Thewomanhadsuspendedknittingandwasgazingintentlyacrossthehollowtothewest,wheretheroadfromthenorthenteredthelandscape。Susanturnedhereyesinthatdirection。Twohorsemenatagallopweremovingsouthward。Thegirlwaswellscreened,butinstinctivelyshedrewstillfurtherbackbehindthebushes——butnotsofarthatthetwoonhorseback,ridingsoeagerly,wereoutofherview。Theroaddippedintothehollow。
thegallopinghorsemendisappearedwithit。Susanshiftedhergazetothepointonthebrowofthehillwheretheroadreappeared。Shewasquiveringineverynerve。Whentheycameintoviewagainshewouldknow。
Theplaceshewaswatchingswambeforehereyes。Suddenlythetwo,stillatagallop,roseuponthecrestofthehill。JebandherUncleZeke!Hervisioncleared,hernervesteadied。
Theydidnotdrawreinuntiltheywereattheroadgateofthelittlehouse。Thewomanrose,putdownherknittingintheseatofherstiff,rush-bottomedrocker,advancedtothefence。Theairwasstill,butSusancouldnothearasound,thoughshecranedforwardandstrainedherearstotheuttermost。Sheshrankasifshehadbeenstruckwhenthethreebegantogazeupattherock——togaze,itseemedtoher,attheveryspotwhereshewasstanding。Washerscreenlessthickthanshethought?
Hadtheyseen——ifnother,perhapspartofherdress?
WildlyherheartbeatasJebdismountedfromhishorsethemarebehindwhichshehadmadeherweddingjourney——andstoodinthegateway,talkingwiththewomanandlookingtowardthetopoftherock。ZekeWarhamturnedhishorseandbegantorideslowlyaway。Hegotasfarasthebrowofthehill,withJebstillinthegateway,hesitating。ThenSusanheard:
“Holdon,Mr。Warham。Ireckonyou”reright。”
Warhamhaltedhishorse,Jebremountedandjoinedhim。Asthewomanreturnedtowardthebackdoorstep,thetwomenrodeatawalkdownintothehollow。Whentheyreappeareditwasontheroadbywhichtheyhadcome。Andthegirlknewthepursuitinthatdirection——therightdirection——wasover。Tremblingandwithaflutteringinherbreastliketheflappingofabird”swings,shesanktotheground。Presentlysheburstintoapassionoftears。Withoutknowingwhy,shetoreofftheweddingringwhichuntilthenshehadforgotten,andflungitoutamongthetreetops。Afewminutes,andshedriedhereyesandstoodup。Thetwohorsemenwereleavingthelandscapeatthepointatwhichtheyhadenteredit。Thegirlwouldnothaveknown,wouldhavebeenfrightenedby,herownfacehadsheseenitasshewatchedthemgooutofhersight——outofherlife。Shedidnotunderstandherself,forshewasatthatagewhenoneisnomoreconsciousoftheforceslockedupwithinhisunexploredanduntestedcharacterthanthedynamitecartridgeisofitssecretsofpowerandterror。
CHAPTERXI
SHEfeltfreetogonow。Shewalkedtowardtheplacewhereshehadlefttheeggs。Itwasonthesideoftherockoverlookingthecreek。Assheknelttoremovetheleaves,sheheardfromfarbelowaman”svoicesinging。Sheleanedforwardandglanceddownatthecreek。Inamomentappearedayoungmanwithafishingrodandabagslungoverhisshoulder。Hisgrayandwhitestripedflanneltrouserswererolledtohisknees。Hisfairskinandthefairhairwavingabouthisforeheadwereexposedbytheflapping-brimmedstrawhatsetuponthebackofhishead。Hisvoice,astrongandmanlytenor,wassendingupthosesteepsasongshehadneverheardbefore——asonginItalian。Shehadnotseenwhathelookedlikewhensherememberedherselfandhastilyfellbackfromview。Shedroppedtothegrassandcrawledouttowardtheledge。Whensheshowedherfaceitsohappenedthathewaslookingstraightather。
“Hello!“heshouted。“Thatyou,Nell?“
Susandrewback,herbloodinatumult。Frombelow,afterabriefsilence,cameaburstoflaughter。
Shewaitedalongtime,thenthroughashieldofbunchesofgrasslookedagain。Theyoungmanwasgone。Shewishedthathehadresumedhissong,forshethoughtshehadneverheardonesobeautiful。Becauseshedidnotfeelsafeindescendinguntilhewaswelloutoftheway,andbecauseshewassocomfortablelyingthereintheafternoonsunshinewatchingthebirdsandlisteningtothem,shecontinuedonthere,glancingnowandthenatwherethecreekenteredandwhereitleftherrangeofvision,tomakesurethatnooneelseshouldcomeandcatchher。
Suddenlysoundedavoicefromsomewherebehindher:
“Hey,Nell!I”mcoming!“
Shesprangtoherfeet,facedabout;andCrusoewasnotmoreagitatedwhenhesawtheprintofthenakedfootonhisisland”sstrand。Thestrawhatwiththeflappingbrimwasjustliftingabovetheedgeoftherockattheoppositeside,wherethepathwas。Shecouldnotescape;theshelfofferednohidingplace。
Nowtheyoungmanwassteppingtothelevel,pantingloudly。
“Gee,whataclimbforahotday!“hecried。“Whereareyou?“
WiththathewaslookingatSusan,lessthantwentyyardsawayanddrawnupdefiantly。Hestared,tookoffhishat。Hehadclose-croppedwavyhairandeyesasgrayasSusan”sown,butitwasablue-grayinsteadofviolet。Hisskinwasfair,too,andhisexpressionintelligentandsympathetic。Inspiteofhishat,andhisbluecottonshirt,andtrousersrolledhighonbaresunburnedlegs,therewasnothingoftheyokelabouthim。
“Ibegyourpardon,“heexclaimedhalfhumorously。“IthoughtitwasmycousinNell。”
“No,“saidSusan,disarmedbyhiscourtesyandbythefrankengagingmannerofit。
“Ididn”tmeantointrude。”Heshowedwhiteteethinabroadsmile。“Iseefromyourfacethatthisisyourprivatedomain。”
“Oh,no——notatall,“stammeredSusan。
“Yes,Iinsist,“repliedhe。“Willyouletmestayandrestaminute?Iranroundtherockandclimbedprettyfast。”
“Yes——do,“saidSusan。
Theyoungmansatonthegrassnearwherehehadappeared,andcrossedhislonglegs。Thegirl,muchembarrassed,lookeduneasilyabout。“Perhapsyou”dsit,too?“suggestedhe,aftereyeingherinafriendlywaythatcouldnotcauseoffenseandsomehowdidnotcauseanygreatuneasiness。
Susanhesitated,wenttotheshadowofalittletreenotfarfromhim。Hewasfanninghisflushedfacewithhishat。Thecollarofhisshirtwasopen;below,wherethetanendedabruptly,hisskinwasbeautifullywhite。Nowthatshehadbeendiscovered,itwasaswelltobepleasant,shereasoned。“It”safineday,“sheobservedwithagrown-upgravitythatmuchamusedhim。
“Notforfishing,“saidhe。“Icaughtnothing。Youareastrangerintheseparts?“
Susancoloredandalookofterrorflittedintohereyes。“Yes,“
sheadmitted。“I”m——I”mpassingthrough。”
Theyoungmanhadallhecoulddotoconcealhisamusement。
Susanflusheddeeplyagain,notbecauseshesawhisexpression,forshewasnotlookingathim,butbecauseherremarkseemedtoherabsurdandlikelytorousesuspicion。
“Isupposeyoucameupheretoseetheview,“saidtheman。Heglancedround。“It_is_prettygood。You”renotvisitingdownBrooksburgway,byanychance?“
“No,“repliedSusan,rathercomposedlyanddeterminedtochangethesubject。“WhatwasthatsongIheardyousinging?“
“Oh——youheard,didyou?“laughedhe。“It”stheDuke”ssongfrom`Rigoletto。”“
“That”sanopera,isn”tit——like`Trovatore”?“
“Yes——anItalianopera。Sameauthor。”
“It”sabeautifulsong。”Itwasevidentthatshelongedtoaskhimtosingit。Shefeltateasewithhim;hewassounaffectedandsimple,wasoneofthosepeoplewhoseemtobeathomewherevertheyare。
“Doyousing?“heinquired。
“Notreally,“repliedshe。
“NeitherdoI。Soifyou”llsingtome,I”llsingtoyou。”
Susanlookedroundinalarm。“Oh,dear,no——pleasedon”t,“shecried。
