ItstruckmethatmysafestwayofintroducingmyselfwouldbetotellDoctorDulciferthatIhadcometotheneighborhoodforalittlefishing,andsotopreventhimfromfancyingthatIwassuspiciouslypromptinavailingmyselfofhisofferedhospitality。Iputup,ofcourse,attheinn——stuckalargeparchmentbookofflieshalfinandhalfoutofthepocketofmyshooting-jacket——andsetoffatoncetothedoctor's。ThewaiterofwhomIaskedmywaystareddistrustfullywhilehedirectedme。
Thepeopleattheinnhadevidentlyheardofmynewfriend,andwerenotfavorablydisposedtowardthecauseofscientificinvestigation。
Thehousestoodaboutamileoutofthetown,inadipofgroundnearthefamousfishing-stream。Itwasalonely,old-fashionedred-brickbuilding,surroundedbyhighwalls,withagardenandplantationbehindit。
AsIrangatthegate-bell,Ilookedupatthehouse。Sureenoughallthetopwindowsinfrontwereclosedwithshuttersandbarred。Iwasletinbyamaninlivery;who,however,inmannersandappearance,lookedmuchmorelikeaworkmanindisguisethanafootman。Hehadaverysuspiciouseye,andhefixeditonmeunpleasantlywhenIhandedhimmycard。
Iwasshownintoamorning-roomexactlylikeothermorning-roomsincountryhouses。
Afteralongdelaythedoctorcamein,withscientificbutchers'
sleevesonhisarms,andanaprontiedroundhisportlywaist。Heapologizedforcomingdowninhisworkingdress,andsaideverythingthatwascivilandproperaboutthepleasureofunexpectedlyseeingmeagainsosoon。Therewassomethingratherpreoccupied,Ithought,inthosebrightlyresoluteeyesofhis;
butInaturallyattributedittotheengrossinginfluenceofhisscientificinquiries。HewasevidentlynotatalltakeninbymystoryaboutcomingtoBarkinghamtofish;buthesaw,aswellasIdid,thatitwoulddotokeepupappearances,andcontrivedtolookhighlyinterestedimmediatelyinmyparchment-book。Iaskedafterhisdaughter。Hesaidshewasinthegarden,andproposedthatweshouldgoandfindher。Wedidfindher,withapairofscissorsinherhand,outbloomingtheflowersthatshewastrimming。Shelookedreallygladtoseeme——herbrowneyesbeamedclearandkindly——shegavemyhandanotherinestimableshake——thesummerbreezeswavedherblackcurlsgentlyupwardfromherwaist——shehadonastrawhatandabrownHollandgardeningdress。Ieyeditwithallthepracticalinterestofalinendraper。OBrownHollandyouarebutacoarseandcheapfabric,yethowsoftandpricelessyoulookwhenclothingthefigureofAlicia!
Ilunchedwiththem。Thedoctorrecurredtothesubjectofmyanglingintentions,andaskedhisdaughterifshehadheardwhatpartsofthestreamatBarkinghamwerebestforfishingin。
Shereplied,withamixtureofmodestevasivenessandadorablesimplicity,thatshehadsometimesseengentlemenanglingfromameadow-bankaboutaquarterofamilebelowherflower-garden。I
riskedeverythinginmyusualventuresomeway,andaskedifshewouldshowmewheretheplacewas,incaseIcalledthenextmorningwithmyfishing-rod。Shelookeddutifullyatherfather。
Hesmiledandnodded。Inestimableparent!
Onrisingtotakeleave,Iwasrathercurioustoknowwhetherhewouldoffermeabedinthehouse,ornot。Hedetectedthedirectionofmythoughtsinmyfaceandmanner,andapologizedfornothavingabedtoofferme;everyspareroominthehousebeingoccupiedbyhischemicalassistants,andbythelumberoflaboratories。Evenwhilehewasspeakingthosefewwords,Alicia'sfacechangedjustasIhadseenitchangeatourfirstinterview。Thedowncast,gloomyexpressionoverspreaditagain。
Herfather'seyewanderedtowardherwhenminedid,andsuddenlyassumedthesamedistrustfullookwhichIremembereddetectinginit,undersimilarcircumstances,atDuskydale。Whatcouldthismean?
