"Naturally。Especiallyateachnewplace。Onlyconceive:oneisalwaysanxiousonthestage;anditisonethingtocomebeforeapublicallstrangers,andnearlyallpoorjudges;itisanothertosee,allreadyforyourfirstnote,anoblefacebrightwithintelligenceandadmiration——thefaceofafriend。OftenthatonefaceistheonlyoneI
allowmyselftosee。Ithidesthewholepublic。"
"Thendon'tyoubesillyandsenditaway。I'lltellyoutheonefaultofyourcharacter:youthinktoomuchofotherpeople,andtoolittleofyourself。Now,thatiscontrarytotheschemeofnature。Wearesentintotheworldtotakecareofnumberone。"
"What!"saidIna;"arewetobeallself-indulgence?Istheretobenoprinciple,nowomanlyprudence,foresight,discretion?No;Ifeelthesacrifice:butnopowershallhindermefrommakingit。Ifyoucannotpersuadehim,I'lldolikeothersingers。Iwillbeill,andquitthecompany。"
"Don'tdothat,"saidRhoda。"Nowyouhaveputonyourironlook,itisnousearguing——Iknowthattomycost。There——Iwilltalktohim。Onlydon'thurryme;letmetakemyopportunity。"
Thisbeingunderstood,Inawouldnotpartwithherforthepresent,buttookhertothetheater。Shedismissedherdresser,atRhoda'srequest,andRhodafilledthatoffice。Sotheycouldtalkfreely。
Rhodahadneverbeenbehindthescenesofatheaterbefore,andshewentpryingabout,ignoringthemusic,forshewasalmostearless。Presently,whomshouldsheencounterbutEdwardSeverne。Shestartedandlookedathimlikeabasilisk。Heremovedhishatanddrewbackastepwithagreatairofrespectandhumility。ShewasshockedandindignantwithInaforlettinghimbeabouther。Shefollowedheroffthestageintoherdressingroom,andtookhertotask。"IhaveseenMr。Severnehere。"
"Hecomeseverynight。"
"Andyouallowhim?"
"Itisthemanager。"
"Buthewouldnotadmithim,ifyouobjected。"
"Iamafraidtodothat。"
"Why?"
"Weshouldhavean_esclandre。_Ifindhehashadsomuchconsiderationformeastotellnooneourrelation;andashehasneverspokentome,IdothemostprudentthingIcan,andtakenonotice。Shouldheattempttointrudehimselfonme,thenitwillbetimetohavehimstoppedinthehall,andIshalldoit_cou'tequecou'te。_Ah,mydearfriend,mineisadifficultandtryingposition。"
Afteraverylongwait,Inawentdownandsungherprincipalsong,withtheusualbravasandthundersofapplause。Shewascalledontwice,andassheretired,Severnesteppedforward,and,withalow,obsequiousbow,handedherabeautifulbouquet。Shetookitwithastatelycourtesy,butneverlookednorsmiled。
Rhodasawthatandwondered。Shethoughttoherself,"Thatiscarryingpolitenessalongway。Tobesure,sheishalfaforeigner。"
Havingdonehisnightlyhomage,Severneleftthetheater,andsoonafterwardtheperformanceconcluded,andInatookherfriendhome。
Ashmeadwasinthehalltoshowhispatronesstohercarriage——adutyheneverfailedin。Rhodashookhandswithhim,andhesaid,"Delightedtoseeyouhere,miss。Youwillbeagreatcomforttoher。"
Thetwofriendscommunedtilltwoo'clockinthemorning:butthelimitsofmytaleforbidmetorepeatwhatpassed。
SufficeittosaythatRhodawasfairlypuzzledbythesituation;but,havingagreatregardforVizard,sawclearlyenoughthatheoughttobesentbacktoIslip。Shethoughtthatperhapstheverysightofherwouldwoundhispride,and,findinghismaniadiscoveredbyathirdperson,hewouldgoofhisownaccord:soshecalledonhim。
Mylordreceivedherwithfriendlycomposure,andallhistalkwasaboutIslip。HedidnotcondescendtoexplainhispresenceatCarlisle。Heknewthat_quis'excuses'accuse,_andlefthertoremonstrate。Shehadhardlycourageforthat,andhopeditmightbeunnecessary。
ShetoldInawhatshehaddone。Buthervisitwasfutile:atnighttherewasVizardinhisbox。
