Sheshookherhead,andhavingcaughtanantontheendofaseveredbladeofgrass,sheamusedherselfbymakingitgofromoneendtotheotherofthesprig,whichshetippedupwhenevertheinsectreachedoneoftheends。Shelistenedwithmuteandcontentedattentiontoallthewonderfuldetailsofthelifeofthesefrailcreatures:theirsubterraneanhomes;themannerinwhichtheyseize,shutup,andfeedplant-licetodrinkthesweetmilkwhichtheysecrete,aswekeepcowsinourbarns;theircustomofdomesticatinglittleblindinsectswhichcleantheanthills,andofgoingtowartocaptureslaveswhowilltakecareoftheirvictorswithsuchtendersolicitudethatthelatterevenlosethehabitoffeedingthemselves。
Andlittlebylittle,asifamaternaltendernesshadsprungupinherheartforthepoorinsectwhichwassotinyandsointelligent,Yvettemadeitclimbonherfinger,lookingatitwithamovedexpression,almostwantingtoembraceit。
AndasServignyreadofthewayinwhichtheyliveincommunities,andplaygamesofstrengthandskillamongthemselves,theyounggirlgrewenthusiasticandsoughttokisstheinsectwhichescapedherandbegantocrawloverherface。Thensheutteredapiercingcry,asifshehadbeenthreatenedbyaterribledanger,andwithfranticgesturestriedtobrushitoffherface。WithaloudlaughServignycaughtitnearhertressesandimprintedonthespotwherehehadseizeditalongkisswithoutYvettewithdrawingherforehead。
Thensheexclaimedassherose:"Thatisbetterthananovel。NowletusgotoLaGrenouillere。"
Theyreachedthatpartoftheislandwhichissetoutasaparkandshadedwithgreattrees。CoupleswerestrollingbeneaththeloftyfoliagealongtheSeine,wheretheboatswereglidingby。
Theboatswerefilledwithyoungpeople,working-girlsandtheirsweethearts,thelatterintheirshirt-sleeves,withcoatsontheirarms,tallhatstippedback,andajadedlook。Thereweretradesmenwiththeirfamilies,thewomendressedintheirbestandthechildrenflockinglikelittlechicksabouttheirparents。Adistant,continuoussoundofvoices,aheavy,scoldingclamorannouncedtheproximityoftheestablishmentsodeartotheboatmen。
Suddenlytheysawit。Itwasahugeboat,roofedover,mooredtothebank。Onboardweremanymenandwomendrinkingattables,orelsestandingup,shouting,singing,bandyingwords,dancing,capering,tothesoundofapianowhichwasgroaning——outoftuneandrattlingasanoldkettle。
Twotall,russet-haired,half-tipsygirls,withredlips,weretalkingcoarsely。Othersweredancingmadlywithyoungfellowshalfclad,dressedlikejockeys,inlinentrousersandcoloredcaps。Theodorsofacrowdandofrice-powderwerenoticeable。
Thedrinkersaroundthetableswereswallowingwhite,red,yellow,andgreenliquids,andvociferatingatthetopoftheirlungs,feelingasitwere,thenecessityofmakinganoise,abrutalneedofhavingtheirearsandbrainsfilledwithuproar。Nowandthenaswimmer,standingontheroof,divedintothewater,splashingthenearestguests,whoyelledlikesavages。
Onthestreampassedtheflotillasoflightcraft,long,slenderwherries,swiftlyrowedbybare-armedoarsmen,whosemusclesplayedbeneaththeirbronzedskin。Thewomenintheboats,inblueorredflannelskirts,withumbrellas,redorblue,openedovertheirheadsandgleamingundertheburningsun,leanedbackintheirchairsatthesternoftheboats,andseemedalmosttofloatuponthewater,inmotionlessandslumberouspose。
Theheavierboatsproceededslowly,crowdedwithpeople。A
collegian,wantingtoshowoff,rowedlikeawindmillagainstalltheotherboats,bringingthecursesoftheiroarsmendownuponhishead,anddisappearingindismayafteralmostdrowningtwoswimmers,followedbytheshoutsofthecrowdthronginginthegreatfloatingcafe。
Yvette,radiantlyhappy,takingServigny'sarm,wentintothemidstofthisnoisymob。Sheseemedtoenjoythecrowding,andstaredatthegirlswithacalmandgraciousglance。
"Lookatthatone,Muscade,"shesaid。"Whatprettyhairshehas!
