III。THEEVENTSOFEIGHTDAYS
1。FROMTHETWENTY-SECONDTOTHETWENTY-SEVENTHOFJULY
Butthingsarenotwhattheyseem。AresponsiveloveforEdwardSpringrovehadmadeitsappearanceinCytherea'sbosomwithallthefascinatingattributesofafirstexperience,notsucceedingtoordisplacingotheremotions,asinolderhearts,buttakingupentirelynewground;aswhengazingjustaftersunsetatthepaleblueskyweseeastarcomeintoexistencewherenothingwasbefore。
Hispartingwords,'Don'tforgetme,'sherepeatedtoherselfahundredtimes,andthoughshethoughttheirimportwasprobablycommonplace,shecouldnothelptoyingwiththem,——lookingatthemfromallpoints,andinvestingthemwithmeaningsofloveandfaithfulness,——ostensiblyentertainingsuchmeaningsonlyasfableswherewithtopassthetime,yetinherheartadmitting,fordetachedinstants,apossibilityoftheirdeepertruth。Andthus,forhoursafterhehadlefther,herreasonflirtedwithherfancyasakittenwillsportwithadove,pleasantlyandsmoothlythrougheasyattitudes,butdisclosingitscruelandunyieldingnatureatcrises。
Toturnnowtothemorematerialmediathroughwhichthisstorymoves,itsohappenedthattheverynextmorningbroughtroundacircumstancewhich,slightinitself,tookuparelevantandimportantpositionbetweenthepastandthefutureofthepersonshereinconcerned。
Atbreakfasttime,justasCythereahadagainseenthepostmanpasswithoutbringingherananswertotheadvertisement,asshehadfullyexpectedhewoulddo,Owenenteredtheroom。
'Well,'hesaid,kissingher,'youhavenotbeenalarmed,ofcourse。
SpringrovetoldyouwhatIhaddone,andyoufoundtherewasnotrain?'
'Yes,itwasallclear。Butwhatisthelamenessowingto?'
'Idon'tknow——nothing。Ithasquitegoneoffnow……Cytherea,IhopeyoulikeSpringrove。Springrove'sanicefellow,youknow。'
'Yes。Ithinkheis,exceptthat——'
'IthappenedjusttothepurposethatIshouldmeethimthere,didn'tit?AndwhenIreachedthestationandlearntthatIcouldnotgetonbytrainmyfootseemedbetter。Istartedofftowalkhome,andwentaboutfivemilesalongapathbesidetherailway。ItthenstruckmethatImightnotbefitforanythingtodayifI
walkedandaggravatedthebotheringfoot,soIlookedforaplacetosleepat。Therewasnoavailablevillageorinn,andIeventuallygotthekeeperofagate-house,wherealanecrossedtheline,totakemein。'
Theyproceededwiththeirbreakfast。Owenyawned。
'Youdidn'tgetmuchsleepatthegate-houselastnight,I'mafraid,Owen,'saidhissister。
'Totellthetruth,Ididn't。Iwasinsuchverycloseandnarrowquarters。Thosegate-housesaresuchsmallplaces,andthemanhadonlyhisownbedtoofferme。Ah,by-the-bye,Cythie,Ihavesuchanextraordinarythingtotellyouinconnectionwiththisman!——byJove,Ihadnearlyforgottenit!ButI'llgostraighton。AsIwassaying,hehadonlyhisownbedtoofferme,butIcouldnotaffordtobefastidious,andashehadaheartymanner,thoughaveryqueerone,Iagreedtoacceptit,andhemadearoughpalletforhimselfonthefloorclosebesideme。Well,Icouldnotsleepformylife,andIwishedIhadnotstayedthere,thoughIwassotired。Foronething,thereweretheluggagetrainsrattlingbyatmyelbowtheearlypartofthenight。Butworsethanthis,hetalkedcontinuallyinhissleep,andoccasionallystruckoutwithhislimbsatsomethingoranother,knockingagainstthepostofthebedsteadandmakingittremble。MyconditionwasaltogethersounsatisfactorythatatlastIawokehim,andaskedhimwhathehadbeendreamingaboutfortheprevioushour,forIcouldgetnosleepatall。Hebeggedmypardonfordisturbingme,butanameIhadcasuallyletfallthateveninghadledhimtothinkofanotherstrangerhehadoncehadvisithim,whohadalsoaccidentallymentionedthesamename,andsomeverystrangeincidentsconnectedwiththatmeeting。
Theaffairhadoccurredyearsandyearsago;butwhatIhadsaidhadmadehimthinkanddreamaboutitasifitwerebutyesterday。Whatwastheword?Isaid。“Cytherea,“hesaid。Whatwasthestory?I
askedthen。HethentoldmethatwhenhewasayoungmaninLondonheborrowedafewpoundstoaddtoafewhehadsavedup,andopenedalittleinnatHammersmith。Oneevening,aftertheinnhadbeenopenaboutacoupleofmonths,everyidlerintheneighbourhoodranofftoWestminster。TheHousesofParliamentwereonfire。
'Notasoulremainedinhisparlourbesideshimself,andhebeganpickingupthepipesandglasseshiscustomershadhastilyrelinquished。Atlengthayoungladyaboutseventeenoreighteencamein。Sheaskedifawomanwastherewaitingforherself——MissJaneTaylor。Hesaidno;askedtheyoungladyifshewouldwait,andshowedherintothesmallinnerroom。Therewasaglass-paneinthepartitiondividingthisroomfromthebartoenablethelandlordtoseeifhisvisitors,whosatthere,wantedanything。Acuriousawkwardnessandmelancholyaboutthebehaviourofthegirlwhocalled,causedmyinformanttolookfrequentlyatherthroughthepartition。Sheseemedwearyofherlife,andsatwithherfaceburiedinherhands,evidentlyquiteoutofherelementinsuchahouse。ThenawomanmucholdercameinandgreetedMissTaylorbyname。Themandistinctlyheardthefollowingwordspassbetweenthem:——
'“Whyhaveyounotbroughthim?”
'“Heisill;heisnotlikelytolivethroughthenight。“
'Atthisannouncementfromtheelderlywoman,theyoungladyfelltothefloorinaswoon,apparentlyovercomebythenews。Thelandlordraninandliftedherup。Well,dowhattheywouldtheycouldnotforalongtimebringherbacktoconsciousness,andbegantobemuchalarmed。“Whoisshe?”theinnkeepersaidtotheotherwoman。
“Iknowher,“theothersaid,withdeepmeaninginhertone。Theelderlyandyoungwomanseemedallied,andyetstrangers。
'Shenowshowedsignsoflife,anditstruckhimhewasplainlyofaninquisitiveturn,thatinherhalf-bewilderedstatehemightgetsomeinformationfromher。Hestoopedoverher,puthismouthtoherear,andsaidsharply,“What'syourname?”“Tocatchawomannappingisdifficult,evenwhenshe'shalfdead;butIdidit,“saysthegatekeeper。Whenheaskedherhername,shesaidimmediately——
'“Cytherea“——andstoppedsuddenly。'
'Myownname!'saidCytherea。
'Yes——yourname。Well,thegatemanthoughtatthetimeitmightbeequallywithJaneanameshehadinventedfortheoccasion,thattheymightnottraceher;butIthinkitwastruthunconsciouslyuttered,forsheaddeddirectlyafterwards:“O,whathaveIsaid!”
