Observehowingenuouslyheunderlinescertainwords,andhowcrudelyheglossesoverhishiddenthoughts。Hemustknowthatifhe’brokeoffeverything,’FIRST,byhimself,andwithouttellingmeawordaboutitorhavingtheslightesthopeonmyaccount,thatinthatcaseIshouldperhapsbeabletochangemyopinionofhim,andevenaccepthis——friendship。Hemustknowthat,buthissoulissuchawretchedthing。Heknowsitandcannotmakeuphismind;heknowsitandyetasksforguarantees。HecannotbringhimselftoTRUST,hewantsmetogivehimhopesofmyselfbeforeheletsgoofhishundredthousandroubles。Astothe’formerword’whichhedeclares’lightedupthenightofhislife,’heissimplyanimpudentliar;Imerelypitiedhimonce。
Butheisaudaciousandshameless。Heimmediatelybegantohope,atthatverymoment。Isawit。Hehastriedtocatchmeeversince;heisstillfishingforme。Well,enoughofthis。Taketheletterandgiveitbacktohim,assoonasyouhaveleftourhouse;notbefore,ofcourse。"
"AndwhatshallItellhimbywayofanswer?"
"Nothing——ofcourse!That’sthebestanswer。Isitthecasethatyouaregoingtoliveinhishouse?"
"Yes,yourfatherkindlyrecommendedmetohim。"
"Thenlookoutforhim,Iwarnyou!Hewon’tforgiveyoueasily,fortakingbacktheletter。"
Aglayapressedtheprince’shandandlefttheroom。Herfacewasseriousandfrowning;shedidnotevensmileasshenoddedgood-
byetohimatthedoor。
"I’lljustgetmyparcelandwe’llgo,"saidtheprincetoGania,ashere-enteredthedrawing-room。Ganiastampedhisfootwithimpatience。Hisfacelookeddarkandgloomywithrage。
Atlasttheyleftthehousebehindthem,theprincecarryinghisbundle。
"Theanswer——quick——theanswer!"saidGania,theinstanttheywereoutside。"Whatdidshesay?Didyougivetheletter?"Theprincesilentlyheldoutthenote。Ganiawasstruckmotionlesswithamazement。
"How,what?myletter?"hecried。"Heneverdeliveredit!Imighthaveguessedit,oh!cursehim!OfcourseshedidnotunderstandwhatImeant,naturally!Why-why-WHYdidn’tyougiveherthenote,you——"
"Excuseme;Iwasabletodeliveritalmostimmediatelyafterreceivingyourcommission,andIgaveit,too,justasyouaskedmeto。IthascomeintomyhandsnowbecauseAglayaIvanovnahasjustreturnedittome。"
"How?When?"
"AssoonasIfinishedwritinginheralbumforher,andwhensheaskedmetocomeoutoftheroomwithheryouheard?,wewentintothedining-room,andshegavemeyourlettertoread,andthentoldmetoreturnit。"
"ToREAD?"criedGania,almostatthetopofhisvoice;"toREAD,andyoureadit?"
Andagainhestoodlikealoginthemiddleofthepavement;soamazedthathismouthremainedopenafterthelastwordhadleftit。
"Yes,Ihavejustreadit。"
"Andshegaveityoutoreadherself——HERSELF?"
"Yes,herself;andyoumaybelievemewhenItellyouthatI
wouldnothavereaditforanythingwithoutherpermission。"
Ganiawassilentforaminuteortwo,asthoughthinkingoutsomeproblem。Suddenlyhecried:
"It’simpossible,shecannothavegivenittoyoutoread!Youarelying。Youreadityourself!"
"Iamtellingyouthetruth,"saidtheprinceinhisformercomposedtoneofvoice;"andbelieveme,Iamextremelysorrythatthecircumstanceshouldhavemadesuchanunpleasantimpressionuponyou!"
"But,youwretchedman,atleastshemusthavesaidsomething?
TheremustbeSOMEanswerfromher!"
"Yes,ofcourse,shedidsaysomething!"
"Outwithitthen,damnit!Outwithitatonce!"andGaniastampedhisfoottwiceonthepavement。
"AssoonasIhadfinishedreadingit,shetoldmethatyouwerefishingforher;thatyouwishedtocompromisehersofarastoreceivesomehopesfromher,trustingtowhichhopesyoumightbreakwiththeprospectofreceivingahundredthousandroubles。
Shesaidthatifyouhaddonethiswithoutbargainingwithher,ifyouhadbrokenwiththemoneyprospectswithouttryingtoforceaguaranteeoutofherfirst,shemighthavebeenyourfriend。That’sall,Ithink。Ohno,whenIaskedherwhatIwastosay,asItooktheletter,sherepliedthat’noansweristhebestanswer。’Ithinkthatwasit。ForgivemeifIdonotuseherexactexpressions。ItellyouthesenseasIunderstooditmyself。"
UngovernablerageandmadnesstookentirepossessionofGania,andhisfuryburstoutwithouttheleastattemptatrestraint。
"Oh!that’sit,isit!"heyelled。"Shethrowsmylettersoutofthewindow,doesshe!Oh!andshedoesnotcondescendtobargain,whileIDO,eh?Weshallsee,weshallsee!Ishallpayheroutforthis。"
Hetwistedhimselfaboutwithrage,andgrewpalerandpaler;heshookhisfist。Sothepairwalkedalongafewsteps。Ganiadidnotstandonceremonywiththeprince;hebehavedjustasthoughhewerealoneinhisroom。Heclearlycountedthelatterasanonentity。Butsuddenlyheseemedtohaveanidea,andrecollectedhimself。
"Buthowwasit?"heasked,"howwasitthatyouidiotthatyouare,"headdedtohimself,"weresoveryconfidentialacoupleofhoursafteryourfirstmeetingwiththesepeople?Howwasthat,eh?"
Uptothismomentjealousyhadnotbeenoneofhistorments;nowitsuddenlygnawedathisheart。
"ThatisathingIcannotundertaketoexplain,"repliedtheprince。Ganialookedathimwithangrycontempt。
"Oh!Isupposethepresentshewishedtomaketoyou,whenshetookyouintothedining-room,washerconfidence,eh?"
"Isupposethatwasit;Icannotexplainitotherwise?"
"Butwhy,WHY?Deviltakeit,whatdidyoudointhere?Whydidtheyfancyyou?Lookhere,can’tyourememberexactlywhatyousaidtothem,fromtheverybeginning?Can’tyouremember?"
"Oh,wetalkedofagreatmanythings。WhenfirstIwentinwebegantospeakofSwitzerland。"
"Oh,thedeviltakeSwitzerland!"
"Thenaboutexecutions。"
"Executions?"
"Yes——atleastaboutone。ThenItoldthewholethreeyears’
storyofmylife,andthehistoryofapoorpeasantgirl——"
"Oh,damnthepeasantgirl!goon,goon!"saidGania,impatiently。
"ThenhowSchneidertoldmeaboutmychildishnature,and——"
"Oh,CURSESchneiderandhisdirtyopinions!Goon。"
"ThenIbegantotalkaboutfaces,atleastabouttheEXPRESSIONS
offaces,andsaidthatAglayaIvanovnawasnearlyaslovelyasNastasiaPhilipovna。ItwasthenIblurtedoutabouttheportrait——"
"Butyoudidn’trepeatwhatyouheardinthestudy?Youdidn’trepeatthat——eh?"
