Andbesides,’tisforthosewhoseaffairscompelthemtotravelinthedepthofwinterthroughtheGrisonscountrytobesurpriseduponthewaywithgreatinconveniences。I,who,forthemostpart,travelformypleasure,donotordermyaffairssoill。Ifthewaybefoulonmyrighthand,Iturnonmyleft;ifIfindmyselfunfittoride,IstaywhereI
am;and,sodoing,inearnestIseenothingthatisnotaspleasantandcommodiousasmyownhouse。’TistruethatIalwaysfindsuperfluitysuperfluous,andobserveakindoftroubleeveninabundanceitself。
HaveIleftanythingbehindmeunseen,Igobacktoseeit;’tisstillonmyway;Itracenocertainline,eitherstraightorcrooked。——[RousseauhastranslatedthispassageinhisEmile,bookv。]——DoInotfindintheplacetowhichIgowhatwasreportedtome——asitoftenfallsoutthatthejudgmentsofothersdonotjumpwithmine,andthatIhavefoundtheirreportsforthemostpartfalse——Inevercomplainoflosingmylabour:Ihave,atleast,informedmyselfthatwhatwastoldmewasnottrue。
Ihaveaconstitutionofbodyasfree,andapalateasindifferent,asanymanliving:thediversityofmannersofseveralnationsonlyaffectsmeinthepleasureofvariety:everyusagehasitsreason。Lettheplateanddishesbepewter,wood,orearth;mymeatbeboiledorroasted;letthemgivemebutteroroil,ofnutsorolives,hotorcold,’tisallonetome;andsoindifferent,thatgrowingold,Iaccusethisgenerousfaculty,andwouldwishthatdelicacyandchoiceshouldcorrecttheindiscretionofmyappetite,andsometimessoothemystomach。WhenI
havebeenabroadoutofFranceandthatpeople,outofcourtesy,haveaskedmeifIwouldbeservedaftertheFrenchmanner,Ilaughedatthequestion,andalwaysfrequentedtablesthemostfilledwithforeigners。
Iamashamedtoseeourcountrymenbesottedwiththisfoolishhumourofquarrellingwithformscontrarytotheirown;theyseemtobeoutoftheirelementwhenoutoftheirownvillage:wherevertheygo,theykeeptotheirownfashionsandabominatethoseofstrangers。DotheymeetwithacompatriotinHungary?Othehappychance!Theyarehenceforwardinseparable;theyclingtogether,andtheirwholediscourseistocondemnthebarbarousmannerstheyseeaboutthem。Whybarbarous,becausetheyarenotFrench?Andthosehavemadethebestuseoftheirtravelswhohaveobservedmosttospeakagainst。Mostofthemgofornootherendbuttocomebackagain;theyproceedintheirtravelwithvastgravityandcircumspection,withasilentandincommunicableprudence,preservingthemselvesfromthecontagionofanunknownair。WhatIamsayingofthemputsmeinmindofsomethinglikeitIhaveattimesobservedinsomeofouryoungcourtiers;theywillnotmixwithanybutmenoftheirownsort,andlookuponusasmenofanotherworld,withdisdainorpity。
Putthemuponanydiscoursebuttheintriguesofthecourt,andtheyareutterlyataloss;asveryowlsandnovicestousaswearetothem。
’Tistrulysaidthatawell—bredmanisacompoundman。I,onthecontrary,travelverymuchsatedwithourownfashions;IdonotlookforGasconsinSicily;Ihaveleftenoughofthemathome;IratherseekforGreeksandPersians;theyarethemenIendeavourtobeacquaintedwithandthemenIstudy;’tistherethatIbestowandemploymyself。Andwhichismore,IfancythatIhavemetbutwithfewcustomsthatarenotasgoodasourown;Ihavenot,Iconfess,travelledveryfar;scarceoutofthesightofthevanesofmyownhouse。
Astotherest,mostoftheaccidentalcompanyamanfallsintoupontheroadbegethimmoretroublethanpleasure;IwaivethemasmuchasI
civillycan,especiallynowthatageseemsinsomesorttoprivilegeandsequestermefromthecommonforms。Yousufferforothersorotherssufferforyou;bothoftheminconveniencesofimportanceenough,butthelatterappearstomethegreater。’Tisararefortune,butofinestimablesolace;tohaveaworthyman,oneofasoundjudgmentandofmannersconformabletoyourown,whotakesadelighttobearyoucompany。
Ihavebeenataninfinitelossforsuchuponmytravels。Butsuchacompanionshouldbechosenandacquiredfromyourfirstsettingout。
Therecanbenopleasuretomewithoutcommunication:thereisnotsomuchasasprightlythoughtcomesintomymind,thatitdoesnotgrievemetohaveproducedalone,andthatIhavenoonetocommunicateitto:
"Sicumhacexceptionedetursapientia,utillaminclusamteneam,necenuntiem,rejiciam。"
["Ifwisdombeconferredwiththisreservation,thatImustkeepittomyself,andnotcommunicateittoothers,Iwouldnoneofit。"
——"Seneca,Ep。,6。]
Thisotherhasstraineditonenotehigher:
"Sicontigeriteavitasapienti,utommumrerumafliuentibuscopiis,quamvisomnia,quaecognitionedignasunt,summootiosecumipseconsideretetcontempletur,tamen,sisolitudotantasit,uthominemviderenonpossit,excedatavita。"
["Ifsuchaconditionoflifeshouldhappentoawiseman,thatinthegreatestplentyofallconvenienceshemight,atthemostundisturbedleisure,considerandcontemplateallthingsworththeknowing,yetifhissolitudebesuchthathemustnotseeaman,lethimdepartfromlife。"——Cicero,DeOffic。,i。43。]
