首页 >出版文学> Susan Lenox-Her Rise and Fall>第5章
  Thewomanhadsuspendedknittingandwasgazingintentlyacrossthehollowtothewest,wheretheroadfromthenorthenteredthelandscape。Susanturnedhereyesinthatdirection。Twohorsemenatagallopweremovingsouthward。Thegirlwaswellscreened,butinstinctivelyshedrewstillfurtherbackbehindthebushes——butnotsofarthatthetwoonhorseback,ridingsoeagerly,wereoutofherview。Theroaddippedintothehollow。
  thegallopinghorsemendisappearedwithit。Susanshiftedhergazetothepointonthebrowofthehillwheretheroadreappeared。Shewasquiveringineverynerve。Whentheycameintoviewagainshewouldknow。
  Theplaceshewaswatchingswambeforehereyes。Suddenlythetwo,stillatagallop,roseuponthecrestofthehill。JebandherUncleZeke!Hervisioncleared,hernervesteadied。
  Theydidnotdrawreinuntiltheywereattheroadgateofthelittlehouse。Thewomanrose,putdownherknittingintheseatofherstiff,rush-bottomedrocker,advancedtothefence。Theairwasstill,butSusancouldnothearasound,thoughshecranedforwardandstrainedherearstotheuttermost。Sheshrankasifshehadbeenstruckwhenthethreebegantogazeupattherock——togaze,itseemedtoher,attheveryspotwhereshewasstanding。Washerscreenlessthickthanshethought?
  Hadtheyseen——ifnother,perhapspartofherdress?
  WildlyherheartbeatasJebdismountedfromhishorsethemarebehindwhichshehadmadeherweddingjourney——andstoodinthegateway,talkingwiththewomanandlookingtowardthetopoftherock。ZekeWarhamturnedhishorseandbegantorideslowlyaway。Hegotasfarasthebrowofthehill,withJebstillinthegateway,hesitating。ThenSusanheard:
  “Holdon,Mr。Warham。Ireckonyou”reright。”
  Warhamhaltedhishorse,Jebremountedandjoinedhim。Asthewomanreturnedtowardthebackdoorstep,thetwomenrodeatawalkdownintothehollow。Whentheyreappeareditwasontheroadbywhichtheyhadcome。Andthegirlknewthepursuitinthatdirection——therightdirection——wasover。Tremblingandwithaflutteringinherbreastliketheflappingofabird”swings,shesanktotheground。Presentlysheburstintoapassionoftears。Withoutknowingwhy,shetoreofftheweddingringwhichuntilthenshehadforgotten,andflungitoutamongthetreetops。Afewminutes,andshedriedhereyesandstoodup。Thetwohorsemenwereleavingthelandscapeatthepointatwhichtheyhadenteredit。Thegirlwouldnothaveknown,wouldhavebeenfrightenedby,herownfacehadsheseenitasshewatchedthemgooutofhersight——outofherlife。Shedidnotunderstandherself,forshewasatthatagewhenoneisnomoreconsciousoftheforceslockedupwithinhisunexploredanduntestedcharacterthanthedynamitecartridgeisofitssecretsofpowerandterror。
  CHAPTERXI
  SHEfeltfreetogonow。Shewalkedtowardtheplacewhereshehadlefttheeggs。Itwasonthesideoftherockoverlookingthecreek。Assheknelttoremovetheleaves,sheheardfromfarbelowaman”svoicesinging。Sheleanedforwardandglanceddownatthecreek。Inamomentappearedayoungmanwithafishingrodandabagslungoverhisshoulder。Hisgrayandwhitestripedflanneltrouserswererolledtohisknees。Hisfairskinandthefairhairwavingabouthisforeheadwereexposedbytheflapping-brimmedstrawhatsetuponthebackofhishead。Hisvoice,astrongandmanlytenor,wassendingupthosesteepsasongshehadneverheardbefore——asonginItalian。Shehadnotseenwhathelookedlikewhensherememberedherselfandhastilyfellbackfromview。Shedroppedtothegrassandcrawledouttowardtheledge。Whensheshowedherfaceitsohappenedthathewaslookingstraightather。
  “Hello!“heshouted。“Thatyou,Nell?“
  Susandrewback,herbloodinatumult。Frombelow,afterabriefsilence,cameaburstoflaughter。
  Shewaitedalongtime,thenthroughashieldofbunchesofgrasslookedagain。Theyoungmanwasgone。Shewishedthathehadresumedhissong,forshethoughtshehadneverheardonesobeautiful。Becauseshedidnotfeelsafeindescendinguntilhewaswelloutoftheway,andbecauseshewassocomfortablelyingthereintheafternoonsunshinewatchingthebirdsandlisteningtothem,shecontinuedonthere,glancingnowandthenatwherethecreekenteredandwhereitleftherrangeofvision,tomakesurethatnooneelseshouldcomeandcatchher。
  Suddenlysoundedavoicefromsomewherebehindher:
  “Hey,Nell!I”mcoming!“
  Shesprangtoherfeet,facedabout;andCrusoewasnotmoreagitatedwhenhesawtheprintofthenakedfootonhisisland”sstrand。Thestrawhatwiththeflappingbrimwasjustliftingabovetheedgeoftherockattheoppositeside,wherethepathwas。Shecouldnotescape;theshelfofferednohidingplace。
  Nowtheyoungmanwassteppingtothelevel,pantingloudly。
  “Gee,whataclimbforahotday!“hecried。“Whereareyou?“
  WiththathewaslookingatSusan,lessthantwentyyardsawayanddrawnupdefiantly。Hestared,tookoffhishat。Hehadclose-croppedwavyhairandeyesasgrayasSusan”sown,butitwasablue-grayinsteadofviolet。Hisskinwasfair,too,andhisexpressionintelligentandsympathetic。Inspiteofhishat,andhisbluecottonshirt,andtrousersrolledhighonbaresunburnedlegs,therewasnothingoftheyokelabouthim。
  “Ibegyourpardon,“heexclaimedhalfhumorously。“IthoughtitwasmycousinNell。”
  “No,“saidSusan,disarmedbyhiscourtesyandbythefrankengagingmannerofit。
  “Ididn”tmeantointrude。”Heshowedwhiteteethinabroadsmile。“Iseefromyourfacethatthisisyourprivatedomain。”
  “Oh,no——notatall,“stammeredSusan。
  “Yes,Iinsist,“repliedhe。“Willyouletmestayandrestaminute?Iranroundtherockandclimbedprettyfast。”
  “Yes——do,“saidSusan。
  Theyoungmansatonthegrassnearwherehehadappeared,andcrossedhislonglegs。Thegirl,muchembarrassed,lookeduneasilyabout。“Perhapsyou”dsit,too?“suggestedhe,aftereyeingherinafriendlywaythatcouldnotcauseoffenseandsomehowdidnotcauseanygreatuneasiness。
  Susanhesitated,wenttotheshadowofalittletreenotfarfromhim。Hewasfanninghisflushedfacewithhishat。Thecollarofhisshirtwasopen;below,wherethetanendedabruptly,hisskinwasbeautifullywhite。Nowthatshehadbeendiscovered,itwasaswelltobepleasant,shereasoned。“It”safineday,“sheobservedwithagrown-upgravitythatmuchamusedhim。
  “Notforfishing,“saidhe。“Icaughtnothing。Youareastrangerintheseparts?“
  Susancoloredandalookofterrorflittedintohereyes。“Yes,“
  sheadmitted。“I”m——I”mpassingthrough。”
  Theyoungmanhadallhecoulddotoconcealhisamusement。
  Susanflusheddeeplyagain,notbecauseshesawhisexpression,forshewasnotlookingathim,butbecauseherremarkseemedtoherabsurdandlikelytorousesuspicion。
  “Isupposeyoucameupheretoseetheview,“saidtheman。Heglancedround。“It_is_prettygood。You”renotvisitingdownBrooksburgway,byanychance?“
  “No,“repliedSusan,rathercomposedlyanddeterminedtochangethesubject。“WhatwasthatsongIheardyousinging?“
  “Oh——youheard,didyou?“laughedhe。“It”stheDuke”ssongfrom`Rigoletto。”“
  “That”sanopera,isn”tit——like`Trovatore”?“
  “Yes——anItalianopera。Sameauthor。”
  “It”sabeautifulsong。”Itwasevidentthatshelongedtoaskhimtosingit。Shefeltateasewithhim;hewassounaffectedandsimple,wasoneofthosepeoplewhoseemtobeathomewherevertheyare。
  “Doyousing?“heinquired。
  “Notreally,“repliedshe。
  “NeitherdoI。Soifyou”llsingtome,I”llsingtoyou。”
  Susanlookedroundinalarm。“Oh,dear,no——pleasedon”t,“shecried。
