“No,mylady!”returnedDonal;“ifGodhadnotsentme,hewouldhavesentsomebodyelse;youwereready!”
“Iamverygladhesentyou!Ishouldneverhavelovedanyothersomuch!”
Donal'seyesfilledwithtears。Hewassimpleasachild。Nomalevanity,noself-exultationthatawomanshouldlovehim,andtellhimshelovedhim,sprangupinhisheart。Heknewshelovedhim;helovedher;allwassonaturalitcouldnotbeotherwise:heneverpresumedtoimagineheroncethinkingofhimashehadthoughtofGinevra。Hewasherservant,willingandlovingasanyangelofGod:
thatwasall——andenough!
“Youarenotvexedwithyourpupil——areyou?”sheresumed,againlookingupinhisface,thistimewitharosyflushonherown。
“Why?”saidDonal,withwonder。
“Forspeakingsotomymaster。“
“Angrybecauseyouloveme?”
“No,ofcourse!”sheresponded,atoncesatisfied。“Youknewthatmustbe!HowcouldIbutloveyou——betterthananyoneelseintheworld!Youhavegivenmelife!Iwasdead——Youhavebeenlikeanotherfathertome!”sheadded,withasmileofheavenlytenderness。“ButIcouldnothavespokentoyoulikethis,ifIhadnotknownIwasdying。“
ThewordshotastingasoffirethroughDonal'sheart。
“Youarealwaysachild,Mr。Grant,“shewenton;“deathismakingachildofme;itmakesusallchildren:asifweweretwolittlechildrentogether,ItellyouIloveyou——Don'tlooklikethat,“
shecontinued;“youmustnotforgetwhatyouhavebeenteachingmeallthistime——thatthewillofGod,theperfectGod,isallinall!
HeisnotaGodfaroff:toknowthatisenoughtohavelivedfor!
Youhavetaughtmethat,andIloveyouwithatrueheartfervently。“
Donalcouldnotspeak。Heknewshewasdying。
“Mr。Grant,“shebeganagain,“mysoulisopentohiseyes,andisnotashamed。IknowIamgoingtodowhatwouldbytheworldbecountedunwomanly;butyouandIstandbeforeourFather,notbeforetheworld。Iaskyouinplainwords,knowingthatifyoucannotdoasIaskyouwillingly,youwillnotdoit。AndbesureIshallplainlybedyingbeforeIclaimthefulfilmentofyourpromiseifyougiveit。Idonotwantyouranswerallatonce:youmustthinkaboutit。“
Hereshepausedawhile,thensaid,“Iwantyoutomarryme,ifyouwill,beforeIgo。“
Donalcouldnotyetspeak。Hissoulwasinatumultofemotion。
“Iamtired,“shesaid。“Pleasegoandthinkitover。Ifyousayno,Ishallonlysay,'Heknowsbestwhatisbest!'Ishallnotbeashamed。Onlyyoumustnotoncethinkwhattheworldwouldsay:ofallpeoplewehavenothingtodowiththeworld!WehavenothingtodobutwithGodandlove!Ifhebepleasedwithus,wecanaffordtosmileatwhathissillychildrenthinkofus:theymindonlywhattheirvulgarnursessay,notwhattheirperfectfathersays:weneednotmindthem——needwe?——Iwonderatmyself,“shewenton,forDonaldidnotutteraword,“forbeingabletospeaklikethis;butthenI
havebeenthinkingofitforalongtime——chieflyasIlieawake。I
amneverafraidnow——notthoughIlieawakeallnight:'perfectlovecastethoutfear,'youknow。IhaveGodtolove,andJesustolove,andyoutolove,andmyownfathertolove!Whenyouknowhim,youwillseehowgoodamancanbewithouthavingbeenbroughtuplikeyou!——Oh,Donal,dosaysomething,orIshallcry,andcryingkillsme!”
Shewassittingonalowchair,withthesunlightacrossherlap——forshewasagaininthesunnyGarland-room——andthefirelightonherface。Donalkneltgentlydown,andlaidhishandsinthesunlightonherlap,justasifheweregoingtosayhisprayersathismother'sknee。Shelaidbothherhandsonhis。
“Ihavesomethingtotellyou,“hesaid;“andthenyoumustspeakagain。“
“Tellme,“saidArctura,withalittlegasp。
“WhenIcamehere,“saidDonal,“Ithoughtmyheartsobrokenthatitwouldneverlove——thatway,Imean——anymore。ButIlovedGodbetterthanever:andasoneIwouldfainhelp,Ilovedyoufromtheveryfirst。ButIshouldhavescornedmyselfhadIoncefanciedyoulovedmemorethanjusttodoanythingformeIneededdone。WhenI
sawyoutroubled,Ilongedtotakeyouupinmyarms,andcarryyoulikealovelybirdthathadfallenfromoneofGod'snests;butneveronce,mylady,didIthinkofyourcaringformylove:itwasyoursasamatterofcourse。Ionceaskedaladytokissme——justonce,foragood-bye:shewouldnot——andshewasquiteright;butafterthatIneverspoketoaladybutsheseemedtostandfarawayonthetopofahillagainstasky。“
Hestopped。Herhandsonhisflutteredalittle,asiftheywouldfly。
“Isshestill——isshe——alive?”sheasked。
“Ohyes,mylady。“
“Thenshemay——change——“saidArctura,andstopped,fortherewasastoneinherheart。
Donallaughed。Itwasanoddlaugh,butitdidArcturagood。
“Nodangerofthat,mylady!Shehasthebesthusbandintheworld——amuchbetterthanIshouldhavemade,muchasIlovedher。“
“Thatcan'tbe!”
“Why,mylady,herhusband'ssirGibbie!She'sladyGalbraith!I
wouldneverhavewishedhermineifIhadknownshelovedGibbie。I
lovehernexttohim。“
“Then——then——“
“What,mylady?”
