'Up!'saidheatlength。'It'sjustthis:hecameaftermysisterforbetternortwoyear;andabetterlass——no,noraprettieri'myeyes——niverbrokebread。Andthenmymastersawanothergirl,thathelikedbetter'——Williamalmostchokedinhisendeavourtokeepdownallappearanceofviolentanger,andthenwenton,'andthatheplayedt'samegamewi',asI'veheerdtell。'
'Andhowdidthysistertakeit?'askedPhilip,eagerly。
'Shediedinasix—month,'saidWilliam;'sheforgivedhim,butit'sbeyondme。IthoughtitwerehimwhenIheerdoft'workaboutDarley;
Kinraid——andcomingfra'Newcassel,whereAnnielived'prentice——andI
madeinquiry,anditweret'sameman。ButI'llsaynomoreabouthim,foritstirst'oldAdammorenorIlike,orisfitting。'
Outofrespecttohim,Philipaskednomorequestionsalthoughthereweremanythingsthathefainwouldhaveknown。BothCoulsonandhewentsilentlyandgrimlythroughtheremainderoftheirday'swork。IndependentofanypersonalinterestwhicheitherorbothofthemhadormighthaveinKinraid'sbeingalighto'love,thisfaultofhiswasonewithwhichthetwograve,sedateyoungmenhadnosympathy。Theirheartsweretrueandconstant,whateverelsemightbetheirfailings;anditisnonewthingto'damnthefaultswehavenomindto。'Philipwishedthatitwasnotsolate,orthatveryeveninghewouldhavegonetokeepguardoverSylviainhermother'sabsence——nay,perhapshemighthaveseenreasontogiveherawarningofsomekind。But,ifhehaddoneso,itwouldhavebeenlockingthestable—doorafterthesteedwasstolen。KinraidhadturnedhisstepstowardsHaytersbankFarmassoonaseverhehadcompletedhispurchases。HehadonlycomethatafternoontoMonkshaven,andforthesolepurposeofseeingSylviaoncemorebeforehewenttofulfilhisengagementasspecksioneerintheUrania,awhaling—vesselthatwastosailfromNorthShieldsonThursdaymorning,andthiswasMonday。
Sylviasatinthehouse—place,herbacktothelonglowwindow,inordertohaveallthelighttheafternoonhouraffordedforherwork。Abasketofherfather'sunmendedstockingswasonthelittleroundtablebesideher,andonewasonherlefthand,whichshesupposedherselftobemending;
butfromtimetotimeshemadelongpauses,andlookedinthefire;andyettherewasbutlittlemotionofflameorlightinitoutofwhichtoconjurevisions。Itwas'reddup'fortheafternoon;coveredwithablackmassofcoal,overwhichtheequallyblackkettlehungonthecrook。Intheback—kitchenDollyReid,Sylvia'sassistantduringhermother'sabsence,chantedalugubriousditty,befittingherconditionasawidow,whileshecleanedtins,andcans,andmilking—pails。PerhapsthesebustlingsoundspreventedSylviafromhearingapproachingfootstepscomingdownthebrowwithswiftadvance;atanyrate,shestartedandsuddenlystoodupassomeoneenteredtheopendoor。Itwasstrangesheshouldbesomuchstartled,forthepersonwhoenteredhadbeeninherthoughtsallduringthoselongpauses。CharleyKinraidandthestoryofcrazyNancyhadbeenthesubjectsforherdreamsformanyaday,andmanyanight。Nowhestoodthere,brightandhandsomeasever,withjustthatmuchtimidityinhisface,thatanxietyastohiswelcome,whichgavehisaccostanaddedcharm,couldshebuthaveperceivedit。Butshewassoafraidofherself,sounwillingtoshowwhatshefelt,andhowmuchshehadbeenthinkingofhiminhisabsence,thatherreceptionseemedcoldandstill。Shedidnotcomeforwardtomeethim;shewentcrimsontotheveryrootsofherhair;butthat,inthewaninglight,hecouldnotsee;andsheshooksothatshefeltasifshecouldhardlystand;butthetremorwasnotvisibletohim。ShewonderedifherememberedthekissthathadpassedbetweenthemonNewYear'sEve——thewordsthathadbeenspokeninthedairyonNewYear'sDay;thetones,thelooks,thathadaccompaniedthosewords。Butallshesaidwas——
