"Well,well,smileagainifyoudonotwishtovexme。"
"Ishallsoondothat,if,asyouassureme,shewillnotmakemeloseyourlove。Butwhatmadetheoldgentlemangetmeagirllikethat?Doyouthinkhediditoutofmischief?"
"No,Idon’tthinkso。Iamsure,ontheotherhand,thathewantedtoletyouknowthatyouneednotfearbeingcomparedwithanybody。Areyoupleasedwithherinotherrespects?"
"Sheworkswell,andsheisveryrespectful。Shedoesnotspeakfourwordswithoutaddressingmeassignora,andsheiscarefultotranslatewhatshesaysfromItalianintoFrench。IhopethatinamonthIshallspeakwellenoughforustodispensewithherserviceswhenwegotoFlorence。IhaveorderedLeDuctoclearouttheroomIhavechosenforher,andIwillsendherherdinnerfromourowntable。Iwillbekindtoher,butIhopeyouwillnotmakemewretched。"
"Icouldnotdoso;andIdonotseewhattherecanbeincommonbetweenthegirlandmyself。"
"Thenyouwillpardonmyfears。"
"Themorereadilyastheyshewyourlove。"
"Ithankyou,butkeepmysecret。"
IpromisednevertogiveaglancetoVeronique,ofwhomIwasalreadyafraid,butIlovedRosalieandwouldhavedoneanythingtosavehertheleastgrief。
Isettoatmytranslationafterdinner;itwasworkIliked。I
didnotgooutthatday,andIspentthewholeofthenextmorningwithM。deGrimaldi。
IwenttothebankerBelloniandchangedallmygoldintogigliatisequins。Imademyselfknownafterthemoneywaschanged,andtheheadcashiertreatedmewithgreatcourtesy。IhadbillsonthisbankerforfortythousandRomancrowns,andonLepribillsfortwentythousand。
Rosaliedidnotwanttogototheplayagain,soIgotherapieceofembroiderytoamuseherintheevening。Thetheatrewasanecessityforme;Ialwayswentunlessitinterferredwithsomestillsweeterpleasure。Iwentbymyself,andwhenIgothomeI
foundthemarquistalkingtomymistress。Iwaspleased,andafterIhadembracedtheworthynoblemanIcomplimentedRosalieonhavingkepthimtillmyarrival,addinggentlythatsheshouldhaveputdownherwork。
"Askhim,"shereplied,"ifhedidnotmakemekeepon。HesaidhewouldgoifIdidn’t,soIgaveintokeephim。"
Shethenrose,stoppedworking,andinthecourseofaninterestingconversationshesucceededinmakingthemarquispromisetostaytosupper,thusforestallingmyintention。Hewasnotaccustomedtotakeanythingatthathour,andatelittle;butIsawhewasenchantedwithmytreasure,andthatpleasedme,forIdidnotthinkIhadanythingtofearfromamanofsixty;
besides,IwasgladattheopportunityofaccustomingRosalietogoodsociety。Iwantedhertobealittlecoquettish,asawomanneverpleasesinsocietyunlesssheshewsadesiretoplease。
Althoughthepositionwasquiteastrangeoneforher,shemademeadmirethenaturalaptitudeofwomen,whichmaybeimprovedorspoiledbyartbutwhichexistsmoreorlessinthemall,fromthethronetothemilk—pail。ShetalkedtoM。deGrimaldiinawaythatseemedtohintshewaswillingtogivealittlehope。Asourguestdidnoteat,shesaidgraciouslythathemustcometodinnersomedaythatshemighthaveanopportunityofseeingwhetherhereallyhadanyappetite。
WhenhehadgoneItookheronmyknee,andcoveringherwithkissesaskedherwhereshehadlearnttotalktogreatpeoplesowell。
"It’saneasymatter,"shereplied。"Youreyesspeaktomysoul,andtellmewhattodoandwhattosay。"
Aprofessedrhetoriciancouldnothaveansweredmoreelegantlyormoreflatteringly。
Ifinishedthetranslation;IhaditcopiedoutbyCostaandtookittoRossi,themanager,whosaidhewouldputitondirectly,whenItoldhimIwasgoingtomakehimapresentoftheplay。I
namedtheactorsofmychoice,andaskedhimtobringthemtodinewithmeatmyinn,thatImightreadtheplayanddistributetheparts。
Aswillbeguessed,myinvitationwasaccepted,andRosalieenjoyeddiningwiththeactorsandactresses,andespeciallyhearingherselfcalledMadameCasanovaeverymoment。Veroniqueexplainedeverythingshedidnotunderstand。
Whenmyactorswereroundmeinaring,theybeggedmetotellthemtheirparts,butIwouldnotgiveinonthispoint。
"Thefirstthingtobedone,"saidI,"isforyoutolistenattentivelytothewholepiecewithoutmindingaboutyourparts。
WhenyouknowthewholeplayIwillsatisfyyourcuriosity。"
Iknewthatcarelessoridleactorsoftenpaynoattentiontoanythingexcepttheirownparts,andthusapiece,thoughwellplayedinitsparts,isbadlyrenderedasawhole。
Theysubmittedwithatolerablygoodgrace,whichthehighandmightyplayersoftheComedieFrancaisewouldcertainlynothavedone。JustasIwasbeginningmyheadingtheMarquisdeGrimaldiandthebankerBellonicameintocallonme。Iwasgladforthemtobepresentatthetrial,whichonlylastedanhourandaquarter。
AfterIhadheardtheopinionoftheactors,whobytheirpraiseofvarioussituationsshewedmethattheyhadtakenintheplot,I
toldCostatodistributetheparts;butnosoonerwasthisdonethanthefirstactorandthefirstactressbegantoexpresstheirdispleasure;she,becauseIhadgivenherthepartofLadyAlton;
he,becauseIhadnotgivenhimMurray’spart;buttheyhadtobearitasitwasmywill。Ipleasedeverybodybyaskingthemalltodinnerforthedayafterthemorrow,afterdinnerthepiecetoberehearsedforthefirsttime。
ThebankerBelloniaskedmetodinnerforthefollowingday,includingmylady,whoexcusedherselfwithgreatpoliteness,intheinvitation;andM。Grimaldiwasgladtotakemyplaceatdinneratherrequest。
WhenIgottoM。Belloni’s,IwasgreatlysurprisedtoseetheimpostorIvanoff,whoinsteadofpretendingnottoknowme,asheoughttohavedone,cameforwardtoembraceme。Isteppedbackandbowed,whichmightbeputdowntoafeelingofrespect,althoughmycoldnessandscantceremonywouldhaveconvincedanyobservanteyeofthecontrary。Hewaswelldressed,butseemedsad,thoughhetalkedagooddeal,andtosomepurpose,especiallyonpolitics。TheconversationturnedontheCourtofRussia,whereElizabethPetrovnareigned;andhesaidnothing,butsighedandturnedawaypretendingtowipethetearsfromhiseyes。Atdessert,heaskedmeifIhadheardanythingofMadameMorin,adding,asiftorecallthecircumstancetomymemory,thatwehadsuppedtogetherthere:
