Myvisitproveduseless;heknewnothing,andIdidnotenlightenhisignorance。HetoldmeagreatmanylieswhichIpretendedtoacceptasgospel,andgivinghimtwosequinsIwentaway,wishinghimapromptrelease。
Iwasrackingmybraintocontrivesomewaytoknowthepositionofmymistress——forIfeltcertainitwasafearfulone——andbelievinghertobeunhappyIreproachedmyselfmostbitterlyasthecauseofhermisery。IhadreachedsuchastateofanxietythatIcouldneithereatnorsleep。
Twodaysaftertherefusalofthefather,M。deBragadinandhistwofriendswenttoPaduaforamonth。Ihadnothadthehearttogowiththem,andIwasaloneinthehouse。IneededconsolationandI
wenttothegaming—table,butIplayedwithoutattentionandlostagreatdeal。IhadalreadysoldwhateverIpossessedofanyvalue,andIowedmoneyeverywhere。Icouldexpectnoassistanceexceptfrommythreekindfriends,butshamepreventedmefromconfessingmypositiontothem。Iwasinthatdispositionwhichleadseasilytoself—destruction,andIwasthinkingofitasIwasshavingmyselfbeforeatoilet—glass,whentheservantbroughttomyroomawomanwhohadaletterforme。Thewomancameuptome,and,handingmetheletter,shesaid,"Areyouthepersontowhomitisaddressed?"
IrecognizedatonceasealwhichIhadgiventoC————C————;I
thoughtIwoulddropdowndead。Inordertorecovermycomposure,I
toldthewomantowait,andtriedtoshavemyself,butmyhandrefusedtoperformitsoffice。Iputtherazordown,turnedmybackonthemessenger,andopeningtheletterIreadthefollowinglines,"BeforeIcanwriteallIhavetosay,Imustbesureofmymessenger。Iamboardinginaconvent,andamverywelltreated,andIenjoyexcellenthealthinspiteoftheanxietyofmymind。Thesuperiorhasbeeninstructedtoforbidmeallvisitorsandcorrespondence。Iam,however,alreadycertainofbeingabletowritetoyou,notwithstandingtheseverystrictorders。Ientertainnodoubtofyourgoodfaith,mybelovedhusband,andIfeelsurethatyouwillneverdoubtaheartwhichiswhollyyours。Trusttomefortheexecutionofwhateveryoumaywishmetodo,forIamyoursandonlyyours。Answeronlyafewwordsuntilwearequitecertainofourmessenger。
"Muran,June12th。"
Inlessthanthreeweeksmyyoungfriendhadbecomeaclevermoralist;itistruethatLovehadbeenherteacher,andLovealonecanworkmiracles。AsIconcludedthereadingofherletter,Iwasinthestateofacriminalpardonedatthefootofthescaffold。I
requiredseveralminutesbeforeIrecoveredtheexerciseofmywillandmypresenceofmind。
Iturnedtowardsthemessenger,andaskedherifshecouldread。
"Ah,sir!ifIcouldnotread,itwouldbeagreatmisfortuneforme。TherearesevenwomenappointedfortheserviceofthenunsofMuran。OneofuscomesinturntoVeniceonceaweek;IcomeeveryWednesday,andthisdayweekIshallbeabletobringyouananswertotheletterwhich,ifyoulike,youcanwritenow。"
"Thenyoucantakechargeofthelettersentrustedtoyoubythenuns?"
"Thatisnotsupposedtobeoneofourdutiesbutthefaithfuldeliveryoflettersbeingthemostimportantofthecommissionscommittedtoourcare,weshouldnotbetrustedifwecouldnotreadtheaddressofthelettersplacedinourhands。ThenunswantedtobesurethatweshallnotgivetoPetertheletteraddressedtoPaul。
Thegoodmothersarealwaysafraidofourbeingguiltyofsuchblunders。ThereforeIshallbehereagain,withoutfail,thisdayweekatthesamehour,butpleasetoorderyourservanttowakeyouincaseyoushouldbeasleep,forourtimeismeasuredasifitweregold。Aboveall,relyentirelyuponmydiscretionaslongasyouemployme;forifIdidnotknowhowtokeepasilenttongueinmyheadIshouldlosemybread,andthenwhatwouldbecomeofme——
awidowwithfourchildren,aboyeightyearsold,andthreeprettygirls,theeldestofwhomisonlysixteen?YoucanseethemwhenyoucometoMuran。Ilivenearthechurch,onthegardenside,andIamalwaysathomewhenIamnotengagedintheserviceofthenuns,whoarealwayssendingmeononecommissionoranother。Theyounglady——
Idonotknowhernameyet,forshehasonlybeenoneweekwithus——
gavemethisletter,butsocleverly!Oh!shemustbeaswittyassheispretty,forthreenunswhoweretherewerecompletelybamboozled。Shegaveittomewiththisotherletterformyself,whichIlikewiseleaveinyourhands。Poorchild!shetellsmetobediscreet!Sheneednotbeafraid。Writetoher,Ientreatyou,sir,thatshecantrustme,andanswerboldly。Iwouldnottellyoutoactinthesamemannerwithalltheothermessengersoftheconvent,althoughIbelievethemtobehonest——andGodforbidIshouldspeakillofmyfellow—creature——buttheyareallignorant,yousee;anditiscertainthattheybabble,atleast,withtheirconfessors,ifwithnobodyelse。Asforme,thankGod!IknowverywellthatIneednotconfessanythingbutmysins,andsurelytocarryaletterfromaChristianwomantoherbrotherinChristisnotasin。Besides,myconfessorisagoodoldmonk,quitedeaf,Ibelieve,fortheworthymanneveranswersme;butthatishisbusiness,notmine!"
Ihadnotintendedtoaskheranyquestions,butifsuchhadbeenmyintentionshewouldnothavegivenmetimetocarryitintoexecution;andwithoutmyaskingheranything,shewastellingmeeverythingIcaredtoknow,andshedidsoinheranxietyformetoavailmyselfofherservicesexclusively。
Iimmediatelysatdowntowritetomydearrecluse,intendingatfirsttowriteonlyafewlines,asshehadrequestedme;butmytimewastooshorttowritesolittle。Myletterwasascreedoffourpages,andverylikelyitsaidlessthanhernoteofoneshortpage。
Itoldherherletterhadsavedmylife,andaskedherwhetherI
couldhopetoseeher。IinformedherthatIhadgivenasequintothemessenger,thatshewouldfindanotherforherselfunderthesealofmyletter,andthatIwouldsendherallthemoneyshemightwant。
IentreatedhernottofailwritingeveryWednesday,tobecertainthatherletterswouldneverbelongenoughtogivemefullparticulars,notonlyofallshedid,ofallshewasallowedtodo,butalsoofallherthoughtsrespectingherreleasefromimprisonment,andtheovercomingofalltheobstacleswhichwereinthewayofourmutualhappiness;forIwasasmuchhersasshewasmine。Ihintedtoherthenecessityofgainingtheloveofallthenunsandboarders,butwithouttakingthemintoherconfidence,andofshewingnodislikeofherconventlife。Afterpraisingherfortheclevermannerinwhichshehadcontrivedtowritetome,inspiteofsuperiororders,Imadeherunderstandhowcarefulshewastobetoavoidbeingsurprisedwhileshewaswriting,becauseinsuchacaseherroomwouldcertainlybesearchedandallherpapersseized。
"Burnallmyletters,darling,"Iadded,"andrecollectthatyoumustgotoconfessionoften,butwithoutimplicatingourlove。Sharewithmeallyoursorrows,whichinterestmeevenmorethanyourjoys。"
Isealedmyletterinsuchamannerthatnoonecouldpossiblyguessthattherewasasequinhiddenunderthesealingwax,andIrewardedthewoman,promisingherthatIwouldgiveherthesamerewardeverytimethatshebroughtmealetterfrommyfriend。WhenshesawthesequinwhichIhadputinherhandthegoodwomancriedforjoy,andshetoldmethat,asthegatesoftheconventwereneverclosedforher,shewoulddelivermyletterthemomentshefoundtheyoungladyalone。
