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第3章

  SORIN。Thepoorsoulisunhappy。
  DORN。Thatisatrifle,yourhonour。
  SORIN。Youjudgeherlikeamanwhohasobtainedallhewantsinlife。
  ARKADINA。Oh,whatcouldbedullerthanthisdeartediumofthecountry?Theairishotandstill,nobodydoesanythingbutsitandphilosophiseaboutlife。Itispleasant,myfriends,tositandlistentoyouhere,butIhadratherathousandtimessitaloneintheroomofahotellearningarolebyheart。
  NINA。[Withenthusiasm]Youarequiteright。Iunderstandhowyoufeel。
  SORIN。Ofcourseitispleasantertoliveintown。Onecansitinone’slibrarywithatelephoneatone’selbow,noonecomesinwithoutbeingfirstannouncedbythefootman,thestreetsarefullofcabs,andall———
  DORN。[Sings]
  "Tellher,ohflowers———"
  SHAMRAEFFcomesin,followedbyPAULINA。
  SHAMRAEFF。Heretheyare。Howdoyoudo?[HekissesARKADINA’S
  handandthenNINA’S]Iamdelightedtoseeyoulookingsowell。
  [ToARKADINA]Mywifetellsmethatyoumeantogototownwithherto—day。Isthatso?
  ARKADINA。Yes,thatiswhatIhadplannedtodo。
  SHAMRAEFF。Hm——thatissplendid,buthowdoyouintendtogetthere,madam?Wearehaulingryeto—day,andallthemenarebusy。Whathorseswouldyoutake?
  ARKADINA。Whathorses?HowdoIknowwhathorsesweshallhave?
  SORIN。Why,wehavethecarriagehorses。
  SHAMRAEFF。Thecarriagehorses!AndwhereamItofindtheharnessforthem?Thisisastonishing!Mydearmadam,Ihavethegreatestrespectforyourtalents,andwouldgladlysacrificetenyearsofmylifeforyou,butIcannotletyouhaveanyhorsesto—day。
  ARKADINA。ButifImustgototown?Whatanextraordinarystateofaffairs!
  SHAMRAEFF。Youdonotknow,madam,whatitistorunafarm。
  ARKADINA。[Inaburstofanger]Thatisanoldstory!UnderthesecircumstancesIshallgobacktoMoscowthisveryday。Orderacarriageformefromthevillage,orIshallgotothestationonfoot。
  SHAMRAEFF。[losinghistemper]UnderthesecircumstancesIresignmyposition。Youmustfindyourselfanothermanager。[Hegoesout。]
  ARKADINA。Itislikethiseverysummer:everysummerIaminsultedhere。Ishallneversetfoothereagain。
  Shegoesouttotheleft,inthedirectionofthewharf。Inafewminutessheisseenenteringthehouse,followedbyTRIGORIN,whocarriesabucketandfishing—rod。
  SORIN。[Losinghistemper]Whatthedeucedidhemeanbyhisimpudence?Iwantallthehorsesbroughthereatonce!
  NINA。[ToPAULINA]HowcouldherefuseanythingtoMadameArkadina,thefamousactress?Isnoteverywish,everycapriceeven,ofhers,moreimportantthananyfarmwork?Thisisincredible。
  PAULINA。[Indespair]WhatcanIdoaboutit?PutyourselfinmyplaceandtellmewhatIcando。
  SORIN。[ToNINA]Letusgoandfindmysister,andallbeghernottogo。[HelooksinthedirectioninwhichSHAMRAEFFwentout]Thatmanisinsufferable;aregulartyrant。
  NINA。[Preventinghimfromgettingup]Sitstill,sitstill,andletuswheelyou。[SheandMEDVIEDENKOpushthechairbeforethem]Thisisterrible!
