Inthemidstofthecaresofgovernment,MontaignefoundtimetoreviseandenlargehisEssays,which,sincetheirappearancein1580,werecontinuallyreceivingaugmentationintheformofadditionalchaptersorpapers。Twomoreeditionswereprintedin1582and1587;andduringthistimetheauthor,whilemakingalterationsintheoriginaltext,hadcomposedpartoftheThirdBook。HewenttoParistomakearrangementsforthepublicationofhisenlargedlabours,andafourthimpressionin1588wastheresult。Heremainedinthecapitalsometimeonthisoccasion,anditwasnowthathemetforthefirsttimeMademoiselledeGournay。Giftedwithanactiveandinquiringspirit,and,aboveall,possessingasoundandhealthytoneofmind,MademoiselledeGournayhadbeencarriedfromherchildhoodwiththattidewhichsetinwithsixteenthcenturytowardscontroversy,learning,andknowledge。ShelearntLatinwithoutamaster;andwhen,theageofeighteen,sheaccidentallybecamepossessorofacopyoftheEssays,shewastransportedwithdelightandadmiration。
ShequittedthechateauofGournay,tocomeandseehim。Wecannotdobetter,inconnectionwiththisjourneyofsympathy,thantorepeatthewordsofPasquier:"Thatyounglady,alliedtoseveralgreatandnoblefamiliesofParis,proposedtoherselfnoothermarriagethanwithherhonour,enrichedwiththeknowledgegainedfromgoodbooks,and,beyondallothers,fromtheessaysofM。deMontaigne,whomakingintheyear1588alengthenedstayinthetownofParis,shewentthereforthepurposeofforminghispersonalacquaintance;andhermother,MadamedeGournay,andherselftookhimbackwiththemtotheirchateau,where,attwoorthreedifferenttimes,hespentthreemonthsaltogether,mostwelcomeofvisitors。"ItwasfromthismomentthatMademoiselledeGournaydatedheradoptionasMontaigne’sdaughter,acircumstancewhichhastendedtoconferimmortalityuponherinafargreatermeasurethanherownliteraryproductions。
Montaigne,onleavingParis,stayedashorttimeatBlois,toattendthemeetingoftheStates—General。Wedonotknowwhatparthetookinthatassembly:butitisknownthathewascommissioned,aboutthisperiod,tonegotiatebetweenHenryofNavarre(afterwardsHenryIV。)andtheDukeofGuise。Hispoliticallifeisalmostablank;butDeThouassuresusthatMontaigneenjoyedtheconfidenceoftheprincipalpersonsofhistime。
DeThou,whocallshimafrankmanwithoutconstraint,tellsusthat,walkingwithhimandPasquierinthecourtattheCastleofBlois,heheardhimpronouncesomeveryremarkableopinionsoncontemporaryevents,andheaddsthatMontaignehadforeseenthatthetroublesinFrancecouldnotendwithoutwitnessingthedeathofeithertheKingofNavarreoroftheDukeofGuise。Hehadmadehimselfsocompletelymasteroftheviewsofthesetwoprinces,thathetoldDeThouthattheKingofNavarrewouldhavebeenpreparedtoembraceCatholicism,ifhehadnotbeenafraidofbeingabandonedbyhisparty,andthattheDukeofGuise,onhispart,hadnoparticularrepugnancetotheConfessionofAugsburg,forwhichtheCardinalofLorraine,hisuncle,hadinspiredhimwithaliking,ifithadnotbeenfortheperilinvolvedinquittingtheRomishcommunion。ItwouldhavebeeneasyforMontaignetoplay,aswecallit,agreatpartinpolitics,andcreateforhimselfaloftypositionbuthismottowas,’OtioetLibertati’;andhereturnedquietlyhometocomposeachapterforhisnexteditiononinconveniencesofGreatness。
TheauthoroftheEssayswasnowfifty—five。Themaladywhichtormentedhimgrewonlyworseandworsewithyears;andyetheoccupiedhimselfcontinuallywithreading,meditating,andcomposition。Heemployedtheyears1589,1590,and1591inmakingfreshadditionstohisbook;andevenintheapproachesofoldagehemightfairlyanticipatemanyhappyhours,whenhewasattackedbyquinsy,deprivinghimofthepowerutterance。Pasquier,whohasleftussomedetailshislasthours,narratesthatheremainedthreedaysinfullpossessionofhisfaculties,butunabletospeak,sothat,inordertomakeknownhisdesires,hewasobligedtoresorttowriting;andashefelthisenddrawingnear,hebeggedhiswifetosummoncertainofthegentlemenwholivedintheneighbourhoodtobidthemalastfarewell。Whentheyhadarrived,hecausedmasstobecelebratedinapartment;andjustasthepriestwaselevatingthehost,Montaignefellforwardwithhisarmsextendedinfrontofhim,onthebed,andsoexpired。Hewasinhissixtiethyear。