  “Whynot?“heaskedcuriously。“Thereisn”tasoulabout。”
  “Iknow——but——really,youmustn”t。”
  “Verywell,“saidhe,seeingthathernervousnesswasnotatallfrombeingaskedtosing。Theysatquietly,shegazingoffatthehorizon,hefanninghimselfandstudyingherlovelyyoungface。Hewassomewhereintheneighborhoodoftwenty-fiveandacloseobserverwouldhavesuspectedhimofanunusualamountofexperience,evenforagood-looking,expansiveyouthofthatage。
  Hebrokethelongsilence。“I”manewspapermanfromCincinnati。
  I”monthe_Commercial_there。Myname”sRoderickSpenser。Myfather”sClaytonSpenser,downatBrooksburg“——hepointedtothesoutheast”beyondthathillthere,ontheriver。I”mhereonmyvacation。”Andhehalted,lookingatherexpectantly。
  Itseemedtoherthattherewasincourtesynoescapewithoutareturnbiographicalsketch。Shehungherhead,twistedhertaperingfingersinherlap,andlookedchildishlyembarrassedandunhappy。Anotherlongsilence;againhebrokeit。“You”llpardonmysayingso,but——you”reveryyoung,aren”tyou?“
  “Notso——so_terribly_young。I”malmostseventeen,“repliedshe,glancingthiswayandthat,asifthinkingofflight。
  “Youlooklikeachild,yetyoudon”t,“hewenton,andhisfrank,honestvoicecalmedher。“You”vehadsomepainfulexperience,I”dsay。”
  Shenodded,hereyesdown。
  Apause,thenhe:“Honest,now——aren”tyou——runningaway?“
  Sheliftedhereyestohispiteously。“Pleasedon”taskme,“shesaid。
  “Ishouldn”tthinkofit,“repliedhe,withagentlenessinhispersistencethatmadeherfeelstillmoreliketrustinghim,“ifitwasn”tthat——
  “Well,thisworldisn”ttheeasiestsortofaplace。Lotsofroughstretchesintheroad。I”vestruckseveralandI”vealwaysbeengladwhensomebOdyhasgivenmealift。AndIwanttopassiton——ifyou”llletme。It”ssomethingweoweeachother——don”tyouthink?“
  Thewordswerefineenough;butitwasthevoiceinwhichhesaidthemthatwenttoherheart。Shecoveredherfacewithherhandsandreleasedherpentemotions。Hetookapackageoftobaccoandasheafofpapersfromhistrouserspocket,rolledandlightedacigarette。Afterawhileshedriedhereyes,lookedathimshamefacedly。Buthewasallunderstandingandsympathy。
  “Nowyoufeelbetter,don”tyou?“
  “Much,“saidshe。Andshelaughed。“IguessI”mmoreupsetthanIletmyselfrealize。”
  “Sorryyoulefthome?“
  “Ihaven”tanyhome,“answeredshesimply。“AndIwouldn”tgobackalivetotheplaceIcamefrom。”
  Therewasaqualityintheenergysheputintoherwordsthatmadehimthoughtful。Hecounseledwiththeendofhiscigarette。
  Finallyheinquired:
  “Whereareyouboundfor?“
  “Idon”tknowexactly,“confessedshe,asifitwereasmallmatter。
  Heshookhishead。“Iseeyouhaven”tthefaintestnotionwhatyou”reupagainst。”
  “Oh,I”llgetalong。I”mstrong,andIcanlearn。”
  Helookedathercriticallyandrathersadly。
  “Yes——youarestrong,“saidhe。“ButIwonderifyou”restrongenough。”
  “Ineverwassickinmylife。”
  “Idon”tmeanthat……I”mnotsureIknowjustwhatIdomean。”
  “IsitveryhardtogettoChicago?“inquiredshe。
  “It”seasiertogettoCincinnati。”
  Sheshookherheadpositively。“Itwouldn”tdoformetogothere。”
  “Oh,youcomefromCincinnati?“
  “No——butI——I”vebeenthere。”
  “Oh,theycaughtyouandbroughtyouback?“
  Shenodded。Thisyoungmanmustbeverysmarttounderstandsoquickly。
  “Howmuchmoneyhaveyougot?“heaskedabruptly。
  Buthisfearthatshewouldthinkhimimpertinentcameofanunderestimateofherinnocence。“Ihaven”tgotany,“repliedshe。“Iforgotmypurse。Ithadthirtydollarsinit。”
  Atonceherecognizedtheabsolutechild;onlyutterinexperienceoftheworldcouldspeakofsosmallasumsorespectfully。“Idon”tunderstandatall,“saidhe。“Howlonghaveyoubeenhere?“
  “Allday。Igothereearlythismorning。”
  “Andyouhaven”thadanythingtoeat!“
  “Oh,yes!Ifoundsomeeggs。I”vegottwoleft。”
  Twoeggs——andnomoneyandnofriends——andawoman。Yetshewasfacingthefuturehopefully!Hesmiled,withtearsinhiseyes。
  “Youmustn”ttellanybodyyousawme,“shewenton。“Nomatterwhattheysay,don”tthinkyououghttotellonme。”
  Helookedather,sheathim。Whenhehadsatisfiedhimselfhesmiledmostreassuringly。“I”llnot,“washisanswer,andnowshe_knew_shecouldtrusthim。
  Shedrewabreathofrelief,andwentonasiftalkingwithanoldfriend。“I”vegottogetalongwaysfromhere。Assoonasit”sdarkI”mgoing。”
  “Where?“
  “Towardtheriver。”Andhereyeslit。
  “Theriver?What”sthere?“
  “Idon”tknow,“saidshetriumphantly。
  Butheunderstood。Hehadthespiritofadventurehimself——onecouldseeitataglance——thespiritthatinstinctivelyshunsyesterdayandallitsworksandwingseagerlyintotomorrow,unknown,different,new——thereforebetter。Butthisgirl,thischild-woman——orwassheratherwoman-child?——penniless,withnothingbuttwoeggsbetweenherandstarvation,alone,withoutplans,withoutexperience——
  Whatwouldbecomeofher?……“Aren”tyou——afraid?“heasked。
  “Ofwhat?“sheinquiredcalmly。
  Itwasthemereunconsciousaudacityofignorance,yethesawinhernow——notfanciedhesaw,butsaw——acertainstrengthofsoul,bothcourageandtenacity。No,shemightsuffer,sink——butshewoulddiefighting,andshewouldnotbeafraid。Andheadmiredandenviedher。
  “Oh,I”llgetalongsomehow,“sheassuredhiminthesameself-relianttone。Suddenlyshefeltitwouldnolongergiveherthehorrorstospeakofwhatshehadbeenthrough。“I”mnotveryold,“saidshe,andherswasthefaceofawomannow。“ButI”velearnedagreatdeal。”
  “Youaresureyouarenotmakingamistakein——in——runningaway?“
  “Icouldn”tdoanythingelse,“repliedshe。“I”mallaloneintheworld。There”snoone——except——
  “Ihadn”tdoneanything,andtheysaidIhaddisgracedthem——andthey——”Hervoicefaltered,hereyessank,thecolorfloodedintoherface。“Theygavemetoaman——andhe——Ihadhardlyseenhimbefore——he——”Shetriedbutcouldnotpronouncethedreadfulword。
  “Married,youmean?“saidtheyoungmangently。
  Thegirlshuddered。“Yes,“sheanswered。“AndIranaway。”
  Sostrange,sostartling,somovingwastheexpressionofherfacethathecouldnotspeakforamoment。Achillcreptoverhimashewatchedherwideeyesgazingintovacancy。Whatvisionofhorrorwassheseeing,hewondered。Torouseherhespokethefirstwordshecouldassemble:
  “Whenwasthis?“
  Thevisionseemedslowlytofadeandshelookedathiminastonishment。“Why,itwaslastnight!“shesaid,asifdazedbythediscovery。“Onlylastnight!“
  “Lastnight!Thenyouhaven”tgotfar。”
  “No。ButImust。Iwill。AndI”mnotafraidofanythingexceptofbeingtakenback。”
  “Butyoudon”trealizewhatmaybe——probablyis——waitingforyou——attheriver——andbeyond。”
  “Nothingcouldbesobad,“saidshe。Thewordswerenothing,butthetoneandtheexpressionthataccompaniedthemsomehowconvincedhimbeyondadoubt。
  “You”llletmehelpyou?“
  Shedebated。“Youmightbringmesomethingtoeat——mightn”tyou?
  Theeggs”lldoforsupper。Butthere”stomorrow。Idon”twanttobeseentillIgetalongwaysoff。”
  Heroseatonce。“Yes,I”llbringyousomethingtoeat。”Hetookaknockaboutwatchfromthebreastpocketofhisshirt。“It”snowfouro”clock。I”vegotthreemilestowalk。I”llridebackandhitchthehorsedownthecreek——alittlewaysdown,soitwon”tattractattentiontoyourplaceuphere。I”llbebackinaboutanhourandahalf……MaybeI”llthinkofsomethingthat”llhelp。CanIbringyouanythingelse?
