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第3章

  I’msureIdon’tknowwheresuchpeople"(VictorHugo,Lamartine,ByronbeingSUCHPEOPLEtotheMadameLatournellesofthebourgeoisie)
  "gettheirideas。ModestekepttalkingtomeofChildeHarold,andasIdidnotwishtogettheworstoftheargumentIwassillyenoughtotrytoreadthething。Perhapsitwasthefaultofthetranslator,butitactuallyturnedmystomach;Iwasdazed;Icouldn’tpossiblyfinishit。Why,themantalksaboutcomparisonsthathowl,rocksthatfaint,andwavesofwar!However,heisonlyatravellingEnglishman,andwemustexpectabsurdities,——thoughhisarereallyinexcusable。HetakesyoutoSpain,andsetsyouinthecloudsabovetheAlps,andmakesthetorrentstalk,andthestars;andhesaystherearetoomanyvirgins!
  Didyoueverhearthelike?Then,afterNapoleon’scampaigns,thelinesarefullofsonorousbrassandflamingcannon—balls,rollingalongfrompagetopage。Modestetellsmethatallthatbathosisputinbythetranslator,andthatIoughttoreadthebookinEnglish。
  ButIcertainlysha’n’tlearnEnglishtoreadLordByronwhenIdidn’tlearnittoteachExupere。ImuchpreferthenovelsofDucray—DumeniltoalltheseEnglishromances。I’mtoogoodaNormantofallinlovewithforeignthings,——aboveallwhentheycomefromEngland。"
  MadameMignon,notwithstandinghermelancholy,couldnothelpsmilingattheideaofMadameLatournellereadingChildeHarold。Thesternscionofaparliamentaryhouseacceptedthesmileasanapprovalofherdoctrine。
  "And,therefore,mydearMadameMignon,"shewenton,"youhavetakenModeste’sfancies,whicharenothingbuttheresultsofherreading,foralove—affair。Remember,sheisjusttwenty。Girlsfallinlovewiththemselvesatthatage;theydresstoseethemselveswell—
  dressed。IrememberIusedtomakemylittlesister,nowdead,putonaman’shatandpretendweweremonsieurandmadame。Yousee,youhadaveryhappyyouthinFrankfort;butletusbejust,——Modesteislivingherewithouttheslightestamusement。Although,tobesure,hereverywishisattendedto,stillsheknowssheisshutupandwatched,andthelifesheleadswouldgivehernopleasureatallifitwerenotfortheamusementshegetsoutofherbooks。Come,don’tworryyourself;shelovesnobodybutyou。YououghttobeverygladthatshegoesintotheseenthusiasmsforthecorsairsofByronandtheheroesofWalterScottandyourownGermans,Egmont,Goethe,Werther,Schiller,andalltheother’ers。’"
  "Well,madame,whatdoyousaytothat?"askedDumay,respectfully,alarmedatMadameMignon’ssilence。
  "Modesteisnotonlyinclinedtolove,butshelovessomeman,"
  answeredthemother,obstinately。
  "Madame,mylifeisatstake,andyoumustallowme——notformysake,butformywife,mycolonel,forallofus——toprobethismattertothebottom,andfindoutwhetheritisthemotherorthewatch—dogwhoisdeceived。"
  "Itisyouwhoaredeceived,Dumay。Ah!ifIcouldbutseemydaughter!"criedthepoorwoman。
  "Butwhomisitpossibleforhertolove?"askedthenotary。"I’llanswerformyExupere。"
