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第12章

  “What’stheuse?”hethought,lookingoutupontheslopandsnow。
  “Icouldn’tbuyintoit。It’sathousandtoonenothingcomesof,it。IguessI’llgetoff,“andoffhegot。Inthelobbyhetook,aseatandwaitedagain,wonderingwhathecoulddo。
  Whilehewasidlypondering,satisfiedtobeinside,awell-
  dressedmanpassedupthelobby,stopped,lookedsharply,asif,notsureofhismemory,andthenapproached。Hurstwood,recognisedCargill,theownerofthelargestablesinChicagoof,thesamename,whomhehadlastseenatAveryHall,thenight,Carrieappearedthere。Theremembranceofhowthisindividual,broughtuphiswifetoshakehandsonthatoccasionwasalsoon,theinstantclear。
  Hurstwoodwasgreatlyabashed。Hiseyesexpressedthedifficulty,hefelt。
  “Why,it’sHurstwood!”saidCargill,rememberingnow,andsorry,thathehadnotrecognisedhimquicklyenoughinthebeginningto,haveavoidedthismeeting。
  “Yes,“saidHurstwood。”Howareyou?”
  “Verywell,“saidCargill,troubledforsomethingtotalkabout。
  “Stoppinghere?”
  “No,“saidHurstwood,“justkeepinganappointment。”
  “IknewyouhadleftChicago。Iwaswonderingwhathadbecomeof,you。”
  “Oh,I’mherenow,“answeredHurstwood,anxioustogetaway。
  “Doingwell,Isuppose?”
  “Excellent。”
  “Gladtohearit。”
  Theylookedatoneanother,ratherembarrassed。
  “Well,Ihaveanengagementwithafriendupstairs。I’llleave,you。Solong。”
  Hurstwoodnoddedhishead。
  “Damnitall,“hemurmured,turningtowardthedoor。”Iknew,thatwouldhappen。”
  Hewalkedseveralblocksupthestreet。Hiswatchonly,registered1。30。Hetriedtothinkofsomeplacetogoor,somethingtodo。Thedaywassobadhewantedonlytobeinside。
  Finallyhisfeetbegantofeelwetandcold,andheboardeda,car。ThistookhimtoFifty-ninthStreet,whichwasasgoodas,anywhereelse。Landedhere,heturnedtowalkbackalongSeventh,Avenue,buttheslushwastoomuch。Themiseryofloungingabout,withnowheretogobecameintolerable。Hefeltasifhewere,catchingcold。
  Stoppingatacorner,hewaitedforacarsouthbound。Thiswas,nodaytobeout;hewouldgohome。
  Carriewassurprisedtoseehimataquarterofthree。
  “It’samiserabledayout,“wasallhesaid。Thenhetookoff,hiscoatandchangedhisshoes。
  Thatnighthefeltacoldcomingonandtookquinine。Hewas,feverishuntilmorning,andsataboutthenextdaywhileCarrie,waitedonhim。Hewasahelplesscreatureinsickness,notvery,handsomeinadull-colouredbathgownandhishairuncombed。He,lookedhaggardabouttheeyesandquiteold。Carrienoticed,this,anditdidnotappealtoher。Shewantedtobegood-
  naturedandsympathetic,butsomethingaboutthemanheldher,aloof。
  Towardeveninghelookedsobadlyintheweaklightthatshe,suggestedhegotobed。
  “You’dbettersleepalone,“shesaid,“you’llfeelbetter。I’ll,openyourbedforyounow。”
  “Allright,“hesaid。
  Asshedidallthesethings,shewasinamostdespondentstate。
  “Whatalife!Whatalife!”washeronethought。
  Onceduringtheday,whenhesatneartheradiator,hunchedup,andreading,shepassedthrough,andseeinghim,wrinkledher,brows。Inthefrontroom,whereitwasnotsowarm,shesatby,thewindowandcried。Thiswasthelifecutoutforher,wasit?
  Tolivecoopedupinasmallflatwithsomeonewhowasoutof,work,idle,andindifferenttoher。Shewasmerelyaservantto,himnow,nothingmore。
  Thiscryingmadehereyesred,andwhen,inpreparinghisbed,shelightedthegas,and,havingpreparedit,calledhimin,he,noticedthefact。
  “What’sthematterwithyou?”heasked,lookingintoherface。
  Hisvoicewashoarseandhisunkemptheadonlyaddedtoits,grewsomequality。
  “Nothing,“saidCarrie,weakly。
  “You’vebeencrying,“hesaid。
  “Ihaven’t,either,“sheanswered。
  Itwasnotforloveofhim,thatheknew。
  “Youneedn’tcry,“hesaid,gettingintobed。”Thingswillcome,outallright。”
  Inadayortwohewasupagain,butroughweatherholding,he,stayedin。TheItaliannewsdealernowdeliveredthemorning,papers,andthesehereadassiduously。Afewtimesafterthathe,venturedout,butmeetinganotherofhisold-timefriends,he,begantofeeluneasysittingabouthotelcorridors。
  Everydayhecamehomeearly,andatlastmadenopretenceof,goinganywhere。Winterwasnotimetolookforanything。
  Naturally,beingaboutthehouse,henoticedthewayCarriedid,things。Shewasfarfromperfectinhouseholdmethodsand,economy,andherlittledeviationsonthisscorefirstcaughthis,eye。Not,however,beforeherregulardemandforherallowance,becameagrievousthing。Sittingaroundashedid,theweeks,seemedtopassveryquickly。EveryTuesdayCarrieaskedforher,money。
  “Doyouthinkweliveascheaplyaswemight?”heaskedone,Tuesdaymorning。
  “IdothebestIcan,“saidCarrie。
  Nothingwasaddedtothisatthemoment,butthenextdayhe,said:
  “DoyouevergototheGansevoortMarketoverhere?”