andwasquiteovercomeagain——thistimewithfright。Hervexationthatthewomannowdoubtedthegenuinenessofherothernamewasverymuchgreaterthanthattheinnkeeperdid,anditisevidentthattoblindthewomanwashermainobject。Healsolearntfromwordstheelderlywomancasuallydropped,thatmeetingsofthesamekindhadbeenheldbefore,andthatthefalsenessofthesoi-disantMissJaneTaylor'snamehadneverbeensuspectedbythisdependentorconfederatetillthen。
'Sherecovered,restedthereforanhour,andfirstsendingoffhercompanionperemptorilywhichwasanotheroddthing,sheleftthehouse,offeringthelandlordallthemoneyshehadtosaynothingaboutthecircumstance。Hehasneverseenhersince,accordingtohisownaccount。Isaidtohimagainandagain,“Didyoufindanymoreparticularsafterwards?”“Notasyllable,“hesaid。O,heshouldneverhearanymoreofthat!toomanyyearshadpassedsinceithappened。“Atanyrate,youfoundouthersurname?”Isaid。
“Well,well,that'smysecret,“hewenton。“PerhapsIshouldneverhavebeeninthispartoftheworldifithadn'tbeenforthat。I
failedasapublican,youknow。“Iimaginethesituationofgatemanwasgivenhimandhisdebtspaidoffasabribetosilence;butI
can'tsay。“Ah,yes!”hesaid,withalongbreath。“Ihaveneverheardthatnamementionedsincethattimetillto-night,andthenthereinstantlyrosetomyeyesthevisionofthatyoungladylyinginafaintingfit。“Hethenstoppedtalkingandfellasleep。
TellingthestorymusthaverelievedhimasitdidtheAncientMariner,forhedidnotmoveamuscleormakeanothersoundfortheremainderofthenight。Nowisn'tthatanoddstory?'
'Itisindeed,'Cythereamurmured。'Very,verystrange。'
'Whyshouldshehavesaidyourmostuncommonname?'continuedOwen。
'Themanwasevidentlytruthful,fortherewasnotmotivesufficientforhisinventionofsuchatale,andhecouldnothavedoneiteither。'
Cytherealookedlongatherbrother。'Don'tyourecognizeanythingelseinconnectionwiththestory?'shesaid。
'What?'heasked。
'Doyourememberwhatpoorpapaonceletdrop——thatCythereawasthenameofhisfirstsweetheartinBloomsbury,whosomysteriouslyrenouncedhim?Asortofintuitiontellsmethatthiswasthesamewoman。'
'Ono——notlikely,'saidherbrothersceptically。
'Hownotlikely,Owen?There'snotanotherwomanofthenameinEngland。Inwhatyearusedpapatosaytheeventtookplace?'
'Eighteenhundredandthirty-five。'
'AndwhenweretheHousesofParliamentburnt?——stop,Icantellyou。'Shesearchedtheirlittlestockofbooksforalistofdates,andfoundoneinanoldschoolhistory。
'TheHousesofParliamentwereburntdownintheeveningofthesixteenthofOctober,eighteenhundredandthirty-four。'
'Nearlyayearandaquarterbeforeshemetfather,'remarkedOwen。
Theyweresilent。'Ifpapahadbeenalive,whatawonderfulabsorbinginterestthisstorywouldhavehadforhim,'saidCythereaby-and-by。'Andhowstrangelyknowledgecomestous。Wemighthavesearchedforacluetohersecrethalftheworldover,andneverfoundone。Ifwehadreallyhadanymotivefortryingtodiscovermoreofthesadhistorythanpapatoldus,weshouldhavegonetoBloomsbury;butnotcaringtodoso,wegotwohundredmilesintheoppositedirection,andtherefindinformationwaitingtobetoldus。Whatcouldhavebeenthesecret,Owen?'
'Heavenknows。Butourhavingheardalittlemoreofherinthiswayifsheisthesamewomanisamerecoincidenceafterall——afamilystorytotellourfriendsifweeverhaveany。Butweshallneverknowanymoreoftheepisodenow——trustourfatesforthat。'
Cythereasatsilentlythinking。
'Therewasnoanswerthismorningtoyouradvertisement,Cytherea?'
hecontinued。
'None。'
'IcouldseethatbyyourlookswhenIcamein。'
'Fancynotgettingasingleone,'shesaidsadly。'Surelytheremustbepeoplesomewherewhowantgovernesses?'
'Yes;butthosewhowantthem,andcanaffordtohavethem,getthemmostlybyfriends'recommendations;whilstthosewhowantthem,andcan'taffordtohavethem,makeuseoftheirpoorrelations。'
'WhatshallIdo?'
'Nevermindit。Goonlivingwithme。Don'tletthedifficultytroubleyourmindso;youthinkaboutitallday。Icankeepyou,Cythie,inaplainwayofliving。Twenty-fiveshillingsaweekdonotamounttomuchtruly;butthenmanymechanicshavenomore,andwelivequiteassparinglyasjourneymenmechanics……Itisameagrenarrowlifewearedriftinginto,'headdedgloomily,'butitisadegreemoretolerablethantheworryingsensationofalltheworldbeingashamedofyou,whichweexperiencedatHocbridge。'
'Icouldn'tgobackthereagain,'shesaid。
'NorI。O,Idon'tregretourcourseforamoment。Wedidquiterightindroppingoutoftheworld。'Thesneeringtonesoftheremarkwerealmosttoolabouredtobereal。'Besides,'hecontinued,'somethingbetterformeissuretoturnupsoon。Iwishmyengagementherewasapermanentoneinsteadofforonlytwomonths。Itmay,certainly,beforalongertime,butallisuncertain。'
'IwishIcouldgetsomethingtodo;andImusttoo,'shesaidfirmly。'Suppose,asisveryprobable,youarenotwantedafterthebeginningofOctober——thetimeMr。Gradfieldmentioned——whatshouldwedoifIweredependentonyouonlythroughoutthewinter?'
Theyponderedonnumerousschemesbywhichayoungladymightbesupposedtoearnadecentlivelihood——moreorlessconvenientandfeasibleinimagination,butrelinquishedthemalluntiladvertisinghadbeenoncemoretried,thistimetakinglowerground。Cythereawasvexedathertemerityinhavingrepresentedtotheworldthatsoinexperiencedabeingasherselfwasaqualifiedgoverness;andhadafancythatthispresumptionofhersmightbeonereasonwhynoladiesapplied。Thenewandhumblerattemptappearedinthefollowingform:——
'NURSERYGOVERNESSORUSEFULCOMPANION。Ayoungpersonwishestohearofasituationineitheroftheabovecapacities。Salaryverymoderate。Sheisagoodneedle-woman——AddressG。,3CrossStreet,Budmouth。'
Intheeveningtheywenttoposttheletter,andthenwalkedupanddowntheParadeforawhile。SoontheymetSpringrove,saidafewwordstohim,andpassedon。Owennoticedthathissister'sfacehadbecomecrimson。RatheroddlytheymetSpringroveagaininafewminutes。Thistimethethreewalkedalittlewaytogether,EdwardostensiblytalkingtoOwen,thoughwithasinglethoughttothereceptionofhiswordsbythemaidenatthefartherside,uponwhomhisgazewasmostlyresting,andwhowasattentivelylistening——
lookingfixedlyuponthepavementthewhile。Ithasbeensaidthatmenlovewiththeireyes;womenwiththeirears。
AsOwenandhimselfwerelittlemorethanacquaintancesasyet,andasSpringrovewaswantingintheassuranceofmanymenofhisage,itnowbecamenecessarytowishhisfriendsgood-evening,ortofindareasonforcontinuingnearCythereabysayingsomenicenewthing。
Hethoughtofanewthing;heproposedapullacrossthebay。Thiswasassentedto。Theywenttothepier;steppedintooneofthegailypaintedboatsmooredalongsideandsheeredoff。Cythereasatinthesternsteering。
Theyrowedthatevening;thenextcame,andwithitthenecessityofrowingagain。Thenthenext,andthenext,Cythereaalwayssittinginthesternwiththetillerropesinherhand。Thecurvesofherfigureweldedwiththoseofthefragileboatinperfectcontinuation,asshegirlishlyyieldedherselftoitsheavingandsinking,seemingtoformwithitanorganicwhole。
ThenOwenwasinclinedtotesthisskillinpaddlingacanoe。