  “No。Thatis——I”dlikealittlepieceofsoap。”
  “Andatowel?“hesuggested。
  “Icouldtakecareofatowel,“agreedshe。“I”llsenditbacktoyouwhenIgetsettled。”
  “Goodheavens!“Helaughedathersimplicity。“Whatanhonestchildyouare!“Heputouthishand,andshetookitwithcharmingfriendliness。“Good-by。I”llhurry。”
  “I”msogladyoucaughtme,“saidshe。Then,apologetically,“I
  don”twanttobeanytrouble。Ihatetobetroublesome。I”veneverletanybodywaitonme。”
  “Idon”tknowwhenI”vehadasmuchpleasureasthisisgivingme。”Andhemadeabowthathiditsseriousnessbehindasmileofgood-humoredraillery。
  Shewatchedhimdescendwithasinkingheart。Therock——theworld——herlife,seemedemptynow。Hehadremindedherthattherewerehumanbeingswithgoodhearts。But——perhapsifheknew,hiskindnesswouldturnalso……No,shedecidednot。
  Menlikehim,womenlikeAuntSallie——theydidnotbelievethosedreadful,wickedideasthatpeoplesaidGodhadordained。
  Still——ifheknewaboutherbirth——brandedoutcast——hemightchange。Shemustnotreallyhopeforanythingmuchuntilshewasfar,farawayinawhollynewworldwheretherewouldbeawhollynewsortofpeople,ofakindshehadnevermet。Butshewassuretheywouldwelcomeher,andgiveherachance。
  Shereturnedtothetreeagainstwhichshehadbeensitting,forthereshecouldlookattheplacehisbigframehadpresseddowninthetallgrass,andcouldseehiminit,andcouldrecallhisfriendlyeyesandvoice,andcouldkeepherselfassuredshehadnotbeendreaming。Hewasacitifiedman,likeSam——buthowdifferent!Amanwithaheartlikehiswouldnevermarryawoman——no,never!Hecouldn”tbeabrutelikethat。Still,perhapsnicemenmarriedbecauseitwassupposedtobetherightthingtodo,andwastheonlywaytohavechildrenwithoutpeoplethinkingyouadisgraceandslightingthechildren——andthenmarryingmadebrutesofthem。Nowonderherunclescouldtreatherso。Theyweremenwhohadmarried。
  Afaroffsheheardthemanlyvoicesingingthesongfrom“Rigoletto。”Shesprangupandlistened,witheyessoftlyshiningandheadalittleononeside。Thesongended;herheartbeatfast。Itwasnotmanyminutesbeforeshe,watchingattheendofthepath,sawhimappearatthebottomofthehugecleft。
  Andthelookinhiseyes,themerrysmileabouthisexpressivemouth,delightedher。“I”msogladtoseeyou!“shecried。
  Overhisshoulderwasflunghisfishingbag,anditbulged。
  “Don”tbescaredbythesizeofmypack,“hecalledup,asheclimbed。“We”regoingtohavesuppertogether——ifyou”llletmestay。Thenyoucantakeasmuchoraslittleasyoulikeofwhat”sleft。”
  Arrivedatthetop,hehaltedforalongbreath。Theystoodfacingeachother。“My,whatatallgirlyouareforyourage!“
  saidheadmiringly。
  Shelaughedupathim。“I”llbeastallasyouwhenIgetmygrowth。”
  Shewassolovelythathecouldscarcelyrefrainfromtellingherso。Itseemedtohim,however,itwouldbetakinganunfairadvantagetosaythatsortofthingwhenshewasinawayathismercy。“Whereshallwespreadthetable?“saidhe。“I”mhungryasthehorseleech”sdaughter。Andyou——why,youmustbestarved。
  I”mafraidIdidn”tbringwhatyoulike。ButIdidthebestI
  could。Iraidedthepantry,tookeverythingthatwasportable。”
  Hehadsetdownthebagandhadlooseneditsstrings。Firsthetookoutatablecloth。Shelaughed。“Gracious!Howstylishweshallbe!“
  “Ididn”tbringnapkins。Wecanusethecornersofthecloth。”
  Hehadtwoknives,twoforks,andabigspoonrolledupinthecloth,andasaltcellar。“Now,here”smytriumph!“hecried,drawingfromthebagapairofroastedchickens。Nextcameajarofquincejelly;next,apaperbagwithcoldpotatoesandcoldstringbeansinit。Thenhefishedoutahugesquareofcornbreadandaloafofsalt-risingbread,apoundofbutter——
  “Whatwillyourfolkssay?“exclaimedshe,indismay。
  Helaughed。“TheyalwayshavethoughtIwascrazy,eversinceI
  wenttocollegeandthentothecityinsteadoffarming。”Andoutofthebagcameabigglassjarofmilk。“Iforgottobringaglass!“heapologized。Thenhesuspendedunpackingtoopenthejar。“Why,youmustbehalf-deadwiththirst,upherealldaywithnotadropofwater。”Andheheldoutthejartoher。
  “Drinkhearty!“hecried。
  Themilkwasrichandcold;shedranknearlyafourthofitbeforeshecouldwrestthejarawayfromherlips。“My,butthatwasgood!“sheremarked。Hehadenjoyedwatchingherdrink。
  “Surelyyouhaven”tgotanythingelseinthatbag?“
  “Notmuch,“repliedhe。“Here”satowel,wrappedroundthesoap。
  Andherearethreecakesofchocolate。Youcouldlivefourorfivedaysonthem,ifyouwereputtoit。Sowhateverelseyouleave,don”tleavethem。And——Oh,yes,here”sacalicoslipandasunbonnet,andapaperofpins。Andthat”sall。”
  “Whataretheyfor?“
  “Ithoughtyoumightputthemon——theslipoveryourdress——andyouwouldn”tlookquiteso——sooutofplace——ifanybodyshouldseeyou。”
  “Whatafineidea!“criedSusan,shakingouttheslipdelightedly。
  Hewasspreadingthesupperonthetablecloth。Hecarvedoneofthechickens,openedthejelly,placedthebreadandvegetablesandbutter。“Now!“hecried。“Let”sgetbusy。”
  Andhesetheranexampleshewasnotslowtofollow。Thesunhadslippeddownbehindthehillsofthenorthwesthorizon。Thebirdsweretuningfortheireveningsong。Abreezesprangupandcoquettedwiththestraysofherwavydarkhair。Andtheysatcross-leggedonthegrassonoppositesidesofthetableclothandjokedandlaughedandate,andateandlaughedandjokeduntilthestarsbegantoappearinthevastpalingopalofthesky。Theyhadchosenthecenterofthegrassyplatformfortheirbanquet;thus,fromwheretheysatonlythetopsoftreesandtheskyweretobeseen。Andaftertheyhadfinishedsheleanedonherelbowandlistenedwhilehe,smokinghiscigarette,toldherofhislifeasanewspapermaninCincinnati。Thetwilightfadedintodusk,theduskintoascarletdarkness。
  “Whenthemooncomesupwe”llstart,“saidhe。“Youcanridebehindmeonthehorsepartoftheway,anyhow。”
  Theshadowoftheparting,theendingofthishappiness,felluponher。Howlonelyitwouldbewhenhewasgone!“Ihaven”ttoldyoumyname,“shesaid。
  “I”vetoldyoumineRoderickSpenser——withan_s_,nota_c_。”
  “Iremember,“saidshe。“I”llneverforget……Mine”sSusanLenox。”
  “Whatwasit——before——”Hehalted。
  “Beforewhat?“Hissilencesethertothinking。“Oh!“sheexclaimed,inatonethatmadehimcursehisstupidityinremindingher。“Myname”sSusanLenox——andalwayswillbe。Itwasmymother”sname。”Shehesitated,decidedforfranknessatanycost,forhiskindnessforbadehertodeceivehiminanyway。Proudly,“Mymotherneverletanymanmarryher。Theysayshewasdisgraced,butIunderstandnow。_She_wouldn”tstooptoletanymanmarryher。”
  Spenserpuzzledoverthis,butcouldmakenothingofit。Hefeltthatheoughtnottoinquirefurther。Hesawheranxiouseyes,herexpressionofonekeyedupandwaitingforaverdict。“I”dhaveonlytolookatyoutoknowyourmotherwasafinewoman,“
  saidhe。Then,toescapefromtheneighborhoodofthedangerousriddle,“Now,aboutyour——yourgoing,“hebegan。“I”vebeenthinkingwhattodo。”
  “You”llhelpme?“saidshe,todispelherlastdoubt——averyfaintdoubt,forhiswordsandhiswayofutteringthemhaddispelledherrealanxiety。
  “Helpyou?“criedheheartily。“AllIcan。I”vegotaschemetoproposetoyou。Yousayyoucan”ttakethemailboat?“
  “Theyknowme。I——I”mfromSutherland。”
  “Youtrustme——don”tyou?“
  “IndeedIdo。”
  “Nowlistentome——asifIwereyourbrother。Willyou?“
  “Yes。”
  “I”mgoingtotakeyoutoCincinnatiwithme。I”mgoingtoputyouinmyboardinghouseasmysister。AndI”mgoingtogetyouaposition。Then——youcanstartinforyourself。”
  “Butthat”llbeagreatlotoftrouble,won”tit?“
  “NotanymorethanfriendsofminetookformewhenIwasstartingout。”Then,asshecontinuedsilent,“Whatareyouthinking?Ican”tseeyourfaceinthisstarlight。”
  “Iwasthinkinghowgoodyouare,“shesaidsimply。
  Helaugheduneasily。“I”mnotoftenaccusedofthat,“hereplied。“I”mlikemostpeople——amixtureofgoodandbad——andnotverystrongeitherway。I”mafraidI”mmostlyimpulsethatwinksout。But——thequestionis,howtogetyoutoCincinnati。
  It”ssimplyimpossibleformetogotonight。Ican”ttakeyouhomeforthenight。Idon”ttrustmypeople。They”dnotthinkI
  wasgood——oryou,either。Andwhileusuallythey”dberight——bothways——thisisanexception。”Thisideaofanexceptionseemedtoamusehim。Hewenton,“Idon”tdareleaveyouatanyfarmhouseintheneighborhood。IfIdid,youcouldbetraced。”