"Ibelievesheisquitewell,"Ianswered。
Hisservant,inyellowandredlivery,waitedonhimattable。
Afterdinnerhecontrivedtotellmethathehadamatterofthegreatestimportancehewantedtodiscusswithme。
"Myonlydesiresir,istoavoidallappearanceofknowinganythingaboutyou。"
"Onewordfromyouwillgainmeahundredthousandcrowns,andyoushallhavehalf。"
Iturnedmybackonhim,andsawhimnomoreatGenoa。
WhenIgotbacktotheinnIfoundM。deGrimaldigivingRosaliealessoninItalian。
"Shehasgivenmeanexquisitedinner,"saidhe,"youmustbeveryhappywithher。"
Inspiteofhishonestface,M。Grimaldiwasinlovewithher,butIthoughtIhadnothingtofear。Beforehewentsheinvitedhimtocometotherehearsalnextday。
WhentheactorscameInoticedamongstthemayoungmanwhosefaceIdidnotknow,andonmyenquiringRossitoldmehewastheprompter。
"Iwon’thaveanyprompter;sendhimabouthisbusiness。"
"Wecan’tgetonwithouthim。"
"You’llhaveto;Iwillbetheprompter。"
Theprompterwasdismissed,butthethreeactressesbegantocomplain。
"Ifweknewourpartsaswellasthe’paternoster’weshouldbecertaintocometoadeadstopiftheprompterisn’tinhisbox。"
"Verygood,"saidItotheactress,whowastoplayLindane,"I
willoccupytheboxmyself,butIshallseeyourdrawers。"
"Youwouldhavesomedifficultyindoingthat,"saidthefirstactor,"shedoesn’twearany。"
"Somuchthebetter。"
"Youknownothingaboutit,"saidtheactress。
Theseremarksputusallinhighspirits,andtheministersofThaliaendedbypromisingthattheywoulddispensewithaprompter。Iwaspleasedwiththewaythepiecewasread,andtheysaidtheywouldbeletter—perfectinthreedays。Butsomethinghappened。
OnthedayfixedfortherehearsaltheycamewithouttheLindaneandMurray。Theywerenotwell,butRossisaidtheywouldnotfailuseventually。ItookthepartofMurray,andaskedRosalietobetheLindane。
"Idon’treadItalianwellenough,"shewhispered,"andIdon’twishtohavetheactorslaughingatme;butVeroniquecoulddoit。"
"Askifshewillreadthepart。"
However,Veroniquesaidthatshecouldrepeatitbyheart。
"Allthebetter,"saidItoher,laughinginternally,asIthoughtofSoleure,forIsawthatIshouldthusbeobligedtomakelovetothegirltowhomIhadnotspokenforthefortnightshehadbeenwithus。Ihadnotevenhadagoodlookatherface。IwassoafraidofRosalie(whomIlovedbettereveryday)takingfright。
WhatIhadfearedhappened。WhenItookVeronique’shand,andsaid,"Si,bellaLindana,debbeadorarvi!"everybodyclapped,becauseIgavethewordstheirproperexpression;butglancingatRosalieIsawashadowonherface,andIwasangryatnothavingcontrolledmyselfbetter。Nevertheless,IcouldnothelpfeelingamazedatthewayVeroniqueplayedthepart。WhenItoldherthatIadoredhersheblusheduptohereyes;shecouldnothaveplayedthelove—sickgirlbetter。
Wefixedadayforthedress—rehearsalatthetheatre,andthecompanyannouncedthefirstnightaweekinadvancetoexcitepubliccuriosity。Thebillsran:
"WeshallgiveVoltaire’sEcossaise,translatedbyananonymousauthor:noprompterwillbepresent。"
IcannotgivethereaderanyideaofthetroubleIhadtoquietRosalie。Sherefusedtobecomforted;weptincessantly,andtouchedmyheartbygentlereproaches。
"YouloveVeronique,"saidshe,"andyouonlytranslatedthatpiecetohaveanopportunityofdeclaringyourlove。"
Isucceededinconvincingherthatshewrongedme,andatlastafterIhadlavishedcaressesonhershesufferedherselftobecalmed。Nextmorningshebeggedpardonforherjealousy,andtocureitinsistedonmyspeakingconstantlytoVeronique。Herheroismwentfarther。ShegotupbeforemeandsentmemycoffeebyVeronique,whowasasastonishedasIwas。
AtheartRosaliewasagreatcreature,capableofnobleresolves,butlikeallwomenshegavewaytosuddenemotions。Fromthatdayshegavemenomoresignsofjealousy,andtreatedhermaidwithmorekindnessthanever。Veroniquewasanintelligentandwell—
manneredgirl,andifmyhearthadnotbeenalreadyoccupiedshewouldhavereignedthere。
ThefirstnightoftheplayItookRosalietoabox,andshewouldhaveVeroniquewithher。M。deGrimaldididnotleaveherforamoment。Theplaywaspraisedtotheskies;thelargetheatrewasfullofthebestpeopleinGenoa。Theactorssurpassedthemselves,thoughtheyhadnoprompter,andwereloudlyapplauded。Thepieceranfivenightsandwasperformedtofullhouses。Rossi,hopingperhapsthatIwouldmakehimapresentofanotherplay,askedmyleavetogivemyladyasuperbpelisseoflynx—fur,whichpleasedherimmensely。
Iwouldhavedoneanythingtosparemysweethearttheleastanxiety,andyetfrommywantofthoughtIcontrivedtovexher。
IshouldneverhaveforgivenmyselfifProvidencehadnotordainedthatIshouldbethecauseofherfinalhappiness。
"Ihavereasontosuspect,"shesaidoneday,"thatIamwithchild,andIamenchantedatthethoughtofgivingyouadearpledgeofmylove。"
"Ifitcomesatsuchatimeitwillbemine,andIassureyouI
shallloveitdearly。"
"Andifitcomestwoorthreeweekssooneryouwillnotbesurethatyouaretheparent?"
"Notquitesure;butIshallloveitjustaswell,andlookuponitasmychildaswellasyours。"
"Iamsureyoumustbethefather。ItisimpossiblethechildcanbePetri’s,whoonlyknewmeonce,andthenveryimperfectly,whilstyouandIhavelivedintenderloveforsolongatime。"
Shewepthottears。
"Calmyourself,dearest,Iimploreyou!Youareright;itcannotbePetri’schild。YouknowIloveyou,andIcannotdoubtthatyouarewithchildbymeandbymealone。Ifyougivemeababyasprettyasyourself,itwillbemineindeed。Calmyourself。"
"HowcanIbecalmwhenyoucanhavesuchasuspicion?"
Wesaidnomoreaboutit;butinspiteofmytenderness,mycaresses,andallthetriflingcareswhichbearwitnesstolove,shewasoftensadandthoughtful。HowmanytimesIreproachedmyselfbitterlyforhavingletoutmysillycalculations。
Afewdayslatershegavemeasealedletter,saying,——
"Theservanthasgivenmethisletterwhenyouwereaway。Iamoffendedbyhisdoingso,andIwantyoutoavengeme。"
Icalledtheman,andsaid,——
"Wheredidyougetthisletter?"
