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  ’No!’saidCynthia。’Notnow。Iambusy。Leavemealone。Idon’twanttohearwhatyouhavegottosay。Idonotwanttoseeyou。By—and—byweshallmeet,andthen——’Mollystoodquitequietly,wonderingwhatnewwordsofmorepersuasionshecoulduse。InaminuteortwoCynthiacalledout,’Areyoutherestill,Molly?’andwhenMollyanswered’Yes,’andhopedforarelenting,thesamehardmetallicvoice,tellingofresolutionandrepression,spokeout,’Goaway。Icannotbearthefeelingofyourbeingthere—waitingandlistening。Godownstairs—outofthehouse—anywhereaway。Itisthemostyoucandoforme,now。’
  EndofPartFivechapter51ELIZABETHGASKELLWIVESANDDAUGHTERSPARTVI(ChaptersLI—LX)CHAPTERLI’TROUBLESNEVERCOMEALONE’Mollyhadherout—of—doorthingson,andshecreptawayasshewasbidden;
  sheliftedherheavyweightofheartandbodyalongtillshecametoafield,notsoveryfaroff,—whereshehadsoughtthecomfortoflonelinesseversinceshewasachild;andthere,underthehedge—bank,shesatedown,buryingherfaceinherhands,andquiveringalloverasshethoughtofCynthia’smisery,thatshemightnottrytotouchorassuage。Sheneverknewhowlongshesatethere,butitwaslongpastlunch—timewhenonceagainshestoleuptoherroom。Thedooroppositewasopenwide,—Cynthiahadquittedthechamber。Mollyarrangedherdressandwentdownintothedrawing—room。Cynthiaandhermothersatethereinthesternreposeofanarmedneutrality。Cynthia’sfacelookedmadeofstone,forcolourandrigidity;butshewasnettingawayasifnothingunusualhadoccurred。
  NotsoMrsGibson:herfaceboreevidentmarksoftears,andshelookedupandgreetedMolly’sentrancewithafaintsmilingnotice。Cynthiawentonasthoughshehadneverheardtheopeningofthedoor,orfelttheapproachingsweepofMolly’sdress。Mollytookupabook,—nottoread,buttohavethesemblanceofsomeemploymentwhichshouldnotnecessitateconversation。Therewasnomeasuringthedurationofthesilencethatensued。Mollygrewtofancyitwassomeoldenchantmentthatweighedupontheirtonguesandkeptthemstill。AtlengthCynthiaspoke,butshehadtobeginagainbeforeherwordscameclear,—’IwishyoubothtoknowthathenceforwardallisatanendbetweenmeandRogerHamley。’Molly’sbookwentdownuponherknees;withopeneyesandlipsshestrovetodrawinCynthia’smeaning。MrsGibsonspokequerulously,asifinjured,—’Icouldhaveunderstoodthisifithadhappenedthreemonthsago,—whenyouwereinLondon;butnowit’sjustnonsense,Cynthia,andyouknowyoudon’tmeanit!’Cynthiadidnotreply;nordidtheresolutelookonherfacechangewhenMollyspokeatlast,—’Cynthia—thinkofhim!Itwillbreakhisheart!’’No!’saidCynthia,’itwillnot。Butevenifitdid,Icannothelpit。’’Allthistalkwillsoonpassaway!’saidMolly;’andwhenheknowsthetruthfromyourownself——’’Frommyownselfheshallneverhearit。Idonotlovehimwellenoughtogothroughtheshameofhavingtoexcusemyself,—topleadthathewillreinstatemeinhisgoodopinion。Confessionmaybe—well!Icanneverbelieveitpleasant—butitmaybeaneaseofmindifonemakesittosomepeople,—tosomeperson,—anditmaynotbeamortificationtosueforforgiveness。Icannottell。AllIknowis,—andIknowitclearly,andwillactuponitinflexibly—that——’Andthereshestoppedshort。’Ithinkyoumightfinishyoursentence,’saidhermother,afterasilenceoffiveseconds。’IcannotbeartoexculpatemyselftoRogerHamley。Iwillnotsubmittohisthinkinglesswellofmethanhehasdone,—howeverfoolishhisjudgmentmayhavebeen。Iwouldratherneverseehimagain,forthesetworeasons。
