She'sanextraordinarypictureofwomankind——veryextraordinary。'
'Inwhatwaybesides?'
'You'llknowsoonenough,miss。Shehashadsevenlady's-maidsthislasttwelvemonth。Iassureyou'tisonebody'sworktofetch'emfromthestationandtake'embackagain。TheLordmustbeaneglectfulpartyatheart,orhe'dneverpermitsuchoverbearengoingson!'
'Doesshedismissthemdirectlytheycome!'
'Notatall——sheneverdismissesthem——theygotheirselves。Yesee'tislikethis。She'sgotaveryquicktemper;shefleesinapassionwiththemfornothingatall;nextmornentheycomeupandsaytheyaregoing;she'ssorryforitandwishesthey'dstay,butshe'sasproudasalucifer,andherpridewon'tlethersay,“Stay,“andawaytheygo。'Tislikethisinfact。Ifyousaytoheraboutanybody,“Ah,poorthing!”shesays,“Pooh!indeed!”Ifyousay,“Pooh,indeed!”“Ah,poorthing!”shesaysdirectly。Shehangsthechiefbaker,asmidbe,andrestoresthechiefbutler,asmidbe,thoughthedevilbutPharaohherselfcanseethedifferencebetween'em。'
Cythereawassilent。Shefearedshemightbeagainaburdentoherbrother。
'However,youstandaverygoodchance,'themanwenton,'forI
thinkshelikesyoumorethancommon。Ihaveneverknownhersendthepony-carriagetomeetonebefore;'tisalwaysthetrap,butthistimeshesaid,inaveryparticularladyliketone,“Roobert,gaowwiththepony-kerriage。“……There,'tistrue,ponyandcarriagetooaregettenrathershabbynow,'headded,lookingrounduponthevehicleasiftokeepCytherea'spridewithinreasonablelimits。
''Tistobehopedyou'llpleaseindressenherto-night。'
'Whyto-night?'
'There'sadinner-partyofseventeen;'tisherfather'sbirthday,andshe'sveryparticularaboutherlooksatsuchtimes。Nowsee;
thisisthehouse。Livelieruphere,isn'tit,miss?'
Theywerenowonrisingground,andhadjustemergedfromaclumpoftrees。Stillalittlehigherthanwheretheystoodwassituatedthemansion,calledKnapwaterHouse,theofficesgraduallylosingthemselvesamongthetreesbehind。
2。EVENING
Thehousewasregularlyandsubstantiallybuiltofcleangreyfreestonethroughout,inthatplainerfashionofGreekclassicismwhichprevailedatthelatterendofthelastcentury,whenthecopyistscalleddesignershadgrownwearyoffantasticvariationsintheRomanorders。Themainblockapproximatedtoasquareonthegroundplan,havingaprojectioninthecentreofeachside,surmountedbyapediment。Fromeachangleoftheinferiorsideranalineofbuildingslowerthantherest,turninginwardsagainattheirfurtherend,andformingwithinthemaspaciousopencourt,withinwhichresoundedanechoofastonishingclearness。Theseerectionswereintheirturnbackedbyivy-coveredice-houses,laundries,andstables,thewholemassofsubsidiarybuildingsbeinghalfburiedbeneathclose-setshrubsandtrees。
Therewasopeningsufficientthroughthefoliageontherighthandtoenableheronnearerapproachtoformanideaofthearrangementoftheremoterorlawnfrontalso。Thenaturalfeaturesandcontourofthisquarterofthesitehadevidentlydictatedthepositionofthehouseprimarily,andwereoftheordinary,anduponthewhole,mostsatisfactorykind,namely,abroad,gracefulsloperunningfromtheterracebeneaththewallstothemarginofaplacidlakelyingbelow,uponthesurfaceofwhichadozenswansandagreenpuntfloatedatleisure。Anirregularwoodedislandstoodinthemidstofthelake;beyondthisandthefurthermarginofthewaterwereplantationsandgreenswardofvariedoutlines,thetreesheightening,byhalfveiling,thesoftnessoftheexquisitelandscapestretchingbehind。
Theglimpsesshehadobtainedofthisportionwerenowcheckedbytheangleofthebuilding。Inaminuteortwotheyreachedthesidedoor,atwhichCythereaalighted。Shewaswelcomedbyanelderlywomanoflengthysmilesandgeneralpleasantness,whoannouncedherselftobeMrs。Morris,thehousekeeper。
'Mrs。Graye,Ibelieve?'shesaid。
'Iamnot——Oyes,yes,weareallmistresses,'saidCytherea,smiling,butforcedly。Thetitleaccordedherseemeddisagreeablylikethefirstslightscarofabrand,andshethoughtofOwen'sprophecy。
Mrs。MorrisledherintoacomfortableparlourcalledTheRoom。
Hereteawasmadeready,andCythereasatdown,looking,wheneveroccasionallowed,atMrs。Morriswithgreatinterestandcuriosity,todiscover,ifpossible,somethinginherwhichshouldgiveacluetothesecretofherknowledgeofherself,andtherecommendationbaseduponit。Butnothingwastobelearnt,atanyratejustthen。
Mrs。Morriswasperpetuallygettingup,feelinginherpockets,goingtocupboards,leavingtheroomtwoorthreeminutes,andtrottingbackagain。
'You'llexcuseme,Mrs。Graye,'shesaid,'but'tistheoldgentleman'sbirthday,andtheyalwayshavealotofpeopletodinneronthatday,thoughhe'sgettingupinyearsnow。However,noneofthemaresleepers——shegenerallykeepsthehouseprettyclearoflodgersbeingaladywithnointimatefriends,thoughmanyacquaintances,which,thoughitgivesuslesstodo,makesitallthedullerfortheyoungermaidsinthehouse。'Mrs。Morristhenproceededtogiveinfragmentaryspeechesanoutlineoftheconstitutionandgovernmentoftheestate。
'Now,areyousureyouhavequitedonetea?Notabitordropmore?
