`Youmustaskforchampagne,'camethewhispering,gentlemanlyvoiceoftheother。
Geraldsuddenlyrealisedthatthiswasahinttohim。
`Shallwehavechampagne?'heasked,laughing。
`Yesplease,dwy,'shelispedchildishly。
Geraldwatchedhereatingtheoysters。Shewasdelicateandfinickinginhereating,herfingerswerefineandseemedverysensitiveinthetips,sosheputherfoodapartwithfine,smallmotions,sheatecarefully,delicately。Itpleasedhimverymuchtoseeher,anditirritatedBirkin。
Theywerealldrinkingchampagne。Maxim,theprimyoungRussianwiththesmooth,warm—colouredfaceandblack,oiledhairwastheonlyonewhoseemedtobeperfectlycalmandsober。Birkinwaswhiteandabstract,unnatural,Geraldwassmilingwithaconstantbright,amused,coldlightinhiseyes,leaningalittleprotectivelytowardsthePussum,whowasveryhandsome,andsoft,unfoldedlikesomeredlotusindreadfulfloweringnakedness,vaingloriousnow,flushedwithwineandwiththeexcitementofmen。Hallidaylookedfoolish。Oneglassofwinewasenoughtomakehimdrunkandgiggling。
Yettherewasalwaysapleasant,warmnaiveteabouthim,thatmadehimattractive。
`I'mnotafwaidofanythingexceptblack—beetles,'saidthePussum,lookingupsuddenlyandstaringwithherblackeyes,onwhichthereseemedanunseeingfilmofflame,fullyuponGerald。Helaugheddangerously,fromtheblood。Herchildishspeechcaressedhisnerves,andherburning,filmedeyes,turnednowfulluponhim,obliviousofallherantecedents,gavehimasortoflicence。
`I'mnot,'sheprotested。`I'mnotafraidofotherthings。Butblack—beetles——ugh!'sheshudderedconvulsively,asiftheverythoughtweretoomuchtobear。
`Doyoumean,'saidGerald,withthepunctiliousnessofamanwhohasbeendrinking,`thatyouareafraidofthesightofablack—beetle,oryouareafraidofablack—beetlebitingyou,ordoingyousomeharm?'
`Dotheybite?'criedthegirl。
`Howperfectlyloathsome!'exclaimedHalliday。
`Idon'tknow,'repliedGerald,lookingroundthetable。`Doblack—beetlesbite?Butthatisn'tthepoint。Areyouafraidoftheirbiting,orisitametaphysicalantipathy?'
Thegirlwaslookingfulluponhimallthetimewithinchoateeyes。
`Oh,Ithinkthey'rebeastly,they'rehorrid,'shecried。`IfIseeone,itgivesmethecreepsallover。Ifoneweretocrawlonme,I'msureIshoulddie——I'msureIshould。'
`Ihopenot,'whisperedtheyoungRussian。
`I'msureIshould,Maxim,'sheasseverated。
`Thenonewon'tcrawlonyou,'saidGerald,smilingandknowing。Insomestrangewayheunderstoodher。
`It'smetaphysical,asGeraldsays,'Birkinstated。
Therewasalittlepauseofuneasiness。
`Andareyouafraidofnothingelse,Pussum?'askedtheyoungRussian,inhisquick,hushed,elegantmanner。
`Notweally,'shesaid。`Iamafwaidofsomethings,butnotweallythesame。I'mnotafwaidofblood。'
`Notafwaidofblood!'exclaimedayoungmanwithathick,pale,jeeringface,whohadjustcometothetableandwasdrinkingwhisky。
ThePussumturnedonhimasulkylookofdislike,lowandugly。
`Aren'tyoureallyafraidofblud?'theotherpersisted,asneeralloverhisface。
`No,I'mnot,'sheretorted。
`Why,haveyoueverseenblood,exceptinadentist'sspittoon?'jeeredtheyoungman。