Architaspleasesmewhenhesays,"thatitwouldbeunpleasant,eveninheavenitself,towanderinthosegreatanddivinecelestialbodieswithoutacompanion。Butyet’tismuchbettertobealonethaninfoolishandtroublesomecompany。Aristippuslovedtoliveasastrangerinallplaces:
"MesifatameispaterenturducerevitamAuspiciis,"
["Ifthefateswouldletmeliveinmyownway。"——AEneid,iv。340。]
Ishouldchoosetopassawaythegreatestpartofmylifeonhorseback:
"Viseregestiens,Quapanedebacchenturignes,Quanebula,pluviiquerores。"
["Visittheregionswherethesunburns,wherearethethickrain—
cloudsandthefrosts。"——Horace,Od。,iii。3,54。]
"Haveyounotmoreeasydiversionsathome?Whatdoyoutherewant?Isnotyourhousesituatedinasweetandhealthfulair,sufficientlyfurnished,andmorethansufficientlylarge?Hasnottheroyalmajestybeenmorethanoncethereentertainedwithallitstrain?Aretherenotmorebelowyourfamilyingoodeasethanthereareaboveitineminence?
Isthereanylocal,extraordinary,indigestiblethoughtthatafflictsyou?"
"Quatonunccoquat,etvexetsubpectorefixa。"
["Thatmaynowworryyou,andvex,fixedinyourbreast。"
——Cicero,DeSenect,c。1,ExEnnio。]
"Wheredoyouthinktolivewithoutdisturbance?"
"NunquamsimpliciterFortunaindulget。"
["Fortuneisneversimplycomplaisant(unmixed)。"
——QuintusCurtius,iv。14]
Yousee,then,itisonlyyouthattroubleyourself;youwilleverywherefollowyourself,andeverywherecomplain;forthereisnosatisfactionherebelow,buteitherforbrutishorfordivinesouls。Hewho,onsojustanoccasion,hasnocontentment,wherewillhethinktofindit?
Howmanythousandsofmenterminatetheirwishesinsuchaconditionasyours?Dobutreformyourself;forthatiswhollyinyourownpower!
whereasyouhavenootherrightbutpatiencetowardsfortune:
"Nullaplacidaquiesest,nisiquamratiocomposuit。"
["Thereisnotranquillitybutthatwhichreasonhasconferred。"
——Seneca,Ep。,56。]
Iseethereasonofthisadvice,andseeitperfectlywell;buthemightsoonerhavedone,andmorepertinently,inbiddingmeinonewordbewise;thatresolutionisbeyondwisdom;’tisherpreciseworkandproduct。Thusthephysiciankeepspreachingtoapoorlanguishingpatientto"becheerful";buthewouldadvisehimalittlemorediscreetlyinbiddinghim"bewell。"Formypart,Iambutamanofthecommonsort。’Tisawholesomeprecept,certainandeasytobeunderstood,"Becontentwithwhatyouhave,"thatistosay,withreason:
andyettofollowthisadviceisnomoreinthepowerofthewisemenoftheworldthaninme。’Tisacommonsaying,butofaterribleextent:
whatdoesitnotcomprehend?Allthingsfallunderdiscretionandqualification。Iknowverywellthat,totakeitbytheletter,thispleasureoftravellingisatestimonyofuneasinessandirresolution,and,insooth,thesetwoareourgoverningandpredominatingqualities。
Yes,Iconfess,Iseenothing,notsomuchasinadream,inawish,whereonIcouldsetupmyrest:varietyonly,andthepossessionofdiversity,cansatisfyme;thatis,ifanythingcan。Intravelling,itpleasesmethatImaystaywhereIlike,withoutinconvenience,andthatIhaveaplacewhereincommodiouslytodivertmyself。Iloveaprivatelife,because’tismyownchoicethatIloveit,notbyanydissentingfromordislikeofpubliclife,which,peradventure,isasmuchaccordingtomycomplexion。Iservemyprincemorecheerfullybecauseitisbythefreeelectionofmyownjudgmentandreason,withoutanyparticularobligation;andthatIamnotreducedandconstrainedsotodoforbeingrejectedordislikedbytheotherparty;andsoofalltherest。Ihatethemorselsthatnecessitycarvesme;anycommodityuponwhichIhadonlytodependwouldhavemebythethroat;
"Alterremusaquas,altermihiradatarenas;"
["Letmehaveoneoarinthewater,andwiththeotherraketheshore。"——Propertius,iii。3,23。]
onecordwillneverholdmefastenough。Youwillsay,thereisvanityinthiswayofliving。Butwhereistherenot?Allthesefinepreceptsarevanity,andallwisdomisvanity:
"Dominusnovitcogitationessapientum,quoniamvanaesunt。"
["TheLordknoweththethoughtsofthewise,thattheyarevain。"
——Ps。xciii。II;orICor。iii。20。]
Theseexquisitesubtletiesareonlyfitforsermons;theyarediscoursesthatwillsendusallsaddledintotheotherworld。Lifeisamaterialandcorporalmotion,anactionimperfectandirregularofitsownproperessence;Imakeitmybusinesstoserveitaccordingtoitself:
"Quisquesuospatimurmanes。"
["Weeachofussufferourownparticulardemon。"——AEneid,vi。743。]
"Sicestfaciendum,utcontranaturamuniversamnihilcontendamus;
eatamenconservatapropriamsequamur。"
["Wemustsoorderitasbynomeanstocontendagainstuniversalnature;butyet,thatrulebeingobserved,tofollowourown。"
——Cicero,DeOffcc。,i。31。]
Towhatendaretheseelevatedpointsofphilosophy,uponwhichnohumanbeingcanrely?andthoserulesthatexceedbothouruseandforce?
