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第32章

  Theylaughedwithpleasurewhentheywereinthehall。Theplaceseemedfullandbusy。
  `DoyouknowifMrandMrsCrich——English——fromParis,havearrived?'
  BirkinaskedinGerman。
  Theporterreflectedamoment,andwasjustgoingtoanswer,whenUrsulacaughtsightofGudrunsaunteringdownthestairs,wearingherdarkglossycoat,withgreyfur。
  `Gudrun!Gudrun!'shecalled,wavingupthewellofthestaircase。`Shu—hu!'
  Gudrunlookedovertherail,andimmediatelylosthersauntering,diffidentair。Hereyesflashed。
  `Really——Ursula!'shecried。AndshebegantomovedownstairsasUrsularanup。Theymetataturnandkissedwithlaughterandexclamationsinarticulateandstirring。
  `But!'criedGudrun,mortified。`Wethoughtitwastomorrowyouwerecoming!Iwantedtocometothestation。'
  `No,we'vecometoday!'criedUrsula。`Isn'titlovelyhere!'
  `Adorable!'saidGudrun。`Gerald'sjustgoneouttogetsomething。Ursula,aren'tyoufearfullytired?'
  `No,notsovery。ButIlookafilthysight,don'tI!'
  `No,youdon't。Youlookalmostperfectlyfresh。Ilikethatfurcapimmensely!'SheglancedoverUrsula,whoworeabigsoftcoatwithacollarofdeep,soft,blondfur,andasoftblondcapoffur。
  `Andyou!'criedUrsula。`Whatdoyouthinkyoulooklike!'
  Gudrunassumedanunconcerned,expressionlessface。
  `Doyoulikeit?'shesaid。
  `It'sveryfine!'criedUrsula,perhapswithatouchofsatire。
  `Goup——orcomedown,'saidBirkin。Fortherethesistersstood,GudrunwithherhandonUrsula'sarm,ontheturnofthestairshalfwaytothefirstlanding,blockingthewayandaffordingfullentertainmenttothewholeofthehallbelow,fromthedoorportertotheplumpJewinblackclothes。
  Thetwoyoungwomenslowlymounted,followedbyBirkinandthewaiter。
  `Firstfloor?'askedGudrun,lookingbackoverhershoulder。
  `SecondMadam——thelift!'thewaiterreplied。Andhedartedtotheelevatortoforestallthetwowomen。Buttheyignoredhim,as,chatteringwithoutheed,theysettomountthesecondflight。Ratherchagrined,thewaiterfollowed。
  Itwascurious,thedelightofthesistersineachother,atthismeeting。
  Itwasasiftheymetinexile,andunitedtheirsolitaryforcesagainstalltheworld。Birkinlookedonwithsomemistrustandwonder。
  Whentheyhadbathedandchanged,Geraldcamein。Helookedshininglikethesunonfrost。
  `GowithGeraldandsmoke,'saidUrsulatoBirkin。`GudrunandIwanttotalk。'
  ThenthesisterssatinGudrun'sbedroom,andtalkedclothes,andexperiences。
  GudruntoldUrsulatheexperienceoftheBirkinletterinthecafe。Ursulawasshockedandfrightened。
  `Whereistheletter?'sheasked。
  `Ikeptit,'saidGudrun。
  `You'llgiveitme,won'tyou?'shesaid。
  ButGudrunwassilentforsomemoments,beforeshereplied:
  `Doyoureallywantit,Ursula?'