NextdaythecompanyopenedinManchester。Vizardwasinhisboxthere——Severneinfront,tillIna'sprincipalsong。Thenhecameroundandpresentedhisbouquet。ButthistimehecameuptoRhodaGale,andaskedherwhetherapenitentmanmightpayhisrespectstoherinthemorning。
Shesaidshebelievedtherewereveryfewpenitentsintheworld。
"Iknowone,"saidhe。
"Well,Idon't,then,"saidthevirago。"But_you_cancome,ifyouarenotafraid。"
OfcourseInaKloskingknewofthisappointmenttwominutesafteritwasmade。Shemerelysaid,"Donotlethimtalkyouover。"
"Heisnotsolikelytotalkmeoverasyou,"saidRhoda。
"Youaremistaken,"wasIna'sreply。"Iamtheonepersonhewillneverdeceiveagain。"
RhodaGalereceivedhisvisit:hedidnotbeataboutthebush,norfenceatall。Hedeclaredatoncewhathecamefor。Hesaid,"Atthefirstsightofyou,whomIhavebeensoungratefulto,Icouldnotspeak;butnowIthrowmyselfonyourforgiveness。Ithinkyoumusthaveseenthatmyingratitudehasneversatlightonme。"
"Ihaveseenthatyouwereterriblyafraidofme,"saidshe。
"IdaresayIwas。ButIamnotafraidofyounow;andhere,onmyknees,Iimploreyoutoforgivemybaseness,myingratitude。Oh,MissGale,youdon'tknowwhatitistobemadlyinlove;onehasnoprinciple,norightfeeling,againstarealpassion:andIwasmadlyinlovewithher。ItwasthroughfearoflosingherIdisownedmyphysician,mybenefactress,whohadsavedmylife。Miserablewretch!ItwasthroughfearoflosingherthatIbehavedlikearuffiantomyangelwife,andwouldhavecommittedbigamy,andbeenafelon。Whatwasallthisbutmadness?You,whoaresowise,willyounotforgivemeacrimethatdownrightinsanitywasthecauseof?"
"Humph!ifIunderstandright,youwishmetoforgiveyouforlookinginmyface,andsayingtothewomanwhohadsavedyourlife,'Idon'tknowyou?'"
"Yes——ifyoucan。No:nowyouputitinplainwords,Iseeitisnottobeforgiven。"
"Youaremistaken。Itwaslikeastabtomyheart,andIcriedbitterlyoverit。"
"ThenIdeservetobehanged;thatisall。"
"But,onconsideration,IbelieveitisasmuchyournaturetobewickedasitismyangelIna'stobegood。SoIforgiveyouthatonething,youcharmingvillain。"Sheheldoutherhandtohiminproofofhergoodfaith。
Hethrewhimselfonhiskneesdirectly,andkissedandmumbledherhand,andbedeweditwithhystericaltears。
"Oh,don'tdothat,"saidshe;"orI'mboundtogiveyouagoodkick。I
hateshemen。"
"Givemeamoment,"saidhe,"andIwillbeamanagain。"
Hesatwithhisfaceinhishands,gulpingalittle。
"Come,"saidshe,cockingherheadlikeakeenjackdaw;"nowletushavetherealobjectofyourvisit。"
"No,no,"saidhe,inadvertently——"anothertimewilldoforthat。Iamcontentwithyourforgiveness。NowIcanwait。"
"Whatfor?"
"Canyouask?Doyouconsiderthisahappystateofthings?"
"Certainlynot。Butitcan'tbehelped:andwehavetothankyouforit。"
"Itcouldbehelpedintime。Ifyouwouldpersuadehertotakethefirststep。"
"Whatstep?"
"Nottodisownherhusband。Tolethimatleastbeherfriend——herpenitent,humblefriend。Wearemanandwife。IfIweretosaysopublicly,shewouldadmitit。InthisrespectatleastIhavebeengenerous:willshenotbegeneroustoo?Whatharmcoulditdoherifwelivedunderthesameroof,andItookhertothetheater,andfetchedherhome,anddidlittlefriendlyofficesforher?"
"Andsogotthethinedgeofthewedgein,eh?Mr。Severne,Ideclineallinterferenceinamattersodelicate,andinfavorofapersonwhowoulduseherasillasever,ifheoncesucceededinrecoveringheraffections。"
Sothenshedismissedhimperemptorily。
But,truetoVizard'sinterest,shecalledonhimagain,and,afterafewpreliminaries,lethimknowthatSevernewaseverynightbehindthescenes。
Aspasmcrossedhisface。"Iamquiteawareofthat,"saidhe。"Butheisneveradmittedintoherhouse。"
"Howdoyouknow?"
"Heisunderconstantsurveillance。"
"Spies?"
"No。Thief-takers。AllfromScotlandYard。"
"Andlovebringsmendowntothis。Whatisitfor?"