'Ididn'tthinktoseeyo'。Ithoughtyo'dha'sailed。'
'Itoldyo'Ishouldcomeback,didn'tI?'saidhe,stillstanding,withhishatinhishand,waitingtobeaskedtositdown;andshe,inherbashfulness,forgettingtogivetheinvitation,but,instead,pretendingtobeattentivelymendingthestockingsheheld。Neithercouldkeepquietandsilentlong。Shefelthiseyeswereuponher,watchingeverymotion,andgrewmoreandmoreconfusedinherexpressionandbehaviour。Hewasalittletakenabackbythenatureofhisreception,andwasnotsureatfirstwhethertotakethegreatchangeinhermanner,fromwhatithadbeenwhenlasthesawher,asafavourablesymptomorotherwise。By—and—by,luckilyforhim,insometurnofherarmtoreachthescissorsonthetable,shecaughttheedgeofherwork—basket,anddownitfell。Shestoopedtopickupthescatteredstockingsandballofworsted,andsodidhe;andwhentheyroseup,hehadfastholdofherhand,andherfacewasturnedaway,halfreadytocry。
'Whatailsyo'atme?'saidhe,beseechingly。'Yo'mightha'forgottenme;andyetIthoughtwemadeabargainagainstforgettingeachother。'
Noanswer。Hewenton:'Yo'veneverbeenouto'mythoughts,SylviaRobson;
andI'mcomebacktoMonkshavenfornoughtbuttoseeyouonceandagainaforeIgoawaytothenorthernseas。It'snottwohoursin'IlandedatMonkshaven,andI'vebeennearneitherkithnorkinasyet;andnowI'mhereyouwon'tspeaktome。'
'Idon'tknowwhattosay,'saidshe,inalow,almostinaudibletone。
Thenhardeningherself,andresolvingtospeakasifshedidnotunderstandhisonlyhalf—expressedmeaning,sheliftedupherhead,andallbutlookingathim——whileshewrenchedherhandoutofhis——shesaid:'Mother'sgonetoMiddlehamforavisit,andfeyther'souti't'plough—fieldwi'Kester;
buthe'llbeinaforelong。'
Charleydidnotspeakforaminuteorso。Thenhesaid——
'Yo'renotsodullastothinkI'mcomeallthiswayfort'seeeitheryourfatheroryourmother。I'veagreatrespectfor'emboth;butI'dhardlyha'comeallthiswayfortosee'em,andmeboundtobebacki'
Shields,ifIwalkeverystepoftheway,byWednesdaynight。It'sthatyo'won'tunderstandmymeaning,Sylvia;it'snotthatyo'don't,orthatyo'can't。'Hemadenoefforttorepossesshimselfofherhand。Shewasquitesilent,butinspiteofherselfshedrewlonghardbreaths。'ImaygobacktowhereIcamefrom,'hewenton。'Ithoughttogotoseawi'
ablessedhopetocheermeup,andaknowledgeo'someoneaslovedmeasI'dleftbehind;someoneaslovedmehalfasmuchasIdidher;forth'measureo'mylovetowardherissogreatandmighty,I'dbecontentwi'halfasmuchfromher,tillI'dtaughthertolovememore。Butifshe'sacoldheartandcannotcareforahonestsailor,why,then,I'dbestgobackatonce。'
Hemadeforthedoor。Hemusthavebeenprettysurefromsomesignorother,orhewouldneverhaveleftittoherwomanlypridetogiveway,andforhertomakethenextadvance。Hehadnottakentwostepswhensheturnedquicklytowardshim,andsaidsomething——theechoofwhich,ratherthanthewordsthemselves,reachedhim。
'Ididn'tknowyo'caredforme;yo'niversaidso。'Inaninstanthewasbackatherside,hisarmroundherinspiteofhershortstruggle,andhiseagerpassionatevoicesaying,'Yo'neverknowedIlovedyou,Sylvia?