`Iwasn'tspeakingtoyou,'sherepliedrathersuperbly。
`Youcananswerme,can'tyou?'hesaid。
Forreply,shesuddenlyjabbedaknifeacrosshisthick,palehand。
Hestartedupwithavulgarcurse。
`Show'swhatyouare,'saidthePussumincontempt。
`Curseyou,'saidtheyoungman,standingbythetableandlookingdownatherwithacridmalevolence。
`Stopthat,'saidGerald,inquick,instinctivecommand。
Theyoungmanstoodlookingdownatherwithsardoniccontempt,acowed,self—consciouslookonhisthick,paleface。Thebloodbegantoflowfromhishand。
`Oh,howhorrible,takeitaway!'squealedHalliday,turninggreenandavertinghisface。
`D'youfeelill?'askedthesardonicyoungman,insomeconcern。`Doyoufeelill,Julius?Garn,it'snothing,man,don'tgiveherthepleasureoflettingherthinkshe'sperformedafeat——don'tgiveherthesatisfaction,man——it'sjustwhatshewants。'
`Oh!'squealedHalliday。
`He'sgoingtocat,Maxim,'saidthePussumwarningly。ThesuaveyoungRussianroseandtookHallidaybythearm,leadinghimaway。Birkin,whiteanddiminished,lookedonasifheweredispleased。Thewounded,sardonicyoungmanmovedaway,ignoringhisbleedinghandinthemostconspicuousfashion。
`He'sanawfulcoward,really,'saidthePussumtoGerald。`He'sgotsuchaninfluenceoverJulius。'
`Whoishe?'askedGerald。
`He'saJew,really。Ican'tbearhim。'
`Well,he'squiteunimportant。Butwhat'swrongwithHalliday?'
`Julius'sthemostawfulcowardyou'veeverseen,'shecried。`HealwaysfaintsifIliftaknife——he'stewwifiedofme。'
`H'm!'saidGerald。
`They'reallafwaidofme,'shesaid。`OnlytheJewthinkshe'sgoingtoshowhiscourage。Buthe'sthebiggestcowardofthemall,really,becausehe'safwaidwhatpeoplewillthinkabouthim——andJuliusdoesn'tcareaboutthat。'
`They'vealotofvalourbetweenthem,'saidGeraldgood—humouredly。
ThePussumlookedathimwithaslow,slowsmile。Shewasveryhandsome,flushed,andconfidentindreadfulknowledge。TwolittlepointsoflightglintedonGerald'seyes。
`WhydotheycallyouPussum,becauseyou'relikeacat?'heaskedher。
`Iexpectso,'shesaid。
Thesmilegrewmoreintenseonhisface。
`Youare,rather;orayoung,femalepanther。'
`OhGod,Gerald!'saidBirkin,insomedisgust。
TheybothlookeduneasilyatBirkin。
`You'resilenttonight,Wupert,'shesaidtohim,withaslightinsolence,beingsafewiththeotherman。
Hallidaywascomingback,lookingforlornandsick。
`Pussum,'hesaid,`Iwishyouwouldn'tdothesethings——Oh!'Hesankinhischairwithagroan。
`You'dbettergohome,'shesaidtohim。
`Iwillgohome,'hesaid。`Butwon'tyouallcomealong。Won'tyoucomeroundtotheflat?'hesaidtoGerald。`Ishouldbesogladifyouwould。Do——that'llbesplendid。Isay?'Helookedroundforawaiter。
`Getmeataxi。'Thenhegroanedagain。`OhIdofeel——perfectlyghastly!
Pussum,youseewhatyoudotome。'
`Thenwhyareyousuchanidiot?'shesaidwithsullencalm。
`ButI'mnotanidiot!Oh,howawful!Docome,everybody,itwillbesosplendid。Pussum,youarecoming。What?Ohbutyoumustcome,yes,youmust。What?Oh,mydeargirl,don'tmakeafussnow,Ifeelperfectly——Oh,it'ssoghastly——Ho!——er!Oh!'