Edwarddidnotlikecanoes,andtheissuewas,that,havingseenOwenonboard,Springroveproposedtopulloffafterhimwithapairofsculls;butnotconsideringhimselfsufficientlyaccomplishedtodofinishedrowingbeforeaparadefullofpromenaderswhentherewasalittleswellon,andwiththerudderunshippedinaddition,hebeggedthatCythereamightcomewithhimandsteerasbefore。Shesteppedin,andtheyfloatedalonginthewakeofherbrother。Thuspassedthefiftheveningonthewater。
Butthesympatheticpairwerethrownintostillclosercompanionship,andmuchmoreexclusiveconnection。
2。JULYTHETWENTY-NINTH
ItwasasadtimeforCytherea——thelastdayofSpringrove'smanagementatGradfield's,andthelasteveningbeforehisreturnfromBudmouthtohisfather'shouse,previoustohisdepartureforLondon。
Grayehadbeenrequestedbythearchitecttosurveyaplotoflandnearlytwentymilesoff,which,withthejourneytoandfro,wouldoccupyhimthewholeday,andpreventhisreturningtilllateintheevening。Cythereamadeacompanionofherlandladytotheextentofsharingmealsandsittingwithherduringthemorningofherbrother'sabsence。Mid-dayfoundherrestlessandmiserableunderthisarrangement。Alltheafternoonshesatalone,lookingoutofthewindowforshescarcelyknewwhom,andhopingshescarcelyknewwhat。Half-pastfiveo'clockcame——theendofSpringrove'sofficialday。TwominuteslaterSpringrovewalkedby。
Sheenduredhersolitudeforanotherhalf-hour,andthencouldendurenolonger。Shehadhoped——whileaffectingtofear——thatEdwardwouldhavefoundsomereasonorotherforcalling,butitseemedthathehadnot。Hastilydressingherselfshewentout,whenthefarceofanaccidentalmeetingwasrepeated。Edwardcameuponherinthestreetatthefirstturning,and,liketheGreatDukeFerdinandin'TheStatueandtheBust'——
'Helookedatherasalovercan;
Shelookedathimasonewhoawakes——
Thepastwasasleep,andherlifebegan。'
'Shallwehaveaboat?'hesaidimpulsively。
Howblissfulitallisatfirst。Perhaps,indeed,theonlyblissinthecourseoflovewhichcantrulybecalledEden-likeisthatwhichprevailsimmediatelyafterdoubthasendedandbeforereflectionhassetin——atthedawnoftheemotion,whenitisnotrecognizedbyname,andbeforetheconsiderationofwhatthisloveis,hasgivenbirthtotheconsiderationofwhatdifficultiesittendstocreate;
whenontheman'spart,themistressappearstothemind'seyeinpicturesque,hazy,andfreshmorninglights,andsoftmorningshadows;when,asyet,sheisknownonlyasthewearerofonedress,whichsharesherownpersonality;asthestanderinonespecialposition,thegiverofonebrightparticularglance,andthespeakerofonetendersentence;when,onherpart,sheistimidlycarefuloverwhatshesaysanddoes,lestsheshouldbemisconstruedorunder-ratedtothebreadthofashadowofahair。
'Shallwehaveaboat?'hesaidagain,moresoftly,seeingthattohisfirstquestionshehadnotanswered,butlookeduncertainlyattheground,thenalmost,butnotquite,inhisface,blushedaseriesofminuteblushes,leftoffinthemidstofthem,andshowedtheusualsignsofperplexityinamatteroftheemotions。
Owenhadalwaysbeenwithherbefore,buttherewasnowaforceofhabitintheproceeding,andwithArcadianinnocencesheassumedthatarowonthewaterwas,underanycircumstances,anaturalthing。Withoutanotherwordbeingspokenoneitherside,theywentdownthesteps。Hecarefullyhandedherin,tookhisseat,slidnoiselesslyoffthesand,andawayfromtheshore。
Theythussatfacingeachotherinthegracefulyellowcockle-shell,andhiseyesfrequentlyfoundaresting-placeinthedepthsofhers。
Theboatwassosmallthatateachreturnofthesculls,whenhishandscameforwardtobeginthepull,theyapproachedsoneartoherthathervividimaginationbegantothrillherwithafancythathewasgoingtoclasphisarmsroundher。Thesensationgrewsostrongthatshecouldnotruntheriskofagainmeetinghiseyesatthosecriticalmoments,andturnedasidetoinspectthedistanthorizon;
thenshegrewwearyoflookingsideways,andwasdriventoreturntohernaturalpositionagain。Atthisinstantheagainleantforwardtobegin,andmetherglancebyanardentfixedgaze。Aninvoluntaryimpulseofgirlishembarrassmentcausedhertogiveavehementpullatthetiller-rope,whichbroughttheboat'sheadroundtilltheystooddirectlyforshore。
Hiseyes,whichhaddweltuponherformduringthewholetimeofherlookaskance,nowlefther;heperceivedthedirectioninwhichtheyweregoing。
'Why,youhavecompletelyturnedtheboat,MissGraye?'hesaid,lookingoverhisshoulder。'Lookatourtrackonthewater——agreatsemicircle,precededbyaseriesofzigzagsasfaraswecansee。'
Shelookedattentively。'Isitmyfaultoryours?'sheinquired。
'Mine,Isuppose?'
'Ican'thelpsayingthatitisyours。'
Shedroppedtheropesdecisively,feelingtheslightesttwingeofvexationattheanswer。
'Whydoyouletgo?'
'Idoitsobadly。'
'Ono;youturnedaboutforshoreinamasterlyway。Doyouwishtoreturn?'
'Yes,ifyouplease。'
'Ofcourse,then,Iwillatonce。'
'Ifearwhatthepeoplewillthinkofus——goinginsuchabsurddirections,andallthroughmywretchedsteering。'
'Nevermindwhatthepeoplethink。'Apause。'Yousurelyarenotsoweakastomindwhatthepeoplethinkonsuchamatterasthat?'
Thosewordsmightalmostbecalledtoofirmandhardtobegivenbyhimtoher;butnevermind。Foralmostthefirsttimeinherlifeshefeltthecharmingsensation,althoughonsuchaninsignificantsubject,ofbeingcompelledintoanopinionbyamansheloved。
Owen,thoughlessyieldingphysically,andmorepractical,wouldnothavehadtheintellectualindependencetoanswerawomanthus。Sherepliedquietlyandhonestly——ashonestlyaswhenshehadstatedthecontraryfactaminuteearlier——
'Idon'tmind。'
'I'llunshipthetillerthatyoumayhavenothingtodogoingbackbuttoholdyourparasol,'hecontinued,andarosetoperformtheoperation,necessarilyleaningcloselyagainsther,toguardagainsttheriskofcapsizingtheboatashereachedhishandsastern。Hiswarmbreathtouchedandcreptroundherfacelikeacaress;buthewasapparentlyonlyconcernedwithhistask。Shelookedguiltyofsomethingwhenheseatedhimself。Hereadinherfacewhatthatsomethingwas——shehadexperiencedapleasurefromhistouch。Butheflungapracticalglanceoverhisshoulder,seizedtheoars,andtheyspedinastraightlinetowardstheshore。
Cythereasawthathenotedinherfacewhathadpassedinherheart,andthatnotingit,hecontinuedasdecidedasbefore。Shewasinwardlydistressed。Shehadnotmeanthimtotranslateherwordsaboutreturninghomesoliterallyatthefirst;shehadnotintendedhimtolearnhersecret;butmorethanallshewasnotabletoenduretheperceptionofhislearningitandcontinuingunmoved。
Therewasnothingbutmiserytocomenow。Theywouldstepashore;
hewouldsaygood-night,gotoLondonto-morrow,andthemiserableShewouldlosehimforever。Shedidnotquitesupposewhatwasthefact,thataparallelthoughtwassimultaneouslypassingthroughhismind。
Theywerenowwithintenyards,nowwithinfive;hewasonlynowwaitingfora'smooth'tobringtheboatin。Sweet,sweetLovemustnotbeslainthus,wasthefairmaid'sreasoning。Shewasequaltotheoccasion——ladiesare——anddeliveredthegod——
'Doyouwantverymuchtoland,Mr。Springrove?'shesaid,lettingheryoungvioleteyespineathimavery,verylittle。
'I?Notatall,'saidhe,lookinganastonishmentatherinquirywhichaslighttwinkleofhiseyehalfbelied。'Butyoudo?'