  "Itcan’tbeGobenheim,"saidDumay,"forsincethecolonel’sdeparturehehasnotspentninehoursaweekinthishouse。Besides,hedoesn’tevennoticeModeste——thatfive—francpieceofaman!HisuncleGobenheim—Kellerisallthetimewritinghim,’GetrichenoughtomarryaKeller。’Withthatideainhismindyoumaybesurehedoesn’tknowwhichsexModestebelongsto。Noothermenevercomehere,——forofcourseIdon’tcountButscha,poorlittlefellow;Ilovehim!HeisyourDumay,madame,"saidthecashiertoMadameLatournelle。"ButschaknowsverywellthatamereglanceatModestewouldcosthimaBretonducking。Notasoulhasanycommunicationwiththishouse。MadameLatournellewhotakesModestetochurcheversinceyour——yourmisfortune,madame,hascarefullywatchedheronthewayandallthroughtheservice,andhasseennothingsuspicious。Inshort,ifImustconfessthetruth,Ihavemyselfrakedallthepathsaboutthehouseeveryeveningforthelastmonth,andfoundnotraceoffootstepsinthemorning。"
  "Rakesareneithercostlynordifficulttohandle,"remarkedthedaughterofGermany。
  "Butthedogs?"criedDumay。
  "Lovershavephiltersevenfordogs,"answeredMadameMignon。
  "Ifyouareright,myhonorislost!Imayaswellblowmybrainsout,"exclaimedDumay。
  "Whyso,Dumay?"saidtheblindwoman。
  "Ah,madame,Icouldnevermeetmycolonel’seyeifhedidnotfindhisdaughter——nowhisonlydaughter——aspureandvirtuousasshewaswhenhesaidtomeonthevessel,’Letnofearofthescaffoldhinderyou,Dumay,ifthehonorofmyModesteisatstake。’"
  "Ah!Irecognizeyouboth,"saidMadameMignoninavoiceofstrongemotion。
  "I’llwagermysalvationthatModesteisaspureasshewasinhercradle,"exclaimedMadameDumay。
  "Well,Ishallmakecertainofit,"repliedherhusband,"ifMadamelaComtessewillallowmetoemploycertainmeans;foroldtroopersunderstandstrategy。"
  "Iwillallowyoutodoanythingthatshallenlightenus,provideditdoesnoinjurytomylastchild。"
  "Whatareyougoingtodo,Jean?"askedMadameDumay;"howcanyoudiscoverayounggirl’ssecretifshemeanstohideit?"
  "Obeyme,all!"criedthelieutenant,"Ishallneedeveryoneofyou。"
  Ifthisrapidsketchwereclearlydevelopeditwouldgiveawholepictureofmannersandcustomsinwhichmanyafamilycouldrecognizetheeventsoftheirownhistory;butitmustsufficeasitistoexplaintheimportanceofthefewdetailsheretoforegivenaboutpersonsandthingsonthememorableeveningwhentheoldsoldierhadmadereadyhisplotagainsttheyounggirl,intendingtowrenchfromtherecessesofherheartthesecretofaloveandaloverseenonlybyablindmother。
  CHAPTERV
  THEPROBLEMSTILLUNSOLVED
  Anhourwentbyinsolemnstillnessbrokenonlybythecabalisticphrasesofthewhist—players:"Spades!""Trumped!""Cut!""Howarehonors?""Twotofour。""Whosedeal?"——phraseswhichrepresentinthesedaysthehigheremotionsoftheEuropeanaristocracy。Modestecontinuedtowork,withoutseemingtobesurprisedathermother’ssilence。MadameMignon’shandkerchiefslippedfromherlaptothefloor;Butschaprecipitatedhimselfuponit,pickeditup,andashereturneditwhisperedinModeste’sear,"Takecare!"Modesteraisedapairofwonderingeyes,whosepuzzledglancefilledthepoorcripplewithjoyunspeakable。"Sheisnotinlove!"hewhisperedtohimself,rubbinghishandstilltheskinwasnearlypeeledoff。AtthismomentExuperetorethroughthegardenandthehouse,plungedintothesalonlikeanavalanche,andsaidtoDumayinanaudiblewhisper,"Theyoungmanishere!"Dumaysprangforhispistolsandrushedout。
  "GoodGod!supposehekillshim!"criedMadameDumay,burstingintotears。
  "Whatisthematter?"askedModeste,lookinginnocentlyatherfriendsandnotbetrayingtheslightestfear。
  "Itisallaboutayoungmanwhoishangingroundthehouse,"criedMadameLatournelle。
  "Well!"saidModeste,"whyshouldDumaykillhim?"