  SORIN。Yes,yes,itisterrible;buthewon’tleave。Ishallhaveatalkwithhiminamoment。[Theygoout。OnlyDORNandPAULINA
  areleft。]
  DORN。Howtiresomepeopleare!Yourhusbanddeservestobethrownoutofhereneckandcrop,butitwillallendbythisoldgrannySorinandhissisteraskingtheman’spardon。Seeifitdoesn’t。
  PAULINA。Hehassentthecarriagehorsesintothefieldstoo。
  Thesemisunderstandingsoccureveryday。Ifyouonlyknewhowtheyexciteme!Iamill;see!Iamtremblingallover!Icannotendurehisroughways。[Imploringly]Eugene,mydarling,mybeloved,takemetoyou。Ourtimeisshort;wearenolongeryoung;letusenddeceptionandconcealment,eventhoughitisonlyattheendofourlives。[Apause。]
  DORN。Iamfifty—fiveyearsold。Itistoolatenowformetochangemywaysofliving。
  PAULINA。Iknowthatyourefusemebecausethereareotherwomenwhoareneartoyou,andyoucannottakeeverybody。Iunderstand。
  Excuseme——IseeIamonlybotheringyou。
  NINAisseennearthehousepickingabunchofflowers。
  DORN。No,itisallright。
  PAULINA。Iamtorturedbyjealousy。Ofcourseyouareadoctorandcannotescapefromwomen。Iunderstand。
  DORN。[TONINA,whocomestowardhim]Howarethingsinthere?
  NINA。MadameArkadinaiscrying,andSorinishavinganattackofasthma。
  DORN。Letusgoandgivethembothsomecamomiletea。
  NINA。[Handshimthebunchofflowers]Herearesomeflowersforyou。
  DORN。Thankyou。[Hegoesintothehouse。]
  PAULINA。[Followinghim]Whatprettyflowers![Astheyreachthehouseshesaysinalowvoice]Givemethoseflowers!Givethemtome!
  DORNhandshertheflowers;shetearsthemtopiecesandflingsthemaway。Theybothgointothehouse。
  NINA。[Alone]Howstrangetoseeafamousactressweeping,andforsuchatrifle!Isitnotstrange,too,thatafamousauthorshouldsitfishingallday?Heistheidolofthepublic,thepapersarefullofhim,hisphotographisforsaleeverywhere,hisworkshavebeentranslatedintomanyforeignlanguages,andyetheisoverjoyedifhecatchesacoupleofminnows。Ialwaysthoughtfamouspeopleweredistantandproud;Ithoughttheydespisedthecommoncrowdwhichexaltsrichesandbirth,andavengedthemselvesonitbydazzlingitwiththeinextinguishablehonourandgloryoftheirfame。ButhereIseethemweepingandplayingcardsandflyingintopassionslikeeverybodyelse。
  TREPLIEFFcomesinwithoutahaton,carryingagunandadeadseagull。
  TREPLIEFF。Areyoualonehere?
  NINA。Yes。
  TREPLIEFFlaysthesea—gullatherfeet。
  NINA。Whatdoyoumeanbythis?
  TREPLIEFF。Iwasbaseenoughto—daytokillthisgull。Ilayitatyourfeet。
  NINA。Whatishappeningtoyou?[Shepicksupthegullandstandslookingatit。]
  TREPLIEFF。[Afterapause]SoshallIsoonendmyownlife。
  NINA。YouhavechangedsothatIfailtorecogniseyou。
  TREPLIEFF。Yes,IhavechangedsincethetimewhenIceasedtorecogniseyou。Youhavefailedme;yourlookiscold;youdonotliketohavemenearyou。
  NINA。Youhavegrownsoirritablelately,andyoutalksodarklyandsymbolicallythatyoumustforgivemeifIfailtofollowyou。Iamtoosimpletounderstandyou。
  TREPLIEFF。Allthisbeganwhenmyplayfailedsodismally。A
  womannevercanforgivefailure。Ihaveburntthemanuscripttothelastpage。Oh,ifyoucouldonlyfathommyunhappiness!Yourestrangementistometerrible,incredible;itisasifIhadsuddenlywakedtofindthislakedriedupandsunkintotheearth。Yousayyouaretoosimpletounderstandme;but,oh,whatistheretounderstand?Youdislikedmyplay,youhavenofaithinmypowers,youalreadythinkofmeascommonplaceandworthless,asmanyare。[Stampinghisfoot]HowwellIcanunderstandyourfeelings!Andthatunderstandingistomelikeadaggerinthebrain。Mayitbeaccursed,togetherwithmystupidity,whichsucksmylife—bloodlikeasnake![HeseesTRIGORIN,whoapproachesreadingabook]Therecomesrealgenius,stridingalonglikeanotherHamlet,andwithabook,too。
  [Mockingly]"Words,words,words。"Youfeelthewarmthofthatsunalready,yousmile,youreyesmeltandglowliquidinitsrays。Ishallnotdisturbyou。[Hegoesout。]
  TRIGORIN。[Makingnotesinhisbook]Takessnuffanddrinksvodka;alwayswearsblackdresses;islovedbyaschoolteacher——
  NINA。Howdoyoudo?