'Ithinkthatnowwehavecomeout,anditissuchapleasantevening,'shesaidgentlyandsweetly,'Ishouldlikealittlelongerrowifyoudon'tmind?I'lltrytosteerbetterthanbeforeifitmakesiteasierforyou。I'lltryveryhard。'
Itwastheturnofhisfacetotellatalenow。Helooked,'Weunderstandeachother——ah,wedo,darling!'turnedtheboat,andpulledbackintotheBayoncemore。
'Nowsteerwhereveryouwill,'hesaid,inalowvoice。'Nevermindthedirectnessofthecourse——whereveryouwill。'
'ShallitbeCrestonShore?'shesaid,pointingtoastretchofbeachnorthwardfromBudmouthEsplanade。
'CrestonShorecertainly,'heresponded,graspingthesculls。Shetookthestringsdaintily,andtheywoundawaytotheleft。
Foralongtimenothingwasaudibleintheboatbuttheregulardipoftheoars,andtheirmovementintherowlocks。Springroveatlengthspoke。
'Imustgoawayto-morrow,'hesaidtentatively。
'Yes,'sherepliedfaintly。
'ToendeavourtoadvancealittleinmyprofessioninLondon。'
'Yes,'shesaidagain,withthesamepreoccupiedsoftness。
'ButIshan'tadvance。'
'Whynot?Architectureisabewitchingprofession。Theysaythatanarchitect'sworkisanotherman'splay。'
'Yes。Butworldlyadvantagefromanartdoesn'tdependuponmasteringit。Iusedtothinkitdid;butitdoesn't。Thosewhogetrichneedhavenoskillatallasartists。'
'Whatneedtheyhave?'
'Acertainkindofenergywhichmenwithanyfondnessforartpossessveryseldomindeed——anearnestnessinmakingacquaintances,andaloveforusingthem。Theygivetheirwholeattentiontotheartofdiningout,aftermasteringafewrudimentaryfactstoserveupinconversation。Nowaftersayingthat,doIseemamanlikelytomakeaname?'
'Youseemamanlikelytomakeamistake。'
'What'sthat?'
'Togivetoomuchroomtothelatentfeelingwhichisrathercommoninthesedaysamongtheunappreciated,thatbecausesomeremarkablysuccessfulmenarefools,allremarkablyunsuccessfulmenaregeniuses。'
'Prettysubtleforayounglady,'hesaidslowly。'FromthatremarkIshouldfancyyouhadboughtexperience。'
Shepassedovertheidea。'Dotrytosucceed,'shesaid,withwistfulthoughtfulness,leavinghereyesonhim。
Springroveflushedalittleattheearnestnessofherwords,andmused。'Then,likeCatotheCensor,IshalldowhatIdespise,tobeinthefashion,'hesaidatlast……'Well,whenIfoundallthisoutthatIwasspeakingof,whateverdoyouthinkIdid?Fromhavingalreadylovedversepassionately,Iwentontoreaditcontinually;thenIwentrhymingmyself。Ifanythingonearthruinsamanforusefuloccupation,andforcontentwithreasonablesuccessinaprofessionortrade,itisthehabitofwritingversesonemotionalsubjects,whichhadmuchbetterbelefttodiefromwantofnourishment。'
'Doyouwritepoemsnow?'shesaid。
'None。Poeticaldaysaregettingpastwithme,accordingtotheusualrule。Writingrhymesisastagepeopleofmysortpassthrough,astheypassthroughthestageofshavingforabeard,orthinkingtheyareill-used,orsayingthere'snothingintheworldworthlivingfor。'
'Thenthedifferencebetweenacommonmanandarecognizedpoetis,thatonehasbeendeluded,andcuredofhisdelusion,andtheothercontinuesdeludedallhisdays。'
'Well,there'sjustenoughtruthinwhatyousay,tomaketheremarkunbearable。However,itdoesn'tmattertomenowthatI“meditatethethanklessMuse“nolonger,but……'Hepaused,asifendeavouringtothinkwhatbetterthinghedid。
Cytherea'smindranontothesucceedinglinesofthepoem,andtheirstartlingharmonywiththepresentsituationsuggestedthefancythathewas'sporting'withher,andbroughtanawkwardcontemplativenesstoherface。
Springroveguessedherthoughts,andinanswertothemsimplysaid'Yes。'Thentheyweresilentagain。
'IfIhadknownanAmarylliswascominghere,Ishouldnothavemadearrangementsforleaving,'heresumed。
Suchlevity,superimposedonthenotionof'sport',wasintolerabletoCytherea;forawomanseemsnevertoseeanybuttheserioussideofherattachment,thoughthemostdevotedloverhasallthetimeavagueanddimperceptionthatheislosinghisolddignityandfritteringawayhistime。
'Butwillyounottryagaintogetoninyourprofession?Tryoncemore;dotryoncemore,'shemurmured。'Iamgoingtotryagain。I
haveadvertisedforsomethingtodo。'
'OfcourseIwill,'hesaid,withaneagergestureandsmile。'ButwemustrememberthatthefameofChristopherWrenhimselfdependedupontheaccidentofafireinPuddingLane。Mysuccessesseemtocomeveryslowly。Ioftenthink,thatbeforeIamreadytolive,itwillbetimeformetodie。However,Iamtrying——notforfamenow,butforaneasylifeofreasonablecomfort。'
Itisamelancholytruthforthemiddleclasses,thatinproportionastheydevelop,bythestudyofpoetryandart,theircapacityforconjugalloveofthehighestandpurestkind,theylimitthepossibilityoftheirbeingabletoexerciseit——theveryactputtingoutoftheirpowertheattainmentofmeanssufficientformarriage。
Themanwhoworksupagoodincomehashadnotimetolearnlovetoitssolemnextreme;themanwhohaslearntthathashadnotimetogetrich。
'Andifyoushouldfail——utterlyfailtogetthatreasonablewealth,'shesaidearnestly,'don'tbeperturbed。Thetrulygreatstanduponnomiddleledge;theyareeitherfamousorunknown。'
'Unknown,'hesaid,'iftheirideashavebeenallowedtoflowwithasympatheticbreadth。Famousonlyiftheyhavebeenconvergentandexclusive。'
'Yes;andIamafraidfromthat,thatmyremarkwasbutdiscouragement,wearingthedressofcomfort。PerhapsIwasnotquiterightin——'
'Itdependsentirelyuponwhatismeantbybeingtrulygreat。Butthelongandtheshortofthematteris,thatmenmuststicktoathingiftheywanttosucceedinit——notgivingwaytoover-muchadmirationfortheflowerstheyseegrowinginotherpeople'sborders;whichIamafraidhasbeenmycase。'Helookedintothefardistanceandpaused。
Adherencetoacoursewithpersistencesufficienttoensuresuccessispossibletowidelyappreciativemindsonlywhenthereisalsofoundinthemapower——commonplaceinitsnature,butrareinsuchcombination——thepowerofassumingtoconvictionthatintheoutlyingpathswhichappearsomuchmorebrilliantthantheirown,therearebitternessesequallygreat——unperceivedsimplyonaccountoftheirremoteness。
TheywereoppositeRingsworthShore。ThecliffsherewereformedofstratacompletelycontrastingwiththoseofthefurthersideoftheBay,whilstinandbeneaththewaterhardbouldershadtakentheplaceofsandandshingle,betweenwhich,however,theseaglidednoiselessly,withoutbreakingthecrestofasinglewave,sostrikinglycalmwastheair。Thebreezehadentirelydiedaway,leavingthewaterofthatrareglassysmoothnesswhichisunmarkedevenbythesmalldimplesoftheleastaerialmovement。Purplesandbluesofdiversshadeswerereflectedfromthismirroraccordinglyaseachundulationslopedeastorwest。Theycouldseetherockybottomsometwentyfeetbeneaththem,luxuriantwithweedsofvariousgrowths,anddottedwithpulpycreaturesreflectingasilveryandspangledradianceupwardstotheireyes。
Atlengthshelookedathimtolearntheeffectofherwordsofencouragement。Hehadlettheoarsdriftalongside,andtheboathadcometoastandstill。Everythingonearthseemedtakingacontemplativerest,asifwaitingtoheartheavowalofsomethingfromhislips。Atthatinstantheappearedtobreakaresolutionhithertozealouslykept。Leavinghisseatamidshipshecameandgentlyedgedhimselfdownbesideheruponthenarrowseatatthestern。
Shebreathedmorequicklyandwarmly:hetookherrighthandinhisownright:itwasnotwithdrawn。Heputhislefthandbehindhernecktillitcamerounduponherleftcheek:itwasnotthrustaway。Lightlypressingher,hebroughtherfaceandmouthtowardshisown;when,atthistheverybrink,someunaccountablethoughtorspellwithinhimsuddenlymadehimhalt——evennow,andasitseemedasmuchtohimselfastoher,hetimidlywhispered'MayI?'