  "Sanctasimplicita!"ejaculatedButscha,lookingathismasterasproudlyasAlexanderismadetocontemplateBabyloninLebrun’sgreatpicture。
  "Whereareyougoing,Modeste?"askedthemotherasherdaughterrosetoleavetheroom。
  "Togetreadyforyourbedtime,mamma,"answeredModeste,inavoiceaspureasthetonesofaninstrument。
  "Youhaven’tpaidyourexpenses,"saidthedwarftoDumaywhenhereturned。
  "ModesteisaspureastheVirginonouraltar,"criedMadameLatournelle。
  "GoodGod!suchexcitementswearmeout,"saidDumay;"andyetI’mastrongman。"
  "MayIlosethattwenty—fivesousifIhavetheslightestideawhatyouareabout,"remarkedGobenheim。"Youseemtometobecrazy。"
  "Andyetitisallaboutatreasure,"saidButscha,standingontiptoetowhisperinGobenheim’sear。
  "Dumay,IamsorrytosaythatIamstillalmostcertainofwhatI
  toldyou,"persistedMadameMignon。
  "Theburdenofproofisnowonyou,madame,"saidDumay,calmly;"itisforyoutoprovethatwearemistaken。"
  DiscoveringthatthematterinquestionwasonlyModeste’shonor,Gobenheimtookhishat,madehisbow,andwalkedoff,carryinghistensouswithhim,——therebeingevidentlynohopeofanotherrubber。
  "Exupere,andyoutoo,Butscha,mayleaveus,"saidMadameLatournelle。"GobacktoHavre;youwillgetthereintimeforthelastpieceatthetheatre。I’llpayforyourtickets。"
  WhenthefourfriendswerealonewithMadameMignon,MadameLatournelle,afterlookingatDumay,whobeingaBretonunderstoodthemother’sobstinacy,andatherhusbandwhowasfingeringthecards,feltherselfauthorizedtospeakup。
  "MadameMignon,comenow,telluswhatdecisivethinghasstruckyourmind。"
  "Ah,mygoodfriend,ifyouwereamusicianyouwouldhaveheard,asI
  have,thelanguageoflovethatModestespeaks。"
  ThepianoofthedemoisellesMignonwasamongthefewarticlesoffurniturewhichhadbeenmovedfromthetown—housetotheChalet。
  Modesteoftenconjuredawayhertroublesbypractising,withoutamaster。Bornamusician,sheplayedtoenlivenhermother。Shesangbynature,andlovedtheGermanairswhichhermothertaughther。Fromtheselessonsandtheseattemptsatself—instructioncameaphenomenonnotuncommontonatureswithamusicalvocation;Modestecomposed,asfarasapersonignorantofthelawsofharmonycanbesaidtocompose,tenderlittlelyricmelodies。Melodyistomusicwhatimageryandsentimentaretopoetry,aflowerthatblossomsspontaneously。
  Consequently,nationshavehadmelodiesbeforeharmony,——botanycomeslaterthantheflower。Inlikemanner,Modeste,whoknewnothingofthepainter’sartexceptwhatshehadseenhersisterdointhewayofwater—color,wouldhavestoodsubduedandfascinatedbeforethepicturesofRaphael,Titian,Rubens,Murillo,Rembrandt,AlbertDurer,Holbein,——inotherwords,beforethegreatidealsofmanylands。
  Lately,foratleastamonth,Modestehadwarbledthesongsofnightingales,musicalrhapsodieswhosepoetryandmeaninghadrousedtheattentionofhermother,alreadysurprisedbyhersuddeneagernessforcompositionandherfancyforputtingairsintocertainverses。
  "Ifyoursuspicionshavenootherfoundation,"saidLatournelletoMadameMignon,"Ipityyoursusceptibilities。"
  "WhenaBretongirlsings,"saidDumaygloomily,"theloverisnotfaroff。"
  "IwillletyouhearModestewhensheisimprovising,"saidthemother,"andyoushalljudgeforyourselves——"
  "Poorgirl!"saidMadameDumay,"Ifsheonlyknewouranxietyshewouldbedeeplydistressed;shewouldtellusthetruth,——especiallyifshethoughtitwouldsaveDumay。"
  "Myfriends,Iwillquestionmydaughterto—morrow,"saidMadameMignon;"perhapsIshallobtainmorebytendernessthanyouhavediscoveredbytrickery。"
  Wasthecomedyofthe"FillemalGardee"beingplayedhere,——asitiseverywhereandforever,——underthenosesofthesefaithfulspies,thesehonestBartholos,thesePyreneanhounds,withouttheirbeingabletoferretout,detect,norevensurmisethelover,thelove—
  affair,orthesmokeofthefire?Atanyrateitwascertainlynottheresultofastrugglebetweenthejailersandtheprisoner,betweenthedespotismofadungeonandthelibertyofavictim,——itwassimplythenever—endingrepetitionofthefirstsceneplayedbymanwhenthecurtainoftheCreationrose;itwasEveinParadise。
  Andnow,whichofthetwo,themotherorthewatch—dog,hadtherightofit?
