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第16章

  “No,mylady!”returnedDonal;“ifGodhadnotsentme,hewouldhavesentsomebodyelse;youwereready!”
  “Iamverygladhesentyou!Ishouldneverhavelovedanyothersomuch!”
  Donal'seyesfilledwithtears。Hewassimpleasachild。Nomalevanity,noself-exultationthatawomanshouldlovehim,andtellhimshelovedhim,sprangupinhisheart。Heknewshelovedhim;helovedher;allwassonaturalitcouldnotbeotherwise:heneverpresumedtoimagineheroncethinkingofhimashehadthoughtofGinevra。Hewasherservant,willingandlovingasanyangelofGod:
  thatwasall——andenough!
  “Youarenotvexedwithyourpupil——areyou?”sheresumed,againlookingupinhisface,thistimewitharosyflushonherown。
  “Why?”saidDonal,withwonder。
  “Forspeakingsotomymaster。“
  “Angrybecauseyouloveme?”
  “No,ofcourse!”sheresponded,atoncesatisfied。“Youknewthatmustbe!HowcouldIbutloveyou——betterthananyoneelseintheworld!Youhavegivenmelife!Iwasdead——Youhavebeenlikeanotherfathertome!”sheadded,withasmileofheavenlytenderness。“ButIcouldnothavespokentoyoulikethis,ifIhadnotknownIwasdying。“
  ThewordshotastingasoffirethroughDonal'sheart。
  “Youarealwaysachild,Mr。Grant,“shewenton;“deathismakingachildofme;itmakesusallchildren:asifweweretwolittlechildrentogether,ItellyouIloveyou——Don'tlooklikethat,“
  shecontinued;“youmustnotforgetwhatyouhavebeenteachingmeallthistime——thatthewillofGod,theperfectGod,isallinall!
  HeisnotaGodfaroff:toknowthatisenoughtohavelivedfor!
  Youhavetaughtmethat,andIloveyouwithatrueheartfervently。“
  Donalcouldnotspeak。Heknewshewasdying。
  “Mr。Grant,“shebeganagain,“mysoulisopentohiseyes,andisnotashamed。IknowIamgoingtodowhatwouldbytheworldbecountedunwomanly;butyouandIstandbeforeourFather,notbeforetheworld。Iaskyouinplainwords,knowingthatifyoucannotdoasIaskyouwillingly,youwillnotdoit。AndbesureIshallplainlybedyingbeforeIclaimthefulfilmentofyourpromiseifyougiveit。Idonotwantyouranswerallatonce:youmustthinkaboutit。“
  Hereshepausedawhile,thensaid,“Iwantyoutomarryme,ifyouwill,beforeIgo。“
  Donalcouldnotyetspeak。Hissoulwasinatumultofemotion。
  “Iamtired,“shesaid。“Pleasegoandthinkitover。Ifyousayno,Ishallonlysay,'Heknowsbestwhatisbest!'Ishallnotbeashamed。Onlyyoumustnotoncethinkwhattheworldwouldsay:ofallpeoplewehavenothingtodowiththeworld!WehavenothingtodobutwithGodandlove!Ifhebepleasedwithus,wecanaffordtosmileatwhathissillychildrenthinkofus:theymindonlywhattheirvulgarnursessay,notwhattheirperfectfathersays:weneednotmindthem——needwe?——Iwonderatmyself,“shewenton,forDonaldidnotutteraword,“forbeingabletospeaklikethis;butthenI
  havebeenthinkingofitforalongtime——chieflyasIlieawake。I
  amneverafraidnow——notthoughIlieawakeallnight:'perfectlovecastethoutfear,'youknow。IhaveGodtolove,andJesustolove,andyoutolove,andmyownfathertolove!Whenyouknowhim,youwillseehowgoodamancanbewithouthavingbeenbroughtuplikeyou!——Oh,Donal,dosaysomething,orIshallcry,andcryingkillsme!”
  Shewassittingonalowchair,withthesunlightacrossherlap——forshewasagaininthesunnyGarland-room——andthefirelightonherface。Donalkneltgentlydown,andlaidhishandsinthesunlightonherlap,justasifheweregoingtosayhisprayersathismother'sknee。Shelaidbothherhandsonhis。
  “Ihavesomethingtotellyou,“hesaid;“andthenyoumustspeakagain。“
  “Tellme,“saidArctura,withalittlegasp。
  “WhenIcamehere,“saidDonal,“Ithoughtmyheartsobrokenthatitwouldneverlove——thatway,Imean——anymore。ButIlovedGodbetterthanever:andasoneIwouldfainhelp,Ilovedyoufromtheveryfirst。ButIshouldhavescornedmyselfhadIoncefanciedyoulovedmemorethanjusttodoanythingformeIneededdone。WhenI
  sawyoutroubled,Ilongedtotakeyouupinmyarms,andcarryyoulikealovelybirdthathadfallenfromoneofGod'snests;butneveronce,mylady,didIthinkofyourcaringformylove:itwasyoursasamatterofcourse。Ionceaskedaladytokissme——justonce,foragood-bye:shewouldnot——andshewasquiteright;butafterthatIneverspoketoaladybutsheseemedtostandfarawayonthetopofahillagainstasky。“
  Hestopped。Herhandsonhisflutteredalittle,asiftheywouldfly。
  “Isshestill——isshe——alive?”sheasked。
  “Ohyes,mylady。“
  “Thenshemay——change——“saidArctura,andstopped,fortherewasastoneinherheart。
  Donallaughed。Itwasanoddlaugh,butitdidArcturagood。
  “Nodangerofthat,mylady!Shehasthebesthusbandintheworld——amuchbetterthanIshouldhavemade,muchasIlovedher。“
  “Thatcan'tbe!”
  “Why,mylady,herhusband'ssirGibbie!She'sladyGalbraith!I
  wouldneverhavewishedhermineifIhadknownshelovedGibbie。I
  lovehernexttohim。“
  “Then——then——“
  “What,mylady?”
