"Yes,"repliedRosa,quietly。
Theoldmanwouldnotscoldhernow;heonlysaid,sadly,"Iseehowitis:becauseIwillnotletyoumarrypoverty,youthinkIdonotloveyou。"Andhesighed。
"Opapa!theidea!"saidRosa。"Ofcourse,Iknowyouloveme。Itwasnotthat,youdear,darling,foolishpapa。There!ifyoumustknow,itwasbecauseIdidnotwantyoutobedistressed。I
thoughtImightgetbetterwithalittlephysic;and,ifnot,why,thenIthought,'Papaisanoldman;la!IdaresayIshalllasthistime;'andso,whyshouldIpoisonyourlatterdayswithworryingaboutME?"
Mr。Lusignanstaredather,andhislipquivered;buthethoughtthetraithardlyconsistentwithhersuperficialcharacter。Hecouldnothelpsaying,halfsadly,halfbitterly,"Well,butofcourseyouhavetoldDr。Staines。"
Rosaopenedherbeautifuleyes,liketwosuns。"OfcourseIhavedonenothingofthesort。Hehasenoughtotroublehim,withoutthat。Poorfellow!thereheis,worryingandstrivingtomakehisfortune,andgainyouresteem——'theygotogether,'youknow;youtoldhimso。"Youngcatswillscratchwhenleastexpected。"AndformetogoandtellhimIamindanger!Why,hewouldgowild。
Hewouldthinkofnothingbutmeandmyhealth。Hewouldnevermakehisfortune:andsothen,evenwhenIamgone,hewillnevergetawife,becausehehasonlygotgeniusandgoodnessandthreethousandpounds。No,papa,IhavenottoldpoorChristopher。I
mayteasethoseIlove。IhavebeenteasingYOUthiseversolong;
butfrightenthem,andmakethemmiserable?No!"
Andhere,thinkingoftheanguishthatwasperhapsinstoreforthosesheloved,shewantedtocry;italmostchokedhernotto。
Butshefoughtitbravelydown:shereservedhertearsforlighteroccasionsandlessnoblesentiments。
Herfatherheldouthisarmstoher。Sheranherfootstooltohim,andsatnestlingtohisheart。
"Pleaseforgivememymisconduct。Ihavenotbeenadutifuldaughtereversinceyou——butnowIwill。Kissme,myownpapa!
There!Nowweareaswealwayswere。"
Thenshepurredtohimoneverypossibletopicbuttheonethatnowfilledhisparentalheart,andbadehimgood-nightatlastwithacheerfulsmile。
Wymanwasexact,andtenminutesafterwardsDr。Snelldroveupinacarriageandpair。HewasinterceptedinthehallbyWyman,and,afterafewminutes'conversation,presentedtoMr。Lusignan。
Thefathergaveventtohispaternalanxietyinafewsimplebuttouchingwords,andwasproceedingtostatethesymptomsashehadgatheredthemfromhisdaughter;butDr。Snellinterruptedhimpolitely,andsaidhehadheardtheprincipalsymptomsfromMr。
Wyman。Then,turningtothelatter,hesaid,"Wehadbetterproceedtoexaminethepatient。"
"Certainly,"saidMr。Lusignan。"Sheisinthedrawing-room;"andheledtheway,andwasabouttoentertheroom,whenWymaninformedhimitwasagainstetiquetteforhimtobepresentattheexamination。
"Oh,verywell!"saidhe。"Yes,Iseetheproprietyofthat。Butobligemebyaskingherifshehasanythingonhermind。"
Dr。Snellbowedaloftyassent;for,toreceiveahintfromalaymanwastoconferafavoronhim。
Themenofsciencewereclosetedfullhalfanhourwiththepatient。Shewastoobeautifultobeslurredover,evenbyabusydoctor:hefeltherpulse,lookedathertongue,andlistenedattentivelytoherlungs,toherheart,andtotheorgansuspectedbyWyman。Heleftheratlastwithakindlyassurancethatthecasewasperfectlycurable。
Atthedoortheyweremetbytheanxiousfather,whocamewiththrobbingheart,andaskedthedoctors'verdict。
Hewascoollyinformedthatcouldnotbegivenuntiltheconsultationhadtakenplace;theresultofthatconsultationwouldbeconveyedtohim。
"Andpray,whycan'tIbepresentattheconsultation?Thegroundsonwhichtwoablemenagreeordisagreemustbewellworthlisteningto。"
"Nodoubt,"saidDr。Snell;"but,"withasuperiorsmile,"mydearsir,itisnottheetiquette。"
"Oh,verywell,"saidLusignan。Buthemuttered,"So,then,afatherisnobody!"