  NoneofthepersonswhowereaboutModestecouldunderstandthatmaidenheart——forthesoulandthefacewehavedescribedwereinharmony。Thegirlhadtransportedherexistenceintoanotherworld,asmuchdeniedanddisbelievedininthesedaysofoursasthenewworldofChristopherColumbusinthesixteenthcentury。Happily,shekeptherowncounsel,ortheywouldhavethoughthercrazy。Butfirstwemustexplaintheinfluenceofthepastuponhernature。
  Twoeventshadformedthesoulanddevelopedthemindofthisyounggirl。MonsieurandMadameMignon,warnedbythefatethatovertookBettina,hadresolved,justbeforethefailure,tomarryModeste。Theychosethesonofarichbanker,formerlyofHamburg,butestablishedinHavresince1815,——aman,moreover,whowasunderobligationstothem。Theyoungman,whosenamewasFrancoisAlthor,thedandyofHavre,blessedwithacertainvulgarbeautyinwhichthemiddleclassesdelight,well—made,well—fleshed,andwithafinecomplexion,abandonedhisbetrothedsohastilyonthedayofherfather’sfailurethatneitherModestenorhermothernoreitheroftheDumayshadseenhimsince。LatournelleventuredaquestiononthesubjecttoJacobAlthor,thefather;butheonlyshruggedhisshouldersandreplied,"I
  reallydon’tknowwhatyoumean。"
  Thisanswer,toldtoModestetogivehersomeexperienceoflife,wasalessonwhichshelearnedallthemorereadilybecauseLatournelleandDumaymademanyandlongcommentsonthecowardlydesertion。ThedaughtersofCharlesMignon,likespoiledchildren,hadalltheirwishesgratified;theyrodeonhorseback,kepttheirownhorsesandgrooms,andotherwiseenjoyedaperilousliberty。Seeingherselfinpossessionofanofficiallover,ModestehadallowedFrancisquetokissherhand,andtakeherbythewaisttomounther。Sheacceptedhisflowersandallthelittleproofsoftendernesswithwhichitispropertosurroundtheladyofourchoice;sheevenworkedhimapurse,believinginsuchties,——strongindeedtonoblesouls,butcobwebsfortheGobenheims,theVilquins,andtheAlthors。
  SometimeduringthespringwhichfollowedtheremovalofMadameMignonandherdaughtertotheChalet,FrancisqueAlthorcametodinewiththeVilquins。HappeningtoseeModesteoverthewallatthefootofthelawn,heturnedawayhishead。SixweekslaterhemarriedtheeldestMademoiselleVilquin。InthiswayModeste,young,beautiful,andofhighbirth,learnedthelessonthatforthreewholemonthsofherengagementshehadbeennothingmorethanMademoiselleMillion。
  Herpoverty,wellknowntoall,becameasentineldefendingtheapproachestotheChaletfullyaswellastheprudenceoftheLatournellesorthevigilanceofDumay。ThetalkofthetownranforatimeonMademoiselleMignon’spositiononlytoinsulther。
  "Poorgirl!whatwillbecomeofher?——anoldmaid,ofcourse。"
  "Whatafate!tohavehadtheworldatherfeet;tohavehadthechancetomarryFrancisqueAlthor,——andnow,nobodywillingtotakeher!"