"No,ItellyouIdidNOT。"
"Thenhowdidthey——lookhere!DidAglayashowmylettertotheoldlady?"
"Oh,thereIcangiveyoumyfullestassurancethatshedidNOT。
Iwasthereallthewhile——shehadnotimetodoit!"
"Butperhapsyoumaynothaveobservedit,oh,youdamnedidiot,you!"heshouted,quitebesidehimselfwithfury。"Youcan’tevendescribewhatwenton。"
Ganiahavingoncedescendedtoabuse,andreceivingnocheck,verysoonknewnoboundsorlimittohislicence,asisoftenthewayinsuchcases。Hisragesoblindedhimthathehadnotevenbeenabletodetectthatthis"idiot,"whomhewasabusingtosuchanextent,wasveryfarfrombeingslowofcomprehension,andhadawayoftakinginanimpression,andafterwardsgivingitoutagain,whichwasveryun-idioticindeed。Butsomethingalittleunforeseennowoccurred。
"IthinkIoughttotellyou,GavrilaArdalionovitch,"saidtheprince,suddenly,"thatthoughIoncewassoillthatIreallywaslittlebetterthananidiot,yetnowIamalmostrecovered,andthat,therefore,itisnotaltogetherpleasanttobecalledanidiottomyface。Ofcourseyourangerisexcusable,consideringthetreatmentyouhavejustexperienced;butImustremindyouthatyouhavetwiceabusedmeratherrudely。Idonotlikethissortofthing,andespeciallysoatthefirsttimeofmeetingaman,and,therefore,aswehappentobeatthismomentstandingatacrossroad,don’tyouthinkwehadbetterpart,youtotheleft,homewards,andItotheright,here?Ihavetwenty-
fiveroubles,andIshalleasilyfindalodging。"
Ganiawasmuchconfused,andblushedforshame"Doforgiveme,prince!"hecried,suddenlychanginghisabusivetoneforoneofgreatcourtesy。"ForHeaven’ssake,forgiveme!YouseewhatamiserableplightIamin,butyouhardlyknowanythingofthefactsofthecaseasyet。Ifyoudid,Iamsureyouwouldforgiveme,atleastpartially。Ofcourseitwasinexcusableofme,I
know,but——"
"Oh,dearme,Ireallydonotrequiresuchprofuseapologies,"
repliedtheprince,hastily。"Iquiteunderstandhowunpleasantyourpositionis,andthatiswhatmadeyouabuseme。Socomealongtoyourhouse,afterall。Ishallbedelighted——"
"Iamnotgoingtolethimgolikethis,"thoughtGania,glancingangrilyattheprinceastheywalkedalong。"Thefellowhassuckedeverythingoutofme,andnowhetakesoffhismask——
there’ssomethingmorethanappears,hereweshallsee。Itshallallbeasclearaswaterbytonight,everything!"
ButbythistimetheyhadreachedGania’shouse。
VIII。
TheflatoccupiedbyGaniaandhisfamilywasonthethirdfloorofthehouse。Itwasreachedbyacleanlightstaircase,andconsistedofsevenrooms,aniceenoughlodging,andonewouldhavethoughtalittletoogoodforaclerkontwothousandroublesayear。Butitwasdesignedtoaccommodateafewlodgersonboardterms,andhadbeertakenafewmonthssince,muchtothedisgustofGania,attheurgentrequestofhismotherandhissister,VarvaraArdalionovna,wholongedtodosomethingtoincreasethefamilyincomealittle,andfixedtheirhopesuponlettinglodgings。Ganiafrownedupontheidea。Hethoughtitinfradig,anddidnotquitelikeappearinginsocietyafterwards——thatsocietyinwhichhehadbeenaccustomedtoposeuptonowasayoungmanofratherbrilliantprospects。Alltheseconcessionsandrebuffsoffortune,oflate,hadwoundedhisspiritseverely,andhistemperhadbecomeextremelyirritable,hiswrathbeinggenerallyquiteoutofproportiontothecause。
Butifhehadmadeuphismindtoputupwiththissortoflifeforawhile,itwasonlyontheplainunderstandingwithhisinnerselfthathewouldverysoonchangeitall,andhavethingsashechoseagain。Yettheverymeansbywhichhehopedtomakethischangethreatenedtoinvolvehiminevengreaterdifficultiesthanhehadhadbefore。
Theflatwasdividedbyapassagewhichledstraightoutoftheentrance-hall。Alongonesideofthiscorridorlaythethreeroomswhichweredesignedfortheaccommodationofthe"highlyrecommended"lodgers。Besidesthesethreeroomstherewasanothersmalloneattheendofthepassage,closetothekitchen,whichwasallottedtoGeneralIvolgin,thenominalmasterofthehouse,whosleptonawidesofa,andwasobligedtopassintoandoutofhisroomthroughthekitchen,andupordownthebackstairs。Colia,Gania’syoungbrother,aschool-boyofthirteen,sharedthisroomwithhisfather。
He,too,hadtosleeponanoldsofa,anarrow,uncomfortablethingwithatornrugoverit;hischiefdutybeingtolookafterhisfather,whoneededtobewatchedmoreandmoreeveryday。
Theprincewasgiventhemiddleroomofthethree,thefirstbeingoccupiedbyoneFerdishenko,whilethethirdwasempty。
ButGaniafirstconductedtheprincetothefamilyapartments。
Theseconsistedofa"salon,"whichbecamethedining-roomwhenrequired;adrawing-room,whichwasonlyadrawing-roominthemorning,andbecameGania’sstudyintheevening,andhisbedroomatnight;andlastlyNinaAlexandrovna’sandVarvara’sbedroom,asmall,closechamberwhichtheysharedtogether。
Inaword,thewholeplacewasconfined,anda"tightfit"fortheparty。Ganiausedtogrindhisteethwithrageoverthestateofaffairs;thoughhewasanxioustobedutifulandpolitetohismother。However,itwasverysoonapparenttoanyonecomingintothehouse,thatGaniawasthetyrantofthefamily。
NinaAlexandrovnaandherdaughterwerebothseatedinthedrawing-room,engagedinknitting,andtalkingtoavisitor,IvanPetrovitchPtitsin。
Theladyofthehouseappearedtobeawomanofaboutfiftyyearsofage,thin-faced,andwithblacklinesundertheeves。Shelookedillandrathersad;butherfacewasapleasantoneforallthat;andfromthefirstwordthatfellfromherlips,anystrangerwouldatonceconcludethatshewasofaseriousandparticularlysincerenature。Inspiteofhersorrowfulexpression,shegavetheideaofpossessingconsiderablefirmnessanddecision。
Herdresswasmodestandsimpletoadegree,darkandelderlyinstyle;butbothherfaceandappearancegaveevidencethatshehadseenbetterdays。
Varvarawasagirlofsometwenty-threesummers,ofmiddleheight,thin,butpossessingafacewhich,withoutbeingactuallybeautiful,hadtherarequalityofcharm,andmightfascinateeventotheextentofpassionateregard。
Shewasverylikehermother:sheevendressedlikeher,whichprovedthatshehadnotasteforsmartclothes。Theexpressionofhergreyeyeswasmerryandgentle,whenitwasnot,aslately,toofullofthoughtandanxiety。Thesamedecisionandfirmnesswastobeobservedinherfaceasinhermother’s,butherstrengthseemedtobemorevigorousthanthatofNinaAlexandrovna。Shewassubjecttooutburstsoftemper,ofwhichevenherbrotherwasalittleafraid。
Thepresentvisitor,Ptitsin,wasalsoafraidofher。Thiswasayoungfellowofsomethingunderthirty,dressedplainly,butneatly。Hismannersweregood,butratherponderouslyso。Hisdarkbeardboreevidencetothefactthathewasnotinanygovernmentemploy。Hecouldspeakwell,butpreferredsilence。Onthewholehemadeadecidedlyagreeableimpression。HewasclearlyattractedbyVarvara,andmadenosecretofhisfeelings。
Shetrustedhiminafriendlyway,buthadnotshownhimanydecidedencouragementasyet,whichfactdidnotquellhisardourintheleast。
NinaAlexandrovnawasveryfondofhim,andhadgrownquiteconfidentialwithhimoflate。Ptitsin,aswaswellknown,wasengagedinthebusinessoflendingoutmoneyongoodsecurity,andatagoodrateofinterest。HewasagreatfriendofGania’s。
AfteraformalintroductionbyGaniawhogreetedhismotherveryshortly,tooknonoticeofhissister,andimmediatelymarchedPtitsinoutoftheroom,NinaAlexandrovnaaddressedafewkindwordstotheprinceandforthwithrequestedColia,whohadjustappearedatthedoor,toshowhimtothe"middleroom。"
Coliawasanice-lookingboy。Hisexpressionwassimpleandconfiding,andhismannerswereverypoliteandengaging。
"Where’syourluggage?"heasked,asheledtheprinceawaytohisroom。
"Ihadabundle;it’sintheentrancehall。"
"I’llbringityoudirectly。Weonlyhaveacookandonemaid,soIhavetohelpasmuchasIcan。Varialooksafterthings,generally,andloseshertemperoverit。GaniasaysyouhaveonlyjustarrivedfromSwitzerland?"