  “Then——then——Oh,dosaysomething!”
  “WhatshouldIsay?WhatGodwillsisfastastherootsoftheuniverse,andlovelyasitsblossom。“
  Arcturaburstintotears。
  “Thenyoudonot——careforme!”
  Donalbegantounderstand。Insomethingshewentonsofastthathecouldnothearthecrybehindhim。Shehadspoken,andhadbeenlisteninginvainforresponse!Shethoughtherselfunloved:hehadshownhernosignthathelovedher!
  Hisheartwassofullofloveandthejoyoflove,thattheyhadmadehimverystill:nowthedelightofloveawoke。Hetookherinhisarmslikeachild,rose,andwentwalkingabouttheroomwithher,pettingandsoothingher。Heheldherclosetohisheart;herheadwasonhisshoulder,andhisfacewasturnedtohers。
  “Iloveyou,“hesaid,“andloveyoutoalleternity!Ihaveloveenoughnowtoliveupon,ifyoushoulddieto-night,andIshouldtarrytillhecome。OGod,thouarttoogoodtome!Itismorethanmyheartcanbear!Tomakemenandwomen,andgivethemtoeachother,andnotbeonemomentjealousofthelovewherewiththeyloveoneanother,istobeaGodindeed!”
  SosaidDonal——andspokethehightruth。Butalasforthelovewherewithmenandwomenloveeachother!ThereweresmallroomforGodtobejealousofthat!Itisthelittlelovewithwhichtheyloveeachother,thegreatlovewithwhichtheylovethemselves,thathurtstheheartoftheirfather。
  Arcturasignedatlengthaprayerforrelease,andhesethergentlydowninherchairagain。Thenhesawherfacemorebeautifulthaneverbefore;andtherosethatbloomedtherewastheroseofahealthdeeperthansickness。ThesechildrenofGodwereoftheblessedfewwholovethemorethattheyknowhimpresent,whosesoulsarenakedbeforehim,andnotashamed。Lethimthathearsunderstand!ifheunderstandnot,lethimholdhispeace,anditwillbehiswisdom!Hewhohasnoplaceforthisloveinhisreligion,whothinkstobemoreholywithoutit,isnotofGod'smindwhenhesaid,“Letusmakeman!”Hemaybeasaint,buthecannotbeamanafterGod'sownheart。Thefinishedmanisthesavedman。Thesaintmayhavetobesavedfrommorethansin。
  “Whenshallwebemarried?”askedDonal。
  “Soon,soon,“answeredArctura。
  “To-morrowthen?”
  “No,notto-morrow:thereisnosuchhaste——nowthatweunderstandeachother,“sheaddedwitharosysmile。“IwanttobemarriedtoyoubeforeIdie,thatisall——notjustto-morrow,orthenextday。“
  “Whenyouplease,mylove,“saidDonal。
  Shelaidherheadonhisbosom。
  “Weareasgoodasmarriednow,“shesaid:“weknowthateachlovestheother!HowIshallwaitforyou!Youwillbemine,youknow——alittlebitmine——won'tyou?——evenifyoushouldmarrysomebeautifulladyafterIamgone?——Ishallloveherwhenshecomes。“
  “Arctura!”saidDonal。
  CHAPTERLXXXI。
  AWILLANDAWEDDING。
  Buttheopeningofthewindowsofheaven,andtheunspeakablerushoflifethroughchannelstoonarrowandbankstooweaktoholditstide,causedaterribleinundation:theredfloodbrokeitsbanks,andweakenedalltheland。
  ArcturasentforMr。Graeme,andcommissionedhimtofetchthefamilylawyerfromEdinburgh。Alonewithhimshegaveinstructionsconcerningherwill。Themanofbusinessshruggedhisshoulders,ladenwithsomanypettyweights,boweddownwithsomanyfalsestopinions,andwouldhaveexpostulatedwithher。
  “Sir!”shesaid。
  “Youhaveacousinwhoinheritsthetitle!”hesuggested。
  “Mr。Fortune,“shereturned,“itmaybeIknowasmuchofmyfamilyasyou。Ididnotsendforyoutoconsultyou,buttotellyouhowI
  wouldhavemywilldrawnup!”
  “Ibegyourpardon,mylady,“rejoinedthelawyer,“buttherearethingswhichmaymakeitone'sdutytospeakout。“
  “Speakthen;Iwilllisten——thatyoumayeaseyourmind。“
  Hebeganalong,common-sense,worldlytalkonthematter,noroncerepeatedhimself。Whenhestopped,——
  “Nowhaveyoueasedyourmind?”sheasked。
  “Ihave,mylady。“
  “Thenlistentome。Thereisnonecessityyoushouldhurteitheryourfeelingsoryourprejudices。IfitgoesagainstyourconsciencetodoasIwish,Iwillnottroubleyou。“
  Mr。Fortunebowed,tookhisinstructions,androse。
  “Whenwillyoubringitme?”sheasked。
  “Inthecourseofaweekortwo,mylady。“
  “Ifitisnotinmyhandsbythedayafterto-morrow,Iwillsendforagentlemanfromthetowntoprepareit。“
  “Youshallhaveit,mylady,“saidMr。Fortune。
  Shedidhaveit,anditwassignedandwitnessed。
  Thenshesankmorerapidly。Donalsaidnowordaboutthemarriage:
  itshouldbeasshepleased!Hewasmuchbyherbedside,readingtoherwhenshewasabletolisten,talkingtoherorsittingsilentwhenshewasnot。
  ArcturahadatoncetoldmistressBrookestherelationinwhichsheandDonalstoodtoeachother。Itcostthegoodwomanmanytears,forshethoughtsuchaloveoneofthesaddestthingsinasadworld。NeitherArcturanorDonalthoughtso。
  Theearlatthistimewasalittlebetter,thoughwithoutprospectofeventemporaryrecovery。Hehadgrownmuchgentler,andsadnesshadpartiallydisplacedhissullenness。Heseemedtohavebecomeinameasureawareofthebrutenessofthelifehehadhithertoled:hemusthavehadaglimpseofsomethingbetter。Itiswonderfulwhatthesicknesswhichhumanstupidityregardsastheoneevilthing,candotowardsredemption!Heshowedconcernathisniece'sillness,andhadhimselfcarrieddowneveryotherdaytoseeherforafewminutes。Shereceivedhimalwayswiththegreatestgentleness,andheshowedsomethingthatseemedlikegenuineaffectionforher。
  ItwasamorninginthemonthofMay——
  Thenakedtwigswereshiveringallforcold——
  whenDonal,whohadbeenwithArcturathegreaterpartofthenight,andnowlayonthecouchinaneighbouringroom,heardMrs。Brookescallhim。
  “Myladywantsyou,sir,“shesaid。
  Hestartedup,andwenttoher。
  “Sendfortheminister,“shewhispered,“——notMr。Carmichael;hedoesnotknowyou。SendforMr。Graemetoo:heandmistressBrookeswillbewitnesses。ImustcallyouhusbandoncebeforeIdie!”