Itwasthe13thSeptember1592。
Montaignewasburiednearhisownhouse;butafewyearsafterhisdecease,hisremainswereremovedtothechurchofaCommanderyofSt。
AntoineatBordeaux,wheretheystillcontinue。Hismonumentwasrestoredin1803byadescendant。Itwasseenabout1858byanEnglishtraveller(Mr。St。John)。’——["MontaignetheEssayist,"byBayleSt。
John,1858,2vols。8vo,isoneofmostdelightfulbooksofthekind。]——
andwastheningoodpreservation。
In1595MademoiselledeGournaypublishedaneweditionofMontaigne’sEssays,andthefirstwiththelatestemendationsoftheauthor,fromacopypresentedtoherbyhiswidow,andwhichhasnotbeenrecovered,althoughitisknowntohavebeeninexistencesomeyearsafterthedateoftheimpression,madeonitsauthority。
ColdlyasMontaigne’sliteraryproductionsappeartohavebeenreceivedbythegenerationimmediatelysucceedinghisownage,hisgeniusgrewintojustappreciationintheseventeenthcentury,whensuchgreatspiritsaroseasLaBruyere,Moliere,LaFontaine,MadamedeSevigne。
"O,"exclaimedtheChatelainedesRochers,"whatcapitalcompanyheis,thedearman!heismyoldfriend;andjustforthereasonthatheisso,healwaysseemsnew。MyGod!howfullisthatbookofsense!"
Balzacsaidthathehadcarriedhumanreasonasfarandashighasitcouldgo,bothinpoliticsandinmorals。Ontheotherhand,MalebrancheandthewritersofPortRoyalwereagainsthim;somereprehendedthelicentiousnessofhiswritings;otherstheirimpiety,materialism,epicureanism。EvenPascal,whohadcarefullyreadtheEssays,andgainednosmallprofitbythem,didnotsparehisreproaches。ButMontaignehasoutliveddetraction。Astimehasgoneon,hisadmirersandborrowershaveincreasedinnumber,andhisJansenism,whichrecommendedhimtotheeighteenthcentury,maynotbehisleastrecommendationinthenineteenth。Herewehavecertainly,onthewhole,afirst—classman,andoneproofofhismasterlygeniusseemstobe,thathismeritsandhisbeautiesaresufficienttoinduceustoleaveoutofconsiderationblemishesandfaultswhichwouldhavebeenfataltoaninferiorwriter。
THELETTERSOFMONTAIGNE。
I。
ToMonsieurdeMONTAIGNE
[ThisaccountofthedeathofLaBoetiebeginsimperfectly。ItfirstappearedinalittlevolumeofMiscellaniesin1571。SeeHazlitt,ubisup。p。630。]——"……Astohislastwords,doubtless,ifanymancangivegoodaccountofthem,itisI,bothbecause,duringthewholeofhissicknessheconversedasfullywithmeaswithanyone,andalsobecause,inconsequenceofthesingularandbrotherlyfriendshipwhichwehadentertainedforeachother,Iwasperfectlyacquaintedwiththeintentions,opinions,andwisheswhichhehadformedinthecourseofhislife,asmuchso,certainly,asonemancanpossiblybewiththoseofanotherman;andbecauseIknewthemtobeelevated,virtuous,fullofsteadyresolution,and(afterallsaid)admirable。Iwellforesawthat,ifhisillnesspermittedhimtoexpresshimself,hewouldallownothingtofallfromhim,insuchanextremity,thatwasnotrepletewithgoodexample。Iconsequentlytookeverycareinmypowertotreasurewhatwassaid。Trueitis,Monseigneur,asmymemoryisnotonlyinitselfveryshort,butinthiscaseaffectedbythetroublewhichIhaveundergone,throughsoheavyandimportantaloss,thatIhaveforgottenanumberofthingswhichIshouldwishtohavehadknown;butthosewhichIrecollectshallberelatedtoyouasexactlyasliesinmypower。Fortorepresentinfullmeasurehisnoblecareersuddenlyarrested,topainttoyouhisindomitablecourage,inabodywornoutandprostratedbypainandtheassaultsofdeath,Iconfess,woulddemandafarbetterabilitythanmine:because,although,wheninformeryearshediscoursedonseriousandimportantmatters,hehandledtheminsuchamannerthatitwasdifficulttoreproduceexactlywhathesaid,yethisideasandhiswordsatthelastseemedtorivaleachotherinservinghim。ForIamsurethatIneverknewhimgivebirthtosuchfineconceptions,ordisplaysomucheloquence,asinthetimeofhissickness。If,Monseigneur,youblamemeforintroducinghismoreordinaryobservations,pleasetoknowthatIdosoadvisedly;forsincetheyproceededfromhimataseasonofsuchgreattrouble,theyindicatetheperfecttranquillityofhismindandthoughtstothelast。