"Fromayoungman,whoisunknowntome。Hegavemeacrown,andbeggedmetogivethelettertotheladywithoutyourseeingme,andhepromisedtogivemetwocrownsmoreifIbroughthimareplytomorrow。IdidnotthinkIwasdoingwrong,sir,astheladywasatperfectlibertytotellyou。"
"That’sallverywell,butyoumustgo,asthelady,whogavemetheletterunopened,asyoucanseeforyourself,isoffendedwithyou。"
IcalledLeDuc,whopaidthemanandsenthimaway。Iopenedtheletter,andfoundittobefromPetri。Rosalieleftmyside,notwishingtoreadthecontents。Theletterranasfollows:
"Ihaveseenyou,mydearRosalie。Itwasjustasyouwerecomingoutofthetheatre,escortedbytheMarquisdeGrimaldi,whoismygodfather。Ihavenotdeceivedyou;IwasstillintendingtocomeandmarryyouatMarseillesnextspring,asIpromised。Iloveyoufaithfully,andifyouarestillmygoodRosalieIamreadytomarryyouhereinthepresenceofmykinfolk。IfyouhavedonewrongIpromisenevertospeakofit,forIknowthatitwasIwholedyouastray。Tellme,Ientreatyou,whetherImayspeaktotheMarquisdeGrimaldiwithregardtoyou。Iamreadytoreceiveyoufromthehandsofthegentlemanwithwhomyouareliving,providedyouarenothiswife。Besure,ifyouarestillfree,thatyoucanonlyrecoveryourhonourbymarryingyourseducer。"
"ThislettercomesfromanhonourablemanwhoisworthyofRosalie,"Ithoughttomyself,"andthat’smorethanIshallbe,unlessImarryhermyself。ButRosaliemustdecide。"
Icalledhertome,gavehertheletter,andbeggedhertoreaditattentively。Shedidso,andgaveitmeback,askingmeifI
advisedhertoacceptPetri’soffer。
"IfyoudodearRosalie,Ishalldieofgrief;butifIdonotyieldyou,myhonourbidsmemarryyou,andthatIamquitereadytodo。"
Atthisthecharminggirlthrewherselfonmybreast,cryinginthevoiceoftruelove,"Iloveyouandyoualone,darling;butitisnottruethatyourhonourbidsyoumarryme。Oursisamarriageoftheheart;ourloveismutual,andthatisenoughformyhappiness。"
"DearRosalie,Iadoreyou,butIamthebestjudgeofmyownhonour。IfPetriisawell—to—domanandamanwhowouldmakeyouhappy,Imusteithergiveyouuportakeyoumyself。"
"No,no;thereisnohurrytodecide。IfyoulovemeIamhappy,forIloveyouandnoneother。Ishallnotanswertheletter,andIdon’twanttohearanythingmoreofPetri。"
"YoumaybesurethatIwillsaynomoreofhim,butIamsurethatthemarquiswillhaveahandinit。"
"Idaresay,buthewon’tspeaktometwiceonthesubject。"
Afterthistreaty——amoresincereonethanthePowersofEuropeusuallymake——IresolvedtoleaveGenoaassoonasIgotsomelettersforFlorenceandRome。InthemeanwhileallwaspeaceandlovebetweenmyselfandRosalie。Shehadnottheslightestshadowofjealousyinhersoul,andM。deGrimaldiwasthesolewitnessofourhappiness。
FiveorsixdayslaterIwenttoseethemarquisathiscasinoatSt。Pierred’Arena,andheaccostedmebysayingthathewashappytoseemeashehadanimportantmatterhewishedtodiscusswithme。Iguessedwhatitwouldbe,butbeggedhimtoexplainhimself。Hethenspokeasfollows:
"Aworthymerchantofthetownbroughthisnephew,ayoungmannamedPetri,toseemetwodaysago。Hetoldmethattheyoungmanismygodson,andheaskedmetoprotecthim。IansweredthatashisgodfatherIowedhimmyprotection,andIpromisedtodowhatIcould。
"Heleftmygodsontotalkitoverwithme,andheinformedmethatheknewyourmistressbeforeyoudidatMarseilles,thathehadpromisedtomarryhernextspring,thathehadseenherinmycompany,andthathavingfollowedushefoundoutthatshelivedwithyou。Hewastoldthatshewasyourwife,butnotbelievingit,wroteheralettersayingthathewasreadytomarryher;butthisletterfellintoyourhands,andhehashadnoreplytoit。
"Hecouldnotmakeuphismindtoloseahopewhichmadehishappiness,soheresolvedtoascertain,throughmygoodoffices,whetherRosaliewouldaccepthisproposition。Heflattershimselfthatonhisinformingmeofhisprosperouscondition,Icantellyouthatheisalikelymantomakehiswifehappy。ItoldhimthatIknewyou,andwouldspeaktoyouonthematter,andafterwardsinformhimoftheresultofourinterview。
"Ihavemadeenquiresintohiscondition,andfindthathehasalreadyamassedaconsiderablesumofmoney。Hiscredit,morals,andreputation,areallexcellent;besides,heishisuncle’ssoleheir,andtheunclepassesforamanverycomfortablyoff。Andnow,mydearM。Casanova,tellmewhatanswerIamtomake。"
"TellhimthatRosalieismuchobligedtohim,andbegshimtoforgether。Wearegoingawayinthreeorfourdays。Rosalielovesme,andIher,andIamreadytomarryherwhenevershelikes。"
"That’splainspeaking;butIshouldhavethoughtamanlikeyouwouldpreferfreedomtoawoman,howeverbeautiful,towhomyouwouldbeboundbyindissolubleties。WillyouallowmetospeaktoRosaliemyselfaboutit?"
"Youneednotask,myleave;speaktoher,butinyourownpersonandnotasrepresentingmyopinions。Iadoreher,andwouldnothaveherthinkthatIcouldcherishthethoughtofseparatingfromher。"
"Ifyoudon’twantmetomeddleinthematter,tellmesofrankly。"
"Onthecontrary,IwishyoutoseeforyourselfthatIamnotthetyrantofthewomanIadore。"
"Iwilltalktoherto—night。"
Ididnotcomehometillsupper—time,thatthemarquismightsaywhathehadtosayinperfectfreedom。ThenobleGenoesesuppedwithus,andtheconversationturnedonindifferentsubjects。
Afterhehadgone,mysweethearttoldmewhathadpassedbetweenthem。Hehadspokentoherinalmostthesamewordsthathehadaddressedtome,andourreplieswerenearlyidentical,thoughshehadrequestedthemarquistosaynomoreabouthisgodson,towhichrequesthehadassented。
Wethoughtthemattersettled,andbusiedourselveswithpreparationsforourdeparture;butthreeorfourdaysafter,themarquis(whoweimaginedhadforgottenallabouthisgodson)cameandaskedustodinewithhimatSt。Pierred’Arena,whereRosaliehadneverbeen。
"Iwantyoutoseemybeautifulgardenbeforeyougo,"saidM。
Grimalditoher;"itwillbeonemorepleasantrecollectionofyourstayforme。"
Wewenttoseehimatnoonthenextday。Hewaswithanelderlymanandwoman,towhomheintroducedus。Heintroducedmebyname,andRosalieasapersonwhobelongedtome。
Weproceededtowalkinthegarden,wherethetwooldpeoplegotRosaliebetweenthem,andoverwhelmedherwithpolitenessandcomplimentaryremarks。She,whowashappyandinhighspirits,answeredinItalian,anddelightedthembyherintelligence,andthegracewhichshegavetohermistakesingrammar。
Theservantscametotellusthatdinnerwasready,andwhatwasmyastonishmentonenteringtheroomtoseethetablelaidforsix。Ididnotwantmuchinsightnowtoseethroughthemarquis’strick,butitwastoolate。Wesatdown,andjustthenayoungmancamein。