sayitagain,andlooki'myfacewhileyo'sayit,ifyo'can。Why,lastwinterIthoughtyo'dbesuchawomanwhenyo'dcometobeoneasmyeenhadneverlookedupon,andthisyear,eversin'Isawyo'i'thekitchencornersittingcrouchingbehindmyuncle,IasgoodassworeI'dhaveyo'
forwife,orneverwedatall。Anditwasnotlongereyo'knowedit,forallyo'weresocoy,andnowyo'havetheface——no,yo'havenottheface——come,mydarling,whatisit?'forshewascrying;andonhisturningherwetblushingfacetowardshimthebettertolookatit,shesuddenlyhiditinhisbreast。Helulledandsoothedherinhisarms,asifshehadbeenaweepingchildandhehermother;andthentheysatdownonthesettletogether,andwhenshewasmorecomposedtheybegantotalk。Heaskedherabouthermother;notsorryinhisheartatBellRobson'sabsence。HehadintendedifnecessarytoacknowledgehiswishesanddesireswithregardtoSylviatoherparents;butforvariousreasonshewasnotsorrythatcircumstanceshadgivenhimthechanceofseeingheralone,andobtainingherpromisetomarryhimwithoutbeingobligedtotelleitherherfatherorhermotheratpresent。'Iha'spentmymoneyprettyfree,'hesaid,'andI'vene'erapennytothefore,andyo'rparentsmaylookforsomethingbetterforyo',mypretty:butwhenIcomebackfro'thisvoyageIshallstandachanceofhavingasharei'th'Urania,andmaybeIshallbemateaswellasspecksioneer;andIcangetamatteroffromseventytoninetypoundavoyage,letaloneth'half—guineasforeverywhaleI
strike,andsixshillingagallononth'oil;andifIkeepsteadywi'
ForbesandCompany,they'llmakememasteri'time,forI'vehadgoodschooling,andcanworkashipaswellasanyman;an'Ileaveyo'wi'yo'rparents,ortakeacottageforyo'nighathand;butIwouldliketohavesomethingtothefore,andthatIshallhave,pleaseGod,whenwecomebacki'th'
autumn。Ishallgotoseahappy,now,thinkingI'veyo'rword。Yo'renotonetogobackfromit,I'msure,elseit'salongtimetoleavesuchaprettygirlasyo',andne'erachanceofaletterreachingyo'justtotellyo'onceagainhowIloveyo',andtobidyo'notforgetyo'rtruelove。'
'There'llbenoneedo'that,'murmuredSylvia。
Shewastoodizzywithhappinesstohaveattendedmuchtohisdetailsofhisworldlyprospects,butatthesoundofhistenderwordsoflovehereagerheartwasreadytolisten。
'Idon'tknow,'saidhe,wantingtodrawheroutintomoreconfessionofherfeelings。'There'smanyaonereadytocomeafteryo';andyo'rmotherisnoto'ercaptivatedwi'me;andthere'syontallfellowofacousinaslooksblackatme,forifI'mnotmista'enhe'sanotionofbeingsweetonyo'hisself。'
'Nothe,'saidSylvia,withsomecontemptinhertone。'He'ssofullo'businessandt'shop,ando'makin'money,andgettin'wealth。'
'Ay,ay;butperhapswhenhegetsarichmanhe'llcomeandaskmySylviatobehiswife,andwhatwillshesaythen?'
'He'llnivercomeaskingsuchafoolishquestion,'saidshe,alittleimpatiently;'heknowswhatanswerhe'dgetifhedid。'
Kinraidsaid,almostasiftohimself,'Yo'rmotherfavourshimthough。'
Butshe,wearyofasubjectshecarednothingabout,andeagertoidentifyherselfwithallhisinterests,askedhimabouthisplansalmostatthesametimethathesaidtheselastwords;andtheywentonasloversdo,intermixingagreatmanytenderexpressionswithaverylittleconversationrelatingtofacts。
DollyReidcamein,andwentoutsoftly,unheededbythem。ButSylvia'slisteningearscaughtherfather'svoice,asheandKesterreturnedhomewardsfromtheirday'sworkintheplough—field;andshestartedaway,andfledupstairsinshyaffright,leavingCharleytoexplainhispresenceinthesolitarykitchentoherfather。
Hecamein,notseeingthatanyonewasthereatfirst;fortheyhadneverthoughtoflightingacandle。Kinraidsteppedforwardintothefirelight;