  “Ihopeyouwillmanyatimeafter!”hereturned。
  Shesmiledonhimwithalookofloveunutterable。
  “Mind,“shesaid,holdingoutherarmsfeebly,butdrawinghimfasttoherbosom,“thatthisishowIloveyou!Whenyouseemedullandstupid,andIhardlylookatyou——forthoughdeathmakesbright,dyingmakesstupid——thensaytoyourself,'Thisisnothowshelovesme;itisonlyhowsheisdying!Shelovesmeandknowsit——andbyandbywillbeabletoshowit!'“
  Theywerepreciouswordsboththenandafterwards!
  Withsomecarefulquestioning,tosatisfyhimselfthat,soevidentlyatthegateofdeathsheyetknewperfectlyherownmind,——andnotwithoutsomeshakesoftheheadrevealingdisapprobation,theministerdidashewasrequested,andwroteacertificateofthefact,whichwasdulysignedandwitnessed。
  Andifheshowedhisdisapprovalyetmoreintheprayerwithwhichheconcludedtheceremony,nonebutmistressBrookesshowedresponsiveindignation。
  Thebridegroomgavehisbrideonegentlekiss,andwithdrewwiththeclergyman。
  “PardonmeifIcharacterizethisasastrangeproceeding!”saidthelatter。
  “Notsostrangeperhapsasitlooks,sir!”saidDonal。
  “Ontheverybrinkoftheotherworld!”
  “Theotherworldanditsbrinktooarehiswhoordainedmarriage!”
  “Forthisworldonly,“saidtheminister。
  “ThegiftsofGodarewithoutrepentance,“saidDonal。
  “Ihaveheardofyou!”returnedtheclergyman。“Youareone,theytellme,giventomisusingscripture。“
  Hehadconceivedapainfuldoubtthathehadbeendrawnintosomeplot!
  “Sir!”saidDonalsternly,“ifyousawanyimproprietyintheceremony,whydidyouperformit?Ibegyouwillnowreserveyourremarks。Yououghttohavemadethembeforeornotatall。Ifyoubesilent,thethingwillprobablyneverbeheardof,andIshouldgreatlydislikehavingitthetown-talk。“
  “ExceptIseereason——thatis,ifnothingfollowtorenderdisclosurenecessary,Ishallbesilent,“saidtheminister。
  HewouldhavedeclinedthefeeofferedbyDonal;buthewaspoor,anditsamountprevailed:heacceptedit,andtookhisleavewithastiffnessheintendedfordignity:hehadahighsense,ifnotofthedignityofhisoffice,atleastofthedignityhisofficeconferredonhim。
  DonalhadnextabriefinterviewwithMr。Graeme。Thefactorwasinastateofutterbewilderment,andreadilyyieldedDonalapromiseofsilence:themerewhimofadyinggirl,ithadbetterbeignoredandforgotten!AstoGrant'spartinithedidnotknowwhattothink。Itcouldnotaffecttheproperty,hethought:itcouldhardlybeamarriage!Andthentherewasthewill——ofthecontentsofwhichheknewnothing!Ifitwereacompletemarriage,thewillwasworthnothing,beingmadebeforeit!
  Iwillnotlingeroverthequiet,sadtimethatfollowed。DonalwastoArctura,shesaid,father,brother,husband,inone。Throughhimshehadreapedtheharvestoftheworld,inspiteoffalsehood,murder,fear,anddistrust!Shelayvictoriousonthebattlefield!
  Intheheartofherbridegroomreignedapeacetheworldcouldnotgiveortakeaway。Helovedwithalovethatcasttheloveofformerdaysintotheshadowofasweetbutundesiredremembrance。Alongtwilightlifelaybeforehim,buthewouldhaveplentytodo!andsuchwasthelovebetweenhimandArctura,thateverydoingofthewillofGodwasasthetyingofafreshbondbetweenhimandher:
  shewashisbecausetheyweretheFather's,whosewillwasthelifeandbondoftheuniverse。
  “Ithink,“saidDonal,thatsamenightbyherbed,“whenmymotherdies,shewillgonearyou:Iwill,ifIcan,sendyouamessagebyher。Butitwillnotmatter;itcanonlytellyouwhatyouwillknowwellenough——thatIloveyou,andamwaitingtocometoyou。“
  ThestupidityofcallingoneselfaChristian,anddoubtingifweshallknowourfriendshereafter!Inthosewhodonotbelievesuchadoubtismorethannatural,butinthosewhoprofesstobelieve,itshowswhataraggedscarecrowisthethingtheycalltheirfaith——notworththatofmanyanoldJew,orthatofhereandthereapagan!
