“Why,howcouldyougettoCincinnati?“hesaid。“Youhaven”tanymoney。”
“I”veatwenty-dollargoldpieceUnclegavemeasakeepsake。
AndI”vegotseventeendollarsinothermoney,andseveraldollarsinchange,“explainedshe。“I”vegottwohundredandforty-threedollarsandfiftycentsinthebank,butIcan”tgetthat——notnow。They”llsendittomewhenIfindaplaceandamsettledandletthemknow。”
“Youcan”tdoit,Susie!Youcan”tandyoumustn”t。”
“Ifyouknewwhattheysaidtome!Oh,I_couldn”t_stay,Sam。
I”vegotsomeofmyclothes——alittlebundlebehindthefrontdoor。AssoonasI”msettledI”llletyouknow。”
Asilence,thenhe,hesitatingly,“Don”tyou——doyou——hadn”tI
bettergowithyou?“
Shethrilledatthisgenerosity,thisnewproofoflove。Butshesaid:“No,Iwouldn”tletyoudothat。They”dblameyou。AndI
wantthemtoknowit”sallmyowndoing。”
“You”reright,Susie,“saidtheyoungman,relievedandemphatic。“IfIwentwithyou,it”donlygetbothofusintodeepertrouble。”Againsilence,withSamfeelingakindofaweashestudiedtheresolute,mysteriousprofileofthegirl,whichhecouldnowseeclearly。Atlasthesaid:“Andafteryougetthere,Susie——whatwillyoudo?“
“Findaboardinghouse,andthenlookforaplace。”
“Whatkindofaplace?“
“Inastore——ormakingdresses——oranykindofsewing。OrI
coulddohousework。”
Theseximpulseisprolificofgenerousimpulses。He,sittingsoclosetoherandbreathinginthroughhisskintheemanationsofheryoungmagnetism,wasmovedtothedepthsbythepictureherwordsconjured。Thisbeautifulgirl,amerechild,bornandbredintheladyclass,wanderingawaypennilessandalone,tobeapreytotheworld”sbuffetingswhich,severeenoughinreality,seemsavagebeyondendurancetothechildrenofwealth。
Ashepicturedithisheartimpulsivelyexpanded。Itwasathislipstooffertomarryher。Buthisrealself——andone”srealselfisvastlydifferentfromone”simpulses——hisrealselfforbadethewordspassage。Noteventheseximpulse,intoxicatinghimasitthenwas,coulddethronesnobbishcalculation。Hewasyoung;sowhilehedidnotspeak,hefeltashamedofhimselffornotspeaking。Hefeltthatshemustbeexpectinghimtospeak,thatshehadtherighttoexpectit。Hedrewalittleawayfromher,andkeptsilent。
“Thetimewillsoonpass,“saidsheabsently。
“Thetime?Thenyouintendtocomeback?“
“Imeanthetimeuntilyou”rethroughcollegeandwecanbetogether。”
Shespokeasonespeaksofadreamastowhichonehasneveradoubtbutthatitwillcometrue。Itwassopreposterous,thisideathathewouldmarryher,especiallyaftershehadbeenaservantorGodknowswhatforseveralyears——itwassoabsurdthatheburstintoasweatofnervousterror。Andhehastilydrewfurtheraway。
Shefeltthechange,forshewasofthosewhoarebornsensitive。Butshewasfartooyoungandinexperiencedtohavelearnedtointerpretarightthesubtlewarningofthenerves。
“Youaredispleasedwithme?“sheaskedtimidly。
“No——Oh,no,Susie,“hestammered。“I——Iwasthinking。Doputoffgoingforadayortwo。There”snoneedofhurrying。”
Butshefeltthatbydisobeyingherauntandcomingdowntoseehimshehadforfeitedtherighttoshelterunderthatroof。“I
can”tgoback,“saidshe。“There”sareason。”Shewouldnottellhimthereason;itwouldmakehimfeelasifheweretoblame。
“WhenIgetaplaceinCincinnati,“shewenton,“I”llwritetoyou。”
“Nothere,“heobjected。“Thatwouldn”tdoatall。No,sendmealinetotheGibsonHouseinCincinnati,givingmeyouraddress。”
“TheGibsonHouse,“sherepeated。“I”llnotforgetthatname。
GibsonHouse。”
“Senditassoonasyougetaplace。ImaybeinCincinnatisoon。Butthisisallnonsense。You”renotgoing。You”dbeafraid。”
Shelaughedsoftly。“Youdon”tknowme。NowthatI”vegottogo,I”mglad。”
Andherealizedthatshewasnottalkingtogiveherselfcourage,thatherwordswereliterallytrue。Thismadehimadmireher,andfearher,too。Theremustbesomethingwildandunwomanlyinhernature。“Iguesssheinheritsitfromhermother——andperhapsherfather,whoeverhewas。”Probablyshewassimplydoingalittleearlywhatshe”dhavebeensuretodosoonerorlater,nomatterwhathadhappened。Onthewhole,itwasjustaswellthatshewasgoing。“IcantakeheronEastinthefall。Assoonasshehasalittleknowledgeoftheworldshe”llnotexpectmetomarryher。Shecangetsomethingtodo。
I”llhelpher。”Andnowhefeltinconceitwithhimselfagain——
feltthathewasgoingtobeagood,generousfriendtoher。
“Perhapsyou”llbebetteroff——onceyougetstarted,“saidhe。
“Idon”tseehowIcouldbeworseoff。Whatisthereherefor_me_?“
Hewonderedatthegoodsenseofthisfromamerechild。Itwasmostunlikelythatanymanoftheclassshehadbeenbroughtupinwouldmarryher;andhowcouldsheenduremarriagewithamanoftheclassinwhichshemightpossiblyfindahusband?Asforreputation——
She,anillegitimatechild,nevercouldhaveareputation,atleastnotsolongasshehadherlooks。Aftersupper,tokilltime,hehaddroppedinatWillett”sdrugstore,wheretheyoungfellowsloafedandgossipedintheevenings;allthetimehewastheretheconversationhadbeenmadeupofslydigsandhintsaboutgraveyardtrysts,eachthrustcausingthekindoflaughterthatisthewakeoftheprurientandtheobscene。Yes,shewasright。Therecouldbe“nothinginit“forherinSutherland。Hewasfilledwithpityforher。“Poorchild!Whatashame!“Theremustbesomethingwrongwithaworldthatpermittedsuchiniquities。
Theclockstrucktwelve。“Youmustgo,“shesaid。“Sometimestheboatcomesasearlyashalf-past。”Andshestoodup。
Ashefacedherthegenerousimpulsesurgedagain。Hecaughtherinhisarms,shenotresisting。Hekissedheragainandagain,murmuringdisconnectedwordsofendearmentandfightingbacktheoffertomarryher。“Imustn”t!Imustn”t!“hesaidtohimself。
“What”dbecomeofus?“Ifhispassionshadbeenasvirgin,asinexperienced,ashers,nopowercouldhaveheldhimfromgoingwithherandmarryingher。Butexperiencehadtaughthimtheabysmaldifferencebetweenbeforeandafter;andhefoundstrengthtobesensible,evenintheheightofhispassionatelongingforher。
Sheclaspedherarmsabouthisneck。“Oh,mydearlove!“shemurmured。“I”ddoanythingforyou。IfeelthatyoulovemeasIloveyou。”
“Yes——yes。”Andhepressedhislipstohers。Aninstantandshedrewaway,shakingandpanting。Hetriedtoclaspheragain,butshewouldnothaveit。“Ican”tstandit!“hemurmured。“Imustgowithyou——Imust!“
“No!“shereplied。“Itwouldn”tdounlesswewerereallymarried。”Wistfully,“Andwecan”tbethatyet——canwe?Thereisn”tanyway?“
Hispassioncooledinstantly。
“Thereisn”tanyway,“hesaidregretfully。“I”dnotdaretellmyfather。”
“Yes,wemustwaittillyou”reofage,andhaveyoureducation,andarefree。Then——”Shedrewalongbreath,lookedathimwithabravesmile。Thelargemoonwasshininguponthem。“We”llthinkofthat,andnotletourselvesbeunhappy——won”twe?“
“Yes,“hesaid。“ButImustgo。”
“Iforgotfortheminute。Good-by,dearest。”Sheputupherlips。Hekissedher,butwithoutpassionnow。
“Youmightgowithmeasfarasthewharf,“shesuggested。
“No——someonemightsee——andthatwouldruineverything。I”dliketo——I”d——”
“Itwouldn”tdo,“sheinterrupted。“Iwouldn”tletyoucome。”
Withsuddenagitationshekissedhim——hefeltthatherlipswerecold。Hepressedherhands——they,too,werecold。“Good-by,mydarling,“hemurmured,vaultedlightlyovertherailanddisappearedinthedeepshadowsoftheshrubbery。Whenhewasclearofthegroundshepausedtolightacigarette。Hishandwasshakingsothatthematchalmostdroppedfromhisfingers。
“I”vebeenmakingadamnfoolofmyself,“hesaidhalfaloud。“A
doubledamnfool!I”vegottostopthattalkaboutmarrying,somehow——orkeepawayfromher。ButIcan”tkeepaway。I_must_
haveher!Whyinthedevilcan”tsherealizethatamaninmypositioncouldn”tmarryher?Ifitwasn”tforthismarryingtalk,I”dmakeherhappy。I”vesimplygottostopthismarryingtalk。Itgetsworseandworse。”
Hercalmnessdeceivedherintothinkingherselfperfectlysaneandsober,perfectlyawareofwhatshewasabout。Shehadleftherhatandherbundlebehindthedoor。Sheputonthehatinthedarknessofthehallwithsteadyfingers,tookupthewell-filledshawlstrapandwentforth,closingthedoorbehindher。Inthemorningtheywouldfindthedoorunlockedbutthatwouldnotcausemuchtalk,asSutherlandpeoplewereallrathercarelessaboutlockingup。Theywouldnotknockatthedoorofherroomuntilnoon,perhaps。Thentheywouldfindonthepincushionthelettershehadwrittentoheruncle,sayinggood-byandexplainingthatshehaddecidedtoremoveforeverthetaintofhermotherandherselffromtheirhouseandtheirlives——asomewhattheatricalletter,modeleduponOuida,whomshethoughtthegreatestwriterthathadeverlived,VictorHugoandtwoorthreepoetsperhapsexcepted。