OnMonday,the9thdayofAugust1563,onmyreturnfromtheCourt,I
sentaninvitationtohimtocomeanddinewithme。Hereturnedwordthathewasobliged,but,beingindisposed,hewouldthankmetodohimthepleasureofspendinganhourwithhimbeforehestartedforMedoc。
ShortlyaftermydinnerIwenttohim。Hehadlaidhimselfdownonthebedwithhisclotheson,andhewasalready,Iperceived,muchchanged。
Hecomplainedofdiarrhoea,accompaniedbythegripes,andsaidthathehaditabouthimeversinceheplayedwithM。d’Escarswithnothingbuthisdoubleton,andthatwithhimacoldoftenbroughtonsuchattacks。
Iadvisedhimtogoashehadproposed,buttostayforthenightatGermignac,whichisonlyabouttwoleaguesfromthetown。Igavehimthisadvice,becausesomehouses,neartothatwherehewasping,werevisitedbytheplague,aboutwhichhewasnervoussincehisreturnfromPerigordandtheAgenois,hereithadbeenraging;and,besides,horseexercisewas,frommyownexperience,beneficialundersimilarcircumstances。Hesetout,accordingly,withhiswifeandM。
Bouillhonnas,hisuncle。
Earlyonthefollowingmorning,however,IhadintelligencefromMadamedelaBoetie,thatinthenighthehadfreshandviolentattackofdysentery。Shehadcalledinphysicianandapothecary,andprayedmetolosenotimecoming,which(afterdinner)Idid。Hewasdelightedtoseeme;andwhenIwasgoingaway,underpromisetoturnthefollowingday,hebeggedmemoreimportunatelyandaffectionatelythanhewaswonttodo,togivehimassuchofmycompanyaspossible。Iwasalittleaffected;yetwasabouttoleave,whenMadamedelaBoetie,asifsheforesawsomethingabouttohappen,imploredmewithtearstostaythenight。WhenIconsented,heseemedtogrowmorecheerful。Ireturnedhomethenextday,andontheThursdayIpaidhimanothervisit。Hehadbecomeworse;andhislossofbloodfromthedysentery,whichreducedhisstrengthverymuch,waslargelyontheincrease。IquittedhissideonFriday,butonSaturdayIwenttohim,andfoundhimveryweak。Hethengavemetounderstandthathiscomplaintwasinfectious,and,moreover,disagreeableanddepressing;andthathe,knowingthoroughlymyconstitution,desiredthatIshouldcontentmyselfwithcomingtoseehimnowandthen。Onthecontrary,afterthatIneverlefthisside。
ItwasonlyontheSundaythathebegantoconversewithmeonanysubjectbeyondtheimmediateoneofhisillness,andwhattheancientdoctorsthoughtofit:wehadnottouchedonpublicaffairs,forIfoundattheveryoutsetthathehadadisliketothem。
But,ontheSunday,hehadafaintingfit;andwhenhecametohimself,hetoldmethateverythingseemedtohimconfused,asifinamistandindisorder,andthat,nevertheless,thisvisitationwasnotunpleasingtohim。"Death,"Ireplied,"hasnoworsesensation,mybrother。""Nonesobad,"washisanswer。Hehadhadnoregularsleepsincethebeginningofhisillness;andashebecameworseandworse,hebegantoturnhisattentiontoquestionswhichmencommonlyoccupythemselveswithinthelastextremity,despairingnowofgettingbetter,andintimatingasmuchtome。Onthatday,asheappearedintolerablygoodspirits,Itookoccasiontosaytohimthat,inconsiderationofthesingularloveIborehim,itwouldbecomemetotakecarethathisaffairs,whichhehadconductedwithsuchrareprudenceinhislife,shouldnotbeneglectedatpresent;andthatIshouldregretitif,fromwantofpropercounsel,heshouldleaveanythingunsettled,notonlyonaccountofthelosstohisfamily,butalsotohisgoodname。