  “Ishallnotbefarfromyou,dear,Ithink——sometimesatleast,“
  shesaid,speakingverylow。“Ifyoudreamanythingniceaboutme,thinkIamthinkingofyou。Ifyoushoulddreamanythingnotnice,thinksomethingislyingtoyouaboutme。IdonotknowifIshallbeallowedtocomenearyou,butifIam——andIthinkIshallbe——sometimes,IshalllaughtomyselftothinkhownearIam,andyoufancyingmealongwayoff!Butanywayallwillbewell,forthegreatlife,ourGod,ourfather,is,andinhimwecannotbutbetogether。“
  Afterthatshefellintoadeepsleep,andsleptforhours。Thensuddenlyshesatup。Donalputhisarmbehindandsupportedher。Shelookedalittlewild,shuddered,murmuredsomethinghecouldnotunderstand,thenthrewherselfbackintohisarms。Herexpressionchangedtoalookofdivinest,loveliestcontent,andshewasgone。
  CHAPTERLXXXII。
  THEWILL。
  Whenherwillwasread,itwasfoundthat,exceptsomelegacies,andanannuitytoMrs。Brookes,shehadlefteverythingtoDonal。
  Mr。Graeme,risingthemomentthelawyerlookedup,congratulatedDonal——politely,notcordially,andtookhisleave。
  “Ifyouarewalkingtowardshome,“saidDonal,“Iwillwalkwithyou。“
  “Ishallbehappy,“saidMr。Graeme——feelingitnotalittlehardthatonewhowouldsoonbeheirpresumptivetothetitleshouldhavetotendthefamilypropertyintheserviceofastrangerandapeasant。
  “LordMorvencannotlivelong,“saidDonalastheywent。“Itisnottobewishedheshould。“
  Mr。Graemereturnednoanswer。Donalresumed。
  “IthinkIoughttoletyouknowatoncethatyouareheirtothetitle。“
  “Ithinkyouowetheknowledgetomyself!”saidthefactor,notwithoutatouchofcontempt。
  “Bynomeans,“rejoinedDonal:“onpresumption,afterlordForgue,youtoldme;——afterlordMorven,Itellyou。“
  “Iamatalosstoimagineonwhatyoufoundsuchastatement,“saidGraeme,beginningtosuspectinsanity。
  “Naturally;nooneknowsitbutmyself。LordMorvenknowsthathissoncannotsucceed,buthedoesnotknowthatyoucan。Iamprepared,ifnottoprove,atleasttoconvinceyouthatheandhisson'smotherwerenotmarried。“
  Mr。Graemewasforamomentsilent。Thenhelaughedalittlelaugh——notapleasantone。“AnotherofTime'sclownishtricks!”hesaidtohimself:“theearlthefactoronthefamily-estate!”Donaldidnotlikethewayhetookit,butsawhownaturalitwas。
  “Ihopeyouhaveknownmelongenough,“hesaid,“tobelieveIhavecontrivednothing?”
  “Excuseme,Mr。Grant:thewholebusinesslookssuspicious。Thegirlwasdying!Youknewit!”
  “Idonotunderstandyou。“
  “Whatdidyoumarryherfor?”
  “Tomakehermywife。“
  “Praywhatcouldbethegoodofthatexcept——?”
  “Doesitneedanyexplanationbutthatwelovedeachother?”
  “Youwillfinditdifficulttoconvincetheworldthatsuchwasyoursolemotive。“
  “Havingnocarefortheopinionoftheworld,IshallbesatisfiedifIconvinceyou。Theworldneedsneverhearofthething。Wouldyou,Mr。Graeme,havehadmenotmarryher,becausetheworld,includingnotafewhonestmenlikeyourself,wouldsaymyobjectwastheproperty?”
  “Don'tputthequestiontome;Iamnottheproperpersontoanswerit。Thereisnotamaninahundredmillionswhowiththechancewouldnothavedonethesame,orwhomalltherestwouldnotblamefordoingit。Itwouldhavebeenbetterforyou,however,thattherehadbeennowill。“
  “How?”
  “Itmakesitlookthemorelikeascheme:——thewillmighthavebeendisputed。“
  “Whydoyousay——mighthavebeen?”
  “Becauseitisnotworthdisputingnow。Ifthemarriagestands,itannulsthewill。“
  “Ididnotknow;andIsupposeshedidnotknoweither。Orperhapsshewantedtomakethethingsure:ifthemarriagewasnotenough,thewillwouldbe——shemayhavethought。ButIknewnothingofit。“
  “Youdidnot?”
  “OfcourseIdidnot。“
  Mr。Graemeheldhispeace。ForthefirsttimehedoubtedDonal'sword。
  “ButIwantedtohavealittletalkwithyou,“resumedDonal。“I
  wanttoknowwhetheryouthinkyourdutyalltotheowneroftheland,orinanymeasuretothetenantsalso。“
  “Thatiseasytoanswer:oneemployedbythelandlordcanowethetenantnothing。“
  Itwasnotjusttheanswerhewouldhavegiventoanotherquestioner。
  “Doyounotowehimjustice?”askedDonal。
  “EverylegaladvantageIoughttotakeformyemployer。“
  “Eventothegrindingofthefacesofthepoor?”
  “Ihavenothingtodo,ashisemploy?withmyownideasastowhatmaybeequitable。“
  HedrewthelinethushardinpureoppositiontoDonal。
  “Whatthenwouldyousayifthelandwereyourown?Wouldyousayyouhaditsolelyforyourownandyourfamily'sgood,orforthatofthetenantsaswell?”
  “Ishouldverylikelyreasonthatwhatwasgoodforthemwouldinthelongrunbegoodformetoo——ButifyouwanttoknowhowIhavetreatedthetenants,thereareintelligentmenamongstthem,notatallprejudicedinfavourofthefactor!”