  `Iwanttoreadit,'saidUrsula。
  `Certainly,'saidGudrun。
  Evennow,shecouldnotadmit,toUrsula,thatshewantedtokeepit,asamemento,orasymbol。ButUrsulaknew,andwasnotpleased。Sothesubjectwasswitchedoff。
  `WhatdidyoudoinParis?'askedUrsula。
  `Oh,'saidGudrunlaconically——`theusualthings。WehadafinepartyonenightinFannyBath'sstudio。'
  `Didyou?AndyouandGeraldwerethere!Whoelse?Tellmeaboutit。'
  `Well,'saidGudrun。`There'snothingparticulartotell。YouknowFannyisfrightfullyinlovewiththatpainter,BillyMacfarlane。Hewasthere——soFannysparednothing,shespentveryfreely。Itwasreallyremarkable!Ofcourse,everybodygotfearfullydrunk——butinaninterestingway,notlikethatfilthyLondoncrowd。Thefactisthesewereallpeoplethatmatter,whichmakesallthedifference。TherewasaRoumanian,afinechap。Hegotcompletelydrunk,andclimbedtothetopofahighstudioladder,andgavethemostmarvellousaddress——really,Ursula,itwaswonderful!HebeganinFrench——Lavie,c'estuneaffaired'amesimperiales——inamostbeautifulvoice——hewasafine—lookingchap——
  buthehadgotintoRoumanianbeforehehadfinished,andnotasoulunderstood。
  ButDonaldGilchristwasworkedtoafrenzy。Hedashedhisglasstotheground,anddeclared,byGod,hewasgladhehadbeenborn,byGod,itwasamiracletobealive。Anddoyouknow,Ursula,soitwas——'Gudrunlaughedratherhollowly。
  `ButhowwasGeraldamongthemall?'askedUrsula。
  `Gerald!Oh,myword,hecameoutlikeadandelioninthesun!He'sawholesaturnaliainhimself,onceheisroused。Ishouldn'tliketosaywhosewaisthisarmdidnotgoround。Really,Ursula,heseemstoreapthewomenlikeaharvest。Therewasn'tonethatwouldhaveresistedhim。
  Itwastooamazing!Canyouunderstandit?'
  Ursulareflected,andadancinglightcameintohereyes。
  `Yes,'shesaid。`Ican。Heissuchawhole—hogger。'
  `Whole—hogger!Ishouldthinkso!'exclaimedGudrun。`Butitistrue,Ursula,everywomanintheroomwasreadytosurrendertohim。Chanticleerisn'tinit——evenFannyBath,whoisgenuinelyinlovewithBillyMacfarlane!Ineverwasmoreamazedinmylife!Andyouknow,afterwards——IfeltIwasawholeroomfulofwomen。Iwasnomoremyselftohim,thanIwasQueenVictoria。Iwasawholeroomfulofwomenatonce。
  Itwasmostastounding!Butmyeye,I'dcaughtaSultanthattime——'
  Gudrun'seyeswereflashing,hercheekwashot,shelookedstrange,exotic,satiric。Ursulawasfascinatedatonce——andyetuneasy。
  Theyhadtogetreadyfordinner。Gudruncamedowninadaringgownofvividgreensilkandtissueofgold,withgreenvelvetbodiceandastrangeblack—and—whitebandroundherhair。Shewasreallybrilliantlybeautifulandeverybodynoticedher。Geraldwasinthatfull—blooded,gleamingstatewhenhewasmosthandsome。Birkinwatchedthemwithquick,laughing,half—sinistereyes,Ursulaquitelostherhead。Thereseemedaspell,almostablindingspell,castroundtheirtable,asiftheywerelightedupmorestronglythantherestofthedining—room。
  `Don'tyoulovetobeinthisplace?'criedGudrun。`Isn'tthesnowwonderful!Doyounoticehowitexaltseverything?Itissimplymarvellous。
  Onereallydoesfeeliibermenschlich——morethanhuman。'
  `Onedoes,'criedUrsula。`Butisn'tthatpartlythebeingoutofEngland?'