  Andthetruthis,Idonotlovehim。Ilikehim,Irespecthim;butIwillnotmarryhim。Ihavewrittentotellhimso。Thatwasmerelyasarelieftomyself,forwhenorwheretheletterwillreachhim——AndIhavewrittentooldMrHamley。Thereliefistheonegoodthingcomeoutofitall。
  Itissuchacomforttofeelfreeagain。Itweariedmesotothinkofstraininguptohisgoodness。"Extenuatemyconduct!"’sheconcluded,quotingMrGibson’swords。YetwhenMrGibsoncamehome,afterasilentdinner,sheaskedtospeakwithhim,alone,inhisconsulting—room;andtherelaidbaretheexculpationofherselfwhichshehadgiventoMollymanyweeksbefore。Whenshehadended,shesaid,—’Andnow,MrGibson,—Istilltreatyoulikeafriend,—helpmetofindsomehomefaraway,wherealltheeviltalkingandgossipmammatellsmeofcannotfindmeandfollowme。Itmaybewrongtocareforpeople’sgoodopinion,—butitisme,andIcannotaltermyself。You,Molly,—allthepeopleinthetown,—Ihavenotthepatiencetolivethroughtheninedays’wonder。Iwanttogoawayandbeagoverness。’’But,mydearCynthia,—howsoonRogerwillbeback,—atowerofstrength。’’HasnotmammatoldyouIhavebrokenitalloffwithRoger?Iwrotethismorning。Iwrotetohisfather。Thatletterwillreachto—morrow。IwrotetoRoger。IfheeverreceivesthatletterIhopetobefarawaybythattime;inRussiamaybe。’’Nonsense。Anengagementlikeyourscannotbebrokenoff,exceptbymutualconsent。Youhaveonlygivenothersagreatdealofpain,withoutfreeingyourself。Norwillyouwishitinamonth’stime。WhenyoucometothinkcalmlyyouwillbegladtothinkofthestayandsupportofsuchahusbandasRoger。Youhavebeeninfault,andhaveactedfoolishlyatfirst,—
  perhapswronglyafterwards;butyoudon’twantyourhusbandtothinkyoufaultless?’’Yes,Ido,’saidCynthia。’Atanyrate,mylovermustthinkmeso。AnditisjustbecauseIdonotlovehimevenassolightathingasIcouldlove,thatIfeelthatIcouldnotbeartohavetotellhimI’msorry,andstandbeforehimlikeachiddenchildtobeadmonishedandforgiven。’’Buthereyouare,justinsuchapositionbeforeme,Cynthia!’’Yes!butIloveyoubetterthanRoger;IhaveoftentoldMollyso。AndIwouldhavetoldyou,ifIhadnotexpectedandhopedtoleaveyouallbeforelong。Icouldseeiftherecollectionofitallcameupbeforeyourmind;Icouldseeitinyoureyes;Ishouldknowitbyinstinct。Ihaveafineinstinctforreadingthethoughtsofotherswhentheyrefertome。
  IalmosthatetheideaofRogerjudgingmebyhisownstandard,whichwasnotmadeforme,andgraciouslyforgivingmeatlast。’’ThenIdobelieveitisrightforyoutobreakitoff,’saidMrGibson,almostasifhewasthinkingtohimself。’Thatpoorlad!Butitwillbebestforhimtoo。Andhe’llgetoverit。Hehasagoodstrongheart。PooroldRoger!’ForamomentCynthia’swilfulfancystretchedaftertheobjectpassingoutofhergrasp,—Roger’slovebecamefortheinstantatreasure;but,again,sheknewthatinitsentiretyofhighundoubtingesteem,aswellasofpassionateregard,itwouldnolongerbehers;andfortheflawwhichsheherselfhadmade,shecastitaway,andwouldnoneofit。Yetofteninafteryears,whenitwastoolate,shewondered,andstrovetopenetratetheinscrutablemysteryof’whatwouldhavebeen。’’Stilltaketillto—morrowbeforeyouactuponyourdecision,’saidMrGibson,slowly。’Whatfaultsyouhavefallenintohavebeenmeregirlishfaultsatfirst,—leadingyouintomuchdeceit,Igrant。’’Don’tgiveyourselfthetroubletodefinetheshadesofblackness,’saidCynthia,bitterly。’IamnotsoobtusebutwhatIknowthemallbetterthananyonecantellme。AndasformydecisionIacteduponitatonce。