HereisthenotewhichC————C————hadgiventothewoman,withtheletteraddressedtome:
"GodHimself,mygoodwoman,promptsmetohaveconfidenceinyouratherthaninanybodyelse。TakethislettertoVenice,andshouldthepersontowhomitisaddressednotbeinthecity,bringitbacktome。Youmustdeliverittothatpersonhimself,andifyoufindhimyouwillmostlikelyhaveananswer,whichyoumustgiveme,butonlywhenyouarecertainthatnobodycanseeyou。"
IfLoveisimprudent,itisonlyinthehopeofenjoyment;butwhenitisnecessarytobringbackhappinessdestroyedbysomeuntowardaccident,Loveforeseesallthatthekeenestperspicacitycouldpossiblyfindout。Theletterofmycharmingwifeoverwhelmedmewithjoy,andinonemomentIpassedfromastateofdespairtothatofextremefelicity。IfeltcertainthatIshouldsucceedincarryingheroffevenifthewallsoftheconventcouldboastofartillery,andafterthedepartureofthemessengermyfirstthoughtwastoendeavourtospendthesevendays,beforeIcouldreceivethesecondletter,pleasantly。Gamblingalonecoulddoit,buteverybodyhadgonetoPadua。Igotmytrunkready,andimmediatelysentittotheburchiellothenreadytostart,andIleftforFrusina。FromthatplaceIposted,andinlessthanthreehoursIarrivedatthedooroftheBragadinPalace,whereIfoundmydearprotectoronthepointofsittingdowntodinner。Heembracedmeaffectionately,andseeingmecoveredwithperspirationhesaidtome,"Iamcertainthatyouareinnohurry。"
"No,"Ianswered,"butIamstarving。"
Ibroughtjoytothebrotherlytrio,andIenhancedtheirhappinesswhenItoldmyfriendsthatIwouldremainsixdayswiththem。DelaHayedinedwithusonthatday;assoonasdinnerwasoverheclosetedhimselfwithM。Dandoio,andfortwohourstheyremainedtogether。Ihadgonetobedduringthattime,butM。DandolocameuptomeandtoldmethatIhadarrivedjustintimetoconsulttheoraclerespectinganimportantaffairentirelyprivatetohimself。
Hegavemethequestions,andrequestedmetofindtheanswers。HewantedtoknowwhetherhewouldactrightlyifheacceptedaprojectproposedtohimbyDelaHaye。
Theoracleanswerednegatively。
M。Dandolo,rathersurprised,askedasecondquestion:hewishedParalistogivehisreasonsforthedenial。
Iformedthecabalisticpile,andbroughtoutthisanswer:
"IaskedCasanova’sopinion,andasIfinditopposedtotheproposalmadebyDelaHaye,Idonotwishtohearanymoreaboutit。"
Oh!wonderfulpowerofself—delusion!Thisworthyman,pleasedatbeingabletothrowtheodiumofarefusalonme,leftmeperfectlysatisfied。Ihadnoideaofthenatureoftheaffairtowhichhehadbeenalluding,andIfeltnocuriosityaboutit;butitannoyedmethataJesuitshouldinterfereandtrytomakemyfriendsdoanythingotherwisethanthroughmyinstrumentality,andIwantedthatintriguertoknowthatmyinfluencewasgreaterthanhisown。
Afterthat,Idressed,maskedmyself,andwenttotheopera,whereI
satdowntoafaro—tableandlostallmymoney。Fortunewasdeterminedtoshewmethatitdoesnotalwaysagreewithlove。Myheartwasheavy,Ifeltmiserable;Iwenttobed。WhenIwokeinthemorning,IsawDelaHayecomeintomyroomwithabeamingcountenance,and,assuminganairofdevotedfriendship,hemadeagreatshowofhisfeelingstowardsme。Iknewwhattothinkofitall,andIwaitedforthe’denouement’。
"Mydearfriend,"hesaidtomeatlast,"whydidyoudissuadeM。DandolofromdoingwhatIhadinsinuatedtohim。?"
"Whathadyouinsinuatedtohim?"
"Youknowwellenough。"
"IfIknewit,Iwouldnotaskyou"
"M。Dandolohimselftoldmethatyouhadadvisedhimagainstit。"
"Advisedagainst,thatmaybe,butcertainlynotdissuaded,forifhehadbeenpersuadedinhisownmindhewouldnothaveaskedmyadvice。"
"Asyouplease;butmayIenquireyourreasons?"
"Tellmefirstwhatyourproposalwas。"
"Hashenottoldyou?"
"Perhapshehas;butifyouwishtoknowmyreasons,Imusthearthewholeaffairfromyourownlips,becauseM。Dandolospoketomeunderapromiseofsecrecy。"
"Ofwhatgoodisallthisreserve?"
"Everyonehashisownprinciplesandhisownwayofthinking:IhaveasufficientlygoodopinionofyoutobelievethatyouwouldactexactlyasIdo,forIhaveheardyousaythatinallsecretmattersoneoughttoguardagainstsurprise。"
"Iamincapableoftakingsuchanadvantageofafriend;butasageneralruleyourmaximisarightone;Ilikeprudence。Iwilltellyouthewholeaffair。YouareawarethatMadameTripolohasbeenleftawidow,andthatM。Dandoloiscourtingherassiduously,afterhavingdonethesameforfourteenyearsduringthelifeofthehusband。Thelady,whoisstillyoung,beautifulandlovely,andalsoisveryrespectable,wishestobecomehiswife。Itistomethatshehasconfidedherwishes,andasIsawnothingthatwasnotpraiseworthy,eitherinatemporalorinaspiritualpointofview,inthatunion,forafterallweareallmen,Itooktheaffairinhandwithrealpleasure。IfanciedeventhatM。Dandolofeltsomeinclinationforthatmarriagewhenhetoldmethathewouldgivemehisdecisionthismorning。Iamnotastonishedathishavingaskedyouradviceinsuchanimportantaffair,foraprudentmanisrightinaskingtheopinionofawisefriendbeforetakingadecisivestep;
butImusttellyoucandidlythatIamastonishedatyourdisapprovalofsuchamarriage。Prayexcusemeif,inordertoimprovebytheinformation,Iaskwhyyouropinionisexactlythereverseofmine。"
Delightedathavingdiscoveredthewholeaffair,athavingarrivedintimetopreventmyfriendwhowasgoodnessitselfcontractinganabsurdmarriage,IansweredthehypocritethatIlovedM。Dandolo,thatIknewhistemperament,andthatIwascertainthatamarriagewithawomanlikeMadameTripolowouldshortenhislife。
"Thatbeingmyopinion,"Iadded,"youmustadmitthatasatruefriendIwasrightinadvisinghimagainstyourproposal。Doyourecollecthavingtoldmethatyounevermarriedfortheverysamereason?DoyourecollectyourstrongargumentsinfavourofcelibacywhilewewereatParma?Consideralso,Ibeg,thateverymanhasacertainsmallstockofselfishness,andthatImaybeallowedtohaveminewhenIthinkthatifM。Dandolotookawifetheinfluenceofthatwifewouldofcoursehavesomeweight,andthatthemoreshegainedininfluenceoverhimthemoreIshouldlose。Soyouseeitwouldnotbenaturalformetoadvisehimtotakeastepwhichwouldultimatelyproveverydetrimentaltomyinterests。Ifyoucanprovethatmyreasonsareeithertriflingorsophistical,speakopenly:I
willtellM。Dandolothatmymindhaschanged;MadameTripolowillbecomehiswifewhenwereturntoVenice。Butletmewarnyouthatthoroughconvictioncanalonemoveme。"
"Idonotbelievemyselfcleverenoughtoconvinceyou。IshallwritetoMadameTripolothatshemustapplytoyou。"
"Donotwriteanythingofthesorttothatlady,orshewillthinkthatyouarelaughingather。DoyousupposeherfoolishenoughtoexpectthatIwillgivewaytoherwishes?SheknowsthatIdonotlikeher。"
"Howcanshepossiblyknowthat?"
