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第10章

  Geraldwasherescapefromtheheavysloughofthepale,underworld,automaticcolliers。Hestartedoutofthemud。Hewasmaster。Shesawhisback,themovementofhiswhiteloins。Butnotthat——itwasthewhitenessheseemedtoencloseashebentforwards,rowing。Heseemedtostooptosomething。Hisglistening,whitishhairseemedliketheelectricityofthesky。
  `There'sGudrun,'cameHermione'svoicefloatingdistinctoverthewater。
  `Wewillgoandspeaktoher。Doyoumind?'
  Geraldlookedroundandsawthegirlstandingbythewater'sedge,lookingathim。Hepulledtheboattowardsher,magnetically,withoutthinkingofher。Inhisworld,hisconsciousworld,shewasstillnobody。HeknewthatHermionehadacuriouspleasureintreadingdownallthesocialdifferences,atleastapparently,andheleftittoher。
  `Howdoyoudo,Gudrun?'sangHermione,usingtheChristiannameinthefashionablemanner。`Whatareyoudoing?'
  `Howdoyoudo,Hermione?Iwassketching。'
  `Wereyou?'Theboatdriftednearer,tillthekeelgroundonthebank。
  `Maywesee?Ishouldliketosomuch。'
  ItwasnouseresistingHermione'sdeliberateintention。
  `Well——'saidGudrunreluctantly,forshealwayshatedtohaveherunfinishedworkexposed——`there'snothingintheleastinteresting。'
  `Isn'tthere?Butletmesee,willyou?'
  Gudrunreachedoutthesketch—book,Geraldstretchedfromtheboattotakeit。Andashedidso,herememberedGudrun'slastwordstohim,andherfacelifteduptohimashesatontheswervinghorse。Anintensificationofpridewentoverhisnerves,becausehefelt,insomewayshewascompelledbyhim。Theexchangeoffeelingbetweenthemwasstrongandapartfromtheirconsciousness。
  Andasifinaspell,Gudrunwasawareofhisbody,stretchingandsurginglikethemarsh—fire,stretchingtowardsher,hishandcomingstraightforwardlikeastem。Hervoluptuous,acuteapprehensionofhimmadethebloodfaintinherveins,hermindwentdimandunconscious。Andherockedonthewaterperfectly,liketherockingofphosphorescence。Helookedroundattheboat。Itwasdriftingoffalittle。Heliftedtheoartobringitback。
  Andtheexquisitepleasureofslowlyarrestingtheboat,intheheavy—softwater,wascompleteasaswoon。
  `That'swhatyouhavedone,'saidHermione,lookingsearchinglyattheplantsontheshore,andcomparingwithGudrun'sdrawing。GudrunlookedroundinthedirectionofHermione'slong,pointingfinger。`Thatisit,isn'tit?'repeatedHermione,needingconfirmation。
  `Yes,'saidGudrunautomatically,takingnorealheed。
  `Letmelook,'saidGerald,reachingforwardforthebook。ButHermioneignoredhim,hemustnotpresume,beforeshehadfinished。Buthe,hiswillasunthwartedandasunflinchingashers,stretchedforwardtillhetouchedthebook。Alittleshock,astormofrevulsionagainsthim,shookHermioneunconsciously。Shereleasedthebookwhenhehadnotproperlygotit,andittumbledagainstthesideoftheboatandbouncedintothewater。
  `There!'sangHermione,withastrangeringofmalevolentvictory。`I'msosorry,soawfullysorry。Can'tyougetit,Gerald?'
  ThislastwassaidinanoteofanxioussneeringthatmadeGerald'sveinstinglewithfinehateforher。Heleanedfaroutoftheboat,reachingdownintothewater。Hecouldfeelhispositionwasridiculous,hisloinsexposedbehindhim。
  `Itisofnoimportance,'camethestrong,clangingvoiceofGudrun。
  Sheseemedtotouchhim。Buthereachedfurther,theboatswayedviolently。
  Hermione,however,remainedunperturbed。Hegraspedthebook,underthewater,andbroughtitup,dripping。
  `I'msodreadfullysorry——dreadfullysorry,'repeatedHermione。`I'mafraiditwasallmyfault。'
  `It'sofnoimportance——really,Iassureyou——itdoesn'tmatterintheleast,'saidGudrunloudly,withemphasis,herfaceflushedscarlet。
  Andsheheldoutherhandimpatientlyforthewetbook,tohavedonewiththescene。Geraldgaveittoher。Hewasnotquitehimself。
  `I'msodreadfullysorry,'repeatedHermione,tillbothGeraldandGudrunwereexasperated。`Istherenothingthatcanbedone?'