"Yes。"
"Isitjollythere?"
"Very。"
"Mountains?"
"Yes。"
"I’llgoandgetyourbundle。"
HereVarvarajoinedthem。
"Themaidshallbringyourbed-linendirectly。Haveyouaportmanteau?"
"No;abundle——yourbrotherhasjustgonetothehallforit。"
"There’snothingthereexceptthis,"saidColia,returningatthismoment。"Wheredidyouputit?"
"Oh!butthat’sallIhave,"saidtheprince,takingit。
"Ah!IthoughtperhapsFerdishenkohadtakenit。"
"Don’ttalknonsense,"saidVaria,severely。Sheseemedputout,andwasonlyjustpolitewiththeprince。
"Oho!"laughedtheboy,"youcanbenicerthanthattoME,youknow——I’mnotPtitsin!"
"Yououghttobewhipped,Colia,yousillyboy。Ifyouwantanything"totheprince"pleaseapplytotheservant。Wedineathalf-pastfour。Youcantakeyourdinnerwithus,orhaveitinyourroom,justasyouplease。Comealong,Colia,don’tdisturbtheprince。"
AtthedoortheymetGaniacomingin。
"Isfatherin?"heasked。Coliawhisperedsomethinginhisearandwentout。
"Justacoupleofwords,prince,ifyou’llexcuseme。Don’tblaboverTHEREaboutwhatyoumayseehere,orinthishouseastoallthataboutAglayaandme,youknow。Thingsarenotaltogetherpleasantinthisestablishment——deviltakeitall!You’llsee。AtalleventskeepyourtonguetoyourselfforTODAY。"
"IassureyouI’blabbed’agreatdeallessthanyouseemtosuppose,"saidtheprince,withsomeannoyance。ClearlytherelationsbetweenGaniaandhimselfwerebynomeansimproving。
"OhIwell;Icaughtitquitehotenoughtoday,thankstoyou。
However,Iforgiveyou。"
"IthinkyoumightfairlyrememberthatIwasnotinanywaybound,Ihadnoreasontobesilentaboutthatportrait。Youneveraskedmenottomentionit。"
"Pfu!whatawretchedroomthisis——dark,andthewindowlookingintotheyard。Yourcomingtoourhouseis,innorespect,opportune。However,it’snotMYaffair。Idon’tkeepthelodgings。"
PtitsinherelookedinandbeckonedtoGania,whohastilylefttheroom,inspiteofthefactthathehadevidentlywishedtosaysomethingmoreandhadonlymadetheremarkabouttheroomtogaintime。Theprincehadhardlyhadtimetowashandtidyhimselfalittlewhenthedooropenedoncemore,andanotherfigureappeared。
Thiswasagentlemanofaboutthirty,tall,broadshouldered,andred-haired;hisfacewasred,too,andhepossessedapairofthicklips,awidenose,smalleyes,ratherbloodshot,andwithanironicalexpressioninthem;asthoughhewereperpetuallywinkingatsomeone。Hiswholeappearancegaveonetheideaofimpudence;hisdresswasshabby。
Heopenedthedoorjustenoughtolethisheadin。Hisheadremainedsoplacedforafewsecondswhilehequietlyscrutinizedtheroom;thedoorthenopenedenoughtoadmithisbody;butstillhedidnotenter。Hestoodonthethresholdandexaminedtheprincecarefully。Atlasthegavethedoorafinalshove,entered,approachedtheprince,tookhishandandseatedhimselfandtheowneroftheroomontwochairssidebyside。
"Ferdishenko,"hesaid,gazingintentlyandinquiringlyintotheprince’seyes。
"Verywell,whatnext?"saidthelatter,almostlaughinginhisface。
"Alodgerhere,"continuedtheother,staringasbefore。
"Doyouwishtomakeacquaintance?"askedtheprince。
"Ah!"saidthevisitor,passinghisfingersthroughhishairandsighing。Hethenlookedovertotheothersideoftheroomandaroundit。"Gotanymoney?"heasked,suddenly。
"Notmuch。"
"Howmuch?"
"Twenty-fiveroubles。"
"Let’sseeit。"
TheprincetookhisbanknoteoutandshowedittoFerdishenko。
Thelatterunfoldeditandlookedatit;thenheturneditroundandexaminedtheotherside;thenheheldituptothelight。
"Howstrangethatitshouldhavebrownedso,"hesaid,reflectively。"Thesetwenty-fiveroublenotesbrowninamostextraordinaryway,whileothernotesoftengrowpaler。Takeit。"
Theprincetookhisnote。Ferdishenkorose。
"Icameheretowarnyou,"hesaid。"Inthefirstplace,don’tlendmeanymoney,forIshallcertainlyaskyouto。"
"Verywell。"
"Shallyoupayhere?"
"Yes,Iintendto。"
"Oh!IDON’Tintendto。Thanks。Ilivehere,nextdoortoyou;
younoticedaroom,didyou?Don’tcometomeveryoften;Ishallseeyouherequiteoftenenough。Haveyouseenthegeneral?"
"No。"
"Norheardhim?"
"No;ofcoursenot。"
"Well,you’llbothhearandseehimsoon;heeventriestoborrowmoneyfromme。Avisaulecteur。Good-bye;doyouthinkamancanpossiblylivewithanamelikeFerdishenko?"
"Whynot?"
