nottowardshim,buttowardsthedeadson,whomasyetshebelievedtobeherlivinghusband。Sheknewshewasactingindefianceofhisexpressedwish;buthehadneverdismayedherwithanyexpressionofhisownfearsabouthishealth;andshe,brightwithlife,hadnevercontemplateddeathcomingtofetchawayonesobeloved。Hewasill—veryill,theletterfromthestrangegirlsaidthat;butAimé;ehadnursedherparents,andknewwhatillnesswas。TheFrenchdoctorhadpraisedherskillandneat—handednessasanurse,andevenifshehadbeentheclumsiestofwomen,washenotherhusband—herall?Andwasshenothiswife,whoseplacewasbyhispillow?Sowithoutevenasmuchreasoningashasbeenheregiven,Aimé;emadeherpreparations,swallowingdownthetearsthatwouldoverflowhereyes,anddropintothelittletrunkshewaspackingsoneatly。
Andbyherside,ontheground,satethechild,nownearlytwoyearsold;
andforhimAimé;ehadalwaysasmileandacheerfulword。Herservantlovedherandtrustedher;andthewomanwasofanagetohavehadexperienceofhumankind。Aimé;ehadtoldherthatherhusbandwasill,andtheservanthadknownenoughofthehouseholdhistorytoknowthatasyetAimé;ewasnothisacknowledgedwife。Butshesympathizedwiththepromptdecisionofhermistresstogotohimdirectly,whereverhewas,Cautioncomesfromeducationofonekindoranother,andAimé;ewasnotdismayedbywarnings;onlythewomanpleadedhardforthechildtobeleft。’Hewassuchcompany,’shesaid;’andhewouldsotirehismotherinherjourneying;
andmaybehisfatherwouldbetooilltoseehim。’TowhichAimé;ereplied,’Goodcompanyforyou,butbetterforme。Awomanisnevertiredwithcarryingherownchild’(whichwasnottrue;buttherewassufficienttruthinittomakeitbebelievedbybothmistressandservant),’andifMonsieurcouldcareforanything,hewouldrejoicetohearthebabbleofhislittleson。’SoAimé;ecaughttheeveningcoachtoLondonatthenearestcross—road,Marthastandingbyaschaperonandfriendtoseeheroff,andhandingherinthelargelustychild,alreadycrowingwithdelightatthesightofthehorses。Therewasa’lingerie’
shop,keptbyaFrenchwoman,whoseacquaintanceAimé;ehadmadeinthedayswhenshewasaLondonnursemaid,andthithershebetookherself,ratherthantoanhotel,tospendthefewnight—hoursthatintervenedbeforetheBirminghamcoachstartedatearlymorning。Shesleptorwatchedonasofaintheparlour,forspare—bedtherewasnone;butMadamePaulinecameinbetimeswithagoodcupofcoffeeforthemother,andof’soupeblanche’fortheboy;andtheywentoffagainintothewideworld,onlythinkingof,onlyseekingthe’him,’whowaseverythinghumantoboth。
Aimé;erememberedthesoundofthenameofthevillagewhereOsbornehadoftentoldherthathealightedfromthecoachtowalkhome;andthoughshecouldneverhavespeltthestrangeuncouthword,yetshespokeitwithprettyslowdistinctnesstotheguard,askinghiminherbrokenEnglishwhentheyshouldarrivethere?Nottillfouro’clock。Alas!andwhatmighthappenbeforethen!Oncewithhimsheshouldhavenofear;shewassurethatshecouldbringhimround;butwhatmightnothappenbeforehewasinhertendercare?Shewasaverycapablepersoninmanyways,thoughsochildishandinnocentinothers。ShemadeuphermindtothecoursesheshouldpursuewhenthecoachsetherdownatFeversham。Sheaskedforamantocarryhertrunk,andshowherthewaytoHamleyHall。’HamleyHall!’saidtheinnkeeper。’Eh!there’sadealoftroubletherejustnow。’’Iknow,Iknow,’saidshe,hasteningoffafterthewheelbarrowinwhichhertrunkwasgoing,andbreathlesslystrugglingtokeepupwithit,herheavychildasleepinherarms。Herpulsesbeatalloverherbody;shecouldhardlyseeoutofhereyes。Toher,aforeigner,thedrawnblindsofthehouse,whenshecameinsightofit,hadnosignificance;shehurried,stumbledon。’Backdoororfront,missus?’askedthebootsfromtheinn。’Themostnearest,’saidshe。Andthefrontdoorwas’themostnearest。’