Why,you'veeatennothing,I'msure……Well,now,itisratherinconvenientthattheothermaidisnotheretoshowyouthewaysofthehousealittle,butsheleftlastSaturday,andMissAldclyffehasbeenmakingshiftwithpooroldclumsymeforamaidallyesterdayandthismorning。Sheisnotcomeinyet。Iexpectshewillaskforyou,Mrs。Graye,thefirstthing……Iwasgoingtosaythatifyouhavereallydonetea,Iwilltakeyouupstairs,andshowyouthroughthewardrobes——MissAldclyffe'sthingsarenotlaidoutforto-nightyet。'
SheprecededCythereaupstairs,pointedoutherownroom,andthentookherintoMissAldclyffe'sdressing-room,onthefirst-floor;
where,afterexplainingthewhereaboutsofvariousarticlesofapparel,thehousekeeperlefther,tellingherthatshehadanhouryetuponherhandsbeforedressing-time。Cytherealaidoutuponthebedinthenextroomallthatshehadbeentoldwouldberequiredthatevening,andthenwentagaintothelittleroomwhichhadbeenappropriatedtoherself。
Hereshesatdownbytheopenwindow,leantoutuponthesilllikeanotherBlessedDamozel,andlistlesslylookeddownuponthebrilliantpatternofcoloursformedbytheflower-bedsonthelawn——
nowrichlycrowdedwithlatesummerblossom。Butthevivacityofspiritwhichhadhithertoenlivenedher,wasfastebbingunderthepressureofprosaicrealities,andthewarmscarletofthegeraniums,glowingmostconspicuously,andminglingwiththevividcoldredandgreenoftheverbenas,therichdepthofthedahlia,andtheripemellownessofthecalceolaria,backedbythepalehueofaflockofmeeksheepfeedingintheopenpark,closetotheothersideofthefence,were,toagreatextent,lostuponhereyes。Shewasthinkingthatnothingseemedworthwhile;thatitwaspossibleshemightdieinaworkhouse;andwhatdiditmatter?Thepetty,vulgardetailsofservitudethatshehadjustpassedthrough,herdependenceuponthewhimsofastrangewoman,thenecessityofquenchingallindividualityofcharacterinherself,andrelinquishingherownpeculiartastestohelponthewheelofthisalienestablishment,madehersickandsad,andshealmostlongedtopursuesomefree,out-of-doorsemployment,sleepundertreesorahut,andknownoenemybutwinterandcoldweather,likeshepherdsandcowkeepers,andbirdsandanimals——ay,likethesheepshesawthereunderherwindow。Shelookedsympathizinglyatthemforseveralminutes,imaginingtheirenjoymentoftherichgrass。
'Yes——likethosesheep,'shesaidaloud;andherfacereddenedwithsurpriseatadiscoveryshemadethatveryinstant。
Theflockconsistedofsomeninetyorahundredyoungstockewes:
thesurfaceoftheirfleecewasasroundedandevenasacushion,andwhiteasmilk。Nowshehadjustobservedthatontheleftbuttockofeveryoneofthemweremarkedindistinctredletterstheinitials'E。S。'
'E。S。'couldbringtoCytherea'smindonlyonethought;butthatimmediatelyandforever——thenameofherlover,EdwardSpringrove。
'O,ifitshouldbe——!'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyaresolve。
MissAldclyffe'scarriageatthesamemomentmadeitsappearanceinthedrive;butMissAldclyffewasnotherobjectnow。Itwastoascertaintowhomthesheepbelonged,andtosethersurmiseatrestonewayortheother。SheflewdownstairstoMrs。Morris。
'Whosesheeparethoseinthepark,Mrs。Morris?'
'FarmerSpringrove's。'
'WhatFarmerSpringroveisthat?'shesaidquickly。
'Why,surelyyouknow?Yourfriend,FarmerSpringrove,thecider-
maker,andwhokeepstheThreeTrantersInn;whorecommendedyoutomewhenhecameintoseemetheotherday?'
Cytherea'smother-witsuddenlywarnedherinthemidstofherexcitementthatitwasnecessarynottobetraythesecretofherlove。'Oyes,'shesaid,'ofcourse。'Herthoughtshadrunasfollowsinthatshortinterval:——
'FarmerSpringroveisEdward'sfather,andhisnameisEdwardtoo。
'EdwardknewIwasgoingtoadvertiseforasituationofsomekind。
'HewatchedtheTimes,andsawit,myaddressbeingattached。
'Hethoughtitwouldbeexcellentformetobeherethatwemightmeetwheneverhecamehome。
'HetoldhisfatherthatImightberecommendedasalady's-maid;
andheknewmybrotherandmyself。
'HisfathertoldMrs。Morris;Mrs。MorristoldMissAldclyffe。'
Thewholechainofincidentsthatdrewhertherewasplain,andtherewasnosuchthingaschanceinthematter。ItwasallEdward'sdoing。
Thesoundofabellwasheard。Cythereadidnotheedit,andstillcontinuedinherreverie。
'That'sMissAldclyffe'sbell,'saidMrs。Morris。
'Isupposeitis,'saidtheyoungwomanplacidly。
'Well,itmeansthatyoumustgouptoher,'thematroncontinued,inatoneofsurprise。
Cythereafeltaburningheatcomeoverher,mingledwithasuddenirritationatMrs。Morris'shint。Butthegoodsensewhichhadrecognizedsternnecessityprevailedoverrebelliousindependence;
theflushpassed,andshesaidhastily——
'Yes,yes;ofcourse,Imustgotoherwhenshepullsthebell——
whetherIwanttoorno。'
However,inspiteofthispainfulreminderofhernewpositioninlife,Cytherealefttheapartmentinamoodfardifferentfromthegloomysadnessoftenminutesprevious。Theplacefeltlikehometohernow;shedidnotmindthepettinessofheroccupation,becauseEdwardevidentlydidnotmindit;andthiswasEdward'sownspot。
ShefoundtimeonherwaytoMissAldclyffe'sdressing-roomtohurriedlyglideoutbyasidedoor,andlookforamomentattheunconscioussheepbearingthefriendlyinitials。Shewentuptothemtotrytotouchoneoftheflock,andfeltvexedthattheyallstaredscepticallyatherkindadvances,andthenranpell-melldownthehill。Then,fearinganyoneshoulddiscoverherchildishmovements,sheslippedindoorsagain,andascendedthestaircase,catchingglimpses,asshepassed,ofsilver-buttonedfootmen,whoflashedaboutthepassageslikelightning。
MissAldclyffe'sdressing-roomwasanapartmentwhich,onacasualsurvey,conveyedanimpressionthatitwasavailableforalmostanypurposesavetheadornmentofthefeminineperson。Initshoursofperfectordernothingpertainingtothetoiletwasvisible;eventheinevitablemirrorswiththeiraccessorieswerearrangedinaroomyrecessnotnoticeablefromthedoor,lightedbyawindowofitsown,calledthedressing-window。
Thewashing-standfiguredasavastoakchest,carvedwithgrotesqueRenaissanceornament。Thedressingtablewasinappearancesomethingbetweenahighaltarandacabinetpiano,thesurfacebeingrichlyworkedinthesamestyleofsemi-classicdecoration,buttheextraordinaryoutlinehavingbeenarrivedatbyaningeniousjoineranddecoratorfromtheneighbouringtown,aftermonthsofpainfultoilincuttingandfitting,underMissAldclyffe'simmediateeye;thematerialsbeingtheremainsoftwoorthreeoldcabinetstheladyhadfoundinthelumber-room。Abouttwo-thirdsofthefloorwascarpeted,theremainingportionbeinglaidwithparquetryoflightanddarkwoods。
MissAldclyffewasstandingatthelargerwindow,awayfromthedressing-niche。Shebowed,andsaidpleasantly,'Iamgladyouhavecome。Weshallgetoncapitally,Idaresay。'
Herbonnetwasoff。Cythereadidnotthinkhersohandsomeasontheearlierday;thequeenlinessofherbeautywasharderandlesswarm。ButaworsediscoverythanthiswasthatMissAldclyffe,withtheusualobliviousnessofrichpeopletotheirdependents'
specialities,seemedtohavequiteforgottenCytherea'sinexperience,andmechanicallydeliveredupherbodytoherhandmaidwithoutathoughtofdetails,andwithamildyawn。
Everythingwentwellatfirst。Thedresswasremoved,stockingsandblackbootsweretakenoff,andsilkstockingsandwhiteshoeswereputon。MissAldclyffethenretiredtobatheherhandsandface,andCythereadrewbreath。Ifshecouldgetthroughthisfirstevening,allwouldberight。Shefeltthatitwasunfortunatethatsuchacrucialtestforherpowersasabirthdaydinnershouldhavebeenappliedonthethresholdofherarrival;butsettoagain。
MissAldclyffewasnowarrayedinawhitedressing-gown,anddroppedlanguidlyintoaneasy-chair,pushedupbeforetheglass。TheinstinctsofhersexandherownpracticetoldCythereathenextmovement。SheletMissAldclyffe'shairfallabouthershoulders,andbegantoarrangeit。Itprovedtobeallreal;asatisfaction。
MissAldclyffewasmusinglylookingonthefloor,andtheoperationwentonforsomeminutesinsilence。Atlengthherthoughtsseemedtoturntothepresent,andsheliftedhereyestotheglass。
'Why,whatonearthareyoudoingwithmyhead?'sheexclaimed,withwidelyopenedeyes。AtthewordsshefeltthebackofCytherea'slittlehandtrembleagainstherneck。
'Perhapsyoupreferitdonetheotherfashion,madam?'saidthemaiden。
'No,no;that'sthefashionrightenough,butyoumustmakemoreshowofmyhairthanthat,orIshallhavetobuysome,whichGodforbid!'