"Good-bye。"
Andsohedeparted。Theprincefoundoutafterwardsthatthisgentlemanmadeithisbusinesstoamazepeoplewithhisoriginalityandwit,butthatitdidnotasarule"comeoff。"Heevenproducedabadimpressiononsomepeople,whichgrievedhimsorely;buthedidnotchangehiswaysforallthat。
Ashewentoutoftheprince’sroom,hecollidedwithyetanothervisitorcomingin。Ferdishenkotooktheopportunityofmakingseveralwarninggesturestotheprincefrombehindthenewarrival’sback,andlefttheroominconsciouspride。
Thisnextarrivalwasatallred-facedmanofaboutfifty-five,withgreyishhairandwhiskers,andlargeeyeswhichstoodoutoftheirsockets。Hisappearancewouldhavebeendistinguishedhaditnotbeenthathegavetheideaofbeingratherdirty。Hewasdressedinanoldcoat,andhesmelledofvodkawhenhecamenear。Hiswalkwaseffective,andheclearlydidhisbesttoappeardignified,andtoimpresspeoplebyhismanner。
Thisgentlemannowapproachedtheprinceslowly,andwithamostcourteoussmile;silentlytookhishandandhelditinhisown,asheexaminedtheprince’sfeaturesasthoughsearchingforfamiliartraitstherein。
"’Tishe,’tishe!"hesaidatlast,quietly,butwithmuchsolemnity。"Asthoughhewerealiveoncemore。Iheardthefamiliarname-thedearfamiliarname——and,oh。Ihowitremindedmeoftheirrevocablepast——PrinceMuishkin,Ibelieve?"
"Exactlyso。"
"GeneralIvolgin——retiredandunfortunate。MayIaskyourChristianandgenericnames?"
"LefNicolaievitch。"
"So,so——thesonofmyold,Imaysaymychildhood’sfriend,NicolaiPetrovitch。"
"Myfather’snamewasNicolaiLvovitch。"
"Lvovitch,"repeatedthegeneralwithouttheslightesthaste,andwithperfectconfidence,justasthoughhehadnotcommittedhimselftheleastintheworld,butmerelymadealittleslipofthetongue。Hesatdown,andtakingtheprince’shand,drewhimtoaseatnexttohimself。
"Icarriedyouinmyarmsasababy,"heobserved。
"Really?"askedtheprince。"Why,it’stwentyyearssincemyfatherdied。"
"Yes,yes——twentyyearsandthreemonths。Wewereeducatedtogether;Iwentstraightintothearmy,andhe——"
"Myfatherwentintothearmy,too。Hewasasub-lieutenantintheVasiliefskyregiment。"
"No,sir——intheBielomirsky;hechangedintothelattershortlybeforehisdeath。Iwasathisbedsidewhenhedied,andgavehimmyblessingforeternity。Yourmother——"Thegeneralpaused,asthoughovercomewithemotion。
"Shediedafewmonthslater,fromacold,"saidtheprince。
"Oh,notcold——believeanoldman——notfromacold,butfromgriefforherprince。Oh——yourmother,yourmother!heigh-ho!
Youth——youth!YourfatherandI——oldfriendsaswewere——nearlymurderedeachotherforhersake。"
Theprincebegantobealittleincredulous。
"Iwaspassionatelyinlovewithherwhenshewasengaged——
engagedtomyfriend。Theprincenoticedthefactandwasfurious。Hecameandwokemeatseveno’clockonemorning。Iriseanddressinamazement;silenceonbothsides。Iunderstanditall。Hetakesacoupleofpistolsoutofhispocket——acrossahandkerchief——withoutwitnesses。Whyinvitewitnesseswhenbothofuswouldbewalkingineternityinacoupleofminutes?Thepistolsareloaded;westretchthehandkerchiefandstandoppositeoneanother。Weaimthepistolsateachother’shearts。
Suddenlytearsstarttooureyes,ourhandsshake;weweep,weembrace——thebattleisoneofself-sacrificenow!Theprinceshouts,’Sheisyours;’Icry,’Sheisyours——’inaword,inaword——You’vecometolivewithus,hey?"
"Yes——yes——forawhile,Ithink,"stammeredtheprince。
"Prince,motherbegsyoutocometoher,"saidColia,appearingatthedoor。
Theprincerosetogo,butthegeneraloncemorelaidhishandinafriendlymanneronhisshoulder,anddraggedhimdownontothesofa。
"Asthetruefriendofyourfather,Iwishtosayafewwordstoyou,"hebegan。"Ihavesuffered——therewasacatastrophe。I
sufferedwithoutatrial;Ihadnotrial。NinaAlexandrovnamywife,isanexcellentwoman,soismydaughterVarvara。Wehavetoletlodgingsbecausewearepoor——adreadful,unheard-ofcome-
downforus——forme,whoshouldhavebeenagovernor-general;butweareverygladtohaveYOU,atallevents。Meanwhilethereisatragedyinthehouse。"
Theprincelookedinquiringlyattheother。
"Yes,amarriageisbeingarranged——amarriagebetweenaquestionablewomanandayoungfellowwhomightbeaflunkey。
Theywishtobringthiswomanintothehousewheremywifeanddaughterreside,butwhileIliveandbreathesheshallneverentermydoors。Ishalllieatthethreshold,andsheshalltramplemeunderfootifshedoes。IhardlytalktoGanianow,andavoidhimasmuchasIcan。Iwarnyouofthisbeforehand,butyoucannotfailtoobserveit。Butyouarethesonofmyoldfriend,andIhope——"
"Prince,besokindastocometomeforamomentinthedrawing-
room,"saidNinaAlexandrovnaherself,appearingatthedoor。
"Imagine,mydear,"criedthegeneral,"itturnsoutthatIhavenursedtheprinceonmykneeintheolddays。"Hiswifelookedsearchinglyathim,andglancedattheprince,butsaidnothing。
Theprinceroseandfollowedher;buthardlyhadtheyreachedthedrawing-room,andNinaAlexandrovnahadbeguntotalkhurriedly,whenincamethegeneral。Sheimmediatelyrelapsedintosilence。
Themasterofthehousemayhaveobservedthis,butatalleventshedidnottakeanynoticeofit;hewasinhighgoodhumour。
"Asonofmyoldfriend,dear,"hecried;"surelyyoumustrememberPrinceNicolaiLvovitch?Yousawhimat——atTver。"
"Idon’trememberanyNicolaiLvovitch,Wasthatyourfather?"
sheinquiredoftheprince。
"Yes,buthediedatElizabethgrad,notatTver,"saidtheprince,rathertimidly。"SoPavlichefftoldme。"
"No,Tver,"insistedthegeneral;"heremovedjustbeforehisdeath。Youwereverysmallandcannotremember;andPavlicheff,thoughanexcellentfellow,mayhavemadeamistake。"
"YouknewPavlicheffthen?"
"Oh,yes——awonderfulfellow;butIwaspresentmyself。Igavehimmyblessing。"
"Myfatherwasjustabouttobetriedwhenhedied,"saidtheprince,"althoughIneverknewofwhathewasaccused。Hediedinhospital。"
"Oh!itwastheKolpakoffbusiness,andofcoursehewouldhavebeenacquitted。"
"Yes?Doyouknowthatforafact?"askedtheprince,whosecuriositywasarousedbythegeneral’swords。
"Ishouldthinksoindeed!"criedthelatter。"Thecourt-martialcametonodecision。Itwasamysterious,animpossiblebusiness,onemightsay!CaptainLarionoff,commanderofthecompany,haddied;hiscommandwashandedovertotheprinceforthemoment。
Verywell。Thissoldier,Kolpakoff,stolesomeleatherfromoneofhiscomrades,intendingtosellit,andspentthemoneyondrink。Well!Theprince——youunderstandthatwhatfollowstookplaceinthepresenceofthesergeant-major,andacorporal——theprinceratedKolpakoffsoundly,andthreatenedtohavehimflogged。Well,Kolpakoffwentbacktothebarracks,laydownonacampbedstead,andinaquarterofanhourwasdead:youquiteunderstand?Itwas,asIsaid,astrange,almostimpossible,affair。InduecourseKolpakoffwasburied;theprincewrotehisreport,thedeceased’snamewasremovedfromtheroll。Allasitshouldbe,isitnot?Butexactlythreemonthslaterattheinspectionofthebrigade,themanKolpakoffwasfoundinthethirdcompanyofthesecondbattalionofinfantry,Novozemlianskidivision,justasifnothinghadhappened!"