Thedoctorshookhandswithmeinthehall,leavingtheworkman-likefootmantoopenthedoor。
Istoppedtoadmireafinepairofstag'santlers。Thefootmancoughedimpatiently。Istilllingered,hearingthedoctor'sfootstepsascendingthestairs。Theysuddenlystopped;andthentherewasalowheavyclang,likethesoundofaclosingdoormadeofiron,orofsomeotherunusuallystrongmaterial;thentotalsilence,interruptedbyanotherimpatientcoughfromtheworkman-likefootman。Afterthat,Ithoughtmywisestproceedingwouldbetogoawaybeforemymysteriousattendantwasdriventopracticalextremities。
BetweenthoughtsofAlicia,andinquisitiveyearningstoknowmoreaboutthedoctor'sexperiments,Ipassedratherarestlessnightatmyinn。
Thenextmorning,Ifoundthelovelymistressofmydestiny,withthesoftestofshawlsonhershoulders,thebrightestofparasolsinherhand,andthesmartlittlestrawhatofthedaybeforeonherhead,readytoshowmethewaytothefishing-place。IfI
couldbesurebeforehandthatthesepageswouldonlybereadbypersonsactuallyoccupiedinthemakingoflove——thatoldestandlongest-establishedofallbranchesofmanufacturingindustry——I
couldgointosomeverytenderandinterestingparticularsonthesubjectofmyfirstday'sfishing,undertheadorableauspicesofAlicia。ButasIcannothopeforawhollysympatheticaudience——astheremaybemonks,misogynists,politicaleconomists,andotherprofessedlyhard-heartedpersonspresentamongthosewhomInowaddress——Ithinkitbesttokeeptosafegeneralities,andtodescribemylove-makinginasfewsentencesasthevast,thoughsoft,importanceofthesubjectwillallowmetouse。
Letmeconfess,then,thatIassumedthecharacterofafastidiousangler,andmanagedtobeaweekindiscoveringtherightplacetofishin——always,itisunnecessarytosay,underAlicia'sguidance。Wewentupthestreamanddownthestream,ononeside。Wecrossedthebridge,andwentupthestreamanddownthestreamontheother。Wegotintoapunt,andwentupthestreamwithgreatdifficulty,anddownthestreamwithgreatease。Welandedonalittleisland,andwalkedallroundit,andinspectedthestreamattentivelyfromacentralpointofview。Wefoundtheislanddamp,andwentbacktothebank,andupthestream,andoverthebridge,anddownthestreamagain;andthen,forthefirsttime,thesweetgirlturnedappealinglytome,andconfessedthatshehadexhaustedherartlessknowledgeofthelocality。ItwasexactlyaweekfromthedaywhenIhadfirstfollowedherintothefieldswithmyfishing-rodovermyshoulder;andIhadneveryetcaughtanythingbutAlicia'shand,andthatnotwithmyhook。
Wesatdownclosetogetheronthebank,entirelyinconsequenceofourdespairatnotfindingagoodfishing-place。Ilookedatthebrowneyes,andtheyturnedawayobservantlydownthestream。
Ifollowedthem,andtheyturnedawayinquiringlyupthestream。
Wasthisangelofpatienceandkindnessstilllookingforafishingplace?Andwasit_up_thestream,afterall?No!——shesmiledandshookherheadwhenIaskedthequestion,andthebrowneyessuddenlystolealookatme。IcouldholdoutnolongerInonebreathlessmomentIcaughtholdofbothherhands——inonestammeringsentenceIaskedherifshewouldbemywife。
Shetriedfaintlytofreeherhands——gaveuptheattempt——smiled——madeanefforttolookgrave——gavethatup,too——sighedsuddenly——checkedherselfsuddenly——saidnothing。
PerhapsIoughttohavetakenmyanswerforgranted;buttheleastbusiness-likemanthateverlivedbecomesaneminentlypracticalcharacterinmattersoflove。Irepeatedmyquestion。
Shelookedawayconfusedly;hereyelightedonacornerofherfather'sred-brickhouse,peepingthroughagapintheplantationalreadymentioned;andherblushingcheekslosttheircolorinstantly。Ifeltherhandsgrowcold;shedrewthemresolutelyoutofmine,androsewiththetearsinhereyes。HadIoffendedher?
"No,"shesaidwhenIaskedherthequestion,andturnedtomeagain,andheldoutherhandwithsuchfrank,fearlesskindness,thatIalmostfellonmykneestothankherforit。
MightIhopeevertohearhersay"Yes"tothequestionthatI
hadaskedontheriverbank?
Shesighedbitterly,andturnedagaintowardthered-brickhouse。
Wasthereanyfamilyreasonagainsthersaying"Yes"?AnythingthatImustnotinquireinto?Anyoppositiontobedreadedfromherfather?