Theyseemtobehavingsuchfun!"
Asthepianist,aboatmandressedinredwithahugestrawhat,beganawaltz,Yvettegraspedhercompanionandtheydancedsolongandmadlythateverybodylookedatthem。Theguests,standingonthetables,kepttimewiththeirfeet;othersthrewglasses,andthemusician,seemingtogomad,strucktheivorykeyswithgreatbangs;
swayinghiswholebodyandswinginghisheadcoveredwiththatimmensehat。Suddenlyhestoppedand,slippingtothedeck,layflat,beneathhishead-gear,asifdeadwithfatigue。Aloudlaugharoseandeverybodyapplauded。
Fourfriendsrushedforward,astheydoincasesofaccident,andliftinguptheircomrade,theycarriedhimbyhisfourlimbs,aftercarefullyplacinghisgreathatonhisstomach。Ajokerfollowingthemintonedthe"DeProfundis,"andaprocessionformedandthreadedthepathsoftheisland,guestsandstrollersandeveryonetheymetfallingintoline。
Yvettedartedforward,delighted,laughingwithherwholeheart,chattingwitheverybody,stirredbythemovementandthenoise。Theyoungmengazedather,crowdedagainsther,seemingtodevourherwiththeirglances;andServignybegantofearlesttheadventureshouldterminatebadly。
Theprocessionstillkeptonitsway;hasteningitsstep;forthefourbearershadtakenaquickpace,followedbytheyellingcrowd。
Butsuddenly,theyturnedtowardtheshore,stoppedshortastheyreachedthebank,swungtheircomradeforamoment,andthen,allfouractingtogether,flunghimintotheriver。
Agreatshoutofjoyrangoutfromallmouths,whilethepoorpianist,bewildered,paddled,swore,coughed,andspluttered,andthoughstickinginthemudmanagedtogettotheshore。Hishatwhichfloateddownthestreamwaspickedupbyaboat。Yvettedancedwithjoy,clappingandrepeating:"Oh!Muscade,whatfun!whatfun!"
Servignylookedon,havingbecomeserious,alittledisturbed,alittlechilledtoseehersomuchathereaseinthiscommonplace。
Asortofinstinctrevoltedinhim,thatinstinctoftheproper,whichawell-bornmanalwayspreservesevenwhenhecastshimselfloose,thatinstinctwhichavoidstoocommonfamiliaritiesandtoodegradingcontacts。Astonished,hemutteredtohimself:
"Egad!ThenYOUareathomehere,areyou?"Andhewantedtospeakfamiliarlytoher,asamandoestocertainwomenthefirsttimehemeetsthem。Henolongerdistinguishedherfromtherusset-haired,hoarse-voicedcreatureswhobrushedagainstthem。Thelanguageofthecrowdwasnotatallchoice,butnobodyseemedshockedorsurprised。Yvettedidnotevenappeartonoticeit。
"Muscade,Iwanttogoinbathing,"shesaid。"We'llgointotherivertogether。"
"Atyourservice,"saidhe。
Theywenttothebath-officetogetbathing-suits。Shewasreadythefirst,andstoodonthebankwaitingforhim,smilingoneveryonewholookedather。Thensidebysidetheywentintotheluke-warmwater。
Sheswamwithpleasure,withintoxication,caressedbythewave,throbbingwithasensualdelight,raisingherselfateachstrokeasifsheweregoingtospringfromthewater。Hefollowedherwithdifficulty,breathless,andvexedtofeelhimselfmediocreatthesport。
Butsheslackenedherpace,andthen,turningoversuddenly,shefloated,withherarmsfoldedandhereyeswideopentothebluesky。Heobserved,thusstretchedoutonthesurfaceoftheriver,theundulatinglinesofherform,herfirmneckandshoulders,herslightlysubmergedhips,andbareankles,gleaminginthewater,andthetinyfootthatemerged。
Hesawherthusexhibitingherself,asifsheweredoingitonpurpose,tolurehimon,oragaintomakesportofhim。Andhebegantolongforherwithapassionateardorandanexasperatingimpatience。Suddenlysheturned,lookedathim,andburstintolaughter。
"Youhaveafinehead,"shesaid。
Hewasannoyedatthisbantering,possessedwiththeangerofabaffledlover。Thenyieldingbrusquelytoahalffeltdesireforretaliation,adesiretoavengehimself,towoundher,hesaid:
"Well,doesthissortoflifesuityou?"