Herbundlewasnotlight,butshehardlyfeltitasshemovedswiftlythroughthedeserted,moonlitstreetstowardtheriver。
ThewharfboatfortheCincinnatiandLouisvillemailsteamerswasanchoredatthefootofPineStreet。Ontheleveebeforeitwerepiledtheboxes,bags,cases,crates,barrelstobeloadeduponthe“upboat。”Shewasdescendingthegentleslopetowardthismassoffreightwhenherbloodtingledatadeep,hoarse,mournfulwhistlefromfaraway;sheknewitwastheupboat,roundingthebendandsightingthetown。ThesoundechoedmusicallybackandforthbetweentheKentuckyandtheIndianabluffs,diedlingeringlyaway。Againthewhistleboomed,againthedarkforest-cladsteepssenttheechoestoandfroacrossthebroadsilverriver。Andnowshecouldseethesteamer,atthebend——adarkmasspickedoutwithbrilliantdotsoflight;thebigfunnels,thetwothickpennantsofblacksmoke。Andshecouldhearthefaintpleasantstrokeofthepaddlesofthebigsidewheelsuponthewater。
Atthewharfboattherehadnotbeenasignoflife。Butwiththedyingawayofthesecondwhistlelights——thelightsoflanterns——appearedontheleveeclosetothewater”sedgeandonthewharfboatitself。And,behindher,thedoorsoftheSutherlandHotelopenedanditsofficelitup,inpreparationforanychancearrivals。Sheturnedabruptlyoutofthebeatenpathdownthegravellevee,madefortheloweranddarkerendofthewharfboat。TherewouldbeSutherlandpeoplegoinguptheriver。Buttheywouldbemorethanprompt;everyonecameearlytoboatsandtrainstobeginthesweetdraughtoftheexcitementofjourneying。Soshewouldwaitinthedarknessandgoaboardwhenthesteamerwasabouttodrawinitsplanks。Attheupperendofthewharfboattherewasthebroadgangwaytotheleveeforpassengersandfreight;attheloweranddarkanddesertedendanarrowbeamextendedfromboattoshore,toholdtheboatsteady。Susan,balancingherselfwithherbundle,wentuptothebeam,satdownuponalowstanchioninthedarknesswhereshecouldseetheriver。
Louderandloudergrewtheregularmusicalbeatofengineandpaddle。Thesearchlightontheforwarddeckofthe_GeneralLytle_,afterpeeringuncertainly,suspiciously,attheentirelevee,andattheriver,andattheKentuckyshore,abruptlyfocuseduponthewharfboat。The_GeneralLytle_nowseemedablazeoflights——fromlowerdeck,fromsaloondeck,frompilothousedeck,andforwardandastern。Ahundredinterestingsoundscamefromher——tinklingofbells,callsfromdecktodeck,whistling,creakingofpulleys,lowingofcattle,gruntingofswine,plaintofagitatedsheep,theresignedcluckingsofmanychickens。Alongtherailofthemiddleorsaloondeckwereseatedafewpassengerswhohadnotyetgonetobed。Onthelowerdeckwasaswarmofblackroustabouts,theirsootyanimalfaces,theiruncannilycontrastingwhiteteethandeyeballs,theirstrangeandvariedragslitupbythetorchesblazingwhereagangplanklayreadyforrunningout。AndhighandclearinthelovelyJunenightsailedthemoon,spreadingafaintbenignlightuponhillsandshoresandglisteningriver,uponthegraceful,statelymailsteamer,nowadvancingmajesticallyuponthewharfboat。Susanwatchedall,sawall,withquickbeatingheartandquiveringinterest。Itwasthefirsttimethatherlifehadbeenvisitedbythefascinatingsenseofevent,realevent。Thetall,proud,impetuouschild-woman,standinginthesemi-darknessbesideherbundle,wasabouttocastherstakeuponthetableinaboldgamewithDestiny。Hereyesshonewiththewonderfulexpressionthatisseenonlywhencouragegazesintothebrightfaceofdanger。
Thesteamertouchedtheedgeofthewharf-boatwithgentlecare;
thewharf-boatswayedandgroaned。Evenasthegangplankswerepushingout,theragged,fantasticroustabouts,withwild,savage,hilariouscries,ranandjumpedandscrambledtothewharf-boatlikeabandofescapinglunaticsanddarteddownitsshoreplankstopounceuponthepilesoffreight。Themate,atthesteameredgetosuperintendtheloading,andthewharfmasterontheleveebesidethefreightreleasedeachahoarsetorrentofprofanitytospurontheyelling,laughingroustabouts,morebrutethanman。Torchesflared;cowandsheep,pigandchicken,utteredeachitsowncryofdissatisfactionordismay;themateandwharfmastercursedbecauseitwasthecustomtocurse;theroustaboutsrushedashoreempty-handed,camefilingback,stoopingundertheirburdens。Itwasasceneofanimation,ofexcitement,savage,grotesque,fascinating。
Susan,tremblingalittle,sotensewerehernerves,waiteduntilthelaststrugglingroustaboutswerestaggeringontheboat,untilthedeepwhistlesounded,warningofapproachingdeparture。Thenshetookupherbundleandputherselfinthelineofroustabouts,betweenahalf-nakednegro,blackascoalandbearingasmallbarrelofbeer,andahalf-nakedmulattobearingabundleofloud-smellinguntannedskins。“Getoutoftheway,lady!“yelledthemate,eagerlyseizinguponanewtextforhisdenunciations。“Getoutoftheway,youblackhellions!
Lettheladypass!Lookout,lady!Youdamnedsonsofhell,what”reyouabout!I”llripoutyourbowels——”
Susanfledacrossthedeckanddartedupthestairstothesaloon。Thesteamerwasallwhitewithoutexcepttheblackmetalwork。Within——thatis,inthelongsaloonoutofwhichthecabinsopenedtorightandleftandinwhichthemealswereservedatextensiontables——therewasthepalatialsplendorofwhiteandgilt。Attheforwardendnearthemainentrancewastheoffice。Susan,peeringinfromthedarknessofthedeck,sawthatthewaywasclear。TheSutherlandpassengershadbeenaccommodated。Sheentered,putherbundledown,facedtheclerkbehindthedesk。
“Why,howdy,MissLenox,“saidhegenially,beginningtotwisthisnarrow,carefullyattendedblondmustache。“Anyofthefolkswithyou?“
Sherememberedhisfacebutnothisname。Sherememberedhimasoneofthe“rivercharacters“regardedasoutcastbytheChristianrespectabilityofSutherland。Butshewhocouldnotbutbepolitetoeverybodysmiledpleasantly,thoughshedidnotlikehisexpressionashelookedather。“No,I”malone,“saidshe。
“Oh——yourfriendsaregoingtomeetyouatthewharfinthemorning,“saidhe,contentwithhisownexplanation。“Justsignhere,please。”And,asshewrote,hewenton:“I”vegotoneroomleft。Ain”tthatlucky?It”saniceone,too。You”llbeverycomfortable。Everybodyathomewell?Iain”tbeeninSutherlandfornightenyears。EveryweekorsoIthinkIwill,andthensomehowIdon”t。Here”syourkey——number34right-handside,welldowntowardthefarend,yonder。Twodollars,please。Thankyou——exactlyright。Hopeyousleepwell。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusan。
Sheturnedawaywiththekeywhichwasthrustthroughoneendofastickaboutafootlong,tomakeittoobulkyforabsent-mindedpassengerstopocket。Shetookupherbundle,walkeddownthelongsaloonwithitsgiltdecorations,itscrystalchandeliers,itsdoublearrayofsmalldoors,eachnumbered。Theclerklookedafterher,admirationofthefinecurveofhershoulders,back,andhipswrittenplainuponhisinsignificantfeatures。Anditwasafreeadmirationhewouldnothavedaredshowhadshenotbeenadaughterofillegitimacy——agirlwhosemother”s“looseness“raisedpleasingifscandaloussuggestionsandevenpossibilitiesinthemindofeverymanwithacarnaleye。Andnotunnaturally。Tothinkofherwastothinkofthecircumstancessurroundinghercomingintotheworld;andtothinkofthosecircumstanceswastothinkofimmorality。
Susan,allunconsciousofthatpollutedandimpudentgaze,wassoonstandingbeforethenarrowdoornumbered34,asshebarelymadeout,forthelampsinthesaloonchandelierswereturnedlow。Sheunlockedit,enteredthesmallcleanstateroomanddepositedherbundleonthefloor。Withjustaglanceatherquartersshehurriedtotheoppositedoor——theonegivinguponthepromenade。Sheopenedit,steppedout,crossedthedeserteddeckandstoodattherail。
The_GeneralLytle_wasdrawingslowlyawayfromthewharf-boat。
Asthatpartofthepromenadehappenedtobeshelteredfromthesteamer”slights,shewasseeingthepanoramaofSutherland——itslongstretchofshadedwaterfront,itscupolasandsteeples,thewideleafystreetsleadingstraightfromtheriverbyagentleslopetothebaseofthedarktoweringbluffsbehindthetown——allsleepinginpeaceandbeautyinthesoftlightofthemoon。Thatfarthestcupolatotheleft——itwastheNumberTwoenginehouse,andthethirdplacefromitwasheruncle”shouse。
Slowlythesteamer,nowinmid-stream,drewawayfromthetown。