HerendeavourwastosayNo,sodenudedofitsfleshandsinewsthatitsnaturewouldhardlyberecognized,orinotherwordsaNofromsoneartheaffirmativefrontierastobeaffectedwiththeYesaccent。ItwasthusawhisperedNo,drawnouttonearlyaquarterofaminute'slength,theOmakingitselfaudibleasasoundlikethespringcooofapigeononunusuallyfriendlytermswithitsmate。Thoughconsciousofhersuccessinproducingthekindofwordshehadwishedtoproduce,sheatthesametimetrembledinsuspenseastohowitwouldbetaken。Butthetimeavailablefordoubtwassoshortastoadmitofscarcelymorethanhalfapulsation:
pressingcloserhekissedher。Thenhekissedheragainwithalongerkiss。
Itwasthesupremelyhappymomentoftheirexperience。The'bloom'
andthe'purplelight'werestrongonthelineamentsofboth。Theirheartscouldhardlybelievetheevidenceoftheirlips。
'Iloveyou,andyouloveme,Cytherea!'hewhispered。
Shedidnotdenyit;andallseemedwell。Thegentlesoundsaroundthemfromthehills,theplains,thedistanttown,theadjacentshore,thewaterheavingattheirside,thekiss,andthelongkiss,wereall'manyavoiceofonedelight,'andinunisonwitheachother。
Buthismindflewbacktothesameunpleasantthoughtwhichhadbeenconnectedwiththeresolutionhehadbrokenaminuteortwoearlier。
'Icouldbeaslaveatmyprofessiontowinyou,Cytherea;Iwouldworkatthemeanest,honesttradetobenearyou——muchlessclaimyouasmine;Iwould——anything。ButIhavenottoldyouall;itisnotthis;youdon'tknowwhatthereisyettotell。Couldyouforgiveasyoucanlove?'Shewasalarmedtoseethathehadbecomepalewiththequestion。
'No——donotspeak,'hesaid。'Ihavekeptsomethingfromyou,whichhasnowbecomethecauseofagreatuneasiness。Ihadnoright——toloveyou;butIdidit。Somethingforbade——'
'What?'sheexclaimed。
'Somethingforbademe——tillthekiss——yes,tillthekisscame;andnownothingshallforbidit!We'llhopeinspiteofall……I
must,however,speakofthisloveofourstoyourbrother。Dearest,youhadbettergoindoorswhilstImeethimatthestation,andexplaineverything。'
Cytherea'sshort-livedblisswasdeadandgone。O,ifshehadknownofthissequelwouldshehaveallowedhimtobreakdownthebarrierofmereacquaintanceship——never,never!
'Willyounotexplaintome?'shefaintlyurged。Doubt——indefinite,carkingdoubthadtakenpossessionofher。
'Notnow。Youalarmyourselfunnecessarily,'hesaidtenderly。'MyonlyreasonforkeepingsilenceisthatwithmypresentknowledgeI
maytellanuntruestory。Itmaybethatthereisnothingtotell。
Iamtoblameforhasteinalludingtoanysuchthing。Forgiveme,sweet——forgiveme。'Herheartwasreadytoburst,andshecouldnotanswerhim。Hereturnedtohisplaceandtooktotheoars。
TheyagainmadeforthedistantEsplanade,now,withitslineofhouses,lyinglikeadarkgreybandagainstthelightwesternsky。
Thesunhadset,andastarortwobegantopeepout。Theydrewnearertheirdestination,Edwardashepulledtracinglistlesslywithhiseyestheredstripesuponherscarf,whichgrewtoappearasblackonesintheincreasingduskofevening。Shesurveyedthelonglineoflampsonthesea-wallofthetown,nowlookingsmallandyellow,andseemingtosendlongtap-rootsoffirequiveringdowndeepintothesea。By-and-bytheyreachedthelanding-steps。
Hetookherhandasbefore,andfounditascoldasthewateraboutthem。Itwasnotrelinquishedtillhereachedherdoor。Hisassurancehadnotremovedtheconstraintofhermanner:hesawthatsheblamedhimmutelyandwithhereyes,likeacapturedsparrow。
Leftalone,hewentandseatedhimselfinachairontheEsplanade。
Neithercouldshegoindoorstohersolitaryroom,feelingasshedidinsuchastateofdesperateheaviness。WhenSpringrovewasoutofsightsheturnedback,andarrivedatthecornerjustintimetoseehimsitdown。Thensheglidedpensivelyalongthepavementbehindhim,forgettingherselftomarblelikeMelancholyherselfasshemusedinhisneighbourhoodunseen。Sheheard,withoutheeding,thenotesofpianosandsingingvoicesfromthefashionablehousesatherback,fromtheopenwindowsofwhichthelamp-lightstreamedtojointhatoftheorange-huedfullmoon,newlyrisenovertheBayinfront。ThenEdwardbegantopaceupanddown,andCytherea,fearingthathewouldnoticeher,hastenedhomeward,flinginghimalastlookasshepassedoutofsight。Nopromisefromhimtowrite:
norequestthatsheherselfwoulddoso——nothingbutanindefiniteexpressionofhopeinthefaceofsomefearunknowntoher。Alas,alas!
WhenOwenreturnedhefoundshewasnotinthesmallsitting-room,andcreepingupstairsintoherbedroomwithalight,hediscoveredhertherelyingasleepuponthecoverletofthebed,stillwithherhatandjacketon。Shehadflungherselfdownonentering,andsuccumbedtotheunwontedoppressivenessthateverattendsfull-
blownlove。Thewettracesoftearswereyetvisibleuponherlongdroopinglashes。
'Loveisasowredelight,andsugredgriefe,Alivingdeath,andever-dyinglife。'
'Cytherea,'hewhispered,kissingher。Sheawokewithastart,andventedanexclamationbeforerecoveringherjudgment。'He'sgone!'
shesaid。
'Hehastoldmeall,'saidGrayesoothingly。'Heisgoingoffearlyto-morrowmorning。'Twasashameofhimtowinyouawayfromme,andcruelofyoutokeepthegrowthofthisattachmentasecret。'
'Wecouldn'thelpit,'shesaid,andthenjumpingup——'Owen,hashetoldyouALL?'