Sheaskedwithanartlessair:"Whatdoyoumean?"
"Oh,come,don'tmakegameofme。YouknowwellenoughwhatImean!"
"No,Idon't,onmywordofhonor。"
"Oh,letusstopthiscomedy!Willyouorwillyounot?"
"Idonotunderstandyou。"
"Youarenotasstupidasallthat;besidesItoldyoulastnight。"
"Toldmewhat?Ihaveforgotten!"
"ThatIloveyou。"
"You?"
"Yes。"
"Whatnonsense!"
"Iswearit。"
"Thenproveit。"
"ThatisallIask。"
"Whatis?"
"Toproveit。"
"Well,doso。"
"Butyoudidnotsaysolastnight。"
"Youdidnotaskanything。"
"Whatabsurdity!"
"Andbesidesitisnottometowhomyoushouldmakeyourproposition。"
"Towhom,then?"
"Why,tomamma,ofcourse。"
Heburstintolaughter。"Toyourmother。No,thatistoomuch!"
Shehadsuddenlybecomeverygrave,andlookinghimstraightintheeyes,said:
"Listen,Muscade,ifyoureallylovemeenoughtomarryme,speaktomammafirst,andIwillansweryouafterward。"
Hethoughtshewasstillmakingsportofhim,andangrilyreplied:
"Mam'zelle,youmustbetakingmeforsomebodyelse。"
Shekeptlookingathimwithhersoft,cleareyes。Shehesitatedandthensaid:
"Idon'tunderstandyouatall。"
Thenheansweredquicklywithsomewhatofillnatureinhisvoice:
"Comenow,Yvette,letusceasethisabsurdcomedy,whichhasalreadylastedtoolong。Youareplayingthepartofasimplelittlegirl,andtheroledoesnotfityouatall,believeme。Youknowperfectlywellthattherecanbenoquestionofmarriagebetweenus,butmerelyoflove。IhavetoldyouthatIloveyou。Itisthetruth。Irepeat,Iloveyou。Don'tpretendanylongernottounderstandme,anddon'ttreatmeasifIwereafool。"
Theywerefacetoface,treadingwater,merelymovingtheirhandsalittle,tosteadythemselves。Shewasstillforamoment,asifshecouldnotmakeoutthemeaningofhiswords,thenshesuddenlyblusheduptotherootsofherhair。Herwholefacegrewpurplefromhernecktoherears,whichbecamealmostviolet,andwithoutansweringawordshefledtowardtheshore,swimmingwithallherstrengthwithhastystrokes。Hecouldnotkeepupwithherandpantedwithfatigueashefollowed。Hesawherleavethewater,pickuphercloak,andgotoherdressing-roomwithoutlookingback。
Ittookhimalongtimetodress,verymuchperplexedastowhatheoughttodo,puzzledoverwhatheshouldsaytoher,andwonderingwhetherheoughttoexcusehimselforpersevere。Whenhewasready,shehadgoneawayallalone。Hewentbackslowly,anxiousanddisturbed。
TheMarquisewasstrolling,onSaval'sarm,inthecircularpatharoundthelawn。AssheobservedServigny,shesaid,withthatcarelessairwhichshehadmaintainedsincethenightbefore。
"Itoldyounottogooutinsuchhotweather。AndnowYvettehascomebackalmostwithasunstroke。Shehasgonetoliedown。Shewasasredasapoppy,thepoorchild,andshehasafrightfulheadache。Youmusthavebeenwalkinginthefullsunlight,oryoumusthavedonesomethingfoolish。Youareasunreasonableasshe。"
