Herconscience,however,wasnotaDrouet,interestedtopraise。
Theresheheardadifferentvoice,withwhichsheargued,pleaded,excused。Itwasnojustandsapientcounsellor,inits,lastanalysis。Itwasonlyanaveragelittleconscience,athing,whichrepresentedtheworld,herpastenvironment,habit,convention,inaconfusedway。Withit,thevoiceofthepeople,wastrulythevoiceofGod。
“Oh,thoufailure!”saidthevoice。
“Why?”shequestioned。
“Lookatthoseabout,“camethewhisperedanswer。“Lookatthose,whoaregood。Howwouldtheyscorntodowhatyouhavedone。
Lookatthegoodgirls;howwilltheydrawawayfromsuchasyou,whentheyknowyouhavebeenweak。Youhadnottriedbeforeyou,failed。”
ItwaswhenCarriewasalone,lookingoutacrossthepark,that,shewouldbelisteningtothis。Itwouldcomeinfrequently——when,somethingelsedidnotinterfere,whenthepleasantsidewasnot,tooapparent,whenDrouetwasnotthere。Itwassomewhatclear,inutteranceatfirst,butneverwhollyconvincing。Therewas,alwaysananswer,alwaystheDecemberdaysthreatened。Shewas,alone;shewasdesireful;shewasfearfulofthewhistlingwind。
Thevoiceofwantmadeanswerforher。
Oncethebrightdaysofsummerpassby,acitytakesonthat,sombregarbofgrey,wraptinwhichitgoesaboutitslabours,duringthelongwinter。Itsendlessbuildingslookgrey,itssky,anditsstreetsassumeasombrehue;thescattered,leafless,treesandwind-blowndustandpaperbutaddtothegeneral,solemnityofcolour。Thereseemstobesomethinginthechill,breezeswhichscurrythroughthelong,narrowthoroughfares,productiveofruefulthoughts。Notpoetsalone,norartists,nor,thatsuperiororderofmindwhicharrogatestoitselfall,refinement,feelthis,butdogsandallmen。Thesefeelasmuch,asthepoet,thoughtheyhavenotthesamepowerofexpression。
Thesparrowuponthewire,thecatinthedoorway,thedrayhorse,tugginghiswearyload,feelthelong,keenbreathsofwinter。
Itstrikestotheheartofalllife,animateandinanimate。If,itwerenotfortheartificialfiresofmerriment,therushof,profit-seekingtrade,andpleasure-sellingamusements;ifthe,variousmerchantsfailedtomakethecustomarydisplaywithinand,withouttheirestablishments;ifourstreetswerenotstrungwith,signsofgorgeoushuesandthrongedwithhurryingpurchasers,we,wouldquicklydiscoverhowfirmlythechillhandofwinterlays,upontheheart;howdispiritingarethedaysduringwhichthesun,withholdsaportionofourallowanceoflightandwarmth。Weare,moredependentuponthesethingsthanisoftenthought。Weare,insectsproducedbyheat,andpasswithoutit。
Inthedragofsuchagreydaythesecretvoicewouldreassert,itself,feeblyandmorefeebly。
Suchmentalconflictwasnotalwaysuppermost。Carriewasnotby,anymeansagloomysoul。More,shehadnotthemindtogetfirm,holduponadefinitetruth。Whenshecouldnotfindherwayout,ofthelabyrinthofill-logicwhichthoughtuponthesubject,created,shewouldturnawayentirely。
Drouet,allthetime,wasconductinghimselfinamodelwayfor,oneofhissort。Hetookheraboutagreatdeal,spentmoney,uponher,andwhenhetravelledtookherwithhim。Therewere,timeswhenshewouldbealonefortwoorthreedays,whilehe,madetheshortercircuitsofhisbusiness,but,asarule,she,sawagreatdealofhim。
“Say,Carrie,“hesaidonemorning,shortlyaftertheyhadso,establishedthemselves,“I’veinvitedmyfriendHurstwoodtocome,outsomedayandspendtheeveningwithus。”
“Whoishe?”askedCarrie。doubtfully。
“Oh,he’saniceman。He’smanagerofFitzgeraldandMoy’s。”
“What’sthat?”saidCarrie。
“Thefinestresortintown。It’saway-up,swellplace。”
Carriepuzzledamoment。ShewaswonderingwhatDrouethadtold,him,whatherattitudewouldbe。
“That’sallright,“saidDrouet,feelingherthought。“Hedoesn’t,knowanything。You’reMrs。Drouetnow。”
TherewassomethingaboutthiswhichstruckCarrieasslightly,inconsiderate。ShecouldseethatDrouetdidnothavethe,keenestsensibilities。
“Whydon’twegetmarried?”sheinquired,thinkingofthevoluble,promiseshehadmade。
“Well,wewill,“hesaid,“justassoonasIgetthislittledeal,ofmineclosedup。”
Hewasreferringtosomepropertywhichhesaidhehad,andwhich,requiredsomuchattention,adjustment,andwhatnot,that,somehoworotheritinterferedwithhisfreemoral,personal,actions。
“JustassoonasIgetbackfrommyDenvertripinJanuarywe’ll,doit。”
Carrieacceptedthisasbasisforhope——itwasasortofsalveto,herconscience,apleasantwayout。Underthecircumstances,thingswouldberighted。Heractionswouldbejustified。
ShereallywasnotenamouredofDrouet。Shewasmorecleverthan,he。Inadimway,shewasbeginningtoseewherehelacked。If,ithadnotbeenforthis,ifshehadnotbeenabletomeasureand,judgehiminaway,shewouldhavebeenworseoffthanshewas。
Shewouldhaveadoredhim。Shewouldhavebeenutterlywretched,inherfearofnotgaininghisaffection,oflosinghisinterest,ofbeingsweptawayandleftwithoutananchorage。Asitwas,shewaveredalittle,slightlyanxious,atfirst,togainhim,completely,butlaterfeelingateaseinwaiting。Shewasnot,exactlysurewhatshethoughtofhim——whatshewantedtodo。
WhenHurstwoodcalled,shemetamanwhowasmorecleverthan,Drouetinahundredways。Hepaidthatpeculiardeferenceto,womenwhicheverymemberofthesexappreciates。Hewasnot,overawed,hewasnotoverbold。Hisgreatcharmwas,attentiveness。Schooledinwinningthosebirdsoffinefeather,amonghisownsex,themerchantsandprofessionalswhovisited,hisresort,hecoulduseevengreatertactwhenendeavouringto,proveagreeabletosomeonewhocharmedhim。Inaprettywoman,ofanyrefinementoffeelingwhatsoeverhefoundhisgreatest,incentive。Hewasmild,placid,assured,givingtheimpression,thathewishedtobeofserviceonly——todosomethingwhichwould,maketheladymorepleased。
Drouethadabilityinthislinehimselfwhenthegamewasworth,thecandle,buthewastoomuchtheegotisttoreachthepolish,whichHurstwoodpossessed。Hewastoobuoyant,toofullofruddy,life,tooassured。Hesucceededwithmanywhowerenotquite,schooledintheartoflove。Hefaileddismallywherethewoman,wasslightlyexperiencedandpossessedinnaterefinement。Inthe,caseofCarriehefoundawomanwhowasallofthelatter,but,noneoftheformer。Hewasluckyinthefactthatopportunity,tumbledintohislap,asitwere。Afewyearslater,witha,littlemoreexperience,theslightesttideofsuccess,andhehad,notbeenabletoapproachCarrieatall。
“Yououghttohaveapianohere,Drouet,“saidHurstwood,smiling,atCarrie,ontheeveninginquestion,“sothatyourwifecould,play。”
Drouethadnotthoughtofthat。
“Soweought,“heobservedreadily。
“Oh,Idon’tplay,“venturedCarrie。
“Itisn’tverydifficult,“returnedHurstwood。”Youcoulddo,verywellinafewweeks。”
Hewasinthebestformforentertainingthisevening。His,clotheswereparticularlynewandrichinappearance。Thecoat,lapelsstoodoutwiththatmediumstiffnesswhichexcellentcloth,possesses。ThevestwasofarichScotchplaid,setwitha,doublerowofroundmother-of-pearlbuttons。Hiscravatwasa,shinycombinationofsilkenthreads,notloud,notinconspicuous。
Whatheworedidnotstriketheeyesoforciblyasthatwhich,Drouethadon,butCarriecouldseetheeleganceofthematerial。
Hurstwood’sshoeswereofsoft,blackcalf,polishedonlytoa,dullshine。DrouetworepatentleatherbutCarriecouldnothelp,feelingthattherewasadistinctioninfavourofthesoft,leather,whereallelsewassorich。Shenoticedthesethings,almostunconsciously。Theywerethingswhichwouldnaturally,flowfromthesituation。ShewasusedtoDrouet’sappearance。
“Supposewehavealittlegameofeuchre?”suggestedHurstwood,afteralightroundofconversation。Hewasratherdexterousin,avoidingeverythingthatwouldsuggestthatheknewanythingof,Carrie’spast。Hekeptawayfrompersonalitiesaltogether,and,confinedhimselftothosethingswhichdidnotconcern,individualsatall。Byhismanner,heputCarrieatherease,andbyhisdeferenceandpleasantriesheamusedher。He,pretendedtobeseriouslyinterestedinallshesaid。
“Idon’tknowhowtoplay,“saidCarrie。
“Charlie,youareneglectingapartofyourduty,“heobservedto,Drouetmostaffably。”Betweenus,though,“hewenton,“wecan,showyou。”
ByhistacthemadeDrouetfeelthatheadmiredhischoice。
Therewassomethinginhismannerthatshowedthathewaspleased,tobethere。Drouetfeltreallyclosertohimthaneverbefore。
ItgavehimmorerespectforCarrie。Herappearancecameintoa,newlight,underHurstwood’sappreciation。Thesituationlivened,considerably。
“Now,letmesee,“saidHurstwood,lookingoverCarrie’sshoulder,verydeferentially。”Whathaveyou?”Hestudiedforamoment。
“That’srathergood,“hesaid。
“You’relucky。Now,I’llshowyouhowtotrounceyourhusband。
Youtakemyadvice。”
“Here,“saidDrouet,“ifyoutwoaregoingtoschemetogether,I
won’tstandaghostofashow。Hurstwood’saregularsharp。”
“No,it’syourwife。Shebringsmeluck。Whyshouldn’tshe,win?”