ThemomentImentionedherfather,sheshrankawayfrommeandburstintoaviolentfitofcrying。
"Don'tspeakofitagain!"shesaidinabrokenvoice。"I
mustn't——youmustn't——ah,don't,don'tsayawordmoreaboutit!
I'mnotdistressedwithyou——itisnotyourfault。Don'tsayanything——leavemequietforaminute。Ishallsoonbebetterityouleavemequiet。”
Shedriedhereyesdirectly,withashiverasifitwascold,andtookmyarm。Iledherbacktothehouse-gate;andthen,feelingthatIcouldnotgointolunchasusual,afterwhathadhappened,saidIwouldreturntothefishing-place。
"ShallIcometodinnerthisevening?"Iasked,asIrangthegate-bellforher。
"Oh,yes——yes!——docome,orhe——"
Themysteriousman-servantopenedthedoor,andwepartedbeforeshecouldsaythenextwords。
CHAPTERVIII。
IWENTbacktothefishing-placewithaheavyheart,overcomebymournfulthoughts,forthefirsttimeinmylife。Itwasplainthatshedidnotdislikeme,andequallyplainthattherewassomeobstacleconnectedwithherfather,whichforbadehertolistentomyofferofmarriage。Fromthetimewhenshehadaccidentallylookedtowardthered-brickhouse,somethinginhermannerwhichitisquiteimpossibletodescribe,hadsuggestedtomymindthatthisobstaclewasnotonlysomethingshecouldnotmention,butsomethingthatshewaspartlyashamedof,partlyafraidof,andpartlydoubtfulabout。Whatcoulditbe?Howhadshefirstknownit?Inwhatwaywasherfatherconnectedwithit?
Inthecourseofourwalksshehadtoldmenothingaboutherselfwhichwasnotperfectlysimpleandunsuggestive。
HerchildhoodhadbeenpassedinEngland。Afterthat,shehadlivedwithherfatherandmotheratParis,wherethedoctorhadmanyfriends——forallofwhomsherememberedfeelingmoreorlessdislike,withoutbeingabletotellwhy。TheyhadthencometoEngland,andhadlivedinlodgingsinLondon。Foratimetheyhadbeenmiserablypoor。But,afterhermother'sdeath——asuddendeathfromheartdisease——therehadcomeachangeintheiraffairs,whichshewasquiteunabletoexplain。Theyhadremovedtotheirpresentabode,togivethedoctorfullaccommodationforthecarryingonofhisscientificpursuits。HeoftenhadoccasiontogotoLondon;butnevertookherwithhim。Theonlywomanathomenow,besideherself,wasanelderlyperson,whoactedascookandhousekeeper,andwhohadbeenintheirserviceformanyyears。Itwasverylonelysometimesnothavingacompanionofherownageandsex;butshehadgottolerablyusedtobearit,andtoamuseherselfwithherbooks,andmusic,andflowers。
Thusfarshechattedaboutherselfquitefreely;butwhenI
tried,eveninthevaguestmanner,toleadherintodiscussingthecausesofherstrangelysecludedlife,shelookedsodistressed,andbecamesosuddenlysilent,thatInaturallyrefrainedfromsayinganotherwordonthattopic。Oneconclusion,however,IfelttolerablysurethatIhaddrawncorrectlyfromwhatshesaid:herfather'sconducttowardher,thoughnotabsolutelyblamableorgrosslyneglectfulonanypoint,hadstillneverbeenofanaturetomakeherardentlyfondofhim。Heperformedtheordinaryparentaldutiesrigidlyandrespectablyenough;buthehadapparentlynotcaredtowinallthefiliallovewhichhisdaughterwouldhavebestowedonamoreaffectionateman。
When,afterreflectingonwhatAliciahadtoldme,IbegantocalltomindwhatIhadbeenabletoobserveformyself,Ifoundamplematerialstoexcitemycuriosityinrelationtothedoctor,ifnotmydistrust。
IhavealreadydescribedhowIheardtheclangoftheheavydoor,ontheoccasionofmyfirstvisittothered-brickhouse。Thenextday,whenthedoctoragaintookleaveofmeinthehall,I
hitonaplanforseeingthedooraswellashearingit。I
dawdledonmywayout,tillIheardtheclangagain;thenpretendedtoremembersomeimportantmessagewhichIhadforgottentogivetothedoctor,andwithalookofinnocenthurryranupstairstoovertakehim。Thedisguisedworkmanranaftermewithashoutof"Stop!"Iwasconvenientlydeaftohim——reachedthefirstfloorlanding——andarrivedatadoorwhichshutoffthewholestaircasehigherup;anirondoor,assolidasifitbelongedtoabanker'sstrong-room,andguardedmillionsofmoney。Ireturnedtothehall,inattentivetotheservant'snotover-civilremonstrances,and,sayingthatIwouldwaittillI