"What?"saidtheprince,muchastonished。
"Itdidnotoccur——it’samistake!"saidNinaAlexandrovnaquickly,looking,attheprinceratheranxiously。"Monmarisetrompe,"sheadded,speakinginFrench。
"Mydear,’setrompe’iseasilysaid。Doyourememberanycaseatalllikeit?Everybodywasattheirwits’end。Ishouldbethefirsttosay’qu’onsetrompe,’butunfortunatelyIwasaneye-
witness,andwasalsoonthecommissionofinquiry。Everythingprovedthatitwasreallyhe,theverysamesoldierKolpakoffwhohadbeengiventheusualmilitaryfuneraltothesoundofthedrum。Itisofcourseamostcuriouscase——nearlyanimpossibleone。Irecognizethat……but——"
"Father,yourdinnerisready,"saidVarvaraatthispoint,puttingherheadinatthedoor。
"Veryglad,I’mparticularlyhungry。Yes,yes,astrangecoincidence——almostapsychological——"
"Yoursoup’llbecold;docome。"
"Coming,coming"saidthegeneral。"Sonofmyoldfriend——"hewasheardmutteringashewentdownthepassage。
"Youwillhavetoexcuseverymuchinmyhusband,ifyoustaywithus,"saidNinaAlexandrovna;"buthewillnotdisturbyouoften。Hedinesalone。Everyonehashislittlepeculiarities,youknow,andsomepeopleperhapshavemorethanthosewhoaremostpointedatandlaughedat。OnethingImustbegofyou-ifmyhusbandappliestoyouforpaymentforboardandlodging,tellhimthatyouhavealreadypaidme。Ofcourseanythingpaidbyyoutothegeneralwouldbeasfullysettledasifpaidtome,sofarasyouareconcerned;butIwishittobeso,ifyouplease,forconvenience’sake。Whatisit,Varia?"
Variahadquietlyenteredtheroom,andwasholdingouttheportraitofNastasiaPhilipovnatohermother。
NinaAlexandrovnastarted,andexaminedthephotographintently,gazingatitlongandsadly。AtlastshelookedupinquiringlyatVaria。
"It’sapresentfromherselftohim,"saidVaria;"thequestionistobefinallydecidedthisevening。"
"Thisevening!"repeatedhermotherinatoneofdespair,butsoftly,asthoughtoherself。"Thenit’sallsettled,ofcourse,andthere’snohopelefttous。Shehasanticipatedheranswerbythepresentofherportrait。Didheshowityouhimself?"sheadded,insomesurprise。
"Youknowwehavehardlyspokentoeachotherforawholemonth。
Ptitsintoldmeallaboutit;andthephotowaslyingunderthetable,andIpickeditup。"
"Prince,"askedNinaAlexandrovna,"Iwantedtoinquirewhetheryouhaveknownmysonlong?Ithinkhesaidthatyouhadonlyarrivedtodayfromsomewhere。"
Theprincegaveashortnarrativeofwhatwehaveheardbefore,leavingoutthegreaterpart。Thetwoladieslistenedintently。
"IdidnotaskaboutGaniaoutofcuriosity,"saidtheelder,atlast。"Iwishtoknowhowmuchyouknowabouthim,becausehesaidjustnowthatweneednotstandonceremonywithyou。What,exactly,doesthatmean?"
AtthismomentGaniaandPtitsinenteredtheroomtogether,andNinaAlexandrovnaimmediatelybecamesilentagain。Theprinceremainedseatednexttoher,butVariamovedtotheotherendoftheroom;theportraitofNastasiaPhilipovnaremainedlyingasbeforeonthework-table。Ganiaobserveditthere,andwithafrownofannoyancesnatcheditupandthrewitacrosstohiswriting-table,whichstoodattheotherendoftheroom。
"Isittoday,Gania?"askedNinaAlexandrovna,atlast。
"Iswhattoday?"criedtheformer。Thensuddenlyrecollectinghimself,heturnedsharplyontheprince。"Oh,"hegrowled,"I
see,youarehere,thatexplainsit!Isitadisease,orwhat,thatyoucan’tholdyourtongue?Lookhere,understandonceforall,prince——"
"Iamtoblameinthis,Gania——nooneelse,"saidPtitsin。
Ganiaglancedinquiringlyatthespeaker。
"It’sbetterso,youknow,Gania——especiallyas,fromonepointofview,themattermaybeconsideredassettled,"saidPtitsin;
andsittingdownalittlewayfromthetablehebegantostudyapapercoveredwithpencilwriting。
Ganiastoodandfrowned,heexpectedafamilyscene。Heneverthoughtofapologizingtotheprince,however。
"Ifit’sallsettled,Gania,thenofcourseMr。Ptitsinisright,"saidNinaAlexandrovna。"Don’tfrown。Youneednotworryyourself,Gania;Ishallaskyounoquestions。Youneednottellmeanythingyoudon’tlike。IassureyouIhavequitesubmittedtoyourwill。"Shesaidallthis,knittingawaythewhileasthoughperfectlycalmandcomposed。
Ganiawassurprised,butcautiouslykeptsilenceandlookedathismother,hopingthatshewouldexpressherselfmoreclearly。
NinaAlexandrovnaobservedhiscautiousnessandadded,withabittersmile:
"Youarestillsuspicious,Isee,anddonotbelieveme;butyoumaybequiteatyourease。Thereshallbenomoretears,norquestions——notfrommyside,atallevents。AllIwishisthatyoumaybehappy,youknowthat。Ihavesubmittedtomyfate;butmyheartwillalwaysbewithyou,whetherweremainunited,orwhetherwepart。OfcourseIonlyanswerformyself——youcanhardlyexpectyoursister——"
"Mysisteragain,"criedGania,lookingatherwithcontemptandalmosthate。"Lookhere,mother,IhavealreadygivenyoumywordthatIshallalwaysrespectyoufullyandabsolutely,andsoshalleveryoneelseinthishouse,beitwhoitmay,whoshallcrossthisthreshold。"
Ganiawassomuchrelievedthathegazedathismotheralmostaffectionately。
"Iwasnotatallafraidformyself,Gania,asyouknowwell。ItwasnotformyownsakethatIhavebeensoanxiousandworriedallthistime!Theysayitisalltobesettledto-day。Whatistobesettled?"
"Shehaspromisedtotellmetonightatherownhousewhethersheconsentsornot,"repliedGania。
"Wehavebeensilentonthissubjectforthreeweeks,"saidhismother,"anditwasbetterso;andnowIwillonlyaskyouonequestion。Howcanshegiveherconsentandmakeyouapresentofherportraitwhenyoudonotloveher?Howcansucha——sucha——"
"Practisedhand——eh?"
"Iwasnotgoingtoexpressmyselfso。Buthowcouldyousoblindher?"