  “Iwishyouwouldbeopenwithme,“saidDonal。
  “Ipreferkeepingmyownplace,“rejoinedMr。Graeme。
  “Youspeakasonewhofoundachangeinme,“returnedDonal。“Thereisnone。“
  Sosayingheshookhandswithhim,badehimgoodmorning,andturnedwiththedepressionoffailure。
  “Ididnotleaduptothepointproperly!”hesaidtohimself。
  CHAPTERLXXXIII。
  INSIGHT。
  Mr。Graemewasagoodsortofman,andagentleman;buthewasnotcapableofmeetingDonalonthegroundonwhichheapproachedhim:
  onthatlevelhehadneversetfoot。Thereisnothingmoredisappointingtothegenerousmanthanthewayinwhichhisabsolutefranknessismetbythemanoftheworld——alwayslookingoutformotives,andimaginingthemafterwhatisinhimself。
  Therewasgreatconfidencebetweenthebrotherandsister,andashewalkedhomeward,Mr。GraemewasnotsowellpleasedwithhimselfastothinkwithsatisfactiononthereportoftheinterviewhecouldgiveKate。Hedidnotaccusehimselfwithregardtoanythinghehadsaid,buthefelthisbehaviourinfluencedbyjealousyofthelow-bornyouthwhohadsupplantedhim。For,ifPercycouldnotsucceedtothetitle,neithercouldhehavesucceededtotheproperty;andbutforthewillorthemarriage,perhapsbutforthetwotogether,hewouldhimselfhavecomeinforthatalso!Thewillwasworthnothingexceptthemarriagewasdisputed:annulthemarriage,andthewillwasofforce!
  Hetoldhissister,asnearlyashecould,allthathadpassedbetweenthem。
  “Ifhewantedmetotalktohim,“hesaid,“whydidhetellmethataboutForgue?Itwasinfernallystupidofhim!Butwhat'sbredinthebone——!Agentleman'snotmadeinaday!”
  “Norinathousandyears,Hector!”rejoinedhissister。“DonalGrantisagentlemaninthebestsenseoftheword!Thatyousayheisnot,letsmeseeyouarevexedwithyourself。Heisalittleawkwardsometimes,Iconfess;butonlywhenheislookingatathingfromsomeotherpointofview,anddoesnotliketosayyououghttohavebeenlookingatitfromthesame。Andyoucan'tsayheshuffles,forheneverstopstillhehasdonehisbesttomakeyou!——Whathaveyoubeensayingtohim,Hector?”
  “NothingbutwhatIhavetoldyou;it'sratherwhatIhavenotbeensaying!”answeredherbrother。“Hewouldhavehadmeopenouttohim,andIwouldn't。HowcouldI!WhateverIsaidthatpleasedhim,wouldhavelookedasifIwantedtosecuremysituation!Hangitall!Ihaveagoodmindtothrowitup。HowisaGraemetoserveunderabumpkin?”
  “Themanisnotabumpkin;heisascholarandapoet!”saidthelady。
  “Pooh!pooh!What'sapoet?”
  “Onethatmayormaynotbeasgoodamanofbusinessasyourselfwhenitisrequiredofhim。“
  “Come,come!don'tyouturnagainstme,Kate!It'shardenoughtobearasitis!”
  MissGraememadenoreply。ShewasmeditatingallsheknewofDonal,toguidehertothesomethingtowhichshewassureherbrotherhadnotlethimcome;andpresentlyshemadehimrecountagainalltheyhadsaidtoeachother。
  “Itellyou,Hector,“sheexclaimed,“younevermadesuchafoolofyourselfinyourlife!IfIknowhumannature,thatmanisdifferentfromanyotheryouhavehadtodowith。Itwilltakeawoman,abetterwomanthanyoursister,Iconfess,tounderstandhim;butI
  seealittlefartherintohimthanyoudo。Heisamanwho,neverhavinghadmoneyenoughtolearnthebadusesofit,andneverhavingformedhabitsittakesmoneytosupply,havingnoambition,livinginbooksnotinplaces,andforpleasurehavingmoreathiscommandinhimselfthantherichest——heisamanwho,Isay,wouldfindmoneyanimpedimenttohishappiness,forhemusthaveasenseofdutywithregardtoitwhichwouldinterferewitheverythinghelikedbest。Besides,thoughhedoesnotcareastrawforthejudgmentoftheworldwhereitdiffersfromhim,hewouldbesorrytoseemtogoagainstthatjudgmentwhereheagreeswithit:
  scorningtomarryanywomanforhermoney,hewouldnothavetheworldthinkhehaddoneso。“
  “Ah,Katey,thereIhaveyou!Theworldwouldentirelyapproveofhisdoingthat!”
  “Iwilltakeabetterpositionthen:——hewouldnotwillinglyseemtohavedoneathinghehimselfdespises。Themanbelieveshimselfsentintotheworldtoteachitsomething:hewouldnothaveitthrowninhisteeththat,afterall,helookstothemainchanceaskeenlyasanother!Hewouldstarvebeforehewouldhavemensayso——yes,evensaysofalsely。IamassurehedidnotmarryladyArcturaforhermoney,asIamsurelordForgue,oryou,Hector,wouldhavedoneitifyouhadhadachance——There!——Myconvictionisthatthebumpkinsoughtafitopeningtotellyouthatthewillwastogofornothing,andthatnowordneedbesaidaboutthemarriage。Youknowhemadeyoupromisenottomentionit——onlyIwormeditoutofyou!”
  “That'sjustlikeyouwomen!Themanyoutakeafancytoisalwaysheadandshouldersaboveothermen!”
  “Asyoutakeitso,Iwilltellyoumore:thatmanwillnevermarryagain!”
  “Waitabit。Admirationissometimesmutual:whoknowsbuthemayaskyounext!”
  “Ifhedidaskme,Imighttakehim,butIshouldneverthinksomuchofhim!”
  “HeroicKate!”
  “Ifyouhadbeenalittlemoreheroic,Hector,youwouldhaverespondedtohim——andfounditconsiderablytoyouradvantage。“
  “Youdon'timagineIwouldbeindebted——“
  “Hush!Hush!Don'tpledgeyourselfinahurry——eventome!”saidKate。“Leaveaswideasea-marginaboutyourboatasyoumay。Youdon'tknowwhatyouwouldorwouldnot。Mr。Grantknows,butyoudonot。“
  “Mr。Grantagain!——Well!”