hispurposeofconcealingwhathehadsaidtoSylviaquitemeltedawaybythecordialwelcomeherfathergavehimtheinstantthatherecognizedhim。
'Blessthee,lad!who'dha'thoughto'seein'thee?Why,ifiverathoughtontheeatall,itwerehalfwaytoDavis'Straits。Tobesure,t'winter'sbeenadreeseason,andthou'rt,maybe,i't'reeton'ttomak'alatestart。LateststartasiverImadewasnintho'March,an'westruckthirteenwhalesthatyear。'
'Ihavesomethingtosaytoyou,'saidCharley,inahesitatingvoice,sodifferenttohisusualheartyway,thatDanielgavehimakeenlookofattentionbeforehebegantospeak。And,perhaps,theeldermanwasnotunpreparedforthecommunicationthatfollowed。Atanyrate,itwasnotunwelcome。HelikedKinraid,andhadstrongsympathynotmerelywithwhatheknewoftheyoungsailor'scharacter,butwiththelifeheled,andthebusinesshefollowed。Robsonlistenedtoallhesaidwithapprovingnodsandwinks,tillCharleyhadtoldhimeverythinghehadtosay;andthenheturnedandstruckhisbroadhornypalmintoKinraid'sasifconcludingabargain,whileheexpressedinwordshisheartyconsenttotheirengagement。
Hewoundupwithachuckle,asthethoughtstruckhimthatthisgreatpieceofbusiness,ofdisposingoftheironlychild,hadbeenconcludedwhilehiswifewasaway。
'A'mnoanesosureast'missus'lllikeit,'saidhe;'tho'whativershe'llha'tosayagainit,mischiefonlyknows。Butshe'snoanekeenonmatterimony;thoughahavemadeherasgoodamanasthereisina't'
Ridings。Anyhow,a'mmaster,andthatsheknows。Butmaybe,fort'sakeo'peaceanquietness——tho'she'sniverascoldingtongue,thatawillsayforher——we'nbestkeepthismattertoourselvestillthoucomesint'
portagain。T'lassupstairs'lllikenoughtbetterthant'curlhersel'
roundasecret,andpurro'erit,justast'oudcatdoeso'erherblindkitten。Butthou'llbewantingtoseet'lass,a'llbebound。Anoudmanlikemeisn'tasgoodcompanyasaprettylass。'Laughingalowrichlaughoverhisownwit,Danielwenttothebottomofthestairs,andcalled,'Sylvie,Sylvie!comedown,lass!a'sreet;comedown!'
Foratimetherewasnoanswer。Thenadoorwasunbolted,andSylviasaid,'Ican'tcomedownagain。I'mnoanecomin'downagainto—night。'
Daniellaughedthemoreatthis,especiallywhenhecaughtCharley'slookofdisappointment。
'Hearkenhowshe'sboltedherdoor。She'llnoanecomenearusthisneet。
Eh!butshe'sastifflittle'un;she'sbeenouronlyone,andwe'nmostlyletherhaveherownway。Butwe'llhaveapipeandaglass;andthat,tomythinking,isasgoodcompanyasiverawomani'Yorkshire。'
chapter17CHAPTERXVIIREJECTEDWARNINGSThepostarrivedatMonkshaventhreetimesintheweek;sometimes,indeed,therewerenotadozenlettersinthebag,whichwasbroughtthitherbyamaninalightmail—cart,whotookthebetterpartofadaytodrivefromYork;droppingprivatebagshereandthereonthemoors,atsomesquire'slodgeorroadsideinn。OfthenumberoflettersthatarrivedinMonkshaven,theFosters,shopkeepersandbankers,hadthelargestshare。
ThemorningsucceedingthedayonwhichSylviahadengagedherselftoKinraid,theFostersseemedunusuallyanxioustoobtaintheirletters。
SeveraltimesJeremiahcameoutoftheparlourinwhichhisbrotherJohnwassittinginexpectantsilence,and,passingthroughtheshop,lookedupanddownthemarket—placeinsearchoftheoldlamewoman,whowascharitablyemployedtodeliverletters,andwhomusthavebeenlamerthaneverthismorning,tojudgefromthelatenessofhercoming。AlthoughnonebuttheFostersknewthecauseoftheirimpatiencefortheirletters,yettherewassuchtacitsympathybetweenthemandthosewhomtheyemployed,thatHepburn,Coulson,andHesterwereallmuchrelievedwhentheoldwomanatlengthappearedwithherbasketofletters。