Iseeoftenthatwehavetheoriesoflifesetbeforeuswhichneithertheproposernorthosewhohearhimhaveanyhope,nor,whichismore,anyinclinationtofollow。Ofthesamesheetofpaperwhereonthejudgehasbutjustwrittenasentenceagainstanadulterer,hestealsapiecewhereontowritealove—lettertohiscompanion’swife。Shewhomyouhavebutjustnowillicitlyembracedwillpresently,eveninyourhearing,moreloudlyinveighagainstthesamefaultinhercompanionthanaPortiawoulddo;——[ThechastedaughterofCatoofUtica。]——andmentherearewhowillcondemnotherstodeathforcrimesthattheythemselvesdonotreputesomuchasfaults。Ihave,inmyyouth,seenamanofgoodrankwithonehandpresenttothepeopleversesthatexcelledbothinwitanddebauchery,andwiththeother,atthesametime,themostripeandpugnacioustheologicalreformationthattheworldhasbeentreatedwithalthesemanyyears。Andsomenproceed;weletthelawsandpreceptsfollowtheirway;ourselveskeepanothercourse,notonlyfromdebaucheryofmanners,butofttimesbyjudgmentandcontraryopinion。Dobuthearaphilosophicallecture;theinvention,eloquence,pertinencyimmediatelystrikeuponyourmindandmoveyou;thereisnothingthattouchesorstingsyourconscience;’tisnottothistheyaddressthemselves。Isnotthistrue?。ItmadeAristosay,thatneitherabathnoralecturedidaughtunlessitscouredandmademenclean。Onemaystopattheskin;butitisafterthemarrowispickedoutas,afterwehaveswallowedgoodwineoutofafinecup,weexaminethedesignsandworkmanship。Inallthecourtsofancientphilosophy,thisistobefound,thatthesameteacherpublishesrulesoftemperanceandatthesametimelessonsinloveandwantonness;Xenophon,,intheverybosomofClinias,wroteagainsttheAristippicvirtue。’Tisnotthatthereisanymiraculousconversioninitthatmakesthemthuswavering;’tisthatSolonrepresentshimself,sometimesinhisownperson,andsometimesinthatofalegislator;onewhilehespeaksforthecrowd,andanotherforhimself;takingthefreeandnaturalrulesforhisownshare,feelingassuredofafirmandentirehealth:
"Curenturdubiimedicismajoribusaegri。"
["Desperatemaladiesrequirethebestdoctors。"
——Juvenal,xiii。124。]
Antisthenesallowsasagetolove,andtodowhateverhethinksconvenient,withoutregardtothelaws,forasmuchasheisbetteradvisedthanthey,andhasagreaterknowledgeofvirtue。HisdiscipleDiogenessaid,that"mentoperturbationsweretoopposereason:tofortune,courage:tothelaws,nature。"Fortenderstomachs,constrainedandartificialrecipesmustbeprescribed:goodandstrongstomachsservethemselvessimplywiththeprescriptionsoftheirownnaturalappetite;
afterthismannerdoourphysiciansproceed,whoeatmelonsanddrinkicedwines,whilsttheyconfinetheirpatientstosyrupsandsops。
"Iknownot,"saidthecourtezanLais,"whattheymaytalkofbooks,wisdom,andphilosophy;butthesemenknockasoftenatmydoorasanyothers。"Atthesameratethatourlicencecarriesusbeyondwhatislawfulandallowed,menhave,oftenbeyonduniversalreason,stretchedthepreceptsandrulesofourlife:
"Nemosatiscredittantumdelinquere,quantumPermittas。"
["Noonethinkshehasdoneilltothefullextentofwhathemay。"
——Juvenal,xiv。233。]
Itweretobewishedthattherewasmoreproportionbetwixtthecommandandtheobedience;andthemarkseemstobeunjusttowhichonecannotattain。Thereisnosogoodman,whososquaresallhisthoughtsandactionstothelaws,thatheisnotfaultyenoughtodeservehangingtentimesinhislife;andhemaywellbesuchaone,asitweregreatinjusticeandgreatharmtopunishandruin:
"Ole,quidadteDecutequidfaciatillevelillesua?"