  "Afteralifeofluxury,tocomedowntosuchpoverty——"
  AndtheseinsultswerenotutteredinsecretorlefttoModeste’simagination;sheheardthemspokenmorethanoncebytheyoungmenandtheyoungwomenofHavreastheywalkedtoIngouville,and,knowingthatMadameMignonandherdaughterlivedattheChalet,talkedofthemastheypassedthehouse。FriendsoftheVilquinsexpressedsurprisethatthemotheranddaughterwerewillingtoliveonamongthescenesoftheirformersplendor。FromheropenwindowbehindtheclosedblindsModestesometimesheardsuchinsolenceasthis:——
  "IamsureIcan’tthinkhowtheycanlivethere,"someonewouldsayashepacedthevillalawn,——perhapstoassistVilquiningettingridofhistenant。
  "Whatdoyousupposetheyliveon?theyhaven’tanymeansofearningmoney。"
  "Iamtoldtheoldwomanhasgoneblind。"
  "IsMademoiselleMignonstillpretty?Dearme,howdashingsheusedtobe!Well,shehasn’tanyhorsesnow。"
  Mostyounggirlsonhearingthesespitefulandsillyspeeches,bornofanenvythatnowrushed,peevishanddrivelling,toavengethepast,wouldhavefeltthebloodmounttotheirforeheads;otherswouldhavewept;somewouldhaveundergonespasmsofanger;butModestesmiled,aswesmileatthetheatrewhilewatchingtheactors。Herpridecouldnotdescendsolowasthelevelofsuchspeeches。
  Theothereventwasmoreseriousthanthesemercenarymeannesses。
  BettinaCarolinediedinthearmsofheryoungersister,whohadnursedherwiththedevotionofgirlhood,andthecuriosityofanuntaintedimagination。Inthesilenceoflongnightsthesistersexchangedmanyaconfidence。WithwhatdramaticinterestwaspoorBettinainvestedintheeyesoftheinnocentModeste?Bettinaknewlovethroughsorrowonly,andshewasdyingofit。Amongyounggirlseveryman,scoundrelthoughhebe,isstillalover。Passionistheonethingabsolutelyrealinthethingsoflife,anditinsistsonitssupremacy。Charlesd’Estourny,gambler,criminal,anddebauchee,remainedinthememoryofthesisters,theelegantParisianofthefetesofHavre,theadmiredofthewomenkind。BettinabelievedshehadcarriedhimofffromthecoquettishMadameVilquin,andtoModestehewashersister’shappylover。Suchadorationinyounggirlsisstrongerthanallsocialcondemnations。ToBettina’sthinking,justicehadbeendeceived;ifnot,howcouldithavesentencedamanwhohadlovedherforsixmonths?——lovedhertodistractioninthehiddenretreattowhichhehadtakenher,——thathemight,wemayadd,beatlibertytogohisownway。Thusthedyinggirlinoculatedhersisterwithlove。Togethertheytalkedofthegreatdramawhichimaginationenhances;andBettinacarriedwithhertothegravehersister’signorance,leavingher,ifnotinformed,atleastthirstingforinformation。
  Nevertheless,remorsehadsetitsfangstoosharplyinBettina’sheartnottoforcehertowarnhersister。InthemidstofherownconfessionsshehadpreacheddutyandimplicitobediencetoModeste。
  Ontheeveningofherdeathsheimploredhertorememberthetearsthatsoakedherpillow,andnottoimitateaconductwhichevensufferingcouldnotexpiate。Bettinaaccusedherselfofbringingacurseuponthefamily,anddiedindespairatbeingunabletoobtainherfather’spardon。Notwithstandingtheconsolationswhichtheministersofreligion,touchedbyherrepentance,freelygaveher,shecriedinheartrendingtoneswithherlatestbreath:"Ohfather!
