首页 >出版文学> Memoirs of Carwin the Biloquist>第6章
  Shewas,itseems,thewidowofBenington,whomIknewinSpain。ThismanwasanEnglishmerchantsettledatBarcelona,towhomIhadbeencommendedbyLudloe'sletters,andthroughwhommypecuniarysupplieswerefurnished……Muchintercourseandsomedegreeofintimacyhadtakenplacebetweenus,andIhadgainedaprettyaccurateknowledgeofhischaracter。Ihadbeeninformed,throughdifferentchannels,thathiswifewasmuchhissuperiorinrank,thatshepossessedgreatwealthinherownright,andthatsomedisagreementoftemperorviewsoccasionedtheirseparation。Shehadmarriedhimforlove,andstilldoatedonhim:
  theoccasionsforseparationhavingarisen,itseems,notonhersidebutonhis。Ashishabitsofreflectionwerenowisefriendlytoreligion,andashers,accordingtoLudloe,wereoftheoppositekind,itispossiblethatsomejarringhadarisenbetweenthemfromthissource。Indeed,fromsomecasualandbrokenhintsofBenington,especiallyinthelatterpartofhislife,Ihadlongsincegatheredthisconjecture……Something,thoughtI,maybederivedfrommyacquaintancewithherhusbandfavourabletomyviews。
  IanxiouslywaitedforanopportunityofacquaintingLudloewithmyresolution。Onthedayofourlastconversation,hehadmadeashortexcursionfromtown,intendingtoreturnthesameevening,buthadcontinuedabsentforseveraldays。Assoonashecameback,Ihastenedtoacquainthimwithmywishes。
  Haveyouwellconsideredthismatter,saidhe。Beassureditisofnotrivialimport。Themomentatwhichyouenterthepresenceofthiswomanwilldecideyourfuturedestiny。Evenputtingoutofviewthesubjectofourlateconversations,thelightinwhichyoushallappeartoherwillgreatlyinfluenceyourhappiness,since,thoughyoucannotfailtoloveher,itisquiteuncertainwhatreturnshemaythinkpropertomake。Much,doubtless,willdependonyourownperseveranceandaddress,butyouwillhavemany,perhapsinsuperableobstaclestoencounteronseveralaccounts,andespeciallyinherattachmenttothememoryofherlatehusband。Astoherdevouttemper,thisisnearlyalliedtoawarmimaginationinsomeotherrespects,andwilloperatemuchmoreinfavourofanardentandartfullover,thanagainsthim。
  Istillexpressedmywillingnesstotrymyfortunewithher。
  Well,saidhe,Ianticipatedyourconsenttomyproposal,andthevisitIhavejustmadewastoher。Ithoughtitbesttopavetheway,byinformingherthatIhadmetwithoneforwhomshehaddesiredmetolookout。Youmustknowthatherfatherwasoneofthesesingularmenwhosetavalueuponthingsexactlyinproportiontothedifficultyofobtainingorcomprehendingthem。
  Hispassionwasforantiques,andhisfavouritepursuitduringalonglifewasmonumentsinbrass,marble,andparchment,oftheremotestantiquity。Hewaswhollyindifferenttothecharacterorconductofourpresentsovereignandhisministers,butwasextremelysolicitousaboutthenameandexploitsofakingofIrelandthatlivedtwoorthreecenturiesbeforetheflood。Hefeltnocuriositytoknowwhowasthefatherofhiswife'schild,butwouldtravelathousandmiles,andconsumemonths,ininvestigatingwhichsonofNoahitwasthatfirstlandedonthecoastofMunster。Hewouldgiveahundredguineasfromthemintforapieceofolddecayedcoppernobiggerthanhisnail,providedithadaukwardcharactersuponit,toomuchdefacedtoberead。
  Thewholestockofagreatbooksellerwas,inhiseyes,acheapexchangeforashredofparchment,containinghalfahomilywrittenbySt。Patrick。HewouldhavegratefullygivenallhispatrimonialdomainstoonewhoshouldinformhimwhatpendragonordruiditwaswhosetupthefirststoneonSalisburyplain。
  Thisspirit,asyoumayreadilysuppose,beingsecondedbygreatwealthandlonglife,contributedtoformaverylargecollectionofvenerablelumber,which,thoughbeyondallpricetothecollectorhimself,isofnovaluetohisheiressbutsofarasitismarketable。Shedesignstobringthewholetoauction,butforthispurposeacatalogueanddescriptionarenecessary。Herfathertrustedtoafaithfulmemory,andtovagueandscarcelylegiblememorandums,andhasleftaveryarduoustasktoanyonewhoshallbenamedtotheoffice。Itoccurredtome,thatthebestmeansofpromotingyourviewswastorecommendyoutothisoffice。