  `Oh,ofcourse,'criedGudrun。`OnecouldneverfeellikethisinEngland,forthesimplereasonthatthedamperisneverliftedoffone,there。
  Itisquiteimpossiblereallytoletgo,inEngland,ofthatIamassured。'
  Andsheturnedagaintothefoodshewaseating。Shewasflutteringwithvividintensity。
  `It'squitetrue,'saidGerald,`itneverisquitethesameinEngland。
  Butperhapswedon'twantittobe——perhapsit'slikebringingthelightalittletoonearthepowder—magazine,toletgoaltogether,inEngland。
  Oneisafraidwhatmighthappen,ifeverybodyelseletgo。'
  `MyGod!'criedGudrun。`Butwouldn'titbewonderful,ifallEnglanddidsuddenlygoofflikeadisplayoffireworks。'
  `Itcouldn't,'saidUrsula。`Theyarealltoodamp,thepowderisdampinthem。'
  `I'mnotsosureofthat,'saidGerald。
  `NorI,'saidBirkin。`WhentheEnglishreallybegintogooff,enmasse,it'llbetimetoshutyourearsandrun。'
  `Theyneverwill,'saidUrsula。
  `We'llsee,'hereplied。
  `Isn'titmarvellous,'saidGudrun,`howthankfulonecanbe,tobeoutofone'scountry。Icannotbelievemyself,Iamsotransported,themomentIsetfootonaforeignshore。Isaytomyself"Herestepsanewcreatureintolife。"'
  `Don'tbetoohardonpooroldEngland,'saidGerald。`Thoughwecurseit,weloveitreally。'
  ToUrsula,thereseemedafundofcynicisminthesewords。
  `Wemay,'saidBirkin。`Butit'sadamnablyuncomfortablelove:likealoveforanagedparentwhosuffershorriblyfromacomplicationofdiseases,forwhichthereisnohope。'
  Gudrunlookedathimwithdilateddarkeyes。
  `Youthinkthereisnohope?'sheasked,inherpertinentfashion。
  ButBirkinbackedaway。Hewouldnotanswersuchaquestion。
  `AnyhopeofEngland'sbecomingreal?Godknows。It'sagreatactualunrealitynow,anaggregationintounreality。Itmightbereal,iftherewerenoEnglishmen。'
  `YouthinktheEnglishwillhavetodisappear?'persistedGudrun。Itwasstrange,herpointedinterestinhisanswer。Itmighthavebeenherownfateshewasinquiringafter。Herdark,dilatedeyesrestedonBirkin,asifshecouldconjurethetruthofthefutureoutofhim,asoutofsomeinstrumentofdivination。
  Hewaspale。Then,reluctantly,heanswered:
  `Well——whatelseisinfrontofthem,butdisappearance?They'vegottodisappearfromtheirownspecialbrandofEnglishness,anyhow。'
  Gudrunwatchedhimasifinahypnoticstate,hereyeswideandfixedonhim。
  `Butinwhatwaydoyoumean,disappear?——'shepersisted。
  `Yes,doyoumeanachangeofheart?'putinGerald。
  `Idon'tmeananything,whyshouldI?'saidBirkin。`I'manEnglishman,andI'vepaidthepriceofit。Ican'ttalkaboutEngland——Icanonlyspeakformyself。'
  `Yes,'saidGudrunslowly,`youloveEnglandimmensely,immensely,Rupert。'
  `Andleaveher,'hereplied。
  `No,notforgood。You'llcomeback,'saidGerald,noddingsagely。
  `Theysaythelicecrawloffadyingbody,'saidBirkin,withaglareofbitterness。`SoIleaveEngland。'
  `Ah,butyou'llcomeback,'saidGudrun,withasardonicsmile。
  `Tantpispourmoi,'hereplied。
  `Isn'theangrywithhismothercountry!'laughedGerald,amused。
  `Ah,apatriot!'saidGudrun,withsomethinglikeasneer。
  Birkinrefusedtoansweranymore。
  Gudrunwatchedhimstillforafewseconds。Thensheturnedaway。Itwasfinished,herspellofdivinationinhim。Shefeltalreadypurelycynical。
  ShelookedatGerald。Hewaswonderfullikeapieceofradiumtoher。Shefeltshecouldconsumeherselfandknowall,bymeansofthisfatal,livingmetal。Shesmiledtoherselfatherfancy。Andwhatwouldshedowithherself,whenshehaddestroyedherself?Forifspirit,ifintegralbeingisdestructible,Matterisindestructible。
  Hewaslookingbrightandabstracted,puzzled,forthemoment。Shestretchedoutherbeautifularm,withitsfluffofgreentulle,andtouchedhischinwithhersubtle,artist'sfingers。
  `Whataretheythen?'sheasked,withastrange,knowingsmile。
  `What?'hereplied,hiseyessuddenlydilatingwithwonder。
  `Yourthoughts。'
  Geraldlookedlikeamancomingawake。
  `IthinkIhadnone,'hesaid。
  `Really!'shesaid,withgravelaughterinhervoice。
  AndtoBirkinitwasasifshekilledGerald,withthattouch。
  `Ahbut,'criedGudrun,`letusdrinktoBritannia——letusdrinktoBritannia。'
  Itseemedtherewaswilddespairinhervoice。Geraldlaughed,andfilledtheglasses。
  `IthinkRupertmeans,'hesaid,`thatnationallyallEnglishmenmustdie,sothattheycanexistindividuallyand——'
  `Super—nationally——'putinGudrun,withaslightironicgrimace,raisingherglass。
  Thenextday,theydescendedatthetinyrailwaystationofHohenhausen,attheendofthetinyvalleyrailway。Itwassnoweverywhere,awhite,perfectcradleofsnow,newandfrozen,sweepingupaneitherside,blackcrags,andwhitesweepsofsilvertowardsthebluepaleheavens。
  Astheysteppedoutonthenakedplatform,withonlysnowaroundandabove,Gudrunshrankasifitchilledherheart。
  `MyGod,Jerry,'shesaid,turningtoGeraldwithsuddenintimacy,`you'vedoneitnow。'
  `What?'