CarrielookedgratefullyatHurstwood,andsmiledatDrouet。The,formertooktheairofamerefriend。Hewassimplythereto,enjoyhimself。AnythingthatCarriedidwaspleasingtohim,nothingmore。
“There,“hesaid,holdingbackoneofhisowngoodcards,and,givingCarrieachancetotakeatrick。”Icountthatclever,playingforabeginner。”
Thelatterlaughedgleefullyasshesawthehandcomingherway。
ItwasasifshewereinvinciblewhenHurstwoodhelpedher。
Hedidnotlookatheroften。Whenhedid,itwaswithamild,lightinhiseye。Notashadewasthereofanythingsave,genialityandkindness。Hetookbacktheshifty,clevergleam,andreplaceditwithoneofinnocence。Carriecouldnotguess,butthatitwaspleasurewithhimintheimmediatething。She,feltthatheconsideredshewasdoingagreatdeal。
“It’sunfairtoletsuchplayinggowithoutearningsomething,“
hesaidafteratime,slippinghisfingerintothelittlecoin,pocketofhiscoat。”Let’splayfordimes。”
“Allright,“saidDrouet,fishingforbills。
Hurstwoodwasquicker。Hisfingerswerefullofnewten-cent,pieces。”Hereweare,“hesaid,supplyingeachonewithalittle,stack。
“Oh,thisisgambling,“smiledCarrie。”It’sbad。”
“No,“saidDrouet,“onlyfun。Ifyouneverplayformorethan,that,youwillgotoHeaven。”
“Don’tyoumoralise,“saidHurstwoodtoCarriegently,“untilyou,seewhatbecomesofthemoney。”
Drouetsmiled。
“Ifyourhusbandgetsthem,he’lltellyouhowbaditis。”
Drouetlaughedloud。
TherewassuchaningratiatingtoneaboutHurstwood’svoice,the,insinuationwassoperceptiblethatevenCarriegotthehumourof,it。
“Whendoyouleave?”saidHurstwoodtoDrouet。
“OnWednesday,“hereplied。
“It’sratherhardtohaveyourhusbandrunningaboutlikethat,isn’tit?”saidHurstwood,addressingCarrie。
“She’sgoingalongwithmethistime,“saidDrouet。
“Youmustbothgowithmetothetheatrebeforeyougo。”
“Certainly,“saidDrouet。”Eh,Carrie?”
“I’dlikeiteversomuch,“shereplied。
HurstwooddidhisbesttoseethatCarriewonthemoney。He,rejoicedinhersuccess,keptcountingherwinnings,andfinally,gatheredandputtheminherextendedhand。Theyspreadalittle,lunch,atwhichheservedthewine,andafterwardsheusedfine,tactingoing。
“Now,“hesaid,addressingfirstCarrieandthenDrouetwithhis,eyes,“youmustbereadyat7。30。I’llcomeandgetyou。”
Theywentwithhimtothedoorandtherewashiscabwaiting,its,redlampsgleamingcheerfullyintheshadow。
“Now,“heobservedtoDrouet,withatoneofgood-fellowship,“whenyouleaveyourwifealone,youmustletmeshowheraround,alittle。Itwillbreakupherloneliness。”
“Sure,“saidDrouet,quitepleasedattheattentionshown。
“You’resokind,“observedCarrie。
“Notatall,“saidHurstwood,“Iwouldwantyourhusbandtodoas,muchforme。”
Hesmiledandwentlightlyaway。Carriewasthoroughly,impressed。Shehadnevercomeincontactwithsuchgrace。As,forDrouet,hewasequallypleased。
“There’saniceman,“heremarkedtoCarrie,astheyreturnedto,theircoseychamber。”Agoodfriendofmine,too。”
“Heseemstobe,“saidCarrie。
ChapterXI
THEPERSUASIONOFFASHION——FEELINGGUARDSO’ERITSOWN
Carriewasanaptstudentoffortune’sways——offortune’s,superficialities。Seeingathing,shewouldimmediatelysetto,inquiringhowshewouldlook,properlyrelatedtoit。Beit,knownthatthisisnotfinefeeling,itisnotwisdom。The,greatestmindsarenotsoafflicted;andonthecontrary,the,lowestorderofmindisnotsodisturbed。Fineclothestoher,wereavastpersuasion;theyspoketenderlyandJesuiticallyfor,themselves。Whenshecamewithinearshotoftheirpleading,desireinherbentawillingear。Thevoiceoftheso-called,inanimate!,Whoshalltranslateforusthelanguageofthe,stones?
“Mydear,“saidthelacecollarshesecuredfromPartridge’s,“I
fityoubeautifully;don’tgivemeup。”
“Ah,suchlittlefeet,“saidtheleatherofthesoftnewshoes;
“howeffectivelyIcoverthem。Whatapitytheyshouldeverwant,myaid。”
Oncethesethingswereinherhand,onherperson,shemight,dreamofgivingthemup;themethodbywhichtheycamemight,intrudeitselfsoforciblythatshewouldachetoberidofthe,thoughtofit,butshewouldnotgivethemup。”Putontheold,clothes——thattornpairofshoes,“wascalledtoherbyher,conscienceinvain。Shecouldpossiblyhaveconqueredthefear,ofhungerandgoneback;thethoughtofhardworkandanarrow,roundofsufferingwould,underthelastpressureofconscience,haveyielded,butspoilherappearance?——beold-clothedandpoor-
appearing?——never!