  father!""Nevergiveyourheartwithoutyourhand,"shesaidtoModesteanhourbeforeshedied;"andaboveall,acceptnoattentionsfromanymanwithouttellingeverythingtopapaandmamma。"
  Thesewords,soearnestintheirpracticalmeaning,utteredinthehourofdeath,hadmoreeffectuponModestethanifBettinahadexactedasolemnoath。Thedyinggirl,farseeingasprophet,drewfrombeneathherpillowaringwhichshehadsentbyherfaithfulmaid,FrancoiseCochet,tobeengravedinHavrewiththesewords,"ThinkofBettina,1827,"andplaceditonhersister’sfinger,begginghertokeepitthereuntilshemarried。Thustherehadbeenbetweenthesetwoyounggirlsastrangecomminglingofbitterremorseandtheartlessvisionsofafleetingspring—timetooearlyblightedbythekeennorthwindofdesertion;yetalltheirtears,regretsandmemorieswerealwayssubordinatetotheirhorrorofevil。
  Nevertheless,thisdramaofapoorseducedsisterreturningtodieunderaroofofelegantpoverty,thefailureofherfather,thebasenessofherbetrothed,theblindnessofhermothercausedbygrief,hadtouchedthesurfaceonlyofModeste’slife,bywhichalonetheDumaysandtheLatournellesjudgedher;fornodevotionoffriendscantaketheplaceofamother’seye。ThemonotonouslifeinthedaintylittleChalet,surroundedbythechoiceflowerswhichDumaycultivated;thefamilycustoms,asregularasclock—work,theprovincialdecorum,thegamesatwhistwhilethemotherknittedandthedaughtersewed,thesilence,brokenonlybytheroaroftheseaintheequinoctialstorms,——allthismonastictranquillitydidinfacthideaninnerandtumultuouslife,thelifeofideas,thelifeofthespiritualbeing。Wesometimeswonderhowitispossibleforyounggirlstodowrong;butsuchasdosohavenoblindmothertosendherplummetlineofintuitiontothedepthsofthesubterraneanfanciesofavirginheart。TheDumayssleptwhenModesteopenedherwindow,asitweretowatchforthepassingofaman,——themanofherdreams,theexpectedknightwhowastomountherbehindhimandrideawayunderthefireofDumay’spistols。
  Duringthedepressioncausedbyhersister’sdeathModesteflungherselfintothepracticeofreading,untilhermindbecamesoddeninit。Borntotheuseoftwolanguages,shecouldspeakandreadGermanquiteaswellasFrench;shehadalso,togetherwithhersister,learnedEnglishfromMadameDumay。Beingverylittleoverlookedinthematterofreadingbythepeopleabouther,whohadnoliteraryknowledge,Modestefedhersoulonthemodernmasterpiecesofthreeliteratures,English,French,andGerman。LordByron,Goethe,Schiller,WalterScott,Hugo,Lamartine,Crabbe,Moore,thegreatworksofthe17thand18thcenturies,history,drama,andfiction,fromAstraeatoManonLescaut,fromMontaigne’sEssaystoDiderot,fromtheFabliauxtotheNouvelleHeloise,——inshort,thethoughtofthreelandscrowdedwithconfusedimagesthatgirlishhead,augustinitscoldguilelessness,itsnativechastity,butfromwhichtheresprangfull—armed,brilliant,sincere,andstrong,anoverwhelmingadmirationforgenius。ToModesteanewbookwasanevent;amasterpiecethatwouldhavehorrifiedMadameLatournellemadeherhappy,——equallyunhappyifthegreatworkdidnotplayhavocwithherheart。Alyricinstinctbubbledinthatgirlishsoul,sofullofthebeautifulillusionsofitsyouth。Butofthisradiantexistencenotagleamreachedthesurfaceofdailylife;itescapedthekenofDumayandhiswifeandtheLatournelles;theearsoftheblindmotheralonecaughtthecracklingofitsflame。