  “Ididn’tknowtherewassuchamarket,“saidCarrie。
  “Theysayyoucangetthingslotscheaperthere。”
  Carriewasveryindifferenttothesuggestion。Thesewerethings,whichshedidnotlikeatall。
  “Howmuchdoyoupayforapoundofmeat?”heaskedoneday。
  “Oh,therearedifferentprices,“saidCarrie。”Sirloinsteakis,twenty-twocents。”
  “That’ssteep,isn’tit?”heanswered。
  Soheaskedaboutotherthings,untilfinally,withthepassing,days,itseemedtobecomeamaniawithhim。Helearnedthe,pricesandrememberedthem。
  Hiserrand-runningcapacityalsoimproved。Itbeganinasmall,way,ofcourse。Carrie,goingtogetherhatonemorning,was,stoppedbyhim。
  “Whereareyougoing,Carrie?”heasked。
  “Overtothebaker’s,“sheanswered。
  “I’djustasleavegoforyou,“hesaid。
  Sheacquiesced,andhewent。Eachafternoonhewouldgotothe,cornerforthepapers。
  “Isthereanythingyouwant?”hewouldsay。
  Bydegreesshebegantousehim。Doingthis,however,shelost,theweeklypaymentoftwelvedollars。
  “Youwanttopaymeto-day,“shesaidoneTuesday,aboutthis,time。
  “Howmuch?”heasked。
  Sheunderstoodwellenoughwhatitmeant。
  “Well,aboutfivedollars,“sheanswered。”Iowethecoalman。”
  Thesamedayhesaid:
  “IthinkthisItalianuphereonthecornersellscoalattwenty-
  fivecentsabushel。I’lltradewithhim。”
  Carrieheardthiswithindifference。
  “Allright,“shesaid。
  Thenitcametobe:
  “George,Imusthavesomecoalto-day,“or,“Youmustgetsome,meatofsomekindfordinner。”
  Hewouldfindoutwhatsheneededandorder。
  Accompanyingthisplancameskimpiness。
  “Ionlygotahalf-poundofsteak,“hesaid,cominginone,afternoonwithhispapers。”Weneverseemtoeatverymuch。”
  ThesemiserabledetailsatetheheartoutofCarrie。They,blackenedherdaysandgrievedhersoul。Oh,howthismanhad,changed!,Alldayandallday,herehesat,readinghispapers。
  Theworldseemedtohavenoattraction。Onceinawhilehewould,goout,infineweather,itmightbefourorfivehours,between,elevenandfour。Shecoulddonothingbutviewhimwithgnawing,contempt。
  ItwasapathywithHurstwood,resultingfromhisinabilitytosee,hiswayout。Eachmonthdrewfromhissmallstore。Now,hehad,onlyfivehundreddollarsleft,andthishehugged,halffeeling,asifhecouldstaveoffabsolutenecessityforanindefinite,period。Sittingaroundthehouse,hedecidedtowearsomeold,clotheshehad。Thiscamefirstwiththebaddays。Onlyoncehe,apologisedintheverybeginning:
  “It’ssobadto-day,I’lljustwearthesearound。”
  Eventuallythesebecamethepermanentthing。
  Also,hehadbeenwonttopayfifteencentsforashave,anda,tipoftencents。Inhisfirstdistress,hecutdownthetipto,five,thentonothing。Later,hetriedaten-centbarbershop,and,findingthattheshavewassatisfactory,patronised,regularly。Laterstill,heputoffshavingtoeveryotherday,thentoeverythird,andsoon,untilonceaweekbecamethe,rule。OnSaturdayhewasasighttosee。
  Ofcourse,ashisownself-respectvanished,itperishedforhim,inCarrie。Shecouldnotunderstandwhathadgottenintothe,man。Hehadsomemoney,hehadadecentsuitremaining,hewas,notbadlookingwhendressedup。Shedidnotforgetherown,difficultstruggleinChicago,butshedidnotforgeteitherthat,shehadneverceasedtrying。Henevertried。Hedidnoteven,consulttheadsinthepapersanymore。
  Finally,adistinctimpressionescapedfromher。
  “Whatmakesyouputsomuchbutteronthesteak?”heaskedher,oneevening,standingaroundinthekitchen。
  “Tomakeitgood,ofcourse,“sheanswered。
  “Butterisawfuldearthesedays,“hesuggested。
  “Youwouldn’tminditifyouwereworking,“sheanswered。
  Heshutupafterthis,andwentintohispaper,buttheretort,rankledinhismind。Itwasthefirstcuttingremarkthathad,comefromher。
  Thatsameevening,Carrie,afterreading,wentofftothefront,roomtobed。Thiswasunusual。WhenHurstwooddecidedtogo,he,retired,asusual,withoutalight。Itwasthenthathe,discoveredCarrie’sabsence。
  “That’sfunny,“hesaid;“maybeshe’ssittingup。”
  Hegavethematternomorethought,butslept。Inthemorning,shewasnotbesidehim。Strangetosay,thispassedwithout,comment。
  Nightapproaching,andaslightlymoreconversationalfeeling,prevailing,Carriesaid:
  “IthinkI’llsleepaloneto-night。Ihaveaheadache。”
  “Allright,“saidHurstwood。
  Thethirdnightshewenttoherfrontbedwithoutapologies。
  ThiswasagrimblowtoHurstwood,buthenevermentionedit。
  “Allright,“hesaidtohimself,withanirrepressiblefrown,“lethersleepalone。”
  ChapterXXXVI
  AGRIMRETROGRESSION——THEPHANTOMOFCHANCE
  TheVances,whohadbeenbackinthecityeversinceChristmas,hadnotforgottenCarrie;butthey,orratherMrs。Vance,had,nevercalledonher,fortheverysimplereasonthatCarriehad,neversentheraddress。Truetohernature,shecorresponded,withMrs。VanceaslongasshestilllivedinSeventy-eighth,Street,butwhenshewascompelledtomoveintoThirteenth,her,fearthatthelatterwouldtakeitasanindicationofreduced,circumstancescausedhertostudysomewayofavoidingthe,necessityofgivingheraddress。Notfindinganyconvenient,method,shesorrowfullyresignedtheprivilegeofwritingtoher,friendentirely。Thelatterwonderedatthisstrangesilence,thoughtCarriemusthaveleftthecity,andintheendgaveher,upaslost。Soshewasthoroughlysurprisedtoencounterherin,FourteenthStreet,whereshehadgoneshopping。Carriewasthere,forthesamepurpose。
  “Why,Mrs。Wheeler,“saidMrs。Vance,lookingCarrieoverina,glance,“wherehaveyoubeen?Whyhaven’tyoubeentoseeme?
  I’vebeenwonderingallthistimewhathadbecomeofyou。
  Really,I——“
  “I’msogladtoseeyou,“saidCarrie,pleasedandyet,nonplussed。Ofalltimes,thiswastheworsttoencounterMrs。
  Vance。”Why,I’mlivingdowntownhere。I’vebeenintendingto,comeandseeyou。Whereareyoulivingnow?”
  “InFifty-eighthStreet,“saidMrs。Vance,“justoffSeventh,Avenue——218。Whydon’tyoucomeandseeme?”
  “Iwill,“saidCarrie。”Really,I’vebeenwantingtocome。I
  knowIoughtto。It’sashame。Butyouknow——“
  “What’syournumber?”saidMrs。Vance。
  “ThirteenthStreet,“saidCarrie,reluctantly。”112West。”
  “Oh,“saidMrs。Vance,“that’srightnearhere,isn’tit?”
  “Yes,“saidCarrie。”Youmustcomedownandseemesometime。”
  “Well,you’reafineone,“saidMrs。Vance,laughing,thewhile,notingthatCarrie’sappearancehadmodifiedsomewhat。”The,address,too,“sheaddedtoherself。”Theymustbehardup。”
  StillshelikedCarriewellenoughtotakeherintow。
  “Comewithmeinhereaminute,“sheexclaimed,turningintoa,store。
  WhenCarriereturnedhome,therewasHurstwood,readingasusual。
  Heseemedtotakehisconditionwiththeutmostnonchalance。His,beardwasatleastfourdaysold。
  “Oh,“thoughtCarrie,“ifsheweretocomehereandseehim?”
  Sheshookherheadinabsolutemisery。Itlookedasifher,situationwasbecomingunbearable。
  Driventodesperation,sheaskedatdinner:
  “Didyoueverhearanymorefromthatwholesalehouse?”