'ItishowIdomyown,'saidCythereanaively,andwithasweetnessoftonethatwouldhavepleasedthemostacrimoniousunderfavourablecircumstances;buttyrannywasintheascendantwithMissAldclyffeatthismoment,andshewasassuredofpalatablefoodforhervicebyhavingfeltthetremblingofCytherea'shand。
'Yours,indeed!YOURhair!Come,goon。'ConsideringthatCythereapossessedatleastfivetimesasmuchofthatvaluableauxiliarytowoman'sbeautyastheladybeforeher,therewasatthesametimesomeexcuseforMissAldclyffe'soutburst。Sherememberedherself,however,andsaidmorequietly,'Nowthen,Graye——By-the-
bye,whatdotheycallyoudownstairs?'
'Mrs。Graye,'saidthehandmaid。
'Thentellthemnottodoanysuchabsurdthing——notbutthatitisquiteaccordingtousage;butyouaretooyoungyet。'
ThisdialoguetidedCythereasafelyonwardthroughthehairdressingtilltheflowersanddiamondsweretobeplaceduponthelady'sbrow。Cythereabeganarrangingthemtastefully,andtotheverybestofherjudgment。
'Thatwon'tdo,'saidMissAldclyffeharshly。
'Why?'
'Ilooktooyoung——anolddresseddoll。'
'Willthat,madam?'
'No,Ilookafright——aperfectfright!'
'Thisway,perhaps?'
'Heavens!Don'tworrymeso。'Sheshutherlipslikeatrap。
Havingonceworkedherselfuptothebeliefthatherhead-dresswastobeafailurethatevening,noclevernessofCytherea'sinarrangingitcouldpleaseher。Shecontinuedinasmoulderingpassionduringtheremainderoftheperformance,keepingherlipsfirmlyclosed,andthemusclesofherbodyrigid。Finally,snatchinguphergloves,andtakingherhandkerchiefandfaninherhand,shesilentlysailedoutoftheroom,withoutbetrayingtheleastconsciousnessofanotherwoman'spresencebehindher。
Cytherea'sfearsthatattheundressingthissuppressedangerwouldfindavent,keptheronthornsthroughouttheevening。Shetriedtoread;shecouldnot。Shetriedtosew;shecouldnot。Shetriedtomuse;shecouldnotdothatconnectedly。'Ifthisisthebeginning,whatwilltheendbe!'shesaidinawhisper,andfeltmanymisgivingsastothepolicyofbeingoverhastyinestablishinganindependenceattheexpenseofcongruitywithacherishedpast。
3。MIDNIGHT
Theclockstrucktwelve。TheAldclyffestatedinnerwasover。Thecompanyhadallgone,andMissAldclyffe'sbellrangloudlyandjerkingly。
Cythereastartedtoherfeetatthesound,whichbrokeinuponafitfulsleepthathadovertakenher。Shehadbeensittingdrearilyinherchairwaitingminuteafterminuteforthesignal,herbraininthatstateofintentnesswhichtakescognizanceofthepassageofTimeasarealmotion——motionwithoutmatter——theinstantsthrobbingpastinthecompanyofafeverishpulse。Shehastenedtotheroom,tofindtheladysittingbeforethedressingshrine,illuminatedonbothsides,andlookingsoqueenlyinherattitudeofabsoluterepose,thattheyoungerwomanfelttheawfullestsenseofresponsibilityatherVandalisminhavingundertakentodemolishsoimposingapile。
Thelady'sjewelledornamentsweretakenoffinsilence——somebyherownlistlesshands,somebyCytherea's。Thenfollowedtheouterstratumofclothing。Thedressbeingremoved,Cythereatookitinherhandandwentwithitintothebedroomadjoining,intendingtohangitinthewardrobe。Butonsecondthoughts,inorderthatshemightnotkeepMissAldclyffewaitingamomentlongerthannecessary,sheflungitdownonthefirstresting-placethatcametohand,whichhappenedtobethebed,andre-enteredthedressing-roomwiththenoiselessfootfallofakitten。Shepausedinthemiddleoftheroom。
Shewasunnoticed,andhersuddenreturnhadplainlynotbeenexpected。DuringtheshorttimeofCytherea'sabsence,MissAldclyffehadpulledoffakindofchemisetteofBrusselsnet,drawnhighabovethethroat,whichshehadwornwithhereveningdressasasemi-opaquecoveringtohershoulders,andinitsplacehadputhernight-gownroundher。Herrighthandwasliftedtoherneck,asifengagedinfasteninghernight-gown。
ButonasecondglanceMissAldclyffe'sproceedingwasclearertoCytherea。Shewasnotfasteninghernight-gown;ithadbeencarelesslythrownroundher,andMissAldclyffewasreallyoccupiedinholdinguptohereyessomesmallobjectthatshewaskeenlyscrutinizing。AndnowonsuddenlydiscoveringthepresenceofCythereaatthebackoftheapartment,insteadofnaturallycontinuingorconcludingherinspection,shedesistedhurriedly;thetinysnapofaspringwasheard,herhandwasremoved,andshebeganadjustingherrobes。
Modestymighthavedirectedherhastyactionofenwrappinghershoulders,butitwasscarcelylikely,consideringMissAldclyffe'stemperament,thatshehadallherlifebeenusedtoamaid,Cytherea'syouth,andtheelderlady'smarkedtreatmentofherasifshewereamerechildorplaything。Thematterwastooslighttoreasonabout,andyetuponthewholeitseemedthatMissAldclyffemusthaveapracticalreasonforconcealingherneck。
WithatimidsenseofbeinganintruderCythereawasabouttostepbackandoutoftheroom;butatthesamemomentMissAldclyffeturned,sawtheimpulse,andtoldhercompaniontostay,lookingintohereyesasifshehadhalfanintentiontoexplainsomething。
Cythereafeltcertainitwasthelittlemysteryofherlatemovements。Theotherwithdrewhereyes;Cythereawenttofetchthedressing-gown,andwheeledroundagaintobringituptoMissAldclyffe,whohadnowpartlyremovedhernight-dresstoputitontheproperway,andstillsatwithherbacktowardsCytherea。
Herneckwasagainquiteopenanduncovered,andthoughhiddenfromthedirectlineofCytherea'svision,shesawitreflectedintheglass——thefairwhitesurface,andtheinimitablecombinationofcurvesbetweenthroatandbosomwhichartistsadore,beingbrightlylitupbythelightburningoneitherside。
