Papafava,whowashergod—father,wouldbegladtoseeme。Icalledatherhouseearlythenextmorning,andIfoundherinbedwithherson,who,thankstotheprinciplesinwhichhehadbeeneducated,gotupandlefttheroomassoonashesawmeseatednearhismother’sbed。Ispentthreehourswithher,andIrecollectthatthelastwasdelightful;thereaderwillknowtheconsequenceofthatpleasanthourlater。IsawherasecondtimeduringthefortnightshepassedinVenice,andwhensheleftIpromisedtopayheravisitinBayreuth,butIneverkeptmypromise。
Ihadatthattimetoattendtotheaffairsofmyposthumousbrother,whohad,ashesaid,acallfromHeaventothepriesthood,buthewantedapatrimony。Althoughhewasignorantanddevoidofanymeritsaveahandsomeface,hethoughtthatanecclesiasticalcareerwouldinsurehishappiness,andhedependedagreatdealuponhispreaching,forwhich,accordingtotheopinionofthewomenwithwhomhewasacquainted,hehadadecidedtalent。Itookeverythingintomyhands,andIsucceededinobtainingforhimapatrimonyfromM。
Grimani,whostillowedusthevalueofthefurnitureinmyfather’shouse,ofwhichhehadneverrenderedanyaccount。Hetransferredtohimalife—interestinahouseinVenice,andtwoyearsafterwardsmybrotherwasordained。Butthepatrimonywasonlyfictitious,thehousebeingalreadymortgaged;theAbbeGrimaniwas,however,akindJesuit,andthosesaintedservantsofGodthinkthatalliswellthatendswellandprofitablytothemselves。Ishallspeakagainofmyunhappybrotherwhosedestinybecameinvolvedwithmine。
TwodayshadpassedsinceIhadpaidmyvisittoP————C————,whenI
methiminthestreet。Hetoldmethathissisterwasconstantlyspeakingofme,thatshequotedagreatmanythingswhichIhadtoldher,andthathismotherwasmuchpleasedatherdaughterhavingmademyacquaintance。"Shewouldbeagoodmatchforyou,"headded,"forshewillhaveadowryoftenthousandducats。Ifyouwillcallonmeto—morrow,wewilltakecoffeewithmymotherandsister。"
Ihadpromisedmyselfneveragaintoenterhishouse,butIbrokemyword。Itiseasyenoughforamantoforgethispromisesundersuchcircumstances。
IspentthreehoursinconversationwiththecharminggirlandwhenI
leftherIwasdeeplyinlove。AsIwentaway,ItoldherthatI
enviedthedestinyofthemanwhowouldhaveherforhiswife,andmycompliment,thefirstshehadeverreceived,madeherblush。
AfterIhadleftherIbegantoexaminethenatureofmyfeelingstowardsher,andtheyfrightenedme,forIcouldneitherbehavetowardsMdlle。C————C————asanhonestmannorasalibertine。
Icouldnothopetoobtainherhand,andIalmostfanciedIwouldstabanyonewhoadvisedmetoseduceher。IfeltthatIwantedsomediversion:Iwenttothegaming—table。Playingissometimesanexcellentlenitivetocalmthemind,andtosmothertheardentfireoflove。Iplayedwithwonderfulluck,andIwasgoinghomewithplentyofgold,wheninasolitarynarrowstreetImetamanbentdownlessbyagethanbytheheavyweightofmisery。AsIcamenearhimIrecognizedCountBonafede,thesightofwhommovedmewithpity。Herecognizedmelikewise。Wetalkedforsometime,andatlasthetoldmethestateofabjectpovertytowhichhewasreduced,andthegreatdifficultyhehadtokeephisnumerousfamily。"Idonotblush,"headded,"inbeggingfromyouonesequinwhichwillkeepusaliveforfiveorsixdays。"Iimmediatelygavehimten,tryingtopreventhimfromloweringhimselfinhisanxietytoexpresshisgratitude,butIcouldnotpreventhimfromsheddingtears。Asweparted,hetoldmethatwhatmadehimmostmiserablewastoseethepositionofhisdaughter,whohadbecomeagreatbeauty,andwouldratherdiethanmakeasacrificeofhervirtue。"Icanneithersupportherinthosefeelings,"hesaid,withasigh,"norrewardherforthem。"
ThinkingthatIunderstoodthewisheswithwhichmiseryhadinspiredhim,Itookhisaddress,andpromisedtopayhimavisit。IwascurioustoseewhathadbecomeofavirtueofwhichIdidnotentertainaveryhighopinion。Icalledthenextday。Ifoundahousealmostbareoffurniture,andthedaughteralone——
acircumstancewhichdidnotastonishme。Theyoungcountesshadseenmearrive,andreceivedmeonthestairsinthemostamiablemanner。Shewasprettywelldressed,andIthoughtherhandsome,agreeable,andlively,asshehadbeenwhenImadeheracquaintanceinFortSt。Andre。Herfatherhavingannouncedmyvisit,shewasinhighspirits,andshekissedmewithasmuchtendernessasifIhadbeenabelovedlover。Shetookmetoherownroom,andaftershehadinformedmethathermotherwasillinbedandunabletoseeme,shegavewayagaintothetransportofjoywhich,asshesaid,shefeltinseeingmeagain。Theardourofourmutualkisses,givenatfirstundertheauspicesoffriendship,wasnotlonginexcitingoursensestosuchanextentthatinlessthanaquarterofanhourIhadnothingmoretodesire。Whenitwasallover,itbecameusboth,ofcourse,tobe,oratleasttoappeartobe,surprisedatwhathadtakenplace,andIcouldnothonestlyhesitatetoassurethepoorcountessthatitwasonlythefirsttokenofaconstantandtruelove。Shebelievedit,orshefeignedtobelieveit,andperhapsI
myselffancieditwastrue——forthemoment。Whenwehadbecomecalmagain,shetoldmethefearfulstatetowhichtheywerereduced,herbrotherswalkingbarefootedinthestreets,andherfatherhavingpositivelynobreadtogivethem。
"Thenyouhavenotanylover?"
"What?alover!WherecouldIfindamancourageousenoughtobemyloverinsuchahouseasthis?AmIawomantosellmyselftothefirstcomerforthesumofthirtysous?ThereisnotamaninVenicewhowouldthinkmeworthmorethanthat,seeingmeinsuchaplaceasthis。Besides,Iwasnotbornforprostitution。"
Suchaconversationwasnotverycheerful;shewasweeping,andthespectacleofhersadness,joinedtothepictureofmiserywhichsurroundedme,wasnotatallthethingtoexcitelove。Ileftherwithapromisetocallagain,andIputtwelvesequinsinherhand。
Shewassurprisedattheamount;shehadneverknownherselfsorichbefore。IhavealwaysregrettedIdidnotgivehertwiceasmuch。
ThenextdayP————C————calledonme,andsaidcheerfullythathismotherhadgivenpermissiontoherdaughtertogototheoperawithhim,thattheyounggirlwasdelightedbecauseshehadneverbeentherebefore,andthat,ifIliked,Icouldwaitforthematsomeplacewheretheywouldmeetme。
"Butdoesyoursisterknowthatyouintendmetojoinyou?"
"Sheconsidersitagreatpleasure。"
"Doesyourmotherknowit?"