  “No,“hesaid。”Theydon’twantaninexperiencedman。”
  Carriedroppedthesubject,feelingunabletosaymore。
  “ImetMrs。Vancethisafternoon,“shesaid,afteratime。
  “Did,eh?”heanswered。
  “They’rebackinNewYorknow,“Carriewenton。”Shedidlookso,nice。”
  “Well,shecanafforditaslongasheputsupforit,“returned,Hurstwood。”He’sgotasoftjob。”
  Hurstwoodwaslookingintothepaper。Hecouldnotseethelook,ofinfinitewearinessanddiscontentCarriegavehim。
  “Shesaidshethoughtshe’dcallheresomeday。”
  “She’sbeenlonggettingroundtoit,hasn’tshe?”said,Hurstwood,withakindofsarcasm。
  Thewomandidn’tappealtohimfromherspendingside。
  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,angeredbytheman’sattitude。
  “PerhapsIdidn’twanthertocome。”
  “She’stoogay,“saidHurstwood,significantly。”Noonecankeep,upwithherpaceunlessthey’vegotalotofmoney。”
  “Mr。Vancedoesn’tseemtofinditveryhard。”
  “Hemaynotnow,“answeredHurstwood,doggedly,well,understandingtheinference;“buthislifeisn’tdoneyet。You,can’ttellwhat’llhappen。Hemaygetdownlikeanybodyelse。”
  Therewassomethingquiteknavishintheman’sattitude。Hiseye,seemedtobecockedwithatwinkleuponthefortunate,expecting,theirdefeat。Hisownstateseemedathingapart——not,considered。
  Thisthingwastheremainsofhisold-timecocksurenessand,independence。Sittinginhisflat,andreadingofthedoingsof,otherpeople,sometimesthisindependent,undefeatedmoodcame,uponhim。Forgettingthewearinessofthestreetsandthe,degradationofsearch,hewouldsometimesprickuphisears。It,wasasifhesaid:
  “Icandosomething。I’mnotdownyet。There’salotofthings,comingtomeifIwanttogoafterthem。”
  Itwasinthismoodthathewouldoccasionallydressup,gofora,shave,and,puttingonhisgloves,sallyforthquiteactively。
  Notwithanydefiniteaim。Itwasmoreabarometriccondition。
  Hefeltjustrightforbeingoutsideanddoingsomething。
  Onsuchoccasions,hismoneywentalso。Heknewofseveralpoker,roomsdowntown。Afewacquaintanceshehadindowntownresorts,andabouttheCityHall。Itwasachangetoseethemand,exchangeafewfriendlycommonplaces。
  Hehadoncebeenaccustomedtoholdaprettyfairhandatpoker。
  Manyafriendlygamehadnettedhimahundreddollarsormoreat,thetimewhenthatsumwasmerelysaucetothedishofthegame——
  nottheallinall。Now,hethoughtofplaying。
  “Imightwinacoupleofhundred。I’mnotoutofpractice。”
  Itisbutfairtosaythatthisthoughthadoccurredtohim,severaltimesbeforeheacteduponit。
  ThepokerroomwhichhefirstinvadedwasoverasalooninWest,Street,nearoneoftheferries。Hehadbeentherebefore。
  Severalgamesweregoing。Thesehewatchedforatimeand,noticedthatthepotswerequitelargefortheanteinvolved。
  “Dealmeahand,“hesaidatthebeginningofanewshuffle。He,pulledupachairandstudiedhiscards。Thoseplayingmadethat,quietstudyofhimwhichissounapparent,andyetinvariablyso,searching。
  Poorfortunewaswithhimatfirst。Hereceivedamixed,collectionwithoutprogressionorpairs。Thepotwasopened。
  “Ipass,“hesaid。
  Onthestrengthofthis,hewascontenttolosehisante。The,dealsdidfairlybyhiminthelongrun,causinghimtocomeaway,withafewdollarstothegood。
  Thenextafternoonhewasbackagain,seekingamusementand,profit。Thistimehefollowedupthreeofakindtohisdoom。
  Therewasabetterhandacrossthetable,heldbyapugnacious,Irishyouth,whowasapoliticalhanger-onoftheTammany,districtinwhichtheywerelocated。Hurstwoodwassurprisedat,thepersistenceofthisindividual,whosebetscamewithasang-
  froidwhich,ifabluff,wasexcellentart。Hurstwoodbeganto,doubt,butkept,orthoughttokeep,atleast,thecooldemeanour,withwhich,inoldentimes,hedeceivedthosepsychicstudentsof,thegamingtable,whoseemtoreadthoughtsandmoods,rather,thanexteriorevidences,howeversubtle。Hecouldnotdownthe,cowardlythoughtthatthismanhadsomethingbetterandwould,staytotheend,drawinghislastdollarintothepot,shouldhe,choosetogosofar。Still,hehopedtowinmuch——hishandwas,excellent。Whynotraiseitfivemore?
  “Iraiseyouthree,“saidtheyouth。
  “Makeitfive,“saidHurstwood,pushingouthischips。
  “Comeagain,“saidtheyouth,pushingoutasmallpileofreds。
  “Letmehavesomemorechips,“saidHurstwoodtothekeeperin,charge,takingoutabill。
  Acynicalgrinlitupthefaceofhisyouthfulopponent。When,thechipswerelaidout,Hurstwoodmettheraise。
  “Fiveagain,“saidtheyouth。
  Hurstwood’sbrowwaswet。Hewasdeepinnow——verydeepforhim。
  Sixtydollarsofhisgoodmoneywasup。Hewasordinarilyno,coward,butthethoughtoflosingsomuchweakenedhim。Finally,hegaveway。Hewouldnottrusttothisfinehandanylonger。
  “Icall,“hesaid。
  “Afullhouse!”saidtheyouth,spreadingouthiscards。
  Hurstwood’shanddropped。
  “IthoughtIhadyou,“hesaid,weakly。
  Theyouthrakedinhischips,andHurstwoodcameaway,not,withoutfirststoppingtocounthisremainingcashonthestair。
  “Threehundredandfortydollars,“hesaid。
  Withthislossandordinaryexpenses,somuchhadalreadygone。
  Backintheflat,hedecidedhewouldplaynomore。
  RememberingMrs。Vance’spromisetocall,Carriemadeoneother,mildprotest。ItwasconcerningHurstwood’sappearance。This,veryday,cominghome,hechangedhisclothestotheoldtogshe,sataroundin。
  “Whatmakesyoualwaysputonthoseoldclothes?”askedCarrie。
  “What’stheusewearingmygoodonesaroundhere?”heasked。
  “Well,Ishouldthinkyou’dfeelbetter。”Thensheadded:“Some,onemightcall。”
  “Who?”hesaid。
  “Well,Mrs。Vance,“saidCarrie。
  “Sheneedn’tseeme,“heanswered,sullenly。
  ThislackofprideandinterestmadeCarriealmosthatehim。
  “Oh,“shethought,“therehesits。’Sheneedn’tseeme。’I
  shouldthinkhewouldbeashamedofhimself。”
  TherealbitternessofthisthingwasaddedwhenMrs。Vancedid,call。Itwasononeofhershoppingrounds。Makingherwayup,thecommonplacehall,sheknockedatCarrie’sdoor。Toher,subsequentandagonisingdistress,Carriewasout。Hurstwood,openedthedoor,half-thinkingthattheknockwasCarrie’s。For,once,hewastakenhonestlyaback。Thelostvoiceofyouthand,pridespokeinhim。
  “Why,“hesaid,actuallystammering,“howdoyoudo?”