“Whynot?“heaskedcuriously。“Thereisn”tasoulabout。”
“Iknow——but——really,youmustn”t。”
“Verywell,“saidhe,seeingthathernervousnesswasnotatallfrombeingaskedtosing。Theysatquietly,shegazingoffatthehorizon,hefanninghimselfandstudyingherlovelyyoungface。Hewassomewhereintheneighborhoodoftwenty-fiveandacloseobserverwouldhavesuspectedhimofanunusualamountofexperience,evenforagood-looking,expansiveyouthofthatage。
Hebrokethelongsilence。“I”manewspapermanfromCincinnati。
I”monthe_Commercial_there。Myname”sRoderickSpenser。Myfather”sClaytonSpenser,downatBrooksburg“——hepointedtothesoutheast”beyondthathillthere,ontheriver。I”mhereonmyvacation。”Andhehalted,lookingatherexpectantly。
Itseemedtoherthattherewasincourtesynoescapewithoutareturnbiographicalsketch。Shehungherhead,twistedhertaperingfingersinherlap,andlookedchildishlyembarrassedandunhappy。Anotherlongsilence;againhebrokeit。“You”llpardonmysayingso,but——you”reveryyoung,aren”tyou?“
“Notso——so_terribly_young。I”malmostseventeen,“repliedshe,glancingthiswayandthat,asifthinkingofflight。
“Youlooklikeachild,yetyoudon”t,“hewenton,andhisfrank,honestvoicecalmedher。“You”vehadsomepainfulexperience,I”dsay。”
Shenodded,hereyesdown。
Apause,thenhe:“Honest,now——aren”tyou——runningaway?“
Sheliftedhereyestohispiteously。“Pleasedon”taskme,“shesaid。
“Ishouldn”tthinkofit,“repliedhe,withagentlenessinhispersistencethatmadeherfeelstillmoreliketrustinghim,“ifitwasn”tthat——
“Well,thisworldisn”ttheeasiestsortofaplace。Lotsofroughstretchesintheroad。I”vestruckseveralandI”vealwaysbeengladwhensomebOdyhasgivenmealift。AndIwanttopassiton——ifyou”llletme。It”ssomethingweoweeachother——don”tyouthink?“
Thewordswerefineenough;butitwasthevoiceinwhichhesaidthemthatwenttoherheart。Shecoveredherfacewithherhandsandreleasedherpentemotions。Hetookapackageoftobaccoandasheafofpapersfromhistrouserspocket,rolledandlightedacigarette。Afterawhileshedriedhereyes,lookedathimshamefacedly。Buthewasallunderstandingandsympathy。
“Nowyoufeelbetter,don”tyou?“
“Much,“saidshe。Andshelaughed。“IguessI”mmoreupsetthanIletmyselfrealize。”
“Sorryyoulefthome?“
“Ihaven”tanyhome,“answeredshesimply。“AndIwouldn”tgobackalivetotheplaceIcamefrom。”
Therewasaqualityintheenergysheputintoherwordsthatmadehimthoughtful。Hecounseledwiththeendofhiscigarette。
Finallyheinquired:
“Whereareyouboundfor?“
“Idon”tknowexactly,“confessedshe,asifitwereasmallmatter。
Heshookhishead。“Iseeyouhaven”tthefaintestnotionwhatyou”reupagainst。”
“Oh,I”llgetalong。I”mstrong,andIcanlearn。”
Helookedathercriticallyandrathersadly。
“Yes——youarestrong,“saidhe。“ButIwonderifyou”restrongenough。”
“Ineverwassickinmylife。”
“Idon”tmeanthat……I”mnotsureIknowjustwhatIdomean。”
“IsitveryhardtogettoChicago?“inquiredshe。
“It”seasiertogettoCincinnati。”
Sheshookherheadpositively。“Itwouldn”tdoformetogothere。”
“Oh,youcomefromCincinnati?“
“No——butI——I”vebeenthere。”
“Oh,theycaughtyouandbroughtyouback?“
Shenodded。Thisyoungmanmustbeverysmarttounderstandsoquickly。
“Howmuchmoneyhaveyougot?“heaskedabruptly。
Buthisfearthatshewouldthinkhimimpertinentcameofanunderestimateofherinnocence。“Ihaven”tgotany,“repliedshe。“Iforgotmypurse。Ithadthirtydollarsinit。”
Atonceherecognizedtheabsolutechild;onlyutterinexperienceoftheworldcouldspeakofsosmallasumsorespectfully。“Idon”tunderstandatall,“saidhe。“Howlonghaveyoubeenhere?“
“Allday。Igothereearlythismorning。”
“Andyouhaven”thadanythingtoeat!“
“Oh,yes!Ifoundsomeeggs。I”vegottwoleft。”
Twoeggs——andnomoneyandnofriends——andawoman。Yetshewasfacingthefuturehopefully!Hesmiled,withtearsinhiseyes。
“Youmustn”ttellanybodyyousawme,“shewenton。“Nomatterwhattheysay,don”tthinkyououghttotellonme。”
Helookedather,sheathim。Whenhehadsatisfiedhimselfhesmiledmostreassuringly。“I”llnot,“washisanswer,andnowshe_knew_shecouldtrusthim。
Shedrewabreathofrelief,andwentonasiftalkingwithanoldfriend。“I”vegottogetalongwaysfromhere。Assoonasit”sdarkI”mgoing。”
“Where?“
“Towardtheriver。”Andhereyeslit。
“Theriver?What”sthere?“
“Idon”tknow,“saidshetriumphantly。
Butheunderstood。Hehadthespiritofadventurehimself——onecouldseeitataglance——thespiritthatinstinctivelyshunsyesterdayandallitsworksandwingseagerlyintotomorrow,unknown,different,new——thereforebetter。Butthisgirl,thischild-woman——orwassheratherwoman-child?——penniless,withnothingbuttwoeggsbetweenherandstarvation,alone,withoutplans,withoutexperience——
Whatwouldbecomeofher?……“Aren”tyou——afraid?“heasked。
“Ofwhat?“sheinquiredcalmly。
Itwasthemereunconsciousaudacityofignorance,yethesawinhernow——notfanciedhesaw,butsaw——acertainstrengthofsoul,bothcourageandtenacity。No,shemightsuffer,sink——butshewoulddiefighting,andshewouldnotbeafraid。Andheadmiredandenviedher。
“Oh,I”llgetalongsomehow,“sheassuredhiminthesameself-relianttone。Suddenlyshefeltitwouldnolongergiveherthehorrorstospeakofwhatshehadbeenthrough。“I”mnotveryold,“saidshe,andherswasthefaceofawomannow。“ButI”velearnedagreatdeal。”
“Youaresureyouarenotmakingamistakein——in——runningaway?“
“Icouldn”tdoanythingelse,“repliedshe。“I”mallaloneintheworld。There”snoone——except——
“Ihadn”tdoneanything,andtheysaidIhaddisgracedthem——andthey——”Hervoicefaltered,hereyessank,thecolorfloodedintoherface。“Theygavemetoaman——andhe——Ihadhardlyseenhimbefore——he——”Shetriedbutcouldnotpronouncethedreadfulword。
“Married,youmean?“saidtheyoungmangently。
Thegirlshuddered。“Yes,“sheanswered。“AndIranaway。”
Sostrange,sostartling,somovingwastheexpressionofherfacethathecouldnotspeakforamoment。Achillcreptoverhimashewatchedherwideeyesgazingintovacancy。Whatvisionofhorrorwassheseeing,hewondered。Torouseherhespokethefirstwordshecouldassemble:
“Whenwasthis?“
Thevisionseemedslowlytofadeandshelookedathiminastonishment。“Why,itwaslastnight!“shesaid,asifdazedbythediscovery。“Onlylastnight!“
“Lastnight!Thenyouhaven”tgotfar。”
“No。ButImust。Iwill。AndI”mnotafraidofanythingexceptofbeingtakenback。”
“Butyoudon”trealizewhatmaybe——probablyis——waitingforyou——attheriver——andbeyond。”
“Nothingcouldbesobad,“saidshe。Thewordswerenothing,butthetoneandtheexpressionthataccompaniedthemsomehowconvincedhimbeyondadoubt。
“You”llletmehelpyou?“
Shedebated。“Youmightbringmesomethingtoeat——mightn”tyou?
Theeggs”lldoforsupper。Butthere”stomorrow。Idon”twanttobeseentillIgetalongwaysoff。”
Heroseatonce。“Yes,I”llbringyousomethingtoeat。”Hetookaknockaboutwatchfromthebreastpocketofhisshirt。“It”snowfouro”clock。I”vegotthreemilestowalk。I”llridebackandhitchthehorsedownthecreek——alittlewaysdown,soitwon”tattractattentiontoyourplaceuphere。I”llbebackinaboutanhourandahalf……MaybeI”llthinkofsomethingthat”llhelp。CanIbringyouanythingelse?