"No;butwhensheknowsitshewillnotbeangry,forshehasagreatesteemforyou。"
"InthatcaseIwilltrytofindaprivatebox。"
"Verywell;waitforusatsuchaplace。"
Thescoundreldidnotspeakofhislettersofexchangeagain,andashesawthatIwasnolongerpayingmyattentionstohismistress,andthatIwasinlovewithhissister,hehadformedthefineprojectofsellinghertome。Ipitiedthemotherandthedaughterwhohadconfidenceinsuchaman;butIhadnotthecouragetoresistthetemptation。IevenwentsofarastopersuademyselfthatasIlovedheritwasmydutytoaccepttheoffer,inordertosaveherfromothersnares;forifIhaddeclinedherbrothermighthavefoundsomeothermanlessscrupulous,andIcouldnotbeartheidea。Ithoughtthatinmycompanyherinnocencerannorisk。
ItookaboxattheSt。SamuelOpera,andIwaswaitingforthemattheappointedplacelongbeforethetime。Theycameatlast,andthesightofmyyoungfrienddelightedme。Shewaselegantlymasked,andherbrotherworehisuniform。Inordernottoexposethelovelygirltobeingrecognizedonaccountofherbrother,Imadethemgetintomygondola。Heinsisteduponbeinglandednearthehouseofhismistress,whowasill,hesaid,andheaddedthathewouldsoonjoinusinourbox。IwasastonishedthatC————C————didnotshewanysurpriseorrepugnanceatremainingalonewithmeinthegondola;butIdidnotthinktheconductofherbrotherextraordinary,foritwasevidentthatitwasallarrangedbeforehandinhismind。
ItoldC————C————thatwewouldremaininthegondolauntiltheopeningofthetheatre,andthatastheheatwasintenseshewoulddowelltotakeoffhermask,whichshedidatonce。ThelawIhadlaiduponmyselftorespecther,thenobleconfidencewhichwasbeamingonhercountenanceandinherlooks,herinnocentjoy——everythingincreasedtheardourofmylove。
Notknowingwhattosaytoher,forIcouldspeaktoherofnothingbutlove——anditwasadelicatesubject——Ikeptlookingathercharmingface,notdaringtoletmyeyesrestupontwobuddingglobesshapedbytheGraces,forfearofgivingthealarmtohermodesty。
"Speaktome,"shesaidatlast;"youonlylookatmewithoututteringasingleword。Youhavesacrificedyourselfforme,becausemybrotherwouldhavetakenyouwithhimtohislady—love,who,tojudgefromwhathesays,mustbeasbeautifulasanangel。"
"Ihaveseenthatlady。"
"Isupposesheisverywitty。"
"Shemaybeso;butIhavenoopportunityofknowing,forIhavenevervisitedher,andIdonotintendevertocalluponher。Donotthereforeimagine,beautifulC————C————,thatIhavemadetheslightestsacrificeforyoursake。"
"Iwasafraidyouhad,becauseasyoudidnotspeakIthoughtyouweresad。"
"IfIdonotspeaktoyouitisbecauseIamtoodeeplymovedbyyourangelicconfidenceinme。"
"Iamverygladitisso;buthowcouldInottrustyou?Ifeelmuchmorefree,muchmoreconfidentwithyouthanwithmybrotherhimself。
Mymothersaysitisimpossibletobemistaken,andthatyouarecertainlyanhonestman。Besides,youarenotmarried;thatisthefirstthingIaskedmybrother。Doyourecollecttellingmethatyouenviedthefateofthemanwhowouldhavemeforhiswife?Well,atthatverymomentIwasthinkingthatyourwifewouldbethehappiestwomaninVenice。"
Thesewords,utteredwiththemostcandidartlessness,andwiththattoneofsinceritywhichcomesfromtheheart,haduponmeaneffectwhichitwouldbedifficulttodescribe;IsufferedbecauseIcouldnotimprintthemostlovingkissuponthesweetlipswhichhadjustpronouncedthem,butatthesametimeitcausedmethemostdeliciousfelicitytoseethatsuchanangellovedme。
"Withsuchconformityoffeelings,"Isaid,"wewould,lovelyC————,beperfectlyhappy,ifwecouldbeunitedforever。ButIamoldenoughtobeyourfather。"
"Youmyfather?Youarejoking!DoyouknowthatIamfourteen?"
"DoyouknowthatIamtwenty—eight?"
"Well,wherecanyouseeamanofyouragehavingadaughterofmine?
Ifmyfatherwerelikeyou,hewouldcertainlyneverfrightenme;I
couldnotkeepanythingfromhim。"
Thehourtogotothetheatrehadcome;welanded,andtheperformanceengrossedallherattention。Herbrotherjoinedusonlywhenitwasnearlyover;ithadcertainlybeenapartofhiscalculation。Itookthemtoaninnforsupper,andthepleasureI
experiencedinseeingthecharminggirleatwithagoodappetitemademeforgetthatIhadhadnodinner。Ihardlyspokeduringthesupper,forlovemademesick,andIwasinastateofexcitementwhichcouldnotlastlong。Inordertoexcusemysilence,Ifeignedtobesufferingfromthetoothache。
Aftersupper,P————C————toldhissisterthatIwasinlovewithher,andthatIshouldcertainlyfeelbetterifshewouldallowmetokissher。Theonlyansweroftheinnocentgirlwastooffermeherlaughinglips,whichseemedtocallforkisses。Iwasburning;butmyrespectforthatinnocentandnaiveyoungcreaturewassuchthatI
onlykissedhercheek,andeventhatinamannerverycoldinappearance。
"Whatakiss!"exclaimedP————C————。"Come,come,agoodlover’skiss!"
Ididnotmove;theimpudentfellowannoyedme;buthissister,turningherheadasidesadly,said,"Donotpresshim;Iamnotsohappyastopleasehim。"
Thatremarkgavethealarmtomylove;Icouldnolongermastermyfeelings。
"What!"Iexclaimedwarmly,"what!beautifulC————,youdonotcondescendtoascribemyreservetothefeelingwhichyouhaveinspiredmewith?Yousupposethatyoudonotpleaseme?Ifakissisallthatisneededtoprovethecontrarytoyou,oh!receiveitnowwithallthesentimentthatisburninginmyheart!"
Thenfoldingherinmyarms,andpressingherlovinglyagainstmybreast,IimprintedonhermouththelongandardentkisswhichIhadsomuchwishedtogiveher;butthenatureofthatkissmadethetimiddovefeelthatshehadfallenintothevulture’sclaws。Sheescapedfrommyarms,amazedathavingdiscoveredmyloveinsuchamanner。Herbrotherexpressedhisapproval,whileshereplacedhermaskoverherface,inordertoconcealherconfusion。Iaskedherwhethershehadanylongeranydoubtsastomylove。
"Youhaveconvincedme,"sheanswered,"but,becauseyouhaveundeceivedme,youmustnotpunishme。"
Ithoughtthatthiswasaverydelicateanswer,dictatedbytruesentiment;butherbrotherwasnotpleasedwithit,andsaiditwasfoolish。
Weputonourmasks,lefttheinn,andafterIhadescortedthemtotheirhouseIwenthomedeeplyinlove,happyinmyinmostsoul,yetverysad。
ThereaderwilllearninthefollowingchapterstheprogressofmyloveandtheadventuresinwhichIfoundmyselfengaged。
CHAPTERXII
ProgressofMyIntriguewiththeBeautifulC。C。
ThenextmorningP————C————calledonmewithanairoftriumph;hetoldmethathissisterhadconfessedtohermotherthatwelovedoneanother,andthatifshewasevertobemarriedshewouldbeunhappywithanyotherhusband。
"Iadoreyoursister,"Isaidtohim;"butdoyouthinkthatyourfatherwillbewillingtogivehertome?"
"Ithinknot;butheisold。Inthemeantime,loveoneanother。Mymotherhasgivenherpermissiontogototheoperathiseveningwithus。"
"Verywell,mydearfriend,wemustgo。"
"Ifindmyselfunderthenecessityofclaimingaslightserviceatyourhands。"
"Disposeofme。"
"ThereissomeexcellentCypruswinetobesoldverycheap,andIcanobtainacaskofitagainstmybillatsixmonths。Iamcertainofsellingitagainimmediatelywithagoodprofit;butthemerchantrequiresaguarantee,andheisdisposedtoacceptyours,ifyouwillgiveit。Willyoubekindenoughtoendorsemynoteofhand?"