“Then——then——Oh,dosaysomething!”
“WhatshouldIsay?WhatGodwillsisfastastherootsoftheuniverse,andlovelyasitsblossom。“
Arcturaburstintotears。
“Thenyoudonot——careforme!”
Donalbegantounderstand。Insomethingshewentonsofastthathecouldnothearthecrybehindhim。Shehadspoken,andhadbeenlisteninginvainforresponse!Shethoughtherselfunloved:hehadshownhernosignthathelovedher!
Hisheartwassofullofloveandthejoyoflove,thattheyhadmadehimverystill:nowthedelightofloveawoke。Hetookherinhisarmslikeachild,rose,andwentwalkingabouttheroomwithher,pettingandsoothingher。Heheldherclosetohisheart;herheadwasonhisshoulder,andhisfacewasturnedtohers。
“Iloveyou,“hesaid,“andloveyoutoalleternity!Ihaveloveenoughnowtoliveupon,ifyoushoulddieto-night,andIshouldtarrytillhecome。OGod,thouarttoogoodtome!Itismorethanmyheartcanbear!Tomakemenandwomen,andgivethemtoeachother,andnotbeonemomentjealousofthelovewherewiththeyloveoneanother,istobeaGodindeed!”
SosaidDonal——andspokethehightruth。Butalasforthelovewherewithmenandwomenloveeachother!ThereweresmallroomforGodtobejealousofthat!Itisthelittlelovewithwhichtheyloveeachother,thegreatlovewithwhichtheylovethemselves,thathurtstheheartoftheirfather。
Arcturasignedatlengthaprayerforrelease,andhesethergentlydowninherchairagain。Thenhesawherfacemorebeautifulthaneverbefore;andtherosethatbloomedtherewastheroseofahealthdeeperthansickness。ThesechildrenofGodwereoftheblessedfewwholovethemorethattheyknowhimpresent,whosesoulsarenakedbeforehim,andnotashamed。Lethimthathearsunderstand!ifheunderstandnot,lethimholdhispeace,anditwillbehiswisdom!Hewhohasnoplaceforthisloveinhisreligion,whothinkstobemoreholywithoutit,isnotofGod'smindwhenhesaid,“Letusmakeman!”Hemaybeasaint,buthecannotbeamanafterGod'sownheart。Thefinishedmanisthesavedman。Thesaintmayhavetobesavedfrommorethansin。
“Whenshallwebemarried?”askedDonal。
“Soon,soon,“answeredArctura。
“To-morrowthen?”
“No,notto-morrow:thereisnosuchhaste——nowthatweunderstandeachother,“sheaddedwitharosysmile。“IwanttobemarriedtoyoubeforeIdie,thatisall——notjustto-morrow,orthenextday。“
“Whenyouplease,mylove,“saidDonal。
Shelaidherheadonhisbosom。
“Weareasgoodasmarriednow,“shesaid:“weknowthateachlovestheother!HowIshallwaitforyou!Youwillbemine,youknow——alittlebitmine——won'tyou?——evenifyoushouldmarrysomebeautifulladyafterIamgone?——Ishallloveherwhenshecomes。“
“Arctura!”saidDonal。
CHAPTERLXXXI。
AWILLANDAWEDDING。
Buttheopeningofthewindowsofheaven,andtheunspeakablerushoflifethroughchannelstoonarrowandbankstooweaktoholditstide,causedaterribleinundation:theredfloodbrokeitsbanks,andweakenedalltheland。
ArcturasentforMr。Graeme,andcommissionedhimtofetchthefamilylawyerfromEdinburgh。Alonewithhimshegaveinstructionsconcerningherwill。Themanofbusinessshruggedhisshoulders,ladenwithsomanypettyweights,boweddownwithsomanyfalsestopinions,andwouldhaveexpostulatedwithher。
“Sir!”shesaid。
“Youhaveacousinwhoinheritsthetitle!”hesuggested。
“Mr。Fortune,“shereturned,“itmaybeIknowasmuchofmyfamilyasyou。Ididnotsendforyoutoconsultyou,buttotellyouhowI
wouldhavemywilldrawnup!”
“Ibegyourpardon,mylady,“rejoinedthelawyer,“buttherearethingswhichmaymakeitone'sdutytospeakout。“
“Speakthen;Iwilllisten——thatyoumayeaseyourmind。“
Hebeganalong,common-sense,worldlytalkonthematter,noroncerepeatedhimself。Whenhestopped,——
“Nowhaveyoueasedyourmind?”sheasked。
“Ihave,mylady。“
“Thenlistentome。Thereisnonecessityyoushouldhurteitheryourfeelingsoryourprejudices。IfitgoesagainstyourconsciencetodoasIwish,Iwillnottroubleyou。“
Mr。Fortunebowed,tookhisinstructions,androse。
“Whenwillyoubringitme?”sheasked。
“Inthecourseofaweekortwo,mylady。“
“Ifitisnotinmyhandsbythedayafterto-morrow,Iwillsendforagentlemanfromthetowntoprepareit。“
“Youshallhaveit,mylady,“saidMr。Fortune。
Shedidhaveit,anditwassignedandwitnessed。
Thenshesankmorerapidly。Donalsaidnowordaboutthemarriage:
itshouldbeasshepleased!Hewasmuchbyherbedside,readingtoherwhenshewasabletolisten,talkingtoherorsittingsilentwhenshewasnot。
ArcturahadatoncetoldmistressBrookestherelationinwhichsheandDonalstoodtoeachother。Itcostthegoodwomanmanytears,forshethoughtsuchaloveoneofthesaddestthingsinasadworld。NeitherArcturanorDonalthoughtso。
Theearlatthistimewasalittlebetter,thoughwithoutprospectofeventemporaryrecovery。Hehadgrownmuchgentler,andsadnesshadpartiallydisplacedhissullenness。Heseemedtohavebecomeinameasureawareofthebrutenessofthelifehehadhithertoled:hemusthavehadaglimpseofsomethingbetter。Itiswonderfulwhatthesicknesswhichhumanstupidityregardsastheoneevilthing,candotowardsredemption!Heshowedconcernathisniece'sillness,andhadhimselfcarrieddowneveryotherdaytoseeherforafewminutes。Shereceivedhimalwayswiththegreatestgentleness,andheshowedsomethingthatseemedlikegenuineaffectionforher。
ItwasamorninginthemonthofMay——
Thenakedtwigswereshiveringallforcold——
whenDonal,whohadbeenwithArcturathegreaterpartofthenight,andnowlayonthecouchinaneighbouringroom,heardMrs。Brookescallhim。
“Myladywantsyou,sir,“shesaid。
Hestartedup,andwenttoher。
“Sendfortheminister,“shewhispered,“——notMr。Carmichael;hedoesnotknowyou。SendforMr。Graemetoo:heandmistressBrookeswillbewitnesses。ImustcallyouhusbandoncebeforeIdie!”