  “Well!——weshallsee!”
  Andtheysoondid。ForthatsameeveningDonalcalled,andaskedtoseeMissGraeme。
  “Iamsorrymybrotherisgonedowntothetown,“shesaid。
  “ItwasyouIwantedtosee,“heanswered。“Iwishtospeakopenlytoyou,forIimagineyouwillunderstandmebetterthanyourbrother。PerhapsIoughtrathertosay——Ishallbebetterabletoexplainmyselftoyou。“
  Therewasthatinhiscountenancewhichseemedtoseizeandholdher——acalmexaltation,asofamanwhohadoutlivedweaknessandwasfacingtheeternal。Thespiritofasmilehoveredabouthismouthandeyes,embodyingitselfnowandtheninagrave,sweet,satisfiedsmile:themanseemedfullofcontent,notwithhimself,butwithsomethinghewouldgladlyshare。
  “Ihavebeentalkingwithyourbrother,“hesaid,afterabriefpause。
  “Iknow,“sheanswered。“Iamafraidhedidnotmeetyouasheought。Heisagoodandhonourableman;butlikemostmenheneedsamomenttopullhimselftogether。Fewmen,Mr。Grant,whensuddenlycalledupon,answerfromthebestthatisinthem。“
  “Thefactissimplythis,“resumedDonal:“IdonotwanttheMorvenproperty。IthankGodforladyArctura:whatwashersIdonotdesire。“
  “Butmayitnotbeyourdutytotakeit,Mr。Grant?——Pardonmeforsuggestingdutytoonewhoalwaysactsfromit。“
  “Ihavereflected,anddonotthinkGodwantsmetotakeit。Becausesheismine,oughtIofnecessitytobeenslavedtoallheraccidents?MustI,becauseIloveher,hoardhergownsandshoes?”
  ThenfirstMissGraemenotedthatheneverspokeofhiswifeasinthepast。
  “Butthereareotherstobeconsidered,“shereplied。“Youhavemademethinkaboutmanythings,Mr。Grant!MybrotherandIhavehadmanytalksastowhatwewoulddoifthelandwereours。“
  “Andyoursitshallbe,“saidDonal,“ifyouwilltakeitasatrustforthegoodofallwhomitsupports。Ihaveotherworktodo。“
  “Iwilltellmybrotherwhatyousay,“answeredMissGraeme,withvictoryinherheart——forwasitnotasshehaddivined?
  “Itisbetter,“continuedDonal,“tohelpmakegoodmenthanhappytenants。Besides,Iknowhowtodotheone,andIdonotknowhowtodotheother。Therewouldalwaysbeaprejudiceagainstmetoo,asnottothemannerborn。Butifyourbrothershouldacceptmyoffer,IhopehewillnotthinkmeinterferingifItalksometimesoftheprinciplesoftherelation。Thingsgowrong,generally,becausemenhavesuchabsurdandimpossiblenotionsaboutpossession。Theycallthingstheirownwhichitisimpossible,fromtheirverynature,evertopossessormaketheirown。Powerwasnevergiventomanovermenforhisownsake,andthenearerhethatsousesitcomestosuccess,themoreutterwillprovehisdiscomfiture。Talktoyourbrotheraboutit,MissGraeme。Tellhimthat,asheirtothetitle,andasheadofthefamily,hecandomorethananyotherwiththeproperty,andIwillgladlymakeitovertohimwithoutreserve。I
  wouldnotbeevenpartiallyturnedasidefrommyowncalling。“
  “Iwilltellhimwhatyousay。Itoldhimhehadmisunderstoodyou。
  Isawintoyourgenerousthought。“
  “Itisnotgenerousatall。MydearMissGraeme,youdonotknowhowlittleofatemptationsuchthingsaretome!TherearesomewhoonlycaretoinheritstraightfromthefirstFather。YoumaysaytheearthistheLord's,andthereforeapartofthatfirstinheritance:
  Iadmitit;butsuchpossessionasthisinquestionwouldnotsatisfymeintheleast。Imustinherittheearthinafardeeper,grander,truerwaythancallingthelandmine,beforeIshallcountmyselftohavecomeintomyown。Iwanttohaveallthingsjustasthemakerofmewantsmetohavethem——Iwillcallonyouagainto-morrow;Imustnowgobacktotheearl。Poorman,heissinkingfast!butIbelieveheismoreatpeacethanhehaseverbeenbefore!”
  Donaltookhisleave,andMissGraemehadplentytothinkoftillherbrother'sreturn:ifshefeltalittletriumphant,itmaybepardonedher。
  Hewasashamed,andnotalittlehumbledbywhatshetoldhim。HedidnotwaitforDonaltocometohim,butwenttothecastleearlythenextmorning。NorwashemistakenintrustingDonaltobelievethatitwasnotfromeagernesstoretraceinhisowninterestthefalsestephehadtaken,butfromdesiretoshowhisshameofhavingbehavedsoungenerously:Donalreceivedhimsoastomakeitplainhedidnotmisunderstandhim,andtheyhadalongtalk。GraemewasallthereadierforhisblundertohearwhatDonalhadtosay,andDonal'sunquestionabledisinterestednesswasendlesslypotentwithGraeme。TheirinterviewresultedinDonal'sthinkingstillbetterofhimthanbefore,andbeingsatisfiedthat,uptohislight,themanwashonest——whichissayingmuch——andthenceopentoconviction,andbothsidesofaquestion。Butereitwasnaturallyover,Donalwassummonedtotheearl。
  Afterhisniece'sdeath,noonewoulddoforhimbutDonal;nobodycouldpleasehimbutDonal。Hismindaswellashisbodywasmuchweaker。Buttheintellect,greatthingthoughitbe,isyetbutthesoiloutofwhich,orratherinwhich,higherthingsmustgrow,anditiswellwhenthatsoilisnottoostrong,sotospeak,forthemostgraciousandlovelyofplantstorootthemselvesinit。Whenthesaidsoilisproudandunwillingtoserve,itmustbethinnedandpulverizedwithsickness,failure,poverty,fear——thatthegoodseedsofGod'sgardenmaybeabletorootthemselvesinit;whentheygetupalittle,theywillusealltherichesandallthestrengthofthestiffestsoil。
  “Whowillhavethepropertynow?”heaskedoneday。“Isthefactoranywhereintherunning?”