Andthisunreasonablepersonretiredtohisstudy,miserable,andgaveupthedining-roomtotheconsultation。
Theysoonrejoinedhim。
Dr。Snell'sopinionwascommunicatedbyWyman。"IamhappytotellyouthatDr。Snellagreeswithme,entirely:thelungsarenotaffected,andtheliveriscongested,butnotdiseased。"
"Isthatso,Dr。Snell?"askedLusignan,anxiously。
"Itisso,sir。"Headded,"Thetreatmenthasbeensubmittedtome,andIquiteapproveit。"
Hethenaskedforapenandpaper,andwroteaprescription。HeassuredMr。Lusignanthatthecasehadnoextraordinaryfeature,whatever;hewasnottoalarmhimself。Dr。Snellthendroveaway,leavingtheparentratherpuzzled,but,onthewhole,muchcomforted。
AndhereImustrevealanextraordinarycircumstance。
Wyman'streatmentwasbydrugs。
Dr。Snell'swasbydrugs。
Dr。Snell,asyouhaveseen,entirelyapprovedWyman'streatment。
Hisownhadnothingincommonwithit。TheArcticandAntarcticpolesarenotfartherapartthanwashisprescriptionfromtheprescriptionhethoroughlyapproved。
Amiablescience!Inwhichcompletediversityofpracticedidnotinterferewithperfectuniformityofopinion。
AllthiswaskeptfromDr。Staines,andhewasentirelyoccupiedintryingtogetapositionthatmightleadtofortune,andsatisfyMr。Lusignan。Hecalledoneveryfriendhehad,toinquirewheretherewasanopening。HewalkedmilesandmilesinthebestquartersofLondon,lookingforanopening;heletitbeknowninmanyquartersthathewouldgiveagoodpremiumtoanyphysicianwhowasabouttoretire,andwouldintroducehimtohispatients。
No:hecouldhearofnothing。
Then,afteragreatstrugglewithhimself,hecalleduponhisuncle,PhilipStaines,aretiredM。D。,toseeifhewoulddoanythingforhim。Heleftthistothelast,foraverygoodreason:Dr。Philipwasanirritableoldbachelor,whohadassistedmostofhismarriedrelatives;but,findingnobottomtothewell,hadturnedrustyandcrusty,andnowwasapttoadministerkicksinsteadofcheckstoallwhowerenearanddeartohim。However,Christopherwastheoldgentleman'sfavorite,andwasnowdesperate;sohemusteredcourage,andwent。Hewasgraciouslyreceived——warmly,indeed。Thisgavehimgreathopes,andhetoldhistale。
TheoldbachelorsidedwithMr。Lusignan。"What!"saidhe,"doyouwanttomarry,andpropagatepauperism?Ithoughtyouhadmoresense。ConfounditallIhadjustonenephewwhoseknockatmystreet-doordidnotmakemetremble;hewasabachelorandathinker,andcameforafriendlychat;therestaremarriedmen,highwaymen,whocometosay,'Standanddeliver;'andnowevenyouwanttojointhegiddythrong。Well,don'taskmetohaveanyhandinit。Youareamanofpromise;andyoumightaswellhangamillstoneroundyourneckasawife。Marriageisagreatermistakethanevernow;thewomendressmoreandmanageworse。ImetyourcousinJacktheotherday,andhiswifewithseventypoundsonherback;andnextdoortopaupers。No;whilstyouareabachelor,likeme,youaremyfavorite,anddowninmywillforalump。Oncemarry,andyoujointhenoblearmyoffoot-pads,leeches,vultures,paupers,gonecoons,andbabblersaboutbrats——andIdisownyou。"
TherewasnohopefromoldCrusty。Christopherlefthim,snubbedandheart-sick。Atlasthemetasensibleman,whomadehimseetherewasnoshortcutinthatprofession。Hemustbecontenttoplaytheup-hillgame;mustsettleinsomegoodneighborhood;
marry,ifpossible,sincehusbandsandfathersoffamiliesprefermarriedphysicians;andsobepooratthirty,comfortableatforty,andrichatfifty——perhaps。
ThenChristophercamedowntohislodgingsatGravesend,andwasveryunhappy;andaftersomedaysofmisery,hewrotealettertoRosainamomentofimpatience,despondency,andpassion。
RosaLusignangotworseandworse。Theslightbutfrequenthemorrhagewasadrainuponhersystem,andweakenedhervisibly。