  TRIGORIN。Howareyou,MissNina?Owingtoanunforeseendevelopmentofcircumstances,itseemsthatweareleavingheretoday。YouandIshallprobablyneverseeeachotheragain,andI
  amsorryforit。Iseldommeetayoungandprettygirlnow;Icanhardlyrememberhowitfeelstobenineteen,andtheyounggirlsinmybooksareseldomlivingcharacters。Ishouldliketochangeplaceswithyou,ifbutforanhour,tolookoutattheworldthroughyoureyes,andsofindoutwhatsortofalittlepersonyouare。
  NINA。AndIshouldliketochangeplaceswithyou。
  TRIGORIN。Why?
  NINA。Tofindouthowafamousgeniusfeels。Whatisitliketobefamous?Whatsensationsdoesitgiveyou?
  TRIGORIN。Whatsensations?Idon’tbelieveitgivesany。
  [Thoughtfully]Eitheryouexaggeratemyfame,orelse,ifitexists,allIcansayisthatonesimplydoesn’tfeelfameinanyway。
  NINA。Butwhenyoureadaboutyourselfinthepapers?
  TRIGORIN。Ifthecriticspraiseme,Iamhappy;iftheycondemnme,Iamoutofsortsforthenexttwodays。
  NINA。Thisisawonderfulworld。IfyouonlyknewhowIenvyyou!
  Menareborntodifferentdestinies。Somedullydragaweary,uselesslifebehindthem,lostinthecrowd,unhappy,whiletooneoutofamillion,astoyou,forinstance,comesabrightdestinyfullofinterestandmeaning。Youarelucky。
  TRIGORIN。I,lucky?[Heshrugshisshoulders]H—m——Ihearyoutalkingaboutfame,andhappiness,andbrightdestinies,andthosefinewordsofyoursmeanasmuchtome——forgivemysayingso——assweetmeatsdo,whichInevereat。Youareveryyoung,andverykind。
  NINA。Yourlifeisbeautiful。
  TRIGORIN。Iseenothingespeciallylovelyaboutit。[Helooksathiswatch]Excuseme,Imustgoatonce,andbeginwritingagain。
  Iaminahurry。[Helaughs]Youhavesteppedonmypetcorn,astheysay,andIamgettingexcited,andalittlecross。Letusdiscussthisbrightandbeautifullifeofmine,though。[Afterafewmoments’thought]Violentobsessionssometimeslayholdofaman:hemay,forinstance,thinkdayandnightofnothingbutthemoon。Ihavesuchamoon。DayandnightIamheldinthegripofonebesettingthought,towrite,write,write!HardlyhaveI
  finishedonebookthansomethingurgesmetowriteanother,andthenathird,andthenafourth——Iwriteceaselessly。Iam,asitwere,onatreadmill。Ihurryforeverfromonestorytoanother,andcan’thelpmyself。Doyouseeanythingbrightandbeautifulinthat?Oh,itisawildlife!Evennow,thrilledasIambytalkingtoyou,Idonotforgetforaninstantthatanunfinishedstoryisawaitingme。Myeyefallsonthatcloudthere,whichhastheshapeofagrandpiano;IinstantlymakeamentalnotethatI
  mustremembertomentioninmystoryacloudfloatingbythatlookedlikeagrandpiano。Ismellheliotrope;Imuttertomyself:asicklysmell,thecolourwornbywidows;Imustrememberthatinwritingmynextdescriptionofasummerevening。
  Icatchanideaineverysentenceofyoursorofmyown,andhastentolockallthesetreasuresinmyliterarystore—room,thinkingthatsomedaytheymaybeusefultome。AssoonasI
  stopworkingIrushofftothetheatreorgofishing,inthehopethatImayfindoblivionthere,butno!Somenewsubjectforastoryissuretocomerollingthroughmybrainlikeanironcannonball。Ihearmydeskcalling,andhavetogobacktoitandbegintowrite,write,write,oncemore。Andsoitgoesforeverlasting。Icannotescapemyself,thoughIfeelthatIamconsumingmylife。TopreparethehoneyIfeedtounknowncrowds,Iamdoomedtobrushthebloomfrommydearestflowers,totearthemfromtheirstems,andtrampletherootsthatborethemunderfoot。AmInotamadman?ShouldInotbetreatedbythosewhoknowmeasonementallydiseased?Yetitisalwaysthesame,sameoldstory,tillIbegintothinkthatallthispraiseandadmirationmustbeadeception,thatIambeinghoodwinkedbecausetheyknowIamcrazy,andIsometimestremblelestI