  “Howdoyoudo?”saidMrs。Vance,whocouldscarcelybelieveher,eyes。Hisgreatconfusionsheinstantlyperceived。Hedidnot,knowwhethertoinviteherinornot。
  “Isyourwifeathome?”sheinquired。
  “No,“hesaid,“Carrie’sout;butwon’tyoustepin?She’llbe,backshortly。”
  “No-o,“saidMrs。Vance,realisingthechangeofitall。”I’m,reallyverymuchinahurry。IthoughtI’djustrunupandlook,in,butIcouldn’tstay。Justtellyourwifeshemustcomeand,seeme。”
  “Iwill,“saidHurstwood,standingback,andfeelingintense,reliefathergoing。Hewassoashamedthathefoldedhishands,weakly,ashesatinthechairafterwards,andthought。
  Carrie,cominginfromanotherdirection,thoughtshesawMrs。
  Vancegoingaway。Shestrainedhereyes,butcouldnotmake,sure。
  “Wasanybodyherejustnow?”sheaskedofHurstwood。
  “Yes,“hesaidguiltily;“Mrs。Vance。”
  “Didsheseeyou?”sheasked,expressingherfulldespair。
  ThiscutHurstwoodlikeawhip,andmadehimsullen。
  “Ifshehadeyes,shedid。Iopenedthedoor。”
  “Oh,“saidCarrie,closingonehandtightlyoutofsheer,nervousness。”Whatdidshehavetosay?”
  “Nothing,“heanswered。”Shecouldn’tstay。”
  “Andyoulookinglikethat!”saidCarrie,throwingasidealong,reserve。
  “Whatofit?”hesaid,angering。”Ididn’tknowshewascoming,didI?”
  “Youknewshemight,“saidCarrie。”Itoldyoushesaidshewas,coming。I’veaskedyouadozentimestowearyourotherclothes。
  Oh,Ithinkthisisjustterrible。”
  “Oh,letup,“heanswered。”Whatdifferencedoesitmake?You,couldn’tassociatewithher,anyway。They’vegottoomuchmoney。
  “WhosaidIwantedto?”saidCarrie,fiercely。
  “Well,youactlikeit,rowingaroundovermylooks。You’dthink,I’dcommitted——“
  Carrieinterrupted:
  “It’strue,“shesaid。”Icouldn’tifIwantedto,butwhose,faultisit?You’reveryfreetositandtalkaboutwhoIcould,associatewith。Whydon’tyougetoutandlookforwork?”
  Thiswasathunderboltincamp。
  “What’sittoyou?”hesaid,rising,almostfiercely。”Ipaythe,rent,don’tI?Ifurnishthe——“
  “Yes,youpaytherent,“saidCarrie。”Youtalkasiftherewas,nothingelseintheworldbutaflattositaroundin。You,haven’tdoneathingforthreemonthsexceptsitaroundand,interferehere。I’dliketoknowwhatyoumarriedmefor?”
  “Ididn’tmarryyou,“hesaid,inasnarlingtone。
  “I’dliketoknowwhatyoudid,then,inMontreal?”sheanswered。
  “Well,Ididn’tmarryyou,“heanswered。”Youcangetthatout,ofyourhead。Youtalkasthoughyoudidn’tknow。”
  Carrielookedathimamoment,hereyesdistending。Shehad,believeditwasalllegalandbindingenough。
  “Whatdidyoulietomefor,then?”sheasked,fiercely。”What,didyouforcemetorunawaywithyoufor?”
  Hervoicebecamealmostasob。
  “Force!”hesaid,withcurledlip。”AlotofforcingIdid。”
  “Oh!”saidCarrie,breakingunderthestrain,andturning。”Oh,oh!”andshehurriedintothefrontroom。
  Hurstwoodwasnowhotandwakedup。Itwasagreatshakingup,forhim,bothmentalandmoral。Hewipedhisbrowashelooked,around,andthenwentforhisclothesanddressed。Notasound,camefromCarrie;sheceasedsobbingwhensheheardhimdressing。
  Shethought,atfirst,withthefaintestalarm,ofbeingleft,withoutmoney——notoflosinghim,thoughhemightbegoingaway,permanently。Sheheardhimopenthetopofthewardrobeandtake,outhishat。Thenthedining-roomdoorclosed,andsheknewhe,hadgone。
  Afterafewmomentsofsilence,shestoodup,dry-eyed,and,lookedoutthewindow。Hurstwoodwasjuststrollingupthe,street,fromtheflat,towardSixthAvenue。
  ThelattermadeprogressalongThirteenthandacrossFourteenth,StreettoUnionSquare。
  “Lookforwork!”hesaidtohimself。”Lookforwork!Shetells,metogetoutandlookforwork。”
  Hetriedtoshieldhimselffromhisownmentalaccusation,which,toldhimthatshewasright。
  “WhatacursedthingthatMrs。Vance’scallwas,anyhow,“he,thought。”Stoodrightthere,andlookedmeover。Iknowwhat,shewasthinking。”
  HerememberedthefewtimeshehadseenherinSeventy-eight,Street。Shewasalwaysaswell-looker,andhehadtriedtoput,ontheairofbeingworthyofsuchasshe,infrontofher。Now,tothinkshehadcaughthimlookingthisway。Hewrinkledhis,foreheadinhisdistress。
  “Thedevil!”hesaidadozentimesinanhour。
  Itwasaquarterafterfourwhenheleftthehouse。Carriewas,intears。Therewouldbenodinnerthatnight。
  “Whatthedeuce,“hesaid,swaggeringmentallytohidehisown,shamefromhimself。”I’mnotsobad。I’mnotdownyet。”
  Helookedaroundthesquare,andseeingtheseverallargehotels,decidedtogotoonefordinner。Hewouldgethispapersand,makehimselfcomfortablethere。
  HeascendedintothefineparlouroftheMortonHouse,thenone,ofthebestNewYorkhotels,and,findingacushionedseat,read。
  Itdidnottroublehimmuchthathisdecreasingsumofmoneydid,notallowofsuchextravagance。Likethemorphinefiend,hewas,becomingaddictedtohisease。Anythingtorelievehismental,distress,tosatisfyhiscravingforcomfort。Hemustdoit。No,thoughtsforthemorrow——hecouldnotstandtothinkofitany,morethanhecouldofanyothercalamity。Likethecertaintyof,death,hetriedtoshutthecertaintyofsoonbeingwithouta,dollarcompletelyoutofhismind,andhecameveryneardoing,it。
  Well-dressedguestsmovingtoandfrooverthethickcarpets,carriedhimbacktotheolddays。Ayounglady,aguestofthe,house,playingapianoinanalcovepleasedhim。Hesatthere,reading。
  Hisdinnercosthim$1。50。Byeighto’clockhewasthrough,and,then,seeingguestsleavingandthecrowdofpleasure-seekers,thickeningoutsidewonderedwhereheshouldgo。Nothome。
  Carriewouldbeup。No,hewouldnotgobacktherethisevening。
  Hewouldstayoutandknockaroundasamanwhowasindependent——
  notbroke——wellmight。Heboughtacigar,andwentoutsideon,thecornerwhereotherindividualswerelounging——brokers,racing,people,thespians——hisownfleshandblood。Ashestoodthere,hethoughtoftheoldeveningsinChicago,andhowheusedto,disposeofthem。Many’sthegamehehadhad。Thistookhimto,poker。