Mollywassittingwiththesquireinthedarkeneddrawing—room,readingouthertranslationsofAimé;e’sletterstoherhusband。Thesquirewasneverwearyofhearingthem;theverysoundofMolly’svoicesoothedandcomfortedhim,itwassosweetandlow。Andhepulledherup,muchasachilddoes,ifonasecondreadingofthesamelettershesubstitutedonewordforanother。Thehousewasverystillthisafternoon,stillasithadbeennowforseveraldays;everyservantinit,howeverneedless,movingaboutontiptoe,speakingbelowthebreath,andshuttingdoorsassoftlyasmightbeThenearestnoiseorstirofactivelifewasthatoftherooksinthetrees,whowerebeginningtheirspringchatterofbusiness。
Suddenly,throughthisquiet,therecamearingatthefront—doorbellthatsounded,andwentonsounding,throughthehouse,pulledbyanignorantvigoroushand。Mollystoppedreading;sheandthesquirelookedateachotherinsurpriseddismay。PerhapsathoughtofRoger’ssudden(andimpossible)
returnwasinthemindofeach;butneitherspoke。TheyheardRobinsonhurryingtoanswertheunwontedsummons。Theylistened;buttheyheardnomore。Therewaslittlemoretohear。Whentheoldservantopenedthedoor,aladywithachildinherarmsstoodthere。Shegaspedoutherready—preparedEnglishsentence,—’CanIseeMrOsborneHamley?Heisill,Iknow;butIamhiswife。’Robinsonhadbeenawarethattherewassomemystery,longsuspectedbytheservants,andcometolightatlasttothemaster,—hehadguessedthattherewasayoungwomaninthecase;butwhenshestoodtherebeforehim,askingforherdeadhusbandasifhewereliving,anypresenceofmindRobinsonmighthavehadforsookhim;hecouldnottellherthetruth,—hecouldonlyleavethedooropen,andsaytoher,’Waitawhile,I’llcomeback,’andbetakehimselftothedrawing—roomwhereMollywas,heknew。Hewentuptoherinaflutterandahurry,andwhisperedsomethingtoherwhichturnedherwhitewithdismay。’Whatisit?Whatisit?’saidthesquire,tremblingwithexcitement。’Don’tkeepitfromme。Icanbearit。Roger——’Theyboththoughthewasgoingtofaint;hehadrisenupandcomeclosetoMolly;suspensewouldbeworsethananything。’MrsOsborneHamleyishere,’saidMolly。’Iwrotetotellherherhusbandwasveryill,andshehascome。’’Shedoesnotknowwhathashappened,seemingly,’saidRobinson。’Ican’tseeher—Ican’tseeher,’saidthesquire,shrinkingawayintoacorner。’Youwillgo,Molly,won’tyou?You’llgo。’Mollystoodforamomentortwo,irresolute。She,too,shrankfromtheinterview。Robinsonputinhisword,—’Shelooksbutaweaklything,andhascarriedabigbaby,choosehowfar,Ididnotstoptoask。’Atthisinstantthedoorsoftlyopened,andrightintothemidstofthemcamethelittlefigureingrey,lookingreadytofallwiththeweightofherchild。’YouareMolly,’saidshe,notseeingthesquireatonce。’Theladywhowrotetheletter;hespokeofyousometimes。Youwillletmegotohim。’Mollydidnotanswer,exceptthatatsuchmomentstheeyesspeaksolemnlyandcomprehensively。Aimé;ereadtheirmeaning。Allshesaidwas,—’Heisnot—oh,myhusband—myhusband!’Herarmsrelaxed,herfigureswayed,thechildscreamedandheldouthisarmsforhelp。