"ShemusthaveremarkedthatIhavenevercaredtoaccompanyM。Dandolotoherhouse。Learnfrommeonceforall,thataslongasIlivewithmythreefriendstheyshallhavenowifebutme。Youmaygetmarriedassoonasyouplease;Ipromisenottothrowanyobstacleinyourway;butifyouwishtoremainonfriendlytermswithmegiveupallideaofleadingmythreefriendsastray。"
"Youareverycausticthismorning。"
"Ilostallmymoneylastnight。
"ThenIhavechosenabadtime。Farewell。"
>Fromthatday,DelaHayebecamemysecretenemy,andtohimIwasinagreatmeasureindebted,twoyearslater,formyimprisonmentunderTheLeadsofVenice;notowingtohisslanders,forIdonotbelievehewascapableofthat,Jesuitthoughhewas——andevenamongstsuchpeoplethereissometimessomehonourablefeeling——butthroughthemysticalinsinuationswhichhemadeinthepresenceofbigotedpersons。Imustgivefairnoticetomyreadersthat,iftheyarefondofsuchpeople,theymustnotreadtheseMemoirs,fortheybelongtoatribewhichIhavegoodreasontoattackunmercifully。
Thefinemarriagewasneveragainalludedto。M。Dandolocontinuedtovisithisbeautifulwidoweveryday,andItookcaretoelicitfromParalisastronginterdictionevertoputmyfootinherhouse。
DonAntonioCroce,ayoungMilanesewhomIhadknowninReggio,aconfirmedgambler,andadownrightcleverhandinsecuringthefavoursofDameFortune,calledonmeafewminutesafterDelaHayehadretired。Hetoldmethat,havingseenmeloseallmymoneythenightbefore,hehadcometooffermethemeansofretrievingmylosses,ifIwouldtakeanequalinterestwithhiminafarobankthathemeanttoholdathishouse,andinwhichhewouldhaveaspunterssevenoreightrichforeignerswhowerecourtinghiswife。
"Ifyouwillputthreehundredsequinsinmybank,"headded,"youshallbemypartner。Ihavethreehundredsequinsmyself,butthatisnotenoughbecausethepuntersplayhigh。Comeanddineatmyhouse,andyouwillmaketheiracquaintance。WecanplaynextFridayastherewillbenoopera,andyoumayrelyuponourwinningplentyofgold,foracertainGilenspetz,aSwede,maylosetwentythousandsequins。"
Iwaswithoutanyresources,oratalleventsIcouldexpectnoassistanceexceptfromM。deBragadinuponwhomIfeltashamedofencroaching。IwaswellawarethattheproposalmadebyCrocewasnotstrictlymoral,andthatImighthavechosenamorehonourablesociety;butifIhadrefused,thepurseofMadameCroce’sadmirerswouldnothavebeenmoremercifullytreated;anotherwouldhaveprofitedbythatstrokeofgoodfortune。Iwasthereforenotrigidenoughtorefusemyassistanceasadjutantandmyshareofthepie;I
acceptedCroce’sinvitation。
CHAPTERXIV
IGetRichAgain——MyAdventureAtDolo——AnalysisofaLongLetter>FromC。C。——MischievousTrickPlayedUponMeByP。C。——AtVincenza——ATragi—comedyAttheInnNecessity,thatimperiouslawandmyonlyexcuse,havingmademealmostthepartnerofacheat,therewasstillthedifficultyoffindingthethreehundredsequinsrequired;butIpostponedthetaskoffindingthemuntilafterIshouldhavemadetheacquaintanceofthedupesofthegoddesstowhomtheyaddressedtheirworship。CrocetookmetothePratodeltaValle,wherewefoundmadamesurroundedwithforeigners。Shewaspretty;andasasecretaryoftheimperialambassador,CountRosemberg,hadattachedhimselftoher,notoneoftheVenetiannoblesdaredcourther。ThosewhointerestedmeamongthesatellitesgravitatingaroundthatstarweretheSwedeGilenspetz,aHamburger,theEnglishmanMendez,whohasalreadybeenmentioned,andthreeorfourotherstowhoreCrocecalledmyattention。
Wedinedalltogether,andafterdinnertherewasageneralcallforafarobank;butCrocedidnotaccept。Hisrefusalsurprisedme,becausewiththreehundredsequins,beingaveryskilfulplayer,hehadenoughtotryhisfortune。Hedidnot,however,allowmysuspicionstolastlong,forhetookmetohisownroomandshewedmefiftypiecesofeight,whichwereequaltothreehundredsequins。
WhenIsawthattheprofessionalgamblerhadnotchosenmeashispartnerwiththeintentionofmakingadupeofme,ItoldhimthatI
wouldcertainlyprocuretheamount,anduponthatpromiseheinvitedeverybodytosupperforthefollowingday。Weagreedthatwewoulddividethespoilsbeforepartingintheevening,andthatnooneshouldbeallowedtoplayontrust。
Ihadtoprocuretheamount,buttowhomcouldIapply?IcouldasknoonebutM。deBragadin。Theexcellentmanhadnotthatsuminhispossession,forhispursewasgenerallyempty;buthefoundausurer—
—aspeciesofanimaltoonumerousunfortunatelyforyoungmen——who,uponanoteofhandendorsedbyhim,gavemeathousandducats,atfivepercent。foronemonth,thesaidinterestbeingdeductedbyanticipationfromthecapital。ItwasexactlytheamountIrequired。
Iwenttothesupper;Croceheldthebankuntildaylight,andwedividedsixteenhundredsequinsbetweenus。Thegamecontinuedthenextevening,andGilenspetzalonelosttwothousandsequins;theJewMendezlostaboutonethousand。Sundaywassanctifiedbyrest,butonMondaythebankwonfourthousandsequins。OntheTuesdaywealldinedtogether,andtheplaywasresumed;butwehadscarcelybegunwhenanofficerofthepodestamadehisappearanceandinformedCrocethathewantedalittleprivateconversationwithhim。Theylefttheroomtogether,andafterashortabsenceCrocecamebackrathercrestfallen;heannouncedthatbysuperiorordershewasforbiddentoholdabankathishouse。Madamefaintedaway,thepuntershurriedout,andIfollowedtheirexample,assoonasIhadsecuredone—halfofthegoldwhichwasonthetable。Iwasgladenoughitwasnotworse。AsIleft,CrocetoldmethatwewouldmeetagaininVenice,forhehadbeenorderedtoquitPaduawithintwenty—fourhours。I
expecteditwouldbeso,becausehewastowellknown;buthisgreatestcrime,intheopinionofthepodesta,wasthatheattractedtheplayerstohisownhouse,whilsttheauthoritieswantedalltheloversofplaytolosetheirmoneyattheopera,wherethebankersweremostlynoblemenfromVenice。
Ileftthecityonhorsebackintheeveningandinverybadweather,butnothingcouldhavekeptmeback,becauseearlythenextmorningI
expectedaletterfrommydearprisoner。IhadonlytravelledsixmilesfromPaduawhenmyhorsefell,andIfoundmyleftlegcaughtunderit。Mybootsweresoftones,andIfearedIhadhurtmyself。
Thepostillionwasaheadofme,buthearingthenoisemadebythefallhecameupanddisengagedme;Iwasnothurt,butmyhorsewaslame。Iimmediatelytookthehorseofthepostillion,towhichIwasentitled,buttheinsolentfellowgettingholdofthebitrefusedtoletmeproceed。Itriedtomakehimunderstandthathewaswrong;
but,farfromgivingwaytomyarguments,hepersistedinstoppingme,andbeinginagreathurrytocontinuemyjourneyIfiredoneofmypistolsinhisface,butwithouttouchinghim。Frightenedoutofhiswits,themanletgo,andIgallopedoff。WhenIreachedtheDolo,Iwentstraighttothestables,andImyselfsaddledahorsewhichapostillion,towhomIgaveacrown,pointedouttomeasbeingexcellent。Noonethoughtofbeingastonishedatmyotherpostillionhavingremainedbehind,andwestartedatfullspeed。Itwasthenoneo’clockinthemorning;thestormhadbrokenuptheroad,andthenightwassodarkthatIcouldnotseeanythingwithinayardaheadofme;thedaywasbreakingwhenwearrivedinFusina。
Theboatmenthreatenedmewithafreshstorm;butsettingeverythingatdefianceItookafour—oaredboat,andreachedmydwellingquitesafebutshiveringwithcoldandwettotheskin。IhadscarcelybeeninmyroomforaquarterofanhourwhenthemessengerfromMuranpresentedherselfandgavemealetter,tellingmethatshewouldcallfortheanswerintwohours。Thatletterwasajournalofsevenpages,thefaithfultranslationofwhichmightwearymyreaders,buthereisthesubstanceofit:
AftertheinterviewwithM。deBragadin,thefatherofC————C————
hadgonehome,hadhiswifeanddaughtertohisroom,andenquiredkindlyfromthelastwhereshehadmademyacquaintance。Sheansweredthatshehadseenmefiveorsixtimesinherbrother’sroom,thatIhadaskedherwhethershewouldconsenttobemywife,andthatshehadtoldmethatshewasdependentuponherfatherandmother。Thefatherhadthensaidthatshewastooyoungtothinkofmarriage,andbesides,Ihadnotyetconqueredapositioninsociety。