Shebegantoloseherrichcomplexion,andsometimeslookedalmostsallow;andaslightcircleshoweditselfunderhereyes。Thesesymptomswereunfavorable;nevertheless,Dr。SnellandMr。Wymanacceptedthemcheerfully,asfreshindicationsthatnothingwasaffectedbuttheliver;theymultipliedandvariedtheirprescriptions;themaladyignoredthoseprescriptions,andwentsteadilyon。Mr。Lusignanwasterrifiedbuthelpless。Rosaresignedandreticent。
Butitwasnotinhumannaturethatagirlofthisagecouldalwaysandatallhoursbemistressofherself。Oneeveninginparticularshestoodbeforetheglassinthedrawing-room,andlookedatherselfalongtimewithhorror。"IsthatRosaLusignan?"saidshe,aloud;"itisherghost。"
Adeepgroanstartledher。Sheturned;itwasherfather。Shethoughthewasfastasleep;andsoindeedhehadbeen;buthewasjustawaking,andheardhisdaughterutterherrealmind。Itwasathunder-clap。"Oh,mychild!whatshallIdo?"hecried。
ThenRosawastakenbysurpriseinherturn。Shespokeout。"Sendforagreatphysician,papa。Don'tletusdeceiveourselves;itisouronlychance。"
"IwillaskMr。WymantogetaphysiciandownfromLondon。"
"No,no;thatisnouse;theywillputtheirheadstogether,andhewillsaywhateverMr。Wymantellshim。La!papa,aclevermanlikeyou,nottoseewhatacheatthatconsultationwas。Why,fromwhatyoutoldme,onecanseeitwasmanagedsothatDr。Snellcouldnotpossiblyhaveanopinionofhisown。No;nomoreechoesofMr。
Chatterbox。Ifyoureallywanttocureme,sendforChristopherStaines。"
"Dr。Staines!heisveryyoung。"
"Butheisveryclever,andheisnotanecho。Hewon'tcarehowmanydoctorshecontradictswhenIamindanger。Papa,itisyourchild'sonechance。"
"I'lltryit,"saidtheoldman,eagerly。"Howconfidentyoulook!
yourcolorhascomeback。Itisaninspiration。Whereishe?"
"IthinkbythistimehemustbeathislodgingsinGravesend。
Sendtohimto-morrowmorning。"
"NotI!I'llgotohimto-night。Itisonlyamile,andafineclearnight。"
"Myown,good,kindpapa!Ah!well,comewhatmay,Ihavelivedlongenoughtobeloved。Yes,dearpapa,saveme。Iamveryyoungtodie;andhelovesmesodearly。"
Theoldmanbustledawaytoputonsomethingwarmerforhisnightwalk,andRosaleanedback,andthetearswelledoutofhereyes,nowhewasgone。
Beforeshehadrecoveredhercomposure,aletterwasbroughther,andthiswastheletterfromChristopherStaines,alludedtoalready。
Shetookitfromtheservantwithavertedhead,notwishingittobeseenshehadbeencrying,andshestartedatthehandwriting;itseemedsuchacoincidencethatitshouldcomejustasshewassendingforhim。
MYOWNBELOVEDROSA,——Inowwritetotellyou,withaheavyheart,thatallisvain。Icannotmake,norpurchase,aconnection,exceptasothersdo,bytimeandpatience。Beingabachelorisquiteagainstayoungphysician。IfIhadawife,andsuchawifeasyou,Ishouldbesuretogeton;youwouldincreasemyconnectionverysoon。What,then,liesbeforeus?Iseebuttwothings——towaittillweareold,andourpocketsarefilled,butourheartschilledorsoured;orelsetomarryatonce,andclimbthehilltogether。IfyoulovemeasIloveyou,youwillbesavingtillthebattleisover;andIfeelIcouldfindenergyandfortitudeforboth。Yourfather,whothinkssomuchofwealth,cansurelysettlesomethingonYOU;andIamnottoopoortofurnishahouseandstartfair。Iamnotquiteobscure——mylectureshavegivenmeaname——andtoyou,myownlove,IhopeImaysaythatI
knowmorethanmanyofmyelders,thankstogoodschools,goodmethod,agenuineloveofmynobleprofession,andatendencytostudyfrommychildhood。Willyounotrisksomethingonmyability?Ifnot,Godhelpme,forIshallloseyou;andwhatislife,orfame,orwealth,oranymortalthingtome,withoutyou?