“No。Thatis——I”dlikealittlepieceofsoap。”
“Andatowel?“hesuggested。
“Icouldtakecareofatowel,“agreedshe。“I”llsenditbacktoyouwhenIgetsettled。”
“Goodheavens!“Helaughedathersimplicity。“Whatanhonestchildyouare!“Heputouthishand,andshetookitwithcharmingfriendliness。“Good-by。I”llhurry。”
“I”msogladyoucaughtme,“saidshe。Then,apologetically,“I
don”twanttobeanytrouble。Ihatetobetroublesome。I”veneverletanybodywaitonme。”
“Idon”tknowwhenI”vehadasmuchpleasureasthisisgivingme。”Andhemadeabowthathiditsseriousnessbehindasmileofgood-humoredraillery。
Shewatchedhimdescendwithasinkingheart。Therock——theworld——herlife,seemedemptynow。Hehadremindedherthattherewerehumanbeingswithgoodhearts。But——perhapsifheknew,hiskindnesswouldturnalso……No,shedecidednot。
Menlikehim,womenlikeAuntSallie——theydidnotbelievethosedreadful,wickedideasthatpeoplesaidGodhadordained。
Still——ifheknewaboutherbirth——brandedoutcast——hemightchange。Shemustnotreallyhopeforanythingmuchuntilshewasfar,farawayinawhollynewworldwheretherewouldbeawhollynewsortofpeople,ofakindshehadnevermet。Butshewassuretheywouldwelcomeher,andgiveherachance。
Shereturnedtothetreeagainstwhichshehadbeensitting,forthereshecouldlookattheplacehisbigframehadpresseddowninthetallgrass,andcouldseehiminit,andcouldrecallhisfriendlyeyesandvoice,andcouldkeepherselfassuredshehadnotbeendreaming。Hewasacitifiedman,likeSam——buthowdifferent!Amanwithaheartlikehiswouldnevermarryawoman——no,never!Hecouldn”tbeabrutelikethat。Still,perhapsnicemenmarriedbecauseitwassupposedtobetherightthingtodo,andwastheonlywaytohavechildrenwithoutpeoplethinkingyouadisgraceandslightingthechildren——andthenmarryingmadebrutesofthem。Nowonderherunclescouldtreatherso。Theyweremenwhohadmarried。
Afaroffsheheardthemanlyvoicesingingthesongfrom“Rigoletto。”Shesprangupandlistened,witheyessoftlyshiningandheadalittleononeside。Thesongended;herheartbeatfast。Itwasnotmanyminutesbeforeshe,watchingattheendofthepath,sawhimappearatthebottomofthehugecleft。
Andthelookinhiseyes,themerrysmileabouthisexpressivemouth,delightedher。“I”msogladtoseeyou!“shecried。
Overhisshoulderwasflunghisfishingbag,anditbulged。
“Don”tbescaredbythesizeofmypack,“hecalledup,asheclimbed。“We”regoingtohavesuppertogether——ifyou”llletmestay。Thenyoucantakeasmuchoraslittleasyoulikeofwhat”sleft。”
Arrivedatthetop,hehaltedforalongbreath。Theystoodfacingeachother。“My,whatatallgirlyouareforyourage!“
saidheadmiringly。
Shelaughedupathim。“I”llbeastallasyouwhenIgetmygrowth。”
Shewassolovelythathecouldscarcelyrefrainfromtellingherso。Itseemedtohim,however,itwouldbetakinganunfairadvantagetosaythatsortofthingwhenshewasinawayathismercy。“Whereshallwespreadthetable?“saidhe。“I”mhungryasthehorseleech”sdaughter。Andyou——why,youmustbestarved。
I”mafraidIdidn”tbringwhatyoulike。ButIdidthebestI
could。Iraidedthepantry,tookeverythingthatwasportable。”
Hehadsetdownthebagandhadlooseneditsstrings。Firsthetookoutatablecloth。Shelaughed。“Gracious!Howstylishweshallbe!“
“Ididn”tbringnapkins。Wecanusethecornersofthecloth。”
Hehadtwoknives,twoforks,andabigspoonrolledupinthecloth,andasaltcellar。“Now,here”smytriumph!“hecried,drawingfromthebagapairofroastedchickens。Nextcameajarofquincejelly;next,apaperbagwithcoldpotatoesandcoldstringbeansinit。Thenhefishedoutahugesquareofcornbreadandaloafofsalt-risingbread,apoundofbutter——
“Whatwillyourfolkssay?“exclaimedshe,indismay。
Helaughed。“TheyalwayshavethoughtIwascrazy,eversinceI
wenttocollegeandthentothecityinsteadoffarming。”Andoutofthebagcameabigglassjarofmilk。“Iforgottobringaglass!“heapologized。Thenhesuspendedunpackingtoopenthejar。“Why,youmustbehalf-deadwiththirst,upherealldaywithnotadropofwater。”Andheheldoutthejartoher。
“Drinkhearty!“hecried。
Themilkwasrichandcold;shedranknearlyafourthofitbeforeshecouldwrestthejarawayfromherlips。“My,butthatwasgood!“sheremarked。Hehadenjoyedwatchingherdrink。
“Surelyyouhaven”tgotanythingelseinthatbag?“
“Notmuch,“repliedhe。“Here”satowel,wrappedroundthesoap。
Andherearethreecakesofchocolate。Youcouldlivefourorfivedaysonthem,ifyouwereputtoit。Sowhateverelseyouleave,don”tleavethem。And——Oh,yes,here”sacalicoslipandasunbonnet,andapaperofpins。Andthat”sall。”
“Whataretheyfor?“
“Ithoughtyoumightputthemon——theslipoveryourdress——andyouwouldn”tlookquiteso——sooutofplace——ifanybodyshouldseeyou。”
“Whatafineidea!“criedSusan,shakingouttheslipdelightedly。
Hewasspreadingthesupperonthetablecloth。Hecarvedoneofthechickens,openedthejelly,placedthebreadandvegetablesandbutter。“Now!“hecried。“Let”sgetbusy。”
Andhesetheranexampleshewasnotslowtofollow。Thesunhadslippeddownbehindthehillsofthenorthwesthorizon。Thebirdsweretuningfortheireveningsong。Abreezesprangupandcoquettedwiththestraysofherwavydarkhair。Andtheysatcross-leggedonthegrassonoppositesidesofthetableclothandjokedandlaughedandate,andateandlaughedandjokeduntilthestarsbegantoappearinthevastpalingopalofthesky。Theyhadchosenthecenterofthegrassyplatformfortheirbanquet;thus,fromwheretheysatonlythetopsoftreesandtheskyweretobeseen。Andaftertheyhadfinishedsheleanedonherelbowandlistenedwhilehe,smokinghiscigarette,toldherofhislifeasanewspapermaninCincinnati。Thetwilightfadedintodusk,theduskintoascarletdarkness。
“Whenthemooncomesupwe”llstart,“saidhe。“Youcanridebehindmeonthehorsepartoftheway,anyhow。”
Theshadowoftheparting,theendingofthishappiness,felluponher。Howlonelyitwouldbewhenhewasgone!“Ihaven”ttoldyoumyname,“shesaid。
“I”vetoldyoumineRoderickSpenser——withan_s_,nota_c_。”
“Iremember,“saidshe。“I”llneverforget……Mine”sSusanLenox。”
“Whatwasit——before——”Hehalted。
“Beforewhat?“Hissilencesethertothinking。“Oh!“sheexclaimed,inatonethatmadehimcursehisstupidityinremindingher。“Myname”sSusanLenox——andalwayswillbe。Itwasmymother”sname。”Shehesitated,decidedforfranknessatanycost,forhiskindnessforbadehertodeceivehiminanyway。Proudly,“Mymotherneverletanymanmarryher。Theysayshewasdisgraced,butIunderstandnow。_She_wouldn”tstooptoletanymanmarryher。”
Spenserpuzzledoverthis,butcouldmakenothingofit。Hefeltthatheoughtnottoinquirefurther。Hesawheranxiouseyes,herexpressionofonekeyedupandwaitingforaverdict。“I”dhaveonlytolookatyoutoknowyourmotherwasafinewoman,“
saidhe。Then,toescapefromtheneighborhoodofthedangerousriddle,“Now,aboutyour——yourgoing,“hebegan。“I”vebeenthinkingwhattodo。”
“You”llhelpme?“saidshe,todispelherlastdoubt——averyfaintdoubt,forhiswordsandhiswayofutteringthemhaddispelledherrealanxiety。
“Helpyou?“criedheheartily。“AllIcan。I”vegotaschemetoproposetoyou。Yousayyoucan”ttakethemailboat?“
“Theyknowme。I——I”mfromSutherland。”
“Youtrustme——don”tyou?“
“IndeedIdo。”
“Nowlistentome——asifIwereyourbrother。Willyou?“
“Yes。”
“I”mgoingtotakeyoutoCincinnatiwithme。I”mgoingtoputyouinmyboardinghouseasmysister。AndI”mgoingtogetyouaposition。Then——youcanstartinforyourself。”
“Butthat”llbeagreatlotoftrouble,won”tit?“
“NotanymorethanfriendsofminetookformewhenIwasstartingout。”Then,asshecontinuedsilent,“Whatareyouthinking?Ican”tseeyourfaceinthisstarlight。”
“Iwasthinkinghowgoodyouare,“shesaidsimply。
Helaugheduneasily。“I”mnotoftenaccusedofthat,“hereplied。“I”mlikemostpeople——amixtureofgoodandbad——andnotverystrongeitherway。I”mafraidI”mmostlyimpulsethatwinksout。But——thequestionis,howtogetyoutoCincinnati。
It”ssimplyimpossibleformetogotonight。Ican”ttakeyouhomeforthenight。Idon”ttrustmypeople。They”dnotthinkI
wasgood——oryou,either。Andwhileusuallythey”dberight——bothways——thisisanexception。”Thisideaofanexceptionseemedtoamusehim。Hewenton,“Idon”tdareleaveyouatanyfarmhouseintheneighborhood。IfIdid,youcouldbetraced。”
“No——no,“shecried,alarmedattheverysuggestion。“Imustn”tbeseenbyanybody。”
