
  “Forthewholeworldshinedwithclearlight,andnonewerehinderedintheirlabour:
  “Overthemonlywasspreadanheavynight,animageofthatdarknesswhichshouldafterwardreceivethem:butyetweretheyuntothemselvesmoregrievousthanthedarkness。“
  Hehadreadsomuch,andstoppedtothinkalittle;forthroughtheincongruityofit,whichhedidnotdoubtarosefrompovertyofimaginationinthetranslator,renderinghimunabletoseewhatthepoetmeant,ranyetanindubitableveinofawfultruth,whetherfullyintendedbythewriterornotmatteredlittletosuchareaderasDonal——when,liftinghiseyes,hesawladyArcturastandingbeforehimwithastrangelisteninglook。Aspellseemeduponher;
  herfacewaswhite,herlipswhiteandalittleparted。
  Attracted,asshewasabouttopasshim,bythesoundofwhatwasnonethelessliketheBiblefromthesolemncrooningwayinwhichDonalreadittothecongregationofhislisteningthoughts,yetwascertainlynottheBible,shewaspresentlyfascinatedbythevagueterrorofwhatsheheard,andstoodabsorbed:withoutmuchoriginativepower,shehadanimaginationpromptanddelicateandstronginresponse。
  Donalhadbutaglanceofher;hiseyesreturnedagainatoncetohisbook,andhesatsilentandmotionless,thoughnotseeingaword。Foroneinstantshestoodstill;thenheheardthesoftsoundofherdressas,withnoiselessfoot,shestoleback,andtookanotherway。
  Imustgivemyreaderashadowofher。Shewasrathertall,slender,andfair。Butherhairwasdark,andsocrinklythat,whenmerelyparted,itdidalltherestitself。Herforeheadwasratherlow。Hereyesweresoftlydark,andherfeaturesveryregular——hernoseperhapshardlylargeenough,orherchin。Hermouthwasratherthin-lipped,butwouldhavebeensweetexceptforaseeminglyhabitualexpressionofpain。Apairofdarkbrowsoverhunghersweeteyes,andgavealookofdoubtfultemper,yetrestoredsomethingofthestrengthlackingalittleinnoseandchin。Itwasaninteresting——notaquiteharmoniousface,andinhappinessmight,Donalthought,bebeautifuleven。Herfigurewaseminentlygraceful——asDonalsawwhenheraisedhiseyesatthesoundofherretreat。Hethoughtsheneedednothaverunawayasfromsomethingdangerous:whydidshenotpasshimlikeanyotherservantofthehouse?Butwhatseemedtohimlikecontemptdidnothurthim。Hewastoofullofrealitiestobemuchaffectedbyopinionhowevershown。Besides,hehadhadhissorrowandhadlearnedhislesson。
  Hewasapoet——butoneofthefewwithoutanyweaklongingafterlisteningears。Thepoetwhosepoetryneedsanaudience,canbebutlittleofapoet;neithercanthepoetrythatisofnogoodtothemanhimself,beofmuchgoodtoanybodyelse。Therearethesong-poetsandthelife-poets,orrathertheGod-poems。Sympathyislovelyanddear——chieflywhenitcomesunsought;butthefameafterwhichsomanywould-be,yea,somanyrealpoetssigh,ispoorestfroth。Donalcouldsinghissongslikethebirds,contentwiththeblueheavenorthesheepforanaudience——oranypassingangelthatcaredtolisten。Onthehill-sideshewouldsingthemaloud,butitwasofthemerestnaturalnecessity。Alookofestrangementonthefaceofafriend,alookofsufferingonthatofanyanimal,wouldatonceandsorelyaffecthim,butnotadisparagingexpressiononthefaceofacomparativestranger,wereshetheloveliestwomanhehadeverseen。Hewaslittletroubledabouttheworld,becauselittletroubledabouthimself。
  LadyArcturaandlordForguelivedtogetherlikebrotherandsister,apparentlywithoutmuchincommon,andstilllessofmisunderstanding。Therewouldhavebeenmorechanceoftheirtakingafancytoeachotheriftheyhadnotbeenbroughtuptogether;theywerenowlittletogether,andneveralonetogether。
  Veryfewvisitorscametothecastle,andthenonlytocall。LordMorvenseldomsawanyone,hisexcusebeinghishealth。
  ButladyArcturawasontermsofintimacywithSophiaCarmichael,theminister'sdaughter——towhomherfatherhadcommunicatedhisdissatisfactionwiththecharacterofDonal,andpouredouthisindignationathisconduct。Heoughttohavelefttheparishatonce!whereashehadinsteadsecuredforhimselfthebest,theonlysituationinit,withoutgivinghimachanceofwarninghislordship!Themoreinjusticeherfatherspokeagainsthim,themoreMissCarmichaelcondemnedhim;forshewasagooddaughter,andlookeduptoherfatherasthewisestandbestmanintheparish。
  VerynaturallythereforesherepeatedhiswordstoladyArctura。
  Sheinherturnconveyedthemtoheruncle。Hewouldnot,however,paymuchattentiontothem。Thethingwasdone,hesaid。HehadhimselfseenandtalkedwithDonal,andlikedhim!Theyoungmanhadhimselftoldhimoftheclergyman'sdisapprobation!Hewouldrequesthimtoavoidallreferencetoreligioussubjects!Therewithhedismissedthematter,andforgotallaboutit。Anythingrequiringaneffortofthewill,anarrangementofideas,orthoughtastomode,hislordshipwouldnotencounter。Norwasanythingtohimofsuchmomentthathemustdoitatonce。LadyArcturadidnotagainrefertothematter:herunclewasnotonetotakelibertieswith——leastofalltopresstoaction。Butshecontinuedpainfullydoubtfulwhethershewasnotneglectingherduty,tryingtopersuadeherselfthatshewaswaitingonlytillsheshouldhavesomethingdefinitetosayofherownknowledgeagainsthim。
  AndnowwhatwasshetoconcludefromhisreadingtheApocrypha?