Hethankedmeformykindness;andafteralittlereflection,asifhewasresolvingcertaindoubtsinhisownmind,hedesiredmetosummonhisuncleandhiswifebythemselves,inorderthathemightacquaintthemwithhistestamentarydispositions。Itoldhimthatthiswouldshockthem。"No,no,"heanswered,"Iwillcheerthembymakingoutmycasetobebetterthanitis。"Andthenheinquired,whetherwewerenotallmuchtakenbysurpriseathishavingfainted?Ireplied,thatitwasofnoimportance,beingincidentaltothecomplaintfromwhichhesuffered。
"True,mybrother,"saidhe;"itwouldbeunimportant,eventhoughitshouldleadtowhatyoumostdread。""Foryou,"Irejoined,"itmightbeahappything;butIshouldbetheloser,whowouldtherebybedeprivedofsogreat,sowise,andsosteadfastafriend,afriendwhoseplaceI
shouldneverseesupplied。""Itisverylikelyyoumaynot,"washisanswer;"andbesurethatonethingwhichmakesmesomewhatanxioustorecover,andtodelaymyjourneytothatplace,whitherIamalreadyhalf—waygone,isthethoughtofthelossbothyouandthatpoormanandwomanthere(referringtohisuncleandwife)mustsustain;forIlovethemwithmywholeheart,andIfeelcertainthattheywillfinditveryhardtoloseme。Ishouldalsoregretitonaccountofsuchashave,inmylifetime,valuedme,andwhoseconversationIshouldliketohaveenjoyedalittlelonger;andIbeseechyou,mybrother,ifIleavetheworld,tocarrytothemformeanassuranceoftheesteemIentertainedforthemtothelastmomentofmyexistence。Mybirthwas,moreover,scarcelytosolittlepurposebutthat,hadIlived,Imighthavedonesomeservicetothepublic;but,howeverthismaybe,IampreparedtosubmittothewillofGod,whenitshallpleaseHimtocallme,beingconfidentofenjoyingthetranquillitywhichyouhaveforetoldforme。
Asforyou,myfriend,Ifeelsurethatyouaresowise,thatyouwillcontrolyouremotions,andsubmittoHisdivineordinanceregardingme;
andIbegofyoutoseethatthatgoodmanandwomandonotmournformydepartureunnecessarily。"
Heproceededtoinquirehowtheybehavedatpresent。"Verywell,"saidI,"consideringthecircumstances。""Ah!"hereplied,"thatis,solongastheydonotabandonallhopeofme;butwhenthatshallbethecase,youwillhaveahardtasktosupportthem。"Itwasowingtohisstrongregardforhiswifeandunclethathestudiouslydisguisedfromthemhisownconvictionastothecertaintyofhisend,andheprayedmetodothesame。Whentheywerenearhimheassumedanappearanceofgaiety,andflatteredthemwithhopes。Ithenwenttocallthem。Theycame,wearingascomposedanairaspossible;andwhenwefourweretogether,headdressedus,withanuntroubledcountenance,asfollows:"Uncleandwife,restassuredthatnonewattackofmydisease,orfreshdoubtthatIhaveastomyrecovery,hasledmetotakethisstepofcommunicatingtoyoumyintentions,for,thankGod,Ifeelverywellandhopeful;buttaughtbyobservationandexperiencetheinstabilityofallhumanthings,andevenofthelifetowhichwearesomuchattached,andwhichis,nevertheless,amerebubble;andknowing,moreover,thatmystateofhealthbringsmemorewithinthedangerofdeath,Ihavethoughtpropertosettlemyworldlyaffairs,havingthebenefitofyouradvice。"Thenaddressinghimselfmoreparticularlytohisuncle,"Gooduncle,"saidhe,"ifIweretorehearsealltheobligationsunderwhichIlietoyou,IamsurethatInevershouldmakeanend。Letmeonlysaythat,whereverI
havebeen,andwithwhomsoeverIhaveconversed,Ihaverepresentedyouasdoingformeallthatafathercoulddoforason;bothinthecarewithwhichyoutendedmyeducation,andinthezealwithwhichyoupushedmeforwardintopubliclife,sothatmywholeexistenceisatestimonyofyourgoodofficestowardsme。Inshort,IamindebtedforallthatI
havetoyou,whohavebeentomeasaparent;andthereforeIhavenorighttopartwithanything,unlessitbewithyourapproval。"
Therewasageneralsilencehereupon,andhisunclewaspreventedfromreplyingbytearsandsobs。Atlasthesaidthatwhateverhethoughtforthebestwouldbeagreeabletohim;andasheintendedtomakehimhisheir,hewasatlibertytodisposeofwhatwouldbehis。