  “Ididn’tdothatthingrighttheotherday,“hethought,referringtohislossofsixtydollars。”Ishouldn’thave,weakened。Icouldhavebluffedthatfellowdown。Iwasn’tin,form,that’swhatailedme。”
  Thenhestudiedthepossibilitiesofthegameasithadbeen,played,andbegantofigurehowhemighthavewon,inseveral,instances,bybluffingalittleharder。
  “I’moldenoughtoplaypokeranddosomethingwithit。I’lltry,myhandto-night。”
  Visionsofabigstakefloatedbeforehim。Supposinghedidwin,acoupleofhundred,wouldn’thebeinit?Lotsofsportsheknew,madetheirlivingatthisgame,andagoodliving,too。
  “TheyalwayshadasmuchasIhad,“hethought。
  Sooffhewenttoapokerroomintheneighbourhood,feelingmuch,ashehadintheolddays。Inthisperiodofself-forgetfulness,arousedfirstbytheshockofargumentandperfectedbyadinner,inthehotel,withcocktailsandcigars,hewasasnearlylike,theoldHurstwoodashewouldeverbeagain。Itwasnottheold,Hurstwood——onlyamanarguingwithadividedconscienceandlured,byaphantom。
  Thispokerroomwasmuchliketheotherone,onlyitwasaback,roominabetterdrinkingresort。Hurstwoodwatchedawhile,and,then,seeinganinterestinggame,joinedin。Asbefore,itwent,easyforawhile,hewinningafewtimesandcheeringup,losing,afewpotsandgrowingmoreinterestedanddeterminedonthat,account。Atlastthefascinatinggametookastrongholdonhim。
  Heenjoyeditsrisksandventured,onatriflinghand,tobluff,thecompanyandsecureafairstake。Tohisself-satisfaction,intenseandstrong,hedidit。
  Intheheightofthisfeelinghebegantothinkhisluckwaswith,him。Nooneelsehaddonesowell。Nowcameanothermoderate,hand,andagainhetriedtoopenthejack-potonit。Therewere,otherstherewhowerealmostreadinghisheart,soclosewas,theirobservation。
  “Ihavethreeofakind,“saidoneoftheplayerstohimself。
  “I’lljuststaywiththatfellowtothefinish。”
  Theresultwasthatbiddingbegan。
  “Iraiseyouten。”
  “Good。”
  “Tenmore。”
  “Good。”
  “Tenagain。”
  “Rightyouare。”
  ItgottowhereHurstwoodhadseventy-fivedollarsup。Theother,manreallybecameserious。PerhapsthisindividualHurstwood
  reallydidhaveastiffhand。
  “Icall,“hesaid。
  Hurstwoodshowedhishand。Hewasdone。Thebitterfactthathe,hadlostseventy-fivedollarsmadehimdesperate。
  “Let’shaveanotherpot,“hesaid,grimly。
  “Allright,“saidtheman。
  Someoftheotherplayersquit,butobservantloungerstooktheir,places。Timepassed,anditcametotwelveo’clock。Hurstwood,heldon,neitherwinningnorlosingmuch。Thenhegrewweary,andonalasthandlosttwentymore。Hewassickatheart。
  Ataquarterafteroneinthemorninghecameoutoftheplace。
  Thechill,barestreetsseemedamockeryofhisstate。Hewalked,slowlywest,littlethinkingofhisrowwithCarrie。Heascended,thestairsandwentintohisroomasiftherehadbeenno,trouble。Itwashislossthatoccupiedhismind。Sittingdown,onthebedsidehecountedhismoney。Therewasnowbutahundred,andninetydollarsandsomechange。Heputitupandbeganto,undress。
  “Iwonderwhat’sgettingintome,anyhow?”hesaid。
  InthemorningCarriescarcelyspokeandhefeltasifhemustgo,outagain。Hehadtreatedherbadly,buthecouldnotaffordto,makeup。Nowdesperationseizedhim,andforadayortwo,going,outthus,helivedlikeagentleman——orwhatheconceivedtobea,gentleman——whichtookmoney。Forhisescapadeshewassoon,poorerinmindandbody,tosaynothingofhispurse,whichhad,lostthirtybytheprocess。Thenhecamedowntocold,bitter,senseagain。
  “Therentmancomesto-day,“saidCarrie,greetinghimthus,indifferentlythreemorningslater。
  “Hedoes?”
  “Yes;thisisthesecond,“answeredCarrie。
  Hurstwoodfrowned。Thenindespairhegotouthispurse。
  “Itseemsanawfullottopayforrent,“hesaid。
  Hewasnearinghislasthundreddollars。
  ChapterXXXVII
  THESPIRITAWAKENS——NEWSEARCHFORTHEGATE
  Itwouldbeuselesstoexplainhowinduetimethelastfifty,dollarswasinsight。Thesevenhundred,byhisprocessof,handling,hadonlycarriedthemintoJune。Beforethefinal,hundredmarkwasreachedhebegantoindicatethatacalamitywas,approaching。
  “Idon’tknow,“hesaidoneday,takingatrivialexpenditurefor,meatasatext,“itseemstotakeanawfullotforustolive。”
  “Itdoesn’tseemtome,“saidCarrie,“thatwespendverymuch。”
  “Mymoneyisnearlygone,“hesaid,“andIhardlyknowwhereit’s,goneto。”
  “Allthatsevenhundreddollars?”askedCarrie。
  “Allbutahundred。”
  Helookedsodisconsolatethatitscaredher。Shebegantosee,thatsheherselfhadbeendrifting。Shehadfeltitallthe,time。
  “Well,George,“sheexclaimed,“whydon’tyougetoutandlook,forsomething?Youcouldfindsomething。”
  “Ihavelooked,“hesaid。”Youcantmakepeoplegiveyoua,place。”
  Shegazedweaklyathimandsaid:“Well,whatdoyouthinkyou,willdo?Ahundreddollarswon’tlastlong。”
  “Idon’tknow,“hesaid。”Ican’tdoanymorethanlook。”
  Carriebecamefrightenedoverthisannouncement。Shethought,desperatelyuponthesubject。Frequentlyshehadconsideredthe,stageasadoorthroughwhichshemightenterthatgildedstate,whichshehadsomuchcraved。Now,asinChicago,itcameasa,lastresourceindistress。Somethingmustbedoneifhedidnot,getworksoon。Perhapsshewouldhavetogooutandbattleagain,alone。
  Shebegantowonderhowonewouldgoaboutgettingaplace。Her,experienceinChicagoprovedthatshehadnottriedtheright,way。Theremustbepeoplewhowouldlistentoandtryyou——men,whowouldgiveyouanopportunity。
  Theyweretalkingatthebreakfasttable,amorningortwolater,whenshebroughtupthedramaticsubjectbysayingthatshesaw,thatSarahBernhardtwascomingtothiscountry。Hurstwoodhad,seenit,too。
  “Howdopeoplegetonthestage,George?”shefinallyasked,innocently。
  “Idon’tknow,“hesaid。”Theremustbedramaticagents。”
  Carriewassippingcoffee,anddidnotlookup。
  “Regularpeoplewhogetyouaplace?”