  Shemadeafaintgesture,indicatingtheworldoneitherhand。
  `Lookatit!'
  Sheseemedafraidtogoon。Helaughed。
  Theywereintheheartofthemountains。Fromhighabove,oneitherside,sweptdownthewhitefoldofsnow,sothatoneseemedsmallandtinyinavalleyofpureconcreteheaven,allstrangelyradiantandchangelessandsilent。
  `Itmakesonefeelsosmallandalone,'saidUrsula,turningtoBirkinandlayingherhandonhisarm。
  `You'renotsorryyou'vecome,areyou?'saidGeraldtoGudrun。
  Shelookeddoubtful。Theywentoutofthestationbetweenbanksofsnow。
  `Ah,'saidGerald,sniffingtheairinelation,`thisisperfect。There'soursledge。We'llwalkabit——we'llrunuptheroad。'
  Gudrun,alwaysdoubtful,droppedherheavycoatonthesledge,ashedidhis,andtheysetoff。Suddenlyshethrewupherheadandsetoffscuddingalongtheroadofsnow,pullinghercapdownoverherears。Herblue,brightdressflutteredinthewind,herthickscarletstockingswerebrilliantabovethewhiteness。Geraldwatchedher:sheseemedtoberushingtowardsherfate,andleavinghimbehind。Helethergetsomedistance,then,looseninghislimbs,hewentafterher。
  Everywherewasdeepandsilentsnow。Greatsnow—eavesweigheddownthebroad—roofedTyrolesehouses,thatweresunktothewindow—sashesinsnow。
  Peasant—women,full—skirted,wearingeachacross—overshawl,andthicksnow—boots,turnedinthewaytolookatthesoft,determinedgirlrunningwithsuchheavyfleetnessfromtheman,whowasovertakingher,butnotgaininganypoweroverher。
  Theypassedtheinnwithitspaintedshuttersandbalcony,afewcottages,halfburiedinthesnow;thenthesnow—buriedsilentsawmillbytheroofedbridge,whichcrossedthehiddenstream,overwhichtheyranintotheverydepthoftheuntouchedsheetsofsnow。Itwasasilenceandasheerwhitenessexhilaratingtomadness。Buttheperfectsilencewasmostterrifying,isolatingthesoul,surroundingtheheartwithfrozenair。
  `It'samarvellousplace,forallthat,'saidGudrun,lookingintohiseyeswithastrange,meaninglook。Hissoulleapt。
  `Good,'hesaid。
  Afierceelectricenergyseemedtoflowoverallhislimbs,hismusclesweresurcharged,hishandsfelthardwithstrength。Theywalkedalongrapidlyupthesnow—road,thatwasmarkedbywitheredbranchesoftreesstuckinatintervals。Heandshewereseparate,likeoppositepolesofonefierceenergy。Buttheyfeltpowerfulenoughtoleapovertheconfinesoflifeintotheforbiddenplaces,andbackagain。
  BirkinandUrsulawererunningalongalso,overthesnow。Hehaddisposedoftheluggage,andtheyhadalittlestartofthesledges。Ursulawasexcitedandhappy,butshekeptturningsuddenlytocatchholdofBirkin'sarm,tomakesureofhim。
  `ThisissomethingIneverexpected,'shesaid。`Itisadifferentworld,here。'
  Theywentonintoasnowmeadow。Theretheywereovertakenbythesledge,thatcametinklingthroughthesilence。ItwasanothermilebeforetheycameuponGudrunandGeraldonthesteepup—climb,besidethepink,half—buriedshrine。