Thenheturnedtohiswife。"Myimage,"saidhe(forsoheoftencalledher,therebeingsomesortofrelationshipbetweenthem),"sinceIhavebeenunitedtoyoubymarriage,whichisoneofthemostweightyandsacredtiesimposedonusbyGod,forthepurposeofmaintaininghumansociety,Ihavecontinuedtolove,cherish,andvalueyou;andIknowthatyouhavereturnedmyaffection,forwhichIhavenosufficientacknowledgment。IbegyoutoacceptsuchportionofmyestateasI
bequeathtoyou,andbesatisfiedwithit,thoughitisveryinadequatetoyourdesert。"
Afterwardsheturnedtome。"Mybrother,"hebegan,"forwhomIhavesoentirealove,andwhomIselectedoutofsolargeanumber,thinkingtorevivewithyouthatvirtuousandsincerefriendshipwhich,owingtothedegeneracyoftheage,hasgrowntobealmostunknowntous,andnowexistsonlyincertainvestigesofantiquity,Ibegofyou,asamarkofmyaffectiontoyou,toacceptmylibrary:aslenderoffering,butgivenwithacordialwill,andsuitabletoyou,seeingthatyouarefondoflearning。Itwillbeamemorialofyouroldcompanion。"
Thenheaddressedallthreeofus。HeblessedGodthatinhisextremityhehadthehappinesstobesurroundedbythosewhomhehelddearestintheworld,andhelookeduponitasafinespectacle,wherefourpersonsweretogether,sounanimousintheirfeelings,andlovingeachotherforeachother’ssake。Hecommendedusonetotheother;andproceededthus:
"Myworldlymattersbeingarranged,Imustnowthinkofthewelfareofmysoul。IamaChristian;IamaCatholic。Ihavelivedone,andIshalldieone。Sendforapriest;forIwishtoconformtothislastChristianobligation。"Henowconcludedhisdiscourse,whichhehadconductedwithsuchafirmfaceandwithsodistinctanutterance,thatwhereas,whenI
firstenteredhisroom,hewasfeeble,inarticulateinhisspeech,hispulselowandfeverish,andhisfeaturespallid,now,byasortofmiracle,heappearedtohaverallied,andhispulsewassostrongthatforthesakeofcomparison,Iaskedhimtofeelmine。
Ifeltmyheartsooppressedatthismoment,thatIhadnotthepowertomakehimanyanswer;butinthecourseoftwoorthreehours,solicitoustokeepuphiscourage,and,likewise,outofthetendernesswhichIhadhadallmylifeforhishonourandfame,wishingalargernumberofwitnessestohisadmirablefortitude,Isaidtohim,howmuchIwasashamedtothinkthatIlackedcouragetolistentowhathe,sogreatasufferer,hadthecouragetodeliver;thatdowntothepresenttimeIhadscarcelyconceivedthatGodgrantedussuchcommandoverhumaninfirmities,andhadfoundadifficultyincreditingtheexamplesIhadreadinhistories;butthatwithsuchevidenceofthethingbeforemyeyes,IgavepraisetoGodthatithadshownitselfinonesoexcessivelydeartome,andwholovedmesoentirely,andthathisexamplewouldhelpmetoactinasimilarmannerwhenmyturncame。Interruptingme,hebeggedthatitmighthappenso,andthattheconversationwhichhadpassedbetweenusmightnotbemerewords,butmightbeimpresseddeeplyonourminds,tobeputinexerciseatthefirstoccasion;andthatthiswastherealobjectandaimofallphilosophy。
Hethentookmyhand,andcontinued:"Brother,friend,therearemanyactsofmylife,Ithink,whichhavecostmeasmuchdifficultyasthisoneislikelytodo;and,afterall,Ihavebeenlongpreparedforit,andhavemylessonbyheart。HaveInotlivedlongenough?Iamjustuponthirty—three。BythegraceofGod,mydayssofarhaveknownnothingbuthealthandhappiness;butintheordinarycourseofourunstablehumanaffairs,thiscouldnothavelastedmuchlonger;itwouldhavebecometimeformetoenterongraveravocations,andIshouldthushaveinvolvedmyselfinnumberlessvexations,and,amongthem,thetroublesofoldage,fromwhichIshallnowbeexempt。Moreover,itisprobablethathithertomylifehasbeenspentmoresimply,andwithlessofevil,thanifGodhadsparedme,andIhadsurvivedtofeelthethirstforrichesandworldlyprosperity。Iamsure,formypart,thatInowgotoGodandtheplaceoftheblessed。"Heseemedtodetectinmyexpressionsomeinquietudeathiswords;andheexclaimed,"What,mybrother,wouldyoumakemeentertainapprehensions?HadIany,whomwoulditbecomesomuchasyourselftoremovethem?"