Thathelpwasgivenhimbyhisgrandfather,justbeforeAimé;efellsenselessonthefloor。’Maman,maman!’criedthelittlefellow,nowstrivingandfightingtogetbacktoher,whereshelay;hefoughtsolustilythatthesquirehadtoputhimdown,andhecrawledtothepoorinanimatebody,behindwhichsateMolly,holdingthehead;whilstRobinsonrushedawayforwater,wine,andmorewomankind。’Poorthing,poorthing!’saidthesquire,bendingoverher,andcryingafreshoverhersuffering。’Sheisbutyoung,Molly,andshemustha’lovedhimdearly。’’Tobesure!’saidMolly,quickly。Shewasuntyingthebonnet,andtakingofftheworn,butneatlymendedgloves;therewasthesoftluxuriantblackhair,shadingthepale,innocentface,—thelittlenotable—lookingbrownhands,withthewedding—ringforsoleornament。Thechildclusteredhisfingersroundoneofhers,andnestledupagainstherwithhisplaintivecry,gettingmoreandmoreintoaburstofwailing:’Maman,maman!’Atthegrowingacutenessofhisimploring,herhandmoved,herlipsquivered,consciousnesscamepartiallyback。Shedidnotopenhereyes,butgreatheavytearsstoleoutfrombeneathhereyelashes。Mollyheldherheadagainstherownbreast;andtheytriedtogiveherwine,—whichsheshrankfrom—water,whichshedidnotreject;thatwasall。Atlastshetriedtospeak。
’Takemeaway,’shesaid,’intothedark。Leavemealone。’SoMollyandthewomanliftedherupandcarriedheraway,andlaidheronthebed,inthebestbed—chamberinthehouse,anddarkenedthealreadyshadedlight。Shewaslikeanunconsciouscorpseherself,inthatsheofferedneitherassistancenorresistancetoallthattheyweredoing。ButjustbeforeMollywasleavingtheroomtotakeupherwatchoutsidethedoor,shefeltratherthanheardthatAimé;espoketoher。’Food—breadandmilkforbaby。’Butwhentheybroughtherfoodherself,sheonlyshrankawayandturnedherfacetothewallwithoutaword。InthehurrythechildhadbeenleftwithRobinsonandthesquire。Forsomeunknown,butmostfortunatereason,hetookadisliketoRobinson’sredfaceandhoarsevoice,andshowedamostdecidedpreferenceforhisgrandfather。
WhenMollycamedownshefoundthesquirefeedingthechild,withmoreofpeaceuponhisfacethantherehadbeenforallthesedays。TheboywaseverynowandthenleavingofftakinghisbreadandmilktoshowhisdisliketoRobinsonbywordandgesture:aproceedingwhichonlyamusedtheoldservant,whileithighlydelightedthemorefavouredsquire。’Sheislyingverystill,butshewillneitherspeaknoreat。Idon’teventhinksheiscrying,’saidMolly,volunteeringthisaccount,forthesquirewasforthemomenttoomuchabsorbedinhisgrandsontoaskmanyquestions。Robinsonputinhisword,—’DickHayward,he’sBootsattheHamleyArms,saysthecoachshecomebystartedatfivethismorningfromLondon,andthepassengerssaidshe’dbeencryingadealontheroad,whenshethoughtfolkswerenotnoticing;andshenevercameintomealswiththerest,butstoppedfeedingherchild。’’She’llbetiredout;wemustletherrest,’saidthesquire。’AndIdobelievethislittlechapisgoingtosleepinmyarms。Godblesshim。’ButMollystoleout,andsentoffaladtoHollingfordwithanotetoherfather。Herhearthadwarmedtowardsthepoorstranger,andshefeltuncertainastowhatoughttobethecoursepursuedinhercase。Shewentupfromtimetotimetolookatthegirl,scarceolderthanherself,wholaytherewithhereyesopen,butasmotionlessasdeath。Shesoftlycoveredherover,andletherfeelthesympatheticpresencefromtimetotime;andthatwasallshewasallowedtodo。Thesquirewascuriouslyabsorbedinthechild;butMolly’ssupremetendernesswasforthemother。