  Youarenotentirelywithouttheantiquarianfrenzyyourself。
  Theemployment,therefore,willbesomewhatagreeabletoyouforitsownsake。Itwillentitleyoutobecomeaninmateofthesamehouse,andthusestablishanincessantintercoursebetweenyou,andthenatureofthebusinessissuch,thatyoumayperformitinwhattime,andwithwhatdegreeofdiligenceandaccuracyyouplease。
  Iventuredtoinsinuatethat,toawomanofrankandfamily,thecharacterofahirelingwasbynomeansafavourablerecommendation。
  Heanswered,thatheproposed,bytheaccountheshouldgiveofme,toobviateeveryscrupleofthatnature。Thoughmyfatherwasnobetterthanafarmer,itisnotabsolutelycertainbutthatmyremoterancestorshadprincelybloodintheirveins:butaslongasproofsofmylowextractiondidnotimpertinentlyintrudethemselves,mysilence,or,atmost,equivocalsurmises,seasonablymadeuseof,mightsecuremefromallinconveniencesonthescoreofbirth。Heshouldrepresentme,andIwassuch,ashisfriend,favourite,andequal,andmypassionforantiquitiesshouldbemyprincipalinducementtoundertakethisoffice,thoughmypovertywouldmakenoobjectiontoareasonablepecuniaryrecompense。
  Havingexpressedmyacquiescenceinhismeasures,hethusproceeded:Myvisitwasmadetomykinswoman,forthepurpose,asIjustnowtoldyou,ofpavingyourwayintoherfamily;but,onmyarrivalatherhouse,Ifoundnothingbutdisorderandalarm。Mrs。
  Benington,itseems,onreturningfromalongerridethancustomary,lastThursdayevening,wasattackedbyrobbers。Herattendantsrelatedanimperfecttaleofsomebodyadvancingatthecriticalmomenttoherrescue。Itseems,however,theydidmoreharmthangood;forthehorsestooktoflightandoverturnedthecarriage,inconsequenceofwhichMrs。Beningtonwasseverelybruised。Shehaskeptherbedeversince,andafeverwaslikelytoensue,whichhasonlyleftheroutofdangerto-day。
  Astheadventurebeforerelated,inwhichIhadsomuchconcern,occurredatthetimementionedbyLudloe,andasallothercircumstanceswerealike,IcouldnotdoubtthatthepersonwhomtheexertionofmymysteriouspowershadrelievedwasMrs。
  Benington:butwhatanill-omenedinterferencewasmine!Therobberswouldprobablyhavebeensatisfiedwiththefewguineasinherpurse,and,onreceivingthese,wouldhavelefthertoprosecuteherjourneyinpeaceandsecurity,but,byabsurdlyofferingasuccour,whichcouldonlyoperateuponthefearsofherassailants,Iendangeredherlife,firstbythedesperatedischargeofapistol,andnextbythefrightofthehorses……
  Myanxiety,whichwouldhavebeenlessifIhadnotbeen,insomedegree,myselftheauthoroftheevil,wasnearlyremovedbyLudloe'sproceedingtoassuremethatalldangerwasatanend,andthathelefttheladyintheroadtoperfecthealth。Hehadseizedtheearliestopportunityofacquaintingherwiththepurposeofhisvisit,andhadbroughtbackwithhimhercheerfulacceptanceofmyservices。Thenextweekwasappointedformyintroduction。
  Withsuchanobjectinview,Ihadlittleleisuretoattendtoanyindifferentobject。Mythoughtswerecontinuallybentupontheexpectedintroduction,andmyimpatienceandcuriositydrewstrength,notmerelyfromthecharacterofMrs。Benington,butfromthenatureofmynewemployment。Ludloehadtrulyobserved,thatIwasinfectedwithsomewhatofthisantiquarianmaniamyself,andInowrememberedthatBeningtonhadfrequentlyalludedtothiscollectioninpossessionofhiswife。Mycuriosityhadthenbeenmorethanonceexcitedbyhisrepresentations,andIhadformedavagueresolutionofmakingmyselfacquaintedwiththisladyandherlearnedtreasure,shouldIeverreturntoIrelandOtherincidentshaddriventhismatterfrommymind。
  Meanwhile,affairsbetweenLudloeandmyselfremainedstationary。Ourconferences,whichwereregularanddaily,relatedtogeneraltopics,andthoughhisinstructionswereadaptedtopromotemyimprovementinthemostusefulbranchesofknowledge,theyneveraffordedaglimpsetowardsthatquarterwheremycuriositywasmostactive。