  “Titleandpropertybothwillbehis,“answeredDonal。
  “AndmypoorDavie?”saidtheearl,withwistfulquestionintheeyesthatgazedupinDonal'sface。“Forgue,therascal,hasallmymoneyinhispoweralready。“
  “IwillseetoDavie,“repliedDonal。“WhenyouandImeet,mylord——byandby,Ishallnotbeashamed。“
  Thepoormanwassatisfied。HesentforDavie,andtoldhimhewasalwaystodoasMr。Grantwished,thathelefthiminhischarge,andthathemustbehavetohimlikeason。
  Daviewasfastmakingacquaintancewithdeath——butitwasnottohimdreadfulastomostchildren,forhesawitthroughthefaceandwordsofthemanwhomhemosthonoured。
  CHAPTERLXXXIV。
  MORVENHOUSE。
  IntheeveningDonalwentagaintothehome-farm。Findinghimselfaloneinthedrawing-room,hewalkedoutintotheoldgarden。
  “ThankGod,“hesaidtohimself,“ifmywifeshouldcomeheresomesad,sweetnight,withalowmoon-crescent,andagentlythinkingwind,andwanderaboutthegarden,itwillnotbetoknowherselfforgotten!”
  Hewentupanddownthegrassypaths。Onceagain,allaslongago——foritseemedlongnow——hewasjoinedbyMissGraeme。
  “Icouldn'thelpfancying,“shesaidasshecameuptohim,“thatI
  sawladyArcturawalkingbyyourside——Godforgiveme!howcouldI
  besoheartlessasmentionher!”
  “Hernamewillalwaysbepleasantinmyears,“returnedDonal。“I
  wasthinkingofher——thatwashowyoufeltasifyousawher!Youdidnotreallyseeanything,didyou?”
  “Oh,no!”
  “Sheisnearermethanthat,“saidDonal。“ShewillbewithmewhereverIam;Ishallneverbesad。Godiswithme,andIdonotweepthatIcannotseehim:Iwait;Iwait。“
  MissGraemewasintears。
  “Mr。Grant,“shesaid,“sheisgoneahappyangeltoheaveninsteadofapiningwoman!Thatisyourdoing!Godblessyou!——Youwillletmethinkofyouasafriend?”
  “Always;always:youlovedher。“
  “Ididnotatfirst;Ithoughtofheronlyasapoortroubledcreature!NowIknowtherewasmorelifeinhertroublethaninmycontent。Icamenotonlytoloveher,buttolookuptoherasasaint:ifevertherewasone,itwasshe,Mr。Grant。SheoftencamehereafterIshowedherthatpoem。Sheusedtowalkherealoneinthetwilight。ThathorridMissCarmichael!shewastheplagueofherlife!”
  “ShewasGod'smessenger——tobuffether,andmakeherknowherneedofhim。Besure,MissGraeme,notasoulcandowithouthim。“
  HereMr。Graemejoinedthem。
  “Idonotthinktheearlwilllastmanydays,“saidDonal。“Itwouldbewell,itseemstome,atonceuponhisdeathtotakepossessionofthehouseinthetown。Itistheonlypropertythatgoeswiththetitle。Andofcourseyouwouldatoncetakeupyourabodeinthecastle!Youwillfindintheearl'spapersmanyproofs,Iimagine,thathissonhasnoclaim。Iwouldhaveadeedofgiftdrawnup,butwouldratheryouseemedtocomeinbynaturalsuccession。Wearenotboundtotelltheworldeverything;weareonlyboundtobeablewithoutshametotelliteverything。AndthenIshallhaveafavourtoask:MorvenHouse,downinthetown,isofnogreatusetoyou:
  letmerentitofyou。Ishouldliketolivethereandhaveaschool,withDavieformyfirstpupil。Whenwegetanother,wewilltrytomakeamanofhimtoo。Wewillnotcaresomuchaboutmakingagreatscholar,oragreatanythingofhim,butatrueman。Wewilltrytohelpthewholemanofhimintothelikenessoftheoneman。“
  HereMr。Graemebrokein。
  “Youwillnevermakealivingthatway!”hesaid。
  Donalopenedhiseyesandlookedathim。Likeoneconvictedandashamed,theeyesofthemanofbusinessfellbeforethoseofthemanofGod。
  “Ah,“saidDonal,“youhavenotanidea,Mr。Graeme,onhowlittleI
  couldlive!——Here,youhadbettertakethewill,“headded,pullingitfromhispocket。
  Mr。Graemehesitated。
  “Ifyouwouldrathernot,Iwillkeepit。Iwouldthrowitinthefire,buteitheryouorImustkeepitforatimeasagainstallchances。“
  Mr。Graemetookit。
  Thatnighttheearldied。
  DonalwrotetoPercythathisfatherwasdead。Twodaysafter,heappeared。Thenewearlmethiminthehall。
  “Mr。Graeme,“saidPercy,——
  “IamlordMorven,Mr。Graeme,“returnedhislordship。
  Thefellowsaidanevilword,turnedonhisheel,andleftthemtoburyhisfatherwithouthim。
  Thefuneralover,theearlturnedtoDonalandlookedhimintheface:theywalkedbacktothecastlearminarm,andfromthatmomentwereasbrothers。
  EarlHectordidnothingofimportancewithoutconsultingDonal,andDonalhadthemoreinfluencebothwithlandlordandtenantsthathehadnointerestintheproperty。
  Thesameweekheleftthecastle,andtookpossessionofMorvenHouse。ThepeoplesaidMr。Granthadplayedhiscardswell:hadtheyknownwhathehadreallydone,theywouldhavecalledhimabornidiot。
  Davie,towhomnocalamitycouldbeoverwhelmingsolongashehadMr。Grant,accompaniedhimgladly,morethancontenttolivewithhimtillhewenttocollege,whithertheearlwishedtosendhim。
  Donalhinderedratherthanspedtheday。Whenitcame,theearlwouldhavehadhimgotoo,butDonalwouldnot。
  “IhavedonewhatIcan,“hesaid。“Itistimeheshouldwalkalone。“
  Itwassoonevidentthattheboywouldnotdisgracehim。Thereisnocertaintyastohowdeepanyteachingmayhavegone——astowhetherithasreachedtheissuesoflifeornot,untilayouthisleftbyhimself,andhastochooseandrefusecompanions:themostpromisingyouthsareoftenbutpromisers。
  WiththefullconcurrenceofMissGraeme,DonalhadpersuadedmistressBrookes——easypersuasionwherethesuggestionwasenough!——tokeephouseforhim。Theywenttogether,andtogetherunlockedthedoorofMorvenHouse。
  MistressBrookessaidtheplacewasinanawfulstate。Therewasnotmuch,tobesure,forthemasontodo,butforthecarpenter!Ithadnotbeentouchedforgenerations!Hemustgoaway,andstayawaytillshesummonedhim!