“We”llgostraighttotheriver,andI”llgetaboatandrowyouacrosstoKentucky——overtoCarrollton。There”salittlehotel。
Icanleaveyou——”
“No——notCarrollton,“sheinterrupted。“Myunclesellsgoodsthere,andtheyknowhim。AndifanythingisintheSutherlandpapersaboutme,why,they”dknow。”
“Notwithyouinthatslipandsunbonnet。I”llmakeupastory——aboutourwagonbreakingdownandthatI”vegottowalkbackintothehillstogetanotherbeforewecangoon。
And——it”stheonlyplanthat”satallpossible。”
Obviouslyhewasright;butshewouldnotconsent。Byadroitquestioninghefoundthatherobjectionwasdislikeofbeingsomuchtroubletohim。“That”stooridiculous,“criedhe。“Why,I
wouldn”thavemissedthisadventureforanythingintheworld。”
Hismannerwasconvincingenough,butshedidnotgiveinuntilmoonrisecamewithoutherhavingthoughtofanyotherplan。HewastobeBobPeters,shehissisterKate,andtheyweretohailfromafarmintheKentuckyhillsbackofMilton。TheypracticedthedialectoftheregionandfoundthattheycouldtalkitwellenoughtopassthetestofafewsentencesTheypackedthefishingbag;shewrappedthetwoeggsinpaperandputthemintheemptymilkbottle。Theydescendedbythepath——aslowjourneyinthedarknessofthatsideoftherock,asthereweremanydangers,includingthedangerofmakinganoisethatmightbeheardbysomerestlesspersonatthehouse。Afterhalfanhourtheyweresafelyatthebaseoftherock;theyskirtedit,wentdowntothecreek,foundthehorsetiedwherehehadleftit。Withherseatedsidewaysbehindhimandholdingonbyanarmhalfroundhiswaist,theymadeamerrybutnotveryspeedyadvancetowardtheriver,keepingasnearlyduesouthasthebreaksinthehillspermitted。Afterawhileheasked:“Doyoueverthinkofthestage?“
“I”veneverseenarealstageplay,“saidshe。“ButIwantto——andIwill,thefirstchanceIget。”
“Imeant,didyoueverthinkofgoingonthestage?“
“No。”Sodaringaflightwouldhavebeenimpossibleforababyimaginationinthecageoftherespectable-family-in-a-small-town。
“It”soneofmydreamstowriteplays,“hewenton。“Wouldn”titbequeerifsomedayIwroteplaysforyoutoactin?“
Whenone”sfancyisasfreeaswasSusan”sthen,ittakesanydirectionchancemaysuggest。Susan”sfancyinstantlywingedalongthisfascinatingroute。“I”vegivenrecitationsatschool,andintheplaysweusedtohavetheyletmetakethebestparts——thatis——until——untilayearorsoago。”
Henotedthehesitation,hadaninstinctagainstaskingwhytherehadcomeatimewhenshenolongergotgoodparts。“I”msureyoucouldlearntoact,“declaredhe。“Andyou”llbesureofit,too,afteryou”veseenthepeoplewhodoit。”
“Oh,Idon”tbelieveIcould,“saidshe,inrebuketoherownmountingself-confidence。Then,suddenlyrememberingherbirth-brandofshameandoverwhelmedbyit,“No,Ican”thopetobetobeanythingmuch。Theywouldn”thave——_me_。”
“Iknowhowyoufeel,“repliedhe,allunawareoftherealreasonforthisdeephumility。“WhenIfirststrucktownIfeltthatway。ItseemedtomeIcouldn”thopeevertolineupwiththecleverpeopletheyhadthere。ButIsoonsawtherewasnothinginthatidea。Thefactis,everywhereintheworldthere”salotmorethingstodothanpeoplewhocandothem。
Mostofthosewhogettothetop——wheredidtheystart?Wherewe”restarting。”
Shewasimmenselyflatteredbythat“we“andgratefulforit。
Butsheheldtoheroriginalopinion。“Therewouldn”tbeachanceforme,“saidshe。“Theywouldn”thaveme。”
“Oh,Iunderstand,“saidheandhefanciedhedid。Helaughedgaylyattheideathatinthetheateranyonewouldcarewhoshewas——whatkindofpastshehadhad——orpresenteither,forthatmatter。Saidhe,“Youneedn”tworry。Onthestagetheydon”taskanyquestions——anyquestionsexcept`Canyouact?Canyougetitover?Canyougetthehand?”“
Thenthisstage,itwastheworldshehaddreamedof——theworldwheretherelivedawhollynewkindofpeople——peoplewhocouldmakeroomforher。Shethrilled,andherheartbeatwildly。Inastrangelyquiet,intensevoice,shesaid:
“Iwanttotry。I”msureI”llgetalongthere。I”llwork——Oh,sohard。I”lldo_anything!_“
“That”sthetalk,“criedhe。“You”vegotthestuffinyou。”
Shesaidlittletherestofthejourney。Hermindwasbusywiththeideahehadbymerestaccidentgivenher。Ifhecouldhavelookedinuponherthoughts,hewouldhavebeenamazedandnotalittlealarmedbythefermenthehadsetup。
Wheretheyreachedtheriverthebankwasmudandthickwillows,thehauntofincrediblearmiesofmosquitoes。“It”samysterytome,“criedhe,“whythesefiendsliveinlonelyplacesfarawayfromblood,whenthey”resomadaboutit。”Aftersomesearchinghefoundaclearstretchofsandygravelwhereshewouldbenottoouncomfortablewhilehewasgoneforaboat。HeleftthehorsewithherandwalkedupstreaminthedirectionofBrooksburg。Ashehadwarnedherthathemightbegonealongtime,heknewshewouldnotbealarmedforhim——andshehadalreadyprovedthattimidityaboutherselfwasnotinhernature。
Buthewasalarmedforher——thisgirlaloneinthatlonelydarkness——withlightenoughtomakehervisibletoanyprowler。
Aboutanhourafterheleftherhereturnedinarowboathehadborrowedatthewatermill。Hehitchedthehorseinthedeepshadowofthebreakinthebank。Shegotintotheboat,putontheslipandthesunbonnet,puthersailorhatinthebag。Theypushedoffandhebeganthelonghardrowacrossandupstream。
Themoonwashighnowandwasstillnearenoughtoitsfullglorytopourafloodofbeautifullightuponthebroadriver——thelovelyOhioatitsloveliestpart。
“Won”tyousing?“heasked。
AndwithouthesitationshebeganoneofthesimplefamiliarlovesongsthatwereallthemusictowhichtheSutherlandgirlshadaccess。Shesangsoftly,inadeepsweetvoice,sweetereventhanherspeakingvoice。Shehadthesunbonnetinherlap;themoonshonefulluponherface。Anditseemedtohimthathewasinadream;therewasnowhereasuggestionofreality——notofitsprose,notevenofitspoetry。Onlyinthelandnowakingeyehasseencouldsuchathingbe。Thelowsweetvoicesangoflove,theoarsclickedrhythmicallyinthelocksandclovethewaterwithmusicalsplash;theriver,betweenitssteephills,shoneinthemoonlight,withabreezelikeafriendlyspiritmovinguponitssurface。Heurgedher,andshesanganothersong,andanother。ShesighedwhenshesawtheredlanternontheCarrolltonwharf;andhe,turninghisheadandseeing,echoedhersigh。
“Thefirstchance,youmustsingmethatsong,“shesaid。
“From`Rigoletto”?Iwill。But——ittellshowficklewomenare——`likeafeatherinthewind。”……Theyaren”talllikethat,though——don”tyouthinkso?“
“SometimesIthinkeverybody”slikeafeatherinthewind,“
repliedshe。“Aboutlove——andeverything。”
Helaughed。“Exceptthosepeoplewhoarewherethereisn”tanywind。”
CHAPTERXII
FORsometimeSpenserhadbeenrowingwellintowardtheKentuckyshore,toavoidtheswiftcurrentoftheKentuckyRiverwhichrushesintotheOhioatCarrollton。Afewyardsbelowitsmouth,inthequietstretchofbackwateralongshore,laythewharf-boat,littlemorethanalandingstage。Thehotelwasbutahundredfeetaway,atthetopofthesteeplevee。Itwasmidnight,soeveryoneinthevillagehadlongbeenasleep。AfterseveralminutesofthunderoushammeringRodericksucceededindrawingtothedoorabarefootedmanwithacandleinhishuge,knottedhand——amanofgreatstature,amazinglyleanandlongofleg,withamonstrousheadthatchedandfrontedwithcoarse,yellow-brownhair。Hehadonadirtycottonshirtanddirtycottontrousers——anightdressthatservedequallywellfortheday。Hisfeetwereflatandthickandwerehideouswithcornsandbunions。Susanhadearlybeenmadeacriticalobserveroffeetbytheunusualsymmetryofherown。Shehadseenfewfeetthatwerefittobeseen;butnever,shethought,hadsheseenanexhibitionsorepellent。
“Whatt”hell——”hebegan。Then,discoveringSusan,hegrowled,“Begpardon,miss。”
Roderickexplained——thatis,toldtheprearrangedstory。Themanpointedtoagrimyregisterontheofficedesk,andRodericksetdownthefishingbagandwroteinacramped,scrawlyhand,“KatePeters,Milton,Ky。”
Themanlookedatitthroughhisscreenofhairandbeard,said,“Comeon,ma”am。”
“Justaminute,“saidRoderick,andhedrew“Kate“asideandsaidtoherinalowtone:“I”llbebacksometimetomorrow,andthenwe”llstartatonce。But——toprovideagainsteverything——don”tbealarmedifIdon”tcome。You”llknowIcouldn”thelpit。Andwait。”
Susannodded,lookingathimwithtrustful,gratefuleyes。