  “Yes,Ithinkso,“heanswered。
  Suddenlytheairwithwhichsheaskedattractedhisattention。
  “You’renotstillthinkingaboutbeinganactress,areyou?”he,asked。
  “No,“sheanswered,“Iwasjustwondering。”
  Withoutbeingclear,therewassomethinginthethoughtwhichhe,objectedto。Hedidnotbelieveanymore,afterthreeyearsof,observation,thatCarriewouldeverdoanythinggreatinthat,line。Sheseemedtoosimple,tooyielding。Hisideaoftheart,wasthatitinvolvedsomethingmorepompous。Ifshetriedtoget,onthestageshewouldfallintothehandsofsomecheapmanager,andbecomeliketherestofthem。Hehadagoodideaofwhathe,meantbyTHEM。Carriewaspretty。Shewouldgetalongall,right,butwherewouldhebe?
  “I’dgetthatideaoutofmyhead,ifIwereyou。It’salot,moredifficultthanyouthink。”
  Carriefeltthistocontain,insomeway,anaspersionuponher,ability。
  “YousaidIdidrealwellinChicago,“sherejoined。
  “Youdid,“heanswered,seeingthathewasarousingopposition,“butChicagoisn’tNewYork,byabigjump。”
  Carriedidnotanswerthisatall。Ithurther。
  “Thestage,“hewenton,“isallrightifyoucanbeoneofthe,bigguns,butthere’snothingtotherestofit。Ittakesalong,whiletogetup。”
  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie,slightlyaroused。
  Inaflash,hethoughtheforesawtheresultofthisthing。Now,whentheworstofhissituationwasapproaching,shewouldgeton,thestageinsomecheapwayandforsakehim。Strangely,hehad,notconceivedwellofhermentalability。Thatwasbecausehe,didnotunderstandthenatureofemotionalgreatness。Hehad,neverlearnedthatapersonmightbeemotionally——insteadof,intellectually——great。AveryHallwastoofarawayforhimto,lookbackandsharplyremember。Hehadlivedwiththiswomantoo,long。
  “Well,Ido,“heanswered。”IfIwereyouIwouldn’tthinkof,it。It’snotmuchofaprofessionforawoman。”
  “It’sbetterthangoinghungry,“saidCarrie。”Ifyoudon’twant,metodothat,whydon’tyougetworkyourself?”
  Therewasnoanswerreadyforthis。Hehadgotusedtothe,suggestion。
  “Oh,letup,“heanswered。
  Theresultofthiswasthatshesecretlyresolvedtotry。It,didn’tmatterabouthim。Shewasnotgoingtobedraggedinto,povertyandsomethingworsetosuithim。Shecouldact。She,couldgetsomethingandthenworkup。Whatwouldhesaythen?
  Shepicturedherselfalreadyappearinginsomefineperformance,onBroadway;ofgoingeveryeveningtoherdressing-roomand,makingup。Thenshewouldcomeoutateleveno’clockandseethe,carriagesrangedabout,waitingforthepeople。Itdidnot,matterwhethershewasthestarornot。Ifshewereonlyonce,in,gettingadecentsalary,wearingthekindofclothesshe,liked,havingthemoneytodowith,goinghereandthereasshe,pleased,howdelightfulitwouldallbe。Hermindranoverthis,pictureallthedaylong。Hurstwood’sdrearystatemadeits,beautybecomemoreandmorevivid。
  CuriouslythisideasoontookholdofHurstwood。Hisvanishing,sumsuggestedthathewouldneedsustenance。Whycouldnot,Carrieassisthimalittleuntilhecouldgetsomething?
  Hecameinonedaywithsomethingofthisideainhismind。
  “ImetJohnB。Draketo-day,“hesaid。”He’sgoingtoopena,hotelhereinthefall。Hesaysthathecanmakeaplaceforme,then。”
  “Whoishe?”askedCarrie。
  “He’sthemanthatrunstheGrandPacificinChicago。”
  “Oh,“saidCarrie。
  “I’dgetaboutfourteenhundredayearoutofthat。”
  “Thatwouldbegood,wouldn’tit?”shesaid,sympathetically。
  “IfIcanonlygetoverthissummer,“headded,“IthinkI’llbe,allright。I’mhearingfromsomeofmyfriendsagain。”
  Carrieswallowedthisstoryinallitspristinebeauty。She,sincerelywishedhecouldgetthroughthesummer。Helookedso,hopeless。
  “Howmuchmoneyhaveyouleft?”
  “Onlyfiftydollars。”
  “Oh,mercy,“sheexclaimed,“whatwillwedo?It’sonlytwenty,daysuntiltherentwillbedueagain。”
  Hurstwoodrestedhisheadonhishandsandlookedblanklyatthe,floor。
  “Maybeyoucouldgetsomethinginthestageline?”heblandly,suggested。
  “MaybeIcould,“saidCarrie,gladthatsomeoneapprovedofthe,idea。
  “I’lllaymyhandtowhateverIcanget,“hesaid,nowthathe,sawherbrightenup。”Icangetsomething。”
  Shecleanedupthethingsonemorningafterhehadgone,dressed,asneatlyasherwardrobepermitted,andsetoutforBroadway。
  Shedidnotknowthatthoroughfareverywell。Toheritwasa,wonderfulconglomerationofeverythinggreatandmighty。The,theatreswerethere——theseagenciesmustbesomewhereabout。
  ShedecidedtostopinattheMadisonSquareTheatreandaskhow,tofindthetheatricalagents。Thisseemedthesensibleway。
  Accordingly,whenshereachedthattheatresheappliedtothe,clerkattheboxoffice。
  “Eh?”hesaid,lookingout。”Dramaticagents?Idon’tknow。
  You’llfindtheminthe’Clipper,’though。Theyalladvertisein,that。”
  “Isthatapaper?”saidCarrie。
  “Yes,“saidtheclerk,marvellingatsuchignoranceofacommon,fact。”Youcangetitatthenews-stands,“headdedpolitely,seeinghowprettytheinquirerwas。
  Carrieproceededtogetthe“Clipper,“andtriedtofindthe,agentsbylookingoveritasshestoodbesidethestand。This,couldnotbedonesoeasily。ThirteenthStreetwasanumberof,blocksoff,butshewentback,carryingthepreciouspaperand,regrettingthewasteoftime。
  Hurstwoodwasalreadythere,sittinginhisplace。
  “Wherewereyou?”heasked。
  “I’vebeentryingtofindsomedramaticagents。”
  Hefeltalittlediffidentaboutaskingconcerninghersuccess。
  Thepapershebegantoscanattractedhisattention。
  “Whathaveyougotthere?”heasked。
  “The’Clipper。’ThemansaidI’dfindtheiraddressesinhere。”
  “HaveyoubeenallthewayovertoBroadwaytofindthatout?I
  couldhavetoldyou。”
  “Whydidn’tyou?”sheasked,withoutlookingup。
  “Youneveraskedme,“hereturned。
  Shewenthuntingaimlesslythroughthecrowdedcolumns。Hermind,wasdistractedbythisman’sindifference。Thedifficultyofthe,situationshewasfacingwasonlyaddedtobyallhedid。Self-
  commiserationbrewedinherheart。Tearstrembledalongher,eyelidsbutdidnotfall。Hurstwoodnoticedsomething。
  “Letmelook。”
  Torecoverherselfshewentintothefrontroomwhilehe,searched。Presentlyshereturned。Hehadapencil,andwas,writinguponanenvelope。
  “Here’rethree,“hesaid。
  CarrietookitandfoundthatonewasMrs。Bermudez,another,MarcusJenks,athirdPercyWeil。Shepausedonlyamoment,and,thenmovedtowardthedoor。
  “Imightaswellgorightaway,“shesaid,withoutlookingback。
  Hurstwoodsawherdepartwithsomefaintstirringsofshame,whichweretheexpressionofamanhoodrapidlybecoming,stultified。Hesatawhile,andthenitbecametoomuch。Hegot,upandputonhishat。
  “IguessI’llgoout,“hesaidtohimself,andwent,strolling,nowhereinparticular,butfeelingsomehowthathemustgo。
  Carrie’sfirstcallwasuponMrs。Bermudez,whoseaddresswas,quitethenearest。Itwasanold-fashionedresidenceturnedinto,offices。Mrs。Bermudez’sofficesconsistedofwhatformerlyhad,beenabackchamberandahallbedroom,marked“Private。”
  AsCarrieenteredshenoticedseveralpersonsloungingabout——
  men,whosaidnothinganddidnothing。
  Whileshewaswaitingtobenoticed,thedoorofthehallbedroom,openedandfromitissuedtwoverymannish-lookingwomen,very,tightlydressed,andwearingwhitecollarsandcuffs。Afterthem,cameaportlyladyofaboutforty-five,light-haired,sharp-eyed,andevidentlygood-natured。Atleastshewassmiling。
  “Now,don’tforgetaboutthat,“saidoneofthemannishwomen。
  “Iwon’t,“saidtheportlywoman。”Let’ssee,“sheadded,“where,areyouthefirstweekinFebruary?”