  “No——no,“shecried,alarmedattheverysuggestion。“Imustn”tbeseenbyanybody。”
  “We”llgostraighttotheriver,andI”llgetaboatandrowyouacrosstoKentucky——overtoCarrollton。There”salittlehotel。
  Icanleaveyou——”
  “No——notCarrollton,“sheinterrupted。“Myunclesellsgoodsthere,andtheyknowhim。AndifanythingisintheSutherlandpapersaboutme,why,they”dknow。”
  “Notwithyouinthatslipandsunbonnet。I”llmakeupastory——aboutourwagonbreakingdownandthatI”vegottowalkbackintothehillstogetanotherbeforewecangoon。
  And——it”stheonlyplanthat”satallpossible。”
  Obviouslyhewasright;butshewouldnotconsent。Byadroitquestioninghefoundthatherobjectionwasdislikeofbeingsomuchtroubletohim。“That”stooridiculous,“criedhe。“Why,I
  wouldn”thavemissedthisadventureforanythingintheworld。”
  Hismannerwasconvincingenough,butshedidnotgiveinuntilmoonrisecamewithoutherhavingthoughtofanyotherplan。HewastobeBobPeters,shehissisterKate,andtheyweretohailfromafarmintheKentuckyhillsbackofMilton。TheypracticedthedialectoftheregionandfoundthattheycouldtalkitwellenoughtopassthetestofafewsentencesTheypackedthefishingbag;shewrappedthetwoeggsinpaperandputthemintheemptymilkbottle。Theydescendedbythepath——aslowjourneyinthedarknessofthatsideoftherock,asthereweremanydangers,includingthedangerofmakinganoisethatmightbeheardbysomerestlesspersonatthehouse。Afterhalfanhourtheyweresafelyatthebaseoftherock;theyskirtedit,wentdowntothecreek,foundthehorsetiedwherehehadleftit。Withherseatedsidewaysbehindhimandholdingonbyanarmhalfroundhiswaist,theymadeamerrybutnotveryspeedyadvancetowardtheriver,keepingasnearlyduesouthasthebreaksinthehillspermitted。Afterawhileheasked:“Doyoueverthinkofthestage?“
  “I”veneverseenarealstageplay,“saidshe。“ButIwantto——andIwill,thefirstchanceIget。”
  “Imeant,didyoueverthinkofgoingonthestage?“
  “No。”Sodaringaflightwouldhavebeenimpossibleforababyimaginationinthecageoftherespectable-family-in-a-small-town。
  “It”soneofmydreamstowriteplays,“hewenton。“Wouldn”titbequeerifsomedayIwroteplaysforyoutoactin?“
  Whenone”sfancyisasfreeaswasSusan”sthen,ittakesanydirectionchancemaysuggest。Susan”sfancyinstantlywingedalongthisfascinatingroute。“I”vegivenrecitationsatschool,andintheplaysweusedtohavetheyletmetakethebestparts——thatis——until——untilayearorsoago。”
  Henotedthehesitation,hadaninstinctagainstaskingwhytherehadcomeatimewhenshenolongergotgoodparts。“I”msureyoucouldlearntoact,“declaredhe。“Andyou”llbesureofit,too,afteryou”veseenthepeoplewhodoit。”
  “Oh,Idon”tbelieveIcould,“saidshe,inrebuketoherownmountingself-confidence。Then,suddenlyrememberingherbirth-brandofshameandoverwhelmedbyit,“No,Ican”thopetobetobeanythingmuch。Theywouldn”thave——_me_。”
  “Iknowhowyoufeel,“repliedhe,allunawareoftherealreasonforthisdeephumility。“WhenIfirststrucktownIfeltthatway。ItseemedtomeIcouldn”thopeevertolineupwiththecleverpeopletheyhadthere。ButIsoonsawtherewasnothinginthatidea。Thefactis,everywhereintheworldthere”salotmorethingstodothanpeoplewhocandothem。
  Mostofthosewhogettothetop——wheredidtheystart?Wherewe”restarting。”
  Shewasimmenselyflatteredbythat“we“andgratefulforit。
  Butsheheldtoheroriginalopinion。“Therewouldn”tbeachanceforme,“saidshe。“Theywouldn”thaveme。”
  “Oh,Iunderstand,“saidheandhefanciedhedid。Helaughedgaylyattheideathatinthetheateranyonewouldcarewhoshewas——whatkindofpastshehadhad——orpresenteither,forthatmatter。Saidhe,“Youneedn”tworry。Onthestagetheydon”taskanyquestions——anyquestionsexcept`Canyouact?Canyougetitover?Canyougetthehand?”“
  Thenthisstage,itwastheworldshehaddreamedof——theworldwheretherelivedawhollynewkindofpeople——peoplewhocouldmakeroomforher。Shethrilled,andherheartbeatwildly。Inastrangelyquiet,intensevoice,shesaid:
  “Iwanttotry。I”msureI”llgetalongthere。I”llwork——Oh,sohard。I”lldo_anything!_“
  “That”sthetalk,“criedhe。“You”vegotthestuffinyou。”
  Shesaidlittletherestofthejourney。Hermindwasbusywiththeideahehadbymerestaccidentgivenher。Ifhecouldhavelookedinuponherthoughts,hewouldhavebeenamazedandnotalittlealarmedbythefermenthehadsetup。
  Wheretheyreachedtheriverthebankwasmudandthickwillows,thehauntofincrediblearmiesofmosquitoes。“It”samysterytome,“criedhe,“whythesefiendsliveinlonelyplacesfarawayfromblood,whenthey”resomadaboutit。”Aftersomesearchinghefoundaclearstretchofsandygravelwhereshewouldbenottoouncomfortablewhilehewasgoneforaboat。HeleftthehorsewithherandwalkedupstreaminthedirectionofBrooksburg。Ashehadwarnedherthathemightbegonealongtime,heknewshewouldnotbealarmedforhim——andshehadalreadyprovedthattimidityaboutherselfwasnotinhernature。
  Buthewasalarmedforher——thisgirlaloneinthatlonelydarkness——withlightenoughtomakehervisibletoanyprowler。
  Aboutanhourafterheleftherhereturnedinarowboathehadborrowedatthewatermill。Hehitchedthehorseinthedeepshadowofthebreakinthebank。Shegotintotheboat,putontheslipandthesunbonnet,puthersailorhatinthebag。Theypushedoffandhebeganthelonghardrowacrossandupstream。
  Themoonwashighnowandwasstillnearenoughtoitsfullglorytopourafloodofbeautifullightuponthebroadriver——thelovelyOhioatitsloveliestpart。
  “Won”tyousing?“heasked。
  AndwithouthesitationshebeganoneofthesimplefamiliarlovesongsthatwereallthemusictowhichtheSutherlandgirlshadaccess。Shesangsoftly,inadeepsweetvoice,sweetereventhanherspeakingvoice。Shehadthesunbonnetinherlap;themoonshonefulluponherface。Anditseemedtohimthathewasinadream;therewasnowhereasuggestionofreality——notofitsprose,notevenofitspoetry。Onlyinthelandnowakingeyehasseencouldsuchathingbe。Thelowsweetvoicesangoflove,theoarsclickedrhythmicallyinthelocksandclovethewaterwithmusicalsplash;theriver,betweenitssteephills,shoneinthemoonlight,withabreezelikeafriendlyspiritmovinguponitssurface。Heurgedher,andshesanganothersong,andanother。ShesighedwhenshesawtheredlanternontheCarrolltonwharf;andhe,turninghisheadandseeing,echoedhersigh。
  “Thefirstchance,youmustsingmethatsong,“shesaid。
  “From`Rigoletto”?Iwill。But——ittellshowficklewomenare——`likeafeatherinthewind。”……Theyaren”talllikethat,though——don”tyouthinkso?“
  “SometimesIthinkeverybody”slikeafeatherinthewind,“
  repliedshe。“Aboutlove——andeverything。”
  Helaughed。“Exceptthosepeoplewhoarewherethereisn”tanywind。”
  CHAPTERXII
  FORsometimeSpenserhadbeenrowingwellintowardtheKentuckyshore,toavoidtheswiftcurrentoftheKentuckyRiverwhichrushesintotheOhioatCarrollton。Afewyardsbelowitsmouth,inthequietstretchofbackwateralongshore,laythewharf-boat,littlemorethanalandingstage。Thehotelwasbutahundredfeetaway,atthetopofthesteeplevee。Itwasmidnight,soeveryoneinthevillagehadlongbeenasleep。AfterseveralminutesofthunderoushammeringRodericksucceededindrawingtothedoorabarefootedmanwithacandleinhishuge,knottedhand——amanofgreatstature,amazinglyleanandlongofleg,withamonstrousheadthatchedandfrontedwithcoarse,yellow-brownhair。Hehadonadirtycottonshirtanddirtycottontrousers——anightdressthatservedequallywellfortheday。Hisfeetwereflatandthickandwerehideouswithcornsandbunions。Susanhadearlybeenmadeacriticalobserveroffeetbytheunusualsymmetryofherown。Shehadseenfewfeetthatwerefittobeseen;butnever,shethought,hadsheseenanexhibitionsorepellent。
  “Whatt”hell——”hebegan。Then,discoveringSusan,hegrowled,“Begpardon,miss。”
  Roderickexplained——thatis,toldtheprearrangedstory。Themanpointedtoagrimyregisterontheofficedesk,andRodericksetdownthefishingbagandwroteinacramped,scrawlyhand,“KatePeters,Milton,Ky。”
  Themanlookedatitthroughhisscreenofhairandbeard,said,“Comeon,ma”am。”
  “Justaminute,“saidRoderick,andhedrew“Kate“asideandsaidtoherinalowtone:“I”llbebacksometimetomorrow,andthenwe”llstartatonce。But——toprovideagainsteverything——don”tbealarmedifIdon”tcome。You”llknowIcouldn”thelpit。Andwait。”