["Olus,whatisittotheewhatheorshedoeswiththeirskin?"
——Martial,vii。9,I。]
andsuchanonetheremaybe,whohasnowayoffendedthelaws,who,nevertheless,wouldnotdeservethecharacterofavirtuousman,andwhomphilosophywouldjustlycondemntobewhipped;sounequalandperplexedisthisrelation。Wearesofarfrombeinggoodmen,accordingtothelawsofGod,thatwecannotbesoaccordingtoourownhumanwisdomneveryetarrivedatthedutiesithaditselfprescribed;andcoulditarrivethere,itwouldstillprescribetoitselfothersbeyond,towhichitwouldeveraspireandpretend;sogreatanenemytoconsistencyisourhumancondition。Manenjoinshimselftobenecessarilyinfault:heisnotverydiscreettocutouthisowndutybythemeasureofanotherbeingthanhisown。Towhomdoesheprescribethatwhichhedoesnotexpectanyoneshouldperform?isheunjustinnotdoingwhatitisimpossibleforhimtodo?Thelawswhichcondemnusnottobeable,condemnusfornotbeingable。
Attheworst,thisdifformlibertyofpresentingourselvestwoseveralways,theactionsafteronemannerandthereasoningafteranother,maybeallowedtothosewhoonlyspeakofthings;butitcannotbeallowedtothosewhospeakofthemselves,asIdo:ImustmarchmypenasIdomyfeet。Commonlifeoughttohaverelationtotheotherlives:thevirtueofCatowasvigorousbeyondthereasonoftheagehelivedin;andforamanwhomadeithisbusinesstogovernothers,amandedicatedtothepublicservice,itmightbecalledajustice,ifnotunjust,atleastvainandoutofseason。Evenmyownmanners,whichdiffernotaboveaninchfromthosecurrentamongstus,renderme,nevertheless,alittleroughandunsociableatmyage。IknownotwhetheritbewithoutreasonthatIamdisgustedwiththeworldIfrequent;butIknowverywellthatitwouldbewithoutreason,shouldIcomplainofitsbeingdisgustedwithme,seeingIamsowithit。Thevirtuethatisassignedtotheaffairsoftheworldisavirtueofmanywavings,corners,andelbows,tojoinandadaptitselftohumanfrailty,mixedandartificial,notstraight,clear,constant,norpurelyinnocent。Ourannalstothisverydayreproachoneofourkingsforsufferinghimselftoosimplytobecarriedawaybytheconscientiouspersuasionsofhisconfessor:affairsofstatehavebolderprecepts;
"Exeataula,Quivultessepius。"
["Lethimwhowillbepiousretirefromthecourt。"
——Lucan,viii。493]
Iformerlytriedtoemployintheserviceofpublicaffairsopinionsandrulesofliving,asrough,new,unpolishedorunpolluted,astheywereeitherbornwithme,orbroughtawayfrommyeducation,andwherewithI
servemyownturn,ifnotsocommodiously,atleastsecurely,inmyownparticularconcerns:ascholasticandnovicevirtue;butIhavefoundthemunaptanddangerous。Hewhogoesintoacrowdmustnowgoonewayandthenanother,keephiselbowsclose,retireoradvance,andquitthestraightway,accordingtowhatheencounters;andmustlivenotsomuchaccordingtohisownmethodastothatofothers;notaccordingtowhatheproposestohimself,butaccordingtowhatisproposedtohim,accordingtothetime,accordingtothemen,accordingtotheoccasions。
Platosays,thatwhoeverescapesfromtheworld’shandlingwithcleanbreeches,escapesbymiracle:andsayswithal,thatwhenheappointshisphilosophertheheadofagovernment,hedoesnotmeanacorruptonelikethatofAthens,andmuchlesssuchaoneasthisofours,whereinwisdomitselfwouldbetoseek。Agoodherb,transplantedintoasoilcontrarytoitsownnature,muchsoonerconformsitselftothesoilthanitreformsthesoiltoit。IfoundthatifIhadwhollytoapplymyselftosuchemployments,itwouldrequireagreatdealofchangeandnewmodellinginmebeforeIcouldbeanywayfitforit:AndthoughIcouldsofarprevailuponmyself(andwhymightInotwithtimeanddiligenceworksuchafeat),Iwouldnotdoit。ThelittletrialIhavehadofpublicemploymenthasbeensomuchdisgusttome;Ifeelattimestemptationstowardambitionrisinginmysoul,butIobstinatelyopposethem:
"Attu,Catulle,obstinatusobdura。"
["Butthou,Catullus,beobstinatelyfirm。"——Catullus,viii。19。]