Onebyonethefamiliarlandmarks——thepackinghouse,thesoapfactory,theGeissbrewery,thetallchimneyofthepumpingstation,theshorntopofReservoirHill——slippedghostlilyawaytothesouthwest。Thesobschokedupintoherthroatandthetearsrainedfromhereyes。Theyallpitiedandlookeddownonherthere;still,ithadbeenhometheonlyhomesheeverhadknownoreverwouldknow。Anduntiltheselastfewfrightfuldays,howhappyshehadbeenthere!Forthefirsttimeshefeltdesolate,weak,afraid。Butnotdaunted。Itisstrangetoseeinstronghumancharacterthestrengthandtheweakness,twoflatcontradictions,existingsidebysideandmakingweakwhatseemssostrongandmakingstrongwhatseemssoweak。However,humancharacterisatangleofinconsistencies,asdisorderlyandinchoateasthetangibleandvisiblepartsofnature。Susanfeltweak,butnotthekindofweaknessthatskulks。Andtherelaythedifference,theabysmaldifference,betweencourageandcowardice。Couragehasfullasmuchfearascowardice,oftenmore;butithasasomethingelsethatcowardicehasnot。Ittremblesandshiversbutgoesforward。
Wipinghereyesshewentbacktoherowncabin。Shehadneglectedclosingitsotherdoor,theonefromthesaloon。Theclerkwasstandingsmirkinginthedoorway。
“Youmustbegoingawayforquitesometime,“saidhe。Andhefixeduponherasgreedyandimpudenteyesaseverlookedfromacommonface。Itwashisbattleglance。Guilefulwomen,bentontrimminghimforanythingfromapieceofplatedjewelrytoasauceroficecream,hadledhimtobelievethatbeforeitwallsofvirtuetotteredandfelllikeJericho”sbeforethetrumpetsofJoshua。
“Itmakesmealittlehomesicktoseetheoldtowndisappear,“
hastilyexplainedSusan,recoveringherself。Theinstantanyonewaswatching,heremotionsalwayshid。
“Wouldn”tyouliketositoutondeckawhile?“pursuedtheclerk,bringingupawinningsmiletoreinforcethefetchingstare。
Theideawasattractive,forshedidnotfeellikesleep。Itwouldbefinetositoutintheopen,watchthemoonandthestars,themysteriousbanksglidingswiftlyby,andnewvistasalwayswideningoutahead。Butnotwiththispuny,sandylittle“rivercharacter,“notwithanybodythatnight。“No,“repliedshe。“IthinkI”llgotobed。”
Shehadhesitated——andthatwasenoughtogivehimencouragement。“Now,docome,“heurged。“Youdon”tknowhowniceitis。AndtheysayI”mmightygoodcompany。”
“No,thanks。”Susannoddedapleasantdismissal。
Theclerklingered。“Can”tIhelpyouinsomeway?Wouldn”tyoulikemetogetyousomething?“
“No——nothing。”
“GoingtovisitinCincinnati?IknowthetownfromAtoIzzard。
It”salotoffunovertheRhine。I”vehadmightygoodtimesthere——thekindapretty,livelygirllikeyouwouldtaketo。”
“WhendowegettoCincinnati?“
“Abouteight——maybehalf-pastseven。Dependsonthelandingswehavetomake,andthefreight。”
“ThenI”llnothavemuchtimeforsleep,“saidSusan。“Goodnight。”Andnomorerealizingthecoldnessofhermannerthanthereasonforhishangingabout,shefacedhim,handonthedoortocloseit。
“Youain”tabitfriendly,“wheedledhe。
“I”msorryyouthinkso。Goodnight——andthankyou。”Andhecouldnotbutwithdrawhisformfromthedoor。Shecloseditandforgothim。Andshedidnotdreamshehadpassedthroughoneofthoseperilousadventuresincidenttoafemaletravelingalone——adventuresthateveninthetellingfrightenladieswhosenervousnessfortheirsafetyseemstoincreaseindirectproportiontothedegreeoftranquillitytheircharmscreateinthemalebosom。Shedecideditwouldbeunwiseregularlytoundress;theboatmightcatchfireorblowuporsomething。Shetookoffskirt,hatandties,loosenedherwaist,andlayuponthelowerofthetwoplain,hardlittleberths。Thethroboftheengines,thebeatofthehugepaddles,madethewholeboattrembleandshiver。Faintlyupfrombelowcamethesoundofquarrelsovercrap-shooting,ofbanjosandsinging——fromtheroustaboutsamusingthemselvesbetweenlandings。Shethoughtshewouldnotbeabletosleepinthesenovelandexcitingsurroundings。Shehadhardlycomposedherselfbeforeshelostconsciousness,tosleeponandondreamlessly,withoutmotion。
CHAPTERVII
SHEwasawakenedbyacrashsouproariousthatshesatboltuprightbeforeshehadhereyesopen。Herheadstruckstunninglyagainstthebottomoftheupperberth。Thisfurtherconfusedherthoughts。Sheleapedfromthebed,caughtupherslippers,reachedforheropened-upbundle。Thecrashwasstillbillowingthroughtheboat;shenowrecognizeditasagreatgongsoundingforbreakfast。Shesatdownonthebedandrubbedherheadandlaughedmerrily。“I_am_agreenhorn!“shesaid。“AnotherminuteandI”dhavehadthewholeboatlaughingatme。”
Shefeltrestedandhungry——ravenouslyhungry。Shetuckedinherblouse,washedaswellasshecouldinthetinybowlonthelittlewashstand。Thenbeforethecloudywatermarkedmirrorshearrangedherscarcelymussedhair。Acharmingvisionoffreshyoungloveliness,strong,erect,healthy,brightofeyeandofcheek,shemadeas,afterafurtivelookupanddownthesaloon,shesteppedfromherdooraveryfewminutesafterthecrashofthatgong。Withmuchscufflingandbustlingthepassengers,mostofthemcountrypeople,werehurryingintoplacesatthetableswhichnowhadtheirextensionleavesandwerecoveredwithcoarsewhitetableclothsandwithdishesofnickedstoneware,white,indeed,butshabbilyso。ButSusan”syoungeyeswerenotcritical。Toheritallseemedfine,withtherichflavorofadventure。Amoreexperiencedtravelermighthavebeenfilledwithgloomyforebodingbythequalityoftheodorfromthecooking。Shefounditdelightfulandsympathizedwiththeunrestrainedeagernessofthehomelycountryfacesabouther,withthechildrenbeatingtheirspoonsontheiremptyplates。
Thecoloredwaiterspresentlybegantostreamin,eachwearingasoiledwhitejacket,eachbearingaloftahugetrayonwhichwerestackedfilleddishesandsteamingcups。
Coloredpeoplehaveakeeninstinctforclass。Oneofthewaitershappenedtonoteher,advancedbowingandsmilingwiththatgood-humored,unservilecourtesywhichisthepeculiarpossessionoftheAmericanizedcoloredrace。Heflourishedherintoachairwitha“Goodmorning,miss。It”sgoingtobeafineday。”Andassoonasshewasseatedhebegantoformroundherplatealargeinclosingarcofsidedishes——friedfish,friedsteak,friedegg,friedpotatoes,wheatcakes,cannedpeaches,acupofcoffee。Hedrewtowardheracanofsyrup,apitcherofcream,andabowlofgranulatedsugar。
“Anythingelse?“saidhe,withashowofteethwhiteandsound。
“No——nothing。Thankyousomuch。”
Hersmilestimulatedhimtofurthercourtesies。“Somelikestheyeggsbiled。ShallIchange”em?“
“No。Ilikethemthisway。”Shewassohungrythattheideaoftakingawayacertaintyonthechanceofgettingsomethingoutofsightandnotyetcookeddidnotattracther。
“Perhaps——alittlebetterpieceofsteak?“
“No——thislooksfine。”Herenthusiasmwasnotmerepoliteness。
“Icleanforgotyourhotbiscuits。”Andawayhedarted。
Whenhecamebackwithaheapingplateofhotbiscuits,SallyLunnandcornbread,shewaseatingasheartilyasanyofherneighbors。Itseemedtoherthatneverhadshetastedsuchgrandfoodasthisservedinthewhiteandgoldsaloonwithstrangenessandinterestallaboutherandthedelightfulsenseofmotion——motionintothefascinatinggoldenunknown。Themenatthetablewereeatingwiththeirknives;eachhadoneprotectingforearmandhandcastroundhisarcofsmalldishesasiftowardoffprobableattemptatseizure。Andtheyswallowedasiftheboatwereafire。Thewomenatemoredaintily,asbecamemembersofthefinersexonpublicexhibition。Theywerewearingfingerlessnetgloves,andtheirlittlefingersstoodstraightoutinthatgesturewhicheverytrulyelegantwomandeemsnecessaryifthefoodistobedaintilyandartisticallyconveyedtoherlips。Thechildrenmussedandgormedthemselves,theirdishes,thetablecloth。
Susanloveditall。Hereyessparkled。Sheateeverything,andregrettedthatlackofcapacitymadeitimpossibleforhertoyieldtotheentreatiesofherwaiterthatshe“havealittlemore。”
Sherose,wentintothenearestpassagewaybetweensaloonandpromenade,stealthilytookaten-centpiecefromherpocketbook。
Shecalledherwaiterandgaveittohim。Shewasblushingdeeply,frightenedlestthisthefirsttipshehadevergivenorseengivenbemisunderstoodandrefused。“I”msomuchobliged,“
shesaid。“Youwereverynice。”
Thewaiterbowedlikeaprince,alwayswithhissimple,friendlysmile;thetipdisappearedunderhisapron。“Nobodycouldhelpbeingnicetoyou,lady。”