Icannotacceptyourfather'sdecision;YOUmustdecidemyfate。
YouseeIhavekeptawayfromyouuntilIcandosonomore。Allthistimetheworldtomehasseemedtowantthesun,andmyheartpinesandsickensforonesightofyou。
DarlingRosa,prayletmelookatyourfaceoncemore。
WhenthisreachesyouIshallbeatyourgate。Letmeseeyou,thoughbutforamoment,andletmehearmyfatefromnolipsbutyours——Myownlove,yourheart-brokenlover,CHRISTOPHERSTAINES。
Thisletterstunnedheratfirst。Hermindoflatehadbeenturnedawayfromlovetosuchsternrealities。Nowshebegantobesorryshehadnottoldhim。"Poorthing!"shesaidtoherself,"helittleknowsthatnowallischanged。Papa,Isometimesthink,woulddenymenothingnow;itisIwhowouldnotmarryhim——tobeburiedbyhiminamonthortwo。PoorChristopher!"
Thenextmomentshestartedupindismay。Why,herfatherwouldmisshim。No;perhapscatchhimwaitingforher。Whatwouldhethink?WhatwouldChristopherthink?——thatshehadshownherpapahisletter。
Sherangthebellhard。Thefootmancame。
"SendHarriettomethisinstant。Oh,andaskpapatocometome。"
ThenshesatdownanddashedoffalinetoChristopher。ThiswasforHarriettotakeouttohim。AnythingbetterthanforChristophertobecaughtdoingwhatwaswrong。
Thefootmancamebackfirst。"Ifyouplease,miss,masterhasgoneout。"
"Runafterhim——theroadtoGravesend。"
"Yes,miss。"
"No。Itisnouse。Nevermind。"
"Yes,miss。"
ThenHarrietcamein。"Didyouwantme,miss?"
"Yes。No——nevermindnow。"
Shewasafraidtodoanythingforfearofmakingmattersworse。
Shewenttothewindow,andstoodlookinganxiouslyout,withherhandsworking。Presentlysheutteredalittlescreamandshrankawaytothesofa。Shesankdownonit,halfsitting,halflying,hidherfaceinherhands,andwaited。
Staines,withalover'simpatience,hadbeenmorethananhouratthegate,orwalkingupanddownclosebyit,hisheartnowburningwithhope,nowfreezingwithfear,thatshewoulddeclineameetingontheseterms。
Atlastthepostmancame,andthenhesawhewastoosoon;butnowinafewminutesRosawouldhavehisletter,andthenheshouldsoonknowwhethershewouldcomeornot。Helookedupatthedrawing-roomwindows。Theywerefulloflight。Shewasthereinallprobability。Yetshedidnotcometothem。Butwhyshouldshe,ifshewascomingout?
Hewalkedupanddowntheroad。Shedidnotcome。Hisheartbegantosickenwithdoubt。Hisheaddrooped;andperhapsitwasowingtothisthathealmostranagainstagentlemanwhowascomingtheotherway。Themoonshonebrightonbothfaces。
"Dr。Staines!"saidMr。Lusignansurprised。Christopherutteredanejaculationmoreeloquentthanwords。
Theystaredateachother。
"Youwerecomingtocallonus?"
"N——no,"stammeredChristopher。
Lusignanthoughtthatodd;however,hesaidpolitely,"Nomatter,itisfortunate。Wouldyoumindcomingin?"