Theyounggirldidnotcomedowntodinner。Whentheywantedtosendherupsomethingtoeatshecalledthroughthedoorthatshewasnothungry,forshehadshutherselfin,andshebeggedthattheywouldleaveherundisturbed。Thetwoyoungmenleftbytheteno'clocktrain,promisingtoreturnthefollowingThursday,andtheMarquiseseatedherselfattheopenwindowtodream,hearinginthedistancetheorchestraoftheboatmen'sball,withitssprightlymusic,inthedeepandsolemnsilenceofthenight。
Swayedbyloveasapersonismovedbyafondnessforhorsesorboating,shewassubjecttosuddentendernesseswhichcreptoverherlikeadisease。Thesepassionstookpossessionofhersuddenly,penetratedherentirebeing,maddenedher,enervatedoroverwhelmedher,inmeasureastheywereofanexalted,violent,dramatic,orsentimentalcharacter。
Shewasoneofthosewomenwhoarecreatedtoloveandtobeloved。
Startingfromaverylowstationinlife,shehadriseninheradventurouscareer,actinginstinctively,withinborncleverness,acceptingmoneyandkisses,naturally,withoutdistinguishingbetweenthem,employingherextraordinaryabilityinanunthinkingandsimplefashion。Fromallherexperiencesshehadneverknowneitheragenuinetendernessoragreatrepulsion。
Shehadhadvariousfriends,forshehadtolive,asintravelingapersoneatsatmanytables。Butoccasionallyherhearttookfire,andshereallyfellinlove,whichstatelastedforsomeweeksormonths,accordingtoconditions。Thesewerethedeliciousmomentsofherlife,forshelovedwithallhersoul。Shecastherselfuponloveasapersonthrowshimselfintotherivertodrownhimself,andletherselfbecarriedaway,readytodie,ifneedbe,intoxicated,maddened,infinitelyhappy。Sheimaginedeachtimethatsheneverhadexperiencedanythinglikesuchanattachment,andshewouldhavebeengreatlyastonishedifsomeonehadtoldherofhowmanymenshehaddreamedwholenightsthrough,lookingatthestars。
Savalhadcaptivatedher,bodyandsoul。Shedreamedofhim,lulledbyhisfaceandhismemory,inthecalmexaltationofconsummatedlove,ofpresentandcertainhappiness。
Asoundbehindhermadeherturnaround。Yvettehadjustentered,stillinherdaytimedress,butpale,witheyesglittering,assometimesisthecaseaftersomegreatfatigue。Sheleanedonthesilloftheopenwindow,facinghermother。
"Iwanttospeaktoyou,"shesaid。
TheMarquiselookedatherinastonishment。Shelovedherlikeanegotisticalmother,proudofherbeauty,asapersonisproudofafortune,tooprettystillherselftobecomejealous,tooindifferenttoplantheschemeswithwhichtheychargedher,tooclever,nevertheless,nottohavefullconsciousnessofherdaughter'svalue。
"Iamlistening,mychild,"shesaid;"whatisit?"
Yvettegaveherapiercinglook,asiftoreadthedepthsofhersoulandtoseizeallthesensationswhichherwordsmightawake。
"Itisthis。Somethingstrangehasjusthappened。"
"Whatcanitbe?"
"MonsieurdeServignyhastoldmethathelovesme。"
TheMarquise,disturbed,waitedamoment,and,asYvettesaidnothingmore,sheasked:
"Howdidhetellyouthat?Explainyourself!"