Shethankedhimagainandwenttothepromenade。Itseemedtoherthattheyhadalmostarrived。Alongshorestretchedacontinuouslineofhouses——prettyhouseswithgardens。Therewereelectriccars。Nearertheriverlayseveralparallellinesofrailwaytrackalongwhichtrainaftertrainwasspeeding,someofthemshorttrainsofordinarydaycoaches,otherslongtrainsmadeupinpartofcoachesgranderandmorebeautifulthananyshehadeverseen。Sheknewtheymustbetheparloranddiningandsleepingcarsshehadreadabout。Andnowtheywereinthemidstofafleetofsteamersandbarges,andfaraheadloomedthefirstofCincinnati”sbigsuspensionbridges,picturesofwhichshehadmanyatimegazedatinwonder。Therewasaminglingofstrangeloudnoises——whistles,engines,onthewater,onshore;therewasamultitudeofwhatseemedtoherfeverishactivities——shewhohadnotbeenoutofquietSutherlandsinceshewasababytooyoungtonotethings。
Theriver,theshores,grewmoreandmorecrowded。Susan”seyesdartedfromonenewobjecttoanother;andeagerlythoughshelookedshefeltshewasmissingmorethanshesaw。
“Why,SusanLenox!“exclaimedavoicealmostinherear。
Sheclosedherteethuponacry;suddenlyshewasbackfromwonderlandtoherself。Sheturnedtofacedumpy,dressyMrs。
Waterburyandherhusbandwiththeglossykinkyringletsandthelongwavymustache。“Howdoyoudo?“shestammered。
“Wedidn”tknowyouwereaboard,“saidMrs。Waterbury,asilly,duck-leggedwomanlookingproudlyuncomfortableinherbead-trimmedblacksilk。
“Yes——I”m——I”mhere,“confessedSusan。
“Goingtothecitytovisit?“
“Yes,“saidSusan。Shehesitated,thenrepeated,“Yes。”
“Whatelegantbreakfaststheydoserveontheseboats!Isupposeyourfriends”llmeetyou。ButMortandI”lllookafteryoutilltheycome。”
“Oh,itisn”tnecessary,“protestedSusan。Thesteamerwaspassingunderthebridge。Therewerecitiesonbothshores——hugemassesofdingybrick,streetsfilledwithmotionofeverykind——alwaysmotion,incessantmotion,andchange。“We”reaboutthere,aren”twe?“sheasked。
“Thewharf”supbeyondthesecondbridge——theCovingtonBridge,“
explainedWaterburywiththeairoftheoldexperiencedglobe-trotter。“There”sathirdone,furtherup,butyoucan”tseeitforthesmoke。”Andhewentonandon,volublyairinghisintimateknowledgeofthegreatcitywhichhevisitedonceayearfortwoorthreedaystobuygoods。Heendedwithascornful,“My,butCincinnati”sadirtyplace!“
Dirtyitmightbe,butSusanlovedit,dirtandall。Thesmoke,thegrimesomehowseemedpartofit,oneofitscharms,oneofthethingsthatmadeitdifferentfrom,andsuperiorto,monotonouscountryandcountrytown。SheedgedawayfromtheWaterburys,hidinherstateroomwatchingthepanoramathroughthecurtainedglassofherpromenadedeckdoor。Shewascompletelycarriedaway。Thecity!So,thiswasthecity!Andherdreamsoftravel,ofnewsights,newfaces,werebeginningtocometrue。Sheforgotherself,forgotwhatshehadleftbehind,forgotwhatshewastoface。Allherpowerofthoughtandfeelingwasusedupinabsorbingtheseunfoldingwonders。
AndwhentheJunesunsuddenlypiercedtheheavycloudsoffogandsmoke,sheclaspedherhandsandgasped,“Lovely!Oh,howlovely!“
Andnowthesteamerwasatthehugewharf-boat,inshapeliketheoneatSutherland,butincomparativesizeliketherealNoah”sArkbesideatoyark。Andfromthewholetremendoussceneroseanenormousclamor,thestentorianvoiceofthecity。Thatvoiceisdiscordantandterrifyingtomany。ToSusan,onthatday,itwasthemostsplendidburstofmusic。“Awake——awake!“itcried。“Awake,and_live!_“Sheopenedherdoorthatshemighthearitbetter——rattleandrumbleandroar,shriekofwhistle,clangofbell。Andthepeople!——Thousandsonthousandshurryinghitherandyon,likebeesinahive。“Awakeawake,andlive!“
Thenoisesfromthesaloonremindedherthatthejourneywasended,thatshemustleavetheboat。Andshedidnotknowwheretogo——sheandherbundle。ShewaiteduntilshesawtheWaterburys,alongwiththeotherpassengers,movingupthelevee。Thensheissuedforth——bythepromenadedeckdoorsothatshewouldnotpasstheoffice。Butattheheadofthecompanionway,intheforwardpartofthedeck,theretheclerkstood,lookingevenpettierandmoreoffensivebydaylight。Shethoughttoslipbyhim。Buthestoppedstrokinghismustacheandcalledouttoher,“Haven”tyourfriendscome?“
Shefrowned,angryinhernervousness。“Ishallgetonverywell,“shesaidcurtly。Thensherepented,smiledpolitely,added,“Thankyou。”
“I”llputyouinacarriage,“heoffered,hasteningdownthestairstojoinher。
Shedidnotknowwhattosayordo。Shewalkedsilentlybesidehim,hecarryingherbundle。Theycrossedthewharf-boat。Alineofdilapidatedlookingcarriageswasdrawnupneartheendofthegangplank。Thesightofthem,theremembranceofwhatshehadheardoftheexpensivenessofcitycarriages,nervedhertodesperation。“Givememythings,please,“shesaid。“IthinkI”llwalk。”
“Wheredoyouwanttogo?“
Thequestiontookherbreathaway。Withaquicknessthatamazedher,herlipsuttered,“TheGibsonHouse。”
“Oh!That”sarightsmartpiece。Butyoucantakeacar。I”llwalkwithyoutothecar。There”salineacoupleofsquaresupthatgoesalmostbythedoor。Youknowitisn”tfarfromFourthStreet。”
Shewasnowinaflutterofterror。Shewentstumblingalongbesidehim,nothearingawordofhisvolubleandflirtatioustalk。Theywereinthemidstofthemadrushandconfusion。Thenoises,nolongermingledbutindividual,smotesavagelyuponherears,startlingher,makingherlookdazedlyroundasifexpectingdeathtoswoopuponher。AtthecornerofFourthStreettheclerkhalted。Hewasclearoutofhumorwithher,sodumb,sounappreciative。“There”llbeacaralongsoon,“saidhesourly。
“Youneedn”twait,“saidshetimidly。“Thankyouagain。”
“Youcan”tmissit。Good-by。”Andheliftedhishat”tipped“
it,rather——forhewouldnothavewastedafullliftuponsuchafemale。Shegaveagaspofreliefwhenhedeparted;thenagaspofterror——forupontheoppositecornerstoodtheWaterburys。Theglobe-trotterandhiswifeweresodazedbythecitythattheydidnotseeher,thoughintheirhelplessglancingroundtheylookedstraightather。Shehastilyranintoadrugstoreonthecorner。Ayoungmaninshirtsleevesheldupbypinkgarters,andwithoilyblackhaircarefullypartedandplastered,putdownapestleandmortarandcameforward。Hehadkindbrowneyes,buttherewassomethingwrongwiththelowerpartofhisface。Susandidnotdarelooktoseewhatitwas,lestheshouldthinkherunfeeling。Hewasbehindthecounter。
Susansawthesodafountain。Asifbyinspiration,shesaid,“Somechocolatesoda,please。”
“Icecream?“askedtheyoungmaninapeculiarvoice,likethatofonewhohasaharelip。
“Please,“saidSusan。Andthenshesawthesign,“IceCream,tencents,“andwishedshehadn”t。
Theyoungmanmixedthesoda,putinaliberalhelpingoficecream,setitbeforeherwithaspooninit,restedtheknucklesofhisbrownhairyhandsonthecounterandsaid:
“It_is_hot。”
“Yes,indeed,“assentedSusan。“IwonderwhereIcouldleavemybundleforawhile。I”mastrangerandIwanttolookforaboardinghouse。”
“Youmightleaveitherewithme,“saidtheyoungman。“That”saboutourbiggestlineoftrade——thatandpostagestampsandtelephone——_and_thedirectory。“Helaughedheartily。Susandidnotseewhy;shedidnotlikethesound,either,fortheyoungman”sdeformityoflowerjawdeformedhislaughteraswellashisspeech。However,shesmiledpolitelyandateanddrankhersodaslowly。
“I”llbegladtotakecareofyourbundle,“theyoungmansaidpresently。“Everbeenherebefore?“
“No,“saidSusan。“Thatis,notsinceIwasaboutfouryearsold。”
“Iwasfour,“saidtheyoungman,“whenahorsesteppedonmymouthinthestreet。”
“My,howdreadful!“exclaimedSusan。
“Youcanseesomeofthescaryet,“theyoungmanassuredher,andhepointedtohiscuriouslysunkenmouth。“Thedoctorssaiditwasthemostremarkablecaseofthekindonrecord,“
continuedheproudly。“Thatwaswhatledmeintothemedicalline。Youdon”tseemtohaveyourboardinghousepicked。”
“Iwasgoingtolookinthepapers。”
“That”sdangerous——especiallyforayounglady。Someofthemboardinghouses——well,they”renobetter”ntheyoughttobe。”
“Idon”tsupposeyouknowofany?“
“Myauntkeepsone。Andshe”sgotavacancy,itbeingsummer。”
“I”mafraidit”dbetooexpensiveforme,“saidSusan,tofeelherway。
Theyoungmanwasmuchflattered。Buthesaid,“Oh,itain”tsotoppy。Ithinkyoucouldmakeadealwithherforfiveper。”
Susanlookedinquiring。
“Fiveaweek——roomandboard。”
“Imightstandthat,“saidSusanreflectively。Then,decidingforcompleteconfidence,“I”mlookingforwork,too。”
“Whatline?“
“Oh,Inevertriedanything。Ithoughtmaybedressmakingormillinery。”
“Mightypoorseasonforjobs。Thetimesarebad,anyhow。”Hewaslookingatherwithkindlycuriosity。“IfIwasyou,I”dgobackhome——andwait。”
Susanshrankwithinherself。“Ican”tdothat,“shesaid。
Theyoungmanthoughtawhile,thensaid:“Ifyoushouldgotomyaunt”s,youcansayMr。Ellisonsentyou。No,thatain”tme。