"Withpleasure。"
Isignedmynamewithouthesitation,forwhereisthemaninlovewhoinsuchacasewouldhaverefusedthatservicetoapersonwhotorevengehimselfmighthavemadehimmiserable?Wemadeanappointmentfortheevening,andpartedhighlypleasedwitheachother。
AfterIhaddressedmyself,Iwentoutandboughtadozenpairsofgloves,asmanypairsofsilkstockings,andapairofgartersembroideredingoldandwithgoldclasps,promisingmyselfmuchpleasureinofferingthatfirstpresenttomyyoungfriend。
IneednotsaythatIwasexactinreachingtheappointedplace,buttheyweretherealready,waitingforme。HadInotsuspectedtheintentionsofP————C————,theircomingsoearlywouldhavebeenveryflatteringtomyvanity。ThemomentIhadjoinedthem,P————C————
toldmethat,havingotherengagementstofulfil,hewouldleavehissisterwithme,andmeetusatthetheatreintheevening。Whenhehadgone,ItoldC————C————thatwewouldsailinagondolauntiltheopeningofthetheatre。
"No,"sheanswered,"letusrathergototheZueccaGarden。"
"Withallmyheart。"
IhiredagondolaandwewenttoSt。Blaze,whereIknewaveryprettygardenwhich,foronesequin,wasplacedatmydisposalfortheremainderoftheday,withtheexpressconditionthatnooneelsewouldbeallowedadmittance。Wehadnothadanydinner,andafterI
hadorderedagoodmealwewentuptoaroomwherewetookoffourdisguisesandmasks,afterwhichwewenttothegarden。
MylovelyC————C————hadnothingonbutabodicemadeoflightsilkandaskirtofthesamedescription,butshewascharminginthatsimplecostume!Myamorouslookswentthroughthoselightveils,andinmyimaginationIsawherentirelynaked!Isighedwithburningdesires,withamixtureofdiscreetreserveandvoluptuouslove。
Themomentwehadreachedthelongavenue,myyoungcompanion,aslivelyasafawn,findingherselfatlibertyonthegreensward,andenjoyingthathappyfreedomforthefirsttimeinherlife,begantorunaboutandtogivewaytothespiritofcheerfulnesswhichwasnaturaltoher。Whenshewascompelledtostopforwantofbreath,sheburstoutlaughingatseeingmegazingatherinasortofecstaticsilence。Shethenchallengedmetorunarace;thegamewasveryagreeabletome。Iaccepted,butIproposedtomakeitinterestingbyawager。
"Whoeverlosestherace,"Isaid,"shallhavetodowhateverthewinnerasks。"
"Agreed!"
Wemarkedthewinning—post,andmadeafairstart。Iwascertaintowin,butIlostonpurpose,soastoseewhatshewouldaskmetodo。
AtfirstsheranwithallhermightwhileIreservedmystrength,andshewasthefirsttoreachthegoal。Asshewastryingtorecoverherbreath,shethoughtofsentencingmetoagoodpenance:shehidherselfbehindatreeandtoldme,aminuteafterwards,thatIhadtofindherring。Shehadconcealeditabouther,andthatwasputtingmeinpossessionofallherperson。Ithoughtitwasadelightfulforfeit,forIcouldeasilyseethatshehadchosenitwithintentionalmischief;butIfeltthatIoughtnottotaketoomuchadvantageofher,becauseherartlessconfidencerequiredtobeencouraged。Wesatonthegrass,Ivisitedherpockets,thefoldsofherstays,ofherpetticoat;thenIlookedinhershoes,andevenathergarterswhichwerefastenedbelowtheknees。Notfindinganything,Ikeptonmysearch,andastheringwasabouther,Iwasofcourseboundtodiscoverit。MyreaderhasmostlikelyguessedthatIhadsomesuspicionofthecharminghiding—placeinwhichtheyoungbeautyhadconcealedthering,butbeforecomingtoitIwantedtoenjoymyself。Theringwasatlastfoundbetweenthetwomostbeautifulkeepersthatnaturehadeverrounded,butIfeltsuchemotionasIdrewitoutthatmyhandwastrembling。
"Whatareyoutremblingfor?"sheasked。
"Onlyforjoyathavingfoundthering;youhadconcealeditsowell!
Butyouowemearevenge,andthistimeyoushallnotbeatme。"
"Weshallsee。"
Webegananewrace,andseeingthatshewasnotrunningveryfast,I
thoughtIcouldeasilydistanceherwheneverIliked。Iwasmistaken。Shehadhusbandedherstrength,andwhenwehadrunabouttwo—thirdsoftheraceshesuddenlysprangforwardatfullspeed,leftmebehind,andIsawthatIhadlost。Ithenthoughtofatrick,theeffectofwhichneverfails;Ifeignedaheavyfall,andI
utteredashriekofpain。Thepoorchildstoppedatonce,ranbacktomeingreatfright,and,pityingme,sheassistedmetoraisemyselffromtheground。ThemomentIwasonmyfeetagain,Ilaughedheartilyand,takingaspringforward,Ihadreachedthegoallongbeforeher。
Thecharmingrunner,thoroughlyamazed,saidtome,"Thenyoudidnothurtyourself?"
"No,forIfellpurposely。"
"Purposely?Oh,todeceiveme!Iwouldneverhavebelievedyoucapableofthat。Itisnotfairtowinbyfraud;thereforeIhavenotlosttherace。"
"Oh!yes,youhave,forIreachedthegoalbeforeyou。
Trickfortrick;confessthatyoutriedtodeceivemeatthestart。"
"Butthatisfair,andyourtrickisaverydifferentthing。"
"Yetithasgivenmethevictory,andVincasiperfortundoperingano,Ilvincersemprefulaudabilcosa"……
"Ihaveoftenheardthosewordsfrommybrother,butneverfrommyfather。Well,nevermind,Ihavelost。Giveyourjudgmentnow,I
willobey。"
"Waitalittle。Letmesee。Ah!mysentenceisthatyoushallexchangeyourgartersformine。"
"Exchangeourgarters!Butyouhaveseenmine,theyareuglyandworthnothing。"
"Nevermind。TwiceeverydayIshallthinkofthepersonIlove,andasnearlyaspossibleatthesamehoursyouwillhavetothinkofme。"
"Itisaveryprettyidea,andIlikeit。NowIforgiveyouforhavingdeceivedme。Herearemyuglygarters!Ah!mydeardeceiver,howbeautifulyoursare!Whatahandsomepresent!Howtheywillpleasemymother!Theymustbeapresentwhichyouhavejustreceived,fortheyarequitenew。"
"No,theyhavenotbeengiventome。Iboughtthemforyou,andI
havebeenrackingmybraintofindhowIcouldmakeyouacceptthem。
Lovesuggestedtometheideaofmakingthemtheprizeoftherace。
YoumaynowimaginemysorrowwhenIsawthatyouwouldwin。
Vexationinspiredmewithadeceitfulstratagemwhicharosefromafeelingyouhadcausedyourself,andwhichturnedentirelytoyourhonour,foryoumustadmitthatyouwouldhaveshewnaveryhardheartifyouhadnotcometomyassistance。"
"AndIfeelcertainthatyouwouldnothavehadrecoursetothatstratagem,ifyoucouldhaveguessedhowdeeplyitwouldpainme。"
"Doyouthenfeelmuchinterestinme?"
"Iwoulddoanythingintheworldtoconvinceyouofit。Ilikemyprettygartersexceedingly;Iwillneverhaveanotherpair,andI
promiseyouthatmybrothershallnotstealthemfromme。"
"Canyousupposehimcapableofsuchanaction?"
"Oh!certainly,especiallyifthefasteningsareingold。"
"Yes,theyareingold;butlethimbelievethattheyareingiltbrass。"
"Willyouteachmehowtofastenmybeautifulgarters?"