  Thefactwasnottobeinterpretedtohisadvantage:washenotreadingwhatwasnottheBibleasifitweretheBible,andwhenhemighthavebeenreadingtheBibleitself?Besides,theApocryphacamesoneartheBiblewhenitwasnottheBible!itmustbeatleastratherwicked!Atthesametimeshecouldnotdrivefromhermindtheimpressivenessbothofthemattershehadheard,andhismannerofreadingit:thestrongsoundofjudgmentandcondemnationinitcamehometoher——shecouldnothavetoldhoworwhy,exceptgenerallybecauseofhersins。Shewasoneofthose——notveryfewI
  think——whofromconjunctionofalovelyconsciencewithanill-instructedmind,aredoomedforaseasontomuchsuffering。Shewaslargelydifferentfromherfriend:thereligiousopinionsofthelatter——theywereinrealityrathermetaphysicalthanreligious,andbadeitherway——thoughsheclungtothemwithallthetenacityofacreaturewithclaws,occasionedhernotanatomofmentaldiscomposure:perhapsthatwasinpartwhysheclungtothem!theywereasshewouldhavethem!ShedidnottroubleherselfaboutwhatGodrequiredofher,beyondholdingthedoctrinetheholdingofwhichguaranteed,asshethought,herfuturewelfare。ConsciencetowardGodhadverylittletodowithheropinions,andherheartstillless。Herheadonthecontrary,perhapsratherhermemory,wasconsiderablyoccupiedwiththematter;nothingsheheldhadeverbeenbyherregardedonitsownmerits——thatis,onitsindividualclaimtotruth;ifithadbeenhandeddownbyherchurch,thatwasenough;tosupportitshewouldsearchouttextaftertext,andpressitintotheservice。Anymeaningbutthatwhichthechurchofherfathersgavetoapassagemustbeofthedevil,andeverymanopposedtothetruthwhosawinthatmeaninganythingbuttruth!ItwasindeedimpossibleMissCarmichaelshouldseeanymeaningbutthat,evenifshehadlookedforit;shewasnowisequalifiedfordiscoveringtruth,notbeingherselftrue。Whatshesawandlovedinthedoctrinesofherchurchwasnotthetruth,buttheassertion;
  andwhoeverquestioned,nottosaythedoctrine,buteventheprovingofitbyanyparticularpassage,wasadangerousperson,andunsound。Allthetimeheracceptanceanddefenceofanydoctrinemadenottheslightestdifferencetoherlife——asindeedhowshouldit?
  SuchwastheonlyfriendladyArcturahad。Buttheconscienceandheartoftheyoungerwomanwerealivetoadegreethatbodedilleitherforthedoctrinethatstintedtheirgrowth,orthenatureunabletocastitoff。MissCarmichaelwasawomanaboutsix-and-twenty——andhadbeenawoman,liketoomanyScotchgirls,longbeforeshewasoutofherteens——ahumanflowercutanddried——anunpleasantspecimen,andbynomeansvaluablefromitsscarcity。Self-sufficient,assured,withscarceshynessenoughformodesty,handsomeandhard,shewasessentiallyaself-gloriousPhilistine;norwouldshebeanythingbettertillsomethingwassenttohumbleher,thoughwhatspiritualenginemightbeequaltothetaskwasnotformantoimagine。Shewasclever,butherclevernessmadenobodyhappier;shehadgreatconfidence,butherconfidencegavecouragetonoone,andtookitfrommany;shehadlittlefancy,andlessimaginationthananyotherIeverknew。Thedivinewonderwas,thatshehadnotyetdriventhedelicate,truth-lovingArcturamad。Fromherchildhoodshehadhadtheorderingofallheropinions:whateverSophyCarmichaelsaid,ladyArcturaneverthoughtofquestioning。Alieisindeedathinginitsnatureunbelievable,butthereisafalsebeliefalwaysreadytoreceivethefalsetruth,andthereisnoendtothemischiefthetwocanwork。Theawfulpunishmentofuntruthintheinwardpartsisthatthemanisgivenovertobelievealie。
  LadyArcturawasinherselfagentlecreaturewhoshrankfromeithergivingorreceivingaroughtouch;butshehadaninheritedpride,byherselfunrecognizedassuch,whichmadehercapableofhurtingaswellasbeinghurt。NexttothedoctrinesoftheScottishchurch,sherespectedherownfamily:ithadintruthnootherclaimtorespectthanthatitslittlegoodandmuchevilhadbeendonebeforetheeyesofalargepartofmanygenerations——whenceshewasborntothinkherselfdistinguished,andtoimagineaclaimfortheacknowledgmentofdistinctionuponallexceptthoseofgreatlyhigherrankthanherown。Thisinbornarrogancewasinsomedegreemodifiedbyrespectforthewritersofcertainbooks——notoneofwhomwasofanyregardintheeyesofthethinkersoftheage。Ofanywritersofpower,beyondthoseoftheBible,eitherinthiscountryoranother,sheknewnothing。Yetshehadarealinstinctforwhatwasgoodinliterature;andofthewriterstowhomIhavereferredshenotonlylikedtheworthiestbest,butlikedbesttheirbestthings。Ineedhardlysaytheywereallreligiouswriters;forthekeenconscienceandobedientheartofthegirlhadmadeherveryearlyturnherselftowardsthequarterwherethesunoughttorise,thequarterwhereallnightlonggleamstheauroralhope;butunhappilyshehadnotgonedirecttotheheavenlywellinearthlyground——thewordsoftheMasterhimself。Howcouldshe?Fromverychildhoodhermindhadbeenfilledwithtraditionaryutterancesconcerningthedivinecharacterandthedivineplans——themerestinventionsofmenfarmoredesirousofunderstandingwhattheywerenotrequiredtounderstand,thanofdoingwhattheywererequiredtodo——whencetheircrudeandfalseutterancesconcerningaGodoftheirownfancy——inwhomitwasagoodman'sduty,inthenameofanypossibleGod,todisbelieve;andjustbecauseshewastrue,authorityhadimmensepoweroverher。Theverysweetnessoftheirnatureforbidssuchtodoubtthefitnessofothers。
  Shehadbesideshadagovernessoftheorthodoxtype,alargeproportionofwhoseteachingwasoftheworstheresy,foritwasliesagainsthimwhoislight,andinwhomisnodarknessatall;