It”stheboss。Yousee,arespectableboardinghouseasksforreferences。”
Susancoloreddeeplyandhergazeslowlysank。“Ididn”tknowthat,“shemurmured。
“Don”tbeafraid。AuntKateain”tsoparticular——leastways,notinsummerwhenthingsisslow。AndIknowyou”requiet。”
Bythetimethesodawasfinished,theyoungman——whosaidhisnamewasRobertWylie——hadwrittenonthebackofEllison”sbusinesscardinaSpencerianhand:“Mrs。KateWylie,347WestSixthStreet。”HeexplainedthatSusanwastowalkuptwosquaresandtakethecargoingwest;theconductorwouldletheroffattherightplace。“You”dbetterleaveyourthingshere,“
saidMr。Wylie,holdingupthecardsothattheycouldadmirehispenmanshiptogether。“YoumaynothititoffwithAuntKate。
Don”tthinkyou”vegottostaytherejustbecauseofme。”
“I”msureI”lllikeit,“Susandeclaredconfidently。Herspiritswerehigh;shefeltthatshewasinastrongrunofluck。
Wylieliftedherpackageoverthecounterandwenttothedoorwithhertopointoutthedirection。“ThisisFourth。ThenextupisFifth。ThenextwideoneisSixth——andyoucanreaditonthelamp-post,too。”
“Isn”tthatconvenient!“exclaimedSusan。“Whatalovelycitythisis!“
“There”sworse,“saidMr。Wylie,nottoseemvainofhisnativetown。
Theyshookhandsmostfriendlyandshesetoutinthedirectionhehadindicated。Shewasmuchupsetbythemanyvehiclesandtheconfusion,butshedidherbesttoseemateaseandathome。
Shewatchedagirlwalkingaheadofher——ashopgirlwhoseemedwell-dressedandstylish,especiallyaboutthehatandhair。
Susantriedtowalklikeher。“IsupposeIlookandactgreenerthanIreallyam,“thoughtshe。“ButI”llkeepmyeyesopenandcatchon。”Andinthis,asinallherthoughtsandactionssinceleaving,sheshowedconfidencenotbecauseshewasconceited,butbecauseshehadnottheremotestnotionwhatshewasactuallyattempting。Howmanyofusgetcreditforcourageaswewalkunconcernedthroughperils,oressayandconquergreatobstacles,whenintruthwearenotcourageousbutsimplyunaware!Asaruleknowledgeispoweror,rather,asourceofpower,buttherearetimeswhenignoranceisapowerandknowledgeaweakness。IfSusanhadknown,shemightperhapshavestayedathomeandsubmittedand,withcrushedspirit,mighthavesunkunderthesenseofshameanddegradation。Butshedidnotknow;soColumbusbeforehissailorsorCaesarattheRubiconamonghissoldiersdidnotseemmoretranquilthanshereallywas。Wylie,whosuspectedinthedirectionofthetruth,wonderedather。“She”sgame,sheis,“hemutteredagainandagainthatmorning。“Whatanerveforakid——andalady,too!“
Shefoundtherightcornerandtherightcarwithoutfurtheradventure;andtheconductorassuredherthathewouldsetherdownbeforetheverydooroftheaddressonthecard。Itwasanopencarwithfewpassengers。Shetookthemiddleofthelongseatnearesttherearplatformandlookedaboutherlikeoneinahappydream。Onandonandyetontheywent。Witheverysquaretheypassedmorepeople,soitseemedtoher,thantherewereinallSutherland。Andwhathugestores!Andwhatwonderfuldisplaysofthingstowear!Wherewouldthepeoplebefoundtobuysuchquantities,andwherewouldtheygetthemoneytopay?
Howmanyrestaurantsandsaloons!Why,everybodymustbeeatinganddrinkingallthetime。Andateachcornershelookedupanddownthecrossstreets,andthereweremoreandevermoremagnificentbuildings,throngsuponthrongsofpeople。Wastherenoendtoit?ThiswasSixthStreet,stillSixthStreet,asshesawatthecornerlamp-posts。Thentheremustbefivemoresuchstreetsbetweenthisandtheriver;andshecouldsee,upthecrossstreets,thatthecitywasevenvasterinthedirectionofthehills。Andtherewereallthesecrossstreets!Itwasstupefying——overwhelming——incredible。
Shebegantobenervous,theyweregoingsofar。Sheglancedanxiouslyattheconductor。Hewaswatchingherinterestedly,understoodherglance,answereditwithareassuringnod。Hecalledout:
“I”mlookingoutforyou,miss。I”vegotyouonmymind。Don”tyoufret。”
Shegavehimabrightsmileofrelief。Theywerepassingthroughadoublerowofwhatseemedtoherstatelyresidences,andtherewerefewpeopleonthesidewalks。Theair,too,wasclearer,thoughthewallsweregrimyandalsothegrassintheoccasionaltinyfrontyards。Butthecurtainsatthewindowslookedcleanandfresh,andsodidthebetterclassofpeopleamongthoseonthesidewalk。Itdelightedhertoseesomanywell-dressedwomen,wearingtheirclotheswithanairwhichshetoldherselfshemustacquire。Shewasstartledbytheconductor”scallingout:
“Now,miss!“
Sheroseasherangthebellandwasreadytogetoffwhenthecarstopped,forshewaseagertocausehimaslittletroubleaspossible。
“Thehouseisrightstraightbeforeyou,“saidtheconductor。
“Thenumber”sinthetransom。”
Shethankedhim,descended,wasonthesidewalkbeforeMrs。
Wylie”s。Shelookedatthehouseandherheartsank。Shethoughtofthesmallsuminherpurse;itwasmostunlikelythatsuchahouseasthiswouldharborher。Forherewasagrandstonestairwayascendingtoadeepstoneportico,andwithinitgreatdoors,biggerthanthoseoftheWrightmansion,thepalaceofSutherland。However,sherecalledthehumbleappearanceandmodeofspeechofherfriendthedrugclerkandpluckedupthecouragetoascendandtoring。
Aslattern,coloredmaidopenedthedoor。Atthefirstglancewithin,atthefirstwhiffoftheinteriorair,Susanfeltmoreatease。Forshewasseeingwhatevenherbedazzledeyesrecognizedascheapdowdiness,andthesmellthatassailedhernostrilswasthatofahousebadlyandpoorlykept——thesmellofcheapfoodandbadbuttercooking,ofcats,ofundustedrooms,ofvariousunrecognizablekindsofstaleness。Shestoodinthecenterofthebigdingyparlor,gazingroundatthegrimedchromosuntilMrs。Wylieentered——athinmiddle-agedwomanwithsmallbrowneyessetwideapart,aperpetualfrown,andachinsolongandsoprojectedthatshewasalmostjimber-jawed。WhileSusanexplainedstammeringlywhatshehadcomefor,Mrs。Wylieeyedherwithincreasingdisfavor。WhenSusanhadfinished,sheunlockedherlipsforthefirsttimetosay:
“Theroom”stook。”
“Oh!“criedSusanindismay。
Thetelephoneranginthebackparlor。Mrs。Wylieexcusedherselftoanswer。Afterafewwordssheclosedthedoorsbetween。Shewasgonefullyfiveminutes;toSusanitseemedanhour。Shecameback,saying:
“I”vebeentalkingtomynephew。Hecalledup。Well,Ireckonyoucanhavetheroom。Itain”tmycustomtotakeinladiesasyoungasyou。Butyouseemtobeallright。Yourparentsallowedyoutocome?“
“Ihaven”tany,“repliedSusan。“I”mheretofindaplaceandsupportmyself。”
Mrs。Wyliecontinuedtoeyeherdubiously。“Well,Ihavenowishtopryintoyouraffairs。`Mindyourownbusiness”that”smyrule。”Shespokewithdefiance,asifthecontrarywerebeingassertedbysomeinvisiblepersonwhomightappearandgainhearingandbelief。Shewenton:“IfMr。Ellisonwantsit,whyI
supposeit”sallright。Butyoucan”tstayoutlater”nteno”clock。”
“Ishan”tgooutatallofnights,“saidSusaneagerly。
“You_look_quiet,“saidMrs。Wylie,withtheairofaddingthatappearanceswererarelyotherthandeceptive。
“Oh,I_am_quiet,“declaredSusan。Itpuzzledher,thisrecurrenceofthesuggestionofnoisiness。
“Ican”tallowmuchcompany——noneinyourroom。”
“Therewon”tbeanycompany。”Sheblusheddeeply。“Thatis,a——ayoungmanfromourtown——hemaycallonce。Buthe”llbeofffortheEastrightaway。”
Mrs。Wyliereflectedonthis,Susanthewhilestandinguneasily,dreadinglestdecisionwouldbeagainsther。FinallyMrs。Wyliesaid:
“Robertsaysyouwantthefive-dollarroom。I”llshowittoyou。”
Theyascendedtwoflightsthroughincreasingshabbiness。Onthethirdfloorattherearwasaroom——amerecontinuationofthenarrowhall,partitionedoff。Itcontainedasmallfoldingbed,asmalltable,atinybureau,awashstandhardlyaslargeasthatinthecabinontheboat,arowofhookswithacurtainoffloweredchintzbeforethem,akitchenchair,achromoof“AwakeandAsleep,“atornanddirtyragcarpet。Theodoroftheroom,stale,damp,vergingonmoldy,seemedthefittingexhalationfromsuchanassemblageofforbiddingobjects。
“It”sanice,comfortableroom,“saidMrs。Wylieaggressively。
“Icouldn”taffordtogiveitandtwomealsforfivedollarsexcepttillthefirstofSeptember。Afterthatit”seight。”
“I”llbegladtostay,ifyou”llletme,“saidSusan。Mrs。
Wylie”ssuspicion,soplaininthoserepellenteyes,tookallthecourageoutofher。Thegreatadventureseemedrapidlytobelosingitscharms。Shecouldnotthinkofherselfascontentoranythingbutsadanddepressedinsuchsurroundingsasthese。
Howmuchbetteritwouldbeifshecouldliveoutintheopen,outwhereitwasattractive!