Drouetheightenedheropiniononthisandalliedsubjectsinsuch,amannerastoweakenherpowerofresistingtheirinfluence。It,issoeasytodothiswhenthethingopinedisinthelineof,whatwedesire。Inhisheartyway,heinsisteduponhergood,looks。Helookedatheradmiringly,andshetookitatitsfull,value。Underthecircumstances,shedidnotneedtocarry,herselfasprettywomendo。Shepickedthatknowledgeupfast,enoughforherself。Drouethadahabit,characteristicofhis,kind,oflookingafterstylishlydressedorprettywomenonthe,streetandremarkinguponthem。Hehadjustenoughofthe,feminineloveofdresstobeagoodjudge——notofintellect,but,ofclothes。Hesawhowtheysettheirlittlefeet,howthey,carriedtheirchins,withwhatgraceandsinuositytheyswung,theirbodies。Adainty,self-consciousswayingofthehipsbya,womanwastohimasalluringastheglintofrarewinetoa,toper。Hewouldturnandfollowthedisappearingvisionwithhis,eyes。Hewouldthrillasachildwiththeunhinderedpassion,thatwasinhim。Helovedthethingthatwomenlovein,themselves,grace。Atthis,theirownshrine,hekneltwith,them,anardentdevotee。
“Didyouseethatwomanwhowentbyjustnow?”hesaidtoCarrie,onthefirstdaytheytookawalktogether。“Finestepper,wasn’t,she?”
Carrielooked,andobservedthegracecommended。
“Yes,sheis,“shereturned,cheerfully,alittlesuggestionof,possibledefectinherselfawakeninginhermind。Ifthatwasso,fine,shemustlookatitmoreclosely。Instinctively,shefelt,adesiretoimitateit。Surelyshecoulddothattoo。
Whenoneofhermindseesmanythingsemphasizedandre-
emphasizedandadmired,shegathersthelogicofitandapplies,accordingly。Drouetwasnotshrewdenoughtoseethatthiswas,nottactful。Hecouldnotseethatitwouldbebettertomake,herfeelthatshewascompetingwithherself,notothersbetter,thanherself。Hewouldnothavedoneitwithanolder,wiser,woman,butinCarriehesawonlythenovice。Lesscleverthan,she,hewasnaturallyunabletocomprehendhersensibility。He,wentoneducatingandwoundingher,athingratherfoolishinone,whoseadmirationforhispupilandvictimwasapttogrow。
Carrietooktheinstructionsaffably。ShesawwhatDrouetliked;
inavaguewayshesawwherehewasweak。Itlessensawoman’s,opinionofamanwhenshelearnsthathisadmirationisso,pointedlyandgenerouslydistributed。Sheseesbutoneobjectof,supremecomplimentinthisworld,andthatisherself。Ifaman,istosucceedwithmanywomen,hemustbeallinalltoeach。
InherownapartmentsCarriesawthingswhichwerelessonsinthe,sameschool。
Inthesamehousewithherlivedanofficialofoneofthe,theatres,Mr。FrankA。Hale,manageroftheStandard,andhis,wife,apleasing-lookingbrunetteofthirty-five。Theywere,peopleofasortverycommoninAmericatoday,wholive,respectablyfromhandtomouth。Halereceivedasalaryofforty-
fivedollarsaweek。Hiswife,quiteattractive,affectedthe,feelingofyouth,andobjectedtothatsortofhomelifewhich,meansthecareofahouseandtheraisingofafamily。Like,DrouetandCarrie,theyalsooccupiedthreeroomsonthefloor,above。
NotlongaftershearrivedMrs。Haleestablishedsocialrelations,withher,andtogethertheywentabout。Foralongtimethiswas,heronlycompanionship,andthegossipofthemanager’swife,formedthemediumthroughwhichshesawtheworld。Such,trivialities,suchpraisesofwealth,suchconventional,expressionofmoralsassiftedthroughthispassivecreature’s,mind,felluponCarrieandforthewhileconfusedher。
Ontheotherhand,herownfeelingswereacorrectiveinfluence。
Theconstantdragtosomethingbetterwasnottobedenied。By,thosethingswhichaddresstheheartwasshesteadilyrecalled。
Intheapartmentsacrossthehallwereayounggirlandher,mother。TheywerefromEvansville,Indiana,thewifeand,daughterofarailroadtreasurer。Thedaughterwasheretostudy,music,themothertokeephercompany。
Carriedidnotmaketheiracquaintance,butshesawthedaughter,cominginandgoingout。Afewtimesshehadseenheratthe,pianointheparlour,andnotinfrequentlyhadheardherplay。
Thisyoungwomanwasparticularlydressyforherstation,and,woreajewelledringortwowhichflasheduponherwhitefingers,assheplayed。
NowCarriewasaffectedbymusic。Hernervouscomposition,respondedtocertainstrains,muchascertainstringsofaharp,vibratewhenacorrespondingkeyofapianoisstruck。Shewas,delicatelymouldedinsentiment,andansweredwithvague,ruminationstocertainwistfulchords。Theyawokelongingsfor,thosethingswhichshedidnothave。Theycausedhertocling,closertothingsshepossessed。Oneshortsongtheyounglady,playedinamostsoulfulandtendermood。Carrieheardit,throughtheopendoorfromtheparlourbelow。Itwasatthat,hourbetweenafternoonandnightwhen,fortheidle,the,wanderer,thingsareapttotakeonawistfulaspect。Themind,wandersforthonfarjourneysandreturnswithsheavesof,witheredanddepartedjoys。Carriesatatherwindowlooking,out。Drouethadbeenawaysinceteninthemorning。Shehad,amusedherselfwithawalk,abookbyBerthaM。ClaywhichDrouet,hadleftthere,thoughshedidnotwhollyenjoythelatter,and,bychangingherdressfortheevening。Nowshesatlookingout,acrosstheparkaswistfulanddepressedasthenaturewhich,cravesvarietyandlifecanbeundersuchcircumstances。Asshe,contemplatedhernewstate,thestrainfromtheparlourbelow,stoleupward。Withitherthoughtsbecamecolouredandenmeshed。
Sherevertedtothethingswhichwerebestandsaddestwithinthe,smalllimitofherexperience。Shebecameforthemomenta,repentant。
WhileshewasinthismoodDrouetcamein,bringingwithhiman,entirelydifferentatmosphere。ItwasduskandCarriehad,neglectedtolightthelamp。Thefireinthegrate,too,had,burnedlow。
“Whereareyou,Cad?”hesaid,usingapetnamehehadgivenher。
“Here,“sheanswered。
Therewassomethingdelicateandlonelyinhervoice,buthe,couldnothearit。Hehadnotthepoetryinhimthatwouldseek,awomanoutundersuchcircumstancesandconsoleherforthe,tragedyoflife。Instead,hestruckamatchandlightedthegas。
“Hello,“heexclaimed,“you’vebeencrying。”
Hereyeswerestillwetwithafewvaguetears。
“Pshaw,“hesaid,“youdon’twanttodothat。”
Hetookherhand,feelinginhisgood-naturedegotismthatitwas,probablylackofhispresencewhichhadmadeherlonely。
“Comeon,now,“hewenton;“it’sallright。Let’swaltza,littletothatmusic。”
Hecouldnothaveintroducedamoreincongruousproposition。It,madecleartoCarriethathecouldnotsympathisewithher。She,couldnothaveframedthoughtswhichwouldhaveexpressedhis,defectormadeclearthedifferencebetweenthem,butshefelt,it。Itwashisfirstgreatmistake。