  shouldbegrabbedfrombehindandwhiskedofftoalunaticasylum。Thebestyearsofmyyouthweremadeonecontinualagonyformebymywriting。Ayoungauthor,especiallyifatfirsthedoesnotmakeasuccess,feelsclumsy,ill—at—ease,andsuperfluousintheworld。Hisnervesareallonedgeandstretchedtothepointofbreaking;heisirresistiblyattractedtoliteraryandartisticpeople,andhoversaboutthemunknownandunnoticed,fearingtolookthembravelyintheeye,likeamanwithapassionforgambling,whosemoneyisallgone。Ididnotknowmyreaders,butforsomereasonIimaginedtheyweredistrustfulandunfriendly;Iwasmortallyafraidofthepublic,andwhenmyfirstplayappeared,itseemedtomeasifallthedarkeyesintheaudiencewerelookingatitwithenmity,andalltheblueoneswithcoldindifference。Oh,howterribleitwas!
  Whatagony!
  NINA。Butdon’tyourinspirationandtheactofcreationgiveyoumomentsofloftyhappiness?
  TRIGORIN。Yes。Writingisapleasuretome,andsoisreadingtheproofs,butnosoonerdoesabookleavethepressthanitbecomesodioustome;itisnotwhatImeantittobe;Imadeamistaketowriteitatall;Iamprovokedanddiscouraged。Thenthepublicreadsitandsays:"Yes,itiscleverandpretty,butnotnearlyasgoodasTolstoi,"or"Itisalovelything,butnotasgoodasTurgenieff’s’FathersandSons,’"andsoitwillalwaysbe。TomydyingdayIshallhearpeoplesay:"Cleverandpretty;
  cleverandpretty,"andnothingmore;andwhenIamgone,thosethatknewmewillsayastheypassmygrave:"HereliesTrigorin,acleverwriter,buthewasnotasgoodasTurgenieff。"
  NINA。Youmustexcuseme,butIdeclinetounderstandwhatyouaretalkingabout。Thefactis,youhavebeenspoiltbyyoursuccess。
  TRIGORIN。WhatsuccesshaveIhad?Ihaveneverpleasedmyself;
  asawriter,Idonotlikemyselfatall。ThetroubleisthatI
  ammadegiddy,asitwere,bythefumesofmybrain,andoftenhardlyknowwhatIamwriting。Ilovethislake,thesetrees,theblueheaven;nature’svoicespeakstomeandwakesafeelingofpassioninmyheart,andIamovercomebyanuncontrollabledesiretowrite。ButIamnotonlyapainteroflandscapes,Iamamanofthecitybesides。Ilovemycountry,too,andherpeople;Ifeelthat,asawriter,itismydutytospeakoftheirsorrows,oftheirfuture,alsoofscience,oftherightsofman,andsoforth。SoIwriteoneverysubject,andthepublichoundsmeonallsides,sometimesinanger,andIraceanddodgelikeafoxwithapackofhoundsonhistrail。Iseelifeandknowledgeflittingawaybeforeme。Iamleftbehindthemlikeapeasantwhohasmissedhistrainatastation,andfinallyIcomebacktotheconclusionthatallIamfitforistodescribelandscapes,andthatwhateverelseIattemptringsabominablyfalse。
  NINA。Youworktoohardtorealisetheimportanceofyourwritings。Whatifyouarediscontentedwithyourself?Toothersyouappearagreatandsplendidman。IfIwereawriterlikeyouIshoulddevotemywholelifetotheserviceoftheRussianpeople,knowingatthesametimethattheirwelfaredependedontheirpowertorisetotheheightsIhadattained,andthepeopleshouldsendmebeforetheminachariotoftriumph。
  TRIGORIN。Inachariot?DoyouthinkIamAgamemnon?[Theybothsmile。]
  NINA。FortheblissofbeingawriteroranactressIcouldendurewant,anddisillusionment,andthehatredofmyfriends,andthepangsofmyowndissatisfactionwithmyself;butIshoulddemandinreturnfame,real,resoundingfame![Shecoversherfacewithherhands]Whew!Myheadreels!