“Isupposeyou”vegotsomebaggage,“saidMrs。Wylie,asifsheratherexpectedtohearthatshehadnot。
“Ileftitatthedrugstore,“explainedSusan。
“Yourtrunk?“
Susanstartednervouslyatthatexplosiveexclamation。“I——I
haven”tgotatrunk——onlyafewthingsinashawlstrap。”
“Well,Inever!“
Mrs。Wylietossedherhead,cluckedhertonguedisgustedlyagainsttheroofofhermouth。“ButIsupposeifMr。Ellisonsaysso,whyyoucanstay。”
“Thankyou,“saidSusanhumbly。Evenifitwouldnothavebeenbasestingratitudetobetrayherfriend,Mr。Wylie,stillshewouldnothavehadthecouragetoconfessthetruthaboutMr。
Ellisonandsogetherselforderedintothestreet。“I——IthinkI”llgoformythings。”
“Thecustomistopayinadvance,“saidMrs。Wyliesharply。
“Oh,yes——ofcourse,“stammeredSusan。
Sheseatedherselfonthewoodenchairandopenedoutherpurse。
Shefoundthefiveamongherfewbills,extendeditwithtremblingfingerstowardMrs。Wylie。Atthesametimesheliftedhereyes。Thewoman”sexpressionassheboredintothepocketbookterrifiedher。Neverbeforehadsheseenthesavagegreedinessthatisbredinthecityamongthepeoplewhofightagainstfearfuloddstomaintaintheirrespectabilityandtosavethemselvesfromtheeverthreateneddroptothedespisedworkingclass。
“Thankyou,“saidMrs。Wylie,takingthebillasifshewereconferringafavoruponSusan。“Imakeeverybodypaypromptly。
Thefirstoftheweekorouttheygo!IusedtobeeasyandI
cameneargoingdown。”
“Oh,Ishouldn”tstayaminuteifIcouldn”tpay,“saidthegirl。“I”mgoingtolookforsomethingrightaway。”
“Well,Idon”twanttodiscourageyou,butthere”sagreatmanyoutofwork。Still,Isupposeyou”llbeabletowheedlesomemanintogivingyouajob。ButIwarnyouI”mveryparticularaboutmorals。IfIseeanysigns——”Mrs。Wyliedidnotfinishhersentence。Anywordswouldhavebeenweakerthanherlook。
Susancoloredandtrembled。Notatthepoisonoushintastohowmoneycouldbegottokeeponpayingforthatroom,forthehintpassedwideofSusan。Shewasagitatedbythethought:ifMrs。
Wylieshouldlearnthatshewasnotrespectable!IfMrs。Wylieshouldlearnthatshewasnameless——wasbornindisgracesodeepthat,nomatterhowgoodshemightbe,shewouldyetbeclassedwiththewicked。
“I”mdownlikeathousandofbrickonanywomanthatisatallloosewiththemen,“continuedthelandlady。“Inevercouldunderstandhowanywomancouldsofarforgetherself。”Andthewomanwhomthemenhadallherlifebeenhelpingtotheiruttermostnotto“forgetherself“lookedsharpsuspicionandenvyatSusan,thelovely。WhyarewomenoftheMrs。Wyliesortsoswifttosuspect?Canitbethatinsomesecretchamberoftheirneverassailedheartstherelurksalonging——afeelingastowhattheywoulddoiftheyhadthechance?Mrs。Wyliecontinued,“IhopeyouhavestrictChristianprinciples?“
“IwasbroughtupPresbyterian,“saidSusananxiously。ShewasfarfromsurethatinCincinnatiandbyitsMrs。WyliesPresbyterianwouldberegardedasChristian。
“There”syourkindofachurchafewsquaresfromhere,“wasallMrs。Wyliedeignedtoreply。SusansuspectedasneeratPresbyterianisminheraccent。
“That”llbenice,“shemurmured。Shewaseagertoescape。“I”llgoformythings。”
“YoucanwalkdownandtaketheFourthStreetcar,“suggestedherlandlady。“Thenyoucanwatchoutandnotmissthestore。
Theconductorsareveryimpudentandforgetful。”
Susanescapedfromthehouseasspeedilyasherflyingfeetwouldtakeherdownthetwoflights。Inthestreetoncemore,herspiritsrose。ShewentsouthtoFourthStreet,decidedtowalkinsteadoftakingacar。Shenowfoundherselfinmuchmoreimpressivesurroundingsthanbefore,andrealizedthatSixthStreetwasreallyoneoftheminorstreets。Thefurtheruptownshewent,themoreexcitedshebecame。Afterthedistrictofstatelymansionswithwonderfulcarriagesdrivingupandawayandwomendressedlikethoseintheillustratedstorypapers,camesplendidshopsandhotels,finerthanSusanhadbelievedtherewereanywhereintheworld。Andmostofthepeople——thecrowdsoncrowdsofpeople!——lookedprosperousandcheerfulandsodelightfullycitified!Shewonderedwhysomanyofthemenstaredather。Sheassumeditmustbesomethingruralinherappearancethoughthatoughttohavesetthewomentostaring,too。Butshethoughtlittleaboutthis,soabsorbedwassheinseeingallthenewthings。Shewalkedslowly,pausingtoinspecttheshopwindows——thegorgeousdressesandhatsandjewelry,thethousandcostlythingsscatteredincarelessprofusion。Andthecrowds!Howsecureshefeltamongthesemultitudesofstrangers,notoneofthemknowingorsuspectinghersecretofshame!Shenolongerhadthesenseofbeingoutcast,branded。
Whenshehadgonesofarthatitseemedtohershecertainlymusthavemissedthedrugstore,carefullythoughshehadinspectedeachcornerasshewent,shedecidedthatshemuststopsomeoneofthishurryingthrongandinquiretheway。Whileshewasstillscrewinghercouragetothisboldness,sheespiedthesignandhastenedjoyfullyacrossthestreet。SheandWyliewelcomedeachotherlikeoldfriends。Hewasdelightedwhenhelearnedthatshehadtakentheroom。
“Youwon”tmindAuntKateafterawhile,“saidhe。“She”ssourandnosey,butshe”shonestandrespectable——andthat”sthemainthingjustnowwithyou。AndIthinkyou”llgetajoballright。
AuntKate”sgotaladyfriendthat”sheadsalesladyatShillito”s。She”llknowofsomething。”
WyliewassokindandsohopefulthatSusanfeltalreadysettled。Assoonascustomerscamein,shetookherparcelandwent,Wyliesaying,“I”lldroproundaftersupperandseehowthingsaregettingon。”ShetooktheSixthStreetcarback,andfeltlikeanoldresident。ShewascriticalofSixthStreetnow,andofthewomenshehadbeenadmiringtherelessthantwohoursbefore——criticaloftheirmannersandoftheirdress。Theexterioroftheboardinghousenolongerawedher。Shewasgettingapointofview——assheproudlyrealized。BythetimeSamcame——andsurelythatwouldn”tbemanydays——shewouldbequitetransformed。
ShemountedthestepsandwasabouttoringwhenMrs。Wylieherself,withstormybrowandsnappingeyes,openedthedoor。
“Gointotheparlor,“shejerkedoutfrombetweenherunpleasant-lookingrecedingteeth。
Susangaveheraglanceoffrightenedwonderandobeyed。
CHAPTERVIII
ATthethresholdherbundlesdroppedtothefloorandallcolorfledfromherface。BeforeherstoodherUncleGeorgeandSamWrightandhisfather。Thetwoelderlymenweregloweringather;Sam,whiteashisshirtandlimp,washanginghishead。
“So,miss!——You”vegotback,eh?“criedheruncleinatoneshewouldnothavebelievedcouldcomefromhim。
Asquicklyasfearhadseizedhershenowshookitoff。“Yes,Uncle,“shesaidcalmly,meetinghisangryeyeswithoutflinching。Andbackcamethatexpressionofresolution——ofstubbornnesswecallitwhenitistheflagofoppositionto_our_will。
“What”dhavebecomeofyou,“demandedheruncle,“ifIhadn”tfoundoutearlythismorning,andgotafterSamhereandchokedthetruthoutofhim?“
SusangazedatSam;buthewassuchapitifulfigure,someanandfrightened,thatsheglancedquicklybacktoheruncle。Shesaid:
“Buthedidn”tknowwhereIwas。”