"OfcourseIwill。"
Wewentupstairs,andafterourdinnerwhichwebothenjoyedwithagoodappetite,shebecamemorelivelyandImoreexcitedbylove,butatthesametimemoretobepitiedinconsequenceoftherestrainttowhichIhadcondemnedmyself。Veryanxioustotryhergarters,shebeggedmetohelpher,andthatrequestwasmadeingoodfaith,withoutmischievouscoquetry。Aninnocentyounggirl,who,inspiteofherfifteenyears,hasnotlovedyet,whohasnotfrequentedthesocietyofothergirls,doesnotknowtheviolenceofamorousdesiresorwhatislikelytoexcitethem。Shehasnoideaofthedangerofatete—a—tete。Whenanaturalinstinctmakesherloveforthefirsttime,shebelievestheobjectofherloveworthyofherconfidence,andshethinksthattobelovedherselfshemustshewthemostboundlesstrust。
Seeingthatherstockingsweretooshorttofastenthegarterabovetheknee,shetoldmethatshewouldinfutureuselongerones,andI
immediatelyofferedherthosethatIhadpurchased。Fullofgratitudeshesatonmyknees,andintheeffusionofhersatisfactionshebestoweduponmeallthekissesthatshewouldhavegiventoherfatherifhehadmadehersuchapresent。Ireturnedherkisses,forciblykeepingdowntheviolenceofmyfeelings。I
onlytoldherthatoneofherkisseswasworthakingdom。MycharmingC————C————tookoffhershoesandstockings,andputononeofthepairsIhadgivenher,whichwenthalfwayupherthigh。ThemoreinnocentIfoundhertobe,thelessIcouldmakeupmymindtopossessmyselfofthatravishingprey。
Wereturnedtothegarden,andafterwalkingaboutuntiltheeveningwewenttotheopera,takingcaretokeeponourmasks,because,thetheatrebeingsmall,wemighteasilyhavebeenrecognized,andmylovelyfriendwascertainthatherfatherwouldnotallowhertocomeoutagain,ifhefoundoutthatshehadgonetotheopera。
Wewererathersurprisednottoseeherbrother。OnourleftwehadtheMarquisofMontalegre,theSpanishambassador,withhisacknowledgedmistress,Mdlle。Bola,andintheboxonourrightamanandawomanwhohadnottakenofftheirmasks。Thosetwopersonskepttheireyesconstantlyfixeduponus,butmyyoungfrienddidnotremarkitasherbackwasturnedtowardsthem。Duringtheballet,C————C————havingleftthelibrettooftheoperaontheledgeofthebox,themanwiththemaskstretchedforthhishandandtookit。
Thatprovedtomethatwewereknowntohim,andIsaidsotomycompanion,whoturnedroundandrecognizedherbrother。TheladywhowaswithhimcouldbenootherthanMadameC————。AsP————C————
knewthenumberofourbox,hehadtakenthenextone;hecouldnothavedonesowithoutsomeintention,andIforesawthathemeanttomakehissisterhavesupperwiththatwoman。Iwasmuchannoyed,butIcouldnotpreventitwithoutbreakingoffwithhim,altogether,andIwasinlove。
Afterthesecondballet,hecameintoourboxwithhislady,andaftertheusualexchangeofcomplimentstheacquaintancewasmade,andwehadtoacceptsupperathiscasino。Assoonasthetwoladieshadthrownofftheirmasks,theyembracedoneanother,andthemistressofP————C————overwhelmedmyyoungfriendwithcomplimentsandattentions。Attablesheaffectedtotreatherwithextremeaffability,andC————C————nothavinganyexperienceoftheworldbehavedtowardsherwiththegreatestrespect。Icould,however,seethatC————,inspiteofallherart,couldhardlyhidethevexationshefeltatthesightofthesuperiorbeautywhichIhadpreferredtoherowncharms。P————C————,whowasofanextravagantgaiety,launchedforthinstupidjokesatwhichhismistressalonelaughed;
inmyanger,Ishruggedmyshoulders,andhissister,notunderstandinghisjests,tooknonoticeofthem。Altogetherour’partiecaree’wasnotformedofcongenialspirits,andwasratheradullaffair。
Asthedessertwasplacedonthetable,P————C————,somewhatexcitedbythewinehehaddrunk,kissedhislady—love,andchallengedmetofollowhisexamplewithhissister。ItoldhimthatIlovedMdlle。
C————C————truly,andthatIwouldnottakesuchlibertieswithheruntilIshouldhaveacquiredalegalrighttoherfavours。P————
C————begantoscoffatwhatIhadsaid,butC————stoppedhim。
Gratefulforthatmarkofpropriety,ItookoutofmypocketthetwelvepairsofgloveswhichIhadboughtinthemorning,andafterI
hadbeggedheracceptanceofhalfadozenpairsIgavetheothersixtomyyoungfriend。P————C————rosefromthetablewithasneer,draggingalongwithhimhismistress,whohadlikewisedrunkratherfreely,andhethrewhimselfonasofawithher。Thescenetakingalewdturn,Iplacedmyselfinsuchamannerastohidethemfromtheviewofmyyoungfriend,whomIledintotherecessofawindow。ButIhadnotbeenabletopreventC————C————fromseeinginalooking—
glassthepositionofthetwoimpudentwretches,andherfacewassuffusedwithblushes;I,however,spoketoherquietlyofindifferentthings,andrecoveringhercomposuresheansweredme,speakingofhergloves,whichshewasfoldingonthepier—table。
Afterhisbrutalexploit,P————C————cameimpudentlytomeandembracedme;hisdissolutecompanion,imitatinghisexample,kissedmyyoungfriend,sayingshewascertainthatshehadseennothing。
C————C————answeredmodestlythatshedidnotknowwhatshecouldhaveseen,butthelookshecasttowardsmemademeunderstandallshefelt。Ifthereaderhasanyknowledgeofthehumanheart,hemustguesswhatmyfeelingswere。HowwasitpossibletoenduresuchascenegoingoninthepresenceofaninnocentgirlwhomIadored,whenIhadtofighthardmyselfwithmyownburningdesiressoasnottoabuseherinnocence!Iwasonabedofthorns!Angerandindignation,restrainedbythereserveIwascompelledtoadoptforfearoflosingtheobjectofmyardentlove,mademetrembleallover。Theinventorsofhellwouldnothavefailedtoplacethatsufferingamongitstorments,iftheyhadknownit。ThelustfulP———
C————hadthoughtofgivingmeagreatproofofhisfriendshipbythedisgustingactionhehadbeenguiltyof,andhehadreckonedasnothingthedishonourofhismistress,andthedelicacyofhissisterwhomhehadthusexposedtoprostitution。IdonotknowhowI
contrivednottostranglehim。Thenextday,whenhecalledonme,Ioverwhelmedhimwiththemostbitterreproaches,andhetriedtoexcusehimselfbysayingthatheneverwouldhaveactedinthatmannerifhehadnotfeltsatisfiedthatIhadalreadytreatedhissisterinthetete—a—teteinthesamewaythathetreatedhismistressbeforeus。
MyloveforC————C————becameeveryinstantmoreintense,andIhadmadeupmymindtoundertakeeverythingnecessarytosaveherfromthefearfulpositioninwhichherunworthybrothermightthrowherbysellingherforhisownprofittosomemanlessscrupulousthanI
was。Itseemedtomeurgent。Whatadisgustingstateofthings!