  herdoctrinesweresomanysmokedglassesheldupbetweenthemindofherpupilandthegloryofthelivingGod;norhadsheoncedirectedhergazetotheverylikenessofGod,thefaceofJesusChrist。HadArcturasetherselftounderstandhimtheknowledgeofwhomiseternallife,shewouldhavebelievednoneofthesefalsereportsofhim,butshehadnotyetmetwithanyonetohelphertocastasidethedoctrinesofmen,andgofacetofacewiththeSonofMan,thevisibleGod。Firstlieofall,shehadbeentaughtthatshemustbelievesoandsobeforeGodwouldlethercomenearhimorlistentoher。Theoldcobblercouldhavetaughtherdifferently;
  butshewouldhavethoughtitimpropertoholdconversationwithsuchaman,evenifshehadknownhimforthebestmaninAuchars。
  Shewasinsoreandsadearnesttobelieveasshewastoldshemustbelieve;thereforeinsteadofbeginningtodowhatJesusChristsaid,shetriedhardtoimagineherselfoneofthechosen,triedhardtobelieveherselfthechiefofsinners。TherewasnoonetotellherthatitisonlythemanwhoseessomethingofthegloryofGod,theheightanddepthandbreadthandlengthofhisloveandunselfishness,notachilddabblinginstupiddoctrines,thatcanfeellikeSt。Paul。Shetriedtofeelthatshedeservedtobeburnedinhellforeverandever,andthatitwasboundlesslygoodofGod——whomadehersothatshecouldnothelpbeingasinner——togivehertheleastchanceofescapingit。Shetriedtofeelthat,thoughshecouldnotbesavedwithoutsomethingwhichtheGodofperfectlovecouldgiveherifhepleased,butmightnotpleasetogiveher,yetifshewasnotsaveditwouldbeallherownfault:andsoevertheroundofagreatmiserabletreadmillofcontradictions!Foramomentshewouldbeabletosaythisorthatshethoughtsheoughttosay;thenextthefeelingwouldbegone,andsheasmiserableasbefore。Herfriendmadenoattempttoimbueherwithherowncalmindifference,norcouldshehavesucceededhadsheattemptedit。
  Butthoughshehadneverbeentroubledherself,andthatbecauseshehadneverbeeninearnest,shedidnotfinditthelesseasytotakeuponherther鬺eofaspiritualadviser,andgavenoendofcounselfortheattainmentofassurance。Shetoldhertrulyenoughthatallhertroublecameofwantoffaith;butsheshowedhernoonefittobelievein。
  CHAPTERXVIII。
  ACLASH。
  Allthistime,Donalhadneveragainseentheearl,neitherhadthelattershownanyinterestinDavie'sprogress。ButladyArcturawasfullofseriousanxietyconcerninghim。Heavilyprejudicedagainstthetutor,shedreadedhisinfluenceonthemindofherlittlecousin。
  Therewasasmallrecessintheschoolroom——ithadbeenabaywindow,butfromanarchitecturalnecessityarisingfromdecay,ithad,allexceptanarroweasternlight,beenbuiltup——andinthisrecessDonalwasonedaysittingwithabook,whileDaviewasbusywritingatthetableinthemiddleoftheroom:itwaspastschool-hours,buttheweatherdidnotinvitethemoutofdoors,andDonalhadgivenDavieapoemtocopy。LadyArcturacameintotheroom——shehadneverentereditbeforesinceDonalcame——andthinkinghewasalone,begantotalktotheboy。ShespokeinsogentleatonethatDonal,busywithhisbook,didnotforsometimedistinguishawordshesaid。Heneversuspectedshewasunawareofhispresence。Bydegreeshervoicegrewalittlelouder,andbyandbythesewordsreachedhim:
  “Youknow,Daviedear,everysin,whateveritis,deservesGod'swrathandcurse,bothinthislifeandthatwhichistocome;andifithadnotbeenthatJesusChristgavehimselftoturnawayhisangerandsatisfyhisjusticebybearingthepunishmentforus,Godwouldsendusalltotheplaceofmiseryforeverandever。Itisforhissake,notforours,thathepardonsus。“
  ShehadnotyetceasedwhenDonalroseinthewrathoflove,andcameoutintotheroom。
  “LadyArctura,“hesaid,“IdarenotsitstillandhearsuchfalsethingsutteredagainsttheblessedGod!”
  LadyArcturastartedindiredismay,butinvirtueofherbreedandherpriderecoveredherselfimmediately,drewherselfup,andsaid——
  “Mr。Grant,youforgetyourself!”
  “I'mverywillingtodothat,mylady,“answeredDonal,“butImustnotforgetthehonourofmyGod。IfyouwereaheathenwomanImightthinkwhetherthehourwascomeforenlighteningyoufurther,buttohearonewhohashadtheBibleinherhandsfromherchildhoodsaysuchthingsabouttheGodwhomadeherandsenthisSontosaveher,withoutansweringawordforhim,wouldbecowardly!”
  “Whatdoyouknowaboutsuchthings?Whatgivesyouarighttospeak?”saidladyArctura。
  Herpride-strengthwasalreadybeginningtodeserther。
  “IhadaChristianmother,“answeredDonal,“——haveheryet,thankGod!——whotaughtmetolovenothingbutthetruth;IhavestudiedtheBiblefrommychildhood,oftenwholedaystogether,whenIwasoutwiththecattleorthesheep;andIhavetriedtodowhattheLordstellsme,fromnearlytheearliesttimeIcanremember。
  ThereforeIamabletosettomysealthatGodistrue——thatheislight,andthereisnodarknessofunfairnessorselfishnessinhim。
  IloveGodwithmywholeheartandsoul,mylady。“
  Arcturatriedtosayshetoolovedhimso,butherconscienceinterfered,andshecouldnot。
  “Idon'tsayyoudon'tlovehim,“Donalwenton;“buthowyoucanlovehimandbelievesuchthingsofhim,Idon'tunderstand。
  WhoevertaughtthemfirstwasaterribleliaragainstGod,whoislovelierthanalltheimaginationsofallhiscreaturescanthink。“
  LadyArcturasweptfromtheroom——thoughshewastremblingfromheadtofoot。AtthedoorsheturnedandcalledDavie。Theboylookedupinhistutor'sface,mutelyaskingifheshouldobeyher。
  “Go,“saidDonal。
  Inlessthanaminutehecameback,hiseyesfulloftears。
  “Arkiesayssheisgoingtotellpapa。Isittrue,Mr。Grant,thatyouareadangerousman?Idonotbelieveit——thoughyoudocarrysuchabigknife。“
  Donallaughed。
  “Itismygrandfather'sskeandhu,“hesaid:“Imendmypenswithit,youknow!Butitisstrange,Davie,that,whenabodyknowssomethingotherpeopledon't,theyshouldbeangrywithhim!Theywilleventhinkhewantstomakethembadwhenhewantstohelpthemtobegood!”