“Don”tlietome,“criedWarham。“Itwon”tdoyouanygood,anymorethanhislyingkeptusfromfindingyou。WecameonthetrainandsawtheWaterburysinthestreetandthey”dseenyougointothedrugstore。We”dhavecaughtyouthereifwe”dbeenafewminutessooner,butwedrove,andgothereintime。Now,tellme,Susan“——andhisvoicewascruellyharsh”allaboutwhat”sbeengoingonbetweenyouandSam。”
Shegazedfearlesslyandwassilent。
“Speakup!“commandedSam”sfather。
“Yes——andnolies,“saidheruncle。
“Idon”tknowwhatyoumean,“Susanatlastanswered——truthfullyenough,yettogaintime,too。
“Youcan”tplaythatgameanylonger,“criedWarham。“Youdidmakeafoolofme,butmyeyesareopen。Youraunt”srightaboutyou。”
“Oh,UncleGeorge!“saidthegirl,asobinhervoice。
Buthegazedpitilessly——gazedatthewomanhewasnowabhorringasthetreacherous,fallen,unsexeddaughteroffallenLorella。
“Speakout。Cryingwon”thelpyou。Whathaveyouandthisfellowbeenupto?Youdisgrace!“
Susanshrankandshivered,butansweredsteadfastly,“That”sbetweenhimandme,Uncle。”
Warhamgaveasnortoffury,turnedtotheelderWright。“Yousee,Wright,“criedhe。“It”sasmywifeandItoldyou。Yourboy”slying。We”llsendthelandladyoutforapreacherandmarrythem。”
“Holdon,George,“objectedWrightsoothingly。“Iagreedtothatonlyifthere”dbeensomethingwrong。I”mnotsatisfiedyet。”HeturnedtoSusan,saidinhisgruff,bluntway:
“Susan,haveyoubeenloosewithmyboyhere?“
“Loose?“saidSusanwonderingly。
Samrousedhimself。“Tellthemitisn”tso,Susan,“hepleaded,andhisvoicewaslittlebetterthanawhineofterror。“Youruncle”sgoingtokillmeandmyfather”llkickmeout。”
Susan”sheartgrewsickasshelookedathim——lookedfurtively,forshewasashamedtoseehimsoabject。“IfyoumeandidIlethimkissme,“shesaidtoMr。Wright,“why,Idid。Wekissedseveraltimes。Butwehadtherightto。Wewereengaged。”
Samturnedonhisfatherinanagonyofterror。“Thatisn”ttrue!“hecried。“Iswearitisn”t,father。Wearen”tengaged。I
onlymadelovetoheralittle,asafellowdoestolotsofgirls。”
Susanlookedathimwithwide,horrifiedeyes。“Sam!“sheexclaimedbreathlessly。“Sam!“
Sam”seyesdropped,buthemanagedtoturnhisfaceinherdirection。Thesituationwastooseriousforhim;hedidnotdaretoindulgeinsuchvanitiesasmanhoodormanlyappearance。
“That”sthetruth,Susan,“hesaidsullenly。“_You_talkedalotaboutmarryingbut_I_neverthoughtofsuchathing。”
“But——yousaid——youlovedme。”
“Ididn”tmeananythingbyit。”
TherefellasilencethatwasinterruptedbyMr。Wright。“Youseethere”snothinginit,Warham。I”lltakemyboyandgo。”
“Notbyadamnsight!“criedWarham。“He”sgottomarryher。
Susan,didSampromisetomarryyou?“
“Whenhegotthroughcollege,“repliedSusan。
“Ithoughtso!Andhepersuadedyoutorunaway。”
“No,“saidSusan。“He——”
“Isayyes,“stormedheruncle。“Don”tlie!“
“Warham!Warham!“remonstratedMr。Wright。“Don”tbrowbeatthegirl。”
“Hebeggedmenottogo,“saidSusan。
“Youlyingfool!“shoutedheruncle。ThentoWright,“Ifhedidaskhertostayitwasbecausehewasafraiditwouldallcomeout——justasithas。”
“Ineverpromisedtomarryher!“whinedSam。“HonesttoGod,father,Ineverdid。HonesttoGod,Mr。Warham!Youknowthat”sso,Susan。Itwasyouthatdidallthemarryingtalk。”
“Yes,“shesaidslowly。“Yes,Ibelieveitwas。”Shelookeddazedlyatthethreemen。“Isupposedhemeantmarriagebecause”hervoicefaltered,butshesteadieditandwenton”becausewelovedeachother。”
“Iknewit!“criedheruncle。“Youhear,Wright?Sheadmitshebetrayedher。”
Susanrememberedthehorriblepartofhercousin”ssexrevelations。“Oh,no!“shecried。“Iwouldn”thavelethimdothat——evenifhehadwantedto。No——notevenifwe”dbeenmarried。”
“Yousee,Warham!“criedMr。Wright,intriumph。
“Iseealiar!“wasWarham”sfuriousanswer。“She”stryingtodefendhimandmakeoutacaseforherself。”
“Iamtellingthetruth,“saidSusan。
Warhamgazedunbelievinglyather,speechlesswithfury。Mr。
Wrighttookhissilkhatfromthecorerofthepiano。“I”msatisfiedthey”reinnocent,“saidhe。“SoI”lltakemyboyandgo。”
“NotifIknowit!“retortedWarham。“He”sgottomarryher。”
“Butthegirlsaysshe”spure,saysheneverspokeofmarriage,sayshebeggedhernottorunaway。Bereasonable,Warham。”
“ForagoodChristian,“sneeredheatWright,“you”remightyeasilyconvincedbyaflimsylie。Inyourheartyouknowtheboyhaswrongedherandthatshe”sshieldinghim,justas——”ThereWarhamcheckedhimself;itwouldbeanythingbuttimelytoremindWrightofthecharacterofthegirl”smother。
“I”lladmit,“saidMr。Wrightsmoothly,“thatI
wasn”toveranxiousformyboy”smarriagewithagirlwhosemotherwas——unfortunate。Butifyourchargehadbeentrue,Warham,I”dhavemadetheboydoherjustice,shebeingonlyseventeen。Come,Sam。”
Samslunktowardthedoor。WarhamstaredfiercelyattheelderWright。“AndyoucallyourselfaChristian!“hesneered。
Atthedoor——Samhadalreadydisappeared——Mr。Wrightpausedtosay,“I”mgoingtogiveSamadisciplinehe”llremember。Thegirl”sonlybeenfoolish。Don”tbeharshwithher。”
“Youdamnedhypocrite!“shoutedWarham。“Imighthaveknownwhattoexpectfromamanwhocutthewagesofhishandstopayhischurchsubscription。”
ButWrightwasfartoocraftytobedrawn。HewentonpushingSambeforehim。
AstheouterdoorclosedbehindthemMrs。Wylieappeared。“I
wantyoubothtogetoutofmyhouseasquickasyoucan,“shesnapped。“Myboarders”llbecomingtodinnerinafewminutes。”
Warhamtookhisstrawhatfromthefloorbesidethechairbehindhim。“I”venothingtodowiththisgirlhere。Goodday,madam。”
Andhestrodeoutofthehouse,slammingthedoorbehindhim。
Mrs。WylielookedatSusanwithstormingfaceandbosom。Susandidnotsee。Shewasgazingintospace,herfaceblanched。
“Clearout!“criedMrs。Wylie。Andsherantotheouterdoorandopenedit。“Howdareyoucomeintoarespectablehouse!“Shewishedtobesowildlyangrythatshewouldforgetthefivedollarswhichshe,asaprofessingChristianinfullchurchstanding,wouldhavetopaybackifsheremembered。“Clearoutthisminute!“shecriedshrilly。“Ifyoudon”t,I”llthrowyourbundleintothestreetandyouafterit。”
Susantookupthebundlemechanically,slowlywentoutonthestoop。Thedoorclosedwithaslambehindher。Shedescendedthesteps,walkedafewyardsupthestreet,pausedattheedgeofthecurbandlookeddazedlyabout。Herunclestoodbesideher。“Nowwhereareyougoing?“hesaidroughly。
Susanshookherhead。
“Isuppose,“hewenton,“I”vegottolookafteryou。Youshan”tdisgracemydaughteranyfurther。”
Susansimplylookedathim,hereyesunseeing,herbrainsweptcleanofthoughtbythecyclonethathaddestroyedallherdreamsandhopes。Shewasnothorrifiedbyhisaccusations;suchthingshadlittlemeaningforonepracticallyincompleteignoranceofsexrelations。Besides,themiserablefiascoofherromanticloveleftherwithafeelingofabasement,ofdegradationlittledifferentfromthatwhichoverwhelmsawomanwhobelieveshervirtueisherallandfindsherselfbetrayedandabandoned。Shenowfeltindeedtheoutcast,lookeddownuponbyalltheworld。