"WhenIamsureofyourco-operation,Iwillletyouknowmyhopes。"
"Hedoubtsmyfriendship,"saidRhodasorrowfully。
"No;onlyyourdiscretion。"
"Iwillbediscreet。"
"Well,then,soonerorlater,heissuretoformsomeimproperconnectionorother;andthenIhopeyouwillaidmeinpersuadinghertodivorcehim。"
"Thatisnotsoeasyinthiscountry。ItisnotlikeourWesternStates,where,thesayingis,theygiveyoufiveminutesatarailwaystationfordi——vorce。"
"YouforgetsheisaGermanProtestantandthemarriagewasinthatcountry。Itwillbeeasyenough。"
"Verywell;dismissitfromyourmind。Shewillnevercomebeforethepublicinthatway。NothingyounorIcouldurgewouldinduceher。"
Vizardreplied,doggedly,"Iwillneverdespair,solongasshekeepshimoutofherhouse。"
RhodatoldInaKloskingthis,andsaid,"Nowitisinyourownhands。Youhaveonlytoletyourcharmingvillainintoyourhouse,andMr。VizardwillreturntoIslip。"
InaKloskingburiedherfaceinherhands,andthought。
Atnight,Vizardinhisbox,asusual。Severnebehindthesceneswithhisbouquet。Butthisnighthestayedfortheballet,toseeaFrenchdanseusewhohadjoinedthem。Hewasacquaintedwithherbefore,andhadasprightlyconversationwithher。Inotherwords,herenewedanoldflirtation。
Thenextoperanightallwentasusual。Vizardinthebox,lookingsadderthanusual。Rhoda'sgoodsensehadnotbeenentirelywasted。Severne,withhisbouquet,andhisgravehumility,untiltheplayended,andLaKloskingpassedoutintothehall。HerbackwashardlyturnedwhenMademoiselleLafontaine,dressedfortheballet,inamostspicycostume,danceduptoheroldfriend,andslappedhisfaceverysoftlywitharose,thensprungawayandstoodonherdefense。
"I'llhavethatrose,"criedSeverne。
"Nenni。"
"Andakissintothebargain。"
"Jamais。"
"C'estcequenousverrons。"
Hechasedher。Sheutteredafeigned"Ah!"anddartedaway。Hefollowedher;shecrossedthesceneattheback,whereitwasdark,boundedoveranopentrap,whichshesawjustintime,butSeverne,notseeingit,becauseshewasbetweenhimandit,fellthroughit,and,strikingthemazarine,fellintothecellar,fifteenfeetbelowthestage。
Thescreamsofthedancerssoonbroughtacrowdroundthetrap,andreachedMademoiselleKloskingjustasshewasgoingouttohercarriage。
"There!"shecried。"Anotheraccident!"andshecameback,makingsureitwassomepoorcarpentercometogrief,asusual。Onsuchoccasionsherpursewasalwaysready。
TheybroughtSeverneupsensible,butmoaning,andbleedingatthetemple,andlookingallstreakyabouttheface。
Theyweregoingtotakehimtotheinfirmary;butMademoiselleKlosking,withafaceofangelicpity,said,"No;hebleeds,hebleeds。Hemustgotomyhouse。"
Theystaredalittle;butittakesagooddealtoastonishpeopleinatheater。
Severnewascarriedout,hisheadhastilybandaged,andhewasliftedintoLaKlosking'scarriage。Oneofthepeopleofthetheaterwasdirectedtogoonthebox,andLaKloskingandAshmeadsupportedhim,andhewastakentoherlodgings。Shedirectedhimtobelaidonacouch,andaphysiciansentfor,MissGalenothavingyetreturnedfromLiverpool,whithershehadgonetoattendalecture。
Ashmeadwentforthephysician。ButalmostatthedoorhemetMissGaleandMr。Vizard。
"Miss,"saidhe,"youarewanted。Therehasbeenanaccident。Mr。Severnehasfallenthroughatrap,andintothecellar。"
"Nobonesbroken?"
"Nothe:hehasonlybrokenhishead;andthatwillcostherabrokenheart。"
"Whereishe?"