Afterthatdecisionherepairedtohisson’sroom,andlockedthesmalldoorinsideaswellastheonecommunicatingwiththeapartmentofthemother,whowasinstructedbyhimtoletmebelievethatshehadgonetothecountry,incaseIshouldcallonher。
TwodaysafterwardshecametoC————C————,whowasbesidehersickmother,andtoldherthatherauntwouldtakehertoaconvent,whereshewastoremainuntilahusbandhadbeenprovidedforherbyherparents。Sheansweredthat,beingperfectlydisposedtosubmittohiswill,shewouldgladlyobeyhim。Pleasedwithherreadyobediencehepromisedtogoandseeher,andtolethismothervisitherlikewise,assoonasherhealthwasbetter。Immediatelyafterthatconversationtheaunthadcalledforher,andagondolahadtakenthemtotheconvent,whereshehadbeeneversince。Herbedandherclotheshadbeenbroughttoher;shewaswellpleasedwithherroomandwiththenuntowhomshehadbeenentrusted,andunderwhosesupervisionshewas。Itwasbyherthatshehadbeenforbiddentoreceiveeitherlettersorvisits,ortowritetoanybody,underpenaltyofexcommunicationfromtheHolyFather,ofeverlastingdamnation,andofothersimilartrifles;yetthesamenunhadsuppliedherwithpaper,inkandbooks,anditwasatnightthatmyyoungfriendtransgressedthelawsoftheconventinordertowritealltheseparticularstome。Sheexpressedherconvictionrespectingthediscretionandthefaithfulnessofthemessenger,andshethoughtthatshewouldremaindevoted,because,beingpoor,oursequinswerealittlefortuneforher。
Sherelatedtomeinthemostassuringmannerthatthehandsomestofallthenunsintheconventlovedhertodistraction,gaveheraFrenchlessontwicea—day,andhadamicablyforbiddenhertobecomeacquaintedwiththeotherboarders。Thatnunwasonlytwenty—twoyearsofage;shewasbeautiful,richandgenerous;alltheothernunsshewedhergreatrespect。"Whenwearealone,"wrotemyfriend,"shekissesmesotenderlythatyouwouldbejealousifshewerenotawoman。"Astoourprojectofrunningaway,shedidnotthinkitwouldbeverydifficulttocarryitintoexecution,butthatitwouldbebettertowaituntilsheknewthelocalitybetter。Shetoldmetoremainfaithfulandconstant,andaskedmetosendhermyportraithiddeninaringbyasecretspringknownonlytous。SheaddedthatImightsendittoherbyhermother,whohadrecoveredherusualhealth,andwasinthehabitofattendingearlymassatherparishchurcheverydaybyherself。Sheassuredmethattheexcellentwomanwouldbedelightedtoseeme,andtodoanythingImightaskher。
"Atallevents,"sheconcluded,"Ihopetofindmyselfinafewmonthsinapositionwhichwillscandalizetheconventiftheyareobstinatelybentuponkeepingmehere。"
IwasjustfinishingmyanswerwhenLaura,themessenger,returnedforit。AfterIhadpaidthesequinIhadpromisedher,Igaveheraparcelcontainingsealing—wax,paper,pens,andatinder—box,whichshepromisedtodelivertoC————C————。MydarlinghadtoldherthatIwashercousin,andLaurafeignedtobelieveit。
NotknowingwhattodoinVenice,andbelievingthatIoughtforthesakeofmyhonourtoshewmyselfinPadua,orelsepeoplemightsupposethatIhadreceivedthesameorderasCroce,Ihurriedmybreakfast,andprocureda’bolletta’fromthebooking—officeforRome;becauseIforesawthatthefiringofmypistolandthelamehorsemightnothaveimprovedthetemperofthepost—masters;butbyshewingthemwhatiscalledinItalya’bolletta’,Iknewthattheycouldnotrefusetosupplymewithhorseswhenevertheyhadanyintheirstables。Asfarasthepistol—shotwasconcernedIhadnofear,forIhadpurposelymissedtheinsolentpostillion;andevenifIhadkilledhimonthespotitwouldnothavebeenofmuchimportance。
InFusinaItookatwo—wheeledchaise,forIwassotiredthatI
couldnothaveperformedthejourneyonhorseback,andIreachedtheDolo,whereIwasrecognizedandhorseswererefusedme。
Imadeagooddealofnoise,andthepost—master,comingout,threatenedtohavemearrestedifIdidnotpayhimforhisdeadhorse。IansweredthatifthehorseweredeadIwouldaccountforittothepostmasterinPadua,butwhatIwantedwasfreshhorseswithoutdelay。
AndIshewedhimthedread’bolletta’,thesightofwhichmadehimlowerhistone;buthetoldmethat,evenifhesuppliedmewithhorses,Ihadtreatedthepostillionsobadlythatnotoneofhismenwoulddriveme。"Ifthatisthecase,"Ianswered,"youshallaccompanymeyourself。"Thefellowlaughedinmyface,turnedhisbackuponme,andwentaway。Itooktwowitnesses,andIcalledwiththemattheofficeofapublicnotary,whodrewupaproperly—wordeddocument,bywhichIgavenoticetothepost—masterthatIshouldexpectanindemnityoftensequinsforeachhourofdelayuntilIhadhorsessuppliedtome。
Assoonashehadbeenmadeacquaintedwiththecontentsofthis,hegaveorderstobringouttworestivehorses。Isawatoncethathisintentionwastohavemeupsetalongtheroad,andperhapsthrownintotheriver;butIcalmlytoldthepostillionthatattheverymomentmychaisewasupsetIwouldblowhisbrainsoutwithapistol—
shot;thisthreatfrightenedtheman;hetookhishorsesbacktothestables,anddeclaredtohismasterthathewouldnotdriveme。Atthatverymomentacourierarrived,whocalledforsixcarriagehorsesandtwosaddleones。Iwarnedthepost—masterthatnooneshouldleavetheplacebeforeme,andthatifheopposedmywilltherewouldbeasanguinarycontest;inordertoprovethatIwasinearnestItookoutmypistols。Thefellowbegantoswear,but,everyonesayingthathewasinthewrong,hedisappeared。
FiveminutesafterwardswhomshouldIsee,arrivinginabeautifulberlindrawnbysixhorses,butCrocewithhiswife,alady’smaid,andtwolackeysingrandlivery。Healighted,weembracedoneanother,andItoldhim,assuminganairofsadness,thathecouldnotleavebeforeme。Iexplainedhowthecasestood;hesaidIwasright,scoldedloudly,asifhehadbeenagreatlord,andmadeeverybodytremble。Thepostmasterhaddisappeared;hiswifecameandorderedthepostillionstoattendtomywants。DuringthattimeCrocesaidtomethatIwasquiterightingoingbacktoPadua,wherethepublicrumourhadspreadthereportofmyhavingleftthecityinconsequenceofanorderfromthepolice。HeinformedmethatthepodestahadlikewiseexpelledM。deGondoin,acolonelintheserviceoftheDukeofModena,becauseheheldafarobankathishouse。
IpromisedhimtopayhimavisitinVeniceintheensuingweek。
Croce,whohaddroppedfromtheskytoassistmeinamomentofgreatdistress,hadwontenthousandsequinsinfourevenings:Ihadreceivedfivethousandformyshare;andlostnotimeinpayingmydebtsandinredeemingallthearticleswhichIhadbeencompelledtopledge。ThatscampbroughtmebackthesmilesofFortune,andfromthatmomentIgotridoftheillluckwhichhadseemedtofastenonme。
IreachedPaduainsafety,andthepostillion,whoverylikelyoutoffearhaddrivenmeingoodstyle,waswellpleasedwithmyliberality;itwasthebestwayofmakingpeacewiththetribe。Myarrivalcausedgreatjoytomythreefriends,whommysuddendeparturehadalarmed,withtheexceptionofM。deBragadin,inwhosehandsIhadplacedmycash—boxthedaybefore。Histwofriendshadgivencredencetothegeneralreport,statingthatthepodestahadorderedmetoleavePadua。TheyforgotthatIwasacitizenofVenice,andthatthepodestacouldnotpasssuchasentenceuponmewithoutexposinghimselftolegalproceedings。Iwastired,butinsteadofgoingtobedIdressedmyselfinmybestattireinordertogototheoperawithoutamask。Itoldmyfriendsthatitwasnecessaryformetoshewmyself,soastogivethelietoallthathadbeenreportedaboutmebyslanderingtongues。DelaHayesaidtome,"Ishallbedelightedifallthosereportsarefalse;butyouhavenoonetoblamebutyourself,foryourhurrieddeparturegavesufficientcauseforallsortsofsurmises。"
"Andforslander。"
"Thatmaybe;butpeoplewanttoknoweverything,andtheyinventwhentheycannotguessthetruth。"
"Andevil—mindedfoolslosenotimeinrepeatingthoseinventionseverywhere。"
"Buttherecanbenodoubtthatyouwantedtokillthepostillion。
Isthatacalumnylikewise?"