  ItmaybelongbeforeRogergetsmyletter,—butIhopeheissuretogetitatlast,—and,asIsaid,Ihavelethisfatherknow;itwon’thurthim!Oh,sir,IthinkifIhadbeendifferentlybroughtupIshouldnothavehadthesoreangryheartIhave。Now!No,don’t!Idon’twantreasoningcomfort。Ican’tstandit。Ishouldalwayshavewantedadmirationandworship,andmen’sgoodopinion。Thoseunkindgossips!TovisitMollywiththeirhardwords!Oh,dear!Ithinklifeisverydreary。’Sheputherheaddownonherhands;tiredoutmentallyaswellasbodily。
  SoMrGibsonthought。Hefeltasifmuchspeechfromhimwouldonlyaddtoherexcitement,andmakeherworse。Helefttheroom,andcalledMolly,fromwhereshewassitting,dolefully。’GotoCynthia!’hewhispered,andMollywent。ShetookCynthiaintoherarmswithgentlepower,andlaidherheadagainstherownbreast,asiftheonehadbeenamother,andtheotherachild。’Oh,mydarling!’shemurmured。’Idosoloveyou,dear,dearCynthia!’
  andshestrokedherhair,andkissedhereyelids;Cynthiapassiveallthewhile,tillsuddenlyshestartedupstungwithanewidea,andlookingMollystraightintheface,shesaid,—’Molly,Rogerwillmarryyou!Seeifitisnotso!Youtwogood——’ButMollypushedherawaywithasuddenviolenceofrepulsion。’Don’t!’
  shesaid。Shewascrimsonwithshameandindignation。’Yourhusbandthismorning!Mineto—night!Whatdoyoutakehimfor?’’Aman!’smiledCynthia。’Andtherefore,ifyouwon’tletmecallhimchangeable,I’llcoinawordandcallhimconsolable!’ButMollygaveherbacknoansweringsmile。Atthismoment,theservantMariaenteredtheconsulting—room,wherethetwogirlswere。Shehadascaredlook。’Isnotmasterhere?’askedshe,asifshedistrustedhereyes。’No!’saidCynthia。’Iheardhimgoout。Iheardhimshutthefrontdoornotfiveminutesago。’’Oh,dear!’saidMaria。’Andthere’samancomeonhorsebackfromHamleyHall,andhesaysMrOsborneisdead,andthatmastermustgoofftothesquirestraightaway!’’OsborneHamleydead?’saidCynthia,inawedsurprise。Mollywasoutatthefrontdoor,seekingthemessengerthroughthedusk,roundintothestable—yard,wherethegroomsatemotionlessonhisdarkhorse,fleckedwithfoam,madevisiblebythelanternplacedonthestepsnear,whereithadbeenleftbytheservants,whoweredismayedatthisnewsofthehandsomeyoungmanwhohadfrequentedtheirmaster’shouse,sofullofsportiveeleganceandwinsomeness。Mollywentuptotheman,whosethoughtswerelostinrecollectionofthescenehehadleftattheplacehehadcomefrom。Shelaidherhandonthehotdampskinofthehorse’sshoulder;themanstarted。’Isthedoctorcoming,Miss?’Forhesawwhoitwasbythedimlight。’Heisdead,ishenot?’askedMolly,inalowvoice。’I’mafeardheis,—leastwaysthereisnodoubtaccordingtowhattheysaid。ButIhaveriddenhard!theremaybeachance。Isthedoctorcoming,Miss?’’Heisgoneout。Theyareseekinghim,Ibelieve。Iwillgomyself。Oh!