'Allofyourlovefrombeginningtoend,'hesaidsimply。
Edwardthenhadnottoldmore——asheoughttohavedone:yetshecouldnotconvicthim。Butshewouldstruggleagainsthisfetters。
Shetingledtotheverysolesofherfeetattheverypossibilitythathemightbedeludingher。
'Owen,'shecontinued,withdignity,'whatishetome?Nothing。I
mustdismisssuchweaknessasthis——believeme,Iwill。Somethingfarmorepressingmustdriveitaway。Ihavebeenlookingmypositionsteadilyintheface,andImustgetalivingsomehow。I
meantoadvertiseoncemore。'
'Advertisingisnouse。'
'Thisonewillbe。'Helookedsurprisedatthesanguinetoneofheranswer,tillshetookapieceofpaperfromthetableandshowedithim。'SeewhatIamgoingtodo,'shesaidsadly,almostbitterly。
Thiswasherthirdeffort:——
'LADY'S-MAID。Inexperienced。Ageeighteen——G。,3CrossStreet,Budmouth。'
Owen——Owentherespectable——lookedblankastonishment。Herepeatedinanameless,varyingtone,thetwowords——
'Lady's-maid!'
'Yes;lady's-maid。'Tisanhonestprofession,'saidCythereabravely。
'ButYOU,Cytherea?'
'Yes,I——whoamI?'
'Youwillneverbealady's-maid——never,Iamquitesure。'
'Ishalltrytobe,atanyrate。'
'Suchadisgrace——'
'Nonsense!Imaintainthatitisnodisgrace!'shesaid,ratherwarmly。'Youknowverywell——'
'Well,sinceyouwill,youmust,'heinterrupted。'Whydoyouput“inexperienced?”'
'BecauseIam。'
'Nevermindthat——scratchout“inexperienced。“Wearepoor,Cytherea,aren'twe?'hemurmured,afterasilence,'anditseemsthatthetwomonthswillclosemyengagementhere。'
'Wecanputupwithbeingpoor,'shesaid,'iftheyonlygiveusworktodo……Yes,wedesireasablessingwhatwasgivenusasacurse,andeventhatisdenied。However,becheerful,Owen,andnevermind!'
Injusticetodespondingmen,itisaswelltorememberthatthebrighterenduranceofwomenattheseepochs——invaluable,sweet,angelic,asitis——owesmoreofitsorigintoanarrowervisionthatshutsoutmanyoftheleaden-eyeddespairsinthevan,thantoahopefulnessintenseenoughtoquellthem。
IV。THEEVENTSOFONEDAY
1。AUGUSTTHEFOURTH。TILLFOURO'CLOCK
TheearlypartofthenextweekbroughtananswertoCytherea'slastnoteofhopeinthewayofadvertisement——notfromadistanceofhundredsofmiles,London,Scotland,Ireland,theContinent——asCythereaseemedtothinkitmust,tobeinkeepingwiththemeansadoptedforobtainingit,butfromaplaceintheneighbourhoodofthatinwhichshewasliving——acountrymansionnottwentymilesoff。Thereplyranthus:——
KNAPWATERHOUSE,August3,1864。
'MissAldclyffeisinwantofayoungpersonaslady's-maid。Thedutiesoftheplacearelight。MissAldclyffewillbeinBudmouthonThursday,whenshouldG。stillnothaveheardofaplaceshewouldliketoseeherattheBelvedereHotel,Esplanade,atfouro'clock。Noanswerneedbereturnedtothisnote。'
Alittleearlierthanthetimenamed,Cytherea,clothedinamodestbonnet,andablacksilkjacket,turneddowntothehotel。
Expectation,thefreshairfromthewater,thebright,far-extendingoutlook,raisedthemostdelicateofpinkcolourstohercheeks,andrestoredtohertreadaportionofthatelasticitywhichherpasttroubles,andthoughtsofEdward,hadwell-nightakenaway。
Sheenteredthevestibule,andwenttothewindowofthebar。
'IsMissAldclyffehere?'shesaidtoanicely-dressedbarmaidintheforeground,whowastalkingtoalandladycoveredwithchains,knobs,andclampsofgold,inthebackground。
'No,sheisn't,'saidthebarmaid,notverycivilly。Cytherealookedashadetooprettyforaplaindresser。
'MissAldclyffeisexpectedhere,'thelandladysaidtoathirdperson,outofsight,inthetoneofonewhohadknownforseveraldaysthefactnewlydiscoveredfromCytherea。'Getreadyherroom——
bequick。'Fromthealacritywithwhichtheorderwasgivenandtaken,itseemedtoCythereathatMissAldclyffemustbeawomanofconsiderableimportance。
'YouaretohaveaninterviewwithMissAldclyffehere?'thelandladyinquired。
'Yes。'
'Theyoungpersonhadbetterwait,'continuedthelandlady。Withamoney-taker'sintuitionshehadrightlydivinedthatCythereawouldbringnoprofittothehouse。
Cythereawasshownintoanondescriptchamber,ontheshadysideofthebuilding,whichappearedtobeeitherbedroomordayroom,asoccasionnecessitated,andwasoneofasuiteattheendofthefirst-floorcorridor。Theprevailingcolourofthewalls,curtains,carpet,andcoveringsoffurniture,wasmoreorlessblue,towhichthecoldlightcomingfromthenortheasterlysky,andfallingonawideroofofnewslates——theonlyobjectthesmallwindowcommanded——
impartedamorestrikingpaleness。Butunderneaththedoor,communicatingwiththenextroomofthesuite,gleamedaninfinitesimallysmall,yetverypowerful,fractionofcontrast——averythinlineofruddylight,showingthatthesunbeamedstronglyintothisroomadjoining。Thelineofradiancewastheonlycheeringthingvisibleintheplace。
Peoplegivewaytoveryinfantinethoughtsandactionswhentheywait;thebattle-fieldoflifeistemporarilyfencedoffbyahardandfastline——theinterview。Cythereafixedhereyesidlyuponthestreak,andbeganpicturingawonderfulparadiseontheothersideasthesourceofsuchabeam——remindingherofthewell-knowngooddeedinanaughtyworld。
Whilstshewatchedtheparticlesofdustfloatingbeforethebrilliantchinksheheardacarriageandhorsesstopoppositethefrontofthehouse。Afterwardscametherustleofalady'sskirtsdownthecorridor,andintotheroomcommunicatingwiththeoneCythereaoccupied。
Thegoldenlinevanishedinpartslikethephosphorescentstreakcausedbythestrikingofamatch;therewasthefallofalightfootsteponthefloorjustbehindit:thenapause。Thenthefoottappedimpatiently,and'There'snoonehere!'wasspokenimperiouslybyalady'stongue。
'No,madam;inthenextroom。Iamgoingtofetchher,'saidtheattendant。
'Thatwilldo——oryouneedn'tgoin;Iwillcallher。'
Cythereahadrisen,andsheadvancedtothemiddledoorwiththechinkunderitastheservantretired。Shehadjustlaidherhandontheknob,whenitslippedroundwithinherfingers,andthedoorwaspulledopenfromtheotherside。
2。FOURO'CLOCK
Thedirectblazeoftheafternoonsun,partlyrefractedthroughthecrimsoncurtainsofthewindow,andheightenedbyreflectionsfromthecrimson-flockpaperwhichcoveredthewalls,andacarpetonthefloorofthesametint,shonewithaburningglowroundtheformofaladystandingclosetoCytherea'sfrontwiththedoorinherhand。
Thestrangerappearedtothemaiden'seyes——freshfromthebluegloom,andassistedbyanimaginationfreshfromnature——likeatallblackfigurestandinginthemidstoffire。Itwasthefigureofafinely-builtwoman,ofsparethoughnotangularproportions。
Cythereainvoluntarilyshadedhereyeswithherhand,retreatedasteportwo,andthenshecouldforthefirsttimeseeMissAldclyffe'sfaceinadditiontoheroutline,litupbythesecondaryandsofterlightthatwasreflectedfromthevarnishedpanelsofthedoor。Shewasnotaveryyoungwoman,butcouldboastofmuchbeautyofthemajesticautumnalphase。
'O,'saidthelady,'comethisway。'Cythereafollowedhertotheembrasureofthewindow。
Boththewomenshowedoffthemselvestoadvantageastheywalkedforwardintheorangelight;andeachshowedtooinherfacethatshehadbeenstruckwithhercompanion'sappearance。ThewarmtintaddedtoCytherea'sfaceavoluptuousnesswhichyouthandasimplelifehadnotyetallowedtoexpressitselfthereordinarily;whilstintheelderlady'sfaceitreducedthecustomaryexpression,whichmighthavebeencalledsternness,ifnotharshness,tograndeur,andwarmedherdecayingcomplexionwithmuchoftheyouthfulrichnessitplainlyhadoncepossessed。
Sheappearednownomorethanfive-and-thirty,thoughshemighteasilyhavebeentenoradozenyearsolder。Shehadclearsteadyeyes,aRomannoseinitspurestform,andalsotheroundprominentchinwithwhichtheCaesarsarerepresentedinancientmarbles;amouthexpressingacapabilityforandtendencytostrongemotion,habituallycontrolledbypride。Therewasaseverityabouttheloweroutlinesofthefacewhichgaveamasculinecasttothisportionofhercountenance。Womanlyweaknesswasnowherevisiblesaveinonepart——thecurveofherforeheadandbrows——thereitwasclearandemphatic。Sheworealaceshawloverabrownsilkdress,andanetbonnetsetwithafewbluecornflowers。
'Youinsertedtheadvertisementforasituationaslady's-maidgivingtheaddress,G。,CrossStreet?'