"Thegreatestofall。Doyouthinkthatagoodshotcanmissamanwhenheisfiringinhisveryface,unlesshedoesitpurposely?"
"Itseemsdifficult;butatalleventsitiscertainthatthehorseisdead,andyoumustpayforit。"
"No,sir,notevenifthehorsebelongedtoyou,forthepostillionprecededme。Youknowagreatmanythings;doyouhappentoknowthepostingregulations?Besides,IwasinagreathurrybecauseIhadpromisedaprettywomantobreakfastwithher,andsuchengagements,asyouarewellaware,cannotbebroken。"
MasterdelaHayelookedangryattherathercausticironywithwhichIhadsprinkledthedialogue;buthewasstillmorevexedwhen,takingsomegoldoutofmypocket,IreturnedtohimthesumhehadlentmeinVienna。Amanneverargueswellexceptwhenhispurseiswellfilled;thenhisspiritsarepitchedinahighkey,unlessheshouldhappentobestupefiedbysomepassionraginginhissoul。
M。deBragadinthoughtIwasquiterighttoshewmyselfattheoperawithoutamask。
ThemomentImademyappearanceinthepiteverybodyseemedquiteastonished,andIwasoverwhelmedwithcompliments,sincereornot。
AfterthefirstballetIwenttothecard—room,andinfourdealsI
wonfivehundredsequins。Starving,andalmostdeadforwantofsleep,Ireturnedtomyfriendstoboastofmyvictory。MyfriendBavoiswasthere,andheseizedtheopportunitytoborrowfrommefiftysequins,whichheneverreturned;true,Ineveraskedhimforthem。
MythoughtsbeingconstantlyabsorbedinmydearC————C————,IspentthewholeofthenextdayinhavingmylikenesspaintedinminiaturebyaskilfulPiedmontese,whohadcomefortheFairofPadua,andwhoinaftertimesmadeagreatdealofmoneyinVenice。WhenhehadcompletedmyportraithepaintedformeabeautifulSt。Catherineofthesamesize,andacleverVenetianjewellermadethering,thebezelofwhichshewedonlythesaintedvirgin;butabluespot,hardlyvisibleonthewhiteenamelwhichsurroundedit,correspondedwiththesecretspringwhichbroughtoutmyportrait,andthechangewasobtainedbypressingonthebluespotwiththepointofapin。
OnthefollowingFriday,aswewererisingfromthedinner—table,aletterwashandedtome。ItwaswithgreatsurprisethatI
recognizedthewritingofP————C————。Heaskedmetopayhimavisitatthe"StarHotel,"wherehewouldgivemesomeinterestinginformation。Thinkingthathemighthavesomethingtosayconcerninghissister,Iwenttohimatonce。
IfoundhimwithMadameC————,andaftercongratulatinghimuponhisreleasefromprisonIaskedhimforthenewshehadtocommunicate。
"Iamcertain,"hesaid,"thatmysisterisinaconvent,andIshallbeabletotellyouthenameofitwhenIreturntoVenice。"
"Youwillobligeme,"Ianswered,pretendingnottoknowanything。
Buthisnewshadonlybeenapretexttomakemecometohim,andhiseagernesstocommunicateithadaverydifferentobjectinviewthanthegratificationofmycuriosity。
"Ihavesold,"hesaidtome,"myprivilegedcontractforthreeyearsforasumoffifteenthousandflorins,andthemanwithwhomIhavemadethebargaintookmeoutofprisonbygivingsecurityforme,andadvancedmesixthousandflorinsinfourlettersofexchange。"
Heshewedmethelettersofexchange,endorsedbyanamewhichIdidnotknow,butwhichhesaidwasaverygoodone,andhecontinued,"IintendtobuysixthousandflorinsworthofsilkgoodsfromtheloomsofVicenza,andtogiveinpaymenttothemerchantstheselettersofexchange。Iamcertainofsellingthosegoodsrapidlywithaprofitoftenpercent。ComewithustoVicenza;Iwillgiveyousomeofmygoodstotheamountoftwohundredsequins,andthusyouwillfindyourselfcoveredfortheguaranteewhichyouhavebeenkindenoughtogivetothejewellerforthering。Weshallcompletethetransactionwithintwenty—fourhours。"
Ididnotfeelmuchinclinationforthetrip,butIallowedmyselftobeblindedbythewishtocovertheamountwhichIhadguaranteed,andwhichIhadnodoubtIwouldbecalledupontopaysomedayorother。
"IfIdonotgowithhim,"Isaidtomyself"hewillsellthegoodsatalossoftwenty—fivepercent。,andIshallgetnothing。"
Ipromisedtoaccompanyhim。HeshewedmeseverallettersofrecommendationforthebesthousesinVicenza,andourdeparturewasfixedforearlythenextmorning。Iwasatthe"StarHotel"bydaybreak。Acarriageandfourwasready;thehotel—keepercameupwithhisbill,andP————C————beggedmetopayit。Thebillamountedtofivesequins;fourofwhichhadbeenadvancedincashbythelandlordtopaythedriverwhohadbroughtthemfromFusina。
Isawthatitwasaput—upthing,yetIpaidwithprettygoodgrace,forIguessedthatthescoundrelhadleftVenicewithoutapenny。WereachedVicenzainthreehours,andweputupatthe"Cappello,"
whereP————C————orderedagooddinnerbeforeleavingmewiththeladytocalluponthemanufacturers。
Whenthebeautyfoundherselfalonewithme,shebeganbyaddressingfriendlyreproachestome。
"Ihavelovedyou,"shesaid,"foreighteenyears;thefirsttimethatIsawyouwewereinPadua,andwewerethenonlynineyearsold。"
Icertainlyhadnorecollectionofit。ShewasthedaughteroftheantiquarianfriendofM。Grimani,whohadplacedmeasaboarderwiththeaccursedSclavonianwoman。Icouldnothelpsmiling,forI
recollectedthathermotherhadlovedme。
Shop—boyssoonbegantomaketheirappearance,bringingpiecesofgoods,andthefaceofMadameC————brightenedup。Inlessthantwohourstheroomwasfilledwiththem,andP————C————camebackwithtwomerchants,whomhehadinvitedtodinner。Madamealluredthembyherprettymanners;wedined,andexquisitewinesweredrunkinprofusion。Intheafternoonfreshgoodswerebroughtin;P————C————
madealistofthemwiththeprices;buthewantedmore,andthemerchantspromisedtosendthemthenextday,althoughitwasSunday。
Towardstheeveningseveralcountsarrived,forinVicenzaeverynoblemanisacount。P————C————hadlefthislettersofrecommendationattheirhouses。WehadaCountVelo,aCountSesso,aCountTrento——allveryamiablecompanions。Theyinvitedustoaccompanythemtothecasino,whereMadameC————shonebyhercharmsandhercoquettishmanners。Afterwehadspenttwohoursinthatplace,P————C————invitedallhisnewfriendstosupper,anditwasasceneofgaietyandprofusion。Thewholeaffairannoyedmegreatly,andthereforeIwasnotamiable;theconsequencewasthatnoonespoketome。Irosefrommyseatandwenttobed,leavingthejoyouscompanystillroundthefestiveboard。InthemorningIcamedownstairs,hadmybreakfast,andlookedaboutme。TheroomwassofullofgoodsthatIdidnotseehowP————C————couldpossiblypayforallwithhissixthousandflorins。Hetoldme,however,thathisbusinesswouldbecompletedonthemorrow,andthatwewereinvitedtoaballwhereallthenobilitywouldbepresent。Themerchantswithwhomhehaddealtcametodinewithus,andthedinnerwasremarkableforitsextremeprofusion。
Wewenttotheball;butIsoongotverywearyofit,foreverybodywasspeakingtoMadameC————andtoP————C————,whoneverutteredawordwithanymeaning,butwheneverIopenedmylipspeoplewouldpretendnottohearme。Iinvitedaladytodanceaminuet;sheaccepted,butshelookedconstantlytotherightortotheleft,andseemedtoconsidermeasameredancingmachine。Aquadrillewasformed,butthethingwascontrivedinsuchamannerastoleavemeoutofit,andtheveryladywhohadrefusedmeasapartnerdancedwithanothergentleman。HadIbeeningoodspiritsIshouldcertainlyhaveresentedsuchconduct,butIpreferredtoleavetheball—room。Iwenttobed,unabletounderstandwhythenobilityofVicenzatreatedmeinsuchaway。PerhapstheyneglectedmebecauseIwasnotnamedinthelettersofintroductiongiventoP————C————,butIthoughtthattheymighthaveknownthelawsofcommonpoliteness。Iboretheevilpatiently,however,asweweretoleavethecitythenextday。
OnMonday,theworthypairbeingtired,theysleptuntilnoon,andafterdinnerP————C————wentouttopayforthegoods。
WeweretogoawayearlyontheTuesday,andIinstinctivelylongedforthatmoment。ThecountswhomP————C————hadinvitedweredelightedwithhismistress,andtheycametosupper;butIavoidedmeetingthem。
OntheTuesdaymorningIwasdulyinformedthatbreakfastwasready,butasIdidnotanswerthesummonsquicklyenoughtheservantcameupagain,andtoldmethatmywiferequestedmetomakehaste。
Scarcelyhadtheword"wife"escapedhislipsthanIvisitedthecheekofthepoorfellowwithatremendoussmack,andinmyragekickedhimdownstairs,thebottomofwhichhereachedinfoursprings,totheimminentriskofhisneck。MaddenedwithrageI
enteredthebreakfast—room,andaddressingmyselftoP————C————,IaskedhimwhowasthescoundrelwhohadannouncedmeinthehotelasthehusbandofMadameC————。Heansweredthathedidnotknow;
butatthesamemomentthelandlordcameintotheroomwithabigknifeinhishand,andaskedmewhyIhadkickedhisservantdownthestairs。Iquicklydrewapistol,andthreateninghimwithitI
demandedimperativelyfromhimthenameofthepersonwhohadrepresentedmeasthehusbandofthatwoman。
"CaptainP————C————,"answeredthelandlord,"gavethenames,profession,etc。,ofyourparty。"
AtthisIseizedtheimpudentvillainbythethroat,andpinninghimagainstthewallwithastronghandIwouldhavebrokenhisheadwiththebuttofmypistol,ifthelandlordhadnotpreventedme。Madamehadpretendedtoswoon,forthosewomencanalwayscommandtearsorfaintingfits,andthecowardlyP————C————keptonsaying,"Itisnottrue,itisnottrue!"