"WhereIhopednevertoseehimagain。
"What!inherhouse?"saidRhodaand,hurriedoffatonce。
"Mr。Ashmead,"saidVizard,"awordwithyou。"
"Byallmeans,sir,"saidAshmead,"aswegoforthedoctor。Dr。Menteithhasagreatname。Helivesclosebyyourhotel,sir。
Astheywent,Vizardaskedhimwhathemeantbysayingthisaccidentwouldcostherabrokenheart。
"Why,sir,"saidAshmead,"heisonhisgoodbehaviortogetback;hasbeenformonthsbeggingandprayingjusttobeletliveunderthesameroof。Shehasalwaysrefused。Butsomefellowshavesuchluck。Idon'tsayhefelldownatraponpurpose;buthehasdoneit,andnobrokenbones,butplentyofblood。Thatistheverythingtoovercomeawoman'sfeelings;andsheisnotproofagainstpity。Hewillhaveheragain。Why,sheishisnursenow;andseehowthatwillwork。Wehaveaweek'smorebusinesshere;and,bybadluck,adeadfortnight,allalongofDublinfallingthroughunexpectedly。HeisasartfulasOldNick;hewillspinoutthatbrokenheadofhisandmakeitlastallthethreeweeks;andshewillnursehim,andhewillbeweak,andgrateful,andcry,andbegherpardonsixtimesaday,andsheisonlyawoman,afterall:andtheyaremanandwife,whenallisdone:theroadisbeaten。Theywillrunuponitagain,tillhistimeisuptoplaytherogueasbadasever。"
"Youtortureme,"saidVizard。
"IamafraidIdo,sir。ButIfeelitmyduty。Mr。Vizard,youareanoblegentleman,andIamonlywhatyousee;butthehumblestfolkwillhavetheirlikesanddislikes,andIhaveagreatrespectforyou,sir。I
can'ttellyouthemixtureofthingsIfeelwhenIseeyouinthesameboxeverynight。Ofcourse,Iamheragent,andthehousewouldnotbecompletewithoutyou;butasamanIamsorry。Especiallynowthatshehaslethimintoherhouse。Takeahumblefriend'sadvice,sir,andcutit。Don'tyoucomebetweenanywomanandherhusband,especiallyapubliclady。Shewillneverbemoretoyouthansheis。Sheisagoodwoman,andhemustkeepgainingground。Hehasgotthepull。Rouseallyourpride,sir,andyourmanhood,andyouhavegotplentyofboth,andcutit;don'tlookrightnorleft,butcutit——andforgivemypresumption。"
Vizardwasgreatlymoved。"Givemeyourhand,"hesaid;"youareaworthyman。I'llactonyouradvice,andneverforgetwhatIoweyou。Sticktomelikealeech,andseemeoffbythenexttrain,forIamgoingtotearmyheartoutofmybosom。"
Luckilytherewasatraininhalfanhour,andAshmeadsawhimoff;thenwenttosupper。HedidnotreturntoIna'slodgings。HedidnotwanttoseeSevernenursed。Helikedthefellow,too;buthesawthroughhimclean;andheworshipedInaKlosking。
CHAPTERXXX。
AToneo'clocknextday,AshmeadreceivedanotefromMademoiselleKlosking,saying,"ArrangewithMr。X——toclosemytourwithManchester。Paythefortnight,ifrequired。"Shewaswiththecompanyatamonth'snoticeoneitherside,youmustunderstand。
Insteadofgoingtothemanager,hewentatonce,inutterdismay,toMademoiselleKlosking,andtherelearnedinsubstancewhatImustnowbrieflyrelate。
MissGalefoundEdwardSevernedepositedonasofa。Inawasonherkneesbyhisside,sponginghisbleedingtemple,withlooksofgentlepity。
Strangetosay,thewoundwasinthesameplaceashiswife's,butmorecontused,andnolargeveinwasdivided。MissGalesoonstanchedthat。
Sheaskedhimwherehispainwas。Hesaiditwasinhisheadandhisback;andhecastahaggard,anxiouslookonher。
"Takemyarm,"saidshe。"Now,standup。"
Hetried,butcouldnot,andsaidhislegswerebenumbed。MissGalelookedgrave。
"Layhimonmybed,"saidLaKlosking。"Thatisbetterthanthesehardcouches。"
"Youareright,"saidMissGale。"Ringfortheservants。Hemustbemovedgently。"
Hewascarriedin,andsetupontheedgeofthebed,andhiscoatandwaistcoattakenoff。Thenhewaslaidgentlydownonthebed,andcoveredwithadownquilt。
DoctressGalethenrequestedInatoleavetheroom,whileshequestionedthepatient。
Inaretired。InamomentortwoMissGalecameouttohersoftly。
Atsightofherface,LaKloskingsaid,"Oh,dear;itismoreseriousthanwethought。"
"Veryserious。
"PoorEdward!"
"Collectallyourcourage,forIcannotlie,eithertopatientorfriend。"
"Andyouareright,"saidLaKlosking,trembling。"Iseeheisindanger。"
"Worsethanthat。Wherethere'sdangerthereishope。Herethereisnone。
HEISADEADMAN!"
"Oh,no!no!"
"Hehasbrokenhisback,andnothingcansavehim。Hislowerlimbshavealreadylostsensation。Deathwillcreepovertherest。Donotdisturbyourmindwithidlehopes。YouhavetwothingstothankGodfor——thatyoutookhimintoyourownhouse,andthathewilldieeasily。Indeed,werehetosuffer,Ishouldstupefyhimatonce,fornothingcan_hurt_him。"
InaKloskingturnedfaintandherkneesgavewayunderher。Rhodaministeredtoher;andwhileshewassoemployed,Dr。Menteithwasannounced。Hewasshownintothepatient,andtheaccidentdescribedtohim。Hequestionedthepatient,andexaminedhimalone。
Hethencameout,andsaidhewoulddrawaprescription。Hedidso。
"Doctor,"saidLaKlosking,"tellmethetruth。ItcannotbeworsethanI
fear。"
"Madam,"saidthedoctor,"medicinecandonothingforhim。Thespinalcordisdivided。Givehimanythinghefancies,andmyprescriptionifhesufferspain,nototherwise。ShallIsendyouanurse?"