"No,"falteredChristopher,andstaredathimruefully,puzzledmoreandmore,butbeginningtothink,afterall,itmightbeacasualmeeting。
Theyenteredthegate,andinonemomenthesawRosaatthewindow,andshesawhim。
Thenhealteredhisopinionagain。Rosahadsentherfatherouttohim。Buthowwasthis?Theoldmandidnotseemangry。
Christopher'sheartgavealeapinsidehim,andhebegantoglowwiththewildesthopes。For,whatcouldthismeanbutrelenting?
Mr。Lusignantookhimfirstintothestudy,andlightedtwocandleshimself。Hedidnotwanttheservantsprying。
ThelightsshowedChristopherachangeinMr。Lusignan。Helookedtenyearsolder。
"Youarenotwell,sir,"saidChristophergently。
"Myhealthiswellenough,butIamabroken-heartedman。Dr。
Staines,forgetallthatpassedhereatyourlastvisit。Allthatisover。Thankyouforlovingmypoorgirlasyoudo;givemeyourhand;Godblessyou。Sir,IamsorrytosayitisasaphysicianI
inviteyounow。Sheisill,sir,very,veryill。"
"Ill!andnottellme!"
"Shekeptitfromyou,mypoorfriend,nottodistressyou;andshetriedtokeepitfromme,buthowcouldshe?Fortwomonthsshehashadsometerriblecomplaint——itisdestroyingher。Sheistheghostofherself。Oh,mypoorchild!mychild!"
Theoldmansobbedaloud。Theyoungmanstoodtrembling,andashypale。Still,thehabitsofhisprofession,andtheexperienceofdangersovercome,togetherwithacertainsenseofpower,kepthimup;but,aboveall,loveanddutysaid,"Befirm。"Heaskedforanoutlineofthesymptoms。
Theyalarmedhimgreatly。
"Letuslosenomoretime,"saidhe。"Iwillseeheratonce。"
"Doyouobjecttomybeingpresent?"
"Ofcoursenot。"
"ShallItellyouwhatDr。Snellsaysitis,andMr。Wyman?"
"Byallmeans——afterIhaveseenher。"
ThiscomfortedMr。Lusignan。Hewastogetanindependentjudgment,atallevents。
Whentheyreachedthetopofthestairs,Dr。Stainespausedandleanedagainstthebaluster。"Givemeamoment,"saidhe。"Thepatientmustnotknowhowmyheartisbeating,andshemustseenothinginmyfacebutwhatIchoosehertosee。Givemeyourhandoncemore,sir;letusbothcontrolourselves。Nowannounceme。"
Mr。Lusignanopenedthedoor,andsaid,withforcedcheerfulness,"Dr。Staines,mydear,cometogiveyouthebenefitofhisskill。"
Shelayonthesofa,justaswelefther。Onlyherbosombegantoheave。
ThenChristopherStainesdrewhimselfup,andthemajestyofknowledgeandlovetogetherseemedtodilatehisnobleframe。Hefixedhiseyeonthatreclining,pantingfigure,andsteppedlightlybutfirmlyacrosstheroomtoknowtheworst,likealionwalkinguptolevelledlances。
CHAPTERIII。
Theyoungphysicianwalkedsteadilyuptohispatientwithouttakinghiseyeoffher,anddrewachairtoherside。
Thenshetookdownonehand——theleft——andgaveithim,avertingherfacetenderly,andstillcoveringitwithherright;"For,"
saidshetoherself,"Iamsuchafrightnow。"Thisopportunereflection,andherheavingbosom,provedthatsheatleastfeltherselfsomethingmorethanhispatient。Herprettyconsciousnessmadehistaskmoredifficult;nevertheless,heonlyallowedhimselftopressherhandtenderlywithbothhispalmsonemoment,andthenheenteredonhisfunctionsbravely。"Iamhereasyourphysician。"
"Verywell,"saidshesoftly。
Hegentlydetainedthehand,andputhisfingerlightlytoherpulse;itwaspalpitating,andafallacioustest。Oh,howthatbeatingpulse,bylove'selectriccurrent,sethisownheartthrobbinginamoment!