Notbutwhatsheadmiredthesturdy,gallant,healthylittlefellow,whoseeverylimb,andsquareinchofclothing,showedthetenderandthriftycarethathadbeentakenofhim。By—and—bythesquiresaidinawhisper,—’SheisnotlikeaFrenchwoman,isshe,Molly?’’Idon’tknow。Idon’tknowwhatFrenchwomenarelike。PeoplesayCynthiaisFrench。’’Andshedidnotlooklikeaservant?Wewon’tspeakofCynthiasinceshe’sservedmyRogerso。Why,Ibegantothink,assoonasIcouldthinkafterthat,howIwouldmakeRogerandherhappy,andhavethemmarriedatonce;andthencamethatletter!Ineverwantedherforadaughter—in—law,notI。Buthedid,itseems;andhewasnotoneforwantingmanythingsforhimself。Butit’sallovernow;onlywewon’ttalkofher;andmaybe,asyousay,shewasmoreFrenchthanEnglish。Thepoorthinglookslikeagentlewoman,Ithink。Ihopeshe’sgotfriendswho’lltakecareofher,—shecan’tbeabovetwenty。Ithoughtshemustbeolderthanmypoorlad!’’She’sagentle,prettycreature,’saidMolly。’But—butIsometimesthinkithaskilledher;shelieslikeonedead。’AndMollycouldnotkeepfromcryingsoftlyatthethought。’Nay,nay!’saidthesquire。’It’snotsoeasytobreakone’sheart。SometimesI’vewisheditwere。Butonehastogoonliving—alltheappointeddays,asitsaysintheBible。’Butwe’lldoourbestforher。We’llnotthinkoflettinghergoawaytillshe’sfittotravel。’Mollywonderedinherheartaboutthisgoingaway,onwhichthesquireseemedfullyresolved。Shewassurethatheintendedtokeepthechild;
perhapshehadalegalrighttodoso;—butwouldthemothereverpartfromit?Herfather,however,wouldsolvethedifficulty,—herfather,whomshealwayslookedtoassoclear—seeingandexperienced。Shewatchedandwaitedforhiscoming。TheFebruaryeveningdrewon;thechildlayasleepinthesquire’sarmstillhisgrandfathergrewtired,andlaidhimdownonthesofa:thelargesquare—corneredyellowsofauponwhichMrsHamleyusedtosit,supportedbypillowsinahalf—recliningposition。
Sincehertimeithadbeenplacedagainstthewall,andhadservedmerelyasapieceoffurnituretofilluptheroom。Butonceagainahumanfigurewaslyinguponit;alittlehumancreature,likeacherubinsomeoldItalianpicture。Thesquire,rememberedhiswifeasheputthechilddown。HethoughtofherashesaidtoMolly,—’Howpleasedshewouldhavebeen!’ButMollythoughtoftheyoungwidowupstairs。Aimé;ewasher’she’atthefirstmoment。Presently,—
butitseemedalonglongtimefirst,—sheheardthequickpromptsounds,whichtoldofherfather’sarrival。Inhecame—totheroomasyetonlylightedbythefitfulblazeofthefire。
chapter54CHAPTERLIVMOLLYGIBSON’SWORTHISDISCOVEREDMrGibsoncameinrubbinghishandsafterhisfrostyride。MollyjudgedfromthelookinhiseyethathehadbeenfullyinformedofthepresentstateofthingsattheHallbysomeone。Buthesimplywentuptoandgreetedthesquire,andwaitedtohearwhatwassaidtohim。Thesquirewasfumblingatthetaperonthewriting—table,andbeforeheansweredmuchhelightedit,andsigningtohisfriendtofollowhim,hewentsoftlytothesofaandshowedhimthesleepingchild,takingtheutmostcarenottoarouseitbyflareorsound。’Well!thisisafineyounggentleman,’saidMrGibson,returningtothefirerathersoonerthanthesquireexpected。’Andyou’vegotthemotherhere,Iunderstand。MrsOsborneHamley,aswemustcallher,poorthing!