"No,"saidMademoiselleKlosking,_"we_willnursehimnightandday。"
Heretired,andthefriendsenteredontheirsadduties。
WhenSevernesawthembothbyhisbedside,withearnestlooksofpity,hesaid,"Donotworryyourselves。I'mbookedforthelongjourney。Ah,well,IshalldiewhereIoughttohavelived,andmighthave,ifIhadnotbeenafool。"
Inaweptbitterly。
Theynursedhimnightandday。Hesufferedlittle,andwhenhedid,MissGalestupefiedthepainatonce;for,asshetrulysaid,"Nothingcanhurthim。"Vitalitygraduallyretiredtohishead,andlingeredthereawholeday。But,tohislastmoment,theartofpleasingneverabandonedhim。Insteadofworryingforthisorthateverymoment,heshowedinthisdesperateconditionsingularpatienceandwell-bredfortitude。Hecheckedhiswife'stears;assuredheritwasallforthebest,andthathewasreconciledtotheinevitable。"IhavehadahappiertimethanIdeserve,"
saidhe,"andnowIhaveapainlessdeath,nursedbytwosweetwomen。MyonlyregretisthatIshallnotbeabletorepayyourdevotion,Ina,norbecomeworthyofyourfriendship,MissGale。"
Hediedwithoutfear,itbeinghisconvictionthatheshouldreturnafterdeathtothepreciseconditioninwhichhewasbeforebirth;andwhentheybeggedhimtoseeaclergyman,hesaid,"Praydonotgiveyourselvesorhimthattrouble。Icanmeltbackintotheuniversewithouthisassistance。"
Heevendiedcontent;forthispolishedBohemianhadoftenforeseenthat,ifhelivedlong,heshoulddiemiserably。
Butthemainfeatureofhisendwashisextraordinarypoliteness。HepaidMissGalecomplimentsjustasifhewereathiseaseonasofa:andscarceanhourbeforehisdeceasehesaid,faintly,"Ideclare——Ihavebeensobusy——dying——IhaveforgottentosendmykindregardstogoodMr。
Ashmead。PraytellhimIdidnotforgethiskindnesstome。"
Hejustceasedtolive,soquietwashisdeath,andasmilerestedonhisdeadfeatures,andtheywereasbeautifulasever。
Soendedafair,perniciouscreature,endowedtoorichlywiththeartofpleasing,andquitedevoidofprinciple。Fewbadmenknewrightsowell,andwentsowrong。Inaburiedherfaceforhoursonhisbed,andkissedhiscoldfeaturesandhand。Shehadtoldhimbeforehediedshewouldrecallallherresolutions,ifhewouldlive。Buthewasgone。Deathburiesaman'smanyfaults,andhisfewvirtuesriseagain。Shemournedhimsincerely,andwouldnotbecomforted;shepurchasedaburyingplaceforever,andlaidhiminit;thenshetookherachingheartfaraway,andwaslosttothepublicandtoallherEnglishfriends。
ThefaithfulRhodaaccompaniedherhalfwaytoLondon;thenreturnedtoherowndutiesinBarfordshire。
CHAPTERXXXI。
IMUSTnowretrogradealittletorelatesomethingrathercurious,andI
hopenotuninteresting。
ZoeVizardhadbeenforsometimeactingonMrs。Gale'sadvice;building,planningforthegoodofthepoor,andgoingoutofherselfmoreandmore。ShecomparednotesconstantlywithMissGale,andconceivedafriendshipforher。Ithadbeenalongtimecoming,becauseatfirstshedislikedMissGale'smannersverymuch。Butthatladyhadnursedhertenderly,andnowadvisedher,andZoe,whocouldnotdoanythingbyhalves,becamedevotedtoher。
Asshewarmedtohergoodwork,shegavesignsofclearerjudgment。ShenevermentionedSeverne;butshenolongerabsolutelyavoidedInaKlosking'sname;andonedayshespokeofherasahigh-principledwoman;forwhichtheGalekissedheronthespot。
Onenamesheoftenuttered,andalwayswithregretandself-reproach——LordUxmoor's。Ithinkthat,nowshewasherselfbuildingandplanningforthepermanentimprovementofthepoor,shefeltthetieofakindredsentiment。Uxmoorwasherpredecessorinthisgoodwork,too;andwouldhavebeenherassociate,ifshehadnotbeensoblind。