Iamseldomcalledtoit,andasseldomoffermyselfuncalled;libertyandlaziness,thequalitiesmostpredominantinme,arequalitiesdiametricallycontrarytothattrade。Wecannotwelldistinguishthefacultiesofmen;theyhavedivisionsandlimitshardanddelicatetochoose;toconcludefromthediscreetconductofaprivatelifeacapacityforthemanagementofpublicaffairsistoconcludeill;amanmaygovernhimselfwellwhocannotgovernothersso,andcomposeEssayswhocouldnotworkeffects:mentheremaybewhocanorderasiegewell,whowouldillmarshalabattle;whocanspeakwellinprivate,whowouldillharangueapeopleoraprince;nay,’tisperadventureratheratestimonyinhimwhocandotheonethathecannotdotheother,thanotherwise。Ifindthatelevatedsoulsarenotmuchmoreproperformeanthingsthanmeansoulsareforhighones。CoulditbeimaginedthatSocratesshouldhaveadministeredoccasionoflaughter,attheexpenseofhisownreputation,totheAtheniansfor:havingneverbeenabletosumupthevotesofhistribe,todeliverittothecouncil?Truly,thevenerationIhavefortheperfectionsofthisgreatmandeservesthathisfortuneshouldfurnish,fortheexcuseofmyprincipalimperfections,somagnificentanexample。Oursufficiencyiscutoutintosmallparcels;
minehasnolatitude,andisalsoverycontemptibleinnumber。
Saturninus,tothosewhohadconferreduponhimthecommandinchief:
"Companions,"saidhe,"youhavelostagoodcaptain,tomakeofhimabadgeneral。"
Whoeverboasts,insosickatimeasthis,toemployatrueandsincerevirtueintheworld’sservice,eitherknowsnotwhatitis,opinionsgrowingcorruptwithmanners(and,intruth,tohearthemdescribeit,tohearthemostofthemglorifythemselvesintheirdeportments,andlaydowntheirrules;insteadofpaintingvirtue,theypaintpureviceandinjustice,andsorepresentitfalseintheeducationofprinces);orifhedoesknowit,boastsunjustlyandlethimsaywhathewill,doesathousandthingsofwhichhisownconsciencemustnecessarilyaccusehim。
IshouldwillinglytakeSeneca’swordontheexperiencehemadeuponthelikeoccasion,providedhewoulddealsincerelywithme。Themosthonourablemarkofgoodnessinsuchanecessityisfreelytoconfessbothone’sownfaultsandthoseofothers;withthepowerofitsvirtuetostayone’sinclinationtowardsevil;unwillinglytofollowthispropension;tohopebetter,todesirebetter。IperceivethatinthesedivisionswhereinweareinvolvedinFrance,everyonelabourstodefendhiscause;buteventheverybestofthemwithdissimulationanddisguise:hewhowouldwriteroundlyofthetruestateofthequarrel,wouldwriterashlyandwrongly。Themostjustpartyisatbestbutamemberofadecayedandworm—eatenbody;butofsuchabody,thememberthatisleastaffectedcallsitselfsound,andwithgoodreason,forasmuchasourqualitieshavenotitlebutincomparison;civilinnocenceismeasuredaccordingtotimesandplaces。ImaginethisinXenophon,relatedasafinecommendationofAgesilaus:that,beingentreatedbyaneighbouringprincewithwhomhehadformerlyhadwar,topermithimtopassthroughhiscountry,hegrantedhisrequest,givinghimfreepassagethroughPeloponnesus;andnotonlydidnotimprisonorpoisonhim,beingathismercy,butcourteouslyreceivedhimaccordingtotheobligationofhispromise,withoutdoinghimtheleastinjuryoroffence。Tosuchideasastheirsthiswereanactofnoespecialnote;
elsewhereandinanotherage,thefranknessandunanimityofsuchanactionwouldbethoughtwonderful;ourmonkeyishcapets[Capets,socalledfromtheirshortcapes,werethestudentsofMontaigneCollegeatParis,andwereheldingreatcontempt。]
wouldhavelaughedatit,solittledoestheSpartaninnocenceresemblethatofFrance。Wearenotwithoutvirtuousmen,but’tisaccordingtoournotionsofvirtue。Whoeverhashismannersestablishedinregularityabovethestandardoftheagehelivesin,lethimeitherwrestorblunthisrules,or,whichIwouldratheradvisehimto,lethimretire,andnotmeddlewithusatall。Whatwillhegetbyit?