'Yes,madam。Graye。'
'Yes。Ihaveheardyourname——Mrs。Morris,myhousekeeper,mentionedyou,andpointedoutyouradvertisement。'
Thiswaspuzzlingintelligence,buttherewasnottimeenoughtoconsiderit。
'Wheredidyoulivelast?'continuedMissAldclyffe。
'Ihaveneverbeenaservantbefore。Ilivedathome。'
'Neverbeenout?Ithoughttooatsightofyouthatyouweretoogirlish-lookingtohavedonemuch。Butwhydidyouadvertisewithsuchassurance?Itmisleadspeople。'
'Iamverysorry:Iput“inexperienced“atfirst,butmybrothersaiditisabsurdtotrumpetyourownweaknesstotheworld,andwouldnotletitremain。'
'Butyourmotherknewwhatwasright,Isuppose?'
'Ihavenomother,madam。'
'Yourfather,then?'
'Ihavenofather。'
'Well,'shesaid,moresoftly,'yoursisters,aunts,orcousins。'
'Theydidn'tthinkanythingaboutit。'
'Youdidn'taskthem,Isuppose。'
'No。'
'Youshouldhavedoneso,then。Whydidn'tyou?'
'BecauseIhaven'tanyofthem,either。'
MissAldclyffeshowedhersurprise。'Youdeserveforgivenessthenatanyrate,child,'shesaid,inasortofdrily-kindtone。
'However,Iamafraidyoudonotsuitme,asIamlookingforanelderlyperson。Yousee,Iwantanexperiencedmaidwhoknowsalltheusualdutiesoftheoffice。'Shewasgoingtoadd,'ThoughI
likeyourappearance,'butthewordsseemedoffensivetoapplytotheladylikegirlbeforeher,andshemodifiedthemto,'thoughI
likeyoumuch。'
'IamsorryImisledyou,madam,'saidCytherea。
MissAldclyffestoodinareverie,withoutreplying。
'Goodafternoon,'continuedCytherea。
'Good-bye,MissGraye——Ihopeyouwillsucceed。'
Cythereaturnedawaytowardsthedoor。Themovementchancedtobeoneofhermasterpieces。Itwasprecise:ithadasmuchbeautyaswascompatiblewithprecision,andaslittlecoquettishnessaswascompatiblewithbeauty。
Andshehadinturninglookedoverhershoulderattheotherladywithafaintaccentofreproachinherface。ThosewhorememberGreuze's'HeadofaGirl,'haveanideaofCytherea'slookaskanceattheturning。Itisnotforamantotellfishersofmenhowtosetouttheirfascinationssoastobringaboutthehighestpossibleaverageoftakeswithintheyear:buttheactionthattugsthehardestofallatanemotionalbeholderisthissweetmethodofturningwhichstealsthebosomawayandleavestheeyesbehind。
NowMissAldclyffeherselfwasnotyroatwheeling。WhenCythereahadclosedthedooruponher,sheremainedforsometimeinhermotionlessattitude,listeningtothegraduallydyingsoundofthemaiden'sretreatingfootsteps。Shemurmuredtoherself,'Itisalmostworthwhiletobeboredwithinstructingherinordertohaveacreaturewhocouldglideroundmyluxuriousindolentbodyinthatmanner,andlookatmeinthatway——Iwarranthowlightherfingersareuponone'sheadandneck……Whatasillymodestyoungthingsheis,togoawaysosuddenlyasthat!'Sherangthebell。
'Asktheyoungladywhohasjustleftmetostepbackagain,'shesaidtotheattendant。'Quick!orshewillbegone。'
Cythereawasnowinthevestibule,thinkingthatifshehadtoldherhistory,MissAldclyffemightperhapshavetakenherintothehousehold;yetherhistorysheparticularlywishedtoconcealfromastranger。Whenshewasrecalledsheturnedbackwithoutfeelingmuchsurprise。Something,sheknewnotwhat,toldhershehadnotseenthelastofMissAldclyffe。
'Youhavesomebodytorefermeto,ofcourse,'theladysaid,whenCythereahadre-enteredtheroom。
'Yes:Mr。Thorn,asolicitoratAldbrickham。'
'Andareyouacleverneedlewoman?'
'Iamconsideredtobe。'
'ThenIthinkthatatanyrateIwillwritetoMr。Thorn,'saidMissAldclyffe,withalittlesmile。'Itistrue,thewholeproceedingisveryirregular;butmypresentmaidleavesnextMonday,andneitherofthefiveIhavealreadyseenseemtodoforme……
Well,IwillwritetoMr。Thorn,andifhisreplyissatisfactory,youshallhearfromme。ItwillbeaswelltosetyourselfinreadinesstocomeonMonday。'
WhenCythereahadagainbeenwatchedoutoftheroom,MissAldclyffeaskedforwritingmaterials,thatshemightatoncecommunicatewithMr。Thorn。Sheindecisivelyplayedwiththepen。'SupposeMr。
Thorn'sreplytobeinanywaydisheartening——andevenifsofromhisownimperfectacquaintancewiththeyoungcreaturemorethanfromcircumstantialknowledge——Ishallfeelobligedtogiveherup。
ThenIshallregretthatIdidnotgiveheronetrialinspiteofotherpeople'sprejudices。Allheraccountofherselfisreliableenough——yes,Icanseethatbyherface。Ilikethatfaceofhers。'
MissAldclyffeputdownthepenandleftthehotelwithoutwritingtoMr。Thorn。
V。THEEVENTSOFONEDAY
1。AUGUSTTHEEIGHTH。MORNINGANDAFTERNOON
Atpost-timeonthatfollowingMondaymorning,Cythereawatchedsoanxiouslyforthepostman,thatasthetimewhichmustbringhimnarrowedlessandlesshervividexpectationhadonlyadegreelesstangibilitythanhispresenceitself。Inanothersecondhisformcameintoview。HebroughttwolettersforCytherea。
OnefromMissAldclyffe,simplystatingthatshewishedCythereatocomeontrial:thatshewouldrequirehertobeatKnapwaterHousebyMondayevening。
TheotherwasfromEdwardSpringrove。Hetoldherthatshewasthebrightspotofhislife:thatherexistencewasfardearertohimthanhisown:thathehadneverknownwhatitwastolovetillhehadmether。True,hehadfeltpassingattachmentstootherfacesfromtimetotime;buttheyallhadbeenweakinclinationstowardsthosefacesastheythenappeared。Helovedherpastandfuture,aswellasherpresent。Hepicturedherasachild:helovedher。Hepicturedherofsageyears:helovedher。Hepicturedherintrouble;helovedher。Homelyfriendshipenteredintohisloveforher,withoutwhichalllovewasevanescent。
Hewouldmakeonedepressingstatement。Uncontrollablecircumstancesalonghistory,withwhichitwasimpossibletoacquaintheratpresentoperatedtoacertainextentasadraguponhiswishes。Hehadfeltthismorestronglyatthetimeoftheirpartingthanhedidnow——anditwasthecauseofhisabruptbehaviour,forwhichhebeggedhertoforgivehim。Hesawnowanhonourablewayoffreeinghimself,andtheperceptionhadpromptedhimtowrite。Inthemeantimemightheindulgeinthehopeofpossessingheronsomebrightfutureday,whenbyhardlabourgeneratedfromherownencouragingwords,hehadplacedhimselfinapositionshewouldthinkworthytobesharedwithhim?