NinaAlexandrovna’squestionbetrayedintenseannoyance。Ganiawaitedamomentandthensaid,withouttakingthetroubletoconcealtheironyofhistone:
"Thereyouare,mother,youarealwayslikethat。Youbeginbypromisingthattherearetobenoreproachesorinsinuationsorquestions,andhereyouarebeginningthematonce。Wehadbetterdropthesubject——wehad,really。Ishallneverleaveyou,mother;anyothermanwouldcutandrunfromsuchasisterasthis。Seehowsheislookingatmeatthismoment!Besides,howdoyouknowthatIamblindingNastasiaPhilipovna?AsforVaria,Idon’tcare——shecandojustasshepleases。There,that’squiteenough!"
Gania’sirritationincreasedwitheverywordheuttered,ashewalkedupanddowntheroom。Theseconversationsalwaystouchedthefamilysoresbeforelong。
"IhavesaidalreadythatthemomentshecomesinIgoout,andI
shallkeepmyword,"remarkedVaria。
"Outofobstinacy"shoutedGania。"Youhaven’tmarried,either,thankstoyourobstinacy。Oh,youneedn’tfrownatme,Varvara!
YoucangoatonceforallIcare;Iamsickenoughofyourcompany。What,youaregoingtoleaveusareyou,too?"hecried,turningtotheprince,whowasrisingfromhischair。
Gania’svoicewasfullofthemostuncontrolledanduncontrollableirritation。
Theprinceturnedatthedoortosaysomething,butperceivinginGania’sexpressionthattherewasbutthatonedropwantingtomakethecupoverflow,hechangedhismindandlefttheroomwithoutaword。Afewminuteslaterhewasawarefromthenoisyvoicesinthedrawingroom,thattheconversationhadbecomemorequarrelsomethaneverafterhisdeparture。
Hecrossedthesalonandtheentrance-hall,soastopassdownthecorridorintohisownroom。Ashecamenearthefrontdoorheheardsomeoneoutsidevainlyendeavouringtoringthebell,whichwasevidentlybroken,andonlyshookalittle,withoutemittinganysound。
Theprincetookdownthechainandopenedthedoor。Hestartedbackinamazement——fortherestoodNastasiaPhilipovna。Heknewheratoncefromherphotograph。Hereyesblazedwithangerasshelookedathim。Shequicklypushedbyhimintothehall,shoulderinghimoutofherway,andsaid,furiously,asshethrewoffherfurcloak:
"Ifyouaretoolazytomendyourbell,youshouldatleastwaitinthehalltoletpeopleinwhentheyrattlethebellhandle。
There,now,you’vedroppedmyfurcloak——dummy!"
Sureenoughthecloakwaslyingontheground。Nastasiahadthrownitoffhertowardstheprince,expectinghimtocatchit,buttheprincehadmissedit。
"Nowthen——announceme,quick!"
Theprincewantedtosaysomething,butwassoconfusedandastonishedthathecouldnot。However,hemovedofftowardsthedrawing-roomwiththecloakoverhisarm。
"Nowthen,whereareyoutakingmycloakto?Ha,ha,ha!Areyoumad?"
Theprinceturnedandcameback,moreconfusedthanever。Whensheburstoutlaughing,hesmiled,buthistonguecouldnotformawordasyet。Atfirst,whenhehadopenedthedoorandsawherstandingbeforehim,hehadbecomeaspaleasdeath;butnowtheredbloodhadrushedbacktohischeeksinatorrent。
"Why,whatanidiotitis!"criedNastasia,stampingherfootwithirritation。"Goon,do!Whomareyougoingtoannounce?"
"NastasiaPhilipovna,"murmuredtheprince。
"Andhowdoyouknowthat?"sheaskedhim,sharply。
"Ihaveneverseenyoubefore!"
"Goon,announceme——what’sthatnoise?"
"Theyarequarrelling,"saidtheprince,andenteredthedrawing-
room,justasmattersintherehadalmostreachedacrisis。NinaAlexandrovnahadforgottenthatshehad"submittedtoeverything!"ShewasdefendingVaria。Ptitsinwastakingherpart,too。NotthatVariawasafraidofstandingupforherself。
Shewasbynomeansthatsortofagirl;butherbrotherwasbecomingruderandmoreintolerableeverymoment。Herusualpracticeinsuchcasesasthepresentwastosaynothing,butstareathim,withouttakinghereyesoffhisfaceforaninstant。Thismanoeuvre,asshewellknew,coulddriveGaniadistracted。
Justatthismomentthedooropenedandtheprinceentered,announcing:
"NastasiaPhilipovna!"
IX。
Silenceimmediatelyfellontheroom;alllookedattheprinceasthoughtheyneitherunderstood,norhopedtounderstand。Ganiawasmotionlesswithhorror。
Nastasia’sarrivalwasamostunexpectedandoverwhelmingeventtoallparties。Inthefirstplace,shehadneverbeenbefore。UptonowshehadbeensohaughtythatshehadneverevenaskedGaniatointroducehertohisparents。Oflateshehadnotsomuchasmentionedthem。Ganiawaspartlygladofthis;butstillhehadputittoherdebitintheaccounttobesettledaftermarriage。
Hewouldhaveborneanythingfromherratherthanthisvisit。Butonethingseemedtohimquiteclear-hervisitnow,andthepresentofherportraitonthisparticularday,pointedoutplainlyenoughwhichwaysheintendedtomakeherdecision!
Theincredulousamazementwithwhichallregardedtheprincedidnotlastlong,forNastasiaherselfappearedatthedoorandpassedin,pushingbytheprinceagain。
"AtlastI’vestormedthecitadel!Whydoyoutieupyourbell?"
shesaid,merrily,asshepressedGania’shand,thelatterhavingrusheduptoherassoonasshemadeherappearance。"Whatareyoulookingsoupsetabout?Introduceme,please!"
ThebewilderedGaniaintroducedherfirsttoVaria,andbothwomen,beforeshakinghands,exchangedlooksofstrangeimport。
Nastasia,however,smiledamiably;butVariadidnottrytolookamiable,andkepthergloomyexpression。Shedidnotevenvouchsafetheusualcourteoussmileofetiquette。Ganiadartedaterribleglanceofwrathatherforthis,butNinaAlexandrovna,mendedmattersalittlewhenGaniaintroducedheratlast。
Hardly,however,hadtheoldladybegunabouther"highlygratifiedfeelings,"andsoon,whenNastasialefther,andflouncedintoachairbyGania’ssideinthecornerbythewindow,andcried:"Where’syourstudy?andwherearethe——thelodgers?Youdotakeinlodgers,don’tyou?"
Ganialookeddreadfullyputout,andtriedtosaysomethinginreply,butNastasiainterruptedhim:
"Why,whereareyougoingtosqueezelodgersinhere?Don’tyouuseastudy?Doesthissortofthingpay?"sheadded,turningtoNinaAlexandrovna。
"Well,itistroublesome,rather,"saidthelatter;"butI
supposeitwill’pay’prettywell。Wehaveonlyjustbegun,however——"
AgainNastasiaPhilipovnadidnothearthesentenceout。SheglancedatGania,andcried,laughing,"Whataface!Mygoodness,whatafaceyouhaveonatthismoment!"