sawthedoctoragain,leftthehouse。
Thenextdaytwopale-lookingmen,inartisancostume,cameuptothegateatthesametimeasIdid,eachcarryingalongwoodenboxunderhisarm,stronglyboundwithiron。Itriedtomakethemtalkwhilewewerewaitingforadmission,butneitherofthemwouldgobeyond"Yes,"or"No";andbothhad,tomyeyes,someunmistakablysinisterlinesintheirfaces。Thenextdaythehouskeepingcookcametothedoor——abuxomoldwomanwithalookandareadysmile,andsomethinginhermannerwhichsuggestedthatshehadnotbegunlifequitesorespectablyasshewasnowendingit。Sheseemedtobedecidedlysatisfiedwithmypersonalappearance;talkedtomeonindifferentmatterswithgreatglibness;butsuddenlybecamesilentanddiplomaticthemomentI
lookedtowardthestairandaskedinnocentlyifshehadtogoupanddownthemofteninthecourseoftheday。Asforthedoctorhimselfhewasunapproachableonthesubjectofthemysteriousupperregions。IfIintroducedchemistryingeneralintotheconversationhebeggedmenottospoilhishappyholidayhourswithhisdaughterandme,byleadinghimbacktohiswork-a-daythoughts。IfIreferredtohisownexperimentsinparticularhealwaysmadeajokeaboutbeingafraidofmychemicalknowledge,andofmywishingtoanticipatehiminhisdiscoveries。Inbrief,afteraweek'srunofthelowerregions,theupperpartofthered-brickhouseandtheactualnatureofitsowner'soccupationsstillremainedimpenetrablemysteriestome,pry,ponder,andquestionasImight。
Thinkingofthisontheriver-bank,inconnectionwiththedistressingscenewhichIhadjusthadwithAlicia,Ifoundthatthemysteriousobstacleatwhichshehadhinted,themysteriouslifeledbyherfather,andthemysterioustopofthehousethathadhithertodefiedmycuriosity,allthreeconnectedthemselvesinmymindaslinksofthesamechain。TheobstacletomymarryingAliciawasthethingthatmosttroubledme。IfIonlyfoundoutwhatitwas,andifImadelightofitwhichIwasresolvedbeforehandtodo,letitbewhatitmight,Ishouldmostprobablyendbyovercomingherscruples,andtakingherawayfromtheominousred-brickhouseinthecharacterofmywife。ButhowwasItomaketheall-importantdiscovery?
Cudgelingmybrainsforananswertothisquestion,Ifellatlastintoreasoninguponit,byaprocessofnaturallogic,somethingafterthisfashion:Themysterioustopofthehouseisconnectedwiththedoctor,andthedoctorisconnectedwiththeobstaclewhichhasmadewretchednessbetweenAliciaandme。IfI
canonlygettothetopofthehouse,Imaygetalsototherootoftheobstacle。Itisadangerousandanuncertainexperiment;
but,comewhatmayofit,Iwilltryandfindout,ifhumaningenuitycancompassthemeans,whatDoctorDulcifer'soccupationreallyis,ontheothersideofthatirondoor。
Havingcometothisresolutionandderiving,letmeadd,parenthetically,greatconsolationfromit,thenextsubjectofconsiderationwasthebestmethodofgettingsafelyintothetopregionsofthehouse。
Pickingthelockoftheirondoorwasoutofthequestion,fromtheexposednatureofthesituationwhichthatmysteriousironbarrieroccupied。Myonlypossiblewaytothesecondfloorlaybythebackofthehouse。Ihadlookedupatittwoorthreetimes,whilewalkinginthegardenafterdinnerwithAlicia。WhathadI
broughtawayinmymemoryastheresultofthatcasualinspectionofmyhost'sbackpremises?Severalfragmentsofusefulinformation。