  “Pittsburg,“saidthewoman。
  “I’llwriteyouthere。”
  “Allright,“saidtheother,andthetwopassedout。
  Instantlytheportlylady’sfacebecameexceedinglysoberand,shrewd。SheturnedaboutandfixedonCarrieaverysearching,eye。
  “Well,“shesaid,“youngwoman,whatcanIdoforyou?”
  “AreyouMrs。Bermudez?”
  “Yes。”
  “Well,“saidCarrie,hesitatinghowtobegin,“doyougetplaces,forpersonsuponthestage?”
  “Yes。”
  “Couldyougetmeone?”
  “Haveyoueverhadanyexperience?”
  “Averylittle,“saidCarrie。
  “Whomdidyouplaywith?”
  “Oh,withnoone,“saidCarrie。”Itwasjustashowgotten——“
  “Oh,Isee,“saidthewoman,interruptingher。”No,Idon’tknow,ofanythingnow。”
  Carrie’scountenancefell。
  “YouwanttogetsomeNewYorkexperience,“concludedtheaffable,Mrs。Bermudez。”We’lltakeyourname,though。”
  Carriestoodlookingwhiletheladyretiredtoheroffice。
  “Whatisyouraddress?”inquiredayoungladybehindthecounter,takingupthecurtailedconversation。
  “Mrs。GeorgeWheeler,“saidCarrie,movingovertowhereshewas,writing。Thewomanwroteheraddressinfullandthenallowed,hertodepartatherleisure。
  SheencounteredaverysimilarexperienceintheofficeofMr。
  Jenks,onlyhevarieditbysayingattheclose:“Ifyoucould,playatsomelocalhouse,orhadaprogrammewithyournameon,it,Imightdosomething。”
  Inthethirdplacetheindividualasked:
  “Whatsortofworkdoyouwanttodo?”
  “Whatdoyoumean?”saidCarrie。
  “Well,doyouwanttogetinacomedyoronthevaudevilleorin,thechorus?”
  “Oh,I’dliketogetapartinaplay,“saidCarrie。
  “Well,“saidtheman,“it’llcostyousomethingtodothat。”
  “Howmuch?”saidCarrie,who,ridiculousasitmayseem,hadnot,thoughtofthisbefore。
  “Well,that’sforyoutosay,“heansweredshrewdly。
  Carrielookedathimcuriously。Shehardlyknewhowtocontinue,theinquiry。
  “CouldyougetmeapartifIpaid?”
  “Ifwedidn’tyou’dgetyourmoneyback。”
  “Oh,“shesaid。
  Theagentsawhewasdealingwithaninexperiencedsoul,and,continuedaccordingly。
  “You’dwanttodepositfiftydollars,anyway。Noagentwould,troubleaboutyouforlessthanthat。”
  Carriesawalight。
  “Thankyou,“shesaid。”I’llthinkaboutit。”
  Shestartedtogo,andthenbethoughtherself。
  “HowsoonwouldIgetaplace?”sheasked。
  “Well,that’shardtosay,“saidtheman。”Youmightgetonein,aweek,oritmightbeamonth。You’dgetthefirstthingthat,wethoughtyoucoulddo。”
  “Isee,“saidCarrie,andthen,half-smilingtobeagreeable,she,walkedout。
  Theagentstudiedamoment,andthensaidtohimself:
  “It’sfunnyhowanxiousthesewomenaretogetonthestage。”
  Carriefoundamplefoodforreflectioninthefifty-dollar,proposition。”Maybethey’dtakemymoneyandnotgiveme,anything,“shethought。Shehadsomejewelry——adiamondringand,pinandseveralotherpieces。Shecouldgetfiftydollarsfor,thoseifshewenttoapawnbroker。
  Hurstwoodwashomebeforeher。Hehadnotthoughtshewouldbe,solongseeking。
  “Well?”hesaid,notventuringtoaskwhatnews。
  “Ididn’tfindoutanythingto-day,“saidCarrie,takingoffher,gloves。”Theyallwantmoneytogetyouaplace。”
  “Howmuch?”askedHurstwood。
  “Fiftydollars。”
  “Theydon’twantanything,dothey?”
  “Oh,they’relikeeverybodyelse。Youcan’ttellwhetherthey’d,evergetyouanythingafteryoudidpaythem。”
  “Well,Iwouldn’tputupfiftyonthatbasis,“saidHurstwood,as,ifheweredeciding,moneyinhand。
  “Idon’tknow,“saidCarrie。”IthinkI’lltrysomeofthe,managers。”
  Hurstwoodheardthis,deadtothehorrorofit。Herockeda,littletoandfro,andchewedathisfinger。Itseemedallvery,naturalinsuchextremestates。Hewoulddobetterlateron。
  ChapterXXXVIII
  INELFLANDDISPORTING——THEGRIMWORLDWITHOUT
  WhenCarrierenewedhersearch,asshedidthenextday,goingto,theCasino,shefoundthatintheoperachorus,asinother,fields,employmentisdifficulttosecure。Girlswhocanstand,inalineandlookprettyareasnumerousaslabourerswhocan,swingapick。Shefoundtherewasnodiscriminationbetweenone,andtheotherofapplicants,saveasregardsaconventional,standardofprettinessandform。Theirownopinionorknowledge,oftheirabilitywentfornothing。
  “WhereshallIfindMr。Gray?”sheaskedofasulkydoormanat,thestageentranceoftheCasino。
  “Youcan’tseehimnow;he’sbusy。”
  “DoyouknowwhenIcanseehim?”