Thisthoughtstruckdeepinher。HermindranmoreandmoreonUxmoor,hismanliness,hiscourageinherdefense,andhisgentlemanlyfortitudeandbraveryinleavingher,withoutaword,atherrequest。Runningoverallthese,sheoftenblushedwithshame,andhereyesfilledwithsorrowatthinkingofhowshehadtreatedhim;andlosthimforeverbynotdeservinghim。
Sheevenmadeobliqueandtimidinquiries,butcouldlearnnothingofhim,exceptthathesentperiodicalremittancestoMissGale,formanaginghisimprovements。These,however,cameinthroughacountryagentfromatownagent,andleftnoclew。
Butonefineday,withnowarningexcepttohisownpeople,LordUxmoorcamehome;andthenextdayrodetoHillstoketotalkmattersoverwithMissGale。Hewasfortunateenoughtofindherathome。Hethankedherforthezealandenthusiasmshehadshown,andtheprogresshisworkshadmadeunderhersupervision。
HewasgoingawaywithoutevenmentioningtheVizardfamily。
ButthecraftyGaledetainedhim。"GoingtoVizardCourt?"saidshe。
"No,"saidhe,verydryly。
"Ah,Iunderstand;butperhapsyouwouldnotmindgoingwithmeasfarasIslip。ThereissomethingthereIwishyoutosee。"
"Humph?Isitanythingveryparticular?Because——"
"Itis。Threecottagesrising,withlittleflowergardensinfront。
Squareplotsbehind,andarrangementsforbreedingcalves,withotheringeniousnovelties。Anewheadcomeintoourbusiness,mylord。"
"YouhaveconvertedVizard?Ithoughtyouwould。Heisasatiricalfellow,buthewilllistentoreason。"
"No,itisnotMr。Vizard;indeed,itisnoconvertofmine。Itisanindependententhusiast。ButIreallybelieveyourworkathomehadsomehandinfiringherenthusiasm。"
"Alady!DoIknowher?"
"Youmay。IsupposeyouknoweverybodyinBarfordshire。Willyoucome?
Do!"
"OfcourseIwillcome,MissGale。Pleasetelloneofyourpeopletowalkmyhorsedownafterus。"
Shehadherhatoninamoment,andwalkedhimdowntoIslip。
Hertonguewasnotidleontheroad。"Youdon'taskafterthepeople,"
saidshe。"There'spoorMissVizard。Shehadasadillness。Wewerealmostafraidweshouldloseher。"
"Heavenforbid!"saidUxmoor,startledbythissuddennews。
"MademoiselleKloskinggotquitewell;andoh!whatdoyouthink?Mr。
Severneturnedouttobeherhusband。"
"Whatisthat?"shoutedUxmoor,andstoppeddeadshort。"Mr。Severneamarriedman!"
"Yes;andMademoiselleKloskingamarriedwoman。"
"Youamazeme。Why,thatMr。SevernewaspayinghisattentionstoMissVizard。"
"SoIusedtofancy,"saidRhodacarelessly。"Butyouseeitcameouthewasmarried,andsoofcourseshepackedhimoffwithafleainhisear。"
"Didshe?Whenwasthat?"
"Letmesee,itwasthe17thofOctober。"
"Why,thatwastheverydayIleftEngland。"
"Howodd!Whydidyounotstayanotherweek?Gentlemenaresoimpatient。
Nevermind,thatisanoldstorynow。Hereweare;thosearethecottages。Theworkmenareatdinner。Tentoonetheenthusiastisthere:
thisishertime。Youstayhere。I'llgoandsee。"
Shewentoffontiptoe,andpeepedandpriedhereandthere,likeayoungwitch。Presentlyshetookafewstepstowardhim,withherfingermysteriouslytoherlips,andbeckonedhim。Heenteredintothepantomime——sheseemedsoearnestinit——andcametohersoftly。
"Dojusttakeapeepinatthatopeningforadoor,"saidshe,"thenyou'llseeher;herbackisturned。Sheislovely;only,youknow,shehasbeenill,andIdon'tthinksheisveryhappy。"
Uxmoorthoughtthispeepingatenthusiastsratheranoddproceeding,butMissGalehadprimedhiscuriosity,andhefeltnaturallyproudofafemalepupil。Hesteppeduplightly,lookedinatthedoor,and,tohisamazement,sawZoeVizardsittingonacarpenter'sbench,withherlovelyheadinthesun'srays。Hestarted,thengazed,thendevouredherwithhiseyes。
What!wasthishispupil?
