Theblankmighthavebeenanhouroracentury。Heknewonlythatomethinghadhappenedintheinterval。Whatiswashecouldnottell。
Hefoundgreatdifficultyincatchingthethreadofhisidentityagain。
Hefeltthathewashimself;butthetroublewastomakehisconnections,toverifyandplacehimself,toknowwhoandwherehewas。
Atlastitgrewclear。JohnWeightmanwassittingonastone,notfarfromaroadinastrangeland。
Theroadwasnotaformalhighway,fencedandgraded。Itwasmorelikeagreattravel-trace,wornbythousandsoffeetpassingacrosstheopencountryinthesamedirection。Downinthevalley,intowhichhecouldlook,theroadseemedtoformitselfgraduallyoutofmanyminorpaths;littlefootwayscomingacrossthemeadows,windingtracksfollowingalongbesidethestreams,faintlymarkedtrailsemergingfromthewoodlands。Butonthehillsidethethreadsweremorefirmlywovenintooneclearbandoftravel,thoughtherewerestillafewdimpathsjoiningithereandthere,asifpersonshadbeenclimbingupthehillbyotherwaysandhadturnedatlasttoseektheroad。
Fromtheedgeofthehill,whereJohnWeightmansat,hecouldseethetravelers,inlittlegroupsorlargercompanies,gatheringfromtimetotimebythedifferentpaths,andmakingtheascent。
Theywereallclothedinwhite,andtheformoftheirgarmentswasstrangetohim;itwaslikesomeoldpicture。Theypassedhim,groupaftergroup,talkingquietlytogetherorsinging;notmovinginhaste,butwithacertainairofeagernessandjoyasiftheyweregladtobeontheirwaytoanappointedplace。Theydidnotstaytospeaktohim,buttheylookedathimoftenandspoketooneanotherastheylooked;andnowandthenoneofthemwouldsmileandbeckonhimafriendlygreeting,sothathefelttheywouldlikehimtobewiththem。
Therewasquiteanintervalbetweenthegroups;andhefollowedeachofthemwithhiseyesafterithadpassed,blanchingthelongribbonoftheroadforalittletransientspace,risingandrecedingacrossthewide,billowyupland,amongtheroundedhillocksofaerialgreenandgoldandlilac,untilitcametothehighhorizon,andstoodoutlinedforamoment,atinycloudofwhitenessagainstthetenderblue,beforeitvanishedoverthehill。
Foralongtimehesattherewatchingandwondering。ItwasaverydifferentworldfromthatinwhichhismansionontheAvenuewasbuilt;anditlookedstrangetohim,butmostreal——asrealasanythinghehadeverseen。Presentlyhefeltastrongdesiretoknowwhatcountryitwasandwherethepeopleweregoing。
Hehadafaintpremonitionofwhatitmustbe,buthewishedtobesure。
Soherosefromthestonewherehewassitting,andcamedownthroughtheshortgrassandthelavenderflowers,towardapassinggroupofpeople。
Oneofthemturnedtomeethim,andheldouthishand。Itwasanoldman,underwhosewhitebeardandbrowsJohnWeightmanthoughthesawasuggestionofthefaceofthevillagedoctorwhohadcaredforhimyearsago,whenhewasaboyinthecountry。
"Welcome,"saidtheoldman。"Willyoucomewithus?"
"Whereareyougoing?"
"Totheheavenlycity,toseeourmansionsthere。"
"Andwhoarethesewithyou?"
"Strangerstome,untilalittlewhileago;Iknowthembetternow。
ButyouIhaveknownforalongtime,JohnWeightman。Don'tyourememberyourolddoctor?"
"Yes,"hecried——"yes;yourvoicehasnotchangedatall。
I'mgladindeedtoseeyou,DoctorMcLean,especiallynow。
Allthisseemsverystrangetome,almostoppressive。
Iwonderif——butmayIgowithyou,doyousuppose?"