“And,“hewentonhurriedly,“I”llleavethiswithyou,totakecareof。It”syoursasmuchasmine。”
Shesawthatitwasapocketbook,instinctivelyputherhandsbehindher。
“Don”tbesilly,“hesaid,withgood-humoredimpatience。“You”llprobablynotneedit。Ifyoudo,you”llneeditbad。Andyou”llpaymebackwhenyougetyourplace。”
Hecaughtoneofherhandsandputthepocketbookinit。Ashisargumentwasunanswerable,shedidnotresistfurther。Sheutterednotawordofthanks,butsimplylookedathim,hereyesswimmingandabouthermouthaquiverthatmeantagreatdealinher。Impulsivelyandwithflamingcheekhekissedheronthecheek。“Solong,sis,“hesaidloudly,andstrodeintothenight。
Susandidnotflush;shepaled。Shegazedafterhimwithsomesuchexpressionasamanlostinacavemighthaveashewatchestheflickeringoutofhisonlylight。“Thisway,ma”am,“saidthehotelmansourly,takingupthefishingbag。Shestarted,followedhimupthenoisystairstoaplain,neatcountrybedroom。“Thepriceofthishere”sonefiftyaday,“saidhe。
“We”vegot”emaslowasadollar。”
“I”lltakeadollarone,please,“saidSusan。
Themanhesitated。“Well,“hefinallysnarled,“businessisslackjes”now。Seein”asyou”realady,youkinhavethishereunfuradollar。”
“Oh,thankyou——butifthepriceismore——”
“Theotherroomsain”tfitfuralady,“saidthehotelman。Thenhegrinnedaveryhumanhumorousgrinthatstraightwaymadehimmuchlessrepulsive。“Anyhow,themtwodurnboysofminean”
theircousinsisasleepin”em。I”dasliefroutoutanestofhornets。I”llleaveyouthecandle。”
AssoonashehadgoneSusanputoutthelight,rantothewindow。ShesawtherowboatandSpenser,ablackspotfaroutontheriver,almostgonefromviewtothesouthwest。Hastilyshelightedthecandleagain,stoodatthewindowandwavedawhitecovershesnatchedfromthetable。Shethoughtshesawoneoftheoarsgoupandflourish,butshecouldnotbesure。Shewatcheduntiltheboatvanishedinthedarknessatthebend。Shefoundthesoapinthebagandtookaslowbutthoroughbathinthewashbowl。Thensheunbraidedherhair,combeditoutaswellasshecouldwithherfingers,rubbeditthoroughlywithatowelandbraideditagain。Sheputonthecalicoslipasanightdress,kneltdowntosayherprayers。Butinsteadofprayerstherecamefloodingintohermindmemoriesofwhereshehadbeenlastnight,ofthehorrors,oftheagoniesofbodyandsoul。Sherosefromherknees,putoutthelight,stoodagainatthewindow。Inafteryearsshealwayslookedbackuponthathourastheonethatdefinitelymarkedtheendofgirlhood,ofthethoughtsandbeliefswhichgowiththeshelteredlife,andthebeginningofwomanhood,ofself-relianceandofthehardiness——sonearakintohardness——thehardinessthatmustcomeintothecharacterbeforeamanorawomanisfittogiveandtakeinthecombatoflife。
Thebedwascoarse,butwhiteandclean。Shefellasleepinstantlyanddidnotawakenuntil,afterthevague,graduallyloudersoundofhammeringonthedoor,sheheardafemalevoicewarningherthatbreakfastwas“putnighoveran”done。”Shegotup,partlydrewononestocking,thenwithouttakingitofftumbledoveragainstthepillowandwasasleep。Whenshecametoherselfagain,thelayoftheshadowstoldheritmustbeaftertwelveo”clock。Shedressed,packedhersergesuitinthebagwiththesailorhat,smoothedoutthepinkcalicoslipandputiton。Formorethanayearshehadwornherhairinabraiddoubleduponitselfandtiedwithabowatthebackofherneck。
Shedecidedthatifshewouldpartit,plaititintwobraidsandbringthemroundherhead,shewouldlookolder。Shetriedthisandwasmuchpleasedwiththeresult。Shethoughtthenewstylenotonlymoregrown-up,butalsomorebecoming。Thepinkslip,too,seemedtoherasuccess。Itcamealmosttoheranklesanditsstringsenabledhertomakeitlooksomethinglikeadress。Carryingthepinksunbonnet,downshewentinsearchofsomethingtoeat。
Thehallwasfullofsmokeanditsairseemedgreasywiththeodoroffrying。Shefoundthatdinnerwasabouttobeserved。A
girlinbluecalicoskirtandfood-smeared,sweat-discoloredbluejerseyusheredhertooneofthetablesinthedining-room。
“There”sagentlemancomin”,“saidshe。“I”llsethimdownwithyou。Hewon”tbite,Idon”treckon,andthereain”tnousemussin”uptwotables。”
Therewasnoprotestingagainsttwosucharguments;soSusanpresentlyhadoppositeherafattishmanwithlongoilyhairandafacelikethatofafallenanddissipatedpreacher。Sherecognizedhimatonceasoneofthosewandererswhovisitsmalltownswithcheapshowsorsellingpatentmedicinesanddoingjugglingtricksonthestreetcornersintheflareofagasolinelamp。Sheeyedhimfurtivelyuntilhecaughtheratit——hebeingaboutthesamebusinesshimself。Thereaftershekepthereyessteadilyuponthetablecloth,patchedandwornthinwithmuchwashing。Soontheplateofeachwasencircledbythefamiliararcofsidedishescontainingassortedandnotveryappetizingmesses——friedsteak,waterypeas,stringybeans,soggyturnips,lumpymashedpotatoes,aperilous-lookingchickenstew,cornbreadwithstreaksofbakingsodainit。Butneitherofthedinerswascritical,andthedinnerwaseatenwithanenthusiasmwhichthebestrarelyinspires。
Withtheprunesanddried-applepie,thestrangerexpanded。
“Warmday,miss,“heventured。
“Yes,itisalittlewarm,“saidSusan。Sheventuredadirectlookathim。Abovethepleasant,kindlyeyestherewasabrowsounusuallywellshapedthatitarrestedevenheryounganduntrainedattention。Whatevertheman”scharacterorstation,therecouldbenoquestionastohisintelligence。
“Thefliesareverybothersome,“continuedhe。“ButnothinglikeAustralia。Theretheflieshavetobepickedoff,andthey”rebig,andtheybite——takeapiecerightoutofyou。Thenativesusedtolaughatuswhenwewereintheringandwouldtrytobrush,emaway。”Thestrangerhadthepleasant,easymannerofonewhothroughcustomofallkindsofpeopleandallvarietiesoffortune,haslearnedtobepatientandgood-humored——totakethedayandthehourastheseasonedgamblertakesthecardsthataredealthim。
Susansaidnothing;butshehadlistenedpolitely。Themanwentonamusinghimselfwithhisownconversation。“Iwasintheshowbusinessthen。Clownwasmyline,butIwasrottenatit——simplyrotten。I”mstillintheshowbusiness——differentline,though。
I”vegotashowofmyown。Ifyou”regoingtobeintownperhapsyou”llcometoseeustonight。Ourboat”sanchoreddownnexttothewharf。Youcanseeitfromthewindows。Come,andbringyourfolks。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusan——shehadforgottenherroleanditsaccent。“ButI”mafraidwe”llnotbehere。”
Therewasanexpressioninthestranger”sface——apuzzled,curiousexpression,notimpertinent,rathercovert——anexpressionthatmadeheruneasy。Itwarnedherthatthismansawshewasnotwhatsheseemedtobe,thathewastryingtopeerintohersecret。Hisbrowneyeswerekindenough,butalarminglykeen。Withonlyhalfherpieeaten,sheexcusedherselfandhastenedtoherroom。
AtthethresholdsherememberedthepocketbookSpenserhadgivenher。Shehadleftitbythefishingbagonthetable。Therewasthebagbutnotthepocketbook。“Imusthaveputitinthebag,“
shesaidaloud,andthesoundandthetoneofhervoicefrightenedher。Shesearchedthebag,thentheroomwhichhadnotyetbeenstraightenedup。Sheshookoutthebedcovers,lookedinallthedrawers,underthebed,wentoverthecontentsofthebagagain。Thepocketbookwasgone——stolen。
Shesatdownontheedgeofthebed,herhandsinherlap,andstaredattheplacewhereshehadlastseenthepocketbook——_his_
pocketbook,whichhehadaskedhertotakecareof。Howcouldshefacehim!Whatwouldhethinkofher,sountrustworthy!Whatareturnforhiskindness!Shefeltweak——soweakthatshelaydown。Thefoodshehadtakenturnedtopoisonandherheadachedfiercely。Whatcouldshedo?Tospeaktotheproprietorwouldbetocauseagreatcommotion,toattractattentiontoherself——andhowwouldthathelptobringbackthestolenpocketbook,takenperhapsbytheproprietorhimself?Sherecalledthatasshehurriedthroughtheofficefromthedining-roomhehadaqueershiftingexpression,gaveherawheedling,cringinggoodmorningnotatallinkeepingwiththecharacterhehadshownthenightbefore。Theslovenlygirlcametodotheroom;Susansentheraway,satbythewindowgazingoutovertheriveranddownstream。Hewouldsoonbehere;thethoughtmadeherlongtoflyandhide。Hehadbeenallgenerosity;andthiswasherwayofappreciatingit!