  thepooroldsquire。’Shewentintothekitchen—wentoverthehousewithswiftrapiditytogainnewsofherfather’swhereabouts。Theservantsknewnomorethanshedid。NeithershenortheyhadheardwhatCynthia,everquickofperception,haddone。Theshuttingofthefrontdoorhadfallenondeafcars,asfarasotherswereconcerned。UpstairsspedMollytothedrawing—room,whereMrsGibsonstoodatthedoor,listeningtotheunusualstirinthehouse。’Whatisit,Molly?Why,howwhiteyoulook,child!’’Where’spapa?’’Goneout。What’sthematter?’’Where?’’HowshouldIknow?Iwasasleep;Jennycameupstairsonherwaytothebedrooms;she’sagirlwhoneverkeepstoherwork,andMariatakesadvantageofher。’’Jenny,Jenny!’criedMolly,franticatthedelay。’Don’tshout,dear,—ringthebell。Whatcanbethematter?’’Oh,Jenny!’saidMolly,halfwayupthestairstomeether,’whowantedpapa?’Cynthiacametojointhegroup;shetoohadbeenlookingfortracesortidingsofMrGibson。’Whatisthematter?’saidMrsGibson。’Cannobodyspeakandansweraquestion?’’OsborneHamleyisdead!’saidCynthia,gravely。’Dead!Osborne!Poorfellow!Iknewitwouldbeso,though,—Iwassureofit。ButMrGibsoncandonothingifhe’sdead。Pooryoungman!IwonderwhereRogerisnow?Heoughttocomehome。’Jennybadbeenblamedforcomingintothedrawing—roominsteadofMaria,whoseplaceitwas,andsohadlostthefewwitsshehad。ToMolly’shurriedquestionsherreplieshadbeenentirelyunsatisfactory。Amanhadcometothebackdoor—shecouldnotseewhoitwas—shehadnotaskedhisname:hewantedtospeaktomaster,—masterhadseemedinahurry,andonlystoppedtogethishat。’Hewillnotbelongaway,’thoughtMolly,’orhewouldhaveleftwordwherehewasgoing。Butoh!thepoorfatherallalone。’Andthenathoughtcameintoherhead,whichsheacteduponstraight。’GotoJames,tellhimtoputtheside—saddleIhadinNovemberonNoraCreina。Don’tcry,Jenny。
  There’snotimeforthat。Nooneisangrywithyou。Run!’SodownintotheclusterofcollectedwomenMollycame,equippedinherjacketandskirt;quickdeterminationinhereyes;controlledquiveringaboutthecornersofhermouth。’Why,whatintheworld,’saidMrsGibson,—’Molly,whatareyouthinkingabout?’ButCynthiahadunderstooditataglance,andwasarrangingMolly’shastilyassumeddress,asshepassedalong。’Iamgoing。Imustgo。Icannotbeartothinkofhimalone。WhenpapacomesbackheissuretogotoHamley,andifIamnotwanted,Icancomebackwithhim。’SheheardMrsGibson’svoicefollowingherinremonstrance,butshedidnotstayforwords。Shehadtowaitinthestable—yard,andshewonderedhowthemessengercouldbeartoeatanddrinkthefoodandbeerbroughtouttohimbytheservants。Hercomingouthadevidentlyinterruptedtheeagertalk,—thequestionsandanswerspassingsharptoandfro;butshecaughtthewords,’allamongstthetangledgrass,’and’thesquirewouldletnoneonustouchhim:hetookhimupasifhewasababy;hehadtorestmanyatime,andoncehesatehimdownontheground;butstillhekepthiminhisarms;butwethoughtweshouldne’erhavegottenhimupagain—himandthebody。’’