Andthelady'spriorproceedingswerenowexplainedinthesimplestmanner。Inthemidstofherbreast,likeanislandinaseaofpearl,reclinedanexquisitelittlegoldlocket,embellishedwitharabesqueworkofblue,red,andwhiteenamel。ThatwasundoubtedlywhatMissAldclyffehadbeencontemplating;and,moreover,nothavingbeenputoffwithherotherornaments,itwastoberetainedduringthenight——aslightdeparturefromthecustomofladieswhichMissAldclyffehadatfirstnotcaredtoexhibittohernewassistant,thoughnow,onfurtherthought,sheseemedtohavebecomeindifferentonthematter。
'Mydressing-gown,'shesaid,quietlyfasteninghernight-dressasshespoke。
Cythereacameforwardwithit。MissAldclyffedidnotturnherhead,butlookedinquiringlyathermaidintheglass。
'YousawwhatIwearonmyneck,Isuppose?'shesaidtoCytherea'sreflectedface。
'Yes,madam,Idid,'saidCythereatoMissAldclyffe'sreflectedface。
MissAldclyffeagainlookedatCytherea'sreflectionasifshewereonthepointofexplaining。Againshecheckedherresolve,andsaidlightly——
'FewofmymaidsdiscoverthatIwearitalways。Igenerallykeepitasecret——notthatitmattersmuch。ButIwascarelesswithyou,andseemedtowanttotellyou。Youwinmetomakeconfidencesthat……'
Sheceased,tookCytherea'shandinherown,liftedthelocketwiththeother,touchedthespringanddisclosedaminiature。
'Itisahandsomeface,isitnot?'shewhisperedmournfully,andeventimidly。
'Itis。'
ButthesighthadgonethroughCytherealikeanelectricshock,andtherewasaninstantaneousawakeningofperceptioninher,sothrillinginitspresenceastobewell-nighinsupportable。Thefaceintheminiaturewasthefaceofherownfather——youngerandfresherthanshehadeverknownhim——butherfather!
Wasthisthewomanofhiswildandunquenchableearlylove?Andwasthisthewomanwhohadfiguredinthegate-man'sstoryasansweringthenameofCythereabeforeherjudgmentwasawake?Surelyitwas。
Andifso,herewasthetangibleoutcropofaromanticandhiddenstratumofthepasthithertoseenonlyinherimagination;butasfarasherscopeallowed,clearlydefinedthereinbyreasonofitsstrangeness。
MissAldclyffe'seyesandthoughtsweresointentupontheminiaturethatshehadnotbeenconsciousofCytherea'sstartofsurprise。
Shewentonspeakinginalowandabstractedtone。
'Yes,Ilosthim。'Sheinterruptedherwordsbyashortmeditation,andwentonagain。'Ilosthimbyexcessofhonestyasregardedmypast。Butitwasbestthatitshouldbeso……Iwasledtothinkrathermorethanusualofthecircumstancesto-nightbecauseofyourname。Itispronouncedthesameway,thoughdifferentlyspelt。'
TheonlymeansbywhichCytherea'ssurnamecouldhavebeenspelttoMissAldclyffemusthavebeenbyMrs。MorrisorFarmerSpringrove。
ShefanciedFarmerSpringrovewouldhavespeltitproperlyifEdwardwashisinformant,whichmadeMissAldclyffe'sremarkobscure。
Womenmakeconfidencesandthenregretthem。TheimpulsiverushoffeelingwhichhadledMissAldclyffetoindulgeinthisrevelation,triflingasitwas,diedoutimmediatelyherwordswerebeyondrecall;andtheturmoil,occasionedinherbydwellinguponthatchapterofherlife,foundventinanotherkindofemotion——theresultofatrivialaccident。
Cytherea,afterlettingdownMissAldclyffe'shair,adoptedsomeplanwithittowhichtheladyhadnotbeenaccustomed。Arapidrevulsiontoirritationensued。Themaiden'smeretouchseemedtodischargethepent-upregretoftheladyasifshehadbeenajarofelectricity。
'Howstrangelyyoutreatmyhair!'sheexclaimed。
Asilence。
'IhavetoldyouwhatInevertellmymaidsasarule;ofcourseNOTHINGthatIsayinthisroomistobementionedoutsideit。'Shespokecrosslynolessthanemphatically。
'Itshallnotbe,madam,'saidCytherea,agitatedandvexedthatthewomanofherromanticwonderingsshouldbesodisagreeabletoher。
'WhyonearthdidItellyouofmypast?'shewenton。
Cythereamadenoanswer。
Thelady'svexationwithherself,andtheaccidentwhichhadledtothedisclosureswelledlittlebylittletillitknewnobounds。Butwhatwasdonecouldnotbeundone,andthoughCythereahadshownamostwinningresponsiveness,quarrelMissAldclyffemust。SherecurredtothesubjectofCytherea'swantofexpertness,likeabitterreviewer,whofindingthesentimentsofapoetunimpeachable,quarrelswithhisrhymes。
'Never,neverbeforedidIservemyselfsuchatrickasthisinengagingamaid!'Shewaitedforanexpostulation:nonecame。
MissAldclyffetriedagain。
'Theideaofmytakingagirlwithoutaskinghermorethanthreequestions,orhavingasinglereference,allbecauseofhergoodl——
,theshapeofherfaceandbody!ItWASafool'strick。There,I
amservedright,quiteright——bybeingdeceivedinsuchaway。'
'Ididn'tdeceiveyou,'saidCytherea。Thespeechwasanunfortunateone,andwasthevery'fueltomaintainitsfires'thattheother'spetulancedesired。
'Youdid,'shesaidhotly。
'ItoldyouIcouldn'tpromisetobeacquaintedwitheverydetailofroutinejustatfirst。'
'Willyoucontradictmeinthisway!Youaretellinguntruths,I
say。'
Cytherea'slipquivered。'Iwouldanswertheremarkif——if——'
'Ifwhat?'
'Ifitwerealady's!'
'Yougirlofimpudence——whatdoyousay?Leavetheroomthisinstant,Itellyou。'
'AndItellyouthatapersonwhospeakstoaladyasyoudotome,isnoladyherself!'
'Toalady?Alady's-maidspeaksinthisway。Theidea!'
'Don't“lady's-maid“me:nobodyismymistressIwon'thaveit!'
'GoodHeavens!'
'Iwouldn'thavecome——no——Iwouldn't!ifIhadknown!'
'What?'
'Thatyouweresuchanill-tempered,unjustwoman!'