  THEVOICEOFARKADINA。[Frominsidethehouse]Boris!Boris!
  TRIGORIN。Sheiscallingme,probablytocomeandpack,butI
  don’twanttoleavethisplace。[Hiseyesrestonthelake]Whatablessingsuchbeautyis!
  NINA。Doyouseethathousethere,onthefarshore?
  TRIGORIN。Yes。
  NINA。Thatwasmydeadmother’shome。Iwasbornthere,andhavelivedallmylifebesidethislake。Iknoweverylittleislandinit。
  TRIGORIN。Thisisabeautifulplacetolive。[Hecatchessightofthedeadsea—gull]Whatisthat?
  NINA。Agull。Constantineshotit。
  TRIGORIN。Whatalovelybird!Really,Ican’tbeartogoaway。
  Can’tyoupersuadeIrinatostay?[Hewritessomethinginhisnote—book。]
  NINA。Whatareyouwriting?
  TRIGORIN。Nothingmuch,onlyanideathatoccurredtome。[Heputsthebookbackinhispocket]Anideaforashortstory。A
  younggirlgrowsupontheshoresofalake,asyouhave。Shelovesthelakeasthegullsdo,andisashappyandfreeasthey。
  Butamanseesherwhochancestocomethatway,andhedestroysheroutofidleness,asthisgullherehasbeendestroyed。[A
  pause。ARKADINAappearsatoneofthewindows。]
  ARKADINA。Boris!Whereareyou?
  TRIGORIN。Iamcomingthisminute。
  Hegoestowardthehouse,lookingbackatNINA。ARKADINAremainsatthewindow。
  TRIGORIN。Whatdoyouwant?
  ARKADINA。Wearenotgoingaway,afterall。
  TRIGORINgoesintothehouse。NINAcomesforwardandstandslostinthought。
  NINA。Itisadream!
  Thecurtainfalls。
  ACTIII
  Thedining—roomofSORIN’Shouse。Doorsopenoutofittotherightandleft。Atablestandsinthecentreoftheroom。Trunksandboxesencumberthefloor,andpreparationsfordepartureareevident。TRIGORINissittingatatableeatinghisbreakfast,andMASHAisstandingbesidehim。
  MASHA。Iamtellingyouallthesethingsbecauseyouwritebooksandtheymaybeusefultoyou。Itellyouhonestly,Ishouldnothavelivedanotherdayifhehadwoundedhimselffatally。YetI
  amcourageous;Ihavedecidedtotearthisloveofmineoutofmyheartbytheroots。
  TRIGORIN。Howwillyoudoit?
  MASHA。BymarryingMedviedenko。
  TRIGORIN。Theschool—teacher?
  MASHA。Yes。
  TRIGORIN。Idon’tseethenecessityforthat。
  MASHA。Oh,ifyouknewwhatitistolovewithouthopeforyearsandyears,towaitforeverforsomethingthatwillnevercome!I
  shallnotmarryforlove,butmarriagewillatleastbeachange,andwillbringnewcarestodeadenthememoriesofthepast。
  Shallwehaveanotherdrink?
  TRIGORIN。Haven’tyouhadenough?
  MASHA。Fiddlesticks![Shefillsaglass]Don’tlookatmewiththatexpressiononyourface。Womendrinkoftenerthanyouimagine,butmostofthemdoitinsecret,andnotopenly,asI
  do。Theydoindeed,anditisalwayseithervodkaorbrandy。
  [Theytouchglasses]Toyourgoodhealth!YouaresoeasytogetonwiththatIamsorrytoseeyougo。[Theydrink。]
  TRIGORIN。AndIamsorrytoleave。
  MASHA。Youshouldaskhertostay。
  TRIGORIN。Shewouldnotdothatnow。Hersonhasbeenbehavingoutrageously。Firstheattemptedsuicide,andnowIhearheisgoingtochallengemetoaduel,thoughwhathisprovocationmaybeIcan’timagine。Heisalwayssulkingandsneeringandpreachingaboutanewformofart,asifthefieldofartwerenotlargeenoughtoaccommodatebotholdandnewwithoutthenecessityofjostling。