  “ButArkieisgood,Mr。Grant!”
  “Iamsuresheis。ButshedoesnotknowsomuchaboutGodasIdo,orshewouldneversaysuchthingsofhim:wemusttalkabouthimmoreafterthis!”
  “No,no,please,Mr。Grant!Wewon'tsayawordabouthim,forArkiesaysexceptyoupromisenevertospeakofGod,shewilltellpapa,andhewillsendyouaway。“
  “Davie,“saidDonalwithsolemnity,“Iwouldnotgivesuchapromiseforthecastleandallitcontains——no,nottosaveyourlifeandthelifeofeverybodyinit!ForJesussays,'Whosoeverdeniethmebeforemen,himwillIdenybeforemyfatherinheaven;'andratherthanthat,Iwouldjumpfromthetopofthecastle。Why,Davie!
  wouldamandenyhisownfatherormother?”
  “Idon'tknow,“answeredDavie;“Idon'tremembermymother。“
  “I'lltellyouwhat,“saidDonal,withsuddeninspiration:“IwillpromisenottospeakaboutGodatanyothertime,ifshewillpromisetositbywhenIdospeakofhim——sayonceaweek——Perhapsweshalldowhathetellsusallthebetterthatwedon'ttalksomuchabouthim!”
  “Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!——Iwilltellher,“criedDavie,jumpinguprelieved。“Oh,thankyou,Mr。Grant!”herepeated;“Icouldnotbearyoutogoaway。Ishouldneverstopcryingifyoudid。Andyouwon'tsayanywickedthings,willyou?forArkiereadsherBibleeveryday。“
  “SodoI,Davie。“
  “Doyou?”returnedDavie,“I'lltellherthattoo,andthenshewillseeshemusthavebeenmistaken。“
  HehurriedtohiscousinwithDonal'ssuggestion。
  Itthrewherintonosmallperplexity——firstfromdoubtastotheproprietyofthethingproposed,nextbecauseoftheawkwardnessofit,thenfromasuddenfearlesthisspecioustongueshouldleadherselfintothebypathsofdoubt,andtothecastleofGiantDespair——atwhich,indeed,itwasagraciouswondershehadnotarrivederenow。Whatifsheshouldbepersuadedofthingswhichitwasimpossibletobelieveandbesaved!Shedidnotseethatsuchbeliefasshedesiredtohavewasinitselfessentialdamnation。
  ForwhatcantherebeinheavenorearthforasoulthatbelievesinanunjustGod?Torejoiceinsuchabeliefwouldbetobeadevil,andtobelievewhatcannotberejoicedin,ismisery。Nodoubtamanmaynotseethetruenatureofthethingshethinksshebelieves,butthatcannotsavehimfromthelossofnotknowingGod,whomtoknowisaloneeternallife;forwhocanknowhimthatbelievesevilthingsofhim?Thatmanyagoodmandoesbelievesuchthings,onlyargueshisheartnotyetonetowardshim。TomakehisbeliefpossiblehemustdwellonthegoodthingshehaslearnedaboutGod,andnotthinkaboutthebadthings。
  AndwhatwouldSophiasay?LadyArcturawouldhavespedtoherfriendforcounselbeforegivinganyanswertotheaudaciousproposal,butshewasjustthenfromhomeforafortnight,andshemustresolvewithouther!Shereflectedalsothatshehadnotyetanythingsufficientlydefinitetosaytoheruncleabouttheyoungman'sfalsedoctrine;and,forherself,concludedthat,asshewaswellgroundedforargument,knowingthoroughlytheShorterCatechismwiththeproofsfromscriptureofeverydoctrineitcontained,itwasfoolishtofearanythingfromonewhowentinthestrengthofhisownignorantandpresumptuouswill,regardlessoftheopinionsofthefathersofthechurch,andacceptingonlysuchthingsaswerepleasingtohisunregeneratenature。
  Butshehesitated;andafterwaitingforaweekwithoutreceivinganyanswertohisproposal,DonalsaidtoDavie,“WeshallhavealessonintheNewTestamentto-morrow:youhadbettermentionittoyourcousin。“
  Thenextmorningheaskedhimifhehadmentionedit。Theboysaidhehad。
  “Whatdidshesay,Davie?”
  “Nothing——onlylookedstrange,“answeredDavie。
  Whenthehourofnoonwaspast,andladyArcturadidnotappear,Donalsaid,“Davie,we'llhaveourNewTestamentlessonoutofdoors:thatisthebestplaceforit!”
  “Itisthebestplace!”respondedDavie,jumpingup。“Butyou'renottakingyourbook,Mr。Grant!”
  “Nevermind;Iwillgiveyoualessonortwowithoutbookfirst。“
  Justastheywereleavingtheroom,appearedladyArcturawithMissCarmichael。
  “Iunderstood,“saidtheformer,withnotalittlehaughtiness,“thatyou——“
  Shehesitated,andMissCarmichaeltookuptheword。
  “Wewishtoformourownjudgment,“shesaid,“onthenatureofthereligiousinstructionyougiveyourpupil。“
  “IinvitedladyArcturatobepresentwhenItaughthimaboutGod,“
  saidDonal。
  “Thenareyounotnowgoingtodoso?”saidArctura。
  “Asyourladyshipmadenoanswertomyproposal,andschoolhourswereover,Iconcludedyouwerenotcoming。“
  “Andyouwouldnotgivethelessonwithoutherladyship!”saidMissCarmichael。“Veryright!”
  “Excuseme,“returnedDonal;“weweregoingtohaveitoutofdoors。“
  “Butyouhadagreednottogivehimanyso-calledreligiousinstructionbutinthepresenceofladyArctura!”
  “Bynomeans。Ionlyofferedtogiveitinherpresenceifshechose。Therewasnoquestionofthelessonsbeinggiven。“
  MissCarmichaellookedatladyArcturaasmuchastosay——“Ishespeakingthetruth?”andifshereplied,itwasinthesamefashion。
  DonallookedatMissCarmichael。Hedidnotatallrelishherinterference。Hehadneversaidhewouldgivehislessonbeforeanywhochosetobepresent!Buthedidnotseehowtomeettheintrusion。Neithercouldheturnbackintotheschoolroom,sitdown,andbegin。HeputhishandonDavie'sshoulder,andwalkedslowlytowardsthelawn。Theladiesfollowedinsilence。Hesoughttoforgettheirpresence,andbeconsciousonlyofhispupil'sandhismaster's。Onthelawnhestoppedsuddenly。
  “Davie,“hesaid,“wheredoyoufancythefirstlessonintheNewTestamentoughttobegin?”