It’sasadcominghometoher。forIhearsheknewnothingofhisdeath。’
Hespokewithoutexactlyaddressinganyone,sothateitherMollyorthesquiremightanswerastheyliked。Thesquiresaid,—’Yes!Shehasfeltitaterribleshock。She’supstairsinthebestbedroom。
Ishouldlikeyoutoseeher,Gibson,ifshe’llletyou。Wemustdoourdutybyher,formypoorlad’ssake。Iwishhecouldhaveseenhisboylyingthere;Ido。Idaresayitpreyedonhimtohavetokeepitalltohimself。Hemightha’knownme,though。Hemightha’knownmybarkwaswaurthanmybite。It’sallovernow,though;andGodforgivemeifIwastoosharp。I’mpunishednow。’Mollygrewimpatientonthemother’sbehalf。’Papa,Ifeelasifshewasveryill;perhapsworsethanwethink。Willyougoandseeheratonce?’MrGibsonfollowedherupstairs,andthesquirecametoo,thinkingthathewoulddohisdutynow,andevenfeelingsomeself—satisfactionatconqueringhisdesiretostaywiththechild。Theywentintotheroomwhereshehadbeentaken。Shelayquitestillinthesamepositionasatfirst。Hereyeswereopenandtearless,fixedonthewall。MrGibsonspoketoher,butshedidnotanswer;heliftedherhandtofeelherpulse;shenevernoticed。’Bringmesomewineatonce,andordersomebeef—tea,’hesaidtoMolly。Butwhenhetriedtoputthewineintohermouthasshelaythereonherside,shemadenoefforttoreceiveorswallowit,anditranoutuponthepillow。MrGibsonlefttheroomabruptly;Mollychafedthelittleinanimatehand;thesquirestoodbyindumbdismay,touchedinspiteofhimselfbythedeath—in—lifeofonesoyoung,andwhomusthavebeensomuchbeloved。MrGibsoncamebacktwostepsatatime;hewascarryingthehalf—awakenedchildinhisarms。Hedidnotscrupletorousehimintoyetfurtherwakefulness—didnotgrievetohearhimbegintowailandcry。Hiseyeswereonthefigureuponthebed,whichatthatsoundquiveredallthrough;andwhenherchildwaslaidatherback,andbegancaressinglytoscrambleyetcloser,Aimé;eturnedround,andtookhimtoherarms,andlulledhimandsoothedhimwiththesoftwontofmother’slove。Beforeshelostthisfaintconsciousness,whichwashabitorinstinctratherthanthought,MrGibsonspoketoherinFrench。Thechild’sonewordof’maman’hadgivenhimthisclue。Itwasthelanguagesuretobemostintelligibletoherdulledbrain;andasithappened,—onlyMrGibsondidnotthinkofthat—itwasthelanguageinwhichshehadbeencommanded,andhadlearnttoobey。MrGibson’stonguewasalittlestiffatfirst,butby—and—byhespokeitwithallhisoldreadiness。Heextortedfromhershortanswersatfirst,thenlongerones,andfromtimetotimehepliedherwithlittledropsofwine,untilsomefurthernourishmentshouldbeathand。Mollywasstruckbyherfather’slowtonesofcomfortandsympathy,althoughshecouldnotfollowwhatwassaidquicklyenoughtocatchthemeaningofwhatpassed。By—and—by,however,whenherfatherhaddoneallthathecould,andtheywereoncemoredownstairs,hetoldthemmoreaboutherjourneythantheyyetknew。Thehurry,thesenseofactingindefianceofaprohibition,theover—masteringanxiety,thebrokennight,andfatigueofthejourney,hadillpreparedherfortheshockatlast,andMrGibsonwasseriouslyalarmedfortheconsequences。Shehadwanderedstrangelyinherrepliestohim;hadperceivedthatshewaswandering,andhadmadegreateffortstorecallhersenses;butMrGibsonforesawthatsomebodilyillnesswascomingon,andstoppedlatethatnight,arrangingmanythingswithMollyandthesquire。