Thentheyounggirl,sittingathermother'sfeet,inacoaxingattitudecommonwithher,andclaspingherhands,added:
"Heaskedmetomarryhim。"
MadameObardimadeasuddengestureofstupefactionandcried:
"Servigny!Why!youarecrazy!"
Yvettehadnottakenhereyesoffhermother'sface,watchingherthoughtsandhersurprise。Sheaskedwithaseriousvoice:
"WhyamIcrazy?WhyshouldnotMonsieurdeServignymarryme?"
TheMarquise,embarrassed,stammered:
"Youaremistaken,itisnotpossible。Youeitherdidnothearordidnotunderstand。MonsieurdeServignyistoorichforyou,andtoomuchofaParisiantomarry。"Yvetterosesoftly。Sheadded:
"Butifhelovesmeashesayshedoes,mamma?"
Hermotherreplied,withsomeimpatience:"Ithoughtyoubigenoughandwiseenoughnottohavesuchideas。Servignyisaman-about-townandanegotist。Hewillnevermarryanyonebutawomanofhissetandhisfortune。Ifheaskedyouinmarriage,itisonlythathewants——"
TheMarquise,incapableofexpressinghermeaning,wassilentforamoment,thencontinued:"Comenow,leavemealoneandgotobed。"
Andtheyounggirl,asifshehadlearnedwhatshesoughttofindout,answeredinadocilevoice:"Yes,mamma!"
Shekissedhermotherontheforeheadandwithdrewwithacalmstep。
Asshereachedthedoor,theMarquisecalledout:"Andyoursunstroke?"shesaid。
"Ididnothaveoneatall。Itwasthatwhichcausedeverything。"
TheMarquiseadded:"Wewillnotspeakofitagain。Onlydon'tstayalonewithhimforsometimefromnow,andbeverysurethathewillnevermarryyou,doyouunderstand,andthathemerelymeansto——
compromiseyou。"
Shecouldnotfindbetterwordstoexpressherthought。Yvettewenttoherroom。MadameObardibegantodream。Livingforyearsinanopulentandlovingrepose,shehadcarefullyputasideallreflectionswhichmightannoyorsaddenher。Neverhadshebeenwillingtoaskherselfthequestion——WhatwouldbecomeofYvette?
Itwouldbesoonenoughtothinkaboutthedifficultieswhentheyarrived。Shewellknew,fromherexperience,thatherdaughtercouldnotmarryamanwhowasrichandofgoodsociety,exceptingbyatotallyimprobablechance,byoneofthosesurprisesoflovewhichplaceadventuressesonthrones。
Shehadnotconsideredit,furthermore,beingtoomuchoccupiedwithherselftomakeanyplanswhichdidnotdirectlyconcernherself。
Yvettewoulddoashermother,undoubtedly。Shewouldleadagaylife。Whynot?ButtheMarquisehadneverdaredaskwhen,orhow。
Thatwouldallcomeaboutintime。
Andnowherdaughter,allofasudden,withoutwarning,hadaskedoneofthosequestionswhichcouldnotbeanswered,forcinghertotakeanattitudeinanaffair,sodelicate,sodangerousineveryrespect,andsodisturbingtotheconsciencewhichawomanisexpectedtoshowinmattersconcerningherdaughter。
Sometimesnoddingbutneverasleep,shehadtoomuchnaturalastutenesstobedeceivedaminuteaboutServigny'sintentions,forsheknewmenbyexperience,andespeciallymenofthatset。SoatthefirstwordsutteredbyYvette,shehadcriedalmostinspiteofherself:"Servigny,marryyou?Youarecrazy!"