WhatDrouetsaidaboutthegirl’sgrace,asshetrippedout,eveningsaccompaniedbyhermother,causedCarrietoperceivethe,natureandvalueofthoselittlemodishwayswhichwomenadopt,whentheywouldpresumetobesomething。Shelookedinthe,mirrorandpursedupherlips,accompanyingitwithalittletoss,ofthehead,asshehadseentherailroadtreasurer’sdaughter,do。Shecaughtupherskirtswithaneasyswing,forhadnot,Drouetremarkedthatinherandseveralothers,andCarriewas,naturallyimitative。Shebegantogetthehangofthoselittle,thingswhichtheprettywomanwhohasvanityinvariablyadopts。
Inshort,herknowledgeofgracedoubled,andwithither,appearancechanged。Shebecameagirlofconsiderabletaste。
Drouetnoticedthis。Hesawthenewbowinherhairandthenew,wayofarrangingherlockswhichsheaffectedonemorning。
“Youlookfinethatway,Cad,“hesaid。
“DoI?”shereplied,sweetly。Itmadehertryforothereffects,thatselfsameday。
Sheusedherfeetlessheavily,athingthatwasbroughtaboutby,herattemptingtoimitatethetreasurer’sdaughter’sgraceful,carriage。Howmuchinfluencethepresenceofthatyoungwomanin,thesamehousehaduponheritwouldbedifficulttosay。But,becauseofallthesethings,whenHurstwoodcalledhehadfounda,youngwomanwhowasmuchmorethantheCarrietowhomDrouethad,firstspoken。Theprimarydefectsofdressandmannerhad,passed。Shewaspretty,graceful,richinthetimiditybornof,uncertainty,andwithasomethingchildlikeinherlargeeyes,whichcapturedthefancyofthisstarchedandconventionalposer,amongmen。Itwastheancientattractionofthefreshforthe,stale。Iftherewasatouchofappreciationleftinhimforthe,bloomandunsophisticationwhichisthecharmofyouth,it,rekindlednow。Helookedintoherprettyfaceandfeltthe,subtlewavesofyoungliferadiatingtherefrom。Inthatlarge,cleareyehecouldseenothingthathisblasenaturecould,understandasguile。Thelittlevanity,ifhecouldhave,perceiveditthere,wouldhavetouchedhimasapleasantthing。
“Iwonder,“hesaid,asherodeawayinhiscab,“howDrouetcame,towinher。”
HegavehercreditforfeelingssuperiortoDrouetatthefirst,glance。
Thecabploppedalongbetweenthefar-recedinglinesofgaslamps,oneitherhand。Hefoldedhisglovedhandsandsawonlythe,lightedchamberandCarrie’sface。Hewasponderingoverthe,delightofyouthfulbeauty。
“I’llhaveabouquetforher,“hethought。”Drouetwon’tmind。”
Heneverforamomentconcealedthefactofherattractionfor,himself。HetroubledhimselfnotatallaboutDrouet’spriority。
Hewasmerelyfloatingthosegossamerthreadsofthoughtwhich,likethespider’s,hehopedwouldlayholdsomewhere。Hedidnot,know,hecouldnotguess,whattheresultwouldbe。
AfewweekslaterDrouet,inhisperegrinations,encounteredone,ofhiswell-dressedladyacquaintancesinChicagoonhisreturn,fromashorttriptoOmaha。Hehadintendedtohurryoutto,OgdenPlaceandsurpriseCarrie,butnowhefellintoan,interestingconversationandsoonmodifiedhisoriginal,intention。
“Let’sgotodinner,“hesaid,littlereckinganychancemeeting,whichmighttroublehisway。
“Certainly,“saidhiscompanion。
Theyvisitedoneofthebetterrestaurantsforasocialchat。It,wasfiveintheafternoonwhentheymet;itwasseven-thirty,beforethelastbonewaspicked。
Drouetwasjustfinishingalittleincidenthewasrelating,and,hisfacewasexpandingintoasmile,whenHurstwood’seyecaught,hisown。Thelatterhadcomeinwithseveralfriends,and,seeingDrouetandsomewoman,notCarrie,drewhisown,conclusion。
“Ah,therascal,“hethought,andthen,withatouchofrighteous,sympathy,“that’sprettyhardonthelittlegirl。”
Drouetjumpedfromoneeasythoughttoanotherashecaught,Hurstwood’seye。Hefeltbutverylittlemisgiving,untilhesaw,thatHurstwoodwascautiouslypretendingnottosee。Thensome,ofthelatter’simpressionforceditselfuponhim。Hethoughtof,Carrieandtheirlastmeeting。ByGeorge,hewouldhaveto,explainthistoHurstwood。Suchachancehalf-hourwithanold,friendmustnothaveanythingmoreattachedtoitthanitreally,warranted。
Forthefirsttimehewastroubled。Herewasamoral,complicationofwhichhecouldnotpossiblygettheends。
Hurstwoodwouldlaughathimforbeingafickleboy。Hewould,laughwithHurstwood。Carriewouldneverhear,hispresent,companionattablewouldneverknow,andyethecouldnothelp,feelingthathewasgettingtheworstofit——therewassomefaint,stigmaattached,andhewasnotguilty。Hebrokeupthedinner,bybecomingdull,andsawhiscompaniononhercar。Thenhewent,home。
“Hehasn’ttalkedtomeaboutanyoftheselaterflames,“thought,Hurstwoodtohimself。”HethinksIthinkhecaresforthegirl,outthere。”
“HeoughtnottothinkI’mknockingaround,sinceIhavejust,introducedhimoutthere,“thoughtDrouet。
“Isawyou,“Hurstwoodsaid,genially,thenexttimeDrouet,driftedintohispolishedresort,fromwhichhecouldnotstay,away。Heraisedhisforefingerindicatively,asparentsdoto,children。
“AnoldacquaintanceofminethatIranintojustasIwascoming,upfromthestation,“explainedDrouet。”Sheusedtobequitea,beauty。”
“Stillattractsalittle,eh?”returnedtheother,affectingto,jest。
“Oh,no,“saidDrouet,“justcouldn’tescapeherthistime。”
“Howlongareyouhere?”askedHurstwood。
“Onlyafewdays。”
“Youmustbringthegirldownandtakedinnerwithme,“hesaid。
“I’mafraidyoukeephercoopedupoutthere。I’llgetaboxfor,JoeJefferson。”
“Notme,“answeredthedrummer。”SureI’llcome。”
ThispleasedHurstwoodimmensely。HegaveDrouetnocreditfor,anyfeelingstowardCarriewhatever。Heenviedhim,andnow,as,helookedatthewell-dressedjollysalesman,whomhesomuch,liked,thegleamoftherivalglowedinhiseye。Hebeganto,“sizeup“Drouetfromthestandpointsofwitandfascination。He,begantolooktoseewherehewasweak。Therewasnodisputing,that,whateverhemightthinkofhimasagoodfellow,hefelta,certainamountofcontemptforhimasalover。Hecouldhoodwink,himallright。Why,ifhewouldjustletCarrieseeonesuch,littleincidentasthatofThursday,itwouldsettlethematter。
Heranoninthought,almostexulting,thewhilehelaughedand,chatted,andDrouetfeltnothing。Hehadnopowerofanalysing,theglanceandtheatmosphereofamanlikeHurstwood。Hestood,andsmiledandacceptedtheinvitationwhilehisfriendexamined,himwiththeeyeofahawk。
Theobjectofthispeculiarlyinvolvedcomedywasnotthinkingof,either。Shewasbusyadjustingherthoughtsandfeelingsto,newerconditions,andwasnotindangerofsufferingdisturbing,pangsfromeitherquarter。
OneeveningDrouetfoundherdressingherselfbeforetheglass。
“Cad,“saidhe,catchingher,“Ibelieveyou’regettingvain。”
“Nothingofthekind,“shereturned,smiling。