  `Inwhatway?'askedGudrun,withcoolirony。
  `Can'twesavethedrawings?'
  Therewasamoment'spause,whereinGudrunmadeevidentallherrefutationofHermione'spersistence。
  `Iassureyou,'saidGudrun,withcuttingdistinctness,`thedrawingsarequiteasgoodasevertheywere,formypurpose。Iwantthemonlyforreference。'
  `Butcan'tIgiveyouanewbook?Iwishyou'dletmedothat。Ifeelsotrulysorry。Ifeelitwasallmyfault。'
  `AsfarasIsaw,'saidGudrun,`itwasn'tyourfaultatall。Iftherewasanyfault,itwasMrCrich's。Butthewholethingisentirelytrivial,anditreallyisridiculoustotakeanynoticeofit。'
  GeraldwatchedGudrunclosely,whilstsherepulsedHermione。Therewasabodyofcoldpowerinher。Hewatchedherwithaninsightthatamountedtoclairvoyance。Hesawheradangerous,hostilespirit,thatcouldstandundiminishedandunabated。Itwassofinished,andofsuchperfectgesture,moreover。
  `I'mawfullygladifitdoesn'tmatter,'hesaid;`ifthere'snorealharmdone。'
  Shelookedbackathim,withherfineblueeyes,andsignalledfullintohisspirit,asshesaid,hervoiceringingwithintimacyalmostcaressivenowitwasaddressedtohim:
  `Ofcourse,itdoesn'tmatterintheleast。'
  Thebondwasestablishedbetweenthem,inthatlook,inhertone。Inhertone,shemadetheunderstandingclear——theywereofthesamekind,heandshe,asortofdiabolicfreemasonrysubsistedbetweenthem。Henceforward,sheknew,shehadherpoweroverhim。Wherevertheymet,theywouldbesecretlyassociated。Andhewouldbehelplessintheassociationwithher。
  Hersoulexulted。
  `Good—bye!I'msogladyouforgiveme。Gooood—bye!'
  Hermionesangherfarewell,andwavedherhand。Geraldautomaticallytooktheoarandpushedoff。Buthewaslookingallthetime,withaglimmering,subtly—smilingadmirationinhiseyes,atGudrun,whostoodontheshoalshakingthewetbookinherhand。Sheturnedawayandignoredtherecedingboat。ButGeraldlookedbackasherowed,beholdingher,forgettingwhathewasdoing。
  `Aren'twegoingtoomuchtotheleft?'sangHermione,asshesatignoredunderhercolouredparasol。
  Geraldlookedroundwithoutreplying,theoarsbalancedandglancinginthesun。
  `Ithinkit'sallright,'hesaidgood—humouredly,beginningtorowagainwithoutthinkingofwhathewasdoing。AndHermionedislikedhimextremelyforhisgood—humouredobliviousness,shewasnullified,shecouldnotregainascendancy。
  WomenInLove:Chapter11CHAPTERXIAnIslandMEANWHILEUrsulahadwanderedonfromWilleyWateralongthecourseofthebrightlittlestream。Theafternoonwasfulloflarks'singing。Onthebrighthill—sideswasasubduedsmoulderofgorse。
  Afewforget—me—notsfloweredbythewater。Therewasarousednessandaglancingeverywhere。
  Shestrayedabsorbedlyon,overthebrooks。Shewantedtogotothemill—pondabove。Thebigmill—housewasdeserted,saveforalabourerandhiswifewholivedinthekitchen。Soshepassedthroughtheemptyfarm—yardandthroughthewildernessofagarden,andmountedthebankbythesluice。
  Whenshegottothetop,toseetheold,velvetysurfaceofthepondbeforeher,shenoticedamanonthebank,tinkeringwithapunt。ItwasBirkinsawingandhammeringaway。
  Shestoodattheheadofthesluice,lookingathim。Hewasunawareofanybody'spresence。Helookedverybusy,likeawildanimal,activeandintent。Shefeltsheoughttogoaway,hewouldnotwanther。Heseemedtobesomuchoccupied。Butshedidnotwanttogoaway。Thereforeshemovedalongthebanktillhewouldlookup。
  Whichhesoondid。Themomenthesawher,hedroppedhistoolsandcameforward,saying:
  `Howdoyoudo?I'mmakingthepuntwater—tight。Tellmeifyouthinkitisright。'
  Shewentalongwithhim。
  `Youareyourfather'sdaughter,soyoucantellmeifitwilldo,'
  hesaid。
  Shebenttolookatthepatchedpunt。
  `IamsureIammyfather'sdaughter,'shesaid,fearfulofhavingtojudge。`ButIdon'tknowanythingaboutcarpentry。Itlooksright,don'tyouthink?'