Thebody!’MollyhadneverfeltthatOsbornewasreallydeadtillsheheardthosewords。Theyrodequickundertheshadowsofthebuddinghedgerowtrees,butwhentheyslackenedspeed,togoupabrow,ortogivetheirhorsesbreath,Mollyheardthosetwolittlewordsagaininhercars;andsaidthemoveragaintoherself,inhopesofforcingthesharptruthintoherunwillingsense。Butwhentheycameinsightofthesquarestillnessofthehouse,shininginthemoonlight—themoonhadrisenbythistime—
  Mollycaughtatherbreath,andforaninstantshethoughtshenevercouldgoin,andfacethepresenceinthatdwelling。Oneyellowlightburntsteadily,spottingthesilvershiningwithitsearthlycoarseness。Themanpointeditout:itwasalmostthefirstwordhehadspokensincetheyhadleftHollingford。’It’stheoldnursery。Theycarriedhimthere。Thesquirebrokedownatthestair—foot,andtheytookhimtothereadiestplace。I’llbeboundforitthesquireistherehisself,andoldRobintoo。Theyfetchedhim,asaknowledgablemanamongdumbbeasts,tillth’regulardoctorcame。’Mollydroppeddownfromherseatbeforethemancoulddismounttohelpher。Shegatheredupherskirtsanddidnotstayagaintothinkofwhatwasbeforeher。Sheranalongtheoncefamiliarturns,andswiftlyupthestairs,andthroughthedoors,tillshecametothelast;thenshestoppedandlistened。Itwasadeathlysilence。Sheopenedthedoor:thesquirewassittingaloneatthesideofthebed,holdingthedeadman’shand,andlookingstraightbeforehimatvacancy。Hedidnotstirormove,evensomuchasaneyelid,atMolly’sentrance。Thetruthhadenteredhissoulbeforethis,andheknewthatnodoctor,beheeversocunning,could,withallhisstriving,putthebreathintothatbodyagain。Mollycameuptohimwiththesofteststeps,themosthushedbreaththatevershecould。Shedidnotspeak,forshedidnotknowwhattosay。Shefeltthathehadnomorehopefromearthlyskill,sowhatwastheuseofspeakingofherfatherandthedelayinhiscoming?Afteramoment’spause,standingbytheoldman’sside,sheslippeddowntothefloor,andsateathisfeet。
  Possiblyherpresencemighthavesomebalminit;bututteringofwordswasasavainthing。Hemusthavebeenawareofherbeingthere,buthetooknoapparentnotice。Theretheysate,silentandstill,heinhischair,sheonthefloor;thedeadman,beneaththesheet,forathird。Shefanciedthatshemusthavedisturbedthefatherinhiscontemplationofthequietface,nowmorethanhalf,butnotfully,coveredupoutofsight。Timehadneverseemedsowithoutmeasure,silencehadneverseemedsonoiselessasitdidtoMolly,sittingthere。Intheacutenessofhersensessheheardastepmountingadistantstaircase,comingslowly,comingnearer。Sheknewitnottobeherfather’s,andthatwasallshecaredabout。Nearerandnearer—closetotheoutsideofthedoor—apause,andasofthesitatingtap。Thegreatgauntfiguresittingbyhersidequiveredatthesound。