“Well,you’remightypretty,“hewenton,slippinghisarmaround,her。”Putonthatnavy-bluedressofyoursandI’lltakeyouto,theshow。”
“Oh,I’vepromisedMrs。HaletogowithhertotheExpositionto-
night,“shereturned,apologetically。
“Youdid,eh?”hesaid,studyingthesituationabstractedly。”I
wouldn’tcaretogotothatmyself。”
“Well,Idon’tknow,“answeredCarrie,puzzling,butnotoffering,tobreakherpromiseinhisfavour。
Justthenaknockcameattheirdoorandthemaidservanthandeda,letterin。
“Hesaysthere’sananswerexpected,“sheexplained。
“It’sfromHurstwood,“saidDrouet,notingthesuperscriptionas,hetoreitopen。
“YouaretocomedownandseeJoeJeffersonwithmeto-night,“it,raninpart。”It’smyturn,asweagreedtheotherday。All,otherbetsareoff。”
“Well,whatdoyousaytothis?”askedDrouet,innocently,while,Carrie’smindbubbledwithfavourablereplies。
“Youhadbetterdecide,Charlie,“shesaid,reservedly。
“Iguesswehadbettergo,ifyoucanbreakthatengagement,upstairs,“saidDrouet。
“Oh,Ican,“returnedCarriewithoutthinking。
DrouetselectedwritingpaperwhileCarriewenttochangeher,dress。Shehardlyexplainedtoherselfwhythislatest,invitationappealedtohermost,“ShallIwearmyhairasIdidyesterday?”sheasked,asshecame,outwithseveralarticlesofapparelpending。
“Sure,“hereturned,pleasantly。
Shewasrelievedtoseethathefeltnothing。Shedidnotcredit,herwillingnesstogotoanyfascinationHurstwoodheldforher。
ItseemedthatthecombinationofHurstwood,Drouet,andherself,wasmoreagreeablethananythingelsethathadbeensuggested。
Shearrayedherselfmostcarefullyandtheystartedoff,extendingexcusesupstairs。
“Isay,“saidHurstwood,astheycameupthetheatrelobby,“we,areexceedinglycharmingthisevening。”
Carrieflutteredunderhisapprovingglance。
“Now,then,“hesaid,leadingthewayupthefoyerintothe,theatre。
Ifevertherewasdressinessitwashere。Itwasthe,personificationoftheoldtermspickandspan。
“DidyoueverseeJefferson?”hequestioned,asheleanedtoward,Carrieinthebox。
“Ineverdid,“shereturned。
“He’sdelightful,delightful,“hewenton,givingthecommonplace,renditionofapprovalwhichsuchmenknow。HesentDrouetafter,aprogramme,andthendiscoursedtoCarrieconcerningJefferson,ashehadheardofhim。Theformerwaspleasedbeyond,expression,andwasreallyhypnotisedbytheenvironment,the,trappingsofthebox,theeleganceofhercompanion。Several,timestheireyesaccidentallymet,andthentherepouredinto,herssuchafloodoffeelingasshehadneverbeforeexperienced。
Shecouldnotforthemomentexplainit,forinthenextglance,orthenextmoveofthehandtherewasseemingindifference,mingledonlywiththekindestattention。
Drouetsharedintheconversation,buthewasalmostdullin,comparison。Hurstwoodentertainedthemboth,andnowitwas,drivenintoCarrie’smindthatherewasthesuperiorman。She,instinctivelyfeltthathewasstrongerandhigher,andyet,withalsosimple。Bytheendofthethirdactshewassurethat,Drouetwasonlyakindlysoul,butotherwisedefective。Hesank,everymomentinherestimationbythestrongcomparison。
“Ihavehadsuchanicetime,“saidCarrie,whenitwasallover,andtheywerecomingout。
“Yes,indeed,“addedDrouet,whowasnotintheleastawarethat,abattlehadbeenfoughtandhisdefencesweakened。Hewaslike,theEmperorofChina,whosatgloryinginhimself,unawarethat,hisfairestprovinceswerebeingwrestedfromhim。
“Well,youhavesavedmeadrearyevening,“returnedHurstwood。
“Good-night。”
HetookCarrie’slittlehand,andacurrentoffeelingsweptfrom,onetotheother。
“I’msotired,“saidCarrie,leaningbackinthecarwhenDrouet,begantotalk。
“Well,yourestalittlewhileIsmoke,“hesaid,rising,and,thenhefoolishlywenttotheforwardplatformofthecarand,leftthegameasitstood。
ChapterXII
OFTHELAMPSOFTHEMANSIONS——THEAMBASSADORPLEA
Mrs。Hurstwoodwasnotawareofanyofherhusband’smoral,defections,thoughshemightreadilyhavesuspectedhis,tendencies,whichshewellunderstood。Shewasawomanupon,whoseactionunderprovocationyoucouldnevercount。Hurstwood,forone,hadnottheslightestideaofwhatshewoulddounder,certaincircumstances。Hehadneverseenherthoroughlyaroused。
Infact,shewasnotawomanwhowouldflyintoapassion。She,hadtoolittlefaithinmankindnottoknowthattheywere,erring。Shewastoocalculatingtojeopardizeanyadvantageshe,mightgaininthewayofinformationbyfruitlessclamour。Her,wrathwouldneverwreakitselfinonefellblow。Shewouldwait,andbrood,studyingthedetailsandaddingtothemuntilher,powermightbecommensuratewithherdesireforrevenge。Atthe,sametime,shewouldnotdelaytoinflictanyinjury,bigor,little,whichwouldwoundtheobjectofherrevengeandstill,leavehimuncertainastothesourceoftheevil。Shewasa,cold,self-centredwoman,withmanyathoughtofherownwhich,neverfoundexpression,notevenbysomuchastheglintofan,eye。
Hurstwoodfeltsomeofthisinhernature,thoughhedidnot,actuallyperceiveit。Hedweltwithherinpeaceandsome,satisfaction。Hedidnotfearherintheleast——therewasno,causeforit。Shestilltookafaintprideinhim,whichwas,augmentedbyherdesiretohavehersocialintegritymaintained。
Shewassecretlysomewhatpleasedbythefactthatmuchofher,husband’spropertywasinhername,aprecautionwhichHurstwood,hadtakenwhenhishomeinterestsweresomewhatmorealluring,thanatpresent。Hiswifehadnottheslightestreasontofeel,thatanythingwouldevergoamisswiththeirhousehold,andyet,theshadowswhichrunbeforegaveherathoughtofthegoodofit,nowandthen。Shewasinapositiontobecomerefractorywith,considerableadvantage,andHurstwoodconductedhimself,circumspectlybecausehefeltthathecouldnotbesureof,anythingonceshebecamedissatisfied。
ItsohappenedthatonthenightwhenHurstwood,Carrie,and,DrouetwereintheboxatMcVickar’s,George,Jr。wasinthe,sixthrowoftheparquetwiththedaughterofH。B。Carmichael,thethirdpartnerofawholesaledry-goodshouseofthatcity。
Hurstwooddidnotseehisson,forhesat,aswashiswont,as,farbackaspossible,leavinghimselfjustpartiallyvisible,whenhebentforward,tothosewithinthefirstsixrowsin,question。Itwashiswonttositthiswayineverytheatre——to,makehispersonalityasinconspicuousaspossiblewhereitwould,benoadvantagetohimtohaveitotherwise。
Henevermovedbutwhat,iftherewasanydangerofhisconduct,beingmisconstruedorill-reported,helookedcarefullyabouthim,andcountedthecostofeveryinchofconspicuity。
Thenextmorningatbreakfasthissonsaid:
“Isawyou,Governor,lastnight。”
“WereyouatMcVickar’s?”saidHurstwood,withthebestgracein,theworld。
“Yes,“saidyoungGeorge。
“Whowith?”