Howgentleandsadsheseemed!Allhisstoicismmeltedatthesightofher。Shesatinasweet,pensiveattitude,paleanddrooping,but,tohisfancy,lovelierthanever。Shegavealittlesigh。Hisheartyearned。Shetookoutaletter,readitslowly,andsaid,softlyandslowly,"Poorfellow!"Hethoughtherecognizedhisownhandwriting,andcouldstandnomore。Herushed,in,andwasgoingtospeaktoher;butshescreamed,andnoconjurerevermadeacarddisappearquickerthanshedidthatletter,assheboundedawaylikeadeer,andstood,blushingscarlet,andpalpitatingallover。
Uxmoorwasashamedofhis_brusquerie。_"WhatabruteIamtofrightenyoulikethis!"saidhe。"Prayforgiveme;butthesightofyou,afterallthesewearymonths——andyousaid'Poorfellow!'"
"DidI?"saidZoe,faintly,lookingscared。
"Yes,sweetZoe,andyouwerereadingaletter。"
Noreply。
"Ithoughtthepoorfellowmightbemyself。NotthatIamtobepitied,ifyouthinkofmestill。"
"Ido,then——veryoften。Oh,LordUxmoor,Iwanttogodownonmykneestoyou。"
"Thatisodd,now;foritisexactlywhatIshouldliketodotoyou。"
"Whatfor?ItisIwhohavebehavedsoill。"
"Nevermindthat;Iloveyou。"
"Butyoumustn't。Youmustlovesomeworthyperson。"
"Oh,youleavethattome。Ihavenootherintention。ButmayIjustseewhoseletteryouwerereading?"
"Oh,praydon'taskme。"
"Iinsistonknowing。"
"Iwillnottellyou。Thereitis。"Shegaveittohimwithaguiltyair,andhidherface。
"DearZoe,supposeIweretorepeattheofferImadehere?"
"Iadviseyounot,"saidshe,allinaflurry。
"Why?"
"Because。Because——Imightsay'Yes。'"
"Well,thenI'lltakemychanceoncemore。Zoe,willyoutryandloveme?"
"Try?IbelieveIdoloveyou,ornearly。Ithinkofyouveryoften。"
"Thenyouwilldosomethingtomakemehappy。"
"Anything;everything。"
"Willyoumarryme?"
"Yes,thatIwill,"saidZoe,almostimpetuously;"andthen,"withagrandlookofconsciousbeauty,"Ican_make_youforgiveme。"
Uxmoor,onthis,caughtherinhisarms,andkissedherwithsuchfirethatsheutteredalittlestifledcryofalarm;butitwassoonfollowedbyasighofcomplacency,andshesunk,resistless,onhismanlybreast。
So,aftertwosieges,hecarriedthatfaircitadelbyassault。
Thenletnotthemanlyheartdespair,nortakeamerebraceof"Noes"
fromanywoman。Nothingshortofthreenegativesisserious。
Theywalkedoutinarm-in-armandveryclosetoeachother;andhelefther,solemnlyengaged。
Leavingthispairtothedelightsofcourtship,andgrowingaffectiononZoe'sside——forawarmattachmentofthenoblestkinddidgrow,bydegrees,outofherpenitence,andesteem,anddesiretorepairherfault——Imustnowtakeuptheotherthreadofthisnarrative,andapologizeforhavinginvertedtheorderofevents;foritwas,inreality,severaldaysafterthishappyscenethatMademoiselleKloskingsentforMissGale。
CHAPTERXXXII。
VIZARD,then,withAshmead,returnedhomeindespair;andZoe,nowhappyinherownmind,wasalltendernessandsisterlyconsolation。Theyopenedtheirheartstoeachother,andsheshowedherwishtorepaythedebtsheowedhim。Howfarshemighthavesucceeded,intime,willneverbeknown。
Forhehadhardlybeenhomeaweek,whenMissGalereturned,allinblack,andtoldhimSevernewasdeadandburied。
Hewasstartled,andevenshocked,rememberingoldtimes;butitwasnotinhumannatureheshouldbesorry。Nottobeindecorouslygladatsoopportuneanexitwasallthatcouldbeexpectedfromhim。
Whenshehadgivenhimthedetails,hisfirstquestionwas,"Howdidshebearit?"
"Sheisterriblycutup——morethanonewouldthinkpossible;forshewasiceandmarbletohimbeforehewashurttodeath。"
"Whereisshe?"