  Mollyroseandwenttothedoor:itwasRobinson,theoldbutler,holdinginhishandacoveredbasinofsoup。’Godblessyou,Miss,’saidhe;’makehimtouchadropo’this:he’sgonesincebreakfastwithoutfood,andit’spastoneinthemorningnow。’Hesoftlyremovedthecover,andMollytookthebasinbackwithhertoherplaceatthesquire’sside。Shedidnotspeak,forshedidnotwellknowwhattosay,orhowtopresentthishomelywantofnaturebeforeonesoraptingrief。Butsheputaspoonfultohislips,andtouchedthemwiththesavouryfood,asifhehadbeenasickchild,andshethenurse;
  andinstinctivelyhetookdownthefirstspoonfulofthesoup。Butinaminutehesaid,withasortofcry,andalmostoverturningthebasinMollyheld,byhispassionategestureashepointedtothebed,—’Hewillnevereatagain—never。’Thenhethrewhimselfacrossthecorpse,andweptinsuchaterriblemannerthatMollytrembledlesthealsoshoulddie—shouldbreakhisheartthereandthen。Hetooknomorenoticeofherwords,ofhertears,ofherpresence,thanhedidofthatofthemoon,lookingthroughtheunclosedwindow,withpassionlessstare,Herfatherstoodbythemboth。beforeeitherofthemwasaware。’Godownstairs,Molly,’saidhegravely;buthestrokedherheadtenderlyassherose。’Gointothedining—room。’Nowshefeltthereactionfromallherself—control。Shetrembledwithfearasshewentalongthemoonlitpassages。ItseemedtoherasifsheshouldmeetOsborne,andhearitallexplained;howhecametodie,—whathenowfeltandthoughtandwishedhertodo。Shedidgetdowntothedining—room,—thelastfewstepswitharushofterror,—senselessterrorofwhatmightbebehindher;andthereshefoundsupperlaidout,andcandleslit,andRobinsonbustlingaboutdecantingsomewine。Shewantedtocry;togetintosomequietplace,andweepawayherover—excitement;butshecouldhardlydosothere。Sheonlyfeltverymuchtired,andtocarefornothinginthisworldanymore。ButvividnessoflifecamebackwhenshefoundRobinsonholdingaglasstoherlipsasshesateinthegreatleathereasy—chair,towhichshehadgoneinstinctivelyastoaplaceofrest。’Drink,Miss。It’sgoodoldMadeira。Yourpapasaidashowyouwastoeatabit。Sayshe,"Mydaughtermayhavetostayhere,MrRobinson,andshe’syoungforthework。Persuadehertoeatsomething,orshe’llbreakdownutterly。"Thosewashisverywords。’Mollydidnotsayanything。Shehadnotenergyenoughforresistance。Shedrankandsheateattheoldservant’sbidding;andthensheaskedhimtoleaveheralone,andwentbacktohereasy—chairandletherselfcry,andsoeaseherheart。
  chapter52CHAPTERLIISQUIREHAMLEY’SSORROWItseemedverylongbeforeMrGibsoncamedown。Hewentandstoodwithhisbacktotheemptyfireplace,anddidnotspeakforaminuteortwo。’He’sgonetobed,’saidheatlength。’RobinsonandIhavegothimthere。
  ButjustasIwasleavinghimhecalledmeback,andaskedmetoletyoustop。I’msureIdon’tknow—butonedoesn’tliketorefuseatsuchatime。’’Iwishtostay,’saidMolly。’Doyou?There’sagoodgirl。Buthowwillyoumanage?’’Oh,nevermindthat。Icanmanage。Papa,’—shepaused—whatdidOsbornedieof?’Sheaskedthequestioninalow,awe—strickenvoice。’Somethingwrongabouttheheart。Youwouldn’tunderstandifItoldyou。