Oneoftheseseemedofespecialconsequencetothegoodbrothers。Theyeachseparatelylookedatthedirection,andthenatoneanother;andwithoutawordtheyreturnedwithitunreadintotheparlour,shuttingthedoor,anddrawingthegreensilkcurtainclose,thebettertoreaditinprivacy。
BothCoulsonandPhilipfeltthatsomethingunusualwasgoingon,andwere,perhaps,asfullofconsiderationastothepossiblecontentsofthisLondonletter,asofattentiontotheirmoreimmediatebusiness。Butfortunatelytherewaslittledoingintheshop。Philip,indeed,wasquiteidlewhenJohnFosteropenedtheparlour—door,and,halfdoubtfully,calledhimintotheroom。Asthedoorofcommunicationshutthethreein,Coulsonfelthimselfalittleaggrieved。AminuteagoPhilipandhewereonalevelofignorance,fromwhichtheformerwasevidentlygoingtoberaised。Buthesoonreturnedtohisusualstateofacquiescenceinthingsastheywere,whichwaspartlyconstitutional,andpartlytheresultofhisQuakertraining。
ItwasapparentlybyJohnFoster'swishthatPhiliphadbeensummoned。
Jeremiah,thelessenergeticanddecidedbrother,wasstilldiscussingtheproprietyofthestepwhenPhilipentered。
'Noneedforhaste,John;betternotcalltheyoungmantillwehavefurtherconsideredthematter。'
Buttheyoungmanwasthereinpresence;andJohn'swillcarriedtheday。
ItseemedfromhisaccounttoPhilip(explanatoryofwhathe,inadvanceofhisbrother'sslowerjudgment,thoughttobeanecessarystep),thattheFostershadforsometimereceivedanonymousletters,warningthem,withdistinctmeaning,thoughinambiguousterms,againstacertainsilk—manufacturerinSpitalfields,withwhomtheyhadhadstraight—forwardbusinessdealingsformanyyears;buttowhomtheyhadlatterlyadvancedmoney。Thelettershintedattheutterinsolvencyofthismanufacturer。Theyhadurgedtheircorrespondenttogivethemhisnameinconfidence,andthismorning'sletterhadbroughtit;butthenamewastotallyunknowntothem,thoughthereseemednoreasontodoubttherealityofeitheritortheaddress,thelatterofwhichwasgiveninfull。CertaincircumstanceswerementionedregardingthetransactionsbetweentheFostersandthismanufacturer,whichcouldbeknownonlytothosewhowereintheconfidenceofoneortheother;
andtotheFostersthemanwas,ashasbeensaid,aperfectstranger。Probably,theywouldhavebeenunwillingtoincurtherisktheyhaddoneonthismanufacturerDickinson'saccount,ifithadnotbeenthathebelongedtothesamedenominationasthemselves,andwaspubliclydistinguishedforhisexcellentandphilanthropiccharacter;buttheseletterswereprovocativeofanxiety,especiallysincethismorning'sposthadbroughtoutthewriter'sfullname,andvariousparticularsshowinghisintimateknowledgeofDickinson'saffairs。
Aftermuchperplexedconsultation,JohnhadhitupontheplanofsendingHepburntoLondontomakesecretinquiriesrespectingthetruecharacterandcommercialpositionofthemanwhosecreditors,notamonthago,theyhadesteemeditanhonourtobe。
EvennowJeremiahwasashamedoftheirwantofconfidenceinonesogood;hebelievedthattheinformationtheyhadreceivedwouldallproveamistake,foundedonerroneousgrounds,ifnotapureinventionofanenemy;andhehadonlybeenbroughtpartiallytoconsenttothesendingofHepburn,byhisbrother'spledginghimselfthattherealnatureofPhilip'serrandshouldbeunknowntoanyhumancreature,savethemthree。
AsallthiswasbeingrevealedtoPhilip,hesatapparentlyunmovedandsimplyattentive。Infact,hewasgivingallhismindtounderstandingtheprobabilitiesofthecase,leavinghisownfeelingsinthebackgroundtillhisintellectshouldhavedoneitswork。Hesaidlittle;butwhathedidsaywastothepoint,andsatisfiedbothbrothers。Johnperceivedthathismessengerwouldexercisepenetrationandactwithenergy;whileJeremiahwassoothedbyPhilip'scautioninnothastilyadmittingtheprobabilityofanychargeagainstDickinson,andingivingfullweighttohispreviousgoodconductandgoodcharacter。