“MissCarmichael。”
Mrs。Hurstwooddirectedaninquiringglanceatherhusband,but,couldnotjudgefromhisappearancewhetheritwasanymorethan,acasuallookintothetheatrewhichwasreferredto。
“Howwastheplay?”sheinquired。
“Verygood,“returnedHurstwood,“onlyit’sthesameoldthing,’RipVanWinkle。’“
“Whomdidyougowith?”queriedhiswife,withassumed,indifference。
“CharlieDrouetandhiswife。TheyarefriendsofMoy’s,visitinghere。”
Owingtothepeculiarnatureofhisposition,suchadisclosure,asthiswouldordinarilycreatenodifficulty。Hiswifetookit,forgrantedthathissituationcalledforcertainsocial,movementsinwhichshemightnotbeincluded。Butoflatehehad,pleadedofficedutyonseveraloccasionswhenhiswifeaskedfor,hiscompanytoanyeveningentertainment。Hehaddonesoin,regardtotheveryeveninginquestiononlythemorningbefore。
“Ithoughtyouweregoingtobebusy,“sheremarked,very,carefully。
“SoIwas,“heexclaimed。”Icouldn’thelptheinterruption,but,Imadeupforitafterwardbyworkinguntiltwo。”
Thissettledthediscussionforthetimebeing,buttherewasa,residueofopinionwhichwasnotsatisfactory。Therewasnotime,atwhichtheclaimsofhiswifecouldhavebeenmore,unsatisfactorilypushed。Foryearshehadbeensteadily,modifyinghismatrimonialdevotion,andfoundhercompanydull。
Nowthatanewlightshoneuponthehorizon,thisolderluminary,paledinthewest。Hewassatisfiedtoturnhisfaceaway,entirely,andanycalltolookbackwasirksome。
She,onthecontrary,wasnotatallinclinedtoacceptanything,lessthanacompletefulfilmentoftheletteroftheir,relationship,thoughthespiritmightbewanting。
“Wearecomingdowntownthisafternoon,“sheremarked,afew,dayslater。”IwantyoutocomeovertoKinsley’sandmeetMr。
Phillipsandhiswife。They’restoppingattheTremont,and,we’regoingtoshowthemaroundalittle。”
AftertheoccurrenceofWednesday,hecouldnotrefuse,though,thePhillipswereaboutasuninterestingasvanityandignorance,couldmakethem。Heagreed,butitwaswithshortgrace。Hewas,angrywhenheleftthehouse。
“I’llputastoptothis,“hethought。”I’mnotgoingtobe,botheredfoolingaroundwithvisitorswhenIhaveworktodo。”
NotlongafterthisMrs。Hurstwoodcamewithasimilar,proposition,onlyitwastoamatineethistime。
“Mydear,“hereturned,“Ihaven’ttime。I’mtoobusy。”
“Youfindtimetogowithotherpeople,though,“shereplied,withconsiderableirritation。
“Nothingofthekind,“heanswered。”Ican’tavoidbusiness,relations,andthat’sallthereistoit。”
“Well,nevermind,“sheexclaimed。Herlipstightened。The,feelingofmutualantagonismwasincreased。
Ontheotherhand,hisinterestinDrouet’slittleshop-girlgrew,inanalmostevenlybalancedproportion。Thatyounglady,under,thestressofhersituationandthetutelageofhernewfriend,changedeffectively。Shehadtheaptitudeofthestrugglerwho,seeksemancipation。Theglowofamoreshowylifewasnotlost,uponher。Shedidnotgrowinknowledgesomuchassheawakened,inthematterofdesire。Mrs。Hale’sextendedharanguesuponthe,subjectsofwealthandpositiontaughthertodistinguishbetween,degreesofwealth。
Mrs。Halelovedtodriveintheafternooninthesunwhenitwas,fine,andtosatisfyhersoulwithasightofthosemansionsand,lawnswhichshecouldnotafford。OntheNorthSidehadbeen,erectedanumberofelegantmansionsalongwhatisnowknownas,theNorthShoreDrive。Thepresentlakewallofstoneand,granitoidwasnottheninplace,buttheroadhadbeenwelllaid,out,theintermediatespacesoflawnwerelovelytolookupon,andthehouseswerethoroughlynewandimposing。Whenthewinter,seasonhadpassedandthefirstfinedaysoftheearlyspring,appeared,Mrs。Halesecuredabuggyforanafternoonandinvited,Carrie。TheyrodefirstthroughLincolnParkandonfarout,towardsEvanston,turningbackatfourandarrivingatthenorth,endoftheShoreDriveataboutfiveo’clock。Atthistimeof,yearthedaysarestillcomparativelyshort,andtheshadowsof,theeveningwerebeginningtosettledownuponthegreatcity。
Lampswerebeginningtoburnwiththatmellowradiancewhich,seemsalmostwateryandtranslucenttotheeye。Therewasa,softnessintheairwhichspeakswithaninfinitedelicacyof,feelingtothefleshaswellastothesoul。Carriefeltthatit,wasalovelyday。Shewasripenedbyitinspiritformany,suggestions。Astheydrovealongthesmoothpavementan,occasionalcarriagepassed。Shesawonestopandthefootman,dismount,openingthedoorforagentlemanwhoseemedtobe,leisurelyreturningfromsomeafternoonpleasure。Acrossthe,broadlawns,nowfirstfresheningintogreen,shesawlamps,faintlyglowinguponrichinteriors。Nowitwasbutachair,now,atable,nowanornatecorner,whichmethereye,butitappealed,toherasalmostnothingelsecould。Suchchildishfanciesas,shehadhadoffairypalacesandkinglyquartersnowcameback。
Sheimaginedthatacrosstheserichlycarvedentrance-ways,where,theglobedandcrystalledlampsshoneuponpanelleddoorsset,withstainedanddesignedpanesofglass,wasneithercarenor,unsatisfieddesire。Shewasperfectlycertainthatherewas,happiness。Ifshecouldbutstrollupyonbroadwalk,crossthat,richentrance-way,whichtoherwasofthebeautyofajewel,and,sweepingraceandluxurytopossessionandcommand——oh!how,quicklywouldsadnessflee;how,inaninstant,wouldthe,heartacheend。Shegazedandgazed,wondering,delighting,longing,andallthewhilethesirenvoiceoftheunrestfulwas,whisperinginherear。
“Ifwecouldhavesuchahomeasthat,“saidMrs。Halesadly,“howdelightfulitwouldbe。”
“Andyettheydosay,“saidCarrie,“thatnooneiseverhappy。”
Shehadheardsomuchofthecantingphilosophyofthegrapeless,fox。
“Inotice,“saidMrs。Hale,“thattheyalltrymightyhard,though,totaketheirmiseryinamansion。”
Whenshecametoherownrooms,Carriesawtheircomparative,insignificance。Shewasnotsodullbutthatshecouldperceive,theywerebutthreesmallroomsinamoderatelywell-furnished,boarding-house。Shewasnotcontrastingitnowwithwhatshehad,had,butwhatshehadsorecentlyseen。Theglowofthepalatial,doorswasstillinhereye,therollofcushionedcarriagesstill,inherears。What,afterall,wasDrouet?,Whatwasshe?,Ather,window,shethoughtitover,rockingtoandfro,andgazingout,acrossthelamp-litparktowardthelamp-lithousesonWarrenand,Ashlandavenues。Shewastoowroughtuptocaretogodownto,eat,toopensivetodoaughtbutrockandsing。Someoldtunes,crepttoherlips,and,asshesangthem,herheartsank。She,longedandlongedandlonged。Itwasnowfortheoldcottage,roominColumbiaCity,nowthemansionupontheShoreDrive,now,thefinedressofsomelady,nowtheeleganceofsomescene。She,wassadbeyondmeasure,andyetuncertain,wishing,fancying。
Finally,itseemedasifallherstatewasoneoflonelinessand,forsakenness,andshecouldscarcerefrainfromtremblingatthe,lip。Shehummedandhummedasthemomentswentby,sittingin,theshadowbythewindow,andwasthereinashappy,thoughshe,didnotperceiveit,assheeverwouldbe。
WhileCarriewasstillinthisframeofmind,thehouse-servant,broughtuptheintelligencethatMr。Hurstwoodwasintheparlour,askingtoseeMr。andMrs。Drouet。
“Iguesshedoesn’tknowthatCharlieisoutoftown,“thought,Carrie。
Shehadseencomparativelylittleofthemanagerduringthe,winter,buthadbeenkeptconstantlyinmindofhimbyonething,andanother,principallybythestrongimpressionhehadmade。
Shewasquitedisturbedforthemomentastoherappearance,but,soonsatisfiedherselfbytheaidofthemirror,andwentbelow。