  `Yes,Ithink。Ihopeitwon'tletmetothebottom,that'sall。Thoughevenso,itisn'tagreatmatter,Ishouldcomeupagain。Helpmetogetitintothewater,willyou?'
  Withcombinedeffortstheyturnedovertheheavypuntandsetitafloat。
  `Now,'hesaid,`I'lltryitandyoucanwatchwhathappens。Thenifitcarries,I'lltakeyouovertotheisland。'
  `Do,'shecried,watchinganxiously。
  Thepondwaslarge,andhadthatperfectstillnessandthedarklustreofverydeepwater。Thereweretwosmallislandsovergrownwithbushesandafewtrees,towardsthemiddle。Birkinpushedhimselfoff,andveeredclumsilyinthepond。Luckilythepuntdriftedsothathecouldcatchholdofawillowbough,andpullittotheisland。
  `Ratherovergrown,'hesaid,lookingintotheinterior,`butverynice。
  I'llcomeandfetchyou。Theboatleaksalittle。'
  Inamomenthewaswithheragain,andshesteppedintothewetpunt。
  `It'llfloatusallright,'hesaid,andmanoeuvredagaintotheisland。
  Theylandedunderawillowtree。Sheshrankfromthelittlejungleofrankplantsbeforeher,evil—smellingfigwortandhemlock。Butheexploredintoit。
  `Ishallmowthisdown,'hesaid,`andthenitwillberomantic——likePauletVirginie。'
  `Yes,onecouldhavelovelyWatteaupicnicshere,'criedUrsulawithenthusiasm。
  Hisfacedarkened。
  `Idon'twantWatteaupicnicshere,'hesaid。
  `OnlyyourVirginie,'shelaughed。
  `Virginieenough,'hesmiledwryly。`No,Idon'twanthereither。'
  Ursulalookedathimclosely。ShehadnotseenhimsinceBreadalby。
  Hewasverythinandhollow,withaghastlylookinhisface。
  `Youhavebeenill;haven'tyou?'sheasked,ratherrepulsed。
  `Yes,'herepliedcoldly。
  Theyhadsatdownunderthewillowtree,andwerelookingatthepond,fromtheirretreatontheisland。
  `Hasitmadeyoufrightened?'sheasked。
  `Whatof?'heasked,turninghiseyestolookather。Somethinginhim,inhumanandunmitigated,disturbedher,andshookheroutofherordinaryself。
  `Itisfrighteningtobeveryill,isn'tit?'shesaid。
  `Itisn'tpleasant,'hesaid。`Whetheroneisreallyafraidofdeath,ornot,Ihaveneverdecided。Inonemood,notabit,inanother,verymuch。'
  `Butdoesn'titmakeyoufeelashamed?Ithinkitmakesonesoashamed,tobeill——illnessissoterriblyhumiliating,don'tyouthink?'