Theysentforhertocomedowntosupper。Sherefused,sayingshewasnotfeelingwell。Shesearchedtheroom,thebag,againandagain。Shewouldrestafewminutes,thenupshewouldspringandteareverythingout。Thenbacktothewindowtositandstareattheriveroverwhichtheeveningshadowswerebeginningtogather。Once,asshewassittingthere,shehappenedtoseethegaudilypaintedanddecoratedshowboat。A
man——thestrangerofthedinnertable——wasstandingontheforwardend,smokingacigar。Shesawthathewasobservingher,realizedhecouldhaveseenherstirringfeverishlyaboutherroom。Awomancameoutofthecabinandjoinedhim。Assoonashisattentionwasdistractedsheclosedhershutters。Andthereshesatalone,withthehoursdraggingtheirwretchedminutesslowlyaway。
Thatwasoneofthosenightsuponwhichanyonewhohashadthem——andwhohasnot?——looksbackwithwonderathowtheyeverlived,howtheyevercametoanend。Shesleptalittletowarddawn——foryouthandhealthwillnotletthemostdespairingheartsufferinsleeplessness。Herheadachewent,butthemiseryofsoulwhichhadbeenamaddeningpainsettleddownintoathrobbingache。Shefearedhewouldcome;shefearedhewouldnotcome。Theservantstriedtopersuadehertotakebreakfast。
Shecouldnothaveswallowedfood;shewouldnothavedaredtakefoodforwhichshecouldnotpay。Whatwouldtheydowithherifhedidnotcome?Shesearchedtheroomagain,hopingagainsthope,ahundredtimesfancyingshefeltthepurseundersomeotherthings,eachtimesufferingsickeningdisappointment。
Towardnoontheservantcameknocking。“Aletterforyou,ma”am。”
Susanrushedtothedoor,seizedtheletter,toreitopen,read:
WhenIgotbacktothehorseandstartedtomount,hekickedmeandbrokemyleg。YoucangoonsouthtotheL。andN。andtakeatraintoCincinnati。Whenyoufindaboardinghousesendyouraddresstomeattheoffice。I”llcomeinafewweeks。I”dwritemorebutIcan”t。Don”tworry。Everything”llcomeoutright。Youarebraveandsensible,andI_backyoutowin_。
Withtheunsignedlettercrumpledinherhandsshesatatthewindowwithscarcelyamotionuntilnoon。Shethenwentdowntotheshowboat。Severalpeople——menandwomen——wereontheforwardend,quarreling。Shelookedonlyatheracquaintance。
Hisfacewasswollenandhiseyesbloodshot,buthestillworetheairofeasyandpatientgood-humor。Shesaid,standingontheshore,“CouldIspeaktoyouaminute?“
“Certainly,ma”am,“replieshe,liftinghisdingystrawhatwithgaudy,stainedband。Hecamedownthebroadplanktotheshore。
“Why,what”sthematter?“Thisinasympathetictone。
“Willyoulendmetwodollarsandtakemealongtoworkitout?“
sheasked。
Heeyedherkeenly。“Forthehotelbill?“heinquired,thecigartuckedawayinthecornerofhismouth。
Shenodded。
“Hedidn”tshowup?“
“Hebrokehisleg。”
“Oh!“Thetonewaspolitelysympathetic,butincredulous。Heeyedhercritically,thoughtfully。“Canyousing?“hefinallyasked。
“Alittle。”
Hishandsweredeepinthepocketsofhisbaggylighttrousers。
Hedrewoneofthemoutwithatwo-dollarbillinit。“Goandpayhimandbringyourthings。We”reabouttopushoff。”
“Thankyou,“saidthegirlinthesamestolidway。Shereturnedtothehotel,broughtthebagdownfromherroom,stoodattheofficedesk。
Theservantcame。“Mr。Gumpushasjes”steppedout,“saidshe。
“Hereisthemoneyformyroom。”AndSusanlaidthetwo-dollarbillontheregister。
“Ain”tyougoin”towaitfuryer——yerbrother?“
“He”snotcoming,“repliedthegirl。“So——I”llgo。Good-by。”
“Good-by。It”sawful,bein”tooksickawayfromhome。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusan。“Good-by。”
Thegirl”shomely,ignorantfacetwistedinagrin。ButSusandidnotsee,wouldhavebeenindifferenthadsheseen。Sincesheacceptedthewarearthandheavenhaddeclaredagainsther,shehadceasedfromthelittlethoughtshehadoncegiventowhatwasthoughtofherbythoseofwhomshethoughtnotatall。Shewentdowntotheshowboat。Theplankhadbeentakenin。Heracquaintancewaswaitingforher,helpedhertothedeck,jumpedaboardhimself,andwasinstantlybusyhelpingtoguidetheboatoutintomid-stream。Susanlookedbackatthehotel。Mr。Gumpuswasinthedoorway,amusementineverylineofhisuglyface。
Besidehimstoodtheslovenlyservant。Shewascrying——themorehumansecondthoughtofaheartnotaltogethercorruptedbythesordidhardnessofherlot。Howcanfaithinthehumanracefalterwhenoneconsidershowmuchheartithasinspiteofallitsuffersinthestruggleupwardthroughthedensefogsofignoranceupward,towardthetruth,towardthelightofwhichitneverceasestodreamandtohope?
Susanstoodinthesameplace,withherbagbesideher,untilheracquaintancecame。
“Now,“saidhe,comfortably,ashelightedafreshcigar,“we”llfloatpleasantlyalong。IguessyouandIhadbettergetacquainted。Whatisyourname?“
Susanflushed。“KatePetersisthenameIgaveatthehotel。
That”lldo,won”tit?“
“Neverintheworld!“repliedhe。“Youmusthaveagoodcatchyname。Say——er——er——”Herolledhiscigarslowly,lookingthoughtfullytowardthewillowsthickandgreenalongtheIndianashore。“Say——well,say——Lorna——Lorna——LornaSackville!