Philiphadthesatisfactionoffeelinghimselfemployedonamissionwhichwouldcallouthispowers,andyetnotexceedthem。Inhisownmindheforestalledtheinstructionsofhismasters,andwassilentlyinadvanceofJohnFoster'splansandarrangements,whileheappearedtolistentoallthatwassaidwithquietbusiness—likeattention。
ItwassettledthatthenextmorninghewastomakehiswaynorthwardstoHartlepool,whencehecouldeasilyproceedeitherbylandorseatoNewcastle,fromwhichplacesmackswereconstantlysailingtoLondon。Astohispersonalconductandbehaviourthere,thebrothersoverwhelmedhimwithdirectionsandadvice;nordidtheyfailtodrawoutofthestrongboxinthethickwalloftheircounting—houseamorethansufficientsumofmoneyforallpossibleexpenses。Philiphadneverhadsomuchinhishandsbefore,andhesitatedtotakeit,sayingitwasmorethanheshouldrequire;buttheyrepeated,withfreshurgency,theirwarningsabouttheterriblehighpricesofLondon,tillhecouldonlyresolvetokeepastrictaccount,andbringbackallthathedidnotexpend,sincenothingbuthistakingthewholesumwouldsatisfyhisemployers。
Whenhewasoncemorebehindthecounter,hehadleisureenoughforconsiderationasfarasCoulsoncouldgiveithim。Thelatterwassilent,broodingovertheconfidencewhichPhiliphadapparentlyreceived,butwhichwaswithheldfromhim。Hedidnotyetknowoftheculminatingpoint——ofPhilip'sproposedjourneytoLondon;thatgreatcityofLondon,which,fromitsveryinaccessibilityfiftyyearsago,loomedsomagnificentthroughthemistofmen'simaginations。ItisnottobedeniedthatPhilipfeltexultantatthemerefactof'goingtoLondon。'Butthenagain,thethoughtofleavingSylvia;ofgoingoutofpossibledailyreachofher;ofnotseeingherforaweek——afortnight;nay,hemightbeawayforamonth,——fornorashhurrywastomarhisdelicatenegotiation,——gnawedathisheart,andspoiltanyenjoymenthemighthaveanticipatedfromgratifiedcuriosity,orevenfromtheconsciousnessofbeingtrustedbythosewhosetrustandregardhevalued。Thesenseofwhathewasleavinggrewuponhimthelongerhethoughtonthesubject;healmostwishedthathehadtoldhismastersearlierintheconversationofhisunwillingnesstoleaveMonkshavenforsolongatime;andthenagainhefeltthatthegratitudeheowedthemquiteprohibitedhisdeclininganytasktheymightimpose,especiallyastheyhadmorethanoncesaidthatitwouldnotdoforthemtoappearintheaffair,andyetthattonooneelsecouldtheyentrustsodifficultanddelicateamatter。Severaltimesthatday,asheperceivedCoulson'sjealoussullenness,hethoughtinhisheartthattheconsequenceoftheexcessiveconfidenceforwhichCoulsonenviedhimwasaburdenfromwhichhewouldbethankfultoberelieved。
AstheyallsatatteainAliceRose'shouse—place,Philipannouncedhisintendedjourney;apieceofintelligencehehadnotcommunicatedearliertoCoulsonbecausehehadratherdreadedtheincreaseofdissatisfactionitwassuretoproduce,andofwhichheknewtheexpressionwouldberestrainedbythepresenceofAliceRoseandherdaughter。
'ToLunnon!'exclaimedAlice。
Hestersaidnothing。
'Well!somefolkshastheluck!'saidCoulson。
'Luck!'saidAlice,turningsharproundonhim。'Niverletmehearsuchavainwordouto'thymouth,laddie,again。It'stheLord'sdoing,andluck'sthedevil'swayo'puttingit。Maybeit'stotryPhiliphe'ssentthere;happenitmaybeafieryfurnacetohim;forI'veheerdtellit'sfullo'temptations,andhemayfallintosin——andthenwhere'dbethe"luck"onit?Butwhyarttagoing?andthemorning,say'sthou?Why,thybestshirtisint'suds,andnotimefort'starchandironit。WhattenthegreathasteasshouldtaketheetoLunnonwi'outthyruffledshirt?'