  Thentheypassedintoagulley,wherewerewallsofblackrockandariverfilledwithsnow,andastillblueskyabove。Throughacoveredbridgetheywent,drummingroughlyovertheboards,crossingthesnow—bedoncemore,thenslowlyupandup,thehorseswalkingswiftly,thedrivercrackinghislongwhipashewalkedbeside,andcallinghisstrangewildhue—hue!,thewallsofrockpassingslowlyby,tilltheyemergedagainbetweenslopesandmassesofsnow。Upandup,graduallytheywent,throughthecoldshadow—radianceoftheafternoon,silencedbytheimminenceofthemountains,theluminous,dazingsidesofsnowthatroseabovethemandfellawaybeneath。
  Theycameforthatlastinalittlehightable—landofsnow,wherestoodthelastpeaksofsnowliketheheartpetalsofanopenrose。Inthemidstofthelastdesertedvalleysofheavenstoodalonelybuildingwithbrownwoodenwallsandwhiteheavyroof,deepanddesertedinthewasteofsnow,likeadream。Itstoodlikearockthathadrolleddownfromthelaststeepslopes,arockthathadtakentheformofahouse,andwasnowhalf—buried。
  Itwasunbelievablethatonecouldlivethereuncrushedbyallthisterriblewasteofwhitenessandsilenceandclear,upper,ringingcold。
  Yetthesledgesranupinfinestyle,peoplecametothedoorlaughingandexcited,thefloorofthehostelranghollow,thepassagewaswetwithsnow,itwasareal,warminterior。
  Thenew—comerstrampedupthebarewoodenstairs,followingtheservingwoman。GudrunandGeraldtookthefirstbedroom。Inamomenttheyfoundthemselvesaloneinabare,smallish,close—shutroomthatwasallofgolden—colouredwood,floor,walls,ceiling,door,allofthesamewarmgoldpanellingofoiledpine。Therewasawindowoppositethedoor,butlowdown,becausetheroofsloped。Undertheslopeoftheceilingwerethetablewithwash—handbowlandjug,andacross,anothertablewithmirror。Oneithersidethedoorweretwobedspiledhighwithanenormousblue—checkedoverbolster,enormous。
  Thiswasall——nocupboard,noneoftheamenitiesoflife。Heretheywereshutuptogetherinthiscellofgolden—colouredwood,withtwobluecheckedbeds。Theylookedateachotherandlaughed,frightenedbythisnakednearnessofisolation。
  Amanknockedandcameinwiththeluggage。Hewasasturdyfellowwithflattishcheek—bones,ratherpale,andwithcoarsefairmoustache。Gudrunwatchedhimputdownthebags,insilence,thentrampheavilyout。
  `Itisn'ttoorough,isit?'Geraldasked。
  Thebedroomwasnotverywarm,andsheshiveredslightly。
  `Itiswonderful,'sheequivocated。`Lookatthecolourofthispanelling——it'swonderful,likebeinginsideanut。'
  Hewasstandingwatchingher,feelinghisshort—cutmoustache,leaningbackslightlyandwatchingherwithhiskeen,undauntedeyes,dominatedbytheconstantpassion,thatwaslikeadoomuponhim。
  Shewentandcroucheddowninfrontofthewindow,curious。
  `Oh,butthis——!'shecriedinvoluntarily,almostinpain。
  Infrontwasavalleyshutinunderthesky,thelasthugeslopesofsnowandblackrock,andattheend,likethenaveloftheearth,awhite—foldedwall,andtwopeaksglimmeringinthelatelight。Straightinfrontranthecradleofsilentsnow,betweenthegreatslopesthatwerefringedwithalittleroughnessofpine—trees,likehair,roundthebase。Butthecradleofsnowranontotheeternalclosing—in,wherethewallsofsnowandrockroseimpenetrable,andthemountainpeaksabovewereinheavenimmediate。