“Ifyouhadn”tlied,“hefumedon,“you”dhavebeenhiswifeandarespectablewoman。”
Thegirlshivered。
“Instead,you”readisgrace。EverybodyinSutherland”llknowyou”vegonethewayyourmotherwent。”
“Goaway,“saidthegirlpiteously。“Letmealone。”
“Alone?Whatwillbecomeofyou?“Headdressedthequestiontohimself,nottoher。
“Itdoesn”tmatter,“washerreplyinadrearytone。“I”vebeenbetrayed,asmymotherwas。Itdoesn”tmatterwhat——”
“Iknewit!“criedWarham,withnonotionofwhatthegirlmeantbytheword“betrayed。”“Whydidn”tyouconfessthetruthwhilehewashereandhisfatherwasreadytomarryhimtoyou?Iknewyou”dbeenloosewithhim,asyourAuntFannysaid。”
“ButIwasn”t,“saidSusan。“Iwouldn”tdosuchathing。”
“Thereyougo,lyingagain!“
“Itdoesn”tmatter,“saidshe。“AllIwantisforyoutogoaway。”
“Youdo?“sneeredhe。“Andthenwhat?I”vegottothinkofRuthie。”Hesnatchedthebundlefromherhand。“Comeon!ImustdoallIcantokeepthedisgracetomyfamilydown。Asforyou,youdon”tdeserveanythingbutthegutter,whereyou”dsinkifIleftyou。Youraunt”sright。You”rerotten。Youwerebornrotten。You”reyourmother”sownbrat。”
“Yes,Iam,“shecried。“AndI”mproudofit!“Sheturnedfromhim,waswalkingrapidlyaway。
“Comewithme!“orderedWarham,followingandseizingherbythearm。
“No,“saidSusan,wrenchingherselffree。
“ThenI”llcallapolicemanandhaveyoulockedup。”
Uncleandniecestoodregardingeachother,hatredandcontemptinhisgaze,hatredandfearinhers。
“You”reachildinlaw——though,Godknows,you”reanythingbutachildinfact。Comealongwithme。You”vegotto。I”mgoingtoseethatyou”reputoutofharm”sway。”
“Youwouldn”ttakemebacktoSutherland!“shecried。
Helaughedsavagely。“Iguessnot!You”llnotshowyourfacethereagain——thoughI”venodoubtyou”dbebrazenenoughtobrassitout。No——youcan”tpollutemyhomeagain。”
“Ican”tgobacktoSutherland!“
“Youshan”t,Isay。Youranoffbecauseyouhaddisgracedyourself。”
“No!“criedSusan。“No!“
“Don”tlietome!Don”tspeaktome。I”llseewhatIcandotohidethismess。Comealong!“
Susanlookedhelplesslyroundthestreet,sawnothing,noteveneager,curiousfacespressedagainstmanyawindowpane,sawonlyadesolatewaste。Thenshewalkedalongbesideheruncle,bothofthemsilent,hecarryingherbundle,shetightlyclutchingherlittlepurse。
Perhapsthemostamazing,themoststunning,ofalltheblowsfatehadthussuddenlyshowereduponherwasthistransformationofherunclefromgentlenesstoferocity。Butmanyafarolderandfarwiserwomanthanseventeen-year-oldSusanhasfailedtounderstandhowitiswiththemanwhodoesnotregardwomanasafellowhumanbeing。Tosuchsheiseitheranobjectofadoration,aquintessenceofpurityandinnocence,orlessthanthedust,sheerfilth。Warham”sangerwasnogust。Hewassimplytheaveragemanofsmallintelligence,greatvanity,andabjectsnobbishnessorterrorofpublicopinion。TherecouldbebutonereasonfortheflightofLorella”sdaughter——rottenness。Theonlypointtoconsidernowwashowtosavetheimperiledfamilystanding,howtoprotecthisowndaughter,whomhisgoodnatureandhiswife”sweaknesshadthusendangered。TheonethingthatcouldhaveappeasedhishatredofSusanwouldhavebeenhermarriagetoSamWright。Thenhewouldhave——not,indeed,forgivenorreinstatedher——buttoleratedher。Itisthedominanceofsuchideasashisthatmakesforwomantheslaveryshediscoversbeneathherqueenlyswayifshehappenstodosomethingdeeplydispleasingtohermasculinesubjectandadorer。
TheywenttotheCentralStation。TheO。andM。expresswhichconnectedwiththetrainonthebranchlinetoSutherlandwouldnotleaveuntilaquarterpasttwo。Itwasonlyafewminutespastone。Warhamledthewayintothestationrestaurant;withacurtnodheindicatedaseatatoneofthesmalltables,anddroppedintotheoppositeseat。Heorderedbeefsteakandfriedpotatoes,coffeeandapplepie。
“Sitstill!“hesaidtoherroughlyandrosetogoouttobuyapaper。
Thegirlsatwithherhandsinherlapandhereyesuponthem。
Shelookedutterly,pitifullytired。Amomentandhecamebacktoresumehisseatandreadthepaper。Whenthewaiterfloppeddownthesteakandthedishofgreasilyfriedpotatoesbeforehisplate,hestuffedthepaperinhispocket,cutasliceofthesteakandputitontheplate。ThewaiternoisilyexchangeditfortheemptyplatebeforeSusan。Warhamcuttwoslicesofthesteakforhimself,tookaliberalhelpingofthepotatoes,pushedthedishtowardher。
“Doyouwantthecoffeenow,orwiththepie?“askedthewaiter。
“Now,“saidWarham。
“Coffeefortheyounglady,too?“
Warhamscowledather。“Coffee?“hedemanded。
Shedidnotanswer;shedidnothear。
“Yes,shewantscoffee,“saidWarham。“Hustleit!“
“Yes,sir。”Andthewaiterbustledawaywithagreatdealofmotionthatcreatedadeceptiveimpressionofspeed。Warhamwashelpinghimselftosteakagainwhenthecoffeecameasuspicious-lookingliquiddiffusinganodorofstalenessreheatedagainandagain,anunderodorofmetalpotnottoofrequentlyscoured。
WarhamglancedatSusan”splate。Shehadnotdisturbedtheknifeandforkoneithersideofit。“Eat!“hecommanded。Andwhenshegavenosignofhavingheard,herepeatedlysharply,“Eat,I
tellyou。”
Shestarted,nervouslytookuptheknifeandfork,cutamorseloffthesliceofsteak。Whensheliftedittoherlips,shesuddenlyputitbackintheplate。“Ican”t,“shesaid。
“You”vegotto,“orderedhe。“Iwon”thaveyouactingthisway。”
“Ican”t,“sherepeatedmonotonously。“Ifeelsick。”Naturehadluckilysomadeherthatitwasimpossibleforhertoswallowwhenhernerveswereupsetorwhenshewastired;thus,shewouldnothavethephysicalwoesthataggravateandprolongmentaldisturbanceiffoodistakenattimeswhenitinstantlyturnstopoison。
Herepeatedhisorderinastillmoresavagetone。Sheputherelbowsonthetable,restedherheadwearilyuponherhands,shookherhead。Hedesisted。
Whenhehadeatenallofthesteak,exceptthefatandthegristlytail,andnearlyallthepotatoes,thewaitertooktheuseddishesawayandbroughttwogenerousslicesofapplepieandsetdownonebeforeeach。WiththepiewentacubeofAmericancreamor“rat-trap“cheese。Warhamatehisownpieandcheese;then,asshehadnottouchedhers,hereachedforitandateitalso。Nowhewaswatchingtheclockand,betweenliftingsofladenforktohismouth,verifyingtheclock”sopinionofthehourbyhisownwatch。Hecalledforthebill,paidit,gavethewaiterfivecents——aconcessiontothetippingcustomoftheeffetecitywhich,judgingbythewaiter”sexpression,mightaswellnothavebeenmade。Still,Warhamhadnotmadeitwithanideaofpromotinggoodfeelingbetweenhimselfandthewaiter,butsimplytoshowthatheknewthecityanditsways。Hetookuptheshawlstrap,said,“Comeon“inthevoicewhichhedeemedworthyofthefallencreaturehemust,throughChristiandutyandworldlyprudence,forthetimeassociatewith。Sheroseandfollowedhimtotheticketoffice。Hehadthereturnhalfofhisownticket。WhensheheardhimaskforatickettoNorthSutherlandsheshivered。SheknewthatherdestinationwashisbrotherZeke”sfarm。