  Iapprehendeditforsometime;butitis,betternottotalkofsuchthingsathome。WhenIsawhimonThursdayweek,heseemedbetterthanIhaveseenhimforalongtime。ItoldDrNichollsso。Butonenevercancalculateinthesecomplaints。’’YousawhimonThursdayweek?Why,younevermentionedit!’saidMolly。’No。Idon’ttalkofmypatientsathome,Besides,Ididn’twanthimtoconsidermeashisdoctor,but。asafriend。Anyalarmabouthisownhealthwouldonlyhavehastenedthecatastrophe。’’Thendidn’theknowthathewasill—illofadangerouscomplaint,I
  mean:onethatmightendasithasdone?’’No;certainlynot。Hewouldonlyhavebeenwatchinghissymptoms—acceleratingmatters,infact。’’Oh,papa!’saidMolly,shocked。’I’venotimetogointothequestion,’MrGibsoncontinued。’Anduntilyouknowwhathastobesaidonbothsides,andineveryinstance,youarenotqualifiedtojudge。Wemustkeepourattentiononthedutiesinhandnow。Yousleepherefortheremainderofthenight,whichismorethanhalf—gonealready?’’Yes。’’Promisemetogotobedjustasusual。Youmaynotthinkit,butmostlikelyyou’llgotosleepatonce。Peopledoatyourage。’’Papa,IthinkIoughttotellyousomething。IknowagreatsecretofOsborne’s,whichIpromisedsolemnlynottotell;butthelasttimeIsawhimIthinkhemusthavebeenafraidofsomethinglikethis。’Afitofsobbingcameuponher,whichherfatherwasafraidwouldendinhysterics。
  Butsuddenlyshemasteredherself,andlookedupintohisanxiousface,andsmiledtoreassurehim。’Icouldnothelpit,papa!’’No。Iknow。Goonwithwhatyouweresaying。Yououghttobeinbed;butifyouhaveasecretonyourmindyouwon’tsleep。’’Osbornewasmarried,’saidshe,fixinghereyesonherfather。’Thatisthesecret。’’Married!Nonsense。Whatmakesyouthinkso?’’Hetoldme。That’stosay,Iwasinthelibrary—wasreadingthere,sometimeago;andRogercameandspoketoOsborneabouthiswife。Rogerdidnotseeme,butOsbornedid。Theymademepromisesecrecy。Idon’tthinkIdidwrong。’’Don’tworryyourselfaboutrightorwrongjustnow;tellmemoreaboutit,atonce。’’Iknewnomoretillsixmonthsago—lastNovember,whenyouwentuptoLadyCumnor。Thenhecalled,andgavemehiswife’saddress,butstillunderpromiseofsecrecy;and,exceptingthosetwotimes,Ihaveneverheardanyonementionthesubject。Ithinkhewouldhavetoldmemorethatlasttime,onlyMissPhoebecamein。’’Whereisthiswifeofhis?’’Downinthesouth;nearWinchester,Ithink。HesaidshewasaFrenchwomanandaRomanCatholic;andIthinkhesaidshewasaservant,’addedMolly。’Phew!’Herfathermadealongwhistleofdismay。’And,’continuedMolly,’hespokeofachild。NowyouknowasmuchasI
  do,papa,excepttheaddress。Ihaveitwrittendownsafeathome。’Forgetting,apparently,whattimeofnightitwas,MrGibsonsatedown,stretchedouthislegsbeforehim,puthishandsinhispockets,andbegantothink。Mollysatestillwithoutspeaking,tootiredtodomorethanwait。’Well!’saidheatlast,jumpingup,’nothingcanbedoneto—night;byto—morrowmorning,perhaps,Imayfindout。Poorlittlepaleface!’—takingitbetweenbothhishandsandkissingit;’poor,sweet,littlepaleface!’