One—theonly—comfortarisingfromherstatewas,theprobabilitythatshewouldbeentirelyunconsciousbythemorrow—thedayofthefuneral。Wornoutbythecontendingemotionsoftheday,thesquireseemednowunabletolookbeyondthewrenchandtrialofthenexttwelvehours。Hesatewithhisheadinhishands,decliningtogotobed,refusingtodwellonthethoughtofhisgrandchild—notthreehoursagosuchadarlinginhiseyes。MrGibsongavesomeinstructionstooneofthemaid—servantsastothewatchshewastokeepbyMrsOsborneHamley,andinsistedonMolly’sgoingtobed。Whenshepleadedtheapparentnecessityofherstayingup,hesaid,—’Now,Molly,lookhowmuchlesstroublethedearoldsquirewouldgiveifhewouldobeyorders。Heisonlyaddingtoanxietybyindulginghimself。
Onepardonseverythingtoextremegrief,however。Butyouwillhaveenoughtodotooccupyallyourstrengthfordaystocome;andgotobedyoumustnow。IonlywishIsawmywayasclearlythroughotherthingsasIdotoyournearestduty。IwishI’dneverletRogergowanderingoff;he’llwishittoo,poorfellow!DidItellyouCynthiaisgoingoffinhothastetoheruncleKirkpatrick’s?IsuspectavisittohimwillstandinlieuofgoingouttoRussiaasagoverness。’’Iamsureshewasquiteseriousinwishingforthat。’’Yes,yes!atthetime。I’venodoubtshethoughtshewassincereinintendingtogo。Butthegreatthingwastogetoutoftheunpleasantnessofthepresenttimeandplace;anduncleKirkpatrick’swilldothisaseffectually,andmorepleasantly,thanasituationatNishni—Novgorodinanice—palace。’HehadgivenMolly’sthoughtsaturn,whichwaswhathewantedtodo。MollycouldnothelprememberingMrHenderson;andhisoffer,andalltheconsequenthints;andwondering,andwishing—whatdidshewish?orhadshebeenfallingasleep?Beforeshehadquiteascertainedthispointshewasasleepinreality。Afterthis,longdayspassedoverinamonotonousroundofcare;fornooneseemedtothinkofMolly’sleavingtheHallduringthewoefulillnessthatbefellMrsOsborneHamley。Itwasnotthatherfatherallowedhertotakemuchactivepartinthenursing;thesquiregavehimcarte—blanche,andheengagedtwoefficienthospitalnursestowatchovertheunconsciousAimé;e;butMollywasneededtoreceivethefinerdirectionsastohertreatmentanddiet。Itwasnotthatshewaswantedforthecareofthelittleboy;thesquirewastoojealousofthechild’sexclusiveloveforthat,andoneofthehousemaidswasemployedintheactualphysicalchargeofhim;butheneededsomeonetolistentohisincontinenceoflanguage,bothwhenhispassionateregretforhisdeadsoncameuppermost,andalsowhenhehaddiscoveredsomeextraordinarycharminthatson’schild;andagainwhenhewasoppressedwiththeuncertaintyofAimé;e’slong—continuedillness。MollywasnotsogoodorsobewitchingalistenertoordinaryconversationasCynthia;butwhereherheartwasinterestedhersympathywasdeepandunfailing。InthiscasesheonlywishedthatthesquirecouldreallyfeelthatAimé;ewasnottheencumbrancewhichheevidentlyconsideredhertobe。Notthathewouldhaveacknowledgedthefact,ifithadbeenputbeforehiminplainwords。Hefoughtagainstthedimconsciousnessofwhatwasinhismind;hespokerepeatedlyofpatiencewhennoonebuthimselfwasimpatient;hewouldoftensaythatwhenshegrewbettershemustnotbeallowedtoleavetheHalluntilshewasperfectlystrong,whennoonewasevencontemplatingtheremotestchanceofherleavingherchild,exceptingonlyhimself。