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第4章

  Sheshookherhead,andhavingcaughtanantontheendofaseveredbladeofgrass,sheamusedherselfbymakingitgofromoneendtotheotherofthesprig,whichshetippedupwhenevertheinsectreachedoneoftheends。Shelistenedwithmuteandcontentedattentiontoallthewonderfuldetailsofthelifeofthesefrailcreatures:theirsubterraneanhomes;themannerinwhichtheyseize,shutup,andfeedplant-licetodrinkthesweetmilkwhichtheysecrete,aswekeepcowsinourbarns;theircustomofdomesticatinglittleblindinsectswhichcleantheanthills,andofgoingtowartocaptureslaveswhowilltakecareoftheirvictorswithsuchtendersolicitudethatthelatterevenlosethehabitoffeedingthemselves。
  Andlittlebylittle,asifamaternaltendernesshadsprungupinherheartforthepoorinsectwhichwassotinyandsointelligent,Yvettemadeitclimbonherfinger,lookingatitwithamovedexpression,almostwantingtoembraceit。
  AndasServignyreadofthewayinwhichtheyliveincommunities,andplaygamesofstrengthandskillamongthemselves,theyounggirlgrewenthusiasticandsoughttokisstheinsectwhichescapedherandbegantocrawloverherface。Thensheutteredapiercingcry,asifshehadbeenthreatenedbyaterribledanger,andwithfranticgesturestriedtobrushitoffherface。WithaloudlaughServignycaughtitnearhertressesandimprintedonthespotwherehehadseizeditalongkisswithoutYvettewithdrawingherforehead。
  Thensheexclaimedassherose:"Thatisbetterthananovel。NowletusgotoLaGrenouillere。"
  Theyreachedthatpartoftheislandwhichissetoutasaparkandshadedwithgreattrees。CoupleswerestrollingbeneaththeloftyfoliagealongtheSeine,wheretheboatswereglidingby。
  Theboatswerefilledwithyoungpeople,working-girlsandtheirsweethearts,thelatterintheirshirt-sleeves,withcoatsontheirarms,tallhatstippedback,andajadedlook。Thereweretradesmenwiththeirfamilies,thewomendressedintheirbestandthechildrenflockinglikelittlechicksabouttheirparents。Adistant,continuoussoundofvoices,aheavy,scoldingclamorannouncedtheproximityoftheestablishmentsodeartotheboatmen。
  Suddenlytheysawit。Itwasahugeboat,roofedover,mooredtothebank。Onboardweremanymenandwomendrinkingattables,orelsestandingup,shouting,singing,bandyingwords,dancing,capering,tothesoundofapianowhichwasgroaning——outoftuneandrattlingasanoldkettle。
  Twotall,russet-haired,half-tipsygirls,withredlips,weretalkingcoarsely。Othersweredancingmadlywithyoungfellowshalfclad,dressedlikejockeys,inlinentrousersandcoloredcaps。Theodorsofacrowdandofrice-powderwerenoticeable。
  Thedrinkersaroundthetableswereswallowingwhite,red,yellow,andgreenliquids,andvociferatingatthetopoftheirlungs,feelingasitwere,thenecessityofmakinganoise,abrutalneedofhavingtheirearsandbrainsfilledwithuproar。Nowandthenaswimmer,standingontheroof,divedintothewater,splashingthenearestguests,whoyelledlikesavages。
  Onthestreampassedtheflotillasoflightcraft,long,slenderwherries,swiftlyrowedbybare-armedoarsmen,whosemusclesplayedbeneaththeirbronzedskin。Thewomenintheboats,inblueorredflannelskirts,withumbrellas,redorblue,openedovertheirheadsandgleamingundertheburningsun,leanedbackintheirchairsatthesternoftheboats,andseemedalmosttofloatuponthewater,inmotionlessandslumberouspose。
  Theheavierboatsproceededslowly,crowdedwithpeople。A
  collegian,wantingtoshowoff,rowedlikeawindmillagainstalltheotherboats,bringingthecursesoftheiroarsmendownuponhishead,anddisappearingindismayafteralmostdrowningtwoswimmers,followedbytheshoutsofthecrowdthronginginthegreatfloatingcafe。
  Yvette,radiantlyhappy,takingServigny'sarm,wentintothemidstofthisnoisymob。Sheseemedtoenjoythecrowding,andstaredatthegirlswithacalmandgraciousglance。
  "Lookatthatone,Muscade,"shesaid。"Whatprettyhairshehas!