Howhadhecometoemploythatoldmethod,he,thatsharpmanoftheworld?Whatwouldhedonow?Andshe,theyounggirl,howshouldshewarnhermoreclearlyandevenforbidher,forshemightmakegreatmistakes。Wouldanyonehavebelievedthatthisbiggirlhadremainedsoartless,soillinformed,soguileless?AndtheMarquise,greatlyperplexedandalreadyweariedwithherreflections,endeavoredtomakeuphermindwhattodowithoutfindingasolutionoftheproblem,forthesituationseemedtoherveryembarrassing。Wornoutwiththisworry,shethought:
"Iwillwatchthemmoreclearly,Iwillactaccordingtocircumstances。Ifnecessary,IwillspeaktoServigny,whoissharpandwilltakeahint。"
Shedidnotthinkoutwhatsheshouldsaytohim,norwhathewouldanswer,norwhatsortofanunderstandingcouldbeestablishedbetweenthem,buthappyatbeingrelievedofthiscarewithouthavinghadtomakeadecision,sheresumedherdreamsofthehandsomeSaval,andturningtowardthatmistylightwhichhoversoverParis,shethrewkisseswithbothhandstowardthegreatcity,rapidkisseswhichshetossedintothedarkness,oneaftertheother,withoutcounting;and,verylow,asifsheweretalkingtoSavalstill,shemurmured:
"Iloveyou,Iloveyou!"
CHAPTERIII。
ENLIGHTENMENT
Yvette,also,couldnotsleep。Likehermother,sheleaneduponthesilloftheopenwindow,andtears,herfirstbittertears,filledhereyes。Uptothistimeshehadlived,hadgrownup,intheheedlessandsereneconfidenceofhappyyouth。Whyshouldshehavedreamed,reflected,puzzled?Whyshouldshenothavebeenayounggirl,likeallotheryounggirls?Whyshouldadoubt,afear,orpainfulsuspicionhavecometoher?
Sheseemedpostedonalltopicsbecauseshehadawayoftalkingonallsubjects,becauseshehadtakenthetone,demeanor,andwordsofthepeoplewholivedaroundher。Butshereallyknewnomorethanalittlegirlraisedinaconvent;heraudacitiesofspeechcamefromhermemory,fromthatunconsciousfacultyofimitationandassimilationwhichwomenpossess,andnotfromamindinstructedandemboldened。
Shespokeofloveasthesonofapainteroramusicianwould,attheageoftenortwelveyears,speakofpaintingormusic。Shekneworrathersuspectedverywellwhatsortofmysterythiswordconcealed;——toomanyjokeshadbeenwhisperedbeforeher,forherinnocencenottobeatrifleenlightened,——buthowcouldshehavedrawntheconclusionfromallthis,thatallfamiliesdidnotresemblehers?
Theykissedhermother'shandwiththesemblanceofrespect;alltheirfriendshadtitles;theyallwererichorseemedtobeso;
theyallspokefamiliarlyoftheprincesoftheroyalline。Twosonsofkingshadevencomeoften,intheevening,totheMarquise'shouse。Howshouldshehaveknown?
And,then,shewasnaturallyartless。Shedidnotestimateorsumuppeopleashermother,did。Shelivedtranquilly,toojoyousinherlifetoworryherselfaboutwhatmightappearsuspicioustocreaturesmorecalm,thoughtful,reserved,lesscordial,andsunny。
Butnow,allatonce,Servigny,byafewwords,thebrutalityofwhichshefeltwithoutunderstandingthem,awakenedinherasuddendisquietude,unreasoningatfirst,butwhichgrewintoatormentingapprehension。Shehadfledhome,hadescapedlikeawoundedanimal,woundedinfactmostdeeplybythosewordswhichsheceaselesslyrepeatedtogetalltheirsenseandbearing:"Youknowverywellthattherecanbenoquestionofmarriagebetweenus——butonlyoflove。"
Whatdidhemean?Andwhythisinsult?Wasshetheninignoranceofsomething,somesecret,someshame?Shewastheonlyoneignorantofit,nodoubt。Butwhatcouldshedo?Shewasfrightened,startled,asapersoniswhenhediscoverssomehiddeninfamy,sometreasonofabelovedfriend,oneofthoseheart-disasterswhichcrush。
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