Hurstwoodwasinhisbestform,asusual。Hehadn’theardthat,Drouetwasoutoftown。Hewasbutslightlyaffectedbythe,intelligence,anddevotedhimselftothemoregeneraltopics,whichwouldinterestCarrie。Itwassurprising——theeasewith,whichheconductedaconversation。Hewaslikeeverymanwhohas,hadtheadvantageofpracticeandknowshehassympathy。Heknew,thatCarrielistenedtohimpleasurably,and,withouttheleast,effort,hefellintoatrainofobservationwhichabsorbedher,fancy。Hedrewuphischairandmodulatedhisvoicetosucha,degreethatwhathesaidseemedwhollyconfidential。Heconfined,himselfalmostexclusivelytohisobservationofmenand,pleasures。Hehadbeenhereandthere,hehadseenthisand,that。SomehowhemadeCarriewishtoseesimilarthings,andall,thewhilekeptherawareofhimself。Shecouldnotshutoutthe,consciousnessofhisindividualityandpresenceforamoment。He,wouldraisehiseyesslowlyinsmilingemphasisofsomething,and,shewasfixedbytheirmagnetism。Hewoulddrawout,withthe,easiestgrace,herapproval。Oncehetouchedherhandfor,emphasisandsheonlysmiled。Heseemedtoradiateanatmosphere,whichsuffusedherbeing。Hewasneverdullforaminute,and,seemedtomakeherclever。Atleast,shebrightenedunderhis,influenceuntilallherbestsidewasexhibited。Shefeltthat,shewasmorecleverwithhimthanwithothers。Atleast,he,seemedtofindsomuchinhertoapplaud。Therewasnotthe,slightesttouchofpatronage。Drouetwasfullofit。
Therehadbeensomethingsopersonal,sosubtle,ineachmeeting,betweenthem,bothwhenDrouetwaspresentandwhenhewas,absent,thatCarriecouldnotspeakofitwithoutfeelingasense,ofdifficulty。Shewasnotalker。Shecouldneverarrangeher,thoughtsinfluentorder。Itwasalwaysamatteroffeelingwith,her,stronganddeep。Eachtimetherehadbeennosentenceof,importancewhichshecouldrelate,andasfortheglancesand,sensations,whatwomanwouldrevealthem?Suchthingshadnever,beenbetweenherandDrouet。Asamatteroffact,theycould,neverbe。Shehadbeendominatedbydistressandthe,enthusiasticforcesofreliefwhichDrouetrepresentedatan,opportunemomentwhensheyieldedtohim。Nowshewaspersuaded,bysecretcurrentfeelingswhichDrouethadneverunderstood。
Hurstwood’sglancewasaseffectiveasthespokenwordsofa,lover,andmore。Theycalledfornoimmediatedecision,and,couldnotbeanswered。
Peopleingeneralattachtoomuchimportancetowords。Theyare,undertheillusionthattalkingeffectsgreatresults。Asa,matteroffact,wordsare,asarule,theshallowestportionof,alltheargument。Theybutdimlyrepresentthegreatsurging,feelingsanddesireswhichliebehind。Whenthedistractionof,thetongueisremoved,theheartlistens。
Inthisconversationsheheard,insteadofhiswords,thevoices,ofthethingswhichherepresented。Howsuavewasthecounselof,hisappearance!,Howfeelinglydidhissuperiorstatespeakfor,itself!,Thegrowingdesirehefeltforherlayuponherspirit,asagentlehand。Shedidnotneedtotrembleatall,becauseit,wasinvisible;shedidnotneedtoworryoverwhatotherpeople,wouldsay——whatsheherselfwouldsay——becauseithadno,tangibility。Shewasbeingpleadedwith,persuaded,ledinto,denyingoldrightsandassumingnewones,andyettherewereno,wordstoproveit。Suchconversationaswasindulgedinheldthe,samerelationshiptotheactualmentalenactmentsofthetwain,thatthelowmusicoftheorchestradoestothedramaticincident,whichitisusedtocover。
“HaveyoueverseenthehousesalongtheLakeShoreontheNorth,Side?”askedHurstwood。
“Why,Iwasjustovertherethisafternoon——Mrs。HaleandI。
Aren’ttheybeautiful?”
“They’reveryfine,“heanswered。
“Oh,me,“saidCarrie,pensively。”IwishIcouldliveinsucha,place。”
“You’renothappy,“saidHurstwood,slowly,afteraslightpause。
Hehadraisedhiseyessolemnlyandwaslookingintoherown。He,assumedthathehadstruckadeepchord。Nowwasaslightchance,tosayawordinhisownbehalf。Heleanedoverquietlyand,continuedhissteadygaze。Hefeltthecriticalcharacterofthe,period。Sheendeavouredtostir,butitwasuseless。Thewhole,strengthofaman’snaturewasworking。Hehadgoodcauseto,urgehimon。Helookedandlooked,andthelongerthesituation,lastedthemoredifficultitbecame。Thelittleshop-girlwas,gettingintodeepwater。Shewaslettingherfewsupportsfloat,awayfromher。
“Oh,“shesaidatlast,“youmustn’tlookatmelikethat。”
“Ican’thelpit,“heanswered。
Sherelaxedalittleandletthesituationendure,givinghim,strength。
“Youarenotsatisfiedwithlife,areyou?”
“No,“sheanswered,weakly。
Hesawhewasthemasterofthesituation——hefeltit。He,reachedoverandtouchedherhand。
“Youmustn’t,“sheexclaimed,jumpingup。
“Ididn’tintendto,“heanswered,easily。
Shedidnotrunaway,asshemighthavedone。Shedidnot,terminatetheinterview,buthedriftedoffintoapleasantfield,ofthoughtwiththereadiestgrace。Notlongafterheroseto,go,andshefeltthathewasinpower。
“Youmustn’tfeelbad,“hesaid,kindly;“thingswillstraighten,outinthecourseoftime。”
Shemadenoanswer,becauseshecouldthinkofnothingtosay。
“Wearegoodfriends,aren’twe?”hesaid,extendinghishand。
“Yes,“sheanswered。
“Notaword,then,untilIseeyouagain。”
Heretainedaholdonherhand。
“Ican’tpromise,“shesaid,doubtfully。
“Youmustbemoregenerousthanthat,“hesaid,insuchasimple,waythatshewastouched。
“Let’snottalkaboutitanymore,“shereturned。
“Allright,“hesaid,brightening。
Hewentdownthestepsandintohiscab。Carrieclosedthedoor,andascendedintoherroom。Sheundidherbroadlacecollar,beforethemirrorandunfastenedherprettyalligatorbeltwhich,shehadrecentlybought。
“I’mgettingterrible,“shesaid,honestlyaffectedbyafeeling,oftroubleandshame。”Idon’tseemtodoanythingright。”
Sheunloosedherhairafteratime,andletithanginloose,brownwaves。Hermindwasgoingovertheeventsoftheevening。
“Idon’tknow,“shemurmuredatlast,“whatIcando。”
“Well,“saidHurstwoodasherodeaway,“shelikesmeallright;
thatIknow。”
Thearousedmanagerwhistledmerrilyforagoodfourmilestohis,officeanoldmelodythathehadnotrecalledforfifteenyears。
ChapterXIII
HISCREDENTIALSACCEPTED——ABABELOFTONGUES
ItwasnotquitetwodaysafterthescenebetweenCarrieand,HurstwoodintheOgdenPlaceparlourbeforeheagainputinhis,appearance。Hehadbeenthinkingalmostuninterruptedlyofher。
Herleniencyhad,inaway,inflamedhisregard。Hefeltthathe,mustsucceedwithher,andthatspeedily。
Thereasonforhisinterest,nottosayfascination,wasdeeper,thanmeredesire。Itwasafloweringoutoffeelingswhichhad,beenwitheringindryandalmostbarrensoilformanyyears。It,isprobablethatCarrierepresentedabetterorderofwomanthan,hadeverattractedhimbefore。Hehadhadnoloveaffairsince,thatwhichculminatedinhismarriage,andsincethentimeand,theworldhadtaughthimhowrawanderroneouswashisoriginal,judgment。Wheneverhethoughtofit,hetoldhimselfthat,ifhe,hadittodooveragain,hewouldnevermarrysuchawoman。At,thesametime,hisexperiencewithwomeningeneralhadlessened,hisrespectforthesex。Hemaintainedacynicalattitude,well,groundedonnumerousexperiences。Suchwomenashehadknown,wereofnearlyonetype,selfish,ignorant,flashy。Thewivesof,hisfriendswerenotinspiringtolookupon。Hisownwifehad,developedacold,commonplacenaturewhichtohimwasanything,butpleasing。Whatheknewofthatunder-worldwheregrovelthe,beat-menofsocietyandheknewagreatdealhadhardenedhis,nature。Helookeduponmostwomenwithsuspicion——asingleeye,totheutilityofbeautyanddress。Hefollowedthemwitha,keen,suggestiveglance。Atthesametime,hewasnotsodull,butthatagoodwomancommandedhisrespect。Personally,hedid,notattempttoanalysethemarvelofasaintlywoman。Hewould,takeoffhishat,andwouldsilencethelight-tonguedandthe,viciousinherpresence——muchastheIrishkeeperofaBowery,hallwillhumblehimselfbeforeaSisterofMercy,andpaytoll,tocharitywithawillingandreverenthand。Buthewouldnot,thinkmuchuponthequestionofwhyhedidso。