  “Atthebeginning,“repliedDavie。
  “Whenathingisperfect,Davie,itisdifficulttosaywhatisthebeginningofit:showmeoneofyourmarbles。“
  Theboyproducedfromhispocketapurewhiteone——arealmarble。
  “Thatisagoodoneforthepurpose,“remarkedDonal,“——verysmoothandwhite,withjustoneredstreakinit!Nowwhereisthebeginningofthismarble?”
  “Nowhere,“answeredDavie。
  “IfIshouldsayeverywhere?”suggestedDonal。
  “Ah,yes!”saidtheboy。
  “ButIagreewithyouthatitbeginsnowhere。“
  “Itcan'tdoboth!”
  “Oh,yes,itcan!itbeginsnowhereforitself,buteverywhereforus。Onlyallitsbeginningsareendings,andallitsendingsarebeginnings。Lookhere:supposewebeginatthisredstreak,itisjustthereweshouldendagain。Thatisbecauseitisaperfectthing——Well,therewasonewhosaid,'IamAlphaandOmega,'——thefirstGreekletterandthelast,youknow——'thebeginningandtheend,thefirstandthelast。'AlltheNewTestamentisabouthim。
  Heisperfect,andImaybeginabouthimwhereIbestcan。Listenthenasifyouhadneverheardanythingabouthimbefore——Manyyearsago——aboutfiftyorsixtygrandfathersoff——thereappearedintheworldafewmenwhosaidthatacertainmanhadbeentheircompanionforsometimeandhadjustleftthem;thathewaskilledbycruelmen,andburiedbyhisfriends;butthat,ashehadtoldthemhewould,helayinthegraveonlythreedays,andleftitonthethirdaliveandwell;andthat,afterfortydays,duringwhichtheysawhimseveraltimes,hewentupintothesky,anddisappeared——Itwasn'taverylikelystory,wasit?”
  “No,“repliedDavie。
  Theladiesexchangedlooksofhorror。Neitherspoke,buteachleanedeagerlyforward,infascinatedexpectationofworsetofollow。
  “But,Davie,“Donalwenton,“howeverunlikelyitmusthaveseemedtothosewhoheardit,Ibelieveeverywordofit。“
  ArippleofcontemptpassedoverMissCarmichael'sface。
  “For,“continuedDonal,“themansaidhewasthesonofGod,comedownfromhisfathertoseehisbrothers,hisfather'schildren,andtakehomewithhimtohisfatherthosewhowouldgo。“
  “Excuseme,“interruptedMissCarmichael,withapungentsmile:
  “whathesaidwas,thatifanymanbelievedinhim,heshouldbesaved。“
  “Runalong,Davie,“saidDonal。“Iwilltellyoumoreofwhathesaidnextlesson。Don'tforgetwhatI'vetoldyounow。“
  “No,sir,“answeredDavie,andranoff。
  Donalliftedhishat,andwouldhavegonetowardstheriver。ButMissCarmichael,steppingforward,said,“Mr。Grant,Icannotletyougotillyouanswermeonequestion:doyoubelieveintheatonement?”
  “Ido,“answeredDonal。
  “Favourmethenwithyourviewsuponit,“shesaid。
  “Areyoutroubledinyourmindonthesubject?”askedDonal。
  “Notintheleast,“shereplied,withaslightcurlofherlip。
  “ThenIseenooccasionforgivingyoumyviews。“
  “ButIinsist。“
  Donaldsmiled。
  “Ofwhatconsequencecanmyopinionsbetoyou,ma'am?Whyshouldyoucompelaconfessionofmyfaith?”
  “Asthefriendofthisfamily,andthedaughteroftheclergymanofthisparish,Ihavearighttoaskwhatyouropinionsare:youhaveamostimportantchargecommittedtoyou——achildforwhosesoulyouhavetoaccount!”
  “ForthatIamaccountable,but,pardonme,nottoyou。“
  “YouareaccountabletolordMorvenforwhatyouteachhischild。“
  “Iamnot。“
  “What!Hewillturnyouawayatamoment'snoticeifyousaysotohim。“
  “Ishouldbequitereadytogo。IfIwereaccountabletohimforwhatItaught,Ishouldofcourseteachonlywhathepleased。ButdoyousupposeIwouldtakeanysituationonsuchacondition?”
  “Itisnothingtome,orhislordshipeither,Ipresume,whatyouwouldorwouldnotdo。“
  “ThenIseenoreasonwhyyoushoulddetainme——LadyArctura,Ididnotoffertogivemylessoninthepresenceofanyotherthanyourself:Iwillnotdosoagain。Youwillbewelcome,foryouhavearighttoknowwhatIamteachinghim。Ifyoubringanother,exceptitbemylordMorven,IwilltakeDavidtomyownroom。“
  Withthesewordsheleftthem。
  LadyArcturawassorelybewildered。Shecouldnotbutfeelthatherfriendhadnotshowntothebetteradvantage,andthatthebehaviourofDonalhadbeendignified。Butsurelyhewasverywrong!whathesaidtoDaviesoundedsoverydifferentfromwhatwassaidatchurch,andbyherhelper,MissCarmichael!Itwasapitytheyhadheardsolittle!HewouldhavegoneonifonlySophyhadhadpatienceandheldherpeace!Perhapshemighthavespokenbetterthingsifshehadnotinterfered!Itwouldhardlybefairtocondemnhimuponsolittle!HehadsaidthathebelievedeverywordoftheNewTestament——orsomethingverylikeit!