  TheprofounddisdainwhichModestenowconceivedforordinarymengavetoherfacealookofpride,aninexpressibleuntamedshyness,whichtemperedherTeutonicsimplicity,andaccordedwellwithapeculiarityofherhead。Thehairgrowinginapointabovetheforeheadseemedthecontinuationofaslightlinewhichthoughthadalreadyfurrowedbetweentheeyebrows,andmadetheexpressionofuntameabilityperhapsashadetoostrong。Thevoiceofthischarmingchild,whomherfather,delightinginherwit,waswonttocallhis"littleproverbofSolomon,"hadacquiredapreciousflexibilityoforganthroughthepracticeofthreelanguages。Thisadvantagewasstillfurtherenhancedbyanaturalbell—liketonebothsweetandfresh,whichtouchedtheheartasdelightfullyasitdidtheear。Ifthemothercouldnolongerseethesignsofanobledestinyuponherdaughter’sbrow,shecouldstudythetransitionsofhersoul’sdevelopmentintheaccentsofthatvoiceattunedtolove。
  CHAPTERVI
  AMAIDEN’SFIRSTROMANCE
  TothisperiodofModeste’seagerrageforreadingsucceededtheexerciseofastrangefacultygiventovigorousimaginations,——thepower,namely,ofmakingherselfanactorinadream—existence;ofrepresentingtoherownmindthethingsdesired,withsovividaconceptionthattheyseemedactuallytoattainreality;inshort,toenjoybythought,——toliveoutheryearswithinhermind;tomarry;togrowold;toattendherownfunerallikeCharlesV。;toplaywithinherselfthecomedyoflifeand,ifneedbe,thatofdeath。Modestewasindeedplaying,butallalone,thecomedyofLove。Shefanciedherselfadoredtothesummitofherwishesinmanyanimaginedphaseofsociallife。Sometimesastheheroineofadarkromance,shelovedtheexecutioner,orthewretchwhoendedherdaysuponthescaffold,or,likehersister,someParisianyouthwithoutapenny,whosestruggleswereallbeneathagarret—roof。SometimesshewasNinon,scorningmenamidcontinualfetes;orsomeapplaudedactress,orgayadventuress,exhaustinginherownbehalftheluckofGilBlas,orthetriumphsofPasta,Malibran,andFlorine。Then,wearyofthehorrorsandexcitements,shereturnedtoactuallife。Shemarriedanotary,sheatetheplainbrownbreadofhonesteverydaylife,shesawherselfaMadameLatournelle;sheacceptedapainfulexistence,sheboreallthetrialsofastrugglewithfortune。Afterthatshewentbacktotheromances:shewaslovedforherbeauty;asonofapeerofFrance,aneccentric,artisticyoungman,divinedherheart,recognizedthestarwhichthegeniusofaDeStaelhadplantedonherbrow。Herfatherreturned,possessingmillions。Withhispermission,sheputhervariousloverstocertaintests(alwayscarefullyguardingherownindependence);sheownedamagnificentestateandcastle,servants,horses,carriages,thechoicestofeverythingthatluxurycouldbestow,andkepthersuitorsuncertainuntilshewasfortyyearsold,atwhichageshemadeherchoice。
  ThiseditionoftheArabianNightsinasinglecopylastednearlyayear,andtaughtModestethesenseofsatietythroughthought。Sheheldherlifetooofteninherhand,shesaidtoherselfphilosophicallyandwithtoorealabitterness,tooseriously,andtoooften,"Well,whatisit,afterall?"nottohaveplungedtoherwaistinthedeepdisgustwhichallmenofgeniusfeelwhentheytrytocompletebyintensetoiltheworktowhichtheyhavedevotedthemselves。HeryouthandherrichnaturealonekeptModesteatthisperiodofherlifefromseekingtoenteracloister。Butthissenseofsatietycasther,saturatedasshestillwaswithCatholicspirituality,intotheloveofGood,theinfiniteofheaven。Sheconceivedofcharity,servicetoothers,asthetrueoccupationoflife;butshecoweredinthegloomydrearinessoffindinginitnofoodforthefancythatlaycrouchinginherheartlikeaninsectatthebottomofacalyx。Meanwhileshesattranquillysewinggarmentsforthechildrenofthepoor,andlisteningabstractedlytothegrumblingsofMonsieurLatournellewhenDumayheldthethirteenthcardordrewouthislasttrump。