  Thiswasthecentre,theknot,thenaveloftheworld,wheretheearthbelongedtotheskies,pure,unapproachable,impassable。
  ItfilledGudrunwithastrangerapture。Shecrouchedinfrontofthewindow,clenchingherfaceinherhands,inasortoftrance。Atlastshehadarrived,shehadreachedherplace。Hereatlastshefoldedherventureandsettleddownlikeacrystalinthenavelofsnow,andwasgone。
  Geraldbentaboveherandwaslookingoutoverhershoulder。Alreadyhefelthewasalone。Shewasgone。Shewascompletelygone,andtherewasicyvapourroundhisheart。Hesawtheblindvalley,thegreatcul—de—sacofsnowandmountainpeaks,undertheheaven。Andtherewasnowayout。
  Theterriblesilenceandcoldandtheglamorouswhitenessoftheduskwrappedhimround,andsheremainedcrouchingbeforethewindow,asatashrine,ashadow。
  `Doyoulikeit?'heasked,inavoicethatsoundeddetachedandforeign。
  Atleastshemightacknowledgehewaswithher。Butsheonlyavertedhersoft,mutefacealittlefromhisgaze。Andheknewthatthereweretearsinhereyes,herowntears,tearsofherstrangereligion,thatputhimtonought。
  Quitesuddenly,heputhishandunderherchinandliftedupherfacetohim。Herdarkblueeyes,intheirwetnessoftears,dilatedasifshewasstartledinherverysoul。Theylookedathimthroughtheirtearsinterrorandalittlehorror。Hislightblueeyeswerekeen,small—pupilledandunnaturalintheirvision。Herlipsparted,asshebreathedwithdifficulty。
  Thepassioncameupinhim,strokeafterstroke,liketheringingofabronzebell,sostrongandunflawedandindomitable。Hiskneestightenedtobronzeashehungabovehersoftface,whoselipspartedandwhoseeyesdilatedinastrangeviolation。Inthegraspofhishandherchinwasunutterablysoftandsilken。Hefeltstrongaswinter,hishandswerelivingmetal,invincibleandnottobeturnedaside。Hisheartranglikeabellclanginginsidehim。
  Hetookherupinhisarms。Shewassoftandinert,motionless。Allthewhilehereyes,inwhichthetearshadnotyetdried,weredilatedasifinakindofswoonoffascinationandhelplessness。Hewassuperhumanlystrong,andunflawed,asifinvestedwithsupernaturalforce。
  Heliftedhercloseandfoldedheragainsthim。Hersoftness,herinert,relaxedweightlayagainsthisownsurcharged,bronze—likelimbsinaheavinessofdesirabilitythatwoulddestroyhim,ifhewerenotfulfilled。Shemovedconvulsively,recoilingawayfromhim。Hisheartwentuplikeaflameofice,heclosedoverherlikesteel。Hewoulddestroyherratherthanbedenied。
  Buttheoverweeningpowerofhisbodywastoomuchforher。Sherelaxedagain,andlaylooseandsoft,pantinginalittledelirium。Andtohim,shewassosweet,shewassuchblissofrelease,thathewouldhavesufferedawholeeternityoftortureratherthanforegoonesecondofthispangofunsurpassablebliss。
  `MyGod,'hesaidtoher,hisfacedrawnandstrange,transfigured,`whatnext?'