  Heconsideredforsomeminutes。
  `May—be,'hesaid。`Thoughoneknowsallthetimeone'slifeisn'treallyright,atthesource。That'sthehumiliation。Idon'tseethattheillnesscountssomuch,afterthat。Oneisillbecauseonedoesn'tliveproperly——can't。It'sthefailuretolivethatmakesoneill,andhumiliatesone。'
  `Butdoyoufailtolive?'sheasked,almostjeering。
  `Whyyes——Idon'tmakemuchofasuccessofmydays。Oneseemsalwaystobebumpingone'snoseagainsttheblankwallahead。'
  Ursulalaughed。Shewasfrightened,andwhenshewasfrightenedshealwayslaughedandpretendedtobejaunty。
  `Yourpoornose!'shesaid,lookingatthatfeatureofhisface。
  `Nowonderit'sugly,'hereplied。
  Shewassilentforsomeminutes,strugglingwithherownself—deception。
  Itwasaninstinctinher,todeceiveherself。
  `ButI'mhappy——Ithinklifeisawfullyjolly,'shesaid。
  `Good,'heanswered,withacertaincoldindifference。
  Shereachedforabitofpaperwhichhadwrappedasmallpieceofchocolateshehadfoundinherpocket,andbeganmakingaboat。Hewatchedherwithoutheedingher。Therewassomethingstrangelypatheticandtenderinhermoving,unconsciousfinger—tips,thatwereagitatedandhurt,really。
  `Idoenjoythings——don'tyou?'sheasked。
  `Ohyes!ButitinfuriatesmethatIcan'tgetright,atthereallygrowingpartofme。Ifeelalltangledandmessedup,andIcan'tgetstraightanyhow。Idon'tknowwhatreallytodo。Onemustdosomethingsomewhere。'
  `Whyshouldyoualwaysbedoing?'sheretorted。`Itissoplebeian。
  Ithinkitismuchbettertobereallypatrician,andtodonothingbutjustbeoneself,likeawalkingflower。'
  `Iquiteagree,'hesaid,`ifonehasburstintoblossom。ButIcan'tgetmyflowertoblossomanyhow。Eitheritisblightedinthebud,orhasgotthesmother—fly,oritisn'tnourished。Curseit,itisn'tevenabud。
  Itisacontravenedknot。'
  Againshelaughed。Hewassoveryfretfulandexasperated。Butshewasanxiousandpuzzled。Howwasonetogetout,anyhow。Theremustbeawayoutsomewhere。
  Therewasasilence,whereinshewantedtocry。Shereachedforanotherbitofchocolatepaper,andbegantofoldanotherboat。
  `Andwhyisit,'sheaskedatlength,`thatthereisnoflowering,nodignityofhumanlifenow?'
  `Thewholeideaisdead。Humanityitselfisdry—rotten,really。Therearemyriadsofhumanbeingshangingonthebush——andtheylookveryniceandrosy,yourhealthyyoungmenandwomen。ButtheyareapplesofSodom,asamatteroffact,DeadSeaFruit,gall—apples。Itisn'ttruethattheyhaveanysignificance——theirinsidesarefullofbitter,corruptash。'
  `Buttherearegoodpeople,'protestedUrsula。
  `Goodenoughforthelifeoftoday。Butmankindisadeadtree,coveredwithfinebrilliantgallsofpeople。'
  Ursulacouldnothelpstiffeningherselfagainstthis,itwastoopicturesqueandfinal。Butneithercouldshehelpmakinghimgoon。
  `Andifitisso,whyisit?'sheasked,hostile。Theywererousingeachothertoafinepassionofopposition。
  `Why,whyarepeopleallballsofbitterdust?Becausetheywon'tfalloffthetreewhenthey'reripe。Theyhangontotheiroldpositionswhenthepositionisover—past,tilltheybecomeinfestedwithlittlewormsanddry—rot。'
  Therewasalongpause。Hisvoicehadbecomehotandverysarcastic。
  Ursulawastroubledandbewildered,theywerebothobliviousofeverythingbuttheirownimmersion。
  `Butevenifeverybodyiswrong——whereareyouright?'shecried,`whereareyouanybetter?'
  `I?——I'mnotright,'hecriedback。`AtleastmyonlyrightnessliesinthefactthatIknowit。IdetestwhatIam,outwardly。Iloathemyselfasahumanbeing。Humanityisahugeaggregatelie,andahugelieislessthanasmalltruth。Humanityisless,farlessthantheindividual,becausetheindividualmaysometimesbecapableoftruth,andhumanityisatreeoflies。Andtheysaythatloveisthegreatestthing;theypersistinsayingthis,thefoulliars,andjustlookatwhattheydo!Lookatallthemillionsofpeoplewhorepeateveryminutethatloveisthegreatest,andcharityisthegreatest——andseewhattheyaredoingallthetime。Bytheirworksyeshallknowthem,fordirtyliarsandcowards,whodaren'tstandbytheirownactions,muchlessbytheirownwords。'
  `But,'saidUrsulasadly,`thatdoesn'talterthefactthatloveisthegreatest,doesit?Whattheydodoesn'talterthetruthofwhattheysay,doesit?'