'It'snoneo'mydoing,'saidPhilip;'there'sbusinesstobedone,andJohnFostersaysI'mtodoit;andI'mtostartto—morrow。'
'I'llnotturntheeoutwi'outthyruffledshirt,ifIsitupa'neet,'
saidAlice,resolutely。
'Niverfretthyself,mother,aboutt'shirt,'saidPhilip。'IfIneedashirt,London'snotwhatItakeitforifIcan'tbuymysel'oneready—made。'
'Hearkentohim!'saidAlice。'Hespeaksasifbuyingo'ready—madeshirtswerenoughttohim,andhewi'agoodhalf—dozenasImademysel'。
Eh,lad?butifthat'stheframeo'mindthou'rtin,Lunnonislikefortobeasoreplaceo'temptation。There'spitfallsformen,andtrapsformoneyativeryturn,asI'veheerdsay。Itwouldha'beenbetterifJohnFosterhadsentanoldermanonhisbusiness,whativeritbe。'
'Theyseemtomakeadealo'Philipallonasudden,'saidCoulson。
'He'ssentfor,andtalkedtoi'privacy,whileHesterandmeislefti'
t'shopfort'beart'brunto't'serving。'
'Philipknows,'saidHester,andthen,somehow,hervoicefailedherandshestopped。
Philippaidnoattentiontothishalf—utteredsentence;hewaseagertotellCoulson,asfarashecoulddosowithoutbetrayinghismaster'ssecret,howmanydrawbacksthereweretohisproposedjourney,intheresponsibilitywhichitinvolved,andhisunwillingnesstoleaveMonkshavenhesaid——
'Coulson,I'dgiveadealitwerethouthatweregoing,andnotme。
Atleast,thereismanyatimeI'dgiveadeal。I'llnotdenybutatothertimesI'mpleasedatthethoughton't。But,ifIcouldI'dchangeplaceswi'theeatthismoment。'
'It'sfinetalking,'saidCoulson,halfmollified,andyetnotcaringtoshowit。'Imakenodoubtitwereanevenchancebetwixtustwoatfirst,whichonuswastogo;butsomehowthougotthestartandthou'ststucktoittillit'stoolateforaughtbuttosaythou'ssorry。'
'Nay,William,'saidPhilip,rising,'it'sanilllook—outforthefuture,iftheeandmeistoquarrel,liketwosillywenches,o'ereachbitofpleasure,orwhatthoufanciestobepleasure,asfallsint'wayofeitheronus。I'vesaidtruthtothee,andplayedtheefair,andI'vegottogotoHaytersbankfortowish'emgood—by,soI'llnotStaylongerheretobemisdoubtedbythee。'
Hetookhiscapandwasgone,notheedingAlice'sshrillinquiryastohisclothesandhisruffledshirt。Coulsonsatstill,penitentandashamed;
atlengthhestolealookatHester。Shewasplayingwithherteaspoon,buthecouldseethatshewaschokingdownhertears;hecouldnotchoosebutforcehertospeakwithanill—timedquestion。
'What'stodo,Hester?'saidhe。
Sheliftedupthoseeyes,usuallysosoftandserene;nowtheywerefullofthelightofindignationshiningthroughtears。
'Todo!'shesaid;'Coulson,I'dthoughtbetterofthee,goinganddoubtingandenvyingPhilip,asniverdidtheeanillturn,orsaidanillword,orthoughtanillthoughtbythee;andsendinghimawayouto't'housethislastnightofall,maybe,wi'thyenvyingsandjealousy。'
Shehastilygotupandlefttheroom。Alicewasaway,lookingupPhilip'sthingsforhisjourney。Coulsonremainedalone,feelinglikeaguiltychild,butdismayedbyHester'swords,evenmorethanbyhisownregretatwhathehadsaid。
Philipwalkedrapidlyupthehill—roadtowardsHaytersbank。HewaschafedandexcitedbyCoulson'swords,andtheeventsoftheday。Hehadmeanttoshapehislife,andnowitwas,asitwere,beingshapedforhim,andyethewasreproachedforthecourseitwastaking,asmuchasthoughhewereanactiveagent;accusedoftakingadvantageoverCoulson,hisintimatecompanionforyears;hewhoesteemedhimselfabovetakinganunfairadvantageoveranyman!HisfeelingonthesubjectwasakintothatofHazael,'Isthyservantadogthatheshoulddothisthing?'