Thenotary,whohadbeensummonedtodrawuphiswill,cameintheevening,andwhenhehadthedocumentsprepared,IinquiredofLaBoetieifhewouldsignthem。"Signthem,"criedhe;"Iwilldosowithmyownhand;butIcoulddesiremoretime,forIfeelexceedinglytimidandweak,andinamannerexhausted。"ButwhenIwasgoingtochangetheconversation,hesuddenlyrallied,saidhehadbutashorttimetolive,andaskedifthenotarywroterapidly,forheshoulddictatewithoutmakinganypause。Thenotarywascalled,andhedictatedhiswillthereandthenwithsuchspeedthatthemancouldscarcelykeepupwithhim;
andwhenhehaddone,heaskedmetoreaditout,sayingtome,"Whatagoodthingitistolookafterwhatarecalledourriches。"’Sunthaec,quoehominibusvocanturbona’。Assoonasthewillwassigned,thechamberbeingfull,heaskedmeifitwouldhurthimtotalk。I
answered,thatitwouldnot,ifhedidnotspeaktooloud。HethensummonedMademoiselledeSaintQuentin,hisniece,tohim,andaddressedherthus:"Dearniece,sincemyearliestacquaintancewiththee,Ihaveobservedthemarksof,greatnaturalgoodnessinthee;buttheserviceswhichthourenderedtome,withsomuchaffectionatediligence,inmypresentandlastnecessity,inspiremewithhighhopesofthee;andIamundergreatobligationstothee,andgivetheemostaffectionatethanks。
Letmerelievemyconsciencebycounsellingtheetobe,inthefirstplace,devout,toGod:forthisdoubtlessisourfirstduty,failingwhichallotherscanbeoflittleadvantageorgrace,butwhich,dulyobserved,carrieswithitnecessarilyallothervirtues。AfterGod,thoushouldestlovethyfatherandmother——thymother,mysister,whomI
regardasoneofthebestandmostintelligentofwomen,andbywhomI
begoftheetoletthyownlifeberegulated。Allownotthyselftobeledawaybypleasures;shun,liketheplague,thefoolishfamiliaritiesthouseestbetweensomemenandwomen;harmlessenoughatfirst,butwhichbyinsidiousdegreescorrupttheheart,andthenceleadittonegligence,andthenintothevilesloughofvice。Creditme,thegreatestsafeguardtofemalechastityissobrietyofdemeanour。I
beseechanddirectthatthouoftencalltomindthefriendshipwhichwasbetwixtus;butIdonotwishtheetomournformetoomuch——aninjunctionwhich,sofarasitisinmypower,Ilayonallmyfriends,sinceitmightseemthatbydoingsotheyfeltajealousyofthatblessedconditioninwhichIamabouttobeplacedbydeath。Iassurethee,mydear,thatifIhadtheoptionnowofcontinuinginlifeorofcompletingthevoyageonwhichIhavesetout,Ishouldfinditveryhardtochoose。
Adieu,dearniece。"
Mademoiselled’Arsat,hisstepdaughter,wasnextcalled。Hesaidtoher:
"Daughter,youstandinnogreatneedofadvicefromme,insomuchasyouhaveamother,whomIhaveeverfoundmostsagacious,andentirelyinconformitywithmyownopinionsandwishes,andwhomIhaveneverfoundfaulty;withsuchapreceptress,youcannotfailtobeproperlyinstructed。DonotaccountitsingularthatI,withnotieofbloodtoyou,aminterestedinyou;for,beingthechildofonewhoissocloselyalliedtome,Iamnecessarilyconcernedinwhatconcernsyou;andconsequentlytheaffairsofyourbrother,M。d’Arsat,haveeverbeenwatchedbymewithasmuchcareasmyown;norperhapswillitbetoyourdisadvantagethatyouweremystep—daughter。Youenjoysufficientstoreofwealthandbeauty;youarealadyofgoodfamily;itonlyremainsforyoutoaddtothesepossessionsthecultivationofyourmind,inwhichI
exhortyounottofail。Idonotthinknecessarytowarnyouagainstvice,athingsoodiousinwomen,forIwouldnotevensupposethatyoucouldharbouranyinclinationforit——nay,Ibelievethatyouholdtheverynameinabhorrence。Deardaughter,farewell。"
Allintheroomwereweepingandlamenting;butheheldwithoutinterruptionthethreadofhisdiscourse,whichwasprettylong。Butwhenhehaddone,hedirectedusalltoleavetheroom,exceptthewomenattendants,whomhestyledhisgarrison。Butfirst,callingtohimmybrother,M。deBeauregard,hesaidtohim:"M。deBeauregard,youhavemybestthanksforallthecareyouhavetakenofme。IhavenowathingwhichIamveryanxiousindeedtomentiontoyou,andwithyourpermissionIwilldoso。"Asmybrothergavehimencouragementtoproceed,headded:"IassureyouthatIneverknewanymanwhoengagedinthereformationofourChurchwithgreatersincerity,earnestness,andsingle—heartednessthanyourself。Iconsiderthatyouwereledtoitbyobservingtheviciouscharacterofourprelates,whichnodoubtmuchrequiressettinginorder,andbyimperfectionswhichtimehasbroughtintoourChurch。Itisnotmydesireatpresentdiscourageyoufromthiscourse,forIwouldhavenooneactinoppositiontohisconscience;