  Theyseemtobehavingsuchfun!"
  Asthepianist,aboatmandressedinredwithahugestrawhat,beganawaltz,Yvettegraspedhercompanionandtheydancedsolongandmadlythateverybodylookedatthem。Theguests,standingonthetables,kepttimewiththeirfeet;othersthrewglasses,andthemusician,seemingtogomad,strucktheivorykeyswithgreatbangs;
  swayinghiswholebodyandswinginghisheadcoveredwiththatimmensehat。Suddenlyhestoppedand,slippingtothedeck,layflat,beneathhishead-gear,asifdeadwithfatigue。Aloudlaugharoseandeverybodyapplauded。
  Fourfriendsrushedforward,astheydoincasesofaccident,andliftinguptheircomrade,theycarriedhimbyhisfourlimbs,aftercarefullyplacinghisgreathatonhisstomach。Ajokerfollowingthemintonedthe"DeProfundis,"andaprocessionformedandthreadedthepathsoftheisland,guestsandstrollersandeveryonetheymetfallingintoline。
  Yvettedartedforward,delighted,laughingwithherwholeheart,chattingwitheverybody,stirredbythemovementandthenoise。Theyoungmengazedather,crowdedagainsther,seemingtodevourherwiththeirglances;andServignybegantofearlesttheadventureshouldterminatebadly。
  Theprocessionstillkeptonitsway;hasteningitsstep;forthefourbearershadtakenaquickpace,followedbytheyellingcrowd。
  Butsuddenly,theyturnedtowardtheshore,stoppedshortastheyreachedthebank,swungtheircomradeforamoment,andthen,allfouractingtogether,flunghimintotheriver。
  Agreatshoutofjoyrangoutfromallmouths,whilethepoorpianist,bewildered,paddled,swore,coughed,andspluttered,andthoughstickinginthemudmanagedtogettotheshore。Hishatwhichfloateddownthestreamwaspickedupbyaboat。Yvettedancedwithjoy,clappingandrepeating:"Oh!Muscade,whatfun!whatfun!"
  Servignylookedon,havingbecomeserious,alittledisturbed,alittlechilledtoseehersomuchathereaseinthiscommonplace。
  Asortofinstinctrevoltedinhim,thatinstinctoftheproper,whichawell-bornmanalwayspreservesevenwhenhecastshimselfloose,thatinstinctwhichavoidstoocommonfamiliaritiesandtoodegradingcontacts。Astonished,hemutteredtohimself:
  "Egad!ThenYOUareathomehere,areyou?"Andhewantedtospeakfamiliarlytoher,asamandoestocertainwomenthefirsttimehemeetsthem。Henolongerdistinguishedherfromtherusset-haired,hoarse-voicedcreatureswhobrushedagainstthem。Thelanguageofthecrowdwasnotatallchoice,butnobodyseemedshockedorsurprised。Yvettedidnotevenappeartonoticeit。
  "Muscade,Iwanttogoinbathing,"shesaid。"We'llgointotherivertogether。"
  "Atyourservice,"saidhe。
  Theywenttothebath-officetogetbathing-suits。Shewasreadythefirst,andstoodonthebankwaitingforhim,smilingoneveryonewholookedather。Thensidebysidetheywentintotheluke-warmwater。
  Sheswamwithpleasure,withintoxication,caressedbythewave,throbbingwithasensualdelight,raisingherselfateachstrokeasifsheweregoingtospringfromthewater。Hefollowedherwithdifficulty,breathless,andvexedtofeelhimselfmediocreatthesport。
  Butsheslackenedherpace,andthen,turningoversuddenly,shefloated,withherarmsfoldedandhereyeswideopentothebluesky。Heobserved,thusstretchedoutonthesurfaceoftheriver,theundulatinglinesofherform,herfirmneckandshoulders,herslightlysubmergedhips,andbareankles,gleaminginthewater,andthetinyfootthatemerged。
  Hesawherthusexhibitingherself,asifsheweredoingitonpurpose,tolurehimon,oragaintomakesportofhim。Andhebegantolongforherwithapassionateardorandanexasperatingimpatience。Suddenlysheturned,lookedathim,andburstintolaughter。
  "Youhaveafinehead,"shesaid。
  Hewasannoyedatthisbantering,possessedwiththeangerofabaffledlover。Thenyieldingbrusquelytoahalffeltdesireforretaliation,adesiretoavengehimself,towoundher,hesaid:
  "Well,doesthissortoflifesuityou?"