  Susannodded,lookingathimwithtrustful,gratefuleyes。
  “And,“hewentonhurriedly,“I”llleavethiswithyou,totakecareof。It”syoursasmuchasmine。”
  Shesawthatitwasapocketbook,instinctivelyputherhandsbehindher。
  “Don”tbesilly,“hesaid,withgood-humoredimpatience。“You”llprobablynotneedit。Ifyoudo,you”llneeditbad。Andyou”llpaymebackwhenyougetyourplace。”
  Hecaughtoneofherhandsandputthepocketbookinit。Ashisargumentwasunanswerable,shedidnotresistfurther。Sheutterednotawordofthanks,butsimplylookedathim,hereyesswimmingandabouthermouthaquiverthatmeantagreatdealinher。Impulsivelyandwithflamingcheekhekissedheronthecheek。“Solong,sis,“hesaidloudly,andstrodeintothenight。
  Susandidnotflush;shepaled。Shegazedafterhimwithsomesuchexpressionasamanlostinacavemighthaveashewatchestheflickeringoutofhisonlylight。“Thisway,ma”am,“saidthehotelmansourly,takingupthefishingbag。Shestarted,followedhimupthenoisystairstoaplain,neatcountrybedroom。“Thepriceofthishere”sonefiftyaday,“saidhe。
  “We”vegot”emaslowasadollar。”
  “I”lltakeadollarone,please,“saidSusan。
  Themanhesitated。“Well,“hefinallysnarled,“businessisslackjes”now。Seein”asyou”realady,youkinhavethishereunfuradollar。”
  “Oh,thankyou——butifthepriceismore——”
  “Theotherroomsain”tfitfuralady,“saidthehotelman。Thenhegrinnedaveryhumanhumorousgrinthatstraightwaymadehimmuchlessrepulsive。“Anyhow,themtwodurnboysofminean”
  theircousinsisasleepin”em。I”dasliefroutoutanestofhornets。I”llleaveyouthecandle。”
  AssoonashehadgoneSusanputoutthelight,rantothewindow。ShesawtherowboatandSpenser,ablackspotfaroutontheriver,almostgonefromviewtothesouthwest。Hastilyshelightedthecandleagain,stoodatthewindowandwavedawhitecovershesnatchedfromthetable。Shethoughtshesawoneoftheoarsgoupandflourish,butshecouldnotbesure。Shewatcheduntiltheboatvanishedinthedarknessatthebend。Shefoundthesoapinthebagandtookaslowbutthoroughbathinthewashbowl。Thensheunbraidedherhair,combeditoutaswellasshecouldwithherfingers,rubbeditthoroughlywithatowelandbraideditagain。Sheputonthecalicoslipasanightdress,kneltdowntosayherprayers。Butinsteadofprayerstherecamefloodingintohermindmemoriesofwhereshehadbeenlastnight,ofthehorrors,oftheagoniesofbodyandsoul。Sherosefromherknees,putoutthelight,stoodagainatthewindow。Inafteryearsshealwayslookedbackuponthathourastheonethatdefinitelymarkedtheendofgirlhood,ofthethoughtsandbeliefswhichgowiththeshelteredlife,andthebeginningofwomanhood,ofself-relianceandofthehardiness——sonearakintohardness——thehardinessthatmustcomeintothecharacterbeforeamanorawomanisfittogiveandtakeinthecombatoflife。
  Thebedwascoarse,butwhiteandclean。Shefellasleepinstantlyanddidnotawakenuntil,afterthevague,graduallyloudersoundofhammeringonthedoor,sheheardafemalevoicewarningherthatbreakfastwas“putnighoveran”done。”Shegotup,partlydrewononestocking,thenwithouttakingitofftumbledoveragainstthepillowandwasasleep。Whenshecametoherselfagain,thelayoftheshadowstoldheritmustbeaftertwelveo”clock。Shedressed,packedhersergesuitinthebagwiththesailorhat,smoothedoutthepinkcalicoslipandputiton。Formorethanayearshehadwornherhairinabraiddoubleduponitselfandtiedwithabowatthebackofherneck。
  Shedecidedthatifshewouldpartit,plaititintwobraidsandbringthemroundherhead,shewouldlookolder。Shetriedthisandwasmuchpleasedwiththeresult。Shethoughtthenewstylenotonlymoregrown-up,butalsomorebecoming。Thepinkslip,too,seemedtoherasuccess。Itcamealmosttoheranklesanditsstringsenabledhertomakeitlooksomethinglikeadress。Carryingthepinksunbonnet,downshewentinsearchofsomethingtoeat。
  Thehallwasfullofsmokeanditsairseemedgreasywiththeodoroffrying。Shefoundthatdinnerwasabouttobeserved。A
  girlinbluecalicoskirtandfood-smeared,sweat-discoloredbluejerseyusheredhertooneofthetablesinthedining-room。
  “There”sagentlemancomin”,“saidshe。“I”llsethimdownwithyou。Hewon”tbite,Idon”treckon,andthereain”tnousemussin”uptwotables。”
  Therewasnoprotestingagainsttwosucharguments;soSusanpresentlyhadoppositeherafattishmanwithlongoilyhairandafacelikethatofafallenanddissipatedpreacher。Sherecognizedhimatonceasoneofthosewandererswhovisitsmalltownswithcheapshowsorsellingpatentmedicinesanddoingjugglingtricksonthestreetcornersintheflareofagasolinelamp。Sheeyedhimfurtivelyuntilhecaughtheratit——hebeingaboutthesamebusinesshimself。Thereaftershekepthereyessteadilyuponthetablecloth,patchedandwornthinwithmuchwashing。Soontheplateofeachwasencircledbythefamiliararcofsidedishescontainingassortedandnotveryappetizingmesses——friedsteak,waterypeas,stringybeans,soggyturnips,lumpymashedpotatoes,aperilous-lookingchickenstew,cornbreadwithstreaksofbakingsodainit。Butneitherofthedinerswascritical,andthedinnerwaseatenwithanenthusiasmwhichthebestrarelyinspires。
  Withtheprunesanddried-applepie,thestrangerexpanded。
  “Warmday,miss,“heventured。
  “Yes,itisalittlewarm,“saidSusan。Sheventuredadirectlookathim。Abovethepleasant,kindlyeyestherewasabrowsounusuallywellshapedthatitarrestedevenheryounganduntrainedattention。Whatevertheman”scharacterorstation,therecouldbenoquestionastohisintelligence。
  “Thefliesareverybothersome,“continuedhe。“ButnothinglikeAustralia。Theretheflieshavetobepickedoff,andthey”rebig,andtheybite——takeapiecerightoutofyou。Thenativesusedtolaughatuswhenwewereintheringandwouldtrytobrush,emaway。”Thestrangerhadthepleasant,easymannerofonewhothroughcustomofallkindsofpeopleandallvarietiesoffortune,haslearnedtobepatientandgood-humored——totakethedayandthehourastheseasonedgamblertakesthecardsthataredealthim。
  Susansaidnothing;butshehadlistenedpolitely。Themanwentonamusinghimselfwithhisownconversation。“Iwasintheshowbusinessthen。Clownwasmyline,butIwasrottenatit——simplyrotten。I”mstillintheshowbusiness——differentline,though。
  I”vegotashowofmyown。Ifyou”regoingtobeintownperhapsyou”llcometoseeustonight。Ourboat”sanchoreddownnexttothewharf。Youcanseeitfromthewindows。Come,andbringyourfolks。”
  “Thankyou,“saidSusan——shehadforgottenherroleanditsaccent。“ButI”mafraidwe”llnotbehere。”
  Therewasanexpressioninthestranger”sface——apuzzled,curiousexpression,notimpertinent,rathercovert——anexpressionthatmadeheruneasy。Itwarnedherthatthismansawshewasnotwhatsheseemedtobe,thathewastryingtopeerintohersecret。Hisbrowneyeswerekindenough,butalarminglykeen。Withonlyhalfherpieeaten,sheexcusedherselfandhastenedtoherroom。
  AtthethresholdsherememberedthepocketbookSpenserhadgivenher。Shehadleftitbythefishingbagonthetable。Therewasthebagbutnotthepocketbook。“Imusthaveputitinthebag,“
  shesaidaloud,andthesoundandthetoneofhervoicefrightenedher。Shesearchedthebag,thentheroomwhichhadnotyetbeenstraightenedup。Sheshookoutthebedcovers,lookedinallthedrawers,underthebed,wentoverthecontentsofthebagagain。Thepocketbookwasgone——stolen。
  Shesatdownontheedgeofthebed,herhandsinherlap,andstaredattheplacewhereshehadlastseenthepocketbook——_his_
  pocketbook,whichhehadaskedhertotakecareof。Howcouldshefacehim!Whatwouldhethinkofher,sountrustworthy!Whatareturnforhiskindness!Shefeltweak——soweakthatshelaydown。Thefoodshehadtakenturnedtopoisonandherheadachedfiercely。Whatcouldshedo?Tospeaktotheproprietorwouldbetocauseagreatcommotion,toattractattentiontoherself——andhowwouldthathelptobringbackthestolenpocketbook,takenperhapsbytheproprietorhimself?Sherecalledthatasshehurriedthroughtheofficefromthedining-roomhehadaqueershiftingexpression,gaveherawheedling,cringinggoodmorningnotatallinkeepingwiththecharacterhehadshownthenightbefore。Theslovenlygirlcametodotheroom;Susansentheraway,satbythewindowgazingoutovertheriveranddownstream。Hewouldsoonbehere;thethoughtmadeherlongtoflyandhide。Hehadbeenallgenerosity;andthiswasherwayofappreciatingit!