  Thenextweeknowarrived,butLudloeinformedmethatthestateofMrs。Benington'shealthrequiredashortexcursionintothecountry,andthathehimselfproposedtobearhercompany。Thejourneywastolastaboutafortnight,afterwhichImightpreparemyselfforanintroductiontoher。
  Thiswasaveryunexpectedanddisagreeabletrialtomypatience。Theintervalofsolitudethatnowsucceededwouldhavepassedrapidlyandpleasantlyenough,ifaneventofsomuchmomentwerenotinsuspense。Books,ofwhichIwaspassionatelyfond,wouldhaveaffordedmedelightfulandincessantoccupation,andLudloe,bywayofreconcilingmetounavoidabledelays,hadgivenmeaccesstoalittlecloset,inwhichhisrarerandmorevaluablebookswerekept。
  Allmyamusements,bothbyinclinationandnecessity,werecenteredinmyselfandathome。Ludloeappearedtohavenovisitants,andthoughfrequentlyabroad,oratleastsecludedfromme,hadneverproposedmyintroductiontoanyofhisfriends,exceptMrs。Benington。Myobligationstohimwerealreadytoogreattoallowmetolayclaimtonewfavoursandindulgences,nor,indeed,wasmydispositionsuchastomakesocietyneedfultomyhappiness。Mycharacterhadbeen,insomedegree,modelledbythefacultywhichIpossessed。Thisderivingallitssupposedvaluefromimpenetrablesecrecy,andLudloe'sadmonitionstendingpowerfullytoimpressmewiththenecessityofwarinessandcircumspectioninmygeneralintercoursewithmankind,Ihadgraduallyfallenintosedate,reserved,mysterious,andunsociablehabits。Myheartwantednotafriend。
  Inthistemperofmind,IsetmyselftoexaminethenoveltieswhichLudloe'sprivatebook-casescontained。'Twillbestrange,thoughtI,ifhisfavouritevolumedonotshowsomemarksofmyfriend'scharacter。Toknowaman'sfavouriteormostconstantstudiescannotfailoflettinginsomelittlelightuponhissecretthoughts,andthoughhewouldnothavegivenmethereadingofthesebooks,ifhehadthoughtthemcapableofunveilingmoreofhisconcernsthanhewished,yetpossiblymyingenuitymaygoonestepfartherthanhedreamsof。YoushalljudgewhetherIwasrightinmyconjectures。
  ChapterIX。
  Thebookswhichcomposedthislittlelibrarywerechieflythevoyagesandtravelsofthemissionariesofthesixteenthandseventeenthcenturies。Addedtotheseweresomeworksuponpoliticaleconomyandlegislation。Thosewriterswhohaveamusedthemselveswithreducingtheirideastopractice,anddrawingimaginarypicturesofnationsorrepublics,whosemannersorgovernmentcameuptotheirstandardofexcellence,were,allofwhomIhadeverheard,andsomeIhadneverheardofbefore,tobefoundinthiscollection。AtranslationofAristotle'srepublic,thepoliticalromancesofsirThomasMoore,Harrington,andHume,appearedtohavebeenmuchread,andLudlowhadnotbeensparingofhismarginalcomments。Inthesewritersheappearedtofindnothingbuterrorandabsurdity;andhisnoteswereintroducedfornootherendthantopointoutgroundlessprinciplesandfalseconclusionsThestyleoftheseremarkswasalreadyfamiliartome。Isawnothingnewinthem,ordifferentfromthestrainofthosespeculationswithwhichLudlowwasaccustomedtoindulgehimselfinconversationwithme。
  Afterhavingturnedovertheleavesoftheprintedvolumes,I
  atlengthlightedonasmallbookofmaps,fromwhich,ofcourse,Icouldreasonablyexpectnoinformation,onthatpointaboutwhichIwasmostcurious。Itwasanatlas,inwhichthemapshadbeendrawnbythepen。Noneofthemcontainedanythingremarkable,sofarasI,whowasindeedasmattereringeography,wasabletoperceive,tillIcametotheend,whenInoticedamap,whoseprototypeIwaswhollyunacquaintedwith。Itwasdrawnonaprettylargescale,representingtwoislands,whichboresomefaintresemblance,intheirrelativeproportions,atleast,toGreatBritainandIreland。Inshapetheywerewidelydifferent,butastosizetherewasnoscalebywhichtomeasurethem。Fromthegreatnumberofsubdivisions,andfromsigns,whichapparentlyrepresentedtownsandcities,Iwasallowedtoinfer,thatthecountrywasatleastasextensiveastheBritishisles。Thismapwasapparentlyunfinished,forithadnonamesinscribeduponit。