"Egregiumsanctumquevirumsicerno,bimembriHocmonstrumpuero,etmirantijamsubaratroPiscibusinventis,etfoetaecomparomulae。"
["IfIseeanexemplaryandgoodman,Ilikenittoatwo—headedboy,orafishturnedupbytheplough,orateemingmule。"
——Juvenal,xiii。64。]
Onemayregretbettertimes,butcannotflyfromthepresent;wemaywishforothermagistrates,butwemust,notwithstanding,obeythosewehave;
and,peradventure,’tismorelaudabletoobeythebadthanthegood。Solongastheimageoftheancientandreceivedlawsofthismonarchyshallshineinanycornerofthekingdom,therewillIbe。Iftheyunfortunatelyhappentothwartandcontradictoneanother,soastoproducetwoparts,ofdoubtfulanddifficultchoice,Iwillwillinglychoosetowithdrawandescapethetempest;inthemeantimenatureorthehazardsofwarmaylendmeahelpinghand。BetwixtCaesarandPompey,Ishouldfranklyhavedeclaredmyself;but,asamongstthethreerobberswhocameafter,——[Octavius,MarkAntony,andLepidus。]——amanmusthavebeennecessitatedeithertohidehimself,orhavegonealongwiththecurrentofthetime,whichIthinkonemayfairlydowhenreasonnolongerguides:
"Quodiversusabis?"
["Whitherdostthourunwandering?"——AEneid,v。166。]
Thismedleyisalittlefrommytheme;Igooutofmyway;but’tisratherbylicencethanoversight;myfanciesfollowoneanother,butsometimesatagreatdistance,andlooktowardsoneanother,but’tiswithanobliqueglance。IhavereadadialogueofPlato,——[ThePhaedrus。]——ofthelikemotleyandfantasticcomposition,thebeginningaboutlove,andalltheresttotheendaboutrhetoric;theyfearnotthesevariations,andhaveamarvellousgraceinlettingthemselvesbecarriedawayatthepleasureofthewind,oratleasttoseemasiftheywere。Thetitlesofmychaptersdonotalwayscomprehendthewholematter;theyoftendenoteitbysomemarkonly,astheseothers,Andria,Eunuchus;orthese,Sylla,Cicero,Toyquatus。Iloveapoeticprogress,byleapsandskips;’tisanart,asPlatosays,light,nimble,demoniac。
TherearepiecesinPlutarchwhereheforgetshistheme;wherethepropositionofhisargumentisonlyfoundbyincidence,stuffedandhalfstifledinforeignmatter。ObservehisfootstepsintheDaemonofSocrates。OGod!howbeautifularethesefrolicsomesallies,thosevariationsanddigressions,andallthemorewhentheyseemmostfortuitousandcareless。’Tistheindiligentreaderwholosesmysubject,andnotI;therewillalwaysbefoundsomewordorotherinacornerthatistothepurpose,thoughitlieveryclose。Irambleindiscreetlyandtumultuously;mystyleandmywitwanderatthesamerate。Hemustfoolitalittlewhowouldnotbedeemedwhollyafool,sayboththeprecepts,and,stillmore,theexamplesofourmasters。A
thousandpoetsflagandlanguishafteraprosaicmanner;butthebestoldprose(andIstrewithereupanddownindifferentlyforverse)shinesthroughoutwiththelustre,vigour,andboldnessofpoetry,andnotwithoutsomeairofitsfury。Andcertainlyproseoughttohavethepre—
eminenceinspeaking。Thepoet,saysPlato,seateduponthemusestripod,poursoutwithfurywhatevercomesintohismouth,likethepipeofafountain,withoutconsideringandweighingit;andthingsescapehimofvariouscolours,ofcontrarysubstance,andwithanirregulartorrent。
Platohimselfisthroughoutpoetical;andtheoldtheology,asthelearnedtellus,isallpoetry;andthefirstphilosophyistheoriginallanguageofthegods。Iwouldhavemymatterdistinguishitself;itsufficientlyshowswhereitchanges,whereitconcludes,whereitbegins,andwhereitrejoins,withoutinterlacingitwithwordsofconnectionintroducedforthereliefofweakornegligentears,andwithoutexplainingmyself。Whoishethathadnotrathernotbereadatallthanafteradrowsyorcursorymanner?