Thelandlordranouttogetthehotelregister,andheangrilythrustitunderthenoseofthecoward,daringhimtodenyhishavingdictated:CaptainP————C————,withM。andMadameCasanova。Thescoundrelansweredthathiswordshadcertainlynotbeenheardrightly,andtheincensedlandlordslappedthebookinhisfacewithsuchforcethathesenthimrolling,almoststunned,againstthewall。
WhenIsawthatthewretchedpoltroonwasreceivingsuchdegradingtreatmentwithoutrememberingthathehadaswordhangingbyhisside,Ilefttheroom,andaskedthelandlordtoordermeacarriagetotakemetoPadua。
Besidemyselfwithrage,blushingforveryshame,seeingbuttoolatethefaultIhadcommittedbyacceptingthesocietyofascoundrel,I
wentuptomyroom,andhurriedlypackedupmycarpet—bag。IwasjustgoingoutwhenMadameC————presentedherselfbeforeme。
"Begone,madam,"Isaidtoher,"or,inmyrage,Imightforgettherespectduetoyoursex。"
Shethrewherself,cryingbitterly,onachair,entreatedmetoforgiveher,assuringmethatshewasinnocent,andthatshewasnotpresentwhentheknavehadgiventhenames。Thelandlady,cominginatthatmoment,vouchedforthetruthofherassertion。Myangerbegantoabate,andasIpassednearthewindowIsawthecarriageI
hadorderedwaitingformewithapairofgoodhorses。Icalledforthelandlordinordertopaywhatevermyshareoftheexpensemightcometo,buthetoldmethatasIhadorderednothingmyselfIhadnothingtopay。JustatthatjunctureCountVelocamein。
"Idaresay,count,"Isaid,"thatyoubelievethiswomantobemywife。"
"Thatisafactknowntoeverybodyinthecity。"
"Damnation!Andyouhavebelievedsuchathing,knowingthatI
occupythisroomalone,andseeingmeleavetheball—roomandthesupper—tableyesterdayalone,leavingherwithyouall!"
"Somehusbandsareblessedwithsucheasydispositions!"
"IdonotthinkIlooklikeoneofthatspecies,andyouarenotajudgeofmenofhonour,letusgoout,andIundertaketoproveittoyou。"
Thecountrusheddownthestairsandoutofthehotel。ThemiserableC————waschoking,andIcouldnothelppityingher;forawomanhasinhertearsaweaponwhichthroughmylifeIhaveneverknowntoresist。IconsideredthatifIleftthehotelwithoutpayinganything,peoplemightlaughatmyangerandsupposethatIhadashareintheswindle;Irequestedthelandlordtobringmetheaccount,intendingtopayhalfofit。Hewentforit,butanothersceneawaitedme。MadameC————,bathedintears,fellonherknees,andtoldmethatifIabandonedhershewaslost,forshehadnomoneyandnothingtoleaveassecurityforherhotelbill。
"What,madam!Haveyounotlettersofexchangetotheamountofsixthousandflorins,orthegoodsboughtwiththem?"
"Thegoodsarenolongerhere;theyhaveallbeentakenaway,becausethelettersofexchange,whichyousaw,andwhichweconsideredasgoodascash,onlymadethemerchantslaugh;theyhavesentforeverything。Oh!whocouldhavesupposedit?"
"Thescoundrel!Heknewitwellenough,andthatiswhyhewassoanxioustobringmehere。Well,itisrightthatIshouldpaythepenaltyofmyownfolly。"
Thebillbroughtbythelandlordamountedtofortysequins,averyhighfigureforthreedays;butalargeportionofthatsumwascashadvancedbythelandlord,IimmediatelyfeltthatmyhonourdemandedthatIshouldpaythebillinfull;andIpaidwithoutanyhesitation,takingcaretogetareceiptgiveninthepresenceoftwowitnesses。Ithenmadeapresentoftwosequinstothenephewofthelandlordtoconsolehimforthethrashinghehadreceived,andI
refusedthesamesumtothewretchedC————,whohadsentthelandladytobegitforher。
Thusendedthatunpleasantadventure,whichtaughtmealesson,andalessonwhichIoughtnottohaverequired。Twoorthreeweekslater,IheardthatCountTrentohadgiventhosetwomiserablebeingssomemoneytoenablethemtoleavethecity;asfarasIwasconcerned,I
wouldnothaveanythingtodowiththem。AmonthafterwardsP————
C————wasagainarrestedfordebt,themanwhohadbeensecurityforhimhavingbecomeabankrupt。Hehadtheaudacitytowritealonglettertome,entreatingmetogoandseehim,butIdidnotanswerhim。IwasquiteasinflexibletowardsMadameC————,whomIalwaysrefusedtosee。Shewasreducedtogreatpoverty。
IreturnedtoPadua,whereIstoppedonlylongenoughtotakemyringandtodinewithM。deBragadin,whowentbacktoVeniceafewdaysafterwards。
Themessengerfromtheconventbroughtmealetterveryearlyinthemorning;Idevoureditscontents;itwasveryloving,butgavenonews。InmyanswerIgavemydearC————C————theparticularsoftheinfamoustrickplayeduponmebyhervillainousbrother,andmentionedthering,withthesecretofwhichIacquaintedher。
AccordingtotheinformationIhadreceivedfromC————C————,Iplacedmyself,onemorning,soastoseehermotherenterthechurch,intowhichIfollowedher。Kneelingclosetoher,ItoldherthatIwishedtospeakwithher,andshefollowedmetothecloister。
Ibeganbyspeakingafewconsolingwords;thenItoldherthatI
wouldremainfaithfultoherdaughter,andIaskedherwhethershevisitedher。
"Iintend,"shesaid,"togoandkissmydearchildnextSunday,andIshallofcoursespeakofyouwithher,forIknowwellenoughthatshewillbedelightedtohavenewsofyou;buttomygreatregretI
amnotatlibertytotellyouwheresheis。"
"Idonotwishyoutotellme,mygoodmother,butallowmetosendherthisringbyyou。Itisthepictureofherpatroness,andIwishyoutoentreathertowearitalwaysonherfinger;tellhertolookattheimageduringherdailyprayers,forwithoutthatprotectionshecanneverbecomemywife。Tellherthat,onmyside,IaddresseverydayacredotoSt。James。"
Delightedwiththepietyofmyfeelingsandwiththeprospectofrecommendingthisnewdevotiontoherdaughter,thegoodwomanpromisedtofulfilmycommission。Ilefther,butnotbeforeIhadplacedinherhandtensequinswhichIbeggedhertoforceuponherdaughter’sacceptancetosupplyherselfwiththetriflesshemightrequire。Sheaccepted,butatthesametimesheassuredmethatherfatherhadtakencaretoprovideherwithallnecessaries。
TheletterwhichIreceivedfromC————C————,onthefollowingWednesday,wastheexpressionofthemosttenderaffectionandthemostlivelygratitude。ShesaidthatthemomentshewasalonenothingcouldbemorerapidthanthepointofthepinwhichmadeSt。
Catherinecutasomersault,andpresentedtohereagereyesthebelovedfeaturesofthebeingwhowasthewholeworldtoher。