"Surely,"answeredthedoctor,withhisfamiliarsmile;"itwilldoyougood。Andyoualsomusthaveamansioninthecitywaitingforyou——afineone,too——areyounotlookingforwardtoit?"
"Yes,"repliedtheother,hesitatingamoment;"yes——Ibelieveitmustbeso,althoughIhadnotexpectedtoseeitsosoon。
ButIwillgowithyou,andwecantalkbytheway。"
Thetwomenquicklycaughtupwiththeotherpeople,andallwentforwardtogetheralongtheroad。Thedoctorhadlittletotellofhisexperience,forithadbeenaplain,hardlife,uneventfullyspentforothers,andthestoryofthevillagewasverysimple。JohnWeightman'sadventuresandtriumphswouldhavemadeafarricher,moreimposinghistory,fullofcontactswiththegreateventsandpersonagesofthetime。
Butsomehoworotherhedidnotcaretospeakmuchaboutit,walkingonthatwideheavenlymoorland,underthattranquil,sunlessarchofblue,inthatfreeairofperfectpeace,wherethelightwasdiffusedwithoutashadow,asifthespiritoflifeinallthingswereluminous。
TherewasonlyonepersonbesidesthedoctorinthatlittlecompanywhomJohnWeightmanhadknownbefore——anoldbookkeeperwhohadspenthislifeoveradesk,carefullykeepingaccounts——arusty,dulllittleman,patientandnarrow,whosewifehadbeenintheinsaneasylumfortwentyyearsandwhoseonlychildwasacrippleddaughter,forwhosecomfortandhappinesshehadtoiledandsacrificedhimselfwithoutstint。
Itwasasurprisetofindhimhere,ascare-freeandjoyfulastherest。
Thelivesofothersinthecompanywererevealedinbriefglimpsesastheytalkedtogether——amother,earlywidowed,whohadkeptherlittleflockofchildrentogetherandlaboredthroughhardandheavyyearstobringthemupinpurityandknowledge——aSisterofCharitywhohaddevotedherselftothenursingofpoorfolkwhowerebeingeatentodeathbycancer——aschoolmasterwhoseheartandlifehadbeenpouredintohisquietworkoftrainingboysforacleanandthoughtfulmanhood——amedicalmissionarywhohadgivenupabrilliantcareerinsciencetotakethechargeofahospitalindarkestAfrica——abeautifulwomanwithsilverhairwhohadresignedherdreamsofloveandmarriagetocareforaninvalidfather,andafterhisdeathhadmadeherlifealong,steadysearchforwaysofdoingkindnessestoothers——apoetwhohadwalkedamongthecrowdedtenementsofthegreatcity,bringingcheerandcomfortnotonlybyhissongs,butbyhiswiseandpatientworksofpracticalaid——aparalyzedwomanwhohadlainforthirtyyearsuponherbed,helplessbutnothopeless,succeedingbyamiracleofcourageinhersingleaim,nevertocomplain,butalwaystoimpartabitofjoyandpeacetoeveryonewhocamenearher。Allthese,andotherpersonslikethem,peopleoflittleconsiderationintheworld,butnowseeminglyallfullofgreatcontentmentandaninwardgladnessthatmadetheirstepslight,wereinthecompanythatpassedalongtheroad,talkingtogetherofthingspastandthingstocome,andsingingnowandthenwithclearvoicesfromwhichtheveilofageandsorrowwaslifted。
JohnWeightmanjoinedinsomeofthesongs——whichwerefamiliartohimfromtheiruseinthechurch——atfirstwithatouchofhesitation,andthenmoreconfidently。Forastheywentonhissenseofstrangenessandfearathisnewexperiencediminished,andhisthoughtsbegantotakeontheirhabitualassuranceandcomplacency。WerenotthesepeoplegoingtotheCelestialCity?Andwasnotheinhisrightplaceamongthem?Hehadalwayslookedforwardtothisjourney。
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