Inthefirstplace,oneofthemostmagnificentvinesIhadeverseengrewagainstthebackwallofthehouse,trainedcarefullyonastrongtrellis-work。Inthesecondplace,themiddlefirst-floorbackwindowlookedoutonalittlestonebalcony,builtonthetopoftheporchoverthegardendoor。Inthethirdplace,thebackwindowsofthesecondfloorhadbeenopen,oneachoccasionwhenIhadseenthem——mostprobablytoairthehouse,whichcouldnotbeventilatedfromthefrontduringthehotsummerweather,inconsequenceoftheshut-upconditionofallthewindowsthereabouts。Inthefourthplace,hardbythecoach-houseinwhichDoctorDulcifer'sneatgigwasputup,therewasatool-shed,inwhichthegardenerkepthisshortpruning-ladder。Inthefifthandlastplace,outsidethestableinwhichDoctorDulcifer'sbloodmarelivedinluxurioussolitude,wasadog-kennelwithalargemastiffchainedtoitnightandday。IfIcouldonlyridmyselfofthedog——agaunt,half-starvedbrute,madesavageandmangybyperpetualconfinement——Ididnotseeanyreasontodespairofgettinginundiscoveredatoneofthesecond-floorwindows——providedI
waiteduntilasufficientlylatehour,andsucceededinscalingthegardenwallatthebackofthehouse。
LifewithoutAliciabeingnotworthhaving,Ideterminedtoriskthethingthatverynight。
GoingbackatoncetothetownofBarkingham,Iprovidedmyselfwithashortbitofrope,alittlebull's-eyelantern,asmallscrewdriver,andanicebitofbeefchemicallyadaptedforthesoothingoftroublesomedogs。Ithendressed,disposedofthesethingsneatlyinmycoatpockets,andwenttothedoctor'stodinner。Inonerespect,Fortunefavoredmyaudacity。Itwasthesultriestdayofthewholeseason——surelytheycouldnotthinkofshuttingupthesecond-floorbackwindowsto-night!
Aliciawaspaleandsilent。Thelovelybrowneyes,whentheylookedatme,saidasplainlyasinwords,"Wehavebeencryingagreatdeal,Frank,sincewesawyoulast。”Thelittlewhitefingersgavemineasignificantsqueeze——andthatwasallthereferencethatpassedbetweenustowhathappenedinthemorning。
Shesatthroughthedinnerbravely;but,whenthedessertcame,leftusforthenight,withafewshy,hurriedwordsabouttheexcessiveheatoftheweatherbeingtoomuchforher。Irosetoopenthedoor,andexchangedalastmeaninglookwithher,asshebowedandwentbyme。LittledidIthinkthatIshouldhavetoliveuponnothingbuttheremembranceofthatlookformanywearydaysthatwereyettocome。
Thedoctorwasinexcellentspirits,andalmostoppressivelyhospitable。Wesatsociablychattingoverourclarettillpasteighto'clock。Thenmyhostturnedtohisdesktowritealetterbeforethepostwantout;andIstrolledawaytosmokeacigarinthegarden。
Second-floorbackwindowsallopen,atmosphereassultryasever,gardener'spruning-ladderquitesafeinthetool-shed,savagemastiffinhiskennelcrunchinghisbonesforsupper。Good。Thedogwillnotbevisitedagaintonight:Imaythrowmymedicatedbitofbeefatonceintohiskennel。Iactedontheideaimmediately;thedogseizedhispieceofbeef;Iheardasnap,awheeze,achoke,andagroan——andtherewasthemastiffdisposedof,insidethekennel,wherenobodycouldfindoutthathewasdeadtillthetimecameforfeedinghimthenextmorning。
Iwentbacktothedoctor;wehadasocialglassofcoldbrandy-and-watertogether;Ilightedanothercigar,andtookmyleave。Myhostbeingtoorespectableamannottokeepearlycountryhours,Iwentaway,asusual,aboutten。Themysteriousman-servantlockedthegatebehindme。IsaunteredontheroadbacktoBarkinghamforaboutfiveminutes,thenstruckoffsharpfortheplantation,lightedmylanternwiththehelpofmycigarandabrimstonematchofthatbarbarousperiod,shutdowntheslideagain,andmadeforthegardenwall。
Itwasformidablyhigh,andgarnishedhorriblywithbrokenbottles;butitwasalsoold,andwhenIcametopickatthemortarwithmyscrew-driver,Ifounditreasonablyrottenwithageanddamp。
Iremovedfourbrickstomakefootholesindifferentpositionsupthewall。Itwasdesperatelyhardandlongwork,easyasitmaysoundindescription——especiallywhenIhadtoholdonbythetopofthewall,withmyflatoperahatasweusedtocallitinthosedayslaid,asaguard,betweenmyhandandtheglass,whileIclearedawaythroughthesharpbottle-endsformyotherhandandmyknees。Thisdone,mygreatdifficultywasvanquished;
andIhadonlytodropluxuriouslyintoaflower-bedontheothersideofthewall。
Perfectstillnessinthegarden:nosignofalightanywhereatthebackofthehouse:first-floorwindowsallshut:second-floorwindowsstillopen。Ifetchedthepruning-ladder;putitagainstthesideoftheporch;tiedoneendofmybitofropetothetoproundofit;tooktheotherendinmymouth,andpreparedtoclimbtothebalconyovertheporchbythethickvinebranchesandthetrellis-work。