Indeed,Ganiadidnotlookintheleastlikehimself。Hisbewildermentandhisalarmedperplexitypassedoff,however,andhislipsnowtwitchedwithrageashecontinuedtostareevillyathislaughingguest,whilehiscountenancebecameabsolutelylivid。
Therewasanotherwitness,who,thoughstandingatthedoormotionlessandbewilderedhimself,stillmanagedtoremarkGania’sdeath-likepallor,andthedreadfulchangethathadcomeoverhisface。Thiswitnesswastheprince,whonowadvancedinalarmandmutteredtoGania:
"Drinksomewater,anddon’tlooklikethat!"
Itwasclearthathecameoutwiththesewordsquitespontaneously,onthespurofthemoment。Buthisspeechwasproductiveofmuch——foritappearedthatall。Gania’sragenowoverflowedupontheprince。Heseizedhimbytheshoulderandgazedwithanintensityofloathingandrevengeathim,butsaidnothing——asthoughhisfeelingsweretoostrongtopermitofwords。
Generalagitationprevailed。NinaAlexandrovnagavealittlecryofanxiety;Ptitsintookastepforwardinalarm;ColiaandFerdishenkostoodstockstillatthedoorinamazement;——onlyVariaremainedcoollywatchingthescenefromunderhereyelashes。Shedidnotsitdown,butstoodbyhermotherwithfoldedhands。However,Ganiarecollectedhimselfalmostimmediately。Heletgooftheprinceandburstoutlaughing。
"Why,areyouadoctor,prince,orwhat?"heasked,asnaturallyaspossible。"Ideclareyouquitefrightenedme!NastasiaPhilipovna,letmeintroducethisinterestingcharactertoyou——
thoughIhaveonlyknownhimmyselfsincethemorning。"
Nastasiagazedattheprinceinbewilderment。"Prince?HeaPrince?Why,Itookhimforthefootman,justnow,andsenthimintoannounceme!Ha,ha,ha,isn’tthatgood!"
"Notbadthat,notbadatall!"putinFerdishenko,"senonevero——"
"IratherthinkIpitchedintoyou,too,didn’tI?Forgiveme——do!
Whoishe,didyousay?Whatprince?Muishkin?"sheadded,addressingGania。
"Heisalodgerofours,"explainedthelatter。
"Anidiot!"——theprincedistinctlyheardthewordhalfwhisperedfrombehindhim。ThiswasFerdishenko’svoluntaryinformationforNastasia’sbenefit。
"Tellme,whydidn’tyouputmerightwhenImadesuchadreadfulmistakejustnow?"continuedthelatter,examiningtheprincefromheadtofootwithouttheslightestceremony。Sheawaitedtheanswerasthoughconvincedthatitwouldbesofoolishthatshemustinevitablyfailtorestrainherlaughteroverit。
"Iwasastonished,seeingyousosuddenly——"murmuredtheprince。
"HowdidyouknowwhoIwas?Wherehadyouseenmebefore?Andwhywereyousostruckdumbatthesightofme?Whatwastheresooverwhelmingaboutme?"
"Oho!ho,ho,ho!"criedFerdishenko。"NOWthen,prince!Myword,whatthingsIwouldsayifIhadsuchachanceasthat!Mygoodness,prince——goon!"
"SoshouldI,inyourplace,I’venodoubt!"laughedtheprincetoFerdishenko;thencontinued,addressingNastasia:"Yourportraitstruckmeveryforciblythismorning;thenIwastalkingaboutyoutotheEpanchins;andthen,inthetrain,beforeI
reachedPetersburg,ParfenRogojintoldmeagooddealaboutyou;
andattheverymomentthatIopenedthedoortoyouIhappenedtobethinkingofyou,when——thereyoustoodbeforeme!"
"Andhowdidyourecognizeme?"
"Fromtheportrait!"
"Whatelse?"
"Iseemedtoimagineyouexactlyasyouare——Iseemedtohaveseenyousomewhere。"
"Where——where?"
"Iseemtohaveseenyoureyessomewhere;butitcannotbe!I
havenotseenyou——Ineverwasherebefore。Imayhavedreamedofyou,Idon’tknow。"
Theprincesaidallthiswithmanifesteffort——inbrokensentences,andwithmanydrawingsofbreath。Hewasevidentlymuchagitated。NastasiaPhilipovnalookedathiminquisitively,butdidnotlaugh。
"Bravo,prince!"criedFerdishenko,delighted。
AtthismomentaloudvoicefrombehindthegroupwhichhedgedintheprinceandNastasiaPhilipovna,dividedthecrowd,asitwere,andbeforethemstoodtheheadofthefamily,GeneralIvolgin。Hewasdressedineveningclothes;hismoustachewasdyed。
ThisapparitionwastoomuchforGania。Vainandambitiousalmosttomorbidness,hehadhadmuchtoputupwithinthelasttwomonths,andwasseekingfeverishlyforsomemeansofenablinghimselftoleadamorepresentablekindofexistence。Athome,henowadoptedanattitudeofabsolutecynicism,buthecouldnotkeepthisupbeforeNastasiaPhilipovna,althoughhehadsworntomakeherpayaftermarriageforallhesufferednow。Hewasexperiencingalasthumiliation,thebitterestofall,atthismoment——thehumiliationofblushingforhisownkindredinhisownhouse。Aquestionflashedthroughhismindastowhetherthegamewasreallyworththecandle。
Forthathadhappenedatthismoment,whichfortwomonthshadbeenhisnightmare;whichhadfilledhissoulwithdreadandshame——themeetingbetweenhisfatherandNastasiaPhilipovna。Hehadoftentriedtoimaginesuchanevent,buthadfoundthepicturetoomortifyingandexasperating,andhadquietlydroppedit。Verylikelyheanticipatedfarworsethingsthanwasatallnecessary;itisoftensowithvainpersons。Hehadlongsincedetermined,therefore,togethisfatheroutoftheway,anywhere,beforehismarriage,inordertoavoidsuchameeting;
butwhenNastasiaenteredtheroomjustnow,hehadbeensooverwhelmedwithastonishment,thathehadnotthoughtofhisfather,andhadmadenoarrangementstokeephimoutoftheway。
Andnowitwastoolate——therehewas,andgotup,too,inadresscoatandwhitetie,andNastasiaintheveryhumourtoheapridiculeonhimandhisfamilycircle;ofthislastfact,hefeltquitepersuaded。Whatelsehadshecomefor?Therewerehismotherandhissistersittingbeforeher,andsheseemedtohaveforgottentheirveryexistencealready;andifshebehavedlikethat,hethought,shemusthavesomeobjectinview。
FerdishenkoledthegeneraluptoNastasiaPhilipovna。
"ArdalionAlexandrovitchIvolgin,"saidthesmilinggeneral,withalowbowofgreatdignity,"anoldsoldier,unfortunate,andthefatherofthisfamily;buthappyinthehopeofincludinginthatfamilysoexquisite——"
Hedidnotfinishhissentence,foratthismomentFerdishenkopushedachairupfrombehind,andthegeneral,notveryfirmonhislegs,atthispost-prandialhour,floppedintoitbackwards。
Itwasalwaysadifficultthingtoputthiswarriortoconfusion,andhissuddendescentlefthimascomposedasbefore。HehadsatdownjustoppositetoNastasia,whosefingershenowtook,andraisedtohislipswithgreatelegance,andmuchcourtesy。Thegeneralhadoncebelongedtoaveryselectcircleofsociety,buthehadbeenturnedoutofittwoorthreeyearssinceonaccountofcertainweaknesses,inwhichhenowindulgedwithallthelessrestraint;buthisgoodmannersremainedwithhimtothisday,inspiteofall。
NastasiaPhilipovnaseemeddelightedattheappearanceofthislatestarrival,ofwhomshehadofcourseheardagooddealbyreport。
"Ihaveheardthatmyson——"beganArdalionAlexandrovitch。
"Yourson,indeed!Anicepapayouare!YOUmighthavecometoseemeanyhow,withoutcompromisinganyone。Doyouhideyourself,ordoesyoursonhideyou?"