That”sawinner。LornaSackville!——Astrokeofgenius!Don”tyouthinkso?“
“Yes,“saidSusan。“Itdoesn”tmatter。”
“Butitdoes,“remonstratedhe。“Youareanartist,now,andanartist”snameshouldalwaysarousepleasingandromanticanticipations。It”sliketheodorthatheraldsthedish。Youmustremember,mydear,thatyouhavesteppedoutoftheworldofdullrealityintotheworldofideals,ofdreams。”
Thesoundoftwoharshvoices,onemale,theotherfemale,camefromwithinthecabin——oaths,reproaches。Heracquaintancelaughed。“That”soneonme——eh?Still,whatIsayistrue——oratleastoughttobe。Bytheway,thisistheBurlinghamFloatingPalaceofThespians,floatingtempletothehistrionicart。IamBurlingham——RobertBurlingham。”Hesmiled,extendedhishand。
“Gladtomeetyou,MissLornaSackville——don”tforget!“
Shecouldnotbutreflectasmilesogenuine,sogood-humored。
“We”llgoinandmeettheothers——yourfellowstars——forthisisanall-staraggregation。”
Overthebroadentrancetothecabinwasachintzcurtainstrunguponawire。Burlinghamdrewthisaside。Susanwaslookingintoaroomaboutthirtyfeetlong,abouttwelvefeetwide,andascantsixfeethigh。Acrossitwithanaislebetweenwerenarrowwoodenbencheswithbacks。Attheoppositeendwasastage,withthecurtainupandaportablestoveoccupyingthecenter。Atthestoveawomaninachemiseandunderskirt,withslippersonherbarefeet,wastoilingoverseveralpotsandpanswithforkandspoon。Attheedgeofthestage,withlegsswinging,satanotherwoman,inabluesailorsuitneitherfreshnornotablycleanbutsomehowcoquettish。Twomeninflannelshirtswereseated,oneoneachofthefrontbenches,withtheirbackstoher。
AsBurlinghamwentdowntheaisleaheadofher,hecalledout:
“Ladiesandgentlemen,Iwishtopresentthelatestvaluableadditiontoourcompany——MissLornaSackville,therenownedballadsinger。”
ThetwomenturnedlazilyandstaredatSusan,eachwithanarmhangingoverthebackofthebench。
Burlinghamlookedatthewomanbentoverthestove——afat,middle-agedwomanwiththin,taffy-yellowhairdonesleeklyoverabigratinfrontandmadeintoahugecoilbehindwiththeaidofoneormorefalsebraids。Shehadafatface,abroadexpanseofunpleasant-looking,elderlybosom,big,shapelesswhitearms。
Hercontourwasalmostgone。Herteethwereacuriousmixtureofnatural,gold,andporcelain。“MissAnstruther——MissSackville,“
calledBurlingham。“MissSackville,MissVioletAnstruther。”
MissAnstrutherandSusanexchangedbows——Susan”stimidandfrightened,MissAnstruther”saccompaniedbyahostilestareandahardeningofthefat,decayingface。
“MissConnemora——MissSackville。”Burlinghamwaslookingattheyoungerwoman——shewhosatontheedgeofthelittlestage。She,too,wasablond,butherhairhadtakentothechemicalsomewhatlessreluctantlythanhadMissAnstruther”s,withtheresultthatMissConnemora”slookedgolden。Herface——ofthebabytypemusthavebeensoftlyprettyatonetime——notsoverydistant。Nowlineswerecomingandthehardlookthatisinevitablewithdyedhair。Alsoheroncefineteethwererapidlygoingoff,ashalfadozengoldfillingsinfrontproclaimed。AtSusan”sappealinglookandsmileMissConnemoranoddednotunfriendly。
“GoodGod,Bob,“saidshetoBurlinghamwithalaugh,“areyougoingtogetthebunchofuspinchedforchild-stealing?“
Burlinghamstartedtolaugh,suddenlycheckedhimself,lookeduneasilyandkeenlyatSusan。“Oh,it”sallright,“hesaidwithawaveofthehand。Buthistonebeliedhiswords。Hepuffedtwiceathiscigar,thenintroducedthemen——ElbertEshwellandGregoryTempest——twoofthekindclearlyifinelegantlyplacedbythephrase,“greasyhamfats。”Mr。Eshwell”sblackdyedhairwassmoothlybrusheddownfromacentralpart,Mr。Tempest”siron-grayhairwasgreasilywild——adisarrayofromanticringlets。Eshwellwasinclinedtofat;Tempestwasgauntandhadthehollow,burningeyethatbespeaksthesentimentalass。
“Now,MissSackville,“saidBurlingham,“we”llgoontheforwarddeckandcanvassthesituation。Whatfordinner,Vi?“
“Sameoldrot,“retortedMissAnstruther,wipingthesweatfromherfaceandshoulderswithatowelthatservedalsoasadishcloth。“Porkandbeans——potatoes——peachpie。”
“Cheerup,“saidBurlingham。“Aftertomorrowwe”lldobetter。”
“That”sbeenthecryeversincewestarted,“snappedViolet。
“ForGod”ssake,shutup,Vi,“groanedEshwell。“You”realwayskicking。”
Thecabinwasnotquitethefullwidthofthebroadhouseboat。
Alongtheoutside,betweeneachwallandtheedge,therewasroomforonepersontopassfromforwarddecktorear。Fromthecabinroof,overthereardeck,intothewaterextendedabigrudderoar。WhenSusan,followingBurlingham,reachedthereardeck,shesawthemanatthisoar——afat,amiable-lookingrascal,inlinseywoolseyandabluecheckedshirtopenoverhischestandrevealingamatofcurlygrayhair。BurlinghamhailedhimasPat——hisonlyknownname。ButSusanhadonlyaglanceforhimandnoearatallforthechaffingbetweenhimandtheactor-manager。ShewasgazingattheIndianashore,atatinyvillagesnuggledamongtreesandripenedfieldsclosetothewater”sedge。SheknewitwasBrooksburg。Sherememberedthelongcoveredbridgewhichtheyhadcrossed——Spenserandshe,onthehorse。Tothenorthofthetown,onaknoll,stoodalargeredbrickhousetrimmedwithwhiteverandaandbalconies——farandawaythemostpretentioushouseinthelandscape。Beforethedoorwasahorseandbuggy。Shecouldmakeoutthattherewereseveralpeopleonthefrontveranda,oneofthemamaninblack——thedoctor,nodoubt。Sobschokedupintoherthroat。SheturnedquicklyawaythatBurlinghammightnotsee。Andunderherbreathshesaid,“Good-by,dear。Forgiveme——forgiveme。”
CHAPTERXIII
WOMAN”Sworktable,arockingchairandanotherwithaswaybackthatmadeitfairlycomfortableforlounginggavethereardecktheairofanoutdoorsitting-room,whichindeeditwas。
Burlingham,afteracomprehensiveglanceatthepanoramaofsummerandfruitfulnessthroughwhichtheyweredrifting,sprawledhimselfintheswaybackchair,indicatingtoSusanthatshewastofacehimintherocker。“Sitdown,mydear,“saidhe。
“Andtellmeyouareatleasteighteenandarenotrunningawayfromhome。YouheardwhatMissConnemorasaid。”
“I”mnotrunningawayfromhome,“repliedSusan,blushingviolentlybecauseshewasevadingastothemoreimportantfact。
“Idon”tknowanythingaboutyou,andIdon”twanttoknow,“
pursuedBurlingham,alarmedbytheevidencesofadangeroustendencytocandor。“I”venodesiretohavemyownpastduginto,andturnabout”sfairplay。Youcametometogetanengagement。Itookyou。Understand?“
Susannodded。
“Yousaidyoucouldsing——thatis,alittle。”
“Averylittle,“saidthegirl。
“Enough,nodoubt。Thathasbeenourweakpoint——lackofaballadsinger。Knowanyballads?——Notfancyones。Nothingfancy!
Wecatertotheplainpeople,andtheplainpeopleonlylikethebest——thatis,thesimplest——thethingsthatreachfortheheartstringswithtenstrongfingers。Youdon”thappentoknow`IStoodontheBridgeatMidnight”?“
“No——Ruthsingsthat,“repliedSusan,andcoloredviolently。
Burlinghamignoredtheslip。“`BlueAlsatianMountains”?“
“Yes。Butthat”sveryold。”
“Exactly。Nothingisofanyusetothestageuntilit”sveryold。Audiencesattheatersdon”twantto_hear_anythingtheydon”talreadyknowbyheart。They”vecometo_see_,nottohear。
Soitannoysthemtohavetotrytohear。Doyouunderstandthat?“
“No,“confessedSusan。“I”msorry。ButI”llthinkaboutit,andtrytounderstandit。”Shethoughtshewasshowingherinabilitytodowhatwasexpectedofherinpayingbackthetwodollars。
“Don”tbother,“saidBurlingham。“Pat!“
“Yes,boss,“saidthemanattheoar,withoutlookingorremovinghispipe。
“Getyourfiddle。”
Pattiedtheoarfastandwentforwardalongtheroofofthecabin。WhilehewasgoneBurlinghamexplained,“Afrightfulsouse,Pat——almostequaltoEshwellandfarthesuperiorofTempestorVi——thatis,ofTempest。Buthe”ssteadyenoughforourpurposes,asarule。He”sthepilot,theorchestra,theman-of-all-work,thebilldistributor。Oh,he”sawonder。
GraduateofTrinityCollege,Dublin——yeggman——panhandler——
barrel-housebum——genius,nearly。Hasdrunkasmuchboozeasthereiswaterinthisriver——”
Patwasbackbesidethehandleoftheoar,withaviolin。
BurlinghamsuggestedtoSusanthatshe”dbetterstandwhileshesang,“andifyou”veanytendencytostagefright,rememberit”syourbreadandbuttertogetthroughwell。You”llnotbotheraboutyouraudience。”