“Ihopeyouwillmanyatimeafter!”hereturned。
Shesmiledonhimwithalookofloveunutterable。
“Mind,“shesaid,holdingoutherarmsfeebly,butdrawinghimfasttoherbosom,“thatthisishowIloveyou!Whenyouseemedullandstupid,andIhardlylookatyou——forthoughdeathmakesbright,dyingmakesstupid——thensaytoyourself,'Thisisnothowshelovesme;itisonlyhowsheisdying!Shelovesmeandknowsit——andbyandbywillbeabletoshowit!'“
Theywerepreciouswordsboththenandafterwards!
Withsomecarefulquestioning,tosatisfyhimselfthat,soevidentlyatthegateofdeathsheyetknewperfectlyherownmind,——andnotwithoutsomeshakesoftheheadrevealingdisapprobation,theministerdidashewasrequested,andwroteacertificateofthefact,whichwasdulysignedandwitnessed。
Andifheshowedhisdisapprovalyetmoreintheprayerwithwhichheconcludedtheceremony,nonebutmistressBrookesshowedresponsiveindignation。
Thebridegroomgavehisbrideonegentlekiss,andwithdrewwiththeclergyman。
“PardonmeifIcharacterizethisasastrangeproceeding!”saidthelatter。
“Notsostrangeperhapsasitlooks,sir!”saidDonal。
“Ontheverybrinkoftheotherworld!”
“Theotherworldanditsbrinktooarehiswhoordainedmarriage!”
“Forthisworldonly,“saidtheminister。
“ThegiftsofGodarewithoutrepentance,“saidDonal。
“Ihaveheardofyou!”returnedtheclergyman。“Youareone,theytellme,giventomisusingscripture。“
Hehadconceivedapainfuldoubtthathehadbeendrawnintosomeplot!
“Sir!”saidDonalsternly,“ifyousawanyimproprietyintheceremony,whydidyouperformit?Ibegyouwillnowreserveyourremarks。Yououghttohavemadethembeforeornotatall。Ifyoubesilent,thethingwillprobablyneverbeheardof,andIshouldgreatlydislikehavingitthetown-talk。“
“ExceptIseereason——thatis,ifnothingfollowtorenderdisclosurenecessary,Ishallbesilent,“saidtheminister。
HewouldhavedeclinedthefeeofferedbyDonal;buthewaspoor,anditsamountprevailed:heacceptedit,andtookhisleavewithastiffnessheintendedfordignity:hehadahighsense,ifnotofthedignityofhisoffice,atleastofthedignityhisofficeconferredonhim。
DonalhadnextabriefinterviewwithMr。Graeme。Thefactorwasinastateofutterbewilderment,andreadilyyieldedDonalapromiseofsilence:themerewhimofadyinggirl,ithadbetterbeignoredandforgotten!AstoGrant'spartinithedidnotknowwhattothink。Itcouldnotaffecttheproperty,hethought:itcouldhardlybeamarriage!Andthentherewasthewill——ofthecontentsofwhichheknewnothing!Ifitwereacompletemarriage,thewillwasworthnothing,beingmadebeforeit!
Iwillnotlingeroverthequiet,sadtimethatfollowed。DonalwastoArctura,shesaid,father,brother,husband,inone。Throughhimshehadreapedtheharvestoftheworld,inspiteoffalsehood,murder,fear,anddistrust!Shelayvictoriousonthebattlefield!
Intheheartofherbridegroomreignedapeacetheworldcouldnotgiveortakeaway。Helovedwithalovethatcasttheloveofformerdaysintotheshadowofasweetbutundesiredremembrance。Alongtwilightlifelaybeforehim,buthewouldhaveplentytodo!andsuchwasthelovebetweenhimandArctura,thateverydoingofthewillofGodwasasthetyingofafreshbondbetweenhimandher:
shewashisbecausetheyweretheFather's,whosewillwasthelifeandbondoftheuniverse。
“Ithink,“saidDonal,thatsamenightbyherbed,“whenmymotherdies,shewillgonearyou:Iwill,ifIcan,sendyouamessagebyher。Butitwillnotmatter;itcanonlytellyouwhatyouwillknowwellenough——thatIloveyou,andamwaitingtocometoyou。“
ThestupidityofcallingoneselfaChristian,anddoubtingifweshallknowourfriendshereafter!Inthosewhodonotbelievesuchadoubtismorethannatural,butinthosewhoprofesstobelieve,itshowswhataraggedscarecrowisthethingtheycalltheirfaith——notworththatofmanyanoldJew,orthatofhereandthereapagan!