butIwish,havingregardtothegoodreputeacquiredbyyourfamilyfromitsenduringconcord——afamilythanwhichnonecanbedearertome;afamily,thankGod!nomemberofwhichhaseverbeenguiltyofdishonour—
—inregard,further,tothewillofyourgoodfathertowhomyouowesomuch,andofyour,uncle,Iwishyoutoavoidextrememeans;avoidharshnessandviolence:bereconciledwithyourrelatives;donotactapart,butunite。Youperceivewhatdisastersourquarrelshavebroughtuponthiskingdom,andIanticipatestillworsemischiefs;andinyourgoodnessandwisdom,bewareofinvolvingyourfamilyinsuchbroils;letitcontinuetoenjoyitsformerreputationandhappiness。M。deBeauregard,takewhatIsayingoodpart,andasaproofofthefriendshipIfeelforyou。Ipostponedtillnowanycommunicationwithyouonthesubject,andperhapstheconditioninwhichyouseemeaddressyou,maycausemyadviceandopiniontocarrygreaterauthority。"Mybrotherexpressedhisthankstohimcordially。
OntheMondaymorninghehadbecomesoillthathequitedespairedofhimself;andhesaidtomeverypitifully:"Brother,donotyoufeelpainforallthepainIamsuffering?Doyounotperceivenowthatthehelpyougivemehasnoothereffectthanthatoflengtheningmysuffering?"
Shortlyafterwardshefainted,andweallthoughthimgone;butbytheapplicationofvinegarandwineherallied。Buthesoonsank,andwhenheheardusinlamentation,hemurmured,"OGod!whoisitthatteasesmeso?WhydidyoubreaktheagreeablereposeIwasenjoying?Ibegofyoutoleaveme。"Andthen,whenhecaughtthesoundofmyvoice,hecontinued:"Andartthou,mybrother,likewiseunwillingtoseemeatpeace?O,howthourobbestmeofmyrepose!"Afterawhile,heseemedtogainmorestrength,andcalledforwine,whichherelished,anddeclaredittobethefinestdrinkpossible。I,inordertochangethecurrentofhisthoughts,putin,"Surelynot;wateristhebest。""Ah,yes,"hereturned,"doubtlessso;——(Greek)———————。"Hehadnowbecome,icy—coldathisextremities,eventohisface;adeathlyperspirationwasuponhim,andhispulsewasscarcelyperceptible。
Thismorningheconfessed,butthepriesthadomittedtobringwithhimthenecessaryapparatusforcelebratingMass。OntheTuesday,however,M。delaBoetiesummonedhimtoaidhim,ashesaid,indischargingthelastofficeofaChristian。AftertheconclusionofMass,hetookthesacrament;whenthepriestwasabouttodepart,hesaidtohim:
"Spiritualfather,Iimploreyouhumbly,aswellasthoseoverwhomyouareset,topraytotheAlmightyonmybehalf;that,ifitbedecreedinheaventhatIamnowtoendmylife,Hewilltakecompassiononmysoul,andpardonmemysins,whicharemanifold,itnotbeingpossibleforsoweakandpooracreatureasItoobeycompletelythewillofsuchaMaster;or,ifHethinkfittokeepmelongerhere,thatitmaypleaseHimtoreleasemypresentextremeanguish,andtodirectmyfootstepsintherightpath,thatImaybecomeabettermanthanIhavebeen。Hepausedtorecoverbreathalittle;priestwasabouttogoaway,hecalledhimbackandproceeded:"Idesiretosay,besides,inyourhearingthis:
IdeclarethatIwaschristenedandIhavelived,andthatsoIwishtodie,inthefaithwhichMosespreachedinEgypt;whichafterwardsthePatriarchsacceptedandprofessedinJudaea;andwhich,inthecourseoftime,hasbeentransmittedtoFranceandtous。"Heseemeddesirousofaddingsomethingmore,butheendedwitharequesttohisuncleandmetosendupprayersforhim;"forthoseare,"hesaid,"thebestdutiesthatChristianscanfulfiloneforanother。"Inthecourseoftalking,hisshoulderwasuncovered,andalthoughaman—servantstoodnearhim,heaskedhisuncletore—adjusttheclothes。Then,turninghiseyestowardsme,hesaid,"Ingenuiest,cuimultumdebeas,eiplurimumvelledebere。"
M。deBelotcalledintheafternoontoseehim,andM。delaBoetie,takinghishand,saidtohim:"Iwasonthepointofdischargingmydebt,butmykindcreditorhasgivenmealittlefurthertime。"Alittlewhileafter,appearingtowakeoutofasortofreverie,heutteredwordswhichhehademployedonceortwicebeforeinthecourseofhissickness:
"Ahwell,ahwell,wheneverthehourcomes,Iawaititwithpleasureandfortitude。"Andthen,astheywereholdinghismouthopenbyforcetogivehimadraught,heobservedtoM。deBelot:"Anviveretantiest?"