'PossestbeyondtheMuse'spainting,'MissAldclyffeexclaimed——
'AWoman,amI!I'llteachyouifIamaWoman!'andliftedherhandasifshewouldhavelikedtostrikehercompanion。Thisstungthemaidenintoabsolutedefiance。
'Idareyoutotouchme!'shecried。'Strikemeifyoudare,madam!
Iamnotafraidofyou——whatdoyoumeanbysuchanactionasthat?'
MissAldclyffewasdisconcertedatthisunexpectedshowofspirit,andashamedofherunladylikeimpulsenowitwasputintowords。
Shesankbackinthechair。'Iwasnotgoingtostrikeyou——gotoyourroom——Ibegyoutogotoyourroom!'sherepeatedinahuskywhisper。
Cytherea,redandpanting,tookuphercandlestickandadvancedtothetabletogetalight。Asshestoodclosetothemtheraysfromthecandlesstrucksharplyonherface。Sheusuallyboreamuchstrongerlikenesstohermotherthantoherfather,butnow,lookingwithagrave,reckless,andangeredexpressionofcountenanceatthekindlingwickasshehelditslantingintotheotherflame,herfather'sfeaturesweredistinctinher。ItwasthefirsttimeMissAldclyffehadseenherinapassionatemood,andwearingthatexpressionwhichwasinvariablyitsconcomitant。ItwasMissAldclyffe'sturntostartnow;andtheremarkshemadewasaninstanceofthatsuddenchangeoftonefromhigh-flowninvectivetothepettinessofcuriositywhichsooftenmakeswomen'squarrelsridiculous。EvenMissAldclyffe'sdignityhadnotsufficientpowertopostponetheabsorbingdesireshenowfelttosettlethestrangesuspicionthathadenteredherhead。
'Youspellyournamethecommonway,G,R,E,Y,don'tyou?'shesaid,withassumedindifference。
'No,'saidCytherea,poisedonthesideofherfoot,andstilllookingintotheflame。
'Yes,surely?Thenamewasspeltthatwayonyourboxes:Ilookedandsawitmyself。'
TheenigmaofMissAldclyffe'smistakewassolved。'O,wasit?'
saidCytherea。'Ah,IrememberMrs。Jackson,thelodging-housekeeperatBudmouth,labelledthem。WespellournameG,R,A,Y,E。'
'Whatwasyourfather'strade?'
Cythereathoughtitwouldbeuselesstoattempttoconcealfactsanylonger。'Hiswasnotatrade,'shesaid。'Hewasanarchitect。'
'Theideaofyourbeinganarchitect'sdaughter!'
'There'snothingtooffend,youinthat,Ihope?'
'Ono。'
'Whydidyousay“theidea“?'
'Leavethatalone。DidheevervisitinGowerStreet,Bloomsbury,oneChristmas,manyyearsago?——butyouwouldnotknowthat。'
'IhaveheardhimsaythatMr。Huntway,acuratesomewhereinthatpartofLondon,andwhodiedthere,wasanoldcollegefriendofhis。'
'WhatisyourChristianname?'
'Cytherea。'
'No!Andisitreally?AndyouknewthatfaceIshowedyou?Yes,Iseeyoudid。'MissAldclyffestopped,andclosedherlipsimpassibly。Shewasalittleagitated。
'Doyouwantmeanylonger?'saidCytherea,standingcandleinhandandlookingquietlyinMissAldclyffe'sface。
'Well——no:nolonger,'saidtheotherlingeringly。
'Withyourpermission,Iwillleavethehousetomorrowmorning,madam。'
'Ah。'MissAldclyffehadnonotionofwhatshewassaying。
'AndIknowyouwillbesogoodasnottointrudeuponmeduringtheshortremainderofmystay?'
SayingthisCytherealefttheroombeforehercompanionhadanswered。MissAldclyffe,then,hadrecognizedheratlast,andhadbeencuriousabouthernamefromthebeginning。
Theothermembersofthehouseholdhadretiredtorest。AsCythereawentalongthepassageleadingtoherroomherskirtsrustledagainstthepartition。Adooronherleftopened,andMrs。Morrislookedout。
'Iwaitedoutofbedtillyoucameup,'shesaid,'itbeingyourfirstnight,incaseyoushouldbeatalossforanything。HowhaveyougotonwithMissAldclyffe?'
'Prettywell——thoughnotsowellasIcouldhavewished。'
'Hasshebeenscolding?'
'Alittle。'
'She'saveryoddlady——'tisallonewayortheotherwithher。
She'snotbadatheart,butunbearableinclosequarters。Thoseofuswhodon'thavemuchtodowithherpersonally,stayonforyearsandyears。'
'HasMissAldclyffe'sfamilyalwaysbeenrich?'saidCytherea。
'Ono。Theproperty,withthename,camefromhermother'suncle。
HerfamilyisabranchoftheoldAldclyffefamilyonthematernalside。HermothermarriedaBradleigh——amerenobodyatthattime——
andwasonthataccountcutbyherrelations。Butverysingularlytheotherbranchofthefamilydiedoutonebyone——threeofthem,andMissAldclyffe'sgreat-unclethenleftallhisproperty,includingthisestate,toCaptainBradleighandhiswife——MissAldclyffe'sfatherandmother——onconditionthattheytooktheoldfamilynameaswell。There'sallaboutitinthe“LandedGentry。“
'Tisathingveryoftendone。'
'O,Isee。Thankyou。Well,nowIamgoing。Good-night。'
VI。THEEVENTSOFTWELVEHOURS
1。AUGUSTTHENINTH。ONETOTWOO'CLOCKA。M。
Cythereaenteredherbedroom,andflungherselfonthe,bed,bewilderedbyawhirlofthought。Onlyonesubjectwasclearinhermind,anditwasthat,inspiteoffamilydiscoveries,thatdaywastobethefirstandlastofherexperienceasalady's-maid。
Starvationitselfshouldnotcompelhertoholdsuchahumiliatingpostforanotherinstant。'Ah,'shethought,withasigh,atthemartyrdomofherlastlittlefragmentofself-conceit,'OwenknowseverythingbetterthanI。'
Shejumpedupandbeganmakingreadyforherdepartureinthemorning,thetearsstreamingdownwhenshegrievedandwonderedwhatpracticalmatteronearthshecouldturnherhandtonext。Allthesepreparationscompleted,shebegantoundress,hermindunconsciouslydriftingawaytothecontemplationofherlatesurprises。Tolookintheglassforaninstantatthereflectionofherownmagnificentresourcesinfaceandbosom,andtomarktheirattractivenessunadorned,wasperhapsbutthenaturalactionofayoungwomanwhohadsolatelybeenchiddenwhilstpassingthroughtheharassingexperienceofdecoratinganolderbeautyofMissAldclyffe'stemper。
Butshedirectlycheckedherweaknessbysympathizingreflectionsonthehiddentroubleswhichmusthavethrongedthepastyearsofthesolitarylady,tokeepher,thoughsorichandcourted,inamoodsorepellentandgloomyasthatinwhichCythereafoundher;andthentheyounggirlmarvelledagainandagain,asshehadmarvelledbefore,atthestrangeconfluenceofcircumstanceswhichhadbroughtherselfintocontactwiththeonewomanintheworldwhosehistorywassoromanticallyintertwinedwithherown。Shealmostbegantowishshewerenotobligedtogoawayandleavethelonelybeingtolonelinessstill。