  `Completely,becauseifwhattheysayweretrue,thentheycouldn'thelpfulfillingit。Buttheymaintainalie,andsotheyrunamokatlast。
  It'salietosaythatloveisthegreatest。Youmightaswellsaythathateisthegreatest,sincetheoppositeofeverythingbalances。Whatpeoplewantishate——hateandnothingbuthate。Andinthenameofrighteousnessandlove,theygetit。Theydistilthemselveswithnitroglycerine,allthelotofthem,outofverylove。It'stheliethatkills。Ifwewanthate,letushaveit——death,murder,torture,violentdestruction——
  letushaveit:butnotinthenameoflove。ButIabhorhumanity,Iwishitwassweptaway。Itcouldgo,andtherewouldbenoabsoluteloss,ifeveryhumanbeingperishedtomorrow。Therealitywouldbeuntouched。
  Nay,itwouldbebetter。Therealtreeoflifewouldthenberidofthemostghastly,heavycropofDeadSeaFruit,theintolerableburdenofmyriadsimulacraofpeople,aninfiniteweightofmortallies。'
  `Soyou'dlikeeverybodyintheworlddestroyed?'saidUrsula。
  `Ishouldindeed。'
  `Andtheworldemptyofpeople?'
  `Yestruly。Youyourself,don'tyoufinditabeautifulcleanthought,aworldemptyofpeople,justuninterruptedgrass,andaharesittingup?'
  ThepleasantsincerityofhisvoicemadeUrsulapausetoconsiderherownproposition。Andreallyitwasattractive:aclean,lovely,humanlessworld。Itwasthereallydesirable。Herhearthesitated,andexulted。Butstill,shewasdissatisfiedwithhim。
  `But,'sheobjected,`you'dbedeadyourself,sowhatgoodwoulditdoyou?'
  `Iwoulddielikeashot,toknowthattheearthwouldreallybecleanedofallthepeople。Itisthemostbeautifulandfreeingthought。Thentherewouldneverbeanotherfoulhumanitycreated,forauniversaldefilement。'
  `No,'saidUrsula,`therewouldbenothing。'
  `What!Nothing?Justbecausehumanitywaswipedout?Youflatteryourself。
  There'dbeeverything。'
  `Buthow,iftherewerenopeople?'
  `Doyouthinkthatcreationdependsonman!Itmerelydoesn't。
  Therearethetreesandthegrassandbirds。Imuchprefertothinkofthelarkrisingupinthemorninguponahuman—lessworld。Manisamistake,hemustgo。Thereisthegrass,andharesandadders,andtheunseenhosts,actualangelsthatgoaboutfreelywhenadirtyhumanitydoesn'tinterruptthem——andgoodpure—tissueddemons:verynice。'
  ItpleasedUrsula,whathesaid,pleasedherverymuch,asaphantasy。
  Ofcourseitwasonlyapleasantfancy。Sheherselfknewtoowelltheactualityofhumanity,itshideousactuality。Sheknewitcouldnotdisappearsocleanlyandconveniently。Ithadalongwaytogoyet,alongandhideousway。Hersubtle,feminine,demoniacalsoulknewitwell。
  `Ifonlymanwassweptoffthefaceoftheearth,creationwouldgoonsomarvellously,withanewstart,non—human。Manisoneofthemistakesofcreation——liketheichthyosauri。Ifonlyheweregoneagain,thinkwhatlovelythingswouldcomeoutoftheliberateddays;——thingsstraightoutofthefire。'
  `Butmanwillneverbegone,'shesaid,withinsidious,diabolicalknowledgeofthehorrorsofpersistence。`Theworldwillgowithhim。'
  `Ahno,'heanswered,`notso。Ibelieveintheproudangelsandthedemonsthatareourfore—runners。Theywilldestroyus,becausewearenotproudenough。Theichthyosauriwerenotproud:theycrawledandflounderedaswedo。Andbesides,lookatelder—flowersandbluebells——theyareasignthatpurecreationtakesplace——eventhebutterfly。Buthumanitynevergetsbeyondthecaterpillarstage——itrotsinthechrysalis,itneverwillhavewings。Itisanti—creation,likemonkeysandbaboons。'
  Ursulawatchedhimashetalked。Thereseemedacertainimpatientfuryinhim,allthewhile,andatthesametimeagreatamusementineverything,andafinaltolerance。Anditwasthistoleranceshemistrusted,notthefury。Shesawthat,allthewhile,inspiteofhimself,hewouldhavetobetryingtosavetheworld。Andthisknowledge,whilstitcomfortedherheartsomewherewithalittleself—satisfaction,stability,yetfilledherwithacertainsharpcontemptandhateofhim。Shewantedhimtoherself,shehatedtheSalvatorMunditouch。Itwassomethingdiffuseandgeneralisedabouthim,whichshecouldnotstand。Hewouldbehaveinthesameway,saythesamethings,givehimselfascompletelytoanybodywhocamealong,anybodyandeverybodywholikedtoappealtohim。Itwasdespicable,averyinsidiousformofprostitution。
  `But,'shesaid,`youbelieveinindividuallove,evenifyoudon'tbelieveinlovinghumanity——?'