"GonetoLondon。Shewillwritetome,Isuppose——poordear。Butonemustgivehertime。"
FromthathourVizardwasinastateofexcitement,hopingtohearfromInaKlosking,orabouther;butunwilling,fromdelicacy,tohurrymatters。
Atlasthebecameimpatient,andwrotetoAshmead,whoseaddresshehad,andsaid,frankly,hehadadelicacyinintrudingonMademoiselleKlosking,inhergrief。Yethisownfeelingswouldnotallowhimtoseemtoneglecther。WouldMr。Ashmead,then,tellhimwhereshewas,asshehadnotwrittentoanyoneinBarfordshire——noteventohertriedfriend,MissGale。
Hereceivedananswerbyreturnofpost。
"DEARSIR——IamgrievedtotellyouthatMademoiselleKloskinghasretiredfrompubliclife。Shewrotetome,threeweeksago,fromDover,requestingmetoaccept,asatokenofheresteem,thesurplusmoneyI
holdinhandforher——Ialwaysdrewhersalary——andbiddingmefarewell。
Thesumincludedherprofitsbypsalmody,minusherexpenses,andwassolargeitcouldneverhavebeenintendedasamererecognitionofmyhumbleservices;andIthinkIhaveseldomfeltsodown-heartedasonreceivingthisprincelydonation。Ithasenabledmetotakebetteroffices,anditmaybethefoundationofalittlefortune;butIfeelthatIhavelostthetrulygreatladywhohasmadeamanofme。Sir,therelishisgoneformyoccupation:IcanneverbesohappyasIwasinworkingtheinterestsofthatgreatgenius,whosevoicemadeourleadingsopranisoundlikewhistles,andwhohonoredmewithherfriendship。Sir,shewasnotlikeotherleadingladies。Sheneverbragged,neverspokeillofanyone;and_you_cantestifytohervirtueandherdiscretion。
"IamtrulysorrytolearnfromyouthatshehaswrittentonooneinBarfordshire。Isaw,byherlettertome,shehadleftthestage;butherdroppingyoualllooksasifshehadlefttheworld。Idohopeshehasnotbeensomadastogointooneofthosecursedconvents。
"Mr。Vizard,IwillnowwritetofriendsinalltheContinentaltownswherethereisgoodmusic。Shewillnotbeabletokeepawayfromthatlong。Iwillalsosendphotographs;andhopewemayhearsomething。Ifnot,perhapsa_judiciousadvertisement_mightremindherthatsheisinflictingpainuponpersonstowhomsheisdear。Iam,sir,yourobligedandgratefulservant,JOSEPHASHMEAD。"
Herewasablow。IreallybelieveVizardfeltthismoredeeplythanallhisotherdisappointments。
Hebroodedoveritforadayortwo;andthen,ashethoughtMissGaleaveryill-usedperson,thoughnot,ofcourse,soill-usedashimself,hetookherAshmead'sletter。
"Thisisnice!"saidshe。"There——Imustgiveuplovingwomen。Besides,theythrowmeoverthemomentamancomes,ifithappenstobetherightone。"
"Unnaturalcreatures!"saidVizard。
"Ungrateful,atallevents。"
"Doyouthinkshehasgoneintoaconvent?"
"Notshe。Inthefirstplace,sheisaProtestant;and,inthesecond,sheisnotafool。"
"Iwilladvertise。"
"Theidea!"
"DoyouthinkIamgoingtositdownwithmyhandsbeforeme,andloseherforever?"
"No,indeed;Idon'tthinkyouarethatsortofamanatall,ha!ha!"
"Oh,MissGale,pityme。Tellmehowtofindher。ThatFannyDoversayswomenareonlyenigmastomen;theyunderstandoneanother。"
"What,"saidRhoda,turningswiftlyonhim;"doesthatlittlechitpretendtoreadmynobleIna?"
"Ifshecannot,perhapsyoucan。Youaresoshrewd。Dotellme,whatdoesitallmean?"
"Itmeansnothingatall,Idaresay;onlyawoman'simpulse。Theyaresuchgeeseattimes,everyoneofthem。"
"Oh,ifIdidbutknowwhatcountrysheisin,Iwouldransackit。"
"Hum!——countriesarebiggishplaces。"
"Idon'tcare。"
"Whatwillyougivemetotellyouwheresheisatthismoment?"
"AllIhaveintheworld。"
"Thatissufficient。Well,then,firstassignmeyourestates;thenfetchmeanordnancemapofcreation,andIwillputmyfingeronher。"
"Youlittlemockingfiend,you!"
"Iamnot。I'matall,beneficentangel;andI'lltellyouwheresheis——fornothing。Keepyourland:whowantsit?——itisonlyabother。"
"Forpity'ssake,don'ttriflewithme。"
"Ineverwill,whereyourheartisinterested。SheisatZutzig。"
"Ah,yougoodgirl!Shehaswrittentoyou。"
"Notaline,themonster!AndI'llserveherout。I'llteachhertoplayhide-and-seekwithGale,M。D。!"
"Zutzig!"saidVizard;"howcanyouknow?"
"Whatdoesthatmatter?Well,yes——Iwillrevealthementalprocess。
Firstofall,shehasgonetohermother。"
"Howdoyouknowthat?"
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