Inbedandinthedark,MissAldclyffehauntedhermindmorepersistentlythanever。Insteadofsleeping,shecalledupstaringvisionsofthepossiblepastofthisqueenlylady,hermother'srival。Upthelongvistaofbygoneyearsshesaw,behindall,theyounggirl'sflirtation,littleormuch,withthecousin,thatseemedtohavebeennippedinthebud,ortohaveterminatedhastilyinsomeway。ThenthesecretmeetingsbetweenMissAldclyffeandtheotherwomanatthelittleinnatHammersmithandotherplaces:
thecommonplacenamesheadopted:herswoonatsomepainfulnews,andtheveryslightknowledgetheelderfemalehadofherpartnerinmystery。Then,morethanayearafterwards,theacquaintanceshipofherownfatherwiththishisfirstlove;theawakeningofthepassion,hisactsofdevotion,theunreasoningheatofhisrapture,hertacitacceptanceofit,andyetheruneasinessunderthedelight。Thenhisdeclarationamidtheevergreens:theutterchangeproducedinhermannerthereby,seeminglytheresultofarigiddetermination:andthetotalconcealmentofherreasonbyherselfandherparents,whateveritwas。Thenthelady'scoursedroppedintodarkness,andnothingmorewasvisibletillshewasdiscoveredhereatKnapwater,nearlyfiftyyearsold,stillunmarriedandstillbeautiful,butlonely,embittered,andhaughty。
Cythereaimaginedthatherfather'simagewasstillwarmlycherishedinMissAldclyffe'sheart,andwasthankfulthatsheherselfhadnotbeenbetrayedintoannouncingthatsheknewmanyparticularsofthispageofherfather'shistory,andthechiefone,thelady'sunaccountablerenunciationofhim。Itwouldhavemadeherbearingtowardsthemistressofthemansionmoreawkward,andwouldhavebeennobenefittoeither。
Thusconjuringupthepast,andtheorizingonthepresent,shelayrestless,changingherposturefromonesidetotheotherandbackagain。Finally,whencourtingsleepwithallherart,sheheardaclockstriketwo。Aminutelater,andshefanciedshecoulddistinguishasoftrustleinthepassageoutsideherroom。
Toburyherheadinthesheetswasherfirstimpulse;thentouncoverit,raiseherselfonherelbow,andstretchhereyeswideopeninthedarkness;herlipsbeingpartedwiththeintentnessofherlistening。Whateverthenoisewas,ithadceasedforthetime。
Itbeganagainandcameclosetoherdoor,lightlytouchingthepanels。Thentherewasanotherstillness;Cythereamadeamovementwhichcausedafaintrustlingofthebed-clothes。
Beforeshehadtimetothinkanotherthoughtalighttapwasgiven。
Cythereabreathed:thepersonoutsidewasevidentlybentuponfindingherawake,andtherustleshehadmadehadencouragedthehope。Themaiden'sphysicalconditionshiftedfromonepoletoitsopposite。Thecoldsweatofterrorforsookher,andmodestytookthealarm。Shebecamehotandred;herdoorwasnotlocked。
Adistinctwoman'swhispercametoherthroughthekeyhole:
'Cytherea!'
OnlyonebeinginthehouseknewherChristianname,andthatwasMissAldclyffe。Cythereasteppedoutofbed,wenttothedoor,andwhisperedback,'Yes?'
'Letmecomein,darling。'
Theyoungwomanpausedinaconflictbetweenjudgmentandemotion。
Itwasnowmistressandmaidnolonger;womanandwomanonly。Yes;
shemustlethercomein,poorthing。
Shegotalightinaninstant,openedthedoor,andraisinghereyesandthecandle,sawMissAldclyffestandingoutsideinherdressing-
gown。
'Nowyouseethatitisreallymyself;putoutthelight,'saidthevisitor。'Iwanttostayherewithyou,Cythie。Icametoaskyoutocomedownintomybed,butitissnuggerhere。Butrememberthatyouaremistressinthisroom,andthatIhavenobusinesshere,andthatyoumaysendmeawayifyouchoose。ShallIgo?'
'Ono;youshan'tindeedifyoudon'twantto,'saidCythiegenerously。
TheinstanttheywereinbedMissAldclyffefreedherselffromthelastremnantofrestraint。Sheflungherarmsroundtheyounggirl,andpressedhergentlytoherheart。
'Nowkissme,'shesaid。
Cytherea,uponthewhole,wasratherdiscomposedatthischangeoftreatment;and,discomposedorno,herpassionswerenotsoimpetuousasMissAldclyffe's。Shecouldnotbringhersoultoherlipsforamoment,tryhowshewould。
'Come,kissme,'repeatedMissAldclyffe。
Cythereagaveheraverysmallone,assoftintouchandinsoundastheburstingofabubble。
'Moreearnestlythanthat——come。'
Shegaveanother,alittlebutnotmuchmoreexpressively。
'Idon'tdeserveamorefeelingone,Isuppose,'saidMissAldclyffe,withanemphasisofsadbitternessinhertone。'Iamanill-temperedwoman,youthink;halfoutofmymind。Well,perhapsI
am;butIhavehadgriefmorethanyoucanthinkordreamof。ButI
can'thelplovingyou——yournameisthesameasmine——isn'titstrange?'
Cythereawasinclinedtosayno,butremainedsilent。
'Now,don'tyouthinkImustloveyou?'continuedtheother。
'Yes,'saidCythereaabsently。ShewasstillthinkingwhetherdutytoOwenandherfather,whichaskedforsilenceonherknowledgeofherfather'sunfortunatelove,ordutytothewomanembracingher,whichseemedtoaskforconfidence,oughttopredominate。Herewasasolution。ShewouldwaittillMissAldclyffereferredtoheracquaintanceshipandattachmenttoCytherea'sfatherinpasttimes:
thenshewouldtellherallsheknew:thatwouldbehonour。
'Whycan'tyoukissmeasIcankissyou?Whycan'tyou!'SheimpresseduponCytherea'slipsawarmmotherlysalute,givenasifintheoutburstofstrongfeeling,longchecked,andyearningforsomethingtoloveandbelovedbyinreturn。
'Doyouthinkbadlyofmeformybehaviourthisevening,child?I
don'tknowwhyIamsofoolishastospeaktoyouinthisway。Iamaveryfool,Ibelieve。Yes。Howoldareyou?'
'Eighteen。'
'Eighteen!……Well,whydon'tyouaskmehowoldIam?'
'BecauseIdon'twanttoknow。'
'Nevermindifyoudon't。Iamforty-six;anditgivesmegreaterpleasuretotellyouthisthanitdoestoyoutolisten。Ihavenottoldmyagetrulyforthelasttwentyyearstillnow。'
'Whyhaven'tyou?'
'Ihavemetdeceitbydeceit,tillIamwearyofit——weary,weary——
andIlongtobewhatIshallneverbeagain——artlessandinnocent,likeyou。ButIsupposethatyou,too,will,provetobenotworthathought,aseverynewfrienddoesonmoreintimateknowledge。
Come,whydon'tyoutalktome,child?Haveyousaidyourprayers?'