"Thechildrenofthenineteenthcentury,andtheirparents——"
beganthegeneral,again。
"NastasiaPhilipovna,willyouexcusethegeneralforamoment?
Someoneisinquiringforhim,"saidNinaAlexandrovnainaloudvoice,interruptingtheconversation。
"Excusehim?Ohno,Ihavewishedtoseehimtoolongforthat。
Why,whatbusinesscanhehave?Hehasretired,hasn’the?Youwon’tleaveme,general,willyou?"
"Igiveyoumywordthatheshallcomeandseeyou——buthe——heneedsrestjustnow。"
"General,theysayyourequirerest,"saidNastasiaPhilipovna,withthemelancholyfaceofachildwhosetoyistakenaway。
ArdalionAlexandrovitchimmediatelydidhisbesttomakehisfoolishpositionagreatdealworse。
"Mydear,mydear!"hesaid,solemnlyandreproachfully,lookingathiswife,withonehandonhisheart。
"Won’tyouleavetheroom,mamma?"askedVaria,aloud。
"No,Varia,Ishallsititouttotheend。"
Nastasiamusthaveoverheardbothquestionandreply,buthervivacitywasnotintheleastdamped。Onthecontrary,itseemedtoincrease。Sheimmediatelyoverwhelmedthegeneraloncemorewithquestions,andwithinfiveminutesthatgentlemanwasashappyasaking,andholdingforthatthetopofhisvoice,amidthelaughterofalmostallwhoheardhim。
Coliajoggedtheprince’sarm。
"Can’tYOUgethimoutoftheroom,somehow?DO,please,"andtearsofannoyancestoodintheboy’seyes。"CursethatGania!"
hemuttered,betweenhisteeth。
"Ohyes,IknewGeneralEpanchinwell,"GeneralIvolginwassayingatthismoment;"heandPrinceNicolaiIvanovitchMuishkin——whosesonIhavethisdayembracedafteranabsenceoftwentyyears——andI,werethreeinseparables。Alasoneisinthegrave,torntopiecesbycalumniesandbullets;anotherisnowbeforeyou,stillbattlingwithcalumniesandbullets——"
"Bullets?"criedNastasia。
"Yes,hereinmychest。IreceivedthematthesiegeofKars,andIfeeltheminbadweathernow。Andastothethirdofourtrio,Epanchin,ofcourseafterthatlittleaffairwiththepoodleintherailwaycarriage,itwasallUPbetweenus。"
"Poodle?Whatwasthat?Andinarailwaycarriage?Dearme,"saidNastasia,thoughtfully,asthoughtryingtorecallsomethingtomind。
"Oh,justasilly,littleoccurrence,reallynotworthtelling,aboutPrincessBielokonski’sgoverness,MissSmith,and——oh,itisreallynotworthtelling!"
"No,no,wemusthaveit!"criedNastasiamerrily。
"Yes,ofcourse,"saidFerdishenko。"C’estdunouveau。"
"Ardalion,"saidNinaAlexandrovitch,entreatingly。
"Papa,youarewanted!"criedColia。
"Well,itisasillylittlestory,inafewwords,"beganthedelightedgeneral。"Acoupleofyearsago,soonafterthenewrailwaywasopened,Ihadtogosomewhereorotheronbusiness。
Well,Itookafirst-classticket,satdown,andbegantosmoke,orratherCONTINUEDtosmoke,forIhadlightedupbefore。Iwasaloneinthecarriage。Smokingisnotallowed,butisnotprohibitedeither;itishalfallowed——sotospeak,winkedat。I
hadthewindowopen。"
"Suddenly,justbeforethewhistle,incametwoladieswithalittlepoodle,andsatdownoppositetome;notbad-lookingwomen;onewasinlightblue,theotherinblacksilk。Thepoodle,abeautywithasilvercollar,layonlightblue’sknee。
Theylookedhaughtilyabout,andtalkedEnglishtogether。Itooknonotice,justwentonsmoking。Iobservedthattheladiesweregettingangry——overmycigar,doubtless。Onelookedatmethroughhertortoise-shelleyeglass。
"Itooknonotice,becausetheyneversaidaword。Iftheydidn’tlikethecigar,whycouldn’ttheysayso?Notaword,notahint!
Suddenly,andwithouttheveryslightestsuspicionofwarning,’lightblue’seizesmycigarfrombetweenmyfingers,and,wheugh!outofthewindowwithit!Well,onflewthetrain,andI
satbewildered,andtheyoungwoman,tallandfair,andratherredintheface,toored,glaredatmewithflashingeyes。
"Ididn’tsayaword,butwithextremecourtesy,Imaysaywithmostrefinedcourtesy,Ireachedmyfingerandthumbovertowardsthepoodle,tookitupdelicatelybythenapeoftheneck,andchuckeditoutofthewindow,afterthecigar。Thetrainwentflyingon,andthepoodle’syellswerelostinthedistance。"
"Oh,younaughtyman!"criedNastasia,laughingandclappingherhandslikeachild。
"Bravo!"saidFerdishenko。Ptitsinlaughedtoo,thoughhehadbeenverysorrytoseethegeneralappear。EvenColialaughedandsaid,"Bravo!"
"AndIwasright,trulyright,"criedthegeneral,withwarmthandsolemnity,"forifcigarsareforbiddeninrailwaycarriages,poodlesaremuchmoreso。"
"Well,andwhatdidtheladydo?"askedNastasia,impatiently。
"She——ah,that’swhereallthemischiefofitlies!"repliedIvolgin,frowning。"Withoutaword,asitwere,ofwarning,sheslappedmeonthecheek!Anextraordinarywoman!"
"Andyou?"
Thegeneraldroppedhiseyes,andelevatedhisbrows;shruggedhisshoulders,tightenedhislips,spreadhishands,andremainedsilent。Atlastheblurtedout:
"Ilostmyhead!"
"Didyouhither?"
"No,ohno!——therewasagreatflare-up,butIdidn’thither!I
hadtostrugglealittle,purelytodefendmyself;buttheverydevilwasinthebusiness。Itturnedoutthat’lightblue’wasanEnglishwoman,governessorsomething,atPrincessBielokonski’s,andtheotherwomanwasoneoftheold-maidprincessesBielokonski。Well,everybodyknowswhatgreatfriendstheprincessandMrs。Epanchinare,sotherewasaprettykettleoffish。AlltheBielokonskiswentintomourningforthepoodle。Sixprincessesintears,andtheEnglishwomanshrieking!
"OfcourseIwroteanapology,andcalled,buttheywouldnotreceiveeithermeormyapology,andtheEpanchinscutme,too!"
"Butwait,"saidNastasia。"Howisitthat,fiveorsixdayssince,Ireadexactlythesamestoryinthepaper,ashappeningbetweenaFrenchmanandanEnglishgirl?Thecigarwassnatchedawayexactlyasyoudescribe,andthepoodlewaschuckedoutofthewindowafterit。Theslappingcameoff,too,asinyourcase;
andthegirl’sdresswaslightblue!"
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