  “Ihaveheardenough!”saidMissCarmichael:“Iwillspeaktomyfatheratonce。“
  ThenextdayDonalreceivedanotetothefollowingeffect:——
  “Sir,inconsequenceofwhatIfeltboundtoreporttomyfatheroftheconversationwehadyesterday,hedesiresthatyouwillcalluponhimatyourearliestconvenienceHeisgenerallyathomefromthreetofive。Yourstruly,SophiaAgnesCarmichael。“
  TothisDonalimmediatelyreplied:——
  “Madam,notwithstandingtheintroductionIbroughthimfromanotherclergyman,yourfatherdeclinedmyacquaintance,passingmeafterwardsasoneunknowntohim。Fromthisfact,andfromthenatureofthereportwhichyourbehaviourtomeyesterdayjustifiesmeinsupposingyoumusthavecarriedtohim,Icanhardlymistakehisobjectinwishingtoseeme。Iwillattendthecallofnomantodefendmyopinions;yourfather'sIhaveheardalmosteverySundaysinceIcametothecastle,andhavebeenfromchildhoodfamiliarwiththem。Yourstruly,DonalGrant。“
  Notawordmorecametohimfromeitherofthem。Whentheyhappenedtomeet,MissCarmichaeltooknomorenoticeofhimthanherfather。
  Butsheimpressedituponthemindofherfriendthat,ifunabletoprocurehisdismission,sheoughtatleasttodowhatshecouldtoprotecthercousinfromtheawfulconsequencesofsuchfalseteaching:ifshewaspresent,hewouldnotsaysuchthingsashewouldinherabsence,foritwasplainhewasunderrestraintwithher!Shemightevenhavesomeinfluencewithhimifshewouldbuttakecouragetoshowhimwherehewaswrong!Orshemightfindthingssuchthatherunclemustseethenecessityofturninghimaway;astheplacebelongedtoher,hewouldnevergodeadagainsther!Shedidnotseethatthatwasjustthethingtofettertheactionofadelicate-mindedgirl。
  Continuallyhaunted,however,withthefeelingthatsheoughttodosomething,ladyArcturafeltasifshedarednotabsentherselffromthelesson,howeverdisagreeableitmightprove:thatmuchshecoulddo!Uponthenextoccasion,therefore,sheappearedintheschoolroomatthehourappointed,andwithacoldbowtookthechairDonalplacedforher。
  “Now,Davie,“saidDonal,“whathaveyoudonesinceourlastlesson?”
  Daviestared。
  “Youdidn'ttellmetodoanything,Mr。Grant!”
  “No;butwhatthendidIgiveyouthelessonfor?Whereisthegoodofsuchalessonifitmakesnodifferencetoyou!WhatwasitI
  toldyou?”
  Davie,whohadneverthoughtaboutitsince,thelessonhavingbeenbrokenoffbeforeDonalcouldbringittoitsnaturalfruit,considered,andsaid,“ThatJesusChristrosefromthedead。“
  “Well——whereisthegoodofknowingthat?”
  Daviewassilent;heknewnogoodofknowingit,neithercouldimagineany。TheCatechism,ofwhichhehadlearnedabouthalf,suggestednothing。
  “Come,Davie,Iwillhelpyou:isJesusdead,orishealive?”
  Davieconsidered。
  “Alive,“heanswered。
  “Whatdoeshedo?”
  Daviedidnotknow。
  “Whatdidhediefor?”
  HereDaviehadananswer——acutanddriedone:
  “Totakeawayoursins,“hesaid。
  “Thenwhatdoeshelivefor?”
  Daviewasoncemoresilent。
  “Doyouthinkifamandiedforathing,hewouldbelikelytoforgetittheminuteheroseagain?”
  “No,sir。“
  “Doyounotthinkhewouldjustgoondoingthesamethingasbefore?”
  “Ido,sir。“
  “Then,ashediedtotakeawayoursins,helivestotakethemaway!”
  “Yes,sir。“
  “Whataresins,Davie?”
  “Badthings,sir。“
  “Yes;thebadthingswethink,andthebadthingswefeel,andthebadthingswedo。Haveyouanysins,Davie?”
  “Yes;Iamverywicked。“
  “Oh!areyou?Howdoyouknowit?”
  “Arkietoldme。“
  “Whatisbeingwicked?”
  “Doingbadthings。“
  “Whatbadthingsdoyoudo?”
  “Idon'tknow,sir。“
  “Thenyoudon'tknowthatyouarewicked;youonlyknowthatArkietoldyouso!”
  LadyArcturadrewherselfup;butDonalwastoointenttoperceivetheoffencehehadgiven。
  “Iwilltellyou,“Donalwenton,“somethingyoudidwickedto-day。“
  Daviegrewrosyred。“Whenwefindoutonewickedthingwedo,itisabeginningtofindingoutallthewickedthingswedo。Somepeoplewouldrathernotfindthemout,buthavethemhiddenfromthemselvesandfromGodtoo。Butletusfindthemout,everyoneofthem,thatwemayaskJesustotakethemaway,andhelpJesustotakethemaway,byfightingthemwithallourstrength——Thismorningyoupulledthelittlepup'searstillhescreamed。“Daviehunghishead。“Youstoppedawhile,andthendiditagain!SoI
  knewitwasn'tthatyoudidn'tknow。IsthatathingJesuswouldhavedonewhenhewasalittleboy?”
  “No,sir。“
  “Why?”
  “Becauseitwouldhavebeenwrong。“
  “Isuspect,rather,itisbecausehewouldhavelovedthelittlepup。Hedidn'thavetothinkaboutitsbeingwrong。Heloveseverykindoflivingthing。Hewantstotakeawayyoursinbecausehelovesyou。Hedoesn'tmerelywanttomakeyounotcrueltothelittlepup,buttotakeawaythewrongthinkthatdoesn'tlovehim。
  Hewantstomakeyouloveeverylivingcreature。Davie,Jesuscameoutofthegravetomakeusgood。“
  TearswereflowingdownDavie'schecks。
  “Thelesson'sdone,Davie,“saidDonal,androseandwent,leavinghimwithladyArctura。
  Buterehereachedthedoor,heturnedwithsuddenimpulse,andsaid:——
  “Davie,IloveJesusChristandhisFathermorethanIcantellyou——morethanIcanputinwords——morethanIcanthink;andifyoulovemeyouwillmindwhatJesustellsyou。“
  “Whatagoodmanyoumustbe,Mr。Grant!——Mustn'the,Arkie?”sobbedDavie。
  Donallaughed。
  “What,Davie!”heexclaimed。“Youthinkmeverygoodforlovingtheonlygoodpersoninthewholeworld!Thatisveryodd!Why,Davie,Ishouldbethemostcontemptiblecreature,knowinghimasIdo,nottolovehimwithallmyheart——yes,withallthebigheartIshallhaveonedaywhenhehasdonemakingme。“
  “Ishemakingyoustill,Mr。Grant?Ithoughtyouweregrownup!”
  “Well,Idon'tthinkhewillmakemeanytaller,“answeredDonal。
  “Butthelivepartofme——thethingIloveyouwith,thethingI
  thinkaboutGodwith,thethingIlovepoetrywith,thethingIreadtheBiblewith——thatthingGodkeepsonmakingbiggerandbigger。I
  donotknowwhereitwillstop,Ionlyknowwhereitwillnotstop。
  Thatthingisme,andGodwillkeeponmakingitbiggertoalleternity,thoughhehasnotevengotitintotherightshapeyet。“
  “Whyishesolongaboutit?”
  “Idon'tthinkheislongaboutit;buthecoulddoitquickerifI
  wereasgoodasbythistimeIoughttobe,withthefatherandmotherIhave,andallmylonghoursonthehillsideswithmyNewTestamentandthesheep。IprayedtoGodonthehillandinthefields,andheheardme,Davie,andmademeseethefoolishnessofmanythings,andthegrandeurandbeautyofotherthings。Davie,Godwantstogiveyouthewholeworld,andeverythinginit。WhenyouhavebeguntodothethingsJesustellsyou,thenyouwillbemybrother,andweshallbothbehislittlebrothers,andthesonsofhisFatherGod,andsotheheirsofallthings。“
  Withthatheturnedagainandwent。
  ThetearswererollingdownArctura'sfacewithoutherbeingawareofit。
  “Heisawell-meaningman,“shesaidtoherself,“butdreadfullymistaken:theBiblesaysbelieve,notdo!”
  Thepoorgirl,thoughshereadherbibleregularly,wassoblindedbythedustandashesofherteaching,thatsheknewverylittleofwhatwasactuallyinit。Themostsignificantthingsslippedfromherasiftheyweremerestwordswithoutshadowofmeaningorintent:theydidnotsupportthedoctrinesshehadbeentaught,andthereforesaidnothingtoher。ThestoryofChristandtheappealsofthosewhohadhandledtheWordofLifehadanotherendinviewthanmakingpeopleunderstandhowGodarrangedmatterstosavethem。
  Godwouldhaveuslive:ifwelivewecannotbutknow;alltheknowledgeintheuniversecouldnotmakeuslive。Obedienceistheroadtoallthings——theonlywayinwhichtogrowabletotrusthim。
  Loveandfaithandobediencearesidesofthesameprism。
  Regularlyafterthat,ladyArcturacametothelesson——alwaysintendingtoobjectassoonasitwasover。Butalwaysbeforetheendcame,Donalhadsaidsomethingthatwentsototheheartofthehonestgirlthatshecouldsaynothing。Asifshetoohadbeenapupil,asindeedshewas,farmorethaneitherknew,shewouldrisewhenDavierose,andgoawaywithhim。Butitwastogoaloneintothegarden,ortoherroom,notseldomfindingherselfwishingthingstruewhichyetshecountedterriblydangerous:listeningtothemmightnotsheaswellasDaviefailmiserablyofescapefromthewrathtocome?
  CHAPTERXIX。
  THEFACTOR。
  Theoldavenueofbeeches,leadingimmediatelynowhitheranymore,butclosedatoneendbyabuilt-upgate,andattheotherbyahighwall,betweenwhichtwopointsitstretchedquiteamile,wasafavouriteresortofDonal's,partlyforitsbeauty,partlyforitssolitude。Thearmsofthegreattreescrossingmadeofitalongaisle——itsroofabrokenvaultofleaves,upheldbyirregularpointedarches——whichaffectedone'simaginationlikeanevershiftingdreamofarchitecturalsuggestion。Havingceasedtobeaway,itwasnowallbutentirelydeserted,andtherewaseerinessinthevanishingvistathatshowednothingbeyond。Whenthewindofthetwilightsighedinguststhroughitsmoanfulcrowdofflutteredleaves;orwhenthewindofthewinterwastormentingtheancienthaggardboughs,andthetreeslookedasiftheywerewearyoftheworld,andlongingafterthegardenofGod;yetmorewhenthesnowlayheavyupontheirbranches,sorelytryingtheiragedstrengthtosupportitsoppression,andgivingtheonlookeravaguesenseofwhattheworldwouldbeifGodweregonefromit——thentheoldavenuewasaplacefromwhichonewithmoreimaginationthancouragewouldbereadytohasteaway,andseekinsteadtheabodesofmen。
  ButDonal,thoughhedearlylovedhisneighbour,andthatinthefullestconcretesense,wascapableoflovingtheloneliestspots,forinsuchhewasneveralone。
  Itwasaltogetheraneglectedplace。Longgrassgrewoveritsfloorfromendtoend——cutnowandthenforhay,ortofeedsuchanimalsashadgrassintheirstalls。Alongoneborder,outsidethetrees,wentafootpath——solittleusedthat,thoughnotquiteconqueredbytheturf,thelonggrassoftenmetoverthetopofit。Findingitsolonely,Donalgrewmoreandmorefondofit。Itwashisoutdoorstudy,hisproseuche{Compilersnote:pi,rho,omicron,sigma,epsilonupsilon,chi,etawithstress——[outdoor]placeofprayer}——alittleaisleofthegreattemple!Seldomindeedwashisreadingormeditationthereinterruptedbysightofhumanbeing。
  Aboutamonthafterhehadtakenuphisabodeatthecastle,hewaslyingonedayinthegrasswithabook-companion,undertheshadeofoneofthelargestofitsbeeches,whenhefeltthroughthegroundereheheardthroughtheairthefeetofanapproachinghorse。Astheycamenear,heraisedhisheadtosee。Hisunexpectedappearancestartledthehorse,hisridernearlylosthisseat,anddidlosehistemper。Recoveringtheformer,andholdingtheexcitedanimal,whichwouldhavebeenoffatfullspeed,heurgedhimtowardsDonal,whomhetookforatramp。Hewasrising——deliberately,thathemightnotdomoremischief,andwasyethardlyonhisfeet,whenthehorse,yieldingtothespur,camestraightathim,itsriderwithhiswhiplifted。Donaltookoffhisbonnet,steppedalittleaside,andstood。Hisbearingandcountenancecalmedthehorseman'srage;therewassomethinginthemtowhichnogentlemancouldfailofresponse。
  Theriderwasplainlyonewhohadmoretodowithaffairsbucolicthanwiththoseofcitiesorcourts,butwithalamanofconsciousdignity,sociallyafloat,andabletoholdhisown。
  “Whatthedevil——,“hecried——fornothingissoirritatingtoahorsemanastocomenearlosinghisseat,exceptperhapstoloseitaltogether,andindignationagainstthecauseofanuntowardaccidentisgenerallyamortal'sfirstconsciousnessthereupon:
  howeverfoolishly,hefeelshimselfinjured。Butthere,havingbettertakeninDonal'slook,hecheckedhimself。
  “Ibegyourpardon,sir,“saidDonal。“Itwasfoolishofmetoshowmyselfsosuddenly;Imighthavethoughtitwouldstartlemosthorses。Iwastooabsorbedtohavemywitsaboutme。“
  Thegentlemanliftedhishat。
  “Ibegyourpardoninreturn,“hesaidwithasmilewhichclearedeverycloudfromhisface。“Itookyouforsomeonewhohadnobusinesshere;butIimagineyouarethetutoratthecastle,withasgoodarightasIhavemyself。“
  “Youguesswell,sir。“
  “PardonmethatIforgetyourname。“
  “MynameisDonalGrant,“returnedDonal,withanaccentonthemyintendingawishtoknowinreturnthatofthespeaker。
  “IamaGraeme,“answeredtheother,“oneoftheclan,andfactortotheearl。ComeandseewhereIlive。Mysisterwillbegladtomakeyouracquaintance。Weleadratheralonelylifehere,anddon'tseetoomanyagreeablepeople。“
  “Youcallthislonely,doyou!”saidDonalthoughtfully。“——Itisagrandplace,anyhow!”
  “Youareright——asyouseeitnow。Butwaittillwinter!Thenperhapsyouwillchangeyourimpressionalittle。“
  “PardonmeifIdoubtwhetheryouknowwhatwintercanbesowellasIdo。Thiseastcoastisbyallaccountsabitterplace,butI
  fancyitisonlyuponagreathill-sideyoucanknowtheheartandsoulofasnow-blast。“
  “Iyieldthat,“returnedMr。Graeme。“——Itisbitterenoughherethough,andamercywecankeepwarmin-doors。“
  “Whichisoftenmorethanweshepherd-folkcando,“saidDonal。
  Mr。Graemeusedtosayafterwardshewasneversoimmediatelytakenwithaman。ItwasoneofthecharmsofDonal'shabitofbeing,thatheneverspokeasifhebelongedtoanyotherthantheclassinwhichhehadbeenbornandbroughtup。Thiscamepartlyofprideinhisfatherandmother,partlyofinborndignity,andpartlyofreligion。TohimthestoryofourLordwastherealityitis,andherejoicedtoknowhimselfsonearlyonthesamesociallevelofbirthastheMasterofhislifeandaspiration。ItwasDonal'soneambition——togivethehighpassionalowname——tobefreewiththefreedomwhichwashisnaturalinheritance,andwhichistobegainedonlybyobediencetothewordsoftheMaster。Fromthefaceofthisaspirationfledeverykindofpretenceasfromthelightfliesthedarkness。Hencehewasentirelyandthoroughlyagentleman。Whatifhisclotheswerenotevenofthenexttothenewestcut!Whatifhehadnotbeenusedtowhatiscalledsociety!Hewasfarabovesuchthings。Ifhemightbutattaintothemannersofthe“highcountries,“mannerswhichappearbecausetheyexist——becausetheyareallthroughtheman!Hedidnotthinkwhathemightseemintheeyesofmen。Courteous,helpful,considerate,alwaysseekingfirsthowfarhecouldhonestlyagreewithanyspeaker,opposingneversavesweetlyandapologetically——exceptindeedsomeutteranceflagrantlyunjustwereinhisears——therewasnomanoftruebreeding,inoroutofsociety,whowouldnothavegrantedthatDonalwasfitcompanyforanymanorwoman。Mr。Graeme'seyeglanceddownoverthetallsquare-shoulderedform,alittlestoopingfromlackofdrillandmuchmeditation,butinstantlystraighteningitselfuponanyinwardstir,andhesaidtohimself,“Thisisnocommonman!”
  Theyweremovingslowlyalongtheavenue,Donalbytherider'snearknee,talkingawaylikemennotunlikelysoontoknoweachotherbetter。
  “Youdon'tmakemuchuseofthisavenue!”saidDonal。
  “No;itsuseisanoldstory。Thecastlewasforatimedeserted,andthefamily,thenpassingthroughaphaseofcomparativepoverty,livedinthehouseweareinnow——tomymindmuchthemorecomfortable。“
  “Whatafineoldplaceitmustbe,ifsuchtreesareafitapproachtoit!”
  “Theywereneverplantedforthat;theyareolderfar。Eithertherewasawoodhere,andtherestwerecutdownandtheseleft,ortherewasonceahousemucholderthanthepresent。Thelookofthegarden,andsomeoftheoffices,favourthelatteridea。“
  “Ihaveneverseenthehouse,“saidDonal。
  “Youhavenotthenbeenmuchaboutyet?”saidMr。Graeme。
  “Ihavebeensooccupiedwithmypupil,andsodelightedwithallthatlayimmediatelyaroundme,thatIhavegonenowhere——except,indeed,toseeAndrewComin,thecobbler。“
  “Ah,youknowhim!Ihaveheardofhimasaremarkableman。TherewasaclergymanherefromGlasgow——Iforgethisname——sostruckwithhimheseemedactuallytotakehimforaprophet。Hesaidhewasasurvivaloftheoldmystics。FormypartIhavenoturnforextravagance。“
  “But,“saidDonal,inthetoneofonemerelysuggestingapossibility,“athingthatfromtheoutsidemayseemanextravagance,maylookquitedifferentwhenyougetinsideit。“
  “Themorereasonforkeepingoutofit!Ifacquaintancemustmakeyouinlovewithit,themoreairbetweenyouanditthebetter!”
  “Wouldnotsuchprecautionasthatkeepyoufromgainingatrueknowledgeofmanythings?Nothingalmostcanbeknownfromwhatpeoplesay。“
  “True;buttherearethingssoplainlynonsense!”
  “Yes;buttherearethingsthatseemtobenonsense,becausethemanthinksheknowswhattheyarewhenhedoesnot。Whowouldknowtheshapeofachairwhotookhisideaofitfromitsshadowonthefloor?Whatideacanamanhaveofreligionwhoknowsnothingofitexceptfromwhathehearsatchurch?”
  Mr。Graemewasnotfondofgoingtochurchyetwent:hewasthelessdispleasedwiththeremark。Buthemadenoreply,andthesubjectdropped。