Amaninhissituationwhocomes,afteralongroundofworthless,orhardeningexperiences,uponayoung,unsophisticated,innocent,soul,isapteithertoholdaloof,outofasenseofhisown,remoteness,ortodrawnearandbecomefascinatedandelatedby,hisdiscovery。Itisonlybyaroundaboutprocessthatsuchmen,everdodrawnearsuchagirl。Theyhavenomethod,no,understandingofhowtoingratiatethemselvesinyouthfulfavour,savewhentheyfindvirtueinthetoils。If,unfortunately,the,flyhasgotcaughtinthenet,thespidercancomeforthandtalk,businessuponitsownterms。Sowhenmaidenhoodhaswandered,intothemoilofthecity,whenitisbroughtwithinthecircle,ofthe“rounder“andtheroue,eventhoughitbeattheoutermost,rim,theycancomeforthandusetheiralluringarts。
Hurstwoodhadgone,atDrouet’sinvitation,tomeetanewbaggage,offineclothesandprettyfeatures。Heentered,expectingto,indulgeinaneveningoflightsomefrolic,andthenlosetrackof,thenewcomerforever。Insteadhefoundawomanwhoseyouthand,beautyattractedhim。InthemildlightofCarrie’seyewas,nothingofthecalculationofthemistress。Inthediffident,mannerwasnothingoftheartofthecourtesan。Hesawatonce,thatamistakehadbeenmade,thatsomedifficultconditionshad,pushedthistroubledcreatureintohispresence,andhisinterest,wasenlisted。Heresympathysprangtotherescue,butitwasnot,unmixedwithselfishness。HewantedtowinCarriebecausehe,thoughtherfatemingledwithhiswasbetterthanifitwere,unitedwithDrouet’s。Heenviedthedrummerhisconquestashe,hadneverenviedanymaninallthecourseofhisexperience。
Carriewascertainlybetterthanthisman,asshewassuperior,mentally,toDrouet。Shecamefreshfromtheairofthevillage,thelightofthecountrystillinhereye。Herewasneither,guilenorrapacity。Therewereslightinheritedtraitsofboth,inher,buttheywererudimentary。Shewastoofullofwonder,anddesiretobegreedy。Shestilllookedaboutheruponthe,greatmazeofthecitywithoutunderstanding。Hurstwoodfeltthe,bloomandtheyouth。Hepickedherashewouldthefreshfruit,ofatree。Hefeltasfreshinherpresenceasonewhoistaken,outoftheflashofsummertothefirstcoolbreathofspring。
Carrie,leftalonesincethesceneinquestion,andhavingnoone,withwhomtocounsel,hadatfirstwanderedfromonestrange,mentalconclusiontoanother,untilatlast,tiredout,shegave,itup。SheowedsomethingtoDrouet,shethought。Itdidnot,seemmorethanyesterdaythathehadaidedherwhenshewas,worriedanddistressed。Shehadthekindliestfeelingsforhim,ineveryway。Shegavehimcreditforhisgoodlooks,his,generousfeelings,andeven,infact,failedtorecollecthis,egotismwhenhewasabsent;butshecouldnotfeelanybinding,influencekeepingherforhimasagainstallothers。Infact,suchathoughthadneverhadanygrounding,eveninDrouet’s,desires。
Thetruthis,thatthisgoodlydrummercarriedthedoomofall,enduringrelationshipsinhisownlightsomemannerandunstable,fancy。Hewentmerrilyon,assuredthathewasalluringall,thataffectionfollowedtenderlyinhiswake,thatthingswould,endureunchanginglyforhispleasure。Whenhemissedsomeold,face,orfoundsomedoorfinallyshuttohim,itdidnotgrieve,himdeeply。Hewastooyoung,toosuccessful。Hewouldremain,thusyounginspirituntilhewasdead。
AsforHurstwood,hewasalivewiththoughtsandfeelings,concerningCarrie。Hehadnodefiniteplansregardingher,but,hewasdeterminedtomakeherconfessanaffectionforhim。He,thoughthesawinherdroopingeye,herunstableglance,her,waveringmanner,thesymptomsofabuddingpassion。Hewantedto,standnearherandmakeherlayherhandinhis——hewantedto,findoutwhathernextstepwouldbe——whatthenextsignof,feelingforhimwouldbe。Suchanxietyandenthusiasmhadnot,affectedhimforyears。Hewasayouthagaininfeeling——a,cavalierinaction。
Inhispositionopportunityfortakinghiseveningsoutwas,excellent。Hewasamostfaithfulworkeringeneral,andaman,whocommandedtheconfidenceofhisemployersinsofarasthe,distributionofhistimewasconcerned。Hecouldtakesuchhours,offashechose,foritwaswellknownthathefulfilledhis,managerialdutiessuccessfully,whatevertimehemighttake。His,grace,tact,andornateappearancegavetheplaceanairwhich,wasmostessential,whileatthesametimehislongexperience,madehimamostexcellentjudgeofitsstocknecessities。
Bartendersandassistantsmightcomeandgo,singlyoringroups,but,solongashewaspresent,thehostofold-timecustomers,wouldbarelynoticethechange。Hegavetheplacetheatmosphere,towhichtheywereused。Consequently,hearrangedhishours,verymuchtosuithimself,takingnowanafternoon,nowan,evening,butinvariablyreturningbetweenelevenandtwelveto,witnessthelasthourortwooftheday’sbusinessandlookafter,theclosingdetails。
“Youseethatthingsaresafeandalltheemployeesareoutwhen,yougohome,George,“Moyhadonceremarkedtohim,andhenever,once,inalltheperiodofhislongservice,neglectedtodo,this。Neitheroftheownershadforyearsbeenintheresort,afterfiveintheafternoon,andyettheirmanagerasfaithfully,fulfilledthisrequestasiftheyhadbeenthereregularlyto,observe。
OnthisFridayafternoon,scarcelytwodaysafterhisprevious,visit,hemadeuphismindtoseeCarrie。Hecouldnotstayaway,longer。
“Evans,“hesaid,addressingtheheadbarkeeper,“ifanyone,calls,Iwillbebackbetweenfourandfive。”
HehurriedtoMadisonStreetandboardedahorse-car,which,carriedhimtoOgdenPlaceinhalfanhour。
Carriehadthoughtofgoingforawalk,andhadputonalight,greywoollendresswithajauntydouble-breastedjacket。Shehad,outherhatandgloves,andwasfasteningawhitelacetieabout,herthroatwhenthehousemaidbroughtuptheinformationthatMr。
Hurstwoodwishedtoseeher。
Shestartedslightlyattheannouncement,buttoldthegirlto,saythatshewouldcomedowninamoment,andproceededtohasten,herdressing。
Carriecouldnothavetoldherselfatthismomentwhethershewas,gladorsorrythattheimpressivemanagerwasawaitingher,presence。Shewasslightlyflurriedandtinglinginthecheeks,butitwasmorenervousnessthaneitherfearorfavour。Shedid,nottrytoconjecturewhatthedriftoftheconversationwould,be。Sheonlyfeltthatshemustbecareful,andthatHurstwood,hadanindefinablefascinationforher。Thenshegavehertie,itslasttouchwithherfingersandwentbelow。
Thedeep-feelingmanagerwashimselfalittlestrainedinthe,nervesbythethoroughconsciousnessofhismission。Hefelt,thathemustmakeastrongplayonthisoccasion,butnowthat,thehourwascome,andheheardCarrie’sfeetuponthestair,his,nervefailedhim。Hesankalittleindetermination,forhewas,notsosure,afterall,whatheropinionmightbe。
Whensheenteredtheroom,however,herappearancegavehim,courage。Shelookedsimpleandcharmingenoughtostrengthenthe,daringofanylover。Herapparentnervousnessdispelledhisown。
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