  Sheaskedwithanartlessair:"Whatdoyoumean?"
  "Oh,come,don'tmakegameofme。YouknowwellenoughwhatImean!"
  "No,Idon't,onmywordofhonor。"
  "Oh,letusstopthiscomedy!Willyouorwillyounot?"
  "Idonotunderstandyou。"
  "Youarenotasstupidasallthat;besidesItoldyoulastnight。"
  "Toldmewhat?Ihaveforgotten!"
  "ThatIloveyou。"
  "You?"
  "Yes。"
  "Whatnonsense!"
  "Iswearit。"
  "Thenproveit。"
  "ThatisallIask。"
  "Whatis?"
  "Toproveit。"
  "Well,doso。"
  "Butyoudidnotsaysolastnight。"
  "Youdidnotaskanything。"
  "Whatabsurdity!"
  "Andbesidesitisnottometowhomyoushouldmakeyourproposition。"
  "Towhom,then?"
  "Why,tomamma,ofcourse。"
  Heburstintolaughter。"Toyourmother。No,thatistoomuch!"
  Shehadsuddenlybecomeverygrave,andlookinghimstraightintheeyes,said:
  "Listen,Muscade,ifyoureallylovemeenoughtomarryme,speaktomammafirst,andIwillansweryouafterward。"
  Hethoughtshewasstillmakingsportofhim,andangrilyreplied:
  "Mam'zelle,youmustbetakingmeforsomebodyelse。"
  Shekeptlookingathimwithhersoft,cleareyes。Shehesitatedandthensaid:
  "Idon'tunderstandyouatall。"
  Thenheansweredquicklywithsomewhatofillnatureinhisvoice:
  "Comenow,Yvette,letusceasethisabsurdcomedy,whichhasalreadylastedtoolong。Youareplayingthepartofasimplelittlegirl,andtheroledoesnotfityouatall,believeme。Youknowperfectlywellthattherecanbenoquestionofmarriagebetweenus,butmerelyoflove。IhavetoldyouthatIloveyou。Itisthetruth。Irepeat,Iloveyou。Don'tpretendanylongernottounderstandme,anddon'ttreatmeasifIwereafool。"
  Theywerefacetoface,treadingwater,merelymovingtheirhandsalittle,tosteadythemselves。Shewasstillforamoment,asifshecouldnotmakeoutthemeaningofhiswords,thenshesuddenlyblusheduptotherootsofherhair。Herwholefacegrewpurplefromhernecktoherears,whichbecamealmostviolet,andwithoutansweringawordshefledtowardtheshore,swimmingwithallherstrengthwithhastystrokes。Hecouldnotkeepupwithherandpantedwithfatigueashefollowed。Hesawherleavethewater,pickuphercloak,andgotoherdressing-roomwithoutlookingback。
  Ittookhimalongtimetodress,verymuchperplexedastowhatheoughttodo,puzzledoverwhatheshouldsaytoher,andwonderingwhetherheoughttoexcusehimselforpersevere。Whenhewasready,shehadgoneawayallalone。Hewentbackslowly,anxiousanddisturbed。
  TheMarquisewasstrolling,onSaval'sarm,inthecircularpatharoundthelawn。AssheobservedServigny,shesaid,withthatcarelessairwhichshehadmaintainedsincethenightbefore。
  "Itoldyounottogooutinsuchhotweather。AndnowYvettehascomebackalmostwithasunstroke。Shehasgonetoliedown。Shewasasredasapoppy,thepoorchild,andshehasafrightfulheadache。Youmusthavebeenwalkinginthefullsunlight,oryoumusthavedonesomethingfoolish。Youareasunreasonableasshe。"