Nomanwhohashadanyrealexperienceoflifecanhavefailedtoobservehowamazinglyclose,incriticalsituations,thegrotesqueandtheterrible,thecomicandtheserious,contrivetotreadoneachother'sheels。Atsuchtimes,thelastthingweoughtproperlytothinkofcomesintoourheads,ortheleastconsistenteventthatcouldpossiblybeexpectedtohappendoesactuallyoccur。WhenIputmylifeindangeronthatmemorablenight,byputtingmyfootonthetrellis-work,Iabsolutelythoughtofthenever-dyingLadyMalkinshawplungedinrefreshingslumber,andofthefranticexclamationsMr。Batterburywouldutterifhesawwhatherladyship'sgrandsonwasdoingwithhispreciouslifeandlimbsatthatcriticalmoment。Iamnohero——I
wasfullyawareofthedangertowhichIwasexposingmyself;andyetIprotestthatIcaughtmyselflaughingundermybreath,withthemostoutrageousinconsistency,attheinstantwhenIbegantheascentofthetrellis-work。
Ireachedthebalconyovertheporchinsafety,dependingmoreuponthetoughvinebranchesthanthetrellis-workduringmyascent。Mynextemploymentwastopullupthepruning-ladder,assoftlyaspossible,bytheropewhichIheldattachedtoit。Thisdone,Iputtheladderagainstthehousewall,listened,measuredthedistancetotheopensecond-floorwindowwithmyeye,listenedagain——and,findingallquiet,beganmysecondandlastascent。Theladderwascomfortablylong,andIwasconvenientlytall;myhandwasonthewindow-sill——Imountedanothertworounds——andmyeyeswerelevelwiththeinterioroftheroom。
Supposeanyoneshouldbesleepingthere!
IlistenedatthewindowattentivelybeforeIventuredontakingmylanternoutofmycoatpocket。Thenightwassoquiteandairlessthattherewasnotthefaintestrustleamongtheleavesinthegardenbeneathmetodistractmyattention。Ilistened。
Thebreathingofthelightestofsleepersmusthavereachedmyear,throughthatintensestillness,iftheroomhadbeenabedroom,andthebedwereoccupied。Iheardnothingbutthequickbeatofmyownheart。Theminutesofsuspensewerepassingheavily——Ilaidmyotherhandoverthewindow-sill,thenamomentofdoubtcame——doubtwhetherIshouldcarrytheadventureanyfurther。Imasteredmyhesitationdirectly——itwastoolateforsecondthoughts。"Nowforit!"Iwhisperedtomyself,andgotinatthewindow。
Towait,listeningagain,inthedarknessofthatunknownregion,wasmorethanIhadcouragefor。ThemomentIwasdownonthefloor,Ipulledthelanternoutofmypocketandraisedtheshade。
Sofar,sogood——Ifoundmyselfinadirtylumber-room。Largepans,someofthemcrackedandmoreofthembroken;emptyboxesboundwithiron,ofthesamesortasthoseIhadseentheworkmenbringinginatthefrontgate;oldcoalsacks;apacking-casefullofcoke;andahuge,cracked,mouldyblacksmith'sbellows——theseweretheprincipalobjectsthatIobservedinthelumber-room。Theonedoorleadingoutofitwasopen,asIhadexpecteditwouldbe,inordertolettheairthroughthebackwindowintothehouse。Itookoffmyshoes,andstoleintothepassage。Myfirstimpulse,themomentIlookedalongit,wastoshutdownmylantern-shade,andlistenagain。
StillIheardnothing;butatthefarendofthepassageIsawabrightlightpouringthroughthehalf-openeddoorofoneofthemysteriousfrontrooms。
Icreptsoftlytowardit。Adecidedlychemicalsmellbegantostealintomynostrils——and,listeningagain,IthoughtIheardaboveme,andinsomedistantroom,anoiselikethelowgrowlofalargefurnace,muffledinsomepeculiarmanner。ShouldI
retracemystepsinthatdirection?No——nottillIhadseensomethingoftheroomwiththebrightlight,outsideofwhichI
wasnowstanding。Ibentforwardsoftly;lookingbylittleandlittlefurtherandfurtherthroughtheopeningofthedoor,untilmyheadandshoulderswerefairlyinsidetheroom,andmyeyeshadconvincedmethatnolivingsoul,sleepingorwaking,wasinanypartofitatthatparticularmoment。Impelledbyafatalcuriosity,Ienteredimmediately,andbegantolookaboutmewitheagereyes。