“Ishallnotbefarfromyou,dear,Ithink——sometimesatleast,“
shesaid,speakingverylow。“Ifyoudreamanythingniceaboutme,thinkIamthinkingofyou。Ifyoushoulddreamanythingnotnice,thinksomethingislyingtoyouaboutme。IdonotknowifIshallbeallowedtocomenearyou,butifIam——andIthinkIshallbe——sometimes,IshalllaughtomyselftothinkhownearIam,andyoufancyingmealongwayoff!Butanywayallwillbewell,forthegreatlife,ourGod,ourfather,is,andinhimwecannotbutbetogether。“
Afterthatshefellintoadeepsleep,andsleptforhours。Thensuddenlyshesatup。Donalputhisarmbehindandsupportedher。Shelookedalittlewild,shuddered,murmuredsomethinghecouldnotunderstand,thenthrewherselfbackintohisarms。Herexpressionchangedtoalookofdivinest,loveliestcontent,andshewasgone。
CHAPTERLXXXII。
THEWILL。
Whenherwillwasread,itwasfoundthat,exceptsomelegacies,andanannuitytoMrs。Brookes,shehadlefteverythingtoDonal。
Mr。Graeme,risingthemomentthelawyerlookedup,congratulatedDonal——politely,notcordially,andtookhisleave。
“Ifyouarewalkingtowardshome,“saidDonal,“Iwillwalkwithyou。“
“Ishallbehappy,“saidMr。Graeme——feelingitnotalittlehardthatonewhowouldsoonbeheirpresumptivetothetitleshouldhavetotendthefamilypropertyintheserviceofastrangerandapeasant。
“LordMorvencannotlivelong,“saidDonalastheywent。“Itisnottobewishedheshould。“
Mr。Graemereturnednoanswer。Donalresumed。
“IthinkIoughttoletyouknowatoncethatyouareheirtothetitle。“
“Ithinkyouowetheknowledgetomyself!”saidthefactor,notwithoutatouchofcontempt。
“Bynomeans,“rejoinedDonal:“onpresumption,afterlordForgue,youtoldme;——afterlordMorven,Itellyou。“
“Iamatalosstoimagineonwhatyoufoundsuchastatement,“saidGraeme,beginningtosuspectinsanity。
“Naturally;nooneknowsitbutmyself。LordMorvenknowsthathissoncannotsucceed,buthedoesnotknowthatyoucan。Iamprepared,ifnottoprove,atleasttoconvinceyouthatheandhisson'smotherwerenotmarried。“
Mr。Graemewasforamomentsilent。Thenhelaughedalittlelaugh——notapleasantone。“AnotherofTime'sclownishtricks!”hesaidtohimself:“theearlthefactoronthefamily-estate!”Donaldidnotlikethewayhetookit,butsawhownaturalitwas。
“Ihopeyouhaveknownmelongenough,“hesaid,“tobelieveIhavecontrivednothing?”
“Excuseme,Mr。Grant:thewholebusinesslookssuspicious。Thegirlwasdying!Youknewit!”
“Idonotunderstandyou。“
“Whatdidyoumarryherfor?”
“Tomakehermywife。“
“Praywhatcouldbethegoodofthatexcept——?”
“Doesitneedanyexplanationbutthatwelovedeachother?”
“Youwillfinditdifficulttoconvincetheworldthatsuchwasyoursolemotive。“
“Havingnocarefortheopinionoftheworld,IshallbesatisfiedifIconvinceyou。Theworldneedsneverhearofthething。Wouldyou,Mr。Graeme,havehadmenotmarryher,becausetheworld,includingnotafewhonestmenlikeyourself,wouldsaymyobjectwastheproperty?”
“Don'tputthequestiontome;Iamnottheproperpersontoanswerit。Thereisnotamaninahundredmillionswhowiththechancewouldnothavedonethesame,orwhomalltherestwouldnotblamefordoingit。Itwouldhavebeenbetterforyou,however,thattherehadbeennowill。“
“How?”
“Itmakesitlookthemorelikeascheme:——thewillmighthavebeendisputed。“
“Whydoyousay——mighthavebeen?”
“Becauseitisnotworthdisputingnow。Ifthemarriagestands,itannulsthewill。“
“Ididnotknow;andIsupposeshedidnotknoweither。Orperhapsshewantedtomakethethingsure:ifthemarriagewasnotenough,thewillwouldbe——shemayhavethought。ButIknewnothingofit。“
“Youdidnot?”
“OfcourseIdidnot。“
Mr。Graemeheldhispeace。ForthefirsttimehedoubtedDonal'sword。
“ButIwantedtohavealittletalkwithyou,“resumedDonal。“I
wanttoknowwhetheryouthinkyourdutyalltotheowneroftheland,orinanymeasuretothetenantsalso。“
“Thatiseasytoanswer:oneemployedbythelandlordcanowethetenantnothing。“
Itwasnotjusttheanswerhewouldhavegiventoanotherquestioner。
“Doyounotowehimjustice?”askedDonal。
“EverylegaladvantageIoughttotakeformyemployer。“
“Eventothegrindingofthefacesofthepoor?”
“Ihavenothingtodo,ashisemploy?withmyownideasastowhatmaybeequitable。“
HedrewthelinethushardinpureoppositiontoDonal。
“Whatthenwouldyousayifthelandwereyourown?Wouldyousayyouhaditsolelyforyourownandyourfamily'sgood,orforthatofthetenantsaswell?”
“Ishouldverylikelyreasonthatwhatwasgoodforthemwouldinthelongrunbegoodformetoo——ButifyouwanttoknowhowIhavetreatedthetenants,thereareintelligentmenamongstthem,notatallprejudicedinfavourofthefactor!”