Mollyonceortwiceaskedherfatherifshemightnotspeaktothesquire,andrepresentthehardshipofsendingheraway—theimprobabilitythatshewouldconsenttoquitherboy,andsoon;butMrGibsononlyreplied,—’Waitquietly。Timeenoughwhennatureandcircumstancehavehadtheirchance,andhavefailed。’ItwaswellthatMollywassuchafavouritewiththeoldservants;forshehadfrequentlytorestrainandtocontrol。Tobesure,shehadherfather’sauthoritytobackher。andtheywereawarethatwhereherowncomfort,case,orpleasurewasconcernedsheneverinterfered,butsubmittedtotheirwill。Ifthesquirehadknownofthewantofattendancetowhichshesubmittedwiththemostperfectmeekness,asfarassheherselfwastheonlysufferer,hewouldhavegoneintoatoweringrage。ButMollyhardlythoughtofit,soanxiouswasshetodoallshecouldforothersandtorememberthevariouschargeswhichherfathergaveherinhisdailyvisits。
Perhapshedidnotspareherenough。shewaswillinganduncomplaining;
butonedayafterMrsOsborneHamleyhad’takentheturn,’asthenursescalledit,whenshewaslyingweakasanew—bornbaby,butwithherfacultiesallrestored,andherfevergone,whenspringbudswerebloomingout,andspringbirdssangmerrily,Mollyansweredtoherfather’ssuddenquestioningthatshefeltunaccountablyweary;thatherheadachedheavily,andthatshewasawareofasluggishnessofthoughtwhichitrequiredapainfulefforttoovercome。’Don’tgoon,’saidMrGibson,withaquickpangofanxiety,almostofremorse。’Liedownhere—withyourbacktothelight。I’llcomebackandseeyoubeforeIgo。’Andoffhewentinsearchofthesquire。HehadagoodlongwalkbeforehecameuponMrHamleyinafieldofspringwheat,wherethewomenwereweeding,hislittlegrandsonholdingtohisfingerintheintervalsofshortwalksofinquiryintothedirtiestplaces,whichwasallhissturdylittlelimbscouldmanage。’Well,Gibson,andhowgoesthepatient?Better!Iwishwecouldgetheroutofdoors,suchafinedayasitis。Itwouldmakeherstrongassoonasanything。Iusedtobegmypoorladtocomeoutmore。Maybe,Iworriedhim;buttheairisthefinestthingforstrengtheningthatIknowof,Though,perhaps,she’llnotthriveinEnglishairasifshe’dbeenbornhere;andshe’llnotbequiterighttillshegetsbacktohernativeplace,whereverthatis。’’Idon’tknow。Ibegintothinkweshallgetherquiteroundhere;andIdon’tknowthatshecouldbeinabetterplace。Butitisnotabouther。
MayIorderthecarriageformyMolly?’MrGibson’svoicesoundedasifhewaschokingalittleashesaidtheselastwords。’Tobesure,’saidthesquire,settingthechilddown。Hehadbeenholdinghiminhisarmsthelastfewminutes;butnowhewantedallhiseyestolookintoMrGibson’sface。’Isay,’saidhe,catchingholdofMrGibson’sarm,’what’sthematter,man?Don’ttwitchupyourfacelikethat,butspeak!’’Nothing’sthematter,’saidMrGibson,hastily。’OnlyIwantherathome,undermyowneye;’andheturnedawaytogotothehouse,Butthesquirelefthisfieldandhisweeders,andkeptatMrGibson’sside。Hewantedtospeak,buthisheartwassofullhedidnotknowwhattosay。’Isay,Gibson,’hegotoutatlast,’yourMollyislikerachildofminethanastranger;andIreckonwe’veallonusbeencomingtooharduponher。