"Youarealittlelate,"saidthemarquis;andthen,withoutwaitingforhisapology,heintroducedhimtomeasM。Petri,hisgodson,andnephewtohisotherguests,andhemadehimsitdownathislefthand,Rosaliebeingonhisright。Isatoppositetoher,andseeingthatsheturnedaspaleasdeaththebloodrushedtomyface;Iwasterriblyenraged。Thissmalldespot’splotseemeddisgracefultome;itwasascandalousinsulttoRosalieandmyself——aninsultwhichshouldbewashedawayinblood。Iwastemptedtostabhimathistable,butinspiteofmyagitationI
constrainedmyself。WhatcouldIdo?TakeRosalie’sarm,andleavetheroomwithher?Ithoughtitover,butforeseeingtheconsequencesIcouldnotsummonupcourage。
Ihaveneverspentsoterribleanhourasatthatfataldinner。
NeitherRosalienormyselfateamorsel,andthemarquiswhohelpedalltheguestswasdiscreetenoughnottoseethatweleftonecourseafteranotheruntouched。ThroughoutdinnerheonlyspoketoPetriandhisuncle,givingthemopportunitiesforsayinghowlargeatradetheydid。Atdessertthemarquistoldtheyoungmanthathehadbettergoandlookafterhisaffairs,andafterkissinghishandhewithdrewwithabowtowhichnobodyreplied。
Petriwasabouttwenty—four,ofamoderateheight,withordinarybutyetgood—naturedandhonestfeatures;respectfulinhismanner,andsensiblethoughnotwittyinwhathesaid。Afterallwassaidanddone,IthoughthimworthyofRosalie,butI
shudderedatthethoughtthatifshebecamehiswifeshewaslosttomeforever。Afterhehadgone,themarquissaidhewassorryhehadnotknownhimbeforeashemightbeofusetohiminhisbusiness。
"However,wewillseetothatinthefuture,"saidhe,meaningly,"Imeantomakehisfortune。"
Atthistheuncleandaunt,whonodoubtknewwhattosay,begantolaudandextoltheirnephew,andendedbysayingthatastheyhadnochildrentheyweredelightedthatPetri,whowouldbetheirheir,wastohavehisexcellency’spatronage。
"Wearelonging,"theyadded,"toseethegirlfromMarseillesheisgoingtomarry。Weshouldwelcomeherasabeloveddaughter。"
Rosaliewhisperedtomethatshecouldbearitnolonger,andbeggedmetotakeheraway。Werose,andafterwehadsalutedthecompanywithcolddignitywelefttheroom。Themarquiswasvisiblydisconcerted。Asheescortedustothedoorhestammeredoutcompliments,forthewantofsomethingtosay,tellingRosaliethatheshouldnothavethehonourofseeingherthatevening,butthathehopedtocallonherthenextday。
Whenwewerebyourselvesweseemedtobreatheagain,andspoketooneanothertorelieveourselvesoftheoppressionwhichweighedonourminds。
Rosaliethought,aswellasI,thatthemarquishadplayedusashamefultrick,andshetoldmeIoughttowritehimanote,begginghimnottogivehimselfthetroubleofcallingonusagain。
"Iwillfindsomemeansofvengeance,"saidI;"butIdon’tthinkitwouldbeagoodplantowritetohim。Wewillhastenourpreparationsforleaving,andreceivehimto—morrowwiththatcoldpolitenesswhichbearswitnesstoindignation。Aboveall,wewillnotmaketheslightestreferencetohisgodson。"
"IfPetrireallylovesme,"saidshe,"Ipityhim。Ithinkheisagoodfellow,andIdon’tfeelangrywithhimforbeingpresentatdinner,ashemaypossiblybeunawarethatleispresencewaslikelytogivemeoffence。ButIstillshudderwhenIthinkofit:IthoughtIshouldhavediedwhenoureyesmet!Throughoutdinnerhecouldnotseemyeyes,asIkeptthemnearlyshut,andindeedhecouldhardlyseeme。Didhelookatmewhilehewastalking?"
"No,heonlylookedatme。Iamassorryforhimasyouare,for,asyousay,helooksanhonestfellow。"
"Well,it’sovernow,andIhopeIshallmakeagoodsupper。Didyounoticewhattheauntsaid?Iamsureshewasintheplot。
Shethoughtshewouldgainmeoverbysayingshewasreadytotreatmelikeherownchild。Shewasadecent—lookingwoman,too。"
Wemadeagoodsupper,andapleasantnightinclinedustoforgettheinsultthemarquishadputuponus。Whenwewokeupinthemorningwelaughedatit。Themarquiscametoseeusintheevening,andgreetingmewithanairofmingledconfusionandvexation,hesaidthatheknewhehaddonewronginsurprisingmeashehad,butthathewasreadytodoanythinginhispowerbywayofatonement,andtogivewhateversatisfactionIliked。
Rosaliedidnotgivemetimetoanswer。"Ifyoureallyfeel,"
saidshe,"thatyouhaveinsultedus,thatisenough;weareamplyavenged。Butallthesame,sir,weshallbeonourguardagainstyouforthefuture,thoughthatwillbeforashortwhile,aswearejustleaving。"
Withthisproudreplyshemadehimalowbowandlefttheroom。
WhenhewasleftalonewithmeM。Grimaldiaddressedmeasfollows:
"Itakeagreatinterestinyourmistress’swelfare;andasIfeelsurethatshecannotlongbehappyinherpresentuncertainposition,whileIamsurethatshewouldmakemygodsonanexcellentwife,Iwasdeterminedthatbothofyoushouldmakehisacquaintance,forRosalieherselfknowsverylittleofhim。I
confessthatthemeansIemployedweredishonourable,butyouwillpardonthemeansforthesakeoftheexcellentendIhadinview。
Ihopeyouwillhaveapleasantjourney,andthatyoumayliveforalongtimeinuninterruptedhappinesswithyourcharmingmistress。Ihopeyouwillwritetome,andalwaysreckononmystandingyourfriend,anddoingeverythinginmypowerforyou。
BeforeIgo,IwilltellyousomethingwhichwillgiveyouanideaoftheexcellentdispositionofyoungPetri,towhosehappinessRosalieseemsessential。
"Heonlytoldmethefollowing,afterIhadabsolutelyrefusedtotakechargeofaletterhehadwrittentoRosalie,despairingofbeingabletosenditanyotherway。AfterassuringmethatRosaliehadlovedhim,andthatconsequentlyshecouldnothaveanyfixedaversionforhim,headdedthatifthefearofbeingwithchildwasthereasonwhyshewouldnotmarryhimhewouldagreetoputoffthemarriagetillafterthechildwasborn,providedthatshewouldagreetostayinGenoainhiding,herpresencetobeunknowntoallsavehimself。Heofferstopayalltheexpensesofherstay。Hemadearemarkablywisereflectionwhenweweretalkingitover。
"’Ifshegavebirthtoachildtoosoonafterourmarriage,’saidhe,’bothherhonourandminewouldsufferhurt;shemightalsolosethelikingofmyrelations,andifRosalieistobemywifeI
wanthertobehappyineverything。"’
AtthisRosalie,whohadnodoubtbeenlisteningatthedoorafterthemannerofhersex,burstintotheroom,andastonishedmebythefollowingspeech:
"IfM。PetrichidnottellyouthatitwaspossiblethatImightbewithchildbyhim,heisarighthonestman,butnowItellyousomyself。Idonotthinkitlikely,butstillitispossible。