Whatanunheard—ofspeciesofseduction!Whatastrangewaytogainmyfriendship!AndIfoundmyselfunderthedirenecessityofdissemblingwiththemanwhomIdespisedmostintheworld!Ihadbeentoldthathewasdeeplyindebt,thathehadbeenabankruptinVienna,wherehehadawifeandafamilyofchildren,thatinVenicehehadcompromisedhisfatherwhohadbeenobligedtoturnhimoutofhishouse,andwho,outofpity,pretendednottoknowthathehadkepthisroominit。Hehadseducedhiswife,orratherhismistress,whohadbeendrivenawaybyherhusband,andafterhehadsquanderedeverythingshepossessed,andhefoundhimselfattheendofhiswits,hehadtriedtoturnherprostitutiontoadvantage。Hispoormotherwhoidolizedhimhadgivenhimeverythingshehad,evenherownclothes,andIexpectedhimtoplaguemeagainforsomeloanorsecurity,butIwasfirmlyresolvedonrefusing。IcouldnotbeartheideaofC————C————beingtheinnocentcauseofmyruin,andusedasatoolbyherbrothertokeepuphisdisgustinglife。
Movedbyanirresistiblefeeling,bywhatiscalledperfectlove,I
calleduponP————C————onthefollowingday,and,afterIhadtoldhimthatIadoredhissisterwiththemosthonourableintentions,I
triedtomakehimrealizehowdeeplyhehadgrievedmebyforgettingallrespect,andthatmodestywhichthemostinveteratelibertineoughtnevertoinsultifhehasanypretensiontobeworthyofrespectablesociety。
"EvenifIhadtogiveup,"Iadded,"thepleasureofseeingyourangelicsister,Ihavetakenthefirmresolutionofnotkeepingcompanywithyou;butIcandidlywarnyouthatIwilldoeverythinginmypowertopreventherfromgoingoutwithyou,andfrombeingthevictimofsomeinfamousbargaininyourhands。"
Heexcusedhimselfagainbysayingthathehaddrunktoomuch,andthathedidnotbelievethatmyloveforhissisterwassuchastodespisethegratificationofmysenses。Hebeggedmypardon,heembracedmewithtearsinhiseyes,andIwould,perhapshavegivenwaytomyownemotion,whenhismotherandsisterenteredtheroom。
Theyofferedmetheirheart—feltthanksforthehandsomepresentI
hadgiventotheyounglady。ItoldthemotherthatIlovedherdaughter,andthatmyfondesthopewastoobtainherformywife。
"Inthehopeofsecuringthathappiness,madam,"Iadded,"IshallgetafriendtospeaktoyourhusbandassoonasIshallhavesecuredapositiongivingmesufficientmeanstokeephercomfortably,andtoassureherhappiness。"
SosayingIkissedherhand,andIfeltsodeeplymovedthatthetearsrandownmycheeks。Thosetearsweresympathetic,andtheexcellentwomanwassooncryinglikeme。Shethankedmeaffectionately,andleftmewithherdaughterandherson,wholookedasifhehadbeenchangedintoastatue。
Thereareagreatmanymothersofthatkindintheworld,andveryoftentheyarewomenwhohaveledavirtuouslife;theydonotsupposethatdeceitcanexist,becausetheirownnatureunderstandsonlywhatisuprightandtrue;buttheyarealmostalwaysthevictimsoftheirgoodfaith,andoftheirtrustinthosewhoseemtothemtobepatternsofhonesty。WhatIhadtoldthemothersurprisedthedaughter,butherastonishmentwasmuchgreaterwhensheheardofwhatIhadsaidtoherbrother。Afteronemomentofconsideration,shetoldhimthat,withanyothermanbutme,shewouldhavebeenruined;andthat,ifshehadbeenintheplaceofMadameC————,shewouldneverhaveforgivenhim,becausethewayhehadtreatedherwasasdebasingforherasforhimself。P————C————wasweeping,butthetraitorcouldcommandtearswheneverhepleased。
ItwasWhitSunday,andasthetheatreswereclosedhetoldmethat,ifIwouldbeatthesameplaceofAppointmentasbefore,thenextday,hewouldleavehissisterwithme,andgobyhimselfwithMadameC————,whomhecouldnothonourablyleavealone。
"Iwillgiveyoumykey,"headded,"andyoucanbringbackmysisterhereassoonasyouhavesuppertogetherwhereveryoulike。"
Andhehandedmehiskey,whichIhadnotthecouragetorefuse。
Afterthatheleftus。Iwentawaymyselfafewminutesafterwards,havingpreviouslyagreedwithC————C————thatwewouldgototheZueccaGardenonthefollowingday。
Iwaspunctual,andloveexcitingmetothehighestdegreeIforesawwhatwouldhappenonthatday。Ihadengagedaboxattheopera,andwewenttoourgardenuntiltheevening。Asitwasaholidaytherewereseveralsmallpartiesoffriendssittingatvarioustables,andbeingunwillingtomixwithotherpeoplewemadeupourmindstoremainintheapartmentwhichwasgiventous,andtogototheoperaonlytowardstheendoftheperformance。Ithereforeorderedagoodsupper。Wehadsevenhourstospendtogether,andmycharmingyoungfriendremarkedthatthetimewouldcertainlynotseemlongtous。
Shethrewoffherdisguiseandsatonmyknees,tellingmethatIhadcompletedtheconquestofherheartbymyreservetowardsherduringthesupperwithherbrother;butallourconversationwasaccompaniedbykisseswhich,littlebylittle,werebecomingmoreandmoreardent。
"Didyousee,"shesaidtome,"whatmybrotherdidtoMadameC————
whensheplacedherselfastrideonhisknees?Ionlysawitinthelooking—glass,butIcouldguesswhatitwas。"
"Wereyounotafraidofmytreatingyouinthesamemanner?"
"No,Icanassureyou。HowcouldIpossiblyfearsuchathing,knowinghowmuchyouloveme?YouwouldhavehumiliatedmesodeeplythatIshouldnolongerhavelovedyou。Wewillwaituntilwearemarried,willwenot,dear?YoucannotrealizetheextentofthejoyIfeltwhenIheardyouspeaktomymotherasyoudid!Wewillloveeachotherforever。Butwillyouexplaintome,dearest,themeaningofthewordsembroidereduponmygarters?"
"Isthereanymottouponthem?Iwasnotawareofit。"
"Oh,yes!itisinFrench;prayreadit。"
Seatedonmyknees,shetookoffoneofhergarterswhileIwasunclaspingtheother,andherearethetwolineswhichIfoundembroideredonthem,andwhichIoughttohavereadbeforeofferingthemtoher:
’Envoyantchaquejourlebijoudemabelle,Vousluidirezqu’Amourveutqu’illuisoitfidele。’
Thoseverses,ratherfreeImustconfess,struckmeasverycomic。
Iburstoutlaughing,andmymirthincreasedwhen,topleaseher,I
hadtotranslatetheirmeaning。Asitwasanideaentirelynewtoher,Ifounditnecessarytoenterintoparticularswhichlightedanardentfireinourveins。
"Now,"sheobserved,"Ishallnotdaretoshewmygarterstoanybody,andIamverysorryforit。"
AsIwasratherthoughtful,sheadded,"Tellmewhatyouarethinkingof?"
"IamthinkingthatthoseluckygartershaveaprivilegewhichperhapsIshallneverenjoy。HowIwishmyselfintheirplace:Imaydieofthatwish,anddiemiserable。"
"No,dearest,forIaminthesamepositionasyou,andIamcertaintolive。Besides,wecanhastenourmarriage。AsfarasIamconcerned,Iamreadytobecomeyourwifeto—morrowifyouwishit。
Wearebothfree,andmyfathercannotrefusehisconsent。"
"Youareright,forhewouldbeboundtoconsentforthesakeofhishonour。ButIwishtogivehimamarkofmyrespectbyaskingforyourhand,andafterthateverythingwillsoonbeready。Itmightbeinaweekortendays。"
"Sosoon?YouwillseethatmyfatherwillsaythatIamtooyoung。"
"Perhapsheisright。"
"No;Iamyoung,butnottooyoung,andIamcertainthatIcanbeyourwife。"
Iwasonburningcoals,andIfeltthatitwasimpossibleformetoresistanylongertheardentfirewhichwasconsumingme。
"Oh,mybestbeloved!"Iexclaimed,"doyoufeelcertainofmylove?
Doyouthinkmecapableofdeceivingyou?Areyousurethatyouwillneverrepentbeingmywife?"
"Morethancertain,darling;foryoucouldnotwishtomakemeunhappy。"
"Well,then,letourmarriagetakeplacenow。LetGodalonereceiveourmutualpledges;wecannothaveabetterwitness,forHeknowsthepurityofourintentions。Letusmutuallyengageourfaith,letusuniteourdestiniesandbehappy。Wewillafterwardslegalizeourtenderlovewithyourfather’sconsentandwiththeceremoniesoftheChurch;inthemeantimebemine,entirelymine。"
"Disposeofme,dearest。IpromisetoGod,Ipromisetoyouthat,fromthisverymomentandforever,Iwillbeyourfaithfulwife;I
willsaythesametomyfather,tothepriestwhowillblessourunion——infact,toeverybody。"
"Itakethesameoathtowardsyou,darling,andIcanassureyouthatwearenowtrulymarried。Cometomyarms!Oh,dearest,completemyfelicity!"
"Oh,dear!amIindeedsonearhappiness!"
Afterkissinghertenderly,Iwentdowntotellthemistressofthehousenottodisturbus,andnottobringupourdinneruntilwecalledforit。Duringmyshortabsence,mycharmingC————C————hadthrownherselfdressedonthebed,butItoldherthatthegodoflovedisapprovedofunnecessaryveils,andinlessthanaminuteI
madeofheranewEve,beautifulinhernakednessasifshehadjustcomeoutofthehandsoftheSupremeArtist。Herskin,assoftassatin,wasdazzlinglywhite,andseemedstillmoresobesidehersplendidblackhairwhichIhadspreadoverheralabastershoulders。
Herslenderfigure,herprominenthips,herbeautifully—modelledbosom,herlargeeyes,fromwhichflashedthesparkleofamorousdesire,everythingaboutherwasstrikinglybeautiful,andpresentedtomyhungrylookstheperfectionofthemotheroflove,adornedbyallthecharmswhichmodestythrowsovertheattractionsofalovelywoman。
Besidemyself,Ialmostfearedlestmyfelicityshouldnotprovereal,orlestitshouldnotbemadeperfectbycompleteenjoyment,whenmischievouslovecontrived,insoseriousamoment,tosupplymewithareasonformirth。
"Istherebyanychancealawtopreventthehusbandfromundressinghimself?"enquiredbeautifulC————C————。
"No,darlingangel,no;andevenifthereweresuchabarbarouslaw,Iwouldnotsubmittoit。"
Inoneinstant,Ihadthrownoffallmygarments,andmymistress,inherturn,gaveherselfuptoalltheimpulseofnaturalinstinctandcuriosity,foreverypartofmybodywasanentirelynewthingtoher。Atlast,asifshehadhadenoughofthepleasurehereyeswereenjoying,shepressedmeagainstherbosom,andexclaimed,"Oh!dearest,whatadifferencebetweenyouandmypillow!"
