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第4章

  I'mverygratefultoyou,andwe'llpartfriends。Good-night,sir。"
  Thefatherheldouthishandinsilence。Theheavyportieredroppednoiselesslybehindtheson,andhewentupthewide,curvingstairwaytohisownroom。
  MeantimeJohnWeightmansatinhiscarvedchairintheJacobeandining-room。Hefeltstrangelyoldanddull。TheportraitsofbeautifulwomenbyLawrenceandReynoldsandRaeburn,whichhadoftenseemedlikerealcompanytohim,lookedremoteanduninteresting。
  Hefanciedsomethingcoldandalmostunfriendlyintheirexpression,asiftheywerestaringthroughhimorbeyondhim。Theycarednothingforhisprinciples,hishopes,hisdisappointments,hissuccesses;
  theybelongedtoanotherworld,inwhichhehadnoplace。Atthishefeltavagueresentment,asenseofdiscomfortthathecouldnothavedefinedorexplained。Hewasusedtobeingconsidered,respected,appreciatedathisfullvalueineveryregion,eveninthatofhisowndreams。
  Presentlyherangforthebutler,tellinghimtoclosethehouseandnottositup,andwalkedwithlaggingstepsintothelonglibrary,wheretheshadedlampswereburning。Hiseyefelluponthelowshelvesfullofcostlybooks,buthehadnodesiretoopenthem。Eventhecarefullychosenpicturesthathungabovethemseemedtohavelosttheirattraction。HepausedforamomentbeforeanidyllofCorot——adanceofnymphsaroundsomeforgottenaltarinavaporousglade——andlookedatitcuriously。Therewassomethingrapturousandsereneaboutthepicture,abreathofspring-timeinthemistytrees,aharmonyofjoyinthedancingfigures,thatwakenedinhimafeelingofhalf-pleasureandhalf-envy。Itrepresentedsomethingthathehadneverknowninhiscalculated,orderlylife。Hewasdimlymistrustfulofit。
  "Itiscertainlyverybeautiful,"hethought,"butitisdistinctlypagan;
  thataltarisbuilttosomeheathengod。ItdoesnotfitintotheschemeofaChristianlife。Idoubtwhetheritisconsistentwiththetoneofmyhouse。Iwillsellitthiswinter。ItwillbringthreeorfourtimeswhatIpaidforit。Thatwasagoodpurchase,averygoodbargain。"
  Hedroppedintotherevolvingchairbeforehisbiglibrarytable。
  Itwascoveredwithpamphletsandreportsofthevariousenterprisesinwhichhewasinterested。Therewasapileofnewspaperclippingsinwhichhisnamewasmentionedwithpraiseforhissustainingpowerasapillaroffinance,forhisjudiciousbenevolence,forhissupportofwiseandprudentreformmovements,forhisdiscretioninmakingpermanentpublicgifts——"theWeightmanCharities,"oneverycomplaisanteditorcalledthem,asiftheydeservedclassificationasadistinctspecies。
  Heturnedhepapersoverlistlessly。Therewasadescriptionandapictureofthe"WeightmanWingoftheHospitalforCripples,"
  ofwhichhewaspresident;andanarticleonthenewprofessorinthe"WeightmanChairofPoliticalJurisprudence"inJacksonUniversity,ofwhichhewasatrustee;andanillustratedaccountoftheopeningofthe"WeightmanGrammar-School"atDulwich-on-the-Sound,wherehehadhislegalresidenceforpurposesoftaxation。
  ThislastwasperhapsthemostcarefullyplannedofalltheWeightmanCharities。Hedesiredtowintheconfidenceandsupportofhisruralneighbors。IthadpleasedhimmuchwhenthelocalnewspaperhadspokenofhimasanidealcitizenandthelogicalcandidatefortheGovernorshipoftheState;butuponthewholeitseemedtohimwisertokeepoutofactivepolitics。ItwouldbeeasierandbettertoputHaroldintotherunning,tohavehimsenttotheLegislaturefromtheDulwichdistrict,thentothenationalHouse,thentotheSenate。
  Whynot?TheWeightmaninterestswerelargeenoughtoneedadirectrepresentativeandguardianatWashington。
  Butto-nightalltheseplanscamebacktohimwithdustuponthem。
  Theyweredryandcrumblinglikeforsakenhabitations。Thesonuponwhomhiscomplacentambitionhadrestedhadturnedhisbackuponthemansionofhisfather'shopes。Thebreakmightnotbefinal;
  andinanyeventtherewouldbemuchtolivefor;thefortunesofthefamilywouldbesecure。ButthezestofitallwouldbegoneifJohnWeightmanhadtogiveuptheassuranceofperpetuatinghisnameandhisprinciplesinhisson。Itwasabitterdisappointment,andhefeltthathehadnotdeservedit。
  Herosefromthechairandpacedtheroomwithleadenfeet。
  Forthefirsttimeinhislifehisagewasvisiblyuponhim。
  Hisheadwasheavyandhot,andthethoughtsthatrolledinitwereconfusedanddepressing。Coulditbethathehadmadeamistakeintheprinciplesofhisexistence?TherewasnoargumentinwhatHaroldhadsaid——itwasalmostchildish——andyetithadshakentheeldermanmoredeeplythanhecaredtoshow。
  Itheldasilentattackwhichtouchedhimmorethanopencriticism。
  Supposetheendofhislifewerenearerthanhethought——theendmustcomesometime——whatifitwerenow?Hadhenotfoundedhishouseuponarock?HadhenotkepttheCommandments?
  Washenot,"touchingthelaw,blameless"?Andbeyondthis,evenifthereweresomefaultsinhischaracter——andallmenaresinners——
  yethesurelybelievedinthesavingdoctrinesofreligion——theforgivenessofsins,theresurrectionofthebody,thelifeeverlasting。
  Yes,thatwasthetruesourceofcomfort,afterall。HewouldreadabitintheBible,ashedideverynight,andgotobedandtosleep。
  Hewentbacktohischairatthelibrarytable。Astrangeweightofwearinessresteduponhim,butheopenedthebookatafamiliarplace,andhiseyesfellupontheverseatthebottomofthepage。
  "Laynotupforyourselvestreasuresuponearth。"
  Thathadbeenthetextofthesermonafewweeksbefore。
  Sleepily,heavily,hetriedtofixhisminduponitandrecallit。
  WhatwasitthatDoctorSnodgrasshadsaid?Ah,yes——thatitwasamistaketopausehereinreadingtheverse。Wemustreadonwithoutapause——Laynotuptreasuresuponearthwheremothandrustdocorruptandwherethievesbreakthroughandsteal——thatwasthetruedoctrine。
  Wemayhavetreasuresuponearth,buttheymustnotbeputintounsafeplaces,butintosafeplaces。Amostcomfortingdoctrine!
  Hehadalwaysfollowedit。Mothsandrustandthieveshaddonenoharmtohisinvestments。
  JohnWeightman'sdroopingeyesturnedtothenextverse,atthetopofthesecondcolumn。
  "Butlayupforyourselvestreasuresinheaven。"
  NowwhathadtheDoctorsaidaboutthat?Howwasittobeunderstood——inwhatsense——treasures——inheaven?
  Thebookseemedtofloatawayfromhim。Thelightvanished。
  HewondereddimlyifthiscouldbeDeath,comingsosuddenly,soquietly,soirresistibly。Hestruggledforamomenttoholdhimselfup,andthensankslowlyforwarduponthetable。Hisheadresteduponhisfoldedhands。Heslippedintotheunknown。
  Howlongafterwardconsciouslifereturnedtohimhedidnotknow。