Astheeveningapproached,hebeganperceptiblytosink;andwhileI
supped,hesentformetocome,beingnomorethantheshadowofaman,or,asheputithimself,’nonhomo,sedspecieshominis’;andhesaidtomewiththeutmostdifficulty:"Mybrother,myfriend,pleaseGodImayrealisetheimaginationsIhavejustenjoyed。"Afterwards,havingwaitedforsometimewhileheremainedsilent,andbypainfuleffortswasdrawinglongsighs(forhistongueatthispointbegantorefuseitsfunctions),Isaid,"Whatarethey?""Grand,grand!"hereplied。"I
haveneveryetfailed,"returnedI,"tohavethehonourofhearingyourconceptionsandimaginationscommunicatedtome;willyounotnowstillletmeenjoythem?""Iwouldindeed,"heanswered;"but,mybrother,Iamnotabletodoso;theyareadmirable,infinite,andunspeakable。"
Westoppedshortthere,forhecouldnotgoon。Alittlebefore,indeed,hehadshownadesiretospeaktohiswife,andhadtoldher,withasgayacountenanceashecouldcontrivetoassume,thathehadastorytotellher。Anditseemedasifhewasmakinganattempttogainutterance;
but,hisstrengthfailinghim,hebeggedalittlewinetoresuscitateit。
Itwasofnoavail,forhefaintedawaysuddenly,andwasforsometimeinsensible。Havingbecomesonearaneighbourtodeath,andhearingthesobsofMademoiselledelaBoetie,hecalledher,andsaidtoherthus:
"Myownlikeness,yougrieveyourselfbeforehand;willyounothavepityonme?takecourage。Assuredly,itcostsmemorethanhalfthepainI
endure,toseeyousuffer;andreasonablyso,becausetheevilswhichweourselvesfeelwedonotactuallyourselvessuffer,butitcertainsentientfacultieswhichGodplantsinus,thatfeelthem:whereaswhatwefeelonaccountofothers,wefeelbyconsequenceofacertainreasoningprocesswhichgoesonwithinourminds。ButIamgoingaway"——
Thathesaidbecausehisstrengthwasfailinghim;andfearingthathehadfrightenedhiswife,heresumed,observing:"Iamgoingtosleep。
Goodnight,mywife;gothyway。"Thiswasthelastfarewellhetookofher。
Aftershehadleft,"Mybrother,"saidhetome,"keepnearme,ifyouplease;"andthenfeelingtheadvanceofdeathmorepressingandmoreacute,orelsetheeffectofsomewarmdraughtwhichtheyhadmadehimswallow,hisvoicegrewstrongerandclearer,andheturnedquitewithviolenceinhisbed,sothatallbeganagaintoentertainthehopewhichwehadlostonlyuponwitnessinghisextremeprostration。
Atthisstageheproceeded,amongotherthings,topraymeagainandagain,inamostaffectionatemanner,togivehimaplace;sothatIwasapprehensivethathisreasonmightbeimpaired,particularlywhen,onmypointingouttohimthathewasdoinghimselfharm,andthatthesewerenotofthewordsofarationalman,hedidnotyieldatfirst,butredoubledhisoutcry,saying,"Mybrother,mybrother!dostthouthenrefusemeaplace?"insomuchthatheconstrainedmetodemonstratetohimthat,ashebreathedandspoke,andhadhisphysicalbeing,thereforehehadhisplace。"Yes,yes,"heresponded,"Ihave;butitisnotthatwhichIneed;and,besides,whenallissaid,Ihavenolongeranyexistence。""God,"Ireplied,"willgrantyouabetteronesoon。"