"Iamconstantlykissingyou,"sheadded,"evenwhensomeofthenunsarelookingatme,forwhenevertheycomenearmeIhaveonlytoletthetoppartoftheringfallbackandmydearpatronesstakescaretoconcealeverything。AllthenunsarehighlypleasedwithmydevotionandwiththeconfidenceIhaveintheprotectionofmyblessedpatroness,whomtheythinkverymuchlikemeintheface。"
Itwasnothingbutabeautifulfacecreatedbythefancyofthepainter,butmydearlittlewifewassolovelythatbeautywassuretobelikeher。
Shesaid,likewise,thatthenunwhotaughtherFrenchhadofferedherfiftysequinsfortheringonaccountofthelikenessbetweenherandtheportraitofthesaint,butnotoutofvenerationforherpatroness,whomsheturnedintoridiculeasshereadherlife。ShethankedmeforthetensequinsIhadsenther,because,hermotherhavinggiventhemtoherinthepresenceofseveralofthesisters,shewasthusenabledtospendalittlemoneywithoutraisingthesuspicionsofthosecuriousandinquisitivenuns。Shelikedtooffertriflingpresentstotheotherboarders,andthemoneyallowedhertogratifythatinnocenttaste。
"Mymother,"addedshe,"praisedyourpietyveryhighly;sheisdelightedwithyourfeelingsofdevotion。Nevermentionagain,I
beg,thenameofmyunworthybrother。"
ForfiveorsixweeksherletterswerefulloftheblessedSt。
Catherine,whocausedhertotremblewithfeareverytimeshefoundherselfcompelledtotrusttheringtothemysticcuriosityoftheelderlynuns,who,inordertoseethelikenessbetterthroughtheirspectacles,broughtitclosetotheireyes,andrubbedtheenamel。
"Iaminconstantfear,"C————C————wrote,"oftheirpressingtheinvisiblebluespotbychance。Whatwouldbecomeofme,ifmypatroness,jumpingup,discoveredtotheireyesaface——verydivine,itistrue,butwhichisnotatalllikethatofasaint?Tellme,whatcouldIdoinsuchacase?"
OnemonthafterthesecondarrestofP————C————,thejeweller,whohadtakenmysecurityforthering,calledonmeforpaymentofthebill。Imadeanarrangementwithhim;andonconditionofmygivinghimtwentysequins,andleavinghimeveryrightoverthedebtor,heexoneratedme。FromhisprisontheimpudentP————C————harassedmewithhiscowardlyentreatiesforalmsandassistance。
CrocewasinVenice,andengrossedagreatshareofthegeneralattention。Hekeptafinehouse,anexcellenttable,andafarobankwithwhichheemptiedthepocketsofhisdupes。Foreseeingwhatwouldhappensoonerorlater,Ihadabstainedfromvisitinghimathishouse,butwewerefriendlywheneverwemet。Hiswifehavingbeendeliveredofaboy,Croceaskedmetostandasgod—father,afavourwhichIthoughtIcouldgrant;butaftertheceremonyandthesupperwhichwastheconsequenceofit,Ineverenteredthehouseofmyformerpartner,andIactedrightly。IwishIhadalwaysbeenasprudentinmyconduct。
CHAPTERXV
CroceIsExpelledFromVenice——Sgombro——HisInfamyandDeath——
MisfortuneWhichBefallsMyDearC。C。——IReceiveAnAnonymousLetter>FromaNun,andAnswerIt——AnAmorousIntrigueMyformerpartnerwas,asIhavesaidbefore,askilfulandexperiencedhandatsecuringthefavoursofFortune;hewasdrivingagoodtradeinVenice,andashewasamiable,andwhatiscalledinsocietyagentleman,hemighthaveheldthatexcellentfootingforalongtime,ifhehadbeensatisfiedwithgambling;fortheStateInquisitorswouldhavetoomuchtoattendtoiftheywishedtocompelfoolstosparetheirfortunes,dupestobeprudent,andcheatsnottodupethefools;but,whetherthroughthefollyofyouthorthroughaviciousdisposition,thecauseofhisexilewasofanextraordinaryanddisgustingnature。
AVenetiannobleman,noblebybirth,butveryignobleinhispropensities,calledSgombro,andbelongingtotheGrittifamily,felldeeplyinlovewithhim,andCroce,eitherforfunorfromtaste,shewedhimselfverycompliant。Unfortunatelythereservecommandedbycommondecencywasnotaguestattheiramorousfeats,andthescandalbecamesonotoriousthattheGovernmentwascompelledtonotifytoCrocetheordertoquitthecity,andtoseekhisfortuneinsomeotherplace。
SometimeafterwardstheinfamousSgombroseducedhisowntwosons,whowerebothveryyoung,and,unfortunatelyforhim,heputtheyoungestinsuchastateastorendernecessaryanapplicationtoasurgeon。Theinfamousdeedbecamepubliclyknown,andthepoorchildconfessedthathehadnothadthecouragetorefuseobediencetohisfather。Suchobediencewas,asamatterofcourse,notconsideredasformingapartofthedutieswhichasonowestohisfather,andtheStateInquisitorssentthedisgustingwretchtothecitadelofCataro,wherehediedafteroneyearofconfinement。
ItiswellknownthattheairofCataroisdeadly,andthattheTribunalsentencestoinhaleitonlysuchcriminalsasarenotjudgedpubliclyforfearofexcitingtoodeeplythegeneralhorrorbythepublicationofthetrial。
ItwastoCatarothattheCouncilofTensent,fifteenyearsago,thecelebratedadvocateCantarini,aVenetiannobleman,whobyhiseloquencehadmadehimselfmasterofthegreatCouncil,andwasonthepointofchangingtheconstitutionoftheState。Hediedthereattheendoftheyear。Asforhisaccomplices,theTribunalthoughtthatitwasenoughtopunishthefourorfiveleaders,andtopretendnottoknowtheothers,whothroughfearofpunishmentreturnedsilentlytotheirallegiance。
ThatSgombro,ofwhomIspokebefore,hadacharmingwifewhoisstillalive,Ibelieve。HernamewasCorneliaGitti;shewasascelebratedbyherwitasbyherbeauty,whichshekeptinspiteofheryears。Havingrecoveredherlibertythroughthedeathofherhusband,sheknewbetterthantomakeherselfasecondtimetheprisoneroftheHymeneangod;shelovedherindependencetoomuch;
butasshelovedpleasuretoo,sheacceptedthehomageoftheloverswhopleasedhertaste。
OneMonday,towardstheendofJuly,myservantwokemeatday—breaktotellmethatLaurawishedtospeaktome。Iforesawsomemisfortune,andorderedtheservanttoshewherinimmediately。
Thesearethecontentsoftheletterwhichshehandedtome:
"Mydearest,amisfortunehasbefallenmelastevening,anditmakesmeverymiserablebecauseImustkeepitasecretfromeveryoneintheconvent。Iamsufferingfromaveryseverelossofblood,andI
donotknowwhattodo,havingbutverylittlelinen。LauratellsmeIshallrequireagreatdealofitiftheflowofbloodcontinues。I
cantakenooneintomyconfidencebutyou,andIentreatyoutosendmeasmuchlinenasyoucan。YouseethatIhavebeencompelledtomakeaconfidanteofLaura,whoistheonlypersonallowedtoentermyroomatalltimes。IfIshoulddie,mydearhusband,everybodyintheconventwould,ofcourse,knowthecauseofmydeath;butIthinkofyou,andIshudder。Whatwillyoudoinyourgrief?Ah,darlinglove!whatapity!"