“Iwishyouwouldbeopenwithme,“saidDonal。
“Ipreferkeepingmyownplace,“rejoinedMr。Graeme。
“Youspeakasonewhofoundachangeinme,“returnedDonal。“Thereisnone。“
Sosayingheshookhandswithhim,badehimgoodmorning,andturnedwiththedepressionoffailure。
“Ididnotleaduptothepointproperly!”hesaidtohimself。
CHAPTERLXXXIII。
INSIGHT。
Mr。Graemewasagoodsortofman,andagentleman;buthewasnotcapableofmeetingDonalonthegroundonwhichheapproachedhim:
onthatlevelhehadneversetfoot。Thereisnothingmoredisappointingtothegenerousmanthanthewayinwhichhisabsolutefranknessismetbythemanoftheworld——alwayslookingoutformotives,andimaginingthemafterwhatisinhimself。
Therewasgreatconfidencebetweenthebrotherandsister,andashewalkedhomeward,Mr。GraemewasnotsowellpleasedwithhimselfastothinkwithsatisfactiononthereportoftheinterviewhecouldgiveKate。Hedidnotaccusehimselfwithregardtoanythinghehadsaid,buthefelthisbehaviourinfluencedbyjealousyofthelow-bornyouthwhohadsupplantedhim。For,ifPercycouldnotsucceedtothetitle,neithercouldhehavesucceededtotheproperty;andbutforthewillorthemarriage,perhapsbutforthetwotogether,hewouldhimselfhavecomeinforthatalso!Thewillwasworthnothingexceptthemarriagewasdisputed:annulthemarriage,andthewillwasofforce!
Hetoldhissister,asnearlyashecould,allthathadpassedbetweenthem。
“Ifhewantedmetotalktohim,“hesaid,“whydidhetellmethataboutForgue?Itwasinfernallystupidofhim!Butwhat'sbredinthebone——!Agentleman'snotmadeinaday!”
“Norinathousandyears,Hector!”rejoinedhissister。“DonalGrantisagentlemaninthebestsenseoftheword!Thatyousayheisnot,letsmeseeyouarevexedwithyourself。Heisalittleawkwardsometimes,Iconfess;butonlywhenheislookingatathingfromsomeotherpointofview,anddoesnotliketosayyououghttohavebeenlookingatitfromthesame。Andyoucan'tsayheshuffles,forheneverstopstillhehasdonehisbesttomakeyou!——Whathaveyoubeensayingtohim,Hector?”
“NothingbutwhatIhavetoldyou;it'sratherwhatIhavenotbeensaying!”answeredherbrother。“Hewouldhavehadmeopenouttohim,andIwouldn't。HowcouldI!WhateverIsaidthatpleasedhim,wouldhavelookedasifIwantedtosecuremysituation!Hangitall!Ihaveagoodmindtothrowitup。HowisaGraemetoserveunderabumpkin?”
“Themanisnotabumpkin;heisascholarandapoet!”saidthelady。
“Pooh!pooh!What'sapoet?”
“Onethatmayormaynotbeasgoodamanofbusinessasyourselfwhenitisrequiredofhim。“
“Come,come!don'tyouturnagainstme,Kate!It'shardenoughtobearasitis!”
MissGraememadenoreply。ShewasmeditatingallsheknewofDonal,toguidehertothesomethingtowhichshewassureherbrotherhadnotlethimcome;andpresentlyshemadehimrecountagainalltheyhadsaidtoeachother。
“Itellyou,Hector,“sheexclaimed,“younevermadesuchafoolofyourselfinyourlife!IfIknowhumannature,thatmanisdifferentfromanyotheryouhavehadtodowith。Itwilltakeawoman,abetterwomanthanyoursister,Iconfess,tounderstandhim;butI
seealittlefartherintohimthanyoudo。Heisamanwho,neverhavinghadmoneyenoughtolearnthebadusesofit,andneverhavingformedhabitsittakesmoneytosupply,havingnoambition,livinginbooksnotinplaces,andforpleasurehavingmoreathiscommandinhimselfthantherichest——heisamanwho,Isay,wouldfindmoneyanimpedimenttohishappiness,forhemusthaveasenseofdutywithregardtoitwhichwouldinterferewitheverythinghelikedbest。Besides,thoughhedoesnotcareastrawforthejudgmentoftheworldwhereitdiffersfromhim,hewouldbesorrytoseemtogoagainstthatjudgmentwhereheagreeswithit:
scorningtomarryanywomanforhermoney,hewouldnothavetheworldthinkhehaddoneso。“
“Ah,Katey,thereIhaveyou!Theworldwouldentirelyapproveofhisdoingthat!”
“Iwilltakeabetterpositionthen:——hewouldnotwillinglyseemtohavedoneathinghehimselfdespises。Themanbelieveshimselfsentintotheworldtoteachitsomething:hewouldnothaveitthrowninhisteeththat,afterall,helookstothemainchanceaskeenlyasanother!Hewouldstarvebeforehewouldhavemensayso——yes,evensaysofalsely。IamassurehedidnotmarryladyArcturaforhermoney,asIamsurelordForgue,oryou,Hector,wouldhavedoneitifyouhadhadachance——There!——Myconvictionisthatthebumpkinsoughtafitopeningtotellyouthatthewillwastogofornothing,andthatnowordneedbesaidaboutthemarriage。Youknowhemadeyoupromisenottomentionit——onlyIwormeditoutofyou!”
“That'sjustlikeyouwomen!Themanyoutakeafancytoisalwaysheadandshouldersaboveothermen!”
“Asyoutakeitso,Iwilltellyoumore:thatmanwillnevermarryagain!”
“Waitabit。Admirationissometimesmutual:whoknowsbuthemayaskyounext!”
“Ifhedidaskme,Imighttakehim,butIshouldneverthinksomuchofhim!”
“HeroicKate!”
“Ifyouhadbeenalittlemoreheroic,Hector,youwouldhaverespondedtohim——andfounditconsiderablytoyouradvantage。“
“Youdon'timagineIwouldbeindebted——“
“Hush!Hush!Don'tpledgeyourselfinahurry——eventome!”saidKate。“Leaveaswideasea-marginaboutyourboatasyoumay。Youdon'tknowwhatyouwouldorwouldnot。Mr。Grantknows,butyoudonot。“
“Mr。Grantagain!——Well!”