"Nihilesttamutile,quodintransituprosit。"
["Nothingissousefulasthatwhichiscursorilyso。"
——Seneca,Ep。,2。]
Iftotakebooksinhandweretolearnthem:tolookuponthemweretoconsiderthem:andtoruntheseslightlyoverweretograspthem,IwerethentoblametomakemyselfoutsoignorantasIsayIam。SeeingI
cannotfixtheattentionofmyreaderbytheweightofwhatIwrite,’mancomale’,ifIshouldchancetodoitbymyintricacies。"Nay,buthewillafterwardsrepentthatheeverperplexedhimselfaboutit。"
’Tisverytrue,buthewillyetbethereperplexed。And,besides,therearesomehumoursinwhichcomprehensionproducesdisdain;whowillthinkbetterofmefornotunderstandingwhatIsay,andwillconcludethedepthofmysensebyitsobscurity;which,tospeakingoodsooth,I
mortallyhate,andwouldavoiditifIcould。Aristotleboastssomewhereinhiswritingsthatheaffectedit:aviciousaffectation。ThefrequentbreaksintochaptersthatImademymethodinthebeginningofmybook,havingsinceseemedtometodissolvetheattentionbeforeitwasraised,asmakingitdisdaintosettleitselftosolittle,I,uponthataccount,havemadethemlonger,suchasrequirepropositionandassignedleisure。
Insuchanemployment,towhomyouwillnotgiveanhouryougivenothing;andyoudonothingforhimforwhomyouonlydoitwhilstyouaredoingsomethingelse。TowhichmaybeaddedthatIhave,peradventure,someparticularobligationtospeakonlybyhalves,tospeakconfusedlyanddiscordantly。Iamthereforeangryatthistrouble—
feastreason,anditsextravagantprojectsthatworryone’slife,anditsopinions,sofineandsubtle,thoughtheybealltrue,Ithinktoodearboughtandtooinconvenient。Onthecontrary,Imakeitmybusinesstobringvanityitselfinrepute,andfollytoo,ifitproducemeanypleasure;andletmyselffollowmyownnaturalinclinations,withoutcarryingtoostrictahanduponthem。
Ihaveseenelsewherehousesinruins,andstatuesbothofgodsandmen:
thesearemenstill。’Tisalltrue;andyet,forallthat,Icannotsooftenrevisitthetombofthatsogreatandsopuissantcity,——[Rome]——
thatIdonotadmireandreverenceit。Thecareofthedeadisrecommendedtous;now,Ihavebeenbredupfrommyinfancywiththesedead;IhadknowledgeoftheaffairsofRomelongbeforeIhadanyofthoseofmyownhouse;IknewtheCapitolanditsplanbeforeIknewtheLouvre,andtheTiberbeforeIknewtheSeine。ThequalitiesandfortunesofLucullus,Metellus,andScipiohaveeverrunmoreinmyheadthanthoseofanyofmyowncountry;theyarealldead;soismyfatherasabsolutelydeadasthey,andisremovedasfarfrommeandlifeineighteenyearsastheyareinsixteenhundred:whosememory,nevertheless,friendshipandsociety,Idonotceasetoembraceandutilisewithaperfectandlivelyunion。Nay,ofmyowninclination,I
paymoreservicetothedead;theycannolongerhelpthemselves,andtherefore,methinks,themorerequiremyassistance:’tistherethatgratitudeappearsinitsfulllustre。Thebenefitisnotsogenerouslybestowed,wherethereisretrogradationandreflection。Arcesilaus,goingtovisitCtesibius,whowassick,andfindinghiminaverypoorcondition,veryfinelyconveyedsomemoneyunderhispillow,and,byconcealingitfromhim,acquittedhim,moreover,fromtheacknowledgmentduetosuchabenefit。Suchashavemeritedfrommefriendshipandgratitudehaveneverlostthesebybeingnomore;IhavebetterandmorecarefullypaidthemwhengoneandignorantofwhatIdid;Ispeakmostaffectionatelyofmyfriendswhentheycannolongerknowit。IhavehadahundredquarrelsindefendingPompeyandforthecauseofBrutus;thisacquaintanceyetcontinuesbetwixtus;wehavenootherholdevenonpresentthingsbutbyfancy。Findingmyselfofnousetothisage,I
throwmyselfbackuponthatother,andamsoenamouredofit,thatthefree,just,andflourishingstateofthatancientRome(forIneitherloveitinitsbirthnoritsoldage)interestsandimpassionatesme;
andthereforeIcannotsooftenrevisitthesitesoftheirstreetsandhouses,andthoseruinsprofoundeventotheAntipodes,thatIamnotinterestedinthem。Isitbynature,orthrougherroroffancy,thatthesightofplaceswhichweknowtohavebeenfrequentedandinhabitedbypersonswhosememoriesarerecommendedinstory,movesusinsomesortmorethantoheararecitaloftheir——actsortoreadtheirwritings?
"Tantavisadmonitionisinestinlocis……Etidquideminhacurbeinfinitum;quacumqueenimingredimur,inaliquamhistoriamvestigiumponimus。"
["Sogreatapowerofreminiscenceresidesinplaces;andthattrulyinthiscityinfinite,forwhichwaysoeverwego,wefindthetracesofsomestory。"——Cicero,DeFin。,v。I,2。]
Itpleasesmetoconsidertheirface,bearing,andvestments:Ipronouncethosegreatnamesbetwixtmyteeth,andmakethemringinmyears:
"Egoillosveneror,ettantisnominibussemperassurgo。"
["Ireverencethem,andalwaysrisetosogreatnames。"
——Seneca,Ep。,64。]
Ofthingsthatareinsomepartgreatandadmirable,Iadmireeventhecommonparts:Icouldwishtoseetheminfamiliarrelations,walk,andsup。ItwereingratitudetocontemntherelicsandimagesofsomanyworthyandvaliantmenasIhaveseenliveanddie,andwho,bytheirexample,giveussomanygoodinstructions,knewwehowtofollowthem。
And,moreover,thisveryRomethatwenowsee,deservestobebeloved,solongandbysomanytitlesalliedtoourcrown;theonlycommonanduniversalcity;thesovereignmagistratethatcommandsthereisequallyacknowledgedelsewhere’tisthemetropolitancityofalltheChristiannationstheSpaniardandFrenchmanisthereathome:tobeaprinceofthatstate,thereneedsnomorebuttobeofChristendomwheresoever。
Thereisnoplaceuponearththatheavenhasembracedwithsuchaninfluenceandconstancyoffavour;herveryruinsaregrandandglorious,"Laudandispretiosiorruinis。"
["Morepreciousfromhergloriousruins。"
——SidoniusApollinaris,Carm。,xxiii。;Narba,v。62。]
sheyetinherverytombretainsthemarksandimagesofempire:
"Utpalamsit,unoinlocogaudentisopusessenaturx。"
["Thatitmaybemanifestthatthereisinoneplacetheworkofrejoicingnature。"——Pliny,Nat。Hist。,iii。5。]
Somewouldblameandbeangryatthemselvestoperceivethemselvestickledwithsovainapleasureourhumoursarenevertoovainthatarepleasantletthembewhattheymay,iftheyconstantlycontentamanofcommonunderstanding,Icouldnothavethehearttoblamehim。
IamverymuchobligedtoFortune,inthat,tothisveryhour,shehasofferedmenooutragebeyondwhatIwaswellabletobear。Isitnothercustomtoletthoseliveinquietbywhomsheisnotimportuned?