  Ihavejustsaid,mygeographicalknowledgewasimperfect。
  ThoughIhadnotenoughtodrawtheoutlinesofanycountrybymemory,IhadstillsufficienttorecognizewhatIhadbeforeseen,andtodiscoverthatnoneofthelargerislandsinourgloberesembledtheonebeforeme。Havingsuchandsostrongmotivestocuriosity,youmayeasilyimaginemysensationsonsurveyingthismap。Suspecting,asIdid,thatmanyofLudlow'sintimationsalludedtoacountrywellknowntohim,thoughunknowntoothers,Iwas,ofcourse,inclinedtosupposethatthiscountrywasnowbeforeme。
  Insearchofsomecluetothismystery,Icarefullyinspectedtheothermapsinthiscollection。InamapoftheeasternhemisphereIsoonobservedtheoutlinesofislands,which,thoughonascalegreatlydiminished,wereplainlysimilartothatofthelandabovedescribed。
  ItiswellknownthatthepeopleofEuropearestrangerstoverynearlyonehalfofthesurfaceoftheglobe。*Fromthesouthpoleuptotheequator,itisonlythesmallspaceoccupiedbysouthernAfricaandbySouthAmericawithwhichweareacquainted。
  Thereisavastextent,sufficienttoreceiveacontinentaslargeasNorthAmerica,whichourignorancehasfilledonlywithwater。
  InLudlow'smapsnothingwasstilltobeseen,intheseregions,butwater,exceptinthatspotwherethetransverseparallelsofthesoutherntropicandthe150thdegreeeastlongitudeintersecteachother。OnthisspotwereLudlow'sislandsplaced,thoughwithoutanynameorinscriptionwhatever。
  IneedednottobetoldthatthisspothadneverbeenexploredbyanyEuropeanvoyager,whohadpublishedhisadventures。WhatauthorityhadLudlowforfixingahabitablelandinthisspot?andwhydidhegiveusnothingbutthecoursesofshoresandrivers,andthesciteoftownsandvillages,withoutaname?
  AssoonasLudlowhadsetoutuponhisproposedjourneyofafortnight,Iunlockedhiscloset,andcontinuedrummagingamongthesebooksandmapstillnight。BythattimeIhadturnedovereverybookandalmosteveryleafinthissmallcollection,anddidnotopentheclosetagaintillneartheendofthatperiod。
  MeanwhileIhadmanyreflectionsuponthisremarkablecircumstance。
  CouldLudlowhaveintendedthatIshouldseethisatlas?Itwastheonlybookthatcouldbestyledamanuscriptontheseshelves,anditwasplacedbeneathseveralothers,inasituationfarfrombeingobviousandforwardtotheeyeorthehand。Wasitanoversightinhimtoleaveitinmyway,orcouldhehaveintendedtoleadmycuriosityandknowledgealittlefartheronwardbythisaccidentaldisclosure?IneithercasehowwasItoregulatemyfuturedeportmenttowardhim?WasItospeakandactasifthisatlashadescapedmyattentionornot?Ihadalready,aftermyfirstexaminationofit,placedthevolumeexactlywhereIfoundit。OneverysuppositionIthoughtthiswasthesafestway,andunlockedtheclosetasecondtime,toseethatallwaspreciselyintheoriginalorderHowwasIdismayedandconfoundedoninspectingtheshelvestoperceivethattheatlaswasgone。Thiswasatheft,which,fromtheclosetbeingunderlockandkey,andthekeyalwaysinmyownpocket,andwhich,fromtheverynatureofthethingstolen,couldnotbeimputedtoanyofthedomestics。
  Afterafewmomentsasuspicionoccurred,whichwassoonchangedintOcertaintybyapplyingtothehousekeeper,whotoldmethatLudlowhadreturned,apparentlyinmuchhaste,theeveningofthedayonwhichhehadsetoutuponhisjourney,andjustafterIhadleftthehouse,thathehadgoneintotheroomwherethisclosetofbookswas,and,afterafewminutes'stay,cameoutagainandwentaway。Shetoldmealso,thathehadmadegeneralenquiriesafterme,towhichshehadanswered,thatshehadnotseenmeduringtheday,andsupposedthatIhadspentthewholeofitabroad。Fromthisaccountitwasplain,thatLudlowhadreturnedfornootherpurposebuttoremovethisbookoutofmyreach。Butifhehadadoublekeytothisdoor,whatshouldhinderhishavingaccess,bythesamemeans,toeveryotherlockedupplaceinthehouse?