  Shelayperfectlystill,withastill,child—likefaceanddarkeyes,lookingathim。Shewaslost,fallenrightaway。
  `Ishallalwaysloveyou,'hesaid,lookingather。
  Butshedidnothear。Shelay,lookingathimasatsomethingshecouldneverunderstand,never:asachildlooksatagrown—upperson,withouthopeofunderstanding,onlysubmitting。
  Hekissedher,kissedhereyesshut,sothatshecouldnotlookanymore。Hewantedsomethingnow,somerecognition,somesign,someadmission。
  Butsheonlylaysilentandchild—likeandremote,likeachildthatisovercomeandcannotunderstand,onlyfeelslost。Hekissedheragain,givingup。
  `ShallwegodownandhavecoffeeandKuchen?'heasked。
  Thetwilightwasfallingslate—blueatthewindow。Sheclosedhereyes,closedawaythemonotonouslevelofdeadwonder,andopenedthemagaintotheevery—dayworld。
  `Yes,'shesaidbriefly,regainingherwillwithaclick。Shewentagaintothewindow。Blueeveninghadfallenoverthecradleofsnowandoverthegreatpallidslopes。Butintheheaventhepeaksofsnowwererosy,glisteningliketranscendent,radiantspikesofblossomintheheavenlyupper—world,solovelyandbeyond。
  Gudrunsawalltheirloveliness,sheknewhowimmortallybeautifultheywere,greatpistilsofrose—coloured,snow—fedfireinthebluetwilightoftheheaven。Shecouldseeit,sheknewit,butshewasnotofit。Shewasdivorced,debarred,asoulshutout。
  Withalastlookofremorse,sheturnedaway,andwasdoingherhair。
  Hehadunstrappedtheluggage,andwaswaiting,watchingher。Sheknewhewaswatchingher。Itmadeheralittlehastyandfeverishinherprecipitation。
  Theywentdownstairs,bothwithastrangeother—worldlookontheirfaces,andwithaglowintheireyes。TheysawBirkinandUrsulasittingatthelongtableinacorner,waitingforthem。
  `Howgoodandsimpletheylooktogether,'Gudrunthought,jealously。
  Sheenviedthemsomespontaneity,achildishsufficiencytowhichsheherselfcouldneverapproach。Theyseemedsuchchildrentoher。
  `SuchgoodKranzkuchen!'criedUrsulagreedily。`Sogood!'
  `Right,'saidGudrun。`CanwehaveKaffeemitKranzkuchen?'sheaddedtothewaiter。
  AndsheseatedherselfonthebenchbesideGerald。Birkin,lookingatthem,feltapainoftendernessforthem。
  `Ithinktheplaceisreallywonderful,Gerald,'hesaid;`prachtvollandwunderbarandwunderschonandunbeschreiblichandalltheotherGermanadjectives。'
  Geraldbrokeintoaslightsmile。
  `Ilikeit,'hesaid。
  Thetables,ofwhitescrubbedwood,wereplacedroundthreesidesoftheroom,asinaGasthaus。BirkinandUrsulasatwiththeirbackstothewall,whichwasofoiledwood,andGeraldandGudrunsatinthecornernextthem,neartothestove。Itwasafairlylargeplace,withatinybar,justlikeacountryinn,butquitesimpleandbare,andallofoiledwood,ceilingsandwallsandfloor,theonlyfurniturebeingthetablesandbenchesgoingroundthreesides,thegreatgreenstove,andthebarandthedoorsonthefourthside。Thewindowsweredouble,andquiteuncurtained。
  Itwasearlyevening。
  Thecoffeecame——hotandgood——andawholeringofcake。
  `AwholeKuchen!'criedUrsula。`Theygiveyoumorethanus!Iwantsomeofyours。'
  Therewereotherpeopleintheplace,tenaltogether,soBirkinhadfoundout:twoartists,threestudents,amanandwife,andaProfessorandtwodaughters——allGermans。ThefourEnglishpeople,beingnewcomers,satintheircoignofvantagetowatch。TheGermanspeepedinatthedoor,calledawordtothewaiter,andwentawayagain。Itwasnotmeal—time,sotheydidnotcomeintothisdining—room,butbetookthemselves,whentheirbootswerechanged,totheReunionsaal。
  TheEnglishvisitorscouldheartheoccasionaltwangingofazither,thestrummingofapiano,snatchesoflaughterandshoutingandsinging,afaintvibrationofvoices。Thewholebuildingbeingofwood,itseemedtocarryeverysound,likeadrum,butinsteadofincreasingeachparticularnoise,itdecreasedit,sothatthesoundofthezitherseemedtiny,asifadiminutivezitherwereplayingsomewhere,anditseemedthepianomustbeasmallone,likealittlespinet。
  Thehostcamewhenthecoffeewasfinished。HewasaTyrolese,broad,ratherflat—cheeked,withapale,pock—markedskinandflourishingmoustaches。