Heputherhandgently,reluctantlydown,andsaid,"Obligemebyturningthisway。"Sheturned,andhewincedinternallyatthechangeinher;buthisfacebetrayednothing。Helookedatherfull;and,afterapause,puthersomequestions:onewasastothecolorofthehemorrhage。Shesaiditwasbrightred。
"Notatingeofpurple?"
"No,"saidshehopefully,mistakinghim。
Hesuppressedasigh。
Thenhelistenedathershoulder-bladeandatherchest,andmadeherdrawherbreathwhilehewaslistening。Theactsweresimple,andusualinmedicine,buttherewasadeep,patient,silentintensityabouthiswayofdoingthem。
Mr。Lusignancreptnearer,andstoodwithbothhandsonatable,andhisoldheadbowed,awaitingyetdreadingtheverdict。
Uptothistime,Dr。Staines,insteadoftappingandsqueezing,andpullingthepatientabout,hadnevertouchedherwithhishand,andonlygrazedherwithhisear;butnowhesaid"Allowme,"andputbothhandstoherwaist,morelightlyandreverentlythanIcandescribe;"Nowdrawadeepbreath,ifyouplease。"
"There!"
"Ifyoucoulddrawadeeperstill,"saidhe,insinuatingly。
"There,then!"saidshe,alittlepettishly。
Dr。Staines'seyekindled。
"Hum!"saidhe。Then,afteraconsiderablepause,"Areyoubetterorworseaftereachhemorrhage?"
"La!"saidRosa;"theyneveraskedmethat。Why,better。"
"Nofaintness?"
"Notabit。"
"Ratherasenseofrelief,perhaps?"
"Yes;Ifeellighterandbetter。"
Theexaminationwasconcluded。
Dr。StaineslookedatRosa,andthenatherfather。Theagonyinthatagedface,andthelovethatagonyimplied,wonhim,anditwastotheparentheturnedtogivehisverdict。
"Thehemorrhageisfromthelungs"——
Lusignaninterruptedhim:"Fromthelungs!"criedhe,indismay。
"Yes;aslightcongestionofthelungs。"
"Butnotincurable!Oh,notincurable,doctor!"
"Heavenforbid!Itiscurable——easily——byremovingthecause。"
"Andwhatisthecause?"
"Thecause?"——hehesitated,andlookedratheruneasy——"Well,thecause,sir,is——tightstays。"
Thetranquillityofthemeetingwasinstantlydisturbed。"Tightstays!Me!"criedRosa。"Why,IamtheloosestgirlinEngland。
Look,papa!"And,withoutanyapparenteffort,shedrewherselfin,andpokedherlittlefistbetweenhersashandhergown。
"There!"
Dr。Stainessmiledsadlyandalittlesarcastically:hewasevidentlyshyofencounteringtheladyinthisargument;buthewasmoreathiseasewithherfather;soheturnedtowardshimandlecturedhimfreely。
"Thatiswonderful,sir;andthefirstfourorfivefemalepatientsthatfavoredmewithit,mademedisbelievemyothersenses;butMissLusignanisnowaboutthethirtiethwhohasshownmethatmarvellousfeat,withacalmcountenancethatbeliestheherculeaneffort。Naturehasherevery-daymiracles:aboa-constrictor,diameterseventeeninches,canswallowabuffalo;awoman,withherstaysbisectingheralmost,andlaceratingherskin,canyetforonemomentmakeherselfseemslack,todeceiveajuvenilephysician。Thesnakeisthemiracleofexpansion;thewomanistheprodigyofcontraction。"
"Highlygratefulforthecomparison!"criedRosa。"Womenandsnakes!"
Dr。Stainesblushedandlookeduncomfortable。"Ididnotmeantobeoffensive;itcertainlywasaveryclumsycomparison。"
"Whatdoesthatmatter?"saidMr。Lusignan,impatiently。"Bequiet,Rosa,andletDr。Stainesandmetalksense。"
"Oh,thenIamnobodyinthebusiness!"saidthiswiseyounglady。
"Youareeverybody,"saidStaines,soothingly。"But,"suggestedhe,obsequiously,"ifyoudon'tmind,Iwouldratherexplainmyviewstoyourfather——onthisonesubject。"
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