  Theysentforhertocomedowntosupper。Sherefused,sayingshewasnotfeelingwell。Shesearchedtheroom,thebag,againandagain。Shewouldrestafewminutes,thenupshewouldspringandteareverythingout。Thenbacktothewindowtositandstareattheriveroverwhichtheeveningshadowswerebeginningtogather。Once,asshewassittingthere,shehappenedtoseethegaudilypaintedanddecoratedshowboat。A
  man——thestrangerofthedinnertable——wasstandingontheforwardend,smokingacigar。Shesawthathewasobservingher,realizedhecouldhaveseenherstirringfeverishlyaboutherroom。Awomancameoutofthecabinandjoinedhim。Assoonashisattentionwasdistractedsheclosedhershutters。Andthereshesatalone,withthehoursdraggingtheirwretchedminutesslowlyaway。
  Thatwasoneofthosenightsuponwhichanyonewhohashadthem——andwhohasnot?——looksbackwithwonderathowtheyeverlived,howtheyevercametoanend。Shesleptalittletowarddawn——foryouthandhealthwillnotletthemostdespairingheartsufferinsleeplessness。Herheadachewent,butthemiseryofsoulwhichhadbeenamaddeningpainsettleddownintoathrobbingache。Shefearedhewouldcome;shefearedhewouldnotcome。Theservantstriedtopersuadehertotakebreakfast。
  Shecouldnothaveswallowedfood;shewouldnothavedaredtakefoodforwhichshecouldnotpay。Whatwouldtheydowithherifhedidnotcome?Shesearchedtheroomagain,hopingagainsthope,ahundredtimesfancyingshefeltthepurseundersomeotherthings,eachtimesufferingsickeningdisappointment。
  Towardnoontheservantcameknocking。“Aletterforyou,ma”am。”
  Susanrushedtothedoor,seizedtheletter,toreitopen,read:
  WhenIgotbacktothehorseandstartedtomount,hekickedmeandbrokemyleg。YoucangoonsouthtotheL。andN。andtakeatraintoCincinnati。Whenyoufindaboardinghousesendyouraddresstomeattheoffice。I”llcomeinafewweeks。I”dwritemorebutIcan”t。Don”tworry。Everything”llcomeoutright。Youarebraveandsensible,andI_backyoutowin_。
  Withtheunsignedlettercrumpledinherhandsshesatatthewindowwithscarcelyamotionuntilnoon。Shethenwentdowntotheshowboat。Severalpeople——menandwomen——wereontheforwardend,quarreling。Shelookedonlyatheracquaintance。
  Hisfacewasswollenandhiseyesbloodshot,buthestillworetheairofeasyandpatientgood-humor。Shesaid,standingontheshore,“CouldIspeaktoyouaminute?“
  “Certainly,ma”am,“replieshe,liftinghisdingystrawhatwithgaudy,stainedband。Hecamedownthebroadplanktotheshore。
  “Why,what”sthematter?“Thisinasympathetictone。
  “Willyoulendmetwodollarsandtakemealongtoworkitout?“
  sheasked。
  Heeyedherkeenly。“Forthehotelbill?“heinquired,thecigartuckedawayinthecornerofhismouth。
  Shenodded。
  “Hedidn”tshowup?“
  “Hebrokehisleg。”
  “Oh!“Thetonewaspolitelysympathetic,butincredulous。Heeyedhercritically,thoughtfully。“Canyousing?“hefinallyasked。
  “Alittle。”
  Hishandsweredeepinthepocketsofhisbaggylighttrousers。
  Hedrewoneofthemoutwithatwo-dollarbillinit。“Goandpayhimandbringyourthings。We”reabouttopushoff。”
  “Thankyou,“saidthegirlinthesamestolidway。Shereturnedtothehotel,broughtthebagdownfromherroom,stoodattheofficedesk。
  Theservantcame。“Mr。Gumpushasjes”steppedout,“saidshe。
  “Hereisthemoneyformyroom。”AndSusanlaidthetwo-dollarbillontheregister。
  “Ain”tyougoin”towaitfuryer——yerbrother?“
  “He”snotcoming,“repliedthegirl。“So——I”llgo。Good-by。”
  “Good-by。It”sawful,bein”tooksickawayfromhome。”
  “Thankyou,“saidSusan。“Good-by。”
  Thegirl”shomely,ignorantfacetwistedinagrin。ButSusandidnotsee,wouldhavebeenindifferenthadsheseen。Sincesheacceptedthewarearthandheavenhaddeclaredagainsther,shehadceasedfromthelittlethoughtshehadoncegiventowhatwasthoughtofherbythoseofwhomshethoughtnotatall。Shewentdowntotheshowboat。Theplankhadbeentakenin。Heracquaintancewaswaitingforher,helpedhertothedeck,jumpedaboardhimself,andwasinstantlybusyhelpingtoguidetheboatoutintomid-stream。Susanlookedbackatthehotel。Mr。Gumpuswasinthedoorway,amusementineverylineofhisuglyface。
  Besidehimstoodtheslovenlyservant。Shewascrying——themorehumansecondthoughtofaheartnotaltogethercorruptedbythesordidhardnessofherlot。Howcanfaithinthehumanracefalterwhenoneconsidershowmuchheartithasinspiteofallitsuffersinthestruggleupwardthroughthedensefogsofignoranceupward,towardthetruth,towardthelightofwhichitneverceasestodreamandtohope?
  Susanstoodinthesameplace,withherbagbesideher,untilheracquaintancecame。
  “Now,“saidhe,comfortably,ashelightedafreshcigar,“we”llfloatpleasantlyalong。IguessyouandIhadbettergetacquainted。Whatisyourname?“
  Susanflushed。“KatePetersisthenameIgaveatthehotel。
  That”lldo,won”tit?“
  “Neverintheworld!“repliedhe。“Youmusthaveagoodcatchyname。Say——er——er——”Herolledhiscigarslowly,lookingthoughtfullytowardthewillowsthickandgreenalongtheIndianashore。“Say——well,say——Lorna——Lorna——LornaSackville!