'Yes——no!Iforgotthemto-night。'
'Isupposeyousaythemeverynightasarule?'
'Yes。'
'Whydoyoudothat?'
'BecauseIhavealwaysdoneso,anditwouldseemstrangeifIwerenotto。Doyou?'
'I?Awickedoldsinnerlikeme!No,Ineverdo。Ihavethoughtallsuchmattershumbugforyears——thoughtsosolongthatIshouldbegladtothinkotherwisefromveryweariness;andyet,suchisthecodeofthepoliteworld,thatIsubscriberegularlytoMissionarySocietiesandothersofthesort……Well,sayyourprayers,dear——youwon'tomitthemnowyourecollectit。Ishouldliketohearyouverymuch。Willyou?'
'Itseemshardly——'
'Itwouldseemsolikeoldtimestome——whenIwasyoung,andnearer——farnearerHeaventhanIamnow。Do,sweetone,'
Cythereawasembarrassed,andherembarrassmentarosefromthefollowingconjunctureofaffairs。SinceshehadlovedEdwardSpringrove,shehadlinkedhisnamewithherbrotherOwen'sinhernightlysupplicationstotheAlmighty。Shewishedtokeepherloveforhimasecret,and,aboveall,asecretfromawomanlikeMissAldclyffe;yetherconscienceandthehonestyofherlovewouldnotforaninstantallowhertothinkofomittinghisdearname,andsoendangertheefficacyofallherpreviousprayersforhissuccessbyanunworthyshamenow:itwouldbewickedofher,shethought,andagrievouswrongtohim。Underanyworldlycircumstancesshemighthavethoughtthepositionjustifiedalittlefinesse,andhaveskippedhimforonce;butprayerwastoosolemnathingforsuchtrifling。
'Iwouldrathernotsaythem,'shemurmuredfirst。Itstruckherthenthatthisdecliningaltogetherwasthesamecowardiceinanotherdress,andwasdeliveringherpoorEdwardovertoSatanjustasunceremoniouslyasbefore。'Yes;Iwillsaymyprayers,andyoushallhearme,'sheaddedfirmly。
Sheturnedherfacetothepillowandrepeatedinlowsofttonesthesimplewordsshehadusedfromchildhoodonsuchoccasions。Owen'snamewasmentionedwithoutfaltering,butintheothercase,maidenlyshynesswastoostrongevenforreligion,andthatwhensupportedbyexcellentintentions。AtthenameofEdwardshestammered,andhervoicesanktothefaintestwhisperinspiteofher。
'Thankyou,dearest,'saidMissAldclyffe。'Ihaveprayedtoo,I
verilybelieve。Youareagoodgirl,Ithink。'Thentheexpectedquestioncame。
'“BlessOwen,“andwhom,didyousay?'
Therewasnohelpforitnow,andoutitcame。'OwenandEdward,'
saidCytherea。
'WhoareOwenandEdward?'
'Owenismybrother,madam,'falteredthemaid。
'Ah,Iremember。WhoisEdward?'
Asilence。
'Yourbrother,too?'continuedMissAldclyffe。
'No。'
MissAldclyffereflectedamoment。'Don'tyouwanttotellmewhoEdwardis?'shesaidatlast,inatoneofmeaning。
'Idon'tmindtelling;only……'
'Youwouldrathernot,Isuppose?'
'Yes。'
MissAldclyffeshiftedherground。'Wereyoueverinlove?'sheinquiredsuddenly。
Cythereawassurprisedtohearhowquicklythevoicehadalteredfromtendernesstoharshness,vexation,anddisappointment。
'Yes——IthinkIwas——once,'shemurmured。
'Aha!Andwereyoueverkissedbyaman?'
Apause。
'Well,wereyou?'saidMissAldclyffe,rathersharply。
'Don'tpressmetotell——Ican't——indeed,Iwon't,madam!'
MissAldclyfferemovedherarmsfromCytherea'sneck。''Tisnowwithyouasitisalwayswithallgirls,'shesaid,injealousandgloomyaccents。'Youarenot,afterall,theinnocentItookyoufor。No,no。'Shethenchangedhertonewithfitfulrapidity。
'Cytherea,trytolovememorethanyoulovehim——do。Iloveyoumoresincerelythananymancan。Do,Cythie:don'tletanymanstandbetweenus。O,Ican'tbearthat!'SheclaspedCytherea'sneckagain。
'ImustlovehimnowIhavebegun,'repliedtheother。
'Must——yes——must,'saidtheelderladyreproachfully。'Yes,womenareallalike。IthoughtIhadatlastfoundanartlesswomanwhohadnotbeensulliedbyaman'slips,andwhohadnotpractisedorbeenpractiseduponbytheartswhichruinallthetruthandsweetnessandgoodnessinus。Findagirl,ifyoucan,whosemouthandearshavenotbeenmadearegularhighwayofbysomemanoranother!Leavetheadmittedlynotoriousspots——thedrawing-roomsofsociety——andlookinthevillages——leavethevillagesandsearchintheschools——andyoucanhardlyfindagirlwhosehearthasnotbeenHAD——isnotanoldthinghalfwornoutbysomeHeoranother!Ifmenonlyknewthestalenessofthefreshestofus!thatninetimesoutoftenthe“firstlove“theythinktheyarewinningfromawomanisbutthehulkofanoldwreckedaffection,fittedwithnewsailsandre-used。OCytherea,canitbethatyou,too,areliketherest?'
'No,no,no,'urgedCytherea,awedbythestormshehadraisedintheimpetuouswoman'smind。'Heonlykissedmeonce——twiceImean。'
'Hemighthavedoneitathousandtimesifhehadcaredto,there'snodoubtaboutthat,whoeverhislordshipis。YouareasbadasI——
weareallalike;andI——anoldfool——havebeensippingatyourmouthasifitwerehoney,becauseIfanciednowastingloverknewthespot。Butaminuteago,andyouseemedtomelikeafreshspringmeadow——nowyouseemadustyhighway。'
'Ono,no!'Cythereawasnotweakenoughtoshedtearsexceptonextraordinaryoccasions,butshewasfaintobeginsobbingnow。ShewishedMissAldclyffewouldgotoherownroom,andleaveherandhertreasureddreamsalone。Thisvehementimperiousaffectionwasinonesensesoothing,butyetitwasnotofthekindthatCytherea'sinstinctsdesired。Thoughitwasgenerous,itseemedsomewhattoorankandcapriciousforendurance。
'Well,'saidtheladyincontinuation,'whoishe?'
Hercompanionwasdesperatelydeterminednottotellhisname:shetoomuchfearedatauntwhenMissAldclyffe'sfierymoodagainruledhertongue。
'Won'tyoutellme?nottellmeafteralltheaffectionIhaveshown?'
'Iwill,perhaps,anotherday。'
'DidyouwearahatandwhitefeatherinBudmouthfortheweekortwoprevioustoyourcominghere?'