  “Gotanappointmentwithhim?”
  “No。”
  “Well,you’llhavetocallathisoffice。”
  “Oh,dear!”exclaimedCarrie。”Whereishisoffice?”
  Hegaveherthenumber。
  Sheknewtherewasnoneedofcallingtherenow。Hewouldnotbe,in。Nothingremainedbuttoemploytheintermediatehoursin,search。
  Thedismalstoryofventuresinotherplacesisquicklytold。
  Mr。Dalysawnoonesavebyappointment。Carriewaitedanhour,inadingyoffice,quiteinspiteofobstacles,tolearnthis,factoftheplacid,indifferentMr。Dorney。
  “Youwillhavetowriteandaskhimtoseeyou。”
  Soshewentaway。
  AttheEmpireTheatreshefoundahiveofpeculiarlylistlessand,indifferentindividuals。Everythingornatelyupholstered,everythingcarefullyfinished,everythingremarkablyreserved。
  AttheLyceumsheenteredoneofthosesecluded,under-stairway,closets,beruggedandbepaneled,whichcausesonetofeelthe,greatnessofallpositionsofauthority。Herewasreserveitself,doneintoabox-officeclerk,adoorman,andanassistant,gloryingintheirfinepositions。
  “Ah,beveryhumblenow——veryhumbleindeed。Telluswhatitis,yourequire。Tellitquickly,nervously,andwithoutavestige,ofself-respect。Ifnotroubletousinanyway,wemayseewhat,wecando。”
  ThiswastheatmosphereoftheLyceum——theattitude,forthat,matter,ofeverymanagerialofficeinthecity。Theselittle,proprietorsofbusinessesarelordsindeedontheirownground。
  Carriecameawaywearily,somewhatmoreabashedforherpains。
  Hurstwoodheardthedetailsofthewearyandunavailingsearch,thatevening。
  “Ididn’tgettoseeanyone,“saidCarrie。”Ijustwalked,and,walked,andwaitedaround。”
  Hurstwoodonlylookedather。
  “Isupposeyouhavetohavesomefriendsbeforeyoucangetin,“
  sheadded,disconsolately。
  Hurstwoodsawthedifficultyofthisthing,andyetitdidnot,seemsoterrible。Carriewastiredanddispirited,butnowshe,couldrest。Viewingtheworldfromhisrocking-chair,its,bitternessdidnotseemtoapproachsorapidly。To-morrowwas,anotherday。
  To-morrowcame,andthenext,andthenext。
  CarriesawthemanagerattheCasinoonce。
  “Comearound,“hesaid,“thefirstofnextweek。Imaymakesome,changesthen。”
  Hewasalargeandcorpulentindividual,surfeitedwithgood,clothesandgoodeating,whojudgedwomenasanotherwould,horseflesh。Carriewasprettyandgraceful。Shemightbeputin,evenifshedidnothaveanyexperience。Oneoftheproprietors,hadsuggestedthatthechoruswasalittleweakonlooks。
  Thefirstofnextweekwassomedaysoffyet。Thefirstofthe,monthwasdrawingnear。Carriebegantoworryasshehadnever,worriedbefore。
  “Doyoureallylookforanythingwhenyougoout?”sheasked,Hurstwoodonemorningasaclimaxtosomepainfulthoughtsofher,own。
  “OfcourseIdo,“hesaidpettishly,troublingonlyalittleover,thedisgraceoftheinsinuation。
  “I’dtakeanything,“shesaid,“forthepresent。Itwillsoonbe,thefirstofthemonthagain。”
  Shelookedthepictureofdespair。
  Hurstwoodquitreadinghispaperandchangedhisclothes。
  “Hewouldlookforsomething,“hethought。”Hewouldgoandsee,ifsomebrewerycouldn’tgethiminsomewhere。Yes,hewould,takeapositionasbartender,ifhecouldgetit。”
  Itwasthesamesortofpilgrimagehehadmadebefore。Oneor,twoslightrebuffs,andthebravadodisappeared。
  “Nouse,“hethought。”Imightaswellgoonbackhome。”
  Nowthathismoneywassolow,hebegantoobservehisclothes,andfeelthatevenhisbestoneswerebeginningtolook,commonplace。Thiswasabitterthought。
  Carriecameinafterhedid。
  “Iwenttoseesomeofthevarietymanagers,“shesaid,aimlessly。”Youhavetohaveanact。Theydon’twantanybody,thathasn’t。”
  “Isawsomeofthebrewerypeopleto-day,“saidHurstwood。”One,mantoldmehe’dtrytomakeaplaceformeintwoorthree,weeks。”
  InthefaceofsomuchdistressonCarrie’spart,hehadtomake,someshowing,anditwasthushedidso。Itwaslassitude’s,apologytoenergy。
  MondayCarriewentagaintotheCasino。
  “DidItellyoutocomearoundtoday?”saidthemanager,looking,heroverasshestoodbeforehim。
  “Yousaidthefirstoftheweek,“saidCarrie,greatlyabashed。
  “Everhadanyexperience?”heaskedagain,almostseverely。
  Carrieownedtoignorance。
  Helookedheroveragainashestirredamongsomepapers。Hewas,secretlypleasedwiththispretty,disturbed-lookingyoungwoman。
  “Comearoundtothetheatreto-morrowmorning。”
  Carrie’sheartboundedtoherthroat。
  “Iwill,“shesaidwithdifficulty。Shecouldseehewantedher,andturnedtogo。
  “Wouldhereallyputhertowork?Oh,blessedfortune,couldit,be?”
  Alreadythehardrumbleofthecitythroughtheopenwindows,becamepleasant。
  Asharpvoiceansweredhermentalinterrogation,drivingawayall,immediatefearsonthatscore。
  “Besureyou’retherepromptly,“themanagersaidroughly。
  “You’llbedroppedifyou’renot。”
  Carriehastenedaway。ShedidnotquarrelnowwithHurstwood’s,idleness。Shehadaplace——shehadaplace!Thissanginher,ears。
  InherdelightshewasalmostanxioustotellHurstwood。But,as,shewalkedhomeward,andhersurveyofthefactsofthecase,becamelarger,shebegantothinkoftheanomalyofherfinding,workinseveralweeksandhislounginginidlenessforanumber,ofmonths。
  “Whydon’thegetsomething?”sheopenlysaidtoherself。”IfI
  canhesurelyoughtto。Itwasn’tveryhardforme。”
  Sheforgotheryouthandherbeauty。Thehandicapofageshedid,not,inherenthusiasm,perceive。
  Thus,ever,thevoiceofsuccess。
  Still,shecouldnotkeephersecret。Shetriedtobecalmand,indifferent,butitwasapalpablesham。
  “Well?”hesaid,seeingherrelievedface。
  “Ihaveaplace。”
  “Youhave?”hesaid,breathingabetterbreath。
  “Yes。”
  “Whatsortofaplaceisit?”heasked,feelinginhisveinsas,ifnowhemightgetsomethinggoodalso。
  “Inthechorus,“sheanswered。
  “IsittheCasinoshowyoutoldmeabout?”
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