  That”sawinner。LornaSackville!——Astrokeofgenius!Don”tyouthinkso?“
  “Yes,“saidSusan。“Itdoesn”tmatter。”
  “Butitdoes,“remonstratedhe。“Youareanartist,now,andanartist”snameshouldalwaysarousepleasingandromanticanticipations。It”sliketheodorthatheraldsthedish。Youmustremember,mydear,thatyouhavesteppedoutoftheworldofdullrealityintotheworldofideals,ofdreams。”
  Thesoundoftwoharshvoices,onemale,theotherfemale,camefromwithinthecabin——oaths,reproaches。Heracquaintancelaughed。“That”soneonme——eh?Still,whatIsayistrue——oratleastoughttobe。Bytheway,thisistheBurlinghamFloatingPalaceofThespians,floatingtempletothehistrionicart。IamBurlingham——RobertBurlingham。”Hesmiled,extendedhishand。
  “Gladtomeetyou,MissLornaSackville——don”tforget!“
  Shecouldnotbutreflectasmilesogenuine,sogood-humored。
  “We”llgoinandmeettheothers——yourfellowstars——forthisisanall-staraggregation。”
  Overthebroadentrancetothecabinwasachintzcurtainstrunguponawire。Burlinghamdrewthisaside。Susanwaslookingintoaroomaboutthirtyfeetlong,abouttwelvefeetwide,andascantsixfeethigh。Acrossitwithanaislebetweenwerenarrowwoodenbencheswithbacks。Attheoppositeendwasastage,withthecurtainupandaportablestoveoccupyingthecenter。Atthestoveawomaninachemiseandunderskirt,withslippersonherbarefeet,wastoilingoverseveralpotsandpanswithforkandspoon。Attheedgeofthestage,withlegsswinging,satanotherwoman,inabluesailorsuitneitherfreshnornotablycleanbutsomehowcoquettish。Twomeninflannelshirtswereseated,oneoneachofthefrontbenches,withtheirbackstoher。
  AsBurlinghamwentdowntheaisleaheadofher,hecalledout:
  “Ladiesandgentlemen,Iwishtopresentthelatestvaluableadditiontoourcompany——MissLornaSackville,therenownedballadsinger。”
  ThetwomenturnedlazilyandstaredatSusan,eachwithanarmhangingoverthebackofthebench。
  Burlinghamlookedatthewomanbentoverthestove——afat,middle-agedwomanwiththin,taffy-yellowhairdonesleeklyoverabigratinfrontandmadeintoahugecoilbehindwiththeaidofoneormorefalsebraids。Shehadafatface,abroadexpanseofunpleasant-looking,elderlybosom,big,shapelesswhitearms。
  Hercontourwasalmostgone。Herteethwereacuriousmixtureofnatural,gold,andporcelain。“MissAnstruther——MissSackville,“
  calledBurlingham。“MissSackville,MissVioletAnstruther。”
  MissAnstrutherandSusanexchangedbows——Susan”stimidandfrightened,MissAnstruther”saccompaniedbyahostilestareandahardeningofthefat,decayingface。
  “MissConnemora——MissSackville。”Burlinghamwaslookingattheyoungerwoman——shewhosatontheedgeofthelittlestage。She,too,wasablond,butherhairhadtakentothechemicalsomewhatlessreluctantlythanhadMissAnstruther”s,withtheresultthatMissConnemora”slookedgolden。Herface——ofthebabytypemusthavebeensoftlyprettyatonetime——notsoverydistant。Nowlineswerecomingandthehardlookthatisinevitablewithdyedhair。Alsoheroncefineteethwererapidlygoingoff,ashalfadozengoldfillingsinfrontproclaimed。AtSusan”sappealinglookandsmileMissConnemoranoddednotunfriendly。
  “GoodGod,Bob,“saidshetoBurlinghamwithalaugh,“areyougoingtogetthebunchofuspinchedforchild-stealing?“
  Burlinghamstartedtolaugh,suddenlycheckedhimself,lookeduneasilyandkeenlyatSusan。“Oh,it”sallright,“hesaidwithawaveofthehand。Buthistonebeliedhiswords。Hepuffedtwiceathiscigar,thenintroducedthemen——ElbertEshwellandGregoryTempest——twoofthekindclearlyifinelegantlyplacedbythephrase,“greasyhamfats。”Mr。Eshwell”sblackdyedhairwassmoothlybrusheddownfromacentralpart,Mr。Tempest”siron-grayhairwasgreasilywild——adisarrayofromanticringlets。Eshwellwasinclinedtofat;Tempestwasgauntandhadthehollow,burningeyethatbespeaksthesentimentalass。
  “Now,MissSackville,“saidBurlingham,“we”llgoontheforwarddeckandcanvassthesituation。Whatfordinner,Vi?“
  “Sameoldrot,“retortedMissAnstruther,wipingthesweatfromherfaceandshoulderswithatowelthatservedalsoasadishcloth。“Porkandbeans——potatoes——peachpie。”
  “Cheerup,“saidBurlingham。“Aftertomorrowwe”lldobetter。”
  “That”sbeenthecryeversincewestarted,“snappedViolet。
  “ForGod”ssake,shutup,Vi,“groanedEshwell。“You”realwayskicking。”
  Thecabinwasnotquitethefullwidthofthebroadhouseboat。
  Alongtheoutside,betweeneachwallandtheedge,therewasroomforonepersontopassfromforwarddecktorear。Fromthecabinroof,overthereardeck,intothewaterextendedabigrudderoar。WhenSusan,followingBurlingham,reachedthereardeck,shesawthemanatthisoar——afat,amiable-lookingrascal,inlinseywoolseyandabluecheckedshirtopenoverhischestandrevealingamatofcurlygrayhair。BurlinghamhailedhimasPat——hisonlyknownname。ButSusanhadonlyaglanceforhimandnoearatallforthechaffingbetweenhimandtheactor-manager。ShewasgazingattheIndianashore,atatinyvillagesnuggledamongtreesandripenedfieldsclosetothewater”sedge。SheknewitwasBrooksburg。Sherememberedthelongcoveredbridgewhichtheyhadcrossed——Spenserandshe,onthehorse。Tothenorthofthetown,onaknoll,stoodalargeredbrickhousetrimmedwithwhiteverandaandbalconies——farandawaythemostpretentioushouseinthelandscape。Beforethedoorwasahorseandbuggy。Shecouldmakeoutthattherewereseveralpeopleonthefrontveranda,oneofthemamaninblack——thedoctor,nodoubt。Sobschokedupintoherthroat。SheturnedquicklyawaythatBurlinghammightnotsee。Andunderherbreathshesaid,“Good-by,dear。Forgiveme——forgiveme。”
  CHAPTERXIII
  WOMAN”Sworktable,arockingchairandanotherwithaswaybackthatmadeitfairlycomfortableforlounginggavethereardecktheairofanoutdoorsitting-room,whichindeeditwas。
  Burlingham,afteracomprehensiveglanceatthepanoramaofsummerandfruitfulnessthroughwhichtheyweredrifting,sprawledhimselfintheswaybackchair,indicatingtoSusanthatshewastofacehimintherocker。“Sitdown,mydear,“saidhe。
  “Andtellmeyouareatleasteighteenandarenotrunningawayfromhome。YouheardwhatMissConnemorasaid。”
  “I”mnotrunningawayfromhome,“repliedSusan,blushingviolentlybecauseshewasevadingastothemoreimportantfact。
  “Idon”tknowanythingaboutyou,andIdon”twanttoknow,“
  pursuedBurlingham,alarmedbytheevidencesofadangeroustendencytocandor。“I”venodesiretohavemyownpastduginto,andturnabout”sfairplay。Youcametometogetanengagement。Itookyou。Understand?“
  Susannodded。
  “Yousaidyoucouldsing——thatis,alittle。”
  “Averylittle,“saidthegirl。
  “Enough,nodoubt。Thathasbeenourweakpoint——lackofaballadsinger。Knowanyballads?——Notfancyones。Nothingfancy!
  Wecatertotheplainpeople,andtheplainpeopleonlylikethebest——thatis,thesimplest——thethingsthatreachfortheheartstringswithtenstrongfingers。Youdon”thappentoknow`IStoodontheBridgeatMidnight”?“
  “No——Ruthsingsthat,“repliedSusan,andcoloredviolently。
  Burlinghamignoredtheslip。“`BlueAlsatianMountains”?“
  “Yes。Butthat”sveryold。”
  “Exactly。Nothingisofanyusetothestageuntilit”sveryold。Audiencesattheatersdon”twantto_hear_anythingtheydon”talreadyknowbyheart。They”vecometo_see_,nottohear。
  Soitannoysthemtohavetotrytohear。Doyouunderstandthat?“
  “No,“confessedSusan。“I”msorry。ButI”llthinkaboutit,andtrytounderstandit。”Shethoughtshewasshowingherinabilitytodowhatwasexpectedofherinpayingbackthetwodollars。
  “Don”tbother,“saidBurlingham。“Pat!“
  “Yes,boss,“saidthemanattheoar,withoutlookingorremovinghispipe。
  “Getyourfiddle。”
  Pattiedtheoarfastandwentforwardalongtheroofofthecabin。WhilehewasgoneBurlinghamexplained,“Afrightfulsouse,Pat——almostequaltoEshwellandfarthesuperiorofTempestorVi——thatis,ofTempest。Buthe”ssteadyenoughforourpurposes,asarule。He”sthepilot,theorchestra,theman-of-all-work,thebilldistributor。Oh,he”sawonder。
  GraduateofTrinityCollege,Dublin——yeggman——panhandler——
  barrel-housebum——genius,nearly。Hasdrunkasmuchboozeasthereiswaterinthisriver——”
  Patwasbackbesidethehandleoftheoar,withaviolin。
  BurlinghamsuggestedtoSusanthatshe”dbetterstandwhileshesang,“andifyou”veanytendencytostagefright,rememberit”syourbreadandbuttertogetthroughwell。You”llnotbotheraboutyouraudience。”