`Youknowyoucan'tdrink,'shesaidtohim,coldly。
`Itellyouitisn'tdrink——it'syourdisgustingbehaviour,Pussum,it'snothingelse。Oh,howawful!Libidnikov,doletusgo。'
`He'sonlydrunkoneglass——onlyoneglass,'cametherapid,hushedvoiceoftheyoungRussian。
Theyallmovedofftothedoor。ThegirlkeptneartoGerald,andseemedtobeatoneinhermotionwithhim。Hewasawareofthis,andfilledwithdemon—satisfactionthathismotionheldgoodfortwo。Heheldherinthehollowofhiswill,andshewassoft,secret,invisibleinherstirringthere。
Theycrowdedfiveofthemintothetaxi—cab。Hallidaylurchedinfirst,anddroppedintohisseatagainsttheotherwindow。ThenthePussumtookherplace,andGeraldsatnexttoher。TheyheardtheyoungRussiangivingorderstothedriver,thentheywereallseatedinthedark,crowdedclosetogether,Hallidaygroaningandleaningoutofthewindow。Theyfelttheswift,muffledmotionofthecar。
ThePussumsatneartoGerald,andsheseemedtobecomesoft,subtlytoinfuseherselfintohisbones,asifshewerepassingintohiminablack,electricflow。Herbeingsuffusedintohisveinslikeamagneticdarkness,andconcentratedatthebaseofhisspinelikeafearfulsourceofpower。Meanwhilehervoicesoundedoutreedyandnonchalant,asshetalkedindifferentlywithBirkinandwithMaxim。BetweenherandGeraldwasthissilenceandthisblack,electriccomprehensioninthedarkness。
Thenshefoundhishand,andgraspeditinherownfirm,smallclasp。Itwassoutterlydark,andyetsuchanakedstatement,thatrapidvibrationsranthroughhisbloodandoverhisbrain,hewasnolongerresponsible。
Stillhervoicerangonlikeabell,tingedwithatoneofmockery。Andassheswungherhead,herfinemaneofhairjustswepthisface,andallhisnerveswereonfire,aswithasubtlefrictionofelectricity。Butthegreatcentreofhisforceheldsteady,amagnificentpridetohim,atthebaseofhisspine。
Theyarrivedatalargeblockofbuildings,wentupinalift,andpresentlyadoorwasbeingopenedforthembyaHindu。Geraldlookedinsurprise,wonderingifhewereagentleman,oneoftheHindusdownfromOxford,perhaps。
Butno,hewastheman—servant。
`Maketea,Hasan,'saidHalliday。
`Thereisaroomforme?'saidBirkin。
Tobothofwhichquestionsthemangrinned,andmurmured。
HemadeGeralduncertain,because,beingtallandslenderandreticent,helookedlikeagentleman。
`Whoisyourservant?'heaskedofHalliday。`Helooksaswell。'
`Ohyes——that'sbecausehe'sdressedinanotherman'sclothes。He'sanythingbutaswell,really。Wefoundhimintheroad,starving。SoI
tookhimhere,andanothermangavehimclothes。He'sanythingbutwhatheseemstobe——hisonlyadvantageisthathecan'tspeakEnglishandcan'tunderstandit,sohe'sperfectlysafe。'
`He'sverydirty,'saidtheyoungRussianswiftlyandsilently。
Directly,themanappearedinthedoorway。
`Whatisit?'saidHalliday。
TheHindugrinned,andmurmuredshyly:
`Wanttospeaktomaster。'
Geraldwatchedcuriously。Thefellowinthedoorwaywasgoodlookingandclean—limbed,hisbearingwascalm,helookedelegant,aristocratic。
Yethewashalfasavage,grinningfoolishly。Hallidaywentoutintothecorridortospeakwithhim。
`What?'theyheardhisvoice。`What?Whatdoyousay?Tellmeagain。
What?Wantmoney?Wantmoremoney?Butwhatdoyouwantmoneyfor?'