"Yourpillow,darling?Youarelaughing;whatdoyoumean?"
"Oh!itisnothingbutachildishfancy;Iamafraidyouwillbeangry。"
"Angry!HowcouldIbeangrywithyou,mylove,inthehappiestmomentofmylife?"
"Well,forseveraldayspast,Icouldnotgotosleepwithoutholdingmypillowinmyarms;Icaressedit,Icalleditmydearhusband;I
fancieditwasyou,andwhenadelightfulenjoymenthadleftmewithoutmovement,Iwouldgotosleep,andinthemorningfindmypillowstillbetweenmyarms。"
MydearC————C————becamemywifewiththecourageofatrueheroine,forherintenselovecausedhertodelighteveninbodilypain。Afterthreehoursspentindeliciousenjoyment,Igotupandcalledforoursupper。Therepastwassimple,butverygood。Welookedatoneanotherwithoutspeaking,forhowcouldwefindwordstoexpressourfeelings?Wethoughtthatourfelicitywasextreme,andweenjoyeditwiththecertaintythatwecouldrenewitatwill。
Thehostesscameuptoenquirewhetherwewantedanything,andsheaskedifwewerenotgoingtotheopera,whicheverybodysaidwassobeautiful。
"Haveyouneverbeentotheopera?"
"Never,becauseitistoodearforpeopleinourposition。Mydaughterhassuchawishtogo,that,Godforgivemeforsayingit!
shewouldgiveherself,Itrulybelieve,tothemanwhowouldtakeherthereonce。"
"Thatwouldbepayingverydearforit,"saidmylittlewife,laughing。"Dearest,wecouldmakeherhappyatlesscost,forthathurtsverymuch。"
"Iwasthinkingofit,mylove。Hereisthekeyofthebox,youcanmakethemapresentofit。"
"HereisthekeyofaboxattheSt。MosesTheatre,"shesaidtothehostess;"itcoststwosequins;goinsteadofus,andtellyourdaughtertokeepherrose—budforsomethingbetter。"
"Toenableyoutoamuseyourself,mygoodwoman;takethesetwosequins,"Iadded。"Letyourdaughterenjoyherselfwell。"
Thegoodhostess,thoroughlyamazedatthegenerosityofherguests,raninagreathurrytoherdaughter,whileweweredelightedathavinglaidourselvesunderthepleasantnecessityofagaingoingtobed。Shecameupwithherdaughter,ahandsome,temptingblonde,whoinsisteduponkissingthehandsofherbenefactors。
"Sheisgoingthisminutewithherlover,"saidthemother。"Heiswaitingforher;butIwillnotlethergoalonewithhim,forheisnottobetrusted;Iamgoingwiththem。"
"Thatisright,mygoodwoman;butwhenyoucomebackthisevening,letthegondolawaitforus;itwilltakeustoVenice。"
"What!Doyoumeantoremainhereuntilwereturn?"
"Yes,forthisisourwedding—day。"
"To—day?Godblessyou!"
Shethenwenttothebed,toputittorights,andseeingthemarksofmywife’svirginityshecametomydearC————C————and,inherjoy,kissedher,andimmediatelybeganasermonforthespecialbenefitofherdaughter,shewingherthosemarkswhich,inheropinion,didinfinitehonourtotheyoungbride:respectablemarks,shesaid,whichinourdaysthegodofHymenseesbutseldomonhisaltar。
Thedaughter,castingdownherbeautifulblueeyes,answeredthatthesamewouldcertainlybeseenonherwedding—day。
"Iamcertainofit,"saidthemother,"forIneverlosesightofthee。Goandgetsomewaterinthisbasin,andbringithere。Thischarmingbridemustbeinneedofit。"
Thegirlobeyed。Thetwowomenhavingleftus,wewenttobed,andfourhoursofecstaticdelightspassedoffwithwonderfulrapidity。
Ourlastengagementwouldhavelastedlonger,ifmycharmingsweethearthadnottakenafancytotakemyplaceandtoreversetheposition。Wornoutwithhappinessandenjoyment,weweregoingtosleep,whenthehostesscametotellusthatthegondolawaswaitingforus。Iimmediatelygotuptoopenthedoor,inthehopethatshewouldamuseuswithherdescriptionoftheopera;butsheleftthattasktoherdaughter,whohadcomeupwithher,andshewentdownagaintopreparesomecoffeeforus。Theyounggirlassistedmysweethearttodress,butnowandthenshewouldwinkatmeinamannerwhichmademethinkthatshehadmoreexperiencethanhermotherimagined。
Nothingcouldbemoreindiscreetthantheeyesofmybelovedmistress;theyworetheirrefutablemarksofherfirstexploits。Itistruethatshehadjustbeenfightingabattlewhichhadpositivelymadeheradifferentbeingtowhatshewasbeforetheengagement。
Wetooksomehotcoffee,andItoldourhostesstogetusanicedinnerforthenextday;wethenleftinthegondola。ThedawnofdaywasbreakingwhenwelandedatSt。Sophia’sSquare,inordertosetthecuriosityofthegondoliersatfault,andwepartedhappy,delighted,andcertainthatwewerethoroughlymarried。Iwenttobed,havingmadeupmymindtocompelM。deBragadin,throughthepoweroftheoracle,toobtainlegallyformethehandofmybelovedC————C————。Iremainedinbeduntilnoon,andspenttherestofthedayinplayingwithillluck,asifDameFortunehadwishedtowarnmethatshedidnotapproveofmylove。
CHAPTERXIII
ContinuationofMyIntrigueswithC。C。——M。deBragadinAskstheHandofThatYoungPersonforMe——HerFatherRefuses,andSendsHertoaConvent——DelaHaye—ILoseAllmyMoneyattheFaso—table——MyPartnershipwithCroceReplenishesMyPurse——VariousIncidentsThehappinessderivedfrommylovehadpreventedmefromattachinganyimportancetomylosses,andbeingentirelyengrossedwiththethoughtofmysweetheartmyminddidnotseemtocareforwhateverdidnotrelatetoher。
Iwasthinkingofherthenextmorningwhenherbrothercalledonmewithabeamingcountenance,andsaid,"Iamcertainthatyouhavesleptwithmysister,andIamverygladofit。Shedoesnotconfessasmuch,butherconfessionisnotnecessary。Iwillbringhertoyouto—day。"
"Youwillobligeme,forIadoreher,andIwillgetafriendofminetoaskherinmarriagefromyourfatherinsuchamannerthathewillnotbeabletorefuse。"
"Iwishitmaybeso,butIdoubtit。Inthemeantime,Ifindmyselfcompelledtobeganotherservicefromyourkindness。Icanobtain,againstanoteofhandpayableinsixmonths,aringofthevalueoftwohundredsequins,andIamcertaintosellitagainthisverydayforthesameamount。Thatsum,isverynecessarytomejustnow,butthejeweller,whoknowsyou,willnotletmehaveitwithoutyoursecurity。Willyouobligemeinthisinstance?Iknowthatyoulostagreatdeallastnight;ifyouwantsomemoneyIwillgiveyouonehundredsequins,whichyouwillreturnwhenthenoteofhandfallsdue。"
HowcouldIrefusehim?IknewverywellthatIwouldbeduped,butIlovedhissistersomuch:
"Iamready,"saidItohim,"tosignthenoteofhand,butyouarewronginabusingmyloveforyoursisterinsuchamanner。"
Wewentout,andthejewellerhavingacceptedmysecuritythebargainwascompleted。Themerchant,whoknewmeonlybyname,thinkingofpayingmeagreatcompliment,toldP————C————thatwithmyguaranteeallhisgoodswereathisservice。Ididnotfeelflatteredbythecompliment,butIthoughtIcouldseeinittheknaveryofP————
C————,whowascleverenoughtofindout,outofahundred,thefoolwhowithoutanyreasonplacedconfidenceinmewhenIpossessednothing。ItwasthusthatmyangelicC————C————,whoseemedmadetoinsuremyhappiness,wastheinnocentcauseofmyruin。
AtnoonP————C————broughthissister;andwishingmostlikelytoproveitshonesty——foracheatalwaystrieshardtodothat——hegavemebacktheletterofexchangewhichIhadendorsedfortheCypruswine,assuringmelikewisethatatournextmeetinghewouldhandmetheonehundredsequinswhichhehadpromisedme。