Dearlittleletter;shehuddleditup。Somuchmoreimportantalove-letterseemstoagirlthantoaman。Springrovewasunconsciouslycleverinhisletters,andamanwithatalentofthatkindmaywritehimselfuptoaherointhemindofayoungwomanwholoveshimwithoutknowingmuchabouthim。Springrovealreadystoodacubithigherinherimaginationthanhedidinhisshoes。
Duringthedaysheflittedabouttheroominanecstasyofpleasure,packingthethingsandthinkingofananswerwhichshouldbeworthyofthetendertoneofthequestion,herlovebubblingfromherinvoluntarily,likeprophesyingsfromaprophet。
IntheafternoonOwenwentwithhertotherailway-station,andputherinthetrainforCarrifordRoad,thestationnearesttoKnapwaterHouse。
Half-an-hourlatershesteppedoutupontheplatform,andfoundnobodytheretoreceiveher——thoughapony-carriagewaswaitingoutside。Intwominutesshesawamelancholymanincheerfulliveryrunningtowardsherfromapublic-housecloseadjoining,whoprovedtobetheservantsenttofetchher。Therearetwowaysofgettingridofsorrows:onebylivingthemdown,theotherbydrowningthem。Thecoachmandrownedhis。
Heinformedherthatherluggagewouldbefetchedbyaspring-waggoninabouthalf-an-hour;thenhelpedherintothechaiseanddroveoff。
Herlover'sletter,lyingcloseagainstherneck,fortifiedheragainsttherestlesstimidityshehadpreviouslyfeltconcerningthisnewundertaking,andcompletelyfurnishedherwiththeconfidenteaseofmindwhichisrequiredforthecriticalobservationofsurroundingobjects。Itwasjustthatstageintheslowdeclineofthesummerdays,whenthedeep,dark,andvacuoushot-weathershadowsarebeginningtobereplacedbyblueonesthathaveasurfaceandsubstancetotheeye。Theytrottedalongtheturnpikeroadforadistanceofaboutamile,whichbroughtthemjustoutsidethevillageofCarriford,andthenturnedthroughlargelodge-gates,ontheheavystonepiersofwhichstoodapairofbitternscastinbronze。Theythenenteredtheparkandwoundalongadriveshadedbyoldanddroopinglime-trees,notarrangedintheformofanavenue,butstandingirregularly,sometimesleavingthetrackcompletelyexposedtothesky,atothertimescastingashadeoverit,whichalmostapproachedgloom——theundersurfaceofthelowestboughshangingatauniformlevelofsixfeetabovethegrass——theextremeheighttowhichthenibblingmouthsofthecattlecouldreach。
'Isthatthehouse?'saidCythereaexpectantly,catchingsightofagreygablebetweenthetrees,andlosingitagain。
'No;that'stheoldmanor-house——orratherallthat'sleftofit。
TheAldycliffesusedtoletitsometimes,butitwasoftenerempty。
'Tisnowdividedintothreecottages。Respectablepeopledidn'tcaretolivethere。'
'Whydidn'tthey?'
'Well,'tissoawkwardandunhandy。Youseesomuchofithasbeenpulleddown,andtheroomsthatareleftwon'tdoverywellforasmallresidence。'Tissodismal,too,andlikemostoldhousesstandstoolowdowninthehollowtobehealthy。'
'Dotheytellanyhorridstoriesaboutit?'
'No,notasingleone。'
'Ah,that'sapity。'
'Yes,that'swhatIsay。'Tisjestthehouseforaniceghastlyhair-on-endstory,thatwouldmaketheparishreligious。Perhapsitwillhaveonesomedaytomakeitcomplete;butthere'snotawordofthekindnow。There,Iwouldn'tlivethereforallthat。Infact,Icouldn't。Ono,Icouldn't。'
'Whycouldn'tyou?'
'Thesounds。'
'Whatarethey?'
'Oneisthewaterfall,whichstandssoclosebythatyoucanhearthattherewaterfallineveryroomofthehouse,nightorday,illorwell。'Tisenoughtodriveanybodymad:nowhark。'
Hestoppedthehorse。Abovetheslightcommonsoundsintheaircametheunvaryingsteadyrushoffallingwaterfromsomespotunseenonaccountofthethickfoliageofthegrove。
'There'ssomethingawfulinthetimingo'thatsound,ain'tthere,miss?'
'Whenyousaythereis,therereallyseemstobe。Yousaidthereweretwo——whatistheotherhorridsound?'
'Thepumping-engine。That'sclosebytheOldHouse,andsendswaterupthehillandallovertheGreatHouse。Weshallhearthatdirectly……There,nowharkagain。'
Fromthesamedirectiondownthedelltheycouldnowhearthewhistlingcreakofcranks,repeatedatintervalsofhalf-a-minute,withasousingnoisebetweeneach:acreak,asouse,thenanothercreak,andsooncontinually。
'Nowifanybodycouldmakeshifttolivethroughtheothersounds,thesewouldfinishhimoff,don'tyouthinkso,miss?Thatmachinegoesonnightandday,summerandwinter,andishardlyevergreasedorvisited。Ah,ittriesthenervesatnight,especiallyifyouarenotverywell;thoughwedon'toftenhearitattheGreatHouse。'
'Thatsoundiscertainlyverydismal。Theymighthavethewheelgreased。DoesMissAldclyffetakeanyinterestinthesethings?'
'Well,scarcely;youseeherfatherdoesn'tattendtothatsortofthingasheusedto。Theenginewasoncequitehishobby。Butnowhe'sgettenoldandveryseldomgoesthere。'
'Howmanyarethereinfamily?'
'Onlyherfatherandherself。He'sa'oldmanofseventy。'
'IhadthoughtthatMissAldclyffewassolemistressoftheproperty,andlivedherealone。'
'No,m——'Thecoachmanwascontinuallycheckinghimselfthus,beingabouttostylehermissinvoluntarily,andthenrecollectingthathewasonlyspeakingtothenewlady's-maid。
'Shewillsoonbemistress,however,Iamafraid,'hecontinued,asifspeakingbyaspiritofprophecydeniedtoordinaryhumanity。
'Thepooroldgentlemanhasdecayedveryfastlately。'Themanthendrewalongbreath。
'Whydidyoubreathesadlylikethat?'saidCytherea。
'Ah!……Whenhe'sdeadpeacewillbealloverwithusoldservants。Iexpecttoseetheoldhouseturnedinsideout。'
'Shewillmarry,doyoumean?'
'Marry——notshe!Iwishshewould。No,inhersoulshe'sassolitaryasRobinsonCrusoe,thoughshehasacquaintancesinplenty,ifnotrelations。There'stherector,Mr。Raunham——he'sarelationbymarriage——yetshe'squitedistanttowardshim。AndpeoplesaythatifshekeepssingletherewillbehardlyalifebetweenMr。
Raunhamandtheheirshipoftheestate。Dangit,shedon'tcare。