Isawironladles,pansfullofwhitesand,fileswithwhitemetalleftglitteringintheirteeth,moldsofplasterofParis,bagscontainingthesamematerialinpowder,apowerfulmachinewiththenameanduseofwhichIwastheoreticallynotunacquainted,whitemetalinapartially-fusedstate,bottlesofaquafortis,diesscatteredoveradresser,crucibles,sandpaper,barsofmetal,andedgedtoolsinplenty,ofthestrangestconstruction。Iwasnotatallascrupulousman,asthereaderknowsbythistime;butwhenIlookedattheseobjects,andthoughtofAlicia,Icouldnotforthelifeofmehelpshuddering。Therewasnottheleastdoubtaboutit,evenafterthelittleIhadseen:theimportantchemicalpursuitstowhichDoctorDulciferwasdevotinghimself,meant,inplainEnglishandinoneword——Coining。
DidAliciaknowwhatIknewnow,ordidsheonlysuspectit?
WhicheverwayIansweredthatquestioninmyownmind,Icouldbenolongeratanylossforanexplanationofherbehaviorinthemeadowbythestream,orofthatunnaturallygloomy,downcastlookwhichoverspreadherfacewhenherfather'spursuitswerethesubjectofconversation。DidIfalterinmyresolutiontomarryher,nowthatIhaddiscoveredwhattheobstaclewaswhichhadmademysteryandwretchednessbetweenus?Certainlynot。I
wasaboveallprejudices。Iwastheleastparticularofmankind。
Ihadnofamilyaffectioninmyway——and,greatestfactofall,I
wasinlove。UnderthosecircumstanceswhatRogueofanyspiritwouldhavefaltered?Afterthefirstshockofthediscoverywasover,myresolutiontobeAlicia'shusbandwassettledmorefirmlythanever。
Therewasalittleroundtableinacorneroftheroomfurthestfromthedoor,whichIhadnotyetexamined。Afeverishlongingtolookateverythingwithinmyreach——topenetratetotheinnermostrecessesofthelabyrinthinwhichIhadinvolvedmyself——consumedme。Iwenttothetable,andsawuponit,rangedsymmetricallysidebyside,fourobjectswhichlookedlikethickrulerswrappedupinsilverpaper。Iopenedthepaperattheendofoneoftherulers,andfoundthatitwascomposedofhalf-crowns。Ihadclosedthepaperagain,andwasjustraisingmyheadfromthetableoverwhichithadbeenbent,whenmyrightcheekcameincontactwithsomethinghardandcold。Istartedback——lookedup——andconfrontedDoctorDulcifer,holdingapistolatmyrighttemple。
CHAPTERIX。
THEdoctorlikemehadhisshoesoff。Thedoctorlikemehadcomeinwithoutmakingtheleastnoise。Hecockedthepistolwithoutsayingaword。IfeltthatIwasprobablystandingfacetofacewithdeath,andItoosaidnotaword。WetwoRogueslookedeachothersteadilyandsilentlyintheface——he,themightyandprosperousvillain,withmylifeinhishands:I,theabjectandpoorscamp,waitinghismercy。
ItmusthavebeenatleastaminuteafterIheardtheclickofthecockedpistolbeforehespoke。
"Howdidyougethere?"heasked。
Thequietcommonplacetermsinwhichheputhisquestion,andtheperfectcomposureandpolitenessofhismanner,remindedmealittleofGentlemanJones。Butthedoctorwasmuchthemorerespectable-lookingmanofthetwo;hisbaldnesswasmoreintellectualandbenevolent;therewasadelicacyandproprietyinthepulpinessofhisfatwhitechin,ablandbagginessinhisunwhiskeredcheeks,areverentroughnessabouthiseyebrowsandafullnessinhislowereyelids,whichraisedhimfarhigher,physiognomicallyspeaking,inthesocialscale,thanmyoldprisonacquaintance。Putashovel-hatonGentlemanJones,andtheeffectwouldonlyhavebeeneccentric;putthesamecoveringontheheadofDoctorDulcifer,andtheeffectwouldhavebeenstrictlyepiscopal。
"Howdidyougethere?"herepeated,stillwithoutshowingtheleastirritation。
ItoldhimhowIhadgotinatthesecond-floorwindow,withoutconcealingawordofthetruth。Thegravityofthesituation,andthesharpnessofthedoctor'sintellects,asexpressedinhiseyes,madeanythinglikeasuppressionoffactsonmypartadesperatelydangerousexperiment。
"YouwantedtoseewhatIwasaboutuphere,didyou?"saidhe,whenIhadendedmyconfession。"Doyouknow?"