  Thissuggestionmademestartwithterror。Ofsoobviousameansforpossessingaknowledgeofeverythingunderhisroof,I
  hadneverbeentillthismomentaware。Suchistheinfatuationwhichlaysourmostsecretthoughtsopentotheworld'sscrutiny。
  Wearefrequentlyinmostdangerwhenwedeemourselvesmostsafe,andourfortressistakensometimesthroughapoint,whoseweaknessnothing,itshouldseem,buttheblindeststupiditycouldoverlook。
  Myterrors,indeed,quicklysubsidedwhenIcametorecollectthattherewasnothinginanyclosetorcabinetofminewhichcouldpossiblythrowlightuponsubjectswhichIdesiredtokeepinthedark。ThemorecarefullyIinspectedmyowndrawers,andthemoreIreflectedonthecharacterofLudlow,asIhadknownit,thelessreasondidthereappearinmysuspicions;butIdrewalessonofcautionfromthiscircumstance,whichcontributedtomyfuturesafety。
  FromthisincidentIcouldnotbutinferLudlow'sunwillingnesstoletmesofarintohisgeographicalsecret,aswellasthecertaintyofthatsuspicion,whichhadveryearlybeensuggestedtomythoughts,thatLudlow'splansofcivilizationhadbeencarriedintopracticeinsomeunvisitedcorneroftheworld。
  Itwasstrange,however,thatheshouldbetrayhimselfbysuchaninadvertency。Onewhotalkedsoconfidentlyofhisownpowers,tounveilanysecretofmine,and,atthesametime,toconcealhisowntransactions,hadsurelycommittedanunpardonableerrorinleavingthisimportantdocumentinmyway。Myreverence,indeed,forLudlowwassuch,thatIsometimesentertainedthenotionthatthisseemingoversightwas,intruth,aregularcontrivancetosupplymewithaknowledge,ofwhich,whenIcamematurelytoreflect,itwasimpossibleformetomakeanyilluse。Thereisnouseinrelatingwhatwouldnotbebelieved;andshouldIpublishtotheworldtheexistenceofislandsinthespaceallottedbyLudlow'smapstothese~incognitae~,whatwouldtheworldanswer?
  Thatwhetherthespacedescribedwasseaorlandwasofnoimportance。Thatthemoralandpoliticalconditionofitsinhabitantswastheonlytopicworthyofrationalcuriosity。SinceIhadgainednoinformationuponthispoint;sinceIhadnothingtodisclosebutvainandfantasticsurmises;Imightaswellbeignorantofeverything。Thus,fromsecretlycondemningLudlow'simprudence,Igraduallypassedtoadmirationofhispolicy。Thisdiscoveryhadnoothereffectthantostimulatemycuriosity;tokeepupmyzealtoprosecutethejourneyIhadcommencedunderhisauspices。
  IhadhithertoformedaresolutiontostopwhereIwasinLudlow'sconfidence:towaittillthesuccessshouldbeascertainedofmyprojectswithrespecttoMrs。Benington,beforeImadeanynewadvanceintheperilousandmysteriousroadintowhichhehadledmysteps。But,beforethistediousfortnighthadelapsed,Iwasgrownextremelyimpatientforaninterview,andhadnearlyresolvedtoundertakewhateverobligationheshouldlayuponme。
  Thisobligationwasindeedaheavyone,sinceitincludedtheconfessionofmyvocalpowers。Initselftheconfessionwaslittle。Topossessthisfacultywasneitherlaudablenorculpable,norhaditbeenexercisedinawaywhichIshouldbeverymuchashamedtoacknowledge。Ithadledmeintomanyinsinceritiesandartifices,which,thoughnotjustifiablebyanycreed,wasentitledtosomeexcuse,onthescoreofyouthfulardourandtemerity。Thetruedifficultyinthewayoftheseconfessionswasthenothavingmadethemalready。Ludlowhadlongbeenentitledtothisconfidence,and,thoughtheexistenceofthispowerwasvenialorwhollyinnocent,theobstinateconcealmentofitwasadifferentmatter,andwouldcertainlyexposemetosuspicionandrebuke。Butwhatwasthealternative?Toconcealit。Toincurthosedreadfulpunishmentsawardedagainsttreasoninthisparticular。Ludlow'smenacesstillrunginmyears,andappalledmyheart。HowshouldIbeabletoshunthem?ByconcealingfromeveryonewhatI
  concealedfromhim?Howwasmyconcealmentofsuchafacultytobesuspectedorproved?UnlessIbetrayedmyself,whocouldbetrayme?