  Donalgladlywenthometohishills,andtookDaviewithhim。Hetoldhisfatherandmother,sirGibbieandhislady,thethingsthathadbefallenhim,andeveryoneapprovedheartilyofwhathehaddone。Hismothertookhisrenunciationofthepropertyasamatterofcourse。Allagreeditshouldnotbespokenof。WhentheyreturnedtoAuchars,sirGibbieandladyGalbraithwentwiththem,andstaidforsomeweeks。Thetownsfolksaidhewasbutapoorbaronetthatcouldnotspeakmortalword。
  LordMorvenandMissGraemehaddonetheirbesttomakethehousewhattheythoughtDonalwouldlike。ButinthecastletheykeptforhimtheroomsladyArcturahadcalledherown。Therehegatheredthebooks,andafewotherofthemoreimmediatelypersonalpossessionsofhiswife——herpianoforone——uponwhichhetaughthimselftoplayalittle;andthitherhebetookhimselfoftenonholidays,andalwaysonSundayevenings。WhatwentonthenIleavetotheimaginationofthereaderwhoknowsthataloneonemaymeetmany,sittingstillmaytravelfar,andsilentmaketheuniversehear。
  LordMorvenkeptLarkieforDavie。ThelastIheardofDaviewasthathewasinIndia,anofficerinthearmy,belovedofhismen,andexercisingamostbeneficialinfluenceonhisregiment。Thethingshehadlearnedhehadsolearnedthattheywentoutfromhim,findingnewgroundinwhichtorootandgrow。Inhisdayandgenerationhehelpedthecomingofthekingdomoftruthandrighteousness,andsofulfilledhishighcalling。
  ItwassometimebeforeDonalhadanypupils,andheneverhadmany,forhewasregardedasamostpeculiarman,withideasabouteducationoddintheextreme。Itwasgranted,however,that,ifaboystayed,orratherifheallowedhimtostaywithhimlongenough,hewassuretoturnoutagentleman:thatwhichwasdeeperandwasthelifeofthegentleman,peopleseldomsaw——wouldseldomhavevaluediftheyhadseen。Mostparentswouldliketheirchildrentobeladiesandgentlemen;thattheyshouldbesonsanddaughtersofGod,theydonotcare!
  ThefewwisesoulsintheneighbourhoodknowDonalastheheartoftheplace——themantogotoinanydifficulty,inanytroubleorapprehension。
  MissCarmichaelgrewbydegreeslesstalkative,andlessobtrusiveofheropinions。AftersomeyearsshecondescendedtomarryafarmeronlordMorven'sestate。Theironlychild,athoughtfulboy,andatruereader,soughtthecompanyofthegravemanwiththesweetsmile,goingoftentohishousetoaskhimaboutthisorthat。HeremindedhimofDavie,andgrewverydeartohim。Themotherdiscoveringthat,asoftenashestoleaway,itwastogotothemaster——everybodycalledhimthemaister——scoldedandforbade。Buttheprohibitionbroughtsuchatimeoftearsandgloomandlossofappetite,andherhusbandsolittlesharedherprejudicesagainstthemaster,thatshewascompelledtorecallit,andtheboywentandwentasbefore。Whenhewastakenill,andonhisdeathbed,nobodycouldmakehimhappybutthemaster;healmostnursedhimthroughthelastfewdaysofhisshortearthlylife。Butthemotherseemednottolikehimanythebetter——rathertoregardhimashavingdeprivedherofsomeofherrightsintheloveofherboy。
  DonalisstillapresentpowerofheatandlightinthetownofAuchars。Hewearsthesamesolemnlook,thesamehoveringsmile。
  Theysaytothosewhocanreadthem,“IknowinwhomIhavebelieved。“ItistheGodwhoistheFatheroftheLordthathebelievesin。HislifeishidwithChristinGod,andhehasnoanxietyaboutanything。Thewheelsofthecomingchariot,movingfastorslowtofetchhim,arealwaysmoving;andwhetheritarriveatnight,oratcock-crowing,orintheblazeofnoon,isonetohim。HeisreadyforthelifehisArcturaknows。“Godis,“hesays,“andalliswell。“Heneverdisputes,rarelyseekstoconvince。“I
  willletwhatlightIhaveshine;butdisputationissmoke。Itistonoprofit!——AndIdolike,“hesays,“togiveandtogetthegoodofthings!”
  THEEND