"Quantoquisquesibiplumnegaverit,Adiisplumferet:nilcupientiumNuduscastrapeto……
MultapetentibusDesuntmulta。"
["Themoreeachmandenieshimself,themorethegodsgivehim。
PoorasIam,Iseekthecompanyofthosewhoasknothing;theywhodesiremuchwillbedeficientinmuch。"
——Horace,Od。,iii。16,21,42。]
Ifshecontinueherfavour,shewilldismissmeverywellsatisfied:
"NihilsupraDeoslacesso。"
["Itroublethegodsnofarther。"——Horace,Od。,ii。18,11。]
Butbewareashock:thereareathousandwhoperishintheport。
IeasilycomfortmyselfforwhatshallherehappenwhenIshallbegone,presentthingstroublemeenough:
"Fortunaecaeteramando。"
["Ileavetheresttofortune。"——Ovid,Metam。,ii。140。]
Besides,Ihavenotthatstrongobligationthattheysaytiesmentothefuture,bytheissuethatsucceedstotheirnameandhonour;andperadventure,oughtlesstocovetthem,iftheyaretobesomuchdesired。Iambuttoomuchtiedtotheworld,andtothislife,ofmyself:IamcontenttobeinFortune’spowerbycircumstancesproperlynecessarytomybeing,withoutotherwiseenlargingherjurisdictionoverme;andhaveneverthoughtthattobewithoutchildrenwasadefectthatoughttorenderlifelesscompleteorlesscontented:asterilevocationhasitsconveniencestoo。Childrenareofthenumberofthingsthatarenotsomuchtobedesired,especiallynowthatitwouldbesohardtomakethemgood:
"Bonajamnecnascilicet,itacorruptaBuntsemina;"
["Nothinggoodcanbebornnow,theseedissocorrupt。"
——Tertullian,DePudicita。]
andyettheyarejustlytobelamentedbysuchaslosethemwhentheyhavethem。
Hewholeftmemyhouseincharge,foretoldthatIwasliketoruinit,consideringmyhumoursolittleinclinedtolookafterhouseholdaffairs。
Buthewasmistaken;forIaminthesameconditionnowaswhenIfirstenteredintoit,orrathersomewhatbetter;andyetwithoutofficeoranyplaceofprofit。
Astotherest,ifFortunehasneverdonemeanyviolentorextraordinaryinjury,neitherhasshedonemeanyparticularfavour;whateverwederivefromherbounty,wasthereaboveahundredyearsbeforemytime:Ihave,astomyownparticular,noessentialandsolidgood,thatIstandindebtedfortoherliberality。Shehas,indeed,donemesomeairyfavours,honoraryandtitularfavours,withoutsubstance,andthoseintruthshehasnotgranted,butofferedme,who,Godknows,amallmaterial,andwhotakenothingbutwhatisreal,andindeedmassivetoo,forcurrentpay:andwho,ifIdurstconfesssomuch,shouldnotthinkavaricemuchlessexcusablethanambition:norpainlesstobeavoidedthanshame;norhealthlesstobecovetedthanlearning,orrichesthannobility。
Amongstthoseemptyfavoursofhers,thereisnonethatsomuchpleasesvainhumournaturaltomycountry,asanauthenticbullofaRomanburgess—ship,thatwasgrantedmewhenIwaslastthere,gloriousinsealsandgildedletters,andgrantedwithallgraciousliberality。Andbecause’tiscouchedinamixtstyle,moreorlessfavourable,andthatI
couldhavebeengladtohaveseenacopyofitbeforeithadpassedtheseal。
Beingbeforeburgessofnocityatall,Iamgladtobecreatedoneofthemostnoblethateverwasorevershallbe。IfothermenwouldconsiderthemselvesattherateIdo,theywould,asIdo,discoverthemselvestobefullofinanityandfoppery;toridmyselfofit,I
cannot,withoutmakingmyselfaway。Weareallsteepedinit,aswelloneasanother;buttheywhoarenotawareon’t,havesomewhatthebetterbargain;andyetIknownotwhethertheyhaveorno。