Hisfeelings,disturbedonthisonepoint,shookhisjudgmentoffitsbalanceonanother。TheresolutionhehaddeliberatelyformedofnotspeakingtoSylviaonthesubjectofhislovetillhecouldannouncetoherparentsthefactofhissuccessiontoFosters'business,andtillhehadpatiently,withlong—continuinganddeepaffection,workedhiswayintoherregard,wassetasideduringthepresentwalk。Hewouldspeaktoherofhispassionateattachment,beforeheleft,foranuncertainlengthoftime,andthecertaindistanceofLondon。Andallthemodificationonthispointwhichhisjudgmentcouldobtainfromhisimpetuousandexcitedheartwas,thathewouldwatchherwordsandmannerwellwhenheannouncedhisapproachingabsence,andifinthemhereadtheslightesttokenoftenderregretfulfeeling,hewouldpourouthisloveatherfeet,notevenurgingtheyounggirltomakeanyreturn,ortoexpressthefeelingsofwhichhehopedthegermwasalreadybuddinginher。Hewouldbepatientwithher;hecouldnotbepatienthimself。Hisheartbeating,hisbusymindrehearsingtheprobablecomingscene,heturnedintothefield—paththatledtoHaytersbank。Comingalongit,andsomeetinghim,advancedDanielRobson,inearnesttalkwithCharleyKinraid。Kinraid,then,hadbeenatthefarm:KinraidhadbeenseeingSylvia,hermotheraway。ThethoughtofpoordeadAnnieCoulsonflashedintoPhilip'smind。CouldhebeplayingthesamegamewithSylvia?
Philipsethisteethandtightenedhislipsatthethoughtofit。Theyhadstoppedtalking;theyhadseenhimalready,orhisimpulsewouldhavebeentododgebehindthewallandavoidthem;eventhoughoneofhispurposesingoingtoHaytersbankhadbeentobidhisunclefarewell。
Kinraidtookhimbysurprisefromtheheartygreetinghegavehim,andwhichPhilipwouldfainhaveavoided。Butthespecksioneerwasfullofkindlinesstowardsalltheworld,especiallytowardsallSylvia'sfriends,and,convincedofhergreatlovetowardshimself,hadforgottenanypreviousjealousyofPhilip。Secureandexultant,hisbroad,handsome,weather—bronzedfacewasasgreatacontrasttoPhilip'slong,thoughtful,sallowcountenance,ashisfrankmannerwastotheother'scoldreserve。ItwassomeminutesbeforeHepburncouldbringhimselftotellthegreateventthatwasabouttobefallhimbeforethisthirdpersonwhomheconsideredasanintrusivestranger。ButasKinraidseemedtohavenoideaofgoingon,andastherereallywasnoreasonwhyheandalltheworldshouldnotknowofPhilip'sintentions,hetoldhisunclethathewasboundforLondonthenextdayonbusinessconnectedwiththeFosters。
DanielwasdeeplystruckwiththefactthathewastalkingtoamansettingoffforLondonataday'snotice。
'Thou'llnivertellmethishasn'tbeenbrewin'longernortwelvehours;
thou'saslyclosechap,andwehannotseentheethisse'nnight;thou'llha'beenthinkin'onthis,andcogitatingit,maybe,a'thattime。'
'Nay,'saidPhilip,'Iknewnoughtaboutitlastnight;it'snoneo'
mydoing,going,forI'dlieferha'stayedwhereIam。'
'Yo'lllikeitwhenonceyo'rethere,'saidKinraid,withatravelledairofsuperiority,asPhilipfancied。
'No,Ishan't,'hereplied,shortly。'Likinghasnoughttodowithit。'
'Ah'yo'knewnoughtaboutitlastneet,'continuedDaniel,musingly。
'Well,life'ssoono'er;elsewhenIwereayoungfellow,folksmadetheirwillsaforegoin'toLunnon。'
'YetI'llbeboundtosayyo'nivermadeawillbeforegoingtosea,'
saidPhilip,halfsmiling。
'Na,na;butthat'squiteanothermak'o'thing;going'toseacomesnatteraltoaman,butgoin'toLunnon,——Iwereoncethere,andwereneardeafenedwi't'throngandt'sound。Iwerebuttwohoursi't'place,thoughourshiplayafortneetoffGravesend。'
Kinraidnowseemedinahurry;butPhilipwasstungwithcuriositytoascertainhismovements,andsuddenlyaddressedhim:
'Iheardyo'werei'theseparts。Areyouforstayingherelong?'
TherewasacertainabruptnessinPhilip'stone,ifnotinhiswords,whichmadeKinraidlookinhisfacewithsurprise,andanswerwithequalcurtness。
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