Susanfoundthisthoughtapotentstrengthener——thenandafterward。Withsurprisinglylittleembarrassmentshestoodbeforehergood-natured,sympatheticemployer,andwhilePatscrapedoutanaccompanimentsangthepatheticstoryofthe“maidenyoungandfair“andthe“strangerinthespring“who“lingerednearthefountainsjusttohearthemaidensing,“andhowhedepartedafterwinningherlove,andhow“shewillneverseethestrangerwherethefountainsfallagain——ade,ade,ade。”
Hervoicewasdeliciouslyyoungandhadthepatheticqualitythatisneverabsentfromanythingwhichhasenduringcharmforus。TearswereinBurlingham”svoice——tearsforthefateofthemaiden,tearsofresponsetothehauntingpathosofSusan”ssweetcontralto,tearsofjoyattheacquisitionofsucha“number“
forhisprogram。Ashervoicediedawayhebeathisplumphandstogetherenthusiastically。
“She”lldo——eh,Pat?She”llsetthehay-tosserscrazy!“
Susan”sheartwasbeatingfastfromnervousness。Shesatdown。
Burlinghamsprangupandputhishandsonhershouldersandkissedher。Helaughedathershrinking。
“Don”tmind,mydear,“hecried。“It”soneofourways。Now,whatothersdoyouknow?“
Shetriedtorecall,andwithhisassistancefinallydiddiscoverthatshepossessedarepertoireof“goodoldstaleones,“consistingof“ComingThro”theRye,““SuwaneeRiver,“
“AnnieLaurie“and“KathleenMavourneen。”Sheknewmanyothersongs,buteitherPatcouldnotplaythemorBurlinghamdeclaredthem“abovetheheadofReubtherotter。”
“Thosefivearequiteenough,“saidBurlingham。“Tworegulars,twoencores,withathirdincaseofemergency。AfterdinnerMissAnstrutherandI”llfityououtwithacostume。You”llmakeahitatSutherlandtonight。”
“Sutherland!“exclaimedSusan,suddenlypale。“Ican”tsingthere——really,Ican”t。”
BurlinghammadeasignificantgesturetowardPatattheoarabovethem,andwinkedather。“You”llnothavestagefright,mydear。You”llpullthrough。”
SusanunderstoodthatnothingmorewastobesaidbeforePat。
SoonBurlinghamtoldhimtotietheoaragainandretiretothecabin。“I”llstandwatch,“saidhe。“IwanttotalkbusinesswithMissSackville。”
WhenPathadgone,Burlinghamgaveherasympatheticlook。“Noconfidences,mindyou,mydear,“hewarned。“AllIwanttoknowisthatitisn”tstagefrightthat”skeepingyouofftheprogramatSutherland。”
“No,“repliedthegirl。“Itisn”tstagefright。I”m——I”msorryIcan”tbeginrightawaytoearnthemoneytopayyouback。
But——Ican”t。”
“Noteveninavelvetandspanglecostume——Lowneck,shortsleeves,withblondwigandpaintandpowder?You”llnotknowyourself,mydear——really。”
“Icouldn”t,“saidSusan。“I”dnotbeabletoopenmylips。”
“Verywell。That”ssettled。”ItwasevidentthatBurlinghamwasdeeplydisappointed。“WeweregoingtotrytomakeakillingatSutherland。”Hesighed。“However,letthatpass。Ifyoucan”t,youcan”t。”
“I”mafraidyou”reangrywithme,“criedshe。
“I——angry!“Helaughed。“I”venotbeenangryintenyears。I”msucha_damn_,damnfoolthatwithalltheknockslife”sgivenmeIhaven”tlearnedmuch。ButatleastI”velearnednottogetangry。No,Iunderstand,mydear——andwillsaveyouforthenexttownbelow。”Heleanedforwardandgaveherhandsafatherlypatastheylayinherlap。“Don”tgiveitasecondthought,“hesaid。“We”vegotthewholelengthoftheriverbeforeus。”
Susanshowedhergratitudeinherfacebetterfarthanshecouldhaveexpresseditinwords。Thetwosatsilent。Whenshesawhiseyesuponherwiththatlookofsmilingwonderinthem,shesaid,“Youmustn”tthinkI”vedoneanythingdreadful。I
haven”t——really,Ihaven”t。”
Helaughedheartily。“Andifyouhad,you”dnotneedtohangyourheadinthiscompany,mydear。We”reallpeoplewhohave_lived_——andlifeisn”texactlyaclassmeetingwiththeelderstakingturnsatprayingandtheorganwheezingoutgospelhymns。
No,we”veallbeenupagainstitmostofourlives——whichmeanswe”vedonethebestwecouldoftenerthanwe”vehadthechancetodowhatweought。”Hegaveheroneofhiskeenlooks,nodded:
“Ilikeyou……Whatdotheytelloftenestwhenthey”retalkingabouthowyouwereasababy?“
Susandidnotpuzzleoverthequeernessofthisabruptquestion。
Shefelltosearchinghermemorydiligentlyforananswer。“I”mnotsure,butIthinktheyspeakoftenestofhowIneverusedtolikeanybodytotakemyhandandhelpmealong,evenwhenIwasbarelyabletowalk。TheysayIalwaysinsistedontrudgingalongbymyself。”
Burlinghamnodded,slappedhisknee。“Icanbelieveit,“hecried。“IalwaysaskeverybodythatquestiontoseewhetherI”vesited”emupright。IratherthinkIhityouofftoaT——asyoufacedmeatdinneryesterdayinthehotel。Speakingofdinner——let”sgositinontheoneIsmell。”
Theyreturnedtothecabinwhere,tomakeatable,aboardhadbeenswungbetweenthebacksofthesecondandthirdbenchesfromthefrontontheleftsideoftheaisle。Thusthethreemensatonthefrontbenchwiththeirlegsthrustthroughbetweenseatandback,whilethethreewomensatindignityandcomfortonthefourthbench。SusanthoughtthedinnerbynomeansjustifiedMissAnstruther”spessimism。Itwasgoodinitself,andthebetterforbeinginthishappy-go-luckyway,inthishappy-go-luckycompany。Oncetheygotstarted,allthegrouchinessdisappeared。Susan,youngandoptimisticanddeterminedtobepleased,soonbecameaccustomedtothelooksofhernewcompanions——thatmatterofmereexterioraboutwhichweshallowsurface-skimmersmakesuchamightyfuss,thoughinthetestsituationsoflife,greatandsmall,itamountstopreciouslittle。Theywereallhumanbeings,andthegirlwasunspoiled,didnotthinkofthemasfailures,half-wolves,ofnosocialposition,ofnostandingintherespectableworld。Shestillhadmuchofthenaturaldemocracyofchildren,andsheadmiredthesenewfriendswhoknewsomuchmorethanshedid,whohadlived,hadsuffered,hadcomeawayfromhorriblebattlescoveredwithwounds,thescarsofwhichtheywouldbearintothegrave——battlestheyhadlost;yettheyhadnotgivenup,buthadlivedon,smiling,courageous,kindofheart。Itwastheirkindheartsthatmostimpressedher——theirkindtakinginofherwhomthoseshelovedhadcastout——her,theunknownstranger,helplessandignorant。AndwhatSpenserhadtoldheraboutthestageanditspeoplemadeheralmostbelievethattheywouldnotcastherout,thoughtheyknewthedreadfultruthaboutherbirth。
Tempesttoldastorythatwas“broad。”Whiletheotherslaughed,Susangazedathimwithapuzzledexpression。Shewishedtobepolite,toplease,toenjoy。Butwhatthatstorymeantshecouldnotfathom。MissAnstrutherjeeredather。“Lookattheinnocent,“shecried。
“Shutup,Vi,“retortedMissConnemora。“It”snouseforustotrytobeanythingbutwhatweare。Still,letthebabyalone。”
“Yes——letheralone,“saidBurlingham。
“It”llsoakinsoonenough,“MissConnemorawenton。“Nouserubbingitin。”
“What?“saidSusan,thinkingtoshowherdesiretobefriendly,tobeoneofthem。
“Dirt,“saidBurlinghamdryly。“Anddon”taskanymorequestions。”
Whenthethreewomenhadclearedawaythedinnerandhadstowedthedishesinoneofthemanycubbyholesalongthesidesofthecabin,thethreemengotreadyforanap。Susanwasdelightedtoseethemdroptothetopsofthebacksoftheseatsthreeberthswhichfittedsnuglyintothewallswhennotinuse。Shesawnowthattherewerefiveothersofthesamekind,andthattherewasacontrivanceofwiresandcurtainsbywhicheachberthcouldbeshutofftoitself。ShehadathrillingsenseofbeinginakindofSwissFamilyRobinsonstorybookcometolife。Sheunpackedherbag,contributedthefoodinittothecommonstore,spreadouthersergesuitwhichMissAnstrutherofferedtopressandinsistedonpressing,thoughSusanprotestedshecoulddoitherselfquitewell。
“You”llwanttoputitonforthearrivalatSutherland,“saidMabelConnemora。
“No,“repliedSusannervously。“Nottilltomorrow。”
Shesawthecuriouslookinalltheireyesatsightofthatdress,sodifferentfromthecalicoshewaswearing。Mabeltookheroutontheforwarddeckwheretherewasanawningandagoodbreeze。Theysatthere,Mabeltalking,Susangazingraptatlandandwaterandattheactress,andlisteningastoafairystory——fortheactresshadlivedthroughmanyandstrangeexperiencesinthetenyearssincesheleftherfather”sroofinColumbia,SouthCarolina。Susanlistenedandabsorbedasadryspongedroppedintoapailofwater。Atherleisureshewouldthinkitallout,wouldunderstand,wouldlearn。
“Now,tell_me_about_your_self,“saidMabelwhenshehadexhaustedallthereminiscencesshecouldrecallatthemoment——allthatwerefitfora“baby”s“ears。
“Iwill,sometime,“saidSusan,whowasreadyforthequestion。
“ButIcan”t——notyet。”
“Itseemstomeyou”reveryinnocent,“saidMabel,“evenforawell-brought-upgirl。_I_waswellbroughtup,too。IwishtoGodmymotherhadtoldmeafewthings。Butno——notathing。”
“Whatdoyoumean?“inquiredSusan。