  Theyounggirldidnotcomedowntodinner。Whentheywantedtosendherupsomethingtoeatshecalledthroughthedoorthatshewasnothungry,forshehadshutherselfin,andshebeggedthattheywouldleaveherundisturbed。Thetwoyoungmenleftbytheteno'clocktrain,promisingtoreturnthefollowingThursday,andtheMarquiseseatedherselfattheopenwindowtodream,hearinginthedistancetheorchestraoftheboatmen'sball,withitssprightlymusic,inthedeepandsolemnsilenceofthenight。
  Swayedbyloveasapersonismovedbyafondnessforhorsesorboating,shewassubjecttosuddentendernesseswhichcreptoverherlikeadisease。Thesepassionstookpossessionofhersuddenly,penetratedherentirebeing,maddenedher,enervatedoroverwhelmedher,inmeasureastheywereofanexalted,violent,dramatic,orsentimentalcharacter。
  Shewasoneofthosewomenwhoarecreatedtoloveandtobeloved。
  Startingfromaverylowstationinlife,shehadriseninheradventurouscareer,actinginstinctively,withinborncleverness,acceptingmoneyandkisses,naturally,withoutdistinguishingbetweenthem,employingherextraordinaryabilityinanunthinkingandsimplefashion。Fromallherexperiencesshehadneverknowneitheragenuinetendernessoragreatrepulsion。
  Shehadhadvariousfriends,forshehadtolive,asintravelingapersoneatsatmanytables。Butoccasionallyherhearttookfire,andshereallyfellinlove,whichstatelastedforsomeweeksormonths,accordingtoconditions。Thesewerethedeliciousmomentsofherlife,forshelovedwithallhersoul。Shecastherselfuponloveasapersonthrowshimselfintotherivertodrownhimself,andletherselfbecarriedaway,readytodie,ifneedbe,intoxicated,maddened,infinitelyhappy。Sheimaginedeachtimethatsheneverhadexperiencedanythinglikesuchanattachment,andshewouldhavebeengreatlyastonishedifsomeonehadtoldherofhowmanymenshehaddreamedwholenightsthrough,lookingatthestars。
  Savalhadcaptivatedher,bodyandsoul。Shedreamedofhim,lulledbyhisfaceandhismemory,inthecalmexaltationofconsummatedlove,ofpresentandcertainhappiness。
  Asoundbehindhermadeherturnaround。Yvettehadjustentered,stillinherdaytimedress,butpale,witheyesglittering,assometimesisthecaseaftersomegreatfatigue。Sheleanedonthesilloftheopenwindow,facinghermother。
  "Iwanttospeaktoyou,"shesaid。
  TheMarquiselookedatherinastonishment。Shelovedherlikeanegotisticalmother,proudofherbeauty,asapersonisproudofafortune,tooprettystillherselftobecomejealous,tooindifferenttoplantheschemeswithwhichtheychargedher,tooclever,nevertheless,nottohavefullconsciousnessofherdaughter'svalue。
  "Iamlistening,mychild,"shesaid;"whatisit?"
  Yvettegaveherapiercinglook,asiftoreadthedepthsofhersoulandtoseizeallthesensationswhichherwordsmightawake。
  "Itisthis。Somethingstrangehasjusthappened。"
  "Whatcanitbe?"
  "MonsieurdeServignyhastoldmethathelovesme。"
  TheMarquise,disturbed,waitedamoment,and,asYvettesaidnothingmore,sheasked:
  "Howdidhetellyouthat?Explainyourself!"