  `Idon'tbelieveinloveatall——thatis,anymorethanIbelieveinhate,oringrief。Loveisoneoftheemotionslikealltheothers——
  andsoitisallrightwhilstyoufeelitButIcan'tseehowitbecomesanabsolute。Itisjustpartofhumanrelationships,nomore。Anditisonlypartofanyhumanrelationship。Andwhyoneshouldberequiredalwaystofeelit,anymorethanonealwaysfeelssorrowordistantjoy,Icannotconceive。Loveisn'tadesideratum——itisanemotionyoufeeloryoudon'tfeel,accordingtocircumstance。'
  `Thenwhydoyoucareaboutpeopleatall?'sheasked,`ifyoudon'tbelieveinlove?Whydoyoubotherabouthumanity?'
  `WhydoI?BecauseIcan'tgetawayfromit。'
  `Becauseyouloveit,'shepersisted。
  Itirritatedhim。
  `IfIdoloveit,'hesaid,`itismydisease。'
  `Butitisadiseaseyoudon'twanttobecuredof,'shesaid,withsomecoldsneering。
  Hewassilentnow,feelingshewantedtoinsulthim。
  `Andifyoudon'tbelieveinlove,whatdoyoubelievein?'sheaskedmocking。`Simplyintheendoftheworld,andgrass?'
  Hewasbeginningtofeelafool。
  `Ibelieveintheunseenhosts,'hesaid。
  `Andnothingelse?Youbelieveinnothingvisible,exceptgrassandbirds?Yourworldisapoorshow。'
  `Perhapsitis,'hesaid,coolandsuperiornowhewasoffended,assumingacertaininsufferablealoofsuperiority,andwithdrawingintohisdistance。
  Ursuladislikedhim。Butalsoshefeltshehadlostsomething。Shelookedathimashesatcrouchedonthebank。TherewasacertainpriggishSunday—schoolstiffnessoverhim,priggishanddetestable。Andyet,atthesametime,themouldingofhimwassoquickandattractive,itgavesuchagreatsenseoffreedom:themouldingofhisbrows,hischin,hiswholephysique,somethingsoalive,somewhere,inspiteofthelookofsickness。
  Anditwasthisdualityinfeelingwhichhecreatedinher,thatmadeafinehateofhimquickeninherbowels。Therewashiswonderful,desirablelife—rapidity,therarequalityofanutterlydesirableman:andtherewasatthesametimethisridiculous,meaneffacementintoaSalvatorMundiandaSunday—schoolteacher,aprigofthestiffesttype。
  Helookedupather。Hesawherfacestrangelyenkindled,asifsuffusedfromwithinbyapowerfulsweetfire。Hissoulwasarrestedinwonder。
  Shewasenkindledinherownlivingfire。Arrestedinwonderandinpure,perfectattraction,hemovedtowardsher。Shesatlikeastrangequeen,almostsupernaturalinherglowingsmilingrichness。
  `Thepointaboutlove,'hesaid,hisconsciousnessquicklyadjustingitself,`isthatwehatethewordbecausewehavevulgarisedit。Itoughttobeprescribed,tabooedfromutterance,formanyyears,tillwegetanew,betteridea。'
  Therewasabeamofunderstandingbetweenthem。
  `Butitalwaysmeansthesamething,'shesaid。
  `AhGod,no,letitnotmeanthatanymore,'hecried。`Lettheoldmeaningsgo。'
  `Butstillitislove,'shepersisted。Astrange,wickedyellowlightshoneathiminhereyes。
  Hehesitated,baffled,withdrawing。
  `No,'hesaid,`itisn't。Spokenlikethat,neverintheworld。You'venobusinesstouttertheword。'
  `Imustleaveittoyou,totakeitoutoftheArkoftheCovenantattherightmoment,'shemocked。
  Againtheylookedateachother。Shesuddenlysprangup,turnedherbacktohim,andwalkedaway。Hetooroseslowlyandwenttothewater'sedge,where,crouching,hebegantoamusehimselfunconsciously。Pickingadaisyhedroppeditonthepond,sothatthestemwasakeel,theflowerfloatedlikealittlewaterlily,staringwithitsopenfaceuptothesky。Itturnedslowlyround,inaslow,slowDervishdance,asitveeredaway。
  Hewatchedit,thendroppedanotherdaisyintothewater,andafterthatanother,andsatwatchingthemwithbright,absolvedeyes,crouchingnearonthebank。Ursulaturnedtolook。Astrangefeelingpossessedher,asifsomethingweretakingplace。Butitwasallintangible。Andsomesortofcontrolwasbeingputonher。Shecouldnotknow。Shecouldonlywatchthebrilliantlittlediscsofthedaisiesveeringslowlyintravelonthedark,lustrouswater。Thelittleflotillawasdriftingintothelight,acompanyofwhitespecksinthedistance。
  `Doletusgototheshore,tofollowthem,'shesaid,afraidofbeinganylongerimprisonedontheisland。Andtheypushedoffinthepunt。
  Shewasgladtobeonthefreelandagain。Shewentalongthebanktowardsthesluice。Thedaisieswerescatteredbroadcastonthepond,tinyradiantthings,likeanexaltation,pointsofexaltationhereandthere。Whydidtheymovehersostronglyandmystically?
  `Look,'hesaid,`yourboatofpurplepaperisescortingthem,andtheyareaconvoyofrafts。'
  Someofthedaisiescameslowlytowardsher,hesitating,makingashybrightlittlecotilliononthedarkclearwater。Theirgaybrightcandourmovedhersomuchastheycamenear,thatshewasalmostintears。
  `Whyaretheysolovely,'shecried。`WhydoIthinkthemsolovely?'
  `Theyareniceflowers,'hesaid,heremotionaltonesputtingaconstraintonhim。
  `Youknowthatadaisyisacompanyofflorets,aconcourse,becomeindividual。Don'tthebotanistsputithighestinthelineofdevelopment?
  Ibelievetheydo。'
  `Thecompositae,yes,Ithinkso,'saidUrsula,whowasneververysureofanything。Thingssheknewperfectlywell,atonemoment,seemedtobecomedoubtfulthenext。
  `Explainitso,then,'hesaid。`Thedaisyisaperfectlittledemocracy,soit'sthehighestofflowers,henceitscharm。'
  `No,'shecried,`no——never。Itisn'tdemocratic。'
  `No,'headmitted。`It'sthegoldenmoboftheproletariat,surroundedbyashowywhitefenceoftheidlerich。'
  `Howhateful——yourhatefulsocialorders!'shecried。
  `Quite!It'sadaisy——we'llleaveitalone。'
  `Do。Letitbeadarkhorseforonce,'shesaid:`ifanythingcanbeadarkhorsetoyou,'sheaddedsatirically。
  Theystoodaside,forgetful。Asifalittlestunned,theybothweremotionless,barelyconscious。Thelittleconflictintowhichtheyhadfallenhadtorntheirconsciousnessandleftthemliketwoimpersonalforces,thereincontact。
  Hebecameawareofthelapse。Hewantedtosaysomething,togetontoanewmoreordinaryfooting。
  `Youknow,'hesaid,`thatIamhavingroomshereatthemill?Don'tyouthinkwecanhavesomegoodtimes?'
  `Ohareyou?'shesaid,ignoringallhisimplicationofadmittedintimacy。