  Susanfoundthisthoughtapotentstrengthener——thenandafterward。Withsurprisinglylittleembarrassmentshestoodbeforehergood-natured,sympatheticemployer,andwhilePatscrapedoutanaccompanimentsangthepatheticstoryofthe“maidenyoungandfair“andthe“strangerinthespring“who“lingerednearthefountainsjusttohearthemaidensing,“andhowhedepartedafterwinningherlove,andhow“shewillneverseethestrangerwherethefountainsfallagain——ade,ade,ade。”
  Hervoicewasdeliciouslyyoungandhadthepatheticqualitythatisneverabsentfromanythingwhichhasenduringcharmforus。TearswereinBurlingham”svoice——tearsforthefateofthemaiden,tearsofresponsetothehauntingpathosofSusan”ssweetcontralto,tearsofjoyattheacquisitionofsucha“number“
  forhisprogram。Ashervoicediedawayhebeathisplumphandstogetherenthusiastically。
  “She”lldo——eh,Pat?She”llsetthehay-tosserscrazy!“
  Susan”sheartwasbeatingfastfromnervousness。Shesatdown。
  Burlinghamsprangupandputhishandsonhershouldersandkissedher。Helaughedathershrinking。
  “Don”tmind,mydear,“hecried。“It”soneofourways。Now,whatothersdoyouknow?“
  Shetriedtorecall,andwithhisassistancefinallydiddiscoverthatshepossessedarepertoireof“goodoldstaleones,“consistingof“ComingThro”theRye,““SuwaneeRiver,“
  “AnnieLaurie“and“KathleenMavourneen。”Sheknewmanyothersongs,buteitherPatcouldnotplaythemorBurlinghamdeclaredthem“abovetheheadofReubtherotter。”
  “Thosefivearequiteenough,“saidBurlingham。“Tworegulars,twoencores,withathirdincaseofemergency。AfterdinnerMissAnstrutherandI”llfityououtwithacostume。You”llmakeahitatSutherlandtonight。”
  “Sutherland!“exclaimedSusan,suddenlypale。“Ican”tsingthere——really,Ican”t。”
  BurlinghammadeasignificantgesturetowardPatattheoarabovethem,andwinkedather。“You”llnothavestagefright,mydear。You”llpullthrough。”
  SusanunderstoodthatnothingmorewastobesaidbeforePat。
  SoonBurlinghamtoldhimtotietheoaragainandretiretothecabin。“I”llstandwatch,“saidhe。“IwanttotalkbusinesswithMissSackville。”
  WhenPathadgone,Burlinghamgaveherasympatheticlook。“Noconfidences,mindyou,mydear,“hewarned。“AllIwanttoknowisthatitisn”tstagefrightthat”skeepingyouofftheprogramatSutherland。”
  “No,“repliedthegirl。“Itisn”tstagefright。I”m——I”msorryIcan”tbeginrightawaytoearnthemoneytopayyouback。
  But——Ican”t。”
  “Noteveninavelvetandspanglecostume——Lowneck,shortsleeves,withblondwigandpaintandpowder?You”llnotknowyourself,mydear——really。”
  “Icouldn”t,“saidSusan。“I”dnotbeabletoopenmylips。”
  “Verywell。That”ssettled。”ItwasevidentthatBurlinghamwasdeeplydisappointed。“WeweregoingtotrytomakeakillingatSutherland。”Hesighed。“However,letthatpass。Ifyoucan”t,youcan”t。”
  “I”mafraidyou”reangrywithme,“criedshe。
  “I——angry!“Helaughed。“I”venotbeenangryintenyears。I”msucha_damn_,damnfoolthatwithalltheknockslife”sgivenmeIhaven”tlearnedmuch。ButatleastI”velearnednottogetangry。No,Iunderstand,mydear——andwillsaveyouforthenexttownbelow。”Heleanedforwardandgaveherhandsafatherlypatastheylayinherlap。“Don”tgiveitasecondthought,“hesaid。“We”vegotthewholelengthoftheriverbeforeus。”
  Susanshowedhergratitudeinherfacebetterfarthanshecouldhaveexpresseditinwords。Thetwosatsilent。Whenshesawhiseyesuponherwiththatlookofsmilingwonderinthem,shesaid,“Youmustn”tthinkI”vedoneanythingdreadful。I
  haven”t——really,Ihaven”t。”
  Helaughedheartily。“Andifyouhad,you”dnotneedtohangyourheadinthiscompany,mydear。We”reallpeoplewhohave_lived_——andlifeisn”texactlyaclassmeetingwiththeelderstakingturnsatprayingandtheorganwheezingoutgospelhymns。
  No,we”veallbeenupagainstitmostofourlives——whichmeanswe”vedonethebestwecouldoftenerthanwe”vehadthechancetodowhatweought。”Hegaveheroneofhiskeenlooks,nodded:
  “Ilikeyou……Whatdotheytelloftenestwhenthey”retalkingabouthowyouwereasababy?“
  Susandidnotpuzzleoverthequeernessofthisabruptquestion。
  Shefelltosearchinghermemorydiligentlyforananswer。“I”mnotsure,butIthinktheyspeakoftenestofhowIneverusedtolikeanybodytotakemyhandandhelpmealong,evenwhenIwasbarelyabletowalk。TheysayIalwaysinsistedontrudgingalongbymyself。”
  Burlinghamnodded,slappedhisknee。“Icanbelieveit,“hecried。“IalwaysaskeverybodythatquestiontoseewhetherI”vesited”emupright。IratherthinkIhityouofftoaT——asyoufacedmeatdinneryesterdayinthehotel。Speakingofdinner——let”sgositinontheoneIsmell。”
  Theyreturnedtothecabinwhere,tomakeatable,aboardhadbeenswungbetweenthebacksofthesecondandthirdbenchesfromthefrontontheleftsideoftheaisle。Thusthethreemensatonthefrontbenchwiththeirlegsthrustthroughbetweenseatandback,whilethethreewomensatindignityandcomfortonthefourthbench。SusanthoughtthedinnerbynomeansjustifiedMissAnstruther”spessimism。Itwasgoodinitself,andthebetterforbeinginthishappy-go-luckyway,inthishappy-go-luckycompany。Oncetheygotstarted,allthegrouchinessdisappeared。Susan,youngandoptimisticanddeterminedtobepleased,soonbecameaccustomedtothelooksofhernewcompanions——thatmatterofmereexterioraboutwhichweshallowsurface-skimmersmakesuchamightyfuss,thoughinthetestsituationsoflife,greatandsmall,itamountstopreciouslittle。Theywereallhumanbeings,andthegirlwasunspoiled,didnotthinkofthemasfailures,half-wolves,ofnosocialposition,ofnostandingintherespectableworld。Shestillhadmuchofthenaturaldemocracyofchildren,andsheadmiredthesenewfriendswhoknewsomuchmorethanshedid,whohadlived,hadsuffered,hadcomeawayfromhorriblebattlescoveredwithwounds,thescarsofwhichtheywouldbearintothegrave——battlestheyhadlost;yettheyhadnotgivenup,buthadlivedon,smiling,courageous,kindofheart。Itwastheirkindheartsthatmostimpressedher——theirkindtakinginofherwhomthoseshelovedhadcastout——her,theunknownstranger,helplessandignorant。AndwhatSpenserhadtoldheraboutthestageanditspeoplemadeheralmostbelievethattheywouldnotcastherout,thoughtheyknewthedreadfultruthaboutherbirth。
  Tempesttoldastorythatwas“broad。”Whiletheotherslaughed,Susangazedathimwithapuzzledexpression。Shewishedtobepolite,toplease,toenjoy。Butwhatthatstorymeantshecouldnotfathom。MissAnstrutherjeeredather。“Lookattheinnocent,“shecried。
  “Shutup,Vi,“retortedMissConnemora。“It”snouseforustotrytobeanythingbutwhatweare。Still,letthebabyalone。”
  “Yes——letheralone,“saidBurlingham。
  “It”llsoakinsoonenough,“MissConnemorawenton。“Nouserubbingitin。”
  “What?“saidSusan,thinkingtoshowherdesiretobefriendly,tobeoneofthem。
  “Dirt,“saidBurlinghamdryly。“Anddon”taskanymorequestions。”
  Whenthethreewomenhadclearedawaythedinnerandhadstowedthedishesinoneofthemanycubbyholesalongthesidesofthecabin,thethreemengotreadyforanap。Susanwasdelightedtoseethemdroptothetopsofthebacksoftheseatsthreeberthswhichfittedsnuglyintothewallswhennotinuse。Shesawnowthattherewerefiveothersofthesamekind,andthattherewasacontrivanceofwiresandcurtainsbywhicheachberthcouldbeshutofftoitself。ShehadathrillingsenseofbeinginakindofSwissFamilyRobinsonstorybookcometolife。Sheunpackedherbag,contributedthefoodinittothecommonstore,spreadouthersergesuitwhichMissAnstrutherofferedtopressandinsistedonpressing,thoughSusanprotestedshecoulddoitherselfquitewell。
  “You”llwanttoputitonforthearrivalatSutherland,“saidMabelConnemora。
  “No,“repliedSusannervously。“Nottilltomorrow。”
  Shesawthecuriouslookinalltheireyesatsightofthatdress,sodifferentfromthecalicoshewaswearing。Mabeltookheroutontheforwarddeckwheretherewasanawningandagoodbreeze。Theysatthere,Mabeltalking,Susangazingraptatlandandwaterandattheactress,andlisteningastoafairystory——fortheactresshadlivedthroughmanyandstrangeexperiencesinthetenyearssincesheleftherfather”sroofinColumbia,SouthCarolina。Susanlistenedandabsorbedasadryspongedroppedintoapailofwater。Atherleisureshewouldthinkitallout,wouldunderstand,wouldlearn。
  “Now,tell_me_about_your_self,“saidMabelwhenshehadexhaustedallthereminiscencesshecouldrecallatthemoment——allthatwerefitfora“baby”s“ears。
  “Iwill,sometime,“saidSusan,whowasreadyforthequestion。
  “ButIcan”t——notyet。”
  “Itseemstomeyou”reveryinnocent,“saidMabel,“evenforawell-brought-upgirl。_I_waswellbroughtup,too。IwishtoGodmymotherhadtoldmeafewthings。Butno——notathing。”
  “Whatdoyoumean?“inquiredSusan。