Idressedmyselfhurriedly,plyingLaurawithquestionsallthetime。
Shetoldmeplainlythatitwasamiscarriage,andthatitwasnecessarytoactwithgreatdiscretioninordertosavethereputationofmyyoungfriend;thatafterallsherequirednothingbutplentyoflinen,andthatitwouldbenothing。Commonplacewordsofconsolation,whichdidnotallaythefearfulanxietyunderwhichI
waslabouring。IwentoutwithLaura,calledonaJewfromwhomI
boughtaquantityofsheetsandtwohundrednapkins,and,puttingitallinalargebag,IrepairedwithhertoMuran。OnourwaythereI
wroteinpenciltomysweetheart,tellinghertohaveentireconfidenceinLaura,andassuringherthatIwouldnotleaveMuranuntilalldangerhadpassed。Beforewelanded,Lauratoldmethat,inordernottoberemarked,Ihadbetterconcealmyselfinherhouse。Atanyothertimeitwouldhavebeenshuttingupthewolfinthesheep—fold。Sheleftmeinamiserable—lookingsmallroomonthegroundfloor,andconcealingaboutherselfasmuchlinenasshecouldshehurriedtoherpatient,whomshehadnotseensincethepreviousevening。Iwasinhopesthatshewouldfindheroutofdanger,andI
longedtoseehercomebackwiththatgoodnews。
Shewasabsentaboutonehour,andwhenshereturnedherlooksweresad。Shetoldmethatmypoorfriend,havinglostagreatdealofbloodduringthenight,wasinbedinaveryweakstate,andthatallwecoulddowastopraytoGodforher,because,ifthefloodingoftheblooddidnotstopsoon,shecouldnotpossiblylivetwenty—fourhours。
WhenIsawthelinenwhichshehadconcealedunderherclothestobringitout,Icouldnotdisguisemyhorror,andIthoughtthesightwouldkillme。Ifanciedmyselfinaslaughter—house!Laura,thinkingofconsolingme,toldmethatIcouldrelyuponthesecretbeingwellkept。
"Ah!whatdoIcare!"Iexclaimed。"Providedshelives,letthewholeworldknowthatsheismywife!"
Atanyothertime,thefoolishnessofpoorLaurawouldhavemademelaugh;butinsuchasadmomentIhadneithertheinclinationnorthecouragetobemerry。
"Ourdearpatient,"addedLaura,"smiledasshewasreadingyourletter,andshesaidthat,withyousonearher,shewascertainnottodie。"
Thosewordsdidmegood,butamanneedssolittletoconsolehimortosoothehisgrief。
"Whenthenunsareattheirdinner,"saidLaura,"IwillgobacktotheconventwithasmuchlinenasIcanconcealaboutme,andinthemeantimeIamgoingtowashallthis。"
"Hasshehadanyvisitors?"
"Oh,yes!alltheconvent;butnoonehasanysuspicionofthetruth。"
"Butinsuchhotweatherasthisshecanhaveonlyaverylightblanketoverher,andhervisitorsmustremarkthegreatbulkofthenapkins。"
"Thereisnofearofthat,becausesheissittingupinherbed。"
"Whatdoessheeat?"
"Nothing,forshemustnoteat。"
SoonafterwardsLaurawentout,andIfollowedher。Icalleduponaphysician,whereIwastedmytimeandmymoney,inordertogetfromhimalongprescriptionwhichwasuseless,foritwouldhaveputalltheconventinpossessionofthesecret,or,tospeakmoretruly,hersecretwouldhavebeenknowntothewholeworld,forasecretknowntoanunsoonescapesoutoftheconvent’swalls。Besides,thephysicianoftheconventhimselfwouldmostlikelyhavebetrayeditthroughaspiritofrevenge。
IreturnedsadlytomymiserableholeinLaura’shouse。Halfanhourafterwardsshecametome,cryingbitterly,andsheplacedinmyhandsthisletter,whichwasscarcelylegible:
"Ihavenotstrengthenoughtowritetoyou,mydarling;Iamgettingweakerandweaker;Iamlosingallmyblood,andIamafraidthereisnoremedy。IabandonmyselftothewillofGod,andIthankHimforhavingsavedmefromdishonour。Donotmakeyourselfunhappy。Myonlyconsolationistoknowthatyouarenearme。Alas!ifIcouldseeyoubutforonemomentIwoulddiehappy。"
ThesightofadozennapkinsbroughtbyLauramademeshudder,andthegoodwomanimaginedthatsheaffordedmesomeconsolationbytellingmethatasmuchlinencouldbesoakedwithabottleofblood。
Mymindwasnotdisposedtotastesuchconsolation;Iwasindespair,andIaddressedtomyselfthefiercestreproaches,upbraidingmyselfasthecauseofthedeathofthatadorablecreature。Ithrewmyselfonthebed,andremainedthere,almoststunned,formorethansixhours,untilLaura’sreturnfromtheconventwithtwentynapkinsentirelysoaked。Nighthadcomeon,andshecouldnotgobacktoherpatientuntilmorning。Ipassedafearfulnightwithoutfood,withoutsleep,lookinguponmyselfwithhorror,andrefusingallthekindattentionsthatLaura’sdaughterstriedtoshewme。
ItwasbarelydaylightwhenLaurasametoannouncetome,inthesaddesttone,thatmypoorfrienddidnotbleedanymore。Ithoughtshewasdead,andIscreamedloudly,"Oh!sheisnomore!"
"Sheisstillbreathing,sir;butIfearshewillnotoutlivethisday,forsheiswornout。Shecanhardlyopenhereyes,andherpulseisscarcelytobefelt。"
Aweightwastakenoffme;Iwasinstinctivelycertainthatmydarlingwassaved。
"Laura,"Isaid,"thisisnotbadnews;providedthefloodinghasceasedentirely,allthatisnecessaryistogivehersomelightfood。"
"Aphysicianhasbeensentfor。Hewillprescribewhateverisright,buttotellyouthetruthIhavenotmuchhope。"
"Onlygivemetheassurancethatsheisstillalive。"
"Yes,sheis,Iassureyou;butyouunderstandverywellthatshewillnottellthetruthtothedoctor,andGodknowswhathewillorder。Iwhisperedtohernottotakeanything,andsheunderstoodme。"
"Youarethebestofwomen。Yes,ifshedoesnotdiefromweaknessbeforeto—morrow,sheissaved;natureandlovewillhavebeenherdoctors。"
"MayGodhearyou!Ishallbebackbytwelve。"
"Whynotbefore?"
"Becauseherroomwillbefullofpeople。"
Feelingtheneedofhope,andalmostdeadforwantoffood,Iorderedsomedinner,andpreparedalongletterformybelovedmistress,tobedeliveredtoherwhenshewaswellenoughtoreadit。Theinstantsgiventorepentanceareverysad,andIwastrulyafitsubjectforpity。IlongedtoseeLauraagain,soastohearwhatthedoctorhadsaid。Ihadverygoodcauseforlaughingatallsortsoforacles,yetthroughsomeunaccountableweaknessIlongedforthatofthedoctor;Iwanted,beforeall,tofinditapropitiousone。
Laura’syoungdaughterswaiteduponmeatdinner;Icouldnotmanagetoswallowamouthful,butitamusedmetoseethethreesistersdevourmydinneratthefirstinvitationIgavethem。Theeldestsister,averyfinegirl,neverraisedherlargeeyesoncetowardsme。Thetwoyoungeronesseemedtomedisposedtobeamiable,butifIlookedatthemitwasonlytofeedmydespairandthecruelpangsofrepentance。
AtlastLaura,whomIexpectedanxiously,cameback;shetoldmethatthedearpatientremainedinthesamestateofdebility;thedoctorhadbeengreatlypuzzledbyherextremeweaknessbecausehedidnotknowtowhatcausetoattributeit。Lauraadded,"Hehasorderedsomerestorativesandasmallquantityoflightbroth;ifshecansleep,heanswersforherlife。Hehaslikewisedesiredhertohavesomeonetowatchheratnight,andsheimmediatelypointedherfingeratme,asifshewishedmetoundertakethatoffice。Now,Ipromiseyounevertoleavehereithernightorday,excepttobringyounews。"
Ithankedher,assuringherthatIwouldrewardhergenerously。I
heardwithgreatpleasurethathermotherhadpaidheravisit,andthatshehadnosuspicionoftherealstateofthings,forshehadlavishedonherthemosttendercaresses。
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