Tellhim,sir,thatIwillremainatGenoauntilthechildisborn,inthecaseofmybeingpregnant,ofwhichIhavenocertainknowledge,oruntilIamquitesurethatIamnotwithchild。IfIdohaveachildthetruthwillbemadeknown。InthecaseoftherebeingnodoubtofM。Petri’sbeingtheparent,Iamreadytomarryhim;butifheseesforhimselfthatthechildisnothisI
hopehewillbereasonableenoughtoletmealoneforthefuture。
AstotheexpensesandmylodgingatGenoa,tellhimthatheneednottroublehimselfabouteither。"
Iwaspetrified。Isawtheconsequenceofmyownimprudentwords,andmyheartseemedbroken。Themarquisaskedmeifthisdecisionwasgivenwithmyauthority,andIrepliedthatasmysweetheart’swillwasminehemighttakeherwordsforlaw。Hewentawayinhighglee,forheforesawthatallwouldgowellwithhisplanswhenoncehewasabletoexerthisinfluenceonRosalie。Theabsentalwaysfareill。
"Youwanttoleaveme,then,Rosalie?"saidI,whenwewerealone。
"Yes,dearest,butitwillnotbeforlong。"
"Ithinkweshallneverseeeachotheragain。"
"Whynot,dearest?Youhaveonlytoremainfaithfultome。
Listentome。YourhonourandmyownmakeitimperativethatI
shouldconvincePetrithatIamnotwithchildbyhim,andyouthatIamwithchildbyyou。"
"Ineverdoubtedit,dearRosalie。"
"Yes,dear,youdoubteditonceandthatisenough。Ourpartingwillcostmemanyabittertear,butthesepangsarenecessarytomyfuturehappiness。Ihopeyouwillwritetome,andafterthechildisbornitwillbeforyoutodecideonhowIshallrejoinyou。IfIamnotpregnantIwillrejoinyouinacoupleofmonthsatlatest。"
"ThoughImaygrieveatyourresolveIwillnotopposeit,forI
promisedIwouldnevercrossyou。Isupposeyouwillgointoaconvent;andthemarquismustfindyouasuitableone,andprotectyoulikeafather。ShallIspeaktohimonthesubject?Iwillleaveyouasmuchmoneyasyouwillwant。"
"Thatwillnotbemuch。AsforM。deGrimaldi,heisboundinhonourtoprocuremeanasylum。Idon’tthinkitwillbenecessaryforyoutospeaktohimaboutit。"
Shewasright,andIcouldnothelpadmiringthetrulyastonishingtactofthisgirl。
InthemorningIheardthattheself—styledIvanoffhadmadehisescapeanhourbeforethepoliceweretoarresthimatthesuitofthebanker,whohadfoundoutthatoneofthebillshehadpresentedwasforged。Hehadescapedonfoot,leavingallhisbaggagebehindhim。
NextdaythemarquiscametotellRosaliethathisgodsonhadnoobjectiontomaketoherplan。Headdedthattheyoungmanhopedshewouldbecomehiswife,whetherthechildprovedtobehisornot。
"Hemayhopeasmuchashelikes,"saidRosalie,withasmile。
"Healsohopesthatyouwillallowhimtocallonyounowandthen。Ihavespokentomykinswoman,themother—superiorofconvent。Youaretohavetworooms,andaverygoodsortofwomanistokeepyoucompany,waitonyou,andnurseyouwhenthetimecomes。Ihavepaidtheamountyouaretopayeverymonthforyourboard。EverymorningIwillsendyouaconfidentialman,whowillseeyourcompanionandwillbringmeyourorders。AndImyselfwillcomeandseeyouatthegratingasoftenasyouplease。"
Itwasthenmysadduty,whichthelawsofpolitenessenjoined,tothankthemarquisforhistrouble。
"’Tistoyou,mylord,"saidI,"IentrustRosalie。Iamplacingher,Iamsure,ingoodhands。Iwillgoonmywayassoonassheisintheconvent;Ihopeyouwillwritealettertothemother—
superiorforhertotake。"
"Iwillwriteitdirectly,"saidhe。
AndasRosaliehadtoldhimbeforethatshewouldpayforeverythingherself,hegaveherawrittencopyoftheagreementhehadmade。
"Ihaveresolved,"saidRosalietothemarquis,"togointotheconventto—morrow,andIshallbeverygladtohaveashortvisitfromyouthedayafter。"
"Iwillbethere,"saidthemarquis,"andyoumaybesurethatI
willdoallinmypowertomakeyourstayagreeable。"
Thenightwasasadoneforbothofus。Lovescarcelymadeapauseamidstouralternatecomplaintsandconsolations。Wesworetobefaithfulforever,andouroathsweresincere,asardentlovers’oathsalwaysare。Buttheyareasnoughtunlesstheyaresealedbydestiny,andthatnomortalmindmayknow。
Rosalie,whoseeyeswereredandwetwithtears,spentmostofthemorninginpackingupwithVeronique,whocriedtoo。Icouldnotlookather,asIfeltangrywithmyselfforthinkinghowprettyshewas。Rosaliewouldonlytaketwohundredsequins,tellingmethatifshewantedmoreshecouldeasilyletmeknow。
ShetoldVeroniquetolookaftermewellforthetwoorthreedaysIshouldspendatGenoa,mademeamutecurtsy,andwentoutwithCostatogetasedan—chair。Twohoursafter,aservantofthemarquis’scametofetchherbelongings,andIwasthusleftaloneandfullofgrieftillthemarquiscameandaskedmetogivehimsupper,advisingthatVeroniqueshouldbeaskedintokeepuscompany。
"That’sararegirl,"saidhe,"youreallydon’tknowher,andyououghttoknowherbetter。"
AlthoughIwasrathersurprised,IdidnotstoptoconsiderwhatthemotivesofthecraftyGenoesemightbe,andIwentandaskedVeroniquetocomein。Sherepliedpolitelythatshewoulddoso,addingthatsheknewhowgreatanhonourIdidher。
IshouldhavebeentheblindestofmenifIhadnotseenthattheclevermarquishadsucceededinhiswell—laidplans,andthathehaddupedmeasifIhadbeenthemerestfreshman。AlthoughI
hopedwithallmyheartthatIshouldgetRosaliebackagain,I
hadgoodreasonsforsuspectingthatallthemarquis’switwouldbeemployedtoseduceher,andIcouldnothelpthinkingthathewouldsucceed。
Nevertheless,inthepositionIwasin,Icouldonlykeepmyfearstomyselfandlethimdohisutmost。
Hewasnearlysixty,athoroughdiscipleofEpicurus,aheavyplayer,rich,eloquent,amasterofstate—craft,highlypopularatGenoa,andwellacquaintedwiththeheartsofmen,andstillmoresowiththeheartsofwomen。HehadspentagooddealoftimeatVenicetobemoreatliberty,andtoenjoythepleasuresoflifeathisease。Hehadnevermarried,andwhenaskedthereasonwouldreplythatheknewtoowellthatwomenwouldbeeithertyrantsorslaves,andthathedidnotwanttobeatyranttoanywoman,nortobeunderanywoman’sorders。HefoundsomewayofreturningtohisbelovedVenice,inspiteofthelawforbiddinganynoblewhohasfilledtheofficeofdogetoleavehisnativesoil。Thoughhebehavedtomeinaveryfriendlymannerheknewhowtomaintainanairofsuperioritywhichimposedonme。
NothingelsecouldhavegivenhimthecouragetoaskmetodinnerwhenPetriwastobepresent。IfeltthatIhadbeentricked,andIthoughtmyselfindutyboundtomakehimesteemmebymybehaviourforthefuture。ItwasgratitudeonhispartwhichmadehimsmooththewaytomyconquestofVeronique,whodoubtlessstruckhimasafitandproperpersontoconsolemeforthelossofRosalie。