Youdon’tthinkthere’smuchamiss,doyou?’’HowcanItell?’saidMrGibson,almostsavagely。Butanyhastinessoftemperwasinstinctivelyunderstoodbythesquire;andhewasnotoffended,thoughhedidnotspeakagaintilltheyreachedthehouse。Thenhewenttoorderthecarriage,andstoodbysorrowfulenoughwhilethehorseswerebeingputin。HefeltasifheshouldnotknowwhattodowithoutMolly;
hehadneverknownhervalue,hethought,tillnow。Buthekeptsilenceonthisviewofthecase;whichwasapraiseworthyeffortonthepartofonewhousuallyletby—standersseeandhearasmuchofhispassingfeelingsasifhehadhadawindowinhisbreast。HestoodbywhileMrGibsonhelpedthefaintly—smiling,tearfulMollyintothecarriage。Thenthesquiremountedonthestepandkissedherhand;butwhenhetriedtothankherandblessher,hebrokedown;andassoonashewasoncemoresafelyonthegroundMrGibsoncriedouttothecoachmantodriveon。AndsoMollyleftHamleyHall。Fromtimetotimeherfatherrodeuptothewindow,andmadesomelittlecheerfulandapparentlycarelessremark。WhentheycamewithintwomilesofHollingfordheputspurstohishorse,androdebrisklypastthecarriagewindows,kissinghishandtotheoccupantashedidso。HewentontoprepareherhomeforMolly:whenshearrivedMrsGibsonwasreadytogreether。MrGibsonhadgivenoneortwoofhisbright,imperativeorders,andMrsGibsonwasfeelingratherlonelywithouteitherofhertwodeargirlsathome,asshephrasedit,toherselfaswellastoothers。’Why,mysweetMolly,thisisanunexpectedpleasure。OnlythismorningIsaidtopapa,"WhendoyouthinkweshallseeourMollyback?"Hedidnotsaymuch—heneverdoes,youknow;butIamsurehethoughtdirectlyofgivingmethissurprise,thispleasure。You’relookingalittle—whatshallIcallit?Iremembersuchaprettylineofpoetry,"Oh,callherfair,notpale!"—sowe’llcallyoufair。’’You’dbetternotcallheranything,butlethergettoherownroomandhaveagoodrestassoonaspossible。Haven’tyougotatrashynovelortwointhehouse?That’stheliteraturetosendhertosleep。’Hedidnotleavehertillhehadseenherlaidonasofainadarkenedroom,withsomeslightpretenceofreadinginherhand。Thenhecameaway,leadinghiswife,whoturnedroundatthedoortokissherhandtoMolly,andmakealittlefaceofunwillingnesstobedraggedaway。’Now,Hyacinth,’saidhe,ashetookhiswifeintothedrawing—room,’shewillneedmuchcare。Shehasbeenoverworked,andI’vebeenafool。That’sall。Wemustkeepherfromallworryandcare,—butIwon’tanswerforitthatshe’llnothaveanillness,forallthat!’’Poorthing!shedoeslookwornout。Sheissomethinglikeme,herfeelingsaretoomuchforher。Butnowsheiscomehomesheshallfindusascheerfulaspossible。Icananswerformyself;andyoureallymustbrightenupyourdolefulface,mydear—nothingsobadforinvalidsastheappearanceofdepressioninthosearoundthem。IhavehadsuchapleasantletterfromCynthiato—day。UncleKirkpatrickreallyseemstomakesomuchofher,hetreatsherjustlikeadaughter;hehasgivenheratickettotheConcertsofAncientMusic;andMrHendersonhasbeentocallonher,inspiteofallthathasgonebefore。’Foraninstant,MrGibsonthoughtthatitwaseasyenoughforhiswifetobecheerful,withthepleasantthoughtsandevidentanticipationsshehadinhermind,butalittlemoredifficultforhimtoputoffhisdolefullookswhilehisownchildlayinastateofsufferingandillnesswhichmightbetheprecursorofastillworsemalady。Buthewasalwaysamanforimmediateactionassoonashehadresolvedonthecoursetobetaken;
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