“Well!——weshallsee!”
Andtheysoondid。ForthatsameeveningDonalcalled,andaskedtoseeMissGraeme。
“Iamsorrymybrotherisgonedowntothetown,“shesaid。
“ItwasyouIwantedtosee,“heanswered。“Iwishtospeakopenlytoyou,forIimagineyouwillunderstandmebetterthanyourbrother。PerhapsIoughtrathertosay——Ishallbebetterabletoexplainmyselftoyou。“
Therewasthatinhiscountenancewhichseemedtoseizeandholdher——acalmexaltation,asofamanwhohadoutlivedweaknessandwasfacingtheeternal。Thespiritofasmilehoveredabouthismouthandeyes,embodyingitselfnowandtheninagrave,sweet,satisfiedsmile:themanseemedfullofcontent,notwithhimself,butwithsomethinghewouldgladlyshare。
“Ihavebeentalkingwithyourbrother,“hesaid,afterabriefpause。
“Iknow,“sheanswered。“Iamafraidhedidnotmeetyouasheought。Heisagoodandhonourableman;butlikemostmenheneedsamomenttopullhimselftogether。Fewmen,Mr。Grant,whensuddenlycalledupon,answerfromthebestthatisinthem。“
“Thefactissimplythis,“resumedDonal:“IdonotwanttheMorvenproperty。IthankGodforladyArctura:whatwashersIdonotdesire。“
“Butmayitnotbeyourdutytotakeit,Mr。Grant?——Pardonmeforsuggestingdutytoonewhoalwaysactsfromit。“
“Ihavereflected,anddonotthinkGodwantsmetotakeit。Becausesheismine,oughtIofnecessitytobeenslavedtoallheraccidents?MustI,becauseIloveher,hoardhergownsandshoes?”
ThenfirstMissGraemenotedthatheneverspokeofhiswifeasinthepast。
“Butthereareotherstobeconsidered,“shereplied。“Youhavemademethinkaboutmanythings,Mr。Grant!MybrotherandIhavehadmanytalksastowhatwewoulddoifthelandwereours。“
“Andyoursitshallbe,“saidDonal,“ifyouwilltakeitasatrustforthegoodofallwhomitsupports。Ihaveotherworktodo。“
“Iwilltellmybrotherwhatyousay,“answeredMissGraeme,withvictoryinherheart——forwasitnotasshehaddivined?
“Itisbetter,“continuedDonal,“tohelpmakegoodmenthanhappytenants。Besides,Iknowhowtodotheone,andIdonotknowhowtodotheother。Therewouldalwaysbeaprejudiceagainstmetoo,asnottothemannerborn。Butifyourbrothershouldacceptmyoffer,IhopehewillnotthinkmeinterferingifItalksometimesoftheprinciplesoftherelation。Thingsgowrong,generally,becausemenhavesuchabsurdandimpossiblenotionsaboutpossession。Theycallthingstheirownwhichitisimpossible,fromtheirverynature,evertopossessormaketheirown。Powerwasnevergiventomanovermenforhisownsake,andthenearerhethatsousesitcomestosuccess,themoreutterwillprovehisdiscomfiture。Talktoyourbrotheraboutit,MissGraeme。Tellhimthat,asheirtothetitle,andasheadofthefamily,hecandomorethananyotherwiththeproperty,andIwillgladlymakeitovertohimwithoutreserve。I
wouldnotbeevenpartiallyturnedasidefrommyowncalling。“
“Iwilltellhimwhatyousay。Itoldhimhehadmisunderstoodyou。
Isawintoyourgenerousthought。“
“Itisnotgenerousatall。MydearMissGraeme,youdonotknowhowlittleofatemptationsuchthingsaretome!TherearesomewhoonlycaretoinheritstraightfromthefirstFather。YoumaysaytheearthistheLord's,andthereforeapartofthatfirstinheritance:
Iadmitit;butsuchpossessionasthisinquestionwouldnotsatisfymeintheleast。Imustinherittheearthinafardeeper,grander,truerwaythancallingthelandmine,beforeIshallcountmyselftohavecomeintomyown。Iwanttohaveallthingsjustasthemakerofmewantsmetohavethem——Iwillcallonyouagainto-morrow;Imustnowgobacktotheearl。Poorman,heissinkingfast!butIbelieveheismoreatpeacethanhehaseverbeenbefore!”
Donaltookhisleave,andMissGraemehadplentytothinkoftillherbrother'sreturn:ifshefeltalittletriumphant,itmaybepardonedher。
Hewasashamed,andnotalittlehumbledbywhatshetoldhim。HedidnotwaitforDonaltocometohim,butwenttothecastleearlythenextmorning。NorwashemistakenintrustingDonaltobelievethatitwasnotfromeagernesstoretraceinhisowninterestthefalsestephehadtaken,butfromdesiretoshowhisshameofhavingbehavedsoungenerously:Donalreceivedhimsoastomakeitplainhedidnotmisunderstandhim,andtheyhadalongtalk。GraemewasallthereadierforhisblundertohearwhatDonalhadtosay,andDonal'sunquestionabledisinterestednesswasendlesslypotentwithGraeme。TheirinterviewresultedinDonal'sthinkingstillbetterofhimthanbefore,andbeingsatisfiedthat,uptohislight,themanwashonest——whichissayingmuch——andthenceopentoconviction,andbothsidesofaquestion。Butereitwasnaturallyover,Donalwassummonedtotheearl。
Afterhisniece'sdeath,noonewoulddoforhimbutDonal;nobodycouldpleasehimbutDonal。Hismindaswellashisbodywasmuchweaker。Buttheintellect,greatthingthoughitbe,isyetbutthesoiloutofwhich,orratherinwhich,higherthingsmustgrow,anditiswellwhenthatsoilisnottoostrong,sotospeak,forthemostgraciousandlovelyofplantstorootthemselvesinit。Whenthesaidsoilisproudandunwillingtoserve,itmustbethinnedandpulverizedwithsickness,failure,poverty,fear——thatthegoodseedsofGod'sgardenmaybeabletorootthemselvesinit;whentheygetupalittle,theywillusealltherichesandallthestrengthofthestiffestsoil。
“Whowillhavethepropertynow?”heaskedoneday。“Isthefactoranywhereintherunning?”