Ididnottakeanypartintheconversationatsupper,butthemarquisdrewoutVeronique,andsheshone。ItwaseasyformetoseethatshehadmorewitandknowledgeoftheworldthanRosalie,butinmythenstateofmindthisgrievedratherthanrejoicedme。
M。deGrimaldiseemedsorrytoseememelancholy,andforcedme,asitwere,tojoinintheconversation。Ashewasreproachingmeinafriendlymannerformysilence,VeroniquesaidwithapleasingsmilethatIhadagoodreasontobesilentafterthedeclarationofloveIhadmadetoher,andwhichshehadreceivedsoill。Iwasastonishedatthis,andsaidthatIdidnotrememberhavingevermadehersuchadeclaration;butshemademelaughinspiteofmyself,whenshesaidthathernamethatdaywasLindane。
"Ah,that’sinaplay,"saidI,"inreallifethemanwhodeclareshisloveinwordsisasimpleton;’tiswithdeedsthetruelovershewshislove。"
"Verytrue,butyourladywasfrightenedallthesame。"
"No,no,Veronique;sheisveryfondofyou。"
"Iknowsheis;butIhaveseenherjealousofme。"
"Ifso,shewasquitewrong。"
Thisdialogue,whichpleasedmelittle,fellsweetlyonthemarquis’sears;hetoldmethathewasgoingtocallonRosalienextmorning,andthatifIlikedtogivehimasupper,hewouldcomeandtellmeaboutherintheevening。OfcourseItoldhimthathewouldbewelcome。
AfterVeroniquehadlightedmetomyroom,sheaskedmetoletmyservantswaitonme,asifshedidsonowthatmyladywasgone,peoplemighttalkabouther。
"Youareright,"saidI,"kindlysendLeDuctome。"
NextmorningIhadaletterfromGeneva。ItcamefrommyEpicureansyndic,whohadpresentedM。deVoltairewithmytranslationofhisplay,withanexceedinglypoliteletterfromme,inwhichIbeggedhispardonforhavingtakenthelibertyoftravestyinghisfineFrenchproseinItalian。ThesyndictoldmeplainlythatM。deVoltairehadpronouncedmytranslationtobeabadone。
Myself—esteemwassowoundedbythis,andbyhisimpolitenessinnotansweringmyletter,withwhichhecouldcertainlyfindnofault,whateverhiscriticismofmytranslationmightbe,thatI
becametheswornenemyofthegreatVoltaire。IhavecensuredhiminalltheworksIhavepublished,thinkingthatinwronginghimI
wasavengingmyself,tosuchanextentdidpassionblindme。AtthepresenttimeIfeelthatevenifmyworkssurvive,thesefeeblestingsofminecanhurtnobodybutmyself。PosteritywillclassmeamongsttheZoiluseswhoseownimpotencemadethemattackthisgreatmantowhomcivilizationandhumanhappinessowesomuch。TheonlycrimethatcantruthfullybeallegedagainstVoltaireishisattacksonreligion。Ifhehadbeenatruephilosopherhewouldneverhavespokenonsuchmatters,for,evenifhisattackswerebasedontruth,religionisnecessarytomorality,withoutwhichtherecanbenohappiness。
CHAPTERV
IFallinLoveWithVeronique——HerSister——PlotAgainstPlot——MyVictory——MutualDisappointmentIhaveneverlikedeatingbymyself,andthusIhaveneverturnedhermit,thoughIoncethoughtofturningmonk;butamonkwithoutrenouncingallthepleasuresoflifeliveswellinakindofholyidleness。Thisdisliketolonelinessmademegiveordersthatthetableshouldbelaidfortwo,andindeed,aftersuppingwiththemarquisandmyself,Veroniquehadsomerighttoexpectasmuch,tosaynothingofthoserightswhichherwitandbeautygaveher。
IonlysawCosta,andaskedhimwhathadbecomeofLeDuc。Hesaidhewasill。"Thengobehindthelady’schair,"saidI。Heobeyed,butsmiledashedidso。Prideisauniversalfailing,andthoughaservant’sprideisthesilliestofallitisoftenpushedtothegreatestextremes。
IthoughtVeroniqueprettierthanbefore。Herbehaviour,nowfreeandnowreserved,astheoccasiondemanded,shewedmethatshewasnonewhand,andthatshecouldhaveplayedthepartofaprincessinthebestsociety。Nevertheless(sostrangeathingistheheartofman),IwassorrytofindIlikedher,andmyonlyconsolationwasthathermotherwouldcomeandtakeherawaybeforethedaywasover。IhadadoredRosalie,andmyheartstillbledatthethoughtofourparting。
Thegirl’smothercamewhilewewerestillattable。ShewasastoundedatthehonourIshewedherdaughter,andsheoverwhelmedmewiththanks。
"Youowemenogratitude,"saidItoher;"yourdaughterisclever,good,andbeautiful。"
"Thankthegentlemanforhiscompliment,"saidthemother,"foryouarereallystupid,wanton,andugly;"andthensheadded,"Buthowcouldyouhavethefacetositattablewiththegentlemaninadirtychemise?"
"Ishouldblush,mother,ifIthoughtyouwereright;butIputacleanoneononlytwohoursago。"
"Madam,"saidItothemother,"thechemisecannotlookwhitebesideyourdaughter’swhiterskin。"
Thismadethemotherlaugh,andpleasedthegirlimmensely。Whenthemothertoldherthatshewascometotakeherback,Veroniquesaid,withaslysmile,——
"Perhapsthegentlemanwon’tbepleasedatmyleavinghimtwenty—
fourhoursbeforehegoesaway。"
"Onthecontrary,"saidI,"Ishouldbeveryvexed。"
"Well;then,shecanstay,sir,"saidthemother;"butfordecency’ssakeImustsendheryoungersistertosleepwithher。"
"Ifyouplease,"Irejoined。AndwiththatIleftthem。
ThethoughtofVeroniquetroubledme,asIknewIwastakenwithher,andwhatIhadtodreadwasacalculatedresistance。
ThemothercameintomyroomwhereIwaswriting,andwishedmeapleasantjourney,tellingmeforthesecondtimethatshewasgoingtosendherdaughterAnnette。Thegirlcameintheevening,accompaniedbyaservant,andafterloweringhermezzaro,andkissingmyhandrespectfully,sherangailytokisshersister。
Iwantedtoseewhatshewaslike,andcalledforcandles;andontheirbeingbroughtIfoundshewasablondeofakindIhadneverbeforeseen。Herhair,eyebrows,andeyelasheswerethecolourofpalegold,faireralmostthanherskin,whichwasextremelydelicate。Shewasveryshort—sighted,butherlargepaleblueeyeswerewonderfullybeautiful。Shehadthesmallestmouthimaginable,butherteeth,thoughregular,werenotsowhiteasherskin。ButforthisdefectAnnettemighthavepassedforaperfectbeauty。
Hershortnessofsightmadetoobrilliantalightpainfultoher,butasshestoodbeforemesheseemedtolikemelookingather。
Mygazefedhungrilyonthetwolittlehalf—spheres,whichwerenotyetripe,butsowhiteastomakemeguesshowravishingtherestofherbodymustbe。Veroniquedidnotshewherbreastssofreely。Onecouldseethatshewassuperblyshaped,buteverythingwascarefullyhiddenfromthegaze。Shemadehersistersitdownbesideherandwork,butwhenIsawthatshewasobligedtoholdthestuffclosetoherfaceItoldherthatsheshouldsparehereyes,forthatnightatallevents,andwiththatsheobedientlyputtheworkdown。