ItookmymistressasusualtoZuecca;Iagreedforthegardentobekeptclosed,andwedinedunderavine—arbour。MydearC————C————
seemedtomemorebeautifulsinceshewasmine,and,friendshipbeingunitedtolovewefeltadelightfulsensationofhappinesswhichshoneonourfeatures。Thehostess,whohadfoundmegenerous,gaveussomeexcellentgameandsomeveryfinefish;herdaughterservedus。Shealsocametoundressmylittlewifeassoonaswehadgoneupstairstogiveourselvesuptothesweetpleasuresnaturaltoayoungmarriedcouple。
Whenwewerealonemylovedaskedmewhatwasthemeaningoftheonehundredsequinswhichherbrotherhadpromisedtobringme,andI
toldherallthathadtakenplacebetweenhimandme。
"Ientreatyou,darling,"shesaidtome,"torefuseallthedemandsofmybrotherinfuture;heis,unfortunately,insuchdifficultiesthathewouldattheenddragyoudowntotheabyssintowhichhemustfall"
Thistimeourenjoymentseemedtousmoresubstantial;werelisheditwithamorerefineddelight,and,sotospeak,wereasonedoverit。
"Oh,mybestbeloved!"shesaidtome,"doallinyourpowertorendermepregnant;forinthatcasemyfathercouldnolongerrefusehisconsenttomymarriage,underthepretextofmybeingtooyoung。"
ItwaswithgreatdifficultythatImadeherunderstandthatthefulfilmentofthatwish,howevermuchIshareditmyself,wasnotentirelyinourpower;butthat,underthecircumstances,itwouldmostprobablybefulfilledsoonerorlater。
Afterworkingwithallourmightatthecompletionofthatgreatundertaking,wegaveseveralhourstoaprofoundanddelightfulrepose。AssoonaswewereawakeIcalledforcandlesandcoffee,andwesettoworkagaininthehopeofobtainingthemutualharmonyofecstaticenjoymentwhichwasnecessarytoinsureourfuturehappiness。Itwasinthemidstofourlovingsportthatthetooearlydawnsurprisedus,andwehurriedbacktoVenicetoavoidinquisitiveeyes。
WerenewedourpleasuresontheFriday,but,whateverdelightImayfeelnowintheremembranceofthosehappymoments,Iwillsparemyreadersthedescriptionofmynewenjoyment,becausetheymightnotfeelinterestedinsuchrepetitions。Imustthereforeonlysaythat,beforepartingonthatday,wefixedforthefollowingMonday,thelastdayofthecarnival,ourlastmeetingintheGardenofZuecca。
Deathalonecouldhavehinderedmefromkeepingthatappointment,foritwastobethelastopportunityofenjoyingouramoroussport。
OntheMondaymorningIsawP————C————,whoconfirmedtheappointmentforthesamehour,andattheplacepreviouslyagreedupon,andIwasthereingoodtime。Inspiteoftheimpatienceofalover,thefirsthourofexpectationpassesrapidly,butthesecondismortallylong。Yetthethirdandthefourthpassedwithoutmyseeingmybelovedmistress。Iwasinastateoffearfulanxiety;I
imaginedthemostterribledisasters。ItseemedtomethatifC———
C————hadbeenunabletogooutherbrotheroughttohavecometoletmeknowit。
Butsomeunexpectedmishapmighthavedetainedhim,andIcouldnotgoandfetchhermyselfatherhouse,evenifIhadfearednothingelsethantomissthemontheroad。Atlast,asthechurchbellsweretollingtheAngelus,C————C————camealone,andmasked。
"Iwascertain,"shesaid,"thatyouwerehere,andhereIaminspiteofallmymothercouldsay。Youmustbestarving。Mybrotherhasnotputinanappearancethroughthewholeofthisday。Letusgoquicklytoourgarden,forIamveryhungrytoo,andlovewillconsoleusforallwehavesufferedtoday。"
Shehadspokenveryrapidly,andwithoutgivingmetimetoutterasingleword;Ihadnothingmoretoaskher。Wewentoff,andtookagondolatoourgarden。Thewindwasveryhigh,itblewalmostahurricane,andthegondolahavingonlyonerowerthedangerwasgreat。C————C————,whohadnoideaofit,wasplayingwithmetomakeupfortherestraintunderwhichshehadbeenallday;buthermovementsexposedthegondoliertodanger;ifhehadfallenintothewater,nothingcouldhavesavedus,andwewouldhavefounddeathonourwaytopleasure。Itoldhertokeepquiet,but,beinganxiousnottofrightenher,Idarednotacquaintherwiththedangerwewererunning。Thegondolier,however,hadnotthesamereasonsforsparingherfeelings,andhecalledouttousinastentorianvoicethat,ifwedidnotkeepquiet,wewerealllost。Histhreathadthedesiredeffect,andwereachedthelandingwithoutmishap。Ipaidthemangenerously,andhelaughedforjoywhenhesawthemoneyforwhichhewasindebtedtothebadweather。
Wespentsixdelightfulhoursinourcasino;thistimesleepwasnotallowedtovisitus。Theonlythoughtwhichthrewacloudoverourfelicitywasthat,thecarnivalbeingover,wedidnotknowhowtocontriveourfuturemeetings。Weagreed,however,thatonthefollowingWednesdaymorningIshouldpayavisittoherbrother,andthatshewouldcometohisroomasusual。
Wetookleaveofourworthyhostess,who,entertainingnohopeofseeingusagain,expressedhersorrowandoverwhelmeduswithblessings。Iescortedmydarling,withoutanyaccident,asfarasthedoorofherhouse,andwenthome。
Ihadjustrisenatnoon,whentomygreatsurpriseIhadavisitfromDelaHayewithhispupilCalvi,ahandsomeyoungman,buttheverycopyofhismasterineverything。Hewalked,spoke,laughedexactlylikehim;itwasthesamelanguageasthatoftheJesuitscorrectbutratherharshFrench。Ithoughtthatexcessofimitationperfectlyscandalous,andIcouldnothelptellingDelaHayethatheoughttochangehispupil’sdeportment,becausesuchservilemimicrywouldonlyexposehimtobitterraillery。AsIwasgivinghimmyopiniononthatsubject,Bavoismadehisappearance,andwhenhehadspentanhourinthecompanyoftheyoungmanhewasentirelyofthesamemind。Calvidiedtwoorthreeyearslater。DelaHaye,whowasbentuponformingpupils,became,twoorthreemonthsafterCalvi’sdeath,thetutoroftheyoungChevalierdeMorosini,thenephewofthenoblemantowhomBavoiswasindebtedforhisrapidfortune,whowasthentheCommissioneroftheRepublictosettleitsboundarieswiththeAustrianGovernmentrepresentedbyCountChristiani。
Iwasinlovebeyondallmeasure,andIwouldnotpostponeanapplicationonwhichmyhappinessdependedanylonger。Afterdinner,andassoonaseverybodyhadretired,IbeggedM。deBragadinandhistwofriendstograntmeanaudienceoftwohoursintheroominwhichwewerealwaysinaccessible。There,withoutanypreamble,ItoldthemthatIwasinlovewithC————C————,anddeterminedoncarryingheroffiftheycouldnotcontrivetoobtainherfromherfatherformywife。"Thequestionatissue,"IsaidtoM。deBragadin,"ishowtogivemearespectableposition,andtoguaranteeadowryoftenthousandducatswhichtheyoungladywouldbringme。"Theyansweredthat,ifParalisgavethemthenecessaryinstructions,theywerereadytofulfilthem。ThatwasallIwanted。Ispenttwohoursinformingallthepyramidstheywished,andtheresultwasthatM。deBragadinhimselfwoulddemandinmynamethehandoftheyounglady;
theoracleexplainingthereasonofthatchoicebystatingthatitmustbethesamepersonwhowouldguaranteethedowrywithhisownfortune。Thefatherofmymistressbeingthenathiscountry—house,Itoldmyfriendsthattheywouldhaveduenoticeofhisreturn,andthattheyweretobeallthreetogetherwhenM。deBragadindemandedtheyounglady’shand。