“Titleandpropertybothwillbehis,“answeredDonal。
“AndmypoorDavie?”saidtheearl,withwistfulquestionintheeyesthatgazedupinDonal'sface。“Forgue,therascal,hasallmymoneyinhispoweralready。“
“IwillseetoDavie,“repliedDonal。“WhenyouandImeet,mylord——byandby,Ishallnotbeashamed。“
Thepoormanwassatisfied。HesentforDavie,andtoldhimhewasalwaystodoasMr。Grantwished,thathelefthiminhischarge,andthathemustbehavetohimlikeason。
Daviewasfastmakingacquaintancewithdeath——butitwasnottohimdreadfulastomostchildren,forhesawitthroughthefaceandwordsofthemanwhomhemosthonoured。
CHAPTERLXXXIV。
MORVENHOUSE。
IntheeveningDonalwentagaintothehome-farm。Findinghimselfaloneinthedrawing-room,hewalkedoutintotheoldgarden。
“ThankGod,“hesaidtohimself,“ifmywifeshouldcomeheresomesad,sweetnight,withalowmoon-crescent,andagentlythinkingwind,andwanderaboutthegarden,itwillnotbetoknowherselfforgotten!”
Hewentupanddownthegrassypaths。Onceagain,allaslongago——foritseemedlongnow——hewasjoinedbyMissGraeme。
“Icouldn'thelpfancying,“shesaidasshecameuptohim,“thatI
sawladyArcturawalkingbyyourside——Godforgiveme!howcouldI
besoheartlessasmentionher!”
“Hernamewillalwaysbepleasantinmyears,“returnedDonal。“I
wasthinkingofher——thatwashowyoufeltasifyousawher!Youdidnotreallyseeanything,didyou?”
“Oh,no!”
“Sheisnearermethanthat,“saidDonal。“ShewillbewithmewhereverIam;Ishallneverbesad。Godiswithme,andIdonotweepthatIcannotseehim:Iwait;Iwait。“
MissGraemewasintears。
“Mr。Grant,“shesaid,“sheisgoneahappyangeltoheaveninsteadofapiningwoman!Thatisyourdoing!Godblessyou!——Youwillletmethinkofyouasafriend?”
“Always;always:youlovedher。“
“Ididnotatfirst;Ithoughtofheronlyasapoortroubledcreature!NowIknowtherewasmorelifeinhertroublethaninmycontent。Icamenotonlytoloveher,buttolookuptoherasasaint:ifevertherewasone,itwasshe,Mr。Grant。SheoftencamehereafterIshowedherthatpoem。Sheusedtowalkherealoneinthetwilight。ThathorridMissCarmichael!shewastheplagueofherlife!”
“ShewasGod'smessenger——tobuffether,andmakeherknowherneedofhim。Besure,MissGraeme,notasoulcandowithouthim。“
HereMr。Graemejoinedthem。
“Idonotthinktheearlwilllastmanydays,“saidDonal。“Itwouldbewell,itseemstome,atonceuponhisdeathtotakepossessionofthehouseinthetown。Itistheonlypropertythatgoeswiththetitle。Andofcourseyouwouldatoncetakeupyourabodeinthecastle!Youwillfindintheearl'spapersmanyproofs,Iimagine,thathissonhasnoclaim。Iwouldhaveadeedofgiftdrawnup,butwouldratheryouseemedtocomeinbynaturalsuccession。Wearenotboundtotelltheworldeverything;weareonlyboundtobeablewithoutshametotelliteverything。AndthenIshallhaveafavourtoask:MorvenHouse,downinthetown,isofnogreatusetoyou:
letmerentitofyou。Ishouldliketolivethereandhaveaschool,withDavieformyfirstpupil。Whenwegetanother,wewilltrytomakeamanofhimtoo。Wewillnotcaresomuchaboutmakingagreatscholar,oragreatanythingofhim,butatrueman。Wewilltrytohelpthewholemanofhimintothelikenessoftheoneman。“
HereMr。Graemebrokein。
“Youwillnevermakealivingthatway!”hesaid。
Donalopenedhiseyesandlookedathim。Likeoneconvictedandashamed,theeyesofthemanofbusinessfellbeforethoseofthemanofGod。
“Ah,“saidDonal,“youhavenotanidea,Mr。Graeme,onhowlittleI
couldlive!——Here,youhadbettertakethewill,“headded,pullingitfromhispocket。
Mr。Graemehesitated。
“Ifyouwouldrathernot,Iwillkeepit。Iwouldthrowitinthefire,buteitheryouorImustkeepitforatimeasagainstallchances。“
Mr。Graemetookit。
Thatnighttheearldied。
DonalwrotetoPercythathisfatherwasdead。Twodaysafter,heappeared。Thenewearlmethiminthehall。
“Mr。Graeme,“saidPercy,——
“IamlordMorven,Mr。Graeme,“returnedhislordship。
Thefellowsaidanevilword,turnedonhisheel,andleftthemtoburyhisfatherwithouthim。
Thefuneralover,theearlturnedtoDonalandlookedhimintheface:theywalkedbacktothecastlearminarm,andfromthatmomentwereasbrothers。
EarlHectordidnothingofimportancewithoutconsultingDonal,andDonalhadthemoreinfluencebothwithlandlordandtenantsthathehadnointerestintheproperty。
Thesameweekheleftthecastle,andtookpossessionofMorvenHouse。ThepeoplesaidMr。Granthadplayedhiscardswell:hadtheyknownwhathehadreallydone,theywouldhavecalledhimabornidiot。
Davie,towhomnocalamitycouldbeoverwhelmingsolongashehadMr。Grant,accompaniedhimgladly,morethancontenttolivewithhimtillhewenttocollege,whithertheearlwishedtosendhim。
Donalhinderedratherthanspedtheday。Whenitcame,theearlwouldhavehadhimgotoo,butDonalwouldnot。
“IhavedonewhatIcan,“hesaid。“Itistimeheshouldwalkalone。“
Itwassoonevidentthattheboywouldnotdisgracehim。Thereisnocertaintyastohowdeepanyteachingmayhavegone——astowhetherithasreachedtheissuesoflifeornot,untilayouthisleftbyhimself,andhastochooseandrefusecompanions:themostpromisingyouthsareoftenbutpromisers。
WiththefullconcurrenceofMissGraeme,DonalhadpersuadedmistressBrookes——easypersuasionwherethesuggestionwasenough!——tokeephouseforhim。Theywenttogether,andtogetherunlockedthedoorofMorvenHouse。
MistressBrookessaidtheplacewasinanawfulstate。Therewasnotmuch,tobesure,forthemasontodo,butforthecarpenter!Ithadnotbeentouchedforgenerations!Hemustgoaway,andstayawaytillshesummonedhim!