Themarquiscameasusual,andlikemyselfhethoughtAnnette,whomhehadneverseenbefore,anastonishingminiaturebeauty。
Takingadvantageofhisageandhighrank,thevoluptuousoldmandaredtopasshishandoverherbreast,andshe,whowastoorespectfultocrossmylord,lethimdoitwithoutmakingtheslightestobjection。Shewasacompoundofinnocenceandcoquetry。
Thewomanwhoshewinglittlesucceedsinmakingamanwanttoseemore,hasaccomplishedthree—fourthsofthetaskofmakinghimfallinlovewithher;forisloveanythingelsethanakindofcuriosity?Ithinknot;andwhatmakesmecertainisthatwhenthecuriosityissatisfiedthelovedisappears。Love,however,isthestrongestkindofcuriosityinexistence,andIwasalreadycuriousaboutAnnette。
M。GrimalditoldVeroniquethatRosaliewishedhertostaywithmetillIleftGenoa,andshewasasmuchastonishedatthisasI
was。
"Bekindenoughtotellher,"saidItothemarquis,"thatVeroniquehasanticipatedherwishesandhasgothersisterAnnettetostaywithher。"
"Twoarealwaysbetterthanone,mydearfellow,"repliedthecraftyGenoese。
Aftertheseremarksweleftthetwosisterstogetherandwentintomyroom,wherehesaid,——
"YourRosalieiscontented,andyououghttocongratulateyourselfonhavingmadeherhappy,asIamsureshewillbe。Theonlythingthatvexesmeisthatyoucan’tgoandseeheryourselfwithanydecency。"
"Youareinlovewithher,mylord。"
"IconfessthatIam,butIamanoldman,anditvexesme。"
"That’snomatter,shewillloveyoutenderly;andifPetrieverbecomesherhusband,Iamsureshewillneverbeanythingmorethanagoodfriendtohim。WritetomeatFlorenceandtellmehowshereceiveshim。"
"Stayhereforanotherthreedays;thetwobeautiestherewillmakethetimeseemshort。"
"It’sexactlyforthatreasonthatIwanttogotomorrow。IamafraidofVeronique。"
"Ishouldn’thavethoughtthatyouwouldhaveallowedanywomantofrightenyou。"
"Iamafraidshehascastherfatalnetsaroundme,andwhenthetimecomesshewillbestrictlymoral。Rosalieismyonlylove。"
"Well,here’saletterfromher。"
Iwentaparttoreadtheletter,thesightofwhichmademyheartbeatviolently;itranasfollows:
"Dearest,——Iseeyouhaveplacedmeinthehandsofonewhowillcareformelikeafather。ThisisanewkindnesswhichIowetothegoodnessofyourheart。Iwillwritetoyouatwhateveraddressyousendme。IfyoulikeVeronique,mydarling,donotfearanyjealousyfromme;Ishouldbewrongtoentertainsuchafeelinginmypresentposition。Iexpectthatifyoumakemuchofhershewillnotbeabletoresist,andIshallbegladtohearthatsheislesseningyoursadness。Ihopeyouwillwritemeafewlinesbeforeyougo。"
Iwentuptothemarquisandtoldhimtoreadit。Heseemedgreatlymoved。
"Yes,"saidhe,"thedeargirlwillfindinmeherfriendandfather,andifshemarriesmygodsonandhedoesnottreatherasheought,hewillnotpossessherlong。Ishallrememberherinmywill,andthuswhenIamdeadmycarewillstillcontinue。ButwhatdoyouthinkofheradviceastoVeronique?Idon’texpectsheisexactlyavestalvirgin,thoughIhaveneverheardanythingagainsther。"
Ihadorderedthatthetableshouldbelaidforfour,soAnnettesatdownwithoutourhavingtoaskher。LeDucappearedonthescene,andItoldhimthatifhewereillhemightgotobed。
"Iamquitewell,"saidhe。
"Iamgladtohearit;butdon’ttroublenow,youshallwaitonmewhenIamatLeghorn。"
IsawthatVeroniquewasdelightedatmysendinghimaway,andI
resolvedthenandtheretolaysiegetoherheart。Ibeganbytalkingtoherinaverymeaningmannerallsupper—time,whilethemarquisentertainedAnnette。IaskedhimifhethoughtIcouldgetafeluccanextdaytotakemetoLerici。
"Yes,"saidhe,"wheneveryoulikeandwithasmanyoarsmenasyouplease;butIhopeyouwillputoffyourdeparturefortwoorthreedays。"
"No,"Ireplied,oglingVeronique,"thedelaymightcostmetoodear。"
Theslypussansweredwithasmilethatshewedsheunderstoodmymeaning。
WhenwerosefromthetableIamusedmyselfwithAnnette,andthemarquiswithVeronique。Afteraquarterofanhourhecameandsaidtome,——
"Certainpersonshaveaskedmetobegyoutostayafewdayslonger,oratleasttosuphereto—morrownight。"
"Verygood。Wewilltalkofthefewdaysmoreatsupperto—
morrow。"
"Victory!"saidthemarquis;andVeroniqueseemedverygratefultomeforgrantingherrequest。Whenourguestwasgone,IaskedmynewhousekeeperifImightsendCostatobed。
"Asmysisteriswithme,therecanbenogroundforanysuspicion。"
"Iamdelightedthatyouconsent;nowIamgoingtotalktoyou。"
Sheproceededtodomyhair,butshegavenoanswertomysoftspeeches。WhenIwasonthepointofgettingintobedshewishedmegoodnight,andItriedtokissherbywayofreturn。Sherepulsedmeandrantothedoor,muchtomysurprise。Shewasgoingtoleavetheroom,whenIaddressedherinavoiceofgravepoliteness。
"Ibegyouwillstay;Iwanttospeaktoyou;comeandsitbyme。
Whyshouldyourefusemeapleasurewhichafterallisameremarkoffriendship?"
"Because,thingsbeingastheyare,wecouldnotremainfriends,neithercouldwebelovers。"
"Lovers!whynot,weareperfectlyfree"
"Iamnotfree;Iamboundbycertainprejudiceswhichdonottroubleyou。"
"Ishouldhavethoughtyouweresuperiortoprejudices。"
"Therearesomeprejudiceswhichawomanoughttorespect。Thesuperiorityyoumentionisapitifulthing;alwaysthedupeofitself。Whatwouldbecomeofme,Ishouldliketoknow,ifI
abandonedmyselftothefeelingsIhaveforyou?"
"Iwaswaitingforyoutosaythat,dearVeronique。Whatyoufeelformeisnotlove。Ifitwereso,youwouldfeelasIdo,andyouwouldsoonbreakthebondsofprejudice。"
"Iconfessthatmyheadisnotquiteturnedyet,butstillIfeelthatIshallgrieveatyourdeparture。"
"Ifso,thatisnofaultofmine。ButtellmewhatIcandoforyouduringmyshortstayhere。"
"Nothing;wedonotknowoneanotherwellenough。"
"Iunderstandyou,butIwouldhaveyouknowthatIdonotintendtomarryanywomanwhoisnotmyfriend。"
"Youmeanyouwillnotmarryhertillyouhaveceasedtobeherlover?"
"Exactly。"
"YouwouldliketofinishwhereIwouldbegin。"
"Youmaybehappysomeday,butyouplayforhighstakes。"
"Well,well,it’sacaseofwinallorloseall。"
"That’sasmaybe。Butwithoutfurtherargumentitseemstomethatwecouldsafelyenjoyourlove,andpassmanyhappymomentsundisturbedbyprejudice。"
"Possibly,butonegetsburntfingersatthatgame,andIshudderattheverythoughtofit。No,no;leavemealone,thereismysisterwhowillwonderwhyIaminyourarms。"
"Verygood;IseeIwasmistaken,andRosalietoo。"
"Whywhatdidshethinkaboutme?"