  Thentheyounggirl,sittingathermother'sfeet,inacoaxingattitudecommonwithher,andclaspingherhands,added:
  "Heaskedmetomarryhim。"
  MadameObardimadeasuddengestureofstupefactionandcried:
  "Servigny!Why!youarecrazy!"
  Yvettehadnottakenhereyesoffhermother'sface,watchingherthoughtsandhersurprise。Sheaskedwithaseriousvoice:
  "WhyamIcrazy?WhyshouldnotMonsieurdeServignymarryme?"
  TheMarquise,embarrassed,stammered:
  "Youaremistaken,itisnotpossible。Youeitherdidnothearordidnotunderstand。MonsieurdeServignyistoorichforyou,andtoomuchofaParisiantomarry。"Yvetterosesoftly。Sheadded:
  "Butifhelovesmeashesayshedoes,mamma?"
  Hermotherreplied,withsomeimpatience:"Ithoughtyoubigenoughandwiseenoughnottohavesuchideas。Servignyisaman-about-townandanegotist。Hewillnevermarryanyonebutawomanofhissetandhisfortune。Ifheaskedyouinmarriage,itisonlythathewants——"
  TheMarquise,incapableofexpressinghermeaning,wassilentforamoment,thencontinued:"Comenow,leavemealoneandgotobed。"
  Andtheyounggirl,asifshehadlearnedwhatshesoughttofindout,answeredinadocilevoice:"Yes,mamma!"
  Shekissedhermotherontheforeheadandwithdrewwithacalmstep。
  Asshereachedthedoor,theMarquisecalledout:"Andyoursunstroke?"shesaid。
  "Ididnothaveoneatall。Itwasthatwhichcausedeverything。"
  TheMarquiseadded:"Wewillnotspeakofitagain。Onlydon'tstayalonewithhimforsometimefromnow,andbeverysurethathewillnevermarryyou,doyouunderstand,andthathemerelymeansto——
  compromiseyou。"
  Shecouldnotfindbetterwordstoexpressherthought。Yvettewenttoherroom。MadameObardibegantodream。Livingforyearsinanopulentandlovingrepose,shehadcarefullyputasideallreflectionswhichmightannoyorsaddenher。Neverhadshebeenwillingtoaskherselfthequestion——WhatwouldbecomeofYvette?
  Itwouldbesoonenoughtothinkaboutthedifficultieswhentheyarrived。Shewellknew,fromherexperience,thatherdaughtercouldnotmarryamanwhowasrichandofgoodsociety,exceptingbyatotallyimprobablechance,byoneofthosesurprisesoflovewhichplaceadventuressesonthrones。
  Shehadnotconsideredit,furthermore,beingtoomuchoccupiedwithherselftomakeanyplanswhichdidnotdirectlyconcernherself。
  Yvettewoulddoashermother,undoubtedly。Shewouldleadagaylife。Whynot?ButtheMarquisehadneverdaredaskwhen,orhow。
  Thatwouldallcomeaboutintime。
  Andnowherdaughter,allofasudden,withoutwarning,hadaskedoneofthosequestionswhichcouldnotbeanswered,forcinghertotakeanattitudeinanaffair,sodelicate,sodangerousineveryrespect,andsodisturbingtotheconsciencewhichawomanisexpectedtoshowinmattersconcerningherdaughter。
  Sometimesnoddingbutneverasleep,shehadtoomuchnaturalastutenesstobedeceivedaminuteaboutServigny'sintentions,forsheknewmenbyexperience,andespeciallymenofthatset。SoatthefirstwordsutteredbyYvette,shehadcriedalmostinspiteofherself:"Servigny,marryyou?Youarecrazy!"