'Yes。'
'ThenIhaveseenyouandyourloveratadistance!Herowedyouroundthebaywithyourbrother。'
'Yes。'
'Andwithoutyourbrother——fie!There,there,don'tletthatlittleheartbeatitselftodeath:throb,throb:itshakesthebed,yousillything。Ididn'tmeanthattherewasanyharmingoingalonewithhim。IonlysawyoufromtheEsplanade,incommonwiththerestofthepeople。IoftenrundowntoBudmouth。Hewasaverygoodfigure:nowwhowashe?'
'I——Iwon'ttell,madam——Icannotindeed!'
'Won'ttell——verywell,don't。Youareveryfoolishtotreasureuphisnameandimageasyoudo。Why,hehashadlovesbeforeyou,trusthimforthat,whoeverheis,andyouarebutatemporarylinkinalongchainofotherslikeyou:whoonlyhaveyourlittledayastheyhavehadtheirs。'
''Tisn'ttrue!'tisn'ttrue!'tisn'ttrue!'criedCythereainanagonyoftorture。'Hehasneverlovedanybodyelse,Iknow——Iamsurehehasn't。'
MissAldclyffewasasjealousasanymancouldhavebeen。Shecontinued——
'Heseesabeautifulfaceandthinkshewillneverforgetit,butinafewweeksthefeelingpassesoff,andhewondershowhecouldhavecaredforanybodysoabsurdlymuch。'
'No,no,hedoesn't——Whatdoeshedowhenhehasthoughtthat——Come,tellme——tellme!'
'Youareashotasfire,andthethrobbingofyourheartmakesmenervous。Ican'ttellyouifyougetinthatflusteredstate。'
'Do,dotell——O,itmakesmesomiserable!buttell——cometellme!'
'Ah——thetablesareturnednow,dear!'shecontinued,inatonewhichmingledpitywithderision——
'“Love'spassionsshallrocktheeAsthestormrockstheravensonhigh,BrightreasonwillmocktheeLikethesunfromawintrysky。“
'Whatdoeshedonext?——Why,thisiswhathedoesnext:ruminateonwhathehasheardofwomen'sromanticimpulses,andhoweasilymentorturethemwhentheyhavegivenwaytothosefeelings,andhaveresignedeverythingfortheirhero。Itmaybethatthoughhelovesyouheartilynow——thatis,asheartilyasamancan——andyoulovehiminreturn,yourlovesmaybeimpracticableandhopeless,andyoumaybeseparatedforever。You,astheweary,wearyyearspassbywillfadeandfade——brighteyesWILLfade——andyouwillperhapsthendieearly——truetohimtoyourlatestbreath,andbelievinghimtobetruetothelatestbreathalso;whilsthe,insomegayandbusyspotfarawayfromyourlastquietnook,willhavemarriedsomedashinglady,andnotpurelyobliviousofyou,willlonghaveceasedtoregretyou——willchataboutyou,asyouwereinlongpastyears——
willsay,“Ah,littleCythereausedtotieherhairlikethat——poorinnocenttrustingthing;itwasapleasantuselessidledream——thatdreamofmineforthemaidwiththebrighteyesandsimple,sillyheart;butIwasafoolishladatthattime。“ThenhewilltellthetaleofallyourlittleWillsandWont'sandparticularways,andashespeaks,turntohiswifewithaplacidsmile。'
'Itisnottrue!Hecan't,hec-can'tbes-socruel——andyouarecrueltome——youare,youare!'Shewasatlastdriventodesperation:hernaturalcommonsenseandshrewdnesshadseenallthroughthepiecehowimaginaryheremotionswere——shefeltherselftobeweakandfoolishinpermittingthemtorise;buteventhenshecouldnotcontrolthem:beagonizedshemust。Shewasonlyeighteen,andthelongday'slabour,herweariness,herexcitement,hadcompletelyunnervedher,andwornherout:shewasbenthitherandthitherbythistyrannicalworkinguponherimagination,asayoungrushinthewind。Sheweptbitterly。'AndnowthinkhowmuchIlikeyou,'resumedMissAldclyffe,whenCythereagrewcalmer。'I
shallneverforgetyouforanybodyelse,asmendo——never。Iwillbeexactlyasamothertoyou。Nowwillyoupromisetolivewithmealways,andalwaysbetakencareof,andneverdeserted?'
'Icannot。Iwillnotbeanybody'smaidforanotherdayonanyconsideration。'
'No,no,no。Youshan'tbealady's-maid。Youshallbemycompanion。Iwillgetanothermaid。'
Companion——thatwasanewidea。Cythereacouldnotresisttheevidentlyheartfeltdesireofthestrange-temperedwomanforherpresence。Butshecouldnottrusttothemoment'simpulse。
'Iwillstay,Ithink。Butdonotaskforafinalanswerto-night。'
'Nevermindnow,then。Putyourhairroundyourmamma'sneck,andgivemeonegoodlongkiss,andIwon'ttalkanymoreinthatwayaboutyourlover。Afterall,someyoungmenarenotsofickleasothers;butevenifhe'stheficklest,thereisconsolation。Theloveofaninconstantmanistentimesmoreardentthanthatofafaithfulman——thatis,whileitlasts。'
Cythereadidasshewastold,toescapethepunishmentoffurthertalk;flungthetwiningtressesofherlong,richhairoverMissAldclyffe'sshouldersasdirected,andthetwoceasedconversing,makingthemselvesupforsleep。MissAldclyffeseemedtogiveherselfovertoaluxurioussenseofcontentandquiet,asifthemaidenathersideaffordedheraprotectionagainstdangerswhichhadmenacedherforyears;shewassoonsleepingcalmly。
2。TWOTOFIVEA。M。
WithCythereaitwasotherwise。Unusedtotheplaceandcircumstances,shecontinuedwakeful,illatease,andmentallydistressed。Shewithdrewherselffromhercompanion'sembrace,turnedtotheotherside,andendeavouredtorelieveherbusybrainbylookingatthewindow-blind,andnoticingthelightoftherisingmoon——nowinherlastquarter——creeprounduponit:itwasthelightofanoldwaningmoonwhichhadbutafewdayslongertolive。
Thesightledhertothinkagainofwhathadhappenedundertheraysofthesamemonth'smoon,alittlebeforeitsfull,theecstaticeveningscenewithEdward:thekiss,andtheshortnessofthosehappymoments——maidenimaginationbringingabouttheapotheosisofastatusquowhichhadhadseveralunpleasantnessesinitsearthlyreality。
Butsoundswereintheascendantthatnight。Herearsbecameawareofastrangeandgloomymurmur。
Sherecognizedit:itwasthegushingofthewaterfall,faintandlow,broughtfromitssourcetotheunwonteddistanceoftheHousebyafaintbreezewhichmadeitdistinctandrecognizablebyreasonoftheutterabsenceofalldisturbingsounds。Thegroom'smelancholyrepresentationlenttothesoundamoredismaleffectthanitwouldhavehadofitsownnature。Shebegantofancywhatthewaterfallmustbelikeatthathour,underthetreesintheghostlymoonlight。Blackatthehead,andoverthesurfaceofthedeepcoldholeintowhichitfell;whiteandfrothyatthefall;
blackandwhite,likeapallanditsborder;sadeverywhere。
Shewasinthemoodforsoundsofeverykindnow,andstrainedherearstocatchthefaintest,inwaywardenmitytoherquietofmind。
Anothersooncame。