"Shewroteandtoldmethatshethoughtyouwouldbekind。"
"Ihopeshe’mayn’thavetorepentforhavingbeentookindherself。"
"Goodbye,Veronique。"
Ifeltvexedathavingmadethetrial,forinthesemattersonealwaysfeelsangryatfailure。IdecidedIwouldleaveherandherprecepts,trueorfalse,alone;butwhenIawokeinthemorningandsawhercomingtomybedwithapleasantsmileonherface,Isuddenlychangedmymind。IhadsleptuponmyangerandI
wasinloveagain。Ithoughtshehadrepented,andthatIshouldbevictoriouswhenIattackedheragain。Iputonasmilemyselfandbreakfastedgailywithherandhersister。Ibehavedinthesamewayatdinner;andthegeneralhighspiritswhichM。deGrimaldifoundprevailingintheevening,madehimthink,doubtless,thatweweregettingonwell,andhecongratulatedus。
Veroniquebehavedexactlyasifthemarquishadguessedthetruth,andIfeltsureofhavingheraftersupper,andintheecstasyofthethoughtIpromisedtostayforfourdayslonger。
"Bravo,Veronique!"saidthemarquis,"that’stheway。Youareintendedbynaturetoruleyourloverswithanabsolutesway。"
Ithoughtshewouldsaysomethingtodiminishthemarquis’scertaintythattherewasanagreementbetweenus,butshedidnothingofthesort,seemingtoenjoyhertriumphwhichmadeherappearmorebeautifulthanever;whilstIlookedatherwiththesubmissivegazeofacaptivewhogloriesin,hischain。Itookherbehaviourasanomenofmyapproachingconquest,anddidnotspeaktoM。deGrimaldialonelesthemightaskmequestionswhichIshouldnotcaretoanswer。Hetoldusbeforehewentawaythathewasengagedonthemorrow,andsocouldnotcometoseeustillthedayafter。
AssoonaswewerealoneVeroniquesaidtome,"YouseehowIletpeoplebelievewhattheyplease;Ihadratherbethoughtkind,asyoucallit,thanridiculous,asanhonestgirlistermednow—a—
days。Isitnotso?"
"No,dearVeronique,Iwillnevercallyouridiculous,butIshallthinkyouhatemeifyoumakemepassanothernightintorture。
Youhaveinflamedme。"
"Oh,praybequiet!Forpity’ssakeleavemealone!Iwillnotinflameyouanymore。Oh!Oh!"
Ihadenragedherbythrustingadaringhandintotheverydoorofthesanctuary。Sherepulsedmeandfled。Threeorfourminuteslaterhersistercametoundressme。ItoldhergentlytogotobedasIhadtowriteforthreeorfourhours;butnotcaringthatsheshouldcomeonabootlesserrandIopenedaboxandgaveherawatch。Shetookitmodestly,saying,——
"Thisisformysister,Isuppose?"
"No,dearAnnette,it’sforyou。"
Shegaveaskipofdelight,andIcouldnotpreventherkissingmyhand。
IproceededtowriteRosaliealetteroffourpages。Ifeltworriedanddispleasedwithmyselfandeveryoneelse。Itoreupmyletterwithoutreadingitover,andmakinganefforttocalmmyselfIwroteheranotherlettermoresubduedthanthefirst,inwhichIsaidnothingofVeronique,butinformedmyfairreclusethatIwasgoingonthedayfollowing。
Ididnotgotobedtillverylate,feelingoutoftemperwiththeworld。IconsideredthatIhadfailedinmydutytoVeronique,whethershelovedmeornot,forIlovedherandIwasamanofhonour。Ihadabadnight,andwhenIawokeitwasnoon,andonringingCostaandAnnetteappeared。TheabsenceofVeroniqueshewedhowIhadoffendedher。WhenCostahadlefttheroomI
askedAnnetteafterhersister,andshesaidthatshewasworking。
Iwroteheranote,inwhichIbeggedherpardon,promisingthatI
wouldneveroffendheragain,andbegginghertoforgeteverythingandtobejustthesameasbefore。Iwastakingmycoffeewhenshecameintomyroomwithanexpressionofmortificationwhichgrievedmeexcessively。
"Forgeteverything,Ibeg,andIwilltroubleyounomore。Givememybuckles,asIamgoingforacountrywalk,andIshallnotbeintillsuppertime。Ishalldoubtlessgetanexcellentappetite,andasyouhavenothingmoretofearyouneednottroubletosendmeAnnetteagain。"
Idressedmyselfinhaste,andleftthetownbythefirstroadthatcameinmyway,andIwalkedfastfortwohourswiththeintentionoftiringmyself,andofthusreadjustingthebalancebetweenmindandbody。Ihavealwaysfoundthatsevereexerciseandfreshairarethebestcureforanymentalperturbation。
Ihadwalkedformorethanthreeleagueswhenhungerandwearinessmademestopatavillageinn,whereIhadanomelettecooked。I
ateithungrilywithbrownbreadandwine,whichseemedtomedeliciousthoughitwasrathersharp。
IfelttootiredtowalkbacktoGenoa,soIaskedforacarriage;
buttherewasnosuchthingtobehad。Theinn—keeperprovidedmewithasorrynagandamantoguideme。Darknesswascomingon,andwehadmorethansixmilestodo。FinerainbegantofallwhenIstarted,andcontinuedalltheway,sothatIgothomebyeighto’clockwettotheskin,shiveringwithcold,deadtired,andinasoreplightfromtheroughsaddle,againstwhichmysatinbreecheswerenoprotection。Costahelpedmetochangemyclothes,andashewentoutAnnettecamein。
"Whereisyoursister?"
"Sheisinbedwithabadheadache。Shegavemealetterforyou;
hereitis。"
"IhavebeenobligedtogotobedonaccountofasevereheadachetowhichIamsubject。Ifeelbetteralready,andIshallbeabletowaitonyouto—morrow。Itellyouasmuch,becauseIdonotwishyoutothinkthatmyillnessisfeigned。Iamsurethatyourrepentanceforhavinghumiliatedmeissincere,andIhopeinyourturnthatyouwillforgivemeorpityme,ifmywayofthinkingpreventsmefromconformingtoyours。"
"Annettedear,goandaskyoursisterifshewouldlikeustosupinherroom。"
ShesooncamebacktellingmethatVeroniquewasobliged,butbeggedmetolethersleep。
IsuppedwithAnnette,andwasgladtoseethat,thoughsheonlydrankwater,herappetitewasbetterthanmine。Mypassionforhersisterpreventedmethinkingofher,butIfeltthatAnnettewouldotherwisehavetakenmyfancy。Whenweweretakingdessert,Iconceivedtheideaofmakingherdrunktogethertalkofhersister,soIgaveheraglassofLunelmuscat。
"Ionlydrinkwater,sir。"
"Don’tyoulikewine?"
"Yes,butasIamnotusedtoitIamafraidofitsgettingintomyhead。"
"Thenyoucangotobed;youwillsleepallthebetter。"
Shedrankthefirstglass,whichsheenjoyedimmensely,thenasecond,andthenathird。Herlittlebrainswereinsomeconfusionwhenshehadfinishedthethirdglass。Imadehertalkabouthersister,andinperfectfaithshetoldmeallthegoodimaginable。
"ThenyouareveryfondofVeronique?"saidI。
"Oh,yes!Iloveherwithallmyheart,butshewillnotletmecaressher。"
"Nodoubtsheisafraidofyourceasingtoloveher。Butdoyouthinksheoughttomakemesufferso?"
"No,butifyouloveheryououghttoforgiveher。"
Annettewasstillquitereasonable。Imadeherdrinkafourthglassofmuscat,butaninstantaftershetoldmethatshecouldnotseeanything,andwerosefromthetable。Annettebegantopleasemealittletoomuch,butIdeterminednottomakeanyattemptsuponherforfearoffindinghertoosubmissive。A
littleresistancesharpenstheappetite,whilefavoursgrantedwithtoomucheaseloseagreatdealoftheircharm。Annettewasonlyfourteen,shehadasoftheart,noknowledgeoftheworldorherownrights,andshewouldnothaveresistedmyembracesforfearofbeingrude。ThatsortofthingwouldonlypleasearichandvoluptuousTurk。
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