TherewastheconfusedsoundoftheHindu'stalking,thenHallidayappearedintheroom,smilingalsofoolishly,andsaying:
`Hesayshewantsmoneytobuyunderclothing。Cananybodylendmeashilling?Ohthanks,ashillingwilldotobuyalltheunderclotheshewants。'HetookthemoneyfromGeraldandwentoutintothepassageagain,wheretheyheardhimsaying,`Youcan'twantmoremoney,youhadthreeandsixyesterday。Youmustn'taskforanymore。Bringtheteainquickly。'
Geraldlookedroundtheroom。ItwasanordinaryLondonsitting—roominaflat,evidentlytakenfurnished,rathercommonandugly。Buttherewereseveralnegrostatues,wood—carvingsfromWestAfrica,strangeanddisturbing,thecarvednegroeslookedalmostlikethefoetusofahumanbeing。Onewasawomansittingnakedinastrangeposture,andlookingtortured,herabdomenstuckout。TheyoungRussianexplainedthatshewassittinginchild—birth,clutchingtheendsofthebandthathungfromherneck,oneineachhand,sothatshecouldbeardown,andhelplabour。Thestrange,transfixed,rudimentaryfaceofthewomanagainremindedGeraldofafoetus,itwasalsoratherwonderful,conveyingthesuggestionoftheextremeofphysicalsensation,beyondthelimitsofmentalconsciousness。
`Aren'ttheyratherobscene?'heasked,disapproving。
`Idon'tknow,'murmuredtheotherrapidly。`Ihaveneverdefinedtheobscene。Ithinktheyareverygood。'
Geraldturnedaway。Therewereoneortwonewpicturesintheroom,intheFuturistmanner;therewasalargepiano。Andthese,withsomeordinaryLondonlodging—housefurnitureofthebettersort,completedthewhole。
ThePussumhadtakenoffherhatandcoat,andwasseatedonthesofa。
Shewasevidentlyquiteathomeinthehouse,butuncertain,suspended。
Shedidnotquiteknowherposition。HerallianceforthetimebeingwaswithGerald,andshedidnotknowhowfarthiswasadmittedbyanyofthemen。Shewasconsideringhowsheshouldcarryoffthesituation。Shewasdeterminedtohaveherexperience。Now,atthiseleventhhour,shewasnottobebaulked。Herfacewasflushedaswithbattle,hereyewasbroodingbutinevitable。
ThemancameinwithteaandabottleofKummel。Hesetthetrayonalittletablebeforethecouch。
`Pussum,'saidHalliday,`pouroutthetea。'
Shedidnotmove。
`Won'tyoudoit?'Hallidayrepeated,inastateofnervousapprehension。
`I'venotcomebackhereasitwasbefore,'shesaid。`Ionlycamebecausetheotherswantedmeto,notforyoursake。'
`MydearPussum,youknowyouareyourownmistress。Idon'twantyoutodoanythingbutusetheflatforyourownconvenience——youknowit,I'vetoldyousomanytimes。'
Shedidnotreply,butsilently,reservedlyreachedforthetea—pot。
Theyallsatroundanddranktea。Geraldcouldfeeltheelectricconnectionbetweenhimandhersostrongly,asshesattherequietandwithheld,thatanothersetofconditionsaltogetherhadcometopass。Hersilenceandherimmutabilityperplexedhim。Howwashegoingtocometoher?
Andyethefeltitquiteinevitable。Hetrustedcompletelytothecurrentthatheldthem。Hisperplexitywasonlysuperficial,newconditionsreigned,theoldweresurpassed;hereonedidasonewaspossessedtodo,nomatterwhatitwas。
Birkinrose。Itwasnearlyoneo'clock。
`I'mgoingtobed,'hesaid。`Gerald,I'llringyouupinthemorningatyourplaceoryouringmeuphere。'
`Right,'saidGerald,andBirkinwentout。
Whenhewaswellgone,Hallidaysaidinastimulatedvoice,toGerald:
`Isay,won'tyoustayhere——ohdo!'
`Youcan'tputeverybodyup,'saidGerald。
`OhbutIcan,perfectly——therearethreemorebedsbesidesmine——
dostay,won'tyou。Everythingisquiteready——thereisalwayssomebodyhere——Ialwaysputpeopleup——Ilovehavingthehousecrowded。'
`Butthereareonlytworooms,'saidthePussum,inacold,hostilevoice,`nowRupert'shere。'
`Iknowthereareonlytworooms,'saidHalliday,inhisodd,highwayofspeaking。`Butwhatdoesthatmatter?'