Donalgladlywenthometohishills,andtookDaviewithhim。Hetoldhisfatherandmother,sirGibbieandhislady,thethingsthathadbefallenhim,andeveryoneapprovedheartilyofwhathehaddone。Hismothertookhisrenunciationofthepropertyasamatterofcourse。Allagreeditshouldnotbespokenof。WhentheyreturnedtoAuchars,sirGibbieandladyGalbraithwentwiththem,andstaidforsomeweeks。Thetownsfolksaidhewasbutapoorbaronetthatcouldnotspeakmortalword。
LordMorvenandMissGraemehaddonetheirbesttomakethehousewhattheythoughtDonalwouldlike。ButinthecastletheykeptforhimtheroomsladyArcturahadcalledherown。Therehegatheredthebooks,andafewotherofthemoreimmediatelypersonalpossessionsofhiswife——herpianoforone——uponwhichhetaughthimselftoplayalittle;andthitherhebetookhimselfoftenonholidays,andalwaysonSundayevenings。WhatwentonthenIleavetotheimaginationofthereaderwhoknowsthataloneonemaymeetmany,sittingstillmaytravelfar,andsilentmaketheuniversehear。
LordMorvenkeptLarkieforDavie。ThelastIheardofDaviewasthathewasinIndia,anofficerinthearmy,belovedofhismen,andexercisingamostbeneficialinfluenceonhisregiment。Thethingshehadlearnedhehadsolearnedthattheywentoutfromhim,findingnewgroundinwhichtorootandgrow。Inhisdayandgenerationhehelpedthecomingofthekingdomoftruthandrighteousness,andsofulfilledhishighcalling。
ItwassometimebeforeDonalhadanypupils,andheneverhadmany,forhewasregardedasamostpeculiarman,withideasabouteducationoddintheextreme。Itwasgranted,however,that,ifaboystayed,orratherifheallowedhimtostaywithhimlongenough,hewassuretoturnoutagentleman:thatwhichwasdeeperandwasthelifeofthegentleman,peopleseldomsaw——wouldseldomhavevaluediftheyhadseen。Mostparentswouldliketheirchildrentobeladiesandgentlemen;thattheyshouldbesonsanddaughtersofGod,theydonotcare!
ThefewwisesoulsintheneighbourhoodknowDonalastheheartoftheplace——themantogotoinanydifficulty,inanytroubleorapprehension。
MissCarmichaelgrewbydegreeslesstalkative,andlessobtrusiveofheropinions。AftersomeyearsshecondescendedtomarryafarmeronlordMorven'sestate。Theironlychild,athoughtfulboy,andatruereader,soughtthecompanyofthegravemanwiththesweetsmile,goingoftentohishousetoaskhimaboutthisorthat。HeremindedhimofDavie,andgrewverydeartohim。Themotherdiscoveringthat,asoftenashestoleaway,itwastogotothemaster——everybodycalledhimthemaister——scoldedandforbade。Buttheprohibitionbroughtsuchatimeoftearsandgloomandlossofappetite,andherhusbandsolittlesharedherprejudicesagainstthemaster,thatshewascompelledtorecallit,andtheboywentandwentasbefore。Whenhewastakenill,andonhisdeathbed,nobodycouldmakehimhappybutthemaster;healmostnursedhimthroughthelastfewdaysofhisshortearthlylife。Butthemotherseemednottolikehimanythebetter——rathertoregardhimashavingdeprivedherofsomeofherrightsintheloveofherboy。
DonalisstillapresentpowerofheatandlightinthetownofAuchars。Hewearsthesamesolemnlook,thesamehoveringsmile。
Theysaytothosewhocanreadthem,“IknowinwhomIhavebelieved。“ItistheGodwhoistheFatheroftheLordthathebelievesin。HislifeishidwithChristinGod,andhehasnoanxietyaboutanything。Thewheelsofthecomingchariot,movingfastorslowtofetchhim,arealwaysmoving;andwhetheritarriveatnight,oratcock-crowing,orintheblazeofnoon,isonetohim。HeisreadyforthelifehisArcturaknows。“Godis,“hesays,“andalliswell。“Heneverdisputes,rarelyseekstoconvince。“I
willletwhatlightIhaveshine;butdisputationissmoke。Itistonoprofit!——AndIdolike,“hesays,“togiveandtogetthegoodofthings!”
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