  HerreligiousfaithdroveModesteforatimeintoasingulartrackofthought。Sheimaginedthatifshebecamesinless(speakingecclesiastically)shewouldattaintosuchaconditionofsanctitythatGodwouldhearherandaccomplishherdesires。"Faith,"shethought,"canmovemountains;Christhassaidso。TheSaviourledhisapostleuponthewatersofthelakeTiberias;andI,allIaskofGodisahusbandtoloveme;thatiseasierthanwalkinguponthesea。"
  ShefastedthroughthenextLent,anddidnotcommitasinglesin;
  thenshesaidtoherselfthatonacertaindaycomingoutofchurchsheshouldmeetahandsomeyoungmanwhowasworthyofher,whomhermotherwouldaccept,andwhowouldfallmadlyinlovewithher。Whenthedaycameonwhichshehad,asitwere,summonedGodtosendheranangel,shewaspersistentlyfollowedbyaratherdisgustingbeggar;
  moreover,itrainedheavily,andnotasingleyoungmanwasinthestreets。OnanotheroccasionshewenttowalkonthejettytoseetheEnglishtravellersland;buteachEnglishmanhadanEnglishwoman,nearlyashandsomeasModesteherself,whosawnooneatallresemblingawanderingChildeHarold。Tearsovercameher,asshesatdownlikeMariusontheruinsofherimagination。ButonthedaywhenshesubpoenaedGodforthethirdtimeshefirmlybelievedthattheElectofherdreamswaswithinthechurch,hiding,perhapsoutofdelicacy,behindoneofthepillars,roundallofwhichshedraggedMadameLatournelleonatourofinspection。Afterthisfailure,shedeposedtheDeityfromomnipotence。Manywereherconversationswiththeimaginarylover,forwhomsheinventedquestionsandanswers,bestowinguponhimagreatdealofwitandintelligence。
  ThehighambitionsofherhearthiddenwithintheseromancesweretherealexplanationoftheprudentconductwhichthegoodpeoplewhowatchedoverModestesomuchadmired;theymighthavebroughtheranynumberofyoungAlthorsorVilquins,andshewouldneverhavestoopedtosuchclowns。Shewanted,purelyandsimply,amanofgenius,——
  talentshecaredlittlefor;justasalawyerisofnoaccounttoagirlwhoaimsforanambassador。Heronlydesireforwealthwastocastitatthefeetofheridol。Indeed,thegoldenbackgroundofthesevisionswasfarlessrichthanthetreasuryofherownheart,filledwithwomanlydelicacy;foritsdominantdesirewastomakesomeTasso,someMilton,aJean—JacquesRousseau,aMurat,aChristopherColumbushappy。
  Commonplacemiseriesdidnotseriouslytouchthisyouthfulsoul,wholongedtoextinguishthefiresofthemartyrsignoredandrejectedintheirownday。SometimessheimaginedbalmsofGilead,soothingmelodieswhichmighthaveallayedthesavagemisanthropyofRousseau。
  OrshefanciedherselfthewifeofLordByron;guessingintuitivelyhiscontemptforthereal,shemadeherselfasfantasticasthepoetryofManfred,andprovidedforhisscepticismbymakinghimaCatholic。
  ModesteattributedMoliere’smelancholytothewomenoftheseventeenthcentury。"Whyistherenotsomeonewoman,"sheaskedherself,"loving,beautiful,andrich,readytostandbesideeachmanofgeniusandbehisslave,likeLara,themysteriouspage?"Shehad,asthereaderperceives,fullyunderstood"ilpianto,"whichtheEnglishpoetchantedbythemouthofhisGulmare。ModestegreatlyadmiredthebehavioroftheyoungEnglishwomanwhoofferedherselftoCrebillon,theson,whomarriedher。ThestoryofSterneandElizaDraperwasherlifeandherhappinessforseveralmonths。Shemadeherselfideallytheheroineofalikeromance,andmanyatimesherehearsedinimaginationthesublimeroleofEliza。Thesensibilitysocharminglyexpressedinthatdelightfulcorrespondencefilledhereyeswithtearswhich,itissaid,werelackinginthoseofthewittiestofEnglishwriters。