Thepistolbarreltouchedmycheekashesaidthelastwords。I
thoughtofallthesuspiciousobjectsscatteredabouttheroom,oftheprobabilitythathewasonlyputtingthisquestiontotrymycourage,oftheverylikelychancethathewouldshootmeforthwith,ifIbegantoprevaricate。Ithoughtofthesethings,andboldlyanswered:
"Yes,Idoknow。”
Helookedatmereflectively;thensaid,inlow,thoughtfultones,speaking,nottome,butentirelytohimself:
"SupposeIshoothim?"
Isawinhiseye,thatifIflinched,hewoulddrawthetrigger。
"Supposeyoutrustme?"Isaid,withoutmovingamuscle。
"Itrustedyou,asanhonestman,downstairs,andIfindyou,likeathief,uphere,"returnedthedoctor,withaself-satisfiedsmileattheneatnessofhisownretort。"No,"hecontinued,relapsingintosoliloquy:"thereisriskeveryway;
buttheleastriskperhapsistoshoothim。”
"Wrong,"saidI。"Therearerelationsofminewhohaveapecuniaryinterestinmylife。Iamthemainconditionofacontingentreversionintheirfavor。IfIammissed,Ishallbeinquiredafter。”Ihavewonderedsinceatmyowncoolnessinthefaceofthedoctor'spistol;butmylifedependedonmykeepingmyself-possession,andthedesperatenatureofthesituationlentmeadesperatecourage。
"HowdoIknowyouarenotlying?"heasked。
"HaveInotspokenthetruth,hitherto?"
Thosewordsmadehimhesitate。Heloweredthepistolslowlytohisside。Ibegantobreathefreely。
"Trustme,"Irepeated。"Ifyoudon'tbelieveIwouldholdmytongueaboutwhatIhaveseenhere,foryoursake,youmaybecertainthatIwouldfor——"
"Formydaughter's,"heinterposed,withasarcasticsmile。
Ibowedwithallimaginablecordiality。Thedoctorwavedhispistolintheaircontemptuously。
"Therearetwowaysofmakingyouholdyourtongue,"hesaid。
"Thefirstisshootingyou;thesecondismakingafelonofyou。
Onconsideration,afterwhatyouhavesaid,theriskineithercaseseemsaboutequal。Iamnaturallyahumaneman;yourfamilyhavedonemenoinjury;Iwillnotbethecauseoftheirlosingmoney;Iwon'ttakeyourlife,I'llhaveyourcharacter。Weareallfelonsonthisfloorofthehouse。Youhavecomeamongus——youshallbeoneofus。Ringthatbell。”
Hepointedwiththepistoltoabell-handlebehindme。Ipulleditinsilence。
Felon!Thewordhasanuglysound——averyuglysound。But,consideringhowneartheblackcurtainhadbeentofallingovertheadventurousdramaofmylife,hadIanyrighttocomplainoftheprolongationofthescene,howeverdarklyitmightlookatfirst?Besides,someofthebestfeelingsofourcommonnatureputtingoutofallquestionthevaluewhichmensounaccountablypersistinsettingontheirownlives,impelledme,ofnecessity,tochoosethealternativeoffeloniousexistenceinpreferencetothatofrespectabledeath。LoveandHonorbademelivetomarryAlicia;andasenseoffamilydutymademeshrinkfromoccasioningalossofthreethousandpoundstomyaffectionatesister。Perishthefar-fetchedscrupleswhichwouldbreaktheheartofonelovelywoman,andscattertothewindsthepin-moneyofanother!
"IfyouutteronewordincontradictionofanythingIsaywhenmyworkmencomeintotheroom,"saidthedoctor,uncockinghispistolassoonasIhadrungthebell,"Ishallchangemymindaboutleavingyourlifeandtakingyourcharacter。Rememberthat;