  Howhadhecometoemploythatoldmethod,he,thatsharpmanoftheworld?Whatwouldhedonow?Andshe,theyounggirl,howshouldshewarnhermoreclearlyandevenforbidher,forshemightmakegreatmistakes。Wouldanyonehavebelievedthatthisbiggirlhadremainedsoartless,soillinformed,soguileless?AndtheMarquise,greatlyperplexedandalreadyweariedwithherreflections,endeavoredtomakeuphermindwhattodowithoutfindingasolutionoftheproblem,forthesituationseemedtoherveryembarrassing。Wornoutwiththisworry,shethought:
  "Iwillwatchthemmoreclearly,Iwillactaccordingtocircumstances。Ifnecessary,IwillspeaktoServigny,whoissharpandwilltakeahint。"
  Shedidnotthinkoutwhatsheshouldsaytohim,norwhathewouldanswer,norwhatsortofanunderstandingcouldbeestablishedbetweenthem,buthappyatbeingrelievedofthiscarewithouthavinghadtomakeadecision,sheresumedherdreamsofthehandsomeSaval,andturningtowardthatmistylightwhichhoversoverParis,shethrewkisseswithbothhandstowardthegreatcity,rapidkisseswhichshetossedintothedarkness,oneaftertheother,withoutcounting;and,verylow,asifsheweretalkingtoSavalstill,shemurmured:
  "Iloveyou,Iloveyou!"
  CHAPTERIII。
  ENLIGHTENMENT
  Yvette,also,couldnotsleep。Likehermother,sheleaneduponthesilloftheopenwindow,andtears,herfirstbittertears,filledhereyes。Uptothistimeshehadlived,hadgrownup,intheheedlessandsereneconfidenceofhappyyouth。Whyshouldshehavedreamed,reflected,puzzled?Whyshouldshenothavebeenayounggirl,likeallotheryounggirls?Whyshouldadoubt,afear,orpainfulsuspicionhavecometoher?
  Sheseemedpostedonalltopicsbecauseshehadawayoftalkingonallsubjects,becauseshehadtakenthetone,demeanor,andwordsofthepeoplewholivedaroundher。Butshereallyknewnomorethanalittlegirlraisedinaconvent;heraudacitiesofspeechcamefromhermemory,fromthatunconsciousfacultyofimitationandassimilationwhichwomenpossess,andnotfromamindinstructedandemboldened。
  Shespokeofloveasthesonofapainteroramusicianwould,attheageoftenortwelveyears,speakofpaintingormusic。Shekneworrathersuspectedverywellwhatsortofmysterythiswordconcealed;——toomanyjokeshadbeenwhisperedbeforeher,forherinnocencenottobeatrifleenlightened,——buthowcouldshehavedrawntheconclusionfromallthis,thatallfamiliesdidnotresemblehers?
  Theykissedhermother'shandwiththesemblanceofrespect;alltheirfriendshadtitles;theyallwererichorseemedtobeso;
  theyallspokefamiliarlyoftheprincesoftheroyalline。Twosonsofkingshadevencomeoften,intheevening,totheMarquise'shouse。Howshouldshehaveknown?
  And,then,shewasnaturallyartless。Shedidnotestimateorsumuppeopleashermother,did。Shelivedtranquilly,toojoyousinherlifetoworryherselfaboutwhatmightappearsuspicioustocreaturesmorecalm,thoughtful,reserved,lesscordial,andsunny。
  Butnow,allatonce,Servigny,byafewwords,thebrutalityofwhichshefeltwithoutunderstandingthem,awakenedinherasuddendisquietude,unreasoningatfirst,butwhichgrewintoatormentingapprehension。Shehadfledhome,hadescapedlikeawoundedanimal,woundedinfactmostdeeplybythosewordswhichsheceaselesslyrepeatedtogetalltheirsenseandbearing:"Youknowverywellthattherecanbenoquestionofmarriagebetweenus——butonlyoflove。"
  Whatdidhemean?Andwhythisinsult?Wasshetheninignoranceofsomething,somesecret,someshame?Shewastheonlyoneignorantofit,nodoubt。Butwhatcouldshedo?Shewasfrightened,startled,asapersoniswhenhediscoverssomehiddeninfamy,sometreasonofabelovedfriend,oneofthoseheart-disasterswhichcrush。