WellpleasedwithwhatIhaddone,IcalledonP————C————thenextmorning。Anoldwoman,whoopenedthedoorforme,toldmethathewasnotathome,butthathismotherwouldseeme。Shecameimmediatelywithherdaughter,andtheybothlookedverysad,whichatoncestruckmeasabadsign。C————C————toldmethatherbrotherwasinprisonfordebt,andthatitwouldbedifficulttogethimoutofitbecausehisdebtsamountedtoaverylargesum。Themother,cryingbitterly,toldmehowdeeplygrievedshewasatnotbeingabletosupporthimintheprison,andsheshewedmetheletterhehadwrittentoher,inwhichherequestedhertodeliveranenclosuretohissister。IaskedC————C—————whetherIcouldreadit;shehandedittome,andIsawthathebeggedhertospeaktomeinhisbehalf。AsIreturnedittoher,ItoldhertowritetohimthatIwasnotinapositiontodoanythingforhim,butIentreatedthemothertoaccepttwenty—fivesequins,whichwouldenablehertoassisthimbysendinghimoneortwoatatime。Shemadeuphermindtotakethemonlywhenherdaughterjoinedherentreatiestomine。
AfterthispainfulsceneIgavethemanaccountofwhatIhaddoneinordertoobtainthehandofmyyoungsweetheart。MadameC———thankedme,expressedherappreciationofmyhonourableconduct,butshetoldmenottoentertainanyhope,becauseherhusband,whowasverystubborninhisideas,haddecidedthathisdaughtershouldmarryamerchant,andnotbeforetheageofeighteen。Hewasexpectedhomethatveryday。AsIwastakingleaveofthem,mymistresscontrivedtoslipinmyhandaletterinwhichshetoldmethatIcouldsafelymakeuseofthekeywhichIhadinmypossession,toenterthehouseatmidnight,andthatIwouldfindherinherbrother’sroom。Thisnewsmademeveryhappy,for,notwithstandingallthedoubtsofhermother,Ihopedforsuccessinobtainingherhand。
WhenIreturnedhome,ItoldM。deBragadinoftheexpectedarrivalofthefatherofmycharmingC————C————,andthekindoldmanwrotetohimimmediatelyinmypresence。Herequestedhimtonameatwhattimehemightcallonhimonimportantbusiness。IaskedM。deBragadinnottosendhisletteruntilthefollowingday。
ThereadercanverywellguessthatC————C————hadnottowaitformelongaftermidnight。Igainedadmittancewithoutanydifficulty,andIfoundmydarling,whoreceivedmewithopenarms。
"Youhavenothingtofear,"shesaidtome;"myfatherhasarrivedinexcellenthealth,andeveryoneinthehouseisfastasleep。"
"ExceptLove,"Ianswered,"whichisnowinvitingustoenjoyourselves。Lovewillprotectus,dearest,andto—morrowyourfatherwillreceivealetterfrommyworthyprotector。"
AtthosewordsC————C————shuddered。Itwasapresentimentofthefuture。
Shesaidtome,"MyfatherthinksofmenowasifIwerenothingbutachild;buthiseyesaregoingtobeopenedrespectingme;hewillexaminemyconduct,andGodknowswhatwillhappen!Now,wearehappy,evenmorethanwewereduringourvisitstoZuecca,forwecanseeeachothereverynightwithoutrestraint。ButwhatwillmyfatherdowhenhehearsthatIhavealover?"
"Whatcanhedo?Ifherefusesmeyourhand,Iwillcarryyouoff,andthepatriarchwouldcertainlymarryus。Weshallbeoneanother’sforlife"
"Itismymostardentwish,andtorealizeitIamreadytodoanything;but,dearest,Iknowmyfather。"
Weremainedtwohourstogether,thinkinglessofourpleasuresthanofoursorrow;Iwentawaypromisingtoseeheragainthenextnight。
Thewholeofthemorningpassedoffveryheavilyforme,andatnoonM。deBragadininformedmethathehadsenthislettertothefather,whohadansweredthathewouldcallhimselfonthefollowingdaytoascertainM。deBragadin’swishes。AtmidnightIsawmybelovedmistressagain,andIgaveheranaccountofallthathadtranspired。
C————C————toldmethatthemessageofthesenatorhadgreatlypuzzledherfather,because,ashehadneverhadanyintercoursewiththatnobleman,hecouldnotimaginewhathewantedwithhim。
Uncertainty,asortofanxiousdread,andaconfusedhope,renderedourenjoymentmuchlesslivelyduringthetwohourswhichwespenttogether。IhadnodoubtthatM。Ch。C————thefatherofmyyoungfriend,would’gohomeimmediatelyafterhisinterviewwithM。deBragadin,thathewouldaskhisdaughteragreatmanyquestions,andIfearedlestC————C————,inhertroubleandconfusion,shouldbetrayherself。Shefeltherselfthatitmightbeso,andIcouldseehowpainfullyanxiousshewas。Iwasextremelyuneasymyself,andIsufferedmuchbecause,notknowinghowherfatherwouldlookatthematter,Icouldnotgiveheranyadvice。Asamatterofcourse,itwasnecessaryforhertoconcealcertaincircumstanceswhichwouldhaveprejudicedhismindagainstus;yetitwasurgenttotellhimthetruthandtoshewherselfentirelysubmissivetohiswill。I
foundmyselfplacedinastrangeposition,andaboveall,Iregrettedhavingmadetheall—importantapplication,preciselybecauseitwascertaintohavetoodecisivearesult。IlongedtogetoutofthestateofindecisioninwhichIwas,andIwassurprisedtoseemyyoungmistresslessanxiousthanIwas。Wepartedwithheavyhearts,butwiththehopethatthenextnightwouldagainbringustogether,forthecontrarydidnotseemtouspossible。
Thenextday,afterdinner,M。Ch。C————calleduponM。deBragadin,butIdidnotshewmyself。Heremainedacoupleofhourswithmythreefriends,andassoonashehadgoneIheardthathisanswerhadbeenwhatthemotherhadtoldme,butwiththeadditionofacircumstancemostpainfultome——namely,thathisdaughterwouldpassthefouryearswhichweretoelapse,beforeshecouldthinkofmarriage,inaconvent。Asapalliativetohisrefusalhehadadded,that,ifbythattimeIhadawell—establishedpositionintheworld,hemightconsenttoourwedding。
Thatanswerstruckmeasmostcruel,andinthedespairinwhichitthrewmeIwasnotastonishedwhenthesamenightIfoundthedoorbywhichIusedtogainadmittancetoC————C————closedandlockedinside。
Ireturnedhomemoredeadthanalive,andlosttwenty—fourhoursinthatfearfulperplexityinwhichamanisoftenthrownwhenhefeelshimselfboundtotakeadecisionwithoutknowingwhattodecide。I
thoughtofcarryingheroff,butathousanddifficultiescombinedtopreventtheexecutionofthatscheme,andherbrotherwasinprison。
Isawhowdifficultitwouldbetocontriveacorrespondencewithmywife,forIconsideredC————C————assuch,muchmorethanifourmarriagehadreceivedthesanctionofthepriest’sblessingorofthenotary’slegalcontract。
Torturedbyathousanddistressingideas,ImadeupmymindatlasttopayavisittoMadameC————。Aservantopenedthedoor,andinformedmethatmadamehadgonetothecountry;shecouldnottellmewhenshewasexpectedtoreturntoVenice。Thisnewswasaterriblethunder—bolttome;Iremainedasmotionlessasastatue;
fornowthatIhadlostthatlastresourceIhadnomeansofprocuringtheslightestinformation。
Itriedtolookcalminthepresenceofmythreefriends,butinrealityIwasinastatetrulyworthyofpity,andthereaderwillperhapsrealizeitifItellhimthatinmydespairImadeupmymindtocallonP————C————inhisprison,inthehopethathemightgivemesomeinformation。
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