  Thenherangthebell,andtoldRobinsontosendsomemaid—servanttotakeMissGibsontoherroom。’Hewon’tbeupearly,’saidhe,inparting。’Theshockhasloweredhimtoomuchtobeenergetic。Sendbreakfastuptohiminhisownroom。I’llbehereagainbeforeten。’Lateasitwasbeforeheleft,hekepthisword。’Now,Molly,’hesaid,’youandImusttellhimthetruthbetweenus。I
  don’tknowhowhewilltakeit;itmaycomforthim,butIhaveverylittlehope:eitherway,heoughttoknowitatonce。’’Robinsonsayshehasgoneintotheroomagain,andheisafraidhehaslockedthedoorontheinside。’’Nevermind。Ishallringthebell,andsendupRobinsontosaythatI
  amhere,andwishtospeaktohim。’Themessagereturnedwas,’Thesquire’skindlove,andcouldnotseeMrGibsonjustthen。’Robinsonadded,’Itwasalongtimebeforehe’dansweratall,sir。’’Goupagain,andtellhimIcanwaithisconvenience。Nowthat’salie,’
  MrGibsonsaid,turningroundtoMollyassoonasRobinsonhadlefttheroom。’Ioughttobefarenoughawayattwelve;but,ifI’mnotmuchmistaken,theinnatehabitsofagentlemanwillmakehimuneasyattheideaofkeepingmewaitinghispleasure,andwilldomoretobringhimoutofthatroomintothisthananyentreatiesorreasoning。’MrGibsonwasgrowingimpatientthough,beforetheyheardthesquire’sfootsteponthestairs;hewasevidentlycomingslowlyandunwillingly。Hecameinalmostlikeoneblind,gropingalong,andtakingholdofchairortableforsupportorguidancetillhereachedMrGibson。Hedidnotspeakwhenheheldthedoctorbythehand;
  heonlyhungdownhishead,andkeptonafeebleshakingofwelcome。’I’mbroughtverylow,sir。Isupposeit’sGod’sdoing;butitcomesharduponme。Hewasmyfirstbornchild。’Hesaidthisalmostasifspeakingtoastranger,andinforminghimoffactsofwhichhewasignorant。’Here’sMolly,’saidMrGibson,chokingalittlehimself,andpushingherforwards。’Ibegyourpardon;Ididnotseeyouatfirst。Mymindisagooddealoccupiedjustnow。’Hesateheavilydown,andthenseemedalmosttoforgettheywerethere。Mollywonderedwhatwastocomenext。Suddenlyherfatherspoke,—’Where’sRoger?’saidhe。’IshenotlikelytobesoonattheCape?’Hegotupandlookedatthedirectionsofoneortwounopenedlettersbroughtbythatmorning’spost;amongthemwasoneinCynthia’shandwriting。BothMollyandhesawitatthesametime。Howlongitwassinceyesterday!
  Butthesquiretooknonoticeoftheirproceedingsortheirlooks。’YouwillbegladtohaveRogerathomeassoonasmaybe,Ithink,sir。
  Somemonthsmustelapsefirst;butI’msurehewillreturnasspeedilyaspossible。’Thesquiresaidsomethinginaverylowvoice。Bothfatheranddaughterstrainedtheirearstohearwhatitwas。Theybothbelievedittobe,’RogerisnotOsborne!’AndMrGibsonspokeonthatbelief。HespokemorequietlythanMollyhadeverheardhimdobefore。’No!weknowthat。IwishthatanythingthatRogercoulddo,orthatI
  coulddo,orthatanyonecoulddo,wouldcomfortyou;butitispasthumancomfort。’’Idotrytosay,God’swillbedone,sir,’saidthesquire,lookingupatMrGibsonforthefirsttime,andspeakingwithmorelifeinhisvoice;
  ’butitishardertoberesignedthanhappypeoplethink。’Theywereallsilentforawhile。Thesquirehimselfwasthefirsttospeakagain,—
  ’Hewasmyfirstchild,sir;myeldestson。Andoflateyearsweweren’t’
  —hisvoicebrokedown,buthecontrolledhimself—’weweren’tquiteasgoodfriendsascouldbewished;andI’mnotsure—notsurethatheknewhowIlovedhim。’Andnowhecriedaloudwithanexceedingbittercry。’Betterso!’whisperedMrGibsontoMolly。’Whenheisalittlecalmer,don’tbeafraid;tellhimallyouknow,exactlyasithappened。’