Hewassmilingratherfoolishly,andhespokeeagerly,withaninsinuatingdetermination。
`JuliusandIwillshareoneroom,'saidtheRussianinhisdiscreet,precisevoice。HallidayandhewerefriendssinceEton。
`It'sverysimple,'saidGerald,risingandpressingbackhisarms,stretchinghimself。Thenhewentagaintolookatoneofthepictures。
Everyoneofhislimbswasturgidwithelectricforce,andhisbackwastenselikeatiger's,withslumberingfire。Hewasveryproud。
ThePussumrose。ShegaveablacklookatHalliday,blackanddeadly,whichbroughttheratherfoolishlypleasedsmiletothatyoungman'sface。
Thenshewentoutoftheroom,withacoldgood—nighttothemallgenerally。
Therewasabriefinterval,theyheardadoorclose,thenMaximsaid,inhisrefinedvoice:
`That'sallright。'
HelookedsignificantlyatGerald,andsaidagain,withasilentnod:
`That'sallright——you'reallright。'
Geraldlookedatthesmooth,ruddy,comelyface,andatthestrange,significanteyes,anditseemedasifthevoiceoftheyoungRussian,sosmallandperfect,soundedinthebloodratherthanintheair。
`I'mallrightthen,'saidGerald。
`Yes!Yes!You'reallright,'saidtheRussian。
Hallidaycontinuedtosmile,andtosaynothing。
SuddenlythePussumappearedagaininthedoor,hersmall,childishfacelookingsullenandvindictive。
`Iknowyouwanttocatchmeout,'camehercold,ratherresonantvoice。
`ButIdon'tcare,Idon'tcarehowmuchyoucatchmeout。'
Sheturnedandwasgoneagain。Shehadbeenwearingaloosedressing—gownofpurplesilk,tiedroundherwaist。Shelookedsosmallandchildishandvulnerable,almostpitiful。AndyettheblacklooksofhereyesmadeGeraldfeeldrownedinsomepotentdarknessthatalmostfrightenedhim。
Themenlitanothercigaretteandtalkedcasually。
WomenInLove:Chapter7CHAPTERVIIFetishINTHEMORNINGGeraldwokelate。Hehadsleptheavily。
Pussumwasstillasleep,sleepingchildishlyandpathetically。Therewassomethingsmallandcurledupanddefencelessabouther,thatrousedanunsatisfiedflameofpassionintheyoungman'sblood,adevouringavidpity。Helookedatheragain。Butitwouldbetoocrueltowakeher。Hesubduedhimself,andwentaway。
Hearingvoicescomingfromthesitting—room,HallidaytalkingtoLibidnikov,hewenttothedoorandglancedin。Hehadonasilkwrapofabeautifulbluishcolour,withanamethysthem。
Tohissurprisehesawthetwoyoungmenbythefire,starknaked。Hallidaylookedup,ratherpleased。
`Good—morning,'hesaid。`Oh——didyouwanttowels?'Andstarknakedhewentoutintothehall,stridingastrange,whitefigurebetweentheunlivingfurniture。Hecamebackwiththetowels,andtookhisformerposition,crouchingseatedbeforethefireonthefender。
`Don'tyoulovetofeelthefireonyourskin?'hesaid。
`Itisratherpleasant,'saidGerald。
`Howperfectlysplendiditmustbetobeinaclimatewhereonecoulddowithoutclothingaltogether,'saidHalliday。
`Yes,'saidGerald,`ifthereweren'tsomanythingsthatstingandbite。'
`That'sadisadvantage,'murmuredMaxim。
Geraldlookedathim,andwithaslightrevulsionsawthehumananimal,goldenskinnedandbare,somehowhumiliating。Hallidaywasdifferent。Hehadaratherheavy,slack,brokenbeauty,whiteandfirm。HewaslikeaChristinaPieta。Theanimalwasnotthereatall,onlytheheavy,brokenbeauty。AndGeraldrealisedhowHalliday'seyeswerebeautifultoo,soblueandwarmandconfused,brokenalsointheirexpression。Thefireglowfellonhisheavy,ratherbowedshoulders,hesatslacklycrouchedonthefender,hisfacewasuplifted,weak,perhapsslightlydisintegrate,andyetwithamovingbeautyofitsown。
`Ofcourse,'saidMaxim,`you'vebeeninhotcountrieswherethepeoplegoaboutnaked。'
`Ohreally!'exclaimedHalliday。`Where?'
`SouthAmerica——Amazon,'saidGerald。
`Ohbuthowperfectlysplendid!It'soneofthethingsIwantmosttodo——tolivefromdaytodaywithouteverputtingonanysortofclothingwhatever。IfIcoulddothat,IshouldfeelIhadlived。'
`Butwhy?'saidGerald。`Ican'tseethatitmakessomuchdifference。'
`Oh,Ithinkitwouldbeperfectlysplendid。I'msurelifewouldbeentirelyanotherthing——entirelydifferent,andperfectlywonderful。'
`Butwhy?'askedGerald。`Whyshouldit?'
`Oh——onewouldfeelthingsinsteadofmerelylookingatthem。
Ishouldfeeltheairmoveagainstme,andfeelthethingsItouched,insteadofhavingonlytolookatthem。I'msurelifeisallwrongbecauseithasbecomemuchtoovisual——wecanneitherhearnorfeelnorunderstand,wecanonlysee。I'msurethatisentirelywrong。'
`Yes,thatistrue,thatistrue,'saidtheRussian。
Geraldglancedathim,andsawhim,hissuave,goldencolouredbodywiththeblackhairgrowingfineandfreely,liketendrils,andhislimbslikesmoothplant—stems。Hewassohealthyandwell—made,whydidhemakeoneashamed,whydidonefeelrepelled?WhyshouldGeraldevendislikeit,whydiditseemtohimtodetractfromhisowndignity。Wasthatallahumanbeingamountedto?Souninspired!thoughtGerald。
Birkinsuddenlyappearedinthedoorway,inwhitepyjamasandwethair,andatoweloverhisarm。Hewasaloofandwhite,andsomehowevanescent。
`There'sthebath—roomnow,ifyouwantit,'hesaidgenerally,andwasgoingawayagain,whenGeraldcalled:
`Isay,Rupert!'
`What?'Thesinglewhitefigureappearedagain,apresenceintheroom。
`Whatdoyouthinkofthatfigurethere?Iwanttoknow,'Geraldasked。
Birkin,whiteandstrangelyghostly,wentovertothecarvedfigureofthenegrowomaninlabour。Hernude,protuberantbodycrouchedinastrange,clutchingposture,herhandsgrippingtheendsoftheband,aboveherbreast。
`Itisart,'saidBirkin。
`Verybeautiful,it'sverybeautiful,'saidtheRussian。
Theyalldrewneartolook。Geraldlookedatthegroupofmen,theRussiangoldenandlikeawater—plant,Hallidaytallandheavily,brokenlybeautiful,Birkinverywhiteandindefinite,nottobeassigned,ashelookedcloselyatthecarvenwoman。Strangelyelated,Geraldalsoliftedhiseyestothefaceofthewoodenfigure。Andhisheartcontracted。
Hesawvividlywithhisspiritthegrey,forward—stretchingfaceofthenegrowoman,Africanandtense,abstractedinutterphysicalstress。
Itwasaterribleface,void,peaked,abstractedalmostintomeaninglessnessbytheweightofsensationbeneath。HesawthePussuminit。Asinadream,heknewher。
`Whyisitart?'Geraldasked,shocked,resentful。
`Itconveysacompletetruth,'saidBirkin。`Itcontainsthewholetruthofthatstate,whateveryoufeelaboutit。'
`Butyoucan'tcallithighart,'saidGerald。
`High!Therearecenturiesandhundredsofcenturiesofdevelopmentinastraightline,behindthatcarving;itisanawfulpitchofculture,ofadefinitesort。'
`Whatculture?'Geraldasked,inopposition。HehatedthesheerAfricanthing。
`Purecultureinsensation,cultureinthephysicalconsciousness,reallyultimatephysicalconsciousness,mindless,utterlysensual。Itissosensualastobefinal,supreme。'
ButGeraldresentedit。Hewantedtokeepcertainillusions,certainideaslikeclothing。
`Youlikethewrongthings,Rupert,'hesaid,`thingsagainstyourself。'
`Oh,Iknow,thisisn'teverything,'Birkinreplied,movingaway。
WhenGeraldwentbacktohisroomfromthebath,healsocarriedhisclothes。Hewassoconventionalathome,thatwhenhewasreallyaway,andontheloose,asnow,heenjoyednothingsomuchasfulloutrageousness。
Sohestrodewithhisbluesilkwrapoverhisarmandfeltdefiant。
ThePussumlayinherbed,motionless,herround,darkeyeslikeblack,unhappypools。Hecouldonlyseetheblack,bottomlesspoolsofhereyes。
Perhapsshesuffered。Thesensationofherinchoatesufferingrousedtheoldsharpflameinhim,amordantpity,apassionalmostofcruelty。
`Youareawakenow,'hesaidtoher。
`Whattimeisit?'camehermutedvoice。
Sheseemedtoflowback,almostlikeliquid,fromhisapproach,tosinkhelplesslyawayfromhim。Herinchoatelookofaviolatedslave,whosefulfilmentliesinherfurtherandfurtherviolation,madehisnervesquiverwithacutelydesirablesensation。Afterall,hiswastheonlywill,shewasthepassivesubstanceofhiswill。Hetingledwiththesubtle,bitingsensation。Andthenheknew,hemustgoawayfromher,theremustbepureseparationbetweenthem。
Itwasaquietandordinarybreakfast,thefourmenalllookingverycleanandbathed。GeraldandtheRussianwerebothcorrectandcommeilfautinappearanceandmanner,Birkinwasgauntandsick,andlookedafailureinhisattempttobeaproperlydressedman,likeGeraldandMaxim。Hallidayworetweedsandagreenflannelshirt,andaragofatie,whichwasjustrightforhim。TheHindubroughtinagreatdealofsofttoast,andlookedexactlythesameashehadlookedthenightbefore,staticallythesame。
AttheendofthebreakfastthePussumappeared,inapurplesilkwrapwithashimmeringsash。Shehadrecoveredherselfsomewhat,butwasmuteandlifelessstill。Itwasatormenttoherwhenanybodyspoketoher。
Herfacewaslikeasmall,finemask,sinistertoo,maskedwithunwillingsuffering。Itwasalmostmidday。Geraldroseandwentawaytohisbusiness,gladtogetout。Buthehadnotfinished。Hewascomingbackagainatevening,theywerealldiningtogether,andhehadbookedseatsfortheparty,exceptingBirkin,atamusic—hall。
Atnighttheycamebacktotheflatverylateagain,againflushedwithdrink。Againtheman—servant——whoinvariablydisappearedbetweenthehoursoftenandtwelveatnight——cameinsilentlyandinscrutablywithtea,bendinginaslow,strange,leopard—likefashiontoputthetraysoftlyonthetable。Hisfacewasimmutable,aristocratic—looking,tingedslightlywithgreyundertheskin;hewasyoungandgood—looking。ButBirkinfeltaslightsickness,lookingathim,andfeelingtheslightgreynessasanashoracorruption,inthearistocraticinscrutabilityofexpressionanauseating,bestialstupidity。
Againtheytalkedcordiallyandrousedlytogether。Butalreadyacertainfriabilitywascomingovertheparty,Birkinwasmadwithirritation,HallidaywasturninginaninsanehatredagainstGerald,thePussumwasbecominghardandcold,likeaflintknife,andHallidaywaslayinghimselfouttoher。Andherintention,ultimately,wastocaptureHalliday,tohavecompletepoweroverhim。
Inthemorningtheyallstalkedandloungedaboutagain。ButGeraldcouldfeelastrangehostilitytohimself,intheair。Itrousedhisobstinacy,andhestoodupagainstit。Hehungonfortwomoredays。TheresultwasanastyandinsanescenewithHallidayonthefourthevening。HallidayturnedwithabsurdanimosityuponGerald,inthecafe。Therewasarow。
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