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第3章

  Therewassomethingofold-worldbreedingabouttheladthatcommendedhimtotheearl。SuchbreedingisnotrareamongCelt-bornpeasants。
  “Mysonstoldmethattheyhadmetayoungmaninthegrounds——“
  “ForwhichIbegyourlordship'spardon,“saidDonal。“Ididnotknowtheplacewasforbidden。“
  “Ihopeyouwillsoonbefamiliarwithit。Iamgladofyourmistake。Fromwhattheysaid,Isupposedyoumightbeastudentinwantofasituation,andIhadbeenlookingoutforayoungmantotakechargeoftheboy:itseemedpossibleyoumightservemypurpose。Idonotquestionyoucanshowyourselffitforsuchanoffice:Ipresumeitwouldsuityou。Doyoubelieveyourselfonetobesotrusted?”
  Donalhadnotaglimmeroffalsemodesty;heansweredimmediately,“Ido,mylord。“
  “Tellmesomethingofyourhistory:wherewereyouborn?whatwereyourparents?”
  Donaltoldhimallhethoughtitofanyconsequenceheshouldknow。
  Hislordshipdidnotonceinterrupthimwithquestionorremark。
  Whenhehadended——
  “Well,“hesaid,“Ilikeallyoutellme。Youhavetestimonials?”
  “Ihavefromtheprofessors,mylord,andonefromtheministeroftheparish,whoknewmebeforeIwenttocollege。IcouldgetonefromMr。Sclatertoo,whosechurchIattendedwhilethere。“
  “Showmewhatyouhave,“saidhislordship。
  Donaltookthepapersfromthepocket-bookhismotherhadmadehim,andhandedthemtohim。Theearlreadthemwithsomeattention,returningeachtohimwithoutremarkashefinishedit,onlysayingwiththelast,“Quitesatisfactory。“
  “But,“saidDonal,“thereisonethingIshouldbemoreateaseifI
  toldyourlordship:Mr。Carmichael,theministerofthisparish,wouldtellyouIwasanatheist,orsomethingverylikeit——thereforeanaltogetherunsafeperson。Butheknowsnothingofme。“
  “Onwhatgroundsthenwouldhesayso?”askedtheearl——showingnottheleastdiscomposure。“Ithoughtyouwereastrangertothisplace!”
  Donaltoldhimhowtheyhadmet,whathadpassedbetweenthem,andhowtheministerhadbehavedinconsequence。Hislordshipheardhimgravely,wassilentforamoment,andthensaid,“ShouldMr。Carmichaeladdressmeonthesubject,whichIdonotthinklikely,hewillfindmealreadytoomuchprejudicedinyourfavour。ButIcanimaginehismistakingyourfreedomofspeech:youarescarcelyprudentenough。Whysayallyouthink?”
  “Ifearnothing,mylord。“
  Theearlwassilent;hisgrayfaceseemedtogrowgrayer,butitmightbethatjustthenthesunwentunderacloud,andhewassuddenlyfoldedinshadow。Afteramomenthespokeagain。
  “Iamquitesatisfiedwithyousofar,Mr。Grant;andasIshouldnotliketoemployyouindirectoppositiontoMr。Carmichel——notthatIbelongtohischurch——wewillarrangemattersbeforehecanhearoftheaffair。Whatsalarydoyouwant?”
  Donalrepliedhewouldpreferleavingthesalarytohislordship'sjudgmentupontrial。
  “Iamnotawealthyman,“returnedhislordship,“andwouldpreferanunderstanding。“
  “Trymethenforthreemonths,mylord;givememyboardandlodging,theuseofyourlibrary,andattheendofthequarteraten-pound-note:bythattimeyouwillbeabletotellwhetherIsuityou。“
  Theearlnoddedagreement,andDonalroseatonce。Withaheartfullofthankfulnessandhopehewalkedbacktohisfriends。Hehadbeforehimpleasantwork;plentyoftimeandbook-help;anabodefullofinterest;andsomethingforhislabour!
  “'Surelythewrathofmanshallpraisethee!'“saidthecobbler,rejoicingagainsttheminister;“'theremainderofwrathshaltthourestrain。'“
  IntheafternoonDonalwentintothetowntogetsometrifleshewantedbeforegoingtothecastle。Asheturnedtothedoorofadraper'sshop,hesawatthecountertheministertalkingtohim。
  Hewouldratherhavegoneelsewherebutforunwillingnesstoturnhisbackonanything:hewentin。Besidetheministerstoodayounglady,who,havingcompletedherpurchases,waslisteningtotheirconversation。Thedraperlookedupasheentered。Aglancepassedbetweenhimandtheminister。HecametoDonal,andhavingheardwhathewanted,lefthim,wentbacktotheminister,andtooknomorenoticeofhim。Donalfounditawkward,andlefttheshop。
  “Highan'michty!”saidthedraper,annoyedatlosingthecustomertowhosedispraisehehadbeenlistening。
  “Farbeyonddissent,John!”saidtheminister,pursuingaremark。
  “Doobtless,sir,itisthat!”answeredthedraper。“I'mthankfu'tosayIneverharbouredadoobtmysel',butayetookwhatIwastauld,ohnargle-barglet。Whathaewesicasyersel'setower'sfor,gienitbinnatohaud'si'thestraichtpatho'whatwe'retobelievean'
  notobelieve?It'safinethingnotobeaccoontable!”
  Theministerwasanhonestmansofarasheknewhimselfandhonesty,anddidnotrelishthisformofsubmission。Buthedidnotaskhimselfwherewasthedifferencebetweenacceptingthewordofmanandacceptingman'sexplanationofthewordofGod!Hetookahugepinchfromhisblacksnuffboxandheldhispeace。
  IntheeveningDonalwouldsettlehisaccountwithmistressComin:
  hefoundherdemandsomuchlessthanhehadexpected,thatheexpostulated。Shewasfirm,however,andassuredhimshehadgained,notlost。Ashewasputtinguphisthings,“Lea'abuikortwa,sir,“shesaid,“'atwhanyeluikin,theplacemayluikhame-like。Wes'ca'theroomyours。Comeasaftenasyecan。ItdoesmyAnerew'shertguidtohaeacrackwi'ane'atkenssomethingo'whattheMaisterwadbeat。Monyane'llca'himLord,butfeow'illtakthetribletokenwhathewadhaeo'them。Butthere'smyAnerew——he'llsityon'erathiswark,thinkin'bythehoorthegitherowersomethingtheMaistersaid'athecannawinattherichtso'。'Depen'upo''t,'hesayswhiles,'depen'upo''t,lass,whauronythinghesaysdisnaluikrichttohiz,itmaunbe'atwehaenawonatit!'“
  Assheended,herhusbandcamein,andtookupwhathefanciedthethreadofthedialogue。
  “An'whatarewetothinko'theman,“hesaid,“at'scontentnotoun'erstan'whathewasatthetribletosay?Wadhesaythings'athedidnameanfowktoun'erstan'whanhesaidthem?”“Weel,Anerew,“
  saidhiswife,“there'smonyathinghesaid'atIcannotun'erstan';naitheramImucklethebetterforyourexplainin'o'
  thesame;Imaunjistlatitsit。“
  Andrewlaughedhisquietpleasedlaugh。
  “Weel,lass,“hesaid,“theduin'o'aething'sbetternortheun'erstan'in'o'twenty。Norwullyebelangohnun'erstan'tmuckle'at'sdarktoyenoo;forthemaisterlikesnanebuttheduero'theword,an'herhelikesweel。Beblythe,lass;yes'haeyerfillo'
  un'erstan'in'yet!”
  “I'mfaintobelieveyespeykthetrowth,Anerew!”
  “It'sgreattrowth,“saidDonal。
  CHAPTERXII。
  THECASTLE。
  Thenextmorningcameacartfromthecastletofetchhisbox;andafterbreakfasthesetoutforhisnewabode。
  Hetookthepathbytheriver-side。Themorningwasglorious。Thesunandtheriverandthebirdswerejubilant,andthewindgavelifetoeverything。Itrippledthestream,andflutteredthelongwebsbleachinginthesun:theyroseandfelllikewhitewavesonthebrightgreenlake;andwomen,homelyNereidsofthegrassysea,werebesprinklingthemwithspray。Thereweredullsoundsofwoodenmachinerynear,buttheymadenodiscordwiththesweetnessofthehour,speakingonlyofactivity,notlabour。Fromthelongbleachingmeadowsbytheriver-siderosethewoodedbaseofthecastle。Donal'sbosomswelledwithdelight;thencameasting:washealreadyforgettinghisinextinguishablegrief?“But,“heansweredhimself,“Godismoretomethananywoman!Whenheputsjoyinmyheart,shallInotbeglad?WhenhecallsmynameshallInotanswer?”
  Hesteppedoutjoyfully,andwassoonclimbingthehill。Hewasagainadmittedbytheoldbutler。
  “Iwillshowyouatonce,“hesaid,“howtogoandcomeatyourownwill。“
  Heledhimthroughdoorsandalongpassagestoaposternopeningonalittlewalledgardenattheeastendofthecastle。
  “Thisdoor,“hesaid,“is,youobserve,atthefootofBaliol'stower,andinthattowerisyourroom;Iwillshowityou。“
  Heledthewayupaspiralstairthatmightalmosthavegoneinsidethenewelofthegreatstaircase。Upanduptheywent,untilDonalbegantowonder,andstilltheywentup。
  “You'reyoung,sir,“saidthebutler,“andsoundofwindandlimb;
  soyou'llsoonthinknothingofit。“
  “Ineverwasupsohighbefore,exceptonahill-side,“returnedDonal。“Thecollege-towerisnothingtothis!”
  “Inadayortwoyou'llbeshootingupanddownitlikeabird。I
  usedtodosomyself。Igotintothewayofkeepingashoulderforemost,andscrewingupasifIwasablobofair!Oldagedoesmakefoolsofus!”
  “Youdon'tlikeitthen?”
  “No,Idonot:whodoes?”
  “It'sonlythatyougetspentasyougoup。Thefreshairatthetopofthestairwillsoonreviveyou,“saidDonal。
  Buthisconductordidnotunderstandhim。
  “That'sallverywellsolongasyou'reyoung;butwhenithasgotyou,you'llpantandgrumbleliketherestofus。“
  InthedistanceDonalsawAgecomingslowlyafterhim,toclawhiminhisclutch,astheoldsongsays。“PleaseGod,“hethought,“bythetimehecomesup,I'llbereadytotryafallwithhim!OThoueternallyyoung,theyearshavenoholdonthee;letthemhavenoneonthychild。Itooshallhavelifeeternal。“
  Eretheyreachedthetopofthestair,themanhaltedandopenedadoor。Donalenteringsawasmallroom,nearlyround,aportionofthecircletakenoffbythestair。Ontheoppositesidewasawindowprojectingfromthewall,whencehecouldlookinthreedifferentdirections。Thewidecountrylayathisfeet。Hesawthewindingroadbywhichhehadascended,thegatebywhichhehadentered,themeadowwithitswhitestripesthroughwhichhehadcome,andtheriverflowingdown。Hefolloweditwithhiseyes:——lo,therewasthesea,shininginthesunlikeadiamondshield!ItwasbutthelittleGermanOcean,yetonewiththegreatworld-ocean。Heturnedtohisconductor。
  “Yes,“saidtheoldman,answeringhislook,“it'saglorioussight!
  WhenfirstIlookedoutthereIthoughtIwasineternity。“
  Thewallswerebareevenofplaster;hecouldhavecountedthestonesinthem;buttheyweredryasabone。
  “Youarewondering,“saidtheoldman,“howyouaretokeepwarminthewinter!Lookhere:youshutthisdooroverthewindow!Seehowthickandstrongitis!Thereisyourfireplace;andforfuel,there'splentybelow!Itisalabourtocarryitup,Igrant;butifIwasyou,Iwouldsettoo'nightswhennobodywasabout,andcarrytillIhadastocklaidin!”
  “But,“saidDonal,“Ishouldfillupmyroom。Iliketobeabletomoveaboutalittle!”
  “Ah,“repliedtheoldman,“youdon'tknowwhataspaceyouhaveupherealltoyourself!Comethisway。“
  Twoturnsmoreupthestair,andtheycametoanotherdoor。Itopenedintowidespace:fromitDonalsteppedonaledgeorbartizan,withoutanyparapet,thatranroundthetower,passingabovethewindowofhisroom。Itwaswellhehadasteadybrain,forhefoundtheheightaffecthimmorethanthatofaprecipiceonGlashgar:doubtlesshewouldgetusedtoit,fortheoldmanhadsteppedoutwithoutthesmallesthesitation!Roundthetowerhefollowedhim。
  Ontheothersideafewstepsrosetoawatch-tower——asortofornatesentry-boxinstone,whereonemightsitandregardwithwidevisionthewholecountry。Avoidingthis,anothersteportwoledthemtotheroofofthecastle——ofgreatstoneslabs。Abroadpassageranbetweentheriseoftheroofandabattlementedparapet。
  Bythistimetheycametoaflatroof,ontowhichtheydescendedbyafewsteps。Herestoodtworoughsheds,withnothinginthem。
  “There'sstowage!”saidtheoldman。
  “Yes,indeed!”answeredDonal,towhomtheideaofhisaeriewasgrowingmoreandmoreagreeable。“Butwouldtherebenoobjectiontomyusingtheplaceforsuchapurpose?”
  “Whatobjection?”returnedhisguide。“Idoubtifasinglepersonbutmyselfknowsit。“
  “AndshallIbeallowedtocarryupasmuchasIplease?”
  “Iallowyou,“saidthebutler,withimportance。“Ofcourseyouwillnotwaste——Iamdeadagainstwaste!Butastowhatisneedful,useyourfreedom——Dinnerwillbereadyforyouintheschoolroomatseven。“
  Atthedoorofhisroomtheoldmanlefthim,andafterlisteningforamomenttohisdescendingsteps,Donalre-enteredhischamber。
  Whytheyputhimsoapart,Donalneveraskedhimself;thatheshouldhavesuchcommandofhisleisureasthisisolationpromisedhimwasaconsequenceverysatisfactory。Heproceededatoncetosettlehimselfinhisnewquarters。Findingsomeshelvesinarecessofthewall,hearrangedhisbooksuponthem,andlaidhisfewclothesinthechestofdrawersbeneath。Hethengotouthiswritingmaterial,andsatdown。
  Thoughhiswindowwassohigh,thewarmpureaircameinfullofthearomaticodoursrisinginthehotsunshinefromtheyoungpinetreesfarbelow,andfromalarkfarabovedescendednewsofheaven-gate。
  Thescentcameupandthesongcamedownallthetimehewaswritingtohismother——alongletter。Whenhehadclosedandaddressedit,hefellintoareverie。Apparentlyhewastohavehismealsbyhimself:hewasgladofit:hewouldbeabletoreadallthetime!Buthowwashetofindtheschoolroom!Someonewouldsurelyfetchhim!Theywouldrememberhedidnotknowhiswayabouttheplace!Itwantedyetanhourtodinner-timewhen,findinghimselfdrowsy,hethrewhimselfonhisbed,wherepresentlyhefellfastasleep。
  Thenightdescended,andwhenhecametohimself,itssilencesweredeeparoundhim。Itwasnotdark:therewasnomoon,butthetwilightwasclear。Hecouldreadthefaceofhiswatch:itwastwelveo'clock!Noonehadmissedhim!Hewasveryhungry!Buthehadbeenhungrierbeforeandsurvivedit!Inhiswalletwerestillsomeremnantsofoat-cake!Hetookitinhishand,andsteppingoutonthebartizan,creptwithcarefulstepsroundtothewatch-tower。
  Thereheseatedhimselfinthestonechair,andatehisdrymorselsinthestarrypresences。Sleephadrefreshedhim,andhewaswideawake,yettherewasonhimthesenseofastrangeexistence。Neverbeforehadhesoknownhimself!Oftenhadhepassedthenightintheopenair,butneverbeforehadhisnight-consciousnessbeensuch!Neverhadhefeltthesamewayalone。Hewaspartedfromthewholeearth,liketheship-boyonthegiddymast!Nothingwasbelowbutadimness;theearthandallthatwasinitwasmassedintoavagueshadow。Itwasasifhehaddiedandgonewhereexistencewasindependentofsolidityandsense。Abovehimwasdomedthevastofthestarryheavens;hecouldneitherfleefromitnorascendtoit!
  Foramomenthefeltitthesymboloflife,yetanunattainablehopelessthing。Hehungsuspendedbetweenheavenandearth,anoutcastofboth,adenizenofneither!Thetruelifeseemedevertoretreat,nevertoawaithisgrasp。NothingbutthebeholdingofthefaceoftheSonofMancouldsethimatrestastoitsreality;
  nothinglessthantheassurancefromhisownmouthcouldsatisfyhimthatallwastrue,allwell:lifewasathingsoessentiallydivine,thathecouldnotknowitinitselftillhisownessencewaspure!
  Butalas,howdream-likewastheoldstory!WasGodindeedtobereachedbytheprayers,affectedbytheneedsofmen?Howwashetofeelsureofit?Oncemore,asoftenheretofore,hefoundhimselfcryingintothegreatworldtoknowwhethertherewasaneartohear。Whatifthereshouldcometohimnoanswer?Howfrightfulthenwouldbehisloneliness!Buttoseemnottobeheardmightbepartofthedisciplineofhisdarkness!ItmightbefortheperfectingofhisfaiththathemustnotyetknowhownearGodwastohim!
  “Lord,“hecried,“eternallifeistoknowtheeandthyFather;IdonotknowtheeandthyFather;Ihavenoteternallife;Ihavebutlifeenoughtohungerformore:showmeplainlyoftheFatherwhomthoualoneknowest。“
  Andasheprayed,somethinglikeatouchofGodseemedtobeginandgrowinhimtillitwasmorethanhisheartcouldhold,andtheuniverseabouthimwasnotlargeenoughtoholdinitshollowtheheartthatswelledwithit。
  “Godisenough,“hesaid,andsatinpeace。
  CHAPTERXIII。
  ASOUND。
  Allatoncecametohisearthroughthenightastrangesomething。
  Whenceorwhatitwashecouldnotevenconjecture。Wasitamoanoftheriverfrombelow?Wasitalostmusic-tonethathadwanderedfromafarandgrownfaint?Wasitoneofthosemysterioussoundshehadreadofasbornintheairitself,andnotyetexplainedofscience?Wasittheflutteredskirtofsomeangelicsongoflamentation?——foriftheangelsrejoice,theysurelymustlament!
  Orwasitastilledhumanmoaning?Wasanywrongbeingdonefardowninthewhite-gleamingmeadowsbelow,bythebanksoftheriverwhoseplatinum-glimmerhecoulddescrythroughthemoltenamethystinedarknessofthestarrynight?
  Presentlycamealong-drawnmusicalmoan:itmustbethesoundofsomemuffledinstrument!Verilynightwasthetimeforstrangethings!Couldsoundsbebegotteninthefirtreesbytheraysofthehotsun,andborninthestillnessofthefollowingdark,asthelightwhichthediamondreceivesinthedayglowsoutinthegloom?
  Thereareparentsandtheirprogenythatneverexisttogether!
  Againthesound——hardlytobecalledsound!Itresembledavibrationoforgan-pipetooslowanddeeptoaffectthehearing;
  onlythisratherseemedtoohigh,asifonlyhissoulheardit。Hewouldstealsoftlydownthedumbstone-stair!Somecreaturemightbeintroubleandneedinghelp!
  Hecreptbackalongthebartizan。Thestairwasdarkastheveryheartofthenight。Hegropedhiswaydown。Thespiralstairisthesafestofall:youcannottumblefarerebroughtupbytheinclosingcylinder。Arrivedatthebottom,andfeelingabout,hecouldnotfindthedoortotheouterairwhichthebutlerhadshownhim;itwaswallwhereverhishandsfell。Hecouldnotfindagainthestairhehadleft;hecouldnottellinwhatdirectionitlay。
  Hehadgotintoalongwindowlesspassageconnectingtwowingsofthehouse,andinthishewasfeelinghisway,fearfuloffallingdownsomestairortrap。Hecameatlasttoadoor——low-browedlikealmostallinthehouse。Openingit——wasitathinnerdarknessorthefaintestgleamoflighthesaw?Andwasthatagainthesoundhehadfollowed,fainterandfartheroffthanbefore——adownywind-waftedplumefromtheskirtofsomestrayharmony?Atsuchatimeofthenightsurelyitwasstrange!Itmustcomefromonewhocouldnotsleep,andwassolacinghimselfwithsweetsounds,breathingasoulintotheuncompanionablesilence!Ifsoitwas,hehadnorighttosearchfarther!Buthowwashetoreturn?Hedaredhardlymove,lestheshouldbefoundwanderingoverthehouseinthedeadofnightlikeathief,oronesearchingafteritssecrets。Hemustsitdownandwaitforthemorning:itsearliestlightwouldperhapsenablehimtofindhiswaytohisquarters!
  Feelingabouthimalittle,hisfootstruckagainstthestepofastair。Examiningitwithhishands,hebelieveditthesamehehadascendedinthemorning:eveninagreatcastle,couldtherebetwosuchroyalstairs?Hesatdownuponit,andleaninghisheadonhishands,composedhimselftoapatientwaitingforthelight。
  Waitingpureisperhapsthehardestthingforfleshandbloodtodowell。Therelationsoftimetomindareverystrange。Someoftheirphenomenaseemtoprovethattimeisonlyofthemind——belongingtotheintellectasgoodandevilbelongtothespirit。Anyhow,ifitwerenotfortheclocksoftheuniverse,onemanwouldliveayear,acentury,whereanotherwouldlivebutaday。Butthemeremotionoftime,nottosaytheconsciousnessofemptytime,isfearful。Itisthisemptytimethatthefoolisalwaystryingtokill:hiseffortshouldbetofillit。YetnothingbutthelivingGodcanfillit——thoughitbebuttheshapeourexistencetakestous。Onlywhereheis,emptinessisnot。
  EternitywillbebutanintensepresenttothechildwithwhomistheFather。
  Suchthoughtsalighted,flitted,andpassed,forthefirstfewmoments,throughthemindofDonal,ashesathalfconsciouslywaitingforthedawn。Itwasthousandsofmilesaway,overthegreatroundofthesunward-turningearth!Hisimaginationwoke,andbegantopicturethegreathuntoftheshadows,fleeingbeforethearrowsofthesun,overthebroadfaceofthemightyworld——itsmountains,seas,andplainsinturnconfessingthelight,andsubmittingtohimwhoslaysforthemthehauntingdemonsoftheirdark。Thenagainthemomentswerethesmallcogsonthewheelsoftime,wherebythedarkcastleinwhichhesatwasrushingevertowardsthelight:thecogswerecaughtandthewheelsturnedswiftly,andthetimeandthedarknesssped。Heforgotthelabourofwaiting。Ifnowandthenhefanciedatonethroughthedarkness,itwastohismindthemusic-marchofthemorningtohisrescuefromthedungeonofthenight。
  Butthatwasnomusicaltonewhichmadethedarknessshudderaroundhim!Hesprangtohisfeet。Itwasahumangroan——agroanasofoneindirepain,thepainofasoul'sagony。Itseemedtohavedescendedthestairtohim。ThenextinstantDonalwasfeelinghiswayup——cautiously,asifoneachsucceedingstephemightcomeagainstthemanwhohadgroaned。Talesofhauntedhousesrushedintohismemory。Whatifhewerebutpursuingthegroanofanactorinthepast——acreaturetheslaveofhisownconsciousmemory——amerehaunterofthepresentwhichhecouldnotinfluence——onewithoutphysicalrelationtotheembodied,saveinthegroanshecouldyetutter!Butitwasmoreinawethaninfearthathewent。
  Upanduphefelthisway,allabouthimasstillasdarknessandthenightcouldmakeit。Aghostlycoldcreptthroughhisskin;itwasdrawntogetherasbyagentlyfreezingprocess;andtherewasapullingatthemusclesofhischest,asifhismouthwerebeingdraggedopenbyamartingale。
  Ashefelthiswayalongthewall,sweepingitsgreatendlesscircleroundandroundinspiralascent,allatoncehishandseemedtogothroughit;hestartedandstopped。Itwasthedooroftheroomintowhichhehadbeenshowntomeettheearl!Itstoodwideopen。
  Afaintglimmercamethroughthewindowfromthestar-filledsky。
  Hesteppedjustwithinthedoorway。Wasnotthatanotherglimmeronthefloor——fromthebackoftheroom——throughadoorhedidnotrememberhavingseenyesterday?Thereagainwasthegroan,andnighathand!Someonemustbeinsoreneed!Heapproachedthedoorandlookedthrough。Alamp,nearlyspent,hungfromtheceilingofasmallroomwhichmightbeanofficeorstudy,oraplacewherepaperswerekept。Ithadthelookofanantechamber,butthatitcouldnotbe,fortherewasbuttheonedoor!——Inthedimlighthedescriedavagueformleaningupagainstoneofthewalls,asiflisteningtosomethingthroughit!Ashegazeditgrewplainertohim,andhesawaface,itseyesstaringwide,whichyetseemednottoseehim。Itwasthefaceoftheearl。Donalfeltasifinthepresenceofthedisembodied;hestoodfascinated,normadeattempttoretireorconcealhimself。Thefigureturneditsfacetothewall,putthepalmsofitshandsagainstit,andmovedthemupanddown,andthiswayandthat;thenlookedatthem,andbegantorubthemagainsteachother。
  Donalcametohimself。Heconcludeditwasacaseofsleepwalking。
  Hehadreadthatitwasdangeroustowakethesleeper,butthatheseldomcametomischiefwhenleftalone,andwasabouttoslipawayashehadcome,whenthefaintsoundofafar-offchordcreptthroughthesilence。Theearlagainlaidhiseartothewall。Buttherewasonlysilence。Hewentthroughthesamedumbshowasbefore,thenturnedasiftoleavetheplace。Donalturnedalso,andhurriedlyfelthiswaytothestair。Thenfirsthewasindangerofterror;forinstealingthroughthedarknessfromonewhocouldfindhiswaywithouthiseyes,heseemedpursuedbyacreaturenotofthisworld。Onthestairhewentdownasteportwo,thenlingered,andheardtheearlcomeonitalso。Hecreptclosetothenewel,leavingthegreatwidthofthestairfree,butthestepsoftheearlwentupward。Donaldescended,satdownagainatthebottomofthestair,andbeganagaintowait。Nosoundcametohimthroughtherestofthenight。Theslowhoursrolledaway,andtheslowlightdrewnearer。Nowandthenhewasonthepointoffallingintoadoze,butwouldsuddenlystartwideawake,listeningthroughasilencethatseemedtofillthewholeuniverseanddeepenaroundthecastle。
  Atlengthhewasawarethatthedarknesshad,unobservedofhim,grownweaker——thattheapproachofthelightwassickeningit:thedayspringwasabouttotakeholdoftheendsoftheearththatthewickedmightbeshakenoutofitslap。Hesoughtthelongpassagebywhichhehadcome,andfelthiswaytotheotherend:itwouldbesafertowaitthereifhecouldgetnofarther。Butsomehowhecametothefootofhisownstair,andspedupasifitweretheladderofheaven。Hethrewhimselfonhisbed,fellfastasleep,anddidnotwaketillthesunwashigh。
  CHAPTERXIV。
  THESCHOOLROOM。
  OldSimmons,thebutler,wokehim。
  “Iwasafraidsomethingwasthematter,sir。Theytellmeyoudidnotcomedownlastnight;andbreakfasthasbeenwaitingyoutwohours。“
  “Ishouldnothaveknownwheretofindit,“saidDonal。“Theknowledgeofanoldcastleisnotintuitive。“
  “Howlongwillyoutaketodress?”askedSimmons。
  “Tenminutes,ifthereisanyhurry,“answeredDonal。
  “Iwillcomeagainintwenty;or,ifyouarewillingtosaveanoldman'sbones,Iwillbeatthebottomofthestairatthattimetotakechargeofyou。Iwouldhavelookedafteryouyesterday,buthislordshipwaspoorly,andIhadtobeinattendanceonhimtillaftermidnight。“
  Donalthoughtitimpossibleheshouldofhimselfhavefoundhiswaytotheschoolroom。Withallhecoulddotoremembertheturnings,hefoundtheendeavourhopeless,andgaveitupwithanotunpleasingdespair。Throughstrangepassages,throughdoorsinalldirections,upstairsanddowntheywent,andatlastcametoalong,lowroom,barelyfurnished,withapleasantoutlook,andimmediateaccesstotheopenair。Thewindowswereuponasmallgrassycourt,withasundialinthecentre;adooropenedonapavedcourt。Atoneendoftheroomatablewaslaidwithtentimesasmanythingsashecoulddesiretoeat,thoughhecametoitwithagoodappetite。Thebutlerhimselfwaiteduponhim。Hewasagood-naturedoldfellow,withanosesomewhattooredfortheordinarywearofoneinhisresponsibleposition。
  “Ihopetheearlisbetterthismorning,“saidDonal。
  “Well,Ican'tsay。He'sbutadelicatemanistheearl,andhasbeen,solongasIhaveknownhim。HewaswiththearmyinIndia,andthesun,theysay,givehimastroke,andeversincehehaveheadachesthatbad!Butinbetweenheseemsprettywell,andnothingdispleaseshimmorethanaskafterhishealth,orhowheslepthenight。Buthe'sagoodmaster,andIhopetoendmydayswithhim。I'mnotoneaslikesnewfacesandnewplaces!Onegoodplaceisenoughforme,saysI——solongasitisagoodone——Takesomeofthisgamepie,sir。“
  Donalmadehastewithhisbreakfast,andtoSimmons'sastonishmenthadendedwhenhethoughthimjustwellbegun。
  “HowshallIfindmasterDavie?”heasked。
  “Heiswildtoseeyou,sir。WhenI'veclearedaway,justhavethegoodnesstoringthisbelloutofthatwindow,andhe'llbewithyouasfastashecanlayhisfeettotheground。“
  Donalrangthehandbell。Ashoutmingledwiththeclangofit。
  Thencametherunningofswiftfeetoverthestonesofthecourt,andDavieburstintotheroom。
  “Oh,sir,“hecried,“Iamglad!Itisgoodofyoutocome!”
  “Well,yousee,Davie,“returnedDonal,“everybodyhasgottodosomethingtocarrytheworldonabit:myworkistohelpmakeamanofyou。OnlyIcan'tdomuchexceptyouhelpme;andifIfindIamnotmakingagoodjobofyou,Ishan'tstopmanyhoursafterthediscovery。Ifyouwanttokeepme,youmustmindwhatIsay,andsohelpmetomakeamanofyou。“
  “ItwillbelongbeforeIamaman!”saidDavieratherdisconsolately。
  “Itdependsonyourself。Theboythatislongestinbecomingaman,istheboythatthinkshimselfamanbeforeheisabitlikeone。“
  “Comethen,letusdosomething!”saidDavie。
  “Comeaway,“rejoinedDonal。“Whatshallwedofirst?”
  “Idon'tknow:youmusttellme,sir。“
  “Whatwouldyoulikebesttodo——Imeanifyoumightdowhatyoupleased?”
  Daviethoughtalittle,thensaid:
  “Ishouldliketowriteabook。“
  “Whatkindofabook?”
  “Abeautifulstory。“
  “Isn'titjustaswelltoreadsuchabook?Whyshouldyouwanttowriteone?”
  “BecausethenIshouldhaveitgojustasIwantedit!Iamalways——almostalways——disappointedwiththethingthatcomesnext。
  ButifIwroteitmyself,thenIshouldn'tgettiredofit;itwouldbewhatpleasedme,andnotwhatpleasedsomebodyelse。“
  “Well,“saidDonal,afterthinkingforamoment,“supposeyoubegintowriteabook!”
  “Oh,thatwillbefun!——muchbetterthanlearningverbsandnouns!”
  “Buttheverbsandnounsarejustthethingsthatgotomakeastory——withnotafewadjectivesandadverbs,andahostofconjunctions;and,ifitbeaverymovingstory,agoodmanyinterjections!Theseallyouhavegottoputtogetherwithgoodchoice,orthestorywillnotbeoneyouwouldcaretoread——PerhapsyouhadbetternotbegintillIseewhetheryouknowenoughaboutthoseverbsandnounstodothethingdecently。Showmeyourschool-books。“
  “Theretheyallare——onthatshelf!Ihaven'topenedoneofthemsincePercycamehome。Helaughedatthemall,andsoArkie——that'sladyArctura,toldhimhemightteachmehimself。Andhewouldn't;
  andshewouldn't——withhimtolaughather。AndI'vehadsuchajollytimeeversince——readingbooksoutofthelibrary!Haveyouseenthelibrary,Mr。Grant?”
  “No;I'veseennothingyet。Supposewebeginwithaholiday,andyoubeginbyteachingme!”
  “Teachingyou,sir!I'mnotabletoteachyou!”
  “Why,didn'tyouasmuchasoffertoteachmethelibrary?Can'tyouteachmethisgreatoldcastle?Andaren'tyougoingtoteachyourselftome?”
  “Thatwouldbeafunnylesson,sir!”
  “Theleastfunny,themostseriouslessonyoucouldteachme!YouareabookGodhasbegun,andhehassentmetohelphimgoonwithit;soImustlearnwhathehaswrittenalreadybeforeItrytodoanything。“
  “Butyouknowwhataboyis,sir!Whyshouldyouwanttolearnme?”
  “Youmightaswellsaythat,becauseIhavereadoneortwobooks,I
  mustknoweverybook。Tounderstandoneboyhelpstounderstandanother,buteveryboyisanewboy,differentfromeveryotherboy,andeveryonehastobeunderstood。“
  “Yes——forsometimesArkiewon'thearmeout,andIfeelsocrosswithherIshouldliketogiveheragoodboxontheear。Whatkingwasit,sir,thatmadethelawthatnolady,howeverdisagreeable,wastohaveherearsboxed?Doyouthinkitagoodlaw,sir?”
  “Itisgoodforyouandmeanyhow。“
  “AndwhenPercysays,'Oh,goaway!don'tbother,'IfeelasifI
  couldhithimhard!Yet,ifIhappentohurthim,Iamsosorry!
  andwhythenshouldIwanttohurthim?”
  “There'ssomethinginthislittlefellow!”saidDonaltohimself。
  “Ah,whyindeed?”heanswered。“Youseeyoudon'tunderstandyourselfyet!”
  “Noindeed!”
  “ThenhowcouldyouthinkIshouldunderstandyouallatonce?——andaboymustbeunderstood,elsewhat'stobecomeofhim!Fancyapoorboylivingallday,andsleepingallnight,andnobodyunderstandinghim!”
  “Thatwouldbedreadful!Butyouwillunderstandme?”
  “Onlyalittle:I'mnotwiseenoughtounderstandanyboy。“
  “Then——butisn'tthatwhatyousaidyoucamefor?——Ithought——“
  “Yes,“answeredDonal,“thatiswhatIcamefor;butifIfanciedI
  quiteunderstoodanyboy,thatwouldbeasuresignIdidnotunderstandhim——Thereisonewhounderstandseveryboyaswellasiftherewerenootherboyinthewholeworld。“
  “Thenwhydoesn'teveryboygotohimwhenhecan'tgetfairplay?”
  “Ah,why?ThatisjustwhatIwantyoutodo。Hecandobetterthangiveyoufairplayeven:hecanmakeyougiveotherpeoplefairplay,anddelightinit。“
  “Tellmewhereheis。“
  “ThatiswhatIhavetoteachyou:meretellingisnotmuchuse。
  Tellingiswhatmakespeoplethinktheyknowwhentheydonot,andmakesthemfoolish。“
  “Whatishisname?”
  “Iwillnottellyouthatjustyet;forthenyouwouldthinkyouknewhim,whenyouknewnexttonothingabouthim。Lookhere;lookatthisbook,“hewenton,pullingacopyofBoethiusfromhispocket;“lookatthenameonthebackofit:itisthenameofthemanthatwrotethebook。“
  Daviespelleditout。
  “Nowyouknowallaboutthebook,don'tyou?”
  “No,sir;Idon'tknowanythingaboutit。“
  “Wellthen,myfather'snameisRobertGrant:youknownowwhatagoodmanheis!”
  “No,Idon't。Ishouldliketoseehimthough!”
  “Youwouldlovehimifyoudid!Butyouseenowthatknowingthenameofapersondoesnotmakeyouknowtheperson。“
  “Butyousaid,sir,thatifyoutoldmethenameofthatperson,I
  shouldfancyIknewallabouthim:Idon'tfancyIknowallaboutyourfathernowyouhavetoldmehisname!”
  “Youhavemethere!”answeredDonal。“IdidnotsayquitewhatI
  oughttohavesaid。Ishouldhavesaidthatwhenweknowalittleaboutaperson,andareusedtohearinghisname,thenwearereadytothinkweknowallabouthim。Iheardamantheotherday——amanwhohadneverspokentoyourfather——talkasifheknewallabouthim。“
  “IthinkIunderstand,“saidDavie。
  Toconfessignoranceistoloserespectwiththeignorantwhowouldappeartoknow。Butthereisaworsethingthantolosetherespectevenofthewise——todeservetoloseit;andthathedoeswhowouldgainarespectthatdoesnotbelongtohim。Butaconfessionofignoranceisagroundofrespectwithawell-bredchild,andevenwithmanyordinaryboyswillraiseaman'sinfluence:theyrecognizehisloyaltytothetruth。Act-truthisinfinitelymorethanfact-truth;theloveofthetruthinfinitelybeyondtheknowledgeofit。
  Theywentouttogether,andwhentheyhadgonetheroundoftheplaceoutside,Daviewouldhavetakenhimoverthehouse;butDonalsaidtheywouldleavesomethingforanothertime,andmadehimliedownfortenminutes。Thistheboythoughtagreathardship,butDonalsawthatheneededtobetaughttorest。Tentimesinthosetenminuteshewasonthepointofjumpingup,butDonalfoundawordsufficienttorestrainhim。Whenthetenminuteswereover,hesethimanadditionsum。Theboyprotestedheknewalltherulesofarithmetic。
  “But,“saidDonal,“Imustknowthatyouknowthem;thatismybusiness。Dothisone,howevereasyitis。“
  Theboyobeyed,andbroughthimthesum——incorrect。
  “Now,Davie,“saidDonal,“yousaidyouknewallaboutaddition,butyouhavenotdonethissumcorrectly。“
  “Ihaveonlymadeablunder,sir。“
  “Butaruleisnoruleifitisnotcarriedout。Everythinggoesonthesuppositionofitsbeingitself,andnotsomethingelse。Peoplethattalkaboutgoodthingswithoutdoingthemareleftout。Youarenotmasterofadditionuntilyouradditionistobedependedupon。“
  Theboyfoundithardtofixhisattention:tofixitonsomethinghedidnotyetunderstand,wouldbetoohard!hemustlearntodosointhepursuitofaccuracywherehealreadyunderstood!thenhewouldnothavetofighttwodifficultiesatonce——thatofunderstanding,andthatoffixinghisattention。Butforalongtimeheneverkepthimmorethanaquarterofanhouratworkonthesamething。
  Whenhehaddonethesumcorrectly,andasecondwithoutneedofcorrection,hetoldhimtolayhisslateaside,andhewouldtellhimafairy-story。Thereinhesucceededtolerably——intheopinionofDavie,wonderfully:whatatutorwasthis,wholetfairiesintotheschool-room!
  Thetalewasofnoveryoriginalconstruction——theyoungestbrothergaininginthepathofrighteousnesswhattheelderbrotherslosethroughmasterfulselfishness。Amanmustdoathingbecauseitisright,evenifhedieforit;buttruthwerepoorindeedifitdidnotbringatlastallthingssubjecttoit!Asbeautyandtruthareone,soaretruthandstrengthone。MustGodbeeveronthecross,thatwepoorworshippersmaypayhimourhighesthonour?Isitnotenoughtoknowthatifthedevilwerethegreater,yetwouldnotGoddohimhomage,butwouldhangforeveronhiscross?Truthisjoyandvictory。Thetrueheroisadjudgedtobliss,norcaninthenatureofthings,thatis,ofGod,escapeit。Hewhoholdsbylifeandresistsdeath,mustbevictorious;hisverylifeisaslayingofdeath。Amanmaydieforhisopinion,andmayonlybelivingtohimself:amanwhodiesforthetruth,diestohimselfandtoallthatisnottrue。
  “Whatabeautifulstory!”criedDaviewhenitceased。“Wheredidyougetit,Mr。Grant?”
  “Whereallstoriescomefrom。“
  “Whereisthat?”
  “TheThink-book。“
  “Whatafunnyname!Ineverheardit!Willitbeinthelibrary?”
  “No;itisinnolibrary。ItisthebookGodisalwayswritingatoneend,andblottingoutattheother。Itismadeofthoughts,notwords。ItistheThink-book。“
  “NowIunderstand!Yougotthestoryoutofyourownhead!”
  “Yes,perhaps。Buthowdiditgetintomyhead?”
  “Ican'ttellthat。Nobodycantellthat!”
  “Nobodycanthatnevergoesupabovehisownhead——thatnevershutstheThink-book,andstandsuponit。Whenonedoes,thentheThink-bookswellstoagreatmountainandliftshimupabovealltheworld:thenheseeswherethestoriescomefrom,andhowtheygetintohishead——Areyoutohavearideto-day?”
  “IrideornotjustasIlike。“
  “Well,wewillnowdojustaswebothlike,Ihope,anditwillbetwolikesinsteadofone——thatis,ifwearetruefriends。“
  “Weshallhetruefriends——thatweshall!”
  “Howcanthatbe——betweenalittleboylikeyou,andagrownmanlikeme?”
  “Bymebeinggood。“
  “Bybothofusbeinggood——nootherway。Ifoneofusonlywasgood,wecouldneverbetruefriends。Imustbegoodaswellasyou,elseweshallneverunderstandeachother!”
  “Howkindyouare,Mr。Grant!Youtreatmejustlikeanotherone!”
  saidDavie。
  “ButwemustnotforgetthatIamthebigoneandyouthelittleone,andthatwecan'tbetheotheronetoeachotherexceptthelittleonedoeswhatthebigonetellshim!That'sthewaytofitintoeachother。“
  “Oh,ofcourse!”answeredDavie,asiftherecouldnotbetwomindsaboutthat。
  CHAPTERXV。
  HORSEANDMAN。
  Duringthefirstdayandthenext,Donaldidnotevencomeinsightofanyotherofthefamily;butonthethirdday,aftertheirshortearlyschool——forheseldomletDavieworktillhewastired,andneverafter——goingwithhimthroughthestable-yard,theycameuponlordForgueashemountedhishorse——anervous,fiery,thin-skinnedthoroughbred。Themomenthismasterwasonhim,hebegantobackandrear。Forguegavehimacutwithhiswhip。Hewentwild,plunginganddancingandkicking。Theyounglordwasahorsemaninthesenseofhavingagoodseat;butheknewlittleabouthorses;
  theyweretohimcreaturestobecompelled,notfriendswithwhomtoholdsweetconcert。Hehadnotlearnedthattoruleillisworsethantoobeyill。Kingsmaybeworsethanitisinthepowerofanysubjecttobe。Ashewasraisinghisarmforaseconduseless,cruel,anddangerousblow,Donaldartedtothehorse'shead。
  “Youmustn'tdothat,mylord!”hesaid。“You'lldrivehimmad。“
  ButtheworstpartofForgue'snaturewasuppermost,inhisrageallthevicesofhisfamilyrushedtothetop。HelookeddownonDonalwithafurycheckedonlybycontempt。
  “Keepoff,“hesaid,“oritwillbetheworseforyou。Whatdoyouknowabouthorses?”
  “Enoughtoknowthatyouarenotfairtohim。Iwillnotletyoustrikethepooranimal。Justlookatthiswater-chain!”
  “Holdyourtongue,andstandaway,or,by——“
  “Yewinnafrichtme,sir,“saidDonal,whoseEnglishwould,foryears,uponanyexcitement,turncowardlyandrunaway,leavinghismother-tonguetobearthebrunt,“——I'mnotimorsome。“
  ForguebroughtdownhiswhipwithagreatstingingblowuponDonal'sshoulderandback。ThefiercebloodofthehighlandCeltrushedtohisbrain,andhadnotthemaninhimheldbyGodandtrampledonthedevil,theremightthenhavebeenmiserablework。Butthoughheclenchedhisteeth,hefetteredhishands,andruledhistongue,andtheMasterofmenwasmasterstill。
  “Mylord,“hesaid,afteroneinstant'sthunderoussilence,“there'sthati'mewadthinkaslittleo'throttlin'yeasyeduo'
  ill-usin'yerpuirbeast。ButI'mnogaein'todrophisquarrel,an'takupmyain:thatwadbecooardly。“Herehepattedthecreature'sneck,andrecoveringhiscomposureandhisEnglish,wenton。“Itellyou,mylord,thecurb-chainistootight!Theanimalissufferingasyoucanhavenoconceptionof,oryouwouldpityhim。“
  “Lethimgo,“criedForgue,“orIwillmakeyou。“
  Heraisedhiswhipagain,themoreenragedthatthegroomstoodlookingonwithhismouthopen。
  “Itellyourlordship,“saidDonal,“itismyturntostrike;andifyouhittheanimalagainbeforethatchainisslackened,Iwillpitchyououtofthesaddle。“
  ForanswerForguestruckthehorseoverthehead。Thesamemomenthewasontheground;Donalhadtakenhimbythelegandthrownhimoff。Hewasnothorsemanenoughtokeephisholdofthereins,andDonalledthehorsealittlewayoff,andlefthimtogetupinsafety。Thepooranimalwaspouringwithsweat,shiveringandtrembling,yetthrowinghisheadbackeverymoment。Donalcouldscarcelyundothechain;itwastwisted——hislordshiphadfastenedithimself——andsharpedgespressedhisjawattheleasttouchoftherein。Hehadnotyetrehookedit,whenForguewasuponhimwithasecondblowofhiswhip。Thehorsewasscaredafreshatthesound,anditwasallhecoulddotoholdhim,buthesucceededatlengthincalminghim。Whenhelookedabouthim,Forguewasgone。
  Heledthehorseintothestable,puthiminhisstall,andproceededtounsaddlehim。Thenfirsthewasre-awareofthepresenceofDavie。Theboywasstamping——withfierceeyesandwhiteface——chokingwithsilentrage。
  “Davie,mychild!”saidDonal,andDavierecoveredhispowerofspeech。
  “I'llgoandtellmyfather!”hesaid,andmadeforthestabledoor。
  “Whichofusareyougoingtotellupon?”askedDonalwithasmile。
  “Percy,ofcourse!”hereplied,almostwithascream。“Youareagoodman,Mr。Grant,andheisabadfellow。Myfatherwillgiveithimwell。Hedoesn'toften——butoh,can'thejust!Todaretostrikeyou!I'llgotohimatonce,whetherhe'sinbedornot!”
  “No,youwon't,myboy!Listentome。Somepeoplethinkit'sadisgracetobestruck:Ithinkitadisgracetostrike。Ihavearightoveryourbrotherbythatblow,andImeantokeepit——forhisgood。Youdidn'tthinkIwasafraidofhim?”
  “No,no;anybodycouldseeyouweren'tabitafraidofhim。Iwouldhavestruckhimagainifhehadkilledmeforit!”
  “Idon'tdoubtyouwould。Butwhenyouunderstand,youwillnotbesoreadytostrike。Icouldhavekilledyourbrothermoreeasilythanheldhishorse。Youdon'tknowhowstrongIam,orwhatablowofmyfistwouldbetoadelicatefellowlikethat。Ihopehisfallhasnothurthim。“
  “Ihopeithas——alittle,Imean,onlyalittle,“saidtheboy,lookinginthefaceofhistutor。“Buttellmewhyyoudidnotstrikehim。Itwouldbegoodforhimtobewellbeaten。“
  “Itwill,Ihope,bebetterforhimtobewellforgiven:hewillbeashamedofhimselfthesooner,Ithink。ButwhyIdidnotstrikehimwas,thatIamnotmyownmaster。“
  “Butmyfather,Iamsure,wouldnothavebeenangrywithyou。Hewouldhavesaidyouhadarighttodoit。“
  “Perhaps;buttheearlisnotthemasterImean。“
  “Whois,then?”
  “JesusChrist。“
  “O——oh!”
  “HesaysImustnotreturnevilforevil,ablowforablow。I
  don'tmindwhatpeoplesayaboutit:hewouldnothavemedisgracemyself!Henevereventhreatenedthosethatstruckhim。“
  “Buthewasn'taman,youknow!”
  “Notaman!Whatwashethen?”
  “HewasGod,youknow。“
  “Andisn'tGodaman——andeversomuchmorethanaman?”
  Theboymadenoanswer,andDonalwenton。
  “DoyouthinkGodwouldhavehischilddoanythingdisgraceful?
  Why,Davie,youdon'tknowyourownFather!WhatGodwantsofusistobedown-righthonest,anddowhathetellsuswithoutfear。“
  Daviewassilent。Hisconsciencereprovedhim,astheconscienceofatrue-heartedboywillreprovehimattheverymentionofthenameofGod,untilhesetshimselfconsciouslytodohiswill。Donalsaidnomore,andtheywentfortheirwalk。
  CHAPTERXVI。
  COLLOQUIES。
  IntheeveningDonalwenttoseeAndrewComin。
  “Weel,hooareyegettin'onwi'theyerl?”askedthecobbler。
  “Yousetmeagoodexampleofsayingnothingabouthim,“answeredDonal;“andIwillfollowit——atleasttillIknowmore:Ihavescarceseenhimyet。“
  “That'sright!”returnedthecobblerwithsatisfaction。“I'mthinkin'ye'llbeaneo'thefeow'atcanruletheiranehoose——thatis,haudtheiraintonguestillthehoorforspeechbecome。Stickyetothat,mydearsir,an'mairi'llbeweelnoringeneralisweel。“
  “I'mcometoyeforabito'helpthough;Iwantlichtuponaqueston'at'slangtribletme——Whatthinkye?——hoofardoesthecomman'laidupo''s,astowarfare'atweenmanan'man,reach?Arewenevertaraisethehan'tohumanbein',thinkye?”
  “Weel,Ihaethouchtaheapabootit,an'Idaurnasay'atI'mjistabsoluteclearupo'themaitter。Buttheremaybepairtclearwhaura''snoclear;an'bywhatweun'erstan'wecomethenearertowhatwedinnaun'erstan'。There'saethinguncoplain——'atwe'reonnoaccoonttoreturnevilforevil:onybody'atca'shimsel'aChristianmaunun'erstan'thatmuckle。We'retogienoplacetorevenge,insideoroot。Thereforewe'renotogieblowforblow。
  Gienamanhitye,ye'retotakeiti'God'sname。Butwhetherthingsmaynacometoap'intwhauratye'rebu'n',stilli'God'sname,todefen'thelifeGodhasgienye,Icannasay——Ihaenathelichttojustifeemeindenyin''t。Theremaunsurely,Ihaesaidtomysel',beatimewhanamanmayhaetoduwhatGoddissaeaften——makuseo'thestronghan'!Butit'sclearhemaunnado'tinrage——that'sowernearhate——an'hate'sthedeevil'sain。Amanmay,gienhelivevarraneartheLord,bewhilesangryohnsinned:
  butthewratho'manworkethnottherichteousnesso'God;an'thewraththatrisesi'themidso'encoonter,isnoliketobeo'thenaturo'divinewrath。Towinatit,gien'tbepossible,lat'sconsidertheLord——hoohedid。There'snowordo'himeverliftin'
  han'toprotec'himsel'。Theonlythinglikeitwasforithers。Togarthemlathisdisciplesalane——maybetilltheywarlikeeneuchtilhimsel'notorin,hepatootmairnorhishan'upo'them'atcamtotakhim:hestrakthemsairwi'thepooeritsel''atmuvsa'
  airms。Butnovarrasairnaither——hebutknockitthemdoon!——jisttolatthemkentheywartoduashebadethem,an'lathisfowkbe;——an'maybetolatthemken'atgienhelootthemtakhim,itwasno'athecouldnahin'erthemgienhelikit。Icannahelpthinkin'
  wemaystan'upforitherfowk。An'I'mnosayin''atwearenatodefen'oorselsfraeasetattackwi'design——Butthere'ssomethingo'mairimportanceyetnorkennin'therichto'onyqueston。“
  “Whatcanthatbe?Whatcanbeo'mairimportancenordoin'richti'thesichto'God?”saidDonal。
  “Bein'richtwi'thevarrathouchto'God,sae'atwecannamistak,butmaunkenjistwhathewadhaedune。That'sthebigRicht,themothero'a'thelaveo'therichts。That'stobeasthemaisterwas。Onygait,whateverwedu,itmaunbesicastobedune,an'itmaunbedunei'thenameo'God;whanwedunaethingwemaunduthatnaethingi'thenameo'God。Abodymayweelsay,'OLord,thoohasnalattenmeseewhatIouchttodu,saeI'lldunaething!'Gienamanoughttodefen'himsel',butdisnadu't,'causehethinksGodwadnahaehimdu't,wullGodlea'himoondefentforthat?Orgienabodystan'supi'thenameo'God,an'frontsanairmyo'enemies,divyethinkGod'illforsakehim'causehe'smadeamistak?
  Whatever'sdunewantin'faithmaunbesin——itcannahelpit;
  whatever'sduneinfaithcannabesin,thoughitmaybeamistak。
  Onlylatnaamantakpresumptionforfaith!that'safearsomemistak,forit'sjisttheopposite。“
  “Ithankye,“saidDonal。“I'llconsiderwi'mybestendeevourwhatyehaesaid。“
  “Buto'a'things,“resumedthecobbler,“luik'atyelo'efairplay。
  Fairplay'sawon'erfu'word——agran'thingconstantlylostsichto'。Man,Ihaebeentryin'towinattheduin'o'therichtthismonyayear,butIdaurnayetlatmysel'ac'upo'thespuro'themomentwhaurmyainenterest'sconcernt:myainsidemichtyetblin'metotheitherman'ssideo'thebusiness。Onybodycanun'erstan'hisainricht,butittakstriblean'thouchttoun'erstan'whatanithercoontshisricht。Twarichtscannaweelclash。It'sawrangan'aricht,orpairtwrangan'apairtricht'atclashes。“
  “Giena'bodydidthat,Idoobttherewadbefeowfortinsmade!”saidDonal。
  “AbootthatIcannasay,nokennin';IdaurnadiscoveralawwhaurI
  haenaknowledge!Butthissamefairplaylies,alangwi'love,atthevarraruteandf'undationo'theuniverse。Thetheologianshadaglimmero'thefac'whantheymadesaemuckleo'justice,onlytheirjusticeissicameeserablesma'bitplaistereemageo'
  justice,'atitmaistgarsanhonestbodylauch。Theyseemtomelikeshepherds'atrivedoonthedoor-posts,an'syneblockupthedoorwi'them。“
  DonaltoldhimofthequarrelhehadhadwithlordForgue,andaskedhimwhetherhethoughthehaddoneright。
  “Weel,“answeredthecobbler,“I'masfarfraeblamin'youasIamfraejustifeein'theyoonglord。“
  “Heseemstomeafinekin'o'alad,“saidDonal,“thoughsomeowerbeirin'。“
  “Thelikeso'himaremairtobeexcusedforthatnoritherfowk,fortheyhaegreatdisadvantagesi'thepositionan'theupbringin'。
  It'snoeasyforhim'at'sbrouchtupalordtobelievehe'sjistanewi'thelave。“
  Donalwentforastrollthroughthetown,andmettheminister,buthetooknonoticeofhim。Hewasgreatlyannoyedatthemarchwhichhesaidthefellowhadstolenuponhim,andregardedhimasonewhohadtakenanunfairadvantageofhim。Buthehadlittleinfluenceatthecastle。Theearlneverbyanychancewenttochurch。Hisniece,ladyArctura,did,however,andheldtheministerforanauthorityatthingsspiritual——oneofwhomlivingwaterwastobehadwithoutmoneyandwithoutprice。Butwhatshecountedspiritualthingswereverycommonearthlystuff,andforthewater,itwasbutstagnantwaterfromtheditchesofashamtheology。Onlywhatwasapoorgirltodowhodidnotknowhowtofeedherself,butapplytoonewhopretendedtobeabletofeedothers?Howwasshetoknowthathecouldnotevenfeedhimself?Outofmanyadifficultyshethoughthehelpedher——onlythedifficultywouldpresentlyclaspheragain,andshemustdealwithitasshebestcould,untilanewonemadeherforgetit,andgototheminister,orrathertohisdaughter,again。Shewasoneofthosewhofeeltheneedofsomehelptolive——someupholdingthatisnotofthemselves,butwho,throughthestupidityofteachersunconsciouslyfalse,——mensounfitthattheydonotknowtheyareunfit,directtheirefforts,firsttowardshavingcorrectnotions,thentoworkupthefeelingsthatbelongtothosenotions。Shewasanhonestgirlsofarasshehadbeentaught——perhapsnotsofarasshemighthavebeenwithouthavingbeentaught。HowwasshetothinkarightwithscarceaglimmerofGod'struth?HowwasshetopleaseGod,asshecalledit,whothoughtofhiminawayrepulsivetoeverylovingsoul?HowwasshetobeacceptedofGod,whodidnotacceptherownneighbour,butlookeddown,withoutknowingit,uponsomanyofherfellow-creatures?Howshouldsuchaoneeitherenjoyorrecommendherreligion?Itwouldhavebeentheworseforherifshehadenjoyedit——theworseforothersifshehadrecommendedit!
  ReligionissimplythewayhometotheFather。Therewaslittleofthepathinherreligionexceptthedifficultyofit。Thetruewayisdifficultenoughbecauseofourunchildlikeness——uphill,steep,anddifficult,butthereisfreshlifeoneverysurmountedheight,apurerairgained,evermorelifeformoreclimbing。Butthepaththatisnotthetrueoneisnotthereforeeasy。Uphillishardwalking,butthroughabogisworse。ThosewhoseekGodwiththeirfacesnoteventurnedtowardshim,who,insteadofbeholdingtheFatherintheSon,takethestupidestopinionsconcerninghimandhiswaysfromothermen——whatshouldtheydobutgowanderingondarkmountains,spendingtheirstrengthinavoidingprecipicesandgettingoutofbogs,mourningandsighingovertheirsinsinsteadofleavingthembehindandfleeingtotheFather,whomtoknowiseternallife。DidtheybutsetthemselvestofindoutwhatChristknewandmeantandcommanded,andthentodoit,theywouldsoonforgettheirfalseteachers。Butalas!theygoonbowingbeforelong-faced,big-wordedauthority——themorefatallywhenitisembodiedinagoodmanwho,himselfavictimtofaithinmen,seestheSonofGodonlythroughthetheoriesofothers,andnotwiththesightofhisownspiritualeyes。
  Donalhadnotyetseenthelady。Heneitherate,sat,norheldintercoursewiththefamily。AwayfromDavie,hespenthistimeinhistowerchamber,oroutofdoors。Allthegroundswereopentohimexceptawalledgardenonthesouth-easternslope,lookingtowardsthesea,whichtheearlkeptforhimself,thoughherarelywalkedinit。Onthesideofthehillawayfromthetown,wasalargeparkreachingdowntotheriver,andstretchingalongwayupitsbank——withfinetrees,andgloriousoutlookstotheseainonedirection,andtothemountainsintheother。HereDonalwouldoftenwander,nowwithabook,nowwithDavie。Theboy